#it would be a wonderful distraction

[maomango-doodle]

(13 pages) Forlorn

#trigun #trigun stampede #millions knives #on an episode of “how much can i woobify knives :D” #his character is interesting to explore. so much loneliness mixed with strong emotions repressed behind a cold facade #i wondered how he would react to the realization that he misses vash #if he brings his plans to fruition then they'll be reunited -- that's what he tells himself #maybe to keep the loneliness at bay but sometimes it catches up to him #i thought maybe this cold and perfect facade knives parades would shatter and the “ugly” emotions hidden behind would spill out #which would be smth out of his control. and knives hates it. or deep down is terrified of it #smth smth knives seeing vash in his reflection on a stolen red plant #and oh #oh he's PISSED #he let a part of himself break. he showed weakness. and over what? over vash?? but hes doing everything for HIM #he thinks -- so it's vash's fault he's losing his composure right? #it's vash's fault he's distracted from what could reunite them. his fault knives is doing all of this. feeling all of this #using vash as a scape goat for his own emotional turmoil #and that piano be damned. it's a monolith of his loneliness #if only it could all disappear-- the piano-- the cold-- the memories-- the weight on his heart-- the FEAR #there's smth about his rage being rooted in fear that intrigues me #fear of remaining alone-- fear of the hurricane of his own emotions-- fear of time passing and loss of control #then his hood falls off and he's left vulnerable and exposed #also i like the idea of knives looking pretty when he's composed but when he shows strong emotions he turns ugly and wrinkly #comic #i forgot it was in my drafts lol also not kv btw ^^ #Thank you for reading! :3 #shinxo art #shinxo comic

[an-established-butt-dent]

The Veil is thin tonight-

-Can you feel it on your skin?

Tingling?

Ink and fineliner on paper

Available as Print

#Solas and Lavellan siting in a tree... uh window #k i s s i n g #Kidding. They are only sharing longing looks while playing with mage lights #while Solas is trying to distract her by slowly caressing her ankle with his thumb because ofcourse he has some ancient tricks up his sleev #He likes to see how the light fragments stick to Lavellan's hair. Like the stars are part of her #like like she is his sky and universe #He entertains her with tales of the lights that use to dance through the sky in Arlathan. Wondering what she would think of all the colors #He would have loved to paint her in that moment. Her eyes brighter and more mesmerizing than any aurora borealis #But they didn't have forever #The first signs of dawn were slowly creeping over the horizon. And with it the promise of new challenges #more quests and piles of paperwork #Courtesy of Josie #solasmance #solavellan #solavellan hell #solas dragon age #inquisitor lavellan #solas x lavellan #solavellan art #dragon age #dragon age fanart #dragon age inquisition #da fanart #da art #fanart #traditional media #da: dreadwolf #solas romance #Daze Chroma #my art

[tategaminu]

"Keep my boyfriend out of your f***ing boat”

I'm pretty sure this mofo Finnegron (I'm not bothering remembering his name) is the one who kidnaps and beats Callum up so I hope Rayla whips his ass.

What if- WHAT IF. He asks her to fight in the arena again giving Callum in exchange for winning. She didn't win in the short story because she got discracted cuz Callum but maybe she will win now because he wants to save him! her weakness being her strenght now!

I doubt it will happen but It sounds angsty enough and I like it

Either way she gonna be insane trying to save him.

Edit: it ended up being the other way but I'm happy.

#rayla smith and finn rock #will smith slap #the dragon prince #what if you saved me from pirates and we had an ocean kiss after haha just kidding... unless? #rayllum #i dont like this finn guy he is showing too much skin and is distracting #he is no that good looking ok average at best ok not my type at all #rayla is gonna lose her marbles when callum gets kidnapped #i wonder if his thunder will call domina or some sht we will see! #also i guess rayla will guide them to scumport since they said she would guide them in some place she was? #and then they reveal scumport in the short and finn guy appears in the trailer? #Rayla that guy leading the ring is gonna kidnap your bf in a few weeks RAYLA #rayla x callum #tdp s5 #mystery of aaravos #tdp spoilers #tdp rayla #shitpost #YEAH

[sesamenom]

co-high kings galadriel & celeborn

since elrond doesn't want the kingship, galadriel & celeborn are the eldest in middle-earth of the lines of Olwe and Elmo respectively. olwe is older but hes the king of the teleri not specifically doriath sindar so there might be some dispute between which line the sindarin high kingship jumps to, but they very conveniently happen to already be married and so can skip all that and just be twice the headache for sauron

