#it's just ppl wanting to talk about the things they enjoy

[grimgummies]

BEFORE I ASK AND BEFORE YOU CONTINUE

PLEASE remember I am asking this question because I want to know Tumblr's consensus on this ship vs the Twitter side of the fandom which is much more vocal about their thoughts.

I am simply asking out of pure curiosity and nothing else. And please don't assume any less of me just because I am curious. I don't want ppl to assume I'm this horrible person or anything qwq

Anyways onto the question:

What are your thoughts on Batmeat (Bob x Streber?)

Feel free to reblog with additional thoughts!!

#spooky month #poll tag #Okay imma put my thoughts here rq cuz I do have some things to say. #Mainly that I used to be extremely against it and grossed out by it but now I'm just meh?? But still leaning on the side of disliking it. #My thoughts mainly changed after talking to certain ppl (who to my knowledge are either against or neutral on it). #Two things these ppl had in common was the fact that neither were proship and both thought ship discourse was dumb (which yeah agree) #(Also for reference I'm not proship either) #When talking with one of these people we were talking about Holydemon and the discourse surrounding it. #Which made me think... #Both Batmeat and Holydemon share something in common. And that's in both ships the characters canonically hate each other and one killed/- #injured the other. #And in no way in the canon (key word CANON) universe would they get along under any circumstances. #But then why is one more accepted over the other?? #And then I realised it has to do mostly with this weird mob mentality the fandom has coupled with the way both these ships are interpreted. #Based on my own experiences it seemed Batmeat was mostly enjoyed by the genuinely gross people in the fandom. #And by this I mean people that had gross intentions with the ship and wanted to interpret it in an abusive way. #Meanwhile Holydemon was created as a silly joke between the Spooky Month team that evolved from joke to people genuinely enjoying it. #To my knowledge Holydemon was never created out of ill intent but rather to be a silly joke + demon x priest old man yaoi funny. #But Batmeat was mostly used by pro/comshippers to fetishize/romanticise abuse. #(Please keep in mind I have seen a bunch of examples on Twt as the ship doesn't seem to be as big here on Tumblr and isn't much of a- #point of discussion). #(But I found that a lot of the known gross ppl in the fandom seemed to enjoy Batmeat which I can only assume left a bad taste in- #people's mouths. Because it sure as Hell did for me). #HOWEVER call me crazy but if Batmeat was created with the same intentions as Holydemon would people still find it gross or think it's a- #funny joke ship? #I dunno I've just been thinkin about it a lot lately. #Oh and another thing I noticed is a lot of the ship discourse in the fandom usually surrounds Bob so take that as you will. #For whatever reason he is the one character that not only broke but split the fandom in a way I have never seen in any previous fandoms- #I've been in. I'm tellin you it's like it's own weird phenomenon. Is it cuz he's a cannibal??? #I wanted to go on but yk tag limit. I lost some things I wrote qwq

[knifearo]

this year my challenge for everyone is to unlearn the association between love and morality. love is not something that is inherently morally good, and the absence of love is not something that is inherently bad. sex without love isn't morally bankrupt, it's just an action. people without love aren't less kind or less good, they're just people. when we can get past this false (and often unnoticed) dichotomy of good love/evil lovelessness then i think we are going to be able to take leaps and bounds in sex positivity, aro advocacy, certain discussions of mental health...

#and also. not the direct focus. but love doesn't make things good. you can be in love and do terrible terrible things. #people do bad things in the name of love and in despite of love all the time. #but!! imagine a world where people could exist as people and not be demonized. #sex positivity means being cool about All sex. reexamine your internal systems of moral judgement. #this goes for sex workers. for aroallo people. especially aroallo men. for aro people in general who might enjoy sex. #and frankly i think it can easily bleed into discussions about mental health disorders around 'not feeling' certain things #especially demonizing ppl who don't feel as much empathy. i think there's definitely a correlation between that and the emphasis on love. #our support needs to go out to Everybody and i think these things are all structured together in one way or another!! #it might not be immediately obvious but when i tell you it all leads back to amatonormativity..... little bit wild.... large bit wild.... #anyway. horror movie psychopath 'oh he can't feel emotions or love' damn alright. well. let's take a closer look at that. #silly that there's an association between lack of love and Murdering. feel like that might affect some stuff. #love is just an emotion/a feeling it doesn't mean anything about you one way or another #same with empathy. you can feel it all you want but it doesn't inherently change the actions you choose to take #anyway. thesis statement. there is a socially constructed link between love and morality. unlearn that. #kiss kiss (<— lovelessly) #aromantic #aromanticism #arospec #talking #aroace #aspec #sex positivity

