#it’s kinda why I don’t post my writing anymore mainly because I feel like what’s the point

[littlexscarletxwitch]

Hi, would you be able to do a mutual pining yelena x avenger!reader kinda thing where yelena has been ignoring reader because she doesn’t know to how to deal with her feelings and when reader confronts her, yelena admits that she likes her? Mainly angst with fluff at the end if possible. Love your fics!!

── ༊*·˚⋆ 𝗶 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗳𝘂𝗰𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂

paring: yelena belova x fem!reader

tag(s): fluff, some angst, mutual pinning, nat being the big sis

warning(s): yel having a hard time admitting her feelings, grammatical errors, unedited

word count: 1.8k

note: Soooooo sorry it took me soooo long to post this. I FUCKING LOVED THIS REQUEST btw. Also guys, it's taking me so long to post fic because a) my laptop is just a bitch and won't work, and b) I guess I'm going through a writer's block and it's kinda hard to find the motivation to write. But I'll try my best. Lots of love, M <3

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Your legs were sore, you couldn't feel your arms anymore and you were gasping for air, but it wasn’t over until one of you was down.

“Can’t we take a break?” you whined out as you tried dodging Yelena’s fist but still made contact with your body and you groaned out in pain. 

“Focus, Y/n,” Steve called out, before Yelena would punch again. 

You knew she was holding back, measuring her strength, she always would when training with you. And you didn’t know if you found that reassuring or mocking. You kicked her in the stomach, but it still did not affect her, it was quite the opposite really. 

“That’s all you got?”

“Why? Wanna try something else?” you teasingly said while winking at her. 

You got her off guard, she wasn’t expecting your cocky self to show up while training, and seized the moment to swift her off her feet and got on top of her. 

“Was this what you had in mind?”

Your hands quickly found her wrists while your body pressed into her abdomen pushing her down so she wouldn’t get out of your hold. 

“Okay, I think it’s enough,” Steve called out, sensing you had gone off track. 

Both you and Yelena knew that she could easily get out of your hold, but still it took her two minutes to do so. You didn’t want to let her go that easily, you felt your whole body burning just by the thought of her skin against yours, still you stood up and got on moving before the two of you could have a say on what just had happened. 

That was how it always went with Yelena, one moment you had the courage to openly flirt with her and a second later you would run back to your dorm second guessing the whole interaction. You wanted to do more, each and every time, but she was so nonchalant about you flirting with her that you convinced yourself that it was just that, a flirty friendship. 

And most of the time you were okay with it, playing dumb about your own feelings. But then shit like that would happen, you would brush her skin, or would make her laugh, or just look at her, and the thought of a friendship would fly out of your mind. That was why you would lock up in your room, trying to calm and persuade yourself to not let your stupid feelings get in the way. 

And the same stupid thing would happen to Yelena, which you didn’t know about. 

“You want to talk about it?” Yelena heard her sister's voice as she watched you heading out the training room. 

“I wasn’t holding back, I swear.”

“Not about your punching,” she raised her brow at her little sister. 

“There’s nothing to talk about,” Yelena shrugged it off as she grabbed her bottle of water and took a big sip. 

“Lena, I know you,” Natasha took advantage of the fact that her sister was chugging down water. “I know we don’t do feelings, we don’t trust people. But that was the old us, that was the red room. We have to put that shitty part of our lives behind us for good.”

“And I have,” Yelena scoffed. 

“Then why haven't you done something about it?” Yelena knew her sister meant you, she didn’t have to clarify. “At least, give it a go,” Natasha sighed. “If not for you, then for her.”

“She doesn’t—.”

“You never know, Lena. Neither will she, if you don’t tell her,” and with that Natasha left her sister to her own thoughts.

“Suka,” she mumbled under her breath, because Natasha was right. She was always right about everything, it was the power that came with being a big sister—her big sister—, and she hated it when she was right. 

She knew she had to do something about it, about you. But the fear of rejection, of feeling unwanted felt too much to bear. She wasn’t going to open up her heart just for someone else to crush it. But maybe, just maybe she could trust you not to crush it. 

[...]

Still, it was easier said than done. It took her a full week to finally come to the conclusion that she was, actually, madly in love with you. A week full of stress and anxiety because deep down she felt like she didn’t deserve to have these feelings towards you. 

And now that she knew exactly how she felt about you, it fucking terrified her. So she did what she thought was best and put some space in between the two of you. The thought of you clouded her brain and it was starting to affect her line of work, and she couldn’t have that. Being part of the avengers gave her life meaning, and she was not going to let her stupid feelings ruin that for her. Even though she wanted to be close to you, and just melt into your arms.

Of course, her coldness didn’t go unnoticed by you. You were confused, though. It wasn’t like Yelena to just shut you out. Even though you wanted more than just a friendship out of her, you wanted to consider yourself a friend of hers and it hurt that she was just avoiding you. 

You didn’t know what was going on, she just felt out of your reach. You asked her sister about it, she just told you to give her space and she would be okay, before muttering something under her breath and went on with her day. You asked Kate and she just completely avoided the topic and changed the subject.

The more she didn’t talk to you, not even glance at your direction, the more you felt like you had done something wrong, maybe she had found out about your feelings and now she was avoiding you because of them. She probably felt uncomfortable about them, she probably wanted nothing to do with you. And who were you to decide otherwise?

You talked to Steve, making sure to not have more training lessons with her, only to find out she had already asked the same thing. You knew it was stupid to feel as if your heart was breaking since you wanted the same thing, but it did feel like shattering to pieces. You just nodded, a tight smile finding its way to your lips and went to your room before shedding any tears. 

This whole thing was bullshit. Yes, maybe she didn’t feel the same way you did about her. But the both of you were full grown-ups, you should be professional about it and act like nothing had happened. Because in reality it didn’t, not that you were aware of it. So you decided that you were going to give her a piece of your mind. 

You searched for her throughout the entire building and finally found her in the training room. Of course she was there, you should have thought of coming there earlier. 

For a trained assassin she didn’t notice your presence, too caught up in her own mind, focusing on her breathing and throwing punches at the boxing bag. 

You cleared your throat. “Got a minute?”

She looked over her shoulder, finally acknowledging you there, and you swore you watched as her whole body just tensed up by the sound of your voice. 

“I’m kinda busy right now,” she mumbled before throwing two more punches. 

“It won’t take long,” you insisted, wanting to get this over with. 

“Look, I really need to—.”

You cut her off. “I don’t know who told you or how you found out, but yes, it’s true, okay?” you finally got her attention. “I just thought you would be professional enough to not let this get in the way and pretend like nothing happened. Which is what I also wish for.”

“What are you talking about?”

“You avoiding me,” you quickly mumbled, a tint of concussion in your tone. “I get it, but let’s just put this behind us and act like propper adults.”

“No, I’m aware of that part,” she scoffed, embarrassed to admit to you what she had been up to. “What I mean is, what have I found out?”

Your brows furrowed. “About my… me… and you,” you gave yourself a second to think her words through. “Hold on a second, you don’t know?” 

“What don’t I know?”

“You don’t,” you finally added two plus two and realised that Yelena had no recollection whatsoever about your feelings, but still something was off. “Why have you been avoiding me then?”

You watched her as her mouth opened and closed, searching for the right words. 

“What did I ever do to you for you to completely avoid me, huh?”

“You did nothing, I just…”

“You just what?” you scoffed, now anger filling your tone. “You just decided it was fun to ignore me?”

“No! God, no.”

“Then what is it?!” the two of you were pretty much screaming at each other. 

“Because I like you, damn it!” she finally confessed. “Is it so hard to see?”

Your eyes winded. “You like me? You have been avoiding me because you like me?”

“I know, not my brightest moment. But it's just that you… you just…” she gestured to her brain. “You’re just stuck here, and I can’t get you out. At first I was scared to admit my own feelings to myself,” she took a deep breath. “But then Tasha said something and it made me realise that there’s nothing wrong with having feelings. But then I had to admit to myself that I really fucking like you. And I just… I just got scared because you might not feel the same way, and you might just push me away,” another deep breath. “And I decided that I would push you away first… and so I did.”

“So you like me.”

“Yes,” her brows furrowed.  “Was that all you got?”

“I mean… it’s the part that matters most,” you grinned at her. 

“What do you mean?”

“I really fucking like you too,” you said cupping her cheeks. “I thought you knew and that was why you were avoiding me. But now I get it, I make you nervous,” you said teasingly. 

“I wouldn’t use that word…” you rolled your eyes before shutting her off with your lips, finally giving in and kissing her. 

“I’ve been wanting to do that for a while now,” you whispered over her lips as you deepened the kiss. 

Her lips were soft and rough, and they had some saltiness to them due to her being all sweaty. But you didn’t mind at all, in fact you really like it. 

“Remember last time we were here?” you whispered in her ear, trailing a path of kiss down her jaw and neck. 

“You mean… that time we last trained?” she sounded breathlessly and it sent a shiver down your whole body. 

“If I remember correctly, which I know I do…” you gently bit her skin earning a hiss out of her lips. “You were on the grown and I was on top of you, remember?”

“Yes…” she said as her fingers ran through your hair. 

“Want to pick up where we left it off?”

Likes, comments and reblogs are appreciated! <3

-M

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[tyran-the-tyranical]

A Raphael and Hope Theory

So, I have a kinda an off the walls theory, but I think hope wasn’t actually physically tortured, LEMME EXPLAIN-

Now, maybe it’s just me missing a bit of dialogue but when we speak to Hope she thoroughly believes she looks horrid and disfigured from all the decades of torture she’s been through, but to us she’s fine, she looks healthy and unharmed and the only thing you could rlly say is her tattoos, but we don’t know if they were there before or not.

Even when we say she looks fine, she doesn’t believe us, which I find strange because if she’s been flayed and everything else he’s done to her he obviously had to heal her or something to keep her alive and explain why she looks so normal to us, but she doesn’t remember? An answer to this could possibly be that he’s been wiping her memory of being healed, to make her torture even worse, that she can’t even recall being healed, BUT, there could be a totally different answer that I think could work possibly better.

Now, when I say this, I’m not trying to make Raphael seem idk less evil, but what I’m going to say could lend some more plausibility to Korilla and why she’s basically ok with Hope’s situation. So, here it is: In one of the entries when Korilla writes about Hope, she’s being tortured with nightmares, and my theory is perhaps that’s all that’s been actually done her. Honestly it kinda helps with Korilla’s case for not helping her sister (especially since she did care for her when they were younger) and perhaps only seeing psychological torture done to her rather than physical would help her justify not saving her sister . Then again, I could’ve just missed some dialogue and this can all be explained away, but one more thing I want to mention-

I also just think this adds a lot to Korilla, like I could totally see her just not belong her sister too, like she cared for her when they were young and she made her own decisions and she doesn’t need hope to come save her, and perhaps she feels she’s done this to herself and so refuses to help her anymore, but also at the same time it find it hard to believe she just doesn’t care, like in her notes about hope she cares to some degree but to watch her get tortured for decades? It’s hard to stomach, but if it were dream theory and all she had to see was her sister “imagining” all that torture, yea it wouldn’t be a walk in the park to witness but I think that’d be easier to stomach than actual torture, idk. I just don’t think Korilla would be ok with that? Like she works for Raphael at that point but still, even after you save her Korilla stands with Raphael rather than join her sister.

I love Hope as a character, even with the short amount of time we have with her in game, and I forget where this information is from but there’s supposedly a piece of information in game that Raphael says he’ll fucking disembowel some kid if she still doesn’t relent, now it is extremely hard to find information online about these two since if you google anything about Raphael or hope you’ll get a few sparing Reddit posts but mainly guides on how to kill Raphael, so please take this specific information with a LARGE grain of salt, but if this is an actual thing in game, I find it very hard to believe Hope would’ve “let” this happen, perhaps he intended to do this to Gortash but then he escaped and Raphael just never bothered to go through with it then.

I understand Hope will basically never accept him but also I just can’t imagine Hope being able to stand watching anything happen to another innocent person, and not to victim blame her, but I’m sure she would feel some blame from it, idk, but also the DREAM THEORY, I think that’s what I’m going to call it.

It would help explain this as well, I just can’t imagine Hope “doing” that and in some way being ok with it, like personal strength to never give in and all, but not giving in to save another? Idk, and personally I think it can makes her character even more tragic but less compelling (perfect victim and all ☠️) , her withstanding all that torture done to her is admirable but idk, look like I said this sounds like victim blaming, I just think her character could be a martyr, I think she is the type of character would sacrifice herself, especially if it’s a child like, I just find it hard to believe with her being a cleric and wanting to help people as well, anyway this is starting to sound rlly bad.

