#it does have its moments though

[buckttommy]

One thing that was very interesting to me in this episode is the way Eddie was just... not joking about Buck's love interests.

That stuck out.

Usually when Eddie talks to Buck about his love interests, it's with an edge of fond exasperation, teasing laced around his gently delivered truths, but there was none of that this episode. Buck told Eddie he went to see Natalia and it was like something switched. Eddie's entire affect changed when Buck started talking about Natalia. He went from being loose and easy (as loose and easy as one can get when standing at a grave) to being... not combative, necessarily, but visibly actively not wanting to engage in conversation about her either, and it's not...

It's not even jealousy!! We joke a lot about Eddie and jealousy, but it wasn't that at all. It was a fatigue that comes with silence, that comes with holding your tongue, that comes with keeping secrets. Especially when Buck said that he feels like Natalia sees him. That look Eddie gave him immediately after? That was pure hurt. That was him saying I see you too, I've always seen you. But he can't say that. He can't say that, because to say that would be to say so many other things about the way he sees Buck, and to say so many other things would mean to have to unstick his tongue from the roof of his mouth about the ONE thing he's been holding onto ever since he was shot.

I don't know. I don't know, but I think Eddie taking Buck on a date and I think about how Eddie left his son—his heart—in Buck's care so they could bake cookies together (which becomes profoundly more significant in an episode where Christopher was talking about baking smores with his mom), and I think about Kenny saying Ryan has been doing some very nuanced work in the back half of this season, I'm like

Oh. Oh. I see it, thank you. Loud and clear.

#Before 5B I was like 'Eddie's pining era Eddie's pining era WHEN?' #but babes we are right in the thick of it. It's in his eyes. It's in his smile. It's in the way he looks Buck #in the way he treats him. In the way he creates space for his confusion for his fatigue for his grief. #In the way he shows quiet support and a stern shoulder to lean upon #In the way he doesn't burden Buck with his own feelings (even though that's mostly selfish on his part because #no part of Eddie will ever be a burden on Buck but Eddie doesn't know that yet) #It's just. Eddie's feelings for Buck are literally in *everything* he says and everything he does #It bleeds from him just like his blood did on that street. #If everything about Buck/Eddie's lives have been shrouded by the shooting since it happened #everything about their lives has *also* been shrouded by Eddie's enormous and unflinching love for him #and he keeps holding his breath and swallowing it down and putting off the moment where he pulls back the lid #and it all spills out and before he knows it... before he knows it #it's going to be too late. And instead of his blood staining the street it's going to be Buck's and he's going to tell him #but he won't hear him because Eddie was too slow too fucking slow #(did we all peep the watch on his wrist? Yeah. Time is running out Eddie. Time is running out and it is not going to #wait for fear to release its hold on you. Buck's not going to cheat death again. Don't waste time babe) #Anyways. Yeah. YEAH. Yeah....... whew. This episode was a Lot #jack.txt #tv: 911 #911: 06 x 15 #911 spoilers

[courtney-deserved-better]

telling myself i can't start another tdwt rewrite but dear god do i want to write one focusing on alejandro and courtney in this weird situationship thats a lot more nuanced than just alejandro manipulating courtney and her falling for it. like theyre best friends they dont trust each other theyre the same person they dont know anything about the other one theres a mutual attraction theyre pining for other people theyre codependent they dont care about each other theyre platonic soulmates like i just want to do a deep dive into how messy that relationship couldve been building off of their friendship that exists in my head except the line between romantic and platonic is so fucking blurred they have no idea what they are to the other person

#they live rent free in my head as you can tell #ive been writing some intense moments for them in amicus curiae and im having a lot of Feelings about platonic alecourtney #tbh the whole concept of them replacing the best friends has been a great avenue for me to do a deep dive into their friendship #aughhhh i just. love them so much #and i do want to explore them in a situation where there is relationship potential even if that relationship never actually happens #because everything between them during tdwt could be so MESSY!! #like alejandro says he's just manipulating courtney but he's also doing it to make heather jealous but he's also genuinely worried about he #after the duncan thing but this is the only way he knows how to express that concern without making himself look weak #meanwhile courtney is falling for the act but she also knows its an act and is going with it for the emotional support it provides and shes #just doing it to make duncan/gwen jealous but she also is starting to see the real alejandro underneath it all because he does care even #though he doesn't want to and they do feel a strong connection that they dont know whether its platonic or romantic because romance is bein #shoved down their throats on this show and theyre both in complicated romantic dynamics with other people that theyre the easier option for #one another but they dont really want to be with one another like it just doesnt feel right #okay okay i legit have to stop and go to bed but just. them. im thinking so hard about them #platonic alecourtney

