#it REALLY sucks sometimes

[diaries-of-a-questioning-queer]

I keep my asexuality close to my heart, never really letting it out of sight. It’s something few people know about me, as I keep it quiet just in case. When I started questioning whether or not I’m Aromantic, well, I told two people, and even that was a maybe. I keep in in my heart locked away for my eyes only, a truth only I know. I like pretending I’m not A-spec sometimes. I like pretending I experience things just like everyone else. I know I don’t, I guess we all long for what we don’t have. Maybe, just maybe I’m not. Maybe I will want to actually date someone I like. Maybe one day I’ll settle down with someone. Maybe one day I’ll find a romantic soulmate. Maybe one day I won’t feel so broken.

#i definitely did not cry while writing this #i definitely did #it really sucks sometimes #maybe #i’ll get what i long for one day #heartbreak #aro heartbreak #aromantic #aros are lgbt #aroace #arospec #lithromantic #aegosexual

[arnaerr]

I'm still having troubles with my job, so I would appreciate you buying my prints/or coffee or supporting me on Patreon 🫣

#signal boost #the witcher #geralt of rivia #witcher #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #bloodborne #dnd #dungeons and dragons #the elder scrolls #oblivion #my art #i fucking hate being in the situation i am right now #and that i can't do a thing about it #being a migrant really sucks sometimes

[markscherz]

I… do not understand tumblr live. Like, are there actually only about 50 people streaming across the whole platform at any one time? And why are so many of them just… people smoking? Or unoccupied desks? And why is nobody talking about frogs?

#live #tumblr live #it occurs to me that the reason there are so few streamers is that I am in the wrong timezone #but honestly even off-peak 50 streamers is embarrassing numbers #look I might do an AMA sometime #but there is a very low chance that it will be on tumblr live #so far most livestreaming I've done has been on facebook and/or instagram #but those platforms both really suck for it #so I am not sure which platform I will use #suggestions are welcome #I have also dabbled with youtube #and once tried twitch #might try tiktok sometime #but it's not great on all these platforms without existing follower counts #these are the ramblings of a tumblr old #his continuing mission: #to teach you about strange and wonderful animals #to seek out new frog lovers and teach them fun facts #to try to understand why tumblr is worse than before

[sadmages]

Gods work hard but Matt Marja works harder

#bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #astarion ancunin #lae'zel #shadowheart #gale dekarios #bg3 tav #my art #matt marja #SOMETIMES BEING A CLERIC IN THIS GAME IS JUST…… #man these gods really suck…..not mine tho <3 yay <3 #im almost done with his playthough so. thinking about him . #Matt sucks so bad. I love him so much #you guys dont even know about his fake moustache

[theminecraftbee]

okay, so in a rare moment for me, there's a discourse thing i want to bring up, and that thing is. okay. so on iskall's stream there's this thing that can happen where someone brings up a criticism of his content or vault hunters. frequently it's self-evidently wrong, but sometimes it's not. and then iskall spends the next thirty minutes shadowboxing this guy, explaining himself, and completely derailed. and this is an iskall trait we all know and sigh bemusedly about, because he cares about the community and wants people to understand his intentions! he wants the community to understand his decisions!

however, it's not the community as a whole he's fighting; he is in fact, arguing with One Guy, who often doesn't represent the wider community, and who normally won't have their mind changed. hell, sometimes it's believable that they're satisfied having just managed to upset iskall, and they'll leave, no change to their mind, perfectly pleased that iskall's responding at all (that's what i firmly believe the people who poke at the 'you don't upload enough and that means you're falling off and a bad person' wound are trying to do, at least).

in the vault hunters community, we refer to this as iskall getting One Guyed, and it's typically viewed as bad, because it ends up focusing an entire moment on a single guy's negative opinion as opposed to on the larger picture. and it's an understandable thing to have happen! but it's frustrating to watch from the outside.

