#it makes me feel so unsafe!!!

[skullhalo]

Tbh I didn’t think this entire situation would have a whole group of tumblr users start to spout victim blaming rhetoric alongside terf rhetoric and doing things like excessively saying “male” when you can just say men in an already horrible post soaked in radfem ideology but yeah. Nowhere is safe for trans women I get it, even in a situation where we’re supposed to be supporting a woman for speaking about the abuse she went through.

#sorry this is just making me feel so gross and unsafe I hate this entire thing #discourse

[aroanthy]

i love how fraught and complicated discourse around various utena characters ‘dying’ is when anthy is literally stabbed to death eternally by a million swords imbued with human hatred. and then utena gets stabbed to death by them also. like. ‘death’ is incredibly interesting in rgu because most of the time it’s this ambiguous figurative thing that has interesting implications re: ohtori as a closed-off world one can escape. we are all trapped in our coffins. mamiya is the only named character with a grave. nemuro memorial hall functions as one all the same. ruka is implied to have died in the hospital— was he dead all along? who was the boy we saw for these two episodes? is this dead boy the same boy, or is this just another coincidence from the shadow girls, cutting like a knife? it’s heavily implied that akio and anthy murder kanae by poisoning her, adding to the previous implication that they were poisoning mr ohtori too, but there are no perceptible consequences of this. kanae’s absence is not felt. she’s fed an apple slice. what happens to the bodies? we know what happened to the 100 boys, but what about everyone else? and so on and so forth. ‘death’ is a tricky thing in utena, i think it’s constantly functioning on figurative and literal levels in very different ways for very different purposes. dios died. dios was dying. dios didn’t die. he grew up. etc etc

#what am i trying to say here? #idk! think about all of the pieces you have #dying is complicated in ohtori in countless different ways #and i find it boring to see so much ‘this character is dead and that’s it’ stuff #when death is used farrrrrrr more figuratively than some ppl give credit for #and i think the movie too does wonderful things with death #and what ‘dying’ really means #being disbelieved. being forgotten. being rejected. haunting despite this #much more interesting to think about wrt commentary on abusive relationships than it is #to think about what?? oh me when my brother died but plot twist he’s alive and can walk on this road all cool. like????? #akio doesn’t have the power to make himself revenant #he THINKS he does and he absolutely has power when he’s alive and he imbues that power with such meaning that it does live on after him #but ANTHY. anthy is the one struggling with herself and her feelings and the impact of trauma and abuse (that power!!) in aou #he’s dead? he died? she brought him back through her memories? or she’s left him (metaphorical death) and he’s haunting her?? #all such interesting interpretations #i haven’t mentioned touga bc i don’t have the energy today. if dead and just illusion of others memories then why active. why awful #like in aou akio is only Obviously scummy when he’s alive. his illusory self is based upon anthy’s love for him #if anime!touga is nothing more than nanami/whoever’s memories of him before he died……. why does he actively choose to suck again and again #like nanami wouldn’t do that. unless it was meant to be a subconscious thing like ooo he’s dead all along but that’s not what her arc is #it’s not ‘he’s been dead all along’ literally or figuratively. it’s ‘he’s unsafe and i don’t want him’ #sigh. once again i am asking people to think about nanami and touga’s dynamic through touga’s eyes #it’s so interesting to me how people forget to consider his motivations or feelings on ANYTHING #like sure his motivations and feelings are scummy but they’re interesting!!!!! they intrigue me!!!! #compel me even #anyway ignore how i said i didn’t have the energy for this and then typed it all out anyway #dais.txt

[lildoodlenoodle]

One of the biggest problems and red flags about the whole spider society was having kids be workers for them.

Now I’m not saying the spider society shouldn’t have contacted the younger spiders or even work with them! But the spider society should function as more of a support group and emergency backup type situation for the younger spiders.