[presiding]

genuinely admire those who were optimistic for dishonored 3 but in this videogame industry climate and [insert a 4hr video essay about arkane's recent history here], honestly, not getting dh3 is good news

#dishonored #arkane studios #i know its silly to meme when the take is nuanced #and i admit that blade is one hell of an aesthetic. but i'm sitting out of this #somewhat being a hater yes. but that is because i am a lover #i dont think its pointless hater-ing though to be critical of something i wish i could love more #my takeaway from arkane is that its better to be not a fan of a company. a company does not make games #a company's staff does. and those staff need to be treated well and given budget and breathing room to make good things #and i have my doubts about that at the moment. very well documented and supported doubts #if arkane is given AAA budget to make a game. it probs wont be another dh. except maybe a remake bc those are 'safe' bets. #ie. dh1 remastered would sell #judging by doto and even dh2 (which i loved even tho its flawed). i dont think arkane really 'get' why dh1 was magical #so im not sure that a third in the series could necessarily recapture it #especially as theyve confirmed they're closing the drawer on the current overarching plotline #this is the hater corner celebration! i am pouring you a drink! [pres why does this look like blood?] we like themes n motifs here! #pres rants in tags #anyway mutuals lets make a fan edition of dh3 for shits n gigs

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

hold on i need to get a thought and emotions out. so with Welcome Home, there seems to be a before and an after. obviously, we're in the after. the website is the after. and if it turns out that the story we see, the one where shit hits the fan and the show is practically erased, then... that already happened. whatever horrors we see, we'll know that there is no saving them. there is no happy ending - it happened, and it's tragic. the show is doomed to end and be scrubbed away. if any of the characters are revealed to be dead/gone by the website, then when/if we see them at an earlier point, we'll Know

and there's a special kind of dread and horror in that for us, the audience.

#im not articulating this the way i want to... #it's like going to see a tragic play. like romeo and juliet for instance. #we go into it knowing the end. they die. no matter what they die. every step they take leads to That End #every happy moment is undercut by the knowledge that it won't last #thinking about this makes me think that at some point learning more about the story/characters is gonna feel like digging up a grave #AGH I LOVE IT THOUGH I LOVE IT. IT HURTS SO MUCH BUT I LOVE IT #its a special feeling of dread/nostalgia/bittersweetness/resignation #and that is sensation in the chest that doesnt feel good but it also does somehow? it hurts but just enough to not be unbearable? #welcome home #welcome home speculation #welcome home puppet show #man i am so so so so scared for the puppets lmfao #i have some theories on the ways shit might go down. like little things. souring relationships and such #i also have a feeling that the story is really gonna hit home (ha) for me in Big Ways #like as soon as i saw clown say that it's kinda about 'when does a home become a house' and stuff #OOF. YIKES. WHEN DOES IT INDEED. i mean i know. ive lived it. im Living it. #this is gonna get unintentionally personal Real Fast in Several Fun And Festive Ways for me huh #i wonder if the story is gonna be uncovered linearly or not... #chewing on it chewing on it chewing on it #i can't wait to Understand the world/characters so that i can write fanfic. i want to so badly. i want to Explore #i want to hop into that grave and keep digging

[green-tea-lemonade]

the rules are different if it's the last piece you dummy everybody knows that

#art #digital art #procreate #homestuck #solnep #nepeta leijon #sollux captor #nepeta is just a little dramatic sometimes #but shes a dork about it and likes to annoy him #he knows its just to annoy him and sorry nep but he aint giving into it #that doesnt stop him from messing back with her though #sollux is not the most outwardly affectionate troll but moments like these where hes messing with her face or hair is kind of a glimpse #hes got his moments and when he does have them theyre all the more special #nep is a little food stealer but she pays it back to him in head scratches or hugs which has become the acceptable form of payment #she gets him little treats though like actual snacks and some drinks and he gives his dorky toothy smile that melts the huntress heart

