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#it was no secret that they hated people like me and he supported them anyway
redbullgirly ยท 2 months
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HI BABRIE! HI KEN! [part 3, LH44 smau]
Lewis Hamilton x pregnant!reader [social media au]
Masterlist & Hi Barbie! Hi Ken! [part 1, LH44 smau] & Hi Barbie! Hi Ken! [part 2, LH 44 smau]
Summary: Lewis and his "real-life Barbie" girlfriend Y/N Y/L/N have a secret they keep from the fans. Though it's only matter of time before they announce the happy news... it's not like it can stay hidden forever anyways.
Warnings: Pregnancy. Slight hate and bodyshaming towards Y/N. If you're not in the right headspace, please don't read it!๐Ÿซถ
Author's Note: After quite some time, hello! I'm so sorry this took so long, but life has been so busy and hectic last month I simply didn't have time and energy to write this sooner. Though I'm very glad for everyone who waited for this part and I hope you'll like it. It's probably not the last one, I have few ideas for more parts. But I don't want to promise anything, we all know how long this part took XD.
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lewishamilton So proud to support charity program for the involvement of children from disadvantaged families in sports yourusername has been working on for a few years now. All money raised from the friendly basketball match goes to the fond of the charity. Let's change lives of these talented kids together! ๐Ÿ’ซ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿพ
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user1 basketball players should be grateful our king chose to be f1 driver ๐Ÿ˜Œ
user2 fr
yourusername together we can change the world for better!! ๐Ÿ’ซ๐Ÿ’•
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user3 You make our lives better by existing Y/N๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜
user4 I think this is too idealistic lol
user5 queen speaking facts and keeping us motivated
user6 LET HER COOK ๐Ÿ—ฃ๐Ÿ—ฃ๐Ÿ—ฃ
user7 Sir Lewis Hamilton is Sir for a reason ๐Ÿ‘‘
mercedesamgf1 ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿค
user8 even though he'll be driving for ferrari next year mercedes still supports him!!!
user9 and what did you think? that they'll ignore him or hate him suddenly? he still got a whole season w them ๐Ÿคฃ plus it's all marketing
user10 nah i'll just live in delusion that admin loves lewis & y/n๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿฅฐ
user11 I love how you use your platform to raise awareness
user12 omg he's so hot ๐Ÿฅต
user13 Wait, why is Lewis at Y/N's charity event instead of her? I usually support her, but this is just weird... why can't she stand up for her own thing?
user14 RIGHT?! idk why she didn't even bother showing there
user15 Honestly I think that Lewis going there brings more attention to it than just her going there, and it's a good thing people are noticing this organization. Though I don't understand why she didn't go there as well ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ
user16 guys stop wtf she could be sick or smth
user14 or she's just another attention seeker... never liked her tbh
user16 the only attention seeker here is u user14 get a life and stop hating ๐Ÿ˜˜
user14 i'm not hating, i'm stating facts and unlike y/n i don't need a man to do shit for me lmfao
user17 Y'all are really getting mad over nothing xddd
user18 Amazing work! ๐Ÿ‘ you make the difference, Lewis๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ–ค๐Ÿ’›
user19 the fact he has pink pants bc it's y/n's fav color and it's for a charity event she helped organize... i want a man like him ๐Ÿ˜ฉ
user20 He's down bad for her!!!
user21 I mean... who wouldn't, just look at her๐Ÿคญ
user22 fr what i'd give to talk to y/n once
user23 Our fashion barbie iconic Queen ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–
user24 Lew giving the little boy a fist bump๐Ÿฅน
user25 he is going to be a great dad one day
user24 Oh definitely!๐Ÿซถ
user26 can't wait for dad lewis
user27 omggg imagine little him and y/n running around the paddock ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ
user26 they'll be sooo cute istg
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yourusername japan grand prix w my favs ๐Ÿ‡ฏ๐Ÿ‡ต๐Ÿค
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lewishamilton ๐Ÿค๐Ÿค
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user1 awww i live for bf lewis
user2 YOU DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER
user3 and who would that be user2 ?? you? lmfao u wish๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ
user4 the disrespect of writing these things under HIS COMMENT where he shows SUPPORT to HIS GIRLFRIEND...
user5 Lewis & Y/N 4ever ๐Ÿซถ
user6 omg look at roscoe baby so cute
user7 the teeth I can't๐Ÿฅน
user8 It's Roscoe's world and we're just living in it fr
alexandrasaintmleux so prettyyy ๐Ÿ™๐ŸŒบ
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yourusername oh stoppp u are prettier ๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’
user9 Girls supporting girls and wags supporting wags... that's what we like!!!!
user10 the fact lewis liked alex's comment w two accounts is the best thing that happened this week๐Ÿ˜ญ
user11 shut uppp I didn't even notice it before user10 ๐Ÿ˜ญ he's such a simp I love this ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ
user10 i knoooow๐Ÿ˜ญ
user12 finally you attended a grand prix this year!!!!
user13 ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜
mercedesamgf1 It's always brighter with you in the paddock Barbie Y/N!๐Ÿ’–
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yourusername next time i'm going all out w the pink ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿซถ
user14 the legend herselffff
user15 Admin is slaying and supporting Y/N ๐Ÿ’โ€โ™€๏ธ
user16 MOTHER IS SERVING ONCE AGAIN๐ŸงŽ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ
roscoelovescoco Enjoying's dad's racing's w my's best's mum's โ˜บ๏ธ๐ŸŽ
yourusername enjoying dad racing w my best son ๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿ’•
user17 not roscoe slowly learning y/n's slang and saying w instead of with๐Ÿคญ
user18 and the fact Lewis is the one really writing it... !!!!!
user19 They're such cute a family๐Ÿฅฐ
user20 mum and dad and son... I can't it's too adorable ๐Ÿซ ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ธโ€๐Ÿฉน
user21 Literally the queen of f1 and gorgeousness keep slaying
user22 where is the usual barbie aesthetic?!๐Ÿ˜ฅ
user23 fr I want pink dresses not blue trousers
user24 Guys she can wear whatever she wants
user23 yeah true but still... she already built that image so why not keep it wtf ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ
user25 Covering her fat stomach with the purse ewww ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿฅด
user26 i wanna take u haters seriously... but I just can't xd
user27 if you have anger issues like me and don't like online trolls, pls stop scrolling people! there are so many dumb users from twitter in these comments!๐Ÿ™ƒ
user28 I just don't get why they're hating on Y/N all of sudden... what did she ever do to them
user29 idk, probably bcs she wasn't active for a while (she was probably not feeling well or smth as she said in an interview few days back) and didn't attend any gp till japan this year (again she was probably sick so understandable)... plus lot of f1 "fans" are jealous bitches change my mind
user30 Internet always moves in waves and one time everybody loves u and then they hate u ๐Ÿ˜ฌ
user31 yeah but it's so sad cause y/n is such a sweetheart๐Ÿฅบโค๏ธ
user32 I honestly wouldn't care about the haters if they didn't attack her body and the way she looks... that's down right embarrassing and disgusting
user33 AGREED user32
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lewishamilton It's hard to put into words how happy and excited we are. Can't wait to hold our baby in a few months and support my dearest love on every step of the way. Feeling blessed right now ๐Ÿค๐Ÿช
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charles_leclerc Well, that's a shocking news I didn't know about this time...๐Ÿ˜‚
charles_leclerc But big congratulations!โค๏ธ
yourusername yeah we needed to give u heart attack w smth too ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ’‹
susie_wolff Congratulations Lewis and Y/N, you will be great parents! ๐Ÿ’ซ๐Ÿซถ
yourusername thx susie, we have great role models in u and toto!!! โœจโค๏ธโ€๐Ÿฉน
lewishamilton ๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿพ๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿพ
kellypiquet what a great news!๐Ÿฅน
yourusername love u kelly ๐Ÿ’•
sebastianvettel Many congratulations!
lewishamilton Thank you Seb!
yourusername will u be the fun uncle??? pls seb ๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿ™
sebastianvettel If you'll make me their godfather....
yourusername done deal ๐Ÿค
lewishamilton I-... fair enough, done deal
fencer EXCUSE ME?!! THAT'S NOT FAIR
charles_leclerc Yeah what is this favorism?!
yourusername guys it's seb how could we say no ๐Ÿ˜Œโœจ
charles_leclerc True... fair enough then I guess ๐Ÿ™‚
fencer I still feel VERY offended
yourusername charles don't use that ironic emoji on me and fencer u can have the second child
lewishamilton Darling that sounds like you're sacrificing our second child while the first one isn't even born yet...
yourusername whoops ๐Ÿซข๐Ÿ™ˆ
sebastianvettel Do you realize this is not a private conversation?
yourusername actually u can set selected comments private seb ๐Ÿ˜
charles_leclerc Wait seriously?!
lewishamilton No, she's just testing if he's old enough to believe her ๐Ÿ™„
yourusername you're sour bc u believed me the first time i tried it love โ˜บ๏ธ๐Ÿซถ
sebastianvettel This is exactly why I didn't have Instagram sooner.
charles_lecerc We love you Seb!โค๏ธ
yourusername yeah we do love u our new godfather!!!!๐Ÿ’–
mercedesamgf1 Congratulations from the whole team!๐Ÿคฉ๐Ÿค
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alexandrasaintmleux awww so happy for both of u!๐Ÿ’ž
yourusername hope you're prepared to be the fav auntie ๐Ÿคญ๐Ÿ’‹
alexandrasaintmleux anything for my little nephew or niece hamilton ๐Ÿซก
scuderiaferrari The next world champion on the way?๐Ÿ˜โค๏ธ
yourusername pls i hope they'll stay far away from racing ๐Ÿ˜ญ
scuderiaferrari Well... then we'll at least get another tifosi ๐Ÿ˜‰
georgerussell68 Wishing all the best mate!
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landonorris Wooohooo congrats!!!
landonorris Wait- do y'all realize you'll be parents now? Like real REAL parents of an actual child?!
yourusername yeah lando that's how it usually works when u get pregnant ๐Ÿ˜Š
landonorris Yeah but... wait! The child needs to be McLaren fan!
yourusername your mission to get all hamiltons to be your fan is getting more complicated, isn't it? ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿซข
landonorris Shhhh Y/N it's a secret mission ๐Ÿคซ
yourusername oh my bad sry
yourusername wait why do i know about it then???
landonorris Ehhh... miscalculation?
yourusername tf lando ๐Ÿ˜ญ
lewishamilton I'm starting to think this baby will be our second child and Lando is our first...
landonorris Wow so can I officially say Lewis Hamilton is my daddy now?๐Ÿ˜€
lewishamilton NO
yourusername lando don't you dare or istg
landonorris Byeee parents!! ๐Ÿค—
f1 Let's go! ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ‘ถ
francisca.cgomes babyyyyy ๐ŸคŽ๐Ÿ‚
pierregasly Why the leaves?
francisca.cgomes bcs it's an autumn babyyyyy
yourusername love u kika ๐Ÿ’•
pierregasly Oh congrats by the way!๐Ÿซถ
yourusername thx pierre ๐Ÿ’•
logansargeant RAAAAAHHH ๐Ÿ‡บ๐Ÿ‡ธ๐Ÿฆ…
logansargeant Sorry alex_albon took my phone ๐Ÿ˜’ I wanted to say congratulations!๐Ÿค
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yourusername lol
yourusername but thx sm logan, you're such a sweetheart! ๐Ÿซถ
lilymhe I swear it'll be the cutest baby ever
yourusername babe it'll totally will if u say so ๐Ÿ’‹
kevinmagnussen ๐Ÿ™Œ
hulkhulkenberg Welcome to the dad's club on the grid Lewis! ๐Ÿ˜‰
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oscarpiastri What a happy day, congratulations! ๐Ÿงก
yourusername what's the orange heart doing here oscahh??? ๐Ÿคจ
oscarpiastri ๐Ÿ’–
oscarpiastri Better now?
yourusername thx oscar sm for the congrats!๐Ÿฅฐ also you should use my signature heart emoji more often ๐Ÿ’–
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yourusername enjoying the barbie life ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’
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lewishamilton Beautiful, gorgeous and my Barbie!
yourusername awww my ken ๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿซถ
user1 omg i love them sm
user2 I wanna have what they have
user3 the effect bf Lewis has on me should be studied ๐Ÿ˜ฉ
user4 Just the fact he usually isn't active on ig and doesn't comment or anything... and she is the only exception๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿคญ
user5 gorgeous literally so gorgeous
user6 The baby bump ๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿฅน
user7 and she looks so good with it too ๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿฅน
alexandrasaintmleux such good times hanging out with my fav barbie! ๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’–
yourusername the best times girly!!! ๐Ÿ’•
user8 i live for this friendship
user9 Imagine these two next year in Ferrari garage together!๐Ÿ˜
user10 literally the only good thing coming out of lewis leaving mercedes
user11 fr fr user10
user12 Are those flowers from Lewis???
roscoelovescoco Yeah's they'res from's dad's ๐ŸŒปโ˜บ๏ธ
user13 OH MY GOD ROSCOE HIIII
user12 Can't believe Lewis Hamilton replied to my comment as his dog ๐Ÿ˜ญ
user13 lol user12 u really won life xd
user14 this is sooo cuteee ๐Ÿ˜ป
user15 You and Alex look so good together! Hope you'll be friends forever!
kellypiquet where's the bag from? it's so pretty! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿค
yourusername idk lew gave it to me for christmas last year... i'll ask and let u know!! ๐Ÿค๐Ÿซถ
kellypiquet ๐Ÿซถ
user16 The queens of the paddock right here ๐Ÿ™Œ
user17 still can't believe y/n & lewis are going to be parent in a few months
user18 RIGHT?! It's like a fever dream for me ๐Ÿ˜ญ
user19 Yeah i was excited for dad Lewis so long that now I can't believe it's finally happening ๐Ÿคญโค๏ธ
user20 the best wag right here
user21 and soon the best mum!
user22 Ur STUNNING ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ’–
user23 Woman ๐Ÿ’…
user24 proud to say i never hated on Y/N
user25 YES
user26 always knew she's the queen ๐Ÿ‘ธ๐Ÿ’—
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lewishamilton My beautiful Barbie. The love of my life. My partner for good times and bad times. Mother of my child. The only woman I want to spend the rest of my life with. Y/N Y/L/N. ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’ซ
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yourusername can't describe in words how much i love u lew!!! ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’ซ
lewishamilton Love you too darling, so much!
user1 I can't ๐Ÿ˜ญ
user2 i wanna have what they have
user3 THE BEST COUPLE EVER
user4 if they ever break up love isn't real
user5 I'll tell my children they are the original Barbie & Ken
user6 my parents ๐Ÿฅฐ
user7 y'all don't understand how much i love them
user8 The best parents ever!!!!
roscoelovescoco Mums looking's gorgeous ๐Ÿฅนโ˜€๏ธ
lewishamilton She in fact is.
yourusername my boys making me cry ๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿ’“
roscoelovescoco Oh's no's mums don't cry's ๐Ÿ™
yourusername don't worry baby it's happy tears ๐Ÿ’ž
user9 now I'm crying too... this is so sweet
user10 The reason they're my favs๐Ÿ˜
user11 why is this so precious ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ
user12 so prettyyyy
kellypiquet Our Barbie looking like a goddess!๐Ÿ’…๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’
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yourusername thx kelly!!!๐Ÿ’•
user13 she's fr glowing ๐Ÿ˜ป
user14 Thought she can't get more beautiful than she was before but pregnancy proved me wrong
user15 MARRY HER
user16 we love bf lewis dedicating whole post to y/n ๐Ÿคญ๐Ÿคญ
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user17 ariana what are u doing here?!??!!
user18 Even Vogue is an Y/N fan and we love it
user19 y'all don't understand how bad i need her to be on the cover of vogue or some other magazine ๐Ÿ˜ฉ
user20 OMG user19 SHE WOULD SLAY IT TOO HARD
user21 You should marry her now!!! ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’
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user22 heyyy did someone else see lewis like it and then un-like it?!๐Ÿ˜ง
user21 When the notification of roscoelovescoco liking my comment came up on my phone I nearly dropped it and screamed... like what? Excuse me sir!!! ๐Ÿ˜ƒ
user23 LOL I love how he goes savage liking comments w his dog's account and then regrets it immediately xd
user24 guuuyyyssss what if it means we'll get proposal soon???โ˜บ๏ธ
user21 I wish!!!!
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Author's Note: Thank you for reading it to the end! I'll be very grateful for likes, comments, reblogs and every other sign of support. Also you can let me know if you think baby Hamilton will be a girl or boy ๐Ÿคญ. Have a great weekend! (Btw if someone wants to talk about their predictions for Saudi Arabian Grand Prix, they're welcomed bcs I don't have anyone to talk to about it XD)
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"Okay, be straight with me."
Steve leveled a look and Eddie almost swooned but he kept it together. This was serious.
"Right, okay, be bisexual with me."
"Eddie, we're in public", Steve said, mock-scandalized.
"I'm starting to regret becoming a level 5 friend of yours Harrington." Dustin had said Steve could get silly and goofy. Of course Eddie didn't believe it. Not until he had seen it. Not until he had seen that secret handshake of theirs and seen him pump his fist in victory when he beat Erica at rock, paper, scissors, and when he'd seen him-
"Did you have something to say, or...?"
"Yeah! Okay, so, what I wanted to ask waaaas, did you ever, you know, look at any guys?" Eddie cleared his throat and continued when Steve looked at him blankly. "Sinfully?"
The location for this conversation could either be really good or really bad. In the McDonald's parking lot on a late afternoon. Steve just got off from a relatively short shift and wanted lunch. Eddie was wasting time until Hellfire that night. Of course they were eating in Eddie's van. Not a single crumb graced Steve's car.
"I mean, I guess I did", Steve shrugged. "Before I really understood what I was feeling. Honestly it felt like I just hated guys for no reason."
Eddie nodded in understanding. Before realizing what all those slurs meant, he definitely felt like some dudes were attractive in a way just to spite him. Then he came to realize he didn't want to punch them, but to do...well other things with his hands.
"Soooo, you ever have a crush?"
Steve let out a bark of laughter so loud it startled Eddie.
"What are you serious?"
"I-yes? What? Is it so ridiculous?"
"Eddie I-", Steve cut himself off and looked him in the eyes. "You asked me that question and you really don't know?"
"Is it a sensitive topic?" Eddie went on ahead and stuffed a handful of fries in his mouth before he stuck his foot in it.
"No, it's just, you of all people asking me that." Steve put a hand to his mouth and looked out the window and Eddie felt like he was missing something.
"So was there ever anyone?"
Steve turned back towards him. "Was...and is."
"Well shit, don't leave me hangin'."
"Are we doing girl talk or something now?", Steve grinned.
"I know for a fact you and Bucks talk about the girls she likes. Why can't you talk to a fellow queer about boys?"
"I've talked to Argyle and Jonathan about it", Steve shrugged.
Now that got Eddie raring. Jonathan he could understand. But he just met Argyle!
"Okay, you gotta tell me. It can be either the 'was' or the 'is' but I need to know who caught the eye of the Hair."
