#it’s been about me the entire goddamn time

[symbioticsimplicity]

Don't think about Blitz swallowing back tears to appear angry as he asks Stolas what the fuck the point of keeping this deal up was if he was just looking for a chance to throw him away when he gives him the crystal. Don't think about the face Stolas would make. DEFINITELY don't think about Stolas finally losing his tight hold on his tongue and shouting at Blitz about how it isn't fair to either of them. For Blitz to be trapped by something he doesn't want, or for Stolas who just wants someone to love and value him. How he just wants to mean SOMETHING to SOMEONE so that he doesn't feel like the utter waste of space he's always been told he was. Don't think about him dropping to his knees sobbing or about him berating himself for still being pathetic. Don't think about the violent revelation that would be for Blitz, about how he would suddenly see himself in this man he's convinced himself couldn't be any more different from him.

Don't think about Blitz just standing there and staring for a long moment, before half tripping over himself to drop down and hug Stolas. Don't think about the broken way he'd try to tell him that he gets it, he really really does, but his care and his regard are toxic. Worse than having no one. Don't think about Stolas telling Blitz that his presence in his life has always been one of the only two things to ever make him genuinely happy. Or how Stolas could tell him Blitz's presence, even at its worst has helped him grow into himself in ways he never knew he could, but had always dreamed to.

Don't think about the immovable object of Blitz's disbelief being slammed against the unstoppable force of Stolas' genuine admiration. Don't think about the way hope might begin to blossom in Blitz's eyes or about the way that confidence could creep into Stolas' voice. Because this, this is something he can do, he knows how to talk, how to persuade, when he means it.

Don't think about Blitz putting every bit of obstinate stubbornness in his body toward convincing Stolas that that isn't true. Don't think about Blitz finally airing everything he he's done wrong to everyone he's ever wronged just to make sure Stolas knows he's trash. Knows he's not whoever Stolas has built him up to be in his mind.

Don't think about the horror in Blitz's eyes when Stolas goes still in his arms. How, for no more than a heart beat, Blitz is sure he's done it AGAIN and is already set to snuff that pathetic flicker of hope Stolas momenttarily awoke in him.

Don't think about Stolas's soft, kind voice telling him he doesn't care about that. How he isn't afraid of being hurt, he'd take pain over loneliness any day, and if Blitz hurts him, he will only ever come back for more and more so long as he cares enough to give him that pain.

Don't think about Blitz being both flattered and now terrified because what the actual fuck is wrong with Stolas, didn’t he JUST leave a relationship like that, he's too goddamn good to have to put up with that, didn’t he learn, doesn't he see?!

Don't think about Stolas looking at Blitz with heartfelt desperation, or Blitz looking at Stolas desperate heart feeling. Don't think about Blitz, who wants love more than anything, who wants to be chosen more than ANYTHING, absolutely trembling in the face of true devotion. He has no idea what to do with it, but his whole life has taught him to be opportunistic and he wants.

Don't think about him asking Stolas, one more time, so quietly he barely even sounds like himself "Me?"

Don't think about Stolas looking at him like he's the most glorious being in the cosmos, don't think about the reverence in his tone or the affection in his eyes as he tells Blitz that it's always been him. Don't think about Blitz trying not to cry and losing, settling for at least hugging Stolas so he can't see. The way the owl would wrap his entire body around him, finally finding exactly what he's been looking for and incomparably happy for it. Don't think about Blitz telling Stolas that it hasn't always been him, but that he's the first one he's ever chosen to come back to.

Just some things you shouldn't think about.

#stolitz #wow this really became a flash fic didn't it #whoopsie daisy! #helluva boss #helluva blitzo #helluva stolas

[sasaranurude]

Okay. I've been playing Tokyo Debunker today, since the release happened to catch me on a day when all I'd planned to do was write fanfiction. I just finished reading the game story prologue (it was longer than expected!), so here's a review type post. If you're reading this post not having seen a single thing about this game: it's a story-based joseimuke gacha mobile game that just released globally today. It's about a girl who suddenly finds herself attending a magic school and mingling with elite, superhuman students known as ghouls. If you look in the tumblr tag for the game you'll see what appears to be a completely different game from 2019 or so: they retooled it completely midway through development, changing just about everything about it due to "escalating competition within the gaming industry."

