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#it's just that everything in my real life is going so poorly and i hate myself so much in real life that it filters over into social media
friendofthecrows · 9 months
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Wish I had more of that stereotypical "refined genius psychopath mystery villain" vibes and less "dysfunctional no sleep cycle can't tell when/if they have emotions traumatized mess doesn't feel like a human paranoid future true crime psychopath" vibes. So that was word salad. Moving on.
#i have been described as a genius but unfortunately the#aspd and other mental illnesses mess with my impulse control and risk vs return and energy/motivation levels#so it kind of gets in the way of showing off my intelligence most of the time#which probably makes me less insufferable but also leads to some people underestimating me#or just thinking of me as too much of a mess in general#both of which i hate#and when it comes to the 'coolness/sophistication factor' vs 'unfortunate creature that needs to stop interacting with humans vibe' well.#trust me i would go into seclusion for the rest of time if it was financially viable and if#my various projects didn't require working with other people#ugh I'm not really that upset today I'm just frustrated by my brain#also my body and other people and the universe and the concept of time but that's a whole different subject#sometimes the stars align and it's like the best aspects of everything 'wrong' with me are displaying at once#and i actually feel like myself and like myself#then something shifts idk but the worse things start showing again and the best bits lose some of their influence and#suddenly I'm struggling to get through a day with a decent level of functionality and without engaging in destructive behaviors#the AND is very important because i can usually do or. At least i have that i guess#today i don't feel like a person i feel like a poorly written character who's been brought into real life#only to find out that when faced with normal everyday problems#their fucked up little traits are way more of a disadvantage than they thought#i could probably blame it on the trauma or the aspd or a million other things#but maybe it's just because i am the person i am#and idk how to feel about that#just want the stars to align again
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drdemonprince · 2 months
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Any recommended reading for a newbie to anarchism?
David Graeber truly is the best entry point into the pipeline i feel. Reading his work doesn't feel like "reading theory", it feels like learning more about a specific aspect of the world from an engaging, open-minded author who makes history and anthropology accessible, and then simply realizing somewhere along the line that you've become a lot more radical than you realized you'd always been.
Bullshit Jobs is his easiest and most approachable read -- start with this if you're not a big reader of dense books, or if my book Laziness Does Not Exist particularly spoke to you. It's about how the majority of reasonably well-paying jobs today are completely meaningless, and why important, fulfilling jobs that are actually necessary to run society are so often thankless and poorly paid.
If you have student loan or credit card debt out the ass or you grew up hearing the myth that the earliest human societies relied on trading and bartering, pick up Debt: The First 5000 Years. This one is a bit of a tougher read than Bullshit Jobs, but still approachable, talking about the history of human commerce, debt forgiveness, enslavement, and where that history has left us today. You'll learn a lot about history but Graeber will also always lead you back to the present.
If you were a follower of the Occupy Wallstreet movement and wonder why it failed (or whether it failed), pick up The Democracy Project. This is a slimmer, faster read! And it focuses a lot more on the practical tactics and bylaws of Occupy organizing. In it, Graeber illustrates how human groups can be run without hierarchy and just how well that can work! It's perhaps the most explicitly anarchist book of his in that sense at least, yet it's also very conversational and easy to follow, with lots of lessons learned and specific examples from real-life organizing meetings.
If you hate rules and bureaucracy, pick up Utopia of Rules. What Debt is for bursting basic, widespread myths about economics, Utopia of Rules is for challenging mainstream knowledge about the role of the state. This one is actually an essay collection, and that makes it a quicker, easier read than many of the others -- in each chapter, Graeber tackles one specific aspect of irritating modern-day bureaucracy, and its full of relatable gripes about going to the DMV or applying for unemployment, but then it zooms out to make a larger point about how societies now function (and fail to function).
If you're interested in Indigenous cultures and how various human societies have approached governance, start with Dawn of Everything, which he co-wrote with David Wengrow. Now this is a MUCH denser book that I recommend taking chapter by chapter, pausing to savor all the new information and paradigm-busting that they've just showered you with. A chapter before bed each night and then some time laying down and simply reflecting about the diversity of human social potential is a great way to slowly work your way through it.
If you read any of these, you'll be left with a lot of ideas as to where to look next -- Graeber was widely read in a great many fields himself, so he'll leave you a trail of breadcrumbs to follow.
The Anarchist Library online is also a great place to find shorter, more explicitly anarchist theory work, once you're ready to delve in. The r/debateanarchism subreddit is also something you should subscribe to and thumb through every once in a while!
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papillon-stories · 6 months
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Go Eunhyuk x reader ꕥ Argument headcanons ꕥ
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OMG, I'm so sorry... ! 🫣 I was so caught up with classes and work!
I’m not blind to the requests you sent me, I just paused everything because these last few months were so intense. But I feel like writing about Eunhyuk is my only pleasure of the day (in my era delulu)
But I didn't give up, ehehe. In the meantime, here's a little headcanon, hoping you'll like it. I love you all! Please have an Eunhyuk in your life, it's important for your well-being.
Happy reading !
Warning : None, I'm kidding. No worries. Just my English.
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He hates arguing with his s/o.
Most of the time, he is the mature one in the relationship. Most of the time.
Eunhyuk is generally very calm and not the type to start a fight, but he also has a bit of a temper.
In truth, arguments with Eunhyuk are very rare because he keeps a lot to himself, but like in any couple, arguments happen.
If something is bothering you, he will give you time to confide in him.
He wants to resolve the problem, but he tries to think about it on his own before discussing it with you.
It's important for him to understand the problem on his own (poor guy, he's going to get gray hairs from it).
If he can't find the solution himself and he sees that you're taking time to confide in him despite clearly showing your annoyance about something he might have done or said, he will eventually ask you directly what bothered you (at the right moment).
Generally, during a big argument, he prefers to leave if he feels his temper rising.
He doesn't avoid conflict, but he doesn't want to regret saying something mean out of anger.
Eunhyuk knows where it hurts, and when he's annoyed, he has a hard time holding back his words.
He can be very direct and straightforward.
He will take the time to calm down and come back to you when he's no longer heated.
You communicate a lot, and he doesn't want to be someone who leaves his significant other sad or angry at him... he doesn't want to be like his father.
Eunhyuk always takes your feelings into consideration and respects you a lot.
Because communication is good, but without understanding, it's useless.
If something annoys or saddens you, he won't dismiss your feelings and will simply try to fix it.
For him, there's always a solution.
Like you pointed out that this girl was crazy about him? She's already non-existent in his eyes.
But sometimes he finds your random outbursts of anger toward him amusing.
He finds it cute and doesn't take them too seriously.
"Why are you laughing? I'm serious."
There are no real reasons to be angry with each other.
Maybe out of jealousy?
YES ! In a relationship, he has no reason not to be honest with his feelings.
If something annoys him, he will probably take his time to talk to you about it.
He has enough trust in you to know that you won't hurt his feelings.
Despite his attitude, Eunhyuk is someone who thinks a lot.
He constantly questions himself.
The truth is, he will distance himself from you to sort out his thoughts because he knows that talking about it in the heat of the moment can escalate things.
You will notice his change and decide to talk to him about it.
Again, the last thing he wants is to hurt you.
But he knows that sometimes his silence can hurt more than harsh words, so he will come back quickly.
The best thing about your arguments is your reconciliations!
You cherish your relationship.
If he acted poorly, he will be the first to come to you and timidly apologize.
Conversely, if you are at fault, he will wait for you to take the first step.
He doesn't really expect apologies; he just wants you to understand his point of view.
Depending on the severity of the argument, he might ignore you at first.
Again, he needs time; he is constantly reflecting when it comes to you.
But he will never push you away if you come to make peace.
In essence, arguments are rare, but when they happen, you know how to handle them.
Thank you for reading ! Do you have any suggestions ? :)
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1000sunnygo · 2 months
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Saw someone trying to claim that cora secretly resented his birth dad (too lazy to correctly spell the man’s name) and like nah dude. That’s the main reason he ran away. He still loved his dad and never blamed him. Because I think despite everything he saw his dad as good hearted and correct, just painfully naiive. I sometimes wonder if doflamingo ever truly hated their dad. Resents the hell out of him, hated his actions, blames him for his childhood miseries and stone cold in his murder. But their dad was never presented in a hatable way, at least from my reading.
Agreed, Homing wasn't presented in a hateable way. Oda designed him as an elegant-looking fellow in spite of being a regular Tenryubito and that says enough. The Donquixote couple were the only Celestial Dragons who couldn't be brainwashed into becoming egocentric psychopaths even though they were born and raised at Mariejeoise, they owe some respect.
The criticisms of Homing's personality comes from our own judgement of his character and not from canon narration, shoutout to @eroguron0nsense for this meta summarizing his flaws. Frankly speaking, I think Homing was doomed to die. Being killed by his own son just adds a layer of irony, it wasn't a dignifying way to go.
As for Rosi, he clearly held a high opinion of his father:
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"How was such a monster born in the family of such kind hearted mother and father? I don't get it. He's not a human."
