#it makes sense. i dont know how to explain it.

[isogenderskitty]

i know i keep saying it in like a hopeful half-memeing way, that we could have pete & ted on stage together if nick played pete and joey played ted, but like. for real just imagine it for a moment. imagine the height difference. imagine how adorable. like

ignore joe & darren in this picture for a second. that is ted and his baby brother. think about it. think about the visual storytelling of these people playing brothers with such a big age gap between them. i just think it would be lovely

#idk just #its a shame you cant really get a sense of the height gap in their scene in abby camp #i dont know how to explain this #it just makes me happy like Look At This #it would be so fun #starkid #hatchetfield #spankoffskis #ted spankoffski #peter spankoffski #am i being crazy rn. i KNOW that height and age dont really work like this #but ??????????????????????? #something about it appeals to me

[orphetoon]

legend of zelda fans making it real hard to be a legend of zelda fan

#i dont know how to explain to people that if you see fanart that changes something abt a story #and you dont like it. you can just move you. u dont have to comment #inspired by the people saying it ‘doesnt make sense’ for link to remain disabled at the end of totk #i am so tired of the internet guys. im so so tired

[mintaikcorpse]

Me reading a fic where the person had an identidy realization that they were in he aroace spectrum and now they were figuring themselves out(I finally found something that understood me and a romance I could relate to after all these years)

#love loses! you're on the aroace spectrum and you dont fucking know what you are but you're definitely on the spectrum #but it's so hard to explain bcuz how do youve never had a real crush on someone but also have had platonic feelings for someone #and dont want to do the romance thing but also still want to have a queer platonic relationship and do romance things? #YOU DONT #IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE TO ME BUT I JUST KNOW #ESPECIALLY BECAUSE I CANT JUST GET CRUSHES ON PEOPLE IT TAKES YEARS I'VE ONLY HAD 1 CRUSH THROUGHOUT MY LIFE #AND I JUST WANTWD TO BE FRIENDS WITH HIM #I thought that was just me but the author was projecting and explained perfectly what i was going through #and ik i say “I cried” a lot when talking about something but i did actually cry #had to put my phone down bcuz it felt so nice to be understood #idk just venting and rambling lol #aroace #ace spectrum #gotta keep a journal on this bcuz i want to explain to people but it's so hard for even me to grasp #and i feel like they won't believe me anyways bcuz ive tried to himt st it but i just get weird looks #its annoying but it is what it is #aromantic #asexual #lgbt #queer #talking #rambling

[limonjarritos]

The wine bottle and symbolism

this is personally my take on the symbolism of the wine bottle/bottle opener as based on a post by galaxitic

The wine as a symbol for obsession for a loss of control. For how Vincent feels about his fixation with Rody. Of even in a way a symbol for Rody himself.

The wine opener being Vince's semblance of control over that obsession. That he believes he has control on his feelings about Rody. But when he goes to open that bottle its not in a semblance of control but that of panic, that of impulse but he still tells himself that it's something, not realizing that with a sip of the wine he's consumed back. His rational is consumed. Just like how this whole time Rody has made him drunk with impulse.

How the wine is admittedly what does him in.

Vince breaks the bottle, breaks 'Rody' through a lack of control. He uses the bottle opener to try and open the real thing, drunk and searching for more, willing to truly give into his impulses and be intoxicated.

Vince has for the most part up until this point been bottling up his feelings, playing the part of mild mannered and in control (though his control isn't perfect. The rat, the watching through the peep hole-)

Rody taking that broken bottle in hand, takes said obsession and kills Vincent with it. Because a broken bottle is going to hurt you. Because Rody is so broken right now, shattered, reeling from the revelation that Manon has been killed. The love bleeding from his body and a hot demand for revenge coming to him that results in the burning of Vince.

#dead plate #limon.txt #i dont like to tag people unless i know them and they're okay w/ it #i wrote this like when i woke up 12 hours ago and like- i hope it makes sense. today just has not been the day for my language skills. #syntax who? #anyways. there's way more to it than this i wasnt able to fully explain without running in circles #but like- something about bottling feelings up too. about how that bottle has to break anyways and intoxicate you w/ the emotions #<- why didnt i say this from the start would have saved me a paragraph #and how the bottle is rody too. how rody's care is intoxicating. how vincent lead to the breaking of rody #how rody's care left his body when he was broken and drunken up like the bottle #also another side point #do you think rody would have killed vince if manon had not been killed? #do you think rody cares that much about revenge for wrongs done to himself vs those done to those he cares for #he has basic self preservation ill give him that #but i doubt he would have contemplated that revenge portion at the end

[a-metal-jelly-bean]

Is it just me or is Mr. Brightside very will graham-coded

#i dont know how to explain it #its just itching me #when will was being studied by chilton and hannibal n alana were fuckinh #ughb #do i make sense #yall feel me?? #hannibal #hannigram #will x alana #whats the name?? #nbc hannibal #will graham

[taikanyohou]

“Ever since I was born up to my twenties, I’ve never bandaged anyone. Including myself. But I’ve done it for you twice already.” A BOSS AND A BABE (2023) - Episode 4.

