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scoups4lyfe · 1 year

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Journal Entries of Bipolar sh*t compiled to Show the Mind of Someone with BP:

[Entries from my mood journals:]

TW: Mental Health

These entries are personal, I wrote them as I was going through whatever I end up writing about, I took out any personal details so it reads like ANON.

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Energy Levels:

July 15th 2020:

Questionable levels of energy. Went to bed at 9am and woke up at 6pm. Just really tired, I feel just,,,, exhausted in an empty almost depressive kind of way. Could a depressive episode be looming on the horizon? Conversely, however, my energy has been pretty high the last three-four days at least. I’ve been somewhat motivated, getting work done, and also having major problems with insomnia that really kind of came out of nowhere. That’s why I couldn’t fall asleep until 9am last night. (Though my time blindness when doing things I enjoy certainly doesn’t help.)

July 16th 2020:

(went to bed at 9am, awoke at 7pm)

Another feeling of low energy. I’d rate it about 3.5/10 (5 being normal.) Mood wise, I'm in a rather neutral mood, though I’m starting to worry that it’s getting more and more apathetic. (Especially when I’m dehydrated.)

Executive dysfunction is rearing its ugly head. It’s hard for me to do things, I kinda want to curl into a ball and do nothing for great periods of time. I find it hard to really be motivated or to make myself WANT to look nice when I see my friend tomorrow. It’s actually kind of worrying, but my overall mood (as I said) is still pretty neutral.

July 17th, 2020: A solid 3/10

(Bed @ 7/8-ish am. Woke at 1:09pm to go to a friend’s.)

I just feel tired and kinda zen, not gonna lie. Like relaxed and ready to slip into unconsciousness at any moment. Not necessarily as apathetic as yesterday, but that could be because I am around my good friend, and being around my good friends makes me happy, distracted, and more energized, even with barely any sleep.

July 18th 2020:

Bed time: Close to 11:30 pm Wake Up: Close to 9am. (Like 8:40 am or something)

A solid 2.2/10

I’ve had low energy for a bit now and I know it’s starting to roll into my apathetic depressions. Today [friend] wanted me to go to the gym/pool with [them] and I was REALLY not feeling it, but [they] were gungho for it and were talking about it like it was already going to be a done-deal. This kinda soured me because I really do not want to move around much when I’m like this and I ESPECIALLY did not want to go to the pool— I knew I’d be the only one in the pool, alone, because I didn’t bring shoes so I either had to wait horrendously by myself in the locker room or pool it out alone until someone joined me after their workout.

I DID feel great when I stepped into that lukewarm shower before having to get into the pool, but like, WOAH MAN, I got super apathetic, I contemplated just staying in the shower for an hour and like hOO wow. Not great. 0/10 would not recommend.

I did actually enjoy the pool though and after about 15 minutes of [friend] joining me I began to go back to a more neutral state of mind, so that was good.

When we went to the mall it was fun too, but for some reason (I can’t even explain why) I hit a low— low, and started to second-guess everything (even my friendship with them) and wondered if I should never talk or see them ever again from then on. It was really melodramatic and I don’t even know why I thought about it for a minute there. After a few minutes I was snapped back to normal by hanging out with my friends and then I was kinda okay again.

Emotionally (when I’m not feeling low energy/apathetic/empty AF) I feel on the verge of just breaking down into tears and laughing like a maniac.

July 24th

Bed: 9pm-ish Woke: 5am

Energy: 4-ish (Maybe even a bit more of a 3.5 rn)

These last few days have been a blur tbh. I went on a webtoon-reading, what-music-was-I-listening-to-in-middle-school binge these last couple of days and so I remember not much. The hyper focus really had me there lol.

July 28th 2020:

Bed: 1:15 am Woke: 6:30 am

Mood: When I was awake earlier and reading, about a 3. RIGHT NOW??? 1.5/10 and quickly approaching a meltdown.

I am SO SO tired and almost about to have an emotional breakdown for no reason. I have no idea where this is coming from but I am going to tuck into bed and disappear from existence because I need to sleep for 19hrs or I WILL throw a fit.

**Some notes for July 28th. I tried to sleep at 7/8pm because I felt an incoming meltdown. But then I was suddenly wide awake? Like my energy was at a 7 while my mood was at a 0.5. Basically, not fun, would never repeat again.

July 31st, 2020:

Bed: Around midnight/1 am woke: 3pm.

Energy: 4/10

I don’t know why I slept for so long, but I def. could have slept longer. In fact most of the day I felt kind of bleh.

Not terrible enough to lie down but also not normal-normal.

August 26th, 2020:

Woke: 7pm Slept: 9/10am

Mood: 4.5/10

In general I’ve felt fine. Not as exhausted, and definitely in a good mood. Maybe it’s because I’m purposefully taking it easy while still trying to accomplish the small things. Ahhhh I feel so accomplished, yo!!!

But just as a general warning, I don’t know how long I’ll be able to stay optimistic. (Hopefully for a long time.) I just feel the depressive episode on the horizon. For now, I’m doing self care so that I can fight it off, but hopefully it won’t be “only a matter of time.”

Thursday — September 17th, 2020:

Slept: 1am woke: 7:30am

Mood: 5/10 ENERGY: 2.5/10

Though I’m in a pretty genial mood, I just feel so tired. Which makes no sense because yesterday I woke up at like 7pm and went to bed at 1am. So WHAT TF bro. I’ve just been lying in my bed all day because that’s like the only way I feel somewhat decent.

Kinda want to take a nap but I know that’ll do me absolutely no good whatsoever, so I’m gonna stay awake and try to be as productive as I can be when I’m lying down in a horizontal position.

[Journal Entry]

“Saturday: October 10th, 2020 — Around Night

Right now I feel invincible. Like I can write and capture that perfect melody. Pen to paper. Pencil to sketchbook. For this moment, just right now, I feel as if I could do anything, and that makes me so, so, happy.

Today is a happy day, which is made funnier or perhaps more ironic by the fact that I didn’t even want to wake up today. [Which I did, begrudgingly, at 6pm-ish.]

The tides really do come and go. So never feel too down. At some point you’ll feel like this again. The cogs keep turning and life goes on.

Mood: 10/10 Energy: 10/10.”

[End quote]

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“October 13th, 2020 — Tuesday, 10:45 AM.

So many thoughts have taken travels in my hand. Today I feel invincible again. Much like I did in the last entry. I have been an unfortunate disappointment to my family, though. My energy, motivation, and time has been entangled lately. Entangled deep into my mind, my media, and the interests I partake in: The Void ™.

Therefore I haven’t been of much help, entertainment, or enjoyment for my loved ones. Last Sunday our relatives gathered at our house to celebrate [my brother's] birthday. Yet I stayed in bed. I did not celebrate with them, and ignored their asks of me. I’m quite disappointed in myself for being this way. I can only strive to be better. I may not have been energetic or involved these last few days, but I feel much better now that I’ve gotten rest.

Though I’ll always be fighting with that void that distracts and captures my attentions, I won’t let these strings choke me.” [End Quote]

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October 18th 2020:

Slept: 10am Woke: 4am

Mood:2.5/10. Energy:2/10

I just feel very anxious (like pit of nervous energy going 100mph in my stomach) anxious. I’m gonna try and nap the wired energy off cause it’s making me panicked

[Journal Entry]

“October 18th, 2020 — Sunday, 3:46 AM

I’ve gone and slept all of saturday. But hopefully this will fix my sleep schedule. I’m also (not quite anxious, but I know the tension is there, rising, ready to explode on the horizon. Already it’s October 18th, and yet it feels as if I’ve accomplished nothing. And perhaps I haven’t.”

[End quote]

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“October 24th, 2020 — Saturday, 9:55 PM.

At the beginning of this page I felt indescribable emotion fill me. Everything was pointless. I’d forgotten how to fly and instead remembered how to nap. For a singular moment I wanted to sleep into nonexistence. I wanted to cry, too. But mostly, I was just tired. I could do nothing but sit and want to sleep, and I had not even the strength or energy to loathe myself for this. So I decided to scrapbook instead and then maybe sleep after I’d written all this leak in me from pen to paper. But in the (time it) took for me to design the page I fell out of my emotional range. Instead I felt calm. Pacified. Silly, isn’t it? I’m supposed to edit today and tomorrow, but I’ve let today slip away.

I’ve also eaten too much again. I feel sick. Like I’m eating as much as I can before a hibernation. Does my body feel a depressive episode coming before I do? Is that it? Or is my overeating and lack of control leading me into a spiral? I shouldn’t be feeling like this. So much anxious, emotional energy. I’m wired as shit and I hate this jittery-ness.

It’s suffocating. Like a snake’s wrapped itself over me and keeps constricting, tighter, and tighter, and tighter, till there’s nothing left.”

[End of entry]

…

“November 10, 2020 — Tuesday

Pros: I watched lupinranger like 3 times in the span of 3 days.

Cons: I watched lupinranger like 3 times in the span of 3 days.”

[End Quote]

[Around 3 month time skip]

[Sunday, February 28th, 2021 — 2:04 AM]

“I’m treading water. Another month passes. Hopefully I’ll make all I can of this last day. I walked some, but I still haven’t reached my desired destination. Guess I have no choice but to keep going! Everything has a time. I can only continue trying. That’s all I can do. To quit is to have nothing for myself, not even dreams. ‘Being confident that he who began a good work in you will carry on to completion until the day of Jesus Christ.’ (-Something Phillipians.)

I dream of many things. I pray that March gives me what I need. Please be here with me, hold my hand in these times and keep me close in your thoughts. I’m trying. I’m always trying. Day by day, hour by hour, sometimes minute by minute. I can’t do this alone. (I wish I could.) My brain is so easily distracted and it’s hard to get by even doing things I joy. I wish I had something that could force me to function. All I have is myself.

One day I won’t just be writing dreams with no evidence. Every step is part of the journey (even if it doesn’t feel like it.) So thank you for walking with me. I don’t have the strength to do this alone. Please, please hold my hand through the anxieties and whisper that it’ll be alright. I’m blindfolded, and I’m walking on a tightrope, and I need you to tell me when and how to jump so that I’ll land in the net. I’m blind but I’m listening. September 30th feels a lightyear away. It’s hard to forget the lack when you’re faced with it everyday. And I’m unsure. Please tell me that it’s worth it. Please. Please help me. Please. Please lead me. Please help me.”

[End of entry.]

Part: [1], [2], [3], [4]

This is the first part of the journal entries, I'll be uploading another compilation after each newly posted PPT essay.

Bipolar PPT Essay: [1], [2], [3], [4], [5], [6]

Visuals of depressive episodes: (1), (2)

PPT Essay Extras: (1), (2), (3)

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dykewilde · 3 years

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phone was acting up but I thought the problem would solve itself and resorted to going to an apple store and the person who worked on my phone reset it so I’ve lost all my photos + my apple id isnt taking so I can’t redownload the apps I had before lmaoooo my phone has had storage issues/apps randomly shutting down since like november of last year……….. should have just played it safe and printed out my photos before my phone fucked itself up this bad

#shattering like glass as we speak ❤️#I cannot believe. I have lost a year and a half worth of photos. vacation pics and pictures of myself from 2020 and pictures of my cat #and all the landscape pics I took it’s all gone #it’s gonna hit me hard tomorrow I just know it but I’m so tired rn from meds that I just want to sleep it off #gotta redo everything for it to be useable. MAN #talking #text

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sailorhyunjinz · 3 years

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SKZ SHORT REACTION TO YOU ALWAYS CRYING , WHINING , AND RUBBING YOUR FACE INTO THEM DURING SEX 😭🥺🥺 CUTE FDDFFGG

It just always feels so good and overwhelming to have fat cock inside of your tiny pussy 🥺

Also ilysm <33 hry ?

-🐈

KITTEN! how are youuu~? i’m doing just fine, thank you for asking ^^

also... wish i could relate but do i get dick? no, none. ASHAHSHSA

OK QUICK REACTION (aka cherry word vomits) LEGO

warnings; dom!skz x gn!reader, dacryphilia, explicit sexual scenes, slight impact play, moaning, sex (well no fucking shit), orgasm,,, uh what more,,

before starting lemme just say this; as a collective THEY LOVE IT, EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM LOVES IT but sure... some more than others

Bangchan

nah mate you got him whipped

W H I P P E D

just imagine holding him close and rubbing your face against his muscles while he’s just going at it OH LORD-

he already likes being in control

and when you show that you are weak in the presence of this dominant aura it just boosts that aura tenfolds.

i dont think he’d go as far as to see you cry but like tear up yk?

but BRUH HE LOSES HIS SHIT WHEN YOU’RE CLINGY

your toes curling as you try to move away from his touch, him already beginning on your fourth orgasm that night

you try to hold on to anything which is most likely his broad shoulders (oop drooling a bit)

DUDE HAS THEM GUNS TO BE ABLE TO MANHANDLE YOU WITH EASE

which he does... a lot

but he would always ask if you felt comfortable and would remind you to use the safeword because caring dom shit

whine his name and BYE- he cums

would ask you to say it louder

“let everyone hear how good im making my baby feel”

Minho

SKSKASK all of you guys are going to say that i’m stereotyping minho

BUT IT MUST BE SAID

he likes it to a certain extent

if you belong to the more extremely squirmy people chances are he would get kinda annoyed having to hold you down LMAO

THATS NOT TO SAY THAT HE DOESNT LOVE SEEING YOU WRECKED

nononono honey... this man is corruption kink in human form

crying >>>>> moaning

WELL THATS MY GUESS

he’d be all cocky about it

“only i can make you feel like that baby?”

WAIT LISTEN TO THIS

he has a whole ass folder on his phone that’s just pictures of you being completely wrecked

he uses them to jerk off 110%

it can really be any kind of pictures but his favorite is the one where you have both cum and tears running down your face

somebody take the internet away from me

Changbin

awh binnie baby likes it v v much

it let’s him know how much you are enjoying it which is more important then getting his own pleasure

oof service top binnie?? ok stop cherry dont LMAO

weak for your whining 100%

especially if it’s all like,, high pitched and cute I CANT-

ngl it gets him even hornier

you’re feeding his horny monster by holding onto him, scratching his back and leaving all kinds of marks.

just gonna say it; he likes seeing you desperate

“binnie~ i need you inside of m-me..”

say that and HE A GONER

BECAUSE HE LIKES SEEING OTHERS WANT HIM (i know all your secrets dont even try to hide it you smug hot mf)

because of his buff arms he would have no problem pinning you down if you squirmed around too much

his sturdy arms in contrast with your quivering body OH GAWD

“you want me? beg then”

and you can’t simply ask

you need to whine it

IT DOESNT HAVE TO SOUND CUTE

just desperate ;)))

Hyunjin

the whole fucking rubbing your face and hair against him; in love

it doesnt even have to be against him

against the bed or against a pillow is enough to keep him going

your hair all disheveled when you look at him :((

“do i fuck you that good, baby?” he cooed at you, your head burried in a multitude of pillows. you nod, your hair in your face as your whole body jerks forward from his powerful thrust

we all know that this boy is vocal

so you would have to be EVEN LOUDER to get him off

which you were

god you know the dance lives??

when he’s all sweaty and is heaving for air?

head empty. only that

yeah... he would like a clingy s/o

because then he can go around and be proud of himself that he made you cry in bed LMAO

he wouldnt tell it to anyone, seeing it more as a personal achievement HASHASH

a sucker of you being squirmy

gives him more reason to use force when pinning you down

showing himself off a lil...

blushing mess if you compliment him on his muscles tho...

