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#it’s probably incredibly traumatic

beanghostprincess · 1 month

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The way this fandom treats Pudding should be studied under a fucking microscope because what do you mean you hate a girl who has been manipulated by her mother since she was born into hating herself and using a fake personality to attract men??? What do you mean you hate a girl whose last scene was sobbing because she had to let go of the only guy she has ever truly loved and has ever understood her??? Actually. Let me just-- What do you mean you hate a girl who was manipulated during the whole arc and clearly is being psychologically abused by her mother??

#every day i think the one piece fandom would hate me if i were a character of the show bc i would. probably be pudding ngl #pudding is the best representation of people with mommy issues my girl did nothing wrong hate big mom instead or something #she is my beloved #also it's incredible like. the amount of hate zeff gets but then big mom is like. never mentioned when it comes to pudding????#pudding is literally traumatized HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE IT #a girl who starts crying in the middle of a wedding bc a guy didn't straight up insult her for being different is not okay mentally #one piece #charlotte pudding #whole cake island

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artheresy · 5 months

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Yingxing Appreciation 🎉🎉

hi, hello, it's Yingxing appreciation time and I'm dragging you into it bc he is my baby and I need more ppl to talk about him

Y'know I see a lot of people like in awe and hyping up DF and just giving him tons of appreciation while analyzing him specifically as an individual which is all so so valid, DF is amazing and very intriguing as a character and I love him sm, but I sadly don't see the same for Yingxing despite him I think also being so interesting. I also see him more so dismissed in the "literally God and some guy" kind of fashion sometimes

So I'm here to rant just a little bit about Yingxing, why I love him, why he's epic and why he ruins my day every single time I think about him! This is for any of my fellow Yingxing lovers who are also starved of any content of him

Firstly, this man is a genuine genius, like lest we forget this is from Baiheng's travelogue in which she met a young Yingxing who was still a child by this point.

He was a young boy but had already become a craftsman, a sign of his ability to learn exceedingly quick under Huaiyans tutelage. And his ability to work and progress incredible fast continues into his time as a young man on the Luofu.

We know he arrived probably somewhere around 18-21 (in my personal estimate) and by the time he saw Jingliu again (which itself was likely early into his stay on the Luofu given HCQ ages and timing), he had already impressed the Master Craftsmen of the Luofu's Artisanship Commission and earned himself a title.

There are also multiple things in game that emphasize his achievements and creations he crafted, some offhandedly mentioned in a readable or item while others are emphasized with importance.

Casually mentioned in the Discarded Ingenium Parts is his feat in the Great Trial of the Furnace (perhaps that trial is for gaining the furnace master title? Once again signifying an earlier achievement in his legacy) where it took him only a day and night to create a whole mechanical lion that moved and looked just like a real live lion from a bunch of defective parts and waste.

More recently in 1.5, they released a readable, the Ten-Lords Criminal Directory, which mentions an imprisonment method designed by Yingxing that keeps “Mirage” in a perpetual state trapped within a hallucination of their own making. Utilizing it’s own powers in order to keep it imprisoned. Something that with proper maintenance seems to have lasted for around 700 years so far.

And of course, how can we forget his most famous creations

The beautifully crafted weapons of the High Cloud Quintet, from Jingliu’s incredibly heavy sword remarked as being as heavy as three thousand catties, to Dan Feng’s Cloud Piercer with the ability to even cut through dragon scales, and the Devastator Glaive as well as Baiheng’s recurve bow. Each impressive in their own ways and seemingly crafted pretty early as well into his time on the Luofu with the HCQ given the distinction of Jing Yuan who (even if he likely was more a teen than a boy) still wasn’t an exact adult yet. So once again, let me emphasize this man’s skill here. With how many things he managed to do so so early into his time on the Luofu. A genius craftsman who deserved all of the praise he had garnered with his works.

Additionally, I know they keep harping about “ugh arrogant craftsman, ugh he’s so full of himself” but every single time we’ve seen his personality, he just seems like a genuine joy to be around. Bright, charismatic, sure he’s cocky but he also gives the impression of being incredibly fun and a bit silly if you ask me.