#a boss and a babe #gun x cher #asianlgbtqdramas #asiandramasource #boyslovesource #* #faiza gifs #there is something sooooooo very ....... hmmmm ... teamwin about them. #i dont know quite how to explain it #there just is #anyway characters who wear and cling onto comedy and a false sense of make believe and confidence like second skin #to hide their pain and trauma? MY BELOVEDEST. #ig what i mean is i see a lot of similarities between cher and team. and how they both just are .. NOT used to being seen and loved bc #people in their life have written them off/outcasted them/made them feel so low about themselves but they keep that all SO WELL HIDDEN #but ya.

[kabukeo]

tonight's little doodles

#doodle #lcb #meursault lcb #meurgreg #im trying to be less self conscious about making meurgreg or any ship art really #twt has exposed me to everyone having an opinion on every ship ever #which has made me back away from making too much art of any one ship #i know meurgreg is one of the most popular ships but because of that i also feel an odd sense of guilt #i cant explain it like i should use my art to contribute to a rare pair or smth idk #its all a bit weird and irrational #but ive realized i have not been able to make art for myself for months #every idea i have and everything i go forward to draw im always thinking about how others will feel about it #and how i can make it better fit or adequate for an audience so i dont let them down or bore them #and that mindset has made art so much of a chore that ive significantly slowed down so much on art at all #so idk #trying to stop overthinking and just draw what i feel to the extent that i feel #escape the perfectionism and wanting to please everyone as much as possible #to elaborate on the weird meurgreg feeling i guess its like #i feel guilty for filling tags even more with an already popular ship & making mutuals who dont like meurgreg see it more #but its just not that deep #people can mute meurgreg and thats just not my problem anyway #sry ab these tags!

[aroacesigma]

sigzai hc that dazais suicide jokes make sigma rly worried and sometimes send him into a panic attack bc he doesnt want to lose dazai anf the stupid twink realizes it eventually (sigma refuses to say anything bc thats just how dazai copes and he doesnt want to somehow make it worse) and stops making as many self deprecating jokes/becomes more aware of how much he means to people . i dont even know they make me insane

i love them

#asks #autistic-ranpo #i love this headcanon very much actually #dazai is such a smart guy but he doesnt really think about how is actions might affect other people somtimes i think . #hes always thinkig in his twelves steps ahead chess mode but he neglects the little things sometimes #meanwhile sigma . he thinks TOO much about how what he does affects other people . see : the entire casino arc #he takes way too much about everyone else into consideration at his own expense #idk where im going with this but . theyre so very #i dont know how to explain it but a lot of those two are so similar yet so ridiculously far removed from each other and different . #does this make sense . probably not #arghrghrghrghh

[insanusnavicularis]

We should really talk more about

When everyone admired my power and wanted to flatter me , you’re the only who scolded me. Now, when everyone wants me to die or hates me, you’re the only one standing by my side.

This is such a powerful quote as a whole, with a very sincere and honest sentiment, but I wanna talk about the first part.

When everyone admired my power and wanted to flatter me, you’re the only who scolded me.

And look, I know we all love a smitten and indulgent Lan Zhan, I love him too! But! This right here, this quote, this sentiment, this is literally the baseline to any long lasting, healthy relationship.

Like, yeah, you’ve got to negotiate and surrender some things for the relationship to actually work, but unless you want an unstable, unhealthy relationship then you’ve also got to be firm and stubborn about other things. You’ve got to have your own opinion and most importantly, you’ve got to trust the other person enough to share that opinion.

I cannot emphasize enough just how much trust in your relationship it actually takes to disagree with someone you care about, to scold that someone.

And I’m not saying that you should go around starting petty arguments with everyone you care about just because, neither I’m saying you should put up with someone when the only thing they do is scold or criticize you, because that’s also unhealthy. All I’m saying is that it takes an enormous amount of trust and love to care enough to tell someone no, to tell them when you think they’re making the wrong decision- not because you want them to feel less or insecure, but because you know they’ll be hurting in the end and you do not want that- which is exactly what Lan wangji did, considering all the information at his disposal.

