#it actually makes me feel anxious

[uncanny-tranny]

This might seem like an "old man yells at cloud" situation, but it's just wild growing up and being told how dangerous distracted driving is - how, at highway speeds, you can traverse the length of a football field (100 yards, 91 meters) in a matter of seconds - how one split second sending a text while driving could result in a potential fatal crash, and then getting on the road as a driver and being surrounded by billboards. Their entire purpose is to catch one's attention, so they're lining major roads, which tend to be highways. How is it that you're told how important it is to never be distracted while driving, but still being advertised to?

At best, this type of advertising is an eyesore to pedestrians and motorists and a general waste of electricity to light it, and at worst, it is an active danger considering they are there to advertise and therefore, must catch people's attention.

I'm not even against advertising in theory, but this particular mode bothers me so much and I hate how pervasive it is - especially in large cities or highways.

#politics #i don't know much about são paulo banning marketing billboards but on paper i want that here in the USA #as a motorist it at best just makes me more anxious driving in those larger cities because i want to FOCUS ON THE ROAD #and passing 5000 billboards per mile isn't helping actually! #i've gotten good at filtering that out of my FOV but it's still fucking exhausting lol #i especially hate those modern electric billboards. despise them actually #i am aware that advertising is a critical aspect to business management in some cases... #...but it shouldn't risk the safety of the populous for you to advertise to them and i see things like billboards as risking safety... #...i feel similarly about online advertising in that so much of it risks internet user's safety... #...such as flashing ads online which risk triggering epileptic seizures in light/photo-sensitive folks #distracted driving (texting): NO >:( || distracted driving (being advertised to): YAYYYY :D #i've been driving on my own for a few years now and i've been thinking about this for ENTIRELY too long

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Autism & Phonecalls

The Autistic Teacher

#autism #actually autistic #autism and phonecalls #phonecalls make me anxious #I’m sure some of you can relate #feel free to share and reblog #The Autistic Teacher (Facebook)

[realbeefman]

stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh #some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2 #recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person #and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety #like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that #my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms #UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child #so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had #a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time #which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem! #its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it #and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome' #instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems! #anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now! #house md #hilson #greg house #james wilson #stacy warner

[thepoisonroom]

it's so crazy to be in a really healthy relationship but still have emotional problems because every time i want to catastrophize about things with my girlfriend i'm like "buddy that doesn't even make any sense are you sure that's not your brain problems 🤨"

#like in a weird way when are extremely anxious being in a bad relationship is sort of validating #because you're like well i HAVE to be vigilant about the problems! to protect myself! #which makes it hard to work on those reflexive fears because you're like well the worst has happened before so i'm right actually #i realize i'm not breaking new ground by being like dysfunctional dynamics make you reach for maladaptive behaviors to cope #but it just feels nice to be able to put them down and be like maybe i don't need these anymore #and to know that if people are shitty to me i don't have to learn ways to work around it i can just stop keeping them close most of the time #who knew that you could learn and grow as a person and be happy even #personal nonsense

[sundryfish]

you know what i mean, right? please tell me you know what i mean

#these four goofs have really changed my life #they made me not feel anxious about my future or growing older anymore #anyhow i could try to put it into words OR.. i could just spend 17 hours making an edit of them #thank you to everyone in the community who has already made edits i absolutely would not have even started this without yall #that deja vu one changed me on a fundamental level im not even joking #and if anyone wants to know what video a particular clip is from just gimme a timestamp and ill let you know #now on to what tags are actually for #the technical difficulties #tech dif #tech diff #citation needed #tom scott #tscott #matt gray #mgray #chris joel #gary brannan

[alucardsathomewife]

Seras = Charlie

Integra = Vaggie

#the background is 10× harder than the actual art #this was suggested to me in the comments in the Alestor Alucard art #drawing the whole cast would be heck but if this gets a lot of enjoyment #i can do it #these have brought so much joy i hope nothing bad happens #hellsing #hellsing ultimate #sir integra fairbrook wingates hellsing #sir integra #seras victoria #seras hellsing #ik its traced over the art adding another fandom but its 3 am making this and i cant help but feel anxious that tumblr has a metal bat #hazbin hotel #hazbin art #hazbin vaggie #hazbin charlie

[raisinushigher]

most horrific image in the entire world

#actually made me kind of want to die a little bit how much in the episode they were really making it feel like the last episode ever #or at least the last one before another several year hiatus #we stay strong ummm maybe i think. i think i will yeah. s4 yearning period starts now #clone high spoilers #mine #also i was so fucking anxious about abe like dying from the poison #when he woke up it was like i was born again and now my life is divided into two sections before and after that moment #they’ll be back next year im sure!