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In fact, I doubt Rosi ever pondered about his father's naivety at all. There's no point in digging the faults of a humble father who died long ago, considering that a greater evil (still) existed in their bloodline who inflicted much bigger pain in his childhood. Rosi's most severe loss in his childhood was his parent's deaths, not the lavish life at Mariejeoise.
Point to note is that a six year old's cognitive development is still underway, a ten y/o on old on the other hand, has evolved a lot. Rosi wasn't be able to judge his parent's character the same way his brother could. I've wondered, if Rosi were around Doffy's age, would he be influenced by Doffy's ideas a lot more, like most younger siblings? Probably not, since Rosi's thought process is fundamentally different from Doffy's. He's hotheaded and impulsive, but he's not vengeful. Rosi enlisted as a marine to save civilians in spite of being poorly treated as a child, and knowing that they'd hate him if they knew about his bloodline. I can't imagine Law or Doffy doing the same. Rosi is a humanitarian who held a deep sense of justice (passed from Sengoku and kindhearted parents) - that neither of those two had.
Having a bit of thought experiment, if Law as a child were in Doffy's position, I can see him resenting his father - not for losing the family status but for endangering his family's life (and the death of his mother). But I don't think he would've been manipulated by bad adults into killing his father. I see Rosi's driving force his morality (returned to his brother to stop him to save the civilians), Doffy's is self importance (would throw away anyone for his own cause), and Law's is love (extreme protectiveness of those he loves). No matter what, Law wouldn't be risking the safety (and sanity) of his younger sister.
Back on track... does Doffy truly hate his father?
Yes, he does.. in a complex way. Doffy still considers Homing's actions to be the source of his miseries. But I believe "family" means something profound to Doffy. Regardless of what happened or how much he hates him, Homing is HIS father, and that by default means he's a human of a higher value.
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Doffy made this particular way of execution, to shoot with his flintlock, somewhat ritualistic and specific for those he deems as his family. As he said in chapter 769, he sees it as a form of redemption.
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"But, I shall forgive you! The same way I forgave my real father and brother: with death!!"
He doesn't want to hate them, so he 'punishes' them and forgives them, which in his self centered mind is a form of entitlement.
The answer got a lot bigger than I expected shdhd thanks for reading my rambling though o7
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ghostlythunderbird · 1 year
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As a Spouse and a Parent~ Task Force 141 
Pairings: Simon Riley, John MacTavish, Kyle Garrick, John Price X Fem! Reader
Warnings: Fluff, Pregnancy, Prior Abuse, some NSFW is referenced
Word Count: 2,269
Author Notes: Is this feeding into a deep longing of mine? Why yes, yes it is. I'm sorry if this is poorly written I was writing this at 3am
Simon “Ghost” Riley
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As a Spouse
Simon actually didn’t want to get married in the beginning, because if you wanted to get married it would only put a potential target on not just you but anyone you're close to. But I can assure you he wanted nothing more than to put a ring on your finger, and as a testament to that you should have heard how picky he was with your ring. Soap was definitely losing his mind while trying to help Simon out
After the initial hesitation in the first year of your marriage not much had changed between you and Simon, but your relationship continued to grow as Simon became more upfront with nothing that seemed to really bother him. Of course keeping everything related to his job confidential.
He became more doting on you, constantly craving for your attention whenever he’s at home. It was honestly comical that this large man seemed to melt into a puddle at the slightest touch from you, practically purring for you when you rake your hands through his hair when you cuddle in those late mornings. Even after this he will ask you not to share how he truly acts at home with any of his teammates, there often was the threat of not getting any more breakfasts in bed from him.
Oh and when I tell you this man can cook, I mean he can COOK. Like this man can cook full course meals but the only time you have to interfere is because he doesn't use seasoning very much. Secretly he enjoys these small moments with you, just spending quality time whenever he can is what helps him realize that getting married was the best decision.
As a Parent
When you told him you were pregnant for the first time he had a whole mental meltdown that ended up with him leaving to take a walk around your neighborhood. Now it wasn’t because he was angry, if anything he was terrified.
This is a man who has faced horrid abuse at the hands of his father, had his Brother, mother, sister in law, and his nephew murdered because of his job, had so many near death experiences, and killed men without a second thought. How could someone like him raise a child properly, much less raise one that wouldn’t hate him for who he was.
After returning and talking his fears out, you both soon started to prepare the arrival of your child. And lets be real he is fascinated with each step of your pregnancy, His favorite part was feeling his child react to his touch each time. Just to add this in because I just have a feeling this might happen, this man would definitely end up having at least 5 kids because he falls in love all over again with each one. Not only that but he wants to prove that he is a better dad than his own could have ever been.
Simon loves all his kids and will spend each moment he can with them, going to dance recitals, practice, helping with homework, putting them all to bed. Does he become a tired dad after 5 kids? Well of course he would but does he regret it, Never.
Johnny “Soap” MacTavish
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Oh my gosh, now this man right here is one of the Sweetest Hubbies out there. You talk about remodeling the kitchen? Well here is your new kitchen after a month. Craving a certain food, he’s either buying it or attempting to make it.
From the first point when I mean attempting I really mean “Attempting” because this man cannot cook to save his life. And before you try to say he can, he can cook a few things but hardly anything is seasoned because the military has ruined his sense of taste. While he can’t outright cook more than simple meals like grilled cheese sandwiches it doesn't mean he can't help chop up ingredients or be your taste tester. His favorite thing to do is help you bake and you know this man will be licking the spoon and the bowl, he ended up stealing it once and locked himself in the bathroom so you couldn't stop him.
When he's home you can guarantee you're gonna be cuddled to death by him, he hardly ever lets you leave and if you're gone for more than five minutes he's going to look for you and become a human koala. Johnny I feel like is a very affectionate lover and will do anything to find a compromise if you two can't agree on something. He never makes big decisions without you as in his eyes being married means you have to work together not against each other.
As a Parent
Ok let's be real here out over everyone in the task force Johnny has the BIGGEST Breeding kink out there, and like most men he isn't much of a fan of condoms simply because it takes out the intimacy. He has a true addiction to cumming inside you so it's no surprise you end up becoming pregnant.
When you tell him you're pregnant he would let out the biggest yell and then tackle you into a bear hug while crying from pure joy. After finding this out he immediately called and told both of your families. He's very invested with both yours and the baby's development over time. His favorite thing to do is to fall asleep on your lap with his head near your bump no matter how big or small it is while running his hand over it.
While he does get prepared once you start reaching the end of your pregnancy it doesn't stop the military one bit. After hearing he would end up deploying towards the end he was devastated, while he understands you cant stop when you're called back to base he wanted nothing more to stay home and would even risk going AWOL.
He would constantly facetime you everyday when he's gone, and while he wasn't physically there for the birth of your child he did encourage you from the phone while being hundreds of miles from home. And when he was finally able to finally come home? He gathered you both up in his arms and refused to let go.
But as your child grows up I can definitely say Johnny is the most supportive and fun dad out there. He wants nothing more than to see his kid grow up to be a respectful and easy person who still takes time to appreciate the little things and know when to have a little fun.
Kyle “Gaz” Garrick
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This man I feel like can be often overlooked so here we're gonna give him a whole bunch of lovins here. Gaz is more of a selfless lover by heart, so be prepared to be showered in love and attention 24/7. Trying to read a book? Well now you're both reading a book because he wants to constantly be in your presence.
While Kyle is home he would definitely want to go on walks and hikes with you just so you're both exploring together. That being said he tries to plan yearly vacations for you both wherever you both decide to visit. Like Simon, Kyle wants to spend as much time with you as he can while he's home. The awful part about his job is to think that there might be a last time he would ever see you, so he wants to take advantage of every second.
Kyle loves to talk about your future together, wondering about your lives of what could happen or what could have been. His favorite part though is to talk about settling down somewhere away from the hustle and bustle of the big cities in the UK. Having a little house in a village far out into the countryside where the both of you can live in peace.
Maybe there are often times where he thinks that your dreams of living out your lives together may never become a reality when coming back after a rather rough mission. You will have to talk him out of those thoughts just to remind him that even on the roughest days you'll always be by his side even when he can't see you.
As a Parent
This man is NOT prepared to hear that you're pregnant. Wanna know what he does when you wait until he comes home to tell him? This man straight up faints from the overwhelming news. After hearing you freaking out after coming to he just wraps you up as you're both on the floor and just says “This wasn't in our road map, love” as a joke.
It does take him off guard to understand that he's not only fighting the darkness just to protect you but for his child now. And to say that it keeps driving him forward to survive every mission more than ever before is a vast understatement.
Kyle ends up asking you one day after being home for a week on how many you both feel comfortable with having, you both decide on having two. Over time his excitement continued to grow the bigger your child got and when I tell you this man keeps buying toys and baby clothes I'm not joking. He's a hoarder of baby stuff now
When your little one is finally born this man has constant tears that the nurses even joked that your husband cried more than you while in labor. He's mesmerized by this child, that while you fall asleep he begins to pledge his life for the newborn in his arms. Gaz as a dad is one of the sweetest things in the world, always wanting to be involved in his children's lives and to spend every minute with them.
John Price
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This man is by far the biggest romantic out there without a doubt, always wanting to surprise you when you least expect him to be home. His favorite memory was when he came in with you eating ice cream on the couch and he grabbed you from behind, he didn't regret having to clean the couch afterwards.
