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silentcryracha · 9 months
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❍ ‗ What type of songs Skz would write about you ‗ ❍
Pairings : Stray Kids x reader
Genre/warnings : headcanons, possible use of swear words, mentions of intimacy, mentions of sad feelings and breakups
Summary : What type of songs I think Stray Kids members would write about their relationships
Word count : 1.7k
A/n : these are general headcanons that are described more in a technical way than a fictional one, so yeah
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Chan ‗ ❍
Holy trinity: agsty, fun, horny
Chan seems like the man who would gain inspiration from strong feelings that he may experience.
The man has range and is talented af so of course he'd be able to write anything, BUT
My idea is that he'd be more inclined to write about angsty feelings ranging from sadness, maybe regret. He wouldn't specifically write about you or describe you as a person or your features, those are for him only to appreciate, or in this case, to miss. I think he'd write down his feelings, whether it's plain sadness and longing, or something stronger like regret, or unspoken things.
But he could also be really inspired by the thrill and 'primal' feeling that comes with the start of a relationship, or even a little earlier when it's the 'chasing' moment before getting together. He'd write about how he's absolutely whipped and stupid in love for you, but in the 'fun' way, not in the 'sad' way.
Both the angst and the fun could (and probably would) be mixed with some horniness, absolutely. He could write about how mad you make him and how fucking desperate he is for a taste of you. Again, this could be applied in a more fun and lighthearted song, like a honeymoon phase, or to a darker more 'toxic' context.
Minho ‗ ❍
A delicate story about romance in all its shades
I feel like Minho would keep the lyrics very vague, but still mainly focus on the other person, more than write about this own feelings. While Chan seems more the type to write a 'letter' type of lyrics, I think Minho would be more of a 'storyteller'.
He'd probably write more chill lyrics, never being raunchy or explicit, but could very well imply intimacy in a more subtle way. In a poetic way, if you will.
I do think that he'd give his best with romantic songs, though. He may not look like it at first glance, but Lee Minho is a romantic and you will not change my mind.
I could see him writing lyrics with a lot of artistic/literature/media influence. Which ties back with the whole 'storyteller' thing. They wouldn't be overly complex as in words choice though, they'll need to be simple and delicate with a perfect melody to accompany them. Maybe some technical or production related tricks (like the 'suspense' at the end of limbo)
The same exact style would apply for more angsty or sad songs. I find him similar to Chan in this aspect in the sense that he'd write about sad, depressing and heart wrenching feelings more than angry or vengeful ones. He'd also probably do it in a 'therapeutic' way, like writing down the last chapter of a story that will be finally be closed and locked away in his memories.
He could also write some more 'fun' songs but I think that they wouldn't be necessarily about romantic relationships. But who knows?
Changbin ‗ ❍
About you, about me, about us
Changbin is another master in the craft of composing and writing, which means that he'd be able to switch povs pretty easily in whatever story he wanted to tell, or even change the style of the narration itself.
He could write about any topic he wanted to be honest, and his rapping and freestyling abilities are probably a big help in that sense, but let's focus on romance now.
Bin looks like someone who cherishes a lot his personal life and feelings, which is why it would be harder to find lyrics in which he directly puts himself as the narrator. But it does happen sometimes, and it's usually a cry for help. May be a pleading to someone that left him, an apology to someone he hurt.
Usually though I feel like he's more the one to pick a specific feeling/situation and elaborate on it. Might be a specific argument, the way that a breakup happened, the mistakes that led to said breakup. In this case he would write openly, like he wants the person in question to hear him out through his music.
His lyrics wouldn't be adorned with pretty words or poetic comparisons, but only with real and raw feelings that will pull at your heartstrings for how honest they sound.
Hyunjin ‗ ❍
Straight out of a literature piece
Hyunjin *say it with me*, is a romantic. Yes, that's the key to understanding him, pretty much.
He is a lover, through and through. A lover of art, beauty, emotions, memories, of love itself. This is why I think that any lyrics that he may write will be almost like a dance of words, melodies, instruments, and feelings. He wants to put his feelings down because they overwhelm him.
With each of his songs he seems like he wants to curate every aspect to the T, almost as if he was creating his own little work of art. He wants it to be evocative, to make you feel what he does, and will do it with different tools such as poetical lyrics, a particular choice of instruments, and even the tone of his voice.
Ironically, I think that the more he'd have to 'hide', the more complex and embellished the lyrics would be. He could do a song with quite simple but direct lyrics, and sing it in an energetic way, almost desperate way, like he can't wait to shout out to the person he loves. Almost like a movie/book scene in which the love interest finally confesses their love.
The thing with Hyunjin seems to be that he enjoys writing about angsty feelings. Something that could be a problem of communication within the relationship, or confusion by getting mixed signals from someone, or again with a dangerous attraction for someone who isn't right for him but still manages to 'lull' him into this toxic relationship.
In both cases I think that he'd use a lot of artistic or maybe visually eliciting comparisons in his lyrics, playing with words and the emotions that those elicit in people.
Jisung ‗ ❍
Let it out, angsty boy
I really feel like Han writes when he doesn't find any other way out, so whatever it is it's likely to be explosive.
He's gonna write lyrics that scream how much he's wrapped around your finger, how your love is essentially all he needs to live and that you could do whatever you wanted with him because he's yours. Would be very smart in writing a whole story about it, mentioning mundane things and then ranging to use metaphors and abstract comparisons to let his explosive emotions through.
I feel like he could write out of frustration too, which would bring lyrics with a different tone to them. Whatever he feels must and will be reflected in the song. If the sentiment is cold, sharp and toxic, the producing part of the song will reflect that as much as his own intonation. If it was a cry for help, a prayer almost, you'd be able to feel it through the melody and the whole structure of the song, not only the lyrics.
He's another one who desperately wants and needs for his music to be honest and to elicit the same feelings that he felt while producing it in complete detail, similar to Hyunjin.
Felix ‗ ❍
A lot of feelings and honesty
Felix has range in what he writes, but what I noticed mostly in the projects that he's been part of, is that he uses his voice a lot to set the tone of the song.
Whatever are the lyrics, his extremely adaptable voice with automatically make you understand what he was going for 'emotion' wise. This also applies to the choice of the instrumentals.
I feel like he could be writing about more romantic and wholesome feelings, in this case with lyrics that sound really clean, pure and almost dreamy, but still simple.
But he could also be writing about more gloomy feelings, mainly of sadness and 'mourning', and would probably treat the narrative as something that is already in the past but with which he still has to let go completely. His main goal I think is honesty, which is why the lyrics would be quite simple but hurt where they should.
Seungmin ‗ ❍
Dreamy and emotional
I feel like he's truly someone that could make a listener go 'Oh, so he is in love LOVE' while listening to one of his songs.
The things that would inspire Seungmin the most while writing is the feeling of being in love. He'd probably be quite poetic, dreamy and transfer these vibes to the lyrics and music as well. His voice too, which is adaptable and very expressive.
He's also someone who tries to give a 'narrator' vibe to his songs, almost like he was telling a story that had a beginning and and end. He can write about pretty much anything if it has to do with love. Unrequited love, longing for someone, looking back on your shared happy memories with a hint of sadness. He is also someone who is quite honest and wants the song to represent his feelings in an almost 'dreamy' way.
Jeongin ‗ ❍
Delicate, warm and comforting
Jeongin is someone who seems more comfortable writing about delicate feelings, whether they're positive or negative. A delicate love, almost like a first love, or on the other end a sad ending to that same love.
They lyrics would be quite easy, not overly complex and aim to be as honest as they can in eliciting the same feelings that the writer felt as they thought them out. But there would be a factor of comfort and relatability to them that would pull at your heartstrings.
His voice can also be quite expressive and he knows is, which is why the intonation along with the instrumentals would be fundamental, even more than the words themselves maybe.
He'd like to take a specific feeling and make a song about it, it doesn't necessarily need to be a whole story, moral, or context. He just wants to be able to express his feelings as clearly as possible, without necessarily giving it a background. I feel like those actual moments would be very precious to him and would want to keep them private in his memory.
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kurokeip · 1 year
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I keep thinking about how much family means to Kuro, how he's consistently usually the one initiating the entire 'family' thing in Akatsuki and then... danna. There's so much yearning in that stupid nickname and Keito does not even know.
Kuro and his fixation on family and wow his use of an ambiguous term that Could refer to and authority figure but also has familial implications because that's what he wants sooo bad.
This scene is super gay but it's also a little more than that.
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He's playing house in his head and he's the Mother, because in his little fantasy world with Keito and Souma he can be a Mother and not a 'Man', for as much as Akatsuki touts it's 'masculinity', it's still a group that doesn't care for it much more than for performative purposes.