Jisung

you know that video where felix bites a banana with the peel still on and jisung goes all “SPIT IT OUT YOU FUCK”

yeah thats what happens when you start crying from how hard he’s going

he thinks he fucked up real bad

no dude you just hitting it too good (HASHASH bye im yeeting myself off a cliff)

crying in bed makes him scared but do you know what really gets him?

whining

A LOT OF IT

he loves how they go from small murmurs to full out long whines that are all uneven

some incoherent words mixed into them together with his name

he also loves how they sound mixed with his moans and growls

i feel like he’s very moved by sound

the mf that would record your moans no cap

i feel like he would be the one to rub his head against you??

yk missonary (wow cherry has nothing else to come with LMAO) he drops his head when he’s close to cumming, shaking his head slightly against your shoulder, his soft hair tickling you

he would be the one tearing up when he’s close

BECAUSE you feel too good wrapped around his aching dick :((

can we really blame him?

Felix

OOOOH MY GOD

OOOOOOOOOOOH MY GOD

he loves it

more than he should

all of it; the crying, the rubbing against him, the whining, the hair in your face LIkE OOF

why? because it gives him a sense of being in control

he has you under his control which IS RARE FOR HIM

OK he subs for you a lot and then he does the same thing, probably even more than you do

yk the whole rubbing his hair against your chest as he’s whining at the top of his lungs

BUT HE REDEEMS THAT WHEN HE DOMS

which is perfect because then its a give and take situation

happy sexy times

where the both of you are enjoying it waaay to much

WAIT THIS

imagine him pounding you in missionary right.... and both of you cry!?!?!

two overwhelmed babies :(((

Seungmin

Puppyboy is all for it

let me just say,,, he has a corruption kink SAHSSAHS

OK I KNOW EVERYONE IS GOING TO BE LIKE

“cherry he’s so neat and tidy, how could he possibly have a corruption kink?”

THATS WHY. BECAUSE HE LOVES SEEING YOU ALL TIDY AT DAYTIME

but god forbid nighttime because then you are nothing but a drooling and crying mess, holding onto him for dear life as he mercilessly pounds into you

i swear this dude is all about drastic changes like duality is in his DNA

and i feel like he likes people that have that same charm??!?

IMAGINE THIS RIGHT;

you’re riding him, tired and fucked out of your mind, eventually leaning down to his chest and nuzzling your face in the crook of his neck, crying from overstimulation

AND THIS MF lifts you up slightly and starts thrusting up into you

thats it.

i love him AHSHASH

Jeongin

it would take a while for him to get used to you crying in bed

first time it happened he got scared, stopped and hugged you, apologizing like a thousand times

you all like “...it was just getting good?”

he doesn’t understand shit at first???

“b-but why are you crying then? tell me the truth y/n”

“but i am?”

after you explained that it just happens to you he’d nod and continue

after a while... he starts liking it

and if you one time don’t cry he’d be confused again, this time saying;

“did you not l-like it?”

“dork, of course i did” you say ruffling his hair and he feels relieved hearing you say that

ah cutie :(((

ALSO the whining and the squirming; total sucker for that LMAO

OK IMMA SLEEP NOW holy shit my back is scoliosis central rn and im so damn nervous for my exam tomorrow AAAAAAH fuck fuck fuck

ANYHOW HOPE THIS WAS FUN READING <333

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aleksa-sims · 2 years

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My RL gameplay (18+)

!CW! Drugs, addiction

I fucked up again! I fucked up a lot! And this time, it’s gonna have really bad consequences for me. I mean about Nico & me. He’s gonna break up with me.😢 He just didn’t know what else to do, because he saw no other way out. And Philip? Of course, P. was really pissed at me! He wanted to kill me! 😬 At least that’s how it felt to me.

The two wanted to talk to me, but I just....couldn't! I have been trying so hard to stay awake and keep my eyes open so they don’t notice but...... no chance! I didn’t sleep! I noticed everything, it was just so hard for me to keep my eyes open & I was totally moving in slow motion. But I felt good and somehow I didn’t care about anything else, which is why I said a lot of ugly and stupid things. 🤦‍♀️ We sat on the couch and I heard N. and P. talking about me. They were worried and pissed off.

Philip: What should we do now? 🙁 I mean with her!... I can’t look at her! She looks totally lifeless, like she’s gone. 😨

Nico: Yea, she is definitely gone! That’s why she’s taking this shit. She can’t take us both anymore. You and your fucking yoga bitch ruined everything. 😠.... 😞

Philip: Yeah, just blame me! 😒....It’s ok, N.! I know you don’t want to leave tomorrow, but that’s the way it is! 😠 If you don’t want me to meet A., just say it. 🤷‍♂️

Nico: No! I’ll just take her to her parents tomorrow. I hope they can do better than us. I definitely can’t do it anymore! 🤦‍♂️ She just snuck out earlier and left without saying a word. She was in bed with me and then ...waited for me to fall asleep. I didn’t want to sleep, but she said we had enough time before she had to go to her appointment. 😒

Me: Please just stop talking! I want to answer, but....I’m so tired. 😵

Philip: Tired? 🤨 Who are you kidding, A.? 😠 We know what you did, you better tell us what was going on, or....that’s it! 🤷‍♂️ Honestly! I've had enough! You promised me you’d stop driving me crazy! And what are you doing? You’re meeting your fucking ex again! 😠 You’re lucky N. picked you up and not me!

Nico: Now that you’re so fucking stoned, you could tell us the truth. What do you even want? 😩 P. & I did what you wanted! There are no more rules! No today is my day with you and tomorrow his! You can go to him or me, whenever you want, or you can have both of us, so what’s your fucking problem? Tell me what I need to do, to make sure you’re okay! Would you rather just be with Philip or just with me? 🤷‍♂️ 😟

Me: I can’t decide between the two of you! I just can’t! 😩 I love you both. And you Nico! You hurt me so much again. 😞

Nico: When and why? 😦 What have I done now? I have done everything for you!

Me: Melanie sent me pics of you and her friend when you were visiting your mom the day before yesterday. I saw her hit on you, and you just let her. 😧 😟

Philip: Whenever a sentence starts with “Melanie...”,shit’s gonna come out. A crock of shit! 🤨

Nico: I did absolutely NOTHING! 😦 🤷‍♂️ I talked to her normally! She is just the sister of Melanie’s fiancé. YOU met with your fucking ex today! 😠

Philip: I shouldn’t have returned your phone yesterday! Show me the shit Mel sent you. , A.! But N. is right! I want to know first why you met your ex today? Again! And what kind of fucking drugs did you take? 😠

Me: I can’t sit between you two! I’m suffocating here. 😩

Nico: No, where are you going? 🤨 You sit down rn! And where are your drugs that you took today?

Philip: Be honest, A.! There was nothing in your bag! So where did you hide it? You can’t fool me, I know you’re on this shit. Your behavior and the way you talk, clearly shows it! And there’s no point in you obsessively trying to sit upright! Even if you’re sober, you never sit like this! 🤨

Me: But I’m sober! 😵 🤪 I’m just a bit tired, that’s all. 🤥

Philip: You’re making me really crazy, A.! 😠 Tell the truth! We’re not arguing with you. You’re going to your parents tomorrow anyway. So who gave you this shit?

Me: Hm 😏.... Well, who do you think gave it to me? 🤷‍♀️ You’re so smart, P.! You know the answer!

Nico: That fucking SOB! 😠 Who else! You didn’t have any money with you, so how did you do it? 🤨

Me: I paid with my card. 🤭

Philip: Finally talk or I’ll tell your dad tomorrow what you did.

Me: I couldn't care less! 🤷‍♀️ But ok, if you really want to know! I promised him a date. And after 20 minutes, he came back, and we went to the bathroom together and... did some pretty naughty things. 😈 I mean, I did! 😬............Oh, N.! 😏 I like the way you’re standing in front of me. I think you want me to show you what I did to him. Ha? 🤨 😏

Nico: Then why are you turning your head away? 🤨 You know, you have to look me in the eye. I want to see your pretty face.

Me: 😄 😄....Oh, N....you have no idea what’s going on in my head.

Nico: Did you really do this? 😟

Philip: Seriously, A.! That’s not funny! Did you? 🤨

Me: You tow, HIT A LEVEL OF WEIRD THAT EVEN I MARVEL AT. Do you really think I would do something like that? 😦 🤷‍♀️ And he didn’t want to date me anyway, and he didn’t want to give me drugs either! I just.... kind of pressured him. And that’s all I want to say about this!

Nico: You know, I don’t trust you anymore! 😞 You set me up again to meet all those hopheads.🙁 I’m so tired of this shit! And you know what, babe? Yeah, I was having fun talking to Melanie’s fiancée’s sister, without thinking about all the shit you did to me. 😠

Me: Oh? 😧 Okay....I got it, N.! 😢 Then go and meet her! I never want to see you again. 😞

Nico: Idk, if I’ll come back when I fly away tomorrow. Then you’ll never see me again 😠 🙁............Yeah, sure! Just run away! 🤦‍♂️🤷‍♂️

Philip (to N.) : What was that? Are you crazy? 😠

Nico: Come on! You wanted to break up with her the other day.

Philip: Fuck you, man! 😠

I just walked away and could hear Nico & Philip arguing from the hallway. They’ve been blaming each other for this whole mess. Philip gave in and went home. I went up to the bathroom. But suddenly Nico stood in front of me and pushed me against the wall. He wouldn’t let me go to the bathroom, and he told me, he wanted to break up with me, if I didn’t come with him tomorrow.😨 The rest is under the cut.

Me: What do you want? 🤷‍♀️ I want to go to the bathroom.

Nico: No! You take off your clothes first. I want to see if you’ve been hiding drugs. 😠

Me: Just leave me alone and go to your new girlfriend. 😠

Nico: I wish I could just leave! Believe me, I would like to, but I just can’t!🤦‍♂️ I’ve been wondering over the last few days if I could love someone else the way I love you. And every time I imagined it, I just felt pain. I just don’t get it? I wish I could just forget about you. I mean, I know you love me, but somehow, I just hurt you and you hurt me.

Me: And that’s exactly what’s killing me. N.! I don’t want to forget you even if you hurt me. This is just sick! 😞 😢

Nico: You know you’re gonna lose me if you keep doing this, but you’re still doing it, and you don’t seem to give a shit. So all this doesn’t make sense to me, what you’re saying. You say this, but do something completely different. Having a relationship with you is really not easy! But I knew that from the beginning. Just... slowly I get tired! And when I’m tired, I can’t function properly and that’s why, I can’t go on like this.

Me: It’s not easy with you either! 😠 And your crazy sister! 😠 I’m sick of being humiliated and fucked up by her! I put up with everything because of you. And I even let you put me down, but I’m getting tired of it too! And also this thing with Philip... I did it just for you! I didn’t need this! I was happy with you alone. But you N.! You always wanted more and more! You got everything from me! So don’t complain! 😠 😢 You understand? I would have done anything for you! If this had never happened to Philip & me, I would have gone with you to Italy. Maybe not from the beginning 4 weeks ago, but I would have gone, for sure, with you tomorrow. 😞

Nico: Then come with me! If you want us to stay together and have a future together, then please just come with me tomorrow! 😟 We’d be so happy, I just know! You’d be away from all this shit here! Instead you’d be with me! Safe! And I’ll give you anything you want. And Philip will understand this! He knows we can’t go on like this. Not because of me or him, but because of you! You made it clear to both of us, that you no longer want this. Do the right thing for you! Come with me! 😟

Me: And what if not? 😰

Nico: Then we say goodbye tomorrow and I won’t come back. 😔

Me: Pls don’t! Don’t do this to me! 😢

Nico: If you stay here, you will destroy yourself anyway, with me or without me. 🙁 And that’s why I won’t come back!

Me: Are you really serious, N.? 😦 😟 ..... I’m tired N.! 😵 Let’s just go to bed and forget about everything.

Nico: Ok, let’s go to bed but I’ll ask you one last time tomorrow! When you’re sober again.

This friend of Melanie or sister of her fiancé. She’ll be his girlfriend when he and I see each other again in the future. I have just felt that there will be more between him & her. 😞 And he’s even gonna take me to his place and his girlfriend’s place. N. & I will have an affair, it will be so painful. Maybe thats why, I went to P. afterwards? 😢

The next part will be very sad, just as a warning. This will be the farewell of N. & I and..... I’ll be stoned again. 🤦‍♀️ 😩

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HELLO BABY, CAN I GET A BAKUGOU HEADCANON ABOUT HOW HIS CRUSH IS STUBBORN AND HAS SEIZURES WHEN SHE OVER USES HER QUIRK AND BAKUGOU KINDA JUST ALWAYS HANGS OUT IN RECOVERY GIRLS OFFICE WHEN SHE SEIZES DURING TRAINING? THANKS BABY

HEY LOVE OKAY I GOTCHU (don’t make fun of my dialogue i’m dumb :/)

warnings: seizing??? fluff, swearing bc its bakugou

okay so he’s stubborn as fuck and HE HATES HOW YOU REMIND HIM OF HIMSELF

shoto reminds him to make him angry :)

so basically he’s head over fucking heels for you but he’d never tell anybody that

so when you two have to spar he’s ready to kick your ass. he needs you to know he’s the best in the class.

but he doesn’t know about your quirk, you have telekinesis which makes you able to move shit with your mind

and if you’re also good at combat- he’s screwed

during sparring, he doesn’t go easy on you because you’re not giving up

but he does notice the way you stutter your words, he also notices you trying hard not to faint?

he thought you were gonna faint so he stopped and walked over to you

“hey idiot! are you okay? you look like you’re about to pass out”

“yeah, s-something like that,” you said

and that’s when it happened, in front of all your classmates

what would bakugou do? he’s never even seen someone who’s quirk drawback was seizing, luckily kirishima noticed and called aizawa over.

he knew about it because of your file but he was good about making sure you wouldn’t push yourself like this

“bakugou, take her to recovery girl.”

