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hi xy time for what is becoming my annual checkin! how are u! i feel like since its been abt a year i have to infodump abt all my character development hold on i'll speedrun it. my pronouns r it/its zhey/zhem or (less preferred) they/them. and i have settled on those. it/its is the only one thats ever given me gender euphoria, took 4 years but i got there. ummm realized i have autism (undiagnosed). love the stimming and the being insane abt fictional characters the rest isnt that great. got anxiety meds!!!!! oh my god xy!!!! life is so good now antidepressants r a girls best friend. also. hold on ur never gonna believe this. i have adhd meds now. the crowd goes wild. was like yea doc idk i just think the anxiety meds r not improving my ability to focus what was that u said abt adhd^__^ n she was like hmmmm ok i cant diagnose u but i can give u this adderall u dont need a diagnosis for n if its like glory hallelujah we'll just assume u have it and GLORY HALLELUJAH. ive cleaned my room like more times in the past few months than i have my entire life im WINNING. i cant rly feel if its working but i'll sit down to write or smth n i wont get distracted every 5 seconds n the mental block that keeps me from doing things is gone!!!!! life changing stuff just wish i had it before my grades fuckin woooo splat. um my gpa is 2.2 weighted im like. ok well now that i have adhd meds im working on it -H (i feel like. ok i think tumblr made it so ur asks can be longer but fuck all those liberals n their woke agenda (joke) i am all abt tradition babey i'll be back for a pt 2 rq)
ummm rly into books love books. "thats old news h everyone knows that" but like im being wonderfully unnormal abt them<3 there was this one series the ascendance trilogy n i was fucking OBSESSED w it when i was younger n i learned there was a 4th n 5th book recently so like. the trilogy thing was a fuckin lie. but i obviously had to reread the series so i could read the new books n im still so obsessed w the series its so banger for a middlegrade series. got so unnormal abt it i made a 7hr playlist for the main character bc everyone elses sucked so much ass i just had to. still in the process of rereading but yeah. also theres this OTHER series the raven cycle i read recently n im also obsessed w that these series r all like my ideal books they hit all my favorite tropes. yeah just being rly unnormal abt books thats my current obsession. also. drawing. im so good at it u wouldnt believe. next fuckin van gogh right here. n honestly i dont even care abt going off anon it just bothers me bc my ROUTINE. the TRADITION. its just not the same. but i'll go off it just for u to show u some of my banger art. at a stage where im pretty frustrated at my limitations but that doesnt mean i cant recognize that im fucking awesome ok hold on again -H
but yea ok to finish up what have u been up to! tempted to just ask what shows/game/etc uve been into but also i am exerting a little of my brain power to realize some ppls lives dont revolve around those. so just liek what have u been spending a lot of time doing. how is writing going! wait what r ur drawing skills just out of curiosity draw smth for me (if ur comfy ofc n dw i completely understand if it fuckin sucks taht was me just over a year ago) -H (when i was younger i used to think that ppl couldnt be good at writing n drawing they had to choose one. exerted my baby brain power to be like. it takes too long to get good at them u can only do one. then saw a book w the cover art credited to the author n i was like woahhh this is fuckin crazy living my younger selfs pipe dream)
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The way I have had a reminder on my phone to answer these asks for MONTHS but my executive function has been GARBAGE i am so sorry my friend it was not intentional to leave this sitting for so long i am so sorry!!! (also between the two of us this got Long so i am putting a read more so i don't take up a big block of people's dash in my return from the dead lol)
thank you for pronouns update! congrats on meds!! i gotta get me some of those so i can Detroit: Become Functional lol. I am rooting for you with your GPA!!! Also lol, love that we are following tradition of multiple asks still even with the tumblr updates letting asks be way longer now lol, it is just Familiar To Us
I will have to look into the ascendance trilogy!! My sibling is also obsessed with the raven cycle, but i have not read it yet (still debating if i want to or not, have been for YEARS lol, because i keep hearing "author problematic" and then never remember Why because i have Goldfish Memory). I will not post your off-anon ask with the artwork unless you want me to (want you to feel comfy on the blog and sending asks and I know you prefer anon!), but i will say that your art is AWESOME, my friend!! you are SO good and you're only going to keep getting better! I am glad you enjoy it!
Also bestie. This is a neurodivergent space lol, my life also revolves around shows/games/books/etc. they are the only thing that make the monotony of life and job-having under a neurotypical capitalistic society bearable lol. I actually have been getting back into reading ACTUAL BOOKS lately which feels GREAT (because reading Actual Books when i am so tired and Non-Functioning all the time is Hard lol), i am finally going through my seemingly-endless TBR and also have reread some old faves this year. Games-wise, the only thing i ever think about is still the Dragon Age games, Alistair is the love and light of my life lol. Show-wise.... i am in Limbo because of the Exhaustion, tragically, and also just waiting on new seasons (OFMD). Witcher has a new season out, but i have not watched it yet because Energy and also i have no motivation to because the last season they put out was so bad (even if i hear this one is good, i have lost trust lol)
Writing is. Not quite going lol. I have not finished a fanfic in ages, and also have made little to no progress on any of my original work attempts either, tragically. Hopefully things look up for me soon cuz I wanna get stuff DONE again lol, this blog has become so quiet and near obsolete because i cannot FINISH anything and it is TRAGIC.
Also, I have little-to-no drawing skills, but I also unfortunately do not have much energy to apply to drawing you a picture atm :(( maybe someday. Sometimes I can draw something that makes me go "omg i am not Awful, maybe I could actually put thoughts and energy into learning this as a skill" and other times it is like "i will never put pencil to paper (or stylus to screen) ever again" lol. Maybe someday when i am doing Better again i will hopefully have the energy to draw you something!!
#ask#anon#H anon#oh also fun fact i am teaching myself like. how do you say it in a way that makes sense lol. like how to make resin crafts n such
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unfortunately sleeping did not reset my brain and im still feeling shitty and dysphoric
#personal stuff#it just feels like i cant win and its rly frustrating#been feeling isolated and alone so i play wow w simon and the guild#feel too stressed to speak bc i will get misgendered or have to explain the trans situation and maybe get shit for it#so i keep my mic muted the whole time to avoid that#but now i feel insanely isolayed bc i cant reply to things or participate in banter#so its just like im there and even more alone than before#especially when i dont know the game and cant articulate or ask questions due to not being in vc#and just realising that its going to be this way for several more years. i fucking hate it here#i rly dont know what to do i just wish i could interact with people withour feeling this massive barrier#like im already autistic i dont need more social barriers
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I am rolling up my sleeves, I am ready! Bet!
I offer to you Kita, Tendou, and for a little spice ✨Tanaka Ryuunosuke✨
im rolling up my sleeves w u, HELL YEA LETS GO LETS GO!!!!
Kita, Tendou and Tanaka headcanons!