[manglam-marfach]

dyke!Chilaios has me understanding breeding kink all of a sudden

#chilaios #that's a lie i understand breeding kink very well lmao #HOWEVER IT MUST BE SAID #they finish up a great scene. hot lesbian sex. all going well. #and laios lies back with her eyes closed. still flushed and sweaty. she rests her naked hand on her naked lower stomach and says. 'hah.... #'did you know ...that tallmen and halflings can have kids together?' Like its just another fun monster fact. #she's trailing her fingers absentmindedly over her stomach now. tracing idle patterns. #'with our lifespans being so similar it isn't even as big a deal as it is for elves and humans. they're even fertile and that's ... #that's really rare for hybrids.' her eyes are still closed. she swallows hard. She's more red now than she was when they fucked. #'you should talk about that next time you're in me. i'd like it...' and she cracks one eye open a sliver #to see chilchuck . BEET. RED. #because Chilchuck DID NOT. KNOW. #She was already fucked out and now she's dying?? she's dying. Laios still has her huge hand resting on her huge smooth stomach #miles and miles of soft skin...that she wants chilchuck to put a BABY in #she's thought about the hypothetical lifespan and safety of the hypothetical baby! is this just a sex thing? is this a for real thing? #chilchuck does not know and does not know which one she's hoping for now!! cause both sound GREAT #AND OF COURSE THERE'S ALSO #chilchuck remembering that conversaion next time Laios's huge huge fingers are inside her. Laios's hot wet breathing by her ear. #Laios's breathing going ragged even though no one is touching HER she is the one toying with Chilchuck right now. She always does that. #between the breathing and the fingers and the warmth and the smell Laios is all around her and she just thinks - #'Laios is so huge. Laios's baby would be so huge. I'd be so huge. Pregnant with it.' And she cums. #rattles her to her fucking core. Chilchuck who HAS BEEN PREGNANT BEFORE realising. holy shit. #i want this fluffy haired socially awkward 26 year old doggirl to . to fuck a baby into me. in a sexy way. #i think . I think it's hot. #enough to turn you to drink isn't it! #u may ask - hey how come chilchuck has a girlcock and has got pregnant? can laios get chilchuck pregnant? #does anyone even have a womb in this situation? I may answer - don't worry about it #a wizard did it. whatever. its a fantasy world. #whatever is sexiest in the moment i don't care #lesbiance

[bobzora]

school is making me miserable so here's a doodle sheet of akechi truths. hope this helps

#goro akechi #my art #<- i guess. how many times have i said i guess to this. sorry no new big or good pieces i have horrors in my brain #p5 spoilers #i guess #i suppose that.these r 'headcanons.' but these are just truths in how i draw this guy. also not my best akechi drawings for sure lol #would u guys be mad if i made another akechi animatic. <-if this happens it will not be soon i have So Much shit going on rn. #my mind is just doing things again (things being listening to songs and thinking about him) #anyway its rlly funny to me that gloveless akechi feels so naked but he doesnt Actually wear them all the time lmao. he does to me though. #hope this helps. #i did the jacket around neck thing as a little kid because it stayed there better than the waist. he on the other hand is doing hero moment #anyway my brain has long imprinted on him like a baby duckling. thoughts and prayers on the schoolwork im not doing.goro akechi #i hope he dies<- not true

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

idk why ppl rag on sonia nevermind for being useless in sdr2? like she was useful during most investigations. she had more agrees during the trials than anyone except maybe nanami and komaeda. she contributes to investigations and even does her own investigative work? like in chapter 5 with the ruins.

and even outside of that she's running around trying to get everyone to get along after twogami died. like with her beach party and how she was checking up on saionji in chapter 3. shes one of the more extroverted members of the cast holding everyone else together

and aside from her usefulness she's not bland either? she does have a character arc? sonia attaches to ppl in the cast very quickly. she tries for three chapters to make everyone get along. and the one time she stops focusing on that the guy she likes ends up killing someone. initially she sees all the murders as a betrayal of her friendship with the killers but tanaka shows her that to survive they sometimes have to resort to ruthlessness means aka getting someone killed.

