#it doesn't feel like 2 months

[urlocaltransguy]

It's kinda weird that thanks to them came out like 2 months ago

#like ??? #it doesn't feel like 2 months #toh #toh s3 #thanks to them #random

[riviclouds]

*pets him with a slightly damp toothbrush*

#simon riley #simon ghost riley #call of duty ghost #cod ghost #i was listening to lana del rey while painting him and for a moment everything made sense #call of duty modern warfare 2 #cod mw2 #cod mwii #every time i add pure black or pure white to my painting i feel like. im committing a crime #doesn't matter how dark or bright the piece is #digital art #digital painting #fanart #medibang paint pro #i keep disappearing for months on end and you guys keep staying and waiting.... #i don't deserve y'all </3

[llutik]

learning names

#a song of ice and fire #asoiaf #my art #adwd #a dance with dragons #theon greyjoy #jeyne poole #ramsay bolton #ramsay snow #arya stark #or rather a suggestion of arya #valyrian scrolls #theons kraken brooch #since it takes up so much space #don't really like that drawing but i spent so much time on that i have to show it... #i should have spent my time drawing your lovely requests instead #will finish them in july. gay month 2. gay summer i dare say #i also feel like theon doesn't look... bad enough? ...... did i do anything right with this. #AND I FUCKING mixed up his hands XDXDXDXD

[introspectivememories]

i think one of the reasons i really like bernard and darla is because they met him at a time when he wasn't robin. to me, tim drake has always felt like an amalgamation of robin and tim. and he's good at it y'know? being tim drake and robin but when bernard and darla meet him at grieves he can't be robin. he has to just be tim drake. and he's obviously struggling but he tries for his father. and that's so interesting to me because who is tim drake without robin? he obviously doesn't know either. and we see him explore this in urban legends. he even asks himself in urban legends, "who am i if i'm not robin?" and i don't think it's too much of a surprise that at the end of urban legends, when he's figured out what he wants, he chooses the boy who only ever knew him as tim drake.

#isn't it fascinating??? #tim drake who is always tim and a mask‚ and if he isn't robin‚ then he's drake or red robin or something else #and when then sits down‚ and takes a good look at himself and starts asking questions #who am i without the mask? what do i want in life? who is tim drake? #when he finally figures it out at the end of urb.leg and he realizes what he wants‚ he chooses the boy who only ever knew him as tim drake! #doesn't that make you want to start chewing on drywall???? #doesn't that make you want to sit on your kitchen floor and start rocking yourself as you sob???? #HE CHOOSES THE BOY WHOSE NEVER KNOWN HIM WITH THE MASK *wails* #also disclaimer i feel like i'm simplifying war games a little bit #and like i don't think he stopped being robin until like 2/3/4? months into the school year?? #but like for the sake of the post you kmow what i mean #dc #bernard dowd #timber #tim drake #timbern

[saltpepperbeard]

HAPPY RELEASE NEWS DAY, Y'ALL

#OFMD #Our Flag Means Death #OFMD Season 2 #Revenge Rambles #I'm having to sort of pick myself up because I had an ATROCIOUS day at work #So if my energy doesn't seem NEARLY as chaotic as it should be...that's why lmao #But MAN if it isn't so so beautiful and so so lovely to see so much ENERGY abound again #Like seeing those tags GLOW #SEEING THE TAGS TREND #AFTER SO MANY MONTHS SHKDJSLLDK #AFTER SO MANY INSTANCES OF PEOPLE GETTING THEIR HOPES UP #LIKE LMAO WILD #STILL DOESN'T FEEL REAL #MY BRAIN STILL HASN'T ENTIRELY CAUGHT UP

[salemontrial]

Why the FUCK didn't Sasha apologize to Quinni.