Kita Shinsuke
songs on the ipod:
this boy loves classical music.. but like, especially if he can relate it to something, so y'kno.. ost's. like merry go round of life from howl's moving castle, concering hobbits from lotr!!! hmc bcos you showed him that movie and concerning hobbits bcos it was the first movie night he experienced with inarizaki (followed by several chaotic more so they could finish them all). it brings him smiles when it plays in the kitchen as he's washing the vegetables or meal prepping
a place they sometimes end up falling asleep - where they're not supposed to:
his garden. like he's been at the fields all day and now he's taking a little lunch break with a cold cup of water, enjoying the sun in his face. aaaaand, nap! u have to wake him up gently, tho
the game they'd destroy everyone else at:
he's AMAZING at yaahtzee and no one rly gets it,,, ofc that game is a blend of luck and skill but he always wins
the emoticon they'd use most often:
:) LOL like. he likes when u and the others send him emoticons but theyre so... complicated
what they act like when they haven't had enough sleep:
he's adorable.. like he walks around lazily, t-rex arms as he bumps into stuff and apologizes to the furniture etc. he gets vERY quiet and the first few times its rly concerning to experience (is he mad? why isnt he replying? whys he so quiet?) but hes just. lost lol
preferred hot beverage:
green tea! one that is very sweet, much to everyone's surprise
comfort/self care when in a slump:
talking w his grandma. like, they play a random cards game as he sorts thru stuff in weird, spacey metaphors that he dont rly get himself - but he feels lighter... fresher, afterwards
what they wanted to be when they grew up:
kita's always enjoyed the simple life on the country so it was early he decided he'd inherit the farm but he also had a brief dream of owning a little store.. like a little local farmshop of a kind (he kinda has it on the drawing board still, maybe..... one day he'll invest in it and sell produce from the farm but in a like.. adorable farm-like way.. if u were one to create stuff? maybe sell that too.. hmm...)
favorite kind of weather:
overcast! like it's windy and grey, but it's so refreshing
their singing voice:
kita's alright, he doesn't do it much, but when he hums in the kitchen, it's actually a religious experience...
what they like to draw/doodle:
this is actually a tough one??? like i feel like he likes to do calligraphy. like just on a tiny hobby level, but he likes playing w it!!!
Tendou Satori
songs on the ipod:
99 problems - hugo, numb little bug - em beihold (cant convince me hes not on tiktok all the damn time akjfhjdsfv), joan of arc - little mix!! his taste is very based on mood!!!
a place they sometimes end up falling asleep - where they're not supposed to:
his own kitchen.. listen, hes the dude that comes home after a long day and turns on the oven to 100 degrees (celcius), lays on top of the stove and watches tiktoks...and falls asleep FJSFNS (i have a friend who does this regularly its.. concerning lmfao)
the game they'd destroy everyone else at:
tekken! and the worst part is that hes not even like. TECHNICALLY good at it. hes just REALLY good at smashing the buttons fast enough to win!! so frustrating
the emoticon they'd use most often:
(¬‿¬)... hes always scheming or pretending to be scheming.. just to play w u
what they act like when they haven't had enough sleep:
energic.. in like the most manic way possible.. hes so fast and his mind is RUNNING.. exhausting but at some point he tires himself out completely and passes out
preferred hot beverage:
hot chocolate! with whipped cream and marshmallows
comfort/self care when in a slump:
drawing! or.. doodling.. making little lists and diary-like entries in his "secret" bullet journal (everyone knows abt it.. hes told everyone... showed his pretty pages on insta IOFJSDFNS)
what they wanted to be when they grew up:
a dj! he once was at a child's bday party that had like. hired a dj (the dj was said kid's big bro but it looked so official and ProfessionalTM to tendous eyes that he was just. enarmored) he'd play "the sickest beats!"
favorite kind of weather:
cold. like. BITING cold, he likes being all wrapped up and walking in it!
their singing voice:
he actually sings pretty well but no one knows. he only hums teasing tunes and never really sings in front of anyone
what they like to draw/doodle:
ANYTHING and everything! like he has themes in his bujo where he also challenges himself a little - he do like to draw and design cakes
Tanaka Ryounosuke
songs on the ipod:
applause - lady gaga, juicy - doja cat and anything beyoncé jfhsjkf. hes a very pop-loving dude.. and if its COOL WOMEN? even better.. some lonely island and that one bromance song from youtube is there as well
a place they sometimes end up falling asleep - where they're not supposed to:
this is so embarassing but like. cafés... IHDSJKFDSKC. like he goes there to work or study or whatever to rly motivate him to actually DO IT but then he just. naps on his laptop lmfao
the game they'd destroy everyone else at:
counter strike! listen i know very little abt it.. but i feel like he's spent dubious amount of time playing it FSJKFNSE
the emoticon they'd use most often:
(⌐■_■) ... it doesnt fit, half the time. but he just think its so fuvkgn cool!!! like "hey babe (⌐■_■) whats for dinner tonight? anything i should buy on the way home? (⌐■_■)" KLEFJSIEFNSRK "hey mom, we're doing fine (⌐■_■)" im choking
what they act like when they haven't had enough sleep:
hes so wired.. so sensitive.. he gets in his own head, a lot. have to be reassured a lot, validated.. kissed and loved <3
preferred hot beverage:
no one tell noya this... but cafe lattés.. like as he got older he shed a lot of all that fragile and toxic masculinity and so on and hes super aware but like. he and noya had a (somewhat intense) running joke abt cafe lattés in high school and while theyre both moved past that, hes so embarassed abt the fact that he tried one and LOVED it.. like., my dude it is alright <3
comfort/self care when in a slump:
cuddles! praise!!!! like he calls u or noya to get praised and reminded how fuckgn awesome he is <3
what they wanted to be when they grew up:
a yakuza. listen he once saw a yakuza movie (something like tokyo drifter) and thought that was the coolest shit EVER
favorite kind of weather:
summer evenings, like its warm still but its so perfect to sit outside in!!!
their singing voice:
listen, if tanaka EVER got singing lessons, he'd sound amazing. but he's never even bothered trying to sing for real, so no one (including himself) knows how much of a gift his voice is <3 he tried rapping once, but he's not fast enough, so he decided music wasn't his path........
what they like to draw/doodle:
im so sorry this is so immature but .. dicks.... LKDJKFNV he did it so much in hs that it's sadly become his go-to doodle IOFJESKFS like he doesn't even think abt it anymore thats just what happens if he's on the phone with a pen in hand!!! he always tries to erase the evidence as soon as he realizes IOFJSEF
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ONCE AGAIN THANKS SO MUCH <3333333 these r so fun oh my goddddd,,, i hope i did them justice!!!
#kita shinsuke headcanons#tendou satori headcanons#tanaka ryounosuke headcanons#kita headcanons#tendou headcanons#tanaka headcanons#haikyuu headcanons#hq x reader#nohr.headcanons#nohr.hq#ask games#i think.. ill be going to bed now tho my fever's coming abck IFHSJFS but gosh.. i lov doing these#@ everyone tho: if ur enjoying these feel free to send some in ill probs do them tmrw!!!!!#again hq bnha and dgm are all good!