and like, she talks about this EVERY chapter. she's in denial that ppl shes friends with can ever betray her for 5 chapters straight. even though it happens again and again. so by trial 5 she's had enough of suspecting any friend and breaks down on the stand from 5 chapters of that. and by the end of that she has to follow through with what tanaka told her, and let nanami sacrifice herself for the others.

previously in the game, the ppl sonia cared about were killed by monokuma against her will. but in chapter 5 she lets nanami make her choice because she trusts in her friend's care for them. like this is sonia's chapter! it's hinata's and nanami's and komaeda's chapter as well but this is where sonia's character arc hits its peak! at least until chapter 6 where everyone learns a life lesson about living for the future and whatnot.

and it's like, sonia's character arc is one of the more subtle ones in the game. when kuzuryu's doing seppuku over peko you're probably going to miss sonia's laments about feeling betrayed and whatnot. the game puts the most attention on her when exploring the sonia-tanaka-souda love triangle and ppl (me) find it annoying. her arc can be hit or miss, her humor is subjective, and she looks like the most basic bitch on the planet so i understand why she gets overlooked.

but like. she's not a static character? she does things in the plot? like the notion that she's not an active agent in the story is just not true lmao i think ppl who think that just weren't paying attention.

#shut up pandora #sonia nevermind #sdr2 #super danganronpa 2 #source i have been obsessed with her since i was 15 years old #that being said i do think the fumbled her in that her moments werent more prominent #like she had the potential to be more of a supporting character to the main trio #her arc could have been more prominent which is a critique i have for souda and owari as well #that being said she does have an arc #i personally like it a lot though i understand if other ppl find it boring but the arc is there #and its frustrating to see it fly over ppls heads

[citrlet]

i'm sorry i'm being annoying about my trip but look at the view from my room in d.c.

#im just literally in awe #i never get to travel so this to me is... idk how yo explain it #just WAIT til i get to go to europe my mind is gonna explode #does it make sense though that i am loving it i also feel a little melancholic? #like im already thinking i miss it before ive even left #i have a bad habit of doing that its a little hard for me to enjoy the moment when im just dreading the end #anyhoo ill shut up we gotta find dinner im shaking

[svtskneecaps]

i'm mourning the loss of purgatory's Government Assigned Team Dynamics (because i'm a sucker for shaking up dynamics and the forced interactions of people who may not otherwise have spoken) so please indulge me with your dream egg parenting group i'll start, bagi tina and rivers [i'm right]

#qsmp #i have REASONS okay it's more than vibes #first of all any good egg polycule needs its touchstone its Daily Logger someone who can be relied on to KEEP THE DAMN THING FROM DYING #(of neglect specifically) #bagi logs in every weekday she's extremely consistent and she's already proven to be smitten with these eggs. bagi's the touchstone #tina's a 'wobbler'; she's consistent but not a daily logger so she can be relied on if bagi's out for a week #between the two of them i have full faith they can keep the kid from neglect and spoil the kid to pieces #but vic you might say what about rivers wouldn't she just be third wheeling on bagina WRONG #well maybe right but WRONG because eggs have personalities of their own!!!! they're little people!!!! #if rivers is third wheeling then SO IS THE EGG THEY'RE IN THIS TOGETHER #anyway rivers at least at the moment is what i like to call a Wildcard #when she does or doesn't log in is pretty random and sporadic and inconsistent #that might change if she had an egg idk i don't know enough about her because she's a WILDCARD 😭 #but anyway having bagi and tina as reliably keeping their kid from dying of neglect means she's free to keep her stream schedule #considering bagi interacting with egg trump at dia de muertos i think we can safely say she's not going to let rivers be erased as parent #probably would function like a roier-jaiden situation; bobby wasn't any less jaiden's son even though she didn't log as consistently as roi #AND IT WOULD FORCE RIVERS TO INTERACT WITH THE SERVER. I MISS HER DAMNIT. MY SPANISH ISN'T GOOD ENOUGH AND I MISS HER. #shut up vic #block game brainrot #but yeah rivers can keep her streaming schedule and still come to hang out with her egg kid when she's able #i lost the plot there bc tumblr's glitching on my phone bc it updated ios last night and everything's bugged to hell #i can't see tags after i write them it's wack as fuck #my secret secondary take is tubbo and pol have to be in the same government assigned parent group #tubbo seems to function better as weird uncle / fun godparent so having pol there is him as TUBBO'S touchstone in terms of the mature one #then tubbo and pol as consistent loggers can be the rest of the group's touchstone in terms of the kid not dying to neglect #long tags