Do I think Kuro Suffers from Gender Envy? Yes. Do I think he knows? No. Will he ever Know? I don't think so, but he's having a Time about it.
(Also something to note that while people usually think of transness whenever gender envy is brought up, in this case I'm not implying that he is trans, or that transitioning would be best for him. Although you can run w that too- I like transfem kuro- but cis people can also have Relationships with their gender)
Kuro's gender is like. Big Brother-Mother. it's heavily connected to 'familial roles' and therefore his relationships with other people. So when he positions himself as the 'mother' of Akatsuki, it's more than just cheap queerbait, it's a performance of his gender. He uses 'husband' as a nickname for Keito with a clear implication that he's the 'wife'. One of the biggest reasons he began following Keito is because he was so much 'like a mom', Kuro very clearly aspires to be that way even though he's acknowledged that he'd never be able to reach that revered status if he tried.
It's not a clear cut connection to masc/femininity with him, it's about the connection between those genders and their 'roles' in a household, because family is one of the most important things to him.
I don't think anyone in canon really gets it yet, they haven't connected to dots. At most it'll be used as a lighthearted joke. But Kuro Suffers from toxic masculinity and having that be pushed onto him quite a bit. He associates masculinity with aggression, and fighting. Unlike a lot of the more masculine characters, he prefers to offer 'care' instead of 'protection', a clear lean to what society perceives as more feminine.
Akatsuki as a 'family' is more than just a Fanon thing, it's a genuine source of comfort for Kuro. Writing it off as fanon completely, or a solely detrimental thing feels kind of contrarian for the sake of it.
Anyways that was just my little thinkpiece of Kuro's gender. I think transfem Kuro is fun I think all Kuro gender headcanons are fun but canon has so much for me already, and Kuro is unique in that his relationship to gender is linked not to himself, but to his relationships and enforced roles.
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sailxrmxrs · 2 years
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hear me out, yknow how in quests story the loser ex shows up? how would nightowl react if mc’s crazy ex showed up, like hes just aggressive and insulting and was the one who made fun if their looks and still acts like that. i mean if nightowl went crazy on onion over wanting tk call, i cant imagine what hed do with a toxic ex
this took me a while to get to for which i am sorry i'm just very small brain and get distracted easily by new ideas skalsdkf BUT this was a super fun idea and i've always wondered how the interactions might go if societyboy showed up in the other routes. for the sake of ease, this is going to take place post-nightowl good ending so we're all happy vibes and in love but then uh oh mc and nightowl are out on a date and guess who they bump into. everyone's least favourite ex societyboy. madness and bad vibes ensue. no major warnings other than societyboy being his usual toxic self to mc/nightowl. i hope you enjoy anon and apologies again for how long it took !!
"Okay but you can't tell me that wasn't insanely better than the first one. I straight up don't believe you prefer the first over that," Nightowl declared as the two of you left the movie theatre with linked arms and what little remained of your shared popcorn in his other hand. You'd just seen the sequel to a movie you'd watched together back when these regular cinema dates were as new and fresh as your relationship with Nightowl. And, as was customary, a lighthearted debate about the movie was shared as you walked across the street to the same small café you always visited after such dates. It was a pretty casual place, one that suited you both perfectly with their light meals and comfortable atmosphere—especially after sharing generous amounts of popcorn between the two of you. The sun was low in the sky, making its steady descent and taking the once blue sky with it, leaving only a myriad of warm oranges in its wake. The hum of the golden hour made Nightowl's blonde hair seem even warmer, bordering on a strawberry blonde as he shielded his eyes from the glare of the setting rays.
"Sure, it might be better, but I still like the first one more."
"Babe, that makes literally no sense. If you admit this one was better, surely that means you like it more?" Nightowl asked, opening the door to the café and gesturing for you to enter first. Laughing at the juxtaposition between his confused exclamations and the sweet gesture, you led the way to your usual table. Nightowl followed, still reeling off his confusion at your statement. Hearing him ramble about the movie was cute, especially seeing the spark in his eyes as he got increasingly more emphatic over his stance. Even the waiter who brought your food over was smirking to himself as Nightowl quickly resumed after the brief intermission, just as passionate about the topic as though he had never paused. Listening to him was an easy task, his excitement and enjoyment infectious as you sat in near silence, offering frequent nods and hums every so often.
As Nightowl paused to take a sip of his coffee, you couldn't help but jump in to compliment his ardent reasoning. "You're so cute, Nightowl. You know that, right?" You mused, leaning your chin on your hand as you listened intently. Nightowl's face near set on fire, a bright redness covering his cheeks as he flustered at the genuine compliment. His eyes flickered between yours and the ring on his finger he'd begun absentmindedly playing with.
Before Nightowl could offer up any sort of quick-witted reply, the sound of a chair sliding up to your table stole away your attention. And, more importantly, the figure who had sat themself down at your table without a single word or query if they could do so. Recognition sank like a heavy weight in your stomach at the realisation at who had joined you both. His was a face you likely would never forget, though it was certainly one you wished to wipe your memory clean of. Nightowl was apprehensive as he looked at the new arrival, noticing how you recoiled, face twisting in unpleasant surprise. His hand moved under the table to take yours, a gentle thumb rubbing softly on the back of your hand in reassurance.
"Come on, aren't you pleased to see me?" Your ex asked, his voice a taunting challenge that you couldn't escape. "You always were too weak for my taste, anyway."
Nightowl's eyes flared at the comment, anger coursing through him. Taking a focused breath to remain controlled, he replied on your behalf. "Clearly they're not so if you could leave us to our date in peace, that'd be great." Nightowl didn't bother masking the contempt in his voice that betrayed the forced smile he gave your ex.
"So this is who you left me for? Really? Didn't know you liked pathetic guys like this."
Nightowl scoffed, starting to move in retaliation before your hand tightened in his, a silent warning to stay calm. He reluctantly stay seated, clearly seething at the underhanded remark while you spoke up, unwilling to hold eye contact with the ex you'd so desperately wished to forget. "Who I date has nothing to do with you so please just leave us alone."
"And where's the fun in that?" Societyboy quipped, leaning to steal a small bite from your plate. You looked back up at Nightowl, a silent pleading in your eyes. While you usually could hold your own in situations like this, Societyboy was a different case entirely, all kinds of terrible memories threatening to resurface with each moment he lingered.
"You know I was thinking—" Societyboy started.
"God help us all," Nightowl muttered, taking a frustrated sip of his drink and looking away from your ex.
Societyboy continued on, not bothering to acknowledge Nightowl or his expression of annoyance. "I was thinking about us. Getting back together, I mean. Because come on, let's be real, whatever this is will hardly last." Societyboy gestured between you and Nightowl, a look of disdain on his face that dissolved into humour as he saw the anger in Nightowl's face once more. Whether he was being honest about wanting to get back together or not was irrelevant; regardless of his intentions, there was no doubting he wanted to push Nightowl's buttons as much as was possible in order to spark some kind of outburst.
"Seriously what is your problem? Can't you see we don't want you here?"
Societyboy raised his hands either side of his head, feigning innocence in the encounter. "Damn, can't a guy just talk to his ex in peace?" He then turned his attention toward you. "You're really cool with dating a guy who won't let you have friends?"
Of course he'd try and twist this into being Nightowl's fault somehow. It wasn't anything new for Societyboy and you knew that—you weren't about to let yourself relinquish to his usual manipulative ways or fall into his trappings ever again, especially not when you had Nightowl by your side.
"And you really think they'd want to stay friends with an asshole like you? Do us all a favour and get the fuck out of here. Actually," Nightowl hesitated, looking at you with a dreamy smile that was miles away from the glare he's given your ex. "I've finished eating, have you, love?"
Sensing exactly where Nightowl's intentions lied, you nodded. "I have. The perfect time for us to get home, don't you think?" Nightowl beamed as his hand clasped yours, the two of you moving in sync as you rose from your seats. Societyboy floundered for a moment until he followed suit, clearly thrown off kilter by the way you both dismissed him. Whatever he'd expected of the encounter hadn't come to fruition, stealing away whatever leverage he's believed he had at the beginning of your encounter with him.
"Oh I see what's happening here. You're running away 'cause you got scared," Societyboy accused, stumbling on his words as you and Nightowl made to leave the café. The two of you shared an amused laugh, completely unwilling to entertain him any further. Nightowl's only response to Societyboy was to throw his arm around your shoulders, pressing a kiss to your cheek as you followed another couple leaving the café. Such a display of affection was common with Nightowl, though he did play up to your audience of one as he trailed further kisses until he reached your lips.
"He wanted a show so we might as well give him one, right?" Nightowl proposed, wiggling his eyebrows with a teasing delight. Playfully pushing his face away, you smiled as Nightowl began to pout. "So mean."
