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#it hits TOO hard and TOO different 😭🤧🤧
lullaebies · 7 months
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Hi, I love your content Helaegon, it's just wonderful! 💗
I was wondering if you could write some headcanons about Aegon and Jaehaera's relationship? He would definitely melt for his one and only little princess 😭🤧
I actually have done some already over here, but I don't mind adding a few more! Aegon II & Jaehaera Headcanons Part 2 ⫺ I have vaguely mentioned it in other headcanons regarding the kids, but I think Aegon would be really defensive when it comes to people criticizing his children, and I think it would particularly hit hard with Jaehaera who is the gentlest one. I genuinely feel like he would fire a septa over saying Jaehaera isn't good enough at reading or anything about her being too fussy. It's kind of a reflection of how he was never good enough, and frankly his daughter would try better than he ever tried, so anyone who dares speak vaguely ill of her - out. ⫺ I think Jaehaera is the type of girl that has kind of ghostly steps, as in you can't hear her when she comes and it's often a surprise. She's very good at following Aegon without him noticing and when she does reveal herself, by calling him or touching him he's spooked af. She's known to not laugh or smile much, but I do think she likes surprising her dad and when he reacts (and consequentaly, tries to play it off) she's very pleased with crinkled eyes. If she didn't hug him after Aegon might've been offended, actually. ⫺ Jaehaera has a a few necklaces or bracelets that have similar imagery to what Aegon wears. They are gifts from dad on her and Jaehaerys's nameday. She personally keeps her gifts as a collection and only wears them on important days. (Jaehaerys has his own version of this hc regarding nameday gifts, which is quite different in comparison btw). ⫺ Because of her following him around she also knows about some obscure areas and pathaways in the castle. Sometimes Aegon is seriously the only person who knows where to find her. She'd play hide and seek with Jaehaerys and Aegon II would have to find her dozing off in some Maegor Ancient™️ pathaway that she followed him into once. Obviously he carries her back to bed, and tells her not to go there - but I mean, she also gets her dad's attention this way, so tough luck, Aegon. ⫺ If she got to grow up with him, I think she'd be the kid Aegon feels most comfortable beside because she's more careful with the words she picks, but she'd also probably be the kid whose words strike the hardest for him when she tells him things as they are. Three bottles of wine down his throat when she tells him she is upset with him. She's usually the one that mediates, so when she gives up he really feels like shit. Damage control Aegon comes out in that case; he knows he gotta rectify the situation in this case. Bending over to the family's whims for [put a spongebob amount of time flash card] because damn, he knows she's right and he would make sure he's enough of a dad to not make her and the rest feel like they're not.
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seiwas · 5 months
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MS SEL ITS 4AM (for me) AND NOW IM THINKING ABOUT FWB WITH IWA INSTEAD OF SLEEPING SKDHJSNDMSND okay no BUT YOUR IDEA IS SPARKING IDEAS IN ME OH MY GOODNESS (edit: i fell asleep ;-; so now it’s a normal 10am for me now LOL)
literally the accidental kiss and how it’s different maybe less intense but more soft and more home-y and just so much more comfortable and it hits him hard that it’s different. and yeah after talking about it, he just gets the urge to kiss you again and he gets drunk off the feeling from the sliding of the tongues to the way your mouths move more or less in sync. his hand tilting your head at an angle to deepen the kiss and it’s like he’s sucking the life force out of you. and you’re just letting him :,)))))
and it starts off with the little comments that tick him off: “got yourself another toy, haj?” and the like. the way he prickles and tells them to go shove it but can still feel the ache deep in his chest that people see you like that. and the way it feels like a slap in the face that this wasn’t enough. how you managed to cope thus far was your hoping, praying, for a chance to be at his side—what you would’ve done to stand by him for a day back in middle school—but it’s not enough anymore. and overcome by greed, you just feel so so guilty. so you ghost him a bit more, leaving more and more time between each text, and you go out by the back doors, or you completely change your path of commute, just to avoid seeing him.
and he sees you again, coming out of the library late at night and he’s just so confused, so lost. though it hasn’t been that long since being fwb with you, it still felt odd, not being in your presence. he chalked it up to because you grew up together, but honestly we all know that’s not why 💀 “…i just didn’t know what to do with all these feelings,” you say to him after that long and painful silence, and you look down at the ground, at the tips of your shoes, at anything, just anything but his face.
and he still doesn’t say anything so you turn to walk away but he catches you by the wrist and keeps you with him. “please look at me” he tells you softly and you do and you’re just so taken aback, chest panging at how gentle his eyes look and everything just floods back in.
AND THEN he just leans in super close, gaze lowering to your lips and you squeeze your eyes shut, heartbeat building up, and you can’t deny the excitement you’re feeling to feel his lips again on yours but the kiss doesn’t come. instead you hear his low voice, “i feel that too.”
and you must’ve looked so confused because he lets out a burst of laughter, the boyish laugh that leaves the bubbling feeling inside your chest, and he takes your hands in his and raises them to his lips, and he tells you that he loves you!!!!!!! he omg i love this part sm in yours: where he hugs you close to his chest and you can hear his heartbeat and he asks you to come back to him, voice raw and vulnerable.
the way i would’ve gotten so so so soft. caving IMMEDIATELY losing all will to be petty
and he tilts your chin, capturing your lips in his, and it’s so much more hungrier, so much more intense and can you blame him? he hasn’t gotten to kiss your lips in so long he was going insane. and your body just moves on its own, knowing how to move your mouth against his and akdhjsndnsn
(screaming that you can change him and you did!!!!!)
PLOT TWIST: HES ALSO BEEN IN LOVE WITH YOU SINCE MIDDLE SCHOOL BUT COULDNT BRING HIMSELF TO TELL YOU so he’s been going around for someone to fill the gaping void you left in his heart without even having done anything and when he sees you again at you he was so so SO convinced that he got over you, and he kept telling himself that he’s moved on, that you wouldn’t reciprocate for someone like him and 🥲🥲🥲🥲)
the things i feel for fwb to lovers with iwa
wait also emoji um um um 🎏 or ☔️ please! if those aren’t available, then you can choose one for me! :3
omg.... another koi iwa thought of the day 🤧😭😳
the kiss i-- oh my god. how it's different. yeah. i'm gONE. and the waAAAYY the way the comments tick him off omfg bc it's you. they can't talk about you like that. the yearning since middle school oh god and the guilt that comes with wanting more koi pls 😭 the ghosting too HELP.
and when he bumps into you OMG. when he grabs your wrisT omg PLEASE. and how he leans in and u think it's a kiss but nOOO nonononno. he confesses oh my god. THE KISS TO UR HANDS AFTER HE LAUGHS. oh my god. then he says i love you. AM CRYING.
and the reunion kiSS YESSSSSS. HELP. my god. the relief of finally having him this is insane sdbsd.
AND THE PLOT TWIST TOO?!??! the way he's been looking for you in everyone he goes to 😭 and the way he tried to move on too... not knowing that... that's probs the last thing he had to do....
fwb iwa supremacy pls everytime i see a fic on it i CLICK IMMEDIATELY.
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babygirlgojo · 1 year
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okay i think i figured out the issue as to why my last ask from our convo didn’t sent (not from this morning). cause i had sent one a while ago and you never responded so i thought it was a glitch or you just didn’t get it or you’d finally gotten sick of me. i had a picture attached (my screensaver) so that’s probably why it didn’t sent. i just let out a huge sigh of relief cause i thought you’d finally gotten sick of me 😭😭. but thankfully that is not the case 🥹🥹 *gestures to the ask from this morning*. okay so i’ll just send it again if that’s alright. *ahem*
also. i think im finally ready to come off anon. surprise?? i was thinking about it for a while cause we’ve talked a lot by now (2 months almost i think?) and i consider you one of my online friends (im okay even if it’s not reciprocated). and it just felt right. you can still call me starry if you want (i love the nickname it’s so cute 😭❤️).
okay so here’s the actual ask
BELLE!!!! I’m honored (abt your screensaver) 😌😭🤧. I spontaneously change it to different TR panels and choosing one for the ending was so hard but I ended up choosing a classic.
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Heads ups this is gonna be a long one I’m sorry .
Ohhh what kind of sensitive topics if you don’t mind me asking? I personally feel like topics are talk about raw things are some of the best pieces of writing. Another reason why hurt/comfort is one of my favorite tropes. Just exploring the angst and hurt and hard to deal with feelings into understanding and comfort and closure really hits for me.
And same here. Every time I get on Pinterest it’s just. Hot shirtless fictional character. Hot shirtless fictional character. Hot shirtless fictional character. Angst fanart. Hot shirtless fictional character. And then I end up going down the rabbit hole of trying to save all of them while simultaneously finding more and it becomes an endless cycle 💀💀💀.
Pshhhh the Izana fanart had me wheezing. Just the absolute judgmental look in Izanas face. I just know Kakucho was ready to pounce on Izana to hold him back from hunting down Shion adhkbffjjgg. And ofc it was Shion because who else 😭💀. I’m complementing if I should change my screensaver to one of the hundreds of Izana pictures I have saved (rip my storage 🥲) but I think I’m gonna keep the Takemikey one a bit longer mostly because if I change it that means I’m finally slowly starting to come to terms with the fact that the manga is over AND IM NOT READY FOR THAT YET DANGIT. OH!! And I can’t believe I forgot to mention that I finally changed my pfp on tumblr. I ended up picking Takemitchy because the end of TR was fast approaching. And I also changed my theme from orange-flowers-in-the-sunset to purple-clouds-during-the-early-morning. I’m quite proud of it if I do say so myself 😌.
If you do decide to start writing TR content then you have my full support. But even if you don’t then that’s totally okay too. I don’t wanna accidentally pressure you into it with my constant rambling about it. But if you do pls let me know so I can celebrate the fact that one of my favorite writers is gonna start writing/doing TR content 👀🥳. Rindo is a great place to start. He needs more content I hardly see any for him as compared to Mikey, Izana, Chifuyu, Mitsuya, and etc. My baby needs some love too.
Dude Reo had me when he did the super hot eyebrow thing LIKE SIR NO REASON TO DO THIS TO ME. NOT TO MENTION HIS DID IT TWICE?!?!? And the freaking HEADPATS he was giving Nagi???? Nagi no offense but can we pls share your bf?