I'll talk about how this looks like a blatant twst clone at the end.

Starting with the positive: The story is charming. I enjoyed it thoroughly the entire time and am excited to read more. The mix between visual novel segments and motion comics was really nice--it broke things up and added a lot of oomph to the action or atmospheric scenes that visual novels generally lack. I like the art in the comic parts a lot. the live2d in the visual novel parts is... passable. Tone-wise, I think the story was a little bit all over the place and would like to see more of the horror that it opened on, but I didn't mind the comedic direction it went in either. The translation is completely seamless. The characters so far all have unique voices and are just super fun and cute. Of the ones who've had larger roles in the story so far, there's not a single one I dislike. It's all fully voiced in Japanese and the acting is solid. (I don't recognize any voices, and can't seem to find any seiyuu credits, so it seems they're not big names, but they deliver nonetheless.) Kaito in particular I found I was laughing at his lines a ton, both the voicing and the writing.

He's looking for a girlfriend btw. Spreading the word.

The problem is like. The gameplay is the worst dark-pattern microtransaction-riddled bullshit I've ever seen. Hundred passive timers going at all times. Fifty different item-currencies. Trying to get you to spend absurd amounts of real world money at every turn. There's like five different indicators that take you to various real-money shop items that I don't know how to dismiss the indicator, I guess you just have to spend money, wtaf. Bajillion different interlocking systems mean you have zero sense of relative value of all the different item-currencies. I did over the course of the day get enough diamonds for one ten-pull, which I haven't used yet. Buying enough diamonds for a ten-pull costs a bit under $60 (presumably USD, but there's a chance the interface is automatically making that CAD for me--not gonna spend the money to check lmfao), with an SSR rate of 1%. BULLSHIIIIIT.

There's like a goddamn thousand-word essay explaining the dozen different types of character upgrades and equippables and equippables for the equippables!! Bad! Bad game design! That's just overcomplicating bullshit to trick people into thinking they're doing something other than clicking button to make number go up! That is not gameplay!

In terms of the actual gameplay, there is none. The battle system is full auto. There might be teambuilding, but from what I've seen so far, most of that consists of hoping you pull good cards from gacha and then clicking button to make number go up. There's occasional rhythm segments but there's no original music, it's just remixes of public domain classical music lmao. I'd describe the rhythm gameplay as "at least more engaging than twisted wonderland's," which is not a high bar

At least there's a cat in the rhythm bit.

And like, ok, I gotta remark on how derivative it is. Like I mentioned in my post earlier, this game is unabashedly aping twisted wonderland's setting and aesthetic. (That said, most of the stuff it steals from twst is magic school stuff that twst also basically stole from Harry Potter, so...?) However, it isn't exactly like twst: in this one, the characters say fuck a lot and bleed all over the place and do violence. Basically, the tone is a fair bit more adult than twst's kid-friendly vibe. (Not, like, adult adult, and I probably wouldn't even call it dark--it's still rated Teen lol. Just more adult than twst.)

Rather than just being students at magic school, the ghouls also go out into the mundane world to go on missions where they fight and investigate monsters and cryptids. Honestly, the magic school setting feels pretty tacked-on. The things that are enjoyable about this would've been just as enjoyable in about any other setting--you can tell this whole aspect was a late trend-chasing addition, lmao. So, yeah, it's blatantly copying twst to try to steal some players, but... Eh, I found myself not caring that much. Someone more (or less) into twst than me may find it grating.