Steve laughed again, this time bending over. "Eye of the Hair sounds like one of your dungeon things."
"Don't try and distract me with DnD, Steve. Spill."
"Okay, okay. Let's talk about this is."
Eddie was torn. On the one hand, he really did want to know who Steve was crushing on. On the other hand, if he knew the dude what was stopping him from going over to his house and busting his nose?
"So, he's our age. Went to Hawkins High-"
"Wow that really narrows it down."
"He and I were in different cliques. Didn't hang out a lot until he started hangin around my kids."
Eddie let out a snort. "You do remember you didn't actually birth a gaggle of children, right?"
"You wanna hear this or not?"
"Continue."
"Anyway, he's a nerd. Like a huuuge nerd. Like sometimes I can't even believe I like him, but then he...I mean I....it's not like I like him despite his nerdiness. I like that part of him too now."
Eddie began listing the choices. Someone from school, who hung out with the kids? Recent? That could be someone from Hellfire. Kind of think of it, Steve and Jeff have been talking a lot more recently. It was just here or there when Steve was dropping off or picking up kids from meetings but still...
"Can I get a description?"
"What are you? The cops?"
"How dare you!"
"He's got dark hair and dark eyes", Steve conceded with a roll of his eyes.
Fuck it could be Jeff. Okay, okay, he could be supportive. Jeff was a good guy. A great guy. And Jeff would be a lucky son of a bitch to get Steve.
"Son of a bitch", he murmured.
"Hm?"
"Son of a witch, nerd thing", Eddie waved off. "I think you should be able to trust me with his name. I could even maybe hook you two up if I just so happen to know him~"
"You'd hook me up with some guy?", Steve asked.
"I know right, I'm so generous." And maybe if Jeff blew his chance with Steve, he could be there to pick up the pieces. No! Bad Munson! Bad thoughts. Jeff would never hurt Steve and he shouldn't hope for it. But what if it wasn't Jeff?
What if it was some other geek he didn't know? The freshies were into science too. What if it was that chemistry dork Howard?
"Actually, I think I really do need to know who this guy is. Need to be sure he's good enough for you."
Steve smiled in a way that rivaled the sun and Eddie truly felt like a knight in shining armor. He'd protect his princess from any undeserving mouthbreather.
"I think he's more than worthy. And I hope you would agree", Steve said.
"I'll know for sure once I see him." Eddie crossed his arms and leaned back in his seat, already formulating ideas to make this dude wet his pants. "So tell me more about him."
"Okay, we knew of each other for a while, but the first time we officially talked, he attacked me."
"Red flag. No go."
"In his defense, he was on the run from the law", Steve added quickly.
"A criminal? Second red flag."
"Allegedly. And that's big talk comin' from a drug dealer."
"Who you partake with", Eddie reminded him.
"I do. But it's a little less than legal what you do. As is several things both of us have done. I don't think either of us has a high horse to look down on."
Eddie hemmed and hawed before letting out a sigh. "Alright, we'll call that a yellow flag for now. What else?"
"He's just...so different from anyone else I've ever been into, Eds. I'm really into him. Like an embarrassing amount." And now Steve was blushing and Eddie felt jealousy boil in his gut. But he also felt happy that Steve was happy. He could take solace in that. Even if he wanted to deck this guy on principle.
"Do you know if he's like us?"
"Oh, I know", Steve said, putting his elbow on the rest between them and leaning in close. "Wanna know more?"
And fuck his masochistic heart, he did. What could this guy have that he didn't?
After Eddie nodded, Steve continued. "He's larger than life, honestly. In a way I thought I used to be but he's the genuine real deal. He can be kind of a jerk, but it's clear when he cares. And that mouth-"
"Okay! Please stop torturing me and tell me who this guy is so I can decide if I hate him or not!"
Steve was laughing again and as beautiful as it was, Eddie felt like a joke himself.
"If you're gonna start hating yourself then we've got a problem", Steve said.
Eddie jerked around like he was short circuiting as all the pieces came into place. High school, nerd, with the kids, attacked him, running from the law.
"You! You are unbelievable, you know that?"
"That's a new one", Steve was still grinning. "So are you gonna kiss me now? Or are you not worthy?"
They were in a parking lot. In broad daylight. This could be bad. But Eddie was a weak, weak man and his dream boy was asking for a kiss. So he leaned in and obliged. Son of a bitch he was the son of a bitch that caught Steve's eye.
"Well?", Steve asked when they pulled away. "What do you think of the guy I like?"
"I still think you could do better."
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Does Princess Wanna Fuck? Toji Fushiguro Smut
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a/n: I am shocked yet not shocked this man won the poll- I'm kind of nervous but here we go
i'm so shocked how big this fic is- sorry it took so long, finals were kicking my ass
plz be kind this is my first large fic
pairing: bodyguard! toji fushiguro x reader
word count: 5.1 K
summary: your mother, a very rich and influential woman, gets on the wrong side of some dangerous people. To ensure your safety, she hires the best protection money can buy: the Sorcerer killer. You're happy to have the support, you just didn't think he'd be this hot.
content warning: fem!reader, not virgin! reader, pet names (princess, pretty, doll, sweetie), swearing, porn with plot, age gap (toji is 30 something, reader is early 20s), alcohol, p in v, dirty talk, fingering, oral (male and female receiving), rough fucking, no protection, creampie, doggystyle, kind of mean! toji, bratty! reader, a few spanks, degradation (slut), no strings attached, no aftercare, hopefully that's it
Thank you @benkeibear for the great banner once again!
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"I promise, sweetie, nothing bad is going to happen. I have my own personal team looking after me, we all just thought it would be safer for you to stay away."
You were sitting on your bed, listening to the voicemail your mother had left for you. It came as no surprise that she was on the radar of some shady people. Your mother climbed her way out of poverty and became one of the richest people in the city.
Ever since you were a child, you knew the methods she used weren't very legal. This came in the form of strangers coming in and out of your house constantly, the long and far away trips she'd take for 'work', and the items and rooms you were never allowed near. The people you saw as a child always ended up on the news, both arrested and murdered. The trips she took would often mean you wouldn't see her for upwards of a year, with no way to contact her so her location would remain secret. The locked doors and mysterious duffel bags were the biggest give away.
There was a time when you were eight and curious. You wanted to know what was so important about some stupid locked box. Your mother was away on one of her 'work trips' again, so she'd never know. When you were finally able to unlock it, you found it full of expensive and shiny jewelry. If it weren't for the news showing a picture of the same accessories- only this time the reporter was asking for tips on finding the stolen gems- you would have likely played with them.
No matter the means, your mom provided and loved you. Her job was paying for the expensive house you were sitting in right now, the newest phone model you were holding in your hand. You accepted your mom's life choices, going as far as to lie for her when people got too curious.
But right now was different. Never before did your mother's work involve you, let alone threaten to kill and dismember you. As soon as your mother received the threatening text, she had half her team escorting you out of your apartment and back home.
That was almost a full week ago and since then you hadn't been allowed outside of the building. Your mother was currently at her 'office', with the rest of her bodyguards and team looking for the guy.
You focus back on the message just in time to hear her final words, "I know you hate being cooped up inside the house, and if I'm being honest those men I sent are amateurs. I've hired the best hitman to look after you, you'll even be able to go back to your apartment. He's the best in the business. Anyway, I love you so much, baby, be safe. I'll call you when things have calmed down."
You delete the message as soon as it's over, sighing and looking around the room. You haven't been here in ages, not since you left for college and started staying in your one-bedroom apartment. Whatever nostalgia you were starting to feel disappeared when you heard a light knock on the door.
"Miss," it was one of your mom's team members, "The new guy is here to escort you out."
Standing up from the bed, you walked over to the door and opened it just enough to see the guy's face, "Okay, tell him I'll be down there in a minute. I need to pack up my stuff."
Packing was easy enough, you didn't have any time to pack the day the team swept you away so the only thing you carried down the stairs with you was a small backpack.
As you made your way down the winding staircase, you could hear an unfamiliar voice having a one-way conversation with the serious guards at the door. It was playful and some how laid back, something you weren't used to when it came to people your mom worked with.
When you made it to the bottom, your eyes met pools of deep green. The chatter stopped as the stranger faced you with a satisfied smirk, "So this must be little miss princess, huh?"
A mixture of annoyance and embarrassment bubbled in your stomach as you clutched the straps of your bag, "And you're the famous 'hitman' my mom told me about? I expected someone more professional."
In all honesty, it wasn't your best jab. Just something you made up on the spot in an attempt to knock him down a peg.
It only served as amusement, though, as he chuckled and looked you up and down, " 'Don't need to be professional to be good in my line of work, princess," noticing the slight pout on your lips, his smirk melted into a soft smile as he nodded, "but you were right, I've been paid a lot to keep you alive, even more if I find the guy."
One of the other guards grabs your bag as they begin to lead you to the black car outside. While walking, you turn your head toward the stranger, "Now how are you gonna protect me and catch the guy? I don't really like the idea of you half-assing a job that involves my life."
Another smooth chuckle leaves his scarred lips as he hops into the back seat of the car with you, "Oh, you are gonna be fun to work with, princess."
The princess thing was starting to get on your nerves, now. No other guard or person affiliated with your mother treated you like this. At best, they respected you; at worst, they coward at the sight of you.
"I have a name, u'know. If my mom is gonna pay you, you might as well learn it," you huff and turn your body away from him.
The man crosses his legs lazily and grabs one of the mini bottles of alcohol from the side door, "Trust me, princess, I know a lot more than you think. I know you're a snooty, little brat who still doesn't know the name of the person holding her life in his hands."
At the mention- or threat- of knowing too much information for comfort, you turn just enough to peak at him from the corner of your eye. Instead of using your words, you raised a brow and waited for an answer.
He took his sweet time giving it, too. He finished the alcohol in one gulp and wiped his mouth on his bare arm. The muscles flexed as he brought his arm and up, catching your eye just long enough for him to notice.
He finally looked into your eyes again with a cocky smile, "Toji- and that's all you need to know."
You tried to keep eye contact, tried to assert your strength and maturity. But it was a losing game, the thoughts racing in your head kept you from looking into Toji's eyes any longer.
Out of all the things going through your head, one stuck out the most: this asshole's hot as fuck.
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It's been about a week since your mother hired Toji to be your guard dog, and you hate to say it, but he's very good at his job.
The first few days left you nervous and doubtful of his abilities as he waved you off to 'do your shit'. He said that you could go about your day like normal, that you'd be safe no matter where you were.
This was nothing like the last week you'd just had. Instead of one guy keeping watch in the shadows, you had a whole teams worth of people just watching you laze around your house. You had to admit, it felt refreshing to get back to your life. And it turns out, Toji wasn't lying.
During all of your outings, you were safe as can be. After a bit of questioning, he told you that while you did your thing, he was watching your every move. While a part of you was upset that you would be lacking in privacy, another was happy in the fact that you likely have never been in safer hands.
Even while at home, Toji doesn't intrude. He does his thing and leaves you alone. This could be rummaging and eating the food in your fridge, or sitting shirtless on your couch as he waited to sleep.
He's made a comfortable little bed on the living room couch. Your apartment, while beautifully furnished and on the top floor, didn't have more than one bedroom. As soon as you both walked through the door, you made it clear you would not be giving your room up for him.
If you could sum it up in one word, you'd say you were content.
That is, until Toji gets ready for bed. You're proud to say that you're no bashful virgin, you've slept with a few guys. But none of them were as hot as the man sitting before you.
You're ashamed to say that you've spent more time staring at his abs than the cliche action movie playing on the TV. You're also ashamed to say that you've wanted to fuck him since that moment in the car.
Throughout the week, you've tried to get closer to Toji. Not for the sake of a connection, but to see if you had any shot at getting with him for one night. To his credit, in this regard he is professional. You've learned nothing about him but his name, you didn't even know his full name.
In an effort to make some sort of progress, you mentioned having a movie night. He didn't really have the option to say no as your full-screen TV with surround sound was in the living room. Just to sweeten the deal, you offered to get drinks and takeout- which worked in your favor as you both make your way through the bottle of vodka and a pack of beer.
"Okay, kid, I know I said you could pick the movie- but come on, this movie is horseshit," Toji grabbed the remote from your hands and finished off the can of beer in one chug.
You knew the movie sucked, choosing it because of that reason. When has anyone ever gotten fucked with a decent movie in the background? The point was for you and him to talk, not genuinely watch the film. You were running out of options and sober thought quicker than you'd like to admit.
Steeling your nerves, you finished off your drink as well and poured yourself another, stronger one, "Well, it's my TV so before you turn anything on I want I know what it is first."
He chuckled and clicked through the options, landing on a classic slasher. Toji tilted his head at the screen, black hair falling into his eyes, "This good enough for the little princess?"
"Fine, but you need to tell me why you keep calling me 'princess', it's really pissing me off," you titled your head to meet his gaze, hoping he couldn't see the blush forming on your cheeks.
Toji crossed his legs and leaned his back against the couch, laying his arms against the head rest. "You really don't know, do ya?"
The bored expression on your face was a good enough answer as he itched the back of his neck and closed his eyes, "Geez. . . I shouldn't be telling you this but maybe it'll knock you down a peg," you leaned forward, eager to finally get some kind of information from him. "Your mom is a powerful lady. Everyone in . . . my line of work knows about her," he points his finger at you and grins, "which means, everyone knows about you. People think of you as a prissy little princess that doesn't know anything about the real world."
All of the confidence you had dissipated during his explanation, fueling you to drink more and more vodka until your cheeks flushed. You were smart, you knew your limits- and right now you were there. If you continued like this, you'd be drunk and all your efforts would be for not.
With a huff, you point your own finger at him, "I am not a prissy little princess. I know what my mom does! I know about the real world, I'm not some spoiled little kid."
"Oh- if you know about how your mom paid for your life of luxury, tell me. Cause I sure as hell would love to hear about all the info you've got," to further irritate you- or turn you on, you're not sure- he uncrosses his legs to spread them as he leans against his knees.
At this, you sputter, look to the ground, anywhere but his eyes and crotch. You'd officially dug yourself a hole. You didn't want to know about what your mom did, it would solidify in your mind that she's a criminal. Something you didn't want to accept was that the woman who loves and raised you might not be a good person.
Toji chuckles and opens another can of beer at your silence, "Feels nice to be right."
You groan and cross your arms, "Fine! I don't know what my mom does- I don't even wanna know!" you finally meet his eyes, trying so hard not to stutter when you see the sheer amusement swimming in his head. "But I am not a prissy princess!"
For once, Toji breaks eye contact first to roll his, "Listen, kid, I've only been with you for a week, but I know a brat when I see one," you hope it's not your imagination when you see him lean towards you, looking you up and down, "and you, Y/n, are spoiled rotten. Bet no one's ever said no to you before. Never made you say 'please'. "
The warm tinge in your cheeks is uncontrollable now as you feel yourself getting wet, "You're not my dad- okay? I know manners, you just don't deserve them-"
In the blink of an eye Toji makes his way over to you, putting his hand against the head rest and smirking down at you, "Oh, sweetheart, those aren't the kind of manners I'm talkin' about," he leans down to your level, so close you smell the alcohol on his breath.
"I see the way you look at me, it's so fucking obvious," his voice is barely above a whisper but it's leaving you hot and bothered in your seat, "Bet you were waiting for me to drop everything and beg for a fuck, right? You'd want me to do all the work while you just lay there and act like a little pillow princess."
At his words, you try and look to the ground in hopes of calming your racing heart. This attempt ends in Toji gripping your chin harshly and forcing you to look at him again, "If you really wanna fuck, cutie, then I'm gonna need you to be a good little girl. You think you can do that?"
The throbbing in your cunt is unbearable and you're desperate for any kind of action, so you eagerly nod your head. In response, Toji digs his fingers into your chin, "Use your words, slut."
All inhibition flew out of your body as you pouted, "Yes, yes please. I can be a good girl."
Satisfied, Toji let go of your face and stood up straight, "Prove it. I'm gonna clean up in here and by the time I'm done you better be nice and ready for me."
You're in your room in an instant, throwing off your pajama shorts and shirt. Your heart's racing as you lay down on the bed and reach your arm down to your aching cunt. It's been forever since you've gotten off, two weeks ago you were so stressed it didn't feel right. This week, you were hoping the wait would be worth it.
By how sensitive you are, you're happy you waited.
The simple ghosting of your fingers over your clothed clit has you biting your lip. You couldn't draw this out, though, Toji made a demand and if you wanted to be fucked you'd follow it.
Slipping your hand underneath the green, laced panties, you rubbed at your clit. Just a few circles was enough preparation as you slipped in a finger and tried rubbing at that spongey, deep, spot.
A whine slipped past your lips as your finger just barely reached your pleasure point. You were so close, you just needed a push. Letting the laced bra-strap fall off your shoulder, you pinched and rubbed at your hardened nipple. Hoping and begging for some kind of stimulation to get you over the edge.
Your whimpers and curses stopped as soon as you felt two calloused hands spread your knees.
"Can't even get yourself off, can you, princess?" Toji's grin was prideful as he admired your choice of clothing. He tsked and wrapped his hands around the straps of your panties, "Don't think some sexy lingerie is gonna save you, I told you to get prepped."
In one swift motion, he pulled down your underwear and threw them behind me. Toji climbed onto the bed, leaning back on his knees between your legs as he lazily stroked your clit, "maybe you aren't a good girl after all?"
At this, you sat up on your elbows and looked at him through your lashes, "I am! I promise I tried," you put all of your weight onto one arm as you used the other to rub at the bulge in his sweat pants. To avoid his gaze, you opted to stare at his abs.
You couldn't help but bite your lip from the excitement, "I just need your help, please, can't cum without you."
His mouth was clamped shut as you caressed his dick threw his pants, which you noticed were the only thing covering his manhood. His brows knitted together as he rolled his head on his shoulders, closing his eyes.
A small, deep laugh left his throat as he reopened his eyes, "You want my help, princess? Earn it, show me how grateful you are and suck my dick."
You didn't need to be told twice as you quickly lowered the waistband of his sweats and freed his cock. Drool pooled in your mouth as you studied his member. It was thick and curved, a nice seven inches with a mushroom tip you knew would hit just the right places.
Toji carefully put his hand on the back of your head, "Don't tell me you're backing out now, doll."
With your ego stroked and a need for praise, you shake your head and spit into your palm. Leaning against his clothed thigh, you wrapped your hand around his cock and gave him a few pumps. "No, just think you cock's pretty."
The hand on your head softly massaged your scalp in response as he let out a breathy chuckle, "Thanks, cutie, but how about you get to showing me that appreciation."
Taking the hint, you put both hands to work as you move them back and forth, adding in twists and some pressure when getting close to the base. You look up at Toji and are happy to see him closing his eyes in concentration as he bites his lip.
You decide now is the perfect time to bump it up a notch and wrap your lips around the tip. You suck on it and speed up your hand movement until you slowly suck on more of his cock. When you're finally able to fit it all in, you hollow out your cheeks and gently cup his balls. More heat floods your cunt when you hear Toji let out a groan and tighten his grip on your head.
