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yeonban · 2 months

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One thing I've been thinking about almost constantly since the release of the game is how DH subconsciously dislikes the Masked Fools and his instincts generally tell him who is one even when they're upholding the pretenses that they aren't. His own personal experiences with them until the current point in the game have been atrocious, and frankly speaking he will NEVER trust any of them - but he is willing to work alongside them if need be, and won't stop his friends from doing so either. All a Masked Fool will be able to see from his side is that he doesn't trust them whatsoever and that he is ready to end their lives the second they try to pull a fast one on him or his friends, nothing more nor less than that.

The reason for this? His character stories. It wasn't mentioned outright, but we do know that after leaving the Luofu he eventually found himself on a ship full of masked people who tried to steal his memories and who forced him to listen to mad ramblings as some sort of mental torture. Initially I thought it could be a different group than the Masked Fools, but Sampo basically showed us that it wasn't. How? He nicknamed Dan Heng "cold dragon young" on Belobog, an allusion to DH's vidyadhara roots ('dragon') as well as his recent rebirth ('young'). Now, if this was the first time they'd met (which is possible since DH didn't recognize him), then how could Sampo know about him unless through other Masked Fools, who we learned have a habit of "televising" their ventures to the others at the Tavern? I also took into consideration that maybe a Masked Fool was on the Luofu during DH's banishment walk, but we have to remember it was AFTER he left the Luofu that he changed his appearance into the one we know now, so I wager only the masked people from that ship could've noticed DH is a vidyadhara (possibly even the part about him being DF's reincarnation) during their attempt at stealing his memories.

Besides, although it's a running gag that no one trusts Sampo, no one thus far has come as close to jeopardizing his life as DH did when he thrust his spear in the snow at Sampo on their first meeting. We all know that DH is never one to use violence if it can be avoided (that's a big chunk of his voicelines too), so why would he choose to resort to violence right after meeting Sampo, when he didn't even know his name? Because of his traumatic experiences with the Masked Fools prior to his joining the Express.

#muse: dan heng.#* dan heng. / development.#DH stares at me intently whenever I add a Masked Fool related muse and I have to avert my gaze HADUISHJ Aha... Nikolai... I'm so sorry DH #I've been questioning why DH resorted to violence in .2s after meeting Sampo for like 10 months now and it kept evading me #but a few days ago I looked through his voicelines again & now that we've met some other Masked Fools too (Sparkle being a major one)#I suddenly realized Why. He's still so <3 for going along w them despite his personal experiences w their colleagues tho.#DH on Belobog after having been led to the underground ring by Sampo: (unimpressed. instinctively figured that would happen)

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jvten · 3 months

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blah blah blah violations of the geneva convention whatEVER. he had no business being THIS FINE in (the first version of) percy jackson.

#sean bean #percy jackson #pjo the lightning thief #i know we don't talk about the old version... BUT CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW HE ATE AND LEFT NO CRUMBS IN THE OPENING SCENE OF LIGHTNING THIEF #how did i forget he was zeus anyway.#(probably because i hadn't watched the lightning thief for maybe almost ten years until last night)#hhhh curse you sean how could you do this to me /nm #it's not even zeus im attracted to because i know zeus in general is the worst greek god - it's just SEAN IN A SUIT THAT DOES IT FOR ME DHJ #also no joke i literally wore the same outfit that he wears in this scene in some play i did a few months ago #if i ever get to wear it again i'll take a better-quality picture of myself and compare 🔥#but in the meantime. stares copiously at this fine man #WHEN I TELL YOU THIS MAN IS SO FINE #WHEN I TELL YOU THIS MAN IS SCRUM-DILLI-ISHIOUS #HE MAKE ME WANNA *lands on floor violently* ON GOD #/ref /silly #keheheheh

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lavenderedhoney · 9 months

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I need to make an offering or something to the estrogen gods for the good work they're doing on my girl. Seeing her tits fill out a lacy quarter cup bra that was previously too big for her >>>

#i bought it for her a few months ago and it looked so cute on her but the cups were definitely too big #now she can fill them out and it looks incredible #also the way her hips and ass have been filling out 👀👀👀#its fucking crazy she wore a pair of old skinny jeans yesterday for the first time in a while #i could not stop staring bc her figure has changed so much since the last time she wore them!!#text #baby 💖

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ofautumntwilight · 2 months

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i think about joy division and i start dry heaving and crawling around on all fours just btw

#joy division #also. watched control a few months ago and it wasn’t great but it did #have me staring at the ceiling and listening to ceremony live for a few days #good casting looks wise tho

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wickedsnack · 6 months

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idk who needs to hear this, but before you leave a low-star review for a small business, please talk to them. they'll usually try to resolve it for you one way or another, usually at great cost to themself, or at least explain how their hands were tied one way or another.

but that 1-star review can screw them for several months.

