#it's like there is relief in knowing there are other ppl who have religious trauma and similar experiences

[mariii1]

What Sex Toy Should You Buy? 🤔🙈 18+

Yes fuck what I was gonna do for New Years im only doing unique shit from now onnn kkkkkkkk 🤭

1.okay i think most things would fit you guys and some of you may get aroused easily. On the other hand of the spectrum some of y'all find it hard to cum soo I would suggest to get something thats stronger than average even if you're a beginner. Across the board I'm thinking of a hitachi or just a hardcore wand even if you're sensitive. But definitely one with multiple settings OR you get something like the hitachi with something else and use them at the same time. This could also be about finding better stimulants like even taking aphrodisiacs if ya want (personally for me 🍃=💦) or just better porn. Aka finding ways to get yourself more aroused even if you're sensitive (maybe be learning how to keep yourself going) just wanna put this out there, don't feel bad if you've had experiences where a partner or someone just couldnt make you orgasm, you dont owe them anything. You don't have to mask your displeasure or claim that nothing is ever enough for you just to make others (or internalize shame) to feel better.

2. Aight maybe your deciding rn and/or your looking for one you use with other people. You might also want something that doesn't make u climax right away. Tbh i might not even be able to tell you cuz i think you'll find the perfect one on your own soon enough. Buttt i can give suggestions which is something flashy like those relief controlled vibrating mount or even a dildo machine if you have the funds. Also having a someone else edge you like fr. Using hands to edge someone that's restrained in some way can really draw things out. Anyways good luck 👍✨️

3. Why the fuck am i dealing with tremendous amounts of religious trauma in this pile specifically like what's going on here y'all 😭😭 Y'all the first where purity culture shame really came thruuuu. Anyways, im literally getting for a few a you to heal your relationship with god whether its viewing it differently or cutting it off completely. Im sorry im nagging I literally hate giving advice, but what would really help is figuring out your sexuality (not necessarily sexual orientation) in more depth. Some of you may be ace and are thinking your in the gray area and want to really see and know what your boundaries, and a few of you could do it with a trusted person (probs a partner). Go ahead and put that idea out there if you want, i think the person in mind would recieve that idea well. Some of you want to practice touching other people and thats fine too.

4.I think you're on the mission to find something to tire yourself out with and I wholeheartedly agree with that. Definitely something you can use laying down, no hands if possible. Maybe one of those self thrusting insertable virbators, or just one that will stay in place. I saw an ad for a brand called lelo and they have a lot of insertable vibrators. Maybe also a self thrusting rabbit dildo. Ofc think beyond what i said here this could also be about learning how to turn yourself on more or even learning how to orgasm without touching yourself at all. Its giving pleasure with the least amount of effort possible 👏

5.like a lot of piles i feel like youll find out about this one on your own its most definitely an impulsive purchase. Y'all want to feel tired after and at the same time you're willing to work with what you can afford/find. Maybe you're someone who can get off humping anything. Anyways whatever is within your tax bracket. To make your life harder, I will challenge you to get a more ✨️experimental✨️ type of sex toy, like a fantasy dildo or sleeve or toys that you physically have to ride/thrust into. Have fun and stay safe👍

6. I'm already getting some boujeee ass ppl in here. You should get a sex toy you know other people should be jealous of. I think yall want something that will make you feel highly desirable and sexy. Not classy but attractive u know? Something expensive. I think choosing a type porn or whatever u to get aroused, that makes you feel like a queen. Watching povs that are catered to people with praise kinks, doing things to make you feel like every part of your body is a blessing and miracle. I'm getting for a lot of it might be wearing very expensive latex and leather items, or just unique fetish wear. This could also literally be about partaking in online domming and if you're cool with it, making videos catered to more submissive ppl iykyk. Idk why but i think you would do well with like a remote controlled vibrator or dildo that you can wear underneath clothes (PLEASE be respectful and mindful of public places plzz😭😭) but yeah y'all are hot girls

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[maximuswolf]

Entity encounter: Satan or Eblis? Was i being lied to or tested for initiation? via /r/satanism

Entity encounter: Satan or Eblis? Was i being lied to or tested for initiation?