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hl1/2 gordon scentric hc time
im rly feeling half life in this chillis tonight so....some....hc’s about everyones favourite free man, i have a lot so enjoy
-he’s actually mute and uses sign language but only about 50% of the time cuz people either don’t know what he’s saying or he can’t do it whilst holding like 20 different guns/weapons to protect himself so instead he makes big gestures a lot or writes down what hes trying to say (pretty much everyone at black mesa could understand him via sign language so he was very comfortable using it, during hl2 however he has to keep reminding himself not everyone is fluent and it frustrates him to no end)
-when he tries to speak it hurts and the most sound he can make is mumbles or little sqeaks so if theres ever a time he needs to alert someone to dangers reeeal quick he ends up hurting his throat a lot to try and make some kind of warning noise thats loud enough, he can hum tho and enjoys humming along to music as well as when he’s signing to try and convey some kind of emotion along with his facial features of which he emotes a LOT
-his hand writing looks like that of an actual dotors and its neat cursive but very hard to read so if he’s trying to write as a form of communication he just defaults to caps with big spaces inbetween and people (barney) tease him about it constantly (barney)
- hes incredibly short sighted without his glasses and ends up squinting a lot without them on and since he’s usualy default bitch facing he just looks very angry all the time when really he just cant see anything please dont be offended sir he didnt mean to upset you
-is actually very scared all the time abt like everything, hes literally just a scientist who just happened to be “the right man in the wrong place” and was just so determined to try and save those around him during the cascade that he pushed thorough his fears and anxiety to try and get the job done but he def has some form of ptsd after it all, barnicles specifically really freak him out because getting strangled and slowly lifted off of the ground into a row of razor sharp teeth is fucking TERRIFYING and he wouldnt wish it on anyone
-only reason he knows how to use guns is because barney would regularly take him down to the shooting range during their breaks and they’d see who could shoot straightest after a few drinks, barney would always win.
-after hl1 when he was put into stasis and he wakes up in hl2 hes lost like 20 years of his life and hates that fact terribly, all his friends have aged around him but hes still in his 20′s when he shouldnt be and he hates it so fucking much
-he also finds himself missing the feeling of the HEV suit terribly during the begining of his re-awakening in city 17, he’d grown so used to the feeling of it on him and keeping him safe that it makes him anxious without it and the cold air on his hands is also uncomfortable so he prefers wearing gloves all the time, when he finally gets the HEV suit back it feels like a weight has been lifted and he can finally stop worrying, the suits voice is also a comforting sound beccause its familiar and a sign that he’s not alone, same goes with the healing station and suit charging noises; they’re a comforting sound to hear and he enjoys humming along to the vrwwwrrrr vrrwwrrr vrwrrrrwr the machine makes when he plugs into the port
-he worries about overdosing on the healing stations a lot though; the morphone they give out is indefinite and once during the casade he’d passed out from taking to much and woken up to a zombie very slowly approaching him from down a corridoor but with how drowzy he was it was it was a horrible struggle to lift the gun and fire between dozing in and out
-he gets attached to people quickly since also during the cascade days he’d regularly meet people in danger who only had him to keep them safe so he tries his absolute hardest to make sure he can protect people even if that means he gets shot in the process, the suit usually protects him/heals him anyway so he’s used to it and if theres danger he almost default/automatically moves infront of people to make sure they’re okay without any concern for his own safety
-he also reeeally likes antlions and will pet them any chance he gets, he tried to do it when he first saw them and almost lost a hand so it makes him upset he has to kill them but when he finally gets the bug bite from the vorts? ohhhhohohoh he pets so many antlions, it again makes him sad he has to use them as like fodder for turrets and stuff but if an antlion comes back to him after taking down a turret or killing a combine he gives them extra pets and becomes a very proud papa
-since hes technically in his 30′s (and would be nearing his 40′s had he not been in stasis) he feels more of a big brother/fatherly bond toward Alyx since he’d also met her as a baby and finds any romantic involvement with her awkward, (so Elli’s comment on him “wanting grandkids” he ends up slapping the man on the arm with a frown to which Eli just laughs) this doesn’t help his attachment issue though so when they have to seperate to do things away from the other he worries for her safety even though she constantly assures him she can take care of herself and he KNOWS she can. he still really can’t help but worry though...
after hl2 ep2:
-when eli dies i dont like to think they all straight away go to mossman and instead get to spend some time mourning at the base, this gives gordon some time to finally sit down and relax for a little bit but he finds it incredibly hard to even take off the HEV suit at first because to him there was no passage of time between being put into stasis and waking up in city 17 all those years later; he’d closed his eyes, went into the portal and then the next second awakened in a completely unfamiliar place, in unfamiliar clothes with unfamiliar people (he definitely had a panic attack before geting off that very first train) and the thought of that happening again when he’s not prepared is terrifying.
-when he does finally take off the suit (after a lot of helping and reasuring from alyx, kleiner and barney a LOT from barney; theyre very good friends (;) he takes to wearing very comfy and heavy clothes such as jumpers, ponchos etc as well as a bullet proof vest because it makes him feel safe, the HEV suit gloves he retires entirely cuz theyre gross, definitely covered in his own blood and have been through hell so instead he has a bunch of different pairs he cycles through depending on how he feels that people around the base give him after learning about his fondness towards them
-he secretly carries a gun around with him even when they’re not in any danger becaus it’s another added layer of security and becaus he literally can’t trust things to not go bad EVER; now though nothing will go wrong again on his watch because he’ll be ready for it!! this really doesn’t help with his nerves though since he’s constantly looking for something to go wrong
scene specific hc’s:
-i always think abt that one specific sene in the train that gets derailed where alyx is trapped by a stalker and gordon has to pull it away with his gravity gun and i always imagine him franticly pulling it away with so much alarm on his face and such panic, when shes free though and has to stop to catch her breath gordon would give her a hug and make sure she’s okay cuz it must have been terrifying to have that thing screaming inches from ur face, gordon just instantly goes into protect mode
-another scene that always comes to mind is when you first encounter an advisor and it makes that horrid loud noise where alyx is holding her head; i imagine gordon almost dropping the gravity gun in a panic to try and cover his ears because he doesn’t handle loud noises too well and it freaks him out so much alyx has to help him get out of the room since he kind of locks up on hearing it
-same goes when you get trapped by an advisor in a barn and almost become food for it; gordon is absolutely terrified at getting so up and close without being able to move that when it finally does drop him he starts hyperventilating and alyx has to protect him from the oncoming combine for a little while before he can catch his breath
-last scenes but some of my favorites are the ENTIRE sections of gordon being up close with breen,
first being the teleporter malfunctioning and when gordons heavy breathing i imagine hes trying super hard not to start freaking out/hyperventilating and when breens doing his “i want that twink obliterated” spiel and then looks up and says his name, gordon almost looses it and internally is like AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
second is when youre trapped in that like...metal contraption thing the stalkers are carried in and brought to breens officce and that entire section where breen is talking directly TO YOU i just adore it becausee gordon would have been looking away awkwardly unable to actually respond and furrowing his eyebrows at the nerve breen has upon thinking you would ever agree to any such terms and would definitely also spit in breens face as a response just like alyx did since he can’t use words
okay that is all, if you read all of these you’re amazing and i love u and also gordon hes an amazing “character” because i can insert as many of my own quirks into him as i please because valve literally never gave him a personallity :^)
#half life#half life 2#gordon freeman#headcanon#long post#text post#headcanons#ive been meaning to compile all this stuff into one for years now so here you go this is my gordon hes a mess
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posts abt how much u hate Discourse tend to get very popular on here yet a lot of the ppl i see reblogging them r actually v involved in Discourse.
by Discourse i dont mean trivial disagreements like "which is the best star wars movie?" or calm rational debate like "whats the best way to reduce poverty?". by Discourse i mean those unending back and forths that get increasingly out of hand. i mean stalking tags looking for a fight. i mean becoming part of a Side rather than just having ur own opinion n agreeing w some ppl and disagreeing w others. n feeling u Have to accept everything ur Side believes or that all members of the other Side r responsible for any individual member's shittiness. the defining feature of Discourse is that it is unfruitful n never helps (n in some cases actually worsens) whatever issue it is discussing.
