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slayfics · 5 months

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Explosive Tendencies a slow burn fanfic about the readers developing relationship with Katsuki Bakugo.

Chapter four: You study with Katsuki.

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With the completion of the internships, the end-of-term tests were coming up. You sat at your desk studying but couldn't help but wonder how your classmates were doing.

Everyone had gone into a frenzy in class about meeting up to study and being prepared. Multiple students had planned to go over to Momo's since she was at the top of the class. But since you weren't explicitly invited, you didn't want to show up. You still hadn't really connected too much with your other classmates.

You also overheard Eijiro and Katsuki make plans to study at a diner today. Fuck it I'll show up there, you thought. Katsuki did kind of owe you for fixing his hair anyway. Worst case if they seemed super irritated by it you could play it off as if you were just going to that diner regardless. That seemed a lot easier than randomly showing up at Momo's house considering you hadn't even spoken to her much yet.

You made your way over to the diner and almost as soon as you entered you were greeted with an overly enthusiastic "Hey!" that made you jump.

Eijiro had spotted you right away and waved at you to come over. Katsuki turned around with his usual annoyed expression to see who Eijiro had so openly invited to their table.

"Oh it's you," Katsuki mumbled.

"Hey, how's the studying going?" You asked, making your way over to their table.

"Uh, not so good," Eijiro laughed. "Bakugo's trying his best but I think I'm hopeless. Sit down and join us!" He said, smiling at you.

You reluctantly sat down next to Eijiro feeling a bit anxious. Aside from the times Katuski had snuck into your room, this was the first time you had spent outside of the classroom with any of your classmates.

"I'm kind of surprised you're not at Yaoyorozu's with everyone else," Eijiro stated.

"I wasn't really invited, and I didn't want to just invite myself like everyone else," You replied.

"You had no problem inviting yourself here," Katsuki said, looking up at you from his book.

You felt frozen, guess you didn't pull off pretending to just accidentally come to the same diner.

"Ah don't be so mean Bakugo, maybe they can help me. I know you are at your wits end with me," Eijiro said, laughing.

"Yeah whatever," Katsuki grumbled.

"Now that I think about it, I guess I really haven't seen you hang out with the others much," Eijiro stated curiously.

You're face flushed at his words, was it really that obvious that you hadn't befriended anyone in your class? "I uh.. well..." You stuttered trying to figure out how to answer him.

"Hey dumb ass, are you going to chat their ear off all day or are we going to study?" Katsuki barked at him.

"Right! Let's get back to it then," Eijiro said, focusing back on his book.

The three of you studied for almost the whole day. It surprised you to see how intelligent Katsuki was, his delivery was always harsh though. He'd get frustrated easily when Eijiro couldn't pick up on something right away, but you were able to explain in a calmer manner and that seemed to help.

Although, it did still take Eijiro an extended amount of time to fully understand concepts. With the sun going down you three decided it was time to finish up.

"Wow, ok I feel prepared for the written test now! I'm just worried about the test exercises," Eijiro said.

"It'll be fine shitty hair, you worry too much. You'll both do fine, and I’ll finally be able to show everyone how worthless that nerd Deku is and how much better I am than that Icyhot bastard," Katsuki replied.

You sighed, “Bakugo I already told you- I’m pretty sure everyone knows you would have beat Todoroki regardless of him using both sides or not.”

“Hm?” Eijiro looked at you both curiously. “Told him before? You two have hung out before?” He asked.

Your face flushed at Eijiro’s correct assumption and you weren’t sure how to respond. It seemed a little suspicious to say the truth- that Katsuki had snuck into your room three times now.

“Don’t be so nosy dumb ass,” Katsuki grumbled at him.

“Oh right-! Sorry! Anyway… Maybe the test exercise will be a team exercise and we'll get paired together or something! After today I'd say the three of us make a good team," Eijiro said smiling.

You smiled back at him unsure of how to respond to so much positivity. Katsuki just rolled his eyes at Eijrio.

It was striking how night and day it was between Eijiro's cheery demeanor and Katsuki's quick temper.

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crushculture03 · 7 months

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Ok I have a request idea. It’s the readers first time meeting Mattys Mom/family. It’s like Christmas or something. It’s all cute and then they fuck in Matty’s childhood bedroom lmao

Family Christmas

Summary : You go over to Mattys childhood home for Christmas, and finally get to meet his family. And also mess around a bit in his old bedroom

Paring : Matty Healy x afab! reader

Warnings : Smut, alcohol mention?, meeting the family.

Notes: This is such an adorable idea! i hope i did you proud anon!

"Matty, are you sure it'll be ok? I don't want to intrude on your family christmas" you say as matty packs both his and your suitcases in the trunk of his car. "Baby I'm positive, plus my mum is dying to meet you" he says, before slamming the trunk door shut. "Ok" you whisper, before slipping into the passenger seat. Matty quickly hops into the drivers seat and starts the car, before pulling out of the driveway.

You spend most of the car ride looking out the window, too much in your own head to talk to matty.

His hand being placed on your thigh is what snaps you out of your thoughts. "Y/n, baby it'll be ok I promise" matty says, trying his best to calm your nerves. "I know, but what if they don't like me?" you say, and turn to face him. "Baby they're going to love you, my mum couldn't stop telling me how excited she is for you to join us" Matty says, looking over at you quickly before focusing back on the road. "Ok, Sorry about all this, its just I've never met the family before so this is big '' you say, "I know baby, it'll be fun though I promise" he says, gently squeezing your thigh to comfort you.

After about an hour, you both arrived at his childhood home. "Wow this is beautiful" you say, as you admire the old victorian style home, "Isn't it? I always loved it when I was a kid, I'm excited to show you around!" he says, as he puts the car in park and turns it off. He turns to face you, the smile never leaving his face as he sees how excited you are to be there. "Ready to head inside?" he asks, "Ready as I'll ever be" you respond, before both of you get out of the car.

Matty grabbed both of your bags out of the trunk, while you carried the bag of presents, and the two of you walked up the gravel path to the front door. Matty carefully set the bags down and knocked on the door. You heard a voice shout "coming!" from inside the house, and a second later the door swung open to reveal his mom. "Hello My dears! Happy you made it here safe!" Denise said, before pulling her oldest son into a hug. Once she pulled away from Matty, her eyes met yours. "Ah you must be Y/N, wow matty she's even prettier in person!" she says, which causes you to blush. "It's a pleasure to meet you" you say, "You too dear! I'm so happy you were able to join us" Denise said, as she sent a warm smile your way, you could tell she wanted to hug you but couldn't since you had the bag of presents in your hand. "Now come inside before you freeze! I'll make some tea for you both while you settle in" she says, quickly ushering you both into the warm house.

" I'll show us to our room" Matty says, and you quickly follow him up the staircase. He opens the door to his childhood bedroom, and you smile as you take in the old decor. "Wow" you say, your eyes slowly scanning all the old rock poster he had hung up on the walls. "What?" he asks, "You were definitely a nerd for rock and roll weren't you healy" you tease, before placing the bag of present down on the floor. Matty looks over at you with a fake hurt expression, "Hey! Am not" he says, causing you to chuckle. "Are too" you say back, laughing at the childish exchange you guys are having.

Before you know it he's tackling you onto his bed, his hands going to your sides to tickle you. You giggle and squirm as he continues his tickle assault on you, "Ma-matty stop" you giggle, "Not until you apologize and say I'm the sexist man alive" he teases. You roll your eyes at him, "F-fine I'm sorry" you say as best as you can, while still being tickled. "Thank you baby but you're missing the last part" he says, you roll you eyes again and say "You're the sexist man alive", and with that he stops tickling you. "Glad you finally admitted it" he teases, still hovering over you on his bed, "You're so full of yourself Healy" you joke as you look up at your boyfriend. "Yeah but you love when you're full of m-" he says but you cut him off, "Matty!" you scold, your face going bright red at what he was about say. "What it's true" he says, before leaning down and kissing you. "Come on we should probably head downstairs before your mom thinks we're having sex" you joke, gently pushing him off of you and getting up from the bed. You reach you hand out for him to take, which he does, and the two of you make it back downstairs and to the kitchen where you see Denise preparing the tea.

"Oh Y/N, now that you don't have a bag in your hand I can finally give you a hug" she says, before wiping her hands on a towel and pulling you into a warm embrace. "I'm so glad you were able to join us" she whispers in your ear, which causes you to smile. "Thank you for inviting me" you say as you both pull away from the hug. "Of course! You're part of the family now Y/N, you're always welcome here" Denise says, before going back over to finish preparing the tea.

"See I told you she'd love you" Matty whispers in your ear, as he comes up behind you and wraps his arms around your waist. "But not as much as I love you of course" he says, before kissing your cheek, you smile and turn your head just enough so you could place a quick kiss on his lips. "I love you too" you whisper as you pull away from the kiss and smile.

After dinner, the four of you, the fourth being Lincoln, Denise's husband, who arrived a little before dinner, decided it would be a good idea to call it a night since tomorrow was going to be a busy day. "Good night My dears! Sleep well" Denise says as she gives both you and matty a kiss on the check and a hug goodnight. "Goodnight" you both say in response, before heading back to Mattys room. The two of quickly get changed into your Pajamas, before cuddling up in Mattys old bed and falling asleep.

The next day you were woken up by the familiar smell of bacon, you were about to elbow matty awake, but realized he wasn't beside you anymore. You quickly got out of bed and got dressed, before making your way down the stairs and into the kitchen.

"Good morning my love" matty says in a sing songy voice, as he walks up to you and kisses your cheek. "Goodmorning baby" you whisper, "I hope you're hungry dear because we have a full breakfast" Denise says from behind Matty. "I'm starving and everything looks and smells delicious" you say as you look at the array of breakfast foods on the kitchen counter.

After breakfast, you and matty spent the rest of the afternoon helping Denise cook and decorate for dinner tonight. "You know you're my favoirte of all of mattys girlfriends" Denise says as you both scoop out cookie dough onto sheet pans. You blush at her compliments "You're too sweet" you say, "I mean it, I've never seen him this happy before" she says, before placing her completed cookie sheet, as well as yours, into the oven. "I've never been this happy before" you say as a smile forms on your face, "He's my bestfriend and my boyfriend, what more could I ask for? I mean I never knew love like this could exist till I met him" you finish. "Aww young love" Denise coos as she pulls you into a quick hug, "I'll clean up here if you wanna go find Matty" she says as she picks up the dishes, "No, let me help, after all I did make half of this mess" you joke, but Denise shakes her head "I insist dear go find Matthew" she chuckles as she nudges you out of the kitchen.

You make you way up the stairs, knowing you'll probably find matty in his room. And sure enough as soon as you get to the top step you hear the soft strumming of his guitar coming from his childhood bedroom. You slowly make your way to his room and carefully open the door. "Beautiful as always" you say as you lean against the door frame. Matty stops playing, and turns to face you, "Why thank you my love" he says and places his guitar down, before walking up to you. "Did you have fun baking cookies with my mum?" he asks, his hands finding their way to your hips and pulling you closer. "Yeah it was alot of fun" you say, and reach up to brush a few stray curls from his forehead. "I'm excited to meet your brother and the rest of your family tonight" you say, "Me too, it's going to be fun but you let me know if they ever get too overwhelming ok?" he says, you nod your head before he places a soft kiss to your forehead.

It was now late in the evening, the events of the night were already underway. Most of mattys immediate and extended family was stuffed inside the house, all ready to celebrate the holiday together. For you however, it was hard to focus on what was going on at the party, because you couldn't stop staring at your boyfriend, who looked incredibly stunning.

You watched from afar as he effortlessly conversed with one of his cousins. You felt your heart speed up as he made eye contact with you, quickly sending a wink in your direction, before going back to the conversation. You don't know what had come over you that evening, maybe it was the wine you had been drinking or maybe it was just matty, but every bone in your body wanted him, no needed him.

You decided to slip away from the living room and make your way up to his bedroom, hoping that maybe not seeing him would help you cool down just enough so you could return back to the party. But as you laid down on his bed, staring up at the ceiling which was littered with tiny glow and the dark stars, you couldn't help but imagine all the things you wanted him to do to you in that moment.

Just as you were about to slip your hand under the waist band of you skirt, you heard the door open. You quickly pulled your hand away and sat up to see who was there, "Matty?" you say, recognizing the familiar silhouette. "Hey baby" he says, the words roll of his tongue effortlessly, making the urge to squeeze your thighs together for relief even stronger. "Wh-what are you doing up here?" you ask as you see him gently close and lock the door behind him before walking over to his bed. "Well I went to go see if you were ok, I saw you slip away upstairs and came to check on you. Now i see you were ok, just horny" he teases. You blush furiously as you realize you have been caught "How can I not when you look like that" you say, motioning towards him. He chuckles lowly, before kicking off his shoes and hovering over you on the bed. "I do look pretty hot don't i?" he says, gently pushing you back down on the bed. You roll your eyes and giggle "Way to ruin the moment Healy" you tease. He smirks at you and slowly runs his hand up your thigh, stopping it right over your soaked panties. "Mm your body says otherwise baby" he whispers and slowly applies pressure to your clothed core, causing you to moan in pleasure.

