#it's been seriously stressing me out

[incorrect-riordanverse]

im so mad that this is a side blog account and not a main account. i started this blog when i was still relatively new to tumblr and i think i was… like. fourteen years old or something. i never thought i would continue for this long, and i never knew so many people would like the content i put out here (i have over 9k followers which is literally mind-blowing, like wow….).

because this isnt a main account, i cant respond to replies left on my posts, i cant really reply to anyone unless i reblog !! i cant even follow people with this blog, it just comes up as my main blog (which is not pjo-related… rip my failed attempts at organising my fandoms to different blogs). so my avenues of interaction with a lot of you are seriously impeded.

so i just want to say i am so thankful for all of you, i read every single person’s tags who reblog my stuff, i read all of your replies and every time im crying screaming rolling around on the ground in agony over the fact i CANT REPLY!!

i know my posts are super inconsistent these days, im glad so many are still here! i think i may change some of my content eventually (never gonna get rid of the incorrect quote stuff, i’ll just be adding some other things like pjo headcanons or analyses or something), just to spice some stuff up on here.

#also! im currently writing a fantasy book rn and have been so stressed over the fact that authors are expected to have a following before— #—reaching out to agencies with a manuscript. and i seriously stress about creating a following. #so my backup plan is literally you guys. my four year old pjo account on tumblr with its silly little quotes 😭😭 #and like. if that works. could you imagine. that you guys may actually save my future ??? like?? i love you guys for just following me bc ?? #YOU MAY SAVE ME FROM THE CAPITALIST PRESSURES OF SENSATIONALISING ONES OWN ART FOR INVESTED SUCCESS YAYYYYYY #anyways im not going to promote it now bc its still in the first draft area. not near for me to even go thru revisions yet. i may never- #-promote it on here. i dont want to annoy people with suddenly changing tracks. and i def wont transform this blog into a self promo for me- #-thats never going to happen! i would make another blog for it but for now everything’s just an idea! #i just wanted to say thank you because this has been giving me so much anxiety especially since graduating high school. the problems of— #—trying to be an author have become more pressing and immediate for me. i hope it will happen one day but who knows #you guys give me confidence though. and i literally cannot thank u guys enough (I HATEEEEE THE CAREER ANXIETY) #not riordanverse #not incorrect either #for followers #rewriting #sorry for the whole essay in the tags ☠️

[zebratimw]

#svsss #scum villains self saving system #shang qinghua #how I be feeling these days ahdnfjgkg #I keep stressing about life in general and its seriously bumming me out hajdjg #how nice it would be to not exist #everyday I wake up and do the same things I hate #time hasn't felt real in years and it goes way before covid times #I haven't felt real in most of those years either #Look I'm lucky I'm not like depressed or whatever but frankly this derealization shit is seriously startin to get a little worrying at times #tbf I only really notice it recently so maybe its just a bias #I've been chugging along this way for years all thats changed is my perception of it #but at the same time I really want to do more too #I get I'm a very boring and unreliable person #and I know I just said its my perception of it but like I do genuinely think my social skills my general living just like me mentally ig #I'm kinda deteriorating in my stagnation ig? artistically too but more worrying in my life idbfjg #priorities sorry anyways I also think I do have adhd or something and that rejection thing dhfjgjg I really can't start things anymore #idk I really just feel so clueless in most things now and I'm too scared or too confused or both to start fixing things #like how do I even fix things? what do I even search for in this kind of thing? #Idk I'm just gonna go sleep ig god I'm so tired of everything #I haven't been able to draw I've really lost passion for a lot of things again and everything irritates me #I can't stand my phone sometimes but it's kinda the only thing getting me through it all ha #ngl I wish I were depressed sometimes if only so I'd actually have the balls to do smth but Ik that's just the Metnally Ail part speaking so #chug chug going along #I also have to make wushi before I die. haha #god my life is so empty #what am I even doing #I'm really so tired why can't my life end here already? modern lifespans are too long how am I supposed to keep going on like this? #so pointless and vapid and its just me ? why did it have to be me that was born? couldn't someone else have been here I hate it here so much #I strive for nothing but I have such a long life and so many people to disappoint haha maybe I should go outside more

[serafilms]