n ik for a lot of ppl on here we're dealing w some shit irl that we feel powerless in. like w our family or our jobs/education or illnesses. so it can feel good to have some influence over things. so u find sth u feel strongly abt, n u find someone who disagrees n try n Win against them. n before u know it, this has become part of what u Do online n its what ur Known for n u devote Actual Time in ur life to do this. but eventually, even when it frustrates u, u feel like u cant stop it.
irl, we all know when to pick our battles n when to hold our tongue bc we dont wanna Get Into It. irl, we tread carefully around controversial topics bc we actively dont want to start shit. its not fun. online, we can talk more freely abt whatever, but ppl often seem to forget these interpersonal rules. they exist not only for politeness, but for self preservation. bc constant confrontation is exhausting n misery inducing.
i cant tell u what to do w ur life, but if its starting to make u feel shitty, i feel like maybe u need to look at urself n ask if its all rly worth it.
there r lots of better things u could b doing!! u could go for a walk or call up a friend for a chat or try n learn a language or read a book or literally anything Other than waste ur life on something so pointless n bad for ur health.
so pls look after urselves n remember u deserve to b happy ♡♡
#ik probs no one will read this#but i was thinking abt it today n like i like to write these things down to help me order my thoughts n opinions on things
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when deku started getting angry about kacchan not communicating with him during the all might fight and yelling about how they can never have a real conversation anymore i just, i just got hard core married for ten years couple vibes from the moment, and all might going like "there only weakness is eachother" or whatever he said just made me react like "thats how love goes" I think im using my shipping glasses to much but dont care
cool things-deku blabbing to kacchan about the secret going on with his quirk to try and get kacchan to understand that he wasnt just hiding something like this from him. like dekus not the type to brag usually and has no reason if kacchan was purely an antagonist to tell him such sensitive information like he’s some super hero love interest he upset. and kacchans reaction to the mere idea deku was hiding such a cool quirk from him, letting himself be tossed around as quirkless, its neat
kacchan is so upset by the idea that deku has a good quirk, like he’s been teasing deku about his quirkless status for years and been downright hostile about the idea of deku becoming a hero while being powerless, to kacchan you cant be a hero without being so strong you always win, its a fact of life for him, to have the idea that deku has just been letting him win any play fights or let himself be bullied by kacchan, to not give his all into a fight like a hero should, just drives him nuts
you rly get this feeling of betrayal from bakugou bc it gives credence to the thought he has that deku looks down on him and has been fucking w/ him for years. bakugou doesn’t understand why deku acts the way he does he’s such an enigma to bakugou and it frustrates him so much.
and w/ deku he didn’t even tell his mom the truth abt his quirk but it made kacchan upset so he immediately goes to spill the beans skdjfdskf;
those two are soooooo caught up in each other. despite being on bad terms for a long time, there’s this weird sense of intimacy between the two of them thats a product of having been childhood friends and always having been together even if theyre not together together yknow. bc they both never stopped noticing each other
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pandoras dead but violet toots is risin from her ashes !
- ̗̀✰ • 【 LANA CONDOR , CIS FEMALE , SHE / HER , SIXTEEN 】 ❝ did you see VIOLET TOOTS on the train back to hogwarts ? they’re a HALFBLOOD in their SIXTH year as a GRYFFINDOR . apparently they’re THE QUICKSILVER around the grounds ; most likely because they give off an aura of the slow heat of a summer dawn , brightly coloured nails changing from week to week , chatting with professors after class , chunky platform heels and hoop earrings , a pink-lipsticked laugh , an overflowing ice cream float , synth pop blasting from headphones , bangles , notebooks half-filled with loopy handwriting scattered across a messy room . of all the social media platforms , they’re definitely most obsessed with their SNAPCHAT / TINDER ; probably because they’re VIVACIOUS & QUICK WITTED , but also FLIGHTY & CARELESS . ❞
ok so vi is a new character so this intro will be considerably rambly & perhaps shorter than andromeda’s --- forgive me pls
adopted when she was just a babe & cant remember any other family than the loud , crowded , loving toots fam ! vi is a definite extrovert & loves attention , perhaps bc she was always fighting her nine ( NINE ! ) other siblings for it ( and winning half the time , we luv a dramatic binch !! )
but fr she loves her family and her parents and all her siblings , older than younger , even though they might get into stupid arguments from time to time
their father’s position as a music producer had its effect on her . like all of the toots sibs , music runs through her veins --- altho not as much as tilden --- she tends to like synth pop and electro pop , 80s music esp , just smth she can bop to ! karaoke Kween --- she’s not a brilliant singer but her enthusiasm makes up for it
now she’s much less of a ( for lack of a better term ) attention whore than when she was a kid , but she still thrives at the centre of a crowd and has an innocuous , unintentional charm that comes simply from her untempered zest for life ! she’s vivacious and cheery and naturally draws attention from the moments she steps into a room
flash forward to hogwarts : gryffindor / slytherin hatstall ? u know it ! on the one hand she’s rly idealistic and does love the idea of chivalry & nobility & Goodness , and yearns for adventure & new Experiences and shit , but on the other hand she’s zealous & ambitious for whatever new thing she finds herself interested in , and she can tend to be a bit self-absorbed , although not purposefully so
buuut she ended up being sorted into gryffindor & with her bubbly dynamic personality she fit right in !
she does tend to be very mercurial & flighty --- she just wants 2 enjoy life and experience the Most that she can experience . def that kid who made her parents sign her up for ballet lessons and then got bored a week in and wanted to switch to baseball and then got bored of that and wanted to switch to pottery
it’s not that she doesn’t care enough about these things she’s interested in --- rather the opposite . she cares about everything , she’s interested in everything , her curiosity absolutely spilling over & making it impossible for her to stay in one place for too long . she’s expansive & talkative & innovative . dramatic & decisive & resilient . has so many ideas and ambitions but the logistics and reality of actually executing them frustrate & bore her . good at getting things started but not following through .
that’s actually why her label is THE QUICKSILVER --- another name for the element mercury , quicksilver is bright , lively and beautiful and famous for its quick changes . according to dictionary dot com it can also be used as an adjective meaning ‘ rapid or unpredictable in movement or change ’ so ! there ya go !
she’s a smart gal --- observant & quick witted , always with a quip on the tip of her tongue , always ready to chime in with a whimsically worded opinion
but here’s the tea ... she doesnt mean 2 be but she can Definitely be selfish and inconsiderate at times ! it’s really not malicious at all but she just ... sometimes forgets to consider how her actions could affect other people since she’s always so caught up in the present --- doesn’t think about possible ramifications !
she LOVES social media --- this gal was born in the right era & thats the tea ! the internet provides a dizzying set of possibilities & vi takes FULL use of that ! constantly snapchatting people , manages to keep about 30480234 streaks alive all over 200 days . selfie queen , has hundreds of matches on tinder . catch her referencing vines 24/7
makeup is her one true love --- she has a flare for the dramatic , colourful looks but rly she tries out everything & has a new look every day ! has an instagram dedicated solely to makeup challenges and stuff
kind of frightened of commitment ? lowkey ? not in a super angsty soul-crushing way or anything but she tends to feel trapped really easily , whether it’s in a relationship or a job or w/e
flirts w everyone !!! not even in a trying to get laid way --- she just rly loves people
f*cking gemini sun sagittarius moon --- i mean are u surprised !!!