#silm #silmarillion #galadriel #celeborn #doriath #they picked yellow (like the mallorn leaves) as their accent color in place of melians pink #imagine if this was their backup plan if the aragorn distraction failed #oops the first long-lost heir claiming an ancient kingship wasnt enough to draw saurons attention away from mordor? #how about TWO not-so-long-lost heirs claiming one and a half ancient HIGH KINGSHIPS #now i wonder what would be the plan c after that #elrond agrees to claim the kingship for the good of middle earth and then promptly throws the crown away finrod-style the moment they win? #give arwen the noldorin high king/queenship and a really big dog? #let the twins share? #wait what would be the line of succession for the sindarin kingship if elrond doesnt want it #of the line of olwe galadriels the only one of the grandchildren left in middle earth #celebrian would be next or possibly gildor if hes actually finrods son #of the line of elmo celeborn and possibly thranduil (if oropher is celeborns brother) are still around #celebrian also goes next on this line and legolas on thranduil's side #and cirdan is floating around somewhere in the vague realm of 'kin of thingol'

[vanidrabbles]

Neuvillette: [fully immersed in a new case file, listening to classical music, occasionally sipping his water glass, very focused]

Furina: [upside down on his office's couch] Do you think lakelight lilies have feelings?

#neuvillette #furina #focallette #neuvifuri #genshin incorrect quotes #genshin impact #fontaine #// you cannot tell me that somehow would make him smile out of the blue; and look at her endearingly #probably thinking how sweet and considerate his wife is #“ Such a kind soul; she wonder if plants have emotions... my beloved; my ocean's heart; ma fleurette; ma petite ange...” #and then he just nods and only says “Possibly” #but ahhhh; he looking at her like 'the most selfless beautiful woman... my lumitoile; my treasuare #and then he just can't go back to reading the cases; he is too distracted by Furina's beauty and her random questions ♥

[r0semultiverse]

Digital Circus AMA Notes

Digital Circus is getting a season 1 at some point!!!!

#webcore aesthetic board for the series design

Pomni was going to be a frog originally. 🐸

90s toys Zooble inspo

Caine is an antagonist, but not by active choice, he doesn't know he's not helping. He doesn't feel a whole spectrum of human emotions (he's an AI).

"Caine canonically just lets things happen if he thinks it's funny."

Characters eat like Chao in Chao garden in Sonic. The characters can eat the food, but they can't digest it.

Jax's favorite food is spaghetti.

Pomni likes salmon.

Q "Was the ending a 'Last Supper' reference?" A "in a very superficial kinda way yeah." Religious stuff is sometimes just used for the funny.

Gooseworx tumblr sketches MAY or MAY NOT be canon to the series, so it's up in the air for every single one.

People can abstract from feeling too much pain if it breaks their mind from it being too much. Characters feel pain from things, but not as intensely as they would in real life.

Zooble is gonna swap parts every episode (implying they have spare parts) except their body & head.

Jax chose his own name & gooseworx likes to think he chose Gangle's name.

Ragatha was named "Emmy" originally.

They (the cast of characters trapped in the circus) can't change their clothes but Caine can. It's part of their skin sorta kinda.

There's empty space under Pomni's hat because video game model physics.

Spamton was partially inspo for Caine, Caine's VA did Spamton dubs.

Gangle only has 2 masks. Why's it (her hapiness mask) break all the time? Mental state, but the "real her" is "harder to break."

Kaumfo was gonna be part of the main cast originally before Jax.

Kaufmo's model has nothing below the waist at this time, but was made for that promotional image on twitter.

Q "What kinda person was Kaufmo?" A "He was the same as Ragatha in a sense, goofy & cheery, sometimes toxic levels of positivity."

I'm paraphrasing for the sake of note taking in real time, go watch the stream playback for more context & details if you want.