[allthoseotherworlds]

It's honestly pretty frustrating sometimes how I feel like so many people say they love Martha, but mostly what I actually see people saying about Martha is how much she probably does/should hate the Doctor for not returning her crush, or sometimes how much people hate Blink/Family of Blood/Last of the Time Lords because they were hard for her.

And like, the former of those is frustrating because a) Nobody is obligated to return someone's romantic feelings, b) Being oblivious to someone having a crush on you might suck for the other person but is not actually a moral failing and c) Martha was sad about it but like. She didn't leave because she was furious at the Doctor for not returning her crush? She left because she knew her crush wasn't reciprocated and wasn't going to be, but couldn't get over it on her end while travelling with the Doctor. And also because the past year had been pretty traumatizing for everyone, including her and also the Doctor and also everyone else who was on that ship thing.

Anyways

I just wanted to talk for a bit about the things I like about Martha, or that are interesting, that are unrelated to those points above.

I think she's the first companion in New Who to join Unit, and I think still the only one to be a medical doctor with a strong scientific backing. Which is cool!

I think it's interesting that in the first episode she appears in, her family is shown to be kind of messy and kind of frustrating, and it feels like that's something she's a little glad to be getting away from for a bit when she travels with the Doctor (though it's not the reason she travels with them). And then, at the end of the season when her family is in danger she prioritizes their wellbeing enough to snap at the Doctor about it. If I remember correctly their phones were tapped or something and it wound up making things a bit worse, but I appreciate the nuances of her relationship with them and how important they are to her despite the messiness.

Despite all the ado made about her crush on the Doctor, I really loved how she really seemed to get the point of travelling with the Doctor. I think that she nailed both the joy and excitement of the unknown, and the compassion and sense of care that motivates the Doctor's travels, and which I think is vital to all of my favourite companions.

It also contrasts in interesting ways with how her personality shifts after she stops travelling with the Doctor - she still cares about people's wellbeing and seems to value the things she learned while travelling, but working with Unit and Torchwood does make her more military, and then of course doing freelance alien fighting (? or something?) in the End of Time.

I think Martha and the Doctor are an interesting duo because they contrast each other in interesting ways. They're both compassionate, hopeful but practical, and good at what they do, but they reflect those qualities in ways that almost, but don't quite, fit together nicely. They don't conflict, really, but they're not quite sustainable either.

They work well together and care about each other, but they're too similar in some ways and too different in others to ever quite see eye to eye, which is why they end up going in different directions. And I think that's not anyone's fault, or indicative of any deep flaws in either of them. Or even really a tragedy, because Martha seems to be doing new and interesting things every time we see her, with plenty of options available and a decent rapport with the Doctor whenever they show up.

Anyway this got way longer than I meant it to. Tldr: There are so many more interesting things to say about Martha than just "She must hate the Doctor". Here are some of them.

#Also I didn't have room here but. I understand hating the family of blood stuff but. John Smith is not the Doctor. That's the whole point #John Smith is absolutely rude to Martha and I dislike him as a person. But he is also not the Doctor #And I absolutely do not believe that the Doctor handpicked the persona and went “Yeah. Making him rude and racist and like guns” #I think they just got out the chameleon arch and said #“Here's the time and location that gives us the best shot at avoiding the family of blood. Give me and Martha random identities. Thanks” #That said it's actually not an episode I particularly like so I don't know why I'm rambling about it here #I get anxious about things where characters are Not Themselves and being rude and mean in ways they aren't #And also found the ending a little Too Much personally #Anyways I'm just monologuing now #Doctor Who #Doctor Who Meta #Martha Jones #I am talking #I am just some guy (gender neutral) #This post brought to you by another person joking about how Martha is so strong for putting up with the Doctor because of the crush stuff #And me as an aromantic not enjoying the implication that I am something to put up with and that the most interesting thing anyone can say #about a dynamic between two people is how much it sucks that one of them didn't know the other had a crush and 'led them on' #or whatever. But just ranting about that again didn't feel constructive so I tried to say more interesting things instead