anyways tho i’d love some plots for her pls & thanks ...... hmu fam
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oof i just sometimes get so mad about how years of emotional abuse has left me unable to discern the line between “normal” and “a product of manipulation” my thoughts are, especially when said thoughts are about something that is probably totally normal. i want to just be able to ask a question without my brain turning it into a game of listing all the reasons back to me why it would be a life destroyingly bad idea. or just one moment without overthinking anything to the point where im just left saying nothing and sitting staring at whatever is in front of me.
i shouldnt have to work up the courage just to ask my friends or my partner something as simple as “hey wanna hang out soon” but : ) ! i cant even look at my phone/laptop after i send it bcus im so scared of what they’ll say. which ik is ridiculous. its frustrating bcus I KNOW it and i know its not a big deal.
im really really scared about going back to dundee and being alone and away from everyone again, and at the same time im so so excited to be living in my new flat and going to uni which i love. im isolated at home bcus of work and isolated at uni bcus of distance. i cant win
honestly this just turned into a rly long ramble but its late and im alone w only my thoughts and if i dont ge tthem out somewhere i feel like i’ll explode
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this is abt who im from. this question was posed recently by prof aj in the zora class. previously i had been asked this in the laundromat project workshop. i guess it is a popular activist activity. idk i think it is just ok. fucking sucks. or, the answers that feel acceptable suck. it's abt who do u love, who do u feel accountable to.. not who has been around or who has created hurt.
rly anxious this week with school. prof tadiar was rly an asshole academic in that first discussion & made me feel so upset. i hate that i have to weather these storms alone. that's a problem. why cant i have support in the ways i feel & think, & my frustrations & struggles with continuing to live? feel a lot of resentment toward friends at arms length, my choices that lead me to dead ends, the toxic ecologies i have always been navigating & trying to find a shred of hope in. mom is still my best friend, & i want her to be. just wish my pod were not so upsettingly small. days feel like nothing again & again, maybe incarcerated folks know the feeling of wasting away, like time doesn't matter at all bc my seconds r impossible & trapped from shifting my futures.
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i hate who im from. its shitty. idk much abt my family, need to read hartmans lose ur mother. realized im only comforted by the presence of black girls in my classes & also a little anxious abt their politics too. like they r the only other ppl who might try to keep me safe but we also all go to this shit school & there r a set of beliefs tied to our paths to get here. also always fighting taking advantage, just both being here, realizing i need & other ppl need things that just align & that doesn't have to mean any more than a piece of my gratitude. but yea just scared of white folks, more recently just wanna fight, idk im ready to win battles & get punished for failing to do shitty stupid things. stop feeling embarrassed or shameful. no don't stop. but know that those feelings just mean getting punished, not doing wrong. & stab those motherfuckers back. the complex part of who im from is this little family, nuclear immigrant family, a house & some walls, toxic toys & racist books & video games & so many soft things, fabrics, textures, smells.. the world for so long that is not bigger than this is smth i felt love for. love not in the way that is full of intended meaning & adopted rituals. but possibly rituals & rehearsals that r really mine. things we felt ashamed of & were shamed for when we left. i always felt that outside the home was just a world of troubles. things that corrupt us, make us feel hurt & feral, things that eat away mercilessly & make us less possible in our precious moments.
that home is still here! its here. im in it. why do i still feel so impossible? is it messed up to think that we have all been outside too much? i don't think any of our faults r our faults. i don't wanna go to school. mom & dad r getting old. that one is so so scary. fuck. i don't want to grow up. i don't. im so sorry that i feel this way. sorry to the kid i should have loved more, & the kid im struggling to love today. im so sorry. still. i don't have regrets bc they r stupid, but i do wish things were different. hope they can become different. not in the ways that ppl r so good at finding solutions to their problems. the problems feel bad, & they should feel bad. they should definitely not feel easy or pleasurable. i want to feel more possible. i want to be less alone. those two things r intensely related, & im not sure how to move toward those futures. isn't that messed up? who r my mothers? who am i from?
fuckign sucks.
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i found an ms meme online and imma do it
My current diagnosis is: RRMS
I was diagnosed in: 2017
My symptoms include: numbness, spasticity, fatigue, heat sensitivity, weakness, blad dys, lhermitte’s, pain, cog dys
My comorbid conditions include: i guess depression and bpd and anxiety ?
I take: steroids when i have a flare but otherwise just venlafaxine and ritalin (fatigue’s a real b*nch)
My first MS attack was: numbness from the waist down for 3 wks in june ‘17
My strangest MS symptom has been: falling asleep standing up. i feel like a cuddy :/
My biggest MS symptom/relapse triggers are: temperature, stress, lack of sleep
I know an MS attack is coming on when: honestly i know shits gettin real when i pee my pants
The most frustrating thing about having MS is: having to decide whether or not to explain myself when i break/drop/fuck something up bc i can’t hold things.
The most positive thing about having MS is: handicapped placard n weed card
During an MS attack, I worry most about: if ‘this is it’, if these symptoms will ever go away
When I tell someone I have MS, the response is often: (insert rly sad story abt distant family member with MS) or “you’re so young that has to be a mistake” like sis... mris dont lie
When someone tells me they have MS, I think: omg yes someone who knows whats going on
When I read articles about MS, I think: jfc i cant believe this is happening to me
My best coping tools are: NAPS reading weed getting shit done
I find comfort in: candles, pj’s, blankets, & a body pillow
I get angry when people say: have u considered cutting gluten out of your diet? have u considered it might be x or y?
I like it when people say: something supportive or some kind of praise for not being a completely miserable asshole considering
Something kind someone can do for me when symptoms are acting up is: offer to help without making a whole thing about it
The best thing(s) a doctor has ever said to me about MS is: youre lucky you’re young and have access to as many doctors and treatments as u do. it could gl well if we fight.
The hardest thing to accept about having MS is: the mortality of my function
MS has taught me: no point in being miserable now. dont waste the time u have with the function youve got.
If I could go back to the early days of my diagnosis, I would tell myself: ur ok. its ok to cry. just dont wallow for too long. dont let this fuck u up.
The people who support me most are: myself lmao. mom sometimes bc she has ppms but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
The thing I most wish people understood about MS is: if i want to talk abt it I’LL bring it up.
MS Awareness is important to me because: im sick of ppl staring at me when i drop shit like i’m in an infomercial
One more thing I’d like to say about life with MS is: having ms sucks shit but a lot of the time, u have to live despite it. every moment ur mobile is special bc u might not be one day. its abt lil wins.
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Episode 6: “my whole entire game is built on lies” - Zack
ok so im pretty sure that if we win this challenge and if we don’t merge and my tribe wins the next immunity challenge then i will break the record for most tribal immunity wins and i think that’s pretty good and cool
also elmo?? cutest person on this earth. i now understand why he was so beloved on facebook, it’s bc he’s an angel. i love him and if he keeps being this sweet he will most definitely replace johnny as my number one in this game and that is not a joke.