You better expect he's gonna take you out whenever he gets home too, like this man WANTS to show you off no matter where you go. You both go out to a fancy restaurant you're getting shown off, at a taco truck just down from your shared home. Well guess what you're still getting shown off even if you're dressed in sweatpants and a T-shirt.
Don’t blame this man for any of it because he's just so in love with you he can't help himself. But if he had to choose between staying at home or going out without a doubt he would choose to stay in with you and just enjoy the limited time he has. While yes sometimes he has to bring home paperwork he still finds a way such as having you curled up in his lap over his tights and having a blanket draped over the both of you.
That being said there have been times you've both fallen asleep in the chair and you both totally have NEVER tipped the chair back. It definitely became an inside joke between the both of you but it's something you both never mention to anyone else.
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You and John have talked about what you might do if you ever decided to have kids, but you've both tried to be as safe during your “Adult” time but it seems that life said otherwise. While you had no reason to be upset or nervous about telling John you couldn't help the nagging feeling of anxiety. You don't tell him right away, but you rather plan it around one of your nightly walks.
At first he thought you were messing with him and doing one of your pranks again, but after seeing your serious face he was speechless. After the initial shock he pulls you in and kisses you, he lets out a laugh after pulling back before resting his hand over your stomach. John tries to be around as much as he can for the majority of your pregnancy, but life as an officer is a very demanding one.
While he's gone on deployments he tries to stay in contact as much as he can, and if he doesn't have service he keeps a picture of you and a sonogram picture of his little one tucked away in his tactical vest. The only person he shows and talks about his new child with is Simon, because this man is dealing with 5 kids even after saying he's too old for this life.
You end up giving birth right before John was getting ready to land, and let's just say this man threatened a lot of people just so he could get to the hospital as soon as possible. John overall as a parent would definitely be doting but he knows when he needs to put his foot down, even if it does end up drawing tears. He’s one of those dads too that definitely lets his kids do whatever to him, especially if he has a daughter.
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Your thoughts?
Let's go through it by parts
"Aang is a monk, he shouldn't date/get married/have kids"
Aang is the LAST airbender. The LAST air-nomad. Even if he had made some vow of celibacy/not having kids/not getting married (which was never confirmed or even hinted at by the show), he made it under the assumption that this would affect solely his life, not result in the death of his entire culture once he passed away.
Much like he was given a pass to kill Ozai, he would also be given a pass to break his celibacy vow - which the show never says he made in the first place.
"The Air-nomads are not one to one with Tibetan monks, it makes no sense to get hung up on the pacism"
They are not one-to-one, much the other nations. But the Water Tribes are still indigenous people living in the poles, the Earth Kingdom is known for a great wall and there's a "made in Earth Kingdom joke", the Fire Nation has sun imagery everywhere, and air nomads are even meant to visually resemble tibetan monks.
More importantly, the show made sure to highlight that, to the nomads, pacifism IS a big part of their culture and belief system, and that Aang feels very conflicted over wanting to save the world but not liking the way he's expected to just disregard everything he was taught his whole life.
Comparing "Aang is a (tibetan) monk, therefore he is a pacifist so killing would be against his beliefs" to "Aang is a (tibetan) monk, therefore he shouldn't be dating" is absurd because, yes, Avatar did choose what parts of tibetan culture would be carried over to the story, and only ONE of these made the cut.
When people complay about "People are disgarding the fact that Aang was raised to be a pacifist when they expect him to just be cool with killing Ozai" they are not saying that because "Well, a tibetan monk wouldn't do that", they are saying it because CANONICALLY, Aang's air-nomad culture would be against it.
"Being critical of the air-nomad culture is not the same as disrespecting Tibet's culture"
This one is only truth depending on the circumstance.
Obviously being critical of something the air-nomads do, but the tibetan monks don't, is not racist against real people, nor is it racist in the first place if the criticism isn't fully based on "That's not how MY culture does things, therefore it's bad."
Being critical of something both air-nomads and real life tibetan monks do is automatically being critical of both, though obviously there's a difference between "I don't agree with this belief" and "I hate this entire group of people" (for exemple, saying "I hate the Fire Nation's imperialism because of all the suffering it caused, which was clearly inspired by Japan's imperialistic past that was also attrocious" is very different from saying "I hate japanese people").
Being "critical" of something both air-nomads and real life tibetan monks do because you're going out of your way to misrespresent their beliefs, and you talk about the air-nomads the way people who are prejudiced against Tibetan culture talk about them (which a lot of people in this fandom do without even realizing) IS very fucking racist against a real life group of people.
Again, to make the distinction clear, there's a difference between "I dislike this character who happens to be black" or even "I dislike this black character because the writers were racist, intentionally or accidentally, and thus made him an objectively poorly written character that I don't like seeing on screen" and "I hate this character because he is (insert racist belief against black people here)."
So yeah, A LOT of the hate towards Aang, especifically regarding his pacifism, comes from people being genuinely racist, and pointing that out is not absurd just because "Well, he technically isn't a Tibetan monk. He just looks like one, has plenty of the beliefs and traditions of one, the narrative largely treats him as one, and the audience is clearly excected to see him as such."
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rae-writes · 9 months
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2:1 ratio
Levi x reader
wc : 1.k
warnings : brief minor injury + brief aggressiveness towards mc (trivia incident)
synopsis : the two times Levi found himself falling in love with you and the time you told him first
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“Alright, enough! Let’s get this show on the road- Let’s see how Levi likes your trump card Mc!” 
Levi rolls his eyes, glancing around at everyone’s reactions before he lands on you. You’re grinning and rocking on the balls of your feet, looking directly at him with anticipation. The sight makes something tug in Levi’s chest, causing him to huff and cross his arms. 
Frantic tapping filled the planetarium, courtesy of Levi’s bouncing leg. His orange hues scanned over every inch of the room impatiently— where were you? He called you 5 minutes ago! 
“Levi?” 
He jumped, head whipping around to look at you. “Finally! Took you long enough.” He was about to complain more when his eyes fell to your wrist. It was poorly bandaged and a bit swollen. 
“No! I won’t stand for this!” Levi snarled, lashing his tail in your direction as he began advancing on you. He almost laughed when you fell right on your ass, crawling backwards to get away. He was so close to snatching you up with the appendage before Lucifer intervened. 
“I believe you were going to settle this via quiz, were you not?”
With a start, Levi’s eyes snapped back over to you, seeing you on the ground with a pained pinch in your features— and a hint of fear in your eyes. 
“Go home. You’re out of control.” 
His hands balled into fists, hating the way his heart clenched when you looked up at him with that expression. 
“Levi? Did you hear him?” 
He turned tail and fled, arms shoving the door brutally out of his way. ‘FUCK!’ 
“So do you know why I called you here?” He raised an eyebrow at you, attempting to hide his inner troubles. 
You smiled, just as bright as before, “Let’s be friends!” 
…Huh? ”W-w-what?! F-friends?! Me a-a-and you?! I just tried to attack you! If Lucifer hadn’t intervened you’d be dead right now, you know that right? Right?!” Levi stared at you with a bright red blush, hands flailing around stupidly.
“It’s okay, I forgive you! Plus, I kinda provoked you, so…” 
The third born looked at you with awe, arms slowly falling back to his sides. Friends…? With him? A tiny smile tugged at his features and his hand shot up to cover it. 
Friends.
Levi laid sprawled back in his bath-bed, glaring up at the ceiling with no real intent behind it. He was just mad at the world— everything was going wrong and he hated life. 
Knock knock knock
“Tch. Password.” His words were a low hiss, as he was sure it was Mammon coming to bother him. What he wasn’t expecting was the perfect response given to him in the sweetest voice. 
“The second lord attempted to steal the Lord of Corruption’s platypus, which could lay golden eggs. Having incurred the wrath of the Lord of Corruption for this misdeed…it was ordered that the second lord would be forever dubbed ‘The Lord of Fools’.”
The breath was practically knocked straight out of his lungs from the speed he sat up. “C-come in!” Levi stared at you in awe, orange hues zeroing in on the way you smiled at him. 
“I heard my Lord of Shadows was feeling down, so-“ 
!!!
“Your favorite human Henry brought you a present!” You plopped a purple gift bag in his lap before crawling in the tub beside him, nuzzling your head against his, “C’mon, Levi, don’t you want to open it?” 
Because you sat beside him instead of in front of him, your bodies had to be pressed close to fit- you were almost sitting on top of him at this rate. 
Levi thought he was going to combust. “Y-y-yeah…” trembling hands took out the orange paper, shuffling through iridescent confetti until he felt a box. 
It was a limited edition, handcrafted and painted, rare wood-based Henry and Lord of Shadows figure. The one he missed out on due to a student council meeting. The one that when its stock was sold out, it was gone for good. 
“Surprise! I know you were really upset about missing out on getting the figure yesterday, so I got Lucifer and Diavolo to pull some strings and get me access to one!” 
Oh. Oh. You can’t do this to him, normie- you can’t be making him feel this way! ”Mc, I…“ he gasped for breath, “I love it.” I love you. His eyes widened- oh no. 
