#it's gays v other gays

[stbot]

I've been thinking lately... maybe I should stop worrying so much about why I feel something and just feel it.

#grease rise of the pink ladies #grease rotpl #rise of the pink ladies #rotpl #cynthia zdunowski #grease spoilers #cynthia rotpl #shy guy rotpl #short king ‘wait does this mean i’m a thespian?’ cynthia #shy guy 'i'm jewish though?' edward #baby boy shy guy!!!! my son my child!! #queer solidarity love to see it! #i think i need a gif tag #not to prev tags myself but uh: #cynthia and shy guy are like Peak high school gays trying to date each other bc they can't accept they're gay but know the other is Safe #like i really didn't expect for this to be where his v obvious crush was going but i'm here for it! #love them love this #love to see cyn getting their shit together to apologize #cannot wait for next week!

[basu-shokikita]

Skwisgaar and Toki being essentially glued to each other over the entirety of Army of the Doomstar was so fucking funny to me

They gave off this energy:

#metalocalypse #toki wartooth #skwisgaar skwigelf #army of the doomstar #skwistok #and this isn't like #counting the gay moments or actual interactions like these bitches were just. constantly next to each other #hanging out #being together #v cute i love them #basu post

[plaid-maniac]

Do you ever think about how there totally could have been an old classmate of Phoenix Wright and Miles Edgeworth in the audience during like turnabout sister or turnabout samurai. Do you think they would realize? Like “hey, were those the guys in my class in like fourth grade? I kinda remember them. Wonder if they remember each other. But it was so long ago, I doubt they would even care.” Meanwhile Edgeworth and Phoenix are undergoing the most insane mental battles where both of them are going “I recognize my best friend across the courtroom and I desperately want to be close with them again.” And “god he is so god damn annoying I wish he would die already.”

#ace attorney #miles edgeworth #Phoenix Wright #not specifically ship so I won’t tag it but kinda ship if you get it #the classmate usually sits in courtroom trials because they love the drama #and honestly they like miles Edgeworth’s cases cause ‘hey I know that guy’ #but of course they don’t like go up and talk to him cause they weren’t really that close and he left kinda abruptly #cause knowing someone for like a year in elementary school and then pestering them about why they left 15 years later is a weird thing to do #course Phoenix comes in and now the classmate now has to deal with the knowledge that the defense and prosecution used to always eat lunch #together and play superhero’s during recess with that really weird kid who was always up to no good #what if one day the classmate was like ‘maybe I should introduce them to each other again. sure that we would all get a laugh or two in and- #-that would be the end of it and they would continue with their lives as normal people. they certainly wouldn’t get super gay and awkward- #-about the whole thing and just be completely chill.’ #god what would happen and Edgeworth v state? #the classmate would probably leave the third day like ‘I am a changed person. I can never go back to not knowing so much about this person.’ #and like they wouldn’t be able to say or do anything cause like??? how do you even have that conversation??? #‘hey I know you don’t remember me but I like sitting in the audience of courtroom trials and I was there for your case and I just want to- #-ask are you good? like honestly do you need someone to talk to?’

[akantorrr]

The Ballad Of Blind Love

I've had this one song stuck in my head for literal weeks, so here's art (2 versions cause I couldn't decide on the colors)

Fellow italians, I'm sorry for turning a 60's song gay

(song's "La Ballata Dell'Amore Cieco" by Fabrizio De André btw)

More details and variants here

#ultrakill #v1 ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #gabv1el #help I can't stop drawing these two idiots #also De André's songs are a bop but the lyrics are dark af 50/ of the time lmao #that's why I love playing em on guitar #fun fact! there's no gender neutral pronouns in italian #and this song specifically refers to a man offing himself for a woman's love #but in italian the pronouns for V1 could be both male or female because The Machine = LA Macchina (F) or The V Model = IL Modello V (M) #and many- MANY other ways to refer to V1 that have both male and female pronouns. So yeah #so yeah the female pronouns in the song refer to the machine and not a woman and noone can change my mind #sorry fellow italians- the song is now gay #digital art #my art