Character-wise, eh, sure, yeah, they're a bit derivative in that aspect too, but it's a joseimuke game, the characters are always derivative. Thus far the writing & execution has been solid enough that I didn't care if they were tropey. If I were to compare it to something else, I'd say the relationship between the protagonist and the ghouls feels more like that of the sage and wizards in mahoyaku than anything from twst. There's some mystery in exactly what "ghouls" are and their place in this world that has me intrigued and wanting to know more about this setting and how each of the characters feels about it. I have a bad habit of getting my hopes up for stories that put big ideas on the table and then being disappointed when they don't follow through in a way that lives up to my expectations, though.

So, my final verdict: I kind of just hope someone uploads all the story segments right onto youtube so nobody has to deal with the dogshit predatory game to get the genuinely decent story lol. Give it a play just for the story if you have faith in your ability to resist dark patterns. Avoid at all costs if you know you're vulnerable to gacha, microtransactions, or timesinks.

#suchobabbles #Tokyo Debunker #it's a global simultaneous release so I'm curious to see how it ends up doing in Japan #it's gonna be competing directly with stellarium of the fragile star which releases in a few days lmao. and is about a magic alchemy school #looks like the two games twt accounts have a similar number of followers #and then theyre competing with bremai releasing in may... #also adding this at the very end since i cant confirm anything: #but i found out abt this game bc it was rt'd by the former localization director/translator of A3en #i dont know if she worked on it or maybe her friend or maybe shes just hype! who knows! but i think her word (or rt) is worth something

[amphiptere-art]

Can I just point out something again.

How am I supposed to care for the main protagonist in Tsams. When they use the woes of the antagonists for their own entertainment?

I don't care how much better of a person Monty has become. I don't care how much better of a person Moon has become. I get and understand that they have every right and reason to be upset with eclipse and blood moon. They have every right to be angry. But do they have them right to laugh and point out the villain sorrow? Am I supposed to feel happy when they tell me every reason and understanding of why I feel sympathy for the villains as a joke?

This is the epitome of Batman laughing at joker for going insane. There is nothing good about joker being insane. For many villains and hero relationships. None of those heroes laugh at the misery of their villains. They will be angry. They will shout. Hell they might not even feel sympathy for whatever the villain had to go through. I can get that. But most don't play it off as a joke. Most don't go haha, that murderer's brother died. Most don't go haha, You're a little twerp that never should have lived.

Those sentences sure don't feel gratifying or hilarious when said in a void does it? Call me a villain kisser. Call me a moon/Monty hater. Have you wondered why some people would be like that? You can hate the killer but you never laugh at what life brought them there. You can wish for their death but you never celebrate the misery of their lives. You may celebrate their death, But you certainly don't mock about it with an air of jokery to those that are left behind in the aftermath.

There is one thing I get from watching real life crime reviews. People will get angry. People will shoot it in the villain's face. They will celebrate the villain's death with cry's and triumphant yells. But no one looks at their life and giggles. No one flonders their death around family no matter how involved they are. You don't do that. There is usually nothing right with how they were treated, And there certainly is nothing right about packaging someone's death certificate in a present, and handing it over to whoever was closest.

I don't care how sweet or better Monty has gotten. I don't care how different of a person Moon is. I don't care how understanding the soft Sun's anger is. I don't care if puppet is some primal entity who was expecting this from the beginning. I don't care if Lunar's jokes are just an expression of anger. At least he has an excuse. At least it feels like lunar is legit joking out of a fit of anger. Everyone else up there has made plenty of jokes and jabs without some sort of anger to cover it up. Sun maybe. But everyone else? Especially our oh so wonderful Monty?! No! I could get it maybe in the sanctity of his home. In the quiet of his friends. But he literally takes the time to drive these villains out into the light and play with them for a bit.

I feel like I'm being force fed this idea that I'm supposed to be okay with this. Like it's entirely okay to look at a villain's backstory and laugh at it! That I'm not only supposed to celebrate a murderer's death, but also joke about it to their family and friends! Everyone in this goddamn fandom hops and skips around that issue because surely it can't be. Surely I can't look at these wonderful characters I've been voting for for ages, and realize that they're jackasses. But they are promoting the worst behavior I have ever seen. Let's just laugh at the jokes. Let's just jear at the expressions. Let us ignore every possible reason why this is the most fucked up shit.