"The meanest." Your hold on his jaw was light, angling his face to leave a whisper of a kiss before intertwining your hand in his. "But thank you for handling him back there. I never thought he'd find me here."
Nightowl's free hand gently soothed your cheek, his expression softening as he spoke. "Always. Anytime you need someone to help fight your battles whether they be gross exes or bad days then I'm your man. And he really was the grossest of exes."
A laugh left your lips at the way Nightowl's nose scrunched, his head shaking slightly as though the mere thought of Societyboy was enough to unsettle him. The reaction was definitely warranted, but you still thought it was sweet how much Nightowl cared and how quickly he'd come to your defence. It wasn't a surprise that Nightowl had done so but being faced with your ex really proved just how much happier you were with him. How much you had needed to meet someone like him to forget all the worries and fears your ex had instilled in you during the time you'd been with him. Nightowl's hold on your hand was comfort personified, his presence an enveloping warmth comparable to that of the setting sun behind you both, illuminating the street ahead in the last of its golden light before the moon took over. And as the sun set on yet another perfect date with Nightowl, slight bumps in the road aside, you smiled in contentment for all that lay ahead for you both.
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marshmellowtea · 7 months
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um. so. y'all are not going to believe this but i've had this goddamn fic finished for MONTHS but i fucking FORGOT??? IT WAS HERE??? IT'S JUST BEEN SITTING IN MY DRAFTS BECAUSE I FORGOR I HAD THIS BASICALLY FINISHED FIC JUST WAITING TO BE EDITED AND PUBLISHED HGKLDSJFLKSD 😭
ahem. anyway. sorry for yelling lmao. onto the actual fic summary—basically, i decided to write this silly little thing about human, arospec lila trying to talk about a newly formed crush with an aroacespec will. it's very silly and fluffy and writing it made me giggle a lot, don't expect much angst here, aside from like a sprinkling of it for flavor lmao. that being said, small warning for some toxic queerplatonic partner vibes between will and lila, but the vibe is still mostly lighthearted, it's not too heavy or extreme. also, they're working on it, okay :') they're teenagers who grew up in abusive/traumatizing environments (which isn't referenced in the fic but it definitely shapes the way i characterize them), they don't exactly know how to navigate a healthy relationship yet but they're trying goddammit dskjfkdsafj
.....uh, if it's not obvious, i don't remember how i do summaries on tumblr fics ngl. there'll probably be a cleaner one when this gets posted onto ao3 in a day or two, so watch out for that if you'd prefer to read this on there :P tbh depending on how tired i am when i get home from work i might just go ahead and post it on there later today anyway oops
anyway, onto the fic now, hope y'all enjoy! :)
William's curled up on his side, his upper body in Lila's lap and her hands kneading though his hair in a way that mostly feels good, when she suddenly asks the question.
"Is it called a crush because you want to crush them?"
If this were closer to the beginning of their friendship, when he wasn't already used to weird comments like these from her, William might've sat up in shock, giving her a wide eyed expression of surprise she loves to make fun of him for. This is far from the most outrageous thing she's ever said to him at this point, however, so instead, he just furrows his brow and shifts in her lap a little, not even bothering to open his eyes.
"Lila, what on earth are you talking about...?"
She's quiet for a moment, her hands pausing in his hair. He lets out a little whine at the loss of feeling, and she huffs softly before continuing, using a little bit more of her nails than she was before.
"Let's say...like...maybe there's this person someone thinks is...pretty," she says, the words awkward and stilted in a way he's never heard from her before. "And because they're so pretty, that person keeps...fantasizing about...squeezing them. In their arms. Or under them."
"Ew," he says on instinct, his fingers moving to fiddle with the black ring around the middle finger of his left hand. "Is this hypothetical person you, Lila?"
"No, dumbass!" she says, and, well, that almost sounds convincing. "I'm just...asking. For a friend."
"But I'm your only friend?" he asks, genuinely confused. His confusion then turns to pain, however, as she pulls on his hair—apparently she found that insulting. "Ow! Lila!"
"I have friends. Mainly friends you picked out for us—" and here, she huffs, sounding put upon about his choice in companionship, as though she has no choice in whether she hangs out with them too, "—but friends nonetheless."
...okay, admittedly, he understands where the offense came from now. But still, she claims that he's her only friend enough that of course he would make that assumption, and it's kind of not fair for her to punish him for words he's repeating from her. And also, he must reiterate, ow.
"Anyway, it's for a friend," she insists, sounding a bit wounded. "God. Don't be a smartass, Will, it's not flattering on you."
"I'm not trying to be a smartass, you're just—ugh, nevermind," he grumbles, letting his eyes flutter open and sulking at a vague point in the distance. His hand drifts toward the hem of her skirt, and he plays with it absently, rubbing his fingers over the soft fabric. "Putting all that aside, well...um, sorry to your friend, but I don't think I'm the right person to ask about that. I still don't really...understand all that stuff."
"Ugh, right, I forgot you were a fucking loser."
"I'm not a loser!" he protests, but he immediately feels childish for it. He flips onto his stomach to hide his face in her lap, and is instantly rewarded with one of her hands on the nape of his neck, a warm, comforting weight. "That stuff is just...really complicated..."
"Yeah, well, that's cuz you're a loser who's bad with people, it's okay to admit it."
There's a twinge of fondness to the insult, and despite himself, he finds himself smiling a little at her tone. Still, he decides to retaliate by lightly pinching her on the calf, just under the crook of her knee.
"Ow! Will!"
She then retaliates to him by pulling on his hair again, harder this time despite only using one hand this time. He lets out a sharp cry of pain and smacks her on the knee, pulling out of her lap briefly to escape her wrath. She drops her hands once he's fully off of her and sitting up on his knees, and he scowls at her unamusedly. She scowls back at him, the two of them staring at each other for a moment with equal mild annoyance.
Then, face unchanging, Lila pats her thigh, looking even more annoyed when he doesn't immediately lay back down. "Well?"
He huffs, but obliges, flopping back in her lap, this time on his back so he can continue to scowl at her. One of her hands returns to his hair, and the other one grabs one of his hands, though it feels less like she's just trying to hold his hand and more like she's trying to restrain him from pinching her again. Which, really, is super unfair, given that he only pinched her because she was being mean to him. And she pulled his hair first. And because she always does shit like that to him, and he deserves a chance to defend himself...
...but she is petting his hair in a way he likes again, and her face has softened a little, her lips now in that tiny but genuine sort of half smile he's only seen her use on him. He smiles back at her, wobbly and crooked but just as genuine, letting out a little laugh despite how genuinely annoyed he was moments prior.
"You're the worst," he says, and though he kind of means it he also says it with all the affection in the world. "I am sorry I can't answer your question, though."
"Hey, you also suck," Lila says back, but she coos it in the same tone you'd use on a mischievous kitten. "And it's fine, honestly. It wasn't a serious question, anyway. I was just wondering."
They fall quiet for a moment, and William's eyes fall to their enjoined hands, watching as Lila idly traces his fingers with her thumb. He's struck, then, with the oddest thought—that being, the thought that he does love her, in some weird way, despite the constant bickering and occasional minor physical attacks. That no matter how hard she makes it for him, he cares about her, and he wishes she would let him do that without constantly trying to fight on him on it. That he's glad she loves him too, in her own weird way, because he knows she does but he rarely gets to hear her say it out loud.
Not that he could ever say all that to her, of course. She'd probably just make fun of him.
Instead, he says, "If it is you with the crush...you know I'd be here to listen if you wanted to talk about it, right?"
He's fully prepared to let the conversation end there, but she surprises him by letting out a sigh and saying, "I don't even know if it is a crush."
He raises his eyebrows at that, trying not to get too excited at the information he was just given. She'd hate it if he said it out loud, but she's really easy to scare away on these rare moments where she's being open or vulnerable. "What do you mean?" he asks, trying not to let his voice soften too much.
She groans loudly at that, but she hasn't stopped talking, which, score. "I dunno, William, like...the crush question was kind of a joke? But it also kind of wasn't?"
"...elaborate?"
She groans louder, loud enough to startle him a little. She must feel him jump, because she gives his forehead a light pat before entangling her fingers back in his curls, the hair petting having mostly stopped now. "When I think about this person...I want to hold them as tight as possible and not let go. And squeeze their hand and just...hold it. And..." She grimaces, like it pains her to admit it. "And kiss them, maybe. On their stupid fucking face. Among...other things that I suppose I will graciously spare you."
She taps his ring as she says that, making him giggle. "Thank you. I appreciate that," he says, smiling broadly up at her for a moment, before his face falls back into an inquisitive frown. "Uh, but, Lila? I'm no expert, but that...kind of sounds like a crush? I think?"