[organized-chaotic-disaster]

Being fat is sexy, actually. And this includes people with body types that don't fit societal beauty standards (i.e., big bellies, double chins, fat arms)

Fat people are hot and we need to stop pretending they aren't xo

#this isn't meant to be fetishizing btw and if it is please lmk and I can delete this!! #imo fetishizing would be taking away one's humanity. That isn't the point of this post this post is just saying fat people can be & are hot #fatposi #fat positivity #bodyposi #body positivity #sometimes I need to reassure this for myself so I think others probably feel the same way so here you go ;v; #me when I'm going through my clothes and something's too tight: oh :( I'm so fat (negative) (bad and also wrong that it's seen as negative) #also me when seeing pics and/or art of fat women: oh. oh my. is uh. is it getting hot in here or is it just me? I'm uh. wow. I'm gay 😳

[treasureplcnet]

Hello! I adore your Bodies fanart. I was imagining Karl in 1890 and how much havoc he would wreak. Also Henry and Karl would get along very well, I think, and Karl would be a *terrible* matchmaker for Henry and Alfred... I'd love to see your take on any of this, if anything comes to you 😍

HELLO OMG THANK YOU FOR THE EXCUSE TO JUST DROP HOT TAKES INTO THE BODIES NETFLIX TAG <3 all these drawings are very scrappy and i lost the plot and this became more like sharing all my hcs but still :')

now that you have brought it to me i really do think henry and karl would be unstoppable, i think they'd constantly have a fun, back-and-forth banter !!! i also can see karl dropping multiple not-so-subtle hints, and all of the detectives being quite supportive. gently too, considering the period-typical homophobia. i do think sometime along the lovelorn pining looks, he gets tired of seeing them orbit each other without anything happening, and this exchange occurs:

more doodles and crying under the cut :)

i will die on the "karl weissman bisexuality" hill. HE TOLD ME IN A DREAM!!!! it's just a little messier for him because he really likes women and will not figure it out ever. charlotte hillinghead TO ME also has the exact opposite problem where she is very much in love with her husband and doesn't have any incentive (or freedom considering the time period) to explore her sexuality. the way she accepted hillinghead's feelings for henry, and was less rejecting and more devastated over thinking he didn't love her or polly, just read queer to me somehow. an acceptance because she's like that too, yk? (maybe a bit of a reach but i don't get to choose who my mind designates as being bi)

i like to think that charlotte-karl experience a spider-verse mindmeld "YOU'RE LIKE ME" moment over being bisexual but they're not quite sure why they're feeling that way because they have no idea they're bi. if you are me you will understand perfectly

and i am a henry/alfred/charlotte poly truther as well (please see above discord ranting from my dms with a friend lol)

on more notes of just giving whichever character i want the bisexuality card, hasan is bi to me too. i think hillinghead and her bond a little over that shared religious guilt, of having their respective institutions be homophobic, and the feeling for so much of their life that they're different, so there must be something wrong. it helps her empathise with him and they quickly become closer because of it :) possibly also introducing him to queer lit, and maybe some non fiction lgbt history books

and one last final doodle because i think alfred as the only detective with an active love life where he's pursuing someone would make the others pretend like they can be adults but they want to know SO BAD and they also give advice once in a while because they're rooting for alfred :) they're all pretty good at hiding how badly they're invested in this (think iris 'casually' asking hillinghead how it's going and the other two perk up in the background) like i refuse to believe any of them are totally immune to the equivalent of office-gossip

this was so so long LOL i hope any of that is coherent !!!!! a lot of it ofc is my own projection bc i am bi, but it's real to me <3

#re hillinghead poly..... realistically a V poly with alfred in the middle but if i am allowed to be anymore annoying #literally everyone in the cast is bi to me. so its a triad. PLEASE DONT BURST MY BUBBLE RN LOL #esp the way ashe casually charms charlotte and makes her laugh in like ep 2... BI SWEEP!!!!! THEY ALREADY LIKE EACH OTHER #i do think ofc its easy to read ashe as being gay tho so i understand if some of this is just. not workable #but i will probably die on bi karl hill sorry everyone i know what he is #and also hasan thinks its ironic the moment she manages to get him out of the 3-piece victorian suit #alfred beelines for an outfit that makes him look like a gay history professor on a dark academia pinterest board #ANYWAYS. IF U READ ALL THAT UR A REAL TROOPER THANKS FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK #bodies netflix #my art

[agayconcept]

Wild Aziraphale Spotted In Local Thrift Store

@neil-gaiman is there a possibility ur camp angel did a sneaky lil champagne ad in the early 1900s while bored....