Because for some reason. As long as they have a reason to hate. They have a reason to joke. And while I might understand it as some sort of self therapy. Talking to the villains about it and even there friends is cruel!

#sams #tsams #the sun and moon show #sun and moon show #tmgafs #mgafs #the monty gator and foxy show #monty gator and foxy show #puppet and Monty podcast #pamp #tlaes #laes #the lunar and earth show #lunar and earth show

[lord-squiggletits]

One of my favorite parts of phase 2 (and indeed one of the few moments I resonated with IDW Prowl) was when the neutrals were coming back to Cybertron and Prowl said that he refused to let Autobots be pushed aside and overruled after they were the ones who fought for freedom for 4 million years (the exact wording escapes me atm).

And I mean, that resentment still holds true even once the colonists come on bc like. As much as it's true that Cybertron's culture is fucked up, and as funny as it can be to paint Cybertronians as a bunch of weirdos who consider trying to kill someone as a common greeting not important enough to hold a grudge over.... The colonists POV kind of pissed me off a lot of times, as did the narrative tone/implications that Cybertronians are forever warlike and doomed to die by their own hands bc it just strikes me as an extremely judgemental and unsympathetic way to deal with a huge group of people with massive war PTSD and political/social tensions that were rampant even before the war?

Like, imagine living in a society rife with bigotry and discrimination where you get locked into certain occupations and social strata based on how you were born. The political tension is so bad there's a string of assassinations of politicians and leaders. The whole planet erupts into an outright war that leads (even unintentionally) to famine and chemical/biological warfare that destroys your planet. Both sides of the war are so entrenched in their pre-war sides and resentment for each other that this war lasts 4 million years and you don't even have a home planet any more. Then your home planet gets restored and a bunch of sheltered fucks come home and go "ewww why are you so violent?? You're a bunch of freaks just go live in the wilderness so that our home can belong to The Pure People Who Weren't Stupid And Evil Enough To Be Trapped In War" and then a bunch of colonists from places that know nothing about your history go "lol you people are so weird?? 🤣🤣 I don't get why y'all are fighting can't you just like, stop??? Oh okay you people are just fucked up and evil and stupid then" ((their planets are based on colonialism where their Primes wiped out the native populations btw whereas the Autobots and OP in particular fought to save organics. But that never gets brought up as a point in their favor)) as if the damage of a lifetime of war and a society that was broken even before the war can just magically go away now that the war is over.

Prowl fucking sucks but he was basically the only person that pointed out the injustice of that.

And then from then on out most of the characters from other colonies like Caminus and wherever else are going "i fucking hate you and your conflicts" w/ people like literal-nobody Slide and various Camiens getting to just sit there lecturing Optimus about how Cybertronians are too violent for their own good and how their conflicts are stupid, with only brief sympathetic moments where the Cybertronians get to be recognized as their own ppl who deserve sympathy before going right back to being lambasted.

Like I literally struggled to enjoy the story at multiple points because there was only so much I could take of the characters I knew and loved being raked over coals constantly while barely getting to defend themselves or be defended by the narrative so like. It was just fucking depressing and a little infuriating to read exRID/OP