Like I said, I can’t find this information from a straight search so, it’s likely from a post on tumblr anyway, and who can say if that can be trusted, but I’m willing to believe it and put it here but with a huge DISCLAIMER , anyway, dream theory could help explain some characters more, like Korilla and even hope herself, but at the same time it kinda makes Raphael less yknow, evil, like it’s still torture but it isn’t physical ect and some ppl might not like that as it softens his villain persona a smidge, but also dream theory is very flimsy and can crumble in an instant, but it’s just a thought, or perhaps, it’s a theory- A Game Theory, thanks for reading.

#baldur's gate 3 #baldurs gate raphael #bg3 #bg3 raphael #raphael bg3 #bg3 hope #Hope #house of hope #Korilla #bg3 korilla #bg3 theory

[loren91]

This blog is kinda new and I haven’t done a post like this before, but as someone who works with film, I have a lot of thoughts, and I’d like to go on a little filmmaking rant regarding Young Royals, or more precisely, the critique of Wilhelm’s character.

The past few years there’s been a trend in films to have the main protagonist be strong, flawless and morally perfect from start to finish. I’ve never really understood this, because that way you are actively blocking any opportunity for good character development. If you want a character to be interesting or undergo some kind of journey of growth, they have to start out in a somewhat bad place. As a viewer, I honestly find it a bit insulting too, because a filmmaker who doesn’t dare to take risks or write nuanced characters are essentially saying “I don’t trust my audience”, and that’s how you end up with boring films.

Now in regards to Young Royals and Wilhelm, I keep seeing critiques popping up across platforms, like “Wilhelm is selfish”/“he’s a bad person”/“he’s toxic”, even to the point of saying that the whole show is toxic. And in a sense, yeah, Wilhelm is kind of a bad person, and you can give all kinds of explanations for it. He’s a teen and a product of the environment he was brought up in. Considering the fact that both Wilhelm and August have grown up in the same kind of toxic upper class-elite culture, I’d be more surprised if he wasn’t at least a little bit of a douchebag (There’s a reason why they gave him an anxiety disorder, to make him more relatable and worthy of our sympathy) There’s a lot of expectations on him, from his family and his peers. And he’s terrified of the consequences if he were to break those expectations, that’s why he’s so complicit. But most importantly, his flaws are there for narrative reasons. 

If you want to figure out if a piece of work is morally questionable or not, you have to look beyond just one character. The million dollar question here is, are the characters rewarded despite bad behaviour?

Let me set an example here with 1984’s Ghostbusters (an odd one I know, but hear me out!) The romantic subplot between Peter and Dana is incredibly poorly written. When Dana shows up at their office, asking for help, Peter doesn't take her seriously and only attempts to flirt. He also stalks her and tries to pressure her into dating him, and despite her saying no several times over, he doesn't back off. Then at the end, when Peter and his team have saved the city from the big evil ghost, he thinks he deserves Dana as a reward. He kisses her (without checking for consent) and the film tries to frame this as romantic. Peter is rewarded despite his bad behaviour. I don’t care about anyone's nostalgia for this film, it’s gross af.

Now, let’s compare this to YR. Wilhelm is constantly going back and forth on his relationship with Simon. He keeps pushing him away, only to pull him in moments later when he’s too weak to resist his feelings any longer. Simon has a lot of patience with Wilhelm because he understands that he’s in a complicated situation. Also, red flags are difficult to see when you’ve got those rose tinted glasses on..

However, all of this is there really only to build up for one scene, the break up behind Simon’s house in ep 6. Wilhelm has hurt Simon several times over at this point, and he’s exhausted. But Wilhelm tries to ask for his reward anyway. 

“I’m really sorry, this was the only way. But, this doesn’t have to change what we’ve got. We’re still us.”

But Simon calls him out for it.

“You expect everything to be on your terms. You need to figure out what you want… You need to do it on your own, I don’t want to be anyone’s secret.”

Effectively telling Wilhelm that his days of avoiding responsibility and taking people for granted are over. Simon won’t stand for it anymore. Wilhelm is being punished for his bad behaviour.

Wilhelm is the main protagonist of the story, meaning we see the story progress mainly from his perspective. It’s really important to remember though, that just because a character is the protagonist doesn’t mean that they’re the hero. Wilhelm is certainly not a hero, but it’s still his journey of growth and self discovery, that’s what makes the story interesting.

We get to see just how much these boys love each other and how happy they are together, but their situation is too complicated and they are terrified, which leads to Wilhelm making some questionable choices. The script however makes sure that the characters pay for their less than ideal actions, and not just with Wilhelm. 

-When Simon attacks August because he refuses to pay, Rosh makes sure to call him out. 

-When Sara finds out he’s been seeing their dad behind her back and lying to her about it for months, she calls him out for it. 

-When August kisses Sara in the stables, Felice breaks up with him.

-When Wilhelm finds out August recorded the video, he disowns him.

And so on.

All of this stuff is really crucial for their development as characters. Learning through their mistakes. That’s why the last hug and love confession outside the church is so damn important, it’s concrete evidence of Wilhelm’s character development. He’s far from done, but that’s why we’re getting season 2! It’s most likely gonna be a rather bumpy ride, but the boy just needs more time. Who knows, maybe he’ll end up being the hero of the story eventually.

YR is so well done and I could go on for hours about this kind of stuff, but that will have to do for now, bye 😅

#young royals #Prince Wilhelm #simon eriksson #august #film theory #sorry for the rant #my analysis

[writinandcrying]

Hellou!Im the persone who asked about requests a while back(Mainly because I didnt wanna overwhelm you if theyre closed) and Im really glad they are.Anyway,could I request Donnie(TMNT),Tamaki(BNHA) and/or FatGum(BNHA)(Also,I hope I havent gone over the character limit) with a slightly chubby s/o?(Insecure or not,you chose!).You dont have to do this if you dont want to tho!Have a nice week❤

Hellou! Thank you so much for being so thoughtful, I’ll have to apologize tho, I no longer write for bnha, I had a huge burnout fand I do not feel comfortable writing about it anymore, I hope a veeeery detailed Donnie reaction to a chubby reader will make up for the absence of those characters! ♥️

Tmnt - Donnie x Chubby reader (Gender Neutral!)

I’ll have to start that all of the boys wouldn’t judge or reject you based on your appearance, being either chubby, slim, tall, short, there are a few attributes that I think each turtle would find it e seeing or interesting, but it’s more… humanly related(?) maybe one day I’ll make a post about it if you guys wanna hear my opinion on it hehe :)

Donnie(generalized) x Chubby Reader:

just like there are certain stuff about the turtles that they like and dislike about themselves, there are stuff about humans who think the same about themselves! and even though Donnie knows there are beauty standards that control many areas in humans society, he still doesn’t understand why people outcast those who are different

I think some of us (readers / shippers) get a bit :C when thinking about Donnie bc in almost every version, he had a crush on April (who is a babe in every. Version. Specially rise, I love rise-April so much, and that’s the only apriltello I’ll let it slide lmao) and that can give a “perception” that he wouldn’t even glance at some of us ( “us” = being a huge group, trans, guys, chubby girls, chubby guys, skinny girls and guys, everyone who doesn’t fit the normie mold I guess- I unfortunately think about that often. Which sucks cuz I gotta remind myself that isn’t true!!! At all!!)

I personally Headcanon Donnie being… I don’t know if interested would be the correct word, but more intrigued with how humans relate to each other, on their first missions, he knew they could… scare some of them off, “frightened by their own prejudice” as master splinter would say, but it’s far more different to hear about it than to actually live it, and it hurts to hear someone scream their heart out just by seeing you

While growing up, he started to notice not only in television, on and off midia, how people would mess around with others on the street just because of their appearance, he knew society worked though this beauty standards, but he didn’t understand it. It didn’t made sense! value someone based on what they look like? There are so many things, so many attributes to make someone interesting, and you gonna pick the most…. Boring? Plain? Vague? Shallow reason to create privilege over others? Really? (And thst enters on the topic of how almost all beauty standards are rooted in white privileged and racism but I’ll go on a tangent about it once I start it and I’ve already said a lot lols)

He could literally go on for hours about this topic (which he has. At least tried with each one of his brothers, but they never really responded well to so said topic “if humans have it bad, then what do we have left?” Raphael barked back once, an attempt to shut him up, which it worked, btw- he didn’t like to go through that direction when thinking about that topic, but yeah, what does he have left?)

He started searching about different aesthetics, ethnicities, he has folders on Pinterest dedicated different body types, cultures, he swears it’s for research reasons, which kinda is, but Donnie’s guilty pleasure is checking “different” people online, those who would deem strange and weird outside the internet, he liked seeing their content and specially their comment sections being filled with wonderful compliments, people relating to different styles and tastes, that gave him hope that there are someone out there with different views of how everyone should be “shaped”, and that maybe he will find someone who thinks he’s handsome and desirable (Donnie, just like Raph, is also insecure about his body, but he’s more… melancholic about it, if you confessed to Raphael, there would be a high change of him pushing you away, trying not to break his heart from actually believing you, while DonDon here, if you both started dating- on some days Donnie would need more reassurance that yes, his partner does think he’s handsome/hot/attractive. Otherwise he might internalize his insecurities and it will be HARD to get a confession “why he’s so upset out of the sudden” from this turtle)

With that being said!!!! (My god I do know how to ramble) without even realizing, Donnie open his “preferences”? Let’s say, Became more open minded than most, While seeking comfort for himself, and when he says he doesn’t have a type, he really doesn’t. There are so many aesthetics that could be attractive! punks, goths, cottagecore, y2k, dark academia, light academia, grunge, fairycore, alt, the list is endless! And don’t get him started on physical attributes cuz there are so many different combinations that some how, people manage to connect the most random ones and make it look great

Donnie wouldnt fall for someone specially bc of their appearance, or that would be the first reason he would fall head over heels, when you think about it, what happened to April it was that she was extremely passionate and dedicated to *insert which cause she was fighting for* and took Donnie seriously, that light up a lightbulb in his head that has never been on before, people showing how ardently they can be into something, how much they care and such, that’s attractive to him, and after that, everything that person does, or is, suddenly becomes beautiful and amazing for Donnie

Withthatbeingsaidpart2- if Donnie did fall for someone more on the chubbier side, their “plumpy-ness” would def be something to call his attention out after he developed feelings, he longed for your hugs, specially after he found out how soft and warm they were, he actually started having more naps after you caught his heart, imaging how it would be to cuddle someone as soft as you while hugging his pillow late at night on his bed (which eventually he would doze off from day dreaming so much)

Talking about day dreaming, Donnie can totally lose himself in his mind, just like with his projects, he can imerse himself in a fantasy about you two easily, which makes him totally freeze when you show up and he actually have to say or do something he has been constantly dreaming about

So please confess first, cuz when I say he can lose himself in his daydreams, that can last for months until he actually gathers courage to do something about it

While in a relationship, Donnie is totally a hopeless romantic, but not the typical “roses and candlelight’s dinner” kind, as your boyfriend, he wants to help you out no matter what, he will make aaaaas many inventions as he can that might increase the quality of your life, becomes easier to do… whatever, literally. And he always longs for your adorable reactions to his gifts

He adores your chubby cheeks, he will! Get lost! in your face! Your eyes! Eveything! He will oh so slowly caress his knuckles softly across it, sliding to your neck, traveling through your arms, he likes to squish your face a bit as well while cupping it when he goes for a kiss, he just thinks everything about you is adorable (and hot at the same time)

He really like the contraste his skin has with yours, it’s so foreign for him and he can’t help but to love how smooth your skin can be, (which leads his mind to ahem. Certain kind of thoughts. If you know what I mean)

Just like he needs reassurance about his appearance, he knows you probably had to deal with more than one unpleasant comment about your physique, so you don’t even have to ask, Donnie is so whipped with you, compliments about you just drip of his tongue, and it’s always so sweet, followed by a pair of soft eyes, always admiring you, plus, Donnie is a science / fact man, he would gather information about other cultures that value more curvy, chubby, bigger people, he would go as far as making a slide presentation how wonderful and more inclusive people are being (even if it doesn’t seams like it, and there’s still a long way to go) he would include real opinions online other than his on the matter that your body is indeed, a snack, (aaaaaand he is once again right, aaaaand just like everyone else you just have to live with it and accept it 😌 end of story)

He would definitely “put up to test” his theory of how amazing it is to cuddle someone who’s more on the chubbier side (and his theory is ✅ correct)