#good omens #aziraphale #thrifting #this was a fun lil moment yesterday lol #gay omens #michael sheen #not rly but im just putting associated tags bc im begging anyone other than me to see this #i stopped dead and turned to the person i was with like 'do u....do u see that....' and they went 'yes. yep. that's him alright.' #anyway. i looked it up and it was and still is apparently a v well known ad still used as a collectors piece #not for me personally but the vibes? impeccable.

[batvvvvv]

love these 2 with all my heart theyre crazy. infodump incoming

ivy and jon met in college about 18 years before the plot starts (ages 18 and 19 respectively) they were both like, intense and unsettling and as traumatized gay people do they kind of gravitated towards each other. jonathan broke his pen one time and asked pamela if he could borrow one and they just kind of ... never stopped talking. they've been inseperable since

jon was ivy's first friend not made out of neccessity, and pam was jonathan's first friend period. they are absolutely ride or die for each other.

they moved in together after a year to split rent, and despite still being Incredibly fucked up it was both of their first taste of normal life. or as normal as gotham can be idk. living the queer codependent best friends lifestyle !!! something almost like happiness

jonathan did sell drugs out of their apartment for a few months to make ends meet but that Definitely has no impact on his future later! haha! anyway

then they graduated! jon got a job in psychiatry and moved out; ivy stayed and took a job at arkham in the infirmary, where she meets harley. and while pam became more bitter and jaded at the horrible things she witnessed in arkham, jonathan got fired for tormenting a patient, spiralled completely into his obsession with fear and created the first version of his fear toxin. he was arrested and sent to blackgate (and then arkham a week later), then 6 months later ivy was arrested for blowing up a factory, and sent to blackgate.

they didnt speak for the next year and a half. jon continued to isolate himself and spiral, landing himself in arkham once or twice a month at a certain point, while pam got unhealthily fixated on taking down the corrupt in gotham, getting herself into her own fair share of trouble. both of them get to a breaking point around the same time-- forced to face their own actions and the consequences they bring.

so pamela escapes prison again and decides to lay low: gets an apartment under a fake name, and begins to plan her next operations more carefully. somewhere along the way harley moves in with her (after being ditched and left to fend for herself by the joker) and things are Okay !

jonathan's road to recovery (if you can really call it that he's still fucked up and crazy) is a little more explosive and insane but he ends up on ivy's doorstep, dripping wet and covered in blood, and asks to come in. despite everything she lets him stay! (i've written a fic for this that i'll share sometime if i can figure out how 💔)

and they've been keeping each other alive for the 15 years since! they're mean as hell to each other but also they would do anything for eachother. never underestimate the bond betw two fucked up and evil gay people

yeah i love these two so much . most annoying best friends ever !!!!!

#infodump #have i said that i love them enough times. i love them #two people who feel disgusting and inhuman find each other and at the very least they don't have to be alone anymore #shaking them violently #batman au #batman v #jonathan crane #pamela isley #scarecrow dc #poison ivy dc #technically ivycrow #but they are sooo incredibly platonic. gay and lesbian solidarity

[voidcat]

Hi Danyl, would you mind writing some Dazai headcanons? <3

Hi my dearest Kat, for you? Always<3

Despite the impression he gives off, Dazai is a serene driver, who drives like the world outside the vehicle does not exist.

Its a fact only few are aware, as it is an rare occurrence that he is driving— and one is willing to hop in. After all, considering how he acts on the daily, not many trust him behind the wheel.