His behavior as mirrored by the mirage echo in Scalegorge Waterscape is distinctly playful even in what might be a more tense situation, lightly bantering with Dan Feng and even chuckling in certain languages.

In Jingliu’s character stories, it even furthers this bright, playful attitude he gives off with his distinct cheekiness shining through especially with that “toothy grin” of his. And if you listen to Jingliu’s (at least her English) voice lines during Clouds Leave No Trace when she speaks about Yingxing before getting into his transformation, there is a distinct fondness or amusement in her voice as she speaks of him especially that cocky nature of his despite her distaste for it at first.

While Baiheng is hailed as this kind figure in the High Cloud Quintet, perhaps their sun even casting light upon them, it doesn’t seem too far off to say Yingxing was a shining star among them in his own right. His easy going nature with them bringing about a bubbly playfulness similar to Baiheng given their closeness from when he was young. I could go into way more especially in regards to the casualness at which Yingxing seems to speak and treat others allowing for a more equal formation of relationships especially with Dan Feng but I’m saving that for another rant.

And all of this about him especially how expressive he seems at certain points he’s been mentioned, really just makes me so incredibly sad when thinking about Blade now. How severely separated he is from this identity. A division that exists from not only his death but from the way his mental state has been severely warped from his time with Jingliu and being affected afterwards by the mara.

The sheer dehumanization and lack of a personal identity in place of seeing himself as a solely a weapon when put next to Yingxing, with such a clear bold individual identity, really makes the transformation of one into the other all the more jarring and tragic. Especially with the emphasis on how Yingxing hated the abominations of Abundance only to become one himself, something that is still implied to have not been by his own hand. Blade is an immensely tragic character, but that tragedy only holds weight because of the life and identity Yingxing had. It is only with Yingxing’s light which shined despite the circumstances of his life that his descent into darkness hits harder, and it makes me so sad that I haven’t found many others talking or expanding upon this despite my searches because he really is such a well written character with so many details in his story that are both interesting and utterly heartbreaking.

And additionally, I want to say that I think there is a lost potential in examining the Xianzhou through Yingxing. Specifically in the way he is treated as a short life species. We know how the relationship between the Vidyadhara and the Natives, especially as it’s changed after Dan Feng, but there is a very interesting relationship to be explored between the Xianzhou and the Short Life Species the end up there, especially through Yingxing’s relationship to the different Artisans guilds whether on the Luofu or the Zhuming.

In the end, it becomes another sad element to Yingxing’s story. Yingxing managed to change his attitude regarding how the Zhuming masters treated him and even grew more of a confidence, but even in the Luofu's Artisanship Commission, he can never truly get as far as he deserves. Just as Jingliu says

Even with his work impressing the master craftsmen of the Luofu, even after more than showing his skill and earning the title of Furnace Master for that skill, he still would be denied higher positions and could only prove his true worth by the High Cloud Quintet.

And just let me say it again, him being a short life species allows for such an interesting examination of the world and people around him based upon that. While we don't know exactly how they met, we do know that Yingxing was Huaiyan's personal disciple and the only one he mentions of the celestial masters to treat him with respect and believe in his capabilities despite knowing he's a short life species. Through his treatment of Yingxing, we learn quite a bit about him. Through Baiheng's treatment of him as well, we learn a lot about her, more than anywhere else.

He's just UGH I need more exploration from Yingxing's perspective, the lack of it feels as if I'm being starved. He's so interesting, he's so fun, he's incredibly tragic, and he makes me cry every single time he crosses my mind. Please do yourselves a favor and think more about his character so you'll end up as sad about him as me. Or don't maybe. I dunno. All I know for sure is that you absolutely need to read Views of the Universe From a Starskiff: The Zhuming if you haven't. Anyways bye, thanks for listening to this rant, I gotta go cry over him.