"Fuck- just like that, princess," he runs a hand through his hair and struggles to hold in a moan as you pull your mouth up to the tip and tongue at the slit. Your hands go back to his cock as you squeeze and pump. When you hear him breathe faster, you go back to sucking him, bobbing your head up and down now.
It doesn't take long for this changing of tactic to have Toji bucking his hips up into your face. He's close, you can tell. At this point, you don't care if he cums down your throat, he'll probably be ready for more within five minutes.
Toji has other plans, though, as he pushes you off of his cock and onto your back, "Shit, doll, gonna ruin the fun." He repositions himself so that he's laying between your spread thighs, hands holding them tight against the sides of his head.
" 'think that deserves a reward," he dives his head down to your cunt, halting before he touches you. His emerald eyes peer up at you through raven locks as he speaks, "you better not cum, princess."
You nod and stroke his hair, gasping when he shuts his mouth against your pussy and starts sucking on your clit. It feels amazing, his fingers prod at your opening before plunging in and starting an unforgiving pace.
The hands in his hair pull him closer as you arch your back off of the bed. The neighbors probably can hear your loud and porno-grade moans, but you don't care. Toji's reaching all the places you couldn't and it's sending you to paradise.
"Ah! Toji- oh fuck- Toji! 'Gonna cum! I'm so close- fuck!" there are tears brimming your eyes from the pleasure as you start to clench around his fingers. You're so close, it feels so good.
You cry out when Toji pulls away, sucking his fingers clean as he stands up just long enough to takes off his pants, "Don't worry, doll, not leavin' you, just getting us more comfortable."
Panting and whimpers are the only sounds you can make as he unclasps the laced bra you wore and turns you onto your stomach.
"Think you can hold yourself up?" Toji's behind you, holding your hips firmly as he rubs the head of his cock between your folds.
You buck back against him, hoping to get some attention to your clit. As you register the question you lift yourself onto your elbows and nod, shaking your ass in excitement, "please, Toji, need you to fuck me so bad. Need to cum on your cock."
His nails dig into the flesh of your hips as he snaps his own forward. In one swift motion, Toji bullies his cock into your dripping cunt. You let out a squeal, almost letting your face fall into the pillows. His mouth falls open in a silent groan, letting his head fall forward as he looked down.
"Shit baby. . ." Toji breathes out and pulls his hips back slowly, savoring the view of his dick soaked in your juices. Just the tip was left snug in your cunt, leaving you wanting more.
"Ah! Toji- put it back! Please," you begged and tried to move back into him, only to be stopped by a sharp slap to your ass. You yelped, arms finally giving out as you face-planted into the pillows.
Toji 'tsked', massaging and gripping the reddened skin, "You better be patient, princess, or you're not gonna cum tonight."
With that, he sank back into you and repeated the movement. His pace was slow and agonizing, thrusts shallow and teasing. Tears formed in your eyes again at the lack of stimulation. You could feel the veins and ridges of his cock slide against you, but he wasn't hitting deep enough, wasn't going fast enough to send you over the edge.
On the other hand, Toji was enjoying himself. He was savoring the way your pussy clenched around him, pulling him in every time he pulled out. If he was being honest, all he wanted to do was grip your head, force your face deeper into those silk pillows, and pound into your cunt until you creamed. Not yet, though, Toji needed to teach you some manners; only good girls get to cum and cry on his cock.
His hands spread your cheeks apart to watch you clench around him. A hiss came from his scarred and bitten lips as he stayed still inside you, feeling you squeeze his dick just right. Toji let out a breathy chuckle as he wrapped his arms around your waist and leaned his chest onto your back.
" 'think you've been a good girl for me," one of his arms made its way around your throat, pulling you up against his chest as he thrust into you, hard. His head was nestled into your neck, biting and leaving dark purple marks, "better not hold out on me, princess, wanna hear how good I fuck this little cunny."
That was all the warning you got as Toji started pistoning his hips into yours, using his grip to slam your body into his thrusts. Tears of pleasure rolled down your face as your eyes rolled to the back of your head.
It felt so good, the way his dick was slamming into your soft spot over-and-over. Toji was sending you closer and closer to your orgasm, faster than you expected.
"Oh shit! Toji- feels so fucking good! Ah- right there! Fuck! Right there!" You didn't care about the cries and moans coming out of your mouth. You didn't have the energy or focus when the only thing you could think about was how this was possibly the greatest fuck of your life.
You felt a rough hand snake its way between your thighs, starting to draw hard circles into your bundle of nerves. You let out a loud whine, head falling back and leaning against Toji's shoulder, now covered in a thin layer of sweat.
His arm dropped from your throat, finding purchase in groping your boobs. "That's it, princess, cum for me," his voice was low and gravely, desperate to feel you squeeze and milk him for all he's worth.
Finally gaining some sense, you gripped his wrist, trying to pull him away from your clit. You whined and felt your legs begin to shake, "Toji! Wait- gonna cum- gonna cum!" It was all building too fast, too intense. A part of you thought you might pass out when you reached your peak.
He chuckled and rubbed faster at your nub, bending you over and pressing his upper body into your back. It left you trapped beneath him, and gave Toji a better angle to fuck into you. At this point, it felt like he was hitting against your cervix.
"Come on, pretty, don't hold back" his thrusts sped up as his head dipped into your shoulder. You could hear his heavy breaths and low grunts before you felt him lick at the shell of your ear. "Show me what a good girl you are and cum."
Toji's words were all you needed to fly over the edge. A numbness washed over your sweat-soaked body, being replaced with unbelievable pleasure within a half a second. Your loud, high pitched moans filled the room, drowning out the sound of his thighs slapping against your ass. White filled your vision as you clenched around his cock. In the wake of your mind-shattering orgasm, you fall onto the bed, Toji following behind you and pinning you to the mattress.
As you dome down from your high, you feel Toji move his hand to grip your hips, digging his dull nails into your flesh. Somehow, he's fucking you harder as he groans into your neck.
"Fuck- good girl, good girl," his mouth latches to your skin now, leaving a hickey behind and moving to make another. "Gonna cum, pretty, gonna cum for you."
With one, final thrust, Toji stills inside you as he bites into the junction between your neck and shoulder, "Take it, slut- take it."
The feeling of hot cum gushing into you leaves you a whining little mess. Toji holds you tight, softly rolling his hips to ride out his orgasm. The two of you are left sweating and panting on your bed. You're too exhausted to think about what to do next, feeling just the slightest bit of overstimulation as he stays inside your abused cunt.
Toji chuckles and pulls out, sitting up on his knees to look at the mess he left between your thighs. You turn your head to look at him, lacking enough energy to move the rest of your body. Through the corner of your eyes, you watch Toji comb a hand through his hair before getting off your bed and collecting his discarded pants.
Some part of you wanted him to stay, but you're mostly glad he's taking charge and leaving without being told. It's obvious that this isn't the first time Toji's been in this position.
Even when fucked out, you've got a job to do. You manage to roll onto your back and run your hands down your face. The intent stare Toji gives to your bare tits doesn't go unnoticed, in return you smile teasingly at him, "Jeez, you aren't even gonna help me clean up?"
Toji ties the strings of his waistband and gives you a cocky grin, "I'm not being paid to pamper you, now am I?" He snickers as you roll your eyes, turning to leave the room. Toji stops himself just before he makes it out the door and raises a brow at you, "You're on birth control, right?"
At this, you scoff and chuck one of your throw pillows at him, "Maybe you should get better at your pull-out game, asshole."
He easily dodges the pillow, huffing as he leaves your room for real this time. While he makes his way to the bathroom, you hear him mutter something along the lines of 'getting you plan b in the morning.'
You sit yourself up on your elbows, cringing at the feeling of Toji's cum leak out onto your bedspread. The clock reads that it's two in the morning, and you really just wanna go to sleep- you would, if it wasn't for the various fluids drying on your bed. You groan and go to get off the bed, only to fall to the ground from the ache in your thighs.
"Damn it," you look up at the ceiling and hear Toji turn the TV back on in the living room. As you lay there, you let the memories and events sink in. He lets out a loud laugh at something he saw on the screen, and you're reminded that Toji is, in fact, a dickhead.
But you can easily admit that he's an excellent fuck. You're pretty sure that no one's any closer to finding the guy that threatened you. Maybe you can get one last round in before his job's done.
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Come Away With Me | Joel & Tommy Miller (Saturday)
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Summary | Back together as a family, but with a secret confession burning in your pocket. How is Tommy going to take the fact that you love his brother more than you probably should?
Word Count | 4.8K
Chapter Warnings | Our family back together. Mentions of consumption of alcohol & food. Explicit sex. Unprotecting PiV, breeding kink, (double)creampie (I said what I said๐Ÿ‘€), cum play, a sprinkling of anal/ass play, threesome dynamics (MMF), dirty talk, Tommy back to being our favourite cuck in the room kinda, Joel back to being our favourite breeding stud.
Authors Note |ย I.... actually think I hate this lmao. It's the first time I've felt meh about a chapter of this story, but the longer I look at it, the more I know I'll hate it, so I'm sharing it anyway. It's refreshing to have our trio back together though, they're as filthy as ever so I hope you all enjoy it! Two more chapters to go until we wrap up with these three and I am so emotional.ย If you enjoy this, please consider commenting, reblogging or coming into my ask box to scream with me. And, as always, If you want to support me, you can donate to myย Ko-Fi.
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Joel wakes the next morning to you wriggling about in his arms. He cracks an eye open just enough to see you clambering to straddle his lap, palms resting on his biceps to steady yourself as you lower your pussy onto him, already hard, to drag him through your folds, already soaked for him, or maybeย still๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝsoaked from him from last night.ย 
โ€œMorninโ€™ trouble,โ€ He speaks, voice still heavy with sleep, โ€œWhat are you up to?โ€ย 
His hands shift to your hips so you donโ€™t stop those slow glides of your silken folds across him, watching as you shift your face from watching between you, to his own face. You bite at your bottom lip, bashful like a child who has been caught doing something they shouldnโ€™t be.ย 
โ€œWe could have fucked all day yesterday,โ€ You drawl out, gasping as the head of his cock brushes against your clit, โ€œIโ€™m just trying to make up for lost time before we have a houseful of people.โ€ย 
He drags your hips back and forth over him, watching as you toss your head back and gasp with every pass of him over your clit. Heโ€™s trying not to think about the fact that in a few short hours, youโ€™re not going to be his anymore, youโ€™ll go back to being his brotherโ€™s, a faรงade kept up for the sake of the rest of your family. He pushes those thoughts to the back of his mind, sitting up so he can wrap his arms around your back and kiss you.ย 
โ€œYou gonna ride me, pretty girl?โ€ He murmurs against your lips, โ€œGonna sit on my cock and make yourself feel good?โ€ย 
You pull back, look right into his eyes, hips still grinding against his, โ€œFuck yeah,โ€ You breathe, โ€œCan I?โ€ย 
โ€œSuch a good girl,โ€ He growls into the skin of your neck, โ€œAskinโ€™ all pretty and polite like that,โ€ He settles himself back on the bed, head on the pillows, โ€œGo on, pretty girl, take whatever you need from me.โ€ย 
You use your hands that are back on his chest to push yourself up a little, reaching one hand down between you to grip the base of his cock, lining it up to your soaked core, before you sink down onto him in one go, burying him inside you to the hilt. He groans, and you cry out, feeling that twinge of pain along with the pleasure that has been so prevalent over those past few days.ย 
You lift yourself up, almost all the way off him, sinking back down, finding your rhythm, which Joel quickly adheres to, thrusting himself up into you on your downward strokes so his cock is brushing against your cervix almost every time. His hands favour your tits this morning, cupping the weight of them in his palms as his fingers roll your nipples into peaks, squeezing perfectly every once in a while, to add to the mix of pleasure you get from him spearing his cock into you.ย 
You lean back, motions moving to more of a grind on his cock as you cup his balls in your hand, rolling them gently in your hand, as Joelโ€™s own fingers slip down your body and find your swollen clit, thumb rubbing circles across it as you continue to grind on him.ย 
โ€œYou gonna come on my cock, pretty girl?โ€ He asks, as if he doesnโ€™t already know the answer.ย 
Heat is licking at the base of your spine, threatening to topple you over at any moment, and you can tell from the way his hips are stuttering up into you, that Joel is close as well. Youโ€™ve had each other too many times this week for this to last very long.ย 
โ€œFuck-ย keep going,โ€ You groan, feeling that tight knot threatening to come undone in your tummy, โ€œIโ€™m โ€“ holy shit โ€“ Iโ€™m gonna come.โ€ย 
โ€œGo on, pretty girl,โ€ Joel coaxes, thumb staying exactly where it is, doing exactly what it needs to do, โ€œCome for me.โ€ย 
And you do. Pussy clenching around his cock as you fall forward. Joelโ€™s arms wrapped around you, keeping you pressed to his chest as he takes control, thrusting up into you as you moan into the skin of his neck. He chases your high with his own, spilling into you just seconds after your own climax hits, his fingers digging into the skin of your back as he holds you tightly to his body.ย 
As you both lie there, catching your breath, he wants to say something. Wants to push the hair from your face, kiss the tip of your nose and tell you that he wishes this didnโ€™t have to end. Wishes that he didnโ€™t have to wait a month to find out if he was successful in giving you another baby. Joel selfishly wishes he hasnโ€™t, just so he doesnโ€™t have to go back to waiting for that one night a year. He remembers though, his words from last night, that heโ€™s trusting you to fix this, to come up with some solution that means he can have you differently going forward, so he keeps his mouth shut, only opening it once heโ€™s pressed a soft kiss to your forehead.ย 
โ€œI love you.โ€ย 
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Breakfast is a cobbled together affair of fruit and coffee considering most of the groceries youโ€™d bought together have been eaten. You sent Tommy a list of things for him to pick up on his way to you. Heโ€™d set off yesterday, stopping halfway to spend the night somewhere, not convinced that Joshua would cope with doing the whole journey at once, and it shouldnโ€™t be long until theyโ€™re here, Sarah too.ย 
โ€œExcited, baby?โ€ Joel asks, pressing you against the counter to dip and kiss you once youโ€™ve both finished the washing up.ย 
โ€œI am going to give my baby the biggest squeeze known to man,โ€ You smile against his mouth, โ€œAs much as he exhausts me sometimes, Iโ€™ve missed him.โ€ย 
โ€œWe talking about Joshua or Tommy?โ€ Joel teases, hands wrapping around you to grip the globes of your ass through your jeans.ย 
You laugh, feeling light again. This man is the Joel you know, the Joel you love. The man who loves his brother just as much as you do, probably even more, and who takes his duties as Uncle incredibly seriously. You peer over his shoulder, looking at the clock on the wall, thereโ€™s enough time for a quickie, is what you think. You start trailing your hand down his chest, resting it on the front of his jeans, palming him through the material. Youโ€™re about to start dragging down the zipper when the front door opens.ย 
โ€œDad?!โ€ย 
Joel pulls back from you like youโ€™re on fire, putting enough distance between you so as to not look suspicious as he calls out to Sarah.ย 
โ€œIn here, kiddo!โ€ย 
He gives you a look that tells you heโ€™s sorry, that he wants nothing more than to have that one final moment with you on your own. You shake your head, heat flushing across your face at almost being caught, motioning for him to go to his daughter. Sarah finds the kitchen first, embracing her dad as he kisses the crown of her head.ย 
โ€œHello brainbox,โ€ You greet her when Joel lets her go, pulling her into a hug of your own, โ€œYou look good!โ€ You say when you finally let her go, keeping her at an armโ€™s length to really look at her.ย 
โ€œThanks,โ€ She smiles, looking around for a second, โ€œWhereโ€™s Uncle Tommy?โ€ย 
You look at Joel over her head, because right. The story he concocted for her meant that heโ€™s been here all week with Joshua and the two of them are nowhere to be seen, and neither is his truck.ย 
โ€œUhhhhhโ€ฆโ€ You glare at Joelโ€™s response, quickly trying to come up with something in your mind.ย 
โ€œHeโ€™s out grocery shopping,โ€ You say quickly, Joel nodding in acceptance, โ€œRan out of stuff this morning so heโ€™s taken Joshua into town to stock up.โ€ย 
She nods, accepting your answer, moving back to give her dad another hug, โ€œWhich room is mine?โ€ She asks, โ€œIโ€™ll go and drop my bag.โ€ย 
โ€œFirst door on the left.โ€ Joel speaks, pointing down the hallway across from the kitchen.ย 
โ€œAlright, I might get changed too,โ€ Sarah nods her head outside, โ€œItโ€™s a nice day, maybe we can take Joshua swimming?โ€ย 
โ€œOf course,โ€ You smile, โ€œTake your time, bug, thereโ€™s no rush.โ€ย 
Once sheโ€™s started off down the hall, you fish your phone from your back pocket, punching in a text to Tommy, as Joel shifts back closer to you, not being able to bear being away from you too long.ย 
Sarah arrived. Covered for your absence. Message me when youโ€™re on your way from town and Iโ€™ll meet you outside.ย 
You lean up into Joelโ€™s face, letting him kiss you as you put your phone on the side. You push up into his mouth, opening your lips against him to taste his tongue when your phone vibrates on the side.ย 
Just leaving town now sugar, great timing. See you soon.ย 
You put a hand on Joelโ€™s chest, leaning up to give him one last peck on the lips, โ€œTommyโ€™s almost here,โ€ You say against his mouth, okay, now this is the last kiss as you press them back to his, โ€œIโ€™ll wait outside for them.โ€ย  He smiles but his eyes are sad. Youโ€™ve spent long enough staring into them to know that look. You press one final kiss to his mouth now, โ€œRemember I love you,โ€ You insist, โ€œAnd Iโ€™m gonna make this right.โ€ย 
โ€œI believe you,โ€ He relents, squeezing your hand as you move around him to head to the front door, โ€œAnd I love you too.โ€ย 
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โ€œMama!โ€ย 
โ€œOh, my baby boy!โ€ You exclaim, pulling Joshua out of his car seat and into your arms, holding him tight to your chest as his small arms try and wrap around your neck, โ€œI missed you so much baby.โ€ย 
As much as this trip had given you the opportunity to be a woman again, not just a mother, the way your son fits into your arms, the way he smells when you take a breath of his hair into your lungs and the way he nuzzles into your face make motherhood all worth it. You have never loved something as much as this boy in your arms. Not your husband, and not his brother, and thatโ€™s something you never thought would be true. Something youโ€™d never thought youโ€™d ever understand.