There was no reason for Margo, someone who is implied to be like Miles’s age, someone who can’t even drive, to be running an integral part of the society and how they are keeping the multiverse intact. She not only ran it, but if it malfunctioned it was clearly her job and responsibility to fix. When the machine ‘breaks’ and functions while, as far as she’s aware, no one’s in it she’s panicking, even though there would be no real consequences if she just let it run. There was no reason for Gwen, a 16 yr old, to be running around the multiverse alone going on high stakes solo missions(and that’s not even getting into the whole homeless thing). We don’t know yet what Peni’s role is but we have to assume it’s similar in nature and responsibility. That is insane.

Pav is the only one who seems to have a healthy relationship with the society, because he’s not really in it! He doesn’t know the indoctrination canon events yet, we don’t see him going off on solo missions, he gets backup when he needs it and that seems to be it.

For the kids that do know the canon events theory(Margo, Peni, Gwen) I cannot even imagine what must be going through their heads. Who else from their worlds has to die. For Peni, is her last living relative, Uncle Ben, the next person for her to lose? If Gwen returns to her world how long will it take for her dad to die? What other traumatic events have Miguel’s theory dictated will happen to them next? What horrors do they know will happen to them and their loved ones that they aren’t allowed to prevent? Is Gwen destined to die young because she’s the only Gwen we see Alive? And Gwen and Hobie, Pav’s friends, do they know that Gayatri and her dad are both destined to die? Like the mental gymnastics these kids have to go through and the mental torment that goes with it.

And then on top of it, to threaten said teenagers, who you have working for you, with being kicked out and being isolated from the people that are like and understand them is really fucked up. Especially if the threatening is because they are acting like teenagers and not soldiers. If Gwen is sent home, not only is her life put in danger but so is her father’s and they all know it. That is some culty level gaslighting and even grooming. Margo and Peni both are implied to not have good home lives either. The more you think about it the worse it gets honestly, because what goes along with this is we never see any of the adult spiders say anything about this.

Miguel and Jess both saw Gwen’s father, a grown man, try to arrest his daughter with a gun pointed at her. They save her, Jess takes her under wing(and whether they meant to or not) effectively become her guardians. They monitor her with what could essentially be a baby monitor/tracking device. They can control where she can and cannot go. And while understandable to not give a teen access to the entire multiverse they were very much giving her the adult responsibilities of protecting it.

When she does screw up, because she is a child who wants to see her friend, Jessica very flippantly references Miguel sending her home, making me think this is not the first time they’ve had that conversation, which is so worrying. And then they eventually do. They knew exactly what situation they were sending her into and not only did the entire society watch Miguel do it with little protest but didn’t even mention it afterwards. Even if Gwen was a threat they had other options, rather than sending her home, where she could still be safe.

There’s also a lot to say about how Jessica, Peter B., and Miguel handled Miles that speaks more to this pattern of behavior but that’s another post.

In the comics the ‘Spider Society’ got away with this sort of stuff, even having an actual infant just chilling with the group, because the spiders were being hunted. They couldn’t go home or leave the safe space dimension because it wasn’t safe. In the movie that is very much not the case. WHY WERE TEENAGERS WORKING FOR THE SOCIETY!?

#Peter b. Jessica and Miguel that is very weird of you #I feel like I could talk about Gwen’s situation specifically for a long ass time(cause we know the most about her)bc it rlly is nuts #like as an adult WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT #literally not just having her work for you but then constantly THREATEN her with essentially homelessness and a very unsafe situation is #CRAZYYYYY #like it’s even implied Margo doesn’t have a great home life either #YOU ARE TAKING ADVANTAGE OF KIDS #it’s literally grooming and it makes me so mad that not enough people recognize it for what it is #Jessica specifically I wanna know more about cause she’s the only where my mind could b changed cause we simply don’t know enough about her #THE OSHA AND CHILD LABOR LAWS MIGUEL IS VIOLATING #Gwen Stacy #Margo kess #miguel ohara #Peter b. Parker #pavitr prabhakar #Hobie brown #miles morales #ghost spider #spider byte #Spider-Man 99 #Jessica drew #spiderwoman #spider society #ATSV #across the spiderverse #spiderman india #tw grooming #tw gun

[utilitycaster]

I think I said this after Calamity too but like. It's not that there's a wrong way to enjoy fiction, precisely, but I really do think that when someone's first or even seventh instinct upon watching a tragedy is to say "wow imagine the potential for Everyone Lives Fix-it Fic that gives me the ending I wanted" that is genuinely more unsettling to me than like, the tragedy itself.