[transfagfemme]

Adventure time fans when you enjoyed the Fionna and Cake finale and don't want their miserable unnecessary nitpicky opinions on a silly happy cartoon ruining ur joy and love for the show:

#I can't stand ppl who shove their negative opinions on things you enjoy in ur face like oh my god #if you have a hater complex and cannot stop criticising every aspect of media just keep that to urself #you'd think there was something Wrong with the ending with the way ppl r talking abt it #but everyone ended up happy and everything was good #like u guys are just being annoying atp I don't want to hear it 😭😭 #NOTE: THIS IS ME EXPLICITLY SAYING I DO NOT WANT TO HEAR NEGATIVE OPINIONS! SHUT UP! I DONT CARE THAT YOU DIDNT LIKE IT! #CRY ABOUT IT AND WHINE SOMEWHERE ELSE! #fionna and cake #adventure time #🐈

[frostbite-the-bat]

society if literally 80% of rw fandom and especially rw analysis youtubers (who are great, EXCEPT) stopped calling gourmand heckin' chonker chubby diabetic ginormous whatever and paid more mind to their whole character and not just the fact that they're fat

#watching a REALLY GOOD VIDEO #like its structured so well and already made me a bit emotional in the way it's retelling the story #and it's very entertaining and doesn't dumb down things much #ofc skipping directly reading pearl dialogue or iterator chat logs since that takes a lot of time #they appear on screen tho #id link it but i dont want any harassment + spoilers for molly #but oh my god they just got to gorumand and they instantly just. do this. #like yes gourmand is fat. they are heavy and they smartly utilize this for combat. they're definitely not just fat though there's muscle #underneath all that. they're strong. #and yes their quest is to eat things - but their whole deal is to enjoy the simpler things in life. in this dark tragic world #there is someone who is kind and nurturing and sees the beauty in all of this #and comes back home telling grand tales of their adventures #a great leader #all that is gourmand #but all ppl can talk about is OWO UWU THE CHONKER #oh my god you can acknowledge they're fat ass a descriptor without being so fucking weird about it #imagine if people did this for skinny characters all the time #ohh the twiggy! ohh silly skinny !! #look how dumb you sound

[thecelestialsyzygy]

Look, Noah is a cast member of the show. He's going to talk about the show/his character. Sharing little clips taken from insta that are specifically about byler and shared in the byler tag after we all know about the situation is not giving him more platform than he already has. If you don't like seeing his name, block it or ignore the post.

#if you want to be weird about this im just blocking #im done #I get you guys are trying to remind ppl but does it not get exhausting #a lot of us are just treating him as a cast member giving us crumbs/info bc he is #not forgeting what he did #the ppl talking about the lives aren't doing anything wrong imo for the reasons i listed above #ive said it before but ill say it again #the unfortunate reality is that there are crappy ppl in hollywood #there are crappy ppl that run the government #there are crappy ppl that run cooperations... #its a thing and they are everywhere #at this rate we sould not be allowed to enjoy ANYTHING #if you dont want to enjoy it for your own personal reasons that's fine #but don't get mad at other for doing so #noah schnapp #st5 #byler

[thatonebabybat]

Hey btw having depression is not a requirement for being goth and if you think it is I don't like you. That's a whole chronic illness, not a part of your "goth mindset"/"aesthetic". Please reflect on that.

