#introspection 3

[voltaical-art]

im in agony. a little self indulgent but I think wyll deserves to be told he's loved and have a small breakdown about it

#bg3 #wyll ravengard #tav #wyll x tav #baldur's gate 3 #voltaical ocs #bishop #finally downloaded one (1) font bc i had too much dialog for this #i dont even hate ulder taht much i just thing wyll should talk about ANY complicated feelings he has about him. #also the way wyll always seems to be quoting him like pls what are YOUR THOUGHTS not some cryptic thing your father told you 10 years ago #and rlly if you take the way wyll describes the situation as hard truth #ALL the justification Ulder had for banishing his son #are conclusions WYLL has come to on his OWN since ulder only said ‘one word to him’ #LIKE his relationship with his father could have been SO interesting but wyll isn’t allowed to have ANY introspection at all #so he just apologizes and wyll continues to try and please him

[thegoodthebadandtheart]

sam/dean panty kink as per request > 🩲

#supernatural #dean winchester #sam winchester #wincest #a #what is this 'background' you speak of? uh-huh. and that's something you can draw? never heard of it sorry #introspection time: panty kink doesn't even particularly do it for me which is probably sacrilegious to say in this fandom - it's fine but #i don't search it out. so i always wonder whether it shows in my art that i find panty kink alright but-- #i was about to say 'but hard long eye contact really hot' but then i looked at my art tag and never mind. art the window to the soul etc et #hope this is alright for the request anyway :3

[prinsomnia]

never thought i had it in me 🕯

#illustration #aesthetic #magical #stars #fantasy #abstract #tulip #home #introspection #art ph #digital art #art fart #portfolio #prinsomnia #hey! in a few hours - i turn 23 <3 its such a small number #yet what a long life i feel like i've lived already. thank you all for being a part of it :'') all 135K of you who stuck it with me #since i was like what - 16? #crazy. #i'm grateful for everything - despite everything. may i never lose hope <3

[bonefall]

ever think about how in tnp bramble is suspicious of hawk until the /moment/ they visit tiger together? and then gets mad at squilf for expressing an opinion he used to agree with?

Actually! The moment Bramble stops being suspicious of Hawkfrost is when he's jealous of Squilf's magical telepathic bond to her sister. It's like spite. It fascinates me that you can read it as though Brambleclaw is being consumed by jealousy, trying to have everything that Squilf does, as though his "hatred" of her is coming from envy.

#I have a fondness for the idea of an AU that changes TNP so that Bramble actually realizes in the end-- #--that he didn't hate squilf and didnt actually WANT power over people. He was jealous of Leafp and her life. #And he takes the role of a medic and spites his father and his ambition once and for all #Kills Hawk and then is like Actually? I Dont want to be deputy. #'This is making me miserable and unpleasant to be around actually' #But like... He Would Not Say That unfortunately </3 #Bramble is doomed to self fulfilling prophecies of his own design #He can't introspect for shit

[artistictea]

ur blue skrunkly man fascinates me, please tell me about him (and has he managed to make Halsin worse)

HIII ANON THANK YOU FOR THE ASK <3 His name is Tavryn, he spent two entire arcs being the worst man alive who prioritized money over everything else. Karlach wants him dead. I really did think I was going to play a fully evil character but then Act 3 started and it came with all these heavy hitting questions about morality and.......against all odds, he somehow got fixed. More or less. So I guess Halsin was right.

#baldur's gate 3 #halsin #astarion #minsc #gale dekarios #I haven't finished my first playthrough yet I'm at 220 hours and only have the last quest to go so tav might still be shit by the end! #I genuinely was not expecting act 3 to be. Idk so introspective it really made my guy question his entire life #the writing in this game man #ask #myart

[hopesanddreams15]

Mr. Anderson thinks that everything inside him is worthless and embarrassing. Isn't that right, Todd? Isn't that your worst fear?

John Keating, Dead Poets Society

#dps #dead poets society #sad quotes #trauma #childhood #quotes #john keating #dead poets fandom #</3 #oh you poor thing #introspective quotes

[floorpancakes]

there comes a time in every dark haired glasses boys life where he realises that he must become mother

#for self actualisation or self depersonalisation or both it depends on the situation #(referring to watanuki lol) #(not that i dont think he would become mother otherwise i just think it wouldnt be trauma motivated) #anyway #them <3 #its not a requirement to be a dark haired introspective glasses boy but it IS encouraged #xxxholic #yuri on ice #yoi #showa genroku rakugo shinju #rakugo shinjuu

[jacksprostate]

Please tell me what you think about my 6.5k fic of Martin Vail and the narrator from Fight Club....