#more generally like. i enjoy fanfiction and i write it #but i have zero interest in fic that isn't extending or more deeply exploring themes and hooks of the work on which it's based #like. it's not that canon is invariably flawless and in stone and fanon is invariably trash #but i really do find there to be something very...childish? worrying? closed-minded? #about the fanon-first mentality of needing to control everything #again. of course you can make yourself sad; call me when you're strong enough to let others make you sad #and this feels especially off re this season of candela which was so driven by being unsafe for the characters #cr tag #candela spoilers #(by implication)

[strawbebbiesart]

Haunted // Love Affair With A House 🏡💌

#digital art #artists on tumblr #illustrators on tumblr #original character #original illustration #sasha's art #this one took much longer than i expected it to because well. thats how things go sometimes #there was a time in my life when i was going through years of abuse and felt like i had no way out of that #this led me to become uncaring and reckless and i was very impulsive at the time #there was this big old abandoned hospital in my home town that was not that far from my parents house #by this point in life i felt like i had lost all relationships with people previously close to me and i was not making any new ones out of- #-fear but also because i was isolationg myself (unknowingly) #because i was a child i percieved exploring this building as doing something Unsafe and Dangerous (and i guess it was in the sense that- #-things could fall on me if i wasn't careful) #but anyway i decided going there was going to be my Safe Place #as abandon buildings seem to be so seductive to teenagers it turned out this place was already a popular hang out spot for many teens #so i decided my best course of action would be to sneak out of my room at night/ dawn and go do art at this place when it was safe from- #-other teens lmao #it made me feel Edgy and Cool and Dangerous (even though looking back this was one of the safest activities i was engaging in lmao) #anyways #i replaced all my close human relationships with an abandoned house at the time (maybe theres a metaphor in there somewhere but. i do not- #(-want to see it) #at the time the thing i wanted the most in the world was to die and this was the place it was supposed to happen #luckily i made a deal with myself for ten more years and this ended up saving my life #so i have many mixed emotions about this place. it was there for me when i was at my lowest and loneliest. it was supposed to be my last #a few years ago i took my two best friends there (hadn't told them this story then yet) and i had a wonderful day and felt Loved #it was a weird feeling to feel there #i decided not to take them into the house and i don't think i will ever go in again #but i am glad i had it back when i needed it i guess #i wonder if theres still any of my old art supplies hidden about somewhere

[lanaevyssmoved]

ok i feel calmer now so i’m just gonna say it frank. if you believe astarion was turned at 39, and use this as reason to call him a child or childlike or mentally a child, and still romance him and post about lusting over him, i hate you.

#fray.txt #this is so personally triggering to me #but even if it wasn’t i would still think poorly of you #i don’t know if it’s a lack of self awareness or you’re just outing yourself as an unsafe to be around red flag #but i hate you all the same #and i worded it this way as some believe the 39 was an error because with elf lifespans it doesn’t make much sense #this is the most Drama-y i’ve ever gotten but i just had a full scale panic attack over a post i saw about this so. yeah #feels important to say? idk. important to me

[theshadowrealmitself]

Current thoughts: A Human (rightfully) punching a Vulcan in the face for something and the Vulcan actually immediately realizing they fucked up and agreeing with the Human that punching them was the most logical course of action and becoming their number one defender of the Human not facing consequences

More specifically, I’m imagining them passionately (for a Vulcan) petitioning for this Human not to get in trouble, citing all the logical reasons they should be let go, and after a long while of this, barely dropping the bombshell that they were the person who got punched by the Human