#“depression makes you introspective and deep” no it just makes you periodically think everyone wants you dead for varying amounts of time #and makes it hard to get up and go to work and eat and sleep and talk to people and do literally anything #if you have depression and you're goth I'm proud of you because being an active part of a subculture is dedication and time and energy #shit's hard. love yall #I understand it usually comes from a place of misunderstanding but don't romanticize people's disabilities pls #mentally ill ppl have it hard enough without you Doing That #goth #goth subculture #gothblr #gothgoth #gothic #I'm mentally ill btw I should clarify that. wont go into details abt it but #I'm speaking from a place of not wanting people to treat my trauma like a fun afternoon activity that you have to do to be goth #you can still relate to and enjoy plenty of goth music without being diagnosed with a chronic illness like major depressive disorder #like a lot of songs are just about concepts like heartbreak or periods of grief or introspection but those are things most people experienc #disabled ppl might experience them differently or more intensely but they're widespread experiences nonetheless. #you don't need a mental illness to “get it” it came free with your humanity actually. you can think/feel deeply abt shit without a diagnosi #I'll stop rambling though #goth music #goth aesthetic #gothcore #mental illness #mental health #depression #goth is about music

[j-esbian]

why are people so weird about silence

#like 5 times in the past week it has come up #every time someone walks into the room where i’m working they’re like ‘haha you should turn the radio on’ i don’t want to #i’m the only one in here #was helping another guy set up a machine and he was like ‘you can put your headphones in. i’ve got mine that’s why i’m not talking’ like #cool bro. i didn’t even know it would have been an issue if you hadn’t said something. i think that’s just on you #and at dnd another person was talking about how weird and quiet their tattoo artist is bc she doesn’t talk and i was like #god that sounds IDEAL #why do people assume silence is inherently awkward and uncomfortable. why can’t we just sit and enjoy it #or at least. if you feel those things why do you need to project it onto others #this is why i hate that ppl online will talk about ‘neurodivergent swag’ to mean like. ‘never shuts up’ #if someone wants to talk i’m not going to actively stop them but like. your experiences are not universal

[crystalcanis]

I want to talk about my ocs publicly more like I used to years so... so freakin BAD!!!

#canischat #I remember back when I used to use twitter a lot (ew) I talked about oc facts randomly all the time! #and opened QnAs and requests of drawings of my ocs on my instagram stories #And people actually enjoyed it it was like my public excitement made others excited about my ocs in return #and I honestly owe like more than half my audience to that time #most people that stuck around to read my comics or are on my comic server are because #they came from back when I used to talk about my ocs all the time and they were curious to see it play out the way it was intended #what happened? idk. I guess I got self concious. But I want to recreate those vibes again. #I want to show others Im just as excited about my little guys as I was back then and as I wish for them to be too. #anyway uuh idk maybe I will reblog one of those oc questions for ppl to send me asks at some point #but I dont want to make it feel like Im forcing ppl to ask me things so I want to be able to just ramble at any time for ppl to enjoy too

[chrisbangs]

hello... (and bye ig 👋)

#👋😭 hi... #i haven't come on in about a month and i didn't realize a month passed by like that... i've kinda stopped using any apps on my phone #i barely even talk to my friends anymore lol 😭 #i just saw my follower count this morning and realized i hit 13k and i was like 🥸 huh... #uhhhhhhh 😭 idk i wanted to say thank you i guess 🫂 #i'm done with stayblr and tumblr in general 😭 this much has been obvious for a while now... i tried to fit myself back in during 5star but #i think i realized i've outgrown the vibes here and in online spaces in general... i don't really enjoy it anymore 😭 which is weird cause #i've used tumblr since i was in middle school so 🫡 end of an era some would say... #i think it sucks because i don't have the same feelings about this place or skz or anything in my life right now... i tried to ignore it bu #it's so obvious now that the entirety of december passed without me really talking to a single person / without me using social media / #without me really doing much except for like homework and assignments lmao #i think genuinely i've stopped enjoying everything i used to like and i don't know why 😭 it hit me the other day bc i don't even enjoy #pc collecting anymore which is CRAZY considering how much time and money i've put into that hobby so 👋🥸 who knows what goes on #i haven't consumed any skz content since rockstar dropped 😭 and that also feels weird to me... idk... i would say maybe i'm going through a #depressive episode but i don't really feel how i do then... i think i'm just tired like i always am and that's just how i am now .. i think #i'm just not really interested in things anymore? weird but .. yeah idk😭 if i knew what was wrong i would Fix It sndjdndkd mostly i'm just #sad because i haven't been talking to friends... i keep ignoring everyone and not replying to any texts from anyone because ???? #i tell myself i will do it later but i know i won't ... idk i genuinely don't know why i'm struggling to talk to ppl anymore 😭 i've become #even more of a reclusive hermit than i already was 💀 and the worst part is i feel normal abt it #i don't feel /bad/ i just feel guilty that i'm not replying to ppl bc i don't want to hurt ppls feelings... on my end i feel Normal abt it #like i ??? is it weird that i'm so detached from everything that not even a month ago made me so happy..? that's weird right 😭 like idgi #i don't feel (as) depressed (as i usually do) but clearly ?? smth is wrong ?? like ik i'm not a clingy sentimental person but ? it kinda #makes me sad wondering if i really don't care abt ppl anymore ... but i think 😭 it's also the object permanence issues that come with adhd #not seeing or talking to the ppl i love . not doing my hobbies or seeing the groups i care abt . makes it easy to not care or forget what #they make me feel etc etc ... i get it... but idk 😭 if that's what this is . well wow it sucks ASS.. cause i feel guilty for not feeling #anything at all ... 😭 idk how to explain that HENSKDNISJS anywayyyy 💀 #i came on cause i wanted to say thank you for 13k followers 😭‼️ and that i probably will not be online anymore unless i really want to say #this was a really long winded way to say i feel bad but i'm done with stayblr fr 👋🥸 i tried so hard for the last 2 years to make it feel #like home again but it stopped ages ago so 🥹 that's ok.. i still cherish my memories here 🫂 anyway thanku and sjsjsksksks bye i guess 😭 #who knows maybe i'll enjoy it one day again and come back :') never know what the future holds 🫡