“tch, she’s fuckin’ shaking how the hell am i supposed to?”

kirishima noticed his friend struggle and helped him get you to recovery girl

you’ve been in her often as much as mydoria at this point

“ah, she push herself too far again? silly girl.”

kirishima gave bakugou a pat on the head before returning to the training gym

“does this happen often? like has she been her because of this before?”

recovery girl almost falls on the floor laughing

“kid, she’s in here as much as izuku!”

bakugou sat beside your bed, “she’s gonna be okay though?” he almost sounded worried

“yes dear, she’s just gonna be tired but i’m gonna make her good as new!” she gave your forehead a kiss

you woke up minutes later

now you woke up and you saw bakugou- the loud ass blonde from your class...holding your hand

“what’re you doing here katsuki?” you askied sitting up, letting go of his hand.

“you uhm you starting seizing during our spar so me and kirishima brought you here, he went back though.”

“i know what happened, it happens when i use my quirk to long or something like that, whyd you stay back”

“why did i stay back?” he mocked, “i thought you were gonna fucking die, idiot!”

you almost laughed at his concern

“i mean i could die but i haven’t yet!”

he wanted to slap the shit out of you

“don’t say shit like that, you have to take it easy during training, got it?”

“hell no. i gotta beat you, todoroki, and deku i’m not going easy at all.”

you reminded him of himself and he really wanted to hit you

but he also wanted to kiss you BYE-

“you’re a stubborn girl aren’t you?”

“and you’re a stubborn boy, your point, blondie?”

he was NOT about to confess to you rn

oh but he was

“can you manage a date with me tomorrow after school? or will you be here because you’re fucking dumb?”

“i guess i can take it easy tomorrow so we can go on that date.”

he scoffed, “i’m going back to train, don’t die idiot.”

🙄hes so annoying but we all love him

hope you liked it! i’m always open to criticism!

#bakugou x y/n #bakugou request #katsuki bakugo imagine #anijah answers #anijah gets mail #ask answered #bakugou katsuki

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shotokimchi · 3 years

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Hii! I feel like shit rn bc my boyfriend just broke up with me. I was wondering if you could write a bakugo x fem reader where class 1A is having a sleepover and the reader randomly gets a phone call. when she answers it it’s her boyfriend and he breaks up with her. so the whole night is basically just trying to cheer her up after that. and bakugo tells her that her ex was a dick and that she could do better/deserves better. just some baku fluff (Maybe her and baku start to date?) I totally understand if you can’t write this 🖤

Ofc, I’ll write a fic for you baby! I hope this makes you feel better and don't forget that there will always be people who will support you and love you no matter what! Just know that you deserve better <33333

Pairing: Bakugou x Reader

Warnings: none

Y/b/n: your bf’s name (but you can say jerk if you want to)

As every Friday night, class 1-A was having a slumber party in the common room. Everyone was gathered to eat junk food, tell stupid horror stories and have a pillow fight, even Bakugou was hyped for the pillow fight. Bakugou, who managed to turn an innocent pillow fight into a real battle every time because of his contestant and ambitious character, was planning to do the same today. Everyone was sitting in the common room, it was crowded bc of some snacks, blankets, pillows and other unnecessary stuff. Momo was trying to braid your hair, but you were so excited, you wanted to have a pillow fight and team up with Bakugou, he was very fast and had a strategy that’ll both lead you to victory. “Enough of this boring stuff!” Bakugou roared and pointed towards his pillow, “Let’s fight!” his sadistic smirk was sending shivers down your spine but it was somehow funny. Just when you were about to join him, your phone rang and everyone looked at you. “Sorry guys!” You muted your phone and turned towards Momo and whispered. “It’s y/b/n.” Momo gave a curious look towards your phone and whispered back “It can be an important thing, you should call back.” You nodded and when you were about to call y/b/n, your phone started to buzz in your hand. It was him, you had a weird feeling in your stomach but you ignored it “I’ll be right back, don't you guys dare have a pillow fight without me!” Mina gave a thumbs up and Kaminari whined “It’s your boyfriend isnt it? Arrgh why am i so single?!” Jirou snorted and replied “Because you are stupid.” Sero snickered and Kaminari pouted.

You went out of the dorm and sat on the stairs. It was a little cold and it caused you to tremble. You took a deep breath and answered the call. “Hey babe, what’s up?” When you heard a sigh coming from the other side of the line, you knew something was wrong. “Y/n, I can't do this anymore.” Your breath hitched in your throat and you tried to reply with a shaky voice. “W-what do you mean?” He was trying to be patient with you but you weren't having any of that. “Tell me!” He sighed again and started to talk with a stern voice “I don't want a relationship anymore, it feels like I don't have any freedom.” His reason for the break up made you even angrier, you weren't a controlling or possesive person, your relationship with your boyfriend was a healthy and happy one. “Are you cheating on me y/b/n? I never did stuff to restrict your freedom, im not a super jelaous or possessive person either! So you should give me a better reason than this!” When you didn't get any response, tears started to gather in your eyes. “No Y/n, I'm not cheating on you. I just don't want to date someone, it doesn't make me feel happy.” You started to shout “So you are throwing me away because you got bored! This is your reason?!” When he was about to reply, you hung up on his face and sat there with tears in your eyes. You wanted to sob loudly but didn't want to alarm or worry your classmates, just when you were about to get up, the door of the dorm opened.

Bakugou wasn’t a patient person so when you left to answer the call from your bf, he got pissed. “Why are we waiting hah?” Kirishima sighed and patted his shoulder “What if it's an important call?” Bakugou growled and got up from the floor “I can't wait for someone’s lovey-dovey shit!” Then started to walk towards the exit, he opened the door and saw you sitting with your head between your hands. “Oi L/n! You are making us wait-” just when he was about to burst, he heard Y/n’s silent sobs and realized that she was shaking. Bakugou could look like a mean person but he actually cared about his friends, so he started to walk towards her and waited. “O-oh Bakugou! I’m sorry, I’ll be there in a minute.” When she didn't turn to face him, Bakugou tched and sat next to her. “Why r u cryin?” He mumbled and she looked at him with a confused expression “Huh?” He was embarrassed bc he wasn't the perfect person for comforting, so he started to look somewhere else and shouted “I said why are you crying, dumbass!” Then she sniffled and started to play with her fingers “My boyfriend just broke up with me, he told me that he wasn't happy but... I gave my all, just for him.” When Y/n started to cry again, Bakugou felt mad, how can someone dump her when she gave everything she could? He remembered the times that she was going out on dates with her bf, that guy looked happy, so why he was being such an ass? Bakugou took a deep breath “Because he is a good damn extra and a jerk.” Y/n stopped sniffling and looked at him, she was listening to him so he continued. “I thought you were stronger than this, is this really gonna make you cry?” Normally someone would get angry or offended at his words but he was trying to comfort her and Y/n understood Bakugou’s intention, so she smiled. “No, I'm not weak. You are right Bakuogu, thank you.” Then she got up and gave him a small smile “Wanna team up with me for the pillow fight?” Normally his competitive personality wouldn't let him but since she was having a hard time Bakugou smirked “You better give your all!” She nodded and ran inside.

Your back was pressed against Bakugou’s, both of you were taking this pillow fight seriously so the others did the same. “Aaaaah!” You let out a battle cry and hit Mina with all your might, she backed away with wide eyes “Geez Y/n, I'm not a villain!” Bakugou let out a sadistic laugh “You scared raccoon eyes?” Then Kirishima charged at him and they started to wrestle on the ground, after taking care of Mina, you realised that Kirishima managed to knock the pillow out of Bakugou’s hand and he was blocking Kirishima’s hits with his arms, you quickly grabbed the pillow and shouted “Bakugou, catch!” You threw the pillow towards him and he gave Kirishima a sadistic smirk. Kirishima’s eyes widened “Uh-oh.” Now Bakugou was in advantage and you started to laugh but felt someone’s presence behind you “Todoroki!” You immediately dodged his pillow and swung yours at his face “You need to do better than that L/n.” Then you started to run around with Todoroki while laughing like a little toddler. Bakugou’s eyes fell on you and he sighed, “You are relieved that she’s happy now, huh?” Kirishima’s words made him scowl and he started to hit his friend “What do you mean shitty hair?!” Kirishima pushed Bakugou and managed to escape while shouting teasing words like ‘aww you actually care’ or ‘you are a great friend bro!’ oooor ‘softie’

After the pillow fight, most of your friends gave up bc of Bakugo and you. Then everyone started to get into their sleeping bags or layed on their mattresses, your eyes fell on Bakugou, he was getting ready to sleep. He usually slept early so you knew he was tired but decided to give a shot. You slowly approached him “Hey Bakugou, do you have a minute?” His eyes found your form and he had a stoic expression on his face, he wasn't scowling or growling. He nodded and got up but his eyes met with Kaminari and Sero’s they were grinning like stupid hyenas. He gave them a horrifying look and that shut them up. Then the both of you walked towards the kitchen, and you gave him a thankful smile. “Thank you so much for tonight Bakugou. If you wouldn't have come outside, I don't know if I could managed to handle my emotions.” He huffed and tried to look anywhere but you, he never got a sincere ‘thanks’ the only people who knew about his soft side was Kirishima, Kaminari and Sero. You couldn't control your happiness and gave him a quick hug, that caught him off guard and he tensed “S-sorry!” Actually, the real reason I wanted to talk with you is that... Uh, I know you like spicy food so wanna go grab some spicy fried chicken tomorrow?” He wasn't experienced when it came to doing stuff with people other than his squad so he felt nervous but he wasn't going to hide like a little boy so he nodded “Sure, whatever...” He answered like he didn't care but actually he was panicking.

After your conversation with Bakugou, the two of you left the dorms to have some spicy food and after that you started to chat about regular stuff like training, his hobbies and you told him that you love the arcade and even he had a calm expression on his face, you noticed the glint in his eyes when he heard the word ‘Arcade’. He huffed and mumbled “Guess we need to go to the arcade, what a pain...” But you grinned and decided to tease him, bc you knew that he wanted to go too. “You aren't gonna back away right? Bc I'm so good at those games!” His eyes widened “HAAAAH?! Are you underestimating me?!” You started to laugh and tugged at his coat “Ofc not! Come on, let's go!” He tched but didn't yank his arm, he let you tug on it and his expression softened.

And that's how you started to date Katsuki Bakugou, you guys were regularly going to the arcade to let out some stress, having spicy food competitions and going out for morning runs together. He always looked so calm and unaffected but, the butterflies in his stomach told him otherwise. You were funny, thoughtful, calming to be with, beautiful (but he calls you ugly, what a tsundere). You balanced him and he was relieved to have you in his life... Like every morning, you were jumping trying to stretch your muscles while waiting for him to come and join you for the regular morning run. When the door of the dorm opened, your eyes sparkled with happiness. “Good morning Katsu!” The nickname still made him blush, but he successfully managed to hide the pink dust on his cheeks and huffed. “Morning, dumbass.” You chuckled and pecked his cheek, his cheeks got warmer and he covered his face “What are you doing dumbass, it was weird! What if someone sees us?!” You chuckled and poked his cheeks “Its called affection, Katsu!” He grabbed both of your wrists and looked into your eyes, you were giving him the most beautiful smile. He tched and turned his cheek towards you, you gave him a confused look and he growled “What are you waiting for dumbass? Do it again..” He mumbled and you giggled, after showering him with a lot of kisses he was running like a god damn horse. His blood was pumping, he felt like his heart was about to get out of his chest but it wasn't because of running, it was the kisses... Then you managed to keep up with him and quickly pecked his cheek “Catch me if you can Katsu!” You speeded up and giggled, now his face was as red as Kirishima’s hair. “Come here!” He shouted and you laughed, your break up with your ex wasn’t a bad thing after all... You found someone who cared for you and loved you, even if he was bad at showing it, Bakugou Katsuki was the best boyfriend ever...

A/n: I hope you liked it baby! When I saw ur ask I immediately sat down and started to write it so I’m really sorry if its a mess <3

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johnshelbysbabygirll · 4 years

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Our secret - JOHN SHELBY X READER

Request: Heyyy! Can you write a John x reader where she is the best friend of Ada and she and John have a secret relationship and Ada finds out and is mad about it but in the end everything is alright. Please, thank you for your time❤️

Words: 2088

hello lovies!!

this is my first request ever and i really hope that the one who wanted this would like it and i want a honest opinion on it!! in fact, i hope you all like it and sorry for any mistakes, i’m very tired rn.

love you soo much xx

You met Ada Shelby a long time ago and you liked her right from that night you spend together at the library and then at the Garrison. But what was surprising for her family was that she quickly liked you too.

She don't usually accept females presence around her, but you were different. You were innocent, positive and always with a beautiful smile on your face. But Ada wasn't the only one that saw how amazing you are. Her family saw it too and Ada was very possessive over you.

Even when she told you stories about you how cruel her brothers are, you couldn't help but wanted to talk with them, to know more about and from them cause you are sure that they have something good in their hearts. And you talked the most with John. You met his children and you immediately started to love them, so that's what made you and John to talk more and start...something. Something that you kept away from Ada long before your first kiss with him. You felt horrible when you wanted to tell her everything, about the kiss, about what you feel, but you just couldn't.

You started to fell hard for her brother and when he asked you to be his girlfriend, you couldn't say no. You were happy with him, you spent a lot of time together, but you kept hiding everything from Ada.

One night, you clearly remember how you wanted to tell her everything. You were at the bar with her and John was with his brothers in the back room of the pub, his eyes on you, wishing you would let him to just tell her already. He wanted...He craved so bad to claim you as his in front of everyone.

But you didn't tell her. She was down after just finding out that she is pregnant and after a few more days things became worst between her and Freddy and her family. She didn't even wanted to hear their names, so you kept your mouth closed a few more.

A few more until in the present when it's been a year and Ada still doesn't know.

You and John have a beautiful relationship now and his family knows about it, everyone except Ada. A week ago when John asked you to marry him and you accepted it, you swore that you will tell her no matter what but then Freddie died and Ada is grieving now.

So to try to make her feel a little better, you two are at the Garrison now. John is in the back room with the door wide open and is now looking at you, smirking to show you that he is supporting you. You smile back at him, not really believing that what you are living it's for real. He's so gentle and soft with you, caring and always try to show you that he cares. Yes, there are days when you don't see each other because of his family business that you don't know much about, but he's trying to be there for you and that's is what really matters.

"How's Karl?" You ask, thinking about that little monkey.

"He's with the nanny now. He don't really know much, he's too little..."

Her eyes are sad and you reach to her hand to grab it in yours.

"I'm there for you, love. Always."

"I know, [Y/N]. But is there a reason you wanted us to come 'ere?" She ask while raising an eyebrow and you slowly nod.

