#it’s all flooding back to me

[colesawicn]

i love you songs about loss and grief and longing with water metaphors I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH

#they’re so crazy for this #exo is releasing depressing music again #we are sooo back #dyk they played angel of small death as bgm on exo ladder s2 #yup #a win for ME #exo #let me in #exo let me in #exo exist #exist album #album: exist #exo 7th album #hozier #through me (the flood) #unreal unearth #eat your young #all things end #francesca #i love them pls

[moistvonlipwig]

truthfully i do think the narrative (embraced both by fandom & by spike) that the scoobies 'kicked buffy out of her own house' is flawed to say the least. what actually happens is that buffy refuses to stay and watch the potentials be led by faith. so the potentials & the scoobies, all of whom have every right to not want to be led by someone who just led them into a trap and who seems utterly unwilling to listen to their opinions and quite frankly who has not been very nice to them at all for the past few months, say: okay, then leave. so she leaves. i would hardly call that 'kicking her out'. she couldn't handle their decision, so she threatened to leave, and dawn called her bluff. and honestly she comes back a much better, more well-adjusted, and emotionally balanced person so. you know. it kinda seems like it was for the best! i know btvs fandom is very protective of buffy but the truth is that everyone needs to get bonked on the head with a rolled-up newspaper sometimes. even buffy. especially season 7 buffy

#like on a narrative level i dislike this storyline because it seems to mostly exist to prop up spike #and i love spike but i despise characters being disingenuously propped up at the expense of other characters #but on an in universe level dawn asking her to leave was the right move. it's odd to me that so many people believe otherwise. #also. the house is in her name and she could definitely take them all in a fight. if she really wanted to stay she could've stayed lol #buffy the vampire slayer #btvs #it's what you do afterwards that counts #i'm gonna be a fireman when the floods roll back

[newlyacquiredbois]

Imola GP was canceled because of flooding in the region.

Some drivers posted this, which is the official relief fund for anyone that wants to donate:

For people that don't use IBAN, this is a global fundraiser, from what I can tell it's safe and legit.

I believe that the drivers here mean the absolute best, but i need everyone to understand that this is NOT going to be over in a couple of days.

This is going to take YEARS.

#sorry not sorry for all my hockey people #this is important this is climate change #ugh i lived through a flood 2 years ago and we're still so far removed from back to normal this is making me so sad #more people to go through it #anyway i know we all dont have a lot of money but i would appreciate it if we can all spread the word #formula 1 #f1 #george russell #max verstappen #charles leclerc #esteban ocon #yuki tsunoda #imola gp 2023 #imola f1 #imola #emilia romagna grand prix 2023 #emilia romagna gp 2023

[screambirdscreaming]

At the bus stop one time there was a gaggle of preschoolers waiting to catch the bus for a field trip day, and someone walked past with a couple of friendly little dogs, to great general delight.

But after a little bit, the dogs were getting overwhelmed, and the preschoolers were gently coaxed to back off so the person with the dogs could continue on. Specifically, one of the preschool teachers said, "Sometimes, when you're small, being surrounded by big people can be a bit scary and overwhelming. Even if they are friendly."

This was recieved as great wisdom: after all, the preschoolers were also small, and understood how scary and overwhelming big people could be! And the dogs were indeed even smaller than the preschoolers, so it made sense.

What was funny and charming was that, upon absorbing and reflecting on this wisdom, they all felt the need to tell it to one another. In tones of great insight, they turned to one another and said, "Did you know? Sometimes when you are small, being surrounded by big people can be scary and overwhelming! Even if they are friendly!" Back and forth, without any particular concern that they were all saying the same thing. Have reached comprehension of an insight, it must be shared!

I must say that this behavior is less charming in tumblr users than in preschoolers. Not least because tumblr users, having gained a little analytical skill to misuse, insist on Summarizing and Generalizing and Unifying the insights they repeat, quickly turning any interesting new information into formulaic dogmatic mush.