and so now i am looking at that cat poll. and the way everyone is still shadowboxing someone who has since apologized. and the way i would have never ever known about any of the negative comments about jellie if it weren't for fellow mcyt fans constantly putting them on my dash to dunk on them. and it's like. if you look through the notes most of them are just... normal? it's only a tiny few of people (and the pollrunner, who has since apologized) who were being dicks. it's a very, very ignorable demographic.

but. well. there was One Guy. and we had to correct them.

and folks, i don't know how to say that i almost never see "lol mcyt is cringe" type comments unless one of you puts it on my dash. both because i don't go looking through the notes of things that are likely to have them or go looking for reasons to be upset and because it's just... not that common! very frequently these days it is, in fact, One Guy!

i have almost never seen that poll on my dash without at least one instance of the One Guy. instead of being for fun, it's mostly become about explaining ourselves to someone who will not listen and will not change their minds, and treating this as a the whole of the Other Side of that poll, when most people are being... fine. they're fine! the majority of the people voting for the other side are doing it for perfectly normal reasons that don't require fighting about.

and man. let me tell you. after spending as long as i have watching vault hunters development? it can be just as frustrating to watch a fandom get One Guyed as it is to watch iskall.

#discourse #i am immediately turning notes off for this post as a heads up because i HATE discoursing but #man. i feel like i need to point this out. #sometimes you'll be happier if you go 'that was One Guy huh. better just block them and move on. i won't change their mind.' #one day this fandom will learn. #cat of the year poll #<- for those also trying to block it #also i know in many ways this is just me contributing i'm aware of my flaws #but sometimes i think this fandom needs to step back and realize it doesn't really need to fight the world. #sometimes someone says a mean thing. that sucks! you do not need to fight them for two days about it though. #and we do this with polls but also other people's innocuous comments SO MUCH. #so here i am.

[callisteios]

I have a new uquiz for you, go on a pilgrimage with me. discover who you are.

#don't you want to go on a nice medieval pilgrimage? #don't you want to rest a little? answer some questions? learn something about yourself? #this was originally a pentiment medieval quiz and now it's this #it's pretty good imo though. i had a lot of fun researching it #yes there really is a biblio. ill write it up soon but its parts of the pentiment biblio plus some stuff i found myself #really thank you to everyone who made pentiment. you know how sometimes you find a piece of art at exactly the right time? #well i discovered pentiment just as my interests perfectly intersected with it. (those interests being history historiography and grief) #have fun etc. tag your results #that's always great #quiz #uquiz #pentiment #medieval #mine #sorry for being absent for a bit. holidays kind of suck #sorry abbie i couldnt fit the saw bathroom in thisone. i couldn't think of a way to do it naturally #i listened to SAVED! and SINNER GET READY the entire time i was writing this so yeah there's a ref. sue me

[dayurno]

honestly you can say anything about the ravens (and you'd be right to) but you can't say the concept of them isn't delicious. a group of collegiate athletes in their intimidating raven motifs and their black uniforms who are basically bred to become the best of the best in a bloodsport. the adrenaline rush of every game being a competition between yourself and your teammates. knowing you're not just gearing up towards court but following in the footsteps of the alumni before you. the parties and the victories and the mindless sex and the way everyone around you somehow seems to always be thinking the same thing as you are. you are never alone and you will never be again if you just do as we say. who knows the kind of relationships that can happen in a place like that?

#<- her ass would be easily sucked into a cult #BUT SERIOUSLY THEY FASCINATE ME. delicious as a concept #i think we as a fandom have a tendency to take the piss on them because theyre theatrical enough to be noticeable #and because neil himself does not respect them nor riko #but it is easy. i think. to lose sight of their humanity #of their morning classes and their college parties and their personhood beyond what the cult stripped from them #yes its fun sometimes to oversimplify the ravens #and they were terrible whenever they could #but i dont know. i dont know really where i was going with this. just musing i guess #its interesting to me #all for the game #aftg #kevin day #jean moreau #riko moriyama #the foxhole court

[girlboyburger]

with my move around the corner and life feeling sort of real again, i'm having Regular Thoughts about hobbies i've been meaning to revisit...