#i'm staring at an international customer who left a wordless review a few months ago #who put my item quality at 3/5 (it was ?? exactly as pictured ??)#and my shipping at 1/5 #like pls whatever happened let someone try to make it up to you

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bloggirl8842 · 7 months

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I’ve been reflecting a lot lately on my high school crush. It was this hugeee devastating thing to me bc I’d grown up w the guy and it was this torch I carried for three years so publicly and for no reason other than to have a hobby, though it started with what I still think was genuine chemistry (or the potential for it), and coming out of it made me shut off that part of myself almost entirely bc I thought I just became an issue when I felt that sort of affection but it’s all so crazy! I was mentioning this to my therapist as like blah blah blah I didn’t date growing up, I got a huge crush on my friend and I knew I didn’t have a chance so I pushed him away and he got a girlfriend and we didn’t really talk after that but I kept the crush isn’t that so weird, and she was like “wait no you did have a chance. You were friends and you pushed him away to retreat into fantasy but you could’ve tried to actually go after him or even just maintained the friendship after his relationship began.” And that’s been ringing in my head for a MONTH because it’s true and he and I weren’t even fully friends but we had the potential to be like we had inside jokes we admired each other’s work and I just cut any chance of that off because I was so freaked! I can distinctly recall myself avoiding chances at connecting! I wish I’d pursued that friendship I don’t think it would’ve been a big important thing or that we would’ve been close but I think it would’ve at least been nice

#it’s definitely too late now I followed him on ig once and he would not follow me back. really wrird bc his little brother does nd i dont #talk to that guy i just like his art #he’s still v sweet though. i ran into him a few years ago on the street and he walked around w me for an hour and kept missing his bus to go #home bc he wanted to keep talking. he also told me his deepest fear and made me tell him mine (mine was being alone) and i meant being alone #in a general no friends no loved ones no understanding way but he went ‘’aww im sure youll find somebody’’ and i was like i should kill you #for that. did you just assume im an incel. i mean i WAS an incel but come on #i wonder if he knew. he couldn’t have not known. worst part of all it was that i didnt even really like him like that after the first six #months i just did not get how any of this attraction love relationship stuff worked and didnt want to try anything real w anyone else #god this is gonna be a regret of mine for awhile i think we couldve been really fun friends 😭#and instead i used the idea of him to just fuck my brain up #okay time to nap I cant stare at this one regret again im always moving! i really had not thought about it in years before like this month

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therattsden · 2 years

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Did a little Doug Rattboy writing, you can find it here or under the cut! Got the inspiration for a bit of employee Doug moments. Just a lil guy.

Doug had always hated networking events. Technically this was more of a convention, one focused primarily on his own specialties of computers and code, something he was comfortable with - but with it being a social event and all, he was expected to be friendly. After all, he was here with his colleague Dr. Henry Hartless on behalf of the company. He was supposed to be there when Henry gave his little presentation, meant to be nothing more than someone to keep an eye on the man if their supervisor was to be believed. Given his usual hesitation to even smile at work, however, said supervisor had ribbed at him before they left, telling him to ‘play nice’. He would have the sense to be offended if he thought it would help, but he knew it wouldn’t.

However, Henry had long since abandoned his side, rambling something about a seminar on the future role of artificial intelligence in the workplace. He wasn’t particularly surprised with the other’s interest given Mr Johnson’s insistence towards working on it starting a few years ago, but Aperture was likely to be far ahead with their core experiments. Maybe, Doug considered, Henry just wanted to attend in order to laugh about how out of date their information was. Doug himself wasn’t a fan of the project, however. With that in mind he had decided not to go, despite the thought of being alone making his blood pressure spike.

“For Christ sake, Doug, you’ll be fine on your own.” Henry had said, adjusting his dark coat before checking his Casio calculator watch. Doug had always considered it odd-looking on the man’s thin wrist, though he never commented on it.

“Just go out there and talk to some people. I’ll meet you at the banquet in two hours.” His expression must have soured given the sigh Henry gave as he patted him on the shoulder. ”Have fun with it, and don’t do anything I wouldn’t.” How laughable, given just what the man could get up to in his spare time.