Clueless to his sudden emotional epiphany, you beamed and snaked your arms around his middle, “I’m glad! I just wanted you to feel better again.” Quickly, almost too quickly, you placed a featherlight kiss on his cheek before hopping out of the tub. 
“Let’s play some Devilkart!” 
“O-okay!” Anything for you.
The dim lighting of Levi’s room as opposed to the brightness of the convention you’d both just been at [for 10 whole hours] almost makes you trip and fall on your face if it weren’t for the purple haired demon taking the lead inside. Henry greets you excitedly, swimming a few circle laps, but your smile tugs into a concerned frown.
“Levi?”
Vibrant eyes peer into yours before flitting away quickly as the demon in question moves expertly around his room. It was like being in the confines of his personal sanctuary had flipped a switch as Levi yanks off his wig, pulling at the hairnet rather angrily and begins taking off smaller accessories.
Grabbing at his hands, you still his harsh movements, “Levi. What’s the matter? Didn’t you have a good time with me today?”
“I did!” Levi looks surprised at his own sudden outburst, but the words just tumble out involuntarily after that, “I-I just…whenever I come back here, I feel useless again! When I’m out there cosplaying- or even when I’m streaming- I feel like somebody. Like my skills finally aren’t worthless but it all goes right in the trash the second I come back here, knowing everyone in the house is better than me—“
You press a finger to Levi’s lips, effectively silencing the degrading words he was throwing at himself. For a fleeting moment, the digit rubs back and forth gently; you’re almost entranced by the softness of his lips. Then, before he can pull away in embarrassment, you lean forward and place your own lips on top of your finger. 
And Levi wouldn’t be able to move even if he wanted to— he’s frozen in his spot, feeling your breath on his skin, and knowing you’re only less than an inch away from actually kissing him. 
“You shouldn't say those things, Leviathan…”
Leviathan. Not ‘Levi’. 
“You’re someone to me. Someone special,” your finger slowly trails down, moving until your entire hand is cupping his jaw, “Someone perfect in my eyes.” Your lips finally cover his and it’s like fireworks exploding behind his eyes and in his head. 
He almost missed it with how distracted he was from the kiss, but your pretty eyes were looking into his so earnestly he couldn’t look away and when you spoke it was so melodic he couldn’t help but tune in to your voice for whatever you had to say (even if it was complaining how his lips were slightly chapped or he was just bad a kissing) and yet-
“I love you, Levi.”
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"Elain isn't interested in Lucien"
But WHY? And not someone's imagined reasons, the ones out of Elain's mouth.
Canonically, these are the only reasons we have for Elain not wanting to get to know Lucien:
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Are those good reasons for not wanting someone?
Shouldn't matters of the heart be based on things that have a bit more depth to them?
She's never said, "I don't want him because we have nothing in common".
She's never said, "I don't want to know him because he has terrible manners".
She's never said, "I don't want to know him because he treats others poorly".
Even the superficial would be giving us something to do with Lucien as an individual.
She's never said, "I don't want to know him because I find him unattractive".
She's never said, "I don't want him because I hate the way he dresses".
When she said this to Feyre she didn't even bring up being unable to move past the whole Hybern / Tamlin thing.
Lucien being her mate has nothing to do with the choices Lucien has made in his own life. There is a sum total of zero things he could have ever done to change that fact.
In the real world we don't need to explain why we're not interested in someone but that's not how it works in the fictional world. Anytime a character is presented with a love interest, readers are going to be looking for answers and like it or not, two characters being given a mating bond is the ultimate romantic setup (especially between someone who is one of her favorite characters and someone who has the same kind of energy she does and therefore would most likely be her BFF in real life) and that's going to need some explanation for why someone walks away.
"Why is this one the one for me and why was that one the wrong one?"
We found out that Rhys's mother wasn't right for his father because she was fiery and beloved by everyone while he was cold and vicious. It wouldn't have been enough for Rhys to say, "he saved her from having her wings clipped when he saw her and knew in an instant she was his mate, he gave her the gift of flight for the rest of her life but she didn't want him because she just didn't want a bond." 🤔 That's going to leave people scratching their heads because it makes Rhys's father look like the good guy and his mother someone we're a little confused about. Maybe in the real world, "I didn't want to get married and he did" is sufficient but again, not in a fictional fantasy world. Especially not in a fictional fantasy world where the author already had his first love murdered in front of him (someone he loved so deeply he thought they were mates). It's absurd to think SJM is ending the possibility of Elucien and putting Lucien through yet another round of torture for the sole reason that Elain "doesn't want a mate" (since she's now moved past the "I don't want a male" stage.
Not wanting a mate at first is understandable because she needs to deal with everything that's happened and everything she's lost.
But once her story moves forward, not wanting to know Lucien because she doesn't want a mate is the equivalent of someone saying, "I don't want that well spoken, well dressed handsome guy with flowing locks from the coffee shop who likes all the things I do because it was a random run in when I wasn't expecting it and I'll only accept love from people I meet on Saturday mornings in the grocery store regardless of whether they're a good fit for me. Because all that matters is my choice (that sounds a bit silly right? The my choice argument when based on a mating bond as the deciding factor?).
Also, what is it about Az that Elain likes? To date, we've been given absolutely nothing on that front which means that her being about to kiss Az could be because he's the love of her life just as easily as it could mean she's looking for a physical release in exactly the same way Nesta did with the males at the start of SF. So why is he the one that she's paying attention to and what does he have that Lucien doesn't that makes him a match for her?
Az is noted as the prettiest of the three brothers by Nesta and classically beautiful by Feyre while the King of Hybern, Cassian, Amren, and Feyre remark on Lucien being handsome and Feyre notes his elegance and cruel beauty. Also my girl was paying way too much attention to her sisters mates warm sculpted chest and broad hands in ACOWAR. Using canon and not our personal preference, they are both highly attractive and fit.
We know Lucien enjoys parties and while we don't know whether Az actually enjoys them, we know he can dance.
Elain likes to look her best. When not in leathers, Az seems to dress well enough and we know Lucien is the best dressed male in all of Prythian (maybe a slight exaggeration but Feyre and Cassian definitely wanted us to know he's a stylish m'fer). I would say Lucien has more of an edge on Az in this but still, I'll call it a tie.
Az speaks gently to Elain but so did Lucien: "I'd never heard my friend's voice so soft. So tentative and concerned".
Az got Elain a rose necklace which she did seem to like. Regardless of her reaction, knowing what we know of Elain (that she does in fact wear gloves for gardening and does wear pearls), Lucien selected excellent gifts for her as well.
Az is a powerful Illyrian warrior and shadowsinger however Lucien trained in Autumn and Spring so he knows how to wield a blade and kill when needed. He's also got Autumn's fire and now Day's powers, showing the markers of becoming a High Lord.
Az listened to Elain talk about seeds but Lucien listened to Elain talk about Graysen, about hearing heartbeats through stone, about how no one ever sees her and only left once her sisters chased him out of the room (and they ALL listened to her talking about having visions at various points. Az wasn't the only one who listened to her, he was just the first one to give it a name).
I'm kind of struggling to see exactly how Az is the "obvious" choice for Elain or where he's got an edge on Lucien aside from the fact that she wasn't given a bond with him (which again, not a great reason to reject someone). Especially when you consider the stuff Elain isn't fully aware of:
Lucien gave her credit for killing the king.
Az said Elain should not be exposed to the darkness of the trove.
Elain said that her sister should not tell her what she can or cannot do.
Lucien has not once touched Graysen or Az in an attempt to eliminate the threats that stand in the way of he and his mate, he's never even spoken of wanting to harm anyone or wish that an "unfortunate" accident would come their way.
Azriel said that if Lucien kills Graysen, "good riddance" and doesn't seem bothered at the thought of killing Elain's mate.
Elain said she's not a child to be fought over.
Cassian gives Lucien credit for keeping his cool over Beron murdering Jeminda and Eris's cruelty.
Az tortures people, starts fights in political meetings, admits Elain has no idea the things he's done.
Cruelty bothers Elain.
Lucien is really good at talking to people and has made friends across all courts (and now the human lands).
Azriel prefers his space and works from the shadows.
Elain is social and makes friends easily.
Lucien is the Heir to Day
Elain wants Sunshine
Azriel literally exists in shadows and his shadows are afraid of the sun.
Lucien looks to be crafted from the forest, fishes with his bare hands, has an old camping cave, rides horses and hunts for food.
Az........likes to sun his wings in sunshine sometimes?
Elain loves being outside gardening and SJM said she's happiest in nature.
Some like to argue that Lucien doesn't care about Elain because he stays away from her and "can't stand to be in the same room as her for more than two minutes" (though they're missing the point because he can't stand that she doesn't want him around. If she was open to getting to know him Lucien would be unrolling his sleeping bag wherever she went). But Az himself couldn't stand to be near Elain at Solstice and had been avoiding her for his own reasons (not because it's what he thought she wanted or anything).
So again, WHY isn't Elain interested in Lucien?
If it had anything to do with Hybern, then she wouldn't have invited him back to Velaris after the war.
That does leave the sole reason of "I don't want a mate."
The problem is, Elain will never not have a mate regardless of who she ends up with.