#i made the mistake of looking in the notes of the beach sand post i reblogged to see if anyone else had interesting comments #And the rate at which it went from like #1) person states with moderate confidence an opinion based on their personal observations #2) multiple people reply with “wow thats so insightful!” (aka it aligns with my preconceived notions of how things work) #3) someone else adds additional personal observations which are not really relevant but which can be absorbed into the narrative #4) people start outright stating the underlying belief on which this bias is constructed as if it were a fresh insight #5) general derisive attitude towards people who haven't seen the Obviously Correct solution to this complex real world problem yet #It's very....... #It's not like it's a high stakes post but it's such a microcosm of the whole dogmatic phenomenon #Also this js a more specific gripe to My Field or w/e #But the degree to which people react to the problems caused by the whole “Control of Nature” era of engineering #with this equally reductive “Nature will Fix Everything” type of attitude #Is sooooo frustrating. #Yes a great many of our current problems could have been avoided if we had not made massive changes to ecosystem processes on the assumptio #That they were simple and we understood them. And that they would respond in predictable ways. #the simplicity in retrospect of “wow we Should Not have done that” does not mean that they are simple to undo! #You can't go back in time. You can't turn back the clock on chaotic processes #Which is. Almost every process ever. #Restoration is hard! Returning to previous regimes of sediment or flooding or fire is tricky and full of foibles! #Moving towards a future which doesn't suck as much even if the past cant be recreated is also uncertain and difficult! #It's frustrating to see people act all high and mighty about how they Respect Nature unlike whoever is making all these decisions #When their understanding of the natural processes in question is AS simplistic as the people who caused the whole mess back in 1910 or w/e #Like I'm not saying there's not bad interests standing in the way of functional restoration on all levels #That's very much a fight to be fought. #But looking at that fight-in-process and saying “wow none of you Respect Nature like me uwu let nature fix it” #Is. #Ugh.

[lesbiradshaw]

just started thinking about bradley as a teenager struggling with his emotions both pre and post his mother’s death/fall out with maverick but not wanting to reach out for help because a history of mental health problems can get you disqualified from enlisting in the service. happy saturday guys.

#that boy should have been in therapy from ages 2 on up like. #i def hc that carole took him to someone when he was younger but bradley probably stopped going once he was older and was given the choice #but like. idk. picturing carole trying to bring up him going back after she gets sick because she KNOWS he needs to talk to someone #and maverick cant be there all the time. but bradley says no because hes a teenager and hes started thinking about how to make himself + #appealing to the navy and that opens a whole other can of worms where carole sees that but doesnt want to deny him #because she can see hes already having a hard time with things as they are. #mav trying to convince him to go and bradley pointing out it’s hypocritical because maverick doesnt like talking about his feelings either #i just think people ignore his trauma So Much. they only pay attention to the maverick and goose bits #but they fail to consider how even before the maverick stuff happened bradley had a lot to deal with from a very young age #he spent most of his life on his own! he lost the people he loved most OVER and OVER… #the amount of trauma that must have come flooding back when phoenix (&bob but phoenix is clearly bradleys closest friend) had to eject #i think thats why people painting him as angry & agressive because of the scene where he yells at mav never sits right w me #that moment is so incredibly raw for both of them. bradley lashing out when hes just been triggered is not that surprising???? #anyways. #carolcore #bradley rooster bradshaw

[ecto-stone]

I used to have this weird phase where i doodle like hundred of Cartoon charater into PPG back in fouth grade.

#like if i remember correctly i even gave vlad some PPG OC children before S3 #start to air in VN #it air at like 1 in the morning #but darm does it scratch my brain itch for action cartoon #PPG i mean #but unfortunately all those sketch book is destroyed after a huge flood back in 2008 #and me being self destructive in my teen phase and use them as ghost money fuel so no one would see #themm #Chuckle now that i think about it #maybe i send them all to my ancestor in the afterlife by burning them like that

[pastelchad]

In my heart of hearts JJR takes place somewhere in the late 2000s and SIH takes place in the early 2010s

#junjou romantica #sekaiichi hatsukoi #im sorry i know its all supposed to take place 'now' for manga serialization reasons or whatever #but i dont have access to either manga and tbh it just feels right to me #like their flip phones in the anime and the clothes #like misakis stupid layering habit and his love of capris and flood pants is very 2000s #ive been writing and im looking up 2010s fashion and reminding myself of the horrors #ritsuko was definitely a peter pan collar tan suede shoes hair ribbon high ponytail skater skirt girl #you know #also didnt someone figure out that most of sih happens during junjous timeskip #so misaki isnt much younger than ritsu i think #also! the cab ritsu uses to get back to the office after picking up a manuscript. wtf is a cab after 2017. its def 2012 atp

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

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#genuine question which may sound stupid #bc i always experience this i thought maybe it was universal #but if you watch or listen to something sad do you also get immensely sad? #like... as if all your sadness of your entire life comes flooding back? #not just 'oh this movie is sad' but like. oh yeah there's my old friend depression. she is def still there #like i can be doing so fine all week and then it's like a shadow falls over me reminding me of what is always always lurking #anyways. that's why i don't often indulge in sad media :) #my posts #i explained it poorly and also this was caused by fellow travelers :) #queer grief might be the worst of all