#no im so pissed about that. #dude you don't give an autistic person a meltdown that big over something that hurtful #and just #walk away scot free #last time someone gave me a meltdown that hardcore I cut them off for a month. #that might just be the bpd tho #but still #quinni doesn't seem like the type to just. be chill without an apology and hearing sasha explain herself #and then she makes her her vice?????????? #she already acknowledged sasha is only in it for the power trip #sasha didn't even do anything in the investigation she just followed quinni around #which as she should #but she hasn't made up for how she treated quinni AT ALL #in fact she's just gotten MORE of a performative activist #like why the fuck was she such a bitch to missy abt spider #i get it yea. ur friends sometimes have dogshit taste in men but you don't need to make them feel like trash abt it #and the way she was like 'he fetishizes u for being black omg its probably asian girls next omg i dont feel safe' #THIS ISNT ABOUT YOU????????. #also she 100% jumpstarted quinnis identity crisis #with how she was constantly switching between infantilizing her and undermining her autonomy over her own decisions #and treating doing things quinni wanted to do and the specific way she needed to do them as a chore #and then victimizing herself!!!!!!! #like from experience that relationship dynamic IS abusive to autistic people it just is #idk if nt people get it but it's really fucking awful to come from your partner #anyway. until sasha apologizes to both quinni and missy this will continue to be a sasha hate page. #heartbreak high #heartbreak high season 2 #quinni gallagher jones #sasha so #missy beckett

[mwagneto]

people seeing gifs of the 15th doctor having gay little moments and going "ohh what's this show? i gotta watch it" is literally ending me not just coz of the concept that anyone can be unaware of doctor who but also bc like. while i do think it's a show ppl should watch in its entirety. DON'T DO IT FOR GAY REP LMAO. like it literally does have a lot of lgbt rep even all the way back in season 1 of 2005 fame but watching 13 seasons of doctor who coz something gay happens in the new eps is like. idk finding out there's a new pride and prejudice adaptation with a gay character in it and going ohhhh that sounds fun:) guess i'll go watch every adaptation ever made

#IT'S SO FUNNY. BABES THIS SHOW IS PSYCHOLOGICAL WARFARE #im rly glad 15 is getting ppl interested in it dgmw but it's wild coz like. i grew up with this it #really doesn't feel like a Regular Show to me like. that's a whole world #also like it is sooo god damn difficult to watch the entire show in order coz of all the specials #i know all of the eps in order coz im insane but I've been handholding 2 different ppl through #watching it for months now and it's such a challenge LMFAO especially if you dont have bbc iplayer #like yeah yeah the main character has an incredibly important arc no most ppl haven't seen it coz it #happens in some obscure series of specials that's near impossible to find. sorry #anyway. if u wanna watch dr who u should but if you're waiting for him to have a romance with a man uhm. so is everyone else sorry #it's gonna happen this season but like. it has been a Long battle oh my god . ohhmy god #doctor who #15th doctor #nuwho

[macadam]

Throwback to when someone referred to me as the matpat of transformers

#very few will remember this because it really happened so casually and also... almost 2 years ago now #in the era I like to refer to as this blog's prime #on a little post someone tagged me in #and I was such a champ about it. I was so normal and did not make a scene #but I think about it at least once a month #it really was so crazy. what did I even do #I still don't know if I should be offended or not. I know it was written to place me in high regards #but that somehow made it hit so much harder #it's the type of thing that happens and you gasp and talk about it in discord but it doesn't feel that crazy. and then you look back and go #I can't believe that was a real thing that was said to me #I can't believe.. if only for a moment.. that is how I exist in someone's mind #Mac mumbles #the titles I was given in 2021... the range #chill laid back guy #bug in a jar anon wants to study #uptight annoying prick #insane individual trying to pass off as a chill laid back guy #<- favourite one btw #and lastly #the matpat of transformers #what an era

[puppetmaster13u]

Slowly rotating designs for the meat marionette bodies.

Only sketched Dick & Bruce for now, but I like to think that they're partially made from their own blood. Any corpse that doesn't make it to the morgue, human or animal, might get dragged down by tendrils Gemini Home Entertainment style to the Hive.

Apologies if I am spamming, but what do you think @phoenixcatch7? Tried to make Dick look slightly more mammalian or avian compared to Bruce but idk if that came through lol.