Elain didn't want to be turned fae.
Elain didn't want to lose Graysen.
Elain didn't want her father to be murdered.
It's valid for Elain to have not wanted these things but it doesn't change the fact that she's got no control over them. Like it or not, she's going to have accept them.
Elain is fae, she did lose Graysen, her father was murdered and she does have a mate.
Once she accepts that there is no changing these things, she's going to stop telling herself she doesn't want a mate and she's going to have to start asking herself why she doesn't want LUCIEN romantically (he is a person, not a bond) because she is connected to him forever and will always feel a tug to him. That bond is begging her to see where things go.
At that point, what possible reason could she have for not wanting him?
Sure, maybe she likes a lot about Az. But I can almost guarantee there'd be a lot she didn't like about him either. And while no one is perfect, I'm finding it very difficult to see how Elain couldn't like Lucien. When you add a super special connection to that (all that beautiful golden thread from what we're told), where a force that's connected to all the life in their world decided you were fated to be with one another (even if it was only to produce super special light filled babies), how could anything else compare?
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In some media that have found family and then the friends go their own ways at some point later on, find their own paths, I've noticed the aftermath in sequels that come after time skip of several years is not always... the best. As if the once closest friends, the family, has drifted apart. I mean sure, friends do sometimes drift apart but that separated found family trope creates a rift between friends too and like- I understand that people in real life can be like this but from my personal experience and observations, this shouldn't be, isn't, the case with family. This isn't the case with a group of people closest to you who you grow up with or who supported you in your hardest times and vice versa, who helped you find yourself.
Personal observation, I've literally seen best friends or childhood friends meeting after decades and acting like they just met yesterday. There's no rift, no reserved behavior out of politeness, they literally let go of everything and let out their inner child. They laugh and tease and joke wholeheartedly, are comfortable around one another, rile each other up for funsies in a heartbeat, throwing every piece of maturity out the window. And that's not counting my own personal experience of meeting any of my best friends after several years, we didn't even realize until my mother pointed out that we were acting like we just saw each other yesterday even though it's been years.
Anyways, I'm getting off track here. Point is, I've seen many pieces of media that always create a rift between closest friends or family or found family after a long time of being away from each other and it adds drama and all but while I've seen it excused as being realistic, it isn't. Not in my opinion. Which is one of the major reasons why it always breaks my heart to see this happening and why I hate the Separated Found Family trope. I mean, why even form it in the first place if you're just planning to tear it apart in the end? What's even the point?!
So, whenever such a thing is built up in any franchise, I develop a sense of dread. I'm internally going "plz don't separate then plz don't separate them" about characters I've grown to love. And part of the reason is how media usually handles it, extremely poorly in my honest opinion.
But this didn't end up being the case with Team Sonic when Sonic's closest, life long friends decided to grow and find their own paths in life. Go their separate way. He was happy and proud to see them grow, a little reminiscent and a little sad (though he didn't show it to them) but ultimately happy for them. Would the empty nest syndrome even be a problem for someone who considers the whole planet his home? Perhaps. He respects everyone's boundaries and understands their wishes to not randomly show up whenever he misses them. (Extra bit of angst that when he was setting them free from Cyber Space and becoming increasingly infected in the process, his friends were forced into a situation that got them in a very introspective mindset and each one of them individually decided to go out on their own, leaving him, and he didn't show the literal hell of pain he was being put through that was caused by the Cyber Corruption. He was losing himself with it. He had to come to terms with all his closest friends leaving him after that adventure while he was pushing himself to the brink of death, not even knowing if he'll come out of this in the end, just to set them free. And he didn't let them know so they wouldn't worry.)
Tails, Amy and Knuckles went their own separate ways to grow and find their paths. This looks like it advanced into the separated found family trope, right? But no. The thing is, while many other media used that trope to create rift and drama or something (I'm sure there are good ones out there which didn't do this, honestly kudos to them), this one didn't play out as such. In the latest TailsTube episode, that is proven and shown beautifully. They've all met up before on Amy's birthday and there was a quick visit Sonic gave to Tails in an earlier TailsTube ep and their dynamic remained the same in both, their friendship was just as strong as ever.
But episode 5? God, I'm in love with that episode. Team Sonic coming together after months and nothing has changed. In fact, going their ways and finding their paths in life to grow didn't create a rift between them or anything, it only made their bonds stronger. It made them even closer than they were before. Like how you grow to appreciate and treasure something more when you don't always have it.
This is how found family should be depicted. That's how it actually is in real life too. Found Family doesn't mean you have to stay together 24/7 or you can't grow and find your own paths. It means that even with living life, finding yourself, growing, these people you have come to love will be connected to you just the same. Distance doesn't create rifts when the bonds are so strong, it only ends up strengthening them even more.
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yikes i just saw a solas post that was like "yall hate solas bc he's neurodivergent coded!" and said that he didn't lie. firstly, solas is the epitome of neurotypical actually, he's just reclusive bc he's surrounded by, in his eyes, shadows of the ghosts of his people, and by some extention sees himself as not a person anymore. not even a fraction of what they used to be. he doesn't see anyone except an inquisitor that befriends or romances him as real people. cole tells you this much about him. his goal once you meet him again is literally to destroy life as we know it to attempt to bring back HIS people.
secondly, solas lied A Lot. A whole lot. Bc a lie of omission is still in fact, a lie. he lied about everything you asked him about in the beginning by not telling the inquisitor the full story. It was HIS orb that blew up the temple of sacred ashes, and he gave it to corypheus bc he couldn't unlock it himself. All you get from him at ANY point in the game is that the orb is elven in origin. If you befriend/romance him, he'll tell you it was his orb. Thats it. BIG lies of omission there. plus I'm almost positive the elvhen artifacts solas has you activate are actually mini bombs that'll shred the veil when he's ready to tear it down, and not, in fact, artifacts that strengthen it. thirdly. I adore solas. He's my favorite character in the entire dragon age series, but I'm so tired of people either completely villifying him bc they only see things in black and white, or completely woobifying him and making him into a sweet innocent uwu elf boy which he is not.
Solas is a genius, utterly ruthless tactician who will use any means necessary to achieve any goal he sets his mind to. There's not a single doubt in my mind he's going to do some horrible shit in dreadwolf in the name of reviving arlathan, but you also need to remember he's grieving. Poorly mind you, because he's using his self assigned duty to the People as a distraction from his pain and loss and sorrow. He's beautifully complex that way and stripping any of those traits away from him to make yourself feel better about liking or hating him does a huge disservice to the writers and the character himself.
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Hi! So I saw you said you weren't sure if you'd still post MM content because it made you feel 'icky' so I just wanted to ask if you said that for personal reasons or because he did or said something bad? Don't worry, I'm not at all asking you to elaborate if it's personal ❤️ But if it's because of Michael, I don't know what happened and would like to know what he did, please, if it's ok to ask… And thanks for this blog and what you do here!! :)
So disclaimer. This is not set in fact. This is a conclusion that I am coming to. It is NOT based in fact or reality but opinionated. Do not send hate to any of the parties mentioned. I am still a fan of his previous work and want you all to not harass either of them. That is disgusting behavior and I discourage and condemn anything like that. Everything I say is alleged! Please form your own opinions.
There is a second account that posts Zane’s pictures. These pictures are not anywhere else on the internet as far as I could see and that account is @hiiza_ne. Now this account may not be hers but it does seem to buy followers/likes. However, it does have pictures that I cannot find a trace of. It also is an alarm that Zane would not put a stop to the account as it has more followers than her real account and the Hiiza_ne account follows very controversial things. This goes from being a Republican for Miami to Conservative accounts and pro-gun content. This account as well has been based in the country Zane is from. It was also created in January 2023. This is predating when the two got together. Now, why do I bring this up? It was something someone thought was her actual account when she temporarily deleted her IG. I bring this up because even if it isn’t hers this account is very good at mimicking her and the content it follows is vial and reflects poorly on Michael who is dating Zane. I have no clue why either of them wouldn’t get Instagram to take down the account. Zane’s TikTok account also did post in 2020 a joking video of her in a Donald Trump filter and liked a comment about MAGA 2020. While this could very easily all be a joke and I recognized the original post was a joke given the account following republican things and views it felt gross.
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Michael is his own person. He should not be dictated by this and I understand that this may not be Zane and could be a fake account but it is very good at mimicking her.
Michael did follow Zane’s brother who did kill someone and go to prison because he caused them to OD. This was the clear distinguishing factor that made me feel disgusted by Michael following this man. Zane’s brother has been shown to be racist saying the N word and maybe he has changed. It still makes me uncomfortable.
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Once again. I am NOT who should be dictating what you feel about Michael. This individual asked and this is what I feel. I am done posting Michael's content. I will still post to my CF’s story and maybe post Nacho Varga content/BCS stuff but I am done being a Michael fan account. I started this account because Michael’s content helped me through a dark road in my life. I would listen to his interviews and how positive he seemed and it helped me keep going. Yet now with the Better Call Saul fandom dying and this happening. I don’t feel comfortable posting his content anymore. My views don’t line up with what been presented by his content anymore. I will always love Vaas and Nacho and Michael is a wonderful actor. This account will stay open always and if I ever find lost media on Vaas I will post it but for now, I think this is the end. Thank you to everyone who has become my friend and supporter of my account. I am so happy I have joined this fandom and will continue to be a nacho and vaas fan. I love you all. Thank you to everyone who has read through this all.