[livwritesstuff]

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#y'all if you see me slowly start adding all my dad-verse drabbles to ao3...no you don't #I had a dream a few nights ago in which tumblr completely shut down and......my google doc has very few final drafts #would like an archival record even just for me #also - if anybody knows how back-dating works pls lmk #there's over 100 of these and I really don't want to flood the steddie tag that many times 😅

[frasermints]

i love hockey i love hockey tumblr i love everyone in the liveblog tags i love all of you that have invited me to discord servers i love all of you that scream about men and women in my dms i love my girlfriend i love that the leafs brought us together against literally the worst odds i love that my best friend is a [team] hater just like me even if the ones we hate happen to be opposites 100% of the time i love that we all stay up late and wake up early and shuffle our schedules and sneak our phones at work just to watch games i love that we love this sport. i love that we love each other. i love that we love each other. i love hockey. i love hockey tumblr.

#nhl #my post #this is all of you #everyone not just the people i talk to obviously or regularly #it's conn and cari for following me first 🫶🏽 i love you both more than i can express #it's k for sticking around and loving me despite my leafitis and asking you ref questions and endless temper tantrums #it's rick and meg and aoife and claire and shay #sofia for being the only one deranged enough to share my kailer brainrot #it's cait. it will always be cait. for tolerating me unfollowing you twice before we found this 🥰 #it's froggie for getting me here. for that flood of 1988 and sidgeno recs in your bookmarks back in july #and the gif of auston and video of mitch and sid at allstars that finally sold me on watching hockey #it's all of you #love you

[8rujaa]

to anyone dealing with ptsd, has there been anything that has helped relieve some of the symptoms?

#im emotionally stuck due to the constant reliving of what happened #i get these weirdly intense flashbacks where i can remember the how the fabric of the couch looked like up close #and how they felt. and how everything looked. the way the colored lights hit the room a certain way #i think i did myself a disservice by thinking i was soooo in love that i didn’t want to forget any details lmao #now i can remember everything like a photograph and sometimes i find myself back in my old apartment and the fear floods my chest #and i can’t breathe and my stomach starts turning it’s terrible. i really felt like i was in hell #i stopped smoking ouid 3 weeks ago bc whenever these flashbacks would happen the high would make them HD and it would send me into a loop #but now i think weed was the thing keeping me above water… it’s been a rough 3 weeks. but before i start smoking again #i wanted to ask if anyone found something else that made it a little easier #it’s been months since our break up and i really want to move on. i’ve tried to meet other people but i’m terrified of men #and i find myself unable to connect with anyone… #i’ve been physically better which i am so grateful for because being unhealthy was my biggest reason i was so depressed #i’ve been doing therapy but i talk about the same thing with her every week. i’m tired of it #i think i’m still in disbelief that they did that to me. i never thought they’d be capable of hurting someone so badly. #i can’t get over the fact that he r***** me for months while i was disabled and pretended not to know what he was doing was bad #i realized he knew when he tried to make it look like i was crazy. that made me really sad. i think i was hoping he was clueless so #i could still believe he was a good person… or at least the man i fell in love with. i was willing to forgive him once he apologized… #when he tried to make it seem like i was going insane the blindfold came off and i saw him for who he really was #like no wonder i was so scared of u dude… no wonder i kept having panic attacks anytime we were together and i couldn’t sleep next to u #i’ve been afraid to admit that shit broke me as a person. i don’t think i’ll ever be the same. i can’t function. #plus knowing i stayed for her bc i was worried for her and didn’t want her to experience the same thing without someone there bc i realized #how good he was at gaslighting and lying. only to find out she was waiting for an excuse to get rid of me… she wanted me gone… #i went thru all that for nothing… #and i still don’t understand why each time i tried to leave for my own good- to get medical help and support they begged me to stay!!! why #brain vomit

[ruegarding]

mmm okay i have a handful of comments/crit i want to get off my chest later today and then i'll be done.