[transmechanicus]

“I’ll be fine i just need to uhhhhhhh idk kill” but like…what if i did haha

#my stuff #dear diary and the several thousand mfs who can see it. Despite arguably good academic performance today feels like a bad day #bc i skipped lab to take a nap #and i feel lonely and incapable of connecting more than superficially with my classmates #like i can talk to them and i do and we get along well but i never…hang out w em #or at least not as much as they seem to without me #it’s not a malicious thing i think a huge part of it is groups of ppl living or working in the same space #and i’m in a different lab building than a lot of ppl #idk…struggling to find anything that sparks joy. unable to see the future with optimism #it’s just day after day of Job where i’ll beat myself up on weekends if i don’t do Even More Work #bc that’s the nature of grad school. always homework or literature review to do like i give a shit abt the latter #i don’t care what other people are doing i don’t wanna obsessively comb through journals to make sure i’m doing Brand New Shit #i want it to stop #i don’t want to read anymore. i don’t wanna have to worry about my job outside of work. #i want to cry and scream and #like i don’t wanna quit after i worked so hard to get here #i don’t wanna wuss out #but i’m always tired. i’m never rested or relaxed or truly enjoying myself #why is this only hard for me…how tf is everyone else able to read and remember and understand this much?? #like yeah maybe i should be on adhd meds but those are fuckin spensive and a pain in the ass to get #i’m tired of being tough #i want to curl into a ball and be told it’s going to be okay and that i can rest and have it not be a lie or a half measure

[dykeinthedark]

venting in tags about gender n shit (long as hell) (u can comment and talk 2 me as always :3)