#these are all from GLITCHX 2023 on the glitch productions youtube channel btw #for anyone curious as to where I got the screenshots & details #theory crafters pop off with this #someone else can reblog this with time stamps if you want I'm pretty tired #I'm not going back through that stream right now; I'm sure someone else will put timestamps in the comments maybe #but yeah consider the amazing digital circus officially greenlit for a first season I guess! :D #tadc season 1 eventually baybeee!! #I'm hyped! I wonder if the pilot will remain canon into season 1 or if we'll get a new introduction into the series. #Wonder why Jax called Gangle... well Gangle 👀 maybe he just thought it sounded silly or something i'm curious as to what gooseworx thought #Caine's AI really thought Pomni running around looking for him & Kaufmo abstracted in his room was funny 😐 or his AI is glitchy #(we saw him glitching out already in the pilot) alternatively I think Bubble could be distracting Caine on purpose but idk just yet #imagine how much pain Ragatha was in since they can all actually feel that though like being body slammed & thrown against walls & stuff 😬 #also excited to see some Gangle-centric content in the future based on that comment about the 'real her' 👀 #Kaufmo would probably make jokes at really dark moments when it wasn't appropriate because that was a coping mechanism for him poor guy 😭 #mine #op #the amazing digital circus #tadc

[lunarharp]

wanted to adapt the google search results a gay woman got in a japanese drama "tsukuritai onna to tabetai onna" which is good btw.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #the most light and gentle version of flirting-like behaviour of all time - a mutual passing thing - a peaceful dance through the long years #a way to work you out.. a way to express something about myself. all these steps are leading up to that beautiful magic #that you read about once. but actually we've been making it all this time... many many steps to this wonderful recipe. #the only non-perfect & non-fated thing about them is that oru is gay but (imo) qif could easily be transfem at any time. don't test him #oru being a woman wouldnt change anything for qif but oru is gay as hell.. However if qif was a woman then it'd be fine anyway no doubt. #oru would give in his membership to the Gay Men's Picnic Club group he goes to and embark on this life instead..many such cases #also i was typing “am i gay” into google when drawing tsukutabe fanart to check what google looks like #and “am i depressed” was the autofill for “am i”. qif's life is like: maybe he would have looked up something like oru did #but he got a bit distracted and started reading about cptsd instead which seemed more pertinent. sometimes childhood goes this way <3 #anyway Tsukuritabe..Kinou nani tabeta...And witch hat kitchen.... the trio of gentle silly 30+ gay couple situations..ohh.. #orufrey are the combo of those. like tsukutabe they aren't together yet. like kinou nani tabeta they are a long-term couple. beautiful #i will never let go of them. drawing this has cheered me up. they are with me

[kvetchinglyneurotic]

I'm rewatching Hannibal now that I have a bit more free time and one of my favourite things about the first season is how much fun the show has with the fact that virtually everyone watching already knows that Hannibal is a cannibalistic serial killer — the cannibal puns, the cuts between Hannibal's victims and him preparing meals, the way he's so consistently but subtly manipulative in a way you can't fully appreciate without knowing who he is. I think creators adapting popular stories/characters can fall into the trap of writing or directing the same way they would for a narrative that isn't already entrenched in the popular consciousness, but Bryan Fuller and co. really leaned into that awareness and wove it into the narrative in a way that produces some truly spectacular dramatic irony.

#nbc hannibal #hannibal lecter #bryan fuller #i say “virtually everyone” because it is theoretically possible though unlikely that someone would find the show #without knowing who hannibal is beforehand #incidentally this is why i'm not usually bothered by spoilers — sometimes knowing the twist lets you appreciate the story more #also that bit where he tells freddie lounds she's being rude and then it cuts to him cooking one of his victims #as this wonderful bit of foreshadowing for how he chooses his victims #already know what to expect gore-wise on the rewatch so i'm less distracted by being squeamish #and can appreciate how well-constructed the show is #kvetch oc

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Okay so I've been eating your art for a few days? Weeks? Months? Ever since I found you through my Welcome Home hyperfixation help it has me in it's death grips and just, admiring all the details you put into your pieces?

Like, I can't tag every little detail I come across and like from what you post, because I would be too distracting from the contents of the post and my gushing and speculating derived from that alone, but I see and like them even if I don't say too much about it.

For instance, don't think I didn't see the grime at the edges of Frank's frown and mouth in your Lights Out AU post! It is such a small detail to notice, but it really sells the idea of the puppets becoming grimy, scruffy, and dirtier as time goes on and they are stuck in the dark with little to nothing to clean themselves. I feel like it is most noticeable with their hair, as my gosh do they all need a hair brush by the time we see the group interactions of the unlikely four, but I enjoy seeing their disheveled selves as they try to go through life in the dark. While I won't pick up on every little detail, the stuff I do see is really interesting a think about, that you didn't need to add it but you did because you enjoyed making it l, and it's pretty heartwarming in a way for me you know?