#fight club #primal fear #my writing #exorcising this from myself #whats funny is both characters are prone to psychoanalyzing other people. so i got to do a lot of character introspection #yote this onto ao3 the second i wrote the final word. if theres typos ill fix them in 3 to 5 business days

[rosaacicularis]

thinkign about them </3</3

#specifically in my one au <3 #with the immortals that have to go on journeys of introspection #it has… taken over my brain #my irl who i shared the doc with has gotten to see me be exceedingly Normal about them #desert duo #scarian

[hangmanbradshaw]

Do you ever wonder what it would be like to read your own fic? Like with fresh eyes as if it wasn't yours and see how it comes off?

#don't mind me very introspective tonight #also I WILL respond to asks and messages soon I promise <3 #like how I feel about it is sometimes very different than the response/feedback I get and idk just interesting! #or like as an author do you have a tone/vibe/style and don't even realize it you know? but readers do. idk! #steph's stuff

[fallingyams]

(Sorry my Op.5 hype is off the charts: super long post up ahead with a bit of analysis into why Sherlock says the things he does to convince William to live)

Can I just say that Morimyu Op. 3 does a fantastic job at setting up the confrontation between William and Sherlock?

William sings, conflicted, about whether he can still find forgiveness. His mind is set on dying (alone), but there's a part of his heart that wavers.

AND THEN. AND THEN!!!!! SHERLOCK MEETS HIM IN DURHAM AND TELLS HIM

A crime is still a crime, no matter how noble the intention. He cannot forgive killing others and using the deaths of people, even despicable people. (Which is beautifully contrasted against the Jack the Ripper case btw). He will catch the Lord of Crime and punish him for his actions.

It's at that point that William turns a bit sorrowful and resigned (and Shogo's expression is so!!!! SO!!!!! wow his despair is palpable) almost as if he's thinking to himself 'as expected, there is no forgiveness for someone like me' and probably solidifies his idea that death is the only suitable recompense for him.

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ANYWAY back to the manga itself

His sorrowful condemnation:

I think that it's precisely because of this, the only person whose forgiveness can change his mind is Sherlock.

It doesn't matter that Fred or Louis or what any others think. They can call him a good person all they want, but it doesn't change the fact that in his mind, he is already condemned.

(Besides that, his accomplices are all evil because their plan is inherently evil to him. Their words hold little weight. A sinner can't save another.)

That is, until Sherlock tells him this.

And suddenly his entire worldview is upended. Because all this time, he believed there was only condemnation to be found for someone like him.

Sherlock, his righteous actor in the stage of London's crimes, has deemed him worthy of redemption.

And if the one good person thinks that William can be saved...

But no! How can believe that? William James Moriarty is the devil incarnate. He is stained. His sins are unforgivable, no matter what Sherlock says. Murder is unforgivable, right?

So Sherlock flips the script.

He reminds William that HE is also a criminal and murderer. (It's a perfect crime in the eyes of the law, but William knows the truth)

He becomes the mirror reflecting William's image so that William can come to the realisation that they are all capable of good and evil.

The greatest evil is capable of good.

The greatest good (Sherlock - in Liam's eyes, at least) is capable of evil.

And if William can still think of Sherlock as good despite this,

And if William can forgive Sherlock for murder...

Then why can't William himself be forgiven for murder?

I think, in some ways, here Sherlock also confesses that he has lost the mandate or the right to catch William as a detective on the right side of the law.

He's not standing there as someone catching a criminal.

They're now standing as equals. Friends (or whatever you call that tension they have going on LOL), rivals, equals.

It's no longer "catch" in the criminal sense, but to "catch" a falling friend. A trust fall, if you will.

(It just occurred to me that the whole chapter is just a trust fall exercise on a large scale LMAO)

This changes the whole trajectory of what William believes in. That seed of doubt has been planted in him - that he could, perhaps, still find forgiveness.

More importantly, that he has Sherlock's forgiveness.

And that is what allows him to live on.

#yuukoku no moriarty #moriarty the patriot #sherliam #my writing #the thoughts are falling #sherlock holmes (mtp) #william james moriarty #just a bit of introspection #sparked by my obsession with morimyu #yes I recently rewatched op.3 #the falling in my username actually stands for falling apart #which is exactly what is happening to me every time i think about sherliam #i fall apart

[lobotomyladylives]

who is this patriarchy you speak of? why are you surprised you’re getting the same energy you give off? Getting stuck with a rapist or abuser is being a shitty judge of character, women feel 0 sympathy for men who get played financially or emotionally and often say go off queen, get it sis and point and laugh saying it’s his fault. according to stats, rape rarely happens from random strangers, it’s usually people you let in your life so. if women were more intelligent rape rates would go down. plenty of smart women around who don’t let themselves get abused or “raped”, it’s just the less fortunate ones that are bitter about their own stupidity. Go talk to your dad if you have one ;) if women were better judges of their environment and people, it’d happen much less. Instead they seek attention from low quality men often in intoxicated environments and get surprised when low quality treatment occurs from inebriated people. So why? why call a person a victim if they put themselves in that situation? when is personal accountability for putting yourself in the situation going to occur? a lot of this could’ve been prevented if people were less naive and impulsive

if you didn't want your wife to take the house and kids (along with your dignity, clearly) in the divorce then you should have been a better judge of character and gotten a prenup. when is personal accountability for putting yourself in that situation going to occur?