"Shh baby don't want anyone to hear how good I make you feel" he says, before hooking his fingers in the elastic of your underwear and slowly pulling them down your legs. You gasp as the cold air hits your naked core, "Please matty" you whisper, desperate for his touch. "What do you want baby?" he whispers, slowly placing hot open mouth kisses to your neck. "You" you whimper as you feel his hand make its way back up to your core. He chuckles lowly "you want my cock darling? Is that it" he teases, as his finger slowly rubs circles on your clit. You have to bite your lip to hold back your moans. "What me to fuck you like the slut you are baby? My familys down stairs and you're up here just begging to be fucked" he taunts. "Please matty, I need you" you beg, your hands reach out and unbuckle his belt. He watches as you slowly unzip his black dress pants, and groans when he feels you palm him over his boxers. "You got a condom?" you ask, desperate to have more than his fingers inside of you. He quickly removes his fingers from you and gets off the bed in search for a condom.

After finding one in his old sock drawer he comes back to you. He slowly pulls his boxers down just enough to reveal himself to you. You watch closely as he gently rolls the condom on himself and goes back to hovering over you. "Remember be quiet baby" he whispers, before lining himself up with your entrance and slowly pushing in. He captures your lips in his, swallowing your moans as he quickly sinks deeper inside of you. He gives you a minute to adjust before gently rocking his hips back and forth. Your fingers find their way to his curls and quickly tug on them as you hold back your moans.

"You take me so well baby" he whispers in your ear, as he speeds up his thrusts. "Matty" you moan, not being able to hold it back as you feel him hit a deeper spot inside of you. One of his hands makes its way up to your neck and applies a bit of pressure "Shh or they're hear baby" he scolds. The pressure on your neck and the way his cock is continuously hitting the sweet spot inside of you begins to become to much, causing you to feel the familiar tenison build in your stomach.

Matty catches you by surprise, when he flips you guys over, his back now on the bed and you straddling his lap. After a second to adjust to the new position, you quickly rock your hips back and forth, having to hold onto his chest for support as the pleasure begins to become to much.

All it takes to make you finish is matty to thrusting up into you every time you rock your hips forward. You collapse onto his chest as your orgasm washes over you. You feel him thrust into you a few times more before he stalls inside of you. You look up at him and send him a dopey grin "I love you" you whisper, before you lean up and place a kiss on his lips. "I love you too" he says, before gently helping you off of him. He places you down on the bed, before getting up and disposing of the condom.

"We should probably head back down before people come to look for us" you say, carefully getting off the bed and going to retrieve your underwear. "If they ask us where we went i'll just say how needy you were for my co-" but you elbow him before he can finish. "If you say that I'll punch you" you joke, as you fix the collar of his shirt, so it doesn't look like you just had sex. "Aw come on you love me" he teases, "True, but would rather not have your family know about our sex lives" you joke, as you go to fix your hair and outfit in the mirror. "Come on lets head downstairs" you say, as you grab his hand and lead both of you out the door and back down to the party . Everyone had been so drunk or distracted that they didn't even notice that you both had been gone for 15 minutes, and that there was a hickey forming on your neck.

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written-in-flowers · 1 year

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Hi, keep up the amazing work, I really love your hotd-posts! I really want to request something fluffy (and a lil angsty?) for Aegon, I just want to read about him being both miserable and happy.

So imagine rumors spreading across the castle after a servant walks into a noblewoman's chambers, only to find Aegon embraced and fast asleep on her chest. It is not exactly helping when Aegon later practically begs his mother to arrange for her hand in marriage. Everyone either assumes it is to protect her honor, although Aegon is not exactly known to respect the dignity of the many women he takes. Perhaps the lady gave the whore prince an unforgettable night unlike any other, what other reason could there be? Turns out nothing dishonorable happened. Aegon just stumbled in tipsy into her chambers, they drank together for a while and Aegon ended up drunkenly crying his heart out and falling asleep in her arms while she comforted him.

I feel like he is so deprived from love that just a crumble of care, love and nurturing is enough to have that man on his knees lol. Thank you so much again for your work and I hope the idea sounds OK <3

A/N: I used young!Aegon because I imagine him having been more vulnerable at that age, but nothing sexual happens anyways. Idk if this is gonna go how you expected, but here you go hun <3

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"Forgive me, Your Grace, but...what?"

Nerves swirled around in your stomach as you sat before the queen. She stood a few feet from you in her gown of green and gold, a golden headband keeping back her tresses of brown curls. A regal queen. A graceful woman. A mother. You knew partly why she'd summoned you to her chambers so early in the morning. It'd been because of the young prince, Aegon.

"My son, the prince," she said more firmly, "He wishes to marry you instead of his sister. Why is that?"

You nearly told her 'You answered your own question, Your Grace,' but quickly held your tongue in. You'd done enough damage letting the boy climb into your bed. You wouldn't do yourself any favors insulting the royal family on top of that. Sighing, you answered:

"I suppose because he thinks himself in love with me."

Queen Alicent huffed, "And why would he? Did you give my incorrigible son a night he'd never forget?"

"In a sense, I suppose."

"Lady Y/N," she stepped forward, "If my son...If my son forced himself on you, you may tell me. Whatever transgressions or shame my son has brought onto you will stay within this room. Do not feel you have to hide anything."

"I am not, Your Grace," you nearly laughed. "Prince Aegon never touched me. I swear by all the gods, he did not."

"Then what happened?"

"Well...He'd come into my chambers after the welcoming feast. I saw him stumbling around and looking a bit lost. He...He fell onto my bed. I planned to go tell his guards, but nobody was there. But then..." you weren't sure if you should tell her. It'll be frankly, quite awkward, if you did.

"But then what?"

“He called me ‘Mother’.”

She appeared stunned by this. You continued, “I told him I wasn’t his mother, obviously, but that I’d have someone go get you so you may take care of him. Then he said...He said not to bother. He said that his mother didn’t love him anyways, and that wouldn’t care what happened to him anyways.”

It was quite sad. You’d stood there in your bed chamber, preparing for a night’s sleep, when your door opened. You thought it’d be your handmaiden with tea or one of your household, but no. It’d been the young prince who came sauntering into your chambers. Knowing his reputation, a pang of shock did hit you for a moment. You’d heard what he does to women and girls in his service, and you worried you might be next. Yet, instead the prince slumped down onto your bed.

‘I can’t find my room in this damnable castle,’ he’d exclaimed. ‘May I stay here, Mother?’

‘My prince, you must leave. Your mother’s chambers are just down the hall-”

‘Ah, she doesn’t care anyways. She’ll just scold me for being drunk, tell me how I’m ruining the family image and reputation by carrying on how I do, and I don’t...I don’t want to hear it tonight.’

You pitied him. Perhaps the boy hoped to escape his princely duties in his cups instead of performing them. You’d seen how he was during Lady Laena’s funeral this morning: bored, indifferent and disinterested. Admittedly, you felt the same, but didn’t show it as blatantly. You’d only been invited because your family is one of the minor bannermen to House Velaryon; your family said it was expected. You hardly knew Lady Laena except in passing at gatherings, but you still paid your condolences and remained respectful. It was unbefitting a prince to get drunk at a gathering of a dead relative and make a fool of himself. It was even more unbefitting for him to be passing out on a lady’s bed in the middle of the night.

‘I’m sure your mother cares deeply, my prince.’

‘I assure you, my lady, she does not. She’s made it clear on many occasions what a disappointment I am to her and my father. The man has had sixteen years to name me heir, and he never has. Why? Because, look at me. I’m...this...’ he gestured idly around, face half buried in your pillow.

You’d gone over to him, making sure to keep your distance the entire time. He smell of strongwine and salty air. He didn’t even remove his cloak from his body when he laid down. You pushed strands of wavy blond hair from his face. It appeared quite unruly compared to the sleek blond locks of the rest of the Targaryen clan.

‘Despite what she might say, your mother still loves you. A mother’s love is something that is unconditional. I’m sure she says those things not to hurt or criticize you, but you try helping you see the error of your ways. She is only helping you so you don’t fail in life; yes, there is the matter of your image and having to uphold your family’s reputation, but those are things that greatly impact a person’s life unfortunately.’

‘It’s all she cares about...because of Them...She’s never once asked me what I desire or care about. Nothing I’ve done has ever been enough for her. It never will be. I’m always doing something wrong in her eyes. No matter what it is.’

You’d spent most of the night listening to the prince’s personal problems; the sort of problems a sober person never says out loud. You weren’t sure what exactly to say other than comforting things. Your heart went out to him. You had your own insecurities and problems, which you felt comfortable airing out to him. Considering how he could barely stand without falling, you allowed him to stay in your room. You helped him out of his cloak and boots, gave him water, and let him lay in your arms. It felt nice having someone to hold, and warm your cold bed. Nothing truly transpired between either of you except long talks about parents, duties, insecurities, and uncertainty of life. He told you about his betrothal to his sister, whom he had nothing in common with and did not want to marry. You told him about the lordling your family has promised you to, who once ate butter thinking it was custard. It never occurred to you that you, an unwed woman, should not let Prince Aegon, an unwed man who is known to take what he pleases, be in your bed.

That is, until the next morning when your maid found Prince Aegon passed out beside you. You’d stammered the story to her, but the damage was done. Aegon shuffled out of your room, clothes and hair still messy, talking about how he’d make her see reason. What he said to her, you’re not sure, but you knew now what claim he’d made.

“He said this to you?” she asked, stunned and saddened.

“I’m afraid so, Your Grace. He did not linger on the subject for long, though. He was drunk. I’m sure it was the strongwine talking.”

You wouldn’t tell her what else he’d said. Those words were between you and Aegon. “My son told me something interesting, Lady Y/N.”

“Your Grace?”

“He bargained for the betrothal,” she said, eyeing you up and down. “He said if I broke off his betrothal to Helaena, he’d stop drinking. He said he’d stop drinking, stop whoring, stop shirking his duties and be what the realm expects him to be. He said he couldn’t see himself being a better man without someone who makes him want to be good in the first place.”

“And what did you say, Your Grace?”

“I told him I’d consider it.” She stepped closer to you, “Tell me, Lady Y/N, if my son marries you, would you help him become his best? Your family is well known for their piety and abstinence. Your parents wouldn’t agree to a match if Aegon continued to be as he is.”

‘To be honest, Your Grace, I hardly knew Aegon before last night. I still do not truly know him, but I can see him.”

“Him?”

“The person inside.”

The boy who wants to be held and told that he’s loved no matter his actions. The boy who drowns his misery with wine.

“I cannot promise to change him overnight, Your Grace. People like your son cannot give up their vices right away, but I will be there for him. I shall be there in his lowest moments to lift him up and hold his hand through the most difficult parts. As his wife, I will perform the duties expected of me and more."

The Queen continued studying you for a moment, then nodded quietly. "The King and I will think on this. You may go now, Lady Y/N."

You bowed to her and let her lady escort you out. Nervousness made you walk on shaky legs despite your best to keep a steady stride. Neither of you did anything wrong. You'd only comforted the prince when he needed it. Had he truly said he'd change if he married you? You doubted that. Boys often say ridiculous things when in the euphoria of infatuation. You're sure Her Grace would see that and deny the marriage. You don't have to worry much.

...But, should she allow it, being queen wouldn't be so bad. Influencing Aegon to change can lead to you influencing him to do other things as well. Such as bending laws to your family's benefit or getting them higher positions in the world. It might not be bad at all.

Perhaps you would give Aegon a special night time visit...

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wolfoftheblackflames · 1 month

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Oh boy, I've turned into a fanfic gremlin again... Enjoy! (This is just a headcannon, but I felt like writing it anyway)

It was dark in the hotel as a familiar little cyclops as scrubbing the windows clean, her red and yellow eye scowling annoyingly at the dust that didn't seem to go away. "Why are there so many of you?!" She growled before laughing maniacally. "I'll scrub every last one of you. You've met your end, you stupid mess!"

Though the more she scrubbed, the more dust appeared but also the more her vision began to blur. "Uh Niffty, are you ok? You've been scrubbing that spot for the last hour..." A voice spoke as the small cyclops turned to look at its owner. "Oh my gosh!" The owner was Charlie as the princess gasped.

Niffty swayed a bit but was caught by those gentle hands. "Meeh.. The dust won't go away!" She whimpered, pointing to a clearly very clean window. Next thing she knew she was being lifted up into the taller woman's arms, a hand coming under her red hair.

"You overworked yourself, Niff, see you're running a fever." Charlie stated with concern as Niffty was indeed running a high fever.