Anyways, as a fellow artist, it's both cool and concerning because I get the gist of how much time and energy it can take to make stuff! I enjoy and adore your art and thoughts a ton, just remember to take care of yourself and not to push too hard on yourself to make stuff! Stretch and drink water, etc etc etc, and remember there are always people who will like what you make, be it dragons, welcome home stuff, and oc thingies!

AH IM

WHY ARE ALL OF YOU SO NICE!!! MY STUNTED EMOTIONS CANT HANDLE IT!!!! no but seriously i had to take a break reading this to walk through my house and Simmer Down bc man... the reaction pic is accurate.... i made Several dying animal noises!

i'm beyond happy that the details are being Noticed and are Enjoyable! i like to include as many as i can (when i Think of them, which happens less often than i'd like). i rarely have it in me to scribble Full Things, so i try to make up for it with the little things! it seems to be working, yippee! and it Is fun to include them, yeah <3

you take care of yourself as well! actually, get some water as soon as you read this. All Of Ya's. im takin a hefty sip rn so you all better get hydrated with me. no diedrating on this blog no sirree!! but yes um thank you so much for the very kind ask! mentally i am printing it out and pinning it to my wall! i will be thinking about it every time i Add Little Details!

#also pls dont hold back in the tags on my account or others #they are Lifeblood <3 #plus i just like to hear other people's thoughts!!! and id love to hear What You See And Get Out Of It! #& who knows you might even inspire something #tagged comments can do wonders yk yk #you would not be distracting In The Least <3 #rambles from the bog #also i like that title... The Unlikely Four... i will be referring to that group as such from now on! #and i Will say... the grime on frank's mouth is Grime but its not exactly natural.... #also hello! i dont think ive said that yet! #i recognize you from my notifs! you're one of the regulars whom i see and mentally tip my hat to whenever i catch sight of your icon #& i cannot help you. wh has me in its grip as well #none of us are getting out! yippee yahoo hawyee!

[whotookmysenbon]

Right. Just finished helping with an interrogation and now remembering that I have Morals™ so if anyone needs me I’m having an existential crisis in the corner.

#ah yes I can go on a government sanctioned killing spree just fine #but helping Ibiki shove red hot needles under a captured missing-nin’s nails has me shuddering and wondering if I’m a bad person #I’ve done worse #hell I’ve been on the recieving end of worse and anything you can walk away from could always be worse #I need a nap #a drink #and a bedpartner #and I don’t care what order. any distraction would be welcome #genma shiranui #shiranui genma

[good-beanswrites]

I already brought this up, but for quicker reference:

Order of Attack: Mahiru nightmare sequence about Kotoko's attacks. Gotta round out the guilty trio.

Feel free to not prioritize this. :D

LISTEN, I CAN'T BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE FOR THE ANGST THAT YOU REQUEST (<- made myself sad over Mappi and worries I may be in trouble for this one). Obligatory "I don't hate Kotoko and think she's very complex but from these character's pov I had to make her solely scary I'm sorry." And of course I was prioritizing this 👀👀👀 I really loved your nightmare sequences, I tried to make one that completed the set but was still unique!! Thank you for the request >:3

TW for referencing her bf's suicide, and descriptions of the attack injuries

“Aw, come on, you can tell me~” Yuno turned her attention away from where she’d been helping Mahiru with dinner. “Both Fuuta and Amane have had nightmares about her. Hell, I’ve had a nightmare or two about her. I won’t think you’re a mean person for admitting it.”

“I’m not lying,” Mahiru insisted. Her lips rounded into a little pout.

Yuno studied her expression. The girl had a way of really looking at someone when she wanted to. Sometimes it was a wonderful feeling – her gaze could be full of understanding, warmth. You were seen. You were heard. She saw you for all that you were. 

But in times like these, Mahiru found herself shifting under the pressure of it. Yuno was truly seeing her. She could see how Mahiru’s smile was frozen in its forced shape these past few weeks. She could see the way she flinched at loud noises, or how all the blood drained from her face when Kotoko’s voice echoed from the room next door. In waking, there was no doubt Mahiru was afraid of her. In sleep, though…

Yuno took her hands in both of hers.

