#it’s always really great to be able

[its-a-beautful-day]

Been thinking about how it feels, being the wild child

the struggle of not feeling human, when emotions get too strong,

when hands feel like paws and teeth become fangs, shoulders and hunches raised in anger and low growls of fear,

somehow this body language is easier, is more natural than my own

#star's art #my art #artist on tumblr #vent art i guess #actually autistic #Not really sure what to tag this as #But I was the kid that growled at others #People didnt listen to no and stop #But they do listen to growls and snarls #Unfortunately it also makes you really really lonely #It wasn't always out of anger or fear I'd get to transform #Sometimes on my own I'd be able to play and it was always so much fun #Trampolines are great for crawling soft play sorta thing #Getting to wrestle with our dogs and learn their language #How they play and signal for different moves #How I could mimic it without ears or a tail #I miss the joy of being a creature but I don't have the room currently #Shitty laminate hurts to crawl on #Bleh I know this is my post but I feel I'm blabbing #Idk I hope this resonates with someone like how freeing making it felt

[metanarrates]

the adversary is such an interesting route because through most of the game routes, most actions you can take are not locked behind specific dialogue options, and the actions usually don't need to be "repeated" to achieve a specific path through the route. for example, the path to freeing the specter only requires that you tell her you want to free her, let her possess you, and that you not stab yourself with the knife, in order to achieve that.

but the adversary has a few unique and somewhat non-intuitive actions you can take with her (flipping her the bird and even having her allow you to stab her in order to prove she can't die) that are locked behind dialogue options, and those dialogue options don't even clearly point to you being able to unlock those actions. additionally, you have to repeatedly choose to fight her in the exact way she wants if you don't want her to evolve into the fury or the eye of the needle.

i guess it fits to have the route most defined by stubbornness and rivalry requring you to pick a course of action and stick to it, but the amount of unique actions allowed within this route (even leaving her in the basement can trigger some unique scenes!) makes me wonder if it was the first developed. most routes in video games have "convergence" points with very few subvariations in order to cut down on having to develop too many distinct outcomes. while it's true that slay the princess has an unusual amount of distinct variations in each route, it's still also got a lot of convergence points that reuse the same art pieces with just slightly different dialogue. it feels significant to me that the adversary has a lot of unique scenes and art compared to some of the other princesses

#narrates #slay the princess #do note that EVERY SINGLE ROUTE however has a lot of hidden and interesting stuff going on with each option you can take. #it just feels like an early artifact of development that you can DISCOVER REALLY FREAKY LORE ABOUT HOW THE PRINCESS WORKS #locked behind a set of kind of nonintuitive dialogue options that occur while actively fighting her #it's a good scene though. recommended. #also HUGE shoutout to being able to SCARE the adversary by fighting her unarmed and getting up repeatedly #after she's literally beat us into pulp #great way to do a horror turn ONTO a being who has always been the source of horror in the past #haha we're the zombie creature now! #slay the princess is great I think everyone who likes horror games should give it a shot :)

[spearxwind]

been thinking about for a long time how i really missing doing creative projects with others but at the same time its always blown up in my face so i think im not going to do it anymore

#its great when it works but when it doesnt (always for me) it just sucks real bad and at this point i think id just rather do my own thing #thunderclap #on the flipside i miss discussing oc stuff with friends but i havent been able to do that for a long time for various reasons #esp. just bouncing ideas off of each other which is how i used to do worldbuilding or at least getting some feedback and i think thats #why recently i have stagnated so so so much in terms of worldbuilding i dont really have anything going on with anyone #art is a collaborative between you and the world but what do you do when no one around you really cares? #i know venting about it on my blog wont fix it by any means but its my god given right to complain about it <3

[iridescentis]

ive been trying to have coherent thoughts but i haven't even had a chance to process the dnpcrafts video because my brain has just been consumed by shourtney ive been giggling and kicking my feet for the past 24hrs im officially losing it

#i haven't really been a 'shipper' of anything in a long time #im a very apathetic 'anyone can be cute together' person #so shourtney has just been 'aww sweet dynamic' thats it for me #ive also only been watching smosh for like a year #but nope it is all i have been able to think about since yesterday #i just love seeing people happy!! #i don't care whos with who as long as they're being happy and adorable!! #i also haven't experienced a big fanbase freak out in a while #those are always fun #ive witnessed a few but never really participated in the chaos #im having a great time #smosh #shourtney