The smaller cyclops squirmed but couldn't get out of those arms. She pouted and grumbled. Usually, she'd be able to zip out of anyone's grip, scurrying around like a cockroach, but right now, she felt so tired and weak. Niffty hears those feet move as she grumbled, accepting the help reluctantly. Usually, it was the Alastor she was the most comfortable with, but now here she was in Charlie's arms, the princess taking her to her room.

"Uh Char? Why are ya carrying Niffty?" Another voice spoke as Niffty had her eye closed. "I'm taking her to her room Vaggie, she's sick and needs rest." Charlie responded to the owner.

Niffty made a small 'mrrr?' noise feeling a hand stroke her head. "You two look like parents with the little monster." She knew that voice, it was the other demon in Alastor's contract, Husk. He sounded grumpy as always. "Was lookin' for Niff anyways, though it can wait."

Vaggie rolled her eye at Husk but didn't seem to mind the comment. "So where does this one sleep? I've never been to her room so I don't know. Do you Husk?"

"Nope, I know better than to poke my nose into that little monster's room. Try Alastor he might know." The grumpy cat man took a swig of his booze and left.

Charlie looked down at the small cyclops in her arms. "Well shit, Alastor is out today.." The demoness sighed but blinked, feeling Niffty nuzzle her a bit like a cat.

It was a feverish haze, but Niffty couldn't help herself. She felt like she was once again in her mother's arms, being cradled like when she was a child. "Haha..." (Mama) She mumbled nuzzling closer.

Charlie blinked, tilting her head, Vaggie also looked confused. "Uh, she's normally weird but, but affectionate? Now I feel like I'm seeing things." The grey demoness scratched her head.

However Niffty started to squirm, she jumped out of Charlie's arms. "Nyah! I must clean!" She seemed to be back to her normal self and scurried off.

"The fuck...?" Both women spoke staring as Niffty zipped out of sight.

Angel Dust had seen the entire thing and rubbed his chin. He soon followed the cyclops, who was seen stabbing a roach. "Niff, um, how are ya?" The spider demon asked as Niffty looked over, seeming as chipper as ever. "You uh we're bein carried an all so I was curious see?"

"Oh that was nothing, nope ehehehehe." She giggled though she tripped on the carpet. "Yay pain!" She squeed.

Angel looked unconvinced and picked her up. "C'mere you little twerp." He managed to scoop her up and felt her forehead with one of his free hands. "Ah ha, yer sick and yer tryin ta hide it again." He scolded as Niffty whined. "Alrite yer comin' with me ok?"

Niffty blinked as the next thing she knew Angel was making her some chicken noodle soup in the kitchen. She looked at him curiously. "What are you doing?"

"Makin ya some soup, it'll help make ya feel better. Now take these and drink this." Angel handed her a glass of water with some medicine. Niffty did as asked as she grumbled at the bitterness. "Good girl." The spider smiled a bit and got a bowl of soup for Niffty.

The Cyclops was just confused. Usually, she was the one cooking, but also, it was a man, if you could call Angel that was cooking for her. She sipped the hot soup enjoying the burning pain it gave her tongue as she downed it in one go. "Heheheh burning pain, can I go clean now?" She flashed Angel an innocent grin.

"Nope. Yer gonna do sometin else alrite? How about we go to my room and you can snuggle my baby boy Fat Nuggets. I know ya like cute tings and my little piggy is the cutest there is." Angel stated as Niffty looked at him with a grumble."Katte ni shite yo. " ( do what you want.).

He was stopping her from working, but the thought of snuggling a cute piglet was too good to pass up. She then nodded to him as the spider twink picked her up again.

Once in his room, Angel called over his beloved piglet. The demon piggy scurried over to his owner's call. "Kawaii!!!" The cyclops cooed and hugged the piggy. Angel chuckled as the trio curled up on his giant pink fluffy bed and watched an action movie.

Niffty was grinning at the hot bad boys watching them drive their fast cars and kicking ass. She also had Fat Nuggets in her lap while leaning against the fluffy spider demon behind her.

It felt weird at first being in the hotel with mostly women but it had slowly become like a second home, her new found friends appreciated her for the work she did and didn't boo when she did her little cockroach shows for them. She continued to grin bouncing up and down happily but slowly her fever took its hold and lulled her into a soft sleep, as she soon laid against Angel Dust. "Ani-san..." That phrase rolled off her tongue naturally as she nuzzled into the twink's chest fluff.

(Here you go, folks! I was reading up on some of the characters and figured why not give sick/ overworked Niffty a try. She's a giant ass psychotic weirdo, and we love her for it.)

#hazbin hotel #chaggie #charlie morningstar #vaggie #cute as fuck #husker hazbin hotel #angel dust #alastor #niffty #niffty is sick baby #fat nuggets piggy #sick/fatigued Niffty

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yankstrash · 9 months

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https://www.tumblr.com/yankstrash/723214327318986752/amelia-makes-gabe-do-the-tiktok-trend-where-they

who breaks first though?

if you can believe it, they make it through the entire 60 seconds.

but as soon as it ends, gabe cracks and smashes his lips against hers.

"babeeeee!" amelia sings as she runs into gabes room. "i need you to do this tiktok with me!"

gabe looks at her with wide eyes and says, "no way meels. last time you made me do a tiktok with you, you went around and hugged all my teammates!"

amelia rolls her eyes at her boyfriend and says, "i hugged you too honey, and then you got to hold me for the rest of the night. cmon, this one will be funny!" she assured.

gabe sighed and let out a "fine" as amelia came and sat next to him on his bed, propping her phone up.

"okay, look at me." she says and plasters on her sweet, devilish smile that makes gabe melt. he stares right into her eyes, already leaning in.

"ah ah, there's the catch. you can't kiss me." amelia says and smirks, while gabes face falls.

"what?!" he asks.

"that's the tiktok! we have to go 60 seconds without kissing each other. whoever cracks first, loses."

"that is the worst tiktok idea i've ever heard." gabe groans.

"oh hush, it'll be funny. okay ready, set, go!" amelia says and presses record.

the two stare into each others eyes, faces only inches apart.

gabes eyes flicker between her eyes and lips. he smiles as he looks at her lips, and places a hand on her cheek, bringing her face closer to his.

amelia smiles, thinking she's got gabe, but he brushes their noses together and doesn't kiss her, only keeps smirking.

desperate to crack him, she moves one of her hands to the back of his neck, playing with the hair at the nape of his neck while the other goes to the top of his head, pulling at the hair there. this drives gabe crazy whenever she does it while they're kissing, so she was sure it would work.

gabe notices the game she's playing, and pulls out a trick of his own. he keeps the hand that's on her face where it is, rubbing his thumb along her cheek while he places his other hand on her bare, upper thigh and begins rubbing it. he traces his hand up and down, slowly. this is what he does that drives amelia crazy when they're kissing. he even slips his fingers under her shorts a bit and keeps running his fingers along her bare skin.

both their eyes are constantly flickering between their eyes and their lips.

gabe leans in even more and places his forehead on hers. he moves the hand that's on amelias cheek and gently places it around her neck.

ok. that's not fair.

he rubs his fingers on her neck, squeezing a bit every now and then in an attempt to get a response out of her. he knows this is her weakness. he leans in and opens his mouth like he's going to kiss her, before slowly moving his head away.

desperate to catch up to his actions, amelia takes her hand out of his hair and her fingers reach for his chain, tugging on it slightly. she tangles it in her fingers and pulls him in closer by it. she fiddles with the '4' on the chain, and gives him a smirk.

amelia lets out a quiet, throaty moan and gently says, "i love you, baby."

gabe smiles at her, his eyes full of lust.

"i love you."

gabe takes both his hands and places them on amelias waist, rubbing his hands up and down.

she wraps both her arms around his neck, pulling him closer.

their lips are half an inch away from each other, they can both feel each others breath, but no one cracks.

as the seconds tick by, it gets harder and harder for the both of them. by the end of it, they both let out a huge breath, and once gabe notices the video ended, he smashes his lips against amelias.

"HA! you lost!" amelia says.

"no i didn't, the video was over!" gabe says.

"yeah, it ended. but you still cracked first so in my mind you lost and i won!" she says proudly.

gabe laughs and says, "yeah whatever meels. now get over here and kiss me."

#princess!gf x gabe perreault

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hazbinextgeneration · 4 months

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Housed Hearts Ch7 Riot On REALTORS

(Warnings: Maison gets beaten a bit, he's bleeding red sap, he's a bit roughed up and mentioning of REALTORS getting burnt, hurt, and killed. Mentioning of death. Art is by me. Art is inspired by the art Mortisfox originally drew of Maison linked below.

twitter.com/mortisfox/status/1642430615881646082)

"The Valley has officially gone insane. Well more insane than what it is already."

She couldn't believe what she had been hearing on the news lately. Turns out the recent REALTOR problem had just shifted in an entirely new and dangerous direction. Apparently all the snatching up the REALTORS had been doing had finally culminated into something much worse. There was a riot going on against REALTORS. There's been reports of house fires and acts of arson on the news and from what Ivy told her, most of them were the main bodies of REALTORS or houses that people thought were REALTORS. So far there's been at least seven deaths, and all of them had been REALTORS. She was appalled, absolutely disgusted by the actions of these people. A few bad REALTORS shouldn't warrant a full out war of all REALTOR kind!! What was wrong with these people?! Despite Ivy assurances that they were working hard on it all and would be able to fix the problem shortly, Rose wasn't too sure.

"Don't you worry. The Mayor and his people has dealt with a lot worse problems than this if you can believe it. We once had half a town swamped with regular guy hairballs and it took us nearly a whole year to sort it out. We're close to cutting this problem down by the roots. You just keep an eye out for the REALTORS You're in charge of if you can. If you seen anything even slightly suspicious, call us immediately."

That still had her scared a lot however. The first thing she did was immediately call Him and warm him about the dangers and to make sure he was alright. Thankfully Heim had no qualms with just staying home and taking cover until this whole thing blew over. And Rose made him PROMISE her that'd he'd call her if anything happened and he'd keep himself hidden as much as possible if he had to go out for any reason. So Rose didn't have to worry about him too much. He'd mostly stay home and any food he'd need would be delivered by him. Maison however...

"Can't you at least stay home for a FEW days?! Just until this blows over!"

Rose had caught Maison walking out ready to go out again no doubt to try and round up more 'buyers' as usual as she was going outside to set up the new bird bath she wanted in the front yard. She instantly jumped up to catch up to him and try to talk him out of it but of course he resisted. In fact Maison outright refused to listen to her worries.

A hand patted her head as he smiled wider at her. "Ah. My dear provider. It's reassuring to know that you are worried about my health, but surely you wouldn't think I'd let those barbarians scare me out of working as I always do."

"It's not about your work!" She said firmly reaching out to grab his hand firmly. "It's about your safety, Maison! Ivy said they found most of them and where they are and who they are but you going around introducing yourself as a literal REALTOR to people is a dead giveaway! You might as well just paint a giant bullseye on your house and shout come and get me! I'm..scared. Ok? I don't want to see you hurt or WORSE!"

He paused for a good moment before sighing and smiling wider. "Ah. I understand you're concern, but I will be fine. I've been doing this for far longer than they've been rioting like bigots. As the number one REALTOR it'll take more than a few threats to stop me. I assure you I'll be fine."

She really couldn't stop him could she? Rose sighed and deflated. "Alright. Fine. But keep the line open so I can call and check on you. And don't wonder off too far. And if ANYTHING happens call me! I'm serious, Maison."

"I promise you, My dear. You'll be the first to hear of it. But I assure you that everything will be fine. You don't have any need to worry." As if to promise that he reached her hand up to place a small kiss on the back of her hand. "I never break my promises."

Despite her worries the action did have her smiling a little bit. "Alright then. Just...please do what I asked you at least."

Maison only chuckled at her. And then he walked away leaving Rose to stand there watching until he disappeared down the street and around the corner. Maybe he was right? Maybe she was being too paranoid? After all Maison's been doing this for a lot longer than she's known him. But...she still couldn't help but worry. And she would soon learn that she had a right good reason to worry. As Maison did not return that morning and she busied herself with setting up her new bird bath. Maison did not return that afternoon when she was starting to make herself lunch and her worrying kicked up a bit. She knew Maison usually didn't return until late noon usually so she probably didn't have to worry but..Rose couldn't help the nagging feeling something was wrong and a feeling like a rock in her stomach grew with each passing hour as it neared sunset. She was just thinking about calling him when a sudden ringing noise reached her ears making her jump and blink wide eyed at her phone. HER PHONE WAS RINGING!! Rose didn't hesitate to quickly pick it up with a fumble and quickly answer with a growing worry in her guts. Quickly answering and holding it up to her ear.

"H-Hello?"

There was a moment of silence before a raspy man's cough disturbed the silence making her jump again. "R-Rose dear."