#squiggposting #and like dont get me wrong barber wasnt trying to make cybertronians the bad guys or whatever #it's just a problem with his writing where like. he has A Message he wants to send #and so he uses the entire story literally just for The Message even if it involves bullshit plotlines #or familiar characters ppl were reading about for the past decade being shit on by OCs made up to fill a new roster #like barber's writing tends to lean way too much on a sort of lecturing tone #without giving proper care towards including moments where characters get to like. fucking express themselves and share their side #sort of like how barber couldnt be bothered to write pyra magna and optimus actually talking to each other during exrid #and instead during OP ongoing pyra is suddenly screaming about how OP is unteachable #even tho she never even tried to teach him bc she and OP never interacted bc i guess barber couldnt be bothered #he just needed someone to lecture OP so fuck making the story make sense or like letting OP get to say anything in defense #this is the infuriating part of barber's writing bc i think he has incredible IDEAS and was in charge of the lore i was most interested in #but most of the time his execution sucks and he's basically just mid with a few brilliant moments occasionally #or like he has a message about the cycle of violence he wants to convey #but his narrative choices trying to convey that theme made his story come off as super unsympathetic to the ppl who suffered #to the point where barber actively kneecapped some scenes that couldve been super fucking intense and emotional #in favor of the characters lecturing each other or some stupid plot to criticize OP #that time in unicron where windblade screamed about how this is their fault and then arcee replied that her planet is build on coloniation #shouldve happened more often than literally the last series of the ocntinuity. like goddamn stfu about your moral superiority #when your own sins are right fhere lol

[lunarharp]

tsukigumi..

#takarazuka #just getting out something meek while the feelings are still pure... idk how to go about drawing real people any more lol #why was the show called that. well whatever #the like..Magic theme bamboozled me. i was fully crying with laughter at the school skit thing what in the goddamn. i just........... #everything reiko says and does is everything to me. i haven't thought about zuka for months but she still has me. #MUSUMEYAKU LIFT??? LIFT OF GIRL BY GIRLY GIRL?? #uh..what else..everything reiko says and does is everything to me. <- repeat of what i just said #her laughter like “ku ku ku” at one point. SHE IS SO FUNNY. I LOVE HER. I LOVE HER. #the way she loosened her tie and umi took off her glove in the duedan......i truly treasure the gentle unspoken sensuality in takarazuka... #umi was shimmering with joy and splendour.......AND MY MAN POCKY. MY MAN POCKY #never forget i am the world's number 1 pocky and pockyheart fan no matter how much time has passed #my whole personality has been witch hat atelier and takarazuka for several years. it makes sense i can only be obsessed with one at a time #from 2014 to 2022 it was entirely zuka. i've earnt my unhingedly emotional witch hat era

[guntapon]

— Langston Hughes.

#bad buddy #bad buddy the series #ohm pawat #pat napat #pranpat #patpran #pat x pran #oh god ok i'm about to tag some bb mutuals. if you don't want me tagging you i'm deeply deeply sorry #ninisdarlings #usernuria #userconcrete #userbillkin #userjjessi #tonanons #tosnimeat #userkit #thai drama #asianlgbtqdramas #* #ok while i definitely mean this in a 'pat's been in love with pran the entire goddamn time and didn't know it' way #(i mean... the guitar. The Guitar.) #i also mean it in a 'pat viewed pran as his friend back then- whether he'd ever have said it out loud or not' sort of way #anyway i've had this set stuck in my head for 3 months now so i figured i'd better finally exorcise it from my brain #i don't know if it's as emotionally effective as i wanted it to be but 🤷‍♀️ #all i know is that it is very pink and also very green and this is the second time in a row i've used that color scheme #it's arizona green tea PPL #pat* #ohm*

[millenniummmbop]

I firmly believe it would take yugi and kaiba years if not DECADES to finally figure it tf out and get together btw

#they'd be in too deep inside their own heads and far too emotionally damaged to even ATTEMPT to say anything to the other about it #like they'll make moves and grow closer as friends while working together but it'll take at least like AT LEAST their mid 30s #b4 they'll be like 'okay MAYBE there's a slight possibility there's actually something tangible here #and i haven't just been hopelessly deluding myself all these years' #I want them on that mulder and scully shit I want it to take 5 fucking seasons for them to even say it out loud to themselves #much less each other #they're going to waste so much goddamn time just staring at each other meanwhile wondering the entire time #if it's really THEM that the other is seeing and not just the ghost of a ghost #i want them to be SO fucking stupid about this fr #the most insufferable game they're going to play w each other #both so smart and so good at reading their opponents under normal circumstances but THIS is where they start second guessing themselves #bc again they just WILL NOT be able to get out of their own heads about it!!! #god i love it it's gonna suck SO HARD for them lmfao #THEY'RE JUST SO DUMBBBBBB #ignore me #i'm in rival hell this week don't mind me