And ofc take your time with your fics. Amazing things aren’t produced in a day. They need to be edited and fleshed out and rewritten. All a hundred times over. So take your time and don’t let anyone pressure you into doing more than you want to because at the end of the day this is YOUR blog and YOUR writing. Personally, I’m just happy with the interaction 😊❤️. NOT THAT YOUR WRITING ISNT AMAZING IT IS but a lot of authors just don’t interact and I wanna get to know the amazing person behind the beautiful writing too you know? Makes all if it more real I think. But that’s just me.
Ohhhh man I’ve heard quite a few things about Kaiser and I’m still undecided abt him cause new characters can be hot as they wanna be but if they hurt one of my babies (unjustly) then it’s on sight 😤😤.
“Dommed his way through it” agjfshbcfhjhg. Basically 😭💀. I read someones post saying how much they love him yet he’s got the personality of an apple and I was like yes but no but yes but no while laughing. Baby boys been through so much I think he deserves a break 😭.
Yes expose the flawed systems of this world 😤😤. Seriously though, I’ve heard so many stories about how models are treated and it makes me so sad because they really are some of the sweetest people out there (you’re a perfect example) and yet they go through so much. For me, I come up with stories and characters that often go through or have a personality trait of mine so that I can sort of analyze and work through it in my writing (that is if I don’t decide to go the angst route ofc). And its almost always done unconsciously . So it’s therapeutic for me.
I’m glad you’re doing well!! I’m on break rn and having no work to do is so weird because I’m so used to being productive and working all the time. So that that when I don’t have work I’m just like. Suspicious that I’m gonna miss a deadline or something and everything feels off balance . Trying to break that habit and just learn how to relax again.
Well he’s obviously wrong because your shirt looked amazing 🙄 (even tho I wasn’t there). Men. I swear if fictional men were real, real men would be sweating so much harder than they aufesst are because women are realizing that we deserve better than the bare minimum. They’d also very much be scared for their lives cause if our fictional men found out how we were being treated just due existing it would be all over for them. Sorry abt that bit. the state of the world makes me feel a lot of intense emotions sometimes.
Stuff abt me huh? Hmmmm well I like to write, eat, and sleep. I need more hobbies 💀. I like to learn new things whether it be about animals, politics, wars, or art. I love reading and books. One day I want to have a whole room set aside as a library in my house with two floors and a walking ledge and those rolling ladders and stairs. The whole Beauty and the Beast library but small enough to fit in a small house. I like meeting new people. The things you can learn from a single conversation astound me. I like researching any topic that catches my eyes and analyzing it so much that it unknowingly becomes a hyperfixation. Idk it just scratches an itch in my brain. I want to travel the world one day. And learn and speak and write fluent Spanish, Arabic, and French. I also like leather jackets and comfy clothes and eye makeup. Oh and I like listening to music a lot. Especially walking outside with my earbuds in while it’s cold in the late afternoon when it’s dark but there’s still light and laying in the grass on a hill.
Shows: EXTRAORDINARY ATTORNEY WOO!!! I love that show. It’s been a minute since I’ve watched it tho. Gotta start binging again. But I usually don’t watch shows unless they really catch my eye. OH!!! But I’m short excited for the Percy Jackson tv show coming soon!! Reliving my childhood in 24 minutes every week is gonna be a real treat.
Anime: I’m not watching anything new atm. I binged one piece over the summer though and got to the Sabody arc (early 400s). I’m rewatching TR for the 3rd time this month tho. I cant make myself reread the manga yet it’s gonna be too much for me to handle too soon 🥹🥹🥹. WAIT I TAKE IT BACK. I’m currently watching Blue Lock and Chainsaw Man. I cant believe I forgot 💀💀. Oh and I’m also rewatching the Ranking of Kings and Banana Fish (I don’t know what made me decide rewatching this angst fest was a good idea especially with TR ending but I’m here now so 🥲🥲🥲).
SNACK: Tbh honest I’ll eat anything. Either I’m a vacuum or I’m incapable of eating so my body lovesssss me 💀. Im honestly more of a meal person. I love spicy and savory food tho. My mom never gave me a bunch as a kid so when I eat them now it’s very rare and even then I’m very picky abt which ones I like. I do like caramel, milk chocolate, or whole chocolate flavored sweets tho.
Manga/Books: I’m currently rereading the wrath and the dawn, reading belladonna, and reading HP Lovecrafts stories. On the manga side, I’m reading Chainsaw man (cause I wanna stay ahead of the anime) and I’m finally starting Moriarty the patriot.
I’ve been meaning to read more nonfiction books cause I can gain a broader perspective but i don’t know where to start or find an hood ones or find ones that aren’t mainstream but secretly awful. Do you have any recs?
The Bachira b-day suit panel is very much appreciated 👀😂. ALSO I would love to chat but for some reason my tumblr messaging is broken? I even tried on my laptop and it didn’t work. So I sadly excepted my fate of asks only communication a while ago 😞🤧. Also also some people really need to learn what boundaries are. Like just in general. AND NOOOO THAT FIC IS ONE MY FAVORITES ITS ADORABLE. And ofc that doesn’t erase the fact that your writing has improved by a lot (it has wonderfully btw) but you should also be proud of some of your early works no matter how cringe they seem to be.
How was your day? I hope uni has been going well? As always, I hope you have a good day!!! *sends many virtual hugs*
- ✨ anon
Tags for this ask : sensitive topics; mentions of depression, SH and just me talking about my writing, opinions and life
I- this is first time I’m experiencing an ask based tumblr glitch. I’ve only heard of it from other writers, but experiencing it? This was first for me and I’m sorry that happened to you. I promise I haven’t gotten sick of you and I still look very much forward to your texts . I was wondering where you were after I sent that response out - cause I thought you got tired of me instead 🥹
And omg when I saw you come off anon! 🥹 I was so excited!! Hi!! And ofc you’re one of my online friends as well! One of the first actually 👉🏻👈🏻 like- yeah I used to speak to writers here- but the relationship wasn’t a very consistent one. Like if I’m being point blank about my opinion, It’s not very often that I speak to authors and writers here as idk why but I get the feeling that they see me as a person using them for the sake of reblogging my works and liking them (a few writers being exceptions ofc) - which isn’t the case cause I can get by fine without their help; and I can tell when I’m not wanted even if I can’t see you. So you’re right, a lot of authors don’t interact and they mostly stick to their own circles (again, some of them being exceptions ofc) and me being me, I’ve never done well with crowds; and I’m a loner here - I closed in on myself and didn’t interact with any blog - it kinda helped cause I didn’t have majority opinion of how and what a character should be like or how I should write them shoved in my face. And I focused on interacting with my followers and people who took interest in my work - cause at the end of the day I’m creating content for you guys - who follow me and for myself cause I consider it therapy.
but yay! I finally saw you! ପ(๑•ᴗ•๑)ଓ and ofc I’ll still call you starry!
I’m sorry for closing my chat box; but there was the need to put boundaries for some people ૮ ◞ ﻌ ◟ ა(the amount of spam I got from dating websites and meetups and suggestive messages is crazy and then the ask to sequels came in when I opened it so I had to close it again, and I’m sorry you couldn’t reach me :/ I’m creating a new account so that I can follow some of you back and have fun - a first time thing for me so I’m kinda nervous ૮₍˶Ó﹏Ò ⑅₎ა )
I changed my screensaver again
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Sorry I had to do it. It was Rindou and he looked very pretty - and maybe I’ll put gojo back idk- I don’t like indecisiveness but atp it’s just me when I go to get food with friends and screensavers (and pfps)
I’m glad to see someone agree with me abt writing hurt/comfort topics. When I mentioned about sensitive topics what I was talking about stresses on mental health - ranging from mild to severe issues; topics such as depression, and SH thoughts, eating disorders and stuff like that as well how people think about their body image and just very overwhelming emotions in general. Cause these are real issues and speaking from experience, people don’t talk about it cause it’s the case where they have to think twice before saying something to someone or afraid that they would judge them if they opened about it. I’m not a professional but since I’ve experienced this before (and at times still do) I wanted to write about it and since breaking mirrors was so well received - I made a decision to write something deeper and more intense which covers these topics. And what I really like you saying is that these are raw forms of writing which is very true cause the feedback I got for breaking mirrors just proved that people liked my fic and provided them comfort in some way - which means that it was relatable. And that’s what I am aiming for since this is an ‘x reader’ insert.
My Pinterest looks very weird. I’m omw to posting a shirtless man’s pics on my pinned post who idek for the sake of making my blog look good (literally on the cusp of doing it and maybe I will- Sam smith dropped unholy and it’s hoe hoe hoe season too + the fact that we’re gonna slut shame men on this blog) I spend a lot of time on Pinterest cause of pretty people tbh -
I really like your pfp! You got me thinking of changing mine honestly- but Aiku *heartclench* my love - I’m actually in the middle of making one - (*≧ω≦) and I did check out your blog! It’s so chaotic and cute! And I really love the color as well - it’s very soothing (˶‾᷄ ⁻̫ ‾᷅˵)
Gonna tell you now- I had an emperor! Izana that I started months ago, kisaki and Rindou now. Cause I thought of something and it made me go ‘holy hell. That’s- I have to write that down’ and Sanzu’s as well cause I have a lot of art of him saved - his hair is so pretty pink 🥺 but I need time to work on it and I can’t promise it soon cause I have 30+ something wips pending (*T.T)
Everyone’s thirsting for Reo, (me praying at my Oliver shrine hoping that he comes out good and his va is what I imagined so I’m excited for it-) he does give off mature vibes and I’m like 100% sure he’s gonna be a sugar daddy on the market. *wheezing* Nagi share your bf 😭
Istg Izana’s expression - public execution. Time for them to be canceled on Twitter. I love seeing small fanarts like this. And I even found one Mikey art that had me thinking abt changing the theme of my blog
I said what i said. Rin doms his way out of problems- personality of an apple 💀 but they like him. It makes sense
And yeah we should expose issues. So for modeling, honestly it’s not about the body cause I’m pretty average looking like seriously - breaking mirrors was based on my experience; but it’s about the poise, confidence and manners you have as well. (although I have seen some of them be bitches for no reason? Being nice doesn’t cost you anything - being mean is just gonna make karma bite you in the ass) but I think people everywhere are beautiful - body standards shouldn’t determine anyone’s self worth. And I know models look pretty, it’s all about owning the image. Like I have peach fuzz. I don’t shave it instead I ended up cutting my hair short - which exposed it more. Instead of feeling upset about it, I just decided to own the look and be more confident cause this is the way I am and it changed a lot of things for me. In short, Willy Wonka was right about confidence being key -
As for my writing, I’m good at reading people tbh; and the same goes for characters as well - so I draw my own conclusions after dwelling on the thought - and yeah writing is therapeutic. Oh god ik that feeling on when you’re on a break and the feeling of having a jumpscare comes over you (>﹏<) can’t even have good time in peace
Ik it’s a good shirt - hmph. I’m not gonna take an opinion from someone who wears sweatpants and a loose tee. *wheezing* - real men would be sweating if they saw Aiku, Rindou and *proceeds to name 160 husbandos* at my door.