"MAISON?!" A wave of both relief hearing his voice again and dread at why he sounded like he had a cold filled her as her eye went wide. "WHERE ARE YOU?! YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO BE BACK HOURS AGO!! YOU PROMISED ME!!' She demanded with a frown. "DO YOU KNOW HOW WORRIED SICK I WAS WONDERING WHERE YOU'VE BEEN ALL DAY!?"

"I would've c-called sooner b-but *cough* I was literally...tied up. D-Do me a favor would you, My Dear?....COME GET ME."

Rose didn't have to be told twice. Hopping up she quickly dashed to the kitchen and opened one of the cabinets shuffling around inside until she pulled out a flashlight. She'll be needing it for the fast approaching night. "I'm on my way! Where are you?!" She asked already heading towards the door.

"I-I'm in the back alley behind the *COUGH* U-Uncany Bank."

She paused opening the door. "The bank? ..THE NEAREST BANK IS A GOOD THREE HOURS AWAY!! I TOLD YOU TO STAY NEAR HOME!! OOOHHH!! YOU'RE IN BIG TROUBLE, MAISON!!"

"I know, I know. Believe me I know."

"Stay on the line until I get there."

She quickly dashed outside and with a fast pace started down the road. It was easy to find Maison. All she had to do was just follow the lure cord leading away from Maison's house and quickly follow it where it lead. With one hand holding the turned on flashlight and the other holding up the phone to her ear, Rose quickly followed the lure. Her senses heightening as she quickened her pace. Thoughts swirling around her head. What happened to Maison?! Is he alright?! Was he hurt in anyway?! Why didn't he come back home when he was supposed to?! And why the heck was he in a back alley?! That's what worried her most. She just walked and walked and WALKED all the while just speaking a random question into the phone in order to make Maison give a response just to make sure he was still there and still alive. Darkness soon crept across the sky as night fell and soon night was upon then. She ran down one street until she finally saw it.

THE BANK!!

Rose quickened her pace immediately stopping panting in front of the tall brick building. This was it alright but by the looks of it it was already long since closed for the day. Her panting form blinked quickly from the closed doors to the ground back to her feet. Shining the light around, she easily spotted the cord leading into the darkness of an alley between two buildings. And slowly Rose approached silently until standing in the entrance way and shining her light down the alley.

"Maison?," she slowly called into the darkness in question. "Are you in there?" A loud raspy cough answered her making her jump, the light shown in the direction of the noise. And she froze at what she saw. Sitting there leaning against the brick wall of the back and half hidden by a trash can was Maison's form. "MAISON!!" Rose ran forward.

The head turned in question at the approaching light and footsteps. "Ah...Y-You've arrived."

"Are you ok?!" She stopped right in front of him shining the light down- And gaped in horror at what she saw. Maison to put it bluntly looked roughed up. A few streaks of red sap ran down his face and mimicked the look of blood staining a bit of his hair. One eye blinked up at her as the other was an obvious black eye, and his tail coats were in tatters. Not to mention dirt and grimed just covered him like he was literally dragged through the dirt. "WHAT HAPPENED?!"

He answered by coughing loudly before speaking. "Just HELP me." A hand pointed above him weakly. "Start by untying my lure and get me out of here before they come back!"

The light was shined up and Rose was stunned to see Maison's lure cord crudely tied around some gutters on the side of the building. "Oh my gosh.." she instantly scowled. "You better tell me what the hecks going on, Maison!" The phone was put away as the flashlight was placed in the crook of her neck to hold as her hands reached out to grab at the knot. Upon just touching it Maison winced. He must've been in pain from how tightly it was tied up. "Who did this to you!?"

"Ah!" He winced as she tugged on the cord in a place and perked up as the knot gave away a bit. Ah! She needed to pull that part out. "Those stupid justice seekers! I was j-just- OW! EASY! I was just minding my own business doing my job when at least four imbeciles jumped on me! AH!" He winced as she literally yanked harder cutting him more lose. "Next thing I know is that I'm tied up vulnerable and you're on your way here to help m- EEEEE!!!"

With one final yank, the knot came fully undone and it fell limp in her hands. She winced as he groaned again in lingering soreness. He'd definitely be sore for a good while. "They probably tied you here so they could follow your cord back to your main body later. In fact they could be back any minute. We need to get out of here." She dropped the cord to shine her flashlight on him again. "Are you able to walk your lure back?"

He gave her a frown. "I lost most feeling within this thing hours ago! I was lucky I was still able to move the arms. My only choice is to drag myself back like a sack of bricks now."

"Uh..In your condition? I don't think so. Hold still."

He rose a brow watching as she put down the light and kneeled down with both hands free. "My dear, what are you do-ING?!" His voice reached an embarrassing high pitched volume as her arms just shoved themselves under his legs and back, grabbed him, lifted him up bridal style with a grunt, before turning on her heel, and quickly started to walk back up the alley. He fell silent as he just... processed what exactly was happening before flushing a deep pink and sputtering. "W-What are you doing?!"

"Carrying you. It'll be faster. Now keep quiet. We don't need anyone hearing you and catching on what we're doing."

"How are you even capable of lifting my lure?! I admit I'm naturally very slim and in shape but I must still weigh a lot to you."

"I lug around heavy bags of dirt and giant plants as my job as well as do constant manual labor. Carrying you is like a stroll on the beach compared to that. Now keep your voice low and your eyes and ears open. We're not stopping until I get you home."

#househunted game #house hunted visual novel #house hunted game #house hunted #house hunted 2 #maison talo #heim baile

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deke-rivers-1957 · 4 months

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Toby Goes to Hogwarts

"Now son how's ya robes fittin ya? Ain't gonna be meltin down cause of em?"

Ah look in the mirror an see mahself in a set of school robes. Ah kinda bounce a bit.

"Ah look sharp! Ah'm ready fer Hogwarts!"

He pats mah shoulder smilin.

"That's mah boy! 11 years old an yer gonna be goin out on yer own havin adventures."

Ah go down ta the kitchen ta put the finishin touches on the tank fer Trevor. Pop an Ah get the last thangs together. Ah pick up mah trunk an' backpack an' Trevor's tank an we head out ta the car.

"Do ya got mah ticket, Pop?"

He smiles an nods.

"Got it right in mah pocket. Ah'mma give ya the ticket once we get ta the station."

"Ok."

Ah start fidgetin an look out the window.

Time Skip

Ah'm startin ta get a lil scared once we get ta the station. Pop parks the car an helps get mah stuff out. Ah see 'em lookin at me like he think somethin's wrong.

"Wha's wrong Pop?"

"You's best be fixin ta get ya cryin out the way Toby. Ah know this' gonna be yer first time away from me so jus let out yer cryin now."

Ah try not ta cry... but Ah can't help it. Ah hug Pop an cry a little bit. He hugs me back.

"Ah'm givin ya money fer lil snacks an yer ticket. Ya can send me letters anytime ya want. It'll take awhile but Ah promise ta send ya one back."

Ah'm still cryin an in a way Ah'm glad it's rainin. Ah like this type a rain cause it's all nice an cold.

"We's best be gettin on the platform before we get wet."

Ah follow Pop as we run inta the wall ta get on the platform. Ah'm a lil upset Ah started cryin in front a people but Ah keep on goin', hopin' Pop'll think Ah'm brave.

"Jus be brave, Toby. Ah know this'll be hard at first but it'll be ok."

Ah see the train an hear a sound tha's like a mix a whistles an train wheel squeak. Pop looks over at mah face an notices mah lil' waterin' eyes.

"Doncha worry bout the train son. It'll sound loud at first but once ya give it a couple mins, yer gonna feel better."

Ah wipe mah eyes knowin Pop's makin sense. Ah can't really say anythang cause Ah'm tryna catch mah breath. Pop pats mah head an Ah start ta feel better.

"You's gonna be makin new friends Toby. Got yer frog, Trevor goin wit ya. Just gotta let out yer feelins an get on the train."

"Oh-Ok, Pop."

Ah wanna make sure Ah'm gonna find mah way on that train, seein' as how Ah'm not so good wit trains normally. Mah mind goes blank an mah stomach feels tied up wit knots. But this time instead of bein' a scared kid it feels different. Ah think this' the first time Ah've ever felt real special. Maybe this' what Hogwarts' supposed ta be like.

"Watch yer step son. Jus gotta get on the train an you'll be fine."

"Thanks, Pop."

Ah make it ta the top an stand by the train window. Ah look back at Pop standin on the platform. Mah face is full a excitement an a flood of feelins. Mah stomach starts ta hurt real bad.

"Bye Pop! Ah love ya!"

"Bye son. Love ya too."

Ah try ta keep a straight face an keep watchin' mah Pop as the train pulls outta the station while gainin' speed.

"Trevor. Are we gonna be ok?"

He looks at me with his froggie eyes and ribbits. Ah try not ta cry agin.

"Thanks Trevor. We's gonna be great then."

Ah hear somebody clear their throat. Ah turn round.

"Need help? I'll show ya how to find a seat."

"Well. Ok."

Ah follow the man through the train till Ah find a special train room.

"Thank ya sir."

Ah sit down knowin it's time ta close mah eyes an take a deep breath. Mah head leans against the train window as the train rattles down the tracks. Mah stomach starts to hurt real bad, like real bad... But Ah'm on the way to Hogwarts.

Time Skip

"Hello. My name is Jacklin. Jacklin Gryffindor. May I sit here with you?"

Ah peek out one eye an see a girl bout mah age lookin at mah face. She's got very pale skin an almost white hair. She's looks magical like the LOTR girl from mah daydreams. Mah stomach is still turnin' somersaults in mah gut.

"Oh, Ah guess so... Mah name's Toby Kwimper."

Ah notice that her eyes are still on mah face. She opens her mouth to say something, then stops and just stares at mah face.

"Is this your first time on the Hogwarts Express? You look like you have motion sickness."

"Uh yeah...how'd ya know?"

Ah'm surprised she could even notice all that. Mah stomach's still turnin' over in all kinds a directions.

"When I got on the train I saw a few other first year students get sick."

"Oh. Well Ah'm not just gettin' sick, Ah'm gettin' real sick. Would ya maybe have somethin' ta settle mah stomach? Do ya know any spells?"

Ah feel sick enough to puke.

"Well I do know something. Try to focus on me, Toby."

"But mah stomach's turnin' and hurtin' real bad. Ah'm gonna puke."

Ah clutch mah stomach an look at Jacklin. Her eyes seem ta be drawin' me in.

"Just take deep breaths."

Ah'm scared ta hold her hands. But Ah'm scared to puke in front a her even worse. Ah slowly put mah hands out an we grab each other's hands. We jus look at each other's faces an try to think about somethin' else.

"Are you feeling better, Toby?"

The pain's gone. Ah can still feel mah stomach movin, but it's stopped hurtin'.

"Thanks."

Ah look at her an give her a little smile.

"That's lovely to hear, Toby. If you don't mind I think we try to distract ourselves. Let's talk about our wands."

Ah sit back in mah seat an' look at her. It's been awhile since Ah've seen mah wand. Ah dig it outta mah pocket an take a good look at it.

"Awright. What d'ya wanna know?"

Ah see 'er lookin at it.

"Is that an english oak wand? What's the core?"

"Yeap, English oak wit'a unicorn hair core."

Ah give her another little smile.

"And tha's good?"

"English oak wood supposedly was used to make Merlin's wand. Wizards who use this wand have to have strong intuition, and tend to like nature. You might end up becoming really good with our classes that focus on plants and magical creatures."

Ah feel mahself noddin but Ah don't really get everythang she's sayin.

"Yeap. Ah think Mr. Ollivander done tol me bout all that. Ah like it."

Ah smile an seem ta be a little cloud a light an have warm, fuzzy feelings in mah brain that's makin' me feel good fer a change. Jacklin takes out her wand.

"This is a cherry wood wand with a Veela hair core."

"Cherry wood wand with a Veela hair core? What's a Veela?"

She looks up at me.

"Veela are semi-human magical beings; beautiful women with white-gold hair and skin that appears to shine like the moon. When angry, Veela take on a less pleasant appearance; their faces elongate into sharp, cruel-beaked bird heads, and long scaly wings burst from their shoulders. My mother can do that but since I'm only half-Veela I can't."

Ah blink at her cause she said a lotta words.

"But what does that mean about the core of the wand?"

"Veela hair helps tame temperamental wands. Cherry wood is very rare in the UK and can be very dangerous. Only wizards with a lot of self control should get wands like this."

Ah look at her with big surprised eyes.

"Why d'ya gotta say that?"

Ah can feel mah stomach startin' ta rumble again. Mah face heats up an Ah start ta look at mah wand again ta try an' distract myself.

"Since I'm part Veela, I'm always trying to keep my powers under control. Veela have the ability to hypnotize most people attracted to girls when we dance. I try not to dance though because I know it makes them do dangerous things."

Ah look up at you. Mah stomach is rumblin' still, but Ah'm more scared of lookin' at her eyes now that Ah know what they can do. Ah hear her sigh.