#meat marionette au #batman #batman au #dcu #dc #body horror #sketch #art #Bruce is like 15 foot tall if including the ears lol #Dick is like 4 to 4 1/2 feet tall #Of course this is if they're standing on their legs and not on all fours #Random thing but Bruce definitely picks up his kids by their necks like a big mama cat lol #Also helps preens their wings especially since they have feathers unlike him #You can't tell me they can't contort their limbs or turn their head a solid 180 or even more #Omg the kids can use their tails to hang from things upside down or from Bruce's arms like shopping bags lmao #Curse you ADHD for latching on #Knowing it I will get a lot done in like 3 days and then procrastinate for months after lol #Y'know I wonder what Commissioner Gordon thinks about the Bat & what Gothamites in general feel about them #Like they're visibly protecting them but that doesn't make them any less unnerving or terrifying y'know #The bats might not kill but that is in fact a *threat* #Fun fact did you know over half your bones are in your hands :)

[yohankang]

also i didn't tell you guys but i was supposed to get a raise this month when i sign a new contract but they already sent it to me and there was no mention of the raise. so i felt horrible and almost cried at work and it took me a few hours but i actually went to talk to them and i will probably get a raise after all

#LIKE WHAT IS THIS WEEK. WHY DO I HAVE TO CONFRONT PEOPLE LIKE THAT AND STAND UP FOR MYSELF!!!! #i was like hey.. you mentioned a raise after the probationary period when i signed the first contract so i'm confused now ?? #and they were like we genuinely don't remember but it's alright we can talk about it and change it so just tell us how much do you want #which. is also shitty bc i know the girl who's been here for 3 months longer got it without asking #and i feel like i'm asking too much when it's not even 10%.... #but hey!!! i did that instead of just sitting there feeling wronged and waiting 2 years for my contract to end #i'm literally so brave but it doesn't even feel good 😭 #as a reward i bought myself train tickets to see my friend next month agjsfjsj and they were really cheap! #and now i'm trying to just. not think about All That. yk #that's why i'm rambling on tumblr dot com ahmsgjsdn #k.txt

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

#N posts stuff #one could argue ‘we see tula worry a lot tho’ but that’s bc Worry is an Action that can occur Separately from Recognizing Anxiety #now that I know tumblr will put a hard cap on your tags w/o telling you i'm resigning myself to posting rambling meta in post body #but i'm not happy about it; anyway i love how often life is full of Coincidences bc this is something I've Finally identified in myself #like. This Month. like this is brand new articulation for some of the problems i have in life; again knowing this doesn't help lmao #bc even when you know to look Around the shape of the emotion - like 'oh my face is Snarling rn. i'm probably experiencing Something' #like i said bc you don't know What that something is OR What might have caused it then the only solution you Ever get to come up with #is just 'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else' which INVARIABLY means that you will wind up in that same situation again #and Still have no idea how to handle it bc you never could figure out what caused it so you don't know how to handle it any better than #'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else'; so 'be somewhere else' is the ONLY way you can ever think to Help it #which usually invariably turns into 'Just Avoid Fucking Everything just in case'; which doesn't work! bc life doesn't let you do that #so then it's just a cycle of falling into the same pitfalls and feeling miserable all the time; gotta love it :) #if you're like me this also gives you Bad Bad Bad Memory bc your brain will Promptly hide evidence of Scary Situation instinctively #like 3 weeks ago this dude ran a red light and almost t-boned me Full Speed & managed to stop like. maybe 3 feet away. #and i like. Startled Laughed and said 'that was scary' and then within 30 seconds i had Fully Forgotten it happened & only remembered #like 2 days ago. Ha! believe it or not this Does Not Help with 'How can I Address the Problem instead of Avoiding It Entirely?' #dimension 20 #d20: stupendous stoats #tula #d20lb

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID: four page comic of the owl house. Page 1: Eda walks past Luz, Gus and Willow, who're sat on the floor of the owl house around a box labeled "Eda's Music". Eda notices them and peeks around the corner asking "uh, hey kid- whatcha doin?". Luz says "oh hey Eda!".