#I’m imagining the inciting incident being something where they were veering into xenophobia territory and not realizing it #then they get punched (followed by a passionate speech) #and realize ‘oh shit that actually was a fucked up thing they were saying wasn’t it??’ #and oh my god they were saying that to humans and probably making all of them feel so unsafe and everything #sometimes you do just. gotta actually knock some sense into a person. #jot them back into reality #*shock not jot #mostly I just like this scenario for the reveal at the end #‘you make a great argument but we should really see how the victim wants this to be handled since they were the one who was hurt’ #‘it’s me. I was the one who was punched.’ #everyone else in shock thinking maybe this was the human’s friend who was being a bit biased #nope. #Star Trek #Vulcans #Humans

[mukuberry]

finding out a creator you used to love is an abuser is so disheartening. seeing people support and defend them feels disgusting

#chernikocore #dies forever. argh #i should stop doomscrolling but seeing ppl condemn him is a lil comforting #seeing ppl defend abuse makes me feel so unsafe though. why r ppl like this #haven't watched him in years but his stuff still meant alot to me TT aaaaaaaaaaaaa. hell on earth

[welcometotheravenclawcommonroom]

Them: Hamas is a terrorist organization.

Me: okay, you’re right, fair enough. But what about the IDF? They’re also one, but the fact that they’re state-sanctioned makes them infinitely more dangerous, wouldn’t you agree?

Them: …

Me: 😒

#mod des #anti zionisim #Jews against Israel #free palestine #also gentle reminder that it’s not okay to be antisemitic #pls attack the viewpoints and not the culture/ethnicity/religion itself #I’m relentlessly pro-Palestine but sometimes the rhetoric can get antisemitic and make me feel uncomfortable and unsafe #Muslims are unsafe right now too obviously #but this can also be a dangerous time for diaspora Jews so please keep that in mind

[hella1975]

lately ive been crying like a tall child. etc. if you even care

#um does anyone want to rant about the tams fire siblings because they are driving me genuinely crazy #the way azula - despite being grown and distanced enough from ozai to know it was wrong - still views her 9 year old self as her ‘peak’ #while zuko views the age he was at when they left as his lowest point #and they’re both trying to get towards and away those respective identities #any reminder that azula isn’t the girl she was is met with discomfort from her #just as any situation that makes him feel unsettled/unsafe/belittled instantly puts zuko into his 11 y/o mindset #like so much has happened and diverted from canon yet here they still are #those children are still living and kicking within them despite all they’ve done to have ‘zuko’ and ‘azula’ erased #there’s just sooooo much to them but I really liked this from the latest chapter #bc this chapter was supposed to really show how all the little crumbs I’ve put into their characters so far #come together to create two surprisingly opposing mindsets #and this is a key factor of that and this treatment of their past becomes VERY prevalent #twice as many stars #oh on the topic of tams please if ur gonna listen to any song off the playlist pls let it be come by adrienne lenker #like I’m crying about it actually

[cherry-shipping]

thisis. embarrassing It was embarrassing 2 make and its been sittin in my drafts for like a week. but anyway Hi 👋

#suckiest caption ever btw. im too tired to think of something good or witty or whatever #ANYWAY…!!! this wasnt gonna b posted originally But my wife encouraged me. peeks nervously through my fongers 🫣🫣🫣 #cherry chats #bf (bone friend) #doodles #remember ages ago when i made jokes about how i could make uf sans feel uncomfortable and borderline unsafe. this is what i was referring to #these psychos and their unmatched rizz bro ✊💪💯 #said rizz consists of being gross weird creeps. lol #i really love my uf selfship Those guys are so fucking weird and insane. i love them #that post thats like ‘i could fix him but whatevers wrong with him is way funnier’. thats me w these losers #lol. lmao even

[beneaththegildedmoon]

Very concerning when self-described radfems start showing up on my dash "Recommended based on [my] likes"

Which likes tumblr? Which likes?? Who do I need to block to fix my dash?

