#it’s a hobby at this stage

[mywitchcultblr]

This is what happened when a fanfic site is profit driven. Wattpad sucks 😞

The email/DM from Wattpad is so condescending. Imagine pressuring writers to update and work while they are doing it for free and fun. Also, the discovery? Algorithm? Of Wattpad looks like a stressful popularity contest 😑

#wattpad #ao3 #fanfic #fandom #writing #writer #archive of our own #twitter #the capitalization of fandom is a sin #capitalism strikes again #capitalism #late stage capitalism #when your hobby is used for the profit of a corporation

[inkskinned]

i keep thinking about hobbies and how i often spill over myself to pick up new ones. i have adhd, i end up trying something for like a month and then just getting far enough in it that i move on, satisfied.

and that should be fine; but it's never fine.

i am a pretty decent artist; but i can't just make art for my dnd campaign, i should be selling dnd maps and character designs and scene setting pieces. i can't just make my friends matching earrings, i need to get an etsy and ship them internationally and take bulk orders. i make pretty good props and decorations and use them to throw my friends parties - but i should be running a party planning business and start taking paying clients and networking and putting my skills to actual use.

for some reason, i never figured out the specifics of pottery. it was a fun class and i enjoyed myself - and still, i'm embarrassed, years later, that i put in all that useless effort. everything i make has to be stunning. stellar. i should have applied myself more. maybe i'm too lazy. maybe i'm broken and selfish and needy. actually creative people would have kept going; they would be bettering themselves at every possible opportunity.

we find ourselves in this trap, even accidentally: we need to commodify our time, because it is a commodity. if we spend our efforts and our time not earning, isn't that the same thing as burning free money? and god forbid you ever take up a hobby that ends up being more expensive than you thought. you sit in your car and you look at the receipt and in your head you hear a conversation that isn't even happening - your mom or your friend or your partner all saying oh great. not this shit again. it's always something with you, and it never actually means anything.

i have realized this horrible thing, recently - i'll get excited to start a project, pick up a new hobby. and then i just... stop myself. i start thinking about the amount of time it will take, and how it'll look in my monthly budget. what if i can't even produce a good enough final product. sure, it's exciting to think about how i could make my friend her own custom dice. but i'm just polluting the earth if i don't get it right. better not bother. better not try.

restless, i get caught in the negative space. the feeling that oh god, i want to create. and that horrible sense - yeah, but i don't have the time to just put to waste.

#hobbies #writeblr #what stage of weirdness to write about hobbies on my hobby writing blog #although i know OBJECTIVELY i am a creative person #i often forget to label myself that bc i don't feel im an ARTISTIC person bc i don't do anything like that professionally #writing doesn't even feel like a hobby i think that surprises nobody for me to be like #it would be easier for me to stop . like. breathing. #which feels cheesy and trite but listen im running late for a meeting and all i really want to say is like #i couldn't even consider writing my hobby bc it makes my skin crawl bc it makes it sound like it's not important to me #bc we really devalue hobbies. like entirely. #it HAS to be a job. it must #also idk if this is clear but i personally get stuck in this space where i CANT create bc i am putting so much pressure on myself #to make it RIGHT #and im like ... idk i only have an hour #so probably shouldnt get involved in this thing

[doctorsiren]

Will you ever draw more 7yg defenseworth? I absolutely adore the drawings you did for the last post on this! :)

Defenseworth getting his disbarment letter + doodles from various points during the 7yg ^^

#doctorsiren #ace attorney #ace attorney au #miles edgeworth #phoenix wright #franziska von karma #trucy wright #kristoph gavin #ace attorney fanart #defenseworth au #prosecutor wright au #doodle page #digital art #my art #procreate #phoenix is like: ‘PLEASE I know the LORE I CAN’T HAVE YOU LOOKING LIKE THAT’ #and then proceeds to absolutely botch the haircut #for those unaware defenseworth during the 7yg was both a librarian and a baker and I think he probably would have learned stage magic too #so that he could help Trucy and be supportive #dude he’s basically in quarantine #since uhh 2020 was right at the start of the 7yg LMAOOO his hair got long. he took up new hobbies. blah blah blah

[merakiui]

learning that rollo eats the same lunch (16 grapes, 2 croissants, 1 café au lait) every day is so funny to me. he’s so cute. T-T rollo, please eat a feast. you deserve it. why limit yourself to the same thing over and over?

also his voice line where he invites you to check out the mostro lounge with him. saying, “i like cafés. shall we take a look?” casually asking you out on a date…… rollo, you’re exceptionally cute.