[jrueships]

sometimes i'll think abt a Fandom and wish it were bigger, and sometimes i'll read something from a fandom.. and wish it were smaller

#ppl seeing a confident black man : FINALLY! A PERFECT ANTAGONIST FOR OUR STORY! #THE CORRUPTOR!! THE ASSHOLE! MR KNOWS ALL! #i want to be bigger into football. i rlly do #but . omg. sometimes seeing just So Much . side eye shit is . like imagine my exhaustion #and this isnt me trying to be the behavior police like let ppl write but sometimes seeing such. Fun. patterns can be like #idk man it's sad like damn thats rlly how the world is and obvs i KNOW how it can be but it's real wack #real wack being reminded even in ur supposed happy place ur supposed lighthearted little break from the world #it's still not . idk. it's just not #oh the poor pale blond qb just a little anxious baby oh and his evil zany teammates trying to corrupt him oh theyre so terrible for my angel #:/ #.. that is. a Grown. Man . #it's like replaying my 2nd grade teacher ******** me bcs i was a troublesome kid and it made her feel young and alive and bad again #like wtf am i corrupting you with maam? skibbity toliet ? leave me alone !! #listen. if it were smthing like 'x rlly likes tomatoes' when he actually likes idk carrots? i would not give a fuck. infact i prefer carrots #but bad patterns have smthing more to say bcs patterns in general have a story #it's more than 'he would not fucking say that' it's 'WHY tf are YOU making HIM say THAT of ALL people & THINGS???' #like i love having asshole characters in my stories too. and they can be poc ! NO ONE is a saint! #but having one just to fuel the only one u actually care abt? having their problems solely be for plot?? & making that one #a SPECIFIC kind of person ?? is kinda giving me 'u dont view x as a human which could mean you dont view x race as humans' #WHICH IS !! IT SUCKS ! THAT SUCKS! #i know i need to just suck it up and ignore it but thats like the life quote of being poc isnt it #ugh #it sucks

[dimension20stuff]

I feel like I've grown so much as a person the past couple years but not in like...quantifiable ways. I am very proud of myself.

#its little things #ive done a little more introspection about what i like and why i like it and tried to apply that to other areas of my life #and ive started actively working on embracing feeling uncomfortable and doing things that make me anxious anyways #feel like ive become a Human Person rather than an abandoned building #im very very proud of me. i hope the progress continues #this post brought to you by: me #saw that post thats like “you ever get surprised by your own reoccurring issue” and realize no! #ive actually taken big steps to confront my reoccurring issue (preferring the devil that i know rather trying something different/scary)!!! #shes still there. its still easy to stay in a familiar sadness. but im reaching for hope so hard! and ive almost caught it!

[micahthemoon]

May 27 2023 Okay, you know what: I am low key angry about all the buzz that Käärijä is getting for having a normal body. People call him ‘fat’ and having to ‘lose weight’ but to me, he looks muscular and healthy. And it is not just online since I first encountered it irl with two girls calling him ‘Winnie the Pooh’. Do you know how much I’d give to have his body? To have his confidence? He is out there proudly showing his surgical scars and his tummy, and all people can see is that he is not model thin.

#this turned out to be more about jere/käärijä than my own gender identity so I'll elaborate a bit here #when people go after käärijä like this it hurts me and probably other like me since I do really wish I looked like jere #my gender envy tells me that this is the ideal to go for #I have actually never really felt drawn to the hollywood thin men and scrawny boys makes me anxious that I'll break them by touching them #and I know I'll never be thin #so people going after jere feels like an attack because if he is not good enough for you guys I'd never be good enough either #I have a strongly feminine coded body and I hate it even if people compliments it #so if let's say I actually ended up looking like jere then how would people even see me? these people's action tells me that they'd scorn me #scorn me for looking like my ideal self #for looking freaking normal #think about all the people looking like jere right - you are putting them down as well #by commenting negatively on one person's body you do not only hurt the person themselves but everybody with the same body type #or idiots like me having this bodytype as their ideal #micah out #käärijä #jere pöyhönen #esc #esc2023 #transgender #nonbinary #transmasc #gender envy #late entry #entry #findingmicah #also sorry for the rant