That had been a while ago, and since then, Doug had found a table with trays of finger foods to snack on in the corner of the room. This was it, he'd thought, this was where he could hide, maybe even use eating as an excuse not to talk. So there he stood in his little piece of the well lit room, thankful his height and timid demeanor made him less noticeable to the other convention-goers.

Well. Most of them, anyways. It was as he picked up another tiny triangular sandwich that he noticed the feeling of someone staring at him. Given his own usual paranoia, he considered himself quite good at noticing stuff like that, but to look around would make himself stand out. So in his typical fashion, he kept his head down, avoiding eye contact with anyone who passed as he nibbled on the food. Maybe they'd ignore him in favor of someone more interesting?

No dice. He heard soft footsteps making their way toward him, first spotting the man’s shoes out of the corner of his eye. Doug couldn’t help the brief ‘oh crap' moment that followed, knowing he would need to look up to avoid looking odder than he already must… Finally, he brought his gaze up to the slightly younger man before him with a deer-in-the-headlights expression; It must have looked funny, if the man's friendly little laugh signified anything.

“Hey there,” The stranger spoke, his voice soothing in a way Doug very much needed at the moment. “I didn’t mean to startle you. Are those sandwiches any good?”

He eyed the others ID badge briefly, noticing the Black Mesa logo with a newly found worry. Even talking to him could spell out disaster if anyone back at the facility found out. But after a moment of waiting for the guy to recognize his badge and realize they shouldn’t be talking, he noted he wasn’t going to. Fine, he just needed to play it cool. Maybe he didn’t know of the company rivalry, he thought to himself. After all, he looked about as young as he was.

“... They’re fine.” He finally managed to mumble as he avoided eye contact, taking another bite just to have a reason not to speak.

“Oh?” The sympathetic look on the man’s face made him think inwards just what it was about. Perhaps he looked pitiful, ready to melt into a little puddle of primordial ooze and sandwiches destined to seep into the cheap carpets that lined the convention hall. He couldn’t help but try to change his own expression at the thought, managing a tightlipped smile and brief eye contact.

“... Yes.” He was keeping it short and to the point, hoping maybe it would help the stranger get the hint to leave him alone.

Evidently not, given his response. “Great, lemme try one.” He had a smile on his face as he grabbed one of the ham sandwiches between three fingers, taking a bite and swallowing. “Hey, you were right! These are pretty good. Much better than the last conference.” He chuckled warmly to himself, as though in on a joke Doug wasn’t privy to. “I’m Eli Vance by the way.”

Doug inwardly cringed as he watched the other hold out a hand for him to shake. He’d almost become paralyzed with thoughts of how it would look to shake hands so casually with someone who worked under their competitor, especially if Henry saw. It’d be over for him. It felt like all eyes were on him, observing his response, suffocating him, waiting for him to screw up-

And just like that, as though noticing his absolute reluctance to even lift a finger, Dr. Vance raised his hand to scratch at the back of his neck as his smile faltered. He must be trying to play it off. “Ah, I didn’t mean to assume…” How strange, he thought. Had his voice quieted?

Doug glanced away from his kind face, finally looking around for anyone who might be actively watching their exchange. It didn’t seem like it. “It’s fine.” He visibly winced. Did he sound too snappy? “I’m… Dr. Rattmann.”

Vance blinked, his smile returning. “Well, it’s nice to meet you, Dr. Rattmann. You know, it’s just occurred to me that I’ve never met someone from Aperture before? I’ve heard some crazy th-”

“I’m not going to talk about Aperture or what we do there with you, if that’s what you’re about to ask.” Doug interjected, bringing his free arm around himself in a self-soothing manner. It would be a cold day in hell before he would even consider getting himself in trouble for such a thing. He paused briefly however, realizing how rude he must sound, before speaking again. “... I apologize. It’s just company policy.”

With a confidence he could only wish to have, his supposed scientific rival waved him off. “No, I get it. I’ve heard your NDA contracts are pretty lengthy… Are there any topics you are willing to discuss? Or are you just planning on hanging out in the corner here alone?”

Doug considered that briefly. He would much rather be alone or, at the very least, not speaking at length with someone from Black Mesa. So he gave a noncommittal shrug, glancing away again to look out for Henry.. “... I’m waiting for my colleague. He should be back any moment, and I would rather not have to explain myself…”

“Ah… I see.” Dr. Vance gave a well-intentioned little laugh, trying to ease the tension before he would take his exit. “Well, it was wonderful meeting you, Dr. Rattmann. I’ll leave you to your uh… Sandwiches…”

He hummed in response, popping another sandwich into his mouth to avoid saying goodbye. Dr. Vance, thankfully, took that as a good time to wander off.

