#it's an anatomy problem i know

[what-am-i-doing-in-this-fandom]

I am a Cole/Geo truther 4 life 🤞😤

#LISTEN there is NO heterosexual explanation for these lines #they're in love- it's not up to me- but they're in love #also GEO'S CHARACTER DESIGN????? #SO good #other character's design's: 😍 - all the ninja designs: ...😕🙁😐😒 #how'd they know to coordinate their outfits??? #cole's art #lego ninjago #lego ninjago dragons rising #lego ninjago dragons rising spoilers #geo ninjago #geo ninjago dragons rising #lego ninjago cole #lostshipping #saw someone use that so i'm stealing it 😋 #ignore any mistakes hehe i /just/ started getting decent at anatomy #and my perspective still sucks so ignore any problems with that too <33 #cole x geo

[feline-evil]

Hiding my shirt that says 'i am not normal about narratives that imply an inanimate inhabited structure is a living breathing organism' as i walk into a board room and pitch my idea that we should make more horror revolving around living architecture

#jay talkin #I JUST. I JUST. i'm thinking about old haunted house movies that have this grimy sticky feeling to the house #where the evil is not just afflicted to wood and bricksbut eminates from it as a hatred #the house itself hates you. the voice screaming get out is born on the vocal chords of the hallway #i am also thinking about The Hotel the podcast you should all already be streaming CHOP CHOP CMON NOW #which is of course a more unique and i would say more abstract sister to this concept #(said deeply positively the concepts and horror explored make my brain ping pong rapidly) #which is another reason you should be listening because it does its own thing that i think you should listen to and discover yrself :) #(and also it is far more than this this is just a tiny SLITHER of what is explored go listen NEOW) #and i am also thinking about. drum roll please. you know whats coming. yes it could be nothing else #kitty horrorshows anatomy which is TO THIS DAY one of the best and most influential games upon me i have played #a game that pushes this concept to its core grotesque emotional fleshy pulp and runs with it #anatomy is a game that breeds in anxiety and discomfort and bleeds a sincere love in the horror it portrays #that love is something i yearn to see in horror media! it is also present in the hotel AHEM AHEM #but yes anatomy is an experience like no other that you really should experience for yourself #(glances down at my shirt) um. um ok so ill leave the board meeting now thank you for listening #dear god my pain medcin kicked in and i instantly became the worlds least normal man didnt i. WELL!!! thats all of youse problem now

[ilovelawrencee]

i officially don't know how to draw sammy lawrence. and it makes me very sad.

because he is my favorite character. and it always looks horrible when i try to draw it.

i don't know how to draw men.

#bendy #bendy and the ink machine #sammy lawrence #i just wanted to draw sammy and feel proud of the drawing #i'm not good with anatomy. and that's the biggest problem here #sammy has such a simple appearance. but drawing him is so difficult and stressful. i just wanted to draw as well as the people i know #i hate it

[wildtornado-o]

Art for my Roman Survives Neo Dies AU (the bg is kind of just slapped on lol)

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#Roman: I am literally going to kill you Oscar: I dont even know who you are!! #Problems of being a farm boy #Roman Torchwick #Oscar Pine #SORRY IF THE ANATOMY IS OFF.... I used a smearframe from something as a ref #Please dont tag this as anything weird I am begging... #rwby #my art #Neo dies AU #was it ever said where Oscar came from? #edit: ok so Oscar is from Mistral! which is what I guessed :) Is it ever specified where in mistral hes from or is it just mistral in gen #Itd be really fun to me if both Oscar and Roman were from windpath #loveee information thats basically useless but fun nonetheless

[tesseractrave]

I should update my Happy Mask Salesman headcanons. Some are very outdated since a mass amount of new information has been brought to my attention, but I've also just thought of new ones. Like... he cuts his own hair. Little things like that.