#if you're a terf and I've ever interacted with you #thats my bad for not checking #but i actually think you should fuck off and die #so maybe consider either blocking me or at least letting me know so i can block you myself #fuck terfs #this blog is not a safe space for people who deliberately make queer and gnc folks feel unsafe

[mtt-burger-emporium]

thinking about chara and the implications of the line "chara hated humanity. why, they never said..." like ok i KNOW something was happening at home. chara baby you didn't deserve that shit i'm so glad you fell down a thousand feet in a cave hole and right into the arms of people who would keep you fed roof over your head and would never raise their hand against you. "eradicate humanity" you're 10 years old how about eradicating your shitfucked surface fam by calling cps first

#soda.txt #chara #(ok idk if this will work but LEEEENGTHY discussion of child abuse below) #ok listen hear me out on this- i know the initial interpretation is a sui attempt WHICH I ALSO AGREE WITH- BUT LISTEN #i believe there was something else going on leading to the whole ''eradicate humanity'' bit and the obvious answer is an unsafe homelife #well. at least for me. #being around people (or perhaps adults) who hurt you and make you feel unsafe in a place where you should be welcomed with open arms and- #a promise of care would probably make any child feel like all of humanity was (in simple terms) cruel and uncaring #so hearing about somewhere they could GET AWAY FROM THAT? of course they'd take that opportunity and run. #chara was just lucky enough to fall into a place that pulled them out of the ideology of ''all of humanity is cruel'' #because the dreemurrs were kind and patient enough to take them in and give them a new family #and wouldn't anyone want that? #for the part of The Plan (the buttercups) i think.. i think that one was formed by the idea that chara felt obligated to- #pay the dreemurrs back for their kindness. not that the dreemurrs would have made them. just by their own mental code. #what better way to pay a kind family back- one that took you in and cared for you like one of their own- then by forming a plan to- #set their people free? #they've been stuck down there for so long. they've wanted to feel the sun for SO LONG. why not give yourself up to grant that dream? #idk if these thoughts are coherent. LOL sorry i kinda just started saying words huh #but its ok. #feel free to ask me questions ab my interp of chara btw teehee ^_^ i love talking about chara they're my favorite theyre so silly #ok now for the proper tags on this bitch #chara undertale #chara dreemurr #child abuse mention #suicide mention #tw child abuse #safeutdr #OH ANALYSIS TAG UHHH UMM #🧪lab notes

[sonego]

actually no it's not your place as a man to comment on what's women tearing other women down or this whole thing in general

hi thanks for stopping by. i'm nonbinary, i'm not a man. i don't know where you got that from since i believe a look at my blog (or even just my about if you don't follow me) will tell you that i'm nonbinary. i don't even know if this ask is in good faith or not, it doesn't feel like it is to me but feel free to correct me if i'm wrong, and maybe we can have a better discussion that doesn't involve answering an anonymous ask

that said i will respond bc it's not like i haven't thought about this myself so i guess that's an opportunity to talk about it.

is it my place to say what's women tearing other women down? i'm not a woman, so maybe not. i've posed this same question in that tag that i'm assuming made you send this ask? so yeah, fair, i can avoid commenting on that kind of thing next time. i've lived as a woman most of my life, i'm still considered and treated as a woman by some people, so i do want to say it's not like i'm completely removed from the concept of relationships between women. but like that is a whole can of worms and we're not getting into the socialization of trans people here so i'll just keep questioning myself on when it is appropriate for me to comment on issues pertaining women

which brings me to the other thing you say i shouldn't speak of, "this whole thing in general" which i assume is zverev's case/the issue of abusive men in sports and how players and fans talk about it? again idk correct me if i'm wrong. but uh. sorry but that feels insulting to me. i know it's a problem, a societal problem first and foremost, that disproportionately affects women. domestic violence and gender based violence are strongly linked. i don't think i've ever said anything that suggested i don't believe this. but that doesn't mean 1) only women should talk about it?? women need allies in this battle. 2) only women are victims of domestic violence. and again, i think it's insulting to suggest i, a survivor of domestic violence, shouldn't talk about this? you might not know. fair. i've mentioned it on here lately but you might not follow me or have seen it. but it's not hard to think of the fact that domestic violence affects children of any gender, that trans people are also disproportionately victims of it and that literally anyone can be a victim