(tbosas movie spoilers!!!) i think the worst part of tbosas for me was that coriolanus was right??? all those offhanded little comments he made 'on a whim' to try and 'help the tributes' and in turn save himself were right and it's horrifying to realise that he didn't need to try to think of them and try to be like his father bc he already was. from an audience perspective, i sat through the whole arena part of the movie disgusted by everything happening in it and begging for it to be over (it didn't really get better after all that but oh well). the deaths were more gruesome, the arena more terrifying and everything felt too real (i also watched it in imax idk if that helped). not that the deaths in thg and catching fire games weren't horrific, but in an offhanded movie fan way, i used to look forward to the arena. because it became exactly what dr gaul wanted it to be and what coriolanus realised it was and what lucy gray made it: a performance. in the 65 years after, they made the arenas interesting and real and natural and beautiful, with weapons and mutts and gifts and places to hide and places for open bloodshed, they interfered with the games to help and then kill their tributes (sound familiar? yeah thanks a lot coriolanus u bitch) and it was literally the most harrowing thing to sit there and watch the movie as i realised that it was entertaining to me to watch the first two movies because of that. we are no better than the citizens of the capitol and i just think that sucks.

#the hunger games #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #tbosas #ballad of songbirds and snakes #overall fantastic movie!!! horrible experience #I was so distraught and stressed and horrified #also didn't help that coronalius is a psychotic bitch ://// #heart him a little bit though #I stand by that if lucy gray hadn't left him he might have been salvageable bc yes he was a compulsive murderer #but I think his grief for sejanus was genuine #but maybe not bc I also stand by that lucy gray and snow are wrong person wrong time #she couldn't trust him #but I could please one chance #coryo pick me choose me #I'd never run away from u #justice for my boy sejanus though #when he stormed out of the broadcasting room I felt that #im roughly 30% through the book so I will strive to keep going #but seriously best movie I've seen this year excluding maybe atsv but I've seen that 4 times and I'm biased #ashley speaks !

[angeltannis]

A patient who thought I was “laughing and gossiping” about her came back today to speak to my boss, my boss’ boss, the director of the department, etc and said she’s going to go all the way to the president of the hospital to ensure I get fired. I’ve been stressed to hell about it, but the one upside is that dozens of people who work in my departments, some I don’t even talk to that much, have approached me to say they’ll defend me and that I have nothing to worry about. And it feels like the ending of MLP where everyone they ever befriended shows up to help them defeat the bad guys

#I’ve seriously been SO worked up about this that the stress threw my back out and I’ve had heart palpitations all day long #the stupidest part is that I was just filling my colleague in on the patient’s situation- #-what we were laughing about was my colleague telling me how she likes to torture and kill off her Sims lmao #the lady’s trying to invoke HIPAA which doesn’t apply at all in this case but hospitals get REAL scared about that kind of stuff #and my supervisor didn’t have my back at all lol #so like. I’m scared #at least a bunch of nurses and MAs and secretaries are on my side

[running-in-the-dark]

kinda disappointed with how this weekend went. I mean, it wasn't bad! but it was our first weekend in the new apartment, and I/we wanted to get a lot done. I already did a lot during the week (a lot for me, not a lot for most people I guess), but there's lots of things that I can't do/can't do on my own, either because I'm too short or not strong enough or I need someone else to hold something or whatever. which realistically just won't get done during the week because my husband works full time, so. it sort of sucks that only one very small, unimportant thing got done. 😔

#like. there's no rush. not really. #I mean we do get our kitchen in two weeks so we'll have to have space to install it then lol #but other than that it's fine #except everyone constantly makes me feel like it isn't. #they're so judgmental and shitty about it #yeah it's chaotic and messy as hell. there's boxes everywhere. we've only found some of our kitchen stuff so we're mostly eating microwave #meals with plastic utensils. all of that stuff #so fucking what? it doesn't affect any of them! I wish they'd just stop commenting on it but they don't. #well. at least it's just over the phone now. I haven't seen my or my husband's family since we moved in and I'm not planning to anytime soon #precisely because they will not stop doing this no matter how I react to it #like in what world would that ever do anything good? it doesn't motivate me to get shit done any faster. because guess what? I'm already #going as fast as I can. #like. I've had (maybe still have) a middle ear infection and been on antibiotics all week and I still got so much done! that's good enough #and this part is fun to me! I like that nothing is finished and everything is possible and new and different #it does also stress me out but so far it mostly feels like an adventure #anyway. I'm just venting but seriously why is everyone I know irl so mean all the time?! #personal