#My biggest problem is that I tend to go overboard with headcanons #I'll need to know every nook and cranny about them #from the way they walk to the way they take their tea #where they get their food and what times they sleep #I have done too much consideration into which muscles in the happy mask salesman's body would be the most toned bc of his backpack #and all the walking he does #and how much he works with his arms #his entire body and anatomy is mapped out in my mind #yes even there

[thecarelessvoice]

Honestly wasn't sure if it was a good idea or not but here goes nothing:

Recreating a frame by frame disney kiss scene but with 💫Wangxian💫

Ps. If you like my works you can visit my profile and buy me a coffee from the link i put in my bio, that would make me very happy ^^

#yes i used pocahontas as reference cuz its my favourite disney movie ^^ #yes the overall anatomy has major problems TT #i did this instead working on my thesis cuz that one is going NOWHERE 🤦🏻‍♀️ #it's been a long while since i attempted to draw close-to anime characters #once again animating is so fuckin #also will i ever correct the lines or do the coloring for this??? no one knows :)))) #i will shut up now #wangxian #my art #animatic #mo dao zu shi #wei wuxian #lan wangji #the untamed #mdzs

[kithj]

decent video covering the work of kitty horrorshow. for the most part he just goes through each game and relays the plot, but it is interesting to see them all laid out together, how they are similar and how her work has evolved and the common themes that she keeps revisiting in each one. his analysis mainly focuses on the Places that she explores in her games; the environments, the haunted houses, and how they are all "built wrong." he talks about haunting of hill house, house of leaves, myhouse.wad, vivarium, and a few other movies towards the end.

my own ramblings about some of the games under the cut :-)

one thing i've always projected onto haunted houses, and especially some of the hostile, haunted places prevalent in kitty horrorshow's work, is a trans narrative *everyone pretends to be shocked*

sagan does mention this briefly in the video, and he admits that it's not his personal interpretation that he plans to talk about (which is totally fine) but that is very obviously there, these themes of autonomy and transformation in these works all go hand in hand with gender identity, with the trans/nb experience.

so when people talk about a house being "built wrong" it always reminds me of the trans narrative of "born in the wrong body." i know this isn't necessarily a mindset a lot of people still agree with anymore now that our language around being trans has evolved, but i also know there are some people that do still feel this way regardless, and even if we don't completely consider ourselves "born in the wrong body" i think the majority of us do have a very... contentious relationship with our bodies.

i always see a house that is intent on haunting you as a body that is inhospitable.

we see people in kitty horrorshow's work that try and change the world around them, or failing that, that literally change themselves. in rain, house, eternity, the structure we've been traversing is someone who has broken free of her physical form and been reborn into something that she chose for herself, after her community forced her down a path that she did not want. sagan brings this up again at the end of his analysis, where he talks about the way the environment is molded by the player as well as the way the player is molded by the environment. he mentions the movie vivarium, and how people are forced into these littles boxes (ie the nuclear family, gender roles, preconceived stereotypes, etc), whether they want it or not, by their environment and the societal expectations that are a part of that.

but again, the environment can also be molded by the player; it is influenced by the characters within the narrative. the environment grows flesh and teeth and has a heartbeat and i like this idea that our environment is alive and is also flesh and blood that can be reflected back at us. it could be cathartic or horrifying depending on how you feel about your body, about your experiences, about how society perceives you. in the end we can become the structure, we can change ourselves and become our environment, undefinable and infinite, or we can be restricted by it, and forced into something we don't want-- made inhospitable.

there is both a lack of agency in the house being built, but a reclamation in the haunting as someone or something transitions and fills the empty rooms with a new form. stone to flesh or flesh to stone as it is in rain, house, eternity, or drywall to glitches and blood like in anatomy. inhospitable but at least it's mine.

in 000000FF0000, the game itself doesn't even want to be found. it's a living thing that's hidden itself away and is in great pain. it's restricted by its own code, it longs for the seasons and the sea but it can only think about the cages it's been locked in. the only agency it finds is in shutting itself down after the player reaches a certain point. we are forced to be perceived by others, by society, even when we are in pain, even when we aren't really ourselves, due to how we look, how we were born, or whatever other cages society has put us in. the lack of autonomy, the lack of control in our own creation... this game is actually one of the ones that have stuck with me the most, i think it's extremely well executed and impactful and is possibly her second best behind anatomy.