Peep the tags also for a rant about my own characterization of YX if you wish to witness my insanity

#Let me rant about my own personal characterization of Yingxing based on this and its OVER #It's OVER #Firsy off We need to acknowledge before we get into anything that YX is severely traumatized #Before becoming a teen (we don't know exactly how long he was at the Zhuming before he met BH so he could have been p young)#He had already lost his entirely family in an incredibly brutal fashion to the Borisin #His home planet was conquered destroyed and turned into a weapons nursery for the Borisin #And he ended up somehow on the Zhuming (it's my hc that Huaiyan himself found him but we don't know the canon details)#And on top of that seemingly only Huaiyan his master was kind to him as the rest of the celestial masters on Zhuming degraded him for being #A shortlife species to the point he A CHILD tells BH he doesn't know if he'll live to see his parents avenged #So yeah he's gone through some shit #And we know his arrogance begins after Baiheng says kind words to him but ngl I don't think he switched up so fast from a few kind gestures #I think that arrogance of his begins as a coping method inspired by her especially given the exaggerated nature of it as jingliu describes #When he was a child #Kind of a fake it til you make it #And by the time he ends up on the Luofu I think it's half genuine confident half fake it til you make it #Specifically in that he does really see the people around him as equals no matter their status or species including someone like HE IL #And in that he's probably pretty judgemental all things considered #But I think the more exaggerated parts especially his outward declarations are played up a bit by him to give off a certain facade or image #In order to garner respect when paired with his actual genuine skill and talent #That's just a reduced summary of my characterization of him tho with his relationship to his confidence I have more to say but #ALSO YINGXING WITH SURVIVORS GUILT #WHERE IS MY YX WITH SURVIVORS GUILT CONTENT *bangs my fist against the floor*#That 100% plays into my personal characterization of his relationship with his confidence #Also I view YX as being AuDHD for so many reasons but esp with what we know in canon of his obsession with crafting and his #Overworking himself tendencies regarding it #Yingxing #Hsr blade #Hsr #Honkai star rail #Don't let me mention how this affects his relationships I'll be even more annoying than I already am

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fantomette22 · 11 months

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A younger Gehrman with his famous newly? red scarf 🧣

For my main hc/ fic i needed to settle on an idea of how/ when he got it. I wasn’t sure what to choose at first and if it was wise to go with the one idea i had but… by sharing their very own version, a friend managed to convince me to go along that one! maybe. It would be a gift from someone close to him 👀 hehe you might know the huntress in question

And you, how do you think he got it? Is it just a random accessories or piece of clothing like his hat or clothes? Or do you believe it hold some significance?

#bloodborne #my art #gehrman the first hunter #bloodborne headcanons #so yeah severals ideas… i like it could be smt he had since quite young but i also like that a friend could have gift it to him too #so idk i would say it’s smt he had since a while but was sew again in smt new!#if i had a nickel for every character that mean a lot to me who end up alone and are probably traumatized and incredibly stong and-#have a red scarf🧣i would have 2 nickels. it’s not a lot but weird it happen twice #or even 3 times omg #fantomette22art

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jewishbarbies · 6 months

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It’s two songs about Harry Styles:

Is it over now?: she fantasizes about emotional abuse (unaliving herself to make him say he loves her), slut shames him

Now that we don’t talk: she blames him for breaking her heart and basically calling him a meanie who doesn’t talk to her anymore. She makes a weird point to say he’s changed and he looks like he’s trying on different personalities. She says she wished he stayed the same because he was good as he was and SHE really understood him 🥺. (But she never considers that maybe she never knew him or understood him).

imagine if his “different personalities” was just him experimenting with his sexuality/gender in his personal life, like he’s talked about doing in the past. like she strikes me as the kind of person who says she’s all for gay rights but if a man she dated came out as bi or something and/or dressed more feminine/androgynous, she would dump him immediately and say something was wrong with him because “she should be enough”. I can only imagine what she said behind closed doors when he wore a dress on that magazine cover.