Cuddling becomes a weekly thing for you guys, that being you sitting on his lap, having naps, watching movies together, he loves to create or update his projects with you on his lap, holding you grounds him. Plus it’s easier to speak some kisses on your cheeks that way

He finds out some people on the heavier side stops themselves to live some experiences the hard way, he never wants to make you uncomfortable, ever. But it takes a while for him to understand why wouldn’t you like to, as an example, wear a bathing suit/ swimwear around other people, wearing lighter clothes when it’s absurdly hot during winter time, that you don’t like when he picks you up? things that don’t connect right away. he promises himself to never force you to do anything you don’t want to, but he slowly will try to support you to do whatever you have always wanted to but stopped yourself from doing so bc of your weight

He would take extra time while making out with you, he wants you to know how much he loves your body, every inch of it. Lowkey likes to drag his nails on your tights and mark you

Overall? Donnie is extremely thoughtful, independently of how his partner look like, if they were “part” of some sort of outcast from society, he would take his sweet time to show how important and special his partner is, he is extremely thankful to be able to experience love, something that not only him, but all of the boys, thought it was out of their reach for a really long time, so you bet he’s going to show how appreciative he is oof your love, of all of you 💜

I really tired to innovate a bit here, didn’t want to add the same stuff as other Headcanons that already exists (I mean, Its cute to read how we as writing blogs / authors “agree” on how the boys would react in certain situations, which it is a FactTM that Donnie is a sweetheart. but it’s also good to read new stuff, oooor you know, a new perspective of it, even if it is a “common” / “already done” scenario, you know? )

even if I mostly rambled about Donnie’s personality analysis than to actual stuff he would do or act around an chubby reader lmao, I truly hope you like this! I didn’t proof read this so I’m sorry if there are any grammar mistakes hehe

#tmnt #tmnt x reader #giulia writes #tmnt headcannons #tmnt donnie x reader #tmnt donatello x reader #tmnt doonie

[b1rdbra1ned]

Oh no I hate Fan too. Fan was not a good character in season 2 and he didn't actually face any consequences for his actions. Paintbrush was like the closest we got to Fan being criticised and people considered PB to be the one overreacting. Paintbrush is done so dirty because the fandom put their own belief about the bright lights being family even though Paintbrush never actually got along with them. They talked to tt like once, bickered with lb until the last ep they were in and then there's. Fan..

Also I think I hate fantube a little more after the theyrebasicallycanon polls put enstars against ii. Glad rinniki won they deserve the win against fantube imo.

Sorry I was tired of being critical of ii so I don't like it anymore 😔

But hiiii we haven't talked much in a while ik :(( I'm on holiday rn but feel free to talk to me if you want!

ALLLL OF THIS

Paintbrush was in every way in the right to yell at fan, he constantly bothered and nagged at them and the stuff about marshmallow was definitely the final straw

i only ever liked the whole bright lights family thing because honestly it could’ve worked imo!!! but they just never took that chance they never really developed the brights lights AT ALL most season (beside from marshmallow) the bright light felt more like the comical team (not really but can’t think of a better way to describe them) compared to the grand slams who definitely got way more focus and development

it’s shitty because i think the brights lights could’ve had potential but they were just casted aside until the last few episodes where “oh hey look development!! :] oh wait nvm they’re eliminated now <3” like ????

paintbrush definitely got the short end of the stick here. literally having what was supposed to be their episode mainly centred around tt and lb and having their feelings about marsh being completely casted aside. i wish more was done w/ marshmallow and them vs them and lb

looking back a lot of their scenes w lb just felt kinda off??? i don’t think can articulate this probably rn but paintbrush deserved better

but at the same time i wish the team got more time w/ each other in general, they have so many great opportunities to do it like in the maze episodes but again they’re kinda just cast aside as just comedy

and w/ s3 oh boy i hate what they did with paintbrush and their “arc” in the last few episodes. they quite literally and figuratively took away their edges, i miss sassy, sarcastic confident paintbrush they feel so dulled down in iii and it’s like no one in the writing team understands them at all. it’s like they didn’t even write s2 (but hey back to the point i mentions last post that show writers really ought to stop listening to fans sometimes because this is how fanon seeps in </3)

i hate how the a lot of the fans view paintbrush especially if it’s only ever in the context of lightbrush or shipping (another thing that pisses me off btw is how they’re always treated as irrational and or just plain out abusive FUCK PEOPLE WHO PORTRAY PAINTBRUSH LIKE THIS)

they’re such a great character who gets absolutely fucked over by the writing and fandom (not all of the fandom of course, i love seeing ppls takes and discussions on them but it’s just some fans who just </3)

i don’t like discouraging ships, if ppl are mature and respectful and don’t put other ppl down then that’s all great and stuff but my problem is that i really wish paintbrush was just seen as more than their ships yknow

Fan is.. the more i think about canon him the more im like yeaaa… uh no thanks…. (mainly w/ him and paintbrush and cabby)

idk if im even allowed to say they changed tt this season because.. she didn’t honestly have a lot of screentime last season compared to a whole lot of other characters, but in iii she feels off?? honestly all of them do even the new contestants later on during the season

idk if i have the words to describe why s3’s characterisation is so off and at time frustrating, their arcs too, was going to point out some characters but honestly i could make a case for nearly ALL the contestants the ones who weren’t voted out early at least

that’s the end of my ramble tho, sorry ik i talked a lot about paintbrush, i want to talk about the others too but they’re the one i still even think about. hopefully this isn’t a bit hard to read, ik im not that organised w my rambles sometimes

#txt #niicookie #glad fantube lost that poll <33 #and YEA IT’S BEEN A WHILE SINCE WE’VE TALKED #hope your holiday’s going well!! recently got back from a 2 week trip (spent like a total of 24 hrs in the airport and on planes going home💀 #got this week and the next week off school so i’ll be online a bit more >:33 #might pop in your inbox now and again to say hello or ask questions about your new fixations >:DD #ii neg #pigeon post 💌

[toodrasticallydumb]

20 questions for fic writers

Oh! Hello! I was tagged by @pinkytoothlesso11 ! Thanks for thinking of me pinky! I’m kinda new to the whole fanfic scene so i really appreciate it! This was already a long list of questions to begin with but i fear i may have made it worse…

OH WELL HAVE FUN SPORT :}>

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

Unfortunately just 2, though I do plan to add a few more in the future as ideas flow. Might take me a minute ‘cause my schedule is just a little bit kinda sorta really swamped down with my main child which requires let me you, A LOT OF CARE DONT SIGN UP TO ADOPT KIDS PEOPLE IT’S NOT—

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

Phew. ummmm it changes very rapidly (because i’m a girl w suspected adhd and can NEVER be told to shut up) with every chapter but as of this moment is 228,665! wow! i don’t really know how great of a number that is but i’m sure it’s a lot! I told you I can never shut up! (-whispers- Hey kid, u want some dRuGs? i mean- an update? That itty bitty word count is about to take another not regularly scheduled mini-skyrocket so get ready for it ehehe ;})

3. What fandoms do you write for?

For now, just Trollhunters/Tales of Arcadia, mainly Trollhunters despite the fact that the first of the Tales of Arcadia shows that i watched and really enjoyed was actually 3-Below, but oh well my man is in Trollhunters sooooo oopsie but i DO have some random snippets of fics for Miraculous (rewrite), the Star Wars sequels (rewrite), Batman, some for the Dream SMP, and weirdly enough also Raya and the Last Dragon (rewrite). All of which i prolly wont ever post because i wrote them a while ago and yeaaaahhh not my best writing but if i get enough people other than my best friend wanting me to post them, i might…

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

uhhhh i dont actually HAVE five fics to my name, so i’ll just…put em in order (w their long-ahh title names):

Trollhunter!Strickler: Destiny's Ill-fitted Chosen

'A MiStAkE' because I haven't updated in ages--A Stricklake month 2023 prompt collection

but i am so happy for the people who have left so many kudos on my work it really warms mah little heart ❤️

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes. At first, I sorta struggled with it (who the heck am i kidding i STILL do) but since my fic USED to be two times a week updates i would feel like i couldn’t respond to a comment left after i posted a new chapter so i might’ve left some comments in the earlier days unanswered, super sorry. Nowadays i make it a point to reply back to everyone in the order that they commented in because (anxiety makes me think if i don’t respond they won’t comment anymore and know that i love reading their comments and that they’re so amazing for actually taking the time to write something back AND I DO LOVE IT I PROMISE IT JUST TAKES ME A WHILE TO RESPOND—) …because it’s pretty chill to geek out w em and see they liked stuff that i loved to write! I do have a backlog of comments to get to i just end up overthinking everything to match the person’s energy to be sure they know i love em.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Unfortunately, i haven’t actually finished a fully-fledged fic to say it has the angstiest ending bUt definitely a contender would be chapter 1 of my 2023 Stricklake prompt collection because i just leave it on the sad note and don’t do anything about it because angst and because spoilers for my actual story fic that will eventually make it to that point.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Happiest ending, huh? I like to say that most of the things i will/have chosen to write end happy/hopeful because i hate when books/tv shows end bittersweetly it’s like i have enough with life itself being bittersweet most of the time let me be happy LET THEM BE HAPPY. But that doesn’t exclude me from providing the proper banquet of angst that ends in caretaking, my absolute favorite trope.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Oh heck no. I would be devastated honestly, but thankfully everyone who comments is always the sweetest and kindest people ever and really encourage me to keep going, for that i am only thankful.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

No. Just no. I love romance but i am a minor, so i’ve never consumed smut nor intend to ever write it. Give me a soft romance and loving gestures, I can allude to greater happenings but not details.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I don’t, sorry. I don’t know something in me just doesn’t sit well with crossovers, for the life of me I don’t know why. Like genuinely i wish i could get into them but maybe it’s like food on a plate? i don’t like the foods touching each other so maybe the same rules apply??? yeah i’m drasticallydumb

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that i know of, no.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I don’t believe so, and if someone did they’re in for a heck of a lot of work there…

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nope! I’d like to sometime but i have no idea how one even goes about making a co-written fic, on top of which i am a very sporadic person in terms of motivation and random ideas produced by a song i’m listening to while writing.

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

Stricklake obviously is a really big contender if not the winner, the ship that brought me to AO3, writing fanfics, and tumblr. But, if i had to pick other options i’d say Eugene and Repunzel from Tangled would be one of my ogs, another might be uhhh Chris and Aviva from Wild Kratts the og of the ogs.

15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Chapter 3 of my stricklake 2023 prompt collection, it just has a lot of moving parts and me and my best friend are chronic procrastinators and with the month pretty far gone it might just end up sittin’ there for the foreseeable future 😞 but who knows

16. What are your writing strengths?

Phew, that’s a dozy mainly because i’m not super sure. I’d like to think one of my main strengths is descriptions and really putting you in the mind of the character, i don’t really like spelling things out and i like a little investigating to get you where u end up, u know? I like to think my writing FEELS a little more like a show on a page rather than a true book, most to blame would be my maladaptive daydreaming taking up a lot of time in my planning for my writing.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Ah. How the turn tables. I would say that my weaknesses in writing mostly consist of me going a little *too* far into detail on meaningless things or making it too convoluted for people to understand, sometimes spelling it out is better in certain scenarios and i just really need to get myself past that. Another one i would say is that i go REALLY into detail not only in a sentence/chapter sense but also a complete STORYLINE sense, i hate time skips and i shoot myself in the foot wanting to completely document every moment of everyday w a character and hence it seems like a lot of time in universe hasn’t gone by. Trying to improve and grow tho 💪

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Can’t wait to do more of it! Especially with Claire and her family (including NotEnrique) speaking spanglish w each other automatically mainly because i am hispanic and completely fluent in Spanish and live in a similar household so i just love to add a little ✨personalization✨ to my dialogue and interactions in that way. Other languages………….yeaaaahhh i’m not super good will prolly use google translate and hope.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Trollhunters, my gateway into AO3. HOWEVER. if you promise not to tell, the very first fandom i read/wanted to write a fanfic for was actually, as far as i can tell, Wordgirl. don’t ask why. don’t ask me how. it just kinda happened. But, officially, it’s Trollhunters. (maybe with a side of Warrior Cats).