[iceinherheart-kissonherlips]

you'll never get away from the sound of the woman that loves you  🎶

#dwedit #rd edit #river song edit #eleventh doctor #river song #doctor who #is it great? no. does it make sense? no. not really.I just wanted to make it #because this quote kind of makes me go feral #because imagine river. a ghost. trying to get a closure from a man who supposedly loved her #but it seems to have forgotten all about her. put her on a shelf life a book that wasn't even that great and engaging #and so she haunts him. first trying to get a reaction and realising that he can't hear or see her #and so then she talks. about their adventures. about her love. how she misses him. how she's always missed him #she'd tell him about her solo advenures #how much fun she used to have and she'd tell him how many times she stole his TARDIS and he didn't even notice #and she'd make fun of him piloting the TARDIS ('hundreds of years and you still can't do that. you really did get that flying licence in a p #and during these rare times when he slept she'd read or tale him fairytales. because why not? what does she have to lose? #and yet. he heard her all the time. every single time. #but he never talked to her. why would he? to do that he'd have to acknowledge that he'd lost her for good. just like her parents. just like #and river - she was supposed to be different. a touchstone. someone who would be able to keep up with him. stay with him. they would always #and yet. he was left all alone. his wife gone. a ghost of her was all he could have. he should set her free but he was a selfish man. so he #is it too much? or not enough? #idk they just make me go feral tbqh. what can I say I want me faves to suffer :) #mine #long post #otp: the towers sang and you cried

[skitskatdacat63]

I HATE BEING BURNT OUT, JUST PLEASE LET ME DO SOMETHING CREATIVE INSTEAD OF ROTTING

#i just feel like a horribke weird guilt for not being able to make anything UGH #and i try to draw or write #and its mostly just super frustrating #i want to answer all those au asks but i CANNOT GET MY BRAIN INTO GEAR #why does my creativity always fail when i suddenly have unlimited free time #me: oh great im on break :D i can finish all my WIPs :D #my brain: no :) you may only rot in bed :) #and also be cursed with a million ideas that i cannot execute at all #grrrrrrr brain grrrrrrr #rip chair wip you haunt me daily </3 #the most i get is writing a few sentences every day for a boy king thing #its just annoying bcs ik how it will go but my brain only works in chunks at a time #and i keep staying up really late which is not helping i dont think #but like i keep staying up later and later like: maybe i will get a sudden burst of drawing ability #catie.rambling.txt

[seagull-scribbles]

From Chapter One of On Mistakes and Birthdaycake by @bemmiecake on AO3

I started reading this fic when it first came out and it’s had such a huge impact on how I think of knuckles and you have definitely seen it’s influence in my art this past year! So it only seemed fair to try do something for the fic itself x

#sth #knuckles the echidna #tikal the echidna #I out tikal in blue because that was a royal Mayan colour and also water and chaos yaknow #and knuckles always gets green in my book tbh #I kind of merged my own design with the description from the fic to meet it halfway #this is the most canon I’ve drawn Tikal in a while ahahaha #on mistakes and birthdaycakes #bemmiecake #it’s been so long since I did fanfiction art #I miss being able to read fanfiction tbh #this one’s been like really good with me self projecting and trying to heal I guess #but I’m not going into that here #this is a beautiful unfinished fic about expectations and self pressure and found family #it’s got great details and world building and a lot of fun echidna culture and law interwoven into it #it’s tagged as sonamy and kuxouge but I don’t ship them and I’ve really enjoy it regardless it’s not in your face #so don’t let that deter you #it’s still being update btw it’s not abandoned but as of uploading this it is unfinished #I really wanted this to have an ethereal feel and also be like a book illustration so #messy by intention and I didn’t render the marking cause I really wanted them to pop that’s what I want your eyes to be drawn too #oh I forgot this fic actually goes into knuckles connection with the metals and how it calls to him and how he can feel and #sence chaos energy in everything and nom nom nom I am eating it up

[magentagalaxies]

just finished interviewing bellini for one of my finals in my comedy class and i'm losing my mind over bellini going on a tangent about how if he were grading my comedy over the past year he would give me an A+. like i didn't ask him to say that and it wasn't related to any of the questions i asked but you better believe i'm leaving that in to be like see professor? BELLINI gave me an A+!!!