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i rly am boo boo the fool huh.... tribal immunity record is for TRIBES, not people.... i NEED to be stopped before i embarrass myself any more than i already have
ok so the plan was to vote out thomas since we figured a merge was coming and like. we don’t need someone to win comps in the merge we need loyalty. and joey was just kinda the easier pick when it comes to that bc i don’t really know what thomas has going on with other people whereas joey got here and basically told us every observation he’s ever had in the game. us being me and jared. we have an alliance w jared bodhi and i and discussed expanding in the merge so it’s us, joey, anabel, johnny, and possibly elmo. yeah
anyways we didn’t merge so wig
So, last night’s tribal was kinda frustrating. Adam was blindsided, and I was completely left in the dark by it. Justin popped into my DMs, and told me, “Thanks for voting me.” I told him we were even, since while he did get two votes, I was the one that was ultimately left in the dark on the vote. I didn’t even realize that Adam was the real plan. So in that, Zack and Chloe kinda lied to me there, but I appreciate that they apologized. I’m just worried that I’m gonna be the next to go now if we lose this challenge…
I really am so fucking heartbroken that Tommy went. Ok ya I went mental a couple days ago nd I was ready to vote him out but I think that was all a big misunderstanding. I do actually really like the guy and after the whole thing with Adam he was kinda my rock and I really really wanted to meet up with him again in the game, we were gonna be the power duo of the season and everyone was supposed to be mad about it. And now I sit here fucking upset because I lost him and now idk what to do. When merge hits tf am I supposed to do without him? Why did I have to be put on a shitting tribe with Adam and not Tommy? Fuck every single person that voted him out. My next fucking targets.
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okay so i told my tribe about my legacy advantage (except lily) and i think that im going to be FINE with it all and im not super worried about the people on my tribe, but I know im 100% playing my legacy advantage at the final twelve, which is going to be next round, but yea....... idk im definitely going to tell jared once we end up merging, and slowly but surely tell other people, but yea, we'll see..... i also know i cant vote next round so eep
im also on call with jared rn talking about personal nonsense and we're screensharing while i play poker and hes distracting me from making this confessional any longer, so yea BYE BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Pray for me at the merge
So, we lost the challenge. I’m definitely nervous, but I assume the plan is that Zack, Chloe, and I vote Justin. Zack promised to me that he would not vote for me. I’m pretty sure Chloe is good with the plan as well. They haven’t been online for a while, but hopefully, they don’t screw me twice in three nights.
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i feel like all i do in this game is lie. like my whole entire game is build on lies. KDKDKDK.
as soon as we lost the challenge i promised ian that i wouldn’t be voting for him. that was a lie... and for what? what’s the point of lying? idk! i lies to justin about not having the idol and pinned it on johnny having it.. straight up lied to adam and ian last round and was in a whole ass fake alliance with them.. and the list just goes on.
anyway. hopefully me chloe and justin can stick together and just vote ian out of here. BUT they have been very quiet so it is a little shady... i gotta feel the situation out a little more in order to feel totally comfortable enough to not use my idol. but i have hope.
anyway let’s hope this just goes smoothly and i don’t get caught up in my lies anytime soon.
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u know this round has been a lot.... but at lesat we won and then johnny's bitch ass says that he has been LYING ABOUT NOT HAVING NAYTHING!? WELL ITS OKAY BUT AT LEAST HE REVEALED IT *NOW*!
now i have justification for not telling him about my idol xoxo
im in progress of getting closer w everyone on my tribe bc i rly want this tribe to work together come merge, i think lily could be in big trouble but it doesnt serve my game to boot her immediately, there are bigger threats for me so im gonna try to protect her to my best ability! i think that this vote is gna get ian out and thats sad be he was an option for me at the merge but it is what it is.
im just excited to merge already and (hopefully) make the jury in CELESTIAL! (even tho jury wont prob start yet if we merge at f12... hm)
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Trust List:
1. Joey
2. Bodhi
3. Asya
4. Anabel
5. Elmo
6. Lily
7. Ian
So...Justin just messaged me and outright said he is voting for me because I voted for him last tribal. Someone’s a little salty about Wednesday night, and I don’t know if it’s more him or me. Anyway, I guess I know who I’m voting for, then.
I'm just SICK of going to tribal, absolutely sick of it. I feel like I'm constantly clawing to stay in this game, as much as I'm proud of myself for making it this far in the game I would like one night where I can properly relax and just have a good time without having to vote out one of these people that I've created a bond with. Just once I don't want to be thinking whether I'm possibly ruining a friendship. It hurts me so much.
Just having a ball u know how it goes. Also Jonny admitted he had the legacy advantage
i told the tribe about my legacy advantage and now im mcfucked.com thanks
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Some Nekoma boys and their first kiss (with you);
NEXT. with seijoh!
Lev, Kenma, Yamamoto, Kuroo and Yaku!
warnings: none
wordcount: 1,009
content: first kisses, FLUFF, gender neutral reader, small scenarios most of all, kitten is used once (1) bcos kuroo thinks hes being flirty and smooth, pre-timeskip, high school
notes: i was supposed to take a nap but this wouldnt rly leave my head, take these crumps i hope you enjoy them!!!! i might make more with other teams they were rly cute and fun to make!!! some of the lengths r a little different bcos my idea changed from when i started to i finished!! i tried matching them up but alas, they cant be the same kdfhsjkfs have a nice day!!!
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Haiba Lev
This dude straight up proudly admits to you that he’s never kissed anyone in his entire life, whipping out his phone to show his recent search history containing searches like ’How to kiss someone’, ’Good first kiss tips’, and so forth. You felt embarrassed on his behalf but it also helped to make you less nervous. He then leaned into his backpack that was on the ground by the bench you were sat on, asking with a big grin, “d’you want a mint as well before we do the do?” making you slap him for being so tactless on how to be romantic, followed by a giggle at his antics and a “yes.” While the mints were being consumed, Lev was telling you about the team, ranting on about what he needed to improve and how much fun he had there. Suddenly he stopped, a beat of silence before he asked carefully, “have you swallowed yours yet?”
You swallowed it on accident just because he asked which made you choke a bit. He immediately leaned towards you, his face incredibly close to your own, which made you cough a bit more. After you calmed down a bit he leaned in and kissed you, smiling brightly afterwards saying, “I bet the kiss made it all better!”
Kozume Kenma
You had been going out with Kenma for a while now but nothing had really changed. You sat a bit closer (and even cuddled sometimes!!) when he was playing video games at your house or vice versa. So one afternoon, while he was playing Pokemon on his switch on your couch you finally gathered the nerves to ask, “why haven’t we kissed yet?” Without looking up from his switch he answered with another question, “do you want to?” and you hid your face in your hands, mumbling out a very small yes. You heard him shuffle around on the couch and soon after he gently took your hands and removed them slowly from your face. His gaze was always just a little bit intense, which only served to heighten your heartbeat, as he leaned in closer. Your eyes widened and then immediately shut close the second his lips hit yours, a small peck left on them before he pulled away. He licked his lips and whispered out, “again?” to which you nodded. You hadn’t realized how badly he’d wanted to try and kiss you too!