20. Favorite fic you’ve ever written?

Not hard at all! My pride and joy, my youngest baby in the grand scheme of my writing journey, Trollhunter!Strickler: Destiny's Ill-fitted Chosen! A surprise to absolutely NO ONE. It’s honestly so amazing to both write and see people read and enjoy as much as I do, he’s my little man ❤️ And doing so much rewriting and character growth and having so much written and planned for the future, it’s just my absolute fav

#toa trollhunters #barbara lake #stricklake #strickler #toa #long post #trollhunters #fanfic #Destiny’s Ill-fitted Chosen #stricklake month #questions #tagged #ao3 #tales of arcadia #ask answers #ask games #fan fiction #writing games #yeaaaaahhhhh i may have made this way to long #but you get to know me so hopefully it’s worth it! :}}} #love to get to know everyone else who responds to pinky’s tag too #i am about to make my great return to posting mildly often on tumblr #i think #i hope. #or maybe this is one of those outbursts that happens once a blue moon and then i disappear of the face of the earth #gotta keep y’all on ya toes.

[shipsgaysfordays]

Queen

I gave myself the challenge of trying to write all of this week’s prompts, and I even found a spot to fit one of next week’s prompts because I’m an overachiever. It should have (not in this order) piece, forbid, slap, obstacle, queen, bond, soil, and sketch.

This is the fic that I have been making posts about that took me a lot longer than expected. It is based on an idea that I had because of a tiktok.

CW: I do reference sex as a joke at one point, also like Remus having anxieties about the possibility of people not liking him due to his queerness, lycanthropy, and emotional issues.

I may make a sequel to this fic at some point since I got a bit too invested and since it’s mainly just wolfstar pining and miscommunication (my bread and butter) It’s kinda fake dating, but as a joke that mainly drives some miscommunication, jealousy, and emotional issues

As usual prompts from @wolfstarmicrofic

Is this a microfic anymore, that’s debatable.

Remus had been reading in the library, his favorite comfort and passtime, his way of getting away from all the noise of the marauders—just for a little bit. He was just getting to the best part of their book, the fellowship of the ring had finally formed, when Lily interrupted, tapping him on the shoulder. At first he simply tried to ignore her, but she continued manically tapping and tapping and tapping. 

“Remus,” she muttered, annoyed, “I need to tell you something.”

“We’re in the library, there’s like 1 rule in here and it’s to be quiet.”

“You and I both know that there’s many more rules because of you and your group of marauders.”

Remus looked up, smiling “innocently”, “I have no idea what you’re talking about, the marauders are an anonymous group of lunatic pranksters, could only imagine what the school would be like if they were caught.”

“Uh-huh, sure. That doesn’t negate that I need to talk to you about something,” she stopped to think for a minute, “alone.”

His face shifted as he listened to the concern in her voice. “Okay, okay, let’s go to the lake,” Remus said as he put his books into a bag and began leading Lily out of the library, the librarian staring bullets at them due to all of their “noise” (they were whispering). 

“But it’s raining,” Lily said, tilting her head back, exacerbated. 

“Sometimes you have to make a sacrifice if you want to be all alone.”

“If I get a cold I’m blaming you.”

Remus shrugged, they walked down the moving steps, Remus’ eyes kept glancing at the red head next to him, why would she want to talk to him alone? Did she change her mind on werewolves? Or queer people? Or maybe he’s just being too bothersome and depressed and angry and emotional. 

His boots stomped into the muddy brown soil, sinking into the dirt just a bit with every step he took, until getting to an area deemed secluded enough. Their eyes met each other, Remus looking at Lily expectantly, “So, what’s this important information I need to hear?”

For a moment Lily was reluctant, eyes looking around the grounds, “I…I don’t know if I should tell you, Sirius said it was a secret, but….well I know how you feel about them.” 

“Lily, you can’t just leave me with that, if it’s about Sirius then I need you to tell me, please Lily, put me out of my misery,” Remus tried to say it playfully, dramatically like the person they were discussing, but there was a tinge of sadness to the tone of his voice. A sense of anxiety.

Lily cleared her throat for a second, “Okay, okay,” she looked up at Remus, “Sirius told me that they’re dating James, but that it’s a secret. I didn’t know if you would know already or if you were someone they didn’t want me telling, they forbid me saying—”

Lily continued to rattle on but Remus couldn’t listen anymore, it was a joke, right? But why would Lily ask him to talk with her alone for some stupid prank, and she wouldn’t take it this far, she knows how Remus feels about Sirius, she’s the only person who knows. 

It hit Remus like a slap in the face. It was senseless and stupid yet somehow made all the sense in the world. James and Sirius had always had a closer bond between each other in comparison to the rest of the marauders.They always spent more time together, chatting late into the night about who knows what, their energies matched each other the best. Padfoot and Prongs had always seemed to mesh, like soulmates, Remus had always just hoped it was platonic soulmates. 

Lily’s hands were waving in front of his face, “Reeeeemusssss, Remus, Reeeeeee-”

Remus put his hand over her mouth, putting on a fake smile, “I’m listening, I’m listening…but seriously, thank you for letting me know Lily.”

After pulling his hand off her face, Lily held it, “I’m sorry about–”

“There’s nothing to be sorry for, my best friend who happens to be my crush is in love with my other best friend who had seemed to have a crush on you, and now they’re dating and hopefully they’re happy and they decided to keep that a secret from me.” 

Remus tried to detach himself from the words, from the situation, trying to speak like it was a to-do list and not all the woes he would be worrying over all night. Still his voice broke.

“Let’s get inside,” Lily shivered. 

Quick on their feet, Remus and Lily ran, holding hands and hoping they hadn’t caught a cold from being outside in the pouring rain for at least a few minutes. 

As Remus performed the cleaning charms he thought about all the times they would have been useful to know at home, so his dad wouldn’t complain about mud tracking into the house. He blinked, looking back at the floor and walking mechanically through the hallways and eventually into the common room. Trying not to think about everything, the moon would be soon, just one more week–that was not a better topic to think on, Remus decided.

Marching past the common room, past James with his messy beautiful hair and his eyebrows shot up in confusion and perfect brown eyes peering at Remus. 

Finally in the empty safehaven of their dorm Remus grabbed Sirius’ record player, his favorite Queen album, and began breaking his eardrums by turning the volume to the highest possible level and listening to “I Want To Break Free.”

Saying James was troubled by this behavior as he sauntered into the room would be a massive understatement when describing the mom friend of the marauders. On a normal day Remus would try his best to talk through a small part of his problems that he would let James know about, but today was not that day, Remus was fucking angry.

“Moony…”

“Leave me alone Potter.”

“Surnames, now this has to be important, of consequence, significant, momentous, pressing, other synonyms so I don’t speak of the devil.” 

“You can say serious, it’s not like it will summon them,” Remus rolled his eyes.

But of course the universe just needed to prove Remus wrong, that’s what today seemed to be all about, just fucking with Remus. That’s all Remus could think of as those boots, leather jacket, and confident strut came into the room. 

Immediately Remus decided that now would be a good time to return to the library and continue his books. Wordlessly and with the blankest face he could manage, he tried to leave the room. 

Sirius stepped back, blocking the door, “Where you goin’ Moony?”

“Library,” Remus spit out. 

Their hands shot up by their head as they backed away from the door, “Okay, just don’t fry your brain studying, you make it hard for some of us to keep up.”

Remus was already out the door, still he heard as someone (presumably James) turned the music down and Sirius asked, “What the hell’s going on with Moony?”

….

Sirius had been planning on telling James about the prank they played on Evans earlier, when they first heard the Queen music down the hall they were overjoyed that Remus would also get to hear this piece of information, however seeing that Moony basically had a raincloud of emotions over his head, Sirius wondered what could have happened. Has Snivellus been fucking with him again? Is the moon closer than I thought it was? Did I fuck up something again and forget about it? He left right when I came in, is he irritated with me?

Of course after Remus had left, they had to ask, “What the hell’s going on with Moony?”

“No clue,” James responded sitting on his bed, “he seemed fine earlier, if anything pretty happy.”

“Maybe his hip is hurting again?” Sirius sat next to James.

“Maybe,” James pondered, “but that wouldn’t explain him wanting to leave the room right when you got here.”

“I need to talk to him,” Sirius sighed.

“It might be good to give him space for a bit, Moony always needs his alone time.”

“True…” Sirius thought for a bit, until remembering why they were coming up to talk to James in the first place, “Oh! I need to tell you about this absolutely rad prank I played on Evans earlier today.”

James’ eyes widened, “What crimes did you commit this time to ensure I never become friends with Lily?”

“Nothing too sirius, nothing too serious,” they spoke with their hand on their chin, a finger brushing on their devilish grin. “Told Evans that we’re dating and that she needs to stay away from my man.” Sirius looked up innocently. 

“Why?!? Merlin why!” James spoke dramatically.

“Thought it was funny,” Sirius shrugged. 

“Why have I been cursed with this friendship?”

“No refunds, no take backs, you’re stuck with me Prongs.”

“Funny part is I don’t even have that big of a crush on Lily anymore.”

“Sure…” Sirius rolled their eyes.

“What?!? I don’t!”

Sirius cackled, “Like I’d believe that in a million years.”

“Well I don’t, and now this is just another heart shaped obstacle in the way of us becoming friends…though maybe if she thinks I’m dating someone else then she would be more willing to talk with me…..”

“Think she’d want a thresome.”

James shoved Sirius, “Ew, ew, ew, ew, ew, EWWWWWWWW. Listen to me closely Sirius, NOT. WITH. YOU. NOT IN A MILLION YEARS, YOU ARE LIKE A BROTHER TO ME, JUST, NO.”

“And I already had the wedding invitations written, pre ordered the dress and everything.”

“You could always try to marry Mo-oo-ooony,” James teased. 

Sirius shoved James back, “Like he’d ever say yes to…all this.”

“You never know until you ask…though it would be a better idea to ask him on a date before trying to marry him. Doesn’t seem like the one to rush into things, our Moony.”

“Yeah…don’t think I’d want to rush into things either,” Sirius spoke more, for lack of a better term, seriously. 

“Do you think Lily told anyone?”

“Lily told anyone what?”

“About the whole us dating prank.”

“I don’t think so, told her it was a secret since you’re not out.”

James tilted his head, “I probably should come out…oh shit!”

“What! What’s going on, have you finally had your first thought after all these years?” Sirius put a hand over their chest, “I’m so proud, little boy’s all grown up.” They ruffled his hair. 

James swatted Sirius’ hand a way, “Firstly, just realized that I don’t think I ever told you I’m bi.”

“Well that was pretty obvious given how much you talk about the boys in quidditch.”

James gave an exacerbated sigh, “Anyways, secondly, Lily and Moony are close, right?”

“Yeah, they do all that studying together since,” giving air quotes, “‘academics is important’ and all that.”

“Think she would have told Remus?”

“About you being bi, I think Remus already knows.”

“He should we’ve kissed.”

“WHAT?”

“Anyways, back to the point,” James tried to continue on as Sirius crossed their arms and shook their legs, “do you think Evans told Moony about us dating?”

“Okay, we need to get back to you kissing Moony at some point, but I don’t think she would have said anything.”

“Could have though.”

“Why would Moony be pissed about that?”

“‘Cause he likes you?”

Sirius narrowed their eyes. 

“Or he’s pissed that we supposedly kept this from him and he had to hear it from Evans.”

They bit their lip, thinking for a moment, until shooting up like a rocket, “I need to talk with Remus.”

Sirius ran down the stairs and through the halls, until finally stopping to catch their breath, right in front of the library. Walking straight to the librarian’s desk and proceeding to ask the old bat with her scrunched up snooty nose for a piece of paper, thankfully she obliged. 

They spotted Moony, grabbed a random book from the shelf so they would be able to blend in with their surroundings, like a secret agent, Sirius thought. 

Padfoot starred as they sat at the table next to Moony’s but not Moony’s so he could have a bit of space. For a moment Remus looked up, their eyes locked together in some sort of exchange, like a call to battle, though quickly Remus’ eyes moved back to the book. Sirius sighed, Remus’ sneakily flipped them off for just a moment.  

Using a pencil, Sirius began to write a note with a few stars sketched around it. 

….

“Are you angry at me?” 

Remus examined the note that was passed to him, of course, he wanted to say, you and James lied to me…I like you and you don’t like me. Instead he simply shrugged, deciding that a gesture would be better than any worded response he could think of. He handed the unchanged note back to Sirius. 

Sirius added more to the note as Remus tried all his might to focus on the book again. What is it with people trying to interrupt my reading today? Does everyone here just hate Tolkein? His train of thought was interrupted YET AGAIN by a paper being dropped on top of his book page. 

“Did you talk with Evans?” No stars, hearts, or other annoying bullshit around the words this time.

Remus considered just ignoring the words, but he knew Sirius would be fucking persistent, he held his hand out for Sirius pencil and began writing just after Sirius dropped it into his hand. Simply saying, “Yes.”

“About?”