[j0nika]

sksjdj this made me laugh!

i didnt know what to put on the mug, i didnt know what might symbolize madoka, so i just drew a little mini kyubey💀

but lets just say its merch, in a timeline where madoka is actually a huge fan of madoka magica. and the mc is...homura!!!!

i think i just made a super cool au

(thanks for more of the super kind words! im glad you like the way i draw! i'm trying my best to stick with the style of madoka magica while still incorporating my own style in there, hope its working)

#aghhh im so grateful #you are super nice #thanks for the motivation for me to draw more mm!!!! #ive been struggling with finding fandoms that i fit into recently #and im finding so many different things that im interested in that its too much for my brain #so i keep feeling overwhelmed that i have to draw EVERYTHING because i want to!! #i just dont have the time energy or motivation #all the while trying to stick to my roots with danganronpa #im slowly forgetting danganronpa and how much i have a passion for it and its stressing me out #as much as i want to grow as a person i genuinely want to keep up with danganronpa and learn more about it! #im just in a stage where im discovering a lot of different things such as madoka magica and its a lot #because i feel the need to create create create everything i see #every scenario i really want to draw! #but theres too much!!! #i didnt even have the motivation to draw danganronpa (my one and only fandom) for a long long time #but now that im starting off strong with mm #i think ill really be able to get some creativity out there #it makes me happy that my art is enjoyable by you and others so #seriously thank you so much for your words and excitement about the things i make bc i need that sometimes! #even if it seems small like im overreacting #it is just really nice to hear a total stranger say that they like the things i make #i know its not just to make me feel better and that its genuine #ive never really had social media or posted the things im passionate about ever #this is honestly super new to me #so yeah #a little means a lot #sorry for ranting i just wanted to say that haha ty for reading

[cookinguptales]

if you want to know where I am on my "dealing with wwdits s5" journey, I've got like six long meta posts in my notes on my laptop that I just haven't posted. lmao

I'm. workin through it.

#wwdits tag #I'm going back and forth on whether they'll ever be posted tbh #part of me is like 'if you stop posting your thoughts because you were getting harassment then you're giving them what they wanted' #'and telling them that it works to harass people' #but part of me is like 'so fucking what I'm tired of getting harassed' #frankly I've been in the middle of a bad flare for the past few days and I realized that tumblr was stressing me out #which was making it worse #and it felt so stupid to let tumblr drama actively make my health worse which was why I just kind of... left #are other people seriously not getting all these messages #how is it that all of my friends instantly DMed me to complain about the finale #but I also got a bunch of shit from people who hate that I complained about the end of the finale #are you guys??? not getting these messages too??? #you hated it too are you not getting the fucking weirdos??? #what makes me so special and how do I stop being special lmao #me: you should just ignore them and do what you want and not let them get to you #also me: but why is the onus on me to not feel hurt when people actively try to hurt my feelings #I'm not built for being noticed lmao #but I got too many words in me to stay quiet #The Worst tbh

[dreamlogic]

2024 year of charlie gets a fucking break (hopefully. maybe. tbd.)