"Veela magic is a curse when you think about it. You never know who your real friends are. My family supports half blooded and human born wizards but it's too dangerous for me to be around pure humans."

Mah stomach's turned back into just a big knot. Ah can feel mah face tryin' ta change into a soft, sad little face. Ah got no choice bout this one.

"Tha's a shame. Ah'm sorry ya have ta live wit that. Ya seem so nice."

"We're always, no matter what, physically perfect; graceful; and flawless. Nothing can make us look bad. Even when I start to get acne it doesn't seem to matter. That's why I wish I can have someone tell me I look snotty. At least that would be a sign I'm like any other 11 year old girl."

Ah notice her skin seems ta look perfect. She ain't got bruises or paper cuts on her hands like Ah do. Ah wish Ah could comfort her an Ah don't want her to feel so bad. After a bit, Ah start ta think about somethin'.

"Hey! Yer lips don't look perfect. There's a crack right in the middle of one of 'em!"

Ah hope Ah weren't soundin too mean. Girls in the past usually jus laugh at me or think Ah'm gross.

"Where?"

Ah point ta her lip an the little crack in the middle.

"Right there. See it?"

She looks at her reflection in the window.

"They do look a bit chapped. So does that mean that you don't feel affected by my magic?"

"Nah. Least Ah don't think Ah do cause now that Ah'm seein yer dry lips tha's all Ah can focus on."

She looks away from the window.

"I see. I didn't realize they were that dry."

Ah'm glad Ah was able to find somethin' that ain't perfect bout her. The knot in mah stomach slowly starts ta go away.

"See ya ain't so perfect. Perfect girls ain't got cracked lips."

She touches them ta feel how they're so dry.

"I should probably buy a bottle of pumpkin juice when the Honeydukes trolley passes by."

Ah look at her, an Ah wanna laugh. Ah dunno why since Ah know it probly ain't that funny.

"Wha's pumpkin juice good fer?"

"Anything to drink should help add moisture to my lips. The trolley on this train has only pumpkin juice since we're going to have a feast when we get to Hogwarts."

Mah eyes look real big cause Ah sure Ah ain't knowed we's gonna eat a lotta food.

"Feast?"

"Oh. Don't you have start of term feasts where you're from, Toby?"

Ah jus look at her knowin Ah ain't understood a word she said.

"Oh, not at mah school. Sometimes we got pizza days but then on the last day a school we get this hotdog day. Sure ain't a feast cause we'd only get one hotdog an a bag a Fritos or Pringles. Ya know those small little bags they give ya cause the school jus ain't got a lotta money..."

Ah jus start ramblin bout mah old school. Ah guess tha's a good thang cause she ain't tol' me ta shut up yet.

"Are you autistic Toby?"

Ah stop talkin. Ah need a sec ta figure out wha she said but Ah nod cause Ah'm scared ta say yes out loud.

"Uh huh."

"I think that might explain why you're not affected by my Veela magic."

Ah turn mah head a bit cause that don't make sense.

"How come?"

"I'm not sure since not everyone with autism seems to be affected the same way. It’s very rare to even have any immunity as it is."

"An yer sayin' Ah'm the only person that ain't affected by yer magic?"

"Outside of my family, yes. I’m not sure if there’s anyone else who wouldn’t be affected by it."

Ah look at her with wide eyes. Mah mind's racein' with ideas and excitement.

"If it ain't too personal, what does yer family worry about?"

"That my Veela magic causes the boys to do dangerous things to try to impress me. That’s why I said my magic is similar to a siren. Even when I don’t willingly use it, it’s still there. I can’t turn it off."

"Sounds like a pain."

Ah look out da window while smackin mah hands gainst mah seat.

"We nearly at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft an Wizardry yet?"

Ah look back at her an give her another half-smilin' look.

"I think we have another hour before we get there. Do you want anything from the trolley?"

Ah remember mah stomach's rumblin a bit.

"Yes. Ah think Ah could go fer one of 'em pumpkin juices. Ah ain't gonna be gettin cracked lips too."

The trolley lady appears an Ah try ta get mah wizardin money.

"Anythin off the trolley dears?"

"Yes, ma'am. One of dem pumpkin juices if ya got it."

She turns ta Jacklin an she wants ta get everythang. She's gotta be rich if she can get all 'em snacks an pumpkin juice too. Ah dunno if Ah'd be able ta eat anythang at the feast. Ah can't help but smile like a baby, an mah stomach seems ta go from a knot ta a floppin' flounders tail.

"Tha'll be 12 sickles loves."

Ah try ta count out tha money an hand it ta her.

"Thank ya ma'am."

Mah mouth is almost drooling. Mah eyes're all wide open. Mah stomach's a-rumblin' an' a-growlin'. Mah hands're all fidgety on tha pumpkin juice.

"Have you ever had anything from Honeydukes before, Toby?"

Ah shake my head, still lookin' at her snack an droolin' an starvin' an waitin' impatiently, like a baby might act.

"Oh that's right, you're American. You probably don't have Honeydukes there."

"Oh no. We ain't even got a trolley fer snacks. Is tha pumpkin juice good? It smells real good."

"I think it makes for a nice summer's drink. It seems to be popular because it's sweet."

Ah nod an mah stomach growls again.

"So it means Ah can have a sip right now?"

"Oh yes. Sorry about that, Toby."

Ah smile at her then immediately take a big drink out of tha bottle. The drink seems ta instantly help mah hunger pangs. Ah feel mah stomach settlin.

"Thanks fer buyin all these snacks, Jacklin."

"I figure it’s time that you learn what all these snacks are. Have you ever tried a chocolate frog before?"

"Nah. No one eats frogs back home. Ah mean some do but they don't cover 'em in chocolate. They fry their legs. Ah don't eat 'em though cause... Ah got mah frog Trevor."

Ah look at a package an then back ta her. Mah stomach growls an then Ah turn ta look at tha frog package. Ah'm tryin' real hard ta be polite an well behaved.

"Go on Toby, open it."

Ah open it up. A magical chocolate frog starts ta hop around.

"Don't worry, Toby. These frogs are just chocolate shaped like ones. They’re not alive."

Ah grab it an' start nommin' tha chocolate frog like it's some kinda animal. It's meltin' in mah mouth... A real frog'd take some time to eat or swallow.

"It's reeeeeal gooood."

Mah stomach's growlin slows down.

"Thank ya."

Ah smile like a baby at her.

"There’s the card that comes with it. The boys like to trade them when they collect these."

Ah look at the picture of tha frog and read tha card.

"Which one did you get, Toby?"

"Ah dunno who Ah got but it says Albus Dumbledore."

"Oh that's Headmaster Dumbledore. We'll be meeting him today once we get to Hogwarts."

Mah growlin' calms way down. Ah feel real full an relaxed and tired, but Ah feel good. Ah smile up at her like one o' those baby animals with tha big eyes.

"Ya know, Ah feel like Ah ate mah favorite dinner an' then Ah ate mah dessert an then some mo' favorite dinner an then some mo dessert. Ah feel kinda... kinda full... A little... sleepy...

Ah yawn a little, an' Ah lean against her until Trevor ribbits.

"What was that? Chocolate frogs never sound like real ones."

Ah snap awake after her voice startles mah half-asleep mind.

"Oh."

Ah look around to find tha sound. Ah see Trevor on tha floor an' Ah pick it up.

"Trevor started talkin' ta me."

"Is that your pet, Toby?"

"Uh huh. His name's Trevor."

Ah let Trevor sit on mah hand an' scratch tha back a his head. He likes tha way Ah'm scratchin' him. Ah wonder if he likes mah scratchin' better than tha others. He likes tha way Ah pet him.

"Wanna come an sit on mah lap Trevor?"

There's a big smile on mah face. Trevor climbs onto mah lap so Ah can get better access ta pet him. Ah notice Jacklin lookin at me.

"Wha's happened?"

"Oh nothing. Nothing happened, Toby. I was just thinking about you and your frog. I think the English oak was a good choice for your wand.

"Why's that?"

She smiles at me.

"Trevor seems to understand what you’re saying like he’s a person too."

"Well tha's cause Trevor's smart like Ah am. He's talkin' ta me like he knew me real well ever since Ah got 'em. We're basically friends."

Ah say all that wit a serious face. Cause Ah mean it. Jacklin don't seem ta think Ah'm weird that Ah talk ta frogs.

"Well that's nice Toby."

Ah give Trevor a long and tender scratch along tha back an' tha back a his neck, an he seems ta like it. Ah look at Jacklin an Ah see the same kinda look in her eyes now too. She seems ta understand me a little better all a sudden. Mah stomach doesn't growl no more. Ah feel really happy like Ah ain't ever felt before. Mah heart's flippin around. But Ah'm happy. Real happy...

Tag list: @arrolyn1114, @aliengoth3, @vintagepresley, @comebackep, @thetaoofzoe, and @presleysgirl6.

#toby and the veela #ecu fanfiction #hp au #toby kwimper

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Housed Hearts Ch7 Riot On REALTORS

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"The Valley has officially gone insane. Well more insane than what it is already."

"Can't you at least stay home for a FEW days?! Just until this blows over!"

Despite her worries the action did have her smiling a little bit. "Alright then. Just...please do what I asked you at least."

"H-Hello?"

There was a moment of silence before a raspy man's cough disturbed the silence making her jump again. "R-Rose dear."

"I would've c-called sooner b-but *cough* I was literally...tied up. D-Do me a favor would you, My Dear?....COME GET ME."

"I-I'm in the back alley behind the *COUGH* U-Uncany Bank."

She paused opening the door. "The bank? ..THE NEAREST BANK IS A GOOD THREE HOURS AWAY!! I TOLD YOU TO STAY NEAR HOME!! OOOHHH!! YOU'RE IN BIG TROUBLE, MAISON!!"

"I know, I know. Believe me I know."

"Stay on the line until I get there."

THE BANK!!

The head turned in question at the approaching light and footsteps. "Ah...Y-You've arrived."

He answered by coughing loudly before speaking. "Just HELP me." A hand pointed above him weakly. "Start by untying my lure and get me out of here before they come back!"

He gave her a frown. "I lost most feeling within this thing hours ago! I was lucky I was still able to move the arms. My only choice is to drag myself back like a sack of bricks now."

"Uh..In your condition? I don't think so. Hold still."

"Carrying you. It'll be faster. Now keep quiet. We don't need anyone hearing you and catching on what we're doing."

"How are you even capable of lifting my lure?! I admit I'm naturally very slim and in shape but I must still weigh a lot to you."

#housed hearts #househunted game #house hunted visual novel #house hunted game #house hunted #house hunted 2 #heim baile #maison talo

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aslkjdlasjf THIS GD SHOW, argh. i just finished season one, which i thought was a good idea, you know, finish the season before taking a break. *facepalms* i have those annoying things to do again (stupid household chores, every gd day you gotta do things), so it'll be a few hours before i can watch more, but i should be able to watch at least one or two more episodes today, so HOPEFULLY things will be a bit more resolved by tonight x'D

you were so right, there is so much happening, and i think EVERYONE on that gd ship needs a few years vacation after all this x'D

"married divorced remarried and divorced again and still having feelings for each other" asljdalksjda that is so correct, they are just that x'D

it's so fun, they're like "i don't trust him" pretty much all the time, and then Rush is like "so i had a dream" and Young is like "ok, i'll call General O'Neill" and they keep relying on each other so much right now, it's great, and Young risking the whole gd ship to save Rush, after having tried to kill him, what, twice already? amazing ❤

ah, yes, fanfiction ❤ it's so good at casting light on things from different angles, i love that, seeing characters and their motivations from all kinds of different point of views. though, you gif makers do that too and i love it, it's so great to look at different gif makers in the same fandoms and see how you focus different things.

right now i'm pretty exclusively reading McShep fics, but we'll see how that looks once i'm done with sgu x'D if you have any recs, please feel free to share!

btw, i've been trying to remember why i followed you from the start, and i'm pretty sure it's Star Trek, and specifically Spones, which, ALL MY LOVE! but i also want to mention how much i love following someone who gifs a lot of women, i love having more women on my dash! i never finished OUaT back in the days, but all your Regina and Swan Queen gifs are making me want to, and your Michelle Gomez gifs, waah, i do not want to watch CAoS! 😭 but you are kicking me in the butt about finishing Doctor Who too with your gifs of her (i sadly miss most of them though since i have it blacklisted for spoilers), i had no idea she was in it but man did that make me want to watch it when i found out!

okay, sorry that this got so long, even when i'm trying to keep things brief i end up being very wordy. so many things to say!

anyway, i'm gonna go do the things now, the sooner i get them done the sooner i can watch more sgu =D oh, wait, no, you posted something from 1x18 last night! i didn't look at it since i hadn't watched it yet, so i'm gonna go do that first! =D ❤

/Rodney anon

Oh don't be sorry , you can get wordy in my inbox whenever you like :3

You're fast! but why am I surprised, I finished 7 seasons of OUaT in a month lmao.