sorry but even if i'm not a woman and frankly even if i was a trans man, that doesn't mean i can't know what gender based violence is like, i've lived it on my own skin multiple times throughout my life and it affects me to this day and i'm not gonna sit here and not talk about it just bc i'm not what most people would think someone "qualified" to speak on it is

sorry if i sound aggressive. sorry if i assumed you should know things about me that you maybe didn't know. but honestly you came onto my blog, on anon, and kinda assumed things about me yourself when you had the information here on this very blog so?

#nico answers #anon #i was debating if i should even answer this #but it IS important to me that i don't speak over anyone #so this might be a good opportunity for people (especially women) who follow me to let me know if you ever feel like i'm speaking on #something that is not my place to speak on or if i ever make you feel unsafe in any way #as for the rest i just. idk. it made me feel pretty bad even if again i understand ppl don't have to know things about me?? #but if you're coming on my blog with this kind of thing it just. would be nice if you didn't assume whatever you like about me? #and i'm more than open to discussing this subject and my role in it inside this online community! but not if you're gonna start the #discussion by misgendering me #abuse tw #alexander zverev #<- for blacklisting purposed i hope this won't show up in his tag lol

[arihi]

The difficult thing about openly blogging about healing and going through a long period of growth publicly is the feeling of “I’m not doing super great, and it’s worse than it has been before” springs to mind, but for the X number of times you’ve said it in the past, it feels more trivial. And maybe that’s a sign that things have always been an up and down sort of pattern, and that it will pass again, but maybe it also serves to feel more isolating in not having the words or energy anymore to describe how it is *this* time. And it is a position that changes day to day, and on better days it feels more passable, and on worse the void feels more vast. The mere fact that it changes is probably a good sign, that nothing ever has to be set in stone. But boy are some days so, so dreadful.

#I guess a measure would be this feels like pre-move out times right now #when I was (physically) in a bad and unsafe place #and moving out has had its own stressors and anxieties #but the dread I feel is very reminiscent of another older time before then #I recently visited Texas with Spider and Sarah and Doc #we stayed at my parent’s place so it was definitely a mixed bag #I wish I wasn’t so messed up after every visit there #I thought it’d be better or easier with company after this time #but due to a variety of factors I’ve left the experience more tattered than I’d like #they had fun and it wasn’t a bad trip #but it wasn’t a great trip for me personally for loaded reasons #Spider knows to check in on me more in the coming days and weeks so that is good #FUCK man also I love this new song that came out but I CANNOT listen to it anymore and had to remove it from my playlist #because I kind of associate it with the trip now and it makes me cry every time I hear it haha #second song I ever had to do that with!! #I’m okay #just so very tired.

[sensazioneultra]

not to like complain all the time and on more than one blog lmao but god being trans can be so lonely like. everywhere

#irl. online. it's like damn so many ppl hate us? #cause why have i been getting transphobic anons on both blogs AND in both languages i speak #do y'all have nothing better to do #does it make you happy to be a fucking dick? just wondering #i've been thinking of moving blogs bc i just feel uncomfortable and like this happens every couple of years it's so #not JUST bc of transphobia i'm also just like that. i feel suffocated after a while on the same blog. too many ppl etc #but also tbh i don't think i'd want to remake rn if i didn't feel like transphobes keep coming after me #it makes me feel uncomfortable and unsafe and i've even gotten anons about personal shit i post like questioning me on my trauma #which isn't fun and i use my tumblr as personal blogs but now every time i post anything i feel like i'm being watched? which doesn't like #feel great bc i already deal w paranoid thoughts about being watched and this feeds into them and fucks up w my brain! not fun #sorry for the rant but i'm tired of this