#it was very sweet lmao and a great conversation over all #last time i was in town i told bellini a one-liner i came up with about the 2SLGBTQIA+ acronym having the exact qualifications #for a strong password (8 letters a number and a special character) and he said he's repeated it to several people #and it's always gotten a big laugh!! which is so cool!!! i'm not typically a ''joke'' writer my stuff is usually character-driven #so that's awesome that both bellini AND scott really loved that line!! #bellini in particular has been such a fan of my comedy since we first met (across multiple eras now) #like we met while i was working on my musical ''other girls'' and he was so excited to hear about it when i first mentioned it #and had me send him the recording as soon as i got it #and he's been so helpful in developing aubrey as a solo sketch character too #it's so cool having a professional comedian (especially one with such a meticulously good ear for comedy like bellini) #be as excited about my work as i am and be able to help me refine it into something even better #and especially as a queer comedian today who's finding it difficult to navigate this landscape of being ''bad representation'' #bellini having been an openly gay comedy writer for almost double my lifetime is such a great resource to have!! #of course a lot of this is true for scott too (tho scott hasn't actually *seen* any of my comedy yet. he's just heard me tell jokes from it #but bellini is such a special mentor for me and i'm so happy we randomly connected over mouth congress over a year ago

[8rujaa]

my therapist really saved me….

#tw abuse // tw sa #i can’t sleep bc i keep thinking about this. #like i probably would’ve not been here if it weren’t for her #i started seeing her january of 2023… my life has changed entirely since then and she was definitely the one who got the ball rolling #literally so much has changed since then and it’s all because of her #i was so dissociated during our first few sessions #thanks to her i was able to get diagnosed and medicated for adhd. i was able to realize i was in an abusive situation and plan a way out #i was able to focus on myself and my healing and she’s helped me reframe so much of my negative thinking #i was able to process a lot of emotions and become a better version of myself with each session #she’s truly incredible. #i remember the first comment she made about the relationship had been ‘’so it’s like there’s an imbalance of control in the relationship’’ #i had put my partners on such a high pedestal that i had no idea they could be doing anything wrong #and i asked her what she meant and she said ‘from what you’ve been describing it’s sounds like a strict parents and child type of dynamic’ #she told me they didn’t need to understand why i wanted to leave and they didn’t need to make that decision. if that’s what was going to be #best for me the only thing i could do is let them know my reasoning and simply leave. i didn’t need their permission.’’ #i remember being so confused at that realization bc like… i had been putting their emotions over mine the whole time i had forgotten simply #doing what’s best for me was an option… l #ever since then i’ve been putting myself first and it’s been a steady uphill from rock bottom… i’ve made an incredible amount of progress #when i first started with her getting out of bed and walking to the kitchen was incredibly difficult and took all my strength. #yesterday i conquered a mountain!!!!!!! i hiked all the way to the top!!!!! :D #me a year ago thought it was going to take me years and years to recover. as soon as i left i made leaps of progress #im incredibly proud of myself and grateful for her. and my reiki lady she’s also been a great great help. #the silver lining is i realized who really matters. and the relationships i cared about deepened. #my sweet virgo friend was the one who was always like ‘THATS A GROWN ASS MAN WHO CANT UNDERSTAND BASIC CONSENT???’ #LMFAO i would be like ‘but he has trauma and bla bla bla’ she looked me dead in the eyes and said #’jess you said with your last boyfriend that you would never make excuses for a man who was hurting you again. stop defending him.’ #she’s really a gem and i treasure her with my life. i hope she knows i love her. she’s family at this point #she’s also literally saved my life before (like deadass called 911 for help) #im glad i had the support system i had. that was a rough situation with so many layers and im glad i got through it #my 22nd year of life was by far the worst of my life and i don’t ever want to put myself in that situation again. im glad i learned.