I love the idea for beauty and the beast library 🥺 how I wish I had that - *sigh* and yes! You can learn a lot of things from one convo with a person and if you think about it you literally have a lifetime to know everything about them - cause that one convo is never enough. I totally get the whole thing with a hyperfixation - researched a lot about Egypt when I was younger; and got fixated to a point my mom had to drag me away from the computer- fun fact; Arabic has words similar to Indonesian and Hindi! Leather jackets are so cool and comfy clothes are literally the best thing to sleep in - my ears get cold during the winter or when it sets in- so I wear headphones and walk around places.
Woo young woo is so precious and I love the way they introduce themselves - woo to the young to the woo - 🐋
For anime, I’m contemplating if I should re-watch Vinland saga - the way I cried in the last episode. I. Bawled my eyes out and I still get teary when I think about it 😭; latest updates on snacks, so I bought a lot of sour candy (yea I eat a lot of sour candy)- and my roommates thought it was really sweet. Ended up with headaches over how sour it was and accompanied me to the store, ended up buying sweet things and finished most of the candy and left me the mints ಠ_ಠ
So I mostly read books on history, politics and psychology. To get started I’d recommend going for some autobiography or biography; like geisha of Gion or historical fiction like memoirs of a Geisha - that’s what got me started. I’m glad you liked my comfort fic - a creation that makes me embarrassed cause when I read it the nicknames there are different and these are more solid and I use them for every fic atp. But yeah my fics have come a long way and no matter how cringe they seem, everyone has a starting point in their hobbies and this was one ‘em.
Speaking of Uni, when I had the Mikey and haitani brothers screensaver; remember that guy who made a comment about my weight that I told you about, calling him Danny btw- he said that there was a naked man on my screen.
Okay… and? Do you want the same screensaver I have? Will that make you feel better? So yeah there’s that and Uni had me by the neck cause of this one prof (T.T*) but life’s been going well otherwise! I hope you’re doing well (working on that side account so that I chat with you!) and sorry for the late response (ㅅ´ ˘ `)♡
*sending koala hugs back*
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taegularities · 10 months
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Hello RID 🥺❤️ i just wanted to know how you coping with work and life ..sometimes it drains us so much that it is hard to get up and live your live the way we want to 😩 it has been so long since i took a break and it is all hitting me at once 😮‍💨 BUT TODAY I Blasted "shout out to my ex "by little mix since morning and i had this small request yk 👉👈 A scenario with our sunshine hoseokiev,ex fiancé of oc who dumped her over a text and made her feel so worthless (A lot of ANGST 🤤) and boom they connect again at some party or function and she is happily engaged and prego with jungkookies baby and they are so disgusting in love and he worships her alot😫😩 BUT MY AUTHORS HAVE CLOSED OFF THEIR REQUESTS and now i am heartbroken 😭 This is my first request and this is what i see when i come here 🙂 i mean yk when there is lot of gut wrenching angst and then the fluffy scenario , it just hits different 🤧 LMAO OK I AM GOING cuz NOW.I.DONT.KNOW.WHAT.TO.DO .WITH.THIS *cries in despair
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hi lovely, i got ur ask, the past weeks have just been hell and i'm terrible 😭 sorry for making you wait !!
i'm coping with life okay so far, but sometimes it does feel like a lot ngl :') juggling work and school is exhausting, Do Not Recommend :') please take breaks, too, if you need to !! 🥺
hell yeah little mixxxx !! your idea sounds angsty af lmao just what i'd read :D but unfortunately i've my requests closed, too 😭 with everything else happening irl i can barely focus on my current wips, so i fear i won't be able to write that, i'm sorry love :(( <3
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rrxnjun · 2 years
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from here
Ohh so k-pop does get overwhelming at times like keeping up with all of their comebacks and activities does take a toll on the psyche 🤧 i took a small break of sorts back in 2021 just to get a breather and instead focus my energy on books :') the whole pandemic situation and the lockdown was beginning to get to me + i had to deal with an academic burnout but !! things are definitely better now.
OKAYY so it took me a lot of time to finalise a bias in nct dream and tbt all nct units unghhh i lobe them all but my nct dream bias as of now is renjun. this man has me wrapped around his finger and activates the heart eyes WDYM HE HAS A PRETTY VOICE HES AN ARTIST HE'S PRETTY HE'S SHARP TONGUED AND HE'S A TOTAL SWEETHEART LIKE HE'S SO CARING 100% BFF/BF MATERIAL :( FDIBCFBN GOD HAS HIS FAVOURITES ALRIGHT and oml don't even get me started w the yangyang and renjun interactions im still reeling from when they did this.
In 127 i have a soft spot for the vocal line lol so i usually bias whoever's in the vocal line for a particular song (DO THEY HAVE TO MAKE IT SO HARD TO CHOOSE THO). rn it's jaehyun bc I'm obsessed w his voice (it's his first few lines in good thing <33)
Oof faded in my last song just hits so hard and it hurts so bad the songs so deep. It's one of my favourite nct u songs that and baby don't like it (again. hoe anthems >>>) for 127 it's either heartbreaker (bc it's hyuck's world and we're just living in it) or good thing (bc jaehyun.) Basically love the limitless era. and for dream okayy i can't really choose but reload and boom era were both crazy good. as for wayv it's after midnight and maybee take off. Wbu what are your favourite eras/songs?
Ahh you're a carat ?? I've been trying to get into svt since hoshi's spider came out but it's still a work in progress :') Which all groups do you stan ?? (40k slowburns are segci and it's for Vernon?? sounds v interesting 👀)
and the yangyang fic's going to have angst okay thanks for the warning angst scares me but i find it beautiful (?) as a genre like whoa how do mere scenes and words strung up together in a completely different world make me feel so much. But again that's why i like reading in general. bonus points if i actually find the smth in the fic relatable :')
YUSSUH 5SOS SUPREMACY youngblood was THAT album yk. weird but their music and a few select songs from twenty one pilots and imagine dragons help me concentrate and actually solve calculus ... esp easier and good girls 😭 idk why tho and whahfkfkkg they came to your city ?? Djnffkfm most international artists usually don't come near South Asian countries ie the place where I live 🤧
and yes so i listened to a few more songs by waterparks but I'm obsessed with 21 questions. i can't stop putting it on loop 😭😭 fdhjk pls feel free to send in more song recs
p.s. i enjoy talking to you too to the point where i think i ramble a little too much hrkfjfnf Have a good day/night <3
SORRY FOR REPLYING LATE I SUCK AT HUMAN INTERACTION
kpop does get overwhelming sometimes dfkjlas but also i just kind of got bored for a bit so i didnt feel motivated to check up on it in so long,, but now i just found the excitement again and i feel the same i did when getting into it for the first time its so amazing. i got into kpop just before the pandemic started, so it was something that was keeping me going during the lockdowns and shit :) i am glad you're feeling better now, though!
OUR BIASES MATCH AAAAAAA #besties fdlksaj renjun is literally the love of my life i think us two are similar in a lot of things (our zodiac signs, personalities, interests, anger issues...) so i think loving him so much helped my selflove djfkla this sounds weird but its true to some extent?? AND DONT MENTION THE CAMPING TRIP VIDEO IN FRONT OF ME ITS MY COMFORT VID AAAAA everything abt it is so wholesome,,, their little karaoke sessions, the shopping, the cooking,, them switching languages every now and then,, also yangyang singing i'm gonna love you by d.o. is stuck in my head that moment felt special.
in 127 i tend to gravitate towards mark and hyuck but i cant really count them bc theyre my dream biases as well LMAO but if i exclude them, i'd say i bias doyoung? i have a soft spot for yuta as well haha and recently my head is full of jungwoo but i'm not gonna give that too much weight just yet it might be a phase we'll see
I LOVE HOE ANTHEMS AAAA no one does sexy songs like nct. no one can compare. period. my fav eras would probablyyy be hot sauce/hello future for dream i fucking love that era and i miss it so much it was comfort for me. hot sauce was the first album ive ever bought from my first ever paycheck haha<33 for 127 probably superhuman/kick it/punch era? altho i wasnt a stan back then yet,, so i didnt fully experience it and for wayv turn back time era!!
i AM a carat!! spider is so good oml truly a cultural reset. no one does it like kwon soonyoung. i stan quite a few groups i think?? my ults are definitely nct, seventeen and txt! i keep up w them the most:) and then i stan enhypen, stray kids and p1harmony, although i dont really watch their contents or anything anymore,, im more of a casual stan for them. wbu?
yesyes its an angsty one but its not that bad i think fklf i definitely wrote more traumatic fics than this one. there's actually a yy tiktok i saw that literally represents how i wrote him in this fic it fit so much uh god i'll show it to you if you're interested
SOLVE CALCULUS HDAKL thank god i dont have maths anymore<33 that was a real struggle. i used to have a twenty one pilots phase tbf but im glad its behind me now bc the tyler joseph now is not the tyler joseph i used to stan!:)) and nooo they didn't come to my city! i'm from slovakia and literally no one comes to slovakia so i get your sturggle. they came to krakow and vienna though and that's kind of close to me!