and then there's circadia-- the girl returning to her childhood home, seeing her childhood and memories and her body reflected back at her in this house. wanting to hurt it, feeling trapped by it and how she used to be. the people there that don't really see her as she is now, the trauma literally in the walls. she laments her apartment, missing it "like a lover" because that's the place she carved out for herself versus this house she was forced into, this house that's always there and always waiting for her to come back even though she clearly never wants to come back.

when you're trans, there are always people trying to get you to "come back," to be like you used to be. looking back at yourself, childhood photos and old memories of when people treated you differently. your body a new space now but there are still the bones of that old house you left behind. the world trying to force you back into the house even if it doesn't fit anymore, even if it's painful, even if all you can do is haunt it.... the code in 000000FF0000 confining the game to exist in one way even though it hurts them, no other option but to bury themselves deep in various folders within your computer and hoping to never be found. hiding from the world because there are people that insist these things are hardcoded into your biology, that predetermine how you have to live and there is no other way for you to live. and if you go against that code it breaks the game for them... does that make sense?

and in rain, house, eternity, she demolishes the house and turns herself into stone, she finds autonomy despite what the game wants and what the world wants. indefinable and infinite because there is no binary and the walls of this house are your house to destroy and rebuild as many times as you want in any way that you want.

i definitely recommend kitty horrorshow's work if you've never played any of her games before. she's most well known for anatomy, which i didn't really touch on because it's so popular (for good reason) she does have a few twine games, hornets and wolfgirls in love, and then circadia is just a 5 page flash-fiction. and of course i also super recommend rain, house, eternity, and 000000FF0000. i already linked her itch page up there but here it is again! check her out.

#fellow kitty h. o7 #wow sorry i got annoying under the cut lmfao #stopped abt halfway cus anatomy is pretty well covered at this point and with the haunted cities collections #i'd like to play more of them myself #anyways im sure someone has made this analysis before but its not something ive seen myself #idk the idea of a house being alive and trapped and unable to change and haunting its occupants.... #it feels. familiar. sometimes i feel like im haunting myself #this problem i have where my body is not me #maybe houses feel like that too. you know? #lmfao <- throwing that in to make this less serious teehee #video #dare i put this in the IF tag? sure why not #interactive fiction #games

[fisshontoast]

ID: a digital illustration of my oc, Osian. It is a person with deer ears, antlers, gold eyes with a black sclera, short dark hair and very pale skin. It is wearing a red waistcoat and dark red trousers, as well as light tan coloured boots. It's antlers are decorated with gold jewelry, and it also has gold earrings. It is kneeling on the ground, one arm out to its side, the other slightly in front of it. It is looking towards the viewer with a small smile. The background has a solid black shadow to the right below osian, and a bright white light on the left, as well as a grid pattern on the remaining space and a wonky red frame around the whole image, made up of straight lines. /end ID

What if osian had. Boob

#my art #art #artists on tumblr #digital art #oc art #oc:osian #osian gets to be a bit of a girl this time. Because reasons <3 #no explanation for this btw I just love drawing it it's so fun #do I know how the anatomy is working in this drawing. No!!! I also dont care. Not my problem <333

[a-scary-lack-of-common-sense]

Who da hell draws people in the middle of battle? [all hands points at Sniper]

#I KNOW HE WOULDN’T BECAUSE IT AIN'T PROFFESIONAL BEHAVIOR BUT SHHH- LET ME HAVE THIS #JUST IMAGINE THAT HE DOES DRAW ONCE EVERY BLUE MOON WHEN THERE'S A LULL IN THE BATTLE IDK #tf2 #team fortress two #tf2 sniper #ig?? #tf2 scout #scout tf2 #my art #tf2 fanart #tfw you cant draw clothes for shit but you got no problem with anatomy #except for faces- faces can go screw themselves. all my homies hate drawing faces #silly chatters

[mikealys-ael]

Sooo huuuuuhhh @clxckwork-sun-n-moon convinced me to draw my fnaf sona with Blu because ngh I may have a crush no I won't post the second kiss *squeak like a dog toy*