Lila chews on her lip for a moment, as if considering what she's going to say next. When she finally speaks, William feels his heart cease to beat in his chest.
"I know, but like...a lot of that is stuff I want to do with you."
William feels his face grow hot, and he stammers, ice cold panic rushing through his veins. Yeah, he loves Lila, but it's not—it's not like that, he's not comfortable with—she knows he's not—
"Not the—not the sex stuff!" Lila says suddenly, giving him a harsh shake. "I didn't say I wanted to do all of that with you, take a fucking breath, Will!"
Oh, he did stop breathing for a second there, didn't he? He inhales deeply as she told him to, letting her lightly push him upright into a sitting position on the bed. He twists around a bit so the two of them are side by side, and she immediately tugs him closer until his head is on her shoulder, awkwardly patting his back in a way he thinks she thinks is comforting. It's a little much, honestly, given that his moment of panic really was just a moment—it was instant relief hearing that she wasn't into him in that way, and it was kind of silly for his brain to jump to that conclusion in the first place anyway since he mostly knows where they'd drawn the lines in their relationship, even if they've never properly talked about it—but he likes these rare occasions where she attempts to fuss over him, so he's not going to protest it. It's kind of sweet, really, even if it's obvious that she has no idea how to comfort another human being.
"Ugh," she says, sounding more embarrassed than exasperated. "Ugh, I said that in the stupidest way, sorry." Then, after a pause, she adds, "I mean...it's all just stupid, anyway."
"Aww, no it's not," William says gently, very comfortable in his place nestled against her side. "I guess I get what you mean though. I know I don't have a crush on you, but I like cuddling you and stuff. I'd also feel weird if I suddenly felt the same thing toward someone else but with...other stuff too."
"Yeah," Lila says, sounding mopey. Probably because she's moping, if he had to guess. "It's not just that, either, wanting to touch this person the way I touch you also feels...different. Different in a way that's hard to pin down." She grabs his hand, having lost it in the shuffle of him sitting up, and once again starts tracing his fingers, running her thumb from the back of his hand, over his knuckles, down to his fingernails. "Like when I do this, it's nice, but I don't do it and think about you as my boyfriend. That'd be disgusting."
William barks out a laugh at that. Technically, it could be an insult toward him, but... "I understand what you're getting at, yeah. I want to be close to you, but you're not, like, my girlfriend or anything, and I wouldn't really want you to be. You're just my friend, but, like...a friend I want to cuddle sometimes."
"Stop saying that we cuddle," Lila scoffs, but the usual harshness of her tone is still rather muted. "But...yeah. Exactly. It's different, and it's weird."
William hums sympathetically, giving her arm a light pat. "Yeah," he says quietly. "That does sound weird." Then, after a pause, "I'm sorry. I wish I could help you more."
Lila huffs, letting her cheek rest against his head. "I wish you could help me more too," she bemoans, interlocking their fingers and giving his hand a light squeeze. "But, whatever. Just talking about it was nice, so you're not completely useless..."
Once again, William just chuckles at that. He can hear the unsaid Thank you in her voice, and he appreciates it, even if he does wish she would just be straightforwardly nice to him sometimes. Hell, not even just to him, oftentimes he wishes she would be nice in general.
But...she's working on it. He thinks. There's been a notable difference in the way she speaks to Martha, Ellie, and Regina, anyway. She's still on guard around Jim and Mike, and god, he doesn't really know what her deal with Tanya is, but she's friendlier with those three, at least. And...she's been more gentle with him, too. At the very least there's been less pinching.
He's proud of her. Which is another thing he can't tell her if he doesn't want her to laugh in his face, but, hey. Maybe one of these days.
"...you wanna lay down now?"
Her question pulls him out of his introspection, and William hums in assent, finally pulling his head off of her shoulder. "Are we gonna take a nap now?" he asks, rubbing at his face absently. "I got pretty close to falling asleep before, well, you know."
She sniffs, pulling her legs up on the bed and stretching out behind him, her arms and legs reaching each end of the mattress before she rolls back onto her side and brings them back in again. "I mean, you can sleep if you want. I don't know if I will."
"You're not at all tired?" he asks, curling up on his side next to her. They're face to face, now, and he can see the exhaustion in her face, as well as the slight flush left over from their conversation.
"Not really," she sniffs. "I mean, I don't think I am enough to fall asleep. I just want to rest my eyes a little."
"Oh, okay," he says, scooting a little closer to her. "I might fall asleep. You didn't want to talk more, did you?"
Lila shakes her head rather than verbally answer, and William smiles to himself. She's probably going to fall asleep too, judging by the way she's gotten quieter, but even if she doesn't, he knows she'll let him sleep if he needs to. Unless something important happens. Or if she gets too bored, which is something important in Lila's eyes.
She kind of is the worst, but luckily for her, he kind of does love her.
He lets his eyes fall closed then, pressing further into her warmth until he's tucked up under her chin. She doesn't fight him on it, instead wrapping a loose arm over him, and he knows he's very close to drifting off when he hears her ask one last thing.
"You're really not going to ask who my hypothetical crush is on, are you?"
It's an interesting remark—it almost sounds like she's disappointed. Still, it's not interesting enough for him to open his eyes. "I kinda figured I wouldn't be able to get it out of you," he mumbles, his voice muffled by her collarbone. "Why?"
"...I dunno. I just thought you would ask," she says, starting to sound close to sleep herself.
"Did you want me too?"
"No." She says it too quickly. And then amends, "Maybe..."
He laughs sleepily, resting one curled up hand on the small of her waist, wanting to be closer, trying to absorb the warmth she's emanating—she's always run weirdly warm, while he runs weirdly cold. He tries not too think too hard about the way that makes them fit so well together. "Tell you what. When I wake up, I'll pester you about it as much as you want me to. Is that okay?"
"I didn't want you to pester me," she protests, scowl audible in her voice. "Just ask."
He laughs again, suddenly overwhelmed with a feeling of contentment. "'m gonna pester you so hard," he mumbles, picturing the dirty look he knows she's giving him despite his still closed eyes. "'m not gonna leave you alone until you give me answers. S'only fair."
"How's that fair?"
"I mean...you pester me when I try to keep secrets from you."
"I don't..." Lila protests, but she sounds amusingly unsure. "Besides, since when did you try to keep secrets from me anyway...?"
"Mm. I stopped tryin' cuz you'd always get them outta me."
"Well, that just sounds like your fault."
"...maybe you've got me there," he mumbles, chuckling softly. "I jus' think it's my turn to needle somethin' out of you this time, mmkay?"
"Yeah, well, good luck with that," Lila grumbles, making him giggle more.
The two of them then lapse into a comfortable silence, aside from their quiet breathing. William is just about asleep when he feels more than hears Lila murmur something against his hair.
"Love you, Will. No matter what happens."
He smiles widely at that. She must think he's asleep—rarely does she say that she loves him without him saying it first. Even then, he usually receives it with a (nonetheless fond) eye roll, so hearing it now sounding so genuine is a nice treat.
"Love you too, Lila," he mumbles back, his voice slurred from exhaustion. "Love you so so much."
Given the way she tenses, he was probably right in thinking that she thought he was asleep. Still, she doesn't respond with a protest or a quip like she normally does, whether because of her tiredness, or maybe she just wanted to let a nice moment linger for once. Either way, he'll count that as a win.
It doesn't take him long to drift off after that, the smile not leaving his face even as he sleeps.
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caparrucia · 7 months
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17 and/or 18 for writer ask meme, please?
17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that won’t make it in the text.
So glitter and gold started as a prompt response to @garbria, and in the replies to that post we started bouncing ideas and then I realized the idea of a fake dating AU would be hilarious. But I wanted to do a fake dating AU where the issue is not miscommunication, but kind of the opposite. Over communication. And also for the fake dating to have stakes but not the usual fare that comes with a bit of betrayal or hurt.
And I wanted to write a comedy, just something lighthearted and fun, and so the final prompt was: fake dating AU, where Nyx volunteers to be Cor's lover to get Cor out of hot water, but where no one actually believes them, while they go extra hard into it. So now Nyx and Cor have this very complicated story they've sold themselves on, but the people they're trying to con (Regis and Sylvia) have seen through them since day one, and are instead popcorn-gif-ing at the shenanigans.
The fun is the fact they're so well matched and they're very in love with each other but privately doing the song and dance about how much the other likes them and if the other is interested in like... long term relationship, as opposed to the fun back and forth of their con. And like, everyone around them can see the obvious resolution, but they've got hangups and their own stuff to work through.
And then I just keep throwing shit at them because it's fun.