Tommy is rounding the front of the truck, slipping his hand into the back pocket of your jeans as you lean your face up, kissing him, โ€œMissed you too, handsome,โ€ You smile, pulling your attention back to Joshua, giving his cheek a kiss, โ€œHave you and daddy had fun this week?โ€ย 
โ€œYeah!โ€ Joshua exclaims, wriggling about in your arms, heโ€™s almost too big for you to hold like this anymore, โ€œWe played lots!โ€ย 
โ€œThat sounds like fun,โ€ You smile, turning back to Tommy, โ€œWe told Sarah youโ€™d gone to town for supplies, so that,โ€ You motion to his and Joshuaโ€™s overnight bags, โ€œWill have to stay hidden until we can sneak them in.โ€ย 
Joshua wriggles a bit more in your arms, โ€œUncle Joel!โ€ย 
You turn slightly towards the lodge, where Joel is coming down the steps. He reaches out and claps his brother on the back in their usual greeting, before he reaches over and pinches Joshuaโ€™s cheek gently between his thumb and pointer finger.ย 
โ€œHey bud,โ€ He greets, โ€œYouโ€™re getting so big!โ€ย 
Joshua unwraps his arms from your neck and reaches out to Joel, flexing his fingers in the way he does when he wants something. Joel laughs, โ€œLet me help your dad get everythinโ€™ outta the car bud,โ€ He smiles, โ€œThen weโ€™ll have a cuddle, okay?โ€ย 
You smile at Tommy as Joel rounds to the back of the truck, opening the back door to reach in and grab some of the grocery bags, โ€œHelp your brother,โ€ You smile at Tommy, leaning up to kiss his cheek, โ€œIโ€™ll take this little monster inside.โ€ย 
โ€œYes, maโ€™am.โ€ Tommy speaks, a little two-finger salute added for effect.ย 
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Itโ€™s been a wonderful day. The sun has started to dip behind the trees, a cool breeze opening up a little. Sarah and Joel are still playing in the water with Joshua, their laughs mixed with his as they splash each other in the water. Youโ€™re sat on a towel by the shore, head leant against Tommyโ€™s damp shoulder, his hand resting on your knee.ย 
Youโ€™ve been in and out of the water all day, floating around with Sarah and Joshua, watching as Sarah plays with him on her own, sitting off to the side as Joel and Tommy sip beers and catch up. You smile the whole day, laugh for most of it too, but thereโ€™s always that fear that threatens to spill over when you think about what you have to do.
There are nerves bubbling in your tummy. You have to tell him. You have to speak to him. Looking out at the water, to where Joshua is perched on Joelโ€™s shoulders and Sarah is splashing water at her dad, you know you have to tell him, but youโ€™re still not quite sure how heโ€™s going to react. Youโ€™ve run through this conversation so many times in your head over the last twenty-four hours, switching your opening sentence, developing your defence, but none of that comes out now, what comes out surprises even you.ย 
โ€œI love him.โ€ Easiest to tear the band-aid straight off, you think.ย 
Tommy barks a laugh next to you which surprises you. You lift your head off his shoulder and look at him, heโ€™s smiling, โ€œI know you do.โ€ย 
โ€œBut I love you too.โ€ You quickly add.ย 
โ€œI know that too,โ€ Heโ€™s looking back at you now, clearly understanding the confusion on your face, โ€œWhy do you think I had no problem lettinโ€™ you come here with him, huh?โ€ He asks, squeezing the hand heโ€™s got resting on your knee, โ€œOr the way Iโ€™ve never complained about letting you go with him for his birthday?โ€ย 
โ€œAre you not mad?โ€ You ask, biting at your bottom lip.ย 
โ€œNo sugar, Iโ€™m not mad,โ€ He leans down, kissing your cheek, โ€œI love that man more than you will ever understand, heโ€™s always had my back, always bailed me outta the shitty situations Iโ€™ve got myself into, never once thought about himself since that little girl was born,โ€ He nods his head towards Sarah, โ€œYou make each other so happy, I ainโ€™t ever seen Joel so happy since he started helpinโ€™ us out, and I want nothing more than to keep makinโ€™ him happy.โ€ย 
โ€œI donโ€™t want to leave you,โ€ You insist, your own hand resting on his thigh.ย 
โ€œI know you donโ€™t, I donโ€™t want you to leave either,โ€ You can feel your eyes start to well with tears, โ€œIโ€™ve been sharinโ€™ you for years baby, and I ainโ€™t gonna stop because you two have finally admitted you love each other.โ€ย 
โ€œFinally?โ€ You ask, using your free hand to wipe at your eyes, โ€œWhat do you mean?โ€ย 
โ€œBaby, Iโ€™ve been watchinโ€™ you fuck him for months, I know Iโ€™m slow sometimes, but Iโ€™d have to be fuckinโ€™ blind not to see what you mean to each other.โ€ย 
You maneuver yourself so youโ€™re practically sat in his lap, arms wrapped around his neck as you cry into his shoulder a little. You wonder in this moment what it was that you did to deserve him, to deserve them both. Two men who love you unconditionally, who just want you to be the happiest you can be, and two brothers who just want to see the other happy too.ย 
You pull back, clutching Tommyโ€™s face in your hands, โ€œSo you donโ€™t mind if I want to see him more often?โ€ You ask timidly.
โ€œNot at all, sugar,โ€ He leans forward, kissing your lips, "That man has never once thought about himself, put himself first, not since Sarah came along, and it's about time he did something for himself, we've just gotta help him right?" He asks, to which you nod in response, โ€œWeโ€™re lucky men to have you.โ€ย 
โ€œAnd Iโ€™m a lucky girl to have you both.โ€ย 
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Things had seemed so normal over dinner. Tommy had grilled an insane amount of meat thatโ€™d youโ€™d all devoured. Youโ€™d drank beers together, Joshua had sat on Joelโ€™s lap for most of the night, favouring his uncle over anyone else. It felt like it always did when you were all together as a family, Sarah feeding small bits of food to Joshua, Tommyโ€™s hand on your knee under the table as you all talk about different things โ€“ how Sarah is getting on at college, how this time next year Joshua will have started school. You know theyโ€™re different now though, although Joel doesnโ€™t. You wonder if heโ€™d seen you speaking with Tommy earlier, if he did then he must know that things are okay, right? That there wasnโ€™t an argument so it must be okay. You want to tell him, want to take his face in your hands and kiss him at the table so he knows everything is okay.ย 
Youโ€™re propped up against the pillows of your bed now โ€“ those so familiar to you now after this week. Reading the book youโ€™d been trying so hard to focus on this whole week and still finding you canโ€™t quite concentrate on it. Tommy had put Joshua to bed a few hours ago, Sarah had gone to bed at the same time as you, leaving the brothers on their own to clean up and catch up. You wonder now what they might be talking about.ย 
It's not long before you find out exactly what theyโ€™ve been talking about. Thereโ€™s a soft knock at the door before it opens, revealing Tommy, who steps into the dimly lit room, closely followed by Joel, who closes the door behind him gently.ย 
โ€œHello.โ€ You greet, looking up from your book.ย 
โ€œJoelโ€™s been tellinโ€™ me what a good girl youโ€™ve been for him all week,โ€ Tommy speaks, โ€œHeโ€™s given you a glowing report, sugar.โ€ย 
Oh. So thatโ€™s what theyโ€™ve been talking about. You wonder if Tommy told him? Wonder whether heโ€™s given his brother the permission he needed to have you like he wants. You close your book and set it on the nightstand, turning back to them.ย 
โ€œWeโ€™ve been trying really hard baby,โ€ You speak, voice sweet, โ€œHavenโ€™t we Joel?โ€ You look into that familiar face, โ€œIโ€™ve been so full all week trying real hard for this baby.โ€ย 
Tommy walks slowly to your side of the bed, gripping your chin to tilt your face up to look at him whilst Joel watches on.ย 
โ€œYou gonna show me what youโ€™ve been gettinโ€™ up to?โ€ He asks softly, โ€œGonna let me fuck you?โ€ย 
Tommy pulls back the duvet, letting his fingers gently trace down between the valley of your breasts, covered by your nightdress. He trails further down to the hem, letting his hand sneak under the material. You spread your legs for him slightly, keeping your eyes on his as his fingers slip between your folds finding you already wet for them both.ย 
โ€œLooks like the answer is yes,โ€ He chuckles, dipping down to kiss you as he drags his slick fingers up to your clit to circle gently, โ€œHow about you give Joel your pretty mouth, baby?โ€ He asks, โ€œIโ€™ve missed this pussy, I gotta be inside you.โ€ย 
He takes his hand away from you, letting you shift so youโ€™re on your hands and knees, nightdress pushed up to the small of your back, so youโ€™re spread and on display for Tommy. You reach out a hand and motion with a finger for Joel to come to you, which he does, hands already moving to unzip his jeans. Joel lets them pool on the floor before he gets onto the bed in front of you, fist around the base of his already hard cock, guiding it to your mouth at the exact same time as Tommy nudges himself inside you, sliding in slowly until youโ€™re full of him, Joel doing the exact same to your mouth, letting his cock slip across the length of your tongue until he hits the back of your throat.ย 
He feels absolutely delicious inside of you, like he always has done for all these years, angling just perfectly inside you to brush against that spot that's been so stimulated this past week. Your moans are muffled, vibrating around Joel's cock as you take him down into your throat, saliva pooling around the edges of your mouth.ย 
This, you think, is what you were made for. To have two men, two of the most beautiful men in the world, taking their pleasure from you, but giving you twice that in return.ย 
Joel's hand grips your chin as he starts shallow thrusts into your mouth, you look up at him, your own eyes rimmed with tears, his blown out and dark from lust as he fucks your mouth, groaning in pleasure when you do.ย 
"You're a lucky girl, ain't ya sugar?" Tommy husks from behind you, his skin slapping against yours, "Two men here to adore ya," He leans over and kisses at the skin covering your spine, "Always were meant to be the centre of attention."
Joel lets his cock slip from your mouth, looking down at you with one eyebrow cock, his hand around your jaw to get you to look at him, โ€œHeโ€™s right, ainโ€™t he, pretty girl?โ€ He asks, running a thumb over you spit soaked bottom lip, โ€œLove beinโ€™ the centre of attention, donโ€™t ya?โ€ You nod, totally overwhelmed by the feeling of Tommyโ€™s pace behind you, but Joel taps your cheek, โ€œWords, pretty girl,โ€ He chastises, โ€œUse your big girl words.โ€
Tommyโ€™s hands grip your hips, pulling you back onto him as he thrusts into you, making you cry out, โ€œYes!โ€ You gasp, realising you have to try and keep quiet, Sarahโ€™s only just down the hall.ย 
โ€œYes what?โ€ย 
โ€œI love it,โ€ You whimper, looking up at him, โ€œLove being the centre of attention.โ€ย 
โ€œCourse ya do,โ€ Tommy quips from behind you, โ€œWe love you beinโ€™ the centre of attention too.โ€ย 
Joel uses his fist to guide his cock back into the warmth of your mouth, resuming his short thrusts into your mouth as Tommy pounds into you from behind. The sounds in the room are obscene โ€“ thereโ€™s the sound of Tommyโ€™s skin hitting your own, the sound of you almost gagging on Joelโ€™s cock, and the mixture of grunts and groans that are pulled from their mouths as they use your body to make themselves feel good. You almost wish you could see yourself right now, speared at both ends of your body by these two men.ย 
Joel trails his fingers as far down your arm as he can, and you think heโ€™s asking for you to put your hand on his balls as you take him in your mouth, so you do, but heโ€™s swatting it away, gripping your wrist as you look up at him again, tears falling down your face.ย 
โ€œPut it on your pussy,โ€ He instructs, โ€œMake yourself come for us.โ€ย 
You snake your hand down, fingers circling your clit, slick as always. You start working in fast movements just as you feel Tommyโ€™s thumb start to tease the tight ring of muscle of your ass. You whimper again around Joelโ€™s cock as his hands gather your hair, using it to drag your mouth up and down him.
โ€œYou want it, sugar?โ€ Tommy asks, pulling his thumb away before you hear him spit, the warmth spreading down your ass as his thumb works the wet into your skin there.ย 
Joel, once again, pulls his cock from the wet heat of your mouth, motioning for you to talk, โ€œGo on, pretty girl,โ€ He coaxes, โ€œTell him you want it, we know you love it.โ€ย 
โ€œPlease,โ€ You breathe out a beg, pushing back lightly into his finger, โ€œPlease, Tommy.โ€ย 
โ€œAlways sound so fucking pretty when you beg for it baby,โ€ He chuckles behind you, โ€œIโ€™ll give it to ya, donโ€™t worry.โ€ย 
When his thumb pushes inside of you, as the same time as Joel feeds you his cock once more, itโ€™s almost immediate, the way your orgasm slams into you. Stuffed full in every possible way, as Tommyโ€™s thumb presses gently into your ass, as Joelโ€™s cock hits the back of your throat over and over again and the way Tommy is pounding into that delicious spot inside you as always. The knot of pleasure snaps, Joelโ€™s cock muffling your cries as your pussy clenches around Tommy, walls fluttering as you work your clit through the aftershocks, body convulsing almost violently.ย 
โ€œGod damn it sugar,โ€ Tommy groans behind you, โ€œGonna โ€“ย fuckย โ€“ mโ€™gonna come baby, where?โ€ย 
โ€œInside,โ€ You moan, pulling off Joelโ€™s cock, โ€œPlease, inside me baby.โ€ย 
He gives you exactly what you want just seconds later, stilling behind you, with his cock buried as deep as heโ€™ll go. He lets out that sound that you love, a high-pitched whine thatโ€™s similar to some of the sounds he and his brother draw from you as you feel him fill you up. Heโ€™s not giving you much time to recover, groaning lightly as he pulls out, stopping briefly to watch as his cum drips from your spent pussy.ย 
You roll onto your back, fingers drifting down and inside of you, slowly pumping in and out as Joel comes into view. He stands at the side of your bed, pulls at your legs so the backs of your thighs are pressed against his chest, ankles by his face. He pulls your hand away from your pussy, pushing your fingers into your mouth as you clean Tommyโ€™s cum off them.ย 
โ€œGo on brother,โ€ Tommy encourages, settling himself on the bed behind you, โ€œYouโ€™ve still got a job to do.โ€ย 
โ€œAinโ€™t no way sheโ€™s not full of my baby,โ€ Joel growls as he sinks his cock into your pussy, your slick and the cum his brotherโ€™s just filled you with making it so easy for him to slide in all the way, โ€œIs there, pretty girl?โ€ย 
His hands are splayed over your stomach now as he pounds his cock into you, the squelch of your pussy filling the room, โ€œFilled me up so good, Joel,โ€ You moan, hands palming at your tits as your head turns to look at Tommy, โ€œBeen full of him all week baby.โ€ You say in his direction.ย 
The attention youโ€™ve been giving Joel with your mouth means heโ€™s already on the edge, โ€œSucked me so good, pretty girl,โ€ He mumbles, โ€œGonna come for you.โ€ย 
Youโ€™re gripping the backs of his thighs, pulling him closer to you as he ruts himself as hard and fast into you as he can manage, โ€œPlease Joel,โ€ You sob, feeling the head of his cock bruising at your cervix, โ€œGive it to me, please.โ€ย 
โ€œQuit your crying,โ€ He spits, โ€œYou know Iโ€™m gonna give it to you.โ€ย 
And like clockwork he does. He groans out, low and loud as always, as you feel the hot spurts of his cum filling you up, mixing with what Tommy gave you just minutes ago. He slips out of you, watching as his cum mixed with his brotherโ€™s drips from your used cunt. He runs his fingers down the folds of your pussy, scooping up whatโ€™s left you, pushing it back in, because heโ€™s got to be sure, got to be sure that heโ€™s given you every drop of himself.ย 
You expect the aftermath to be a little strange as you pull the hem of your nightdress back down. Tommyโ€™s already half asleep on the bed, clothes haphazardly thrown back on as he shuffles himself under the sheets. You follow suit, watching as Joel puts him underwear back on.ย 
Tommy has already wrapped an arm around your waist, dragging you to his body, light breath fanning against the skin of your neck. Youโ€™re watching Joel as he straightens up.ย 
โ€œHey,โ€ You speak softly, grabbing his attention, you reach out a hand which he takes, โ€œStay.โ€ You say simply, tapping the empty side of the bed, the side of the bed that had been his all week.ย 
He smiles, squeezing your hand, and you think he might refuse, opting to take the final bedroom, but he doesnโ€™t. He climbs onto the bed, far enough away that your bodies donโ€™t touch, respecting the claim Tommy has staked by holding your body close to his, but keeps his hand in yours, as physical reminder that heโ€™s here and heโ€™s not going anywhere. He leans forward, soft kiss pressed to your lips, before his other hand pushes your hair back from your face.ย 
โ€œSleep, pretty girl,โ€ He insists softly, โ€œTomorrow is a new day.โ€ย 
And sleep you do โ€“ one Miller brother strong against your back, arm draped over your waist, other Miller brother led facing you, chocolate brown eyes watching you as you drift off to sleep, your hand clutched in his to anchor you to him just as much as youโ€™re anchored to his brother. As your eyes close and you drift off, you realise youโ€™re exactly where you want to be, held by both the men you love, and thatโ€™s absolutely enough for you right now.ย 
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hi as of like yesterday yr requests are still open so i hope this isnโ€™t a bother ! but anyway i was hoping to see some caregiver!reader + agere!johnnie ? preferably gnc reader but fem would also be okay ( whatever prior relationship you want :] ) donโ€™t have many ideas for plot aside from maybe johnnie has had a bad day/is really stressed out so he kinda starts isolating himself, which reader respects but is also really worried about him :( so after a while reader uses maybe like a spare key to go into johnnieโ€™s room and at first it just seems like heโ€™s just upset but as reader starts trying to get johnnie to open up and trying to comfort him, he regresses which makes him more upset/panicky. whether reader has prior knowledge of regression is up to you but in general theyโ€™re just really sweet and supportive trying to calm johnnie down <3 maybe they eat dinner/reader feeds johnnie, and watch a movie/cartoon while cuddling ? ( little spoon johnnie ofc ) anyways feel free to add or take away anything i just want johnnie to be taken care of and as an agere i am totally projecting lol
Secrets - Johnnie Guilbert
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Summary : Johnnie's biggest secret is exposed without him being ready, but it goes better than he thinks it will.
Pairing : Johnnie Guilbert/Reader (romantic)
Warnings : descriptions of mental health issues, depression, and isolation
Word Count : 1541
A/N : This is an age regression fic, which is purely safe for work and innocent. Any hate/disrespect towards me, my work, or readers, will not be tolerated.