Well, imagine how it was for those who were watching sgu when it was actually airing, they did not have a chance to go and watch s2 right after s1, and you can :D so other things are not as bad as break between seasons of the show, but yeah, there's always things to do, sucks

askjhdaksjhd 'i just had a very interesting dream' scene is so good, and it so much better when you take it out of context lmao

well, they have to work together, they don't have a choice. you know how things were when he left rush on that planet, eli is smart, and eli was also right

but eli is still not good enough to do all the work, so no matter how much they don't trust each other, they have to work things out and work together and then finally going towards trust and comradery

well, at least they will try lmao

SPONES!!!!!!! SPOOOONEES! they are everything to me!!!!!

well, if you finish ouat and start caos... I am so sorry in advance lmao

I am not sure I can even explain what mess of the shows are those two, I have similar feelings towards both shows, I love the cast, I love some characters, I love women there, I hate the writers :D

Michelle is stunning in caos, there's also Miranda Otto, and they are like my moms, I love them, this show is worth watching just to look at them, but there's also... the rest of the show and plot asjkhdakjdh

same goes for ouat tbh, some characters are great and actors are doing such a good job and then there's whatever was happening in the show, but it;s still fun if you don't take it all seriously.

you will facepalm a lot and you will have an urge to rip your hair out sometimes, but if you try caos, I will give you two good reasons for it

that's it, think about it

okay, but you definitely need to watch doctor who, WATCH DOCTOR WHO!

#ask #Anonymous #rodney anon #oh man i suck at giving fanfiction recs #like i read so much and don't remember most of the titles #or it's all messed up and im not sure that title is from that fanfiction im thinking about lmao #well my first young x rush fic was stranger in a strange land and recently i read it second time and it's good i liked it #so im rereading young x rush fics right now and i will try to remember the titles and put them in my bookmarks #honestly i remember the title of that one fic not because it was my first fic #but because i love iron maiden askjhdakjdh

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For Want Of A Maylene (What Once Was Wrong)

"Another? -- Candice. That's fifteen already before this new kid. You can't--"

"What else am I supposed to do?" Candice said.

The vibes in the Champion's Villa off to the east of Snowpoint sank another few degrees. "What should you do? You know what you should do, Candice! Hire people! Get someone in to help them, not just physically, but mentally! And this one's an orphan!"

"No! No, it's fine. I'll just... I just need to give it my all and it'll--"

"Thought and Emotions-- It's ripping you up. It's been ripping you up for months. And now you have to take in this new kid-- what was her name?"

"-- Kerry. Her name is Kerry. We found her halfway to freezing to death in the snow."

"Have you asked anyone for help yet?"

"... Not yet."

"Candice!"

"-- I know! .... And she said she can't travel across the mountain yet. I figured, I'd help her get stronger."

"Or! Orrrrrrr." Maylene leaned over the table. "You can take her on a boat trip, and me and Crasher Wake can take care of her until you've hired on some people and gotten proper care together!"

"... You're right. I know you're right. Why can't I make myself see it?"

"It's fine. That's why we're a League, not A bunch of Gym Leaders. I have a few people in the Heya, and Crasher's famous for having a lot of good staff. I'll help Kerry, and we can ask around for volunteers. Okay?"

"... Yeah. Yeah! Why am I half-assing being a Gym Leader!?"

"Eh?"

"Though-- I'll need to start finding proper staff, and you're right we need to investigate the Lakefront, but..."

"-- Either way," Maylene said, "Let's get it done tomorrow."

~ ~ ~

"Hey, Kerry?" Candice called, into the dorm room. The curtains were open, but Kerry herself lay curled up on the bed, still around Li. "You have a visitor."

"What for?" She said, forlornly.

"I... Allow me to introduce myself. I'm Maylene, of Veilstone."

"-- The sumotori!?"

"Ah--- haha, yes, though that's... not really my career..."

~ ~ ~

"Hey!" Meylene scooted one of her bowls across the table to Kerry. "Eat up, we got a lot to do today."

"I already ate, though...?" Kerry said, staring at the bowl.

"Yeah, and we're going to be working hard today, too, to help ourselves and our Pokemon get stronger! That means you need energy. Which means you need food."

"Grandpa said to never have a second bowl and to always feed your Pokemon first."

"Nnn. Well, he's not wrong, but that's no excuse to neglect your own health! We have plenty for everyone!"

~ ~ ~

".... What's up? This wasn't the first sparring session where it felt like you were..."

"It's exhausting, okay? I... I've been training but there's just so much Aura around me it's--"

"Oh, you use Aura?" Maylene paused. "Let me have you and Li talk with my Lucario a bit..."

~ ~ ~

"Doing better, I see."

"Yeah! Thanks so much for showing me that. I just wish Grandpa were here."

"Your grandfather? What was he like?"

"Well. I mean-- OK. So, when I was a little younger, Grandpa started teaching me survival, and then, when I'd done that, he'd take me out to orienteer and leave me out in the woods around Acuity for a long time. One time, when this was taking me--"

"Wait, back up. Your grandfather abandoned you in the woods?"

"He knew I'd be okay!"

"He abandoned you! In the woods! That's not an okay thing to do to a child!"

"wh-- no, that's normal, that's not the point of the story--"

~ ~ ~

"So you're gonna be my exchange penpal?"

"Yeah! I really hope you keep in touch with all your friends in Veilstone. And learn to surf!"

"Haha, I'd love to do that, actually," Kerry responded, shaking the Hoenni girl's hands warmly. A slight warmth spread through her.

~ ~ ~

"I've been having more nightmares. I think it's related to Mt. Chimney."

"... Hm. I'll talk with Flannery and Liza and Tate. See what they have to say about it."

~ ~ ~

"Well, now. Yes, you will do quite nicely. As I'm sure you're already aware, given your stamps and badges, you'll need to hone those psychic abilities so that they don't drown out what you're hoping for. I can help with that. But I think we won't have as much time as you hope. Strange things are alreqady happening. I'll join you on your journey across Hoenn, but for now, let's get you a Starter and get you going."

"Are you sure? I mean. There's so much I have yet to learn--"

"No, I'm sure. You'll be perfect. Seeing it in person is a fantastic way to understand the world arond you.

"... And I really can come back at any time?"

"Always," Brawly said.

".... Then I'll go with you."

~ ~ ~

"Senri! I--"

"Oh! You're that gym trainer from Dewford, right? You're just in time. This boy wants to go out and catch his first Pokemon, but I don't have time between taking a challenge and--"

"Kerry!?"

"Satoshi!?"

"What are you doing here!?"

Wally cleared his throat.

"Ah-- yeah, of course I'll go help, if you'll loan us a Pokemon..."

#pokeblogging #pkmn irl #pokemon fanfiction #Event: For Want Of A Maylene #muse mixup madness

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Soulmate/ 8

Pairing- Hobi x Named Reader

Word count- 2k

Includes- Angst, giving birth

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J POV

Namjoon has been gone for four weeks

He calls and facetimes me everyday but I'd rather have him here

Instead my mom flew here from New York, to stay with me while he's away

She had a few things to say about him not being here but I just told her to stop

I really can't hear this now

The baby's due date is in a few days and I'm absolutely terrified

Hopefully she's on time and it's not as bad as I think it's gonna be

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Kiara is due on September 15

On September 14th my water breaks

While I'm food shopping with my mom

"Uh mom?", I call her

She's down the aisle and turns to me

She sees my pants are wet

She must see the fear on my face

"It's time!", she shrieks in the middle of the supermarket, "Vamonos!"

She grabs me and I say, "Uh shouldn't we tell someone to clean that?"

"No! They'll clean it! Vamonos!", she insists, ushering me out

She drives me to the hospital using the GPS while I call the doctor

When we get there my mom starts speaking rapid spanglish to the nurse

Of course the nurse speaks to her in Korean

My mom turns to me, "What did she say?"

I roll my eyes then speak to the woman in Korean, "I'm having a baby. My water just broke."

"Ah ok. This way.", she says leading me to a room and tells me the doctor will be in soon

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Fifteen hours later, the baby is still not out

And I'm in a lot of pain

"Ahhhh", I scream as more contractions come

Even with the epidural it hurts like hell

"It's ok. It's ok, soon it'll be over.", My mom says try to comfort me

"Yeah sure.", I say through gritted teeth, "Fuck!"

The doctor comes in for the millionth time and checks me

"Ok you're ready. We're going to take you to the delivery room"

I say bye to my mom outside the delivery room

They won't let anyone in with me except the father

Who is supposed to be here but isn't

He said he would try to come

I called and texted him but he didn't answer either

I called the studio to ask the manager if he can get a hold of him

He said he couldn't

I texted Yoongi to ask him to try to get in touch with Namjoon, that they baby is coming

But he couldn't either

So here I am

About to go into the delivery room

Alone

Again

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"Push!", the doctor repeats

I scream and push as hard as I can

I've been in this damn room for two hours, in pain and pushing to get her out

I'm crying and upset

Upset she won't come out

Upset that I'm alone

Upset because I want Namjoon

But even more upset because I want Hobi

I want him here with me

Hobi would make sure he was here

He would never leave me alone

God my life is fucked

"C'mon Joanne push"

"I can't", I cry, tears running down my face. "I'm so tired."

"You have to. For your daughter", the doctor encourages

Tears are blinding me and I'm exhausted but I summon the strength to push

I let out a long scream and push

I'm breathing hard and the pain is so intense

"Her head is coming. Push!", the doctor shouts

I grunt and push again

"One more! One more and shes out!"

I take a deep breath, push as hard as I can and yell

I feel the pain stop and I collapse on the bed

I hear the wail of a baby a few seconds later

I feel something on my chest and I look down and see my girl

My beautiful baby girl

With her head full of black hair

I love her at first sight

"Hi Kiara" I whisper to her, "I love you my baby girl."

I hold her little hand and stroke her hair.

"Joanne, we have to take the baby for her check up. We're setting up your room in the delivery unit and we'll bring her there in a little bit"

I nod

I don't want to let her go, but I do

I watch them take her away

Namjoon never came

And I just cry

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Kiara was born on September 15, at 5:30 am

Later on that day the nurse brings Kiara to my room and my mom gets to see her first grandchild

She's in love too

The nurses spends the day coming in and out of the room showing me how to care for Kiara

She also helps me breast feed Kiara and man that hurts

I also get a few visitors

A few friends from work and Yoongi

"She looks just like you", he says smiling

"Yeah but she has some Namjoon in her too. I hope she gets his dimples", I laugh

Yoongi is hilarious because he'll look at Kiara in her little bed but when I asked him if he wants to hold her, he backs away shaking his head

A few hours later I have my last visitor

Hobi walks in

And my heart soars

He has a stuffed wolf with a balloon.

"Hi Jo. Uh this is for Kiara", he says handing it to me

"Thanks Hobi.", I say trying not to cry

My mom looks at Hobi and at me

She walks out, leaving us alone

"So she's finally here.", He says walking to her crib, looking at her

He smiles his beautiful smile and says, "Hi Kiara. I've been waiting to meet you."

He says to me, "Shes beautiful Joanne. She looks just like you."

"Yeah everyone has been saying that", I grin, "Do....uh do you wanna hold her?"

"Yea if it's ok?"

"Of course", I nod

He gently picks Kiara up and holds her

He walks over and sits across from me on the bed

He's looking at her so lovingly then looks at me smiling

When he looks back down at Kiara, I burst into tears

Hobi looks up alarmed, "Jo are you ok?"

But I can't say that

How can I say I wish he was Kiara's father?

How can I say this is how it was supposed to be, him here with me, holding his baby?

How can I say that I miss him so much, that I'm still so in love with him, that I want to be with him?

I can't

Kiara isn't his

This isn't the way it was supposed to be

I can't tell him I love him, he's moved on and doesn't love me anymore

That this is just reminding me of something I can never have

But instead I say, "Yea I'm ok, just happy and honestly it's probably just hormones."

He laughs and I didn't realize how much I miss the sound

"Yea you must be exhausted", he says

"I think I'm past exhausted that I'm not even tired right now"

"I'm sorry."

"Don't be"

There's a short silence between us

I break it

"So uh, how's Hae doing? You guys got any big plans?", I ask as my heart breaks

"Oh uh no. Actually I broke up with her months ago. You didn't know?"

He broke up with her?

Why?

It doesn't matter anyway

I have a baby now and have to focus on her

"I'm sorry. You know I don't follow all that social media or the news", I answer

"Yeah right. I forgot. But yeah it just wasn't working out. I've been single since then and I'm fine with that."

"Oh um congratulations?"

He laughs, "Thanks I guess. How's Namjoon? Did he make it?"

I look down, upset again, "Uh no. He didn't come. I texted and called him and he never answered. Even after the delivery I checked my phone and nothing. He doesn't even know she was born. I texted him and called again to tell him but he didn't answer. I sent him a picture of her but he didn't respond so I don't know if he saw it."