#i was waiting for the show to be over for most of my thoughts so this is not going to be a regularly thing #just in case ur worried abt me flooding ur page w crit all the time #so today (and tomorrow perhaps) might be a little show crit heavy but that's it! #i will not be back until way later today tho so see u then 🫡 #🪸

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

Three things I have been learning:

do things that aren't on the internet. with real people. don't get all your opinions online, because it's not a solid depiction of reality. it really really isn't. HOWEVER--don't entirely discount the internet, bc while it is a cesspool of nonsense many times, I have also met all my best friends on it, and I am endlessly thankful for them and legitimately do not know where I would be today without them.

if a song speaks to something extremely deep in you throughout your life, that probably means something. think about it sometimes. try to figure out why it resonates like that, and discern if that means something that could be important or helpful to you.

Van Gogh is my favourite artist for a reason that's about more than just his paintings.

#I'm not staying on here long tonight because I desperately need sleep #but hello everyone. hope you have been well. I have been through a rollercoaster these past few months #but to quote c. s. lewis--readers be advised that the Devil is a liar #and one of the lies he's been trying to tell me lately is that I don't need friends in my life #and that all my problems would probably be fixed if I just went off on my own and cut out the people who care about me #which is STUPID but hey. see the above C. S. Lewis quote again. #anyway I still love y'all and I hope that I can be back here soon! #I will be clearing out my following list a bit tho. bc it's not good for my mental health to have so many different opinions flooding in #constantly when I don't have a great support system in place irl to work through them. #it's not personal it's just what I have to do to stay sane :) #gurt says stuff

[vivanightcity]

for real

anyone who likes stardew/harvest moon style games

roots of pacha is the fucking best

holy shit. So good.

It does something really different and interesting with what's become an over saturated genre. And. Amazingly. It has an actually pretty fun and not annoying fishing mini-game. And a little rhythm game to tame animals.

#I hope it takes off as well as stardew did but i doubt it #i know stardew kinda hit a lucky streak since no harvest moon games had been good for a while when it came out #there was the whole split with story of seasons and harvest moon and all that #and they weren't pc games anyway #and now the market is FLOODED with often pretty shoddy and cheap imitations trying to cash in #or genuine but newbie attempts with little in the way of unique gameplay or ideas #but roots of pacha is giving me all the first time playing stardew vibes #from way back before shane and emily could be romanced #i have nothing against games that do the exact same thing as harvest moon or stardew - i love them #but i like it when they have something different they focus on as a primary thing #like is it more combat focused or more about running a business or more about animals or more about brewing potions #add in a unique aesthetic and setting? top notch

[deniigi]

Hai!

So, i know its been a while, and as much as i love your star wars stuff i am *dying* of curiosity. With the new spider verse out (at least in cinema) what are the chances of you adding some more to your Marvel side??

I've been missing all the feral babies something fierce and with the hopefully vague enough addition of another feral Spidey and also just amazing (heh) spidey's I am just ./pray

Waiting, hopeful and respectfully. If its not on the cards tho that's 1000% Alright! Life be life-ing, especially in this reality, and sometimes the writing gods just ain't with ya. (Or they are with a different project :P)

I’ve gotten a few asks like this over the last few days, and I love everyone’s excitement and I can that y’all’s intent is good.

But I will point out that this is exactly why I stopped ❤️

#fic #ask #I nearly wrote smth last night but I logged on and had all these messages and the pressure and memories of the entitled fans just #came flooding back #So just please. #I am begging y’all to give me my space and to hold what I have already made for you in your hands #Yes I have watched ATSV #No I don’t want to comment on it right now #No I won’t help you find marvel fics #I wrote so many for you #Ao3 has a search function for my work and for the fandom works in general.

[remythologise]

I think every ship should be able to work in some way with taylor swift's 'the way I loved you' I think taylor swift's 'the way I loved you' is like the ultimate amv test. if you can't visualise one half of your otp vacantly staring at their date imagining someone else they had a far more volatile, passionate relationship with, well.

#john watson staring vacantly at mary morstan esp in 2009 wb holmes. etcetera #funny because I'll always associate that song with an amv specifically about zero/yuki from vampire knight but like. #first of all we can't talk about all of that secondly we can't get into that. #I'm not sure it's the worst shoujo japan had to offer us but it was sure up there thinking back on it #kira for ts #this is why I write silverflint not flinthamilton. 🤷‍♀️ #also why I'm like. merthur IS the otp you guys are crazy to think otherwise #sorry I hate to be one of those people who would just tag every single ship of theirs onto a post. this is literally #the worst kind of post that always floods the tags for things and annoys me. HAVING SAID THAT THOU- #could write a paragraph on how specifically I feel this song applies to every single one. #I'm not even a swiftie I just feel strongly this is THE amv song in your head I think. to me