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Everyone has secrets. Some of them are terrible ones, skeletons in your closet, ones that would ruin many peopleโ€™s lives should they escape out into the public. Others are small and simple, things they just like to keep to themselves, and wouldnโ€™t hurt anyone if other people knew, they just donโ€™t want them to be everyoneโ€™s business. Some people keep secrets to protect themselves because they would be embarrassed about it if anyone found out. Everyone keeps secrets, and sometimes theyโ€™re revealed at the wrong time. Johnnie had secrets, and he was in no way prepared for his biggest one to be exposed to anyone, especially not you, but sometimes life goes in ways that we just canโ€™t predict.ย 
Johnnie had been struggling a lot lately. That wasnโ€™t a secret, and although you knew about it, you didnโ€™t pressure him very much. He wasnโ€™t the type to open up when he was overly pushed about whatever was wrong, and you wanted him to feel safe and comfortable coming to you when he was ready, and not before that. But that didnโ€™t mean that you werenโ€™t concerned, because you most definitely were. This bad spell for him was bordering on being one of his worst ones ever, and you were about to step in, because you couldnโ€™t stand to see him hurting on his own any longer, even if that was what he told you he wanted.ย 
Johnnie had begun to isolate himself for almost every hour of the day, only exiting his room to eat and use the bathroom. He didnโ€™t talk much to you out loud, texting instead, as it took much less energy out of him to take that route. He didnโ€™t like to talk about it, despite knowing that he most definitely needed to. You hated how he could be so self destructive, but you knew that you did the exact same thing when you felt the way that he did. So, you respected his space and always let him have it when he asked for it. However, it normally didnโ€™t last this long, thus feeling the massive worry that encased your mind.ย 
After a couple more hours, you continued to let your worry grow, but you decided to do something about it. You hated the fact that you were about to ignore the boundaries that Johnnie had put into place, but you were seriously concerned, and you hoped that he would be able to understand and forgive you should he be upset with your decision. You grabbed the spare key that unlocked all the doors in the house, kept in the kitchen just in case of emergencies, and gently knocked on his bedroom door. You werenโ€™t going to just barge in, you wanted to give him the chance to open it himself. When he didnโ€™t reply, you softly called out to him, telling him that you were going to open the door. He didnโ€™t argue, so you did just that.ย 
Walking into his room, you noticed that the blinds were closed, the lights were off, and he was quietly laying in his bed, staring at the wall. You immediately laid down next to him, letting him curl up next to you. You noticed the stained tear tracks on his cheeks, your heart breaking for him as he simply laid there. You let the both of you cuddle in silence, not wanting this to be a heartbreaking moment for the both of you, so you didnโ€™t break the silence for a while. You knew that you should probably talk about what was going on, but the moment was so peaceful that you didnโ€™t want to say anything. You both laid there quietly for about half an hour, taking in the comfort of the otherโ€™s presence, before you said anything.ย 
โ€œWe should talk about this, baby. Itโ€™s getting worse this time.โ€ย 
You could feel him shake his head against your chest.ย 
โ€œNo. I donโ€™t want to talk.โ€ย 
โ€œHoney, itโ€™s important-โ€ย 
โ€œNo!โ€
Woah. He very rarely snapped at you. He had almost never snapped at you, especially not when he was feeling like this. But, in all fairness, you had pushed him a little bit. You could feel the tears from his eyes soaking your shirt, and you decided to not speak any more for a little bit. You gently pulled his face up, wiping his tears away with the soft pads of your thumbs, pressing a gentle kiss to his forehead, brushing his hair out a bit with your fingers. You noticed that his eyes were widened more, much more glassy, and you definitely were concerned about it, but you brushed it off to the tears causing it.ย 
You were more surprised when he pulled away from you, as he had never done that. You gently reached out to try and cuddle him again, but you noticed that he wouldnโ€™t even look at you. He seemed to be panicking about something, and you couldnโ€™t figure out what it was. You werenโ€™t upset with him, but from the anxiety radiating off of his body, you could tell that he probably felt like you were. So, you immediately spoke up to try and help him recognize the fact that he was always safe and loved with you.ย 
โ€œLove, whatโ€™s wrong? Itโ€™s all going to be okay.โ€ย 
You were now completely confused, as the second that you spoke, your boyfriend burst into tears. He seemed to be absolutely inconsolable, crying nearly at the top of his lungs and clutching the squishmallow on his bed tightly between his arms. You didnโ€™t know what else to do besides just hug him, whispering comforting words as you told him that everything was going to work out, and that you were here for him. It wasnโ€™t until he looked up at you with the same glassy-eyed look as earlier and spoke a few words when you realized what was going on.ย 
When a choked out โ€œI sorryโ€ left his lips, you put together the look in his eyes, and unexpected crying, and the clutched stuffie, and immediately realized what was happening. Your boyfriend had slipped right into his littlespace, a littlespace that you were completely unaware of, and was absolutely distraught. You had been a caregiver in a previous relationship, and you quickly controlled your shocked face, bringing him as close to you as possible and gently stroking through his hair.ย 
โ€œItโ€™s okay, baby. Itโ€™s okay. Youโ€™re safe, angel, nothing to be sorry for. Iโ€™ve got you, youโ€™re going to be alright.โ€ย 
It took a lot of repetitive words and soft praises for Johnnie to relax, his crying eventually slowing when he realized that you werenโ€™t upset with him, and that you were still there and still loving him despite his newfound headspace. He wrapped himself back around you, seeming to become a very quiet little. You were more than excited to get to know him in his headspace, so excited to get to love and spoil a little one, as it had been a long time. Less than an hour later, the two of you were still curled up next to each other, you simply hugging your little boy and whispering sweet nothings to him as he relaxed. You both enjoyed the quality time, and as it turns out, Johnnie is a very silent little, despite when heโ€™s not upset. It wasnโ€™t for another half an hour or so that you moved, and you probably wouldnโ€™t have moved at all had it not been for Johnnieโ€™s stomach growling.ย 
You held his hand as you walked to the kitchen, calling him the most adorable as he rubbed his eyes with a fist. You put some chicken nuggets in the oven for him, before you went to the bathroom and you helped him remove the makeup that heโ€™d put on that morning. He hadnโ€™t gone anywhere, but he put it on to cover the dark circles under his eyes. You were gentle but bubbly, and you noticed that your little loved to laugh, and giggled at every funny face you made at him. Dinner went quite smoothly, him eating all of it, which absolutely warmed your heart, as he hadnโ€™t been eating much lately due to his depressive slump.ย 
Little Johnnie seemed to love food, and you were grateful for that, because you didnโ€™t want dinner time to cause him to be upset again. After he had finished eating, you got him a popsicle from the freezer, wrapped it in a paper towel so his hands didnโ€™t get cold, and tucked him in on the couch while you cleaned up the plate and put it into the dishwasher. He was wrapped up in a blanket, cuddled with his stuffie, and you sat down next to him as soon as you were done. You gently tapped through channels and shows as you waited for your little one to pick a cartoon heโ€™d like to watch, finally settling on โ€œSpongebobโ€, and he immediately wrapped himself back up in your arms.ย 
Heโ€™d been in a dark episode for a while, but now, it seemed like he was able to see the light at the end of it, and you couldnโ€™t wait to be here to help him through it all.
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hiii!! how are you? god, it's my first time requesting and I'm super awkward but I've been kinda having this dark mc brain rot! what would the love and Deepspace boys do with a secret gambler mc who's just like yumeko jabami? that'd be so interesting! feel free to ignore this ask if that makes you uncomfortable and have a nice day!
๐ŸŽฒ LND Scenarios with Dark Gambler!MC
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๐ŸŽฒ Synopsis: Love and Deepspace men dealing with their dark gambler partner's eccentrics.
๐ŸŽฒ Pairing: LND x GN!Reader
๐ŸŽฒ Content Warning: sexual undertones, mild humor, no pronouns/looks mentioned (Jabami is for the aesthetic), Zayne is the only one vibing, there's no mercy in kitty cards!
๐ŸŽฒ A/N: Thanks for letting me take a crack at your request. I never watched Kakeguri but I think I got the vibe! I did tone the behavior down a little to fit LND more but I think you'll be satisfied. Zayne's part turned into my favorite even though I had the hardest time thinking of a scene for him!
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โ€œLet me have a turn.โ€
Xavier shudders at the dark aura he senses behind him despite the sweet smile plastered on your face. Itโ€™s almost like seeing a demon reflecting in the glass of the claw machine but in the form of an angel. He knew it was a bad idea to come to the arcade. He was no good at the machine no matter how much he tried and the nearly empty bowl where his tokens once laid was the proof.
โ€œItโ€™s alright. I didnโ€™t think I could get it anyway. Iโ€™m not really good at this game.โ€
You frown at him. โ€œItโ€™s not you, love. These games are designed to cheat people out their money. It's disgusting really.โ€
Xavier gulps at that word. Cheat. If there was one thing you hated in this world, it was unfairness. The crooked smile forming on your face forces him to return eye contact with the special edition bunny plush heโ€™s failed to get time and time again. Somehow, he sees fear in its eyes.
โ€œIโ€™ll get it for you.โ€ Your hand reaches into the coin bowl; each clink makes his throat tighten as you finally pull out one of the coins between your fingers. โ€œThat bunny will be coming home with us.โ€
Xavier knows thereโ€™s little he can do when you sound that determined. Luckily, you won the bunny in two attempts.
โ€œTa-da! A fluffy bunny for my fluffy bunny.โ€
A sense of relief washes over him when the round rabbit hits his hands. Maybe he was being overly paranoid. However, his relief is quickly buffed out by anxiety when he sees you place another coin in the machine. Itโ€™s only a few seconds before the chimes of the machine go off again. Then, you pass him another toy, a carrot this time.
โ€œEvery bunny needs a snack!โ€ you coo, but your tone carries that familiar edge that makes the hair on the back of his neck stand. โ€œNow, whom shall we capture next?โ€
To Xavier, it sounds less like a question and more like a decree of war. โ€œI think these two are more than enough for today."
โ€œXavier, this game stole forty dollars from you. Iโ€™m not going to let it get away with that,โ€ you declare, proving it was just as he feared as your voice lowers. โ€œNow, which one do you want, dear? Oh, I know, I'll just win them all for you! How does that sound?" you ask, but Xavier is eerily aware that it wonโ€™t matter what he says when youโ€™re like this.
โ€œHere we go!โ€ you mewl as the claw begins to whir up.
Ignoring the shiver that climbs up his spine when your voice drips with the venom of ecstasy, thereโ€™s little Xavier can do but take another step back, buy another bowl of coins, and hold them for you as the role of a supportive boyfriend.
Itโ€™s an hour later when he finds himself surrounded by plushies, much more than he can hold, and the fear that youโ€™re going to get kicked out the arcade any second.
โ€œCleaned out again!โ€ you announce with a shrill breathy gasp, the giggle you give reminding him of the maniacal laughter Lemonette chortles out whenever the wanderer sprays lemon juice in his eyes. โ€œTell the employees we need another refill.โ€
โ€œWe don't have enough hands to carry all the ones you already won.โ€
โ€œWhat?โ€ Your focus finally breaks from the game and to the many toys scattered on the floor around him, overtaking his feet, then to the worried look on his face. โ€œI went overboard again, didnโ€™t I?โ€
Xavier sighs. โ€œI think thatโ€™s pretty obvious.โ€
โ€œWhy didnโ€™t you stop me?โ€
โ€œHow do you suggest I do that?โ€ he asks with a shake of his head. โ€œYouโ€™re impossible to stop.โ€
You flutter your eyelashes at him innocently. โ€œI did get you your bunny though!โ€
โ€œAt the cost of the poor arcade ownerโ€™s precious sanity,โ€ he reminds you but the smile on his face is less than scolding when he sees the guilty sulk you have and the lax of your shoulders. โ€œLetโ€™s find a donation center to drop these little guys off. Weโ€™ll count it as our good deed for the month.โ€
โ€œGood idea! How about we surprise all the kids at the hospital?โ€ you agree. Xavier chuckles. Thereโ€™s the angel again.
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โ€œPretty please, Rafayel!โ€
The painter rolls his eyes, scooting further away from you to find a different spot on the floor to sit as you crawl after him. Rafayel turns his head away and strokes his paintbrush down the center of his canvas.
โ€œNo. Now, go away. Shoo. Shoo, go paw at someone else,โ€ he says, waving the wet paintbrush at you.
โ€œBut no one else will play with me,โ€ you whine.
โ€œI wonder why?โ€
You are terrifying when you play kitty cards. Unfortunately, he was once the only one foolish enough to play with you because he wasnโ€™t aware of how you got when you gambled even when the winnings were only a few pieces of chocolate. He knows better now. Despite your cute precious face, you were evil incarnate when it came to games.
โ€œSurely, you pity me my dear sweet, gorgeous boyfriend. Did I forget to mention talented?โ€ You give him the puppy eyes to try to wear down his resolve; your hand glides over his bangs, lovingly pushing them from his face. As much as he loves trying to make you happy, this is one of the few things in the world that he refuses to listen to you about.
โ€œAs true as all of that may be, I prefer living thanks,โ€ he says before switching brushes to another color. A splash of blue would be excellent.
โ€œIs this about last time?โ€ you ask him. โ€œIt was an accident.โ€
โ€œYou nearly broke my hand!โ€
โ€œYou were trying to swap the kitties!โ€ you yell back. Rafayel was a no-good cheater when it came to playing games and not the least bit sorry about it. Itโ€™s not your fault that you grabbed his hand by reflex nor that he was so dramatic about it.
โ€œSo, the sentence is hand breaking? That's cruel and unusual punishment!โ€ he says with a gasp.
"Is it wrong to take away your tool for cheating?"
โ€œHave you forgotten what I do for a living? You might as well lay me out in the sun to dry.โ€
Sighing, you decide to agree with him. You suppose you could be a little competitive when it came to games. Besides, they say itโ€™s easier to catch more flies with honey. โ€œLook, Iโ€™m sorry, baby,โ€ you apologize and smooth out a hand over his thigh. โ€œHow about I give you a super special prize if you win.โ€
Rafayel barely looks at you from the corner of his eyes that slowly drop to where your hand rests on his leg. Youโ€™re on your hands and knees next to him, perched up like a cat begging to be petted.
โ€œIโ€™m listening,โ€ he says, continuing to mix his paints. Purring, you lean in and whisper in his ear the prizes youโ€™re willing to trade for him to play one little round with you.
His heart races with each word. Itโ€™s suddenly becoming harder to keep the stroke of the brush straight when your hand starts to trail further and further up his thigh. โ€œWell, when you put it that wayโ€”โ€ and he almost gives in until he sees the corner of your lips curling up into a smirk. โ€œWait. No. I refuse.โ€
โ€œNot even ifโ€”โ€ and you whisper in his ear again. He swears the brush handle will splinter if he grips it any tighter. His face is glowing a light red by the time you pull away. He might be Lumerian but heโ€™s still a man; itโ€™s difficult to bury the memories of pleasure under the memories of his fingers squeezing in your hard grip the last time you caught him cheating. He manages, somehow.
โ€œHow easy do you think I am? Iโ€™m not open for business whenever you want, darling.โ€ He manages to spat out, not exactly the best rejection but itโ€™ll suffice.
You puff up your cheeks at him. โ€œYouโ€™re the meanest boyfriend ever!โ€
โ€œAnd youโ€™re evil when a card gets in your hand,โ€ he argues back. The last thing he sees is the red of your shirt as you pounce on him and blue paint spilling across the floor.
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โ€œYouโ€™re so nice, Zayne. Youโ€™re the only one who's brave enough to play against me.โ€
Zayne glances up from the stack of cards in his hands to catch your tongue glancing over your lips to wet them as you stare him down with dilated eyes. He expected you to get worked up but not quite this early into the game.
โ€œI had the free time today.โ€
The real reason he schedules these regular games with you is to keep your strange habit under control, like providing a little bit of a drug to an addict; or in simpler terms, walking an overly energetic Husky so it wonโ€™t tear up the furniture. It beats the many times you ring him up at two in the morning, needing him to come rescue you out of a tough situation. He knows youโ€™ll never learn your lesson with him always swooping in when needed, but he canโ€™t stand the possibility of you getting hurt should he not come to your rescue every time you over bet your hand and need him to win back your money for you. The doctor never really expected to be a poker or kitty card expert at this age but alas.
โ€œIโ€™m guessing thereโ€™s at least one Kitty Plot in your hand, am I right?โ€ you ask him; and he doesnโ€™t understand how you sound more excited each time he obtains another assist card.
โ€œAnd if I told you there was?โ€
The giggle you let out sounds much too vulgar for a simple game of kitty cards, but heโ€™s used to this eccentricity of yours at this point. โ€œThen that means I get to beat you even when youโ€™re at your best!โ€
You slap down a Freeze card and Skip card. Thereโ€™s not much he can do other than draw his assist card and ride out your next turn. In the next phase, you throw out another assist card, one that will allow you to restock your empty number stockpile and seal your victory. ย 
โ€œAny last words?โ€ you ask him. He can see that youโ€™re starting to twitch with the excitement that comes from besting him. Itโ€™s the most dramatic thing heโ€™s seen, but heโ€™d be a liar to say it wasnโ€™tโ€ฆsatisfyingโ€ฆto watch your face fill with shock as he blocks your finishing move with a Meow This. Maybe you were rubbing off on him after all, he muses.
โ€œYou held on to that all this time?โ€ you ask him, recalling the many chances he couldโ€™ve blocked your earlier plays. You were aware he was luring you into a trap by playing the slow game, but you thought you could get around it this time. With a dreamy sigh, you cup your cheek in your hand. โ€œI shouldโ€™ve known. Just careless.โ€
โ€œAny last words?โ€ he asks, mocking your earlier victory line.
โ€œNone Iโ€™m afraid. Iโ€™m completely at your mercy; helpless in the face of your onslaught,โ€ you tell him, and he ignores the little tilt of seduction lacing your voice and the squirming of your thighs as he starts erasing every point youโ€™ve earned.
Slowly, your points decrease one by one as he throws out assist after assist while you let out little whimpers and mutter compliments under your breath with each cup color change and point reducer he throws out.
Youโ€™re going to lose! Again! Heโ€™s incredible as always.
But youโ€™re offered deliverance when instead of erasing the six points of your blue kitty the cup color changes to match it. You hear Zayne โ€œtchโ€ under his breath, and you canโ€™t help but laugh when he finally has to give up and fill the last white kitty cup with a pathetic low-level kitten.
In the end, you only won by two points but that was all you needed.
โ€œI wonโ€ฆI won!โ€ you repeat, rocking back and forth as you hug yourself and toss your head back. โ€œI finally beat you! You wonโ€™t believe how long I waited for this day! Now what should my prize be?โ€ You fall back onto the floor, kicking your feet. โ€œItโ€™s so hard to decide. I honestly didnโ€™t think this day would come! There are so many things Iโ€™ve dreamed of making you do for me!โ€
Zayne presses his lips into a thin line as he begins to collect the kittens from the cup. โ€œCalm down. Youโ€™re drooling on the carpet,โ€ he exaggerates, not that you're in the right mind to listen.
โ€œI got it. I know just what I want,โ€ you squeal, holding your finger in your mouth to muffle your laughs. Zayne tenses when you sit up, much like a vampire from a horror movie, and lock eyes with him; he doesnโ€™t think heโ€™s felt so targeted since his days in the military.
โ€œMeow for me, Zayne,โ€ you demand, and his face burns at the ridiculousness of your request.
โ€œYouโ€”โ€
โ€œAre you backing out? Thatโ€™s poor sportsmanship especially considering I took every nasty medicine each time you won.โ€
Zayne shakes his head. โ€œNo. I was simply thinking thatโ€™s surprisingly tame for you.โ€
You lift your eyebrows curiously. โ€œSo, does that mean?โ€
Zayne leans in over the table. In this position, he can see how your face softens from that lust-filled haze that gambling always manages to place over you. He doesnโ€™t know if you can actually get embarrassed, but you certainly look flustered as he locks eyes with you.