#i didnt realize just how close i was to finishing my suit until i started packing up my supplies #i really did just let the joy get sucked out of me in this place #aahh... so SO excited to LIVE again. ill have hobbies! a consistent work schedule! maybe even treat myself better! #actually. absolutely will treat myself better. and a fursuit? that'd fix me better than therapy tbh #waves my hands around #ee #my art #furry #fursona #fursuit #oc: cow #the cow fursuit timeline #<--this tag will be used again! yay!! #augh #little known hyperfixation is fursuiting btw #i like to watch fursuit parades while drawing sometimes. or like. whole eating lol #and i can name most makers as it goes on #i love fursuits i love crafts

[lunarharp]

if i just told you i love you would this world change

#witch hat tag #orufrey #these kinda suck lol i feel like i cant draw right now *irritated sigh* BUT I FEEL EMOTIONS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #if you are gay go watch good omens season 2 right now. NO YOU DONT KNOW THO!!!!!!!!! #i know being this affected by good omens is probably cringe. I dont care any more. the last 1 minute of good omens season 2 was #some of the most affecting acting i've ever seen in my life. sometimes someone acts with the force as if their entire career led to that #like during the credits part the very end im not even talking about before that. holy god #aziraphale i know everything about you. i know what you are feeling right now. i can see everything on your face. we're going to make it #ER.... NOT THAT THIS HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH THIS POST. IT'S NOT SPOILERS !!!!!!!!!!!!! #I JUST FEEL THOROUGHLY CHANGED !!!!!!!!!!! SHIT GETS REAL FROM NOW ON.. LIKE IN GENERAL! IN MY LIFE! #tormented gay love tormented gay love TORMENTED GAY LOVE TORMENTED GAY LOVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #btw the first 3 images were drawn earlier with an entirely different feeling and an entirely different mood. #Why do you keep pulling away from me? #It is because i love you that i do this #the lyrics from one of my japanese orufrey songs (A SONG THAT THE CREATOR LISTENS TO!!!!) led to feelings #“あなたが知らない私を残さず見ててほしいの” but i'm not translating it cause it just sounds weird. if with his eyes oru's asking “WHY don't you want #to let me in? to see all of you?“ those lyrics are like ”I actually want you to see every last bit of the parts of me you don't know“ #oru you have no idea how much i want to lay bare my whole soul for you #maybe it's an alternate version of chapter 40. to me #i need to draw something really fucking good or i'm not going to forgive myself. i will not rest in this life #until i have made the orufrey that fully satisfies me nor until i have seen what the manga is leading to #NO STORY MEANS ANYTHING WITHOUT TORMENTED GAY LOVE AT THE HEART OF IT. THATS THE HEART OF THIS WORLD!!!!! #........... so Hi im normal :) haha *goes and finally makes breakfast*

[plutos134340]

After 6.75 hours of this i finally finished

I really like the mask thats my favorite part of this

#it turned out better than i thought it would #my one set of markers and colored pencils pulled through i suppose #although #i wanted to give up after i started coloring 😭 #all my purple markers were too dark or warm-toned #also i just really suck at color matching sometimes #but i didnt even have the right colors to match #half of it has blue underneath it to try to make it any bit better #anyways i did NOT give up so woohoooo #never give up guys #those are my words of wisdom #alr im done talking theres too many tags now #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cccc #cccc fanart #cj fanart #cj heart #cj soul #cj mind #🗣️ #my art

[inkskinned]

not to romanticize my mental issues but sometimes having adhd is very useful because today during a meeting that could have been an email i kept thinking about crabs wearing small tophats and having little dancing parties and how they'd sound in tap shoes.

and when my boss was like "raquel what do you think?"

i was like "well, i think the others have made good points about this, of course, and i'd be happy to circle around later on it, but i'd love to take a moment and resonate with this before offering my own suggestion. i want to hear what others think before anticipating the client's needs."

and then i went back to not listening but this time it was imagining snails that joust.