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Pete Wharmby, Autistic Author

#autism #actually autistic #autism and food #I like consistency #new foods make me anxious #what if I don’t like it or it poisons me?! #I hate that most of my comfort foods are processed #Pete Wharmby Autistic Author (Facebook) #feel free to reblog/share #neurodivergence #neurodiversity #actually neurodivergent

[memen18-m5r3]

i think i'm at the point where, if it wasn't for some of my most vocal followers/mutuals, i'd stop posting art. if not all together than 95% of the time

#absolutely a me problem. please please please don't feel pressured in writing words of reassurance of whatever #it's just that sharing what i do isn't as enjoyable as it used to be #i still very much love making art and looking at it later by my own #but sharing feels like...taking a part of me and putting it on display to be judged #and even if nothing harsh is being said i still feel like what i do is wrong. and shouldn't be seen by the world #and i feel so anxious about hitting that post button nowadays. still have posts in my drafts that idk if i will actually post like ever #tempted to become an art hermit lol #perhaps this was a convoluted way of me saying “thank you” to all who write nice tags/comments. it does help kinda. #STILL please don't feel pressured into writing them. like really

[possamble]

Girl help me I fell in love with a fanfic from someone fully employed and the chapters are too long betwix

Man me too wtf 🥲

#asks #a little creature #wish i didn't have to work. alas #sorry part of it is just that im stumped creatively #the chapter itself is giving me so much fucking trouble #the core of it (what i really want to hit yall with) is written but justifying it with the proper context is... #man. #shoutout to the tips ive gotten making me feel so much less guilty and anxious about the days i just #didn't do money work and stared at the fic doc and also didn't get anything done there LOL #i get paid on a per word basis instead of hourly so trying to police my own schedule has been weird sldkfjvnsfd #anyway. you're getting farcille first kiss next chapter but not the way you expect/want it and also im actively trying to stab all of you #but also the pwp oneshot's going out first bc it's basically done #i just have to add in some fuckass whatever pillow talk to cap it off #and make the actual fucking a little better paced

[tequatls-favorite-spoon]

my art from the na vs art party!! took me a lil bit cuz i wanted to color it and that meant cleaning up the sketches and then i wanted to shade them and hajsksldhaflk

the characters from left to right:

Quinn Teeling - @sunsrefuge

Ambrose Wolfsbane - @commander-gloryforge

Finnegän - @pinecone-enthusiast

Astrëllä - @ohpollenpowder

#vsartparty #gw2 #guild wars 2 #others ocs #my art #also!!! please let me know if i got any of the names or tumblrs wrong!! especially ambrose cuz i didn’t get the name in my ref screenshot #i did go thru the art party tag to find the character i drew and i’m like 99% sure it’s ambrose but if it’s not him i’m SO SORRY #ahhh i hope people like them ajhsjalakf #like i know that getting art of ur oc is usually great no matter what but i get anxious lol #also i used a new shading technique and idk how i feel about it #like i like how i blended out the edges and stuff #but i might have to play with using different colors in different areas instead of just using the same purple lol #really happy with how i did the hair this time tho!! i feel like i usually like hair better in the sketching phase #cuz it’s all loose and rough and messy #i just feel like i get the shape and idk vibe? of the hair better then #and when i get to lines or shading i feel like i end up making the hair too solid? like i lose the flowy-ness of the hair and stuff #anyway i think i did pretty good with it this time tho!! i liked adding the highlights a lot :) #…i actually kinda was referencing an old how to draw manga book i got when i was 11 #listen. it was one of the good ones and had actually good tips and info #and the way it showed shading hair kinda influenced me here and i think it worked! #oh wow i really rambled in the tags this time #there’s a reason my personal texts posts (at least on my main) are tagged as ‘regan rambles’

[sailermoon]

i am not the first person in history to graduate late it will be fine 🧘🏽‍♀️

#if anything. it actually makes me feel less anxious #i didnt feel ready for my professional year #plus this may give me the opportunity to take more TESOL classes!