I’m not saying he didn’t make any mistakes because he did and there were a lot of times when he was the one in the wrong, but I am saying that I believe he did that out of care and love and concern. And Wei Ying seeing that? Accepting that? That’s like a huge step in their relationship if you consider that before his resurrection he was convinced Lan Zhan hated him and was actively trying to antagonize him.

Lwj was brave enough to sacrifice one of the things he cherishes the most (aka his relationship with wwx) if it meant that wwx would listen to him, would not be hurt by the choices he was making (because that’s what lwj thought the end result would be, and it was). He was willing to argue and fight and make wwx hate him but he was not willing to let wwx be hurt, even if it was wwx himself the one inflicting the injury.

And that’s just. So much love. You’ve got responsibilities when you’re in a relationship and one of them is protecting your beloved even if it’s from themselves- especially if it’s from themselves-.

Lwj knew that if he didn’t try to protect wwx from himself no one else would because they all were or too afraid of him or depended on him too much to actually pick a fight with him.

That also says a lot about how lwj sees their relationship.

In this fandom we talk a lot about wangxian being equals in everything, but this just goes and gives it a whole new meaning.

They’re equals in strength and in mind, yes, but even when wwx chose the ghost path and separated himself from lwj’s path, lwj still considered him an equal, he considered them well enough matched to know that he could confidently tell him things as they were, bluntly, that he could be upfront and frank with him.

And that’s just !!! And it all really comes full circle with post redirection lwj, who’s so willing to indulge wwx not because he’s just following him blindly, but because now he’s got the full information and realizes that wwx is in the right- if he really thought that wwx was in the wrong he would’ve told him.

#sorry if this doesn’t make sense #i just finished an exam and my braincells are all on vacation now #it’s just #i love this quote #i dont know how to explain it #but it’s truly truly truly a very beautiful sentiment #sorry for rambling too #lan wangji #lan zhan #lwj x wwx #mdzs #the untamed #wangxian #wei ying #cql

[yourenotmygirlfriend]

i was thinking about the way dallon writes lyrics and in my head i thought "hes like a little victorian child"

#idkhow #i dont know how but they found me #dallon weekes is a victorian child #i cant explain but it makes so much sense

[4ggravation]

how do i explain that i think alhaitham and kaveh’s relationship is uniquely queer and trans in nature without sounding like i’ve lost it

#i dont know how to #i cant put it into words #but their relationship is just a fucked up homoerotic Situation. maybe a qpr that went off the rails? #either way #if you interpret them as heterosexual youve already lost the plot horribly #idk #i tried to explain it to someone but it didnt make sense #like. at all #its just #iykyk etc #kaveh #alhaitham

[chrisbangs]

its 5:45 am and i just need to get this off my chest but when i see blurry pictures of chan my heart starts fucking racing smtimes like there's a very specific genre of pictures of him that get my head dizzy and my heart racing and it's always when it's kinda blurry and hazy and it makes me feel so many fucking emotions i dont know how to explain but it just drives me fucking insane like there's smth abt it smth that makes it feel so hazy and soft and dizzying in a wonderful way i don't really know how to explain it but it makes me feel sick in the head because i just . i want him

#blurry photography makes me feel . so much #it's actually gut wrenching . i don't know how else to explain #but it feels so intimate LIKE I DONT KNOW HOW ELSE TO SAY IT #it feels so tangible and like god this is my vision of you #even in the hazy lights with eyes half closed from the feeling this is you #i need to be put on medication immediately #idk you guys 😂👍i'm gonna kms if i think abt it too much #oh he makes my stomach tie up in knots #he genuinely makes me feel fucking drunk with adoration smtimes like #i feel like i'm dizzy and my senses aren't there anymore when i see him smtimes #it's not looking good ! #li.txt #chan thoughts

[macroglossus]

being evaluated for adhd by having one of those full psych evals that last like two hours. scared frightened etc.... last time i took it i lied extensively bc i was 13 and thought they might tell my mommy if i said i had suicidal thoughts. and i still have a habit of lying to therapists bc i'm embarrassed......... AGH idk. what if i take it and they tell me that the reason im Like This is bc im genuinely just weird and shitty and not bc im mentally ill at all. SCARED