[ilovefredjones]

something about the same actor playing bolkonsky AND andrey. it makes the audience question how much of andrey’s cruelty is inherited from his father, and how much of it is a result from the war.

both are mentioned in the only song andrey physically appears in: ‘there’s a war going on’ andrey says, a callback to the prologue. in that song, the characters sing ‘the war can’t touch us here’ — an ironic statement, now. and pierre says that andrey ‘smiled just like his father / coldly, maliciously.’

andrey is malicious, and wary, and exhausted. there’s a war going on. his cruelty is echoed in the way the son is playing his father. his father is playing his son. words and notes are sung with similar cadence and emphasis. how justified is andrey? how much did the war change him, or how much can the war excuse his maliciousness? andrey does not break the cycle of his father’s cruelty, but how much of it is his fault? there’s a war going on, after all.

#andrey is SUCH a character like he’s only physically in one song #and yet the entire story of great comet is shaped around him #would natasha try to run away with anatole if andrey was here? #the entire prologue we are reminded that ‘andrey isn’t here’. he isn’t here. there’s a hole in this story #and the entire plot caves in around it #anyway i love you intricacies of character #i love you grey morals #i was watching a boot & dude the bit where andrey says #‘if you wish to be my friend...’ etc and the way he almost LUNGES as pierre who has to stumble back. MAN #like oh you threaten your best friend now? #something about andrey not being able to break the cycle. but is it his fault? there’s a war going on after all #the great comet of 1812 #andrey bolkonsky #EDIT yes i did put my tags in the post they were just really good and summed it up better #OHHHHH and the way andrey literally can’t break the cycle. the same man is always going to play him AND his father. something about+ #narratives and time loops and the inescapability of theatre

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

Sometimes I feel very sad that I didn’t just focus on one creative skill. I look at my art some days and go I wish I’d spent all my time making only that, because that way it would look better and I’d do more and it wouldn’t matter if I couldn’t write very well because my art would be amazing and I’d be able to make the stuff I really want to and maybe even get a job related to it and I wouldn’t feel like so much time was wasted. And often times it really does feel like you’re wasting time and everything is telling you to just pick something to focus on so it can mean something and you can never seem to pick one of anything.

And then other days I feel like an absolute GOD. Anyone else able to write your own fic and then draw art for it just because you can? Can you make an edit/amv after writing a silly little analysis post on the show/character that is so perfectly on beat and fits the lyrics and with transitions so slapping you get chills while watching? Can you write a short silly ditty on the guitar about how you’re feeling using the eight chords know and belt it out only a little bit off key then do a choppy little animation of your sona singing it?

I may not be the most skilled at all of the above, and it can be a little lonely to be a one man band who doesn’t play half as well as a lot of people out there, but when your power goes out or your wifi dies or you have a day off, everyone else is busy and you’re alone...

you play the best gosh dang music in existence

#knox rambles #feeling some kinda way lately o7 #these kinda vibes come back every once in a while #just gotta remind myself that ten year old me would go insane over the fact I can do what i can do #even if I'm not the best out there I am sure the best me out there #and that's pretty cool #i may only know one strum pattern on guitar and half a dozen chords at best #i may not be very good with punctuation and grammar while writing and I reuse words too much #I may do my art all leaning a little to the left too much and proportioned weirdly #I may export my amv's wrong so they're not on beat or forget good audio that would have made it REALLY great #I may write analysis's that are a little biased and look back on them and cringe a bit #I may only be able to animate the simpliest and shortest things and then go months even years at a time without animating #I may struggle to do animatics for what feels like no reason even if i want to so badly #but I can do all that stuff #I can write i can read and I can draw I can play guitar a bit i can sing I can make animatics animations amv's #and wow that's pretty incredible if you ask me #rambling rambling zero thoughts head empty YEET HGSDFLKJSDF #creative insecurities #they always sneak up on you a bit hglksjdfsdf #pretty safe to say I wouldn't be a creative if I didn't feel inadequate every person to ever create usually feels some kinda way ghsdflk;jsd #lays down #woo #hoping I can get back into the swing of being creative #things been pretty rough at home but I miss making stuff #ANYWAY HOPE Y'ALLS HAVING A FIRE DAY

[our-summer-is-winter]