#ctxt #i'm on medication that's reduced my post-hysterectomy pain by about 70% #i have an intake appointment with a physical therapist in march & a referral to start trigger point injections #to hopefully finally recover as completely as possible from the nightmarish neuropathy that's plagued me since uuuhhhh #going on 2 years ago. holy shit. genuinely can't believe i've been surviving & functioning as well as i have for this long #while suffering a disabling & extremely painful surgical complication. fuck my original surgeon for brushing me off during that time #but the new provider i'm working with is so responsive & thorough in her approach & seems genuinely committed #to helping me finally get relief after all this time. she listens to my feedback & is flexible in her approach #and her assistant is a great communicator who's been handling most of the logistics of care coordination for me #and what a huge fucking relief that is. to not have to drag my doctors kicking & screaming towards maybe treating me eventually #i wanna cry. i finally feel like i'm being taken seriously and cared for. and i'm not BETTER yet (might never be the same as i was pre-op) #but i actually feel optimistic for the first time in over a year that i won't just have to deal with this agonizing pain on my own forever #i might actually see enough improvement that i can start to get back to living my life instead of just surviving it #money is tighter than it's been since i got laid off during early pandemic and that's stressing me out #but i promised myself that i would put my health first in 2024 and that means only working the bare minimum needed to pay my bills for now #genuinely i so fucking needed a break. i felt like i was trying to swim through a meat grinder last year #and it wasn't until i ended up in the ER about it that i finally was able to take my own pain seriously enough #to put my foot down & make some necessary changes that are now letting me focus on Getting Well With Myself at last #in hindsight it's like. really freaking me out how thoroughly i was able to compartmentalize & dissociate from how miserable i was #bc nobody who had the ability to help me would take me seriously & my shitty boss was like. extremely textbook emotionally abusive #and on one hand that was a survival mechanism that kept me on my feet during one of the worst times of my life. so props to myself there #but it was also very maladaptive how long & unnecessarily it went on before i snapped out of it & escalated things for my own safety #it was the same helpless frustration i often felt as a kid of like 'well nobody is on my side but me so i gotta suck it up & help myself' #and i think the family trauma shit that was going on last year definitely contributed to that. idk sense of doubling across time? #and things had to get Extremely Bad before they were bad enough for me to realize that although i felt like it #i am no longer an isolated & parentified island of a child who is beholden to the whims of ignorant & indifferent adults #i actually can and should take action to advocate for myself bc i am an adult and i CAN now change my circumstances as needed #instead of just enduring them as if i'm stuck there with no agency or chance to change things #and i have a really solid support system who helped me feel like it was possible to stand up for myself to get the help i desperately need #chronic blogging

[notadsmpblog]

Listen this shit breaks my heart too and I'm 100% willing to drop Wilbur if it's actually him, but the way some of y'all are actively (and very VERY furiously) taking sides about something that is intentionally being kept vague is kind of weird.

I have been through Amino, Wattpad witchhunts, and so much more. But it's so fucking weird how some of you guys are like "There is no doubt it has to be him!" or "There is no doubt it can't be him!" Shelby is keeping this shit vague for a purpose and Wilbur literally hasn't been on his Twitter in months. You guys are on the same level as those weirdos back in 2016 who would speculate about private things between children, stop it.

It's especially weird how you guys are making DEFENSE AND EVIDENCE posts for him. Stop playing lawyer and Sherlock! Just tell people there's evidence pointing to Wilbur if asked why he's involved, link whatever is needed, and stop making your goddamn threads/posts/whatevers!! I know I'm overusing the word weird, but it's the only way I can describe this. You're not helping her by trying to piece together who it is when she probably FEARED THIS HAPPENING, especially if it IS him.

Stop defending Wilbur for your life. Stop fighting Wilbur through the screen for your life. This parasocial shit is getting out of hand, you don't know either of them. Support Shelby.

#Wilbur Soot #I seriously hate making and tagging original posts on this account but it has to be said #I'm a sutvivor of abuse (though not relationship wise) and people speculating had to have been one of my greatest fears #She was brave enough to come out about it and y'all are NOT HELPING!!!!! #// abuse #tw abuse #abuse #Adding on to accentuate a point I made in the post: #It's so disgusting how you guys are trying to act as though Wilbur is confirmed to be an abuser #And how you're such a moral standard for doing so #Cut that shit out!! Because if it is him you're stressing Shelby out and if it isn't you're STILL stressing her out #I'm not even saying this as a big Wilbur stan I'm saying this as a goddamn survivor of abuse #Also before anyone misinterprets: If you feel attacked by me saying 'you guys' you're probably the target audience!

[ssreeder]

Hey!! I just wanted to say thanks for all your hard work <3<3

I had been a little down when it came to creating more content or being involved in Zukka side of the fandom but seeing your update reminded me to just have fun. And okay this is going to sound bad but I swear I mean this as a compliment; I thought I was wasting my time working for months and years on the stuff I made, but then I realized your fic series brings me so much joy and I'd never, ever judge you for the amount of effort you put into your writing. Seeing it's actually inspiring, to see that someone holds that much passion and creativity and you are sharing it all for FREE. That a person could take all this time to intricately weave together a story, create memorable OCs, breathe new life and make the ATLA world so much bigger than it ever was in canon.

So thanks for accidentally giving me a kick in the butt to stop being judgy about my own work and making me realize you and every fan creator is AWESOME.