It was a few minutes before Doug noticed Henry wandering the convention hall, likely in search of him. Why his colleague would think to search for him in the middle of the room, he could only guess, but he released a sigh of relief in knowing he hadn't been seen. Rather than let him continue to aimlessly search, he worked up the nerve to raise his hand above his head and wave. “Dr. Hartless, over here!”

Henry turned to face him with a mix of relief. “Jeez Doug, thought I lost you for a second there!” He called out, making his way over with a sense of glee. “You know, you should’ve come to the seminar; it was fantastic to see how far behind everyone is, very eye-opening. Did you know these dunces only just now started thinking an AI should have a body to show real intelligence? Hah, if they only knew how much further we’ve gotten already with that premise!”

Doug wasn’t so sure, but rather than say it out loud, he simply nodded. He had tried voicing his worries to Henry regarding the cores and the GLaDOS project that had recently started. Each time he had been brushed off as a ‘worrywart’, supposedly spoiling Henry’s and the team’s fun. Why bother bringing it up now? “Isn’t it almost time for your presentation?” He asked, changing the subject with a tilt of his head.

“Huh? Oh uh…” The balding man checked his watch and furrowed his brow. “Yeah, we should probably start heading over… You ready?”

“As I’ll ever be. It’s not like I’ll be doing any of the talking...” He muttered, wiping the breadcrumbs from his hands. “... Do you think this will go smoothly?”

Henry let out a short laugh, the sound a little grating against his more sensitive ears. “Hah! As if I could mess this up. Have some faith in me, Doug! Come on, let’s get going.”

He followed closely behind, considering what he’d said with a slight frown. Faith? In him ? He had the feeling that would lead to his damnation.

#OOC #Stare at the Art #Doug Rattmann #//we gave Henry the last name hartless a few months ago and it was too funny not to use #//even got some young eli vance in there!#//because this is the late 80s baby!

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sunshine-in-a-bottle · 10 months

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#suds soaps #not many people have been interacting with my writing lately #im lucky if i get a single word like 'Nice' or something #its. demotivating. im not sure if half hearteded acknowledgement or nothing at all is worse #im supposed to write because i enjoy it and not for praise. so it makes the feelings worse in a way #like its dumb to be feeling bad #i really miss how it was a few months ago when I'd get to talk back and forth with people about ideas and content #im stressing over if there was something i did wrong or if theres a way i can fix it. but im wondering if ive just #reached the end of peoples interest #I still have ao3 fics i have to finish and a series to post so its not like Im out of ideas #but im staring at the wips wondering if anyones even going to comment on this 25+ chapter fic #and then what. where do i go from here #this is probably just a little dramatic. I've just felt lonely lately

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im-smart-i-swear · 8 months

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4, 11, 12, 14 for the art ask meme :)

4. favorite thing to draw

i'm sure this isn't surprising, but- cats!!! my obsession with warrior cats was the main reason i started to take drawing more 'seriously'. cats were the first thing i learned how to draw(GOD ive spent do much time redrawing cats from photos.......) and after this much time drawing them is practically second nature to me. Whenever i dont know what to draw/when i'm bored, i just start doodling kitties:3

11. show us the last thing you drew, be it a finished piece or a small doodle

these are my two most recent doodle pages- the first one is me trying to figure out eeneks moms design, and in the second one are concepts for the au i told you about:) most of the time jiro is just. a cartoony black blob.. also i forgot to tell you that this fucker is transfem actually!! i dumped so much on you back there that i thougt it was enough ramblings for one day/that its too much info to take in at once lol

12. show us an old drawing

hooo boy..... i went through a very old sketchbook for this one... feast your eyes on 11 year old me's epic warrior cats ocs designs!!

In my Epic Cool Orginal Story TM the cats found a ''''sun stone''''(its WAY cooler than the moonstone. obviously.) wnich basically gave them cool mutations/superpowers. try to guess wnich one is the main character

14. digital or traditional

Both are good!! traditional feels a lot more comfortable and natural for me, but digital has its perks too!! i jump between them a lot

#ask #thanks for asking!! this took a bit longer to answer cause i was at my grandparents for tge last few days and only got back a few hours ago #i waited cause i wanted to find an old drawing in one of my sketchbooks at home:)#jiro is such a funny character to me. shes unhinged. her only pasttime for months was staring at ppl and annoying shiro.#she has absolutely NO social skills. she swears in every other sentence. shes mentally unwell. she loves watching crappy horror movies #and nature documentaries:)#i love her #shiros weird twin sister who stands behind him menacingly and stares at you without blinking

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