21 questions>>>>> literally one of the songs that inspired my yy fic. do you use spotify? i'll make you a rec playlist if you really want!
p.s. i really enjoy talking to you hihi i missed your asks hhhh please dont think you ramble too much bc i do too!! it shows that we are comfy w each other xx
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i just want you to know. that mists of celeste has been rotting my brain so hard i physically cannot stop thinking abt it like. the way you got my adhd ass hyperfixating on a Fanfic 😭😭😭 my poor bestie had to endure me rambling about it for a week straight as i read it. n now that im up to date part of me wants to go back and reread it now that i'll be able to pick up all the foreshadowing and details i mightve missed the first time in full. honestly still reeling from realising woosang knew mc as kids and still remember it and wooyo was the one who left the blood trail specifically for san to find like my mind is BLOWN. im usually pretty good at predicting plot twists but i never could've possibly saw that one coming till you started hand feeding us the hints. my god you are a mad genius.
anyway i have some questions!!! if you don't mind indulging me. im curious as to what technology is like in the moc universe like usually given the expanse of space travel across multiple galaxies and classes with different powers n such, you'd think they'd have some sort of phone/computer/internet system right?? i mean obviously we got the comms but it seems like that's just for calls and whatever can fit on the tiny screen of a wristband. this part really jumped out at me when mc was talking abt doing dishes but also when she was asking nightingale (or was it hongjoong?) to be able to at least communicate w soojin in the whorehouse somehow. like maybe they're just not allowed personal tech in the whorehouse that'd make sense but like mc also talks abt how there's nothing to do on the ship but spar n chat n play cards n read and im just here like... yall don't got video games?? HDJSHKF like surely if you can have the fastest spaceship in the galaxy yall can have a vr headset or something like. where is the enrichment in this enclosure. this is obviously not like a criticism im just curious and wondering if there's more to it or if it was just kinda like. tryna keep the feel of a good ol pirate au, but space.
my other question was what this universe thinks abt queerness. like is it just a normal thing that no one bats an eye at in comparison to het relationships or does homophobia exist somewhere. if it does, is it different from planet to planet or galaxy to galaxy or is there a general overarching theme like how in our society being cishet is still the "norm" even tho diff countries have varying degrees of acceptance. cause there's been some clear sexism at the start towards mc being a woman, so that implies that bigoted prejudice does exist, but to what extent?
if you can't tell im just. a really big fan of worldbuilding 🤪 feel free to ramble extensively i will read it all 👁👄👁 or don't if u can't be assed that's fine too LOL
YOU’RE TOO KIND PLS!!! im sorry for rotting your brain 😩 i understand the hyperfixation troubles far too well i put my bestie through the ringer when i get my grubby lil gremlin hands on fic ! honestly my fave bits are seeing people go back and be hit with that ‘oh!’ realization of all the pieces falling into place and making sense it’s so so rewarding as a writer and im so glad to see it every time 🤧 and im THRILLED that i was able to catch you by surprise with the plot twists <3
ofc i don’t mind indulging you, i always always ADORE answering questions and talking about the worldbuilding bc worldbuilding is my most favorite part about creating fics!!!
it’s hard to really describe the technology in moc well bc on one hand we have this futuristic reality and universe but there are lots of modern technologies that we have irl that moc doesn’t contain like cellphones. however, things are different from planet to planet. certain planets are more advanced in terms of technology, i think i’ve touched on it a bit but aurum is the most advanced system, and kebos is sorta this futuristic version of ancient rome so it doesn’t have the same kind of technology that eros and aera have. as far as the planets that the crew has visited, there have been only a few that they have really explored in depth so to speak. like where we’re at currently in the story, on garrifax, they’re in a very rural countryside almost so there’s not a ton of technology there. given that there are many planets and systems spread across this universe, some parts are obviously going to be more technologically advanced than others.
there aren’t really ‘cellphones’ or smartphones like we would have but the wristbands go in place of that. what a lot of the scenery and environment is meant to emulate is a sort of call back to past history and things of the past, or a clinging to this old tradition even if it’s not the more forward-thinking type of technology. in that sense, i would say that moc’s universe is certainly not the typical cyberpunk feeling bc in cyberpunk there tends to be this huge emphasis on tech and that’s the driving force behind a lot of the universes in cyberpunk spaces. moc is set in a futuristic space universe but i wanted to play with this idea of a futuristic space au that isn’t supposed focused on these incredible technologies, and rather focus on the people in it and how they make the universe what it is. rather than having this super advanced internet-spaceship system, they have a comms system. but also they’re pirates, criminals, fugitives of the law - if they get too advanced with an internet system, they could be tracked just like criminals in the real world. the idea that ‘big brother is always watching’ is very much present in the universe of moc, and so that’s sort of a subconscious awareness type of thing rather than something i feel i need to go into lots of detail about. 
for me personally when i think about the story and when i’m constructing the story, the idea of there being things like video games or vr headsets doesn’t feel like it necessarily fits with the idea and tone of the setting that’s already been constructed, and that was never something i thought i wanted to include from the very beginning of the idea. and that was a conscious decision just because from the start, i’ve wanted the story to be set in this fantastical universe of course but the plot and the characters are meant to be the focal point, and i didn’t feel a need to add all this fictional advanced technology into the mix on top of that. for things like dishwashers, yes those exist in the universe, but that was more of a personal experience thing - there are times where i was dishes by hand bc they can’t go in the washer or bc i feel like washing by hand so i wouldn’t put too much thought into those sorts of utilities!
as for queerness, i would say that aspect is a lot like the world we live in. in some places, it’s far more tolerated but in others it’s severely judged and looked down upon. in the scope of the main characters we have in our crew - i want the crew to feel like a safe space for not only the main character and the other crew members but also to the reader. they are a safe place and they offer understanding and warmth and comfort that’s completely separate from the parts of the universe that aren’t that accepting or understanding. it’s been addressed in the plot before with yeosang and wooyoung in particular, that they could never have been together even if wooyoung weren’t a slave because of gender and because of yeosang’s position as a prince. in the monarchies, there is very much that traditional old-school ancient mindset of a Cishet Male King and Cishet Female Queen. varying degrees of acceptance is the best way to put it, as with sexism, but again, i would say that the sexism is more heavily emphasized on the planets where we see clear regimens and almost archaic governments so to speak. 
i will say that we will see a lot more characters come into play, and we will see journeys with the characters we already know, and as it’s a story that’s very character based, those are aspects i love to focus on and so we’ll be getting into more of that and seeing things unfold and manifest over the course of the story as we’ve barely scratched the surface regarding the entirety of the universe and what it holds!
i hope this all makes sense and is more than just my ramblings bc my god did i ramble!
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I think I know her! I believe I have seen some of her vlogs! The stuff you like to do seems lile so much fun!! I'll will have to try them out!! I don't play it anymore since I finished the game (and currently waiting the second one) but I adore Breath Of The Wild!! Its has to be one of my top games to play! I also like Mario games (like Mario Party, Mario Kart, Mario 3D World, Lugi's Mansion, etc!), I haven't play this in a while but Overwatch is fun too play! It was always a good distraction when I got freaked out since you have to stay focused! I do like to play Animal Crossing!! And I am so happy they brought back Happy Home Designer!!! I used to play it on my 3DS and I am very happy its back!!! Similar to Animal Crossing I like Harvest Moon! There is a old DS game I have that is about Strawberry Shortcake and I like playing!! As well as some old DS games I have! I am sure there are more but I cannot remember anymore at the moment! Oo sorry I went on a lil ramble! But I really adore playing with friends and family! I have always liked games and my one friend has always been really into it so playing games feel like I am connecting to her in a way!! I have never heard of those books! Maybe my library has them!! I really like fantasy books! I have more recently gotten into nonfiction books too! It's just a lil hard when you had a attetion span of a wooden block. If you could travel anywhere in the world, without worrying about langague barrier or costs, where would you go? I know I am talking alot but I think your really cool and interesting!! I am very happy I get to talk to you!!
omg i def know botw, overwatch and animal crossing!! animal crossing was THE reason why i wanted to get a switch for myself but yeah it obv didn't happen lol and my friend adored botw just as much as you seem to do!! ig it's popular for a reason haha AND OH MY GOSH A GAME BASED OFF OF MY GIRLIE STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE?? the amount of times i have watched any and all series/versions of it haha and mario kart!! i played that once when i stayed over at my friend's house and it... it may have strained our friendship a bit bc we're both competitive haha and never worry about ranting! i happen to enjoy seeing people talk about their passion and interests ‼️im happy you have an activity to fall back to when you're overwhelmed!
fantasy books always hit different 🤧🤧 are you more into older ones like lotr or some newer ones like the cruel prince series? (i have a... mild... obsession with the cruel prince series if my sideblog isn't enough proof of it 😭) ooh and nonfiction? any specific topics that you read about? i think i need to start broadening my nonfictional book horizons too hehe. reading is supposed to be fun and you should never feel pressured doing it so pls don't stress about not being able to keep focused 😽 maybe you can read short stories!! there are tons of super fun, thought provoking, cute and insightful collections hehe
if i could travel anywhere in the world without worrying bout all that, i would choose morocco, japan, s.korea, nepal and croatia! moroccan landscapes have me in a CHOKEHOLD and the architecture?? divine. same reasons go for nepal! the scenery and all of the breathtaking landscapes just— ugh </3 as for croatia, i just heard my friend's stories of it from her yearly summer vacations there hehe im very curious. as for japan and s.korea, i just want to see what life truly is like there. im fascinated by cultures, so i definitely want to embark on a world tour some time soon! the only matter is financing 🚶🚶🚶 it's gonna take a bit of time to save enough money for it all, but i WILL do it. definitely. hopefully.