#me: hehe funny #the hatemail: you should be fired immediately the fact you are scum enough to NOT LISTEN #in a SINGLE MEETING #that was about a project you DONT WORK ON #means that you are EVIL and SUCKING UP TIME #like bro .... idk how to tell u this sometimes people be in meetings they don't need to be in #i only got asked to participate bc there's an element of the project that resembles #a piece i wrote a while back #and i know this element exists bc #we've already had a meeting where i told them what i did how i did it and what i suggest #so there's nothing else for me to add really #also im close with all the coworkers who are working on that element #and they just gchat me their questions #idk how to tell u this but someone zoning out in a single 30 minute meeting where they LITERALLY #don't work on that project ? #that's just fucking anti-capitalism baby #i was being a revolutionary

[revenantghost]

Listen, I often don't follow people back for a lot of reasons, from stuff that squicks me out, to being overwhelmed, just forgetting, or anything in between. And there's a lot of importance placed on moots on this site, but if I see you regularly in my notifs, if you chat with me, leave comments in reblogs, you're a Tumblr friend To Me. Even if you just like a bunch of stuff I reblog now and then, seeing your icon makes me smile. Just giving everyone who hangs around and puts up with my insanity a big, giant hug

#Sometimes I just see mutual posts and I'm like... but I love so many other ppl on this cursed site #I really gotta be careful in curating my experience because life sucks currently #AND THE AMOUNT OF TIMES I THINK I'M FOLLOWING SOMEONE... BUT I'M NOT #ANYWAY if you vibe with this you can reblog #I just wanted to love my Tumblr friends #Ok back to life #Yadda yadda

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #it was a hard day today. #sometimes you just gotta cry for an hour about requiring significant assistance to do basic stuff that you don't actually have help with rn! #(my wife is working 6 12s at a job we had to move across the country for) #(which means 1 she is *exhausted* at *all* times and struggling to even meet her own needs) #(and 2 our other partner and all our family and friends are. multiple days away by car. so they can't come help.) #it's getting hard to even stick leftovers in the microwave for myself but no one else is able to cook for me. #it sucks. #(we're moving again in june because this was a 1-year position from the beginning) #(and the idea is for our other partner to move in with us which will help a lot) #(plus my wife should be switching to a reliably 5-day week at that time) #(but we don't know where we're going for another month and a half.) #(so we can't really do any groundwork or anything to make that happen.) #(and having zero agency other than sitting and waiting and getting worse alone Really Sucks!) #I guess this is a bit of a secret part two to yesterday's meducation lol #favorites

[ghostlyeris]

i know there's a lot of conflicting feelings about gorgug confronting porter but i actually really like it. yeah gorgug using his rage only to defend his friends is very sweet but sometimes you do have to learn to get mad on your own behalf.

he literally says "i just felt weird about being mad" and i have never felt anything more.

#sometimes shit sucks! sometimes its nice to just throw shit at the wall because youre pissed! #tbh i never really thought porter was a terrible teacher. i havent liked all of his choices but hes read as at least a semi decent guy #gorgug thistlespring #porter cliffbreaker #fantasy high #fhjy #fhjy spoilers

[sadmages]

They're both terrible at this

#dragon age #dao #dragon age origins #leliana #warden tabris #my art #varis tabris you will always be famous (and bald) #this convo was everything to me #the 'really? it's just so stubborn sometimes' is so funny to me. there's nothing there #cant play the game cause ea app fucking sucks living vicariously through art and memories

[hareefaree]

The new DnD movie was good! Went into it with my tabletop group expecting a marvel-sequel quippy mess and was surprised by very cool practical effects and wet puppets. Also it felt like a really good translation of a campaign and watching them translate dnd mechanics into actual moments scratched my brain.

I am not immune to advertising ;-; I guess I kinda understand marvel fans now

#dungeons and dragons honor among thieves #dnd movie #honor among theives #really they did not pick a good title for fandomifying it which I kind of appreciate #plugging this into search filters is gonna suck #ALSO! the end credits sequence was very cool #loved the illuminated text styling #art design for this movie was just incredible and the animation felt physical in a great way #sometimes big budget does translate when the folks making it are passionate :) #inspo