#it makes the itch worse

[torturedpoetemotions]

Okay but hear me out, I think Nandor and Guillermo will be INSUFFERABLE to live with once they figure their shit out and get together. Like. They're already thick as thieves and practically in each others' pockets, and that's with both of them trying to maintain a safe distance and pretend they aren't completely obsessed with each other. Imagine what they'll be like when they stop pretending. We already know Nandor is a stage five clinger, and Guillermo has been pining for god only knows how long. GOD. Can you IMAGINE living with that?

#the only thing worse than them being happy will be the times when they're having a lovers' quarrel #because you just know nandor is going to MOPE like it's his goddamn JOB #wwdits #nandermo #laszlo will love it lmao #it's gonna make nadja itch though i just know it #she'll be like get me off this fucking continent i can hear them making stupid googoo eyes at each other from miles away

[equill]

A living nightmare

#kakashi hatake #kakashi fanart #naruto #naruto fanart #fanart #art #drawing #my art #sketch #digital art #sharingan #kakashi angst and pain is neat #it makes my brain itch to make it worse #like damn your character was made to contain pain #because WHAT DID YOU SEE WHEN YOU WERE SIX?? YOUR DAD DID WHAT #OBITO DID WHAT #RIN?? #EVEN MINATO AND KUSHINA?? #what did homeboy do in his past life

[dylanconrique]

i wish i could say i understand why people hated tim at first, but i honestly can't cause like... yeah he was an asshole, but it was blatantly obvious that he's an asshole with a heart of gold.

#*rookie rewatch #tim bradford #makes my head itch like i genuinely don't get it #he's just an abused puppy! his bark is worse than his bite!! #he just needed to be shown love care and affection very gradually!!!! #and lucy was the one to show him that love and gradually bring those walls down for him!!!!!!!! #man this is gonna be one wild ride #chenford

[oscill4te]

i worry about needing benadryl to sleep every night bc fears of dementia which seems to run in the family (i havent read the studies yet but the mere thought it scary. Idk). but at the same time not sleeping properly probably would catch up with me in its own ugly way, so that thought comforts me. at least im sleeping

#idk if ifs stress or environment but i feel like my skin is on fire sometimes. inflammatory itches that feel like bites #itching makes it worse but yeah. idk #what if it has to do w my increased Sugar intake this month >.> oops #i only say that bc i suppose too much sugar causes inflammatory responses in the body #this is an issue ive dealt with for much of my life but not severely enough to like need a doctor for it #benadryl fixes it. its just annoying #just waiting for it to kick in and stop the inflammatory hell #to think my boss wanted me in early tomorrow.... lol #good thing i said no bc ugh e.e gnna get less than 8 hours sleep going in at 12.. and they wanted me at 8. lol.

[rotzaprachim]

Monday morning and I’m so exhausted and spent. I talked about genocide and fascism with a friend on the walk to class. A teacher said 2 sooo nice about me and I made a joke right after I think was kind of awkward.

#Idk everything in my soul itches in a way that makes me want to bury myself in social media in a way that would not help anything #And definitely make it worse. Like I did in October. Gd

[snzluv3r]

this cold is still driving me crazy but at least i can stifle these fits…stifling makes me so much more snotty, my nose is practically crying.

in the mood to make more wavs so comment or message me requests!!

#my wavs #snz wav #not a great fit but it was so messy in person…all the dripping and sniffling rn is making the itching so much worse #so itchy and stifling isn’t enough #send me requests pretty pls & thank u