[gentlenotes-moved]

Hey y'all. Minor update

So I went to my new gi doc and she is really nice and sweet. I told her everything and turns out the gerd pills I have rn are the strongest they have and it's the stuff they give full grown adults with stomach ulcers??? I told her it doesn't work at all anymore (and neither does my nausea pill) and she said that that's pretty concerning. Along with the fact that (she said) gerd is most common in overweight, older adults and i'm an underweight 18 year old girl. so.

But I haven't eaten a proper meal since Thanksgiving and I've been basically surviving on granola bars (and OTC antacids which don't do shit lmao) bc for some reason it's the only thing I can keep down almost entirely. I usually eat about two a day and that's pretty much it bc my stomach doesn't seem to able to take more than that. If I try to eat anything more or anything different I'll get to the brink of vomiting for hours, if not the entire day. Like one bite can trigger it.

So my doc was like "well that's not fuckin good! that's concerning as hell!" so I have a scheduled upper endoscopy on Thursday morning and y'all have absolutely NO clue how fucking ecstatic i am for it. Like it's goddamn christmas day. Istg Thursday is the day that's keeping me going rn

#mine #personal #also my dad is taking it HORRIBLY unfortunately. like so much worse than i am. #like this mf is verbally refusing to accept the fact that ~maybe~ there's smth wrong with me. Perhaps. #he's gone from dehydration to covid to 'smth I'll grow out of' to my diet (i already proved that one wrong many years ago) #he's a massive die-hard conspiracy theorist btw and he distrusts doctors with a passion #the entire times it's felt like I'VE been the one comforting HIM about this whole thing. god. #like i get it's scary but like #life goes on?? we'll figure it out dude!! chill!!! #my mom is my greatest source of comfort and she is really tired of my dad being so goddamn paranoid about everything #she says not to take everything my dad says to heart (he's yelled at both of us about my current situation) bc he's just scared #for me. and i know he is. it's so hard to be angry at him

[mr-e-nigma]

You ever find something out and your brain just shuts down for a full day and a half to process it. Yeah

#I knew about riddler and cubot #I’d joke abt that anytime I played the arkham games or watched sonic boom #but hh is what threw me for a goddamn loop #made his part redoin specifically bc it’s been one of my favorite youtube videos for years now #one of my favorite songs even #and it’s been HIS VOICE this entire goddamn time which is just. #I love it even more now. didn’t know that was possible but here we are #arkham riddler #cubot #the riddler #riddler #edward nigma

[ardate]

.

#just me rambling #badvibe #god. i feel so let down by my friends these days #it's been a billion things piling up for many many weeks #and right now i just got told by a friend with whom I was supposed to go to a convention that she forgot I was coming #so she won't be able to pick me up cuz she's going with her mom instead #we made plans for visiting that city in the morning before going to the convention and all. #i put it down in my agenda and moved plans around to accomodate for it. but she straight up... #entirely forgot i was supposed to be there #she forgot about me #and i'm SO. FUCKING DONE. ABOUT BEING AN AFTERTHOUGHT ALL THE FUCKING TIME #this is just too fucking much. between this and my childhood friend who acts distant w me ever since there was a dumbass quiproquo #where i have to fucking work hard everytime at creating a good atmosphere whenever we see each other cuz she wont put in that effort #and another friend who's been utterly ignoring me on purpose for some fucking goddamn reason i don't know why or what i did #ignoring me or being rude other times #all of those are just examples but its been so many things #i have been. SO fucking patient with everyone. ive helped them so many times too- sometimes to my own loss #i've been so kind and understanding despite my personal struggles - keeping my feelings of anger and injustice at bay #and i get what in response? i'm fucking. forgotten i guess. pushed aside. treated like a nuisance #i feel like its at the point where the closer they are to me the less effort they put in. cuz i'm a given now. they can treat me like shit #they treat strangers better than their close friend cuz they know i'll just take it. or smth. i'm a punching ball for bad moods #i'm done being the understanding one. what about that. what if others were the ones having to come to me and be kind instead #what if i was the one people coddled and offered sympathy to for once in my fucking life #idk. just fucking explode #i feel so disrespected. and uncared for #and so deeply unloved #i'm done. i'm done #the convention thing was just the fucking hammer to break my back after everything #i'm so deeply heartbroken #do i matter to the people i care about