Part of Remus wanted to say that they had talked about the rain, about getting a cold, about the anonymous group known as the marauders, but he wanted to get this hellish conversation over with. 

“Congrats to the happy couple,” for a moment he wanted to leave it there, but he decided to add, “kind of wish you or James would have told me.”

“Didn’t tell you because James and I aren’t actually dating.”

“?”

“It was a prank on James and Lily.”

“Ok,” Remus ran a hand through his hair. 

“Can we talk?”

Remus looked up at them, he packed his things back into his bag, Sirius got up preparing to leave as well. Once out of the quiet land of books, Remus whispered, “Not right now.” Turning the opposite way of Sirius, in hopes of finding one of his good hiding spots so he could finally return to his reading. 

….

Sirius stood still, blinking back strange water that started infecting their eyes for absolutely no reason whatsoever as they watched Remus walk away. 

I fucked everything up…all for a stupid joke.

Later on they were laying in bed, staring at the blurry ceiling and blaming it on some random fake illness.

#wolfstar #marauders #marauders era #the marauders era #remus lupin #sirius black #sirius and remus #wolfstar fic

[eternal-armin]

this side of paradise. [ v.h ]

drinking to forget, you're soon joined by viktor in the hotel bar.

reader: neutral. content warnings: slight distress, alcohol. i hope this is a good returning fic. after almost two months, i am finally feeling like writing. between work and extracurriculars, i don't know what my posting schedule will look like, but i have a few ideas that i plan to write at some point. mainly for viktor and klaus hargreeves because hot damn. anyway, cheers to forever. ^ ^

at this time of night, the hotel obsidian bar was pretty much empty. well, aside from you. your mind had been aching for a moment of silence ever since arriving in this mirrored reality. finally you had it, but it was so far away from the home you missed so dearly. far away from your own reality. no wonder you were already multiple drinks deep. the buzz- hopefully, eventually, the black out- was so pleasant.

at one point before, you were sure you would never drink. but you were wrong about many things in the past.

“hey, [y/n].” your blood chilled at the familiar voice. you didn’t look up to meet his eyes, for surely he would be disappointed.

“you doing okay?... that’s kind of a dumb question.”

you looked at the half-empty glass in your hands before finishing it off. “okay is kind of an overstatement, but it’s better than the truth,” you mumbled in response. “how’d you know i was down here, anyway?”

viktor shrugged slightly, sitting down beside you. “i didn’t, really. i couldn’t really sleep, so i’ve been pacing around. guess i was just fortunate to come across you.” you could hear his little smile. it made you feel a tiny bit better. you rested your head on your arm, sighing. you didn’t feel it, but viktor’s smile proved to be contagious, twitching at the edges of your lips.

“i don’t think that’s fortune. misfortune, maybe.”

“what makes you say that? you’re always good to hang around.”

“not when i'm at the lowest low. i’m trying to drink myself to a stupor. take a page from the book of klaus, since i’ve tried everything else.” it ached, to be honest, but he was the only person you could bear to be honest with. it would hurt too much with someone else. or just be embarrassing. then again, it was humiliating either way.

“you shouldn’t. you can talk to me. i don’t always have the best advice, but i can always listen.” viktor mimicked your position to look at you, and you couldn’t hide from him anymore. you didn’t want to, either. while your eyes were reddened and swimming, his were crystal clear. despite seeing you at your self-described lowest, he still showed warmth and care in his gaze. you felt undeserving.

you had neither the energy nor the sobriety to lie.

“i-i just… i feel kind of selfish. all i want is my family and my home back. in a roundabout way, i kinda have them, i guess.” the more you spoke, the more clear the slur in your words. concern glinted in his eyes. “you still have your family. as dysfunctional as it is. i don’t know if i’ll ever see my parents again. or my pets, or my home.” you tried to keep your cool, you really did. but your voice trembled, breaking every other word. why did you have to feel cheated? there were no guarantees. but here you were, depressed, like somehow there were.

“you don’t have to be a hargreeves to be part of our family, [y/n]. you’ve still been with us through heaven and hell. i don’t know if we’ll ever get back to our own home, but… maybe we can make a new one here. i miss my home too. i’ll just miss it more with time. who knows, though. maybe this one will be better.” viktor was never much of an optimist, but it fit his soft voice. you couldn’t help but smile a little. just a few minutes ago you felt completely alone in your own little bubble. now you weren’t alone, and instead you felt complete.

why did viktor make you feel like this?

you had gone through so much together. of course you would feel close, bonded. trauma does that sometimes.

“i don’t want to do it alone. i don’t want to do it alone again.”

alcohol really made you a mess of emotions. what a rollercoaster. you were tentatively sure you would never touch alcohol again.

“then don’t. you don’t have to be alone, if- if you don’t want to. if you find someone else to be hopeful with, you can still have hope. maybe this time it’ll pay off, too, y’know?”

“but i like hoping with you, viktor.” after a few seconds of silence, both of you broke out into giggles. “no- no, no, i’m being for real. you make it so easy. even if you get upset you end up smiling at some point. you’re so cool.” the rollercoaster struck again. from crying to happy to crying to sentimental. you didn’t know what was next.

you… didn’t mind, either. ugh, you were a walking romance novel.

viktor’s smile softened at your heartfelt compliments, gazing at you like he was watching someone perform a perfect lullaby. the alcohol had, luckily, already brought a blush to your cheeks. his eyes made you feel like a schoolboy with a crush.

“i could say the same about you. even during our time in the 60s, as hopeless as it was with me. your eyes were always so bright and pretty. or- or, uhm, handsome.” humor edged his voice, getting a bright smile from you. “you were always so sweet, even after everything.”

“you're the same,” you responded. when you complimented him the slur in your voice sounded more like a purr.

“i don’t think i’m anywhere near as sweet as you, but... thank you anyway.”

“i think you are. and, need i remind, you, i’m the one with the sweet tooth in this relationship.”

it was a pretty sound, both of you laughing together.

“i think you’re tipsy, [y/n].”

“yeah, so what if i am?”

he paused for a second.

“you got me there.”

you both exchanged smiles, keeping the saccharine eye contact. you could look at him for hours.

“what- what do you think love feels like?” the question struck your mind out of the blue. and you had no remaining concept of simply not asking.

just like you, viktor was surprised. “love?..." he paused for a second. "...maybe like you found a piece of yourself that was always kind of missing. like someone could see you, and only you, and love that.” he felt a little strange. cliche. but sort of nice, at the same time, envisioning something so perfect.

“maybe like everything about them is lovable. and all you want is to always be around them. ‘cause they’re your… sun, i guess.” the divets in the polished wood became of great interest to you, looking over it as carefully as you could when buzzed.

“that’s a really pretty way to think about it. you could be a poet.”

you giggled quietly, partially muffled by the sleeves of your jacket.

“so, who’s the lucky person?”

you stumbled over your words. “w-what?”

“[y/n], i know you. you wouldn’t bring this up for no reason. who do you like?”

“...is it okay if i, uh, don’t tell you?”

viktor’s eyes widened slightly in surprise, but not in judgment. this was the first time you didn’t want to tell him about something. though, he was fine with it.

“of course it’s fine. it’s not a sparrow or anything, though, right?”

“viktor! ew!” both of you laughed. “no, of course i don’t like a sparrow. just- just, like, i don’t want it to be awkward, y’know? you know him and i don’t want it to be weird. i don’t even know if he likes guys anymore.” you reasoned. viktor wasn’t born yesterday. he noticed the strange jitteriness in your eyes, looking everywhere but at him.

“is it someone in the umbrella academy?”

you nodded slightly, smile remaining. you kind of liked the back and forth, like some weird game.

“and it isn’t allison?”

“no. i don’t swing that way.”

“fair,” he mused. “i can’t see you falling for luther.”

“of course not."

he snorted, laughing into the back of his hand. “you aren’t close to diego.”

“mm-mm.”

“is it, klaus…?”

you finally looked him in his eyes, trying and failing to suppress a big smile. it wasn’t easily mistaken, at least to viktor.

“not klaus? jeez, who else, then? there’s no one else in the academy, [y/n].” for a second, viktor thought that you were joking about loving someone to begin with. but your gorgeous eyes showed no trickery, no lying, no mischief. nor were you the type to make such crude jokes. at least, not with him.

“there’s- there’s one more person,” you began, settling further into the pillow of your jacket. “but, like- i don’t know if he likes boys, so…” once again the patterns in the table piqued your interest. basically anything that wasn’t viktor. you didn’t feel regret- at least, not yet. tomorrow would be hell for multiple reasons now.

you could feel his eyes on you, glancing over your expression for any sense of lying. and once again, he found none. you were being perfectly genuine.

“you love… me?”

“just a little,” you swallowed, “if you spell ‘little’ like ‘l-o-t’.” sirens went off in your head telling you to shut up and leave. so you sat up, intensely dizzy for a moment. “and i- y’know- i get it, if you don’t love me. that’s fine, i really don’t care.” now that was a lie. “just please, don’t let this ruin our friendship. i don’t wanna lose... anything else.” you were unsteady on your feet. now that you were standing, you realized how much you had actually drank. “i’m, uh, i’m gonna go upstairs. you were right, i’m tipsy and a real lightweight so tomorrow isn’t gonna be that fun, and we have shit to do, so-”

viktor sat up straight, clasping a hand on your shoulder to get you to stay. he hesitated, trying to think of what to say. “can you- can you look at me, please?” it took a moment, but eventually you managed to do it. pressing your lips together into a line, you tried not to cry, or even think about it.

“i never said i didn’t love you back. i was just… i was surprised you, of all people, loved me, of all people.”

“how could i not?” you mumbled in response. “you know me better than anyone. you’re incredible. you’re so kind, an- and compassionate, and every time you look at me i’m actually seen. i like listening to your voice, i like being near you because everything about you makes me feel… happy.” eventually you trailed off, realizing in horror that you were rambling on. it didn’t help that the more you spoke, the faster your words, the more incomprehensible your feelings. you broke the eye contact. suddenly you wanted to cry, rubbing your eyes.

viktor listened to every word you said and let you speak. he gently cupped your cheek, earning back your shy, conflicted gaze.

“you said that better than i ever could.” he smiled at you, caressing your cheek with his thumb. “and yes, that means i feel the same.” you giggled to yourself.

“proves my point, you know me best.” your voice cracked, but it was no less emotional. you took a breath. “can- if you like me back, uhm, can i kiss you? i-it’s okay if not, i’m so-”

you were cut off, viktor’s lips gently pressing against yours. you could feel him smile, as he could you. and he felt like warm sunlight against you and he tasted like hot cocoa. you kissed him back, draping your arms over his shoulders. even despite the hell that surrounded you, and the hell tomorrow morning would bring, you felt happier than ever.

after a moment, he pulled away. both of you had red-dusted cheeks and gentle smiles. “does that answer your question?”

"maybe... can i get more convincing?"

#viktor hargreeves x reader #viktor #viktor the umbrella academy #tua fanfic #tua netflix #the umbrella academy #tua season three #the umbrella academy s3 #tua x y/n #tua x you #tua x reader #tua x gender neutral reader #viktor x y/n #viktor x you #viktor x reader #viktor hargreeves #viktor hargreeves x gn reader #viktor hargreeves x male reader #tua x male reader #tua x fem reader #tua fluff

[allthingsencanto]

For my very first post, I just have to say that I think one of the things that is under appreciated in Encanto is Waiting On A Miracle. Hearing the passion Lin Manuel had while writing this song kinda makes me sad, because let’s be honest, this song isn't popular, or really anyone’s favorite due to Bruno’s song and Surface Pressure being in it’s shadow. Some fans or just honest movie watchers either found it “meh”, or actually decent, just not as good as “How Far I’ll Go” from Moana, or “Let It Go” from Frozen, aka the other famous Disney heroin songs. If you don’t like it or think it’s not as special, that’s fine! But I did want to share why I think it’s special, especially compared to the other famous Disney songs. Mirabel herself is already an engaging protagonist. While a first viewer would be able to guess that she would get her musical number at one point, it’s expected that her song would mainly be about how she feels left out, and wishes she had a gift, aka her mopey song of her wanting more, like “Part Of Your World” from The little mermaid, or “Reflection” from Mulan. Some people either like the cliche story of a female character wanting more, and others are sick of the cliche and just want to skip what they’re expecting. However, I personally think Mirabel’s song is so much more than that. While yes, it is a song about the main character feeling sad about their current situation and wanting more out of it, I think the main reason why I personally find it so powerful is because it revolves a character who’s just finally being honest with herself and letting her emotions and motivations shine out, after YEARS of keeping them deep under and lying to herself about how she truly felt.