Yamamoto Taketora
Liking Yamamoto and starting to date him was a challenge on its own. You were the one confessing, which served to make him so nervous around you that for the first while after you started dating, having conversations with him could be such a chore. He kept stammering, blushing, refusing to look at you and sometimes even avoid you. So when you were at the park one day after practice and you both realized the mood was perfect for a first kiss, you ended up grabbing his cheeks forcefully after several minutes of silence and kissing him. Your teeth clashed and you both pulled back in pain. However that made him brave enough to smoothly lean down and gently peck your lips, letting out a, “I hope I didn’t hurt you too bad, sweetheart,” before blushing and pulling away again. It did get easier from there on out, though.
Kuroo Tetsurou
Kuroo had tried to give weird remarks about how he had definitely kissed someone before, wiggling his eyebrows at you during one of your study dates. With both of you being busy with your respective clubs, there wasn’t much time for you to be romantic, so they had become a good way for the two of you to hang out. You only raised an eyebrow at him, trying to ignore his antics to get the question right on the sheet in front of you.
“Kitten, have you ever kissed anyone?”
You could feel the temperature rise in your cheeks at the question, finally realizing what it was he was trying to get at. You shook your head, adamant on not looking up at him. “Oya?” you heard him say before the screech of the chair legs indicated that he had gotten up, presumably to get close to you. “Well, are you interested in having your first kiss then?” You felt suddenly embarrassed and inexperienced in his presence, until you finally looked up at him to see his cheeks and ears burning red, a strange sort of beaming smile on his lips.
You nodded slowly and before you could even blink his lips were on yours, soft and warm. When you pulled away he started laughing a bit, “I’ll count this as my first kiss too, it was much better,” you raised an eyebrow and smiled, “what was wrong with your first one?”
“It was with Kenma when we were 11.”
Yaku Morisuke
When you and Yaku had started dating just a few weeks back, he had been a nervous and stammering mess around you. Being Lev’s study partner and friend naturally meant meeting his volleyball team and one of his favorite upperclassmen, Yaku Morisuke. There had been instant chemistry between you and it only took a few months of showing up to all their practices and matches when possible, that Yaku had gotten the nerve to ask you out. Today they had a practice match against Fukuroudani and they had lost their first set. Yaku was visibly frustrated so during their break you helped give the team water bottles, saving him for last. When you got to him you smiled brightly, handed him a bottle and said, “I know you’re gonna win this, my big strong boyfriend!” knowing it’d give him a little boost being praised, even though it also made him immensely embarrassed. After he drank his water the coach called for them to gather, “I’ll see you then,” he said, about to run when you grabbed his arm and pulled him into a kiss, “for good luck.” Needless to say, he played better than he felt he had in some time.
#haikyuu!!#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu x you#haiba lev x reader#kozume kenma x reader#yamamoto taketora x reader#kuroo tetsurou x reader#yaku morisuke x reader#haikyuucreations#kuroo tetsurou x you#kozume kenma x you#yaku morisuke x you#haiba lev x you#yamamoto taketora x you#hq x reader#nohr.writing#gosh they were fun to make!!!!!!!!!!#ALSO YES u cannot convince me kuroo didnt make kenma try That with him lmFAOOOOOO 'just to see what its like!!!' 'only for less than one se#kenma come on!!!! ive only kissed my mom i wanna try and see'#LMFAO
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i redesigned casey and now i kinda ship him w/ sal..... i’ve been Developing him a bit too and this is what ive come up w,
sal and casey would be a cute couple imo.... they'd probably butt heads at first, bc casey butts heads with Everyone at first by nature, and he's really argumentative naturally whereas sal is kind of Nervous around new people, but like... sal can find the good in anyone, which is somethin' i think casey would need, because he's not good at expressing the good in himself!!then they probably found some middle ground......... sal has a very calming presence, i think, he's a very Sweet person and people like being around him a lot........ but he'd definitely be someone who wouldn't judge him or say anything cruel, he always puts a lot of time and consideration into the people around him and i think that'd be something very good for my boy, cause then he could also just....Develop a good and nice friendship with sal!! they probably became real close real quick and it....confused everyone, i bet!! casey probably gets frustrated sal doesn't tend to Value himself as much as he should and doesn't really stand up for himself.
i feel like casey is.....Very Open about finding Sal attractive but just not in front of sal, like he's casually just like "hey, how is that man single when he looks like a literal god, jw. askin for a friend" and everyone in the groups like..........hey man do u wanna date sal? kinda sounds like you wanna date sal,
Casey is secretive to No One, except for Sal...................whenever Sal is around he clams up! He ain't gonna say nothing gay in front of that boy (who he would totally smooch if he offered tbh)
i picture casey being like, that one kid w/ no friends who watches anime and decides he's gonna learn japanese........
Casey draws Anime in his sketch book which he shows to no one except friends, and also hates being asked to draw someone because he thinks its totally uncool (he'd probably draw sal if he asked though)
he's probably pretty good by now since.......Not havin friends gives you time to work on stuff!! I think he'd be interested in animation to some extent, too!!
casey is also a photographer and has a degree in filmaking....I Imagine him RLY wanting to take pics of sal but being too shy to ask, also he puts timers so he doesn't like sal's selfies too quickly bc he Doesn't Want to Look TOO gay. he probably flirts with sal a bit but makes sure it's mild and sounds like a joke!! sal has.......No Idea, honestly, he's just like.....Totally clueless to it,
I mostly picture sal as having........ Self esteem Resembling a rollercoaster and sometimes he'll be like "YES I AM GOOD AND PEOPLE LIKE ME" other times he's like "me? i am a garbage rat and i come from the sewers, my truest home," so has a hard time really Believing people like him, For Some Reason,
casey probably lowkey wants to confess but doesn't know how, he's also probably mildly terrified he's gonna make sal uncomfortable bc he really values the friendship and.....Doesnt wanna Gay It Up if it's not needed, i kind of think casey's probably had a few friendships that...........Didn't pan out, bc they found out he was gay and got very Weird about it, and he probably tries to......Not Replicate that, despite sal being Very considerate..... he singlehandedly organized a gsa in highschool and then also planned their Queer Prom almost Completely by himself........... he's like, the last person in the world who would be unkind to casey about something like that!!
Casey is just a nervous boy who often worries about being Accepted, even by other Very Gay folks...........he's probably a lil nervous about like, intimacy and stuff. doesn't like being touched without being explictly asked.......
he had a casual relationship with riley but riley is.............Very chill, so i think it wouldn't be too unpleasant for him.............. casey probably doesn't like not being the one in control though!! it works out bc sal is kind of uncomfy w/ sex in general and demisexual......... he's not adverse to it but it does make hm nervous!!
he animates sometimes in his freetime, i think, he has.......Lots of free time, lbr,
his parents are both like...... Doctors, so he doesn't worry that much about Money or anything! and tries to fill his spare time with...... Whatever, really, he pobably has a few weird skills he never talks about,
mitch was probably casey's first real friend... he and riley didn't know eachother very well by the time riley dropped out, but he and mitch both stayed and finished college, so they probably became pretty good friends!! mitch stayed in touch with riley, so by extension so did casey. otherwise casey probably would've been too insecure to put any effort into the connection.
he’s kind of typically “flamboyant.” snarky. will not take any shit. he’s a photographer, he has a degree in filmmaking and enjoys it a lot. very secretive, doesn’t really share any personal details with people. pretty judgemental. will comment on your outfit if he thinks it’s bad or like… straight up laugh at your opinion sometimes. he can win arguments but……Often Unintentionally hurts feelings doin so!!
he secretly likes people more than he lets on he’s just….Super bad at socializing because he’s like inherently argumentative and cant turn it off. he was also not a popular kid, he moved to a new town and was really chubby and people were just… not nice to him. he was v self conscious ab it!! hes Very New to friendships!! his first real friend was when he was an adult already. he’s got a lot of softness inside of him!!