[theunderthecover]

A slow-burn Sun-Wukong X Reader fic idea has been stewing around in my head for a while. Without going into too much detail (to prevent this from being 10k+ words), here is the barebones idea:

Sun Wukong has to have a source of income somehow. He has a TV, Personal Lawyer, Video games, Purchases Snacks, etc. So, he (in disguised) gets a job. In being a Monkey King "expert" for hire for any company wanting to create accurate Great Sage Equal to Heaven products or media. In my opinion, it is very in-character.

Reader, who just got a job as Head Director and Writer at a Studio that specializes in Monkey King media (in-universe creators of Monkey Cop and the Monkey King Animated Series). They want to utilize this opportunity to skyrocket their career, which means making this show stand out amongst others.

Then they meet, because Totally-Not Sun Wukong heavily critics Reader's initial scripts and immediately gets on their bad side. They pretty much hate him, but can't do anything because he is the company hired expert. So they decide to be extremely petty, much to Wukong's amusement.

This is full blown One-Sided (on Reader's part) Enemies to Friends to Lovers. How the transition of Enemies to Friends is blurry, but what excites me most is the ideas I have for their Friendship and their Later Romance. It's very sappy and fluffy, Wukong gets all the forehead kisses and soft love that fills the heart till bursting. Its pre-cannon at first, but at some point I want it to dip into canon and eventually become canon-divergent (because I'm a sucker for alternate timelines, it lets you explore characters).

I really expect no one to see or comment on this, it's was not formatted to be in anyway coherent. Just wanted to get at least part of what has been living rent-free in my mind out into the Tumblr sphere.

#lmk fic #sun wukong x reader #left out a lot of specifics #like details of how Reader got the job #or why monkey king needs a lawyer #or even a lot of plans I have to flesh out Monkey King and this version of a Reader-insert as much as possible #they will have several conversations about their immortality/mortality in a way I find would be interesting #its probably gonna happen right in-between the friendship-romance transition #other than that thought tho #bro I just wanna give Sun Wukong forehead kisses and squish his cheeks this fandom has given me a goddamn crush on a Chinese Figure what tH #this fic idea has been me coping with every time I see a cute fan work of this goddamn monkey that makes me go A #I can count the number of actual fictional crushes I've had on one hand and I blame the entire LMK fandom for increasing my short list #this fandom is tiny but holy fuck is it mighty what the heck-

[howtobeamagicalgirl]

My feelings about the staff meeting were 100% spot-on, and it turns out that the staff meeting was, in fact, about ME!!!