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#im pretty sure im having a mild allergic reaction to my tatto0 :-[ #its so itchy. like im sure itchiness is normal on some level but i dont think after a week it should b raised and so itchy its hard to slee #it only started to get bad yesterday and i mean im not covered in hives and its not fucked up and red but its not fun #im guessing its a metal allergy? but i got a black tatto0 years ago and thats fine. i guess its whatevers in the blue #so now my whole upper right arm and shoulder r so so itchy. its also possible this is bc i put expired aquaphor on it #but the itching started 1st and all i had was the aquaphor so idk maybe i made it worse or maybe it did nothing #and now ive gotta go to the psychiatrist tomorrow and shes gonna b like: have u broken out in a rash or anything? and ill b like well no #but im extremely itchy for probably unrelated reasons #or maybe this is caused by the lamicta1 and the tattoo didnt cause it. god dammit if she makes me stop taking it ill b sad. i want it to #work :-( ugh #or it could b infected? but each ring is separate so it would b weird if all of them go infected simultaneously #i want it to go away so i dont have to worry abt it tomorrow 😩 #unrelated #lab mate: when r u gonna leave today? me considering how long i cab stand it before i have to go home and take my shirt off: uhh idk

[microwaving-tesilid-argente]

(major s-class heroine spoilers)

made the mistake of briefly considering reed/hestio, and then thinking about how hestio might react to learning that the mass murderer in front of him was once his extremely kind and upright friend who always gave too much of himself to others. i got socked in the gut by the throwback to my own grief when discovering that reed=tesilid.

like. what and how much has he gone through that he has thrown away the morals and self-sacrifice he internalised so much. what do you mean he killed his younger self in the most cruel and painful way he could think of. what do you mean that even he himself was not kind to himself. that, even after a hundred lifetimes, he still hasn't learned the slightest shred of self-love and is acting only in self-preservation. what do you mean that he has been running on fumes and desperation for several lifetimes? he probably hasn't had the time to even grieve and cry for himself. has there been anyone who could even do so for him? what do you mean he's tried every means possible to save the world, and then just himself, and then had no choice but to try to kill himself, but even that didn't work so now he's forced to try to kill everyone else too. what do you mean that this isn't just an issue of mental health and of convincing him that life is worth living? there is genuinely no conceivable path forward for him. maybe the world should just burn or something idk.

#s-class heroine spoilers #insert that orv livetweet screenshot here. so what if everyone dies and is frozen in time #THE LONGER YOU THINK ABOUT TESILID WITHOUT AILETTE THE WORSE IT GETSSSSSS #man the juxtaposition between reed and tutorial tesilid is truly the worst and best thing ever #tesilid's character development is sooo good #the way it all happens off screen but you can see how it happened and it makes horrifying sense #it scratches an itch in my monkey brain #it really has kept me entertained for 6 months huh.... #anyway me going 'hey look fun thought experiment' and then got hit in the face with 'hey this is a good premise to- #-externalise the shock and grief and horror that readers feel when they reach the Big Reveal' #ive been thinking 'man i sure have strayed pretty far from the source material these days' #well apparently not. i've come full circle or something #hestioreed

[ducktracy]

!!!NEW REVIEW!!!

at last, 1940 draws to a close with a sequel to Little Blabbermouse—or, more accurately, the half reheated leftovers of Little Blabbermouse. such a quick turnaround time between the two and their release dates—only five months!—certainly shows, as much of the short hinges on reused animation and ideas from the former, with a few twists to keep it new (such as a lethal game of poker between robots.) once again, Blabbermouse annoys both the audience and the mouse caricature of W.C. Fields to their wits end amidst a tour of a shuttered department store and all of its various amenities.

#if you were eager to read about a good cartoon today.. well… my apologies to you #(this is probably much less worse than i’m making it out to be but this one left me THOROUGHLY annoyed LOL) #but on a happier note ONTO 1941 YAHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! there are many cartoons that year i’ve been itching to write about for quite awhile so #i’m very happy #lt #looney tunes #shop look & listen #freleng #reviews

[crudelobotomiser]

At a point in my life where a woman could take her shirt off in front of me and I would only hesitate for a moment before getting back into a rant about Hannibal

#hannibal #it’s not because I’m gay tho it’s because I’m autistic #the quotes from this book are also really itching the spots that match with Hannibal and it’s making me worse #like what do you mean you wanted eachother like how flesh wants to knit together a wound

[mishkakagehishka]

Boredom kills‼️

#alexa play black or white by doppo kannonzaka of hypnosis mic bc i'm really feeling the ''i don't wanna work.... i don't wanna work... i #don't wanna work....'' ... but i'm not feeling the ''as i thought i'm gonna work!!!'' #i don't wannnnnnnnaaaaaaaaaaa [punching the floor] #there's too much and it's overwhelming and worse of all i'm BORED #i need to find a way to blast all my senses while still being able to do work tho bc it's like #it's actually making me itch.