#these are the guys in the comments under every news clip on youtube of a woman or family being murdered by the husband/ #saying that she must have deserved it #men have no empathy for abused raped or murdered women yet want us to care about their loneliness epidemic LMAO #maybe take some personal responsibility for your mental health & examine why no one wants to be around you #then again that would require introspection self awareness & humility. 3 traits that rarely correspond w/a Y chromosome #anon go call your son & tell him what he has to do to avoid repeating your mistakes & ending up such a massive loser #asks

[lenievi]

Spones Day 2023 fic

Canon divergent universe where TMP never happened. Takes place a few years before TWOK (but if TWOK happens is in the stars). Kirk has retired from Starfleet (just so you’re not confused), because I like that tidbit from Generations.

#McCoy didn’t know they were dating #first kiss #strangely proactive Spock

~1000 words. | G

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The door to the Transporter Beam-up Center opened, and mixed groups of various species started to come out. McCoy moved to the side to not stand in their way, his eyes scanning the crowd for Spock’s familiar face. It was a few minutes before he heard, “Doctor McCoy.”

McCoy startled. “I need to buy you a cowbell.”

Spock lifted an eyebrow at him. “You’ve been saying that for years, Doctor, and I’m still waiting.” He raised his hand, fingers spread in a Vulcan salute. “We meet again.”

McCoy blinked and looked at his hand. His third finger quivered as he tried to connect it with the fourth one, hoping to form a V, but with no success. He gave up, shaking his fingers a bit, relieving the slight pain in his ring finger. One day, one day, he would succeed.

Spock held out his hand, the corner of his mouth twitching in amusement. 

McCoy glared at him. “You could’ve done it from the beginning.” He clasped Spock’s hand, soaking in the warmth he hadn’t felt for three months. “How was the trip?” He let go.

“Commanding a ship full of cadets on their training voyage is hardly a trip, Doctor.”

“You visited Vulcan before that, didn’t you?”

Spock gave a stiff nod. “Sarek sends his regards.” He beckoned toward the exit. “Shall we?”

Spock led him to a nearby restaurant.

Even after three years, it still felt odd whenever Spock invited him out. Sometimes to a science or technical museum, sometimes to a restaurant, sometimes to an arboretum. Just the two of them. If anyone had told him that ten years ago, five years ago, hell, even three years ago, he would scoff and tell them not to drink anymore. But Spock kept reaching out, and McCoy kept saying yes.

“Have you spoken to Jim recently?” McCoy asked after they ordered. He kept his eyes on the tabletop, not wanting to see Spock’s judging expression.

“Not since before my trip to Vulcan,” Spock said. “He acquired a dog.”

McCoy raised his head. “Jim has a dog?”

“His name is Butler.”

McCoy blinked.

“You would know that if you called him,” Spock said, his eyes piercing.

“Well…” McCoy wet his lips. “He could call me.”

“You informed him rather vehemently you didn’t want to see him unless he comes out of retirement.”

“You can’t tell me you think he can just live on a farm in Idaho and be happy.”

“That is not for us to judge.” Spock sipped his tea. “He appears to miss you.”

McCoy’s stomach did a funny flip. He reached for his glass of water and clasped it in both hands. His argument with Jim was ugly, and they hadn’t seen or talked to each other for two years.

“So, uhm…” he started but was saved by the waiter bringing their meals. The plates were placed, and McCoy grabbed the utensils. He should not think about Jim. Spock had always made it clear that they should resolve it themselves and did not wish to discuss it.

“It’s good to see you, Spock,” he said instead.

Spock smiled. 

They dug into their meals.

“My father offered me to work with him and accompany him to Ensis,” Spock said between bites.

McCoy frowned. “You want to leave Starfleet?”

“It would not immediately come to that, but it is an option I am considering.”

First Jim. Now Spock. McCoy had stayed in San Francisco because he wanted to stay close to them. Then Jim left. He stayed because Spock would have someone welcoming him back whenever he left on a training voyage. He stayed because… because he… 

He swallowed.

“I wanted to ask for… your opinion,” Spock said, his eyes focused somewhere behind McCoy’s shoulders. 