“Then… what do you dream about?”

—

Mahiru was in the woods. She was running, her feet bare, her breath hitching. 

At first, she thought she was fleeing something. Danger and death loomed around her. The trees closed in. The canopy plunged her into darkness. The branches reached out to tear at her flowered dress, or snag on her hair. The trees pressed close to suffocate her. She grabbed at her throat. 

At some point, it became clear she was running towards something. A figure came into her view, just ahead. Though he didn’t appear to be running, she couldn’t catch up to him. She had to. He was in danger. She had to get to him. She had to stop him. 

He entered a clearing up ahead. Mahiru could just barely see into it. She tried to scream out, begging him to stop, but no words came out of her wheezing mouth. She could stop everything, she could stop all of this, if only –

She burst through the clearing. The figure, now a young woman, stood in the center. She faced away. 

Mahiru tried again to tell Kotoko to stop, but it didn’t matter whether or not she could speak, now; it was too late. 

On the ground below, between tree roots and scattered leaves, lay two small bodies.  

Mahiru’s hands flew to cover her mouth. Her legs grew weak with horror. There was blood everywhere, and bones bent at wrong angles. Fuuta’s limbs were twisted and limp. Amane had curled herself to cover her face, blood streaming from between her fingers.

 Kotoko, too, had red-stained hands. She surveyed her work with pride.

“What… have you done…?”

Slowly, Kotoko turned. Mahiru wanted to turn around and run before those bloodthirsty eyes could land on her. Her legs stayed frozen in place even as her heart raced in her chest. 

Kotoko met her gaze. Then, she gave a gentle smile.

“Thank you.”

Mahiru stumbled back a few steps.

“You let this happen.” 

“No…”

“You did. You could have stopped this, but you didn’t. Thank you.”

“I-I didn’t –! This isn’t – ! I thought –”

“You knew this was going to happen.” She spoke a familiar name, and Mahiru shook her head violently. “You knew what he was planning. You had plenty of chances to stop him. You didn't. You knew what I was planning. You know how to calm people down, how to bring groups together. But you didn’t speak to me once about it. You wanted this to happen.”

“I didn’t!” She said it frantically, unsure if she was trying to convince Kotoko, the two beaten prisoners, herself, or someone else. “I didn’t.” The statement was true, but it didn’t change anything that Kotoko had said.

The forest closed in. Kotoko reached a hand out, beckoning to her.

“We make a good team, don’t we?”

“No…” 

Mahiru was struck with the thought that she didn’t want to take hold of such a disgusting hand, only to glance down at her own. They were just as slick with blood. She let out a shriek.

It was Amane’s. It was Fuuta’s. It was his. 

Mahiru’s legs finally gave out on her. When she looked up, Kotoko was still smiling.

“So… who will be next?” 

—

Mahiru slipped away from Yuno’s grasp. 

“Oh, don’t you worry about little old me!” She turned back to their work. She brushed her hands off on her apron, giving them an extra swipe for good measure. “I promise, Kotoko isn’t the villain in my dreams.”

#milgram #mahiru shiina #yuno kashiki #kotoko yuzuriha #i kept it in the order i got everything but i was definitely thinking of it nonstop adfsdf #im forever crazy about mahiru's murder-through-inaction theme #since all of the others were pretty direct even if accidental #i firmly believe she knew what her bf was planning and didnt stop him/actively said shed join him because she didnt know how to handle #the situation properly #and if she prides herself so much on being good with people and making friends and bringing people together i wonder if shed feel #responsible for not deescalating kotoko beforehand #plus the more immediate survivors guilt that if she was just in the other room maybe it would have been her and not fuuta/amane #at first i wanted to work in more mv symbols (birds cake carousel horses) because i love wacky and surreal dream sequences #but it got to be distracting when i was planning it out lmao so i decided to stick with the two major trauma moments #vibing on my trip rn but i had just a few lines of this one to finish so i wanted to post it when i had a few minutes... #though now i need to go and pretend im not crying over mappi 😭😭😭😭😭 #drabbles #order of attack #(to go back and make it an official tag later)

[themyscirah]

I very much know this is because Jessica Cruz's origin story was written by Geoff Johns in a shitty comic, but by God is there so much going on there. Like damn.