[betasuppe]

Hi, I often see your posts where you express the urge to delete your works off the internet. I really like your style, it is very clean and recognizable (although it's not the point of this ask). I'd like to share a situation that happened to me several days ago. I have some fandom works on the web, which are around ten years old, some older and some newer (they are, admittedly, very low quality, I abstain from reading them because of cringe). There is a counter on the site, it shows daily views. I used to check it maniacally back than, so much it is still in my top viewed sites. So when I was feeling bad - when I AM feeling bad, I usually check this counter. And you know what? Even after 10 years. Even in a fandom that is wayyyyy less active than before. I get 1-2 views a day. Sometimes someone comes and binges half of my works, even, leaving thumbs ups in their wake. That is to say. There are always cake lovers in the internet (there are also cake haters, but we don't have a negative like button do we?) So even the works you consider cringe may find their audience, in several years EASILY (but probably even less). Yes, some of the things are history, but it is always a pleasure to receive a like or a comment, even on older works. Maybe if you think your art gets less recognition than it deserves, you may switch social media platforms and have them up on a more specialized site or archive (although I currently don't know any better platform for that than tumblr). To sum it all up, give your art a little time and it will certainly find its lover. You may derive some pleasurable emotions from that as well. You are cool, keep it up 👍

Hey thanks so much♡ I truly appreciate your kindness & suggestion here as well.

I don't think I can find a decent way to rationalize my thought process [beyond: depressed with having impossibly high standards at all times ha ha] but it's like.

When I get realization how god awful or disappointing a drawing is, it's as tho I haven't registered anything beyond that it needs to be destroyed. It's like a sickness & shame & disgust I can't explain, but can only be relieved by destroying whatever I've just created.

I wish I could make sense of it. I wish I could think further in the long term besides "god, this drawing sucks, I need to obliterate it so it's like it never existed in the first place" but.

When you are unwillingly consumed by your own insurmountable flaws, it's impossible to argue with & destruction is the only path at hand.

& sure, someone somewhere down the line might see one of my drawings later & love it, but the desperate need to be invisible & just vanish in shame of myself is. A lot.

#asks #sorry if i sound like a fucking downer but #i cant seem to stop myself from going delete crazy #its like the only thing that scratches the itch in needing to hide away & fucking vanish #& truthfully i dont want to be famous or popular #i truly dont care but #i just would appreciate some kind words & support & when its hard to get anything like that #id rather just kill the offending piece & keep it offline where the only fool who ever saw it #ie: me #already hates it & wont make it anu worse i guess #i dunno #sorry if this rambling makes no sense #im just #barely adequate at drawing & need to stop pretending it matters

[thateclecticbitch]

Hate being trans sometimes

#Got a new batch of trans tape yippee! #Unfortunately #I have the itchies! #Not an allergic reaction mind you otherwise i would be breaking out in hives #I'm just a baby with sensitive skin and autism #Who has a very hard time being brave about it #and resisting the urge to scratch even though I know scratching will make the itching worse #And damage my skin

[cxpperhead]

Even if Copperhead receives a serious injury, he won't scar permanently. His healing factor is superior to that of ordinary humans, enduring damage that would kill a lesser man and even wounds that would leave lasting scars soon fade and vanish after a few shedding sessions. It is unwise to disturb him during the shedding process however - Copperhead is blind during this time and may react before checking to see who's bothering him.