Mirabel is a character who while clearly was emotional about not having a gift unlike her family, she was able to hide it through her bubbly personality, and kept moving forward regardless. (Which Btw, is one of the reasons I love her so much. She went through a horrible experience, but she kept moving forward with a smile on her face, all because she loves her family so much, and is just a likable sweet character.) It always felt like to me that before the events of the movie, she assured everyone that she was fine about not having a gift, and eventually moved on, as did the family. However, after her cousin’s ceremony, and the hard reminder of her state, she finally realizes that she can’t take it anymore, as she vents to herself about what she wants to do and what she WISHED she could do. They could have so easily made this song about how she wished she had a power, but when you really think about it, thats not the case at all, and I love it for that. While Mirabel is clearly in distress of her situation, her song isn’t really that she wishes she had a power, rather it’s more that she JUST wants to belong, to make her family PROUD, show them that despite not having a gift, she has worth and can contribute something to the family. She’s asking for a Miracle, a chance to show everyone and herself that she’s worthy and can shine. It may not have sticked with people like the other famous Disney heroin songs, but just the emotional core and motivation this character has that starts up her actions moving forward for the film……I think is something truly special! There’s honestly so much to say about this song, the music, the colors, the ANIMATION, it’s all amazing, and Mirabel is just a character you feel for. She doesn’t know what she wants to be, she doesn’t know what she can do, but all she knows is that she’s tired of being in the shadows, and she wants to make her family proud in her OWN way, without a gift. This song makes me so emotional, you can easily relate to her, not knowing your place, not feeling like you belong, not being perfect, there’s so many layers to this song that I feel like people overlook. It doesn’t even feel like she’s singing because she HAS to like the some of the other Disney heroin songs, it genuinely feels like she’s singing because she WANTS to, because she finally wants to let it out, all to herself. Again, there’s so much more I can say, but for now I’ll leave it at that! Thank you for reading, and there’s many more Encanto thoughts of mine to come! Feel free to share your thoughts as well! ❤️

#Encanto #Encanto Disney #lin manuel miranda #mirabel madrigal #encanto Mirabel #Encanto movie #walt disney animation studios #Disney #musicals #animated movies #Walt Disney #Jared Bush #Bryon Howard #movies #Encanto songs #waiting on a miracle #stephanie beatriz #family madrigal #madrigal

[handfulofmuses]

5 + 12

5. Is there a muse you really want to try? if yes: what’s stopping you?

Pascal from Felidae (movie) the first muse I have actually written on Tumblr 13 (?) years ago. Back at the time, my muses were not as fleshed out as they are now and I usually wrote only one liners and rarely went deep into thoughts like I love to do now. I think with how much my writing has improved, I would like to see how different he is from now.

The problem is that I know Pascal will be mentally draining to write because he deals with themes similar to Snitter (which is also why I don’t use Snitter that much anymore) and has even other themes that’s off putting and it’s not exactly something I want here on my mulltimuse, nor exactly want to explore.

On top of that, the author of Felidae is a racist, homophobic, sexist scumbag and a generally unpleasant person. His behavior is actually so bad that nobody even sells his books anymore from what I’ve seen - people seem to be just tired of him. I did follow his facebook for a while back in the days when I had it and the stuff he posts is just no. He also had to go to court a few times for insulting people on Facebook apparently? One of these even happened recently. Guy literally has nothing better to do. I’ve recently reread the Felidae book series mainly to check how much he had actually been putting a lot of himself into his writing and yep, it really shows in the books. I always thought Francis, the main character was weird when it came to the female cats when I was a kid but just now I realized how much sexism there actually was. So yeah, it’s kinda off putting when you realize the author of something that you used to enjoy is actually one of the biggest scumbags in the country. He makes me sick.

12. What roleplay trends do you remember from the year you started tumblr rp? How did you feel about those trends?

Oh wow, that is such a long time ago and I don’t think there were much trends compared to now? I do know that people had this thing in going when someone followed them, they posted a screenshot of it and just gave a random starter. I think it was funny and showed how open people were to interact with others, compared to now.

I wouldn’t want to go back to that though, especially since plotting or interacting through memes is so much easier for me.

#ooc

[fantasyoverreality98]

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#I’m going to go off on a random rant again so just ignore me #but it’s so hard to get your writing viewed on here lol #not even kidding #fanfic is a little easier but original fiction? forget it #if you’re a writer of original stories don’t even bother on here #you can find other places to post your writing trust me #it’s kinda why I don’t post my writing anymore mainly because I feel like what’s the point #I’m just being sad on main but it’s true #I’ll be honest that writing fanfic kind of messed with my confidence as a writer #which is weird because some people have been so nice and so supportive but you can’t help but compare yourself to others #or just feel alone in general in fandom #and that’s how I feel a lot of the time #I just can’t make connections and I know that’s largely my fault but damn #so if anyone actually ever has been wondering what happened to me and why I don’t post fanfic anymore that’s why #I don’t feel like a good enough writer on here #sometimes I do #but a lot of the time I don’t #I’m very insecure and very critical of myself as a person in general #alright that’s the explanation #just wanted to get it out there

[kiwinatorwaffles]

hermits species headcanons!

UPDATED VERSION (february 12, 2024)

DISCLAIMER: i have not watched all of the hermit povs. i also only included the hermits i have headcanons for! if you have any headcanons for both the hermits i did write and didn’t write, please feel free to add on :]

also there is some form of an order listed, i swear. like. alphabetical but kinda scuffed

anyway, full post under cut!

bdubs- moss… thing? nobody is really sure what he is. but they know he’s definitely not human and he is a Menace

edit, feb 5: based on what a lot of people said and my own realization, bdubs is a glare! he hates the dark and is a little feral creature <3

cub- alien shapeshifter! he fakes forms based on the people around him. for example, the hermits are mainly humanoids, so his regular form is human as well. however, he can change to anything he wants!

cleo- zombie (duh) cleo is definitely undead, but a magician put a spell on her so that she has the traits of a living being and will function similarly to one. she actually doesn’t smell undead, but rather like flowers. it’s pretty nice!

doc- creeper… goat… cyborg… thing??? the hermits are not sure if the goat or creeper came first, but they definitely know the cyborg thing wasn’t originally there. but they Do know that this madman genetically modified himself to have a weird centaur-like goat body just to get extra inventory storage.

edit, feb 26: he also now has fae blood! (related to stress on dad’s side) he now has the power to steal your pronouns and change your gender presentation <3

etho- ?????? etho is an enigma. he looks human and acts human, but there is one detail: his mask. it doesn’t move when he speaks. he never takes it off. he doesn’t even need to eat because his account is so old that it doesn’t even have a hunger bar. he’s tried taking it off before but it won’t budge. nothing makes it move. they all have given up.

gem- deer hybrid! she’s a saytr-like deer lady with cute ears and legs :] but even though deers are herbivores (and consequently, so is she) this tiny little lady can be incredibly Violent when she wants. and man, those hooves hurt.

grian- parrot avian! he has little bird feathers for ears, parrot wings, and bird talons! he is also able to mimic voices perfectly (which he uses to play pranks and swear in other hermits’ voices) and is a Hollow Boned Menace :] he carries a lot of bird tendencies, like loving shiny items or preening his friends’ hair when it’s too messy (which is always)

npg- ????????????? he’s supposed to be a robot, but he has wings and flies sideways?????? not even grian is sure of what he created tbh

robot grian- robot. exactly as the name suggests.

edit, march 24:

hypno- warlock! maybe he was human at some point, but who knows anymore. who did he make a deal with to get power? we don’t know either.

impulse- imp! has little horns and bat wings. looks generally normal until he yawns, where then he becomes a lovecraftian horror being whilst also looking adorable like a cat. it’s really scary.

iskall- cyborg! well… they don’t know if he was fully human before getting the cyborg parts, but acts sure like one. other than eating redstone, of course

jevin- slime! nothing else to it. no known reason as to why he’s blue, though.

joe hills- ???????? now this guy is Weird. he looks human and acts human, but only if you’ve seen him for less than five seconds at a time. if you look closer, there are things that obviously Are Not Right. he has a little more teeth than average. he has a purple-tinted tongue. he leans forward when standing. his pupils and irises are reversed. you don’t know what he’s capable of, but he vibrates whenever any politician is mentioned. don’t mess with joe hills.

mumbo- robot! with a core heart and stretchy limbs, he runs mainly on the consumption of redstone and occasionally typical foodstuffs. he had a creator before the days of hermitcraft that taught him all there is to know about redstone and the outside world. he also inherits the british accent and mustache from his creator.

pearl- lunar deity! she’s a being created by the moon’s consciousness herself, manifesting into the mortal world to build with the earthlings. her power and energy increase the bigger the moon gets……

ren- weredog! can shapeshift into a dog form, which he usually uses to either run fast or play fetch. he’s also more prone to change when the moon is larger…. also probably has rabies, but who can tell?

scar- wizard! he’s very clearly magical, as seen from previous seasons and how he can magically float his wheelchair for convenience. jellie also is his familiar! but this wizard just happens to also be a capitalist.

stress- fairy! just because she gives off the vibes of one :)

tango- ?????? everybody knows tango is not a human, but he refuses to elaborate on the pointed ears and red eyes. so they do not ask any further

edit, march 24: hes a blazeborn! or at least he used to be anyway. i should’ve done this sooner but here’s the link to my full post about it LMAO

wels- human. yes, it’s very typical, but hey! at least he’s a knight!

hels- ???? is there a species for evil clones created by copying machines or

xisuma- voidwalker! created by the young void gods, he was made as the first experiment in giving life to a void being. he can walk through and survive in the void, and he also can borrow powers from his creators. he also may or may not have a mouth, just because nobody has seen it before.

evil x- also a voidwalker, but this time the void gods pressed random on a picrew and sent him out into an alternate dimension. this little rascal has red scleras, ram horns, and a devil tail. he also has sharp teeth and can eat pretty much everything.

zedaph- human, but he’s not sane. i mean look at this guy. look at what he’s doing. this is not a mentally stable man. also has a weird obsession with worms

worm man- surprisingly, human. or maybe he once was. but he lives with zedaph so he might go insane if he stays with that man for too long

and that wraps it up! again, if you have any hc species headcanons feel free to drop em below! i am very interested in y’all’s thoughts

#orchard’s library #hermitcraft #hermitblr #bdoubleo100 #cubfan135 #ethoslab #docm77 #goodtimeswithscar #grian #npc grian #robot grian #geminitay #hypnotizd #impulsesv #iskall85 #joe hills #mumbo jumbo #pearlescentmoon #rendog #xisumavoid #evil xisuma #ijevin #stressmonster101 #tangotek #welsknight #helsknight #zedaphplays #worm man #zombiecleo

[tressasinterlude]

𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐓 #𝟑: Female Public Figures Dating Men with Questionable Views That Contradict Their Image & Alleged Politics

𝗗𝗜𝗦𝗖𝗟𝗔𝗜𝗠𝗘𝗥: These rant blog posts are really just reflective of my thoughts at the time that I make them and are posted here because I need an outlet to release all of this shit I have going on my busy ass mind. That’s it and that’s all. Now let’s get into it..

This rant was greatly inspired by none other than Ms. Robyn Rihanna “Tell Your Faves To Pull Up [in regards to social injustices directly affecting black people]” Fenty and her openly colorist boyfriend, A$AP Rocky. Aside from the fact that Rihanna tends to slip under the radar and is never held accountable for her problematic ways due to her conventional beauty (i.e. Her heavy usage of anti-Asian slurs, particularly targeted towards Chris Brown’s ex gf, Karrueche), it’s very alarming that a woman who has an entire makeup brand with a campaign based around the inclusivity of ALL black women is publicly flaunting a beau who once said that DSBW do not look good with red lipstick.

And yes, I’m very much aware that Rakim said this tasteless comment over 8 years ago but from the looks of it, not much has really changed with him. Don’t @ me about it neither because I don’t care.

Also peep how he compares a hypothetical darkskinned woman to a man (Wesley Snipes) while trying to explain how his antiblackness isn’t wrong because he said something about white women as well. Gaslighting at its finest. Don’t you just love it! 😀

Furthermore, you would think that somebody of Rihanna’s level of stature would know not to associate themselves with someone as messy as A$AP Rocky but... Stupid is what stupid does, I guess! I can’t even begin to place the blame on him anymore because he’s revealed his true colors and we all have made the deliberate choice to either accept it or don’t and have discontinued all support for him. Unfortunately, misogynoir is never the dealbreaker for most people and the hatred for [dark-skinned] black women is so engrained in society that it’s frowned upon when we publicly speak out against it. Very ass backwards if you ask me but that’s society for you. Now, enough about that. Let’s focus back on Ms. Vita La Coco.