#meraki mumbles #his hobby is gardening… T_T <3 #he’s the man of my dreams #studying at the lounge with rollo but the tweels keep flirting with you #and trying to distract you so that you and rollo can’t study (i.e. get closer) #ENEMIES TO FRIENDS TO LOVERS WITH ROLLO AAAAAAAA OTL #the two of you taking care of and looking after each other like a married couple… #reminding each other to eat or go to sleep at healthy times or knowing exactly what the other needs #the two of you forever stuck in the purgatory that is the pining stage/‘do they like me or are we just close friends?’ stage #I’M SO ILL FOR HIM HE DRIVES ME MAD ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω`ﾟ)ﾟ｡

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

EEPY

#eepy eepy kitten.... #she's all tucked in and curled up <3 #LOOK AT HER!!! GAZE UPON HER PINK NOSE AND BEANS! #she's my little buddy <3 #i wish i could get her leash trained i would Love to go on walks with her #she'd be unbearable! unmanageable! #absolutely unprompted #photos from the bog #alright now that thats out of the way guess what im fuming about today! #ha! you thought this was a cute kitten post! WRONG! eldritch blast! #yeah so fuck youtube all my homies hate youtube #WYM IT SENSES ADBLOCKER AND LITERALLY STOPS YOU FROM WATCHING VIDEOS #that should be illegal! #begging and praying that someone Talented at making site extensions makes one that gets around youtube's stupid fucking adblock sensor #I WOULD LIKE TO WATCH MY SILLY VIDEOS IN PEACE THANKS #this world sickens me. ads everywhere. everything monetized. sell your hobbies. what if we all exploded huh #WHERE IS THE FREEDOM FROM LATE-STAGE CAPITALISM? WHEN DOES THE MADNESS END #ads make me want to rip out someone's throat with my teeth #i dont mind the taste of blood let me commit violence

[in-the-super-sargasso-sea]

Tim Roth For Cosmopoliton Magazine (January 1987)

#tim roth #my stuff #new old interview just dropped :) #(thank you ebay sellers who raid their attic for old copies of cosmo and nme you are doing the lord's work) #also screaming crying throwing up at him wanting to play ophelia #his mind #btw i literally bought this because i have terminal metamorphosis 1987 brain and seeking out every bit of ephemera #from a nearly 40 year old kafka stage adaptation is a surprisingly fun hobby

[vspin]

How dare this story not write itself...

#writing #lord i am trying #the beginning stages of a new hobby is always the hardest lmao

[skunkes]

i wanna try to make a little smunker figure bc a family friend offloaded his partner's unused clay supplies to me, including pasta maker/roller and a little oven specifically for baking it...

Also included some opened and unopened clay but idk i kinda wanna go the "get flesh colored clay and then paint it at the end" route bc im very bad at managing amount of clay needed esp if i have to mix it for different colors also i think painting it wld be relaxing...i jst need to buy some clay.....i jst need to buy some clay.....

#and get like rubbing alcohol and acetone bv i heard that helps with removing dust and such at different stages #i cant find any good tutorials but #if i could id be inspired to learn to sew so i cld make a poseable smunker art doll... #and id wanna get skilled enough to make a cow al figure too.... #watch me not do anything tho #talkys #im so glad i was given some tools bc idk i wouldve hated to #invest in new hobby supplies and then not do anything with em. like with everything else #even then if i miraculously get into this ill only ever make a smunker figure and a few other oc figures and thats it #bc im not creative #ykwim

[abnerkrill]

tummy hurts chronic illness is illnessing and I have to turn in a script outline I’ve barely started on Friday. someone put me out of my misery

