#it hurts so much but itsso good

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what did you think of q!quackity's lore today? ngl I cried at the end the end broke sm

SO GOOD!!!!!!!! the entire pacing felt just right with qqs character and i love the implied future conflict with oscurucho because despite qq not agreeing to his deal qq now has something new he loves that oscurucho can use against him and for whatever reason get qq on his side to do his bidding.

im also such a lover of the initial rejection of the new eggs from assigned parents. because when you look at the entire situation the islanders are in it is Fucked up. it is wildly fucked up. none of these people chose to be parents and frankly some of them probably wouldnt have been if the job wasnt forced upon them. you have that layer of fucked up. and then these parents get attached and they love and care for their child but they quickly realize they can die!! and be gone. forever!!! and suddenly theres anguish and grief and tragedy because you feel as though you failed and lost the one thing that mattered most. again fucked up because why do they need to die? why do they have lives when them as parents are technically immortal? NOW OUT OF NOWHERE IN YOUR WORST STATE OF MIND AND YOUR DARKEST MOMENTS… youre given another kid. another. kid. as if it was a common exchange. once again no choice. its yours now and you have to care for it despite all your hurt and all your trauma. it feels as though these people are laughing in your face just deriving pleasure out of watching you do this dance of getting attached and losing it all. it makes perfect sense for qq to not want to believe pepito is his son and the way he reacted makes perfect sense. and it hurts because pepito is just a kid!!! pepito cant possibly comprehend or fully conceptualize all thats been lost and all the harm that has been caused towards pepitos parents. all pepito wants is pepitos family. and tragically that’s something that isnt going to be easy because grief is a lifelong process and allowing yourself to love again is a choice that needs to be made by an individual which you cannot force. like theres no way in hell a parent who already lost their child would have such an accepting and easy reaction to that. its bizarre and jarring. and difficult. and i love how the ccs portray it

itsso so sad but thats why quackity choosing to stay is so much more powerful. because he knows fully well he will be hurt by this. he is tired and he wants to die more than anything and he cant possibly fathom having to endure yet another death. but he stays. despite knowing hes playing into this cycle. for now he stays. and thats all that matters

anyways ywah good stream ^_^_^

#pix asks aaaa #anon

[gravityrulez]

okay so to your eternity apparently exists for the sole purpose of destroying my heart. that’s fine I’m fine, I am totally fine

narrator voice: she was not fine

#yes hi hello I had to pause the episode multiple times because PAIN #to your eternity #fumetsu no anata e #spoilers #and listen I expected this to happen sooner or later #but just as with the first ep the buildup was so fcking painful oh god I AM CRYING AGAIN #or more like STILL crying lmao #did I ever stop I think not #chi talks #I really reccomend this anime #it hurts so much but itsso good #I think about this show all the time throughout the week #also I highkey wanna draw fushi now #and march and nameless boy q.q