Also we were talking once about two of our ocs meeting and I drew a little something (right before I changed Yance design woops)

#fnaf oc #yance skorpio #I know there are anatomy problems here and there but they aren't commissions so I don't knock myself over it too much

[toastsnaffler]

sorry for being such a hater but fr would it fucking kill the hades devs to make their buff women ACTUALLY beefy. what are we doing to our beautiful queens 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#i know i said this earlier but with every new gifset another part of me dies 💔 #theres so much diversity in the male gods and then the women are either like. dainty waif or muscular but still skinny 💀 #i cant do this anymore..... please........ #if u know me u know my eternal beef with hades but listen i genuinely do rly love the artstyle and the gameplay had sooo much potential #like i was tentatively looking forward to hades 2 bc maybe theyd fix some of the problems i had w the first one.... #but it looks like theyve made it worse. just SUCH a shame bc the art is so gorgeous why have they completely forsaken basic anatomy #sigh. hate feeling so alone in this too like i already know the games gonna blow up all over the dash with ppl thirsting when it comes out #im sure itll still look cool but i dont think i can take 5 million posts abt whoevers gonna be white twink of the day number 79263 #may have to block the tag. saaad 😔 #.diaries

[lucalicatteart]

A character reference sheet sort of thing for the main character of the Poll Adventures, drawn more in my usual style (taking a picture of messy pencil sketches then coloring it digitally lol) rather than the cutesy ms paint style of the daily poll images .. there he is.. the adventure boy..

#paventure posting #sketches #I haven't drawn for real in a long time.. I forget how much I dislike coloring lol #I think if I did Neat Digital Art Lines that you can color in with the fill bucket tool it would be different but #since I can only really draw on phyiscal paper with a pencil and then just put that on the computer the lines are all too #messy for that to work. So I basically have to color it all coloring book style which is tedious #Honeslty I really like... physical art. like sculptures. and I like pencil and pen sketching . But I really dont like #most digital art at all. The exception is in MS paint for some reason. I think because I can use the bucket fill tool lol #and the pixelly lines give it some texture still. My main problem with digitial art lines is that they don't look like pencil on paper they #'re too “clean” like no scratchy messy texture looking stuff. Which I know you can use different brushes. I've tried. it just doesnt #have the same feel to it. ANYWAY.. Definitely need to practice more hjbjhb.. my anatomy and drawing fabrics and stuff #has gotten much more wonky than it used to be I think. but I've just been focusing so much more on writing #than drawing. Or only drawing the occasional sketch that goes along with writing (like worldbuilding stuff) #aside from Ms paint stuff I probably haven't really DRAWN like a full body sketch or face #or anything like that in maybe a year or more. yoink #OH ALSO i know his boots are different now because the poll voted to give him new boots ghjhbjb #I drew this before then. I actually thought more people would vote for the coat ToT #I wanted to draw him in a cool robe or something and have that be an addition to his outfit #instead just the shoes change. which aren't even visible in all drawings :( #A little purple outer coat. his favorite color. But alas. #And yeah the string that laces up his main tunic coat thing is technically like a tan yellowy sort of color but I usually #just draw it as black because it's easiest. especially with ms paint and doing really thin lines #also his hair is a little ridiculous and doesn't translate well from chibi type image to realistic but I tried gh.. the bangs lol...

[cambriancutie]

"i have to make my art weirder" VS. "i need to focus on anatomy more"

#aghh #i think my anatomys fine atm theres some exaggerated parts but #my main problem is that i feel like theres not enough weight... their just bags full of air #(no one knows what im talking about)

[pankomako]

"gurl why you so strong even though you dont work out" haha yeah i wonder (probably extra testosterone (my god-given hrt) (they dont even know))

#like that HAS to be the case right. there is much evidence #i had my blood drawn to check for thyroid problems before maybe we were checking the wrong hormones #god relegated my creation to one of his angels and it fucked up bad but he's slowly fixing me he's always got a plan #he said 'naw this bitch is a dude. body hair and adam's apple' and everyone else is stupid for not seeing it #i used to think what i was feeling in my neck WAS my thyroid but i know better now thanks to my anatomy class