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So, I'm exhausted and stressed and can't focus fully on writing fan fiction but seems ready to unleash creative spew on the SW-series we have gotten and how it could've been SO much better. I wanted to start with one, the one that seemed to have been the trigger of this weird ripple of poorly written series and see if I can unleash more for others (Not you Andor, you are perfection)
Book of Boba Fett
Scrap Din. Completely. Remove him. He doesn't even touch the show. Mentioned is acceptable, maybe even a sort of cameo where Fennec comes in to see Boba talking to him but hears nothing as they disconnect. Boba makes some note on what Djarin is doing as a way to express how much time has passed since the end of Season 2 of the Mandalorian. Maybe. But that's it.
Instead, there will be more memories opening up the episodes, even after Boba heals and is back to true form. For one, I think it would be beneficial to show a bit more young-Boba and show how angry and hateful and scared he was after Jango's death (let's get some re-makes of Clone War scenes) and how it shows his anger is consuming him. Show clips of him connected with Cad Bane and the dent in his helmet. Give little pieces to show how he went from that very angry and feral child to the rather composed man in Empire Strike's Back-Return of the Jedi to where he is now.
The tension of the politics are stretched out more. We will see Boba trying to actually take on a leadership role as Daimo but has the urge to be like he was before. And it's only when he starts allowing more of his self out does the good leader really blossom (ie. his brilliance of having the dinner above the supposed empty cage). He can even have conversations with Fennec of, "I was reckless and stupid with my anger before. And I got a face full of a scars and a head with less hair because of it." With her, ever the snarky wise one, going, "Being angry doesn't mean you be stupid."
Street kids are good, but not with the motorbikes. I feel they should've been more like the one character Kenobi met (his daughter in real life) who was telling him to get high and forget his problems--it's easier that way. They felt too punk and it was out of place for this planet at this time. They steal, maybe Robin Hood things here and there but are mostly out for their own group and themselves; exactly how Boba and Fennec were just a short time ago. Fennec could even connect to that girl and scoff in memory, "You're tough...I met a kid just like you on a job before" and now we have the presences of Omega within this series and how important she is here and not just in a singular location and can give audience the hope Omega and Boba will one day meet (season 3 of Bad Batch sorta helping confirm or deny this). While Boba is able to connect and warn them to not be like him and let their anger and hatred fool them into trusting arrogance. maybe someone makes a point, or maybe Boba realizes it himself, but this sounds very Jedi-esque and that haunts him.
Boba spent so many years hating the Jedi (mainly Mace) so having these moments of maturity would make him pause. It would end, of course, with him denouncing the belief because he is Mandalorian, like his father before him, and not everything is about the Jedi, because he fully believes in revenge and anger just not like how he used to. Now, he controls it. It doesn't control him. And he can let his hate for the Jedi finally go (ghost Mace, who was probably watching him the whole time is so relieved and lets the man go as well; not in the show but just in my heart).
The Tribe is not dead and, instead, at least a few survived (ie the child and the warrior and a few others; we did not get that incredible train scene for them to be all killed off camera) and we see Boba, who is dealing with the trauma of everything in his life, have a moment where he breaks down and apologizes to them (maybe not anything specific; maybe not really to them but to his younger self who never had a chance) seeing this as his fault. They forgive him, cause he needs forgiveness in some way, and offer him a home within their smaller tribe but he isn't ready for that and they accept it. Now, they are the ones who return to him and assist him in the final battle. This will also lead up to where it comes full circle for him. He will offer them a place within the city but they do not accept (they are a colonized people after all; I do not see them wanting to be within that city) and instead are welcomed to his territory as a home-base to return to should they ever wish and they part on good terms and promises of seeing each other again. It would end with Boba watching them leave into the setting suns, feeling longing but also a sensation of peace that they were going where they should go and he was where he was needed. So, he turns from them as they disappear into the melting suns and grunts out, "Just a simple man who made his way in the universe." And FIN.
We can keep a lot of the other craziness--he has his Rancor (i love this part of the story), he deals with corrupt politicians, Peli meets her next boy-toy cause Din (name cameo) suggested her for Boba's use, Black Krrsantan is in the picture, Cad Bane is the big bad who shoots down Vanth (and that final end scene is still there), and so many other ridiculous parts! They could all connect and make sense!
And there can be this theme that is trying to beat Boba over the head about anger. Because we have seen anger so much through the eyes of Jedi--this can really be a new type of accepting and letting things go. More akin to the anger we see constantly simmering and boiling over in Andor but in a more personal way and showing that it doesn't need to be snuffed out but honed (controlled). It can be why Boba seems so mild at times, it's because he is learning about who he is to be, but then is able to show us the (fan) Boba that was so popular is still there--he's just someone who is trying to fill a role he thinks he has to completely change for.
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i loooove jamiekeeley (whichever way u wanna read that) however i think jamie was firmly over her in a romantic way by then. also re roy i just think of that one post like “everything is about football except for jamie except jamie is actually about keeley. but keeley is also about jamie so.”
and then we kinda cement royjamie’s relationship as positive with roy forgiving jamie and by the end 100% they are friends. roy getting close to jamie and being vulnerable with him and then saying he’s proud of him only to follow with “btw back off from keeley”….. [jamie voice] ok! awesome! i feel so great about myself and whatever we have going on. which is fucking nothing. apparently. cuz u were just buttering me up
this is so poorly written and nothing no one hasn’t already said. i just needed to rant -_- and then roy comes out looking like the bad guy but he’s literally not. he’s just repressed & even with keeley being the one to choose she’s still just a prop. which ok tbf with rj i can see how that happens ngl,, but that doesn’t mean i have to like it LOL
Me forced to look at my own spelling /grammar errors because its so annoying to add tags on this damn tumblr app 🫣 *roy springS
Anyway YEAH!! The only thing I don’t agree with you about is that I do very much think Jamie is still in love with Keeley romantically in the finale and I think he was being genuine to Roy when he told him as such. I just also think he’s in love Roy!
To me that scene is entirely about royjamie rather than keeley at its core. The whole reason Roy arranges it is because he loves keeley and wants to get back with her but he also loves Jamie (and probably doesn’t realize it yet, but DOES know he can’t stand the thought of Jamie not being in his life). he’s downright terrified being with keeley is going to change his relationship with Jamie and he quite essentially Can’t Deal With That. So he’s trying to preemptively tell Jamie how it’s going to be, because it NEEDS to be that way in Roys head since he wants to have both Keeley AND jamie as part of his life and this is the only way he can see himself getting that. He’s not intentionally trying to hurt Jamie (well, up until Jamie rightfully pushes back and Roy gets egotistical and pissy about it!). I think he really thinks he’s doing the right thing and being the bigger person by asking Jamie to back off?? Which is obviously so absurd and misguided but also so very Roy. Of course it doesn’t go well because he’s a repressed AND entitled asshole about it and thereby hurts Jamie in the process. But like. I think the intentions were warped but coming from a good place?
Meanwhile from Jamie’s POV he thought he was having literally the best day of his life, where crush #1 Keeley agreed (and was extremely excited about) going to Brazil with him AND crush #2 Roy finally asked him to hang out outside of training!! On possibly a date!!! And then he’s telling Jamie he’s PROUD of him, which is like, literally what Jamie has been waiting to hear from him!! Jamie must fully think he’s dreaming because DAMN. But then Roy (seemingly randomly) pivots to talking about Keeley and acting like his relationship with her was so much more Important and Real than Jamie’s (which. It wasn’t. Not in Jamie’s mind, certainly). I think Jamie is SO hurt because he thought he and Roy were really friends on the verge of more and then Roy instead decided to like. Be a giant dick again! Out of nowhere! So Jamie says what he says to hurt him back just as much.
It’s about keeley but it’s not about keeley, if you will. And the lines are all crossed.
Which is to say, I don’t hate that scene as much as most people. I think it actually exemplifies (in the messiest way imaginable) how deeply royjamie care about each other and how goddamn terrible they are at successfully communicating it to each other, let alone learning how to navigate those feelings together.
I do hate that Keeley lacks onscreen agency in her big “choice,” because there really IS no choice with royjamie behaving like that (though I think she’d have turned them both down regardless). And her telling them as much happens offscreen with no follow up!! Which sucks!!
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arguing over how the godly DNA thing does/doesn’t impact shipping in pjoverse (aside from like, actual siblings obviously) is actually the stupidest thing ever. Just accept that the explanation was half assed / not written in a logical well thought out way but that we as a fandom have no choice but to accept it at face value and see it as a situation that isn’t analogous to the real world. I would say it’s similar to consuming paranormal media where all the main relationships are paranormal x immortal and you have to accept that as a trope of the genre / norm of the world rather than argue about 100 yr age gap vs 2000 year or something, when neither is appropriate and neither is analogous to like a teen show romanticizing a student-teacher relationship in a school setting which is technically less of a gap but sooo much more harmful in how it influences/relates to situations that happen just like that every day in reality (and this isn’t about ships with immortal x mortal like that in this verse necessarily since there are very few of them/it is not the norm, so I get people being uncomfortable with them (I Hate C*leo but my reasons for hating them aren’t necessarily that one)). There’s a false equivalency in trying to make demigod relationships out to be analogous to real life ones in that way and I haven’t seen one argument about this that isn’t blatantly just someone disliking a specific ship and trying to badmouth it and in doing so coming off as a hypocrite.