As a woman who claims to be a girl’s girl and is always presenting herself to be someone who is the epitome of a pro-black feminist bad ass, it just makes her alleged activism come off so disingenuous when she’s also laying down with the same man that actively attacks the demographic she’s supposed to be standing in solidarity with. It’s “Black Lives Matter” on the IG posts but your vagina is getting moist for a man who openly stated he doesn’t relate to what goes on in Ferguson because he lives in Soho & Beverly Hills. Ferguson being the exact place where a 17-year-old black boy’s lifeless corpse laid on the hot concrete for FOUR hours after he was murdered by a police officer. He couldn’t 'relate' to the fate of so many black men, women, and children who are murdered or seriously injured from state-sanctioned violence because they’re poor and he is not or so he thought.

But then again, what can I really expect from a woman who identified as being “biracial” until as recent as roughly 6 years ago? What can I really expect from a woman who called Rachel Dolezal a ‘hero’ for cosplaying as a black woman? I’d be lying if I said my expectations for her were high in this regard because sis has always shown us she was lacking in this department. And just for the record, this is not a personal attack on Rihanna at all for the die-hard Navy stans in the back. I admire her latest fashions and bop my head to her music just like the next person but she’s getting the side-eye from me on this one.

Trust and believe me though, she’s not the only woman who I can call out for being a hypocrite. Of course not! This stone can be cast at a few others. So without further ado, why don’t we bring Ms. Kehlani Parrish to the front of the congregation? Prior to Kehlani’s recent declaration of identifying as a lesbian, her last public relationship with a man was with YG. Yes, the same YG who felt it was necessary to say him & Nipsey had ‘pretty light-skinned’ daughters to raise in the middle of his deceased friend’s memorial. By the way, Nipsey’s daughter is not even light (or at least not in my book anyways.) She’s a very deep caramel tone just like her father which makes what he said even more moronic. Yes, the same YG who thought it was clever idea to use slavery as an aesthetic for a music video to a diss track about 6ix9ine. And yes, also the same YG who has derogatory lyrics targeted at bisexual women. Just to end up sweating the red carpets with one. I swear the jokes just continue to write themselves.

This raises the question once more; How high of a pedestal can I really put a multiracial woman who has a song titled ‘N*ggas’ and when received backlash for the song in question, she used the ultimate ‘I’m mixed’ copout while not having a visibly black parent in sight?

It’s also kind of suspicious to me that many were not privy to Kehlani’s secret romance with Victoria Monét (pictured bottom right) until Victoria did an interview with Gay Times revealing she fell in love with a girl but they subsequently broke up because Victoria had a boyfriend and that girl was pregnant in a polyamorous relationship. Fans began to speculate because both Victoria & Kehlani previously candidly spoke about their sexual orientations, Kehlani had just had Adeya and they both were seemingly close. Their short-lived fling would later be confirmed when Victoria released the song ‘Touch Me’ on her last project and Kehlani hopped on the remix. Meanwhile, Kehlani’s relationship with Shaina (pictured bottom left) was very overt and all over her Instagram feed from my recollection. And as you can see, Shaina looks absolutely nothing like Victoria. They look like the complete opposite of eachother in every aspect which is kind of alarming(?) to say the least because why is it that the women she proudly claims as her partners tend to have a very racially ambiguous look such as herself but her ‘sneaky links’ on the other hand are undoubtedly black women? Again, it could just be me jumping conclusions. You know, I’m kinda good for that however something tells me I’m not. Y’all be the judge of the material though.

Last but not least, I’d like to touch on Ms. Raven Tracy very briefly. I was very weary about even including in this segment and if I should just put her in a entirely separate blog post with other women who openly date abusers despite their checkered past (alongside Nicki Minaj & her r*pist murderer of a husband, India Love & Sheck Wes etc.) being this particular blog post was based around the theme of lightskinned/mixed women dating men with extremely problematic views about DSBW. Raven obviously isn’t lightskinned or mixed however I refused to ignore how contradictory her [former] relationship with an alleged (I used this word very loosely and mainly for legality purposes.) serial r*pist while promoting a brand that is all about feminism & body positivity. This also traces back to A$AP Rocky by default being that Ian Connor is his very close friend and he came to Connor’s defense when several women came forward detailing accounts of Connor allegedly s*xually assaulting them. (I wish I could place the actual video of what A$AP Rocky said verbatim but Tumblr only allows one video per blog post. 🙄)

Back in June of this year, Ian & Raven had a back & forth on Twitter after Ian tweeted about Raven “fucking everybody” behind his back. I can only assume that he was alluding to Tori Brixx posting a video of her ex, Rich the Kid & Raven kissing on her story. Disgusted is not even the word to describe my feeling when she admitted she stuck by Ian despite of his many allegations of s*xual abuse because she loved him and her being a empath causes her to want to help everybody. Imagine aiding and abetting a predator and even paying for his bail & legal fees just to turn around and expect sympathy because this same individual cheated on you and exploited you all over Twitter for the public to see. The same man that you would get back with not even a WEEK after the fact & turn off your IG comments because it isn’t our “business” after making it our business...

That being said, I just genuinely want to know: Why do these women completely go against what they stand for in regards to these men? Maybe it was never genuine from jump street and if that’s the case, why jump on the bandwagon of performative activism? Is it because it’s profitable right now? Is it because disrespecting black women is not an immediate death sentence to your careers and more often than not actually helps you advance even further? I guess that’s the billion dollar question that’ll never truly be answered. I just want the world to stop using black women as their stepping stool to get to where they need to go and then discarding of us when we’re no longer beneficial. Support us all the way or don’t support us at all. We deal with enough disrespect as is so we’d appreciate if y’all would stop straddling the fence and partake in your misogynoir out loud if that’s what you choose to do. We have no use for fake allyship and quite frankly, it’s doing more harm for us than good. Please and thank you!

Sincerely,

- 𝙼𝙸𝚂𝚂 𝙴𝙳𝙶𝙰𝚁 𝙰𝙻𝙻𝙴𝙽 𝙷𝙾𝙴. 💋

#i’m finally done after having this sitting in the drafts for about a good month... or two. 🥴🥴 #abuse apologists #pro black #activism #feminism #body posititivity #colorism #raven tracy #kehlani #rihanna #yg #asap rocky #rant #my uploads.

[simjakeyun]

Hey! Can you write a Enhypen reaction when they're jealous?

✧*:･ﾟ𝗲𝗻— 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗰𝗮𝗻𝗼𝗻 ; 𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆’𝗿𝗲 𝗷𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗼𝘂𝘀

✐ genre: every so slightly angsty, mainly fluff

✐ warnings: none

✐ taglist: no one yet :)

✐ a/n: i accidentally turned this into a headcanon. i hope that’s okay anon 🥺

♡ || 𝗹𝗲𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗲𝘀𝗲𝘂𝗻𝗴.

you and heeseung are at the grocery store at your hometown

and you just so happened to run into an old classmate of yours that you used to have a thing for

now, heeseung knows about this person

he’s already asked you about previous partners and romantic interests

so when you and this other person start chatting up a storm

he does start to feel a little jealous

especially when you stand there for 30 minutes talking to this person

you never talk this much to him ◔_◔

when you finally part ways with your old classmate, you can’t tell there’s something wrong at first

heeseung is just following you quietly, not wanting to say or do something that he’ll regret later

and then you finally realize that he’s upset

he will adamantly deny that there’s anything wrong at first

he won’t want to admit that there’s something wrong

because he knows there’s nothing truly wrong

yet he still feels this burning jealousy in the pit of his stomach

finally, after you pester him for 20 minutes straight, he’ll admit that he’s slightly jealous

he’s just so serious and stone-faced

so you give him a hug and lay your head on his shoulder

and give him big puppy dog eyes 🥺

he’s totally a sucker for puppy dog eyes

and when that still doesn’t work, you give him little kisses all over his face

and with that, he literally won’t be able to keep a straight face

he’ll smile and look away for a few seconds

then he’ll realize that the entire thing is so silly and apologize

and you’re now mandated to cuddle with him for the rest of the night to make you both feel better :)

♡ || 𝗷𝗮𝘆 𝗽𝗮𝗿𝗸.

so you and jay are on a fancy restaurant date

both of you are all dressed up, looking cute as all hell

and your waiter just so happened to be one of your brother’s friends

you had seen him around the house a few times since he came over to see your brother

and you had liked a few of your brother’s social media posts with him in them

so you two knew each other fairly well

every time he’d stop by the table, you two would have a little chat

jay took quick notice of this

but you hadn’t told jay that you knew him through your brother

so jay was just kinda like ??? hello we’re on a date and you’re flirting with the waiter right in front of me ???

and he did not hesitate to show his jealousy

whenever the waiter would come back to the table, he’d sigh loudly when you started to talk to him

and he’d try to speak up and interrupt your conversation

he’d tap on the table on on his cup

he’d try to grab your hand on the table and wave to catch your attention

and when all else fails, he’ll whine loudly

he’s so embarrassing to take out in public

after your brother’s friend walked away from the table, you finally realized that he was acting that way because he was jealous

jay would glare at you straight up ask why you were flirting with the waiter

and you’d laugh and tell him that the waiter is your brother’s best friend, so you knew each other

jay’s face would soften lightly and he’d start pouting

“jay did you really think i'd flirt with a waiter right in front of you when we’re on a date???”

“you’re right. you’re at least smart enough to do it behind my back.”

the moment would end in laughter

and you noticed that he got a little more affectionate with you that night, holding your hand all night and giving you little hugs and more pecks on the cheek and forehead

♡ || 𝗷𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝘀𝗶𝗺.

now, jake is not one to get jealous easily

he knows you have guy friends and male co-workers that you have to work closely with

but when you spend more time at the dorm with the other members than him?

that’s what gets to him

you’ll come over to the dorm and instantly just go play games with jungwon and jay

and then afterwards, you’ll let sunoo apply his skincare regiment to you

then after that, you’ll help heeseung cook in the kitchen

and at that point, you’ve been at the dorm already for like three hours and none of that time was spent with jake

and jake is the sole reason you’re even there !!!

he’s your boyfriend after all !!!

at first, jake would stop by every 15 or 20 minutes to ask when you’ll be done and can hang out with him

when you said a few more minutes, he’d smile and respect it

but after three hours of it, he just stopped asking

he’d lay down in his bed

and he’d just watch netflix by himself, not wanting to bother you anymore

he’d get sooo extremely sulky

he just feels so disappointed in himself for not being as interesting as the other members or for not planning out a more interesting day for you two

and he was jealous that the other members got to spend time with you while he couldn’t

it was you that had to go find him

and when you did, he would absolutely refuse to look you in the eye

and he’d get just a tad bit passive aggressive

“wouldn’t you rather spend your time with the kids?”

and you could tell just by the tone of his voice that he’s completely heartbroken

you would have to get into his bed and lay on top of him to get him to look at you

he’d only accept an apology if you gave him puppy dog eyes and a big hug

he can’t resist that

he’d open his blanket up for you and cuddle you up

you’d spend the next few hours watching netflix on his phone

and he would not let you go until you had to leave

♡ || 𝗽𝗮𝗿𝗸 𝘀𝘂𝗻𝗴𝗵𝗼𝗼𝗻.

sunghoon doesn’t tend to get jealous easily

but, just like jake, it bothers him when you spend more time with the members than with him

it’s not that he’s worried the other members will take you from him

because c’mon, if you’re with park sunghoon, you’ve already won at life

it’s just that he feels that you’re giving away affection that should be for him

don’t get him wrong, he’s happy that you’re getting along with his 2nd family quite well

but he thinks that he should be your favorite within the group

so like when niki helps you clean up after eating and you pat his head as a thank you

or when sunoo asks you to put makeup on him and you oblige

just those little touches

he feels like they’re meant for people who are together in a romantic relationship

but the main reason you’re always so affectionate with the other members was because you wanted to treat the members like sunghoon’s family and become closer with them

you know how important the members are to him so you wanted to get to know them better

also sunghoon is totally one to bite his tongue at first

but he’ll let it build up so much that he eventually won’t be able to control it

and it will eventually come out

sunghoon will be passive aggressive

claims he’s not jealous and there’s nothing wrong

but he’s sitting there like ಠ╭╮ಠ

so he’s obviously mad

you’ll have to sit down with him and be like

“look, sunghoon, i know you’re not gonna admit it, but i know you’re jealous.”