#ranntics #a 15 minute bitchfest about how ''people have been calling out when they don't have enough sick time to cover their missed days'' i.e. ME #then a 10 minute vent about how some teachers will bleach toys and set them out to dry and then leave them over the weekend #and then call out sick so the poor assistant manager who was subbing in the room had to put them all away 😭 which was so stressful for her #I know the first part was about me bc after the meeting my CA approached the manager and apologized for being out (her kids have been sick) #and the manager said ''it wasn't about you it was about LeeAnn calling out for the hell of it 🙄'' #I HAD COVID AND FLU SYMPTOMS. FUCKING SHOOT ME. #apparently her issue is that I text her ''I am feeling unwell and will not be in tomorrow'' instead of a list of symptoms #so she thinks I'm lying #.....but like. if I'm lying it is just as easy to type ''vomiting all night sorry can't come in'' #to me sending her a list of symptoms and just saying ''feeling unwell''are the same thing. if she had an issue she could have told me #instead of wasting the valuable time of 20+ other people to vent about it to a group. #oh and the bit about toys being left out was too specific to be about anyone else bc I'm the only person who cleans their goddamn toys #and mine was the only classroom she had subbed in this week #they had both of these talking points typed out and printed on an agenda that they passed out to everyone in the meeting. #y'all both have offices. we could have talked in there. #they don't like confrontation so they hold an ENTIRE MEETING WITH EVERYONE JUST TO TALK SHIT ABOUT ME?? LADIES.

[blujayonthewing]

[pointing at my effusively friendly naked hedonist satyr oc] me

[pointing at my reserved autistic inquisitive gnome oc] also me

#newsflash asshole! all your OCs have been you the entire goddamn time!! #but the STARK difference between the blorbos I'm the most like 'yeah yes this is Me Vibes straight up' is really funny #I'M MULTIDIMENSIONAL #I also vibe really strongly with juniper but that's mostly because she ended up with a lot of my anxiety agdjgks :') my poor baby..... #about me #my OCs #nyssa #felix #juniper

[vampnyx]

unbelievable depression hit bc my roommate is coming back after a long weekend away and god I just need her to move out already

#for context: an old friend moved to my city and we've been keeping her rent the spare room for the past 6 months #i thought she was moving here to hang out with me but she's been blowing me off for one night stands and guys she doesn't even like #like truly a fuckboy. but in a girl way if that makes sense #anyway I've just been feeling like the backup plan this whole time and it drives me more insane by the minute. i need her out #and like telling her doesn't mean anything. i don't want her to hang out w me out of pity or bc i said something #bc then it won't seem like she genuinely wants to #I'll probably just make a snarky comment about it or something. it's what I'm best at #also did i mention she isn't even staying in my city? but moving somewhere entirely different? sorry being around me is so horrible 🙄 #(ok it's bc rent is high here but still. like she just moved here for 6 months for cheap rent and is fucking off. great. cool.) #waste of my goddamn time. ugh

[whoa-where-did-the-pancakes-go]

What if I just don't sleep. What then.

#it is 11:01 and i just finished taking a shower that was supposed to have been taken at 9:30 #look. unless someone (steve usually) forces me to go to bed i will not despite knowing i will be complaining the entire day #“im soooi tiiiiired” well maybe its cause you only slept 6 hours you fucking microwave oven #ik its recommended for teens to get about 10 hours of sleep but if the school system wanted me to be healthy they should not make an entire- #-essay due in three days and maybe consider letting kids have more than 10 days absent or even not starting the day at 8 am what about that #huh??? huh??? wisconsin school system i have a complaint to make #see i get 6 hours of sleep. 7 hours at school. that leaves me 11 hours for personal stuff and a good four of those are spent eating and- #-doing chores and talking to family etc etc. so i get about 7 hours to myself add in showering homework and laying on the floor sobbing #and ive got like 5 and a half hours of free time so excuse me if i like to. yk. do thingsand maybe im not getting the recommended 10 hours #- of sleep. #im regan thank you for coming to my speech i wrote it in 10 minutes it is now 11:12 goodnight of youre going to bed if not? #join me in being a fucking goddamn disaster all the time :)

[elphael]

i have a love/hate relationship with the fact that finding information about the lore of dark souls is like a scavenger hunt across in game item descriptions, wikipedias, youtube videos, and sometimes they contradict each other bc everything is informed by people's biases and what they WANT to be true.

hell, affectionate, but i also get to decide what i want to be true.

#this is about me figuring out whether anatoli and aylinfaris could have been from anor londo the entire goddamn time or if gods r just from