โ€œMeow.โ€
โ€œOh,โ€ you gasp, eyes wide. โ€œT-That was absolutely wonderful,โ€ you blurt out with a clasp of your hands. โ€œDo it again.โ€
โ€œIt was a one-time deal,โ€ Zayne rejects before straightening his back.
โ€œI didnโ€™t think you would do it. One more little meow for me?โ€ you plead. โ€œThis was a special victory, and I didnโ€™t get to enjoy my winnings properly.โ€
โ€œIf you want to hear it again, Iโ€™m afraid youโ€™ll have to beat me a second time,โ€ he answers bluntly.
โ€œAnd if you win?โ€
โ€œYou do what I want.โ€
โ€œWhich is?โ€
Zayne smirks at you. โ€œAll I can tell you is that Iโ€™ll ask for much more than a meow.โ€
โ€œYouโ€™re on! Youโ€™re on! Youโ€™re on! What better way to solidify my position as the best kitty card player than with a streak?โ€
โ€œI take it weโ€™re playing on Hell Mode then.โ€
โ€œWhat do you mean? Itโ€™s always heaven playing against you, Zayne. Youโ€™re the only one who can give an actual challenge,โ€ you sweetly coo, nearly a moan. โ€œUnfortunately, your reign will officially be coming to an end. Iโ€™m going to beat you without luck; and when I do, I think Iโ€™ll make you meow and purr for my reward.โ€
โ€œHurry and restart the match then if you believe that.โ€
Zayne watches as you excitedly set the game back up. He supposes that this type of gambling is more fun than gambling with chocolates. At least until he sees your social media message the next morning.
Guess who finally toppled the old king and became the new Ruler of Kitty Cards? I wonโ€™t name them. No one asked. Itโ€™s not polite to be a sore loser, my adorable meowing subject.
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Secret Smokes (Part 4)
Pairing: Teacher! Remus Lupin x Reader
Series Summary: When the reader bumps into the new DADA professor on the bridge in Hogwarts she begins to build a friendship with him all thanks to their shared feeling of not belonging and love for muggle cigarettes. Their friendship blooms while they both fight internal battles deciding what is wrong and what is right leading to a lot of fluff, angst, flirting and a rollercoaster of emotions.
Warnings: Swearing, Drinking, teacher-student relationship (but like itโ€™s all legal chill),ย SLOWburnย weโ€™re in for a long ride
Wordย Count: 3307
A/N: I know I always say I love you all, but I am blown away by all your support on each chapter. Comments are appreciated I love hearing your thoughts, it helps guide me in what direction to take the story! Anyway get ready we're starting to get a bit angsty in this chapter....
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Over the weekend you and the twins did manage to go to Hogsmeade you didn't really need anything for your prank but it was nice to get out of Hogwarts for a bit. You walked around and browsed the shops, making a stop at Honeydukes for some tiny black pepper imps, fragile sugar-spun quills and exploding bonbons. The twins assured you all of this would be useful for future pranks. Before heading back to the castle Fred suggested a quick stop at the Three Broom Sticks and all of you thought it was a great idea. You sat down at a corner table that you loved as it gave you a view of the whole place, you could gossip about all the people there especially teachers. After ordering your drinks you saw a familiar face walk in "Guys looks it's Lupin with the library lady." Fred mentioned.
"Irma Pince?" You questioned maybe slightly too loudly as you watched them walk in, at this moment Lupin's eyes met yours and he gave you a gentle, distant, smile to acknowledge your presence. He held the door for her like a gentleman, pulled the chair out for her before sitting down, very old fashioned you thought. Your eyes didn't leave them until George began to speak again.
"Do you think they're on a date?" George asked.
"Surely not." You answered too quickly.
"What if they know about our prank." You whispered.
"Even if they did why would they out of all people meet here just them to discuss it." George questioned you.
"Maybe Lupin found out and he wants to warn her." You tried to think of any reason apart form a date why he would bring her here.
"Find out from who? There's no chance. It's definitely a date." Fred stated.
"Y/N is just jealous." George stated.
"Who doesn't have the hots for Lupin? We're all jealous." Fred said jokingly.
Your eyes were glued to the pair as Lupin ordered a drink for the two of them, your eyes once again met his and you immediately diverted your gaze to the glass in front of you. "I think we should make the prank bigger." You blurted out.
"Now you're talking. What are you thinking?" Fred asked.
"I don't know, we hex the whole library somehow make everyone who entered there regret it." You didn't know where this sudden hate and anger towards the library came from but the twins enjoyed scheming and you began devising a plan to make it a better, bigger prank. You kept gazing towards Lupin throughout the conversation watching his interaction, he seemed happy, they spent the whole time chatting or maybe discussing. He was dressed more casually then usual, in a shirt and sweater over it but he didn't looks like he dressed up just like he wanted to be more comfortable, you hated yourself for analysing him so much but you struggled to look away. When you were leaving you didn't notice him looking at you the same way and thinking the same thoughts about you.
The weekend ended a bit too quickly and you were back to sitting in classrooms all day waiting for the day to finish, you nearly forgot about your extra DADA lesson in the afternoon but Lupin sent you an owl during breakfast with a reminder. You made your way to his class after a very boring positions lesson with conflicted feelings, you didn't want to do extra lessons but at least it was with him. You knocked on the door gently and heard a soft "come in" from inside. All the desks were already moved against the wall leaving a large open space, Lupin was sitting at his desk at the front of the room grading some papers it seemed he greeted you with a warm smile. "Glad to see you didn't bail Miss L/N."
"I would've forgotten if it wasn't for your owl if I'm being honest." You admitted.
"How was your weekend?" Lupin asked politely. "Uneventful, it went by quicker than expected. Yours?" Lupin sorted the stack of papers he had putting it to the side. "Mine was pleasant, I had a meeting with Irma Pince I'm trying to get more muggle books introduced into the library taking, inspiration from you actually, I think not only will it help muggle born students feel more at home I think it'll be good for everyone to have some diversity." Great so you caused them to have a date, you thought to yourself.... Or maybe it wasn't a date at all just a professional meeting. "And how's that going?" You asked. "Horribly, she's a stubborn old woman stuck in her ways. But I think with a little more convincing I might succeed. We'll see." He said honestly.
"So how does this work? Do you give me spells to practice I do them and then that's it?" You wanted to change the topic. "I thought we'd focus on your weaknesses," Lupin stood up and walked in front of the desk leaning on it. His tie was loose and the top two buttons of his shirt were undone. "I am aware that the practical side is a weakness of yours now two core thing I want to cover with you before Christmas is your Patronus charm and your defensive spells, starting with the latter."ย 
Lupin began by turning on the record player with music he then began teaching you the hand movements and starting to talk to you about posture and how you should be acting during casting these spells, at moments he got quite close to you even once holding your arm from behind to help you figure out the movement, the feeling of his chest pressed against your back and his arm on your hand send shivers through you making you feel a bit hot and bothered. By the end of your hour with Lupin you wanted to stay in the room keep going because you were enjoying yourself and the fun dynamic. He was gentle and helpful and really cared about helping you. He expressed that these spells aren't just for your exams but rather to protect you navigating the wizarding world. After the hour was up you thanked Lupin for the lesson and left the room with a quick "see you later."
After dinner you headed straight for the bridge to meet Lupin, he wasn't there when you arrived and you began to think he won't show today but he did walking up with his hand in his trouser pockets and a soft look on his face. "You know Y/N you don't have to come here to meet me everyday especially after I've just forced you to spend some of your evening with my in my classroom." He stood next to you leaning over the side but looking at you, not lighting a cigarette. "You make it sound like it's torture to spend time with you profesor." He laughed at your comment. "Besides this isn't like spending time with a teacher this is Lupin not the same guy who teaches DADA." You continued. "How so? What's the big difference?" He pushed.
"Well this guy encourages bad behaviour, he's a good laugh, he encouraged me to actually care about school." You began. "That last one sounds like something a teacher would do." Lupin interrupted.
"That's true, but it's different. Can I tell you something honestly?" You asked vulnerable and Lupin gave you a go on nod. "I see you, as in you who I meet right here as someone I can trust and call a good friend. I feel like your someone I can really trust in, don't get me wrong I have friends but I feel like you understand me in a different way, you understand everything I struggled with over the last few years at Hogwarts the isolation, the-"
"Y/N..." Lupin interrupted. "Sorry I got a bit too deep, I probably shouldn't have said anything." You said in embarrassment. "No Y/N, I appreciate every word. And I appreciate your honesty, if we're both being honest right now I agree completely. It's my first time teaching here and it's weird all my old teachers are now my colleagues and now I'm the old guy do you know how soul crushing that is? I felt so alone moving here all my friends have turned into people I can only see on weekends as I'm stuck on school grounds. But you were someone who decided to speak to me like a human not like a profesor or like a past student and it was so refreshing. Although I don't think I've ever smoked this much in my life." He laughed to himself. "We're both losers." You replied laughing. "What are your friends like?" You asked honestly. Lupin began telling you about Harry's parents and about Sirius Black and how they were school friends and now they're the most important people in his life. He talked openly about missing them but knowing that working at Hogwarts had given him opportunities he wouldn't have had anywhere else. Around 10pm Lupin checked his watch and realised he's kept you up with his stories past curfew, this was the moment you realised you had a prank to pull so you said goodbye to Lupin and made your way back to see the twins.
The twins were both sitting in the common room on one of the sofas as soon as you walked in they both jumped up. "We've been waiting for you." They said in unison. "You need to stop flirting with boys all night we have work to do Y/N." Fred stated. "Everything is ready we've got Harry's invisibility cloak we just need the map." George reached his arm out and you handed him the map. Around midnight you set off towards the library, once you were inside it was completely empty it was pretty cool to be there in the middle of the night, you straight away began jinxing the books it took a while to do all of them but thinking of new ways you can jinx each book made it a little bit more fun. You were maybe making a bit too much noise as you noticed on the map Filch was walking towards you. The three of you quickly jumped under the cloak of invisibility and went left the library, Filch ran past you and went into the library "Students out of bed." He shouted as he ran into the library but then he saw no one you wanted to laugh but you kept silent as you began to walk back to the Gryffindor dorm rooms. You heard Filch's voice complaining out loud behind you approaching you as your turned the corner, you were moving very slowly as you were trying to stay completely covered as you walked down the corridor. "What's wrong Filch?" You heard a familiar voice coming towards you from the opposite direction.
"Students out of bed profesor, they're hiding in the library." Filch said standing right next to you. Now Lupin was standing so close that if you breathed to loudly you were sure he'd hear. The three of you froze the twins shut their eyes probably to avoid laughing you stood there watching. "Now Filch why would students sneak around at this time of night to go to the library?" Lupin asked amused, it felt like he could see right through the cloak of invisibility.
"I could hear their voices." Filch replied.
"Okay." He looked right where you were standing almost making eye contact with you. "Let go check Filch come on." He said and they walked away from you and you felt like you could finally breathe, you ah the twins practically ran back to the dorm as sons as they were out of sight. When you returned, you began laughing about how you nearly got caught thankful that you didn't.
The next day at lunchtime is when the announcement came about your prank profesor McGonagall was the one to break the news "it has come to our attention that last night a group of students decided to jinx the library, now if anyone knows any information about this we urge you to come forwards..." she began her speech. Throughout the whole speech it felt like Lupin was staring at you and the twins. "Do you think he knows?" You asked them on your way out the hall.
"How could he?" George began. "We were under the cloak the whole time there's no way." Fred finished. You went on with your day and luckily no one knew it was you and the twins who pulled off the prank, every teacher would remind the class after the lesson that the library is closed and to come forward with any information during your DADA lesson you felt like Lupin was acting a bit different you didn't know if your conversation with him last night caused it or if he knew about the prank. During his own speech about how the library is closed it felt like his eyes were glued to you, you were confident he knew somehow. That evening he didn't show up to the bridge, you checked a marauders map and he wasn't in Hogwarts at all you felt wrong checking the map but you wanted to know if he went to the bridge after you left.
The next day after your lessons you had your DADA extra session, you went to the class like last time and just as before when you entered the tables were all moved to the side of the classroom. Lupin was sitting behind his desk as before and looked up to you to greet you "Good afternoon Y/N." He simply said.
"Afternoon Professor." You replied he was wearing his shirt properly buttoned up and his tie all the way up a lot more profesional looking than last time. "Today we'll be working on counter-jinxes as I believe you've already mastered jinxes let's see if you can counter them." He stated pulling out a pile of books onto the table, books from the library... "Luckily we have a lot of jinxed books that some students gracefully prepared for us." He handed you the pile of books. "So you want me to remove the jinxes this feels more like detention than tutoring." You felt annoyed at how he was treating you suddenly. "Why would you get detention unless you were the one who jinxed these books, no I don't want you to remove those jinxes I want you to open the books and use a counter jinx to protect yourself from whatever the books have to offer."
"But how am I meant to do that? I don't even know what will come out of them." You were scared of some of the things that the twins may have made the books do. "That's the point, that's the challenge." Lupin said. "You're not making this easy when I have no idea what to do, all I know is how to remove the jinx all together." You stayed in annoyance. He took a book, opened it and preformed a counter-jinx. "See that easy, now imagine you're in the library and you open a book a jinx comes out how do you defend yourself." He hands you a book and you look at it, it's one that you had jinxed so you knew what to expect and knew what spell to preform. Lupin seemed shocked at how well you did he probably wanted you to fail. "Not many people can think of a specific counter jinx before seeing what the book is jinxed with you know." He said simply. "I'm a faster learner." You replied and Lupin handed you a book on Herbology. "Very well, again." This one you didn't know the jinx so you opened the book slowly but you still didn't manage to use the correct counter jinx and you got completely covered in dirt and leaves. Lupin couldn't hold in his laugh at your state and you laughed along with him. "Okay now the first thing you need to know about counter jinxes-"
"Hold on you just wanted me to get jinxed before you began to teach me?" You questioned. "If you're going to jinx a book at least be able to protect yourself from it." He winked at you after saying it. "I didn't jinx this book." You began to wipe all the dirt off your face and Lupin handed you a tissue. "No but you jinxed that one." He pointed to the first book you opened. "You can't possibly know that."
"All I want to know is why Y/N? Because the way I see it is I tell you I'm trying to get muggle books into the library and that very night you and the Weasley twins go in and jinx every single book. No don't deny it, I was already sure that I sensed you there, and with how you knew what was in that book you provided it. Now believe me I appreciate the commitment to getting every, single, book. However I was doing something to try and help you and instead you decided to completely jeopardise it. If Pince ever finds out you were part of the efforts there will never be a muggle book allowed in the school even less so the library do you understand?" You had never seen Lupin so annoyed.
"Profesor, I'm sorry. I truly am, I don't know if it'll make you feel any better but this had nothing to do with you or Pince. I didn't even consider how this would affect you we just thought it would be funny and a great first prank of the year. We had this planned before, when we saw you in the pub with Pince we thought you had somehow found out and you were warning her and then we decided you couldn't know and that you guys are on a date" Lupin nearly chocked on the cup of tea he was drinking when you said the last part. "Me and her? On a date? Look I've made some odd romantic choices in life but I have some level of standards. Thank you for your apology Y/N, I may have taken it a bit personally especially after our conversation on Monday night, now let's begin before we spend the whole hour talking. So to perform a counter jinx..." There was no more mention of your prank and no more mention of anything personal profesor Lupin mode was on and he was back into teaching you still shared a few moments of laughing and a few jokes especially when you were victim to jinxed books but apart from that it was purely professional. When the lesson finished Lupin informed you that he is cancelling Fridays session as he will be away over the next few days he apologised and you simply replied with, "so no smokes on the bridge?" His facial expression became soft and he gave you a smile. "Unfortunately you'll have to wait until I'm back dear." He winked and then looked mortified with his own words as he opened the door for you it was as if he said that last word by accident he quickly continued with. "Have a lovely rest of the evening Y/N." and that was the last time you saw him for a few days, it was because of the full moon. You had already figured out after the first few months that whenever the full moon was approaching he wouldn't come to the bridge and then after the full moon he would get Snape to cover his lessons. You should've known straight away when he said he sensed you it meant he could smell you or even hear you from a distance that's why he knew that it was you hidden under the cloak of invisibility.
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HGSN 26-1
Chapter (Japanese)
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Rough translation by me
(+ last week's twitter comic also)
P1
Rie: Anyway, for now, you should go on home today...
P2
Hikaru: Thanks...for the raincoat...
Rie: Take care
(sfx: door closes)
Rie: (At 'Hikaru'-kun's home right now..., he has a family that doesn't know anything. They're surely waiting for him to come home for dinner today too.)
P3
Rie: (When I think about Tsujinaka-kun and 'Hikaru'-kun's family...)
Rie: (There's just no way I can...)
(sfx: ding-dong)
Rie: (Is my daughter back?)
Rie: Alley-oop
(sfx: door opens)
Rie: Yes?
Rie: ...!!
Rie: ...You're...
P4
(sfx: cicadas)
P5
(sfx: squeak squeak)
Hikaru: Hey, is it really okay to get that as a "swim ring"? It's not exactly a "ring".
(sfx: squeak)
Yoshiki: Kaoru did say to get "the cutest one"
Hikaru: I'm glad that Kaoru's been going to school a bit more these days and made a friend she can go to the pool with.
Yoshiki: But why do I have to go all the way to Mion to buy a swim ring for her?
Yoshiki: Carrying this around is such a pain
Hikaru: It's 'cause you bought something that was already inflated
Hikaru: You could have just deflated it and folded it up.
P6
Yoshiki: I'd feel kinda bad for it
Yoshiki: The poor giant salamander...
Hikaru: Pftt. You're attached to it
Yoshiki: ...so, after that, I found out some stuff
Yoshiki: The "sin of the Indou family" was actually...
(sfx: cicadas)
Yoshiki: ...'Hikaru'
Yoshiki: do you not have memories from your time as "Nounuki-sama"?
P7
Hikaru: I have them...at least I should
Hikaru: It's like, for some reason, I've forgotten them for a long time and have recently started to recall them...
(sfx: squeak)
Hikaru: Especially the stuff about "granting wishes"...
Hikaru: I'm not sure why, but for some reason I think it's true.
Hikaru: I can grant any wish you ask for...I have that feeling anyway.
(sfx: squeak)
(Hikaru: ...and I'll do whatever you ask me to do...)
Yoshiki: ...you have such a big mouth, haha...
Yoshiki: Any wish, for real?
P8
Hikaru: Yeah
Hikaru: Go ahead
Yoshiki: (This "wish"...if it really did get granted...)
Yoshiki: (I feel like it'd be bad news)
Yoshiki: No. It's fine.
(sfx: squeak squeak)
Hikaru: ....
Yoshiki: *sigh*...Even though we know about Nounuki-sama now, we still don't know anything about the most important part, doing something about the impurities...
P9
Yoshiki: (And what was that sketch, too...)