"Seriously? He didn't even call you? How can he not be asking about his baby?", Hobi says angrily

"It's ok. I mean he did say he may not be able to make it. It's fine.", I force myself to say

I can't make Namjoon care about his baby or me

I've given up trying

"It's not fine Joanne.", Hobi says upset, "He should be here for you and for her. He should have told his manager to cancel the show or the tour. He shouldn't have gone."

"He's not like you Hobi. No one is. No one can compare to you.", I let slip out before I realized what I said

'Shit, shit, shit' I think

"Um I mean...", I trail off

"It's ok Jo. Uh. I think I should get going."

"Oh uh yea sure.", I say disappointed

He places Kiara back in her bed, comes over and hugs me tight

I miss being in his arms

I miss feeling safe in his arms

"She's beautiful Jo.", he says then he lets me go, "Just like her mom"

He smiles and I smile back

After he leaves, I take Kiara in my arms and hold my baby, tears falling down my face

Her name fits her because she's the only good thing, the only light in my life

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A few days after her birth, Kiara and I were released and my mom drove us home

She's been with us since, helping me a lot

Letting me sleep so I can take care of Kiara at night

Namjoon still has a week and a half before he comes home

He face timed me a few days after Kiara was born

I'm waa way to exhausted to be upset

"Jo, I'm so sorry but I lost my phone. I left it in one of the hotels and one of the staff had to go back and get it. It took a few days for them to fly back there and actually find it, then get it back to me."

"No one else had a phone you could use?", I ask

"I'm sorry. I've been exhausted and just crashing all the time especially after the concerts."

"Ok whatever", I sigh

At least he had a good reason

I guess

"Did you get the picture?", I ask

"Yea she's beautiful Jo. She looks just like you."

"She has some of you too", I tell him

"How are you? How is she?", he asks

"I'm ok just really tired. Kady is good during the day but a nightmare at night. She cries and just wants to be held and walked." I tell him, "You wanna see her?"

"Yeah! I do" he says excitedly

"Ok hold on"

I get Kiara from my mom and go sit on the couch.

Then I pick up the phone and hold it to Kiara

"Say hi to daddy Kiara"

"Hi baby! I love you", Namjoon says choking up

I smile as I watch Namjoon look at his daughter

"Daddy will be home soon baby girl", he tells her

"Jo, I'll be home soon to help you and be with Kiara", he says

I nod, "I can't wait Joonie. I miss you."

I actually do

I miss Namjoon a lot

Maybe there is something there

"I miss you too baby. I gotta go but I'll call you tomorrow", he says

"Ok."

"Bye Kiara. Bye Jo"

Maybe this can work with him

#soulmate fic #jung hoseok fanfic #hoseok fanfic #hobi fanfic #jhope fanfic #bts fanfic

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nils-little-freakshow · 6 months

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Interview With A...?

The camera feed crackles to life once more, after a long bout of silence. You're surprised to see this old show of death make a return, but Nil's smile is still toeing that familiar old line between mania and the façade of motherliness.

"Hello hello, darlings! It's been a while, hasn't it? But we'll ignore that for now, I have a little program I've organized for you all! I think you'll find it quite useful, for, ah... writing purposes, yes. Purely fictional things, just like this is, no?"

She sends you a playful wink, before lifting the camera off it's stand to walk your view over to her cabinets in that familiar old basement that's seen many a horrible thing. There's several bottles of chemicals, mostly cleaning products, and a few medical things as well.

She lifts a bottle of hydrogen peroxide up so it's easily visible in the camera, giving her audience beyond the screen a wide smile.

"The first thing you should always remember for your projects, is that this will destroy bloodstains in a way that makes them no longer reactive to UV light, making it harder for police to find evidence. You'll want to wipe up the majority of it first, of course, but after you've cleaned it up normally so it's no longer visible to the naked eye, go over it again with the peroxide, twice or even three times if it was sitting there a while."

She sets the bottle of peroxide down, then points the camera at a bottle of bleach.

"Now, everyone knows you shouldn't mix bleach and ammonia while cleaning, because you'll create mustard gas, but did you know mixing it with rubbing alcohol will create chloroform? Just a few tablespoons making it's way into only a cup of bleach could spell disaster for an unlucky soul, so definitely don't make that mistake, and especially don't mix them in glass jars that are easily breakable on impact, ok~?"

She giggles to herself, closing her cabinet and turning to the incinerator in the corner.

"Now, I know it might not be reasonable for you're, uh, main character to have one of these, but any especially hot fire will do, or one that burns long enough - if you're someone who burns trash anyways, the smell of that might even mask the scent of charring bone a little bit. Fire is great for getting rid of the teeth, especially if you crush them up a little bit first to be even smaller. If you can't do that, though, something known as 'piranha solution' - a mixture of sulfuric acid and, you guessed it, peroxide again! - will typically dissolve anything organic and porous enough with enough time. Makes a decent drain cleaner, too, if you've got something super backed-up... So long as your pipes are plastic and not metal. It'll eat that, too."

Next, she turns the camera to the countertop's end, and you can see a meat grinder hanging over the edge with a large bin positioned underneath the extrusion spout, surprisingly clean and in good condition. It looks well-maintained.

"Now, one of these will make disposal for your main character very easy, depending on how much they love stray animals or hate their neighbors. Free ground meat is typically welcomed by both, though, of course, one of those groups wouldn't be thrilled to find out what it really is. I have a hand crank grinder, but you might find electric to be easier and faster for your projects. Not everyone can live in a ghost town nobody remembers, after all! I have time that you might not."

She sends another playful wink to the camera, holding up her finger in front of her lips as if she was letting you in on a joke.

"Though, I don't need animals or neighbors to act as disposal for me, of course. I can do that myself."

She walks the camera back over to it's stand, setting it down and taking a seat in front of it, propping her chin up in one hand.

"Of course, you don't need to grind the whole body - organs have tons of market value, if you know what I mean, and there's people in this world desperate to save their loved ones who might not be able to otherwise. What a cruel world we live in, where innocents die to feed the rich, no?"

She gives you a smile, a knowing one. It doesn't quite reach her eyes, the fire behind them quiet but strong, keeping the smile from being read as genuine. A silent message - but do you understand it?

The moment passes, though, and she waves a hand as if to banish the tension that had gathered in the air, continuing to speak.

"Of course, one person can only do so much before raising suspicion and needing to step back, let time pass. A group though, especially a large one spread over a state or two, or five, or twenty... Well, now that would make for an interesting story to write, wouldn't it my little authors?"

She reaches out to the camera, hand hovering near the power button, but on your screen it almost gives the impression of her resting her hand on your head, or maybe shoulder.

"... Write the story you want to see in the world, ok my darlings? I look forward to hearing about them."

With that, the screen goes dark again as she shuts off the camera, and you're left with loads of information and subtext to absorb and think over. You could choose to ignore all this, of course. That was always an option from the very first time you stumbled upon her broadcast - she never made you stay. You were always free to leave, forget about it all.

... But you won't, will you?

#a broadcast for the masses #dark fiction #evil!nil blog #evil!nil has always said acab and eat the rich but now seemed like a good time to reinforce that part of her character #in a totally silly and fun way that is pure fiction :3 #very very silly fictional character :3

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yahuntao · 6 months

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Main Story / Hierarchy

Episode 1

Subaru: Yeehaw ✮ You're the transfer student that was rumored to be here, aren't you?

I'm Subaru, the star! A star is a star at dawn, and it's Subaru, not Pleiades, so it's special!

We'll be classmates from now on. It's a rare opportunity, so let's get along! Let's be friends, please take care of us.

Then, although it's a bit abrupt ...... please lend me money!

Hokuto: That's a bit rude, isn't it?

It's so rude to ask for money for the first time that the transfer student didn't even know how to respond.

I'm sorry, transfer student. I'm sorry, transfer student, but I'm sorry if you're just a nerd and don't know what to say.

But... although there are a lot of nerds in this school, it's not [everyone is a nerd], so I hope you understand.

Subaru: Hokke, you're going too far with the cleanliness! If you say that, won't the transfer student's first impression of me become [Dull Claw]!

Hokuto: Don't call me [Hokke].

Subaru: Eh? You're called [Hidaka Hokuto], and the nickname [Hokke] is totally ok, right?

Here, let me introduce, this is Hidaka Hokuto! Just call him Hokuto! He's a friend of mine.

But he's the kind of friend who won't lend money .....!

Hokuto: Don't say anything unnecessary.

Sorry, transfer student. Don't get me wrong. The star is a nerd, and he's obsessed with money.

⋯⋯ He doesn't know how to read people's faces, and he loves to give them nicknames, but he's a good guy.

Subaru: It may seem like you're agreeing with me, but you're just dissing me, right? Give me a few compliments! Or lend me..!

Hokuto: No. You're not poor. Why do you want money so badly?

Subaru: Coins, jewels, teeth, and other shiny things, I like them～✮

Hokuto: Are you a bird? Ah willowy, so intellect is bird class too, I guess.

Makoto: All right～, knock it off.～♪

I mean, you guys didn't come here to talk to the transfer student just to talk about all this weird stuff, did you? Don't you have something important to ask her for?

Subaru: Ohhhh, I remember! Uki is right! As expected of a [talk show master], your mind is really quick!

Is it the glasses? Is it that wearing glasses gives you [Expression +50]?

Makoto: That's right no anchor. Once you take off your glasses, you don't know anything?

Subaru: How would a transfer student know that, Uki? Isn't this the first time we've met?

Makoto: No, I had to go along with your joke, you know?

Subaru: Uki's got my favorite kind of place.

Makoto: I like you too, Akehoshi-kun~♪

Hokuto: It's disgusting how close you two are.

Forget it. If you leave it to these people, it'll be over. I'll introduce you.

Subaru: It's serious, Hokke. Come join us, join the nerd wave…

Makoto: Yes, yo~ It's an opportunity you can't miss, Icehawk-kun!

Hokuto: Shut up, Nerd Paw duo.

Well, first, let me introduce myself.

Hokuto: I'm Hidaka Hokuto, class president of Year 2A.

Your teacher asked me to take good care of you, so let me know if you have any problems. As long as it's within the scope of the class president's job, I'll take care of it.

Makoto: I'd like to take this opportunity to introduce myself...!

My name is Makoto Yuuki, please take care of me! You can call me Makoto.

Subaru: I called him "Uki" because his last name is "Yuki". And sometimes he looks like a monkey.

Makoto: Ah, you're making fun of me again. Just wait, I'll get back at you!

Hokuto: Yuki, introduce yourself.

Makoto: Well, I'm a member of the [Broadcast Committee]. We're always gathering information, so if there's anything you don't know, just ask me.

I'll tell you anything you need to know about the regular exams or anything else.

Subaru: I'll introduce myself as well~ ✮ Though I've been introduced before, no amount of times is too many for this to happen! I'm Akehoshi Subaru!

If Hokke is the class president, and Uki is the broadcasting committee, then I'm the money-lover...

Hokuto: Akehoshi, talking about this kind of cleansing will only lead to needless confusion.

That's it. Three guys hanging out, that's our routine. I'm sorry to be in the company of these clowns, but there's a reason for that...

To be precise, there's one more person... our companion. But we'll talk about him later.

He's not in our class, but we'll see him later.

Subaru: Hey, hey, is it really okay to skip Oguri? He's our friend too! Wait, I'll ask him to come ✮

Hokuto: Don't do that, please. Don't make it any more complicated than it already is.

Okay, okay.

Class is about to start. Come back for Grace during the lunch break.

Make sure you have some time to spare, transfer student. I'm sorry to call you around on your first day...

But we have a favor to ask of you. This. It's all we can ask of you.

I know you're not obligated to help us, but I'd like you to take a moment.

Please, transfer student.

#ensemble stars #translation #ensemble stars translation #enstars #subaru akehoshi #hokuto hidaka #makoto yuki #enstars!!

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faustycakes · 11 months

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I'm sorry, I don't feel so good! Pt2

Read the previous part!

The test was positive, Toromi used to second one, it was positive too. Toromi didn't say anything, she just gasped and went out the bathroom. She was stressed out. She knew Teruya wouldn't leave her over something like that but her mind said otherwise. She couldn't take it, and just confronted him.

"Teruya...I gotta show you something."

"Oh, what is it? Is it about the test?"

"Yeah..."

"Hey, I won't be mad at what the test says, okay?"

"They're both positive."

"...What?"

"I'm sorryー"

Teruya then hugged Toromi tightly, and cried a bit "I can't believe I'm gonna be a dad...I...wow." he kissed her cheek. He felt a sense of joy from the whole situation. "Don't be sorry, Toromi.", "O-ok."

"I wonder if it'll be a boy or a girl?" Teruya asked, "It's just an egg, it doesn't even have a dick." Toromi replied looking down at herself. "So, uh, what do you wanna do now?" she broke the hug as she flopped on the bed, Teruya lightly petted her head, getting a small purr out of her. "Wuv you..." Toromi got out of her mouth, "Love ya too, Pumpkin! Ah, did my accent leak a bit there?" Teruya blushed slightly at the realization getting a giggle out of Toromi as Teruya sat on the bed.