#okay so i got a really masc haircut about a month ago and i know it's just a haircut but holy shit has it changed EVERYTHING for me #like.... i've always leaned masc except 1) before i came out 2) when i was actively in love with someone who i knew liked femmes #and they always described me as a fem. because that's what i showed her. because i wanted to be with her. #but lowkey whenever i'm in a not-impressing-anyone raw-dogging-life-no-crush era i always resort to a very masc style #like masc being my default and i'd only lean fem to impress people whether it's for love or peer pressure in a specific setting #like ''dressing up'' has always been a form of drag to me. like something i HAD to do to fit in or impress my parents (scott favor core) #but ever since this haircut i've realized... i could just BE masc innately like i really don't have to be womanly if i don't want to #which i usually don't. again i have only ever dressed fem for other people. but it's not even being masc that attracts me on its own #it's like. being masc in a distinctly lesbian way. as in whenever i look in the mirror i don't wanna be like a Guy i wanna be a dyke. #like lesbian as a gender identity too sort of thing honestly. okay i've been waffling but basically i sort of want to call myself butch #but i don't know if i like... can?? if i'm allowed to??? #everyone always says it's MORE than just wearing boy clothes and not wearing makeup and having short hair (which i already do all those) #i mean i've always id'd as genderqueer because it literally just means gender weird and i experience gender in a queer way #what's probably the most telling is that my friends (all queer) CALL me a butch lesbian #like every time they do i feel really internally validated. it's not just my clothes but my personality too ig is what people tell me #i have a higher pitched voice relatively speaking but apparently the way i talk is quote ''very clockably into women'' #which?? gender euphoria asf. my best friend specifically he (gay trans guy) always uses butch to describe me very intuitively #people have also noticed that i ''transitioned'' in all aspects except hormonally. like ppl have commented and noticed my masculinzation #but at the same time i always feel rly haunted by my ex relationships because one wanted me to be more masc #(she's the one who came out as straight and would treat me like a man) which i didn't like and i didn't like playing up being fem either #bc now it feels like she (butch) won't believe me if i called myself butch too bc she remembers me being femme #idk i feel like there's her voice in my head all the time that sees everything i do through her eyes (i'm lowkey still in love) #i feel like even though this comes so naturally to me i must be putting on a performance #even though i've actually read stone butch blues and done research into the history and i truly love and id with the culture like i rly do #that im still just a sad imitation of a butch lesbian and can never really be a part of it because i used to enjoy dressing up sometimes #like it's so stupid but can i still be butch if i wore a dress to prom and i think i looked good in it?? #even though i was envious of my friends who wore suits?? that i used to try goth makeup?? that i liked long dresses?? #that i enjoyed stacked necklaces and rings on every finger??? #and tbh ALL OF THAT CAME FROM A CONCIOUS EFFORT TO FEMINIZE MYSELF IN JUNIOR YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL WHEN I WAS 16 #because omfg it was 2 months before junior prom and i was worried that i was too masc and wanted to get comfortable with being fem

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

I love learning ASL it’s so good. Makes me happy to learn it. I’m so glad my university has classes for it with professors actually steeped in Deaf culture.

#blue chatter #am I good at ASL? hahahahahahaha. no. #ASL and English grammar are incredibly different and even when I remember my vocab I am easily clockable as hearing #but I do have some language capacity now. enough to communicate the basics. #and I just. genuinely really enjoy it. it’s fun to learn and engaging in a way most of my classes just aren’t. #and I can. yanno. communicate respectfully w Deaf ppl. and learn about their culture #which is incredibly important given that I want to go into a field where there is a higher incidence than typical of Deaf people #autistic? you’re more likely to be Deaf! #not to mention the fact that sign language can sometimes be a useful alternative to speech for nonspeaking/nonverbal people #depending on the person obvi; some nonspeaking/nonverbal autistics cannot use sign language and that’s okay #but surely at some point I will encounter either a Deaf client or a nonspeaking/nonverbal client who uses ASL #and when that time comes I should have some idea of how to communicate with them #I also rly like the Deaf church by my parents’ house #their community is really welcoming and their services are really interesting #I think it’s rly cool how they take intentions directly from the congregation #they’ll raise their hands and then sign what their intention is from their pew to the ambo #which is rly neat #it is funny bc every time I go the Deaf ppl I talk to will tell each other ‘go slow she’s hearing’ #which is ENTIRELY fair bc. I am hearing. and I do need them to go slower. #but it also makes me laugh bc truly everyone knows within a few minutes. #oh hey the new person? they’re hearing. yeah they’re learning ASL at college. sign slowly for her. #which again makes sense bc a big Deaf culture thing is keeping ppl informed. it’s not gossip it’s getting everyone on the same page. #Deaf ppl do NOT beat around the bush that is like the height of rudeness to them. u say what u mean goshdangit. do not waste their time. #which I appreciate the heck out of bc i don’t have to try and phrase things delicately or w/e #it was also funny bc my mom came w me while I was home for Christmas and they asked her if I was her kid #and she said yes. and the lady running the kid’s craft corner thing was like ‘great you’re doing a craft now’ #and I’m sitting there. visibly over 18 years old. amongst several seven year olds. trying desperately to figure out how to say hot glue gun #I made a v pretty pinecone tree it was a lot of fun ^-^

[lord-squiggletits]

It kinda sucks how Optimus Prime is a character who people (in real life) expect to be so Indubitably Good All The Time that they immediately shut down and refuse to acknowledge him whenever he does bad things or fucks up. Like I don't think I've seen any other character in this fandom get the same instantly negative reaction/never talk about him ever treatment that IDW Optimus gets.