"In fact yes, but-..." Your tone it's low anyway, but you try to find the courage to just tell her already. Her interrupting you didn't helped.

"It can wait. Now, Harry! We want some whiskey!"

You smile a little to her, but when you catch John's eyes you just sigh, but then the door closed showing that they discuss business now. After two glasses of whiskey and some talking, Ada stand up from the chair and look at you with a dizzy little smile.

"Gonna be back." And she left to the bathroom, you alone in a pub full of men.

You wish the door to the back room was still open so you could feel safe, knowing John is watching you, but now you are really uncomfortable, knowing that you are being served only because of Ada. No one beside his brothers and Polly, knows that you are his fiancee and you start to hate this so fuckin much. You want it to be over.

"Wha' are ya doing alone here, love?" A raspy voice speaks to you and you turn your head to see a man with a long beard and a hat, looking at you with a dirty grin. You never saw him before and you grab the glass of whisky, holding it in your hand just in case.

"Wantin' for my friend. You can leave."

"Why would I do leave a beautiful girl like you? What's your name?" He sit on Ada's chair and you turn your head to the bathroom, hoping to see her, but she's not coming and you curse into your head when this creepy man touch your arm, holding you by it.

"Tell me love. What's your name?"

"[Y/N]." You don't know why you told him that, but you just did and his grin grow wider.

"So [Y/N]. What do you say about piss off to somewhere more private, hm?" You quickly stand up, not wanting to just accept this anymore.

"I'm sorry, but I'm married." Your hand is still in his and his strain become tight, hurting your wrist.

"Married my ass. Where's him now?

He pull you to his chest, his nose inhaling your skin perfume as you try your hardest to push him off you. You think you may have a chance against him, but he stand up and try to grab you into his arms as he is whispering disgusting things in your ear.

"Come on love. I'll show you how a good man do things...Like that." You scream when his hand was under your dress, but no one cares about you. No one knows who you are.

"Just let me go to my friend...Please, let me go."

"No way in hell I-..."

You don't let him finish; you grab the glass of whiskey and you smash it in his head right after his fingers touched your thigh. He was caught off guards and let go of you, but don't last it too much because before you can even run away, he grab you again and slap your cheek. You bite your lips, tears all over your face as he pushed you into the bar, breaking a few glasses, pieces from them hurting your back.

"You stupid whore! You gonna pay for this."

"What the fuck is happenin' 'ere?" Tommy voice interrupted him from slapping your cheek again and John eyes are wide as he understand what happened.

"Who the fuck do you think you are?" His scream made everyone shut up and listen and when he approached you two, you almost jump into his arms, still crying. He push you behind him and you watch over his shoulder how his fist hit the man's nose, mouth and jawline a few times, him begging for forgiveness and mercy.

Arthur grab your shoulder to show you that you are safe now, but they let their brother do his thing, knowing that he's deserving it and John's is beyond furious now so no one can really stop him. You close your eyes when he take his cap off, knowing what's coming next; the man's screams are all over the pub now as John cut him and you can't watch.

"Are you 'right? He touched you?" John speaks to you, his eyes full of concern, grabbing you into his arms and kissing your forehead for the first time in front of everyone and then he loudly speaks again.

"Listen 'ere you bunch of fuckers! This girl" He pointed to you and kiss your cheek "This fuckin girl is gonna be my fuckin wife and if you don't respect the shit outta her, you are gonna end up worse than this worm."

You are left speechless into his arms, not really believing that he did this. But then you saw Ada, her face falling to the floor while looking at you.

"Come again. She's what?"

"Ada, it's not-"

Of course, everyone is now looking at you two.

"So it's true? You marry him and you didn't tell me a single thing?" She is almost screaming and when you try to grab her arm, she lost her balance and almost fell, but Tommy grab her just in time and push you all into the back room while screaming at the others.

"The show it's over. Back to your fuckin' business!"

Ada is laughing now, muttering that she can't believe this and she puffed at the sight of you in John's arms.

"Why are you so against us? I love her. It's been a year, Ada-"

"A fuckin year!" She sadly laughs again.

"I want to marry her because I love her. Why are you so against this?"

John's voice is sad and it's breaking your heart to see him like this, so you stand into his arms, not saying anything because Ada start to scream again with fire burning in her eyes like a true Shelby she is.

"You think you are strong enough to fuckin be in this dysfunctional family? Cause you are not! They going to ruin you, your innocence, your happiness...They going to ruin everything you have until they are everything you have. Until you can't do shit without them by your fuckin side."

"So what? I have no one beside you anyway!" You snap back at her. "My parents are dead!"

"And you are going to be dead too very soon. Just like Martha. Just like Freddie. Just like fuckin everyone who tries to love one of us. We destroy everything we touch."

And she leave the pub like a tornado. Everyone is mute behind her, you sobbing uncontrollably in John's arms, he trying to calm you down.

It's been a month and Ada is still not talking to you nor her family. You hoped that she will come around since you moved with John and tomorrow it's your wedding day, but she didn't tell anyone a single word. Not even to Polly, after she finds out that everyone knew.

You wanted her so bad to be there for you in this special day, but you stop trying to win her back if she doesn't want it. You can't force yourself into her life and you keep telling yourself this to understand it. You and John won't sleep together tonight because Polly want to do all the gipsy traditions and you agreed, but when John walk into the room where you are gonna sleep he wasn't alone, but with Ada.

"What?" You ask confused, but with a growing smile on your lips.

"Tell her." Ada speak to her brother and he grab your wrist, pulling you closer to him and kissing your temple before talking.

"Ada came to me and apologized for everything. And..I think she has something to tell you too. I just came 'ere to tell you good night and that I can't wait to see you tomorrow."

You smile at John, pulling him into your lips, crashing your lips together in a sweet innocent kiss.

"I love you. So much." You mutter and John let his face into your hair, before kissing it.

"And I love you, princess." He look at his sister and then back at you. "I'll let you two alone and go drinking with the lads. See ya tomorrow."

"I'll be the one in white!"

You both chuckle, but when he close the door behind him you remain silent, not knowing what to do, but somehow just knowing that both of you regret it.

"You know, I'm sorry for every mean thing I said to you. I mean it, this family destroy everything and everyone, but you and John...You deserve him and you love each other, so who am I to ruin your happiness? And...To ruin my best friend and brother's wedding day."

You smile and you can't say anything right now, you just hug her with happy tears in your eyes. You were sad because of your friendship, but now you have no reason at all to not be happy.

"And I'm sorry for hidin' it from you. I wanted to tell you so many times, but-...

"Doesn't matter now. But" She is dead serious now. "I want to know how he proposed and if he wasn't on his fuckin knee, I will shoot him."

You both start laughing so hard until you hear Finn hitting the wall with his fists to shoot you down.

#john shelby #john shelby imagines #john x reader #reader x john #ada shelby #ada x john #brothers #peaky blinders #shelby family #peaky blinders imagines #tommy shelby #arthurshelby

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mingjue · 4 years

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another sangcheng cuddling bit :) set in early nights, but this wont be in their version of it i think

(requested by @adhdgays )

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Arguing with his older brother was probably the most mentally draining thing Huaisang could go through. Both of them were stubborn. Both of them hated admitting they were wrong-- especially Mingjue, even if they knew they were wrong. Once they got a story or point they believed, they stuck with it even when proven wrong. It was annoying and tedious, but the one thing he could be thankful for was Mingjue refraining from yelling at him.

He’s gotten close though, if slamming the front door so hard it broke the metal frame said anything.

Nie Huaisang always took the bullet train straight to Lotus Pier right after these fights. Sometimes he would text Jiang Cheng to let him know he was coming-- sometimes he didn’t. He wanted to talk this time, because sitting in a train for two-ish hours being left to his thoughts wasn’t the best.

Jiang Cheng had been asleep when he texted him, so his reply came late. He didn’t mind. He actually felt a little bad waking him up so late. At the moment it was pretty much 1 am, anyways. But Jiang Cheng started texting him back, starting a small conversation.

NHS: i’m gonna be there in about 15 mins i think JC: o i should. come pickbu up then NHS: nonono i can walk bby NHS: u’re too sleepy :/ JC: nah JC: it windyas hel right now i don t wan u getting sick. NHS: u literally can’t type rn i’m walking. it’s a ten minute walk anywyas shut up JC: :(

Huaisang bit back a smile at that.

JC: if yu get sick in going to thro ubback to qinghe i caNNOT get sick NHS: i’m gonig to get you sick >:) JC: no. ffs

The smile finally broke through, and he covered his face with his hand instinctively.

Nie Huaisang entered the home as quietly as he could, locking the front door once again behind him. After . . . Zixuan’s death, Jiang Yanli and her son was living with Jiang Cheng. He didn’t want to disturb them.

He took off his jacket and put it on one of the jacket hooks, kicking off his shoes at the step, but kept the bag he’d been holding-- he packed a bag intending to stay tonight, and tomorrow night.

Not particularly being fond of how dark it was, he didn’t linger there for long. He made his way to the hallway of bedrooms and went straight to Jiang Cheng’s. Even if he didn’t need to, he knocked before opening it.

“Why should I not attempt to beat Mingjues ass right now,” He was greeted by a slurring voice coming from Jiang Cheng, who shut off his phone and tossed it to his nightstand.

“Because he’s probably twice your weight,” Huaisang hummed-- and suddenly tears pricked his eyes. He shut the bedroom door behind him, letting his bag fall to the floor before he walked over to the bed. He fell onto it beside Jiang Cheng, pulling the half asleep man into his arms to nuzzle the back of his neck, “It’s kinda my fault the argument happened anyways.”

Jiang Cheng hummed and settled against him, hands gently gripping his.

“What happened?”

“I . . .” His voice finally wavered, the guilt he felt when he first boarded the train hitting him immediately, “You know how he’s been having these like . . . breakdowns more frequently?”

“Yeah.”

“We were already arguing about that, right,” He hugged Jiang Cheng tighter, “And he was getting pissy about me wanting to talk about it in the first place, because Lan Huan’s been bothering him about it, but it all escalated--” He furrowed his brows and blinked at an attempt to hold back tears, “God-- basically I told him he’s acting like dad--” Jiang Cheng muttered a quiet, ‘oh damn’, “--and I was getting tired of dealing with him.”

Nie Huaisang flinched with a guilt-ridden sob and buried his face into Jiang Cheng’s neck. At that, he turned in Huaisangs arms to hold him in a tight hug, so his head was now at Jiang Cheng’s chest.

“. . . That,” Jiang Cheng paused, “You’re right to be annoyed with him, baby.”

“I shouldn’t have said that,” Huaisang cried, “Our dad was a piece of shit.”

“I know.”

“A-Cheng I made him cry.”

“Oh.”

They both stayed quiet for a moment. Huaisang nuzzled into Jiang Cheng’s chest while he slowly rubbed his back.

“Is he still at the house?” Jiang Cheng asked a few minutes later, gently kissing Huaisang on the top of his head.

“He left before I did.”

“And he isn’t on good terms with Lan Huan right now.”

“I don’t know.”

“Hm.”

Both of the men flinched when there was a soft knock at the door.

“Yeah?” Jiang Cheng grunted, then the door silently opened.

“Are you alr-- oh!” It was Jiang Yanli. Nie Huaisang turned to look at her but immediately turned away again-- he was still crying, “I didn’t realize A-Sang was here, sorry.”

“No you’re fine, did we wake you?”

“A-Ling woke me first, but you’re fine,” She paused, “There’s leftover soup I can heat up for you two, if you need.”

“Shijie, it’s almost two AM.”

“I don’t mind.”

Huaisang sniffled and brought a hand to his face to rub at his eye, “Thank you, I don’t know if I can eat right now though.” Jiang Cheng hummed in agreement.

“Alright,” She stepped out of the doorway, “Be sure to get sleep, okay? Goodnight.”

Nie Huaisang and Jiang Cheng said goodnight in unison as she shut the door.

“. . . Your sister is so nice, A-Cheng,” Huaisang mumbled, “Mingjue would smother me in a hug before telling me to get over it, then never talk about it again.” Jiang Cheng scoffed in a laugh.

“At least he’d hug you.”

“Yeah,” He frowned, “. . . I hope he’s okay.”

“I’m sure he is,” Jiang Cheng backed away to look at him, “I don’t think anything could really fuck him up this late.” Huaisang hummed.

They were quiet for a little longer. Eventually, Nie Huaisang prodded him to turn back around so he could hug him from behind again, poking at his chest and belly to tease him as he did.

Before he could really get settled though, he huffed upon realizing he left his phone in his jacket pocket.

“I need to go get my phone,” He said, “In case Mingjue texts me or something.”

“He can text my phone.”

“He’s not going to, you know that,” Again he sniffled before placing a kiss on Jiang Cheng’s neck, just below his jaw, “I’ll be right back.”

He went to grab his phone as quickly as he could so he could rush back to Jiang Cheng’s room. As he did, he unlocked his phone, and sure enough there were texts left by Mingjue, and surprisingly Lan Huan.

NMJ: where are yuo. NMJ: Sangsang. NMJ: are you at Wanyin’s. NMJ: if you are asleep text me when you wake up ok. NMJ: or call me. NMJ: im sorry.

LXC: Do you know where your brother is? I can’t get a hold of him. Sorry for texting you so late :( LXC: Never mind, he showed up at the hotel. I hope you’re doing okay! :(

Huaisang frowned. Mingjues were sent just a few minutes ago, but Lan Huans were sent almost 20 minutes ago. Entering Jiang Cheng’s bedroom once again, he went to text Mingjue.

NHS: i’m at jcs da-ge

“He texted you?”

“Yeah, him and Lan Huan.”

NMJ: good. NMJ: im with A-Huan right now. NMJ: lunch when you get back. ok NMJ: ? NHS: ok NMJ: ok. goodnight Sangsang. NHS: goodnight

Huaisang sat down on the bed, “I think he’s going to act like nothing happened.”

“Don’t let him,” Jiang Cheng grunted, “Obviously you two have shit to talk about.”

“Yeah,” He sighed deeply and turned off his phone, setting it next to Jiang Cheng’s, “He wants to go for lunch. I’ll talk with him about it then,” As he spoke he turned around and laid next to him, once again pulling him into his arms. He nuzzled him before pressing a few more kisses along his neck-- which made Jiang Cheng raise his shoulders at being tickled, “Can I stay tomorrow night?”

“You can stay as long as you want,” Jiang Cheng grabbed his hand, “It’s stupid coming from me of all people but don’t try and avoid talking to Mingjue.”

“You’ve always been a bit of a hypocrite A-Cheng.”

“Oh fuck off,” He chuckled. Huaisang leaned over and kissed him on the corner of his lips with a small smile.