Like, I didn't need to do the worldbuilding for it, but like. Why not? Why not a new world with new rules and new shenanigans? Why not a Cor that's actually a LC and then what that would mean for the world? Why not add an entire massive subplot about magic and the gods and what's going on in the world? It's a brand new romantic comedy about Cor and Nyx and their idiot life choices, written by me, why the hell not.
So there we are, bits and pieces have been shared but I don't want to spoil what's coming. I'm having a lot of fun for it! :D
18. Choose a passage from your writing. Tell me about the backstory of this moment. How you came up with it, how it changed from start to end. Spicy addition: Questioner provides the passage.
So this is an awful passage to choose but I think it's something a lot of people missed? And it's one of my favorite bits of characterization in the sun is out, and how it anchors Cor and shows his connection to Aulea:
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Specifically, Cor declaring that he's "decided" on the answer, regardless of what the actual answer is. It's the kind of nonsensical thing you don't really expect from him. He's so solid and composed and generally agreeable. Cor is very chill throughout the sun is out, he makes a point to not get ruffled or angry. And when he is, he's very clear on why he's upset.
So this blindsides Nyx, because the whole fight over Nyx's stasis is very... it's not fun. It hurts and it's awkward and it's a solid mess. But I wanted to highlight that bit, because I wanted to show what Cor is like, when he's pushed into a corner and he's lashing out: and what he is, is basically Aulea. He treats Nyx the same way Aulea treated him, because Aulea is still the measuring stick he uses to figure out the world, and when he encounters something he can't deal with, he legitimately regresses into that dynamic, toxic as it was.
Here's Aulea's version of it:
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"I've decided" is the code phrase: it means taking agency from the other and setting the rules and refusing to negotiate. It's deeply, profoundly fucked up. Cor knows, viscerally, how upsetting it is to be on the receiving end of that.
But Nyx has accidentally triggered him and basically set his PTSD on fire without meaning to - Nyx asked him to kill him, or at least try, and Cor thought he was over Aulea, he really did, and then he remembers she asked him to kill her to, in a way, only she didn't have the decency to tell him doing what he did was going to kill her, until he was done, and welp.
Welp.
It's a very vulnerable moment, for Cor, it's the closest to shattering Cor has been in the entire series. And I love that Nyx snarls and hisses and doesn't bend to it, not the way Cor did to Aulea, when she did it to him. If Prompto hadn't been hurt, they'd have been in a very precarious situation, but Prompto being hurt reminded them both, viscerally, that they're in it together, and therefore allowed them to put their feelings on hold until they were sure their son was fine. That reminded them of their priorities and the larger picture and allowed the feelings to soften somewhat.
Without that buffer, though? Oh, they would have fought horribly and possibly split up for a while before they cooled down and figured out how to reconcile, but it would have been fairly painful, because they're in the space where they'd be saying things they probably don't really mean, but they're hurt and triggered and frothing about it.
It's such a big thing for them to survive, together, that everything that comes after is just "I mean, we survived that, anything else is child's play." I had a tremendous amount of fun mapping out that fight. :D
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the-knife-consumer · 2 years
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Is Hardenshipping canonn?
Honestly wanna say no bc. Like. Obviously it's never been explicitly stated. So. No.
HOWEVER it is very fun and personally rewarding to speculate so. Thats under cut
Hehevwgeh they do have a lot of overlapping themes in their characters that i really love pointing out so whhhgh i'll just list them because surprise surprise (not a surprise this happens every single time) once i talk about something i like my brain turns to mulch and i can't essay like i usually do.
So, interesting things (minus images for most bc i dont feel like finding them)
-there's a mention of how they apparently used to be on the same team at some point in the past (i have a funny hc/au for what this "same team" is but i've yet to even mention or draw for it oops)
-the end of the main story where they reconcile. Just that entire scene (i've only really seen the alpha sapphire ver. Of this scene but whatever. Have seen the omega ruby one but i forgor what they say help)
-not really a. Like hardenshipping thing but OUGHGJJ MY GOOODDDD.... the very prevalent parallels between them and their respective legendaries. The constant feud and anger that kyogre and groudon hold for each other- the only break from their fights being brought on by rayquaza FORCING them to stop (the player being the rayquaza in this situation, hint hint). Rayquaza coming down from the sky to keep two idiots from killing everybody. Small child blasting through an entire evil corporation to keep two idiots from killing everybody. Literally the same.
Theres no way this could be just subtext, i feel like they kind of intended for people to make this connection its just one of those things thats SO obvious but still so fun to point out. I love symbolism and subtext and reading between the lines and *explodes*
-Another thing i find interesting is their outer shell compared to their actual personalities and ideals.
Archie seems very friendly and lighthearted (at least compared to maxie being an uppity dick). He uses more kind language when referring to the player- kind being less professional and less detached. He comes off as much more relaxed, but he holds a concerning amount of apathy towards humankind. Team aqua's goal was to drown everyone, thinking that if they did then the world would be perfect for pokemon to thrive in. Archie wanted to flood the world with the wellbeing of pokemon in mind. (Which. How the fuck does that even work) (also opens up the speculation of what could've possibly made him care so little for people's wellbeing, and what made him care for the lives of pokemon so much more)
Maxie comes off very cold. He tries to be professional. While archie saying scamp comes off as playful, maxie calling you "child" just instantly hits as condescending. (Can you tell i love-hate this fucking toxic slutch monster) (another btw, in his defeat animation he loses his cool for a sec and freaks out before composing himself, when you'd expect something like this from archie. Archie's lose animation is leagues calmer. Although this is a really small detail i feel like it gives great insight into their actual personalities. I love small details hoohoo) and even though he acts like this, he cares a lot for other people and made his team's goal to dry up all the water so humans had more land and could advance quicker. maxie wanted to dry everything up with the wellbeing of people in mind.
(Which, again, HOW THE FUCK DOES THAT WORK????? PEOPLE NEED DRINKING WATER???? HELLO???????????????)
-as per previous points, they are both very, very dumb.
-and oh yeah. The model boats. Oh my god. I lose my MIND over this little thing they share in particular because uuoiuuhsaaaaaaaagh. AAAAAGHHH.
Archie having a model ship makes sense, you know? He loves the sea- wants to drown everybody- yeah. It makes sense that he has a model ship.
But maxie. Woagh. Woauagh. Bro. What if we had matching model ships. And we were both boys (i say matching bc the 3ds overworld isn't very detailed so they look the same. Could be different for all we know.)
Why would maxie have a ship? He wants to dry up the sea. It's pretty safe to say he's either indifferent to sea-based travel, or he hates it. Boats, ferrys, ships, those wont be needed in the world he wants to create. But he has a model ship in his bedroom. A model ship that is absolutely spotless, not a single mote of dust.
Why does he take such good care of something that- according to the rest of his character and motivations- he shouldn't care about?
(Could those matching model ships that they have be something significant from their past when they were on good terms? Maybe something to do with that same team they were on?)
-also there's this which is worth mentioning i think because damn.
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Theres more stuff that i could mention but paraphrasing is exhausting and my brain has shriveled up.
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This might be a dumb thing to ask but did the movie actually ignored Spinel's toxicity as a friend at the end of the movie? I keep thinking about if the writing and certain character moments made things very confusing, especially when it comes to what it was trying to say about PD/Rose as a person
The Movie is saying that different people have different needs when it comes to relationships. At the end of the movie Spinel has matured a little bit but she’s probably still not a good fit to live on Earth, especially after everything she just did to Steven and everyone else. But this doesn’t change the fact that her abandonment causes her to need a companion who won’t leave her again
And then in come the Diamonds who actually are in somewhat of a similar situation. At the beginning of the movie they wanted Steven to live with them, and it’s not hard to see why. They’ve been coping with Pink being gone and now they have another chance to care for someone close to them. They try to convince Steven saying they’ve changed their ways, and as we see in Future they really have; they probably would’ve treated him better than they treated his mother, or at least genuinely tried to. Despite all this, Steven would obviously rather just live at home with his friends and family, and so the Diamonds get rejected
Now when they meet Spinel they have someone to care for like they didn’t for Pink, and Spinel has someone who truly values her companionship like Pink couldn’t for her. They don’t have any past conflicts or baggage with each other, and later on we see that they’re getting along quite well. I think the moral here is that you can change your behavior but people still don’t have to want to hang out with you
Plus it’s just a great bit of narrative bookending for the Movie. Both Spinel and the Diamonds are reformed villains who want to fill the hole left by Pink Diamond’s (notably not Rose’s) absence who really would not get along well living with Steven and the Crystal Gems. They won’t ever have Pink back but they’ll have each other. And it is very sweet to see them get some real love after all the conflict of the end of the show and the Movie
On to your main question, what this says about Pink Diamond, I think it just serves to reinforce her desire to be more mature at this point in her life. This is already after her outburst that injured Pink Pearl, so she probably somewhat resented being put in a glorified playpen instead of being given her own colony. This isn’t to say she totally hated Spinel, Pink is still a lighthearted and fun-loving gem, so she definitely did enjoy Spinel’s company while in the Garden
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But when she’s given her own colony she finally has the recognition she wants from the other Diamonds. Pink probably didn’t necessarily want to just abandon Spinel, she just wanted to follow her own path more. She probably assumed that eventually Spinel would get the message and find someone else to play with, but Spinel just never did
Now that I think of it, it seems to be a running theme with Pink Diamond, of not thinking that anyone will care if she disappears. This happens with Spinel, it happens with the Diamonds, and it happens with the other Crystal Gems and Greg. She doesn’t think, or know, about how her absence will affect others. This could be out of selfishness or out of low self-esteem, probably both
I’ve seen a ton of comments regarding the Movie that go like “man fuck Pink Diamond, what she did to Spinel is just heartless” and yeah that is an understandable reaction, but it still informs her character in a realistic way. There is a more sympathetic angle for Pink and it’s definitely not just the show assassinating her character to create more conflict
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sapphire-heart-tippy · 11 months
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Pretty tired right now, but hopefully I'll remember to do this one day:
Looking back at my old art work (pre transition), I realized that I would draw my s/i scowling all the time. My s/i was always in a bad mood and so was I. I would try to make them be fun and mischievous like how I do with my s/i now, but it would always fall flat without fail.