I was wondering if spirits lie to test you as an initiation or something. I will try to make this short so i’ll leave out some details even though might be important but I need help and want more people to read. Ik this is long but BEFORE YOU SKIP KNOW THAT I NEED YOU SO JUST SKIM THRU.

One day I was sitting on my laptop without any background in magick other than the youtube channel mind and magick and LoA. At that time i was at my lowest point in life and have released myself from religious beliefs being very disappointed kn how it repressed my emotions about sex etc... suddenly every hair on my body stands up from fear the room turn red (i dont remember if it was my minds eye or actually turned red) and on my left an entity made itself known as the devil. At that time i didnt know that satan, eblis and lucifer are different. So it just telepathically identified itself as the “devil”. Paralyzed from fear I couldn’t face it to see it. I knew back then from what my family told me that we have been cursed with black magick as we found sigils and voodoo bag things stuffed in our couch at home. Arabic djinn magick. But I didnt remember that during this. I was having a belief crisis because of religion and the abusive ways my parents raised me and i fought very heavily with them on the phone with pure rage and anger. The entity spoke telepathically not with words but with just “knowing”, you just know what it says without hearing words. It showed me being surrounded by women and drugs of my choice not sure tho about the next part—> being in a gang or a secret society also being a rapper. Which were things aside from being a gang member were all things i believed would make me really happy and didnt want much from life other than that. I asked...”you want my soul for that?” The entity said “No i want you to abandon your family and never speak to them again because they are Narcisists who just want you dependent/weak/fucked in general.” (Which is untrue but due to long isolation and negative thinking researching psychology: Trauma, personality disorders, repression etc... he framed it in a way which it all seemed true and clicked). I was going to take the offer 99.9% due to the shitty state i was in. I was even ready to sell my soul if it was the case just for some relief. He said “ God has always hated you, he wants you mentally ill, he made you date borderline women to crush your heart, he wrote down your life script from start to finish with nothing more than agony.” I suffered from depression like legit depression since i was a kid for no reason. “This depression god gave you will never go away. I can change all that and if you dont take my offer you will stay fucked for the rest of your life because you cant make it on your own”....Now I am a Leo sun sign, Rising and ascendant so pride and ego are my middle name. With my hands paralyzed with fear i managed to raise my left hand giving him the finger! I said “Can’t do it on my own? Watch me! Fuck you!” He said “you couldve just refused the offer but because you insulted my majesty watch whats going to happen to you.”

My best friend for 9 years who was my girl friend for a while said she went into a weird psychological state and married someone she knows only for 3 months while we were together. She was madly inlove with him then after the ceremony she realized she wasnt and that he doesnt either. I went into psychosis twice hospitalized.

Now the doctors call it psychosis but it was exactly what people called kundalini awakening as it was euphoric and I felt divine and saw that seperation was an illusion and I was getting downloads and when i went to take a walk And looked around and saw ads and technology I was like... this is the devil’s work. We are being hijacked psychologically to be a battery to the system we call society and goverment.... now spirits could talk to me through giving me thoughts but they were in my own voice. I didnt know that this is how it worked so djinn deceived me and fucked the whole experience up getting me arrested and put in the hospital for trespassing into a mall thinking i’ll meet my creator in an elevator like the song lyrics i was listening to said to me taking it as a “sign” to go into the building and that someone was waiting for me there... enlightenment or paychosis there were definitely some delusions. I also believed 100% this is a computer simulation that was created so that god(me) can be channeled through the technology spiritually and experience being a human. Anyways 2 years later i’m deep into magick but not much of practicing until recently because i want to break the curse mostly but i realized from reading that all the information i received in my so called psychosis were all in occult books and things secret societies have kept secret. During my paychosis i was guided by angels and lucifer the whole time. It took me time to trust lucifer because i thought that lucifer is the devil and shouldnt be trusted. He never lies tho. He even felt bad for me because i was in the hospital against my will. So hes like... want some fresh air? Im like please. He said let me possess you. I was like fuck it. And he was just manipulating reality and ppls actions im ways i was able to go through 2 security doors and eacape the hospital at 11:00 pm when all the doors were completely locked! So i believe its not mental illness and it was scary yes. Fucked up my life for years yes. But i feel that shit wasnt punishment... it was the best gift I ever received. Now i enter altered states easily. I read tarot like im the fucking god oracle. I do magick that works. I became a god.

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