I hope you have a wonderful day, your writing is a blessing.

awwww I wanted to say thank you for sending me this ask! I know it’s not easy to put yourself out there, even on anon, so I think it’s cool you felt confident enough to come here and tell me about how you’re feeling.

I don;t think what you’re saying is bad at all haha, because honestly, I feel the same way. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve wondered why the fuck am I still doing this? What’s the point? Do people even still care? What if it’s not good enough? What if people discover I have no fucking idea what I’m doing? Why am i spending so much of my time and effort doing this?? I mean… the self doubt is super real, and shiiiiiit let me discover one person that feeds into my self doubt and I’m full on spiraling haha. (Be nice to creators damn it! we are doing our damn best lol)

I’m really glad you think my fic is awesome, and if it weren’t people like you reminding me, I probably would have given up a long time ago haha. I do give my fic a lot of effort, and I hope you continue to give your creations the same amount of love and effort! I’m sure you’re amazing, and seriously don’t give up! I care about your creations and if I don’t get to stop neither do you! WOHOOO!!

Thanks for the ask anon sorry it took me so long to answer

#I am the kind of person who is like AWWWW NO ASKS… #then I get an ask and I’m like YAY ASK!!! #& then I;m like OH NO HOW DO I ANSWER THIS ASK!?!?!? #but then if I don’t get an ask in a while I assume everyone hates me and then the cycle starts over again when I get another ask #but seriously anon DON’T STOP CREATING!!!!! #I wish the voices in our head weren’t constantly trying to discredit us #I also think the pressure we put on ourselves to be good enough is fucking dumb #like who cares if people like reblog comment kudo all that stuff #but ugh we all care so much #I love that you see all my passion and creativity in LIAB because I do put a lot of effort into that stupid fic #and yeah it stresses me out but when I see that it brings people joy and its worth it #& its not even that it’s stressful to write #I fucking love writing it #but yeah don’t think you’re alone with the ‘what’s the point’ thoughts #I’m sure we’ve all been there #at least I know I have been there #and kind of still am in there hahaha #thanks for this ask anon I hope I didn’t ramble too much #I hope you show me when you create something new! I’d love to see it #LIAB #ask

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

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#these past two weeks have been so intense that ive just.. not spoken about it once i got home from work #blocked it all out #my beloved colleague whose desk is next to mine has cancer #breast and uterus. she needs two major surgeries #they just diagnosed her two weeks ago #so we've been trying to deal with that as colleagues and friends #because we love and miss her and i am so deeply sad as well #but i feel like i couldn't process that at all bc two days after the news of her diagnosis i was asked to take on half of her work #on top of my fulltime #which i agreed to do bc i like her tasks and i want to help her and i also know i can do it #but it does feel very off bc i know i don't earn enough money for this workload to be long term and it is def like this #for the coming four months at least #so i did tell my manager that i would like a raise and. that bitch told me to BUY MORE SECOND HAND SHIT. #i seriously thought i saw my life flash before my eyes #then the day after she asked one of my colleagues who's been with the firm for over 30 years whether she was looking for another job maybe? #which caused that colleague to instantly go home in tears and be home from basically a nervous breakdown the past 1.5 week #which is her full right and i support her with all my heart but bc my management sucks it meant that we had to also carry her tasks ofc #i felt soooo spread thin and super super angry actually but i didn't even realise how angry i was until last thursday my colleague w cancer #came by the office. and talked about all of it. and i suddenly realised how sad i was but then also how angry #but i was just blocking it all out trying to stay afloat #bc we told her about what the manager had said and she said “i hope that i get the chance to really tell her how it is someday.” #“because the stress she causes with people can actually kill you. just look at me.” #and the rest of the day i felt so ready to be done with everything actually #but seeing her anger made me see my own anger #and released me of my own pent up emotions bc i had actual leg pains this week and it was purely psychosomatic #i then managed to tell some friends yesterday about what was going on and their outrage spurred me on even more #so today i emailed hr. demanding a raise #doing this amount of work while constantly feeling like the house is on fire while also struggling financially seriously makes me suicidal #and i am not joking #so.. if nothing comes of that im leaving that job and not looking back

[ducktracy]

I'm not sure if this has been brought up yet, but as I caught myself doing it, I realized it was very likely a good chunk of others are also - I think having the racist parts included in the poll is going to heavily skew the data anyway because people will, very likely, not feel able to vote for something racist in good conscience, and so the votes the racist screams would have gotten if they weren't racist are lost, thus making the data unusable due to personal bias. not even considering the number of people abstaining completely, dropping the pool of data further! I'm not aware if this has been broached yet, but I think it's definitely worth noting that the data for the racist clips will always be untrustworthy, even if the scream itself is good. On top of all of the other reasons why they should be omitted ofc!