Yoshiki: (It's just one inexplicable thing showing up after another)
Yoshiki: *mutter mutter*
Hikaru: Heeey
(sfx: cicadas)
Hikaru: Ah!
P10
Hikaru: It's Mincemeat!
Mincemeat: ....
Hikaru: Yoshiki, look at this!
Hikaru: He's dancing
Yoshiki: He's gotten pretty used to you
Yoshiki: Figures, he still hates you
P11
Hikaru: That guy... he was just after a cat treat, huh?
Hikaru: He's surprisingly strong
Yoshiki: Hahaha
Hikaru: Hey
Hikaru: There's no point in thinking about stuff in a place like this
(sfx: cicadas)
Hikaru: It's summer break right?
Hikaru: You wanna go to the beach today?
Hikaru: I'd like to see the ocean at least once
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Next chapter: in 1 week
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Yoshiki (13yo): Look, Kaoru, here's a souvenir for you. It's a beetle larva plushie.
Yoshiki: You said you wanted something cute right?
Kaoru (9yo): I didn't want that....
Yoshiki: Huh?
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Things that are a little annoying about Yoshiki
Last week's twitter comic (link):
Maki: He can kinda look down on people.
Also the fact that he's taller than me makes me mad!
Yoshiki: Are you stupid?
Maki: Hah? What?!
Asako: He never tells me about the important part. Too secretive?
Asako: Huh!? You're hurt, what happened?
Yoshiki: Nothing...
(He took a big fall)
Yuuki: That even though what he thinks quickly shows on his face, he won't say anything. I'm the one who ends up having to guess.
Yoshiki: 's really good
The first time I gave him something sweet
Even though he obviously didn't like sweets, he didn't say anything about it. (The next time I gave him something that wasn't sweet, and he enjoyed it)
'Hikaru': He's always nagging, such a busybody. He's quick to start brooding and worry himself sick. And he's kinda needy. Also he's like argumentative? He watches videos about beating other people in debates. Also sometimes he grows beard hair.
Yoshiki: Hey! Wash your hands!
Maki: Well you told me to talk about it!
Asako: Sorry!
'Hikaru': (LMAO)
Yoshiki: Beard hair...
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hiii! i wanted to say first off that I love your work! i always come back to them whenever I'm in need of some sandor time and they never fail to make me smile.
i wanted to ask if you could do something w/ "i was so worried. it was killing me, not being able to reach out and touch you" from that secret relationship prompt list. I thought it was fitting for sandor cause that man secretly loves physical touch does he not?
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a/n: hello there! i see your user all the time, iโ€™m so happy you requested something and thank you for your constant support! i tweaked it a bit to suit him more but i hope you like it xoxoxo
tw: blood, violence, death, swearing
The gods were having a laugh at him, weren't they? Giving the ugliest brute in Westeros the heart of the sweetest thing he thinks heโ€™s ever seen in gods know how long just to take them away. Of all the people in the world to weasel their way into the Houndโ€™s heart, it had to be you. Twin to the Young Wolf, Robb, fucking you. A fucking Stark!
Youโ€™d somehow befriended the Hound during his stay at Winterfell but then you kissed him on the way to Kingโ€™s Landing. He was certain youโ€™d hate him after he killed that butcher's boy and end whatever it was the two of you had, but you didnโ€™t. Then he was even more certain youโ€™d hate him after he took you and your sister, Sansa, hostage, but you didnโ€™t. Sandor was abso-fucking-lutely certain youโ€™d hate him after King Joffrey ordered your father to be executedโ€ฆ but you didnโ€™t.
โ€œItโ€™s not your fault,โ€ You told him, some of those times through flooding tears, โ€œDonโ€™t risk your head, alright? Not for me, not for anyone.โ€
Gods, he hated it when you cried. And Sandor had been seeing you cry a lot ever since Joff had your father beheaded. Even so he allowed it, especially because you never cried in front of anyone else. You were strong like that, never giving them the satisfaction of knowing how you were truly feeling. Your red rimmed eyes may say otherwise, it was proof enough but Sandor still thought you were strong and he would hold you whenever he had the chance.
โ€œKeep your head down, little wolf, and do as you're bid. Tell your sister the same.โ€
โ€˜They wonโ€™t hurt youโ€™ he wanted to say but they could. They did and have, whenever they had the chance. They being the Lannistersโ€” Baratheons, whatever, the royal cunts he worked for. Sandor never felt guilt as heavy as he did these past months. He felt it every damn time he saw your stoic face, albeit the red under your eyes seemed to be permanently stained that way, in court or dutifully beside your sister.
The gods were testing his restraint as if Sandor needed a bloody test. He damn near gutted Meryn yesterday for the punch he gave you in front of everyone. Heโ€™d take a tongue lashing or walk the gallows for it, gladly. Then he met your eyes. Donโ€™t risk your head, your voice ricotched inside his skull so loudly it stilled him. Sandor had never been so happy to see the dwarf in his life, ending the beating before Merynโ€™s sword struck you and only you. The little bird with her ripped dress sobbing on her knees tucked into your protective arms. He wouldโ€™ve killed the Kingsguard himself if it wasnโ€™t for Tyrion and, as much as he wanted to, he didnโ€™t want the last time he saw you to be in that room.
Sandor bandaged you himself, undoing the shite work that old pervert Pycelle did.
โ€œNo oneโ€™s gonna hurt you again, little wolf.โ€ He sworeโ€” no, he vowed, and the Hound didnโ€™t do vows, โ€œNo one, you hear me?โ€
โ€œIโ€™m ok, Sandor.โ€ You assured him as you always did, each time sounding weaker than the last. Never quite yet a lie, you were still strong.
Sandor felt the shift in the air less than halfway to the Red Keep, the walk was eerily quiet. He knew King Joff wasnโ€™t beloved by any means but utter silence was a warning and heโ€™d curse himself if he didnโ€™t chance a look at his surroundings. Heโ€™d tell himself this anyways but his eyes landed on the little birdโ€ฆ then his little wolf following behind her.
You didnโ€™t smile when you caught his brief gaze looking back at you over his shoulder. No, you felt the same tense aura he did and he could see the worried expression on your face. Fear. He thinks he hates that look on you more than tears. Sandor wished he could just grab you, hook you under his arm and make sure you stayed there until he saw you to safety.
Donโ€™t they always say โ€œit happened so fastโ€ well it fucking did. Sandor blinked, Joff was hit and his sword was drawn out right after. Then everything went to shit. The Bread Riot they would call it by tomorrow but Sandor Clegane could name it right here and now; his worst fucking nightmare come to life.
Joff was fine, he made certain of that firsthand but when he turned around, though his body never ceased moving, his heart stopped. You and the little bird were nowhere to be seen. Sandor felt like he could breathe at least when he found Sansa, just in time by the looks of it. His sword hacked through flesh and bone then he swung the girl over his shoulder. She cried the whole way back, never ending blubbering was just as bad as her chirping. Only this time they were both thinking the same.
โ€œWhere are they!?โ€ She sobbed, โ€œPlease, you have toโ€”โ€œ
Sandor didnโ€™t need to be fucking commanded to find you, so he didnโ€™t stay to hear the rest of her pleas. He went back to face the riot a third time. Occasionally some idiot came at the Hound only to meet their gorey demise at his sword. Sandor shouted your name until his throat hurt, growing more panicked the longer he went without a response.
Until you called back.
Footsteps come closer, heavier, faster. Rounding the corner his nerves finally leave him alone with relief. Sandorโ€™s shoulders slump as lets out a breath that takes away some of the tension he was holding onto. He takes one step closer while you close the distance with a leap. Your arms locked behind his neck, the blood on his armor smearing against your own attire. You didnโ€™t seem to care, he certainly didnโ€™t. The deathly grip on his weapon shook and his sword clattered when it hit the ground. Sandor enveloped you in his arms and breathed in the scent of your hair. He almost thanked the gods that laughed at him that you were aliveโ€”
Then he pulled away harshly, hands flying to your cup your cheeks and turning your head all around looking for any bruises or cuts. He ignored the way you said his name until he inspected every fucking inch of you, making sure you werenโ€™t bleeding or something worse had happened. If you were it would all be his fault, he made fucking vows for you! Heโ€”
โ€œSandor.โ€ You said again
He sighed then begrudgingly met your red rimmed eyes, โ€œIt.. it fucking killed me not to reach out and touch you.โ€
You somehow smiled and attempt to gently pry his hands away to hold them, โ€œIโ€™m ok, Iโ€”โ€œ
โ€œNo.โ€ He growls and holds your face still in his grip.
His eyes are wide, boring into yours. His breaths short and shaking with every exhale. Is this fear? In the Houndโ€” your Hound?
โ€œIt wouldโ€™ve fuckinโ€™ killed me if something happened to you. Do you understand me? Iโ€™m strong but,โ€ Sandor sighs and blinks away any traces of fear you thought you saw but he doesnโ€™t meet your eyes for the final part of his little speech, โ€œIโ€™m not strong enough to lose you.โ€
Halfway through his admission your brows punched up and tears welled in your eyes. You managed to swallow down the sob that almost escaped. Words aside, the seriousness and earnestness in his voice had you choking up. Including his statement, it was just about the closest Sandor Clegane has been to admitting he not only cared about you but quite possibly loved you.
โ€œLook at me,โ€ You managed to say, โ€œIโ€™m right here, Sandor, Iโ€™m not going anywhere.โ€
His eyes find yours again. Youโ€™re smiling that bloody smile that twists his guts in a way he doesnโ€™t necessarily dislike. Itโ€™s weakโ€ฆ but itโ€™s there and itโ€™s mighty reassuring. Sandorโ€™s thumb catches a tear that drips down your cheek. He hates it when you cry.
โ€œAlrightโ€ฆโ€ He swallows hard on nothing.
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When I saw Dark, I definitely expected characters like Hannah and Ulrich to be hated. I wasn't surprised when I saw comments disliking them on different websites, but I just didn't expect to see people celebrating that Hannah was murdered by her own child while her younger child was sleeping in the same room.
People can enjoy any moment they want while watching a show or movie, but I just don't get it. Hannah gets an amount of hate that no other character in the show gets, and it feels like a large part of the show's viewers ignore to even trying to understand her.
jonas literally says in the first episode:
โ€œMy father said good and evil are a question of perspective.โ€
I'm not saying her character didn't do bad things, but it's exhausting how that's the only thing people see about her and it's just like they're trying to erase the good she did or all the positive things she meant in certain characters' lives.
I was even more shocked to see how few comments put Hannah on the same level as Helene Albers. I just don't understand how anyone could think that Hannah is somehow comparable to an abusive parent.
Hannah with her kids:
When she saw her boy struggling to cope with his dad's dead, she supported her child and made sure he got the professional help he needed.
And when Jonas came back to town, she made sure he got his medications and therapy sessions with Peter.
Hannah was so worried when Jonas tells her he had a fight at the end of the first season.
In the same scene, he just wanted to comfort his mother by saying, "Don't worry, Mom. Everything will be fine, Mom." when he actually believed that he could save Mikkel and thus end his own existence.
As the months passed since her son's disappearance, Hannah was so devastated that she almost took her own life.
She didn't, because Stranger Jonas appeared.
Stranger Jonas has returned after years of living in the apocalypse, and he doesn't know what else to do when his plan fails. The only thing he can think of is to go to his mom and tell her the truth.
After the time young Jonas spent traveling with Claudia, the first thing he does when he finally returns home is look for his mom.
It was a long time before Hannah saw her son again.
But she went to see him immediately when a random old woman told her that she knew where her son was and that he needed her.
Hannah was heartbroken when she saw what had happened to her boy. In that moment she apologized, recognized her mistakes, and told him that she was there for him.
Young Adam looked scary, but Hannah loved him anyway, and baby Silja trusted him when he said, "I want to show you a secret. But we'll let your mom rest, okay?"
Hannah died when Silja was very young and she probably didn't remember much about her mom, but she still named her firstborn Hanno after her.
and that's just to mention some of the things I could remember about Hannah's relationship with her kids.
The last dialogue of the whole show:
"I always thought "Jonas" was a good name."
Hannah was a good mom and her kids absolutely loved her. It bothers me that some people want to take that away from her because they donโ€™t like her.
It's really hard for me to understand how some viewers can watch a show like Dark and decide that they can see all the million gray areas that all these characters had, but with one particular character they reduce everything to black and white.
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The Artist's Secrets : DaltonxReader
warning spoilers ahead.
pov: You and Dalton are in the same art class at the university, and you notice that he has been behaving strangely lately.
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Dalton and [Name] were two classmates at the university, sharing a common interest in visual arts. They regularly attended art classes together with their demanding and passionate professor, Ms. Armagan. It was during these moments of creativity that they discovered each other, exchanging ideas, supporting and inspiring one another.
But one day, as they immersed themselves in their painting project during class, Dalton suddenly found his hand covered in blood. The pain was evident on his face, but he remained mysteriously silent. [Name], alerted by the situation, felt a wave of concern rising within her. She knew Dalton as an introspective and reserved person, but something seemed different this time. He appeared lost, adrift in a world she couldn't comprehend.
Approaching him discreetly, she gently placed her hand on his shoulder. "Dalton, are you okay?" she murmured, her gaze filled with genuine concern.
Dalton averted his gaze, seeming hesitant to respond. Finally, in a calm but slightly trembling voice, he said, "It's nothing, just an accident."
However, [Name] could sense that there was more to it, something deeper troubling him. She knew it couldn't be just a mere accident.
"Dalton..." she replied softly, insisting that he share what was troubling him. "What's really going on? You can tell me. You know I can read you like a book."
"Just that..." he began, but was interrupted by their professor. "End of class. See you all tomorrow at the same time!" she announced, signaling for everyone to leave the room.
"Sorry, I have to go. See you tomorrow," said the troubled young man before hastily gathering his belongings and exiting the room.
[Name] let out a long sigh before gathering her own things and leaving the class.
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The next day, at the same time, as the visual arts class was coming to an end, Professor Armagan had left the room, leaving Dalton and [Name] alone. The room was calm and peaceful, bathed in the gentle light of the setting sun streaming through the large windows.
[Name] turned her mischievous gaze towards Dalton and remarked, "Well, Dalton, I didn't expect to see you at the frathouse party yesterday..."
Dalton, surprised, let out a genuine laugh. "Well, it was more of a friend who dragged me there... to make fun of them, you know. Anyway, if you saw me there, it means you were there too. So, any defense for yourself?"
[Name] shook her head, a playful smile on her lips. "No, no, I'm not the kind of person who enjoys those kinds of parties. I was only there to pick up my brother. Believe me, I usually hate them. I'm relieved you didn't go there just to have fun with those people... so, how was it, then?"
Dalton seemed confused when [Name] asked about the fraternity party. His face briefly froze, revealing a hint of worry that she noticed immediately. Intrigued, she sought to learn more, wanting to understand what troubled him.
"Are you sure you're okay lately?" she asked in a gentle voice, her eyes scanning his for answers.
He averted his gaze, seeming hesitant to share the truth. "It's... it's complicated, [Name]. I'd really prefer not to talk about it."
The enigmatic tone of his response only heightened [Name]'s suspicions. She remembered the moment she had seen him with his hand covered in blood the day before. Perhaps there was a connection to what troubled him now.
"Dalton, I can't help but notice how distant you've been lately... Does it have something to do with what happened yesterday? I mean, I was genuinely concerned to see you like that, well, I mean, you've always been a weird guy, but not to this extent normally, so I'm a bit worried," she finished with a semi-smile.
Dalton felt a mix of surprise and concern reflected in [Name]'s expression. She had made a lighthearted remark earlier, but now she realized that something much more serious was troubling him. She approached him gently, placing her hand on his, seeking to reassure him.
"Dalton, I won't think you're crazy, believe me. I'm here for you, no matter what you have to say. You can trust me, and even though we haven't known each other for long, I have this strong feeling that you need support right now," she said in a comforting voice.
Dalton felt overwhelmed by a mixture of emotions as he watched [Name] provide such comforting support. A glimmer of relief began to spread within him, giving him the strength to continue.
"For some time now, I've been seeing... things," he began, his voice filled with uncertainty. "I know it may sound crazy, but I can't ignore it. Visions, apparitions... I'm not exactly sure what it is, but it frightens me."
[Name] held his hand in hers, offering silent support as she listened attentively. She understood that he was going through a period of confusion and uncertainty, and she was determined to help him understand what was happening.
"Dalton, please, I told you, I won't think you're crazy," she said gently. "There's always an explanation, even if it seems strange or hard to understand. Tell me more."
Dalton felt a surge of gratitude enveloping him as he listened to [Name]'s comforting words. He felt that he could trust her, even though they had only known each other for a short time. There was something reassuring and familiar about her presence.
"There's something else I need to tell you," Dalton continued, his voice filled with emotion. "I don't remember the year I turned ten. My parents claim I was in a coma, but... I no longer believe them. I have this feeling that there's more to the story."
[Name] tightened her grip on Dalton's hand, encouraging him to continue.
"I can see things that others can't," Dalton confessed, his voice slightly trembling. "I can travel to another world... a world where I can see the dead, I think. But I'm not completely sure about all of this."
As Dalton shared his most intimate thoughts, he felt the support and reassuring presence of [Name]. Her comforting gestures, like the gentle rubbing of his hand, eased the fears that plagued him.
"Listen, if you need me to accompany you, I can be there, okay? You seem like a genuinely good person, and on top of that, you're one of the few people I've really connected with since starting college," [Name] said with determination. "We'll search for answers, we'll understand what's happening. You're not alone, okay?"
The words from [Name] resonated deeply within Dalton. In this moment of shared vulnerability, he felt heard, understood, and supported.
"Thank you, but you don't have to," he replied.
"Hey, listen, I'll be there, okay? I'll give you my phone number, my room is not far from yours, and if there's anything, don't hesitate to send me a message or call. Let's say I'm a night owl!ย 
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Hey I gotta say, first of all, your introduction and how you explained that the community's friendliness and overall support of one another is what made you decide to make this blog is so gorgeous and honestly made me smile! I would like to be one of the first to welcome you! Could I possibly request some Sanji x gn reader headcanons? Could be random relationship headcanons or whatever you come up with, I can't wait to read it either way! ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ‘จ๐Ÿผโ€๐Ÿณโค๏ธโ€๐Ÿ”ฅ
I'm really happy to meet so many nice people here! I really appreciate everyone welcoming me with open arms, really.
I'm not sure if I got the format right, I admire that hcs aren't something I'm used to writing, so much so that I redid this ask, but I hope you like it anyway!
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HCS DATING SANJI: HIS POSITIVE AND NEGATIVE POINTS
Sanji x Gn! Reader
Synopsis: Some positives and negatives of dating Sanji
Warnings: Jealousy, mention of cheating (not literally just flirting), lies and secrets
Word Count: 1,0k
Notes: I'm still getting used to writing hcs, it turned out that way but it's not exactly the same as the others, so I don't know if it's good? Sorry for the English and read as if it were gender neutral or the ones you identify with.
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Dating Sanji might seem like a dream, it's so perfect and peaceful, then suddenly it would turn into a boat on a huge tide with no sails and no way to escape the storm.