#thats maybe an awkward ending?? but its HERE #Sangcheng #Nie Huaisang #Jiang Cheng #My Writing #EARLY NIGHTS AU #yeah this is probably wack but um. sangsang

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punkscowardschampions · 3 years

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Zelda & Zach

ihatemyguts: Good thing you told me how bubble boy posi Robyn’s ‘rents are

ihatemyguts: ‘cos that felt like such a brush-off

ihatemyguts: I feel kinda bad, it’s low-key just upset her with no shopping trip pay-off 😬

inandout: your first date was today

inandout: the insane jealousy must have forced me to forget

ihatemyguts: Obviously

ihatemyguts: moping and staring out of open windows would be bad for your health

ihatemyguts: probably

ihatemyguts: can’t have that

inandout: mope hard enough and fling myself all over the house, they’ll call it exercise

ihatemyguts: I’d let Rob know but her parents would probably sue me

ihatemyguts: I did some research

ihatemyguts: and yeah, flare-ups fucking suck, but if she was struggling that bad rn she’d be in hospital getting her 💉 on

ihatemyguts: makes me ⁉️ if the meetup will happen

inandout: makes me wonder if her brothers are allowed out

inandout: if they are maybe they can help us smuggle her to the meetup

ihatemyguts: not just a pretty face

ihatemyguts: that’s a damn good idea

ihatemyguts: I can slide in their DMs

inandout: Cranking up the jealousy metre to give me a full work out, I see, are you gonna be a PE teacher when you grow up?

ihatemyguts: *prays they aren’t like 12*

ihatemyguts: imagine if that was my life’s ambition

ihatemyguts: wear unflattering sportswear and give kids complexes

ihatemyguts: even without the potential life-shortening illness, I’d reconsider that

inandout: it tracks that you’d wanna make them 💩 and bringing back the bleep test could work

ihatemyguts: okay I’m not 🦹‍♀️ or 🐯 levels of sweet but is that what you really think of me? 😏

inandout: I think there’s only one rebel teacher coming to mind and I haven’t watched that film so all I know is they stand on desks

inandout: probably not a perfect fit for you

ihatemyguts: I could force you to watch it for our first date

ihatemyguts: and ask you, what your dream job would be

inandout: Netflix and chill or cinema screening of the ‘classics’?

inandout: we could do a drive-thru

ihatemyguts: hmm 🤔

ihatemyguts: there are pluses to ‘em all

ihatemyguts: cinema, we could laugh at all the snobs and 🤓s

inandout: Cool, reach out to me with the time + date when it’s showing

inandout: Are you allowed 🍿?

ihatemyguts: oh hell no

ihatemyguts: have to find another way to hold my hand

inandout: 🦸‍♀️ said she was gonna look up ice breakers and stuff, hopefully it was a fruitful search and she won’t mind sharing the info

ihatemyguts: do you think she legit didn’t realize how thirsty that boy was for her

ihatemyguts: or is it all uwu coy-ness

inandout: It’s hard to tell

inandout: but if I remember my glasses I’ll do my best to decode her body language from 6 ft away

ihatemyguts: aside from hospital, have you ever met someone else with cf?

inandout: Nope

inandout: jokes aside, it really is discouraged

ihatemyguts: that’s a hard one to get your head around

ihatemyguts: far as adjustments go

inandout: getting Robbie at this meetup won’t be easy

inandout: separate ones mean we might not have her there

ihatemyguts: I reckon we can trust you and Kara to keep the teen love story fictional

ihatemyguts: for all our sake’s

inandout: She’ll get her man

inandout: it’s not like bad advice and dating pitfalls are just a click away

ihatemyguts: cosmos never steered ANYONE wrong

inandout: Yahoo answers neither

ihatemyguts: might be confused as to why they’re not related

inandout: [I like to think he’s just sending his fave yahoo answer answers now for the lols]

ihatemyguts: [meme back and forth lads]

ihatemyguts: if she gets her date we could go into the matchmaker business

ihatemyguts: start at home

ihatemyguts: 🤖 don’t last forever

inandout: Rob’ll need to be next or she won’t forgive us

inandout: and we’ll soon get tired/guilty of seeing the amount of 😿💔 spam the chat

ihatemyguts: we’ll have to liberate her first

ihatemyguts: in a literal way

ihatemyguts: not the pretentious, free your 🧠 type of vibe

inandout: Kidnap’s playing into her parents’ fears but we don’t have a better option

ihatemyguts: now it’s my turn for a potential 💡

ihatemyguts: what if that is exactly what she should do

inandout: jump scare them?

ihatemyguts: if she did some actual wild shit to show them they’re being suffocating, ‘scuse the mention, then they’ll have to compromise and let her do normal kid things and everyone will win

ihatemyguts: I realize getting her to wild out might be a problem

ihatemyguts: catfish it though?

inandout: 💡⭐️

inandout: getting her to agree to do it for real would take longer than we have but you’re right, faking it wouldn’t take any time at all

ihatemyguts: get Lauren to picture whatever the hell she’s up to

ihatemyguts: sorted

inandout: + there’s your next photo challenge ready to be accepted, dressing as if you were going on a date with 👵🌈✨ instead

ihatemyguts: hold my neon

ihatemyguts: and think, do we clue Rob in on this plan now or do it on her behalf first, ‘cos we could hit up her house phone with some madness to get ‘em sus now and when she’s like wuuuuut it’ll sound even more

ihatemyguts: or is that a bit evil genius instead of 🦹‍♀️

inandout: Does she even have a house phone? We don’t

inandout: you’ll have to find another way to trick my parents into believing I’m a badass

ihatemyguts: I bet they do

ihatemyguts: can’t trust a mobile

ihatemyguts: and I bet they don’t have a microwave, they’re that sort

ihatemyguts: obvs I’ll just direct them to Lauren on your friends list with a 🤔

inandout: We should probably warn her, in case she takes it the wrong way

inandout: or decides to stand up to them for her YA movie moment

ihatemyguts: yeah, you’re right

ihatemyguts: if she doesn’t go for it, her brothers might be of use still

ihatemyguts: have to focus my evil energy elsewhere

ihatemyguts: such as…

ihatemyguts: 🥁

ihatemyguts: [one of the crazier lewks from babyteeth for the photo challenge]

inandout: 🤞🏻 one of them is old enough to drive the people carrier

inandout: Uhh… that was a suspiciously fast transformation

ihatemyguts: didn’t know you was challenging a pro?

ihatemyguts: and someone with a lot of time on her hands

inandout: I do now

inandout: and I’m guessing it’s not every day you get stood up based on what else I know about you

ihatemyguts: it’s a first

ihatemyguts: not that I constantly ask people out

ihatemyguts: but that is what I’ve put across so fair enough

ihatemyguts: what am I interrupting for you?

inandout: I’m waiting on friends

inandout: this could end in both of us being stood up

ihatemyguts: am I a drag you down with me type?

ihatemyguts: hmm

ihatemyguts: nah, I’ll cross my fingers that your friends aren’t flaky

inandout: Late, but I’d be too if it wasn’t my house

inandout: What are you gonna do now shopping’s off?

ihatemyguts: life is one big photo challenge, right

ihatemyguts: yours is ‘whatever will make your friends double-take when they open the door’

ihatemyguts: it’s a good question

ihatemyguts: we’re going to virtual shop tomorrow but she wasn’t up for it today

inandout: Wait for it and their faces

inandout: + you’re virtually invited to watch movies and play games, you won’t be the only one who isn’t here in person

ihatemyguts: 👍

ihatemyguts: cool

ihatemyguts: meeting new people is my new thing, as long as your mates are down/not the level of nerd that they might get a nosebleed if a girl is about

inandout: Some of them are girls if that helps

inandout: and my brother won’t be there to bring down the cool

ihatemyguts: low-key a shame

ihatemyguts: have to meet him before the first date though

inandout: I’ve got a father you can ask for permission if you’re feeling old-fashioned

ihatemyguts: full set

ihatemyguts: fun

ihatemyguts: mines in scotland so we’ll let you off that trek

inandout: But a road trip is a coming of age movie staple! 😫 Has Netflix aired any YA without one + are you willing to take that risk?

inandout: mine’s a workaholic but we’ve got years to catch him

ihatemyguts: forget the meds, see who gets fucked up first

ihatemyguts: it’d be a journey, for sure

ihatemyguts: do you know what he does? ‘cos so’s mine and I couldn’t tell you, tbh

inandout: Or mix them up and see what happens when you take the ones for my 💩

inandout: He’s a sales manager, he says, but why so vague?

ihatemyguts: sounds like something they’d do at cool parties

ihatemyguts: and that sounds suspish

ihatemyguts: they should have this 🤓 but with a moustache instead of the buckteeth

ihatemyguts: dads are elusive creatures… conspiracy time, what are they all up to

inandout: Not sure that’s the topic Rich has been watching vids on but I’ll ask

ihatemyguts: he can always tactfully ignore you if he’s 😳

ihatemyguts: like he does with 👵🌈✨ when she’s extra

ihatemyguts: more than usual

inandout: Be harder to do that in person

ihatemyguts: I think everyone will still get on

ihatemyguts: unless fibrofog shows, then that’ll be teen show worthy drama, of course

inandout: I think he’s genuinely blocked, he’d need a 2nd account to find out about it

ihatemyguts: hope he’s seen catfish too

inandout: He’d be a fan of the one where the man refused to believe it wasn’t Katy Perry

ihatemyguts: it does seem like the sort of thing she’d do

ihatemyguts: poor bastard

inandout: 😂

ihatemyguts: ultimate photo challenge, catfishing everyone and then going for the ruveal

ihatemyguts: might need more than just a wig 🤔😏

inandout: Dressing like her would make my friends do a double-take

inandout: [pics of some of her outrageous lewks with his head put on]

ihatemyguts: 😂😂😂

ihatemyguts: you suit the 🍦🧁🍭🍩✨

inandout: We’ve probably got a can of squirty cream lying around for hot chocolate

ihatemyguts: inhaler but make it ~sExxxIii~

inandout: [a lil video of his failed attempt to re-create that in her insta DMs or wherever because idk if they can send stuff like that here]

ihatemyguts: Katy dat you 😍😍

inandout: I’ve agreed to only string you along for 4 years not 6 and I don’t have any savings to spend 25% of on a 💍

inandout: looks like the comparison starts and stops with our black curls

ihatemyguts: not much of an orlando bloom clone myself so it’s alright

ihatemyguts: pirate is always an excellent disabled-friendly costume though so add that to the ideas board we should start

inandout: If we decide the next meetup is fancy dress, Lauren will never go back home

ihatemyguts: that’s the mood

inandout: [sends her whatever he did for the photo challenge and his friends reaction to it because why not say they’ve arrived and there’s a similar feral mood here]

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theguardiansofredland · 4 years

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Midnight ramblings (Venting I guess idk)

It’s midnight. 1 am actually. It’s smoky and my sinuses hurt. And I’m crying. Idk if it’s bad or not, I guess I’m just being nostalgic. And you can call it fuckin stupid all you want, but I’m crying because of animal crossing songs. Specifically Stale Cupcakes and Animal City. Stale Cupcakes is a song I discovered in New Leaf. It’s a soft, sad song. Played on a music box. It makes me think of my memories with new leaf and just happier times in general. Rainy days and playing little big planet and roasting marshmallows on our stove with my siblings, before they both moved away. Drawing next to my mom and half listening to whatever show she was obsessed with this time. Stale Cupcakes is almost childlike in sound if that’s even possible. But I remember playing New Leaf every day. It was a birthday present from my brother. And Animal City, which is the city theme in Animal Crossing: City Folk. And that takes me back even further. Elementary school. Again to rainy days and going to the bookstore with my godfather after school and getting Jamba Juice in the way back. Watching my brother try so hard to get the golden axe in city folk. Watching him play a lot of games on our Wii. Spending time with my cousin and spending hours at his house playing pretend or with his toys and then watching cartoons before falling asleep in his living room. To when I thought my friends in school actually liked me. Watching team crafted and epic jump maps and drawing my first art pieces.

I miss those days. I miss a lot of things and it just reminds me how everything leaves eventually. My mom, siblings, pets, friends, family, youtubers. It all drifts away. I guess that’s why I bury myself in happy sort of games like Minecraft and Nintendo games like animal crossing. They don’t hit me with tragedy after tragedy after toxic person after hurt. It lets me make my own world. Where the people don’t leave. Where everything is magical and I can just sit and be happy for once. Where people like what I do, what I create. Where I’m alone but I don’t feel like it. But even then the time passes and I need to sleep, or my game system runs out of charge. And I have to turn off my happy place and just go back to reality. Where everything fucking sucks. Sure there are some good things. My friends, my gf, my dad, my kitties. But I still just want there to be a time where I can look back and know I felt happy. And exist in a time where I actively feel genuinely happy. That childlike wonder and happiness. But I’m stuck here being sad and growing up. I don’t want to grow up. I wanna stay in the time of Chowder, Pokémon and Animal crossing. Where my biggest worry was not having enough poke balls to catch this tympole, and not which one of my friends is gonna hate me, or which family member will die this year. I’m not ready. But time doesn’t work that way.

I wanna live in animal crossing. Where the people there actually like me, and I can just relax for once. My sister who’s studying to be a massage therapist says the muscles in my neck and shoulders are extremely tight. Idk if it’s because of stress or anxiety. And I remember plucking a gray hair in science class. But rn even the thought school makes me wanna poof out of existence. But I don’t have to worry about that rn. I miss having motivation for things. Wanting to finish a game, draw things and actually improve. But instead I’m sleeping most of the day cause I’m tired all the time. I’m sad and just numb all the time

Idk even know what I’m rambling about. Animal crossing makes me cry and I wanna hug my cats and sleep for a good while. And I know “get a therapist” I’m working on it. I gotta talk with my dad about emailing one. Please don’t tell me another thing I’m failing at. I’m trying my best to take care of myself. I’m trying so hard. And I’m sorry. Getting a therapist is hard. I’m working on it but everyone says I should stop procrastinating when I’m not. My own fucking psychiatrist yelled at me for forgetting to schedule an appointment. I hate talking to her. And to that one friend reading this (and also you too sweetheart), yes you. Stop, breathe. You’re a great friend and you’re not being a horrible evil person by telling me I need a therapist. You care. And that isn’t something to yell at yourself for. It’s something to be applauded. And I’m just too much of a mess to work up enough courage to ask you to tone it down, and that’s a me thing I need to work on. Cause what you’re telling me is true and needs to be heard, and isn’t bad really. It’s not like it’s an insult or a trigger. So I feel like I shouldn’t have it toned down. Why tone down something helpful.