Like there's the really, genuinely compelling stuff, for example the presence of ring horror and loss of control w Jess and Power Ring/Volthoom + the implications of that (character wise, both before and after JL 50) which is just SO interesting (and angsty!) to me personally

But then there's also more plot holes than you can shake a stick at as well (where did Jess get her ring. Guys it just showed up who died where did she get it from GUYS-)

All interspersed between some of the worst character writing for other Justice League members in existence (Wondy fans you know what I mean) and crazy ass plots out there

#anyways was writing a meta (got distracted halfway through so dont expect anything as always) and i opened this issue for panels and guys. #What. first off i remembered this being weird now but what the fuck. second im not a wonder woman fan and this shit is now heinous to me. #why would they do that. also what was the general plot of that entire arc what the fuuuuuu #anyways. shits crazy that comic sucks except for when jess and/or vic + jess do things but anyways #it has left me with a bit of a conspiracy theory to be quite honest with you all. in terms of the plothole mentioned there. like to be fair #i have a couple theories bc i dont remember this being explored or making sense fully (although i could be forgetting) but yeah. #need to check comicvine and a few other things to see if my conspiracy theory is at all plausible but like. theres a chance. its not a #preferred actual outcome to me because i find a different one 10000x more compelling but crazy if true to the theory #blah #no this isnt coherent and doesnt make sense. deal. #jessica cruz

[j-ellyfish]

Its true what you said that hima have a limit to his joke now days. Tbh I miss his gay jokes. The editor sure wanna play safe since you can get cancel for just breathing this day. But they really underestimate my guy. Hetalia getting cancel by the whole south korea country back in 2009 but still alive

I wonder if that is truly the reason. Though I can't help but wonder, if they planned to be so restrictive on what can or cannot be in Hetalia, then why hire Himaruya in the first place? As "controversial" as Hetalia might be, I doubt no one but Shonen Jump would be eager to host a manga with a solid fanbase that has been running for the past 15-something years. I genuinely wonder how he ended up in Shonen Jump, all I know is that Gentosha's Comic Birz (where Hetalia was hosted) was cancelled in 2018 (circa 4 years after Hima moved to Shonen Jump) ... Back in the day I heard a rumor that he left Gentosha due to some conflict over copyright and intellectual property terms, but it was like, 2012-2013 and this is likely fake, it's just something I heard back then.

I just wish I didn't feel like he's holding back. As someone said in the tags of a post I reblogged recently (the one about micronations), if this keeps going on Hima might end up experiencing a burn out (if he hasn't already) and I'd feel truly sorry for him. He's the kind of person who truly gets passionate about his own work and characters, for how problematic some parts of early Hetalia were, you could see back when he was active on his personal blog that he put his entire heart in these characters, his blog oozes with that love and passion and it's so contagious that I can't help but believe it is partially what made so many people attracted to Hetalia in the first place. Hima had/has such a passionate attitude over the world he created like he's Hetalia's No.1 Fan even before being its creator.

The way he no longer updates his personal blog, the way HWS feels like Hetalia is often being held on a leash ... It frustrates me. Not even just as a fan, I genuinely feel bad for Himaruya. I feel hurt as a fellow artist who admires him and his positive, joyful attitude towards his own creations.

#I just got attached to him after being into Hetalia for so long ... I grew up while he was on his blog #I grew up browsing it and back when the entire fandom knew that every once in a while #his blog would get active again and he'd be back with a bunch of new posts and requests to fill and stuff like games and pictures of his #trips abroad #and everyone would be happy that he's back and for like one week or so we'd just constantly check his blog to see if he uploaded something #new if he filled our request if our favorite character would get new art #it was so cozy and full of happiness and joy #I remember I'd check it so often while I was on the bus in the morning and would help me feel less tense and distract myself from my fears #it sounds cheesy and stupid but yeah even if I don't know him I ended up caring a lot and feeling like something is off currently #it just frustrates me #more the way I'd feel suspecting a fellow artist I'm friends with isn't given the respect they deserve #rather than as a Hetalia fan #Surely it frustrates me as a Hetalia fan but even moreso if I start wondering the possible reasons behind this almost abrupt change #ask #hetalia #ary spoke

[piplupod]

i need to lie down and curl into a ball and tuck myself into a box and be gently lowered into the earth i think. and just stay there for a few days... years... however long it needs to be until i can exist without feeling like i am a prey animal being hunted for sport every day !!!!!!!