My s/i was miserable, and I don't think that many people (myself included) actually liked them very much. Though I did get fan art and stuff, my s/is were just so insufferably bitter and gloomy. I don't regret the friends I've made, the laughs and the fun I've had, but I do regret not knowing I was trans sooner.
Admittedly, I knew deep down in my heart that I was queer in some way. I couldn't put my finger on it until about last summer or so. That's when my s/is started smiling...
When I found out, I am indeed, a boy... That was when the smiles came out. That was when I felt happy. I had finally unlocked a door to my life that allowed me to experience a certain joy and freedom I have never felt before.
Pre transition, I felt miserable. I was bitter, hateful, mean, cold, jealous... Yes, jealous. I'm not going to lie, every now and then I still struggle with jealousy just a little bit. That does not make you a bad person, it's an emotion (albeit negative, but so is anger). I would never press my jealousy onto anyone, but it sure as hell beat my ass. (If you struggle with jealousy as well, just know you're not "ToXiC™", you have certain feelings that need to be addressed and handled with care instead of ridicule and shame. For some reason, I've noticed this is one of those emotions people actively encourage you to bottle up. Which is extremely unhealthy. If you have a therapist, please bring it up with them. From my own personal experience, it was something deeper that stems from childhood. I believe in you, you are not a bad person for feeling "bad things" or having "bad" mental/emotional issues. You are just as worthy of help and care as everyone else.) (I digress, I'm sorry)
Now that I'm fully aware of who I am and who I want to become, I feel no reason to be jealous or have such a negative demeanor anymore...I have no need to feel miserable and have it eat away at my insides anymore. I'm free.
The only s/i of mine that ever smiled in their introduction page, is the one I have right now. He's happy. He's content. He's everything I am and want to be.
One day, I'll do a little collage of my pre transition s/is for comparison with my newest one, just to show the stark contrast of emotion. He's funny, he's silly, he's a jokester, a lighthearted little imp who pulls funny pranks on his crush and soon to be boyfriend/husband. Yes, he's still traumatized and struggles with the pain sometimes, but he's happy. He's finally fucking happy... And that self insert is me. 🏳️‍⚧️💙💙💙🏳️‍⚧️
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I'm not sure but it seems to me that at some point you had thought about what mclul would have been like if Rayan had stayed married or had a child, can you talk a little more about these headcanons?
I'm pretty sure those were asks that answered in the past - at least the one with Rayan having a kid already when he met Candy in ul.
I think I've mentioned that sometimes I think about alternative scenarios, one of those were Chloe still alive and she and Rayan getting a divorce during mclul, and I also remember me saying that even if Rayan was married I would still play his route - nothing is sacred to me.
But those are just cuz I like the chaos and cuz I grew up watching brazilian novela which is very dramatic, kinda toxic and just the worst garbage to consume - which I did consumed extensively while I was growing up, that and fanfic, it ruined my life. Worst than drugs for sure.
Normally when I picture that one with Chloe still alive is either Chloe is a villain, driven by pure spite and all that good stuff, if she had a mustache, she would twisting the ends of it non-stop. Rayan probably was the one who asked for the divorced and he moved out from their place and is living alone. He was sick and tired of love, but he couldn't help falling for Candy. Chloe often makes things difficult to go through, she always wants more that she's entitle to get, but only cuz she knows that's the best way to drag the situation out and make Rayan forever stay in that fight with her - that's how she keeps the control over him, through their endless fights.
Candy knows he isn't divorced yet, Rayan told her about why the left, about the fights, and how sometimes he couldn't help himself and fight back Chloe with words (of course), but how he was tired of it all.
I would like to think that even though Candy and Chloe will have some tense moments, in which, Candy will act as the adult of the situation, Chloe will realize that whatever she had with Rayan in the past now isn't there anymore; they both twisted and ruined it beyond repair and she will come to that realization specially because of Candy. At the end Chloe will let him go and accept the divorce (she will get her fair part and maybe move away to another country or something to rebuild her life - I do love a happy ending for everybody despite their flaws and shortcomings, besides for a relationship to turn bad, it takes two).
Now the Father!Rayan one: I thought the most cliche kind of story, in which the kid, a boy or a girl don't really matter, around the age of 3 or 4 actually likes Candy and because Candy kinda will help Rayan in situations outside of Anteros and they will grow closer because of those. Also, in this headcanon, Candy just loves and knows how to take care of child (maybe he's a older sister? Maybe she have worked with small kids in the past?).
There's also the most movie like scenario with a kid around 7/10 years that is a) trying to be the cupid for their father; b) hates the person their father is dating at first but that person wins them over and they end up accepting it.
I like the a) option better because I found it more lighthearted and fun. Maybe with a girl it works better but I KINDA, actually, I lie, I would 100% make it a boy, because I love the idea of a mini Rayan walking around the campus trying to fix his father non-existent love life while also being very picky about who would date him.
Mini Rayan would very much be like his dad, but hella more practical and assertive, despite being very child-like and adorable in how he wants to make his dad find happiness. Always making plans and small traps that never work to get Candy and Rayan to grow closer, Candy find them adorable and since she also likes Rayan, she just wings it and somehow make the date work.
I would see them being friends with each other, mini Rayan would complain about how his father have no game and no charms and Candy would simply laugh it off because it couldn't be far from the truth but since Rayan choose not to show that side of him very often around his son (or anyone for that matter) she understands why he would think that way.
Rayan would realize what his son was doing after the 3rd "incident" kkkk which he will be angry at the boy, but not angry enough, because part of him feel relief and happy that mini Rayan is so taken by Candy - Rayan would also scold her lightly for letting the boy get away with those pranks, she will laugh off and ask him how she was suppose to stop such smart and headstrong child.
When mini Rayan tried to pull those again, Rayan will stop him in time but actually turn it into a oportunity to spend time with Candy and sometimes even with his son and her. At some point mini Rayan will realize that he didn't need to do anything anymore to bring them closer and actually do the opposite: start giving them also time to be together. But of course, the best is always when the 3 of them get to share moments together, like a family.
I had a lot more to say about the kid one kkkkkk cuz of course, I find it cuter and more light to think about.
Lately I have me into the "unexpected pregnancy" one too, because I like the angst, but also because it's more about Candy making choices and dealing with the consequences of those choices - which gives her more personality in my head and I'm always for that.
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whats-this-then · 2 years
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Can i get a uu plains and vesper?
writing on phone bc cant be arsed to get the laptop
1. How does your OC feel about their full name?
It's very. Plain. *wheeze* but no it's just him, he is plains, nothing special to it
They like their first name, picked it themselves hundreds of years ago to strengthen their own identity
2. What do strangers notice about them first?
Big boy no matter the form, humanoid form also has the fur shawl so that's an eyecatcher
Tall, fairly striking with the red eyes and white skin, facial tattoos
3. How does their social personality differ from how they act when they’re alone?
He's quiet in general but alone even more so and more focused on naps and berries (especially if there's not a Forest to pummel)
They're quite outgoing and witty and sarcastic in company, and active even when alone, doesn't sit still much
4. How do they act around a crush?
Fairly normally, is just more attentive and more physically affectionate
Gets closer, laughs louder, more physical contact like punching them in the arm
5. Do they have a “tell” for when they’re lying?
Ears go flat. Never lies though
No, they don't lie much but when they do they do so with a completely straight face
6. What do they smell like?
Grass, leaves, petrichor, fresh air, soil, some flowers
Lovely scented deodorant, sweat, laundry stuff they wash their clothes with
7. What is their hair texture like?
Softer than the bear fur, but still on the rougher side
Silken smooth
8. How much jewelry do they wear, and do they have a favorite or distinguishing piece?
Doesn't wear jewelry apart from the occasional flower
Doesn't really wear jewelry, kept Orion's engagement ring for a while but ended up selling it
9. Do they have a word or phrase that they tend to overuse?
MOM
Swears like a sailor
10. What is a weird quality that they have (ie their hands are always cold, they’re always hungry, they snort when they laugh, etc)?