and omg you're the cutest 😭😭 i am enjoying myself too so definitely talk as much as you like!! thank you, too haha it flatters me a lot, being called interesting ;-;
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The album grew on me a bit, but it's a confusing one, usually I'm like this "omg I love this" "this is nice" "I don't care for it" e.g. ZFP3 I was obsessed with DV and Rocky, liked ES, AAY, NTL, didn't care for FLID. Here every song has elements I like and elements I'm not fond of? Like sometimes they did too much, sometimes not enough (my biggest issue are still the choruses). I more or less got used to the beat and tone changes after listening a few times and I know the album is very cohesive and interesting (the instrumentals are really great), but it just didn't hit me that much, not to the point of replying songs over and over again. And that's a bit sad, cause it's clearly their biggest comeback. So yeah I accepted the album, it might be their most ambitious and cohesive one which is always a nice concept, but I can't say it's my favourite, ZFP1 is still superior because I enjoyed every song instantly. Not sure how to even rank the tracks, maybe Cyberpunk>Guerrilla>The Ring=Sector 1>New World>WDIG. I'm only sure about number 1 and 2, because other songs confuse me too much fhusudhjsjahsjw it's like this: 📈📉📈📉📈
I know a few people who aren't 100% into it (or not into it at all), so I don't feel alone lmao. But I'm glad most people, even non-Atinys like it and good for the boys, they worked hard. Ah with distancing myself I meant in general, I've been less into kpop recently, even my fave groups, so maybe that's also why I'm not that crazy about this Ateez comeback 🤔
I know BB Hwa was a simp, but also a dumb dumb, so he needed to be put in his place! So true, his brother stole the show, but at first I was excited about the possibility of Hwa having a real dog 😭 No bestie that asshole I genuinely despise still, one of my friends sees him occasionally and 🔫 ETL was not possible because a. I don't do lovers b. He's gay c. He's a real little bitch who messed with 2 of my friends. Me too, I only remember there was a lot of smut in Duke, but like I said I read it once and I'm an old person, my memory is lacking 💀
Uhhhh and what about my villain Y/N story 🤧 I remember you mentioning another AU, fake dating? Or was it for another member? I could've sworn you said something about Hwa ETL fake dating and some wedding? 🤔
Omg no I don't think I've ever seen that Geronimo guy, but he looks cute! I didn't dress as Sam... not yet at least 👀 the new episodes felt off cause the art was a bit different and they had different voices. Some of my fave cartoons except Totally Spies were Pokemon, Moomins, The Smurfs, Hamtaro, W.I.T.C.H, The Flintstones, Pinky and the Brain, Braceface, Life with Louie, What's with Andy, The Kids from room 402, Franklin, Heathcliff and the Catillac Cats. Some were older, some I watched in my early teens
I want that penguin ahhhhh, that website has so many Seonghwa's... dragons, cats, bunnies, birds - seriously is there another idol who has so many fursonas?!
Kitty cathwa yes 💖💖💖💖 have you seen this
This guy is such an non-threat lol. What is this behaviour????? . Anddddd this one should be locked away 🚨🚨🚨🚨
Ah my friend won a fan call with Mingi, I'm so happy for her, she couldn't speak with him during ZFP2 and she won fan calls twice, but he's her ult so I'm happy it's finally happening! - DV 💖
hi hello!!!
The album grew on me a bit, but it's a confusing one, usually I'm like this "omg I love this" "this is nice" "I don't care for it" e.g. ZFP3 I was obsessed with DV and Rocky, liked ES, AAY, NTL, didn't care for FLID. Here every song has elements I like and elements I'm not fond of? Like sometimes they did too much, sometimes not enough (my biggest issue are still the choruses). I more or less got used to the beat and tone changes after listening a few times and I know the album is very cohesive and interesting (the instrumentals are really great), but it just didn't hit me that much, not to the point of replying songs over and over again. And that's a bit sad, cause it's clearly their biggest comeback. So yeah I accepted the album, it might be their most ambitious and cohesive one which is always a nice concept, but I can't say it's my favourite, ZFP1 is still superior because I enjoyed every song instantly. Not sure how to even rank the tracks, maybe Cyberpunk>Guerrilla>The Ring=Sector 1>New World>WDIG. I'm only sure about number 1 and 2, because other songs confuse me too much fhusudhjsjahsjw it's like this: 📈📉📈📉📈
AHHHHH MAKES SENSE I THINK ITS RLY NICE THAT U AT LEAST GAVE IT A LISTEN OR GAVE IT A TRY! some openly just 🔫🔫 even if it’s something not your style! jVDNSBS CYBERPUNK IS RLY SO GOOD love love the note change hdjd hopefully they perform it live 😭😭😭omg did u listen to blackpink’s ready for love?? it’s actually kinda slaps dbdb
I know a few people who aren't 100% into it (or not into it at all), so I don't feel alone lmao. But I'm glad most people, even non-Atinys like it and good for the boys, they worked hard. Ah with distancing myself I meant in general, I've been less into kpop recently, even my fave groups, so maybe that's also why I'm not that crazy about this Ateez comeback 🤔
yeah!! def a really big comeback with sHIT TON OF PCS IM READY TO ROB FBFBFB they really worked really hard 😭😭😭 someone tweeted about seonghwa having a tough time after 3 takes and was being supported by the dancers,, the choreo is definitely super difficult ABFMWBDKW AHHH tbh i also get it fbf after 2017 the kpop attraction i had just started to 📉📉📉📉
I know BB Hwa was a simp, but also a dumb dumb, so he needed to be put in his place! So true, his brother stole the show, but at first I was excited about the possibility of Hwa having a real dog 😭 No bestie that asshole I genuinely despise still, one of my friends sees him occasionally and 🔫 ETL was not possible because a. I don't do lovers b. He's gay c. He's a real little bitch who messed with 2 of my friends. Me too, I only remember there was a lot of smut in Duke, but like I said I read it once and I'm an old person, my memory is lacking 💀
A DUMB SIMP 😭😭😭 HE WAS ENDEARING DJDJDJ LMFAOOOO NAURRR 😭😭😭 i will make sure in the next fic of his i will include a doggo for him <3 name it hamin too <3 GOD DAMN I CAN SMELL THE RAGE FROM JUST THOSE SENTENCES NDNDNDND 😭😭😭 LETS JUST KEEP IT AT ENEMIES TO ENEMIES,,, LMFBFMWJDKE IS IT OLDNESS or is it bc u don’t drink enough water 🔫
Uhhhh and what about my villain Y/N story 🤧 I remember you mentioning another AU, fake dating? Or was it for another member? I could've sworn you said something about Hwa ETL fake dating and some wedding? 🤔
iMMA NEED U TO TELL ME WHICH ONE U WANT FIRST 🔫 i like being told to do a certain thing bc ✨ indecisive ✨ so i will follow that exactly dbdbd YES THE WEDDING ONES ABSOLUTELY YES I WILL WRITE IT <3 will have a uquiz soon where u can decide dbdb
Omg no I don't think I've ever seen that Geronimo guy, but he looks cute! I didn't dress as Sam... not yet at least 👀 the new episodes felt off cause the art was a bit different and they had different voices. Some of my fave cartoons except Totally Spies were Pokemon, Moomins, The Smurfs, Hamtaro, W.I.T.C.H, The Flintstones, Pinky and the Brain, Braceface, Life with Louie, What's with Andy, The Kids from room 402, Franklin, Heathcliff and the Catillac Cats. Some were older, some I watched in my early teens
HE REALLY IS CUTE the art is so nostalgic and cozy, as if it’s christmas and ur wrapped in a blanket and it’s rly >>>> YOU NEED TO DRESS UP AS HER OH MY GOD PLS WITH ALL THE GADGETS AND ALL DBDB oh???? different voices??? 🤨🤨🤨 well damn, time to binge the older ones bc damn dbdb I KNOW ALOT OF THOSE CARTOONS BUT DO U RMR “RECESS” AND MAGIC SCHOOL BUS
I want that penguin ahhhhh, that website has so many Seonghwa's... dragons, cats, bunnies, birds - seriously is there another idol who has so many fursonas?!
NOPE DBDBD SEONGHWAS FANDOM IS FULL OF FURRIES 😭😭😭😭😭 bestie buy it 🔫
Kitty cathwa yes 💖💖💖💖 have you seen this
STOP STOP STOP IM GONNA SCREAM IM FBWNFHWJ
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This guy is such an non-threat lol. What is this behaviour????? .
he’s sO LAME 😭😭😭😭,,, that behaviour is that one scene in duke where the yn is talking to her mother and seonghwa’s standing behind her mother doing this 🔫🔫🔫
Anddddd this one should be locked away 🚨🚨🚨🚨
DO YOU WANT A SEONGHWA FIC BREATHE IF YES FBWMFJKWD
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Ah my friend won a fan call with Mingi, I'm so happy for her, she couldn't speak with him during ZFP2 and she won fan calls twice, but he's her ult so I'm happy it's finally happening! - DV 💖
OH MY GOD?????? THATS SO COOL OMG PLS WOWFBWMDHSJ SHES SO LUCKY!!!! bestie u better get a pola now 🔫
oH i rmr u mentioning u went to india for a wedding right? did u get to wear the outfits and the jewelry 😧😧😧 omg dID U GET EVERYTHING????
THE PHOTOS // 2
AND LITERALLY THE PRETTIEST MAN ALIVE !!!!!
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monthly(ish) 🎀 update!
heyyy! it’s me. i haven’t done one of these in sooo long 😭 i figure i should start with what everyone is waiting on, arsal. truth be told i did not listen to anyone’s advice and im still hopelessly in love with him and it doesn’t help much that we’re both playing this back and forth hard to get game. truly it’s so like. draining to have him constantly on my mind. i think the problem is because when we were kids i liked him a little bit and now that all this dawned down on me it just became even worse because he truly is one of the first guys i’ve really really liked.
i’ve always had a bad track record with situationships and hookups and i never really really liked any guy i’ve ever talked to or been with but with arsal it’s so different. like even when i don’t talk to him something about him just makes me gravitate towards him. sigh it’s so hard being a girl 💔
speaking of guys randomly cameron called me one night after like 3 months of no contact and said he wanted me again and i told him i didn’t miss him and he called me a slut and said that’s why im incapable of love which is crazy because he is the first guy i admitted that fear to so good to know! he was drunk but it still made me feel a certain way.
back to less important things, currently im laying in bed in my hometown and it feels so surreal because it’s my last winter here and it’s just, hitting me. like ill actually have to leave this place i call home and it just sucks.
ENOUGH SAPPY THINGS! let’s go into more drama. basically i have a trio ish kinda thing with my main circle of friends, one is my best friend for ever i love that girl and the other is one of my guy friends and we absolutely hate him. he is such a man and it’s so disgusting how he talks about his ex. and he likes to act like he has a crush on both me and my friend it’s so weird.
kpop.. oh kpop. i’ve completely fell out of kpop once like school started again. i haven’t listen to any music or read a single fic since i fell out. i think it might be for good this time. but that does NOT mean ill ever stop sending in my updates, we are pen pals forever until somehow someone deletes my tumblr account and your account disappears.
god what else can i talk about. i turned 20 this year. so surreal truly. i blew out my candles and i think i stared at the cake in silence. i don’t even know whats happening to me at this point. i genuinely feel like im going through a (not mid) mid life crisis.