#Asks #anonymoose #anti taylor swift #swifties dni #I feel like it’s incredibly unfair of her to say something like that about him #because he was legit freshly 18 #like #he was still a teen #and his youth was filled up by performing #and being subjected to a level of fame that #while I’m sure was nice in some ways #probably traumatized him #like with people making him too uncomfortable to be seen with his own band mates #because of the shipping #so OF COURSE he’s going to try to figure out who he is #outside of all of that #and she takes that as a dig against her #like girl fucken BYE

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microfeelings · 7 months

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I just had a rant (with myself) about the character of Mama Jones in 2003 and how she was reduced to "haha, she babies her son and is basically looking for a babysitter for him lol" and how much I HATED that! She lost her husband to a very violent attack (implied), Casey was involved in this (also implied but for the life of me I cant get the timeline straight), the store her husband had got burned. This woman should have heeps of trauma that she most likely buried deep because SHE HAD TO RAISE CASEY ON HER OWN (I guess its implied theres an uncle or auntie bc of cousin sid, but theres no mention of them so I can only imagined they fucked right off), and she got reduced to that?? Come on 2003 you can do better. I KNOW you can do better

(Extra info on the notes bc its mostly ranting and it wouldnt make sense on the main post)

#tmnt #tmnt 2003 #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt 2003 casey jones #tmnt 2k3 #i hope this reaches the right audience #sometimes you have to leech onto an incredibly background character and say 'I can do better than them'#if theres one thing about me is I WONT LET A WOMAN LET ALONE A MOTHER GET DISRESPECTED LIKE THAT #add to that the possibility that casey has a traumatic brain injury? her attitude makes way more sense #shes incredibly overprotective of her bc hes the last thing she has #i mean casey probably got his ass kicked to next tuesday that day too #great now I need Splinter to have an extensive talk with her about the fact her overprotectiveness is just hurting his son #bc hes not the child that lost a father and probably had to spend time in the hospital (and everything that comes with a brain injury)#hes an adult thats actually doing pretty good independently and she needs to see that and let go to start healing her own trauma #man im emotional over this woman Ive fabricated in my mind LMAO #i would say i might write this but that would require me knowing how to do that so 👍#oh man i make some pronouns mistakes in the tags lmao (he/him she/her casey and mama jones for the win i guess)

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unclekaz · 5 months

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okay so. ive been rereading my first four fics in the machine theory series and now im thinking hard about a what-if scenario: what if instead of just packing springtrap home, nolan decided to stay as a technician instead of a security guard?

he doesn't have much talent with electrical devices but he knows more than he always seems to, and he's incredibly adept at learning. he would already have a slight bond with the springtrap animatronic suit so he's not exactly going anywhere, but i can imagine their rapport being incredibly domestic because of it.

to start: nolan doesn't fall into the cycle of murder because of choosing to cover his tracks after stealing springtrap. fazbear frights is still operational and things keep trucking from there, although nolan would probably feel *horrible* about leaving springtrap daily, vice versa since nolan is springtrap's one true connection now and their forceful separation would make the both feel so unrequited for one another.

but since springtrap's bodily changes (holes in the suit disappear, he gains more anthropomorphisms like blinking eyes and expressive facial features) are a direct cause of him gaining a human connection to someone, naturally fazbear entertainment would probably be very pissed that their main attraction has lost a lot of its spooky factor, not to even mention nolan secretly bathing and cleaning the suit

so what would happen? simple. nolan would probably be allowed to just take the suit home. they probably think it's just a lifeless endoskeleton and just see it as useless scrap, so who cares what some random technician would want with it now? this is literally the best possible outcome for the two. nolan never falls into the cycle of violence he finally broke out of, and springtrap gets to live with a traumatized but much less deeply scarred nolan.

thanks to nolan now lacking a lot of his prowess and guilt from taking another life, he'd probably immediately evict liza from his home and that means the climatic peak of the series just. never happens. he doesn't go back to jackson or end up killing anymore people, he stays in his undisclosed city and bounces between irregular jobs, especially knowing that fazbear frights wouldn't likely stay open for long.

#vigilante.txt #i genuinely love thinking about this possible alternative timeline #nolan would probably be so much more healed and incredibly warmer to be around #his protective walls would've been broken by his springtrap much easier too #he's still traumatized and hurt yeah! but he now lacks just so much pain and strife in his body that now he's just. kinda messed up but okay #nolantrap #fic drabble #springtrap x reader #springtrap fic

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