GOD YEAH. i feel so dumb going “🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔 well gee you make a good point there 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔” all contemplatively because i’m realizing that was my intent too, in that “well hopefully they’ll whittle down as the rounds go further and further” has been constantly harping on my mind. but that absolutely feeds into everything you laid out too, which, again, i DEEPLY appreciate.

i’ll be doing that, then, in that i think it’s the safest and SMARTEST course of action. it’s likewise been pointed out that the setting is a little different here than if i were doing one of my analyses, in that i’m still making it available to vote for one of those options, and that interactive element innately delegitimizes the harm/makes light of it under the guise of a poll.

i was conflating that perspective with my analyses, which IS often a more objective presentation of “okay: this is it. here is the historical context. here is how a more modern perspective impacts how it currently stands” and forgetting that polls are polls. you’re voting on them. they’re going to get spread around and viewed as a game. and they are! and i was viewing the polls from the same archivist lens as the rest of my blog, when, due to the intrinsic nature of how these polls works, you can’t really do that. it’s not the same presentation. i do view this as a historical archival of the progression of these cartoons, how Mel Blanc’s voice changes and adapts through voice direction and even the impact of history on these shorts (like, the shorts made during the WWII years are much more energetic than the domesticity of the post-war cartoons. there’s more yelling to be found in the WWII era shorts for that reason) and i was getting too lost in that and sticking to my guns of “all of this is history and deserves to be acknowledged and accounted for fairly, if/especially describing how well or poorly something has aged, otherwise it’s not history” and that doesn’t… really… work… for these polls.

i can’t believe it’s taken weeks for me to come to this realization and again, i sincerely thank you and everyone else who has called me out on this or offered other means of perspective. it was pure ignorance on my behalf, and i do want to make it known that it was never my intention to perpetuate these stereotypes and caricatures further nor harm anyone. but, obviously, prefacing it with “my intentions were good!” doesn’t negate the very real and serious harm these caricatures and i myself have caused by spreading them in such a leisurely context (or lack thereof).

as mentioned before, i take the safety and comfort of my followers and readers incredibly seriously, ESPECIALLY with the nature of these cartoons. and it’s exactly why i’m so adamant about asking people (such as yourself) to speak up and call me out, let me know what i’ve done wrong, so i can apologize, take accountability, and move forward. those disclaimers aren’t a way to avoid accountability or make it seem like i have a free pass to discuss racism. i really do mean them with every ounce of my heart, so i deeply, deeply, deeply appreciate people such as yourself acting out on those messages. thank you.

i will be excising any future deplorable examples that come up (that, thankfully, have been very few and far between, i’m up to 1948 in logging these and have “only” run into 2 that would apply) and am just going to cut any of the winners out that survived and are going into Round 2. it’s not worth it. none of it has been, but definitely, if i’m constantly thinking to myself “it’ll whittle down!” then maybe we ought to restructure our thinking now haven’t we. funny how that works.

thank you again and my deepest and most sincere apologies. i feel like a complete and utter heel for my negligence—especially because the gut instinct of “just don’t put them in there” was there all along. but, again! these exact situations are why i stress the importance of calling me out on my BS. i’m likewise deeply aware of literally just how silly this entire thing sounds, because none of this should have ever been a problem because i just shouldn’t have included them in the first place! but i did, and i take full accountability, and the harm has already been done. so i just ask and thank you for your patience, understanding and forgiveness, but completely understand that nobody—especially those harmed by my ignorance—is entitled to give it to me.

nobody ever deserves to be confronted nor harmed with such egregious stereotypes, even/especially if said stereotypes are peddled under the guise of objectivity or historical preservation. a poll is not a history site. likewise, nobody deserves to be alienated over cartoons. i post what i post because i want to share the same overflowing love and passion and joy i feel for animation history with others. i love learning new factoids. i love being educated. i love feeling like i’m learning, like i’m indulging in an intimate slice of life from a bygone era. i want to share that same love and passion and joy to my followers. i’m here to make people laugh and to make people smile. i’m here to remind people of long buried memories, or to inspire them to make new ones and investigate these cartoons themselves. i’m here to preserve the history of these cartoons within their proper contexts, and do what i can to ensure i’m doing that safely and smartly and in a way that benefits everyone. and i’m not going to accomplish any of that by slipping needlessly horrendous caricatures in something as inconsequential as a poll on which clip sounds funnier or more impressive or whatever and causing the harm.

so, sincerely, thank you.