Night comes with no trains left and an urgency waiting you on the other side of the next day, Kunikida calls out to Dazai, knowing he is slacking off already. Drivers duty is nothing compared to the towers of files waiting on his desk after all, and wait long waiting wrath of Kunikida on the other line, Dazai swiftly goes out, already waiting for you inside the car.

The full moon hung in the dark night sky and earphones in your ears, you steal glances at the normally enthusiastic and loud man besides you— now drown in complete silence, eyes fixed on the road, with an expression not quite blank but not burdened with any thoughts eating away.

Eyes back on the moon, you notice it’s bigger than usual if your perception isn’t deceiving you— and presenting itself wrapped in rainbows, a halo of yellow, red and slight green, the light of the moon itself offering the missing blue for this little art piece.

No matter how proper or rocky the roads may be, the car drives swiftly; you have to think for a second to recall the last time you have experienced a car ride this smooth, safe and sound; you have forgotten just how peaceful these can be, remembering once more why some people drive the night away to clear their head.

With music slowly taking over, the moon shining like this is its last day in the universe, the pitch black sky as if in a pocket dimension, and Dazai, now a completely different man next to you, you are nulled to sleep.

Only when the music has come to an end and Dazai is nearing a resting spot does your eyes open again, watching the moon light dance on his face— a new side to him, a new sight of Dazai Osamu you have reached the honor of witnessing.

#i had this one fic/drabble where u need to be somewhere esrly morning next day and w no other means to go u ask ada and Kunikida tells dazai #to drive u. legit inspired by this car ride I had to take w mom at last min which evolved into a delightful getsway #anywyas that night the moon was mesmerizing too probs the best ive seen so this is basically a shorter version of it. more focused on dazai #and less on the sky but u get the gist #so thank u Kat finally writing down that idea even if not in the intended way is making me v happy:)) #ask games #dazai osamu #bungou gay dogs #Kat !! #dazai x reader #dazai hcs #dazai headcanons #bsd x reader #bsd x you #bsd headcanons #dazai osamu headcanons #dazai osamu x reader #dazai osamu x you

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[burning-landfill]

A cage for two

#mcyt #qsmp #forever #@v@ #eve? #what the fuck is that thing’s name #my art #honestly don’t fuckin touch me I am - u n w e l l - #…..gonna miss that gay Brazilian #(no not that one the other one) #((no not them either)) #(((no the -other- other one))) #also I love that tumblr just E A T S the quality in this one. details who? #if you're curious forever has a halo of dust particles around him that I'm honestly not sure anyone can see -rip-

[beldaroot]

i'm sorry but i'm rewatching free! the final stroke part 1, and it's actually hilarious how haru practically confessed to rin by saying that his reason for still fighting to win was because of rin and that he always wants to compete with rin next to him.

and rin's response was just like, yeah... so about that... i'm not gonna race with you anymore :/

i mean, i too would let world-renowned swimmer albert wåhlander possess my body so i didn't have to deal with that rejection!

#free! #free! spoilers #free! the final stroke #rinharu #before i thought this whole body possession thing was so wack (and it still is lbr) but it kinda makes sense that he dissociated here lol #and it's extra funny bc rin is like: we can still swim together in the same tournament - we'll just be in different races!! #and haru was like: THAT'S NOT GOOD ENOUGH!! you need to be in the SAME race right NEXT to ME!! #they are all so dramatic and gay god bless them - v happy they made up by literally just swimming next to each other again sjflksdjf

[ifellinlovewithpersona]

Me @ my brain: Okay, you ship two ridiculous protagship no one ships besides you. Don't ship another. Please. For your own mental stability. It's time to stop.

My brain: Okay but check this out: V-kun x Akiren coffeshop AU where they both are working in Leblanc?