“i’m not jeal-”

“yes you are! i'm sorry i was hanging out with the other members more than you”

and it’s only then that he’ll take a step back and listen to you

“well i just don’t like it when you’re really affectionate with the kids.”

only took like 4 hours for him to finally admit it

you two talk it through and sunghoon finally comes to an understanding of why you act so affectionate towards the members

and you agree to spend not as much time around them as before

you and sunghoon cool off the night by playing games together while giving each other pecks on the cheeks as a reward for winning

♡ || 𝗸𝗶𝗺 𝘀𝘂𝗻𝗼𝗼.

sunoo doesn’t like it when you spend most of your free time with other people

literally just people in general

he finds insecurity in the thought that you wouldn't want to spend time with him

like obviously if you don’t want to spend time with him but you do with other people, you like those other people more than him

if you’re with sunoo and you’re talking to some other people but you’re not engaging in conversation with sunoo that much

then he’ll pout and try to get your attention

if that doesn’t work, he’ll loop his arms around yours

if that doesn’t work, he’ll hold your hand

and when all else fails, he’ll lay his head on your shoulder

gets really pouty and whiny when jealous

he just wants you to pay attention to him 😭

probably whines so much to the point of annoying you

and now you’re mad at him (◞‸◟；)

ah he didn’t mean for it to end up like this but it just kinda happened

as soon as the two of you are alone, he’s really apologetic

he’ll immediately tell you about his jealousy

and will apologize instantly

sunoo always admits his faults :(

he doesn’t want to make the situation worse by now owning up to his faults and denying that there’s nothing wrong

he’ll say that he only wanted your attention and your time

but he let his jealousy get the better of him

honestly, you’d have to be a monster to not forgive him

it’s this entire fight that causes the two of you to set aside a day a week to make an effort to at least talk to each other or play games or hang out

sunoo just wants your love and affection 🥺

♡ || 𝘆𝗮𝗻𝗴 𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗴𝘄𝗼𝗻.

I'm just gonna come right out and say it because i believe this with my entire soul

jungwon gets jealous so easily

he can be very confident with the other members and on stage

but within relationships, because of his inexperience, he lacks that confidence

he gets really insecure around your male friends

he’ll see you talk to them in that same excited manner with that glint in your eye that you do to him

and his brain goes to places it shouldn’t

he knows realistically that it’s probably nothing

like this is totally just your personality

but there’s always that little bundle of doubt

in the moment, he won’t say a word

he’ll just observe the situation

keeping a close eye on you especially

but when you walk away

he’ll instantly go into baby mode

“you still love me right?”

“can you give me a hug?”

“i’m the only person you like like this right?”

“If i was a random stranger on the street, you would still have a crush on me right?”

“can you hold my hand?”

you will have to endlessly reassure him

will walk like -10cm away from you

and will keep you close for the rest of the day

so it’s obvious that jungwon isn’t feeling confident at all

and so you’ll have to have a little talk to him about it

it’s mostly just you reassuring him that he’s the only one you love

he definitely finds security in these little talks

because it helps him recognize that you value him enough to openly communicate with him

and that does spike his confidence!

in following situations when you’re with your male friends, he’ll try to be more in the conversation and not think too much about it

will give you little moments of affection

like rubbing your back

or putting a hand on your knee for a second before taking it back off

that helps boost his confidence as well

but he does actively try to better himself about not getting as jealous as before

♡ || 𝗻𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗶𝗺𝘂𝗿𝗮 𝗿𝗶𝗸𝗶.

niki’s young so he probably gets jealous left and right

whether that’s when you’re with the other members

or with your friends

or just as school around classmates

his hormones are out of wack and he’s still going through puberty

please don’t blame him :(

niki just doesn’t want to lose you

like jungwon, he’s also not very confident because of his lack of experience in relationships

if you’re talking to the other members or your friends, he gets pouty

watches you very closely

he doesn’t want to insert himself in any way or show that he’s feeling jealous

he’ll get huffy for a little while too

if you question him as to why he’s upset, he’ll outright deny being upset

claim that he’s fine even though he clearly isn’t

will also reject any form of affection

do not touch him or try to talk to him about it

he’ll need a few minutes to sit and think about it

and then after like half an hour of cooling down, he’ll have a better grasp of his feelings

he might not be able to perfectly articulate his feelings into words but you can always hear the emotion in whatever he says

he’s better at displaying his emotions rather than speaking it

he’s a dancer after all

niki would feel so much better through words of reassurance

he just wants to know that he’s doing well

little everyday comments always help make him feel more secure

“niki! you look different today! i think you’ve gotten more handsome?”

lots of i love yous 🥺

“please eat well today!”

“I care about you!!!”

those little comments always make his heart flutter (ノ・ω・)ノ

#enhypen #enhypen reactions #enhypen scenarios #enhypen imagines #enhypen fluff #heeseung #lee heeseung #jay #jay park #jake #jake sim #sunghoon #park sunghoon #sunoo #kim sunoo #jungwon #yang jungwon #niki #nishimura riki #201204

[himbokkun]

pairing: kuroo tetsurou x fem!reader wordcount: 1.5k warnings: mainly angst, but there's smut too, alcohol use, petnames (baby, kitten, sweetheart, angel), nipple play and praise for a sec and that's it ig a/n: haha definitely this wasn't based on true events haha i'm totally not coping with writing. anyways this is my first time ever writing a fic?? and i literally wrote this at 4 am while i was almost drunk. so not proofread. sorry if there are typos or shit that doesn't make sense. i will read when i wake up but i'm just too excited to post??? enjoy AND DON'T FORGET TO GIVE ME FEEDBACK<3

kuroo sent you a text. “babe when you leave work go to my place okay missed you!’’ you love kuroo. you know you love him. but the thing is this scares you. how much you love him, how much you depend on him. it’s scary for you because it is too much. he’s too nice to you. he always tries to be the best even though he already is. he makes you the happiest. he gives you everything he can. at the back of your head you always think that you don’t deserve him, his kindness, his support.

you’re scared. not because love is scary. it’s because loving him is too easy. he makes it too easy but love has never been this easy for you. your relationship with him is too good to be true. that’s why you always think he’s gonna leave you. he’ll get tired of dealing with you. he’ll get sick of you doing nothing. whenever you have a breakdown he’ll think you’re weird. he won’t understand how you deal with things and eventually, he’ll leave. or one day he’ll realize he never loved you and he will leave. in every scenario, he leaves. and you won’t be able to stop him. you won’t be able to make him love you again. and you know that you can't heal from that. you’re scared of getting more attached than you already are. that’s why you’ll leave him first. you’ll leave before he can. but you wanna feel him. you wanna feel his touch, wanna enjoy being in his presence one last time. because he makes you feel good. he always makes you feel the best. and you want that one more time. you reply. “okay, i’ll wait you at your place.’’ so you did. you went to his place. wearing the lingerie he bought for you. and you waited. when he came home, you felt your heart breaking. he was so excited to see you. you engraved his bright smile to your mind. the smile that made your day.. the thought of never being able to see that smile again made your heart clench. but it needed to be done. for the better. and when he kissed you with all the passion he has, you felt guilty. there were so many times you felt that way through the night. and this was one of them. he asked you “baby, is everything alright?’’ you nodded. “sorry, i just felt like i needed to ask. i’m glad everything’s okay.’' and he smiled and kissed you again. you felt the guilt again. you both talked about your days while drinking wine. after both of you got a little tipsy at the couch, his hands started to move around your sides while he kissed you. he placed you in his lap. you pulled his hair while kissing him, eliciting the most sinful moan out of him. he whispered “i fucking love you” into your mouth, choking on his breath. and that alone would be enough to make you wet. he really is so pretty like this. desperate for your touch, lust and admiration in his eyes, all yours. you felt guilty again. because only you knew this was the last time he’ll feel you like this. he gets loud when he drinks, you knew that. but still you were surprised how loud the moan that came out of his mouth when you started grinding. and this made you wanting more. still grinding on now his hard cock, you moaned “tetsu –nrgh ah. j-just fuck me already.’' he chuckled. “okay. let’s get you to the bedroom first, hm?’’ “no. no, i can’t- want you to fuck me here.” you said. “feeling needy today, huh, kitten?’’ you nodded while kissing and biting his neck, giving him bruises. after all, you wanted to feel him more, one last time, right. but giving him marks was evil. it felt like you gave him a reminder of this night, of you leaving. you felt guilty, once again. he lifted you off of his lap so he could unzip his pants. you were lazily kissing him while undoing his shirts buttons. after you were done undressing him, he undressed you in a minute. he touched your sensitive cunt. “you’re already so wet for me sweetheart.’’ you blushed at his comment. he pumped two of his fingers in your pussy, earning a moan from you. “tetsu- wait, stop. i don’t need stretch. just fuck me. please.’’ you said. he looked confused. ‘’whatever you say, kitten.’’ and with that he removed his fingers and licked them. you looked at him weirdly and he said “what? you taste good. can’t i taste my pretty kitten?’’ not being able to form a thought, you only moaned. he moved his now shiny lips to your tits. kissing one and groping the other. “hm? is it that bad if i wanna taste my baby, when she’s all wet for me?’’ he said. you once again, moaned. he bited your nipple while pinching the other. you were growing impatient. pulling his hair you said “are you gonna fuck me or do i need to do that all by myself?’’ “ooh someone’s impatient.

why don’t you do the latter?’’ “oh. i will.’’ with that you put his leaky tip inside of you. earning a groan from him. you began to take his length in. “ yeah that’s my kitten. taking me so well.’’ he praised. after you took all of his length, you waited for him to thrust. he didn’t. so you slowly began to ride him. holding onto his shoulders for support. your agonizingly slow pace made him impatient. wrapping one arm around your waist, other on your back, burying his face on your chest, he controlled the thrusts. you hold his face that was at your chest with both of your arms. you two were holding onto each other. with this position, it almost looked like you two were hugging each other. his thrusts got faster. you pulled his hair and he looked up to you. “tet- tetsu, fuck, i’m so close.’’ you said. he replied, speaking through his teeth “oh yeah? why don’t you come for me then? come all around this dick, huh? you can do that for me, right?’’ with his words you climaxed. your insides squeezing him made him orgasm as well. kissing your forehead he moved you off of his lap. you bursted into tears after some time he got blankets around both of you. you two stayed like that for a minute. “let’s get you clean- woah hey, hey angel? what’s wrong? did i hurt you? tell me, what’s wrong?’’ he said moving his hand to your cheek. you thought about if you should tell him you were gonna leave right now for a minute, still leaning for his touch. and decided it would be the best to tell him now. “tetsu, i’m sorry. i can’t do this anymore.” you said. “y/n? why are you saying this out of nowhere? we were just having a good time, what’s going on?’’ he replied. “i just can’t do this. i’m sorry. you can do much better. i can’t always feel like i’m holding you back from the stuff you wanna do. i can’t always feel like i owe you for loving me. i can’t just sit and wait for you to break my heart. i can’t-’’ “so you’ll leave? over something that didn’t even happen?’’ he cut you off. he looked hurt. you couldn’t answer him. with glossy eyes, choking back on a tear he said “you know, it’s not fair that you were the only one knowing this was the last time i’ll ever touch you.’’ you couldn’t answer him, again. you just cried more. “i’m sorry, tetsu. i fucking hate seeing you like this. i hate to see your heartbreak.’’ you said, crying still. you continued “i know i’ve said i wouldn’t let my past affect my relationship with you. but i failed. i love you and i’m sorry for letting you down like this. i’ll always remember you good. i hope you can too. you’ll always have a special place in my heart. i wish you the best this world can ever give.’’ “y/n, it seems like you’ve already made up your mind. so all i’m gonna say is i love you. i always have, i always will. i hope you’ll be with someone who’ll love you more than me. so that you never doubt their love and actually be happy with them.’’ he replied. you both cried, not looking at each other. you dressed and grabbed your stuff. with red, puffy eyes and rough voice he said “don’t worry about your stuff. i’ll drop them by your house tomorrow.’’ you thanked him. he walked you to the door and opened it for you. “be careful okay, it’s kinda late now.’’ he said. “yeah i will, thanks.’’ you two awkwardly stood at the door frame for a moment. you should’ve leave right then. but you didn’t. instead you hugged him. you wanted to feel his warm hugs one last time. you wanted to feel safe in his arms, just one more time. he hugged you back, he held you as long as he can. you whispered “i’m sorry.’’ to his chest, not knowing if he even heard it. you pulled apart after some time. he patted your back. you looked at him once more, burying his image into your mind. “so. this is it, huh.’’ he said. “yeah.’’ “goodbye, y/n l/n.’’ “goodbye, kuroo tetsurou.’’

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