Sleeping for 4-5 months a year is one thing, leaves claw marks on trees sometimes just for fun and to show where he was
Cannot sit straight, always lifting legs on table, sitting on counters, sprawled over couches and people, manspreads
11. What color do they look strikingly good in?
I think brown and green are his colours. Some yellow could be nice
Any colour tbh but red would compliment their eyes
12. How do they show affection to someone they love?
Cuddles and other affectionate touch, scratches their back, makes some flowers, brings snacks, chats.
Throws self on them basically, kisses, lighthearted teasing, asking about day, bites if you're not careful
13. Do they make strong/frequent eye contact when they talk to someone?
Not strong, but occasional
Very strong and intimidating
14. What attributes do they have that are inherited from their parents or shared with their siblings/other relatives?
Well his mom is Earth, so nature and godly powers are very strong in him. But also being lovable and kind and good-natured are things she gave him and his brothers. Plains is especially calm and tranquil (lazy) of the three.
Both their parents made them extremely stubborn, competetive and honestly kinda toxic, has affected their relationships a Lot. Always has to "win" any argument. Has worked for a long time to get better and while they still are fairly confrontational can actually admit that they're wrong/this shouldn't even be an argument because both are right
15. Are their greatest flaw and their greatest strength related and in what way? (ie very caring and helpful but a doormat, or very observant and shrewd but often paranoid)
His weakness is being passive and lazy but it doesn't hurt him or nature, everyone thrives
Good at reading people, good at jumping to conclusions and needlessly poking at weak spots.
16. How has their childhood affected the way they view an aspect of their life (people, education, society, themselves, etc)
His childhood is hard to compare to regular ones, if anything it makes it so people who disrespect or don't understand nature make him sad
Don't trust anyone, don't trust institutions, nobody has your best interests in mind and aim to use you for their own gain
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thebandcampdiaries · 10 days
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Island Spyce is back with an empowering new song: “Hennessy."
Island Spyce is an artist with a very diverse approach. Her music could be described as catchy, modern, and emotional, yet not bound to any given single style or genre. Instead, she would much rather explore different ideas and connect the dots between different styles in order to create a very spontaneous and personal tone. Her most recent song, “Hennessy," is actually a really great example of how much artistry goes into Island Spyce and her music. The track feels like a perfect combination of pop and sensibilities and R&B warmth, with a great production style that feels very modern and crisp. The song embraces electronic elements, as well as R&B influences, to add more emotional depth overall.
“Hennessy” is indeed very catchy and easy to relate to on a universal level, even though the artist wrote it in relation to a very personal life story. This single deals with her experience as someone who was in a toxic relationship, where she was stuck with a partner who would not really allow her to pursue her creative freedom. It can be very tough to be put on the spot like that and have to be in a situation where you need to choose between fulfilling your creative dreams or pleasing another person in your life. Some say that true love should be all about supporting your partner, so when another person is simply not going to help you follow your dreams, maybe then there is no future in the relationship. This song celebrates the freedom that comes from this realization, and although it has a melancholic component about the end of our relationship, it is also a message of hope and freedom as the artist takes the opportunity to celebrate her newfound ability to look out for herself and be able to finally follow her dreams to be as creative and fulfilled as she deserves.
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Not many artists are willing to openly discuss such personal topics, so it is actually very refreshing to hear such a deep perspective from Island Spyce. In addition, the song offers a really great life lesson that most people could relate to in various aspects of their lives. The song offers a powerful metaphor for the listeners to finally realize that it’s so important to love themselves and be happy with who they are. This song will encourage people to be more aware of the dreams they should be pursuing before they bend to the will of someone else in their lives. To sum it up, ”Hennessy" is a song of empowerment, creativity, freedom, and hope at its very core. This is the reason why it is so powerful and catchy, even besides the amazing melody that makes it unforgettable right off the bat! Speaking of which, the songwriting here is absolutely at the next level. Island Spyce did a fantastic job at capturing the deep and emotional topic of the song, but in a way that is still lighthearted, very appealing, and very uplifting for the audience. She achieved this by combining deeper lyrics with bright and memorable hooks that make the song stand out on a very universal level. The song is titled, after the famous alcoholic beverage by the same name, which in this context stands as a symbol of celebration and freedom. It’s time to raise your glass and celebrate because life is about to begin again!
As they say, some of the best art, including music, comes from being able to manage the contrast between light and darkness. This song is really all about that. Island Spyce used "Hennessy" as an opportunity to paint a very broad and real emotional landscape and translate her feelings into music in a timeless and easily recognizable way.
Following in the footsteps of some of the best songwriters in the genre, Island Spyce is quickly building a strong following and appealing to fans who are looking for authenticity. She is able to bridge the gaps between these two worlds, combining artistic vision and integrity with songs that are simply fun, memorable, and amazing to listen to! 
Whether you’re in your car, chilling at home, or at the gym, this song will definitely make you feel empowered and inspired. The syncopated rhythm of the track is immersive from the moment you hit the play button and let it roll. The synth tones, for example, are very melodic but also have a percussive quality, which contributes to the feeling of motion of this track, which is extremely dynamic and cinematic in its scope.
This release is highly recommended to fans of musicians such as Rihanna, Asher, Pharrell, Williams, and many more.
Find out more about Island Spyce, and listen to "Hennessy," which is now available on some of your favorite digital streaming services.
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xanfeursel · 4 months
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heard you were bored so here are some questions :) (i realized halfway through that these are all durgetash because those little shits have taken over my mind) do you like leaning into the angst of durgetash or do you prefer the more lighthearted (aside from the atrocities) dynamic? if larian dropped a gortash romance, is there any icks that would absolutely ruin it for you?
or conversely, what would be the best thing they could add in a hypothetical gortash route?
what were your biggest inspirations for lophi and vyper? do you prefer one over the other or are they equal in your eyes?
(hopefully you won't have to answer these since you'll get out of work soon)
HELLO ANON. im sorry to tell you infact waited till i actually got home to answer these because i have!!! THOUGHTS and OPINIONS about the questions asked . thank you very much btw these are all really good questions ill have fun answering
FIRSTLY, it all depends on the kind of durge gortash is being paired w imo. with vyper i tend to lean more into These Two Are Fucking Insane while w/ lophi i lean more into the sort of melancholic 'angsty' side of durgetash that i think can be real yummy too. and it's all because of who vyper and lophi are as characters pre-tadpole, too. vyper liked being a loud insane freakus while lophi was a lot more reserved and kind of a miserable mess, and that informs their relationships w/ the characters around them. i think both are good and fun to explore and i definitely like exploring the more angsty side w vyper x gortash and vice versa w lophi x gortash, so. i guess both. really. LOL .
secondly, going to answer both of the gort romance related questions in one, but i think i'm probably in the unpopular opinion that gortash doesn't really neeeeeeeed a romance and i could go without it in game. i do think he deserves more content and screentime, but that's something i can say about orin also, and frankly a Lot of parts of act 3. me and act 3 have a toxic on/off again relationship. alright.
that being *said*, if i was mr larian and i was to implement a gortash romance, i'd have it be something exclusive to a durge/evil run. or at the very least, have it have consequences with your party (i.e karlach leaving or something. love gort but i do not think you should go off romancing him scott free).
i Do think having it be exclusive to a more evil-aligned run would help add more actual content to doing an evil run (and god knows we need some with how bg3 seems to like punishing people who just want to do the evil options They Gave You) and would make the most sense, but all in all i'd just hope it's handled better than the mizora sex scene cause god how that whole thing is handled still pisses me off. hopefully this all makes sense
tl;dr, its a fun idea but i can very easily go without it especially knowing how the game treated its one other antagonist romance option
now for the lophi and vyper question... i do obviously have my biases towards vyper /looks at my blog theme/, but i genuienlly cannot pick favourites with them besides that... i use them both to explore different aspects of the durge origin in different ways bc despite what some other people say i Do think you can be very flexible w durge as a concept despite the pre-established lore for them ^_^ and i think it's very fun to play around with.