#stares at wall wondering why I thought it was a good idea to combine my hobby (tv) with my career (tv) #you Cannot make me hate poker face but my spec script IS killing me #stages of grief speedrun

[bitterseaproduction]

After consuming a questionably healthy amount of hostage!Lucerys works, I think the most powerful move that boy could pull in a no escape scenario is not engage with Aemond. And I don’t mean a silent treatment or livid wall, things that might goad Aemond into breaking him. I mean a withdraw. A shut down. Disengagement. The power of lucemond to me was that mutual obsessive attention they display, and the thought of Lucerys legitimately disconnecting from that???

And if you want it to be a more manipulative Luke, he could be doing it on purpose, but it would probably come naturally at some point, depending on his treatment and stress. (My usual thought is when he gives up all hope on ever being done ‘paying’ his debt, or just becomes convinced he is not being perceived as a person, just an enemy or a ‘bastard’ or a means to an end.) Withdrawing and disassociating in a brutal situation is very natural, and a quiet method to NOT break.

So just, the image of Lucerys initially burning with rage, with tears, with a ‘I will not shame my family’ pride against the loss of his dragon or insults or threats or brutality or how Aemond/the Greens treat him. And then one day like a snap, he switches to quiet, still, unfocused unless prompted, then tense as stone listening, watching, responding as needed but quiet otherwise, no color to his words, no comments or anything beyond direct answers, then regressing back into unfocused as soon as it is safe.

And the Green support team might not care, Aegon might find it boring, Alicent may be surprisingly worried, Helaena is oddly attentive to the boy, but Aemond is the one shaken. Bereft, but the feeling is filtered through confusion and outrage and frustration, especially if Lucerys proves he CAN still emote beyond tension and fear when he talks to Helaena’s kids, smiles and easy focus and (perhaps strained) wit all blooming back to the life in an instant when Aemond thought it all long beaten out of the boy. Then the children go, and Lucerys looks at Aemond, and that life is gone again, his dark eyes back on the walls.

And Aemond could rage or grow desperate, depending on how cruel you wish it to be, but you know whatever he does will be feral, because what he wanted most, whether he wishes to accept it or not, was Lucerys’s regard. And he might have destroyed that with his own hands.

#what’s a little bedtime angst before I sleep #this could be a during dance thing or a post-aegon one thing OR a forced marriage thing! #I doubt I’ll ever want to write Lucerys tortured and powerless enough to reach this stage #But I am all the hurt party in a ship losing faith that they are valued #and the harmer having to battle not hate or their significant other’s will- but the damage they themselves did #lucemond #captured lucerys #also the thought of lucerys in that state hyperfocusing on a hobby like Helaena with her insects #maybe making something or building some craft #and aemond breaking the results in front of him in a rage when the inattention becomes too much #and luke staring at his broken work like the loss was expected #and that is somehow worse than any tears or anger

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

oooh, i need to knit four (4) rows of this shawl every day until the end of the month to finish by the recipient's birthday. which isn't, like. bad. but it ALSO doesn't take into consideration that, a.) the early rows will be much quicker than the later rows, b.) i've got three (3) lil non-negotiable deadlines to hit by or before then, too, or c.) i've been backburnering the knitting and doing like. MAYBE. two rows a day so far.

#text #personal #writing #knitting #in btw #rell #driscoll #no i dont know why im like this either #i dont MEAN to put Stress on all my hobbies and YET!!!! #like its not the end of the world if i miss the birthday deadline but i feel bad cuz i didnt have a chrimmus gift for her and she did for me #so i would LIKE to have this for her on her birthday (which is when ill see her) #if i can knock out the microfic tomorrow and maybe poke at a first page ill be good?? #i think?? #then i can life admin and knit later tomorrow #i should try to do more rows while theyre small #frog boiling etc #they still dont take many minutes per row at this stage so that helps!! #and i am getting the hang of the lace i think #i cant do it while listening to anything more intense than music tho #convos are no go #COULD probably do a couple rows on lunch at work tho 👀👀 #anyway im also not reading now which is what i MEANT to be doing #gosh i miss reading also #it hasnt been that long but its been nonfic for a while so it feels long #portia shawl

[xumbo]

I should be able to have hobbies without putting a monetary value on them just so I could afford some bread and milk.