OTHER FACTS...........
*casey self harms, he’s not proud of it but doesn’t hide it either.......
*he’s been diagnosed w/ adhd and anxiety but...... Does Not Believe He has either of those things
*constantly on the defense
*doesn’t have a good relationship w/ his parents but..........Doesn’t really bother fighting w/ them, they’re not the nicest but he just.Gnuinely doesnt care anymore.
* he and sanchez dont have the best relationship,casey’s theory is its bc he used to be fwbs with riley and Was Not at all subtle about it but like…. when he first meets sanchez he comments how he thought he’d be taller, and then immediately follows it up with “Btw, i fucked your bf.”
i’ll add more to this later................. also if anyone read this whole thing what would be a good ship name for them cause i got,.......No clue
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“he can read a trial’s karma and ultimate fate”
ok well now you’re going from poorly thought out mind games to absolute bullshit
what the fuck does that even mean??? what karma does a trial have?? with my understanding of karma, that means Sadmad literally goes “hm i feel like letting this kid off would please the universe, as she’s innocent. fuck, you win apollo.”
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'What is THAT supposed to mean?’ -Apollo Justice 2028
I'm wheezing the second i got mad he said exactly what I'm thinking
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“he can foresee how arguments will go and lead his opposition”
>leading the court is i l l e g a l
>foreseeing arguments is kind of what every prosecutor does only they set traps. this one actually just sounds like Edgeworth’s logic applied to future tense instead of past so i guess i’ll give it a grudging pass.
>but thats Edgeworth’s power and also LEADING THE COURT IS FUCKING ILLEGAL, NOT A SUPER POWER.
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me: [fuming]
game: [reminds me that phoenix Believes In Apollo]
me: [relaxes SOMEwhat]
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trucy: sounds like he's chanting a prayer
me: its funny because juxtaposition
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I’m so fucking tired of Prosecutors being silent when the judge asks them if theyre ready
like jesus christ guys i know, we get it; youre too cool for school. just nod or some shit ok i wanna get on with my court case with a minimum of dick measuring
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whats frustrating is that the nickname ‘last rights prosecutor’ is actually kind of heartwarming because it means that all Nahyuta wants to do is secure the true villain of the case to punish them, thereby putting the victim’s soul at rest
BUT considering the trainwreck of emotional depth that was DD he’s probably just going to be another shithead who assaults you and calls you a moron instead of actually listening
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...his case info’s on a scroll. um. how delightfully foreign?
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sadmad: why do you think she's innocent
apollo: um well i believe in her, also its too early for me to exactly give you direct proof and also and most importantly the point of this court is to give the defendant a Fair Trial so
sadmad: (does a Z move and performs an unfortunate bout of Voice Acting)
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sadmad: sorry I'm probably going to make a lot of mistakes since i’m new here and my court system is really different
me: oh well he’s understanding and ready to learn, that’s coo
sadmad: lawyers are sinners and i shall cut them down with my holy wrath if they dare so much as do their job in this country
me: ...wow what was that five seconds?? he’s raring to get to those mistakes
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judge: don’t threaten peoples’ lives
sadmad: its part of my CULTURE you fucking RACIST
judge: shit, please continue
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sadmad you'd better get a fucktonne more likeable in the next three seconds or I'm condemning you to your shit hell myself.
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ema: no stress no snacks
[enters court]
ema: all stress all snacks
:( poor ema
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ema; i think trucy’s innocent
sadmad: you will be punished
ema: fuck ok nevermind I'm sorry
BOATLOAD OF CHARM, SADMAD, I SAID BOATLOAD OF CHARM, NOT ABUSING YOUR DETECTIVE
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this motive is stupid and youre stupid but to be fair most proposed motives in ace attorney are stupid so i guess you get a pass. a very grudging pass.
wait no never mind
apollo: thats conjecture wheres your evidence
sadmad: a girl said it happened
apollo: well fuck
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i just dont get it. when franziska is a dick she’s funny but when sadmad’s a dick he's just a dick and i want to throttle him with his pretentious braid
pls game you were going strong there; make sadmadhi funny and likeable in his dickishness (like the trilogy era guys, and sometimes Klavier) and not utterly insufferable
I'm willing to hear you out
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nahyuta: I'm cutting your pay
[shrug] i guess when you run out of ideas you just recycle edgeworth?? cause he's popular right
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as douchey as he is sadmad is right about telling ema not to choose a side. cmon ema, just trust that apollo will figure it out. and apollo, quit begging her to choose a side! sheesh i cant believe I'm agreeing with sadmad.
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please sadmad i hate frozen stop referencing it
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apollo thinks stag beetles are cool and thats adorable
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oh hello Reunion and Turnabout, it’s been a while.
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sadmad: Assault in the name of the Holy Mother is Legal and Allowed also allow me to talk AND TALK AND TALK AS IS THIS GAME’S WONT
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“youre just a child” says the 25 year old. cram it, airy-fairy. besides, your shit princess is >14< and you let her dance around in a mini skirt and declare rulings. so double cram it.
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“Ema, wait! I have to prove that I’m not a dick by quickly praising you so as to prove that I’m not a dick! Wait!! Seriously!! I HAVE TO BE LIKEABLE!!!”
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again, i just dont get why its funny when Franziska whips Lotta Hart and annoying as fuck when Sadmad threatens Bonny with, um... rosary bondage i guess
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tbf apollo is rly being aggressive on the WELL YOUU DONT THINK SHE DID IT, RIGHT??? i mean we all know she didnt but it’s your job to prove this, apollo, not coerce witnesses into siding with you. even phoenix wasn’t like that when he had to defend Maya or Maggey.
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[wheezes]
sadmad: you lied to me
betty: lol so? dump me in hell idgaf
i like betty. she’s a dick to trucy and nobody touches my baby girl but still. love that defiance
both sisters are p sweet i gotta say.
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sadmad: so, you think a girl killed a guy so she could get revenge on another girl because she loathed her? how stupid. you stupid red fire hydrant pissed upon by wicked dogs.
apollo: and you think that a magician faced with their secrets being revealed couldn’t, like, conjure up some duct tape? no? had to be death??
sadmad: ...;;;;;;;
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did bonny just meep
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“just be nice and quite like a good little bunny”
heehee typo
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“I’ll yank your fucking hair out!”
“Whatever it’ll just grow back”
thats the best response ive ever heard (sobs)
good on ya polly
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“showing up dead in the coffin was part of the prank”
um then if it was planned as such how is trucy responsible for this???
also shit guys i hope Take2 TV was willing to pay for the damage done by the falling set piece cause that shit splintered like crazy.
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“But for some reason, he really DID turn up dead, so he kinda just stayed on the ground”
i know its inappropriate to laugh but I'm laughing so hard
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sadmad quit calling down someone’s soul just to look cool; theyre trying to rest in peace
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“she signed her name to the bottom of an incriminating note” yeah for really reals that sounds smrt
“the handwriting matches yours” ah yeah the signature but not the fucking note just by looking its not the same its typed
you people are such morons
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