as for specific inspirations, lophi takes a lot of insp from vintage pierrot art + has accidentally gotten a very 1920s makeup vibe in My Mind. i should also note her name comes from the scientific name for anglerfish, cuz thats what i had in mind when giving her those freaky sharp ass teeth i always draw her with
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and while of course, both of my durges are trans, lophi specifically was birthed from my want to make a dark urge that leans in as heavily as she possibly could in the whole trans allegory thing. so theres that as well!
vyper's specific inspos are harder for me to pinpoint cause he's much more of a 'made up as i went' character than lophi, given he was my First dark urge and i didnt really fully know what i was going into all this yet while making him (and also i was maybe a little bit high while doing so...lol) THAT SAID THOUGH, i did initially make him with akira fudo from devilman in mind. he has the horn style he does because it reminded me of devilman ... although the akira insp is very lose and barely effects his character now.. ~_~ despite bg3 being my main fixation atm devilman is still a very very important piece of media to me so vyper being loosely akira-pilled is not too surprising if you know me well enough lololol
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tattletaleturner · 5 months
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I think it's easily forgotten that what we see publicly is very very limited in terms of true context-- even if someone where to live record a show getting every interaction it would still not account for any past or private dynamics, all it would show is 2hrs/1.5hrs of isolated (and performative) interactions and not even near years of accumulated interpersonal/professional/casual etc. dynamics-- you don't know what's happening or happened bts/
I'm so glad you said this bc people are quick to jump to hard conclusions on small amounts of information. We do not know the things that happen in privacy.
I think that's just typical fan and speculative behaviour it's a double edged sword. It's fun to have a gossip every now and then it can be lighthearted and entertaining but unfortunately it can become toxic and cross boundaries very quickly when people get over invested. AM is one of those tightly lipped bands if you compare them to say a band like the 1975 (they're all over tiktok they were they only band I could think of who's socially prevalent right now) where A LOT of their marketing is based of really engaging with fans via social media -- AM tend to keep it very professional there is a clear split between their professional/public lives and their private ones-- even when you get a glimpse of their regular lives it's often very small (as is their right- they deserve privacy).
So when you have a space where the /updates/news are very limited and sporadic the person feels way more out of reach-- for example (yes again with the 1975) fans know that even when they go on a break you're very likely to hear from them still on social media-- where as when bands like AM sign off at the end of an era it's RADIO SILENCE (hence all the people a few weeks back upset about the hiatus)-- so when fans then get tiny little bits of info they jump at it and run filling in the large gaps with speculation--- basically they get given an inch they take a mile; which is why people go so far as to speculating and concluding things with such surety about their personal lives when in reality they probably see a very warped 0.0000001% of the reality of it.
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dreamingsushi · 8 months
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The Villain of Romance - Overall Review
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So I just completed this series last night and it’s more than about time I gave my full out review on it. I think a lot of people disliked this drama for many reasons, but as for me... Well, keep going to know more!
Plot
The story is focusing on two college students that are experiencing dating problems in their relationship together. It’s mostly going for clichés, but gradually they work through each of their differences and issus to make their relationship lasting.
Albeit very simple, the plot was okay, it showed different sides of what it is to be in a relationship and making it work. It was mostly satirical in my opinion and not meant to be taken seriously, as most of the traits shown were actually over exaggerated for comedy purpose. That kind of humour might work for some and might not for others. I found it entertaining. And through all that, they still carried a message and to me that was good.
Overall, it’s nothing super extraordinary, but it deserves a round 7/10.
Acting
Here, it’s kind of interesting, because I would say that the acting is actually rather poor. But it’s also kind of staged. It’s like, we did it on purpose. So if you’re looking for dashing acting skills, I would suggest to skip on that one. Nobody is taking themselves seriously, and that’s something I personally liked about this show.
However, purely based on the scale I’m usually using for rating acting, as non speaker of the language, this gets a little 5/10.
Aesthetics
The visuals and sounds of this drama was nice, it matched pretty well with the story and what was going on. Everything was lighthearted, which was nice. There’s nothing much more to say about it. They did well, but it wasn’t stunning either. It’s a 7/10.
Do I recommend this drama?
I would say I do recommend this drama to anyone who would like to watch something very lighthearted. There are some extracts that are a little darker and more seriously, but it’s mostly a satire. I’ve seen a lot of backlash on the comments saying that the relationship is toxic and everything. But that’s kind of the point? The two protagonists are working through the toxicity of their relationship to make it work and grow. I think that’s the interesting part, because it’s talking about very toxic traits that are often shown in dramas, but that it’s never actually addressed as a problem the main couple has to solve. I mean, I haven’t watched that many recent k-dramas lately, so maybe the curve changed on that matter, but still. For the longest times, these things were okay, even dreamy, and now that it’s put into a comical way, it isn’t? I don’t know. For me they just making a lot of fun of those situations while showing ways to grow out of it. It actually gives decent advice on dating, in my opinion, not that I’m a dating expert. Plus, the show’s name is the Villain of Romance, obviously there would be bound to have some bad things happen. Anyways. It’s funny, it’s light, it’s a short ride. I would say go for it if you don’t take everything seriously when there’s no need to. It overall gets a 7/10 for me. It’s not going to be drama of the year, but still. It’s a fun watch, so enjoy it!
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alyjojo · 1 year
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The Person On Your Mind in February ❤️‍🔥 2023 - Libra
Whole of their energy towards Libra: King of Swords
This has to be someone you work with, which would mean some kinda drama is going down at work. This could be a partner or someone you get on well with, there’s a lot of Aquarius/Leo energy here so somewhere in that lane. They see you as King of Swords, someone very intelligent, removed from feelings in order to make the most logical decisions. They could see you as kinda narrow-minded and “inside the box”, not one to venture out too much, and someone very reliable & dependable on a regular basis but you also take foreverrr.
Feelings: 8 Pentacles
They see you as someone very important at work, a leader or boss of some kind, someone very charismatic, charming, socially popular or likeable in general. That could also refer to dating, like you’re a hard worker during the day and a player at night 😆 You’ve got a great relationship with this person, they see you positively and think you’re great. There’s a mischievous vibe to this person, the fun kind.
Intentions: 7 Swords
They intend to gossip and scheme, this could be a person that likes to do that generally. It’s an energy of a prankster, they could be a lighthearted sort of goofball like that. Or they’re just in your ear about all the business going on with everyone, they’re an intelligent & nosy sort that loves to mess around & pull off clever or sneaky tricks. Doesn’t feel destructive though, more playful. They spy on other people so they can tell you all the bs going on, what else is there to do for amusement?
Actions: The Sun rev
The Sun rev as an action is all about ego, so if they’re planning on scheming someone or something, they could come on as way too pushy and demanding for you to jump on board with this, arrogant even. This is more a feeling than an action, a lack of confidence. Someone at work could be knocking them down a peg. If you’re rising and they’re not, they could be jealous, and it would be that feeling that’s working against them, maybe that’s something you need to know. They could intend on starting rumors or doing something in attempt to sabotage you. They do seem to really like you though, they’re just kinda bitter their hard work is not rewarded. Or that’s switched. Be cautious with this person, though they seem okay with you. Idk why else they’d come out here if it wasn’t important. Don’t feed into any unnecessary schemes.
Messages:
Their side:
- $$$
- I just don’t know what to say
Your side:
- Not ready…yet
- Cannot Handle Reality
Possible signs:
Aquarius, Virgo, Capricorn & Leo
If you’re dealing with:
Death & 6 Cups, you could have Scorpio in your chart or be dealing with one over most. You’re done with the past, these could be people from the past, or you’re in a state where you’re realizing how things have changed since…whenever. Consciously changed or not, either is possible.
Aries - committed to craziness, or religious to an extent of bewildering or confusing you, could be someone very wise and also kinda crazy
Taurus - a very close friend, loves you deeply
Gemini - heartbroken by toxic shit, one of you, possibly still obsessed with you or by what hurt them
Cancer - dealing with something very painful in their family, relationship, feels betrayed
Leo - happy it’s over, not speaking
Virgo - wants a new beginning, they love you
Libra - telling the truth about being or wanting to be single, focused on finances, or their independence
Scorpio - disciplined & in charge of how things are being run in their world, taking their time and they’ll do it how they want tyvm
Sagittarius - living the dream & guarding that closely
Capricorn - feels inspired & excited by some Justice coming their way, being vindicated
Aquarius - finished with a karmic cycle, either with you or in general
Pisces - not reconciling with a Leo, fire sign, or they’re friendly & charismatic with you but it stops there
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babygirldennis · 3 years
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Charden is stored in the oy oy oy <3
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