Sorry for rambling and wasting time you’re never gonna get back. I’m sorry for probably causing some anxiety spikes or attacks. I just made things worse again. I’m going to bed for the night. Or morning. Whatever. Hopefully I’ll dream of animal crossing and kitties. Fun things. And hopefully I’ll get some motivation to actually provide content and good things rather than be an over sharing person on the internet who shouldn’t even be doing or making this post and wearing my heart, on not on my sleeve, but my face. But I guess I’m begging for attention. Or trouble. Goodnight everyone. I’ll try to draw something tomorrow.

#red rambles #vent tw #tw:vent #tw vent #cw vent #im tired #heading to bed #im sorry you had to read this #im sorry you read this

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i-need-a-life-from-life-2-0 · 4 years

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Professor Membrane X F!Reader Smut

Ok so I am still thrisy for Membrane rn soo 🤷🏽‍♀️ enjoy. Also low key to tired to think of a title soo

THIS IS SMUT

THIS WILL HAVE FRICK FRACK HAPPENING ALSO UNPROTECTED SEX SO LIKE WRAP THAT SHIZ UP FAM! ALSO DRINKING

I head cannon Membrane speaking Spanish when he’s intimate with someone as a sign of trust so yea 🤷🏽‍♀️( All Spanish will be translated at the end. Also I used Spanish dictionary cause my Spanish teacher said it was way better then google translate soo)

18+ PLZ

(GIF not mine)

“Thank you again Y/N for joining me. I know you aren’t obligated.” The Professor said watching you pull your suitcase as the both of you walk. You smiled and slightly shook your head.

“Mem, it’s no problem! Besides if it means spending more time with you.” Professor sighed looking at the girl. When he invited her to this conference he was hoping she’d refuse. Seeing as she works just as hard as him. This week was her 1 week off.

“I’m aware you like to spend time with me. But this was your one week off, you could have stayed home and relax.”

“And miss spending time with my sexy scientist boyfriend. Nah this will be better” Membrane blushed upon seeing y/n sweet innocent smile. He thanked the stars that his lab coat covered most of his face, concealing the blush.

This was gonna fun weekend.

~Few Hours Later~

“I don’t understand how you can go to these all the time. Just being by your side and hearing all these questions. Whoo makes me want a drink, you want one?” You asked chuckling softly wrapping your arm around his.

“Oh I don’t know.” He said thinking about everything that could go wrong.

“I’m not gonna force you to have a drink but a drink could help lighten up. You’ve been looking a little tense. But there is no pressure.” You told him looking into his goggles lovingly. He looked down at your vibratent (E/C) eyes. He sighed before realizing 1 drink won’t be so bad.

“Alright, your right one drink won’t be so bad.” He said rubbing the back of his neck. You smiled lovingly at him as you slowly turned towards the hotel bar.

“Alright then big guy, I’ll be right back.” You said winking at him. Membrane’s eyes slowly wandered down to the curves of your body. Your (F/C) dress did nothing but help you look sexy. He’s been trying so damn hard to be intimate with you. But either work, the kids, or Clembrane got in the way. Membrane slowly wondered to thoughts of you and him. What you sound like, what you feel like. He was so down the rabbit hole of inappropriate thoughts he didn’t see you return.

“I didn’t know what you want so I took a guess. Hey you ok? You look like lost.” You said holding out the drink. He snapped back into reality and took the drink before clearing his throat.

“I-I’m fine.. Have I told you that your look amazing tonight?” He said looking away from you. You looked at your outfit and laughed.

“This old thing? I’ve had it for years, but thanks! You know you don’t look bad yourself. It’s hard not to be jealous of when you get so much attention.” You said smirking taking a sip of your drink. Membrane quickly took a sip of his drink as well hoping to calm his nerves. You slowly started noticing how he was acting and grew concerned.

“Hey, mem you ok?” Before you can retrieve an answer some of Membranes co-workers came up to him and started talking to him. Slowly feeling yourself getting pushed back you left him for the bar. You sighed and took a seat and took a long sip of your drink. Unknowingly Membrane had his eyes on you. Especially when someone sat next to you and strucked up a conversation. As the man sat next to you, you just continued to drink your drink. Until he started talking to you.

“I hope you don’t mind if I sit here. There isn’t a lot of places to sit.” The man said smiling at you. You shook your head giving a small smile in return.

“Oh no go ahead! I down own the seats or have a name tag on them or anything!” You said trying to make a joke but blushed in embarrassment as it didn’t come out right. The guy laughed and quickly ordered a drink.

“I guess that’s fair. I’m Lee by the way” he told you holding his hand out. You smiled and shook his hand.

“Y/N, so what brings you here?” You asked forgetting about your drink. He laughed nervously.

“My fiancée is a doctor who works for Professor Membrane. But she’s currently talking to other doctor people. I started feeling suffocated.” He said sipping the drink he ordered. You chuckled more then understanding the feeling. He turned back to you and asked.

“How about you? What brings you here?” You smiles and pointed to the crowd surrounding your boyfriend.

“My boyfriend is being mobbed by that crowd so I guess you can say I also felt suffocated. Just needed a minute to breath.” You said drinking your drink again.

You lost track of how long you’ve been talking. But you and Lee sorta had a lot in common and it was refreshing. You both had a few drinks but you knew you went buzzed or anywhere near it. You laughed at Lee’s joke and put an arm in his shoulder to help you not laugh your way in the floor. Just then you felt a hand on your shoulder. You turned and smiled.

“Speaking of the devil. Hey Mem! I was just talking about you!” You said smiling up at him. He looked at you and Lee. He was trying very hard to keep his jealousy under control.

“Oh right! Lee this is well you probably know, Membrane this is Lee! His fiancée works for you!” You beemed while looking at him. Lee smiled and held his hand out.

“It’s nice to meet you Professor” Membane politely shook his hand.

“You as well. I hate to cut in but I’d like to go to bed and have my girlfriend join me. Considering we have a long day tomorrow.” He releasing Lee’s hand turning his body to you. You smiled and got off the stool.

“Oh yea of course. It was nice meeting you Lee!”

“Oh you too Y/N!” Lee said waving you off.

It was a sorta awkward walk back to your shared hotel room. There was the arora around him that you couldn’t quite figure out. You couldn’t tell if he was angry at your or tired, or both. You both reached your shared room and he reached in his lab coat pocket and grabbed the room key. He opened the door and let you in.

“Hey Mem? Are you mad at me? Cause I’m getting-“ Before you can finish your sentence you where pushed up against the wall with his lips harshly against yours. A gasp left your mouth allowing his tongue to roam your mouth. His hands firmly on your hips as her grinded against you. He pulled away slowly trailing kisses down your neck.

“M-Mem?”

“No debería estar celoso de él, pero Dios soy” he mumbled against your neck and he started sucking the skin between your ear and neck. Your hands gripped tightly on his lap coat.

“M-Mem we where just talking.. I swear you have no reason to be jealous.” You breathed out trying to calm down the raging fire of arousal. Membrane pulled away and took off his goggles.

“I love you Y/N, I just hate thinking someone can take you away from me.” He said slowly removing his lab coat. You never fully saw what he looked like under his lab coat. He always had it up after he’d kiss you. You noticed scars on his lips and face. That didn’t mean he wasn’t sexy. Nor did it help the burning arousal that was slowly burning your entire body.

“Membrane... I love you too. Believe me when I say this.. I’d never leave you. No one can take me away from you, nor your amazing kids. Now shut up and kiss me again you stupid sext scientists.” You said before grabbing his lab coat again and smashing your lips on his. Membrane pushed his body against yours again and picked you up and slammed you against the wall. You pulled away from the kiss and started kissing all his scars.

“God Membrane your beautiful. I’m so happy I get to see your face.” You moaned moving further down his jaw. His hands started digging into your ass and letting out a low animalistic growl.

“Ten cuidado con mi amor, ya no podré contenerme.” He said deeply into your ear. You moaned before smirked.

“Then don’t. Make me yours Membrane... Remind me why I belong to you.” The moment those words left your mouth a switch flipped in Membrane. He threw you on the bed and crawled on top you. Like a predator hunting his prey. His brown eyes bore into your (E/C) as you saw all the feelings he’s feeling through those eyes. Jealousy, love, and most dominant lust.

“Your so beautiful Y/N... such beauty and it’s all mine.” He said has his hand trailed to the zipper on the back of your dress. You blushed at his comment before reaching up and touching his face.

“I’m all yours big guy.” You lowly mumbbled slowly helping him push down your dress leaving you in nothing but your underwear. You shivered slightly as the cold room air hits your chest.

“No te preocupes mi amor, pronto estará caliente.” He mumbled as his still gloves hand cupped your right breast slightly massaging it. His mouth suddenly attached to your jaw as he slowly kissed and sucked his way down your chest finally latching on to your left breast. You moaned quickly grabbing onto his shoulders tightly. Your body felt on fire. The way he was lovingly touching you and kissing you made you feel like you where in heaven.

“Membrane! Oh god” You softly moaned out as you started trusting your hips up to try to release some friction. Membrane took notice of this and smirked against your skin. His lips left your left breast and started making his way down your stomach and stopped at the hem of your underwear. His eyes looked into yours as if waiting for approval to go on. You nodded and watched him smirked as he pulled your underwear down. You lifted your hips up to help him remove your underwear.

“Oh Dios tu hermosa...” He said staring at your slick pussy. You blushed and resisted closing your legs knowing fully well he can easily pry them open.

“Don’t tease me... Especially when you got me this worked up.” You said slightly stuttered blushing. He let out low chuckle as he pulled off one of his gloves to his mouth and pulled it off. You swore your soul left your body at that moment. He brought up his metal fingers to your mouth. You opened your mouth and slowly started sucking on his metallic fingers as if it was the last thing you will ever do.

“Eres una buena chica...” He said watching you closely. He decided that you’ve sucked them enough and pulled them away. He then slowly teased your now soaking wet entrance. He slowly started pushing in one finger to slowly start stretching you. The feeling of his thick metal fingers painstaking slow moving in and out of you.

“Jesus Mem... please...” you pleaded as you tried to thrust your hips up. He used his free hand to push your hips down and held them there.

“Please what? What is it you want mi amor?” He said huskily looking at you dead in the eyes. You growled at him teasing you like this.

“I want you to go faster please! God please!” You pleaded needing him to just finger you had hard as her can... and he did. He smirked and started roughly thrusting his finger in and out of you and then added another finger making a scissor motion. At this point you where a moaninh mess. Writhing on the bed as pure pleasure that your lover gave you took over. Each time he fingered you the knot in your stomach tightened. Membrane then leaned in and started slowly licked long your pussy lips and lightly licked your cilt. With his tongue and fingers working you over your limit you where just about to get the release you so desperately desired! Untill he removed himself from you. You whined and looked him with half open list filled eyes.

“W-Why?! God I was so close Membrane!” You groaned needing to feel the release. Membrane quickly silenced you with a kiss and you tasted yourself on his lips. He pulled away and pulled his shirt over his head and took his pants off only leaving him and his boxers on. His errection very hard to miss, basically begging to be free.

“There’s so much I want to do to you Y/N... but I just need to be deep inside you or I’ll lose my mind.” He said slowly removing his boxers. You blushed upon seeing his beautiful cock in all his beauty. He quickly lined himself up with your entrance.

“If it hurts at any point tell me...I refuse to hurt you in anyway.” He mumbled lightly kissing your jaw. You smiled and made him look into your (E/C) eyes.

“You’ll never hurt me.. but I will. Now please... I need you.” You moaned kissing him passionately wrapping your arms around his neck. Has your lips moved in sync with each other he slowly started entering you. You gasped starting to feel the pain and started gripping his neck tightly. He pulled away groaning from the pain. Something you’ll have to remember.

“S-Shit your so tight.” He groaned still slowly pushing himself inside you. Once he was fully inside you he was trying so hard not to just violently thrust in and out of you in a fast pase. Once you gave him the ok he slowly moved in and out of you.

“Oh god Membrane! Shit you feel so good!” You moaned letting your hands roam his back. With your encouragement he slowly started speeding up till he was full on ramming into your body. Your mind was nothing more then mush as you just moaned his name and any incoherent sounds that come out of your mouth. Membrane kept letting out small pants or groans. As well as slipping Spanish here and there. All of a sudden Membrane stopped but before you can utter a word he grabbed your leg an threw it over his shoulder and began to ram into your body again.

“O-Oh fuck! Membrane!!” You moaned as he hit that spot that made you go wild.

“S-Say my name again!” He groaned gripping your leg tightly as continued his movements.

“Membrane!”

“Louder Y/N!!”

“MEMBRANE PLEASE FUCK!” You said feeling so close to releaseing. Membrane could tell how close you where to coming and he wanted to get you off. He wanted to be the reason why you became so undone. That enough was driving him wild. He leaned in close to your ear

“I know your close Y/N. I know you, fuck your so tight.” He mumbled biting your ear.

“Oh god Membrane I-I can’t! I just want to so bad!” You moaned clawing the blanket beneath you. Membrane looked at you dead in your eyes.

“Then come Y/N” and just like that you came hard around Membrane. You let out a loud moan as your brain went blank. Membrane thrusted a few more times before coming deep inside you. As you both care back to your senses you reached up and caressted his cheek with your thumb.

“I love you Membrane. Thank you.” Membrane raised his hand to rest on top of yours as he let out a smile.

“I should be thanking you. I know I’m not normal. But yet you stay.. I wouldn’t know many people who would.” He said slowly pulling out of you. Your body shuddered at the loss of him inside of you.

“Right I should clean you up-“ your grabbed him and just shook your head.

“I honestly just want to be held by you. Please?” You asked yawning. He sighed and helped you pull the blankets on you both. He kissed your forehead and held you close. He was about to make a comment but saw you had already passed out. He smiled and just admired your peaceful sleep before slowly falling asleep himself.

Translation:

No debería estar celoso de él, pero Dios soy = I shouldn’t be jealous of him, but god I am

Ten cuidado con mi amor, ya no podré contenerme = Be careful my love, I won’t be able to hold back anymore

No te preocupes mi amor, pronto estará caliente = Don’t worry my love, it will be warm soon enough

Oh Dios tu hermosa = Oh god your beautiful

Eres una buena chica = You’re such a good girl.

So it’s 2:03 rn and I’m just finishing this. So yea.. enjoy this awful thing Ive created

#iz professor membrane #professor membrane x reader #professor membrane #invader zim #smut #lemon #i worte this at 2 am #Ive sinned plz kill me

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babbushka · 5 years

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Lemonade

Hi this is entirely @adamsnackdriver ‘s fault

Word count: 3k

Warnings: it started out fluffy but then turned into p*rn y’all

It was hot.

A sunny day out of the blue, you found yourself drawn to spend as much time bathing in the warmth as you could. After you ran your errands for the day and were back home, you stripped down to a bathing suit (even though the pool was still covered from the leftovers of winter), grabbed a magazine and your sunglasses, and went to the kitchen.