#there are a few Hitler caricatures coming up that i may similarly apprehend—the shorts are making fun of him and Blanc of course is Jewish #but it’s just not worth it for the reasons above. a poll isn’t the proper context for it #i know i’ve been making a lot of big grandiose responses and apologies and posts lately and i know those can come off as pious and hard to #take seriously. and those who do not feel they owe it to me to take them seriously don’t have to. again i’m not owed anything #but i do hope to stress that this all comes from a very genuine place and that i mean every word #i really do genuinely feel absolutely terrible. and obviously the only direction is forward. nobody is asking for me to feel terrible and #what’s done is done i’ve caused the harm i’ve caused and the best thing i can do is own up to it apologize and not repeat my mistakes #so. i know long messages like these can come off as guilt trippy or manipulative but i really am just speaking from the heart (and you guys #know me i never shut up) #so. thanks for listening and thanks for reaching out. i appreciate it immensely. #gothglam #asks

[nekrophoria]

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#Don't mind me I just need to vent real quick #Ignore this post by all means #Just feeling anxious af right now #Have barely been able to sleep the last two weeks #Plus I'm feeling even more I'll than usual and it just won't pass #Might be down to lack of sleep ofc #Or stress #Cuz I'm basically stressed 24/7 for no reason #Eitherway my gut keeps telling me something is seriously wrong #Like I'm seriously ill #But ofc I can't tell whether that's just anxiety #My doctor just gives me a shrug whenever I show up there #And getting a therapist in this economy is almost impossible #They don't even put you on waiting lists anymore cuz they're just too long #I wouldn't even know which type of therapy to go for anymore #Cuz my diagnoses are a giant cluster fuck and I don't know what to tackle first #It's just a tad bit overwhelming at times #Sorry #Needed to let this out somewhere real quick #Illness tw #Mental illness tw #nonsims #saviorhide

[scalproie]

I WONDER WHY, HEIHACHI

ARE WE GONNA MENTION THE CLIFF, HEIHACHI

#[heihachi voice] he hated me for no reason because he was eeeviiil #but seriously like I once said: yes he had been rotten and had the potential for great evil because hes the son of an also evil billionaire #who took away his king grandpa and mother. and i cannot stress this enough THREW HIM OFF A CLIFF. AGE 5. #I SURE WONDER WHY HE TURNED OUT EVIL WHEN HIS EVIL GENETIC METABOLISM HAD EVERY REASON TO MANIFEST #tho to clarify: in this instance i dont think its bad writing. i think heihachi manipulating like crazy #tagging later

[pessimisticprincess]

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#i think my period is all fucked up because of how especially stressed ive been #either that or something is seriously wrong again which is also stressing me out #just got it for the 3rd time in a month:/ so i’m going to the doctor tuesday #its been really bad and really painful each time of course #it makes me wanna cry dude i hope its not going to be a whole thing

[alphashley14]

I commute college and as a directionally challenged person I figured something out this semester that my mutuals with cars may find useful.

When you need to go somewhere urban/that has a parking deck, don’t enter the address of your destination into your GPS. Instead enter the address of the parking deck into your GPS.

That way it takes you to the shortest route to where you have to park instead of the shortest route to get there. Cuz you gotta put your car somewhere before you do anything else.

Cuz let me tell you, if I just enter the address of my school into my GPS it always leads me to an entrance/spot way on the opposite side of campus. So realizing that I could instead use the address of the parking deck itself has been a lifesaver.

#Seriously figuring this out has been a lifesaver this semester #if I just enter the address of my school into my GPS it always leads me to an entrance/spot way on the opposite side of campus #cars #car ownership #driving #commuters #college #college stress #travel