ANYWAYS. i know this isn’t like majority of my updates, everything is all over the place. and the vibes r off :( how are you doing alice? you mentioned you’re moving that’s exciting! is the place nice?? give me some updates girl i miss you!!
yours truly - 🎀
PLEASEEE 😭😭 i support you but also don't let him play you queen 😞🙏 i totally get the old flame reigniting type of crush tho it's so easy to fall back on the familiarity too :') i think also having a lot of good memories with someone makes it easier to keep thinking about those and looking forward to more 🤧
CAMERON??: 🙅‍♀️ NOOO also what the fuck?? what a dick :/ that is such a terrible thing to say intoxicated or not i absolutely HATEE when men just throw around derogatory words and put women down 😭 and i hope you told him off bestie, and if you didn't then i support going off on him whenever you want (or just ghosting for your mental health!!!) 🙏
it's always hard to leave home 🥹🥹 it feels so bittersweet cause you're excited about being on your own and living independently but it also feels like you're leaving behind the safety net :(( also GOD time to turn that trio into a duo cause why does he put down his ex and treat you guys like that?? :(
yes i love hearing from you so i'm glad we established the little pen pal communication 🥹🥹 but no i totally understand, i fall out a little too when life gets too busy :') but it's nice that kpop is something you can always come back to whenever you want (even if it feels like you're missing a lot of context since the industry is growing fast HAHAH)
the almost quarter life crisis is so real 🤧 i experience birthday sadness like every year even if i'm having a really good time <//3 it's just the fear of growing up and life changing as you take on more responsibilities, but you're not alone!! i hope that offers some comfort but we're all in the same boat struggling to feel like adults 💝💝
but yes the move is all done and the place is really nice !!! i've been meeting a lot of my neighbors and they're all very sweet and friendly, so it feels like a very supportive community 🥹 i've currently been deep in a reading phase so i've just been stalking goodreads like whenever i have free time 😭 i've also been talking to someone !! since like ?? november i think but omg my flight instincts are kicking in so bad i've been fighting the urge to ghost since december bc i'm so nervous ab this stuff 🏃‍♂️ like i'm just a girl omg....... but other than that i've been meeting up with friends and having a good time 🥰 OH and i Might go to coachella but we'll see because tickets are kinda..... ☹️ my wallet's gonna die and i wanna see svt this year sooo
currently my little project is this seungkwan harry potter fic that i started in december 🤧 but my goddd it's at 20k words and i'm barely a third of the way through <//3 but it's been fun to write!! so i hope i don't run out of fuel when i'm done HAHAH but i hope you've been doing well love !! 🫶🫶
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minhyukie · 1 year
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hello! this your secret santa #2 again! i loved your answer, it made me rewatch some of their stuff, and i was especially focused on minhyuk :')
i also always really loved their bond, i know most groups are close, but they truly are a group of brothers, it's so sweet to see. i also have to say what you pointed out about minhyuk are some of the reasons i respect him so much, too; he's genuine and straightforward and i love that. 🥺
and for me, i actually got into mx last summer! i fully became a fan on the first day of fall last year haha, it was when i watched the guide to mx and loved their vibe immediately. i tend to bias idols with big smiles so kihyun was my instant pick, but as time goes by i'm more drawn to shownu. although, i will say most of the time i feel like i can't choose a bias, they're all so <333 🫂🤗❤️‍🔥🤧
before i knew them, i was intimidated by them for some reason, i thought joo was this big, scary, meanie (LOL!!) and i saw a picture of a frowning kihyun and i thought wow these guys must be intense (hilarious to think about it now). i got into them through one of a kind and all about luv, had those albums on repeat before i even knew their names or anything about them. once i decided to give them a chance.... instant love. love at first sight. 😊
and for this week's questions, can you tell me more about your favorite songs & favorite lyrics? also what's your favorite variety content/moment if you have one? and, finally, do you like cucumbers? 😁 i hope your week is going well so far 💕
(also you can choose any emoji you'd like hehe)
hello hello!! aww i love that 🥺 and kihyun shownu excellent choices!! it'll be exciting when shownu returns from enlistment as he's been gone the whole time you've been a fan and it's so soon now!! it's so soon now ❣️
omg honestly i was the same before i stanned, it's crazy how different they are in reality versus how they seem to those unfamiliar with them.. when i only know who shownu was i thought he was the maknae for some reason (?? maybe because his personality seemed a bit timid??) and in my head i thought the other members must be Big And Scary.. but yes once you give them a chance it is so easy to love them!!!
favorite songs would hands down be see you again, underwater, miss you, no reason.. they've all got a similar vibe (atleast in my mind idk) that makes me Yearn.. also LOVE the raps in all of those songs, they all hit so hard to me. for me with kpop it's definitely more about vibes than lyrics and a lot of times i never even look up/translate the lyrics but if i had to point to something i always loved wonho's lyrics from his composed songs (if only, no reason, and now some of his solo music as well).. he’s so poetic and the way he writes is just so beautiful
favorite variety omg.. i definitely lean towards their older variety stuff just because i used to rewatch it sooo much when i entered the fandom so it has a special place in my heart. particularly right now and monsta x ray!! they're such classics and all the episodes of each are so fun. but actually definitely probably my favorite variety moment was from one of their appearances on idol room, the segment where they're all trying to catch the bread in their mouth 😭😭😭😭 i still think it's sooo funny i could watch it on repeat for hours and not get tired of it.. they get SO into it and it's just so silly. do you have any fav variety moments? there's so many good ones!!
and i do like cucumbers i'm so sorry minhyuk 😔 love that boy but we have opposite tastes in many things hahaha
hope you had a good week as well!! it's almost the holidays!
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jeweled-blue-eyes · 2 years
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i like to hc (or i think it’s canon. like it was heavily implied) that athy has a mental illness..? depression i think. ( pls let me have this ok! i know it’s so cliche but i also have mdd and her character just hits me esp her reincarnation as a person in our world and she... died 😭😭😭) also i like how functional she is? like yes she has dark thoughts a lot, but she has a good facade. she is strong (i mean she’s lived under poverty, no parents AND most likely worked at customer service) works hard, and smiles and keeps doing all of it, she doesn’t want to die bc of claude. do we know if she overdosed on purpose? was it an accident? we can’t know exactly. *LONG (AND I MEAN LONG) rant ahead i tried to make it make sense and this is just my own experience i’m sure other people will see it differently. you don’t have to read this, so please skip it if you don’t want to read this! and if you did and if you’d like, tell me what you think x*
what we do know is that she opened her eyes and she’s suddenly... a pitiful princess. and you know what? she’s not having any of this. she doesn’t want to have yet another shitty life. and yes she’s tired and she keeps wondering if what she’s doing is right. if she’s making the right decisions. when it gets REALLY hard she thinks “i thought i’d finally be happy”. she’s felt so lonely, and scared, finding a real friend like jennette, i think her fear of possible death if jennette were to be noticed by claude is surpassed by her wanting an actual connection with someone. to be loved. and who better than her sister? 🥺🥺 LISTEN IM A FIRM BELIEVER WMMAP SHOULDNT HAVE ROMANCE AS A MAIN THEME (especially in the novel where everything is more fucked up, here it’s more family centered) idk why they were shoving a lucas romance so fast when my girl athy is having a breakdown. for me, she just needed a friend. i think she had finally found a healthy connection to someone. jennette is her sister. and! she loves athy unconditionally. she’s never scared of her because she knows jennette would never want to hurt her. in fact, jennette would almost die for her like twice. (talking manhwa) i wish we could have focused more on the sibling bond in this story because it does athanasia so good. and i think, it’s a parallel with ana and claude’s relationship. athanasia and jennette, they choose to love each other and i think that’s so sweet. peak writing there spoon 💓🤧
also it’s like. a really good depiction of mental illness too (even if it was maybe? unintentional bc we only see the dark thoughts a few times, when claudes in a coma, especially but that works great because it often just. lingers and that’s why ppl don’t get treated until it’s serious and more dangerous.) she’s high functioning. i can see a lot of typical behavior? for some of us it impairs us, won’t let you even get out of bed or take care of yourself. losing interest in things you liked before is common etc but for others! work and study and it’s SO hard and there’s bad thoughts and all you can do is. eat something because food doesn’t really fail ever. smile! distract yourself by doing daily tasks, etc ☠️ i hope this isn’t too tmi i don’t wanna overshare. maybe someone will relate lmao. ANYWAYS the amnesia arc, this is my favorite lucas, sort of. like you know how i’ve said before that i have a love-hate relationship with this dude. this is kinda why, i wanna elaborate 😭. because im so angry at him right now
ok so yes lucas is not great! and his relationship with athanasia is... uhh! kinda unhealthy 🥴 like i feel like athanasia clings to him because he’s literally the only person who is there, but not under normal circumstances it’s not really an effort on his part because he’s super powerful and he’s not in actual danger. so he can’t really relate to the magnitude of these events like a normal person would. he thinks blowing things up is gonna solve their problems (that’s not problem solving lucas) when something traumatic happens lucas is put there so we associate security to him. you also said that he’s been a victim of abuse. so i can understand why things are happening like this (i’m not happy about it though they could have written something better😔) it’s sort of like clinging to people who show you the bare minimum of what is kindness because well. you’re scared of loneliness perhaps. or, you aren’t used to others being kind to you, and it feels nice. this can make some mentally ill people easy to manipulate, AND it can make others too clingy or controlling. i see it something like that. maybe in my case i like him bc of this? ☠️ i’m speaking from experience here
maybe athy has associated security with lucas. sense of security and the few instances where he’s kind, bc he’s bitch shaped, in the middle of all of the uncertainty. it’s not the best support someone could be giving and he’s definitely not a good person, but no one (jennette should but also we know they’re pushing for lucas/athanasia interactions so they just won’t let her be there with athy ugh 😩) else is there when athanasia is having these traumatic experiences (again probably doing this on purpose and it DOES sound manipulative doesn’t it? not lucas, the writing). i was actually expecting character development for lucas bc of the amnesia arc.