“My opinion?” McCoy put down his utensils. He didn’t feel hungry anymore.

“I have… always appreciated your company, Doctor.” Spock frowned. “Leonard.”

McCoy's heart skipped. He didn’t remember the last time Spock used his name.

“In the last three years, perhaps before that, the appreciation evolved, changed.” Spock looked him in the eyes. “I do not enjoy the thought of not seeing you for months.”

McCoy didn’t know what to say. His mind was flying at warp speed. The almost realization a minute ago. Every time Spock invited him to go somewhere. Every time McCoy invited Spock to his apartment, sharing meals, cooking together. The soft brushes of their shoulders, as they passed each other in McCoy’s narrow kitchen. The soft brushes of the back of their hands, as they walked down the streets or halls of the museums. Spock’s fingers on his elbow, demanding his attention. So common, so frequent that he didn’t even notice them anymore.

“Are we dating, Spock?” McCoy blurted out.

“As there hasn’t been an official agreement, we are not.”

“Do you want to?” McCoy asked before he could think about it.

The tips of Spock’s ears darkened. “That was the matter I wanted to discuss today. In order to answer my father’s offer, I first needed an answer from you.”

“Why?”

“I have already told you. I would have… missed you.”

McCoy could not hold back his smile, his cheeks growing hot.

“If you did not answer positively, creating a physical distance between us would be a logical thing to do.”

“The distance wouldn’t help,” McCoy murmured.

“Perhaps.” Spock inclined his head. “But it appears we do not have to test it.”

“But your father –”

“My father is aware.”

McCoy opened his mouth and closed it. “You…” He wet his lips. “You talked about us with Sarek?” Us. There was an us.

“My father thinks highly of you,” Spock said. “Mother too. She’d like it if you accompanied me next time I visit Vulcan.”

McCoy blinked.

“You don’t have to give me an answer today.” Spock bit his lower lip. McCoy hadn’t seen that habit in years. “But I would like to kiss you.”

McCoy nodded, lost for words. His heart beat loud in his ears. He raised his hand.

Spock leaned across the table and pressed their lips together.

#spones #sponesday2023 #sponesday #leonard mccoy #spock #my writing #i finished something \o/ it's probably not as good as my other stuff but it's very self-indulgent and despite me complaining all the time #i had fun writing it #even though it's very dialogue heavy and would probably benefit from some introspection but... not today #spock likes mccoy and wants to make it official... basically #hopefully in a spock way but i took liberties #i normally don't care because i'm normally confident but if you leave a comment i'm gonna love you forever <3

[dennisboobs]

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#the reason cisswap lesbian macden does nothing for me is bc i get my dose of lesbianism from canon charden <3 #i say it (jokingly) all the time but i think if the sunny fandom was more open to charden y'all would have more fun #everything ppl do with macden to make it ~more fun~ is literally. already there with charden #macden is a lot of fun in its own way but if i want butch/femme lesbians i have charden already-- #this is literally why i ship both. if i want to fuck around with gender i can throw charden together #if i want to fuck around with weird codependent loser roommates i can throw macden together #they have different dynamics and both bring different shit to the table #also idk such a massive part of dennis is his (often unapologetic but still stifled) more 'feminine' gender expression #so making him a cis woman who likes being feminine is like. yea. that sure is. cis woman dennis. #as someone who has an extremely complicated history w expressing femininity or anything that is even seen as being remotely femme #it doesn't grab me #the genderfuckery is not there #but TRANSBIAN CHARDEN???? YEAAAAAH #i think mac being so focused on upholding traditional mascilinity IS a very interesting dynamic to have next to. you know. dennis. #wheras charlie could not give less of a fuck #i think gender exploration with macden would take a completely different form but still be extremely interesting for both of them #but there's a lot less initial acceptance and a lot more hiding on den's part #especially if the two are in a relationship #because mac coming to terms with being gay took so long so dennis being at all feminine or even transfem is like #mac needs to do. more introspection #which is an entirely different set of issues to charden gender exploration where like #charlie being nonconforming. not shaving. not caring abt using she/her pronouns. being nontraditional in every way and not giving a fuck #would be absolutely fucking absurd to dennis who is very conformist after she comes out #and would probably be content to conform to whats expected of her as a woman with mac IF she did manage to come out at all #bc dennis would have to actually manage to come out. instead of hiding the fact she's trans > looking at carmen and the way mac treated her #i think both paths have additional challenges and that's. you know. whats interesting. #is cisswap den butchy? does she hide her masculine interests? is denise transmasc...?? #cisswap mac being butch is like. you know. nonconforming so it doesn't quite do the same thing as canon mac either #mac being Traditional and catholic and having to push past homophobia (internalized and externalized) to be himself is. pretty huge #would cisswap mac be a