Like let’s see, ‘shipping Jasicois Disgusting idc what Rick says about DNA people are going to hell for shipping First Cousins 1!1’ okay… do you feel that way about Jercy? If you say yes you also hate that for the same reason do you feel that way about Pipabeth because Athena and Artemis are both daughters of Zeus making them ‘first cousins’ too (and here’s where I think you start losing people because in reality a lot of these arguments are based around the mlm ships but ignore the wlw ones because fandom has a very 2d way of interacting with ships like Pipabeth a lot of the time where sure a fan will say they Like the ship but they’ve never in reality ever given actual thought to their dynamic enough to notice this (also applies to things like arguing about a 1.5 year age gap for other ships like Jasico/Valdangelo maybe Jercy if they actually remember their 1.5 age difference but not being able to catch that Annabeth is also 1.5 years older than Piper because again it’s usually transparent when people haven’t actually payed the attention the female characters and f/f dynamics they pretend to, also 1.5 years is not a serious age gap like 3+ years is when it comes to ya/middle grade but this isn’t about that) And if you are taking the stance that what Rick said about godly DNA is like, a lie (when it is fantasy world-building albeit poorly constructed but still world-building) how are you going to ship Any of the demigods together if your answer is like amount of distances the family tree that’s also a bizarre/weird take because do you think shipping second cousins would be better/less gross/less harmful? Like by ‘Gods do have DNA actually’ logic Zeus is Athena’s father and Poseidon is Zeus’s brother so that makes Poseidon Annabeth’s great uncle and Percy Annabeth’s (As a die-hard Percabeth can’t believe I have to actually type this out to make a point I hate ya’ll for making me have to think about it this much 🤮🤢) Uncle ???!! Similar with Nico to Will and Hazel to Frank. Do you still believe what you originally spoke about? Like unless the take you have is that no demigods are shippable / you hate all ships between them the way these takes operate is Clearly not actually about like activism it’s because you dislike a ship and want to put it down/make it seem like other people should not ship it, be serious, and in the process you actually made everything much weirder and grosser than it needed to be in the first place. 
And like listen… you can just hate a ship! There are always some valid criticisms of ships/dynamics I’m including ones I personally ship in this. You can State your actual reasons for not liking the ship instead of this hypocritical faux-activism. For example I personally dislike Jercy as a ship because I think it’s overrated and boring compared to more interesting dynamics, their relationship could have been a good one but almost all their interactions in the books involved this weird toxic masculinity macho bs that seemed ooc for both of them and I didn’t enjoy reading about them together much. But I’m not going to try and tell Jercy shippers that shipping Jercy is problematic and terrible because they’re cousins or a toxic relationship or something because I have a functioning brain thank you very much! People can go for what I don’t personally like. See it’s very simple. You don’t even have to have reasons like I gave! You can just not vibe with something.
*P*rcicos dni this is not about you! No I don’t think the cousins argument holds weight there anymore than for other ships but their age gap + power imbalance Is troubling in a real world context in a way that doesn’t apply to other ships I mentioned ( Frazel similar in age gap but not in power dynamics, and I dislike Frazel too) the combination of 3.5ish years age gap + Nico having idolized Percy to an unhealthy degree for years/since he was a ten year old child + Percy very much views Nico as a child in his narration in pjo and that means he would never look at him in a romantic light at any point in the future, if you think otherwise you just don’t care or get Percy’s characterization frankly. I don’t support relationships that have such a troubling imbalance in a real world context. (It should go without saying L*kabeth L*kercy Th*labeth and dynamics with super egregious imbalances like that dni again not about you).
Most of the really irritating stuff I’ve seen about this is on twt I just felt the need to write all this out here 
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sinsandsweetness · 10 months
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Aggravate (sex and zombies- chapter 16)
pairing- (Daryl x fem!reader)
summary- No one gets you worked up like he can.
warnings- 18+ content. Smut, hate sex with Daryl, degrading, outdoor sex, zero aftercare whatsoever... so just tread lightly...
note- @rickswh0r3 here u go luv. hate sex with Daryl as requested. **This is one last flashback chapter before I start to wrap this work up. Basically just a little bit of context for the fight that was mentioned in chapter 2. I did originally want to add this chapter, but my timeline errors were irritating the hell out of me. So let's just pretend that I didn't make any... or at least that the time spent on the farm was more drawn out than in the show. This scene doesn't entirely add to the plot but hey... it's more smut. And that's why we're all here, right?
You hadn’t went out with the intention to be kidnapped. You just wanted to help the group. Restock the medical supplies that they were wasting on Randall. Supplies that you thought Lori would eventually need. That anyone could end up needing. 
And now you were fighting. Again. With Daryl and his moody little temper, always getting the best of him. Caring a little too much about his new favourite member of the group. One who’d do him all the sexual favours he wanted as long as he reciprocated. And he did. Fuck, did he ever. 
During your trip into town, you’d had a very unfortunate run in with the rest of Randals group. Some of them at least. Granted, you had been pretty stupid, going out on your own. But everyone makes shit decisions now and again. 
You weren’t even sure how you managed to escape. Pure luck if you had any real guess. Climbed out of the window while the lead guy was distracted, and you didn’t stop running until you collapsed in the woods, along the fence line of the farm. The lights on inside the house, everyone probably getting ready for bed. It was dark and you were coated in walker blood. Zip tie marks that had rubbed your wrists raw. Daryl was really unhappy when he noticed those. Immediately his mind wandered to the worst. Assuming that those men had done things to you. Gross things. Things he wanted saved for himself only. Not that he would tell you that. 
It’s why he was so worked up. Deep down, he knew you meant well, trying to go on the supply run. But you’d executed the plan very poorly in his opinion. You should have asked him to go with you. You argued back, saying that he was too busy beating the shit out of Randall to notice that you were gone in the first place. That only made him more mad.
Regardless, he was pissed. You’d explained everything to Rick and Hershel, and they weren’t really that mad. Mostly just glad you’d made it home safe. You were positive that Randalls group didn’t follow you, but Shane wanted extra lookouts just in case. Prompting him and Andrea to be in charge of watch for the next few days, while they “felt things out”. 
Worried about you, angry from the weeks events and only getting more worked up by the hour, Daryl decided to go on a walk to find you. Since you hadn’t showed up at the tent after speaking with Rick and Hershel at the house. Eventually, he caught you behind the barn, trying to get some air and space from him and the rest of the group. Said he’d heard you. Said you couldn’t be quiet if it would save your life. And that’s how the fight started. You tried to block the really nasty bits out, but he really lost it on you this time. 
“The hell are you cryin’ for huh? You’re the one who ran off like an idiot!” Daryl swung his arm towards the woods, the action making you flinch. 
“I was trying to help, I-"
“What you did was stupid. Puttin’ us all in danger. Do you realize that? Rick and Lori… they’d never say it. But you know it’s true. Everyone’s at risk now if those guys try and find you- Find us.” Daryl was pissed. You’d never seen him this mad before. Maybe when Rick left Merle on that roof in Atlanta. Yeah that was definitely worse. But now, the anger was directed at you. And honestly his yelling wasn’t helping anything. It just made you want to shut down. Made you feel like shit. More than you already had. 
“You are so useless you know that? Always havin’ to clean up after your shitty decision ma-“ 
“My shitty decision making?! What about you? Getting kicked off a horse like some idiot.” He really didn't like it when you would talk back, so you made sure to do it as much as possible.
“‘Least I was actually doin’ something. I had a lead on that girl!” 
“You didn’t have shit, and you know it!” 
“This ain’t about me, dammit, you can’t even admit what you did was stupid!” 
“I feel bad enough already! Can you just drop it?!” You were trying not to yell, but he was really getting you worked up. Blowing the situation out of proportion. It wasn’t that big of a deal. You were still alive and well.
“You shoulda just stayed there. Shoulda never come back... puttin' us all in danger.”
Your chest hurt at that comment. Seriously, how could he even say that? 
“I can’t fucking stand you!” You finally spat. Fed up with his shit. He couldn’t have meant that, right?
A moment of heated silence passed between you. Within thirty seconds, he had you pushed up against the back of the barn, mouth smashing against your own, bumping teeth and grabby hands. Practically tearing your clothes off. 
“Daryl- get ugh-“ you pushed at his chest once you fully processed what was happening. 
But he didn’t stop, instead he just pushed you further up against the barn, the paint chips and slivers of wood catching on your shirt. Your pants already being shoved down your ass. You struggled against the hand trying to get in between you, and once he had enough of your squirming, he decided to just shove you face first into the wall. 
“Quit whining.” He grumbled into your ear and you could feel his hard on poking you through his jeans. 
“You know what they coulda done to you huh? Those guys out there?” His hand was cupping your cunt through your panties, massaging at your clit through the fabric. 