#🐍 || musings #🐍 || headcanons #🐍 || character sheet #Just a small fact to throw onto the dashboard before writing tonight #Like all snakes Copperhead goes blind temporarily when in shed and it is NOT fun #He's grumpy and his scales itch #Not being able to see makes him twitchy #Sure he's got a good sense of smell but his reaction is hair-trigger #So yeah that's fun if you know him #Have to coax him that you mean no harm before he'll let you come close #And god don't even get me started if he's injured #VERY wary and honestly afraid of being vulnerable #He'll hide it though which makes things WORSE #Like he gets shot? Won't say a thing #Just holds his tongue and hides his wound

[remyfire]

BJ pulls him tighter against his body and cuts off Hawkeye's words instantly. Beej's hardness is trapped between their stomachs, hot and rigid, and Hawk challenges himself to look down, but all he can see is their chests pressing together. The water shifts to warm then, right at the edge of too hot, and it makes him feel so floaty that he's pretty sure BJ's arm is the only thing keeping him on the floor. "Better?" BJ asks with a saccharine sweetness he's clearly pulled on like a sweater. Hawk licks his lips, glances back up. "It's okay."

Chapter 5 of my hunnihawk fic is live now~

#in which i make the trapper complex a thousand times worse #this chapter is almost three times longer than the others and i apologize for everything you're gonna feel #hunnihawk #hawkbeej #beejhawk #hawkeye pierce #bj hunnicutt #m*a*s*h #scratching the itch #some things are evergreen #my writing

[unproduciblesmackdown]

winnie & bagel

#corned beef #winston billions #philosophizing on my wynnstannery ''billions' accidental autistic character'' metanalysis style like #classic prank that there's a perspective that [autistic people = people both involuntarily and voluntarily worse than us(tm)] and yet then: #there is me an autistic person getting to lift these weights & hone the ability to look at this & how to use language around it #from those earliest origins of ''is tayston allowed'' to ''is saying winston is Autistic allowed''....call it quantentative #and the fact that from season four up to this very moment even the distribution of billions canon has in itself done an unimpeachible job #at enhancing the Literary Themes concurrent in my life. studio laughter & standing ovation #anyways it also meant realizing a whole like Genre / Movement in the oeuvre of my funny little drawings of a funny little guy for kicks #such that expands that oeuvre to better reconcile / resolve with my metaquantanalysis #and it's like going [making oil paintings of interior domestic scenes] mode lol. hell yeah #that is: the genre of ''a winston portrait that doesn't have; need; or ask for the implicit context that Anyone Else Cares or May Care'' #making it: ordinary and self-contained. not even ''by himself & having a particularly good or bad time.'' just an ordinary time. #tasks & situations that need not transcend anything at all. like yes having a bagel is a delight & a gift but it's in an Ordinary context #still here. scratch an itch. keep cat from knocking over showerside soaps. could be having an especial good time in any way but again such #that it needn't transcend or suggest it prompts any particular response from anyone else #that Self-Containment like [the void] of allistic ppl like ''the definition of ppl's autistacity: bringing it upon themself'' versus like #intergalactic multiuniverse quantum superpositions brain understanding of autistic ppl keeping to themselves #very much [we are not the same] perspectives lol. like working around to Getting the shit one was up to at like 3 or 7 or w/e yrs old #like but now i have all the language for why that's how things go for me & why it's Not [all the time / energy / language from others about #why that's wrong & worse & you bring it upon yourself etc]....like [you were nonbinary the whole time & still are but now Know Shit & can #convey &/or reject things w/nonzero / more precise language about it]....hand on shoulder nobody values you On Merit. & then you die. #wanting to draw some last night but it wasn't coming along great but it still came along Okay enough for this lol....also classic #going ''wow can't believe i might get to bear witness to them crumpling up winston & using the wall as backboard to toss him in the trash'' #after ''can't believe kompenso's electrifying / can't believe we're just in time for season 4 / can't believe i was here til june'' etc #can't believe winston might get an arc / can't believe winston didn't get an arc but still got an abusive relationship / can't believe #being a funny little peripheral guy is better for Character b/c of what the writing doesn't inflict & the space that frees up.... #anyways a true reconciliting revelation for my Quantent like oh This is the context that's not like swimming upstream #b/c it's also the context that [winston doesn't have to Merit(tm) being recognized as a person / would it be ''good'' if he seemingly did] #like the distilledly good timeline is one where nobody cares and he still gets to have a bagel and wear headphones.