[aropride]

my shirt that says "i don't have an eating disorder" has people asking a lot of questions already answered by my shirt

#text #(this is a reference to another tweet i dont have a shirt that says that) #ed tw #weight loss tw #talk about weight in general tw #like yes i eat the same thing almost every single day & have to force myself through every bite #no i dont have an eating disorder #i just have autism and anxiety and its making my life a little bit unliveable at the moment ❤️ #i know i also have arfid which yes is an eating disorder but not like. in the way people probably think of if they look at me during #a meal and judge the way im eating and decide they think i have an ed (which i know is anxiety and nobody does that but still) #but i probably wouldnt get diagnosed bc im at a ''healthy weight'' #even tho i know that for My Body it's not healthy . i was eating relatively well for a brief period of my senior year of high school #& very briefly my freshman year of college #and i got to around [number] both times #and they were both short periods of time so i still dont know what like. a healthy weight would be For Me and for My body #but i know a doctor would tell me my weight rn is Normal and Good and that if i gain weight thats Bad and Wrong #even though i am definitely not eating enough and not getting enough Fuel For My Body To Work Right #its such bullshit. also i hope whoever invented the bmi kills themself #Well anyway. swagever ive been eating one singular slice of pizza for half an hour so i gotta get back to that

[aspecbuddie]

today it was station 19's turn to have me going stop thinking about the timeline it'll only confuse you stop thinking about the fucking timeline

#somehow this is worse than the 911 timeline at the moment #like does ben still have a wrist splint on?? even though its canonically february??? and he broke his wrist last may??? #does this mean greys is now in february 2024 as well? #station 19 #greys anatomy #rambling on tumblr once again

[starswallowingsea]

I just woke up from a nap but didn't Kanata used to take naps on Kaoru when they were in school in the Marine Bio club and they both individually needed to decompress from life? I'm just imaging a Kaoru who can't sleep or doesn't want to sleep gently playing with Kanata's hair, loosely braiding it or wrapping it around his finger while Kanata is softly snoring and leaning into Kaoru's touch.

Or one of the rare times that Kaoru is the one sleeping, Kanata just being there to watch over him and make sure he isn't disturbed because Kanata can tell Kaoru hasn't been sleeping well and wants to give him the time he needs to rest.

Or both of them napping together, either on top of each other or just in the room, separate but basking in the comfort of a familiar and calming presence as the whirring of the fish tanks lulls them to sleep

#shay speaks #enstars #kaoru hakaze #kanata shinkai #kaokana #kaokana nap pile in the marine bio room. kaoru actually lays his head on kanata's chest or stomach #and lets himself be intimate with another guy just this once (its the third time this month) #they are each other's comfort person. to me. #this could be romantic or platonic tbh #i think. in high school its platonic kaoru still has a lot of internalized homophobia to work through #but after they graduate and kaoru is a little more honest with his feelings #i think thats when he'd want to slowly test the waters of dating another guy for real #they hold pinkies :) more casual touching of the hands and arms #that kind of stuff #still takes like 6 months for kaoru to kiss kanata though dksbsjsjwjwbw #he's really shy and kanata is like dont worry kaoru i have never kissed anyone #this does not make it easier but its still a cute moment on the beach at sunset for both of them #even if its a little stilted and awkward

[sonknuxadow]

im so sorry for having opinions on sonic shipping and im not trying to like. pit the two pairings against eachother or start a ship war or whatever but based on whats actually there in the source material it really feels like sonic and knuckles were destined to be the big popular "default" gay pairing for sonic (the character) but then the timeline somehow got messed up and sonic and shadow were placed in that role instead