“They coulda hurt you in so many ways, baby.” Your panties being tugged down to join the jeans around your knees. “Woulda been a hell of a lot meaner than me, I’ll tell you that much,”
You whimpered at the thought. 
“Is that what you wanted? To get all roughed up by some strange men? Am I not doing enough for you? You need a whole gang of guys to fuck you?
“No you-“ interrupted by your own moan, his fingers were inside you now, and his lips brushed your ear as he continued his lewd commentary. Though the further he got with his fingers, the less you actually wanted to object. 
“No? I’m not enough for you? Is that what you’re saying?” He clarified, his grip on your waist getting more aggressive by the second. 
“Ow, no! You’re enough- you, ugh- you do so good Daryl. You’re so good to me…” you whined the last bit. A little shameful of how pathetic you sounded. 
“That’s better.” He whispered, replacing his fingers with his cock. The new warmth between your legs pulling a gasp out of you. “Can’t fucking stand me huh?” He mocked you. “You’re fuckin’ pathetic, baby. Always have been.” 
He fucked you hard enough your knees threatened to give out. Though his grip around your waist would have held you up if you’d actually failed at standing on your own. You didn’t even register the whiney pleas coming from your mouth. But Daryl didn’t miss it. Never would he miss the opportunity to humiliate you. 
“Sayin' 'please' like a good girl? You really are a cumslut, aren't you. Can't believe how easy it is to break you.” 
His words stung, but the feeling of him pounding right into that spot that made you see stars, quickly made up for it. 
“Daryl wait-“ you could feel your orgasm approaching already, embarrassingly fast for how angry he had made you. 
“Shut up,” he grunted, sticking his fingers into your mouth, tasting your creamy substance on his digits. He kept them there as he fucked you against the barn, too horny to care about anyone catching you. He always got so hard when you’d fight. Maybe he just liked seeing you cry. 
You couldn’t help but gag and moan, and that made him snap his hips even faster, the sound of skin smacking against skin, filled the air. 
“Mpmhh,” you muffled around his fingers, spit starting to run down your chin. 
“What’s that sweetie? Can’t hear you with my fingers in your mouth.” 
He was being an absolute asshole. But for whatever reason, your body loved it. You clenched around him and could feel your own cum running down your leg. The orgasm hitting fast and hard. Eyes rolling back as you tried not to moan any more. Didn’t want to give him that satisfaction. 
“Shit,” he gasped, pulling out and cumming all over your ass, some of it dripping right into your panties. His fingers leaving your mouth with a string of spit. He didn’t wait long before he turned you back around and pulled your panties up. Followed by your pants, his seed dampening the fabric, all sticky against your skin. 
“Daryl-“ you tried to scorn him but he didn’t care. Buttoning up his own jeans and then running a hand through his hair. 
You were both still fuming. Flushed faces and heavy breathing. And though the sex was good, your feelings were still hurt. Not knowing the difference between what he said and what he meant. If there was any difference for that matter.
“You can sleep in the trailer tonight. Dale said there’s room.” He told you, and started walking away to his own tent. The one you usually shared. 
You just stood there, unable to move, weak in the knees and thighs. Dried tears down your face and the feeling of his cum in your underwear. What the fuck. 
“Fuck you…” Your voice cracked as you tried to call after him, thinking he probably wouldn't even hear you. Wether he did or not, he refused to acknowledge you.
“You alright?” The voice behind you made your spine straighten immediately. Ah shit. Terrible timing.
“I just thought I heard something… is everything ok?” You glanced over at Rick, a confused expression on his face.
You sniffled and wiped your eyes with your sleeve. “Yeah - uh- sorry just-“ 
Rick seemed worried. Rightfully so, given your last 24 hours being a total shitstorm. And now, walking in on you freshly fucked and left to cry behind a damn barn. Though you weren't sure if Rick realized that. Maybe it just looked like you were sad. 
“Just a had a little… argument. That’s all.” You looked down at your hands, picking at your nails. Argument. Yeah, that’s what it was. 
“Daryl?” He confirmed, approaching you slowly.
“Yeah.”
“He was worried about you, y’know,”
“Oh I’m sure.” You attempted at a laugh but it came out more like a sob then you intended. 
“He was. Wouldn’t stop pacing around. We were gettin' ready to start searching the woods.” 
You gave him a weak smile. 
“It’s been a long day. You should get some rest.” He grabbed you by the hand, all soft and gentle, and led you back to camp. Why couldn't Daryl ever be soft and gentle. You couldn't help but think how lucky Lori is. To have a husband with such a kind heart. Such a pretty face and a genuine smile. So opposite of the guy you'd let drag you to his bed for the past few months.
The whole walk back to the trailer, you wanted to cry. And you also had the overwhelming desire to punch something. Daryl could always do this. Make you feel all hot and cold. Well, truthfully, it was him that was hot and cold. You were just hot and bothered. Intoxicated by him one moment, and torn to pieces the next. 
No one else could ever get you as worked up as he could. 
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boltlightning · 1 year
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hey guys. me again. i just noticed we only see norrington receiving and following direct orders in awe; in cotbp he’s got a much more open relationship with governor swann. this is partially because we don’t meet a higher naval power than the commodore until the EITC is introduced, but i think there’s some real fun (read: painful) parallels there:
gov swann commissions norrington’s sword for his promotion ceremony, and it’s clear he wanted it to be something special. both swanns knew he was gunning for the promotion, and both were delighted to see him receive it. i certainly like to read into the three (3) lines of dialogue that reference this way too much, but it establishes very early on that there is fondness there.
after jack saves elizabeth and the royal navy finally catches up to them, governor swann is pretty insistent that jack be arrested on the spot. norrington takes his time assessing the threat and explains to both swanns his reasoning rather than slapping the irons on jack immediately. you only see glimpses of their professional relationship, but there’s clearly a huge amount of trust between the two: when elizabeth goes missing, swann trusts him to find her even if he isn’t setting sail immediately. he trusts that norrington knows what he’s doing when he lets jack lead them to isla de muerta, even when he wanted to head straight back to port royal to get out of danger.
then, of course, there’s the big moment on the precipice: elizabeth stands between norrington’s state-mandated justice and will and jack’s freedom. governor swann could order norrington to stand down, let jack go, and grant will clemency (...again). but instead he gives norrington a gentle reminder that maybe life isn’t just following the law. and norrington trusts governor swann enough to see his reasoning and come up with a compromise of his own. as poorly as it ends in the sequel, it really warms my heart that they trust each other on something so major. it gives you the smallest peak into how port royal is run, between loving, emotional governor swann and prim, rigid commodore norrington.
and then yeah norrington loses everything for that clemency but then beckett makes him an admiral and he just had to use all his wits to become the very thing he hates to get there. but hey! he’s an ADMIRAL! he should be the authority on the sea! but the first time you see him in his new rank, he is being summoned to show up to beckett’s cabin. he is not an equal. beckett gives him his sword back, the sword that should have been his the whole time, and it is not a gesture of kindness or fondness, as it was originally. it is a reminder that everything norrington has now, it was given to him by beckett. and he will serve.
and yet — AND YET – in that same scene, he and swann interact for the only time in the film. and they exchange no words, but a single glance, one that reads spells out all the fear and apprehension they are both sharing as prisoners aboard beckett’s ship. neither want to be complicit in the EITC’s actions upon the sea, but both their power belongs to beckett. both are trapped. my eternal kudos to davenport and pryce for making whole meals out of these scraps of character development.
norrington and beckett don’t exchange any words the rest of the movie, yeah yeah, but the one time you do see them interact, beckett is gesturing him around like he’s a dog to be commanded. he is taking orders quietly; he is not making decisions. he is not even given the chance to get a word in edgewise. and then beckett further breaks his trust by telling him, off-screen, that governor swann went back to england and all is well. when he was in fact murdered and everything sucks.
it is no wonder that norrington’s first instinct, upon finding out that elizabeth is alive, is to express the relief her father will feel. they’re his last friends on earth, the only people he can trust!! and he has inadvertently betrayed elizabeth’s trust by returning to her father’s side, only for it to have gotten him killed. like, of course norrington immediately defects to help elizabeth. if he doesn’t have her trust, if her father is gone, then what is there left for him as an admiral?
and this, gamers and ghouls, is one of many reasons why they shouldn’t have cut that fucking scene where governor swann is told elizabeth is dead and tries to stab jones’ heart himself. norrington restrains him instantly, and they struggle — gov swann could overpower norrington if he truly wanted, but instead he begs, pleads, to let him do this, to avenge his daughter. and then davy jones enters to torment them, and norrington is holding swann’s blade steady even as he points a gun at jones. he is literally holding gov swann’s death in one hand and protecting his life with the other.
and then beckett comes in to be cruel to him, to thank him for averting disaster — and norrington can only laugh, because it’s not like he had a choice. beckett trusts norrington here, but only in that he trusts he can be controlled — or at least predicted.
this deleted scene is the only time in awe we would have seen norrington acting without orders before his big betrayal. it would have been a fantastic and elegant reminder of all that james norrington has to protect, and all that he is capable of, and all the love and trust that motivates him.
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