Today was a lemonade kind of day, and you were sure your husband would appreciate the cool drink when he got home in a few minutes. He had an early day today, and was supposed to be home by three, the hottest time of day. The clock chimed a quarter-till, and you smiled, happy to know that Flip would be home soon. Maybe the two of you could get a little lazy lovin’ in while the sun was still up, work up an appetite for a big dinner you had planned.

You turned on the portable radio and mixed up the water, lemon juice, and sugar on the stove, pouring it into a pitcher and sticking it in the fridge to chill. With radio in one hand and magazine in the other, you went outside and stretched out on one of the sun-faded lawn chairs, crossing one leg over the other.

The sky was a beautiful powder blue, not a single cloud to be seen. You regretted not grabbing the sunscreen from the bathroom. Tanning was all the rage right now, but you had more of a tendency to burn. It didn’t matter, you would go back in when Flip came home anyway.

The little radio crackled a little, readjusting to the signal outside, playing the latest hit, Al Green’s new song Tired of Being Alone. Tapping your foot along to the beat of it, you got so engrossed in the magazine you didn’t notice when a pair of big strong hands closed around your ankles, making you jump.

“Flip!” You yelled, startled.

“Hey baby.” Flip laughed at the reaction, wrestling with your legs and making you giggle, eventually pressing kisses to your knees, resting his cheek there adoringly.

“Don’t do that, you’re gonna give me a heart attack one of these days.” You run a hand through his hair, mussing up his middle part and making him laugh again.

He was too handsome for his own good, you thought.

“You love me.” Flip replied, cheekily, letting his hand happily trail up and down your thigh.

“Yeah I do.” You smiled back, wiggling your legs so he would get off. “Lemonade’s in the fridge, probably isn’t cold yet though I just put it in.”

“You’re sweet to me.” He said, leaning down to give you a chaste kiss on the lips. You hummed against them, and he pulled back just as you were sure he was going to deepen the kiss. What a tease, you thought with a smile.

“Anything for my man.” You replied happily, “How was work?”

“Why don’t I tell you while I rub some spf on your pretty skin?” He pinched at your upper arm. “Can’t have my girl burn.”

You rolled your eyes at him but was grateful nonetheless. He loved to slather you with lotion as an excuse to get his hands on you, but you never minded too much, especially if it meant you wouldn’t turn into a crispy lobster.

Flip went inside the house and didn’t come back out for a while. You almost had half a mind to get up and see what sort of trouble he was getting himself into, but it was too hot outside for you to really want to.

You couldn’t help but laugh at him when he did re-emerge – he had shed half his clothes and was holding the pitcher of lemonade, two empty glasses, a bottle of sunscreen, and some sandwiches you kept in the fridge.

“Carrying enough there, honey?” You sat up and took the glasses from him so they wouldn’t accidentally fall and shatter.

“You bet ketsl.” Flip chuckled, setting down the pitcher on a little circular stepping stone on the grass. He made his way back towards you with the bottle of sunscreen in his hands. “Give me those soft shoulders.” He smiled at you, and you sat up, your back unsticking from the plastic of the chair.

You scooted towards the end of the chair so Flip could sit behind you, brushing your hair out of the way so lotion wouldn’t get in it and make it all gross.

“Thank you.” You sighed happily, shivering at the momentary chill of the lotion but then practically leaning into the touch as he spread it around your shoulders and back. “Now tell me about work, anything new?”

“Bridges is being a dick again.” Flip grumbled, “But that’s not new.”

“I’m sure Harry will talk to him.” You nodded.

“Ron and Patrice invited us over for dinner tomorrow night, I told them we didn’t have any plans.” Flip continued, spreading the sunscreen onto your arms and thighs.

“I can wear my new dress!” You giggled when he tickled you, getting up from the chair and handing you the lotion so you could do your front.

“You’ll look stunning.” He ducked down to kiss you, a finger brushing under your chin, “Always do.”

“Thank you honey.” You blushed, rubbing the sunscreen onto your stomach and shins.

Flip watched the movement for a minute, before licking his lips and pouring a glass of lemonade. He took a sip and smacked his lips when he was done.

“I’m gonna go workout.” He said, patting a hand on your knee.

“Come do it out here, the weather is too good to be cooped up all day.” You waited for the sunscreen to soak in a little more before leaning back against the chair, giving him a devilish smile.

“You’re right.” He nodded, a sly grin creeping up onto his face.

On hot days like this, you were grateful that you bought him that workout set. Most days he kept them out of sight in the garage, opening up the back door to let some of the steamy air out whenever he felt like using the bench press or lifting his dumbbells. He had them in all different weights, and sometimes you liked to watch him get all sweaty as he pumped iron.

You especially liked it when the thin white tank top he wore went see-through with sweat, and you could see how the fabric stuck to his firm muscles. You never got too close, never wanting to distract him and potentially get him injured, but damn was he a fine sight to see.

Today was no different. He was turned around mostly to keep the sun out of his eyes, and you had the pleasure of watching the muscles in his very toned back flex and move under his tanned skin. You loved how quickly the sun soaked into his skin, it made all of his freckles and beauty marks stand out that much more.

He was wearing jeans, much to your dislike. His thighs were insane, you had always told him so, and that he needed to show them off more than he did. But he was in his jeans, and the waistband was getting dark, soaking up the little droplets of sweat that rolled down his back as you lost count of how many reps he was doing.

Every now and again he did turn around, and whether he knew you were watching or not, he made sure to put on a bit of a show for you. Flexing maybe a little more than necessary, shaking the hair out of his face, tensing his abs.

You wanted to climb him like a tree.

It seemed like Flip could tell that you were taking less than sneaky looks at his body from over the top of your magazine.

“You like what you see?” Flip caught your eye, lifting a fifty pound weight like it was made of air. Your eyes roamed over the way his tanning skin glistened in the sun, a vein begging to be traced by your tongue.

“You know I do.” You smirked from your spot on the lawn chair.

He set the weights down and made his way over to you, picking up a glass and the pitcher, making it a show to pour the lemonade and stir it with a spoon. The condensation on the glass dripped down his forearm and nearly evaporated as he chugged down the drink.

He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand and straddled your hips, the lawn chair creaking slightly under his added weight.

“You gonna do something about it?” Flip hovered over you, nosing at your throat.

“Flip we can’t – the neighbors could hear.” You protested half-heartedly, arching your neck back so he could sink his teeth into the skin there. He did, and slipped a hand under the bottoms of your bathing suit, teasing a few fingers right at your folds. “Flip!” You gasped, he took his hand away with a chuckle and pressed it to your lips.

“Shh, no one will know.” He said, sitting back anyway.

Fuck he looked good, his hair getting piecey from the sweat of his forehead, his rippling muscles begging to be kissed. He roamed his hands over your arms, stomach and thighs, and you crinkled your nose at him playfully.

“You’re getting your sweat all over me.” You said, not the least bit angry.

He grinned and plucked at the strings holding the top of your bathing suit on.

“Let me see those pretty tits of yours.” His voice was low and sweet like honey, and you arched up into his touch to help him, despite the blush that was blooming over your cheeks. He threw the scrap of fabric across the backyard, and sighed happily at the sight in front of him.

“You’re crazy.” You grinned back, humming softly as he kneaded your breasts in those big hands of his.

“I didn’t build a fence for nothing ketsl.” He chuckled, grabbing an ice cube from the lemonade pitcher and running it over your nipples. It stiffened immediately under his touch and you gasped at the cold.

“Flip!” You whined, but he just laughed some more, he loved paying you back for all the teasing you put him through on a daily basis.

He left the ice cube to melt on your skin, transfixed as it slid down your stomach, and he pulled out his hard cock giving it a few lazy tugs.

He wanted to get off all over your tits, make you eat it. He knew you would too, and he stroked himself a little harder at the thought.

“You like watching me, don’t you?” Flip growled, and you nodded, reaching towards him, wanting to help. He grabbed your wrist with his free hand and brought it to his lips to give it a kiss. “Better keep those hands to yourself or else I’ll cuff ‘em.” He said.

“Fuck.” You hummed, raising your wrists above your head and pinning them down to the hot plastic of the lawn chair.

“Soon.” Flip promised, knowing he couldn’t possibly last.

You, his gorgeous wife underneath him, topless and sweaty in the bright light of the sun in your backyard, was more than enough to get his breathing going hard and fast.

Soon enough he was coming with a grunt, shooting his load all over your breasts, making you gasp and wrinkle your nose again. He grinned and reached for your hands which hadn’t moved since he told you to put them there. He made you rub your hands in the mess on your chest, and he could feel himself growing hard again as you did.

Dirty.

“That’s it, I’m fucking you.” He announced, getting off the lawn chair and lifting you bodily up and over his shoulder like you were some sack of potatoes and not his very human wife.

You laughed and laughed, your stomach doing little flips with anticipation. He left the radio and your magazine out there without a care in the world for them.

Flip didn’t get very far before he was setting you down carefully, bending you over the kitchen counter and kicking your feet apart.

“Good?” He murmured in your ear, wanting to make sure that you were comfortable despite his manhandling.

“Good. Rough please?” You nodded back eagerly, and smirked at Flip’s little intake of breath.

He liked to be gentle with you usually, but how could he deny you when you asked so nicely?

With no hesitation, he slid his fingers into you and began fingering you open, making sure you were nice and wet for him. Once he was satisfied, he pulled his jeans down far enough to get his cock out again and he rubbed the head of it up and down your pussy before thrusting it in all the way in one harsh movement.

“Oh!” You felt like the air was knocked out of your lungs, and his hips pushed your further onto the counter.

Flip rocked into you, his hands on your hips grabbing hard enough that there were definitely going to be little bruises dotted along your skin.

“Fuck (Y/N).” He groaned through his teeth, watching the way he slid his dick almost all the way out of you before thrusting back in, making you cry out in pleasure. “Fuck, look at you.”

Your hands were grasping at nothing, so he kept his hips moving as he reached for them, pulling them around your back like he was going to handcuff them. He cursed that he didn’t have the cuffs on him, and just held your wrists with one hand instead, using his other to grip the counter-top hard.

“Flip – oh honey – !” You cried out, drooling onto the counter, eyes shut tight in pleasure.

“Fuck, I need – ” He wanted a better angle, and the counter wasn’t cutting it.

He pulled you off and slid out of you just long enough to walk the two of you over to the living room, where you both went down to the floor to rest against the soft rug near the fireplace that hadn’t been lit in some time.

He maneuvered you to his liking, this time with you on your back. He hiked your legs up around his waist and fucked into you wasting no time, reveling in the way your face scrunched up with pleasure.

He kissed the moans off your lips, sucking at biting at your tongue and licking at your teeth, you felt like he was swallowing you whole. You had a hand fisted in his hair and the other wrapped around his strong bicep, holding on for dear life as he pressed you into the rug with the weight of him.

The radio was still going on outside, you could hear it crackling but it sounded a million miles away, the noise of his breathing and the slick sounds your bodies made against one another echoing in your head.

“I’m going to come in you so hard that you’re not gonna be able to walk without feeling me.” He panted, feeling his orgasm starting to build in the pit of his stomach.

That suddenly was the most appealing thing in the entire world to you just then, and you made him hiss by clenching down around him as he fucked your cunt hard and fast.

“Please.” You gasped, wanting very much to feel him for the rest of the day.

“What, baby?” Flip wanted to be more husky, wanted to be aloof and cool about his dirty talk but fuck you were so hot he could barely get the words out without his voice shaking from the force of you all around him.

“Use your words, come on.” He let one of his hands down to rub at your clit, and he practically drank in the high moans that spilled from your chest.

He rubbed and fucked and bit you until you were crying out, coming hard, your body arching up into his embrace.

“Please come in me!” You didn’t even finish before Flip’s hips stuttered, your big mountain of a man curling his shoulders in around you as he came.

“Holy shit.” He panted after a few moments, his head dropped into your chest. His hair was in your mouth and blew it away, arms too boneless to brush away the knotted locks.

“If we keep going like this I’m gonna get knocked up.” You huffed out a laugh, making him lift his head to look up at you with another one of those adoring smiles of his.

“Isn’t that the plan?” He asked sincerely, making you smile wide.

“Love you.” You whispered. Only Flip could turn things so tender so quickly, you thought.

“Love you more.” Flip said, kissing your sternum before taking a deep breath and pulling out. He stood on shaky legs and held out his hands to pull you up. “Shower?”

“Yes please.” You shivered, sparing a glance down to the state of your bodies. “You got me all sticky and gross the least you can do is clean me up.” You smiled, blissful and very much in love.

“Yes ma’am.” Flip said, wrapping an arm protectively around your waist even though in that moment, it felt like you were the only two people in the neighborhood.

Outside, the radio played and the ice cubes in the lemonade pitcher melted, and your bikini top laid out on the crisp green grass. And there it would probably stay, because you sure as hell weren’t finished with your man just yet, and neither was he with you.

Tagging some pals! :) As always, if you’d like to be added or taken off the list please just shoot me a message! @fullofbees @spinebarrel @oh-adam @dreamboatdriver @bad–bad–man @thecurlycaptain @bourbonboredom @driverficarchive @aweirdlookingtree@rosalynbair @redhairedfeistynerd @adamsnackdriver @glitzescape @arwarz @adamsnacc-kler @kyloxfem@fallin-for-youreyes

#reader insert #flip zimmerman x reader #flip x reader #blackkklansman #flip zimmerman #my writing #this one is pretty filthy so its totally okay if u wanna skip it lol #or if its not ur cup of tea #or should i say ...lemonade #okay im gonna go now

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joshslater · 5 years

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0ngoing Sponsorship

This is the other POV of 0ngoingw0rk’s Forced Sponsorship story. Similar stories and bonus material on my Patreon.

What was I thinking? I had totally lost judgement when Stacy responded to my text message. I'd sent her "wanna see my dick rn" at home, but didn't get the "lol ok" until at the gym. It was empty this early, so I thought getting caught dick pic:ing was pretty slim. I was facing the mirror after all, not the whole gym.

But I had been seen, and led by a massive employee into his office as I was heading out. Perhaps he was the owner. He offered me a choice between doing some testing for him, or involving the police. Who knows what that could lead to. Sex offender registration? The deal he offered of tasting sport drinks was an easy option to take. A new drink to test every two weeks or so, while following a pre-approved workout regimen.

- Ok, I'll do it. Will you delete the video? - They overwrite automatically every two months.

Perhaps this could be a good thing. I was to work out twice a day during the testing, once in the morning and once in the afternoon. Get fit or go to jail. If ever there was a better motivator. Yeah, this would definitively be a good thing. Just need to get a bit better grip on the diet. No more cheat weeks, and I should be set.