i finally saw him caught off guard for once, because athanasia is actively having “dark thoughts” (i’m calling them that but i really mean suicidal this is where i get the idea she did kill herself), and he didn’t want to show her the world tree branch because he’s scared she will die, that she will “leave him”. he cares for her but it’s a little more on the unhealthy side bc they’re both mentally ill. moving on. he also shows her the tree branch because hes scared she is feeling hopeless (very depressed). sure it hurts but if it means she stays alive, he will try to aid her if it makes her feel better. when he sees her like this, he relents and shows her it. the tree tells her of this method to cure her dad, and he gets angry because it will put her in danger and it’s uncertain that it will actually work. see, this is where i actually liked lucas. helping claude isn’t possible for him. in contrast to how he talks about aeternitas being weak, and being out of touch because well he’s THE wizard. this is one of the few things that he cannot do, so he is sort of in the same place as athy right now. a feeling of helplessness? he can’t do anything, as powerful as he is, to cure her father. and you know? it’s nice. i wish he had stayed like this.
if they hadn’t made him so powerful i would have actually preferred him more as a love interest. it’s really difficult to connect to him because he is almost invincible most of the time, except for in the amnesia arc. before and after this time period, he is more cocky and so sure of himself, it’s like he can’t bring himself to feel empathy for others. so when i saw him be sensitive and unsure i wanted him to keep going on this path of becoming a better person, a better friend for athy, and realizing that he’s not all powerful. just because someone is mentally ill doesn’t excuse being a jerk, and two mentally ill people being in a relationship doesn’t mean that the relationship has to be toxic! but there’s steps in order for it to work and so they don’t sink together... athy and him could have actually helped each other (i’m not saying fix each other here, that’s not how it works) if he could just open up and be vulnerable, ack if they didn’t try to paint him as the usual love interest all the time. same as her! i want her to talk about her trauma and her problems to someone so bad, lucas knows she reincarnated, but they don’t talk about it. unfortunately the narrative is pushing the typical shoujo josei approach which has toxic gender roles and its so boring 😔😔 the incredibly strong and possessive ml and a weaker fl who needs help. right now i dislike lucas a lot, aack like really... he’s gone back to being inconsiderate and a bitch. hate it here
the only other person i know of that helped athy was my boy kiel, but! this child did have a lot to risk, in contrast. by running after athy he’s going against not only his own family but against claude which means sort of... certain death for him. he’s ACTUALLY contributing to this relationship by sacrificing things, putting effort in order to help her. hell, falling in love with her was probably one of his first choices. something that is “him”. it’s struggling if you’re a normal human person. again, we could have kiel and jennette to balance out the lucas and claude interactions but they are REALLY pushing for a lucas thing here bc he’s the novel’s love interest so they will reduce kiel to a second thought when i really think, even if he isn’t an all powerful wizard, that he could offer better support to athanasia and relate more to her than, well, most characters would, and in a healthy way. he would be more sensitive and would comfort her, not saying that they could simply solve it by destroying things but actually telling her, that yes, she’s right, that’s a very difficult situation and she shouldn’t have to go through that. he would not be able to fully understand but he’d try to help her in any way possible. because he was always on her side. it’s honestly great. there’s probably symbolism in there but i’m too stupid to notice. something about changing your fate. there’s certainly parallels between athy and kiel because they’re both changing the future. making choices for THEM. choosing to follow happiness. 🧍something like that someone will probably say it better than i ever will. 👉👈
and last, but not least, i wanted to talk about claude. it’s a similar situation with claude and lucas. he’s the only father athanasia ever had (unfortunately) and any fatherly love athy ever received is from him even if this dude REALLY needs to stop projecting and being violent and distant there’s so many things wrong with claude and he’s so complex. i enjoy his character but he’s a horrible father. at least he’s trying now unlike a certain black cat with red eyes instead of green ones. athanasia actually confronts him... anyways. mental illnesses are often hereditary (i’m not opening MY can of worms though but it runs in the family) we see how VERY unhealthy family dynamics have traumatized the obelian royal family for generations (aka intergenerational trauma babeyyy 🗣😩☠️) and it finally culminates in ana being possessed by aety, in claude becoming a tyrant, in him executing athanasia, and jennette unintentionally making him worse. aeternitas takes over the throne and well. it’s kinda the end of the empire lol.
we can see how this environment affects athanasia, in the first timeline especially, it is a reflection of her life the second time around, and the third time again. sure, she didn’t exactly inherit claude’s alcoholism (i’d recommend she doesn’t risk it though. stay away from alcohol) or violent behavior, BUT she is definitely suffering from a mental illness (like most obelian royalty) and she has also adopted the tendency of drowning herself in work just like he does. and she’s a little desensitized to the violence. it’s a bit of a softer blow because she didn’t internalize it as much as if she had been a baby, being an adult in a child’s body. but it’s still there. and claude got the most of it, a lot more than anastacius did. being an illegitimate child, etc. the person who got away from all of this mess and broke the cycle of abuse is jennette. she was raised in the alpheus manor and we can’t say roger is the best father because he has a lot of flaws. he’s using jennette and pushing ijekiel to be the next head, and probably instilling the wrong ideas in both of them since they were children. he’s put them both in danger with their greed. however, that will always be better than living in the palace. jennette has been affected by the way she was raised but in a very different way than she ever would have had she lived in the palace. ana will not be the best father either, but he hasn’t been in claude’s position who was most subjected to trauma in that same place than anastacius ever was. so he’s not on his level of fucked up, fortunately jennette will be ok with him.
i think jennette and ijekiel should have stayed closer to athanasia and they have a lot more importance than many people give them credit for. it’s a breath of fresh air from everything heavy that happens around her. hell, not even lucas was free from abuse and he has a lot of issues stemming from abandonment etc. they’re sort of the healthiest bonds athanasia has and she NEEDS those! she really does. i think i’ve talked too much already, 😭 idk what it’s supposed to be. analysis? rant? being angry that there’s SO much potential for more themes because the word building is simply incredible? so i’ll leave it here. thanks for listening and if you’ve read until here! don’t wanna force you to answer or anything. and sorry for clogging ur inbox
Headcanon accepted! I like to hc LP Athy to have an Avoidant Personality Disorder & depression. This is probably contradicted by canon since Lithium said LP Athy crying was so out of the character that even Claude was suprised by her breakdown but since it's the only panels where she has dialogue I imagine her to be similar to Hilise Inoaden in her first life: cries easily but only at night when she's alone by herself, hypersensitive, feels unsafe in big crowds or when alone with strangers, clings to every gesture that can be interpreted as kindness, tendency to excuse the actions of the people she cares about (really how has she not lost hope for Claude in those 18 years of her life facing his rejection and the noblility's mockery?).
Talking about mental illnesses being heredity, baby Claude could have also ended up with an Avoidant Personality disorder if he hadn't freezed his heart, I think. But now I hc him with an Antisocial Personality Disorder, Like Lucas.
But I don't think wmmap is good representation of mental illness. You could argue that Lucas' and Claude's "psychopathic/sociopathic" tendancies are mainly caused by dark magic and not their childhood trauma. Like even though Claude seems to have ASPD, baby Claude never showed signs of a conduct disorder. I know this isn't a must but still. Athy's trauma only gets bought up when spoon needs to stirr drama between her and Claude. It doesn't really impair her much in her everyday life. There isn't a day where she has a hard time getting out of bed or a day where she tries pursuing her hobbies but nothing brings her joy anymore. She still manages to be productive. She had no problems to interact with strangers and blend in with the tea party girl's in high society, even though their mother's betrayed her later and some of them surely did the same in the first timeline (ignoring Athy in favour of Jennette), yet she doesn't really harbour any resentment against the noble's that harmed her in her first life.
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jjunis · 2 years
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omg soobin aura!! do you know about this line about bias and bias wrecker?
"your bias is someone you share the same personality with, and your bias wrecker is your ideal type"
PLS IT IS THE OTHER WAY AROUND FOR ME! me and yeonjun have a lot of differences. from his fashion sense (i suck at fashion), he's talented, kind-hearted, he always have this idol aura. he's born to be an star and i'm very far from that! i don't even know if we really have in common 🤧 BUT for soobin, he's the eternal bias wrecker for me! he's always my wallpaper becauae his photos are all boyfie material. we have a lot in common pls. EXCEPT THE FACT THAT HE'S TALL.
but when beomgyu came into the scene, idk anymore. choi beomgyu, i realized it recently, we have also a lot in common. i'm chaotic when i'm with my family and irls. pls i'm the clown of the group. I'M LOUD. i talk loud as if i'm angry. my friends are used to that, they will say, "no, charl is not angry. that's how she talks." oh tmi
so idk anymore, now that beomgyu is my bias??? we share some cute personalities but he's also my ideal type. can i mention that he set my standards so high when soobin said beomgyu went out and bought him bandaids At 3 AM???? and recently, soobin said they talked until 5AM??? I'M SOBBING.
the line doesn't make sense anymore to me. beomgyu entered my life just to create chaos, why did he break my barriers, i thought i'm a yeonjun biased for life??? dw, i still love my jjuni 😭❤️ and txt really wrecked me. idk what to feel right now, tyunning is so strong recently. i really stopped thinking about bias BECAUSE IT CHANGES EVERY SINGLE DAY.
thank you for coming to my ted talk. forgive me for this ask. i just woke up, i have a lot of energy and i remembered that line because you said i have soobin's aura 😭 it's just me being chaotic and loud again lol i'm sorry
i think you remind of taehyun? idk i really admire your writing style, you're talented, smart and matured. idk if you will disagree to this but that's how i see you! a little bit of yeonjun since you are very good at taking care of your friends, constantly checking on them just like yeonjun. i'm not making any sense here tho. but whenever i see you simping for taehyun idk, is beomgyu taking over? pls. i guess that's all. sorry for being talkative 😭
oh i used to agree w that until i became a moa lmao
yeonjun has always been my bias but honestly we don't have a lot in common. except for maybe when he goes virgo mode lmao or when he's hard on himself for not being perfect (which i guess is just another virgo thing ✌🏼). tbh he's more like the person i'd like to be. he's so cool and talented and outgoing and ambitious, i could never. (when he chases beomgyu to hit him w something tho that's pure middle&high school dani behavior lmaoooo) i think this thing about taking care and checking on people comes from the fact that i have a younger sister (only 2 years younger but still!!!) and also bc i'm very mom-like with my nieces lol.