Page 2: Luz says "we were just going through all your old human music!" While holding a CD case. She continues "I've been getting nostalgic listening to some old latin pop CDs, like what my mom used to play around the house! (You have a surprising amount of merengue music btw)". Gus sheds a single tear and says "I've sampled human music before but, wow, just, wow! The technique...the inspiration...Carly Rae Jepsen is a genius". Willow looks to the side and says "and I've been listening to your old breakup mixtapes!".

Page 3: Eda looks at her blankly before saying "my what?". Willow says- "your breakup music! There's a whole box of it. I'm pretty over it now but back in the day...when Amity stopped hanging out with me...it hit me hard. I kinda had a phase of only listening to angsty breakup songs for like...a month. Maybe more. It's kinda sad in retrospect".

In the background we can see a flashback of young willow sobbing in bed while summoning vines to cover photos of her and Amity on her wall. Willow continues "things are a lot better now don't get me wrong...but I still listen to that playlist every once in a while when I need a release". Eda contemplates, then grimaces, remembering breakup with Raine (who's pictured saying "it's over, eda").

Page 4: Eda looks at Willow. She eventually says "wanna trade?" And Willow looks up. Final panel shows Luz standing in the doorway concerned as she looks at Willow and Eda. willow is kneeling in front of a casette player and headphones with a shadowy expression and Eda is in the family guy death post with a phone and headphone wire next to her. Both have annotations- Willow's says "got One of Us by ABBA" and Eda's is "got Nightshift by Lucy Dacus". Luz says "you guys good?". End ID]

*slides my Eda and Willow trade angsty breakup songs on s2A hc across the table*

#the owl house #willow park #eda clawthorne #luz noceda #gus porter #(i know he's essentially a cameo in this but he has a speaking role at least i feel justified tagging him) #raeda #not really intended as amillow? more abt the experience of taking a friendship breakup hard but lacking the language to describe it #but can be interpreted as amillow if you want #anyway. every stage of this comic kicked my ass and tbh it's not my favorite but it got me drawing again and that's good #i still think the idea is funny part of me is just like. actually we can do better lets take it from the top #which is deranged bc I've already spent like 2-ish weeks on this i am not looking at this for another second #do i think enjoying angsty breakup music is wholly in character for willow? im not sure. she doesn't like dwelling on the negative #BUT like. i think you can make the argument she'd enjoy it in private. she represses a lot of feelings she needs some kind of outlet #and this is s2A in my mind (post eclipse lake where willow and Gus want to check out more human music) #so i feel like I can justify her talking about her angsty guilty pleasure to eda #also like. bby willow is DEVASTATED in the understanding willow flashbacks. maybe older willow tries to ignore things #but for at least a few months it was probably a big struggle for her coming to terms w/ why amity stopped hanging out w/ her #anyway i don't want to look at this anymore. have at thee! #i have 2 (two) more comics thumbnailed and one of them is shorter/funnier but the other one is a hc I really like #so currently a toss up between which one gets done next #it's half past midnight and i don't wanna stay awake until 2 am again so I'll probably just leave this lurk for a bit and then sleep #i hate the way this is formatted (the images are SO SMALL ON MOBILE) but i don't want this post to be more vertical than it is

[neck-thats-made-for-bruising]

I don't freak about about things but when my laptop charger stops working I do

#I'm so fucking done with this #it sounds like it's not that bad but this has happened 2 other times in the past year #and it always happens when we don't have money #and chromebook chargers are supposed to last longer than a few months #my phone charger works on my laptop #but it doesn't have enough power so it runs out super quick and obviously I need it for my phone #I mean I don't use my laptop as much as I used to during summer #but still I don't want it to fucking die #and it's an old laptop but I don't know why these chargers stop working #and I know it's the charger because it won't work on my phone either #vent ig #lol #it's not that big of a deal but I do everything on my laptop #my phone frustrates me #ranting #It makes me feel so stupid that I freak out about it too lmao

[luxe-pauvre]

BEST OF 2022

Read:

Incarnadine, the Bloody Red of Fashionable Cosmetics and Shakespearean Poetics

Psychology, Misinformation, and the Public Square

Everyone Is Beautiful and No One Is Horny

agency/satisfaction

Actually, Let’s Not Be in the Moment

Do Brain Implants Change Your Identity?