Me: I hate you 😭

#WHY I SUDDENLY HAVE 5 X V THOUGHTS? #ESPECIALLY NOW WHEN AO3 IS DOWN? 😭 #(but lowkey want akiren and v-kun to be gay for each other haha) #WHY THIS ALWAYS HAVE TO BE PROTAGSHIP? 😭 #okay but real talk does someone actually ship persona and smt protags together? #cause i couldn't find anything and idk if i'm that bad at searching or it's just the idea so ridiculous it's nonexistent #persona 5 #smt v #ren amamiya #akira kurusu #v kun #nahobino #smt tag #5 x V #OKAY BUT ONE SHOT GOD IN THE FACE THE OTHER ONE IS GOD IT'S PERFECT 😭 #renbino

[yardsards]

s1 luz was at least a little bit gay for willow i will not be told otherwise

idk if it was a full on crush but it was at least one of those types of nebulous not-quite-romantic not-quite-platonic "hahaha, unless..." type friendships that a lot of queer teens have, u know the ones

#girl was just walkin around sayin shit like ''you're right! my friend IS very cute!'' #which can be just regular platonic bc luz is friendly like that but in this case i feel like it's A Little Bit Gay #eliot posts #toh #the owl house #luz noceda #willow park #just. remembering why i liked willuz/willumity so much. #i kinda headcanon willow as grey-aro and polyam (this literally came to me in a dream) #and i feel like her ideal relationship IS a kind of ambiguous sorta-but-not-quite-romantic sort of dealio #tho i also like the headcanons that she's just plain bi or pan or lesbian in this context too #bc again that sort of ambiguous friendship seems to be VERY common among queer teen friend groups (and not just aspec queers) #like it was A Thing between some of my high school friends and many other queer ppl i've talked to have said similar lmao #tho i also find the headcanon that she's 100% aroace and also uninterested in any relationships outside if friendship to be v fun #just like. basically everyone falling in love w her but her being totally uninterested #but being her friend is so Delightful that none of em rlly have any complaints there #like that scene in carmilla where dani turns down kirsch and says she just sees him as a friend and he gets really excited like #''yes! i am in the friend zone! she sees me as a friend!!! she's so cool i am excited to be her friend!'' #willow taking after canon aroace icon lilith ''constantly turning down suitors but keeping their gifts'' clawthorne #my sister is just straight but this one time when she was in hs a guy asked her out w a massive tub of cheese puff balls #(she was obsessed w those things) #and she turned him down but kept the cheese puffs and ate them for like a solid month

[bylertruther]

do you ever think about how will probably wishes he was braver?

that he could tell mike the truth about himself without having to speak in code. that he could stick to his guns when he's been wronged and stand up for himself rather than tucking tail and turning the other cheek. that he could be less shy, less sensitive, less cowardly, and maybe then his loved ones wouldn't forget about him as often as they do.

maybe then they would pick him first, rather than leaving him for last. maybe then they would want to hang out with him and hear what he has to say. maybe then they would treat him like they used to, like he can still take care of himself just like they can, instead of like a fragile little thing that they pick up only when they need him. maybe then they would care about him as much as he cares about them. maybe then he wouldn't doubt that it could all come crashing down once they know who he really is, and always has been, because the rest of him would've been enough.

like, maybe he wishes he didn't freeze or run away so much. maybe he wishes he wasn't so afraid all the time, of every little thing. that he could be brave like mike, el, or his mom. i mean, el's been through so much, too. why can't he be more like her? why does he have to hide behind her? he hides behind her when the monsters come crawling back, and he hides behind her when he can't bring himself to say what he really means—even after getting on her case about it.

he spent so much time on that painting. he didn't let anyone see it—it was that special to him. why couldn't he own up to that? there's no monster in the van with him; it's just him and mike and this painting of the party, nothing inherently incriminating or romantic, and still—he can't help himself. he retreats back into the shadow, shrinks into himself, and tells lie after lie to the person that he never lies to, that he knows doesn't fucking deserve that, just because he's too scared.

of course he'd feel like a mistake sometimes. of course he'd hate who he is (if That script is to be believed), when he can't even talk to the one person that would understand without lying straight to his face, over and over again, like a fucking hypocrite. of course he'd feel so lost without the person that tells him it's okay to be this way and shows him that there is indeed strength in it. of course he'd hate who he is when he's encouraging someone to be true and speaking about their courage, all while being incapable of taking his own advice, and giving the credit for all of his love and efforts and emotions to someone else.