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#let me express to u perhaps The frustration of my life #i like to learn. it is perhaps my favorite thing. new information. more more more constantly #but. my fucking brain is the fucking worst. because im not fucking stupid if i can focus and process the words being said i can understand #many things. i like to learn about math and physics and chemistry and biology and anatomy... ect concepts #but the focus and the processing of words is where we have problems. because i cannot focus for more than like 5min #i blink and suddenly ive been spaced out for a sec and need to reorient. i cant prioritize what to do 1st and im constantly bouncing betwee #tasks so nothing ever gets done and im too intimidated to start learning things. and when im trying to learn we habe the processing words #problem. like my reading comprehension is so fucking bad. like i will read a book on paper and maybe retain 25% of the info if im not #hardcore trying. for a class where i had to do a ton of paper reading. i had to read everything out loud to myself. highlight important #info. write myself a summary based on the highlights and then read the paper again before i could even begin to feel comfortable in #discussions. it was so fucking frustrating and miserable. ppl will give me physical books and im like thanks i cant fucking read sorry #too fucking dyslexic. read and listen they say. u have to read and listen at the same time bc i cant pay attention and i cant read #so if i do both then maybe the info gets in. thats y i have to read aloud but i hate it and still get distracted #i mean. i probably just have an attention problem. its also really annoying that my short term working memory is so awful #bc in order to make things make sense i have to draw or write them out. i cant judt go off the top of my head or i get stuck saying thr sam #thing over and over and over. its like my ability to think is extremely shallow. but thrn i read papers and recognize concepts from classes #i took years ago and im like. fucking y cant i know what i know? my head feels so empty but info is in there somewhere #its just so fucking frustrating that i love understanding systems so much. complex annoying little systems that fit together like a puzzle #and my fucking brain refuses to accept the information im trying to get in there. so i return to a remark left on my dyslexia assignment: #intelligent when not constrained by language or time. thanks. unfortunately language is how ppl communicate #also i freak out under time pressure lol. anyway ive just been reading papers for fun this weekend and remembering y i dont: bc its agony #but also i fucking love the concepts so much and i need a good understanding of photosynthesis before August when i join a photosynthesis #lab lmao. ugh. i love learning but my brain was not buildmt #built for it. if only if only someone could podcast about the obscure things im interested in while reading directly from the source #unrelated #also its like 105 degrees plus. its too fucking hot out #thats like 40 degrees C. the sun is like a death ray

[rattusn0rvegicus]

Bro they really be trying to put four year olds on antipsychotics... crazy shit

#Look I have very mixed and confusing feelings about the fact that I didn't receive any psychiatric treatment at all until I was 19-20 and #didn't get antipsychotics until I was 22-23. But like... #The pendulum can swing way too far in the other direction too #I'm reading Anatomy of an Epidemic and oh I'd love to have a conversation with Robert Whitaker about my case #<- grew up fundie Christian and very extremely anxious and then obsessive compulsive and then psychotic and depressed #(but did not receive any medical care for it whatsoever) #While I think meds would have helped me I also think that the average modern American psychiatrist solution of like #'throw more and more drugs at the problem until they go away and throw drugs at the side effects of those drugs' is. Bad #Idk what I'm saying tbh #I know for a fact my issues (aside from at least part of my emotional numbness) aren't iatrogenic. I was Very Mentally Ill from the start #And while I do consider my utter lack of care as a kid/teen/young adult to be some form of neglect it's like #The alternative (the modern American psychiatric system) was NAWT good either #I don't know a single person who's on meds who doesn't have some sort of complicated relationship with them and all I'm saying #is they shouldn't be treated as a magic bullet #Hell *I* have very complicated feelings about my meds and I haven't really been *harmed* by them just... Chilled Out Too Much #ANYWAYS #This book is kind of shitty towards ppl on SSDI (kind of implying that they're a Burden To The Country) which is gross #but otherwise I'm enjoying it