beomgyu is really lovable for me. he's chaotic and loud sometimes but you can see he's also super caring (like the bandaid thing???? literally the cutest???? or when he let soobin use his card and then when soobin gave him a lil present as a thank you beomgyu only mentioned the present and not the reason behind it????? hello???????? he's the sweetest thing ever but some people fail to notice that bc they only pay attention to the wild side we see on camera) and i have the biggest softest spot for him. sometimes he looks so sad and he has even mentioned it sometimes and i worry so much about him bc honestly he's such an angel :(
and then soobin and taehyun i love them :( i feel like realistically speaking they'd be the ones i'd get along with the most.
soobin is a true introvert, he's super shy, and that's... me. and that time he got a sour lemonade instead of his coke and he just drank it anyway that's also me. i'm really quiet and i have a hard time socializing too so i relate to him a lot
as for taehyun he's technically an extrovert but out of the four extroverts of the group, he's the quietest one. he's super smart and i admire that A LOT and he seems to have a very logical brain which is something everyone always says i have too lol. he's also really mature for his age and i love that about him. :(
but i'm glad you see me that way <3
as for my bias list since you mentioned it ajhdjwhd basically since the beginning yeonjun and beomgyu caught my attention, even in their pre debut era. when i actually became a stan, yeonjun just took his throne as my bias, soobin was my bias wrecker and beomgyu also became a wrecker not long after (that's why the url i used for my other blog is threechoi lol). i didn't pay much attention to the maknae line tbh like,, i loved them but i was never bias wrecked by either of them............. until silver haired ikily!taehyun happened. and also i started paying more attention to his personality when i watched videos and interviews and to do episodes and that was it. rip me. and also rip soobin. still love him tho
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jayflrt · 2 years
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OMGGG WAIT NO THATS CRAZY bc im actually in my senior year rn and i bought all of my albums and got into collecting this year 😭 i think its coping with senioritis bc i can rly feel it hitting me
i have the thrill-ing album! i have kick ver if i rmb correctly like the green one and omg it was like the first album i got of the four and the first pc i pulled was the eric lentil and i actually screamed and jumped bc eric is my tbz ult 🤧 my sister literally had to tell me to breath ajsjdjf 💀 i loved the arcade concept but after buying i realized i preferred the splash concept plus jacob's pcs were so so cute AND DUCKY ERIC </3
omg yea i would figure smglobal taking forever to ship so i resort to other methods like gos or kpop stores like ktown4u but shipping to my country;;;; not the cheapest 😭
OMG YES JISUNG'S FROST HAIR 🫂🫂🫂 it's like when younghoon had silver blond hair as well it hit rly different 💓 but yea dreamies have my whole heart <3 but im at that stage where you can show me any neo/vision and i'll be like "omg <333"
oh adding on to hot sauce and attacca i might want to get d:d as well bc i rly enjoyed that album! also that jake pc with the headband </3 AND SUNOO PINK HAIR <//3
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(omg i feel like my asks are getting longer and longer im so sorry 💀🧍)
omg senioritis hit me so hard :’)) i skipped like 70% of my ap physics classes HAHAH (pls do not do this) but i was sooo burned out 🤧 i only got into collecting for my third year of uni thi !! i considered it before but never had my own money to go for it 😵‍💫 plus i was very conscious ab giving out my information
omg the pcs for that album are so GOOD !!! 😔 and i adored the splash version too :’) smthn ab jacob in that era……. man i am a melt for him </3 my friend’s tayeon albums shipped pretty quick from sm global store tho so i’m hoping it was just a hot sauce thing 😵‍💫 bc i’m itching to preorder glitch mode 💗💗
AHHH BLONDEHOON I REMEMBER omg what’s up with all these idols experimenting 🤧 wonwoo recently got blonde hair too and it’s been messing with me!!!! i only ask for his hand in marriage 💍 i felt that so hard 🥲 that’s me with nct + svt i will just crumble at the mention of any member 😵‍💫
AHH U SHOULD DEF GET D:D !! omg the jake pc with the headband 😮‍💨😮‍💨 my friend’s been looking for that exact one for FOREVER HAHAH also omg anon you don’t have to apologize for the length of your ask !! i appreciate that you wrote all this 🥺 i hope you’re having a great day/night ♡
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stargirlfics · 4 years
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That Romanian anon hit different for me 😭 what if Bucky has been teaching you Romanian for some time now & while he's beating your ass with the belt, he's forcing you to repeat some of the things he taught you out loud. To make sure you were paying attention. & Every wrong answer/mispronounced word is a swat to the ass 🤧 meanwhile Steve is holding you down the entire time, kneading your ass on the correct answers & giving you a little "good job baby" when you're correct. My knees are WEAK
I WANT TO EXPERIENCE THIS IMMEDIATELY!! (part 1 of this here)
Bucky and Steve working together with punishments is almost too intense 
You know they’re not gonna go easy on you bc their little baby has to learn right? No room for bad behavior 
And with Bucky, something about how you're just a little sponge when he teaches you things makes him so hard
Steve is happy to assist and make sure you’re being the best girl and adds a soft touch to the spanks Bucky gives you with praise, telling you that you can do it 
Wow I loveee this!
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intuitive-bbloom · 2 years
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Hey bestie 😘 ☺ hehe I'm so happy that i got the chance to participate in your fs sufflemacy game!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭😭 okkk so i read your rules and there was no such rule how to send the ask. So I'm just sending it my way heh 😅 😌 so my initials are MMA if you want my name it is aria. 😊 emoji. And 🤧 Thank you very very much! Take care and have a nice day!!! 💞💞💞
Hey sweetie! 💕✨💕✨ you too have a nice day! Lots of love from my side☺️☺️☺️
The five songs your future spouse channeled for me are
Outta my mind by Monsune
Kill shot slowed and reverb by Magdalena Bay
So high by Doja cat
Two queens in a king sized bed by girl in red
9 by Willow ft SZA
Dear Aria, I love dancing with you it’s all vibes and fun, I like you a lot and I’m just waiting for the right time to let you know just how much you mean to me. I’ve been looking for someone like you all my life, it’s so exhilarating to be around you, I don’t know what to expect. I want you in my life, come be a part of it. I can’t get you outta my mind what magic are you using on me? You have it so easy, don’t you? I can’t even go to bed because you’re all I’m seeing, I can’t stop thinking about us and what we could be. I want to stop obsessing over you but god I’m so in love, you’re haunting me 🥲
God I’m so obsessed with you, I can’t stop browsing through my phone and staring at the photos of us, it’s like I’ve been hit by cupids arrow. Loving you is like a death wish, the way you stare into my soul makes me feel so vulnerable. I wanna still maintain my control but I can’t, I need to get you out of my mind. You have so much power over me, I can’t help falling for you every time, you’re so blinding. You’re the one with the arrow and you’ve hit me straight in the heart, I’m under your control. Will you ever let me go? You’re like honey, so sweet, kiss me and love me hard till I’m breathless. You probably know how much I’m in love with you, that wicked smile of yours knows that you’re the only thing on my mind.
You speed up my heartbeat whenever you’re close to me, whenever you touch me you relieve stress. Are you a drug cause you got me so high? Your love is so intoxicating and I want more of it every time, I know you want me and don’t worry I’ll give you exactly what you need. I can get used to you by my side, being mine.
You’re my queen, Christmas is coming up and I won’t hesitate to kiss you even if there isn’t a mistletoe above our heads. I don’t have much to give you except everything I have, let’s spend all my time together, let’s make snow angels and cuddle in our bed afterwards. I only want to be spending all my time with you, year after year I just want to be with you, I want it all. The closer we get the better it is, you’re my forever girl.
If only I could stay, I would stay with you, believe me I would. I just want to be with you, all alone in your zone. I’m not negative, just different, we both have different things we want and baby you got me wrapped around your finger, I wanna love you wholeheartedly but you’re scared, love is so difficult, isn’t it? I could lay all day with you but you want to get up, let’s make more memories together you sack of potatoes, we could make it all ours. I don’t want to play games anymore, we’re not kids anymore, talk to me, come through baby.
Wow this was a smooth reading for me! I hope you liked this! 💕💕✨✨✨ and something tells me this person has a lot of feminine energy, I was just thinking to myself as I was writing this that if I had tarot cards I’d probably have pulled the devils card with how passionate this person is.
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martaa hope ur feeling better ♡ i'm pretty invested in ur love life at this point so can we get the whole story of this situation with this girl and ur crush? (ps. seems like he's not worth it tbh, it's not the right person if u have to try so hard. stop focusing so much on him and look around!)
babes you're interested in something non-existent 😭😭 okay but seriously, I love you 🤧💖 was fighting tears all morning at work and when I saw your message, I felt a little better instantly. I was keeping it all in bc I'm too scared to bother my other friends or they just don't care. it means so much, thank you. hit me up off anon if you'd like, we can be best friends!! this is part one bc it's really gonna be the ✨whole✨ story
where do I even start. I met my best friend 10 years ago. we've always had a pretty rocky friendship, a lot of break ups, drama, fights etc. we have different personalities and different views on life so that's why it's sometimes hard for us to communicate (also the fact that she's not a big fan of communication in general lol). important thing is that she likes girls (I don't), last time we talked she labeled herself as bi curious. we went to the same university (different majors). I met there friend 1. we weren't really close, she was just someone I knew but then we became friends. she was a member of this student research group that my crush was a president of (they were already friends). one day she was like: come join us, we need new members, also there's this cute guy I want you to meet (it was the end of 2017). it was confusing and exciting and she told me he doesn't have a girlfriend and obviously I was a bitter single lol so I had high hopes from the very beginning. before we actually met, I saw his pics and he was so hot and I was like. uh oh. then he texted me first asking for a spelling/editing favour and I remember this day so clearly, sitting alone in the uni hallway between my lectures, smiling at my phone like an idiot, reading "I owe you a coffee" over and over again. I really was thinking I was gonna go on a first date with someone cute, I even started thinking of an outfit 🤡 so yeah, I thought it was the start of something beautiful. it wasn't tho lmfao! I remember telling my best friend that this is the first time in a long time that I felt actually happy (I was in the middle of psychiatric treatment for my depression).
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