"Heh, I actually thought you'd ditch me there." Toromi sat up, sitting next to Teruya, not noticing his concern. "Toromi...did you really think that?"

"N-No, N-I I-It's ju-just a weird thing I do I-I'm sorry I'm sorryー"

"Tomi, Tomi, you didn'tー"

Toromi could only let out chocked sobs while she tried to let out words but she couldn't, her breathing was heavy and she felt the world crashing down on her. "Let's go to the closet." Teruya said, he hesitated for a second, but held Toromi's hand softly and went to the closet.

Toromi liked the closet, it made her feel comforted, it was her safespace. It wasn't really a closet, moreso a small room with a lot of pillows and a fluffy blanket. Teruya tucked her into it as he lay with her. Toromi stopped crying and slowly cuddled up to Teruya. "Sorry about that...I just...I just got reminded of things.", "Toromi, it's ok, I was just caught off guard by what you said and it made me a bit worried." Teruya returned the cuddle and kissed her on the forehead.

It was a very chaotic day, but like always, the merchant and the programmer go right through it

#proshippers dni #teruya otori #otori teruya #super danganronpa another 2 #self shipping #self ship #tw pregnancy #toromi tabashira #f/o x s/i #non despair au #sdra2 #terutomi #tw panic attack

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kayssweetdreams · 2 years

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Mafia Wonderworld: Part 8

Meanwhile, Somewhere else in Wonderworld City...

Emma woke up to the feeling of someone taking down her pigtails, and patting her face. Her vison began to clear up, and she found herself sitting in front of a mirror, but instead of her regular clothes, Emma found that she was in a sparkling, dazzling, and beautiful flapper dress. The girl felt a hand gently grasp her chin and turned it to towards them.

"Careful now sweetie, I'll be done in a second." Emma gasped as she saw the person who was brushing her face. "Y-You're Sana Hudson..." she says awestruck. The woman chuckles "Hehe. That's my name, don't wear it out." She said playfully. Emma shook her head out of her hand "How are you here?! And better yet, WHY are you here?! The city had declared you a missing person, you had vanished into thin air!" She shouted.

Sana grabbed her chin again "Oh now you're speaking nonsense, I didn't disappear, now hold still so I can finish." She said, as a little girl with purple hair walked in. "Um...Mrs Sana, do I have to go in the audience? C-Can't I just sit neat the bar?" She asked. Sana looked back at her. "Oh Come now Yuri, you should get out there a little more, after all, a speakeasy is like a meet and greet room for people to have some fun." She said.

Emma gasped and ran to the girl "You're Yuri Brand!! You went missing too!" She shouted, scaring Yuri into hiding behind a pillar. "Be gentle with Yuri, she's shy...and speaking of which, your hair is starting to fall out of place." She said, taking a hairbrush and combined down Yuri's soft purple hair.

Emma only watched in disbelief. Where the other missing people here too? And if they were, WHY did they dissappear? And why were they acting as it this was totally normal? Didn't they know that they had the entire world looking for them? A clawed gabd placed itself on Emma's shoulder, causing a sharp shiver to crawl up her spine. "Hello dear child, you're a bit confused I think. Shall we go into the speakeasy and get a drink?"...

Meanwhile, Back at the theater...

Balan placed multiple hot coals on the Negati's frozen form. "Who...exactly IS he Balan?" Leo asked. "One of Lance's underlings, and one of my foes. This is Fortie IV of the Fearsome Fort Bros." Balan explains. Leo however, still looked confused. "Who are they?" He asked. "The Brothers Fort are Fortsepher and Fortie IV, one has the strength, but both are wise, so it wouldn't be smart to compare Fortie in size..." The maestro explained, waiting for the coals to melt the frozen boss. "Of course, they have gotten stronger, because now they have a host. And that is the power that they desire the most." He said.

The coals melted through the ices Fortie until half of his body was unfrozen. His sharp teeth chattered from the chill in his body. "So...Cold..." He whimpered. Balan smirked "Oh do forgive me if you please, I didn't know that your body would freeze." He said, feigning ignorance. Fortie glared at him "YOU! You pure white, smiling, pompous, PEASANT!!" He screeched, struggling to get out of the ice. Balan however just smiled "Oh thank You Fortie! All the things that describe me!" He joked, much to his anger.

"YOU LET ME OUT THIS INSTANT!!!" He yelled, causing Leo to cover his ears. "Oh Don't worry Fortie, I'll let you free. As soon as you tell the location of Lance's Speakeasy." Balan said. Fortie shook his head "NEVER! I'LL NEVER TALK!!" The small creature shouted. The maestro raised an eyebrow. "OK, I see, You denied the easy way, so the hard way it'll have to be." He said. He snapped his fingers, and the bird like creatures brought over a plate or red and yellow macaroons.

Fortie's struggling stopped as he watched the plate was brought in front of him. His eyes got big "RED VED VELVET AND LEMON CHEESECAKE MACAROONS!!" He shouted, but Balan wagged a finger at him "Ah Ah Ah, I don't think so see, these macaroons are ALL for me." He said, taking one off of the top, and nibbling it very slowly in front of Fortie. The small boss started to feel himself spaz out, losing his composure as he struggled to escape the ice.

Balan lazily looked at him "You can have one too, the location of Lance's Speakeasy is all I need from you." He bargained, taking another tortuously small bite from his macaroons. Fortie however, fought his offer "N-NEVER!! I'D RATHER BECOME A KOSOKOSO THEN TELL THE LOCATION!!" He shouted. The maestro shrugged. "Alright, it's your decision, and it avoids another brawling Collison." He said, nibbling the red macaroon VERY slowly in front of Fortie. The small Fort Bro sobbed as Balan ate his favorite treats, and he couldn't get to them.

"I'm full, so to say, I might as well throw the rest away." Balan said, picking up the tray. Fortie screeched, and finally caved "OK! OK! YOU WIN!! PLEASE!! JUST LET ME HAVE ONE!!!" He yelled. Balan smirked as he pushed the tray towards him. "Alright, where's the speakeasy?" Balan asked. Fortie glared "OK, Lance always transports us by snapping his fingers, but the password is also the place where it is, so in order to find the speakeasy, you'll have to find the distilleries as well." He blurted out.

Balan took a second to register the information, before he got thinking "So, the clue to the speakeasy, is hidden in the distilleries of many?" He asked, but to his horror, Fortie had vanished, along with the macaroons tray. "SO LONG FOOLS!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!" He cackled as he ran into the city, his feet leaving a small pitter patter before he disappeared into the city.

Leo looked out the window as their hostage (and their one clue) ran off. He sighed "Now what?" He asked, turning to Balan, but he just smiled "Now, we know what we're looking for. So I guess a few brawls are in store." He said, grabbing out his pistols. "You can stay here if you desire, but if Lance's minions come back, be sure to open fire." Balan said, tossing Leo a funny looking Tommy gun "I-I wanna come with you, I want to save Emma!" Leo yelled.

Balan's eyes widened at his statement, but smiled "Now Leo, I admire your might, but this is going to be a dangerous fight. But I admire your desire to help your girlfriend, but if you come with me, You're swearing Loyalty to me until the end." Balan said, pulling out the yellow teardrop shaped gem and holding it in front of Leo.

"What do you say? Do you accept?"

#Balan Wonderworld #Balan #Lance #Leo Craig #Emma Cole #Sana Hudson #Yuri Brand #Fortie IV

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mushroomminded · 2 years

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It's not often I'll say "please post this ask publicly cos I think it'll help not just you, but others as well", but regarding your grief response at Pepper's passing (feel free to tag with the proper trigger warnings of course, and forgive the uncensored swearing but it would feel a little ingenuine of me to not express the specific emotions here fully, and unfortunately yer mans SJ is a sailor mouth):

You've nothing to be guilty or feel self conscious over as to how you're handling and processing it. I know western society as a whole kind of has this idea of what someone grieving a death should "look" and act like, to the point that when we don't match it ourselves we get weirded out, but emotional responses to death are varied and complicated. No one person grieves the same way. I myself relate very heavily to you right now: I've lost two family members in my lifetime, one which was out of nowhere and one which was the end result of a couple of years of scares and age catching up to them. For the former, I only cried once, at their funeral (during the actual service). Otherwise, my emotions were fairly stable- even when I received the very sudden news that they had died unexpectedly, my reaction was a measured "ah, fuck. ok". And for the latter... well, as said, that one cane after a couple of years where they'd been in and out of hospital due to this or that, including strokes. And that was on top of watching gradual decline from age that kicked off before then, as I watched them go from fiercely independent and fairly airheaded/dopey to requiring carers and, whilst not succumbing to dementia as badly as some do, still seeing it take a noticeable impact on them. When they finally did pass, my reaction was closer to "It's been a long time coming; at least their suffering is over". I didn't attend their funeral- they passed in 2020 in the middle of our first major lockdown, so attendance was strictly limited, and I knew there were other people in my family who needed to be there more than I did (I had already made my peace and said my goodbyes over the scares and stretch of time watching them deteriorate).

Does any of that mean I don't care? Not at all. The sudden death was a beloved uncle- a massive wind up merchant and the family clown who made all of us both smile and groan in equal measure, and though he hadn't had the healthiest life there was *no* indication he was going to have a fatal heart attack until it happened. He was barely in his 60s. Whilst I may not think of him every single day, his lack of presence is still felt six years later. The atmosphere of family gatherings is still noticeably different without him. And the other death was my maternal grandmother- who was very independent throughout even a good stretch of her golden years and through several operations for physical ailments (we're talking a lady who was still going off to Spain by herself until at least her mid-late 70s, very early 80s tops). She was always a bit dappy and daft, mind you- but that's what we loved about her. Over much of my twenties I watched her gradually lose more and more independence as age took its toll on her body and mind, until before long it was like she wasn't the same person I knew anymore. In spite of how hard those last couple of years were, her presence too is missed. I loved them both. On a more directly relatable to this situation note, some cousins of mine nearby have a black lab named Busby; he's extremely affectionate, super excitable, loves his food, and used to go absolutely mental for Catch. I say "used to", because he's 13 now; his legs, especially his back ones, aren't what they used to be- he can still walk, but he has difficulties getting up and down (and actually walking itself, sometimes). His stomach is far weaker, so we can't give him as many treats as we used to (in fact, we can't really give him any more than like, one every couple of days). Though he's still got a youthful personality, he's pretty clearly in his twilight years, and approaching the end of his life. Me and my parents have looked after Busby many times over the years when needed, due to how close by my cousins are- this place is such a second home to him that he recognises the house, and always pulls a little down our driveway when walked passed it. I bloody love that dog as if he was my own, and it's sad to know he's not got a lot of time left, but I'm holding up ok. I know when he does go, I will be alright.

I don't think you'd call me callous or cruel or uncaring for reacting to their passings the ways I did, because you'd be able to tell from the way I talk about them- and specifically the way I word things when talking about their passing in the case of the first two examples- that I did. That they mattered to me, and their deaths had an impact. I'm just very lucky that when faced with that specific grief of losing a loved one, my emotions stay stable and I'm able to compartmentalise- usually so I can be the rock to people around me who are having a really difficult time with it. This is the first time since you and I became friends that I've known you to encounter loss, but I suspect you might be the same to a degree- obviously it's too early on in the process to call and I could see how much Pepper's last year was tearing you apart on some days, but that's my reading.

Your love for others is evident in every aspect of your character and personality, how you interact with other people or talk about the people you care about. You have so much love to give, Emily, and you give it often. I won't give you shit for doubting your own ability to care or feeling like you push people or way or you don't love enough because Same, Honestly™️, but take my word for it; your capacity for love is among the highest I've seen even amongst people I know. I would never, ever accuse someone with as big of a heart as yours as being uncaring or cold. Fuck, if anything, the fact that you're so set on immortalising Pepper alongside yer author avatar is proof positive of how much and how dearly you loved her on its own.

I really do mean it when I say that people or animals who pass away go onto their second lives in our hearts and minds; they may not be around anymore, but those memories are. Those experiences happened, and those memories are proof. We think of them as often as is necessary, recalling specific events or just general impressions or images of these people or creatures we knew and loved. We carry those with us until we, too, fade away, as we all will in the end. Loss is painful, grief is hard and weird, and nothing can be permanent- but none of that, none of that, can take those memories, those experiences, and the feelings and thoughts tied to them away from you whilst you're still here. The pain always fades, the sting is always salved, and what's left is all the good, briefly immortalised within us and everyone who knew them. The fact that it ended the way it did- that things must always end one day- does not change the fact that there once was a spritely little lass named Pepper owned by a wonderful woman named Emily, who was loved so very very much and who loved back.

❤

#8 colas #tw death #tw animal death

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