Like, it's either him being a cop or the annexation of Earth. But instead of actually engaging with the story and going "so how does being a cop affect the way he treats and is treated by others" or "what led Optimus to annex Earth and how is this a reflection of his ultimately heroic ideal to treat organics as equal to Cybertronians despite the historical racism of his species"

people just instantly shut down and go "oh he's an asshole, he's stupid, he's not my Optimus, he's a bastard, he's edgy" etc etc and refuse to even like fuckin talk about him

It's so incredibly childish lmao especially when the IDW1 continuity in particular is already rife with characters who are also assholes that do stupid/regrettable things but people have no problems talking about/analyzing their stories.

My kingdom for a fandom that's willing to talk about IDW Optimus without immediately shutting down and just going "he's bad he's a bastard he sucks"

#squiggposting #discourse #idw op love #it's very annoying and kind of why i don't try to talk about him as much as i used to #i'm kinda tired of bracing myself for negative reactions every time #and tired of the general fandom silence about him #worse than hating them ppl also seem to make an active effort to ignore or to erase him #and it's the spite of that. like it's one thing to just not be interested or not care #but it's another to actively shun and ignore and erase him #it's not even just the cop thing either. ppl refuse to engage with any idw op specific lore that isn't like.... #idk his relationship with sen. SW? but that's for shipping purposes #of course ppl care about OP lore when it's time to ship him with someone else #but how many people care about IDW OP for who he actually is? hardly any #even w/ continuity soup people take out the cop part they dislike but they never try to write idw op's personality #so like it's not just cop hate. ppl just genuinely don't like idw op's personality or care about him in general #which i have to ask why the hell not because this is literally a feral and flawed prime that people keep saying they want #people keep saying they want an OP who isn't universally beloved and gets criticized for his hypocrisy and stuff #IDW OP IS RIGHT HERE WAITING FOR YOU TO ENJOY #ppl just genuinely can't stand the idea of an OP who's a real person and not just Inoffensive Fun Dad or Sad Woobie

[natsmagi]

Hello I really hope this does not sound accusatory or malicious! I can't and won't try to police who you follow, but I've noticed you're mutuals on twt with lumi, and she's proship and likes degenerate stuff sometimes, I don't follow her anymore but did at one point, to be clear, I'm not one of them, but you follow people that are against it as well and I don't want to get into discourse and bother you, I just thought you should know but can't notify you privately about something like that out of nowhere or anything... you seem to be a normal, nice person and said that you don't agree with stuff like that before! You can choose to not reply if you want it's, more a heads up than anything else q_q and you can decide to do as you please...

oh omg hey!! no worries at all! and thank you for reaching out with your concerns. to be honest i had no idea about any of this, like i know she posts weird stuff sometimes but i never really got the impression that she was proship? and i really dont wish to blindly assume the worst in people so if you could message me more info on it that would be very much appreciative!!

proship ideology is one of those few things in this world that i just Cannot empathize with, and this in general is a topic im DEEPLY passionate about. i do know though that some people cling to "proship" moreso as a defense for enjoying things with darker thematics and what have you without actually being into problematic things, just bc of how "accepting" the proship community is to. like. everything. and they fear being made an outcast by people outside that group just because they like nuanced things of that nature. and that honestly makes me really sad. so its why i dont like to baselessly judge people very often (usually its clear as day when they subscripe to actual proship ideology too, and them wearing the label proudly sets me off) but yes, it is something that i do not support and do not wish to give the impression that i DO support, so any lecturing is greatly appreciated!

thank you for reaching out!! i mainly just follow people bc oh! pretty art! without thinking much of it and i dont wanna unfollow ppl without knowing the scope of the situation, so ill be more attentive from now on and keep an eye out!! thank you again!!