- It's fully sponsored, so I want you to wear this the next two weeks.

He gave me a gaudy yellow shirt made in some high tech material, with an ugly anthropomorphic muscled banana drawn on the front. Well, it's not an orange prison shirt at least, though just as conspicuous.

- See you tomorrow then. Front staff will have your pre-workout drink ready for you.

I showed up as agreed and picked up my jug of "Banana Blast" at the entrance. I'm not really a fan of banana flavor, but as banana drinks goes this one was pretty good. I kept sipping on it while changing into my gym gear and the outlandish top. Once ready to hit the gym I still had almost half of it left, which I chugged.

It wasn't a full on erection, so it actually took a while for me to notice. I'm sure I made a few adjustments subconsciously before noticing I was having a semi. These things do happen, but I'm not a teenager any more, so it's rare. This one was a bit different though, as it kept up until about lunch time.

My mind was mostly on Stacy, who appeared to have ghosted me after the picture I sent, so I wouldn't even had remembered if it weren't for what happened later that afternoon, back at the gym. I had barely finished the drink and hadn't even hit the gym floor when the erection came back. Harder than I've ever been in my life, I think. What's worse was that the gym also was pretty packed at this hour. The bright shirt made everyone take a look, and though most missed or ignored my hard on, I certainly got both smirks and looks of incredulity. I was mortified.

So this was how he was going to make me pay. By putting some Viagra shit in the drink to teach me a lesson. I wasn't going to let that beat me, so I went all in on the exercises I had scheduled. No one said anything, but there were glances my way all through the pass. And I couldn't just run and hide either, as I had to complete and hand in the damn questionnaire. I noted down the weights and reps as I was going, but still had lots of measurements and open ended questions to answer. I left the box about side effects blank. He damn well already knew what the did.

I was hard all through the evening, and tried to solve it with a hand job. Frustratingly I grew tired and gave up before I could cum. A quick cold shower helped a bit, but ultimately I went to bed with a pretty stiff dick. It was a bit better when I woke up. It was still at least semi erect, but no longer rock hard. It perked right up again as soon as I had the morning jug of banana bullshit. Who could have thought 30 minutes of cardio could be so complicated with a hard on. Orbital was uncomfortable, treadmill was like an inflatable tube man dancing down there, and the bike was outright torture.

If there was any shrinkage happening between training, it was insignificant. Whatever aphrodisiac he'd saturated me with had me in a constant kind of soft semi. Well, larger than that. A soft on.

In fact, ironically it appeared I couldn't get hard. While the big sausage flopped around during the afternoon session, it was as sensitive as it had ever been. I was practically edging myself, to the point where I almost wasn't aware of all the stares and glances. As soon as I was done with the paperwork I rushed home to finish off in the shower, but without success. It was like shaking a water balloon.

I woke up as I fell asleep. Sore all over, weird soft erection and horny AF. Nothing changed with the drinks and the training, though I got a bit better at ignoring everyone else at the gym. It was leg day though, so if anyone had missed what was happening between my legs before, they had no excuse any longer. There was a new question on the form, asking “Have you experienced any increased sensitivity anywhere on the body?”. I knew what he was after. I was close to answering “my tits”, but decided it best to not kick the bear. I was determined to not show any sign of weakness.

Things then kept pretty much the same throughout the week, neither worse nor better. I was frustratingly horny and a bit movement constrained with a floppy salami in my pants, but was slowly able to work around it. My carpenter trousers at work could hide a lot, and I bought a pair of compression shorts to wear under my gym shorts to keep things in place. In addition I started to learn how to move, walk and do the exercises without embarrassing myself too much. All the gym regulars already knew what was going on though.

There were a few more tweaks on the questionnaire to try to provoke me into disclosing what was happening. I refused to admit that, of course, and there were no further changes during the second week, up to the last day of Banana Blast.

First day after the trial was no different. I still had a come in and do my workouts and fill out the forms, and physically there were no changes. The morning after that though. HO-LEE SHIT. I could feel I was hard right away as I woke up, and my hand went down there almost immediately. What I felt was wrong. I jumped out of bed and just stood naked, looking down and marveling. My dick was a monster, probably twice the size of my usual erect size, which I wasn’t ashamed of. I came pretty quickly, with an ungodly amount of cum, and continued several rounds of climax before I finally went limp. Only that meant back to how it had been for the last week.

When I finally did show up at the gym, more than an hour late, it was almost exactly like any morning the previous week, except perhaps a bit less horny. I don’t know if I should thank him or curse him for what he’s done to my body, but at least he got his revenge. I’m gonna make another attempt with Stacy tonight.

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July 17: Chair Moving Day!

Chair moving day today! I’ll be honest, I was actually actively looking forward to this because it was the first time in months all/most of my co-workers have been at the same place at the same time, and I do like them as people, and I miss them.

But I don’t think I expected it to be as... soothing as it was. People started coming in around quarter to 11, ten to 11, and it almost felt normal. I had an ILL to hand off, I just handed it off. Mail for my supervisor, just gave it to her. TS conversation, 3/4 of TS were there in person. The library didn’t feel deserted and too quiet. I know we can’t go back to this on the regular yet but I MISSED it, I did.

The actual chair moving was, as we did it, basically what I expected. We were a little disorganized at first but got ourselves together pretty quickly. The mission was to move half of all the chairs in the library into the study rooms, in order to encourage/force social distancing and limit the total number of people who can hang out in our space in the fall. Almost all our chairs on the first/second floors, and almost all the study rooms are in the basement. So! Fun times.

My supervisor was our elevator person, because she has some leg troubles. It took us a few minutes to realize that, duh, the rest of us couldn’t all be upstairs because if everyone is moving chairs to the elevator and no one is on the other end to receive them, they’ll never make it to the study rooms. So two people went downstairs, quickly followed by me, when I saw the chair bottleneck. The three of us (our ILL person, our cataloguer, and myself) stayed in the basement the whole time. For a while, we had the help of two reference librarians, then they abandoned us. When we were five people moving chairs, we tended to take them one at a time. When we were only 3, and when the people upstairs started stacking, like, 10 chairs in the elevator at once (we literally couldn’t see my supervisor stuck in the corner and every single time I was like.... is she not there???), and arranging them in pairs, we started hauling them out in pairs also, and then just pushing them across the basement to the study rooms. Pushing is much easier if you can figure out how to balance the chairs, which we did pretty fast.

In retrospect, I’m pretty impressed with us, because there were 10 people total working on this (2 people didn’t come and 1 had to sit the desk), 9 of whom were outside the elevator, so at the point the reference librarians left us, we were divided 6/3 and us downstairs people still had some time to spare between elevator trips. Admittedly, they did end up moving some chairs to an upstairs study room, plus their end had some more thought required (they had to find the chairs) but still! We were definitely moving chairs out of the elevator faster than they were putting them in (trying not to get hit by the stupid door trying to close!).

Anyway, in terms of physical difficulty, it was about what I expected. Not easy, but not super hard. The worst was that we were wearing masks the whole time, so there was a slight difficulty in breathing, plus a lot of extra sweat and warmth. But honestly even that wasn’t quite as bad as I was expecting.

It took us about an hour to move I suppose over a hundred chairs, which isn’t bad. Most people stuck around for about 15-20 minutes afterward, then went home, although I stayed the rest of the day to finish the Code of Virginia and do some other catching up from having been off-site for 2 weeks.

Also, since yesterday was the director’s birthday, one of my co-workers brought in cupcakes to celebrate, which was incredibly sweet. And she made sure I got one, even though I was a dumbass who didn’t remember that everyone else was going to leave before me, and probably grab everything.

Once everyone left and I had to do brain work again, I started to feel it, and that I was not expecting. First I felt it in my hands, especially my right hand. Then my right arm. Then across my shoulders and in my feet. I was also really tired. Looking back, I think all of this physical reaction was very real, but I think it was a social let down too. Even though it wasn’t a very ‘social’ event--we weren’t just mingling or whatever, we were working at a task--and it wasn’t very long, only about 2 hours all told, I haven’t been around this many real life people at once since March and I’m not used to it. So I had the same sort of ‘down’ I usually get after, for example, parties, or big trips.

But I’m feeling better now. I don’t know if I’ll be able to move tomorrow... I’m barely sore rn so maybe I’ll be fine, but it’s hard to predict.

I think I’m gonna try to take next Friday off. This week was kinda brutal. But then, what week is not?

#the year 2020 #2020: rl #covid19 diary

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Who named you? Both of my parents did. My dad came up with my first name, my mom with the second. On edge about anything at the moment? On edge is irritable right? I hate how hot it is rn, and it’s literally almost 11 PM. Pretty sure I’ll be giving myself a second shower for today, ugh. The thing that last shocked you? My mom unknowingly watched a jumpscare video earlier and since she likes keeping her phone’s volume at a high level, I got to hear the demonic scream that came with the jumpscare -______- My entire family jumped but I was the only one who started to tear up hahahaha Ever have dreams that come true later on? Like, sleeping dreams? I guess, but they’ve all been deja vu stuff. Like a random thing will take place in the present and I’ll just suddenly remember that I saw it happening in a dream before, if that counts. Is it sometimes hard for you to accept what people are saying as the truth? I guess, especially when I’ve become used to a different side for much longer. For instance I really loved my grandpa and always saw him as this gentle giant who liked telling me trivia, so it took me a while to accept that he had his issues with alcohol and that he’d turn into a different person whenever he consumed it.

Who is worse: The liar or the hypocrite? Hypocrites are annoying but when it comes down to it we all have our hypocritical tendencies, honestly. I’ll go with liars. Is your mom your number one fan? No, she’s very passive about my successes and will always make it a point to look like she’s not interested enough about what I dabble in. The one time she looked genuinely supportive and excited for me was when I passed UP, and that was because that was her dream for me. Do you sing in front of people? Neverrrrrr. I only do that when I’m drunk enough at a club and my voice is guaranteed to be drowned out.

Is there a scent that makes you feel nostalgic? Sure, there’s the smell of nature in my old school, my grandparents’ cabinet which has given off this musty smell for as long as I can remember, and the scent of my dad’s luggage whenever he arrives back to the country. Last time someone had a bad opinion of you? The last time I was around to hear it was last week when my mom hurled insults at me and my siblings, but I’m sure others have spoken badly about me behind my back. Was it for the wrong reason? Yes. Would you rather ask or be asked? Ask/be asked what? Who are you the most uncomfortable around? My mooooom. I get very wince-y when I’m alone with her...I feel like a barrage of insults or criticisms is gonna be thrown at me any second. Are your parents overprotective? They were I was never allowed to join in the Friendster craze because my parents took the 16-year-old requirement seriously, I didn’t have my first sleepover until I was 16, I wasn’t allowed to go to anyone’s house but Katreen as a kid, among other limitations I had to live with. But idk, for some reason something must have flipped in their heads and I was suddenly allowed to do a bunch of stuff when I turned 16. Is there a part of you that you've tried to bury? Yuh, my entire childhood. A recent creation that you're proud of? Hdjshjsjdh I made onion rings a couple of weeks ago and they turned out yummy and I was really proud of it. It was also the first time I made any kind of food from scratch so I was ecstatic when I took my first bite and discovered that it wasn’t bad at all. Who's your favorite comedian? Not really into comedians...I’ll go with Grace Helbig, even though I primarily know her for her YouTube stuff. What makes you squeamish? Injections. What do you like in your omlettes? Everything that’s available. When I’m having a breakfast buffet at hotels I just tell the chef to just put in every ingredient they have at the omelette station. Who has your heart? My two dogs and my girlfriend. Do you have any online friends that you wanna keep, but not meet? Continued from last night because I was tired enough to pass out in the middle of this survey, apparently. Not really. I always find myself wanting to meet online friends. The worst I’ve felt is not wanting to meet an online friend again after I’ve met them, because irl them turned out to be a big dickhead. What’s something you want that has not changed as time has passed? To somehow get into the pro wrestling industry in any kind of capacity. Are you gullible? Sometimes. Though an exception to this fact is that I can somehow always sniff out whenever a parent or a friend has a surprise for me, so I’m rarely 100% taken aback by them. Does it take a lot for the opposite sex to impress you? I’m easy to impress in general. Are there seriously subliminal messages within Disney movies? I don’t care. I watch Disney movies to feel like a kid, man. I ain’t got time to look for symbols that flash on the screen for 0.0000001 seconds. Should cloning ever be allowed to happen? I don’t know enough about biotechnology to hold an opinion that I’m confident with, honestly. Your last injury was what? I have a bit of a gash from when I hit my right hip on the corner of our dining table. I’m pretty sure I also recorded this as my last injury not too long ago, and I swear this is a new gash LMFAOOOOO fuck I’m so clumsy. Are all of your friends going to be lifelong? I don’t wanna set anything in stone. I said my high school friends were gonna be forever, and I couldn’t be any more wrong about it. How long can you stand hanging upside down? :P I can’t even get into that position in the first place, lol. Should pot be legalized? I don’t know. I guess. I haven’t heard any instance where it seriously harmed a person. Weed is generally a taboo subject where I live – and the only thing I know about it is that it’s dealt by the richer, more boujee college kids lmfao – and a consequence of that is that I hardly know anything about it. Is" Family Guy" too random? Random wouldn’t be the first word I’d use for it? but yeah it can be, sometimes. I do remember finding some scenes a little bizarre. Do you have any friends that you love but they annoy you a lot? Yeah this was definitely me with Katreen in high school. In college, the only person I can think of is Mils; sometimes Reiven. Who would you live with if you got kicked out tomorrow? My grandma. I’d move back to our old home, basically. The most repulsive tactic the opposite sex uses? Obviously I wanna avoid generalizing but I’ve encountered so many screenshots of dudes throwing a fit when someone turns them down, or gets surprised that politeness ≠ flirting. It’s so annoying but at the same time I can’t get enough of those screenshots too lol. Are you impatient with really shy people? No, I’m one myself. I have a lot more patience with quiet people than with extroverts. What's gonna happen in year 2012? The year didn’t end, I got into One Direction, I got braces, I met my best friend, and life started to slowly look up from there. Do people consider you "easy to read"? You’ll have to ask people. What's your least favorite curse word? Cunt. Eugh, I winced just typing that out haha. What's a pet your parents never let you have when you were a kid? :( I was never that desperate for a pet. We had enough stray cats that hung out around our house because my grandma would always give them leftovers. Have any websites that have become a habit? Twitter, Tumblr, Facebook, YouTube. Who do you wish you could change, if anyone? My mom, but it’s too late for that now. Has your house ever been broken into? Never. That’s a fear of mine, too. Do you always give your honest opinion when people ask for it? I guess. I’ve stopped being blunt, but I’ll always add a bit of truth into what I say.

#survey #surveys

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