#which is dumb bc i have been formally diagnosed with multiple mental illnesses i dont think they can just take it back right????? #this is so stupid and cliche but what if i have been faking it........ all along........ Argh. #when i was in res i was put on adderall (bc the house psych just kind of experimented w meds LMFAO) and i had to go off them after like #two weeks bc it was affecting my appetite in a way i couldnt afford at the time lmao. but i do genuinely feel like it helped during that #time.... which is why i want to go on it again!!!! but im scared theyll just be like nah and i wont be able to take any of my meds anymore #is that crazy. am i being crazy rn. idk i truly do think most of my experiences w school and like. life could be explained by adhd and #when i was a kid they thought i had it but the two meds they tried didnt work for me so they just. kind of gave up #and i was really extremely unable to do school and graduated hs w an insanely low gpa and then dropped out of community college. LMAO. not #that people w adhd cant be good in school i just couldnt make myself do homework and couldnt listen in class bc i was too busy focusing on #listening. if that makes sense #IDK. idk. i know it's become like. a trend to have adhd is the issue and everything is being attributed to having it so im worried that ive #like. accidentally fallen in w that? even though ive thought i had it for forever and everyone has been like girl do you have this. IDK!!!! #idk. idkkkk im just like. genuinely scared. it's not the end of the world if im not diagnosed obviously but that means that #im just like this for no reason at all. and there's no way of helping it bc it's just the way i am. and i actually am just shitty n lazy. #epic. which incidentally is the proper name for how fucking long these tags are my bad. if you read this far sorry for being insane 👍

[rapidhighway]

i love hurt/comfort but i fucking hate hurt/comfort so bad stop doing the hurt comfort template i beg of you i am begging please pause for ten seconds and think if he would actually say that and do that i promise you can write satisfying hurt/comfort and have everyone be in character and not "character A" and "character B" template screenshot you found on pinterest

#IM BITTER IM SORRY I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH #sorry im dying over here im soryr im sorry i dont want to be negative but i have to be sometimes or i will explode i just want to read some #good hurt comfort but its ALL TEMPLATE #its all template im dying idk how to explain it better #i should probably write myself some hurt comfort maybe one day #like im not saying be perfect about characterization but like sometimes its so ooc i cannot read further #bro i can switch names of characters to the guys from one direction and at least it makes more sense because i dont know anything about one #direction idk how to explain myself i am kind of dying

[ouidamforeman]

related to prev post i just reblogged but as a certified Deranged Close ReaderTM of the good omens novel i sometimes remember some of the shit that's in it and feel insane, esp when i think about how often it does this weird thing where something is a Joke but at the same time deadly serious or revelatory or containing critical information or later revealed to be very serious in another part of the book. its like fridge horror but managing to be funny the whole time and used as a device in itself to convey information. ik this is very "just read more books" of me but I just like it and think it's very weird and rewards close reading in a way thats more fun than usual lol

#i dont even know how to explain this bc ive never seen it elsewhere in the same way so i cant articulate myself #like the level of everything being jokes and yet not deflecting any information because everything is jokes #i think i latched onto this hard bc its very close to how i naturally see the world lol #there are absolutely things in this book that most people have dismissed as jokes and i think that invalidates that like #im p sure the text is self aware of this and is intending for you to gain information from them lol #anyway i dont think im making any sense i just like my weird little comedy novel :) #good omens #book omens #go meta

[sleepygaymerdisease]

funniest thing in my art class was presenting my sculpture and hearing the critiques while internally thinking like "um youre misgendering this object here by using he/him... you see it's actually based off of a shadow that uses she/they pronouns" like god i felt so stupid i couldnt say anyhting

#like what was i supposed to do. explain my oc lore to my class? no thanks LOL. #i dont think sil would be like. Against he/him pronouns but i think that insisting she's a guy for not being particularly feminine would #piss them off. and anyway idk it just rlly made me think about shallow perceptions of gender and how that relates to the art scene. #if that makes any sense. like how stereotypically feminine does an abstracted featureless androgynous figure have to present itself #for the pronouns/gender to not be assumed like that? it says a lot that we bring these notions of gender and slap them onto artist's work s #swiftly without a second thought. i wouldnt expect ppl to know but at the same time like... huh! idk! didnt really think about the idea of #like. sculptures needing pronouns listed?? i guess?? does anyone get what im saying here 😭 i feel like i dont have the right words #in my head rn like does this make any sense?? whateverrr just some thoughts i guess #anis gaymer moments #oc tag #<- i guess. since this whole thing is about sil after all lol. um would anyone like to ask me questions about sil that would be awesome