#capitalism #eat the rich #poverty #anti capitalism #late stage capitalism #economics #q #l #a #hobbies #activities #have you tried this hobby #money #corporate greed #anticapitalista #anarchism #anti capatilism #girlblogging #this is a girlblog #live laugh girlblog #gaslight gatekeep girlblog

[proudheron]

angry at my old boss for buying the heaviest fucking dishes on earth and making us serve heavy bowls of soup on top of full size dinner plates for the aesthetic, and angry at my 2017 self for not quitting my job the first time i felt a sickening rubber-band twangngngngnggg from inside my wrist

such that i can only chainmail for half an hour a day :(

#annoying to realise i haven't properly gone through all the stages of grief wrt my wrists yet #when i had to give up weaving i just drank about it instead of actually processing #i want to feel the rush of diving headlong into a new hobby but i have to take breaks and ice my joints instead! rude

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

why is job hunting.

that's it that's the post

#this is both radicalizing me even more & absolutely harshing my mellow #why. do i need. to communicate with a 'virtual assistant'. to apply at hot fucking topic #you know? maybe i Dont need to apply there. who wants em #everywhere is like you need This This and This #oh look an entry level job! aaaand i need a thousand certifications #Excuse Me Where Do People Who Have Done Nothing With Their Life Thus Far Apply??? #why do jobs exist. why cant we all just vibe huh #each application feels like a new death sentence #cant wait to work myself into the ground for a company that views me as nothing but an easily replaceable part! yeehaw! #cant wait to sacrifice my personal time / hobbies / wellbeing for a nine-to-five 5 days a week job i hate! #absolutely unprompted #this world we live in is miserable and infuriating and i want to SHAKE PEOPLE #fucking!! look outside!!! value yourself!! the company is not your family!! they are not worth dying for!! we are all worth so much more!! #gonna go out in the middle of a field and SCREAM #humans are made for art and kindness and for enjoying the short life we're forced into #why make an already doomed existence even worse huh. #why subject ourselves to that. we deserve better. our pasts deserve better. our futures deserve better. #sorry sorry im just. ARGH. this world!!! this life!!! could be so good!!! #but late stage capitalism rampant corruption among Many Other Issues said noooooooo #happiness is illeeegallllll #what if i BITE you. huh. what then. die #every time i sit down to apply i have to actively Not Think About It or i'll delete all my tabs and stop before i start #we as humans are not built for this life... we did not evolve proclivity for kindness and art just to stress ourselves to death #over silly jobs that do Not require the level of dedication we are forced to apply #abolish the 5 day 40+ hour work week... decrease the horrifying amount of funding given to cops and the military... etc... #i think i need to go lie down for a minute im feeling Too Much Anger at the absolute state of things #so happy to be an american. (sarcasm sarcasm sarcasm)

[sonicblooms]

i found out that one of my fave builders took all their builds off the gallery to lock them behind a perma-paywall and i had to just. sit with my feelings for a little bit 😭😭😭

#late-stage capitalism brainrot tings #like i am not paying 4 fucking dollars for a build pls get real #my take is: no one asked you to spend hours on a build or cc or whatever #expecting what is essentially reimbursement for something that isn't a job and you decided to do in your free time is so ??? #the stark difference in intracommunity behaviour is riveting #u have creators like sforz who clearly love their hobby n just want to share that with us #and then u have others who are actively trying to rob u

[xbladekitkat85]

We are doing Macbeth this semester and I don't care if I don't get a big role, just gimme a part that involves stage combat, I am begging-

#nat rambles #PLEASE I JUST WANNA LEARN STAGE COMBAT TAUGHT BY PROFESSIONAL FIGHT CHOREOGRAPHERS 😫😫😫 #theater #theatre arts #theatre #shakespeare #macbeth #im guaranteed a role in the show due to classes I'm taking #still have to audition though #like let me put my hobby of staff spinning to use