#god i could ramble about the dangers of proshipping for like hoursssss #but ive also been consistently online for a decade so ive seen some more complex reasonings for these things #i dont know. if there is someone reading this who identifies with proship purely because you enjoy darker themes #and dont actually subscribe to the main ideas this ideology holds #please dont do that. i fear it only gives the community fuel and that scares me #and i dont wish to come off as hostile towards anyone i just. wish people would think of the bigger picture more #anyway i got rambly SORRY #i just wish to believe that theres good in people and some people are just misguided....... #but anyway this is alr long enough #if ppl want me to talk abt my many issues w proshipping i can though #since i feel the discussion tends to be pretty straight forward and ppl dont realize how deep this shit goes #BUT ANYWAY #ask

[dykefaggotry]

thoughts on the song "you've got to hide your love away" ?

oh SO many. it's a beautiful song & you can definitely hear a lot of dylan's influence in it. it's an interesting one to me bc I can see it several different ways. like Of Course as a fellow dyke w my fags in arms I hear even the phrase "you've got to hide your love away" from a man in 1965 and my eyebrows go up to the clouds. & there certainly Could be some of that I think, whether he Was actually having an affair w paul (or any other man really) or just dealing with internalized homophobia.

but for MEEEE I think what compels me more about it is just like he said about it, he's trying to convey his emotions more in his writing instead of just projecting himself into situations (which started with if I fell and THAT makes me crazy) & the sentiment of "you love too much and too hard and you've got to hide that emotion because people will laugh at you" is incredibly sad & also does say a lot about him & go a long way towards explaining some of his actions in really Any relationship he was in, whether it's about a man or a woman or whoever. if Anything it just goes towards my (& many others lmao) conviction that that man would get a bpd diagnosis.

it's certainly... well I can't imagine a straight man writing that song & fully understanding the feeling, but more than that to me it's just an interesting look into his insecurities & head at the time re his own emotions

#the beatles #I do remember as a kid I think the first time I heard it #before I even realized I was gay I was like. hm. that's. well That's Certainly Something #but as I've gotten older although it's definitely an interesting aspect to me I think I just enjoy that little look into his mind #when he wasn't always writing songs about his emotions or mental state yet #also I've seen ppl say it's about the brian thing but imo absolutely not that was 2 years before this & he really just showed that he did #Not want to dwell on or talk about it #so if it is about an actual affair w a man and not just Internalized Homophobia well WHAT MAN.... COULD IT BE..... 🤔 #anyway

[blueish-bird]

sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive

#lighthearted but also serious bc what is going on here buddy #been feeling weird as hell these past few months #like I can remember some stuff… but it doesn’t feel normal to forget the names of anyone I haven’t seen/heard the name of in a few days #or forget about basic interests and personality traits and experiences and feel like a blank slate every day #idk like ultimately life goes on and I’m happy to live in the moment but it would be nice to understand why my brain is doing this #just thinking #meposting #I think my brain just. does this sometimes when I’m stressed. which is annoying #I recall (lmao) feeling similar during earlier parts of life so this isn’t *new* it’s just unexpected and much more disruptive as an adult #I’m feeling better about it than I was. after like. acknowledging it. bc my mind has not always felt like a sieve it isn’t always this bad. #whatever #I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that #dissociation #me and her go way back… haven’t seen each other in years though #she wasnt all bad! coping mechanisms can provide relief and a sense of safety #and as far as coping mechanisms go it’s not the most unhealthy. though it ranks high in ‘socially stunting’ #I kind of miss the distance sometimes to be honest everything’s just So Much all the time #I’m so solid now #so stuck in the ruts of capitalism #fuck capitalism #I wish my imagination didn’t feel so dulled #sorry I love talking #and I don’t miss dissociation when I feel mentally present because I feel so Here with the people and things I love but rn? #it’s like a lose-lose bc I am not Here nor am I untethered. I’m heavy yet hold nothing #I enjoy being dramatic/poetic about it — I feel pretty fine. I just hope this isn’t a permanent and/or long-term state of existence. #like it makes me awful at my job I went from remembering a solid amount of the student body’s names (built up over a few years) to. like 5. #overnight it felt like. like Stressful Thing happened and I went to work and I couldn’t remember anyone’s names. #can’t believe I have to start from fucking scratch AGAIN I’d be better off quitting and working at a different school #bc at least then my lack of knowledge/remembering is justified rather than strange and seemingly rude #I’m getting better now but at the beginning of this it was blue screen in my brain all the time