#And Suddenly Everything Felt Overwhelming Again. And Suddenly Reality Opened Its Eyes And Gazed Into My Own. #I can't even think straight like... how do people live entire lives #how do they exist without forcing themselves to continue every day and ignore the clanging bells of how Bad it all is #how do ppl ignore the siren song of how fragile the body is and how easy it would be to break the thread keeping the self alive #like i do think maybe death should not be such an easily obtainable thing. its so tempting and i hate it #I Don't Know !!!! head in my hands. i did not eat lunch today because I felt so bad so maybe that has made things worse #it has definitely made things worse. i want to have an existence where I do not feel this bad so often. #this is not a life to live. this is an existence to endure. i am tired i am tired i am tired. #but it will be okay again soon after I eat and distract myself. life is happy and wonderful when i do not Remember it All. god. #please ignore me as i throw a tantrum fdsjkl i am embarrassed in advance honestly. something is not right in my head right now.

[baronessblixen]

First I couldn't focus on work because of a migraine. Now that I've taken something for it, I can't focus cause I feel sick. And the migraine is still there, too.

#personal #distracting myself by writing a personal post #not feeling good AT ALL #but i refuse to call in sick #i will be better once the painkiller hits #i mean i hope so #thinking about the pepto my friend bought me #that i won't get until the end of the week #and that i would really really love now #kinda wondering if that migraine was caused by my almost bike accident yesterday #either way i'm dizzy and sick and i hate migraines #wouldn't wish them on my worst enemies

[starheirxero]

I have been booped more! :0 I HAVE BEEN SUPER BOOPED-

WAIT THE BOOPING HAS DISTRACTED ME, BUT YEAH, SAMS WAS WILD-

This definitely tells us a bunch about the characters!

If I wasn't sold on Ruin before… BOY I SURE AM NOW! He lost everything. Saw, as his friends slowly lost their minds, unable to do anything. And he was left unharmed, left with whatever sanity could remain after witnessing this tragedy. Everything he's done, everyone he killed…it was all for vengeance. For justice. Because killing his own wouldn't be enough. It would never be, after all the years of suffering. And of course he won't regret it, how could he? He killed those responsible for driving his friends mad, for making them destroy each other. HE IS SUCH AN AMAZING CHARACTER, I CANNOT-

And apparently Solars don't exist much at all, even less than surviving Eclipses??👀

Speaking of Eclipse, he is partially Solar now! This does actually make a lot of sense. Eclipse has been shown unwilling to change. Perhaps he has been too stubborn, or he has felt too hurt. However, with a part of Solar inside of him, there might be a chance! Because he'll listen. He listened to Earth, he listened to Lunar. He has been listening and mulling it over in his head!

This is so interesting, I can't wait to see where this goes-

-Stardust

I KNOW RIGHTTT everytime there's more Ruin lore revealed I genuinely fall in love with him more, he's SUCH a fun character. He had the same vibe as Eclipse in that "character that has a past that explains but not excuses their actions and serves to make them more tragic," yk???

AND THE SOLAR DETAILS YEAH OMGGG that was so exciting!!! Solar was exactly like Eclipse, he just didn't fester!! That's so interesting!!!

AND ECLIPSE. STARS, YEAH, ECLIPSE. Like you said, we've seen him willing to listen more!! My friend Kat mentioned too that there's been a lotta emphasis on how Eclipse isn't wholly Eclipse anymore and that can mean that typical Eclipse-y traits may not be as hardwired which can lead to a potential redemption!!

He even defended Earth when Ruin said she needed to learn to be more cruel!! Eclipse said to leave her out of the conversation!! He didn't agree, he didn't insult her, he didn't even give a noncommittal grunt, he said to leave her alone!! Eclipse has been having small changes like that fer a minute now and the idea of it being because he has Solar's base now is soso terribly fun 2 me <3

#asks #anon #stardust anon #yk. #i wonder if eclipse accidentally has some of solars memories.... #bc if they both share the base experience #then ofc eclipse would still know that waking up outside ur body is horrifying #bc solar knows that too #and even if he doesn't then i'm still curious about what memories he's missing. he's mentioned that with lunar yea? #he's not all himself because he doesn't remember all of himself #he has the memory loss swag like the rest of us now yay! <3 /silly #sun and moon show #the sun and moon show #tsams #ALSO HANDSHAKE IN GETTING DISTRACTED BY BOOPS AHAJBAJSBD