Don't get it wrong, Sanji tries very hard to be the best boyfriend possible, but everything has its downsides and upsides. So let's separate so that everything is clearer and you can draw your own conclusions.
Positives:
Sanji is very careful when waking up, he's usually the first one up and the last one down. So if you're the type that prefers to sleep as much as possible, he'll slowly come out of the covers without touching you to do his own homework. If you decide to wake up next to him to do your own thing or stay with your boyfriend, then he will wrap you warmly against the cold and make you breakfast before the others, after all you deserve it for the hard work of getting up so early.
He is also very cautious around you, he gets very observant about your desires for physical touch. Do you love hugs? Wait several days, do you hate them? So he will swallow all the neediness and stay as far away as possible, he loves to touch your hands and would spend days holding them. Although he is very desperate for physical touch and affection, if he knows it's not exactly his taste he will stay in his own space and respect you. He would never force you into anything, not even kisses, but any affection you give him will be met with compliments and bursts of happiness, he loves having your attention.
And speaking of attention, you'll always be top of Sanji's attention list. You want to talk? No problem, he can cook, fight and still give you enough attention in a conversation. Do you want to spend quality time on an island? He already has the whole route planned and a lot of money to fulfill all his desires. Do you want a traditional romantic date? You don't even have to ask! He has the perfect table, candles, music and even the perfect outfit for you to enjoy! Sanji loves spending time with you and he really doesn't care how you guys do it, being by your side he's content.
Sanji is also very friendly, you will never feel alone or abandoned if you have this man by your side. He is able to understand all your traumas and difficulties without demanding too much, he won't be the type to pressure you to tell about your past and traumas. However, if you decide to share this with him, you can be sure that he will listen in silence without judging you and give you the support you need, whether through words of comfort or a simple silent hug.
Negatives:
Sanji is very jealous. He really tries not to be because he trusts his body and soul in you, the question of jealousy is exactly that, Sanji trusts you, he just doesn't trust other people. If he sees any man or woman getting too close, laughing too much, touching you too much, you can be sure he doesn't know how to hide that he's jealous. He will frown and have a bitter smile as he tries to push others away from you, he will also end up becoming more needy and in need of touch. Trying to somehow confirm that you love him and not others.
Sanji hides many things from you. This could even be something cute if he was going to hide a surprise, but no, he hides important and serious things. He literally won't tell you anything about his past even if you guys fight about it, he will also hide injuries whether physical or mental. In Sanji's mind you're a perfect angel who shouldn't worry or stress about anything, so the solution for him is to simply hide everything that might hurt or stress you out.
Sanji flirts too much. When you start a relationship he will stop most of the flirting, after all he sees no point in conquering other people when he is already with the love of his life. The problem is that flirting is in Sanji's blood and every time he sees a beautiful woman he will become more gentle and submissive, even if he doesn't flirt romantically he still acts like he is. This can lead to a lot of confusion, he will argue that he is just being nice while you argue that it looks like he is cheating on you. At the end of the day if it upsets you he will try to tone it down as much as he can and keep an eye on his own actions.
Sanji can be very headstrong. He tries to be as open-minded as possible so the relationship can progress, but once he gets it into his head that he's right, nothing will change that. Even if he doesn't like to fight with you, there will be countless times he will deny being wrong or deny blame, even if it's obvious he is wrong. For example, he'll deny that he should be more careful in fights, saying that if he doesn't give it his all there's no reason to fight, even if you only want him to worry about getting back to the ship alive. He will hit the same button a lot on some subjects and you will need to be very pushy if you want to show him that things aren't the way he thinks.
In the end Sanji is a human like any other and is not free from mistakes. He has many qualities for a boyfriend and can be the prince of your dreams, but he will also give you a lot of headaches in certain ways. Sanji's best quality is that he is always willing to listen to you and change if it makes both of you happy, so don't worry about starting a conversation to air your fears and misgivings, he will definitely listen to you and you will find a solution together .
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Notes: That's it! I hope you enjoyed it and I apologize if the format wasn't exactly as you envisioned. Thanks for the welcome and warm welcome, I'm really excited to get closer to the wider community, until next time!
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Girls like girls
Deena Johnson x fem reader
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You moved to Shadyside a few months ago, you've heard about about this town being a shithole, and some sort of witch called Sarah Fier possessing people turning them to killers which sounds stupid in Y/n's opinion.
Her Dad died when she was 13, it shattered y/n's heart, her mom became a alcoholic, so y/n had to support herself.
Y/n's Mother had move to Shadyside for a fresh start, Y/n thought moving to Shadyside would be the worse idea, But she actually met three amazing people that changed her life.
Y/n met Kate through cheerleading ever since you got on the team. she was your first best friend, but one secret Kate told you was that she sells drugs with her other best friend Simon, so they could leave Shadyside one day.
Y/n was totally supportive of that and she also met Simon, Simon and y/n's friendship was very flirty they would often flirt and mess around with each other. Y/n had a crush on Simon at first but he had eyes for another girl at school so she knew it would never work, but she still loved Simon as a bestie, He cheered y/n up when she was sad and he was the life of the party.
But the one person that stood out to Y/n was Deena Johnson, She seen Deena in band, Y/n thought she was the most beautiful girl she'd ever seen, her freckles and curly hair. Kate introduced you to Deena. Y/n was very nervous and she felt like she was going to melt.
You thought you weren't going to be close to Deena but in the end you and Deena were very close, you guys talk about Shadyside, you both hang out alot after-school, you both listen to The pixies.
Y/n wanted to make a move to ask Deena out and tell her that she liked her but, Deena started dating Sam. Deena was very happy and y/n loved seeing her happy but she doesn't feel happy that she's with someone else.
Deena and Sam had been dating for six months until they broke up since Sam moved to sunnyvale.
Y/n was there for Deena when Deena needed a shoulder to cry on. She was there for Deena and and her little ''Fuck Sam" phase. You know how much Deena was angry at Sam but you knew she still loved her and would never get over her, Deena even quit band because of her.
But she got back into band, since Sunnyvale was hosting a candlelight vigil for the victims, so players, cheerleaders, and band had to go.
God you hated those stuck up Sunnyvale pricks
You made it inside the bus, seeing people amped up, and all up in your face, which you were very annoyed with, so you saw Deena and sat next to her.
"Hey." Y/n said to Deena.
"Hey." Deena responded.
"I don't wanna fucking do this." Deena said.
" Trust me, me too, I'd rater be at home listening to music, not going to Prissyvale." Y/n said rolling her eyes.
" I don't want to go there but I have to because I have to give this to someone that I used to- it doesn't fucking matter anyway." Deena said mentioning to the box on her lap, which contains pictures and stuff with her and Sam. Y/n wished she was with Deena before Sam did.
It was silent on the bus ride y/n looked out the window seeing Sunnyvale.
As the bus driver stopped infront of Sunnyvale high-school everyone got out of the school bus and made it to the football field.
Kate walked up to Y/n. " I know you like Deena." Kate said to Y/n straight fowardly.
" What? Is it really that obvious?" Y/n said to Kate questionly.
" Duh, I saw the way you looked at her when you first met her, you look like it was love at first sight." Kate said smiling at Y/n.
"Well, it's not love at first sight since she's stuck up on Sam." Y/n said
" Don't worry, you'll find someone, and if you don't you always have me." Kate said jokingly.
" Shut up." Y/n said as she blushes at the short girl.
Y/n stands next to Deena, Y/n saw Deena looking for someone in the crowd to see Sam with this guy wrapping his arms around her.
Deena looked heartbroken she wanted to be sucked up in a black dark hole and disappear.
Deena left the football field, which made Y/n feel bad for her.
Y/n followed after Deena seeing her sitting down in the corner of a wall.
" What's wrong?" Y/n said as she sees her crying.
"Oh, you know Shadyside being a shithole, Seeing someone you use to know with someone else." Deena said sarcastically as she laughs wiping away her tears.
Y/n comes over to Deena sitting right next to.
" I can't believe that she can just pretend like we weren't together and put up this bullshit facade ever since she moved to Sunnyvale, it was like she was ashamed to even say we were together, like I didn't matter to her, I was gonna give her this box of memories we had together but all I want to do is set it on fire." Deena said feeling anger rise up.
"Maybe you need to let her go." Y/n said to Deena.
Deena gets up scoffing as she rolls her eyes as she gets up looking at y/n.
" Do you think it's that easy, she had a impact of my life, and you just expect me to let it go, God that was really fucked up to say Y/n." Deena said angrily
" I'm just saying she made you felt like shit ever sine you guys broke up, you literally quit band because of her, she literally has a impact of your life that you need to let go of, can't you fucking see." Y/n said defending herself.
" Why did you want me to let go of her?" Deena said questioning Y/n.
" I don't want to talk about it." Y/n said as her heart beats rapidly as she wants to admit that she likes deena.
"No, tell me I mean you have so much blunt honesty to tell me to hurt my feelings, so please tell me Y/n." Deena said targeting Y/n.
" Because I fucking like you!!! Is that what you want me to say? I wanted to tell you I fucking like you for months, but you were to stuck up on sam, that I felt like I was gonna loose you, I know how much you miss her but I just can't stand you talk about her." Y/n confessed as tears come out of her eyes.
Deena didn't say something as she looks at Y/n in her eyes.
" Deena, please say something... you know what I'm gonna go, and leave you alo-" Y/n was cut off as Deena kisses Y/n passionately cupping her face softly.
Y/n kisses Deena back as she waited for this moment to happen ever since she met Deena.
" I'm so fucking sorry, Y/n I was so stuck up on Sam that I didn't realize how much it affected you, I really liked you when I first met but I was so blinded by Sam and how much I wanted to be with her, I really liked you too but I was too scared to admit it and was so stuck on sam." Denna confesses as she looks at Y/n teary eyes.
" When we're done with this, can we eat cheeseburgers and listen to The Pixies and sing our hearts out." Y/n smiles, laughing with tears in her eyes as Deena laughs with her.
"I would love that, and your right I need to move on from Sam and focus on the good side of my life which is you, and I'm sorry for my attitude, that was very bitchy of me." Deena apologized.
" It's OK I've heard worse." Y/n said smiling at Deena.
Deena kissed Y/n again as she rested her forehead on Y/n's
"Y/n L/n, will you be my girlfriend." Deena asked.
" Of course." Y/n said pecking Deena on the lips.
Deena walked hand in hand as they make it back to the football field.
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lilliththeghost ยท 6 months
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I was always jealous of boys. I knew from a young age they had something I didn't. Different toys, different hobbies, different roles. My dad made it no secret that he wanted a boy. Someone he could teach to play football and game with. It hurt me that he never thought I could be that person. I thought I must've been born wrong somehow, that I was a mistake, that I should've been different.
I remember when I first discovered that you could change your gender, and you could do it just by deciding that you were something else and maybe taking some medicine. It would change me, but I never wanted to be myself anyway, so maybe this would be better. I was on board. I changed my name, cut my hair, bound my breasts. I never wanted to be a girl anyway. I wouldn't miss it. I found a doctor that would prescribe me testosterone and started looking into a double mastectomy. I felt like I finally knew why I was so broken, and this would fix me.
I panicked a week in and cancelled the whole thing. People were confused. They had supported me, for the most part, and now they thought I was lying. They thought I was backing out because I was scared. And I was scared, because I just wasn't sure this was the answer I was looking for. I just wanted to time to decide if I was sure. But the gears were already turning. People had decided I was a boy now from the instant I said so. But I was unwell. Very unwell. And I had always been, and people tried to convince me that transition would fix that. It would cure me.
I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder two months ago. After years of psych visits and evaluations and hospitalizations, years of people ignoring and downplaying my symptoms. I just turned 30. It's likely that I have been suffering from this disorder for the last 15 or so years without the proper assistance. This is how long it took for a multitude of doctors to find out what was wrong with me.
And do you what really scares me? The fact that it took this long to diagnose me with a lifelong medical condition, yet when I expressed that I MIGHT be trans, I was IMMEDIATELY told that I needed to make major medical changes. I almost signed myself up for a lifetime of the wrong treatment because people were so concerned about validating my identity that they didn't even stop to ask if I was sure.
I don't know which is worse: not being diagnosed with bipolar for 15 year, or being diagnosed as trans inside of a week. I think both are examples of the failure of the mental health system. Where is the balance? How are women supposed to lead healthy lives when they're either ignored for years or immediately prescribed permanent life-altering treatment that might not be right for them?
I want to understand and be accepting of people. I want the people around me to feel heard and loved. I just can't help wondering how many girls like me thought they might be boys because everything in their life just sucks, and they desperately need a change. I see doctors from gender clinics coming out and saying that the majority of their patients are women with serious mental health issues and trauma. And I just think, that could've so easily been me.
My entire life has been defined by my existence as a girl and a woman. And I always hated that. But it's not because I was never meant to be a female; it's not because I was born wrong. It's because being a female in a patriarchal society is utter fucking shit. And I owe it to every girl like me to help fix that.
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dirty-bear-rick-sanchez ยท 1 year
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I have some kind of mixed feelings about part 2 but some things I appreciate under the cut (messy and non-linear):
I love that weโ€™re getting more content from the other team leads this season and also that weโ€™re seeing interactions between them that we havenโ€™t seen before? Like Glenn and Myc bonding over looking different in the first episode? Brett and Andre defending Gigi in that episode? Brett and Andre friendship in Rontagion?
This kind of falls into the top one but Reagan and Gigi becoming gal pals and Reagan having her first ever female friend? I love it
Also the Reagan and Brett dynamic is top tier this season. Brett is so supportive of Reagan and I also love that theyโ€™re allowed to be so affectionate but still platonic friends (no offence to Breagan shippers, itโ€™s just not my cup of tea and I just love Reagan and Brett and platonic besties).
Myc being a nerd who ran away from the other mushrooms because they were mean to him is a great backstory. Tropey? Sure, but I love it.
I also love that Ron actually says he wouldโ€™ve liked Reagan to confess to him in the broom closet (like she originally planned) - they really are good for each other
Andre fucking his own clone is great. Honestly he was just an icon this season
I thought it was actually nice to get some actual development of Reagan and Tamikoโ€™s relationship this season. Itโ€™s nice that their relationship is considered salvageable (not so keen on how they handled the thing with Rand but I did like that Reagan still put her foot down and sent him to Shadow Prison X)
The dynamic between Rand and JR this whole season is great and I love their college flashback as well.
JR definitely lost the games on purpose every year so he could be humiliated by kissing the ring in front of everyone (youโ€™re telling me this man doesnโ€™t have a humiliation kink?)
Also the dynamic between Rand and the head of the Illuminati was great and the second we had the reveal of Ron also controlling the head of the Illuminati I just knew what was coming but I still loved when it happened anyway (the kiss)
I donโ€™t know if I should admit to this one but I definitely found it hot how Rand was being humiliated in front of everyone at the games
Brett having a secret passion for puppets is adorable and I love it
Also the Hand family ranking their children every year is hilarious and extremely in character. Made me feel so bad for Brett, I love it, 10/10
I like that weโ€™re getting recurring appearances from minor characters like Mothman, Grassy Noel, Kate (and RepliKate, what a great name)
The fact that Mycโ€™s dream timeline was one where he was pregnant is fucking adorable
Youโ€™d better believe I cried when Reagan forced Brett to his own dream timeline and when he returned because he made notes on his poster
Also at the reveal that Reagan saw the only way for Ron to be happy was for them to break up and chose his happiness over their relationship. Also I know some people werenโ€™t fans of Ron because they felt like he was unnecessary/rushed but honestly having a gender-swap of the typical โ€˜female love interest is just used as character progression for the male protagonistโ€™ felt pretty progressive. I also liked how he was shown to be similar to Reagan and actually had his flaws presented similarly to hers (e.g. not getting on well with people) even though female characters are often hated for the same flaws that are excused or even enjoyed in male characters
I have to admit that the end scene with the robes โ€˜how could she? After all, sheโ€™s only humanโ€™ was fucking cool
I loved everything about Alpha-Beta this season
And finally, thank fucking Christ that Ron wasnโ€™t revealed to secretly be Reaganโ€™s brother or something because as an RnM fan I canโ€™t take much more incest at this point
Side note to that last one: fun little theory that Ron is actually a clone of Reagan (one of them can be trans, as a treat) and it was revealed and thatโ€™s what actually lead to the clone fucking discussion at the start of that one episode but they erased their own minds and everyone elseโ€™s and let Andre take the fall (either it was intentional and they set that up as a distraction or it was unintentional and Andre just happened to be fucking his own clone anyway, take your pick)
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Hey I saw your post about what jks family will think about his fs.
Can you make a a post about what his 97 liner friends mingyu,eunwoo and yugyeom will think about his fs its gonna be something new.
Please can you separate all of them. Your posts are great.
Hii๐Ÿ‘‹๐Ÿป Sure I can make it, let's start๐Ÿฉท
What Will 97 Liner Friends Think About Jungkook's FS?
Mingyu
The Magician, 10 of Pentacles, The Lovers, Knight of Cups.
Mingyu will think that JK's fs is very determined and hardworking, they care a lot about their work and money, he will perceive that they(Jungkook and his fs) were made for each other and that they have a lot of things in common, also that they really love each other, he will support 100% this relationship, also Mingyu will notice that Jungkook will be more romantic after he starts a relationship with this person.
Eunwoo
10 of Cups, 7 of Swords, 10 of Wands, Ace of Wands, The Wheel Of Fortune, The Chariot.
So, Eunwoo will think that Jungkook and his fs are perfect partners and that they should marry each other, I don't know how to express this or even interpret this but the 7 of Swords talks about betrayal, so Eunwoo may feel betrayed somehow? Or he may perceive that Jungkook's fs have a fear of being betrayed, also Eunwoo will think that Jungkook's fs is someone really hardworking and determined, who can do anything to get what they want, he will also think that JK's fs is someone really creative and funny, someone independent and mature, he may notice that this person is a bit bipolar?Like, one moment she's super happy and positive, another time she's negative and angry? Idk how to explain it, anyways, he will think that they're made for each other and that they should marry(And they will lol), and that this person is very determined and hardworking. (Also Eunwoo could worry about Jungkook and his fs, because they may receive a lot of hate comments, etc, so he will worry a lot about them two and will worry that they may breakup because of the hate they will be receiving)
Yugyeom
10 of Wands, King of Wands, The World, The High Priestess.
Yugyeom will also be worried about Jungkook and his fs, because of the hate they will be receiving, but he will notice that Jungkook won't care about that(Not so much) and that he firmly loves his fs and cares about them, he will think that Jungkook's future spouse is someone really mysterious and secretive, also a bit introverted but yet funny(She gets more extroverted with people that she trust and that she knows that they will never judge her), he may also notice that she is very determined and that she fights for her dreams, someone trustful, someone you can always count on themโ™ก. (Also Jungkook and his fs could travel together a lot and too often)
That's it ^^ Hope you guys enjoyed and please take it as entertainment only, do not take it too seriously, please like and feel free to send me asks(I need more asks btw), love you all๐Ÿฉท๐Ÿฉท
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