#maybe im just biased because i like sonknux more (to be clear i do like both i just have a preference) but like #sonic and knuckles interact more often than sonic and shadow. they have way more undeniably gay moments than sonic and shadow #sonic and shadow have a couple moments like that too but #90 percent of the time when people talk about how in love they are in certain scenes #its not actually that gay theyre just standing next to eachother and people just cant turn their shipping brains off #but with sonic and knuckles its like . knuckles blushes over sonic touching his shoulder #knuckles spends several nights in a row staring at the moon thinking about sonic and waiting for him to come home #whatever they had going on in sonic frontiers. Etc #i think part of the reason a lot of people ship sonic and shadow is because of the rivalry. but knuckles was sonics rival first????? #and the way some people talk about so/nadow makes me go ''well thats not shadow thats just knuckles in a shadow costume'' #''its sonknux you want. what are you doing'' #and ive even seen a bunch of people make the i love captains thing in sonic prime about son.adow? #while completely ignoring that that scene has nothing to do with shadow and was literally about knuckles??? idk its just weird to me #sonic carries knuckles multiple times and no one bats an eye #but shadow does it to sonic once and everyone goes wild about how gay they are. whats going on here #i dont think i actually wanna live in the timeline where sonknux is the most popular though. i like that people arent as annoying about it.

[empty-cryptid]

I once read a fic where Bruno reused coffee cups with the coffee ring still there and his family thought it was gross...

I do that too. It's extra flavour. Y'know, It would be gross if I put milk in my cup too, but it's black coffee or tea without additions, so why not just keep using it?

Once in a while, I do wash it. Just not very often...

#thought that was funny when i read it then went into a moment of evaluating my life choices #encanto #bruno madrigal #bruno would do that though #its so specific #does the writer do that too and have their family mention it? #did they notice a family member doig that and comment on it? #so many things could be going on here

[todayisafridaynight]

This might not be anything, but while writing about your fics, the way you have the characters' mannerisms down PERFECTLY got me thinking about mirroring...

There's a lot of it in 7 (Horii is a directorial genius etc etc), most of it more intentional than these probably are, but there's something so interesting about mirroring that takes the tone of a (relatively) fond memory, a familiar gesture, and inverts it in the way shown here.

OH I'M GLAD YOU'VE NOTICED THESE TOO I think I mentioned it months back (or I drafted a post 'bout it but didn't think it was anything noteworthy) but I always really did like how the Arakawa Family mimicked each other's mannerisms (also circling back to how Jo and Masato calling Ichiban 'Ichi' presumably after picking it up from Arakawa)!

Aoki actually does the same sitting gesture too! I went back to double check and skim through the rest of the game's cutscenes, and as far as I could tell unless I skipped a scene, it really is only these three that do this specific pose:

It's such a small detail but I love it immensely and it really does highlight their connections with each other and it drives me insane

#snap chats #the fact aoki holds his left fist with his right like jo..... im gonna be sick... (crying) #potential hints that aoki really does favor jo and/or spends more time with him... or i might be delirious. could be both even.. #focusing on how jo mimics arakawa though i dont think i have to say i love how it is inverted intention wise #like of course in arakawa's situations he's in a position where he's helping ichi and speaking calmly with him #while with jo Evidently each interaction is more tense and antagonistic #really is a cool way to emphasize that whole 'step parent' angle if that makes sense #OH BUT THANK YOU ON MY WRITING that's a huge compliment: i'm glad you think i have their mannerisms down ! #accuracy is a big thing to me... in case we haven't picked that up yet.... i should relax a little tbh-- #BUT i'd like to think my brain's good at visualizing things and i think i've 'studied' enough to get an acceptable result in what i show #it's like... if i can't see it in my head clearly or it doesn't look right then i wanna keep trying until it DOES look right yk #dont want a Hello Kitty Wouldnt Do Xanax moment... only on occasion.... a lil xanax wouldnt hurt as long as its not too far gone ☠️ #alright im. DELIRIOUS. #to end this off i watched the first episode of Sailor Suit and Machine Gun ! #my japanese is. HORRENDOUS BUT the art of inference and context clues and stray knowledge got me through it #i'm excited to watch the next episode even if i'm only really getting half the impact from the dialogue #BUT THE FEELING'S THERE... the emotion's there #embarrassingly i almost cried when izumi was crying in the theater over her dad while she was eating cause like Girl Me Too ☠️☠️ #ill go one day without mentioning my dad i promise... todays not that day tho ☠️ #IN ANY CASE. thank you for droppin the episodes on me !! i can't stress never tiring of having new things to watch #ill watch the next episode tonight probably. i was gonna go out to get lunch buuuut my moms home #so there goes that plan.. at least my bro got me food while /he/ went out today lmao