Adam Savage on Lists, More Lists, and the Power of Checkboxes

Our Pseudonymous Selves

The skincare con

consistency is proficiency

Hundreds of Ways to Get S#!+ Done - and We Still Don’t

The digital death of collecting

The Mundanity of Excellence

Icons: Eli Keszler in Conversation with Adam Curtis

modern malaise

The Dangerous Populist Science of Yuval Noah Harari

Is There Such A Thing As Good Taste?

The Odor of Things

What It Takes To Put Our Phone Away

Personal Style Is Dead And The Algorithm Killed It

The Philosopher of Feelings

Orwell’s Roses by Rebecca Solnit

Expert by Roger Kneebone

Empire of Pain: The Secret History of the Sackler Dynasty by Patrick Radden Keefe

The Act of Living by Frank Tallis

Seven and a Half Lessons About the Brain by Lisa Feldman Barrett

The Joy of Science by Jim Al-Khalili

The Tyranny of Merit: What’s Become of the Common Good? by Michael J. Sandel

Sedated: How Modern Capitalism Created Our Mental Health Crisis by James Davies

Watched:

Literary Rendezvous at Rue Cambon: Girl.

In the library of Charlotte Casiraghi

Brave New World vs Nineteen Eighty-Four featuring Adam Gopnik and Will Self

Peaky Blinders (S6)

Killing Eve (S4)

The Decade the Rich Won

Everything Everywhere All At Once

Severance

Listened To:

Alt J’s The Dream

Beyonce’s Renaissance

Went To:

Swan Lake @ Royal Opera House

Fabergé in London: Romance to Revolution @ the V&A

Ancient Greeks: Science and Wisdom @ the Science Museum

Vision & Virtuosity by Tiffany & Co. @ Saatchi Gallery

Henry Marsh in conversation with Will Self

Feminine power: the divine to the demonic @ The British Museum

#I've been making these 'consumption' lists for over 2 years now (!) but I've never done a yearly best of. #So I thought I'd try but I hate it already because I feel like I missed a lot. #It was collated from the other lists this year simply by reading through them and picking the ones that from title alone made me think #'I remember that clearly and I would read/watch/listen to it again'. #But it doesn't really work for 'listened to' because those lists are normally just random songs I liked each month. #Not the most scientific of methods by alas. #personal

[bittersweetresilience]

there are twenty seven songs in my félix playlist which means a few more and i can do a monthly writing game. why am i saying this when i have several important wips i am meant to be doing? well, you see

#🌃 #felix fathom #felix graham de vanily #i have complicated feelings about having a playlist because this is unlike me #the only playlists i have ever made are ones i hypothesize characters would listen to and i write pages of accompanying meta for why their #life experiences and psychologies would lead them to those music tastes #i've never had a playlist of songs that remind ME of a character before #i mean i think it's decent i still have standards but it's a new experience i sort of feel like i'm god or i'm in purgatory #anyway what am i even talking about here #félix makes me do all kinds of ridiculous things #for the record my recommendations are #coin operated boy abraham's daughter oh no! neighborhood 2 the mind electric and the hand that feeds #maybe when i have a month's worth i will make one of those graphics #yay that's fun #MY MIDTERM IS IN TWELVE HOURS WHAT AM I DOING #i suppose it doesn't have to be a writing game i could learn how to make gifs #or webweave or make moodboards or screenshots or even #just post lyrics in a definitely normal length reblog chain #dog days are over is the last song in my playlist because i think it's funny and flairmidable and florence and did i mention it's funny #because he's scared of horses #LMAO #god i love him #what was i talking about again #hey #does tumblr have a tag limit

[filet-o-feelings]

Ew, cramps

#praying for early menopause tbh #my mom had it early and thinks i will too #pleaseeee i feel terrible #and day 2 is always the worst #not looking forward to tomorrow 😭 #it’s actually not nearly as bad as the last 2 months #so far 🤞 #why must my own body rebel on me like this every month? #yes i know im not pregnant thanks #I'm a gay asexual who doesn't want the responsibility of children #this is all entirely unnecessary