Would you beat me to death if I confess that I just don't like using ao3

#not because “ao3 is hosting problematic content” or for whatever reason #there's just something about this website that makes me not really vibe with it #maybe that's one of the reasons why i never bothered enough to make an account there #this plus whole invitation system but. let's move on #i don't like culture surrounding this website either even though im not sure am i even able to put into words what's bothering me exactly #maybe because i think it's always great when there are multiple websites you can choose from and pick the one best suiting your needs but #ao3 truthers always push this “ao3 or nothing” agenda #“wattpad sucks” “ff net sucks” i think those websites are so much different than ao3 that comparing them with each other is pointless #ao3 is just very different thing than wattpad or ff net #and not everyone has to vibe with ao3 the same way not everyone vibes with wattpad

[itspileofgoodthings]

Gosh I just really love the blank slate of teaching every day, it’s kind of everything to me

#I don’t even mean in terms of knowledge. I mean in terms of mood and emotion #I hate having a bad interaction with someone or a weird one and not being able to have a chance to kind of smooth it over #but with teaching and with kids after the weirdest hardest day you get to show back up and it’s DIFFERENT #it’s always different and generally the mood has passed and you’re just given the opportunity to make things right simply by moving forward #the context prevents awkwardness or buildup #things can’t really fester #or the odds are a lot lower #their age and short attention spans help with this 😂 #and my own forgetfulness of anything but the present moment tbh #like just. omg HI let’s have a GREAT DAY IT’s A NEW DAY #that’s why that one student who got mad at me and started sulking in my tiny class was so terrifying because the chasm was widening #and tbh I don’t know what I would have done if she hadn’t responded well to my efforts to reach back out #Anyway I need to go get ready just chattering #always a lot to say #teaching tag

[thedevotionaltour]

i love writing an extremely sleep deprived rushed essay on the insane interest of my mind. through the power of love I Won. she also loved my essay on black cartoonists last semester she put up with two semesters of my comics in my fine art history classes. love her forever. "your catalogue was a bright light in the grading pile and i am sincerely grateful for it" I WON.

#static.soundz #i take great pride in that final comment i really do. you found my comics essay among the many what i definitely assume to be far better #catalogues and not only that but catalogues on fine art which is your specialty and the students who know how to make those #you found mine to be a bright light you are grateful for? genuinely i could cry. #i love having the chance to show people the worth of comics as an art form and how much effort and skill goes into them #like they will never be and never should be considered fine art. but they are an art form worthy of study filled with immense skill #just like all other art fields! i'll always be glad to know i have made some ppl who never thought about comics b4 able to appreciate them

[viking-illustrator]

If you’re following me here because you found me on twitter dot com, feel free to say “hi!”.

#I’ve made some good friends over there but usernames aren’t always the same #if you’re not on twitter #first off congratulations & I admire you #second that place makes a shitshow look like highbrow theatre #basically Apartheid McGee over there decideded in his latest Grand Tech Idea in a long string of Great Tech Ideas #to limit the number of posts each user is able to view each day #yeah not posts you can post #which might make slightly more sense #but posts you are allowed to SEE #which is really just wild to add in a feature to your website that says “users should not use this website

[99probalos]

beach episode!

#IM SO SORRY I FORGOT TO POST THIS . LORD #i finished this like a week or two ago it just slipped my mind to actually post #anyways hello everypony #thank you to will for the lovely idea ❤️ as always #i just really like the idea of jacob being a total flake and everyone else just hanging out because theres nothing better to do #but theyre still friends because friendship is magic <3 #ehehe. anyways i hope u all enjoy #sid totally throws big rocks off of bridges . i love him #anyways #siddex my beloved #OH ALSO. 70s au update #im about 1/3 through chapter 4 #i had to stop writing for a bit bc i was housesitting but im back now #im having a lot of fun writing julie... i like being able to bounce around from memory to the present #and finally having jacob here is. well. its setting things in motion #my apologies for not updating you guys as often as i used to #summer is. well. its great until its not #but i promise u i am working on it !!! #that makes it sound like im not. um. just trust me guys #rlm #redlettermedia #gorilla interrupted #art #dex #sid #julie #ray grabowski #siddex #fanart