so many people died to bring him back, so many people died just because he didn't stay dead when maybe he should have, and for what? so that he can continue to hide rather than live his life? so that he can turn into a "worse" version of himself? so that he can live in fear? so that he can continue to ache for a past that he can never return to, while everyone else moves forward and berates him for not doing the same? time stopped in the upside down when will went missing, and he's been stuck there ever since, too. too much has happened for him to move on from. too much has changed—he's changed. he's too different now, in every way, and the older he gets the more clear it becomes.

of course he'd feel like a mistake. of course he'd hate who he is. he's the common denominator here: in his loneliness and in this war. the boy who came back to life when others didn't. the boy that got possessed and couldn't fight it. the boy that turned into a liar and a coward and must learn to live with it, even if it's at his own expense. the boy that can't let go of the past and whom the past won't let go of either, because even after everything, he's still connected to this great evil that won't let him go. they got it out of him, and yet the tether remains, because of-fucking-course it would.

just—why? why him? why can't anything ever go right with him? why is he always the outlier? i think that overwhelming amount of fear, shame, grief, guilt, exhaustion, and loneliness would wear anyone down, let alone a teenager that never asked for any of it and has experiences so unfathomably unique that the only other people that could have possibly understood are literally dead.

#will byers #byler #mine #long post #will #anyway. this is how i always interpreted the i hate WHO i am line especially in conjunction with the word ''mistake'' + being different #within the context of EVERYTHING that's happened to will and continues to happen to him and how unique it is to him in this narrative #bc rly. if you were will.... wouldn't you feel like a mistake? even outside of that outside of the supernatural i'm speaking to my #friends that have ''Something Wrong'' with them. when something happens to you and you're not the same after and you're surrounded #by people who are able to move on and be normal—don't you ever have those moments where you feel like a mistake? when you're #growing up and still interested in your same old interests but your friends start moving on and then you see that they went back to #those interests in your absence—don't you feel like you were the problem then? when people are able to be brave and you can't #find it within yourself to overcome your fear—don't you hate that feeling? don't you feel that negativity towards yourself when you #know that you SHOULD do something but you can't bring yourself to and it works against yourself? like. everything that has happened #to will E V E R Y T H I N G !!!!!!!!!!!!! can easily make anyone no matter what part of him you relate to the most understand that #u kno wht i mean? anyway. i jus wanted to bring this up bc his life is a fucking tragedy even without the gay stuff n his current pov on th #and the way that That conversation always centers on fear and bravery it's like. obviously being gay is not easy in that era but i don't #think that line is ''i hate being gay'' with no factoring in of the great many things that have happened to him which alienate him further #as well as with how he does want mike to know and his alan turing poster and his talk with jonathan etc etc #his conflict has always centered around how other people treat him and his issue with that bc that's what makes him feel bad #that just because he's different that doesn't mean that he's Different and must be treated as such #he's different and has people that make him feel BETTER for it like look at s2 for example all of those talks abt using what he perceives #as a weakness abt himself as a strength that no one else can bring to the table. and in s3 when he still believed in being a nerd #and never getting girlfriends etc but when it came from mike thts when he called himself stupid n started down this path bc now #there's that sprinkle of doubt. n tht doubt is the scariest thing in the world—understandably so #also. he literally has an evil monster in his brain like bdkfjhsbkdjhfbskj IT'S JUST A LOT. #he is different for many reasons and has even more reasons to hate Who he is the kind of person that he is #jus my take 😁👍

[kayvsworld]

practising self care (doodling sam wilson for three hours)

#he's so pretty i love him he is made of sunshine. angel man. love of my life #mackie is so hard to draw but if u land anywhere close u receive a gift (seeing him <3) #a pal recognized him in my sketchbook the other day as ''that guy who was gay in black mirror (affectionate)'' feeling v successful #kayvswords #i started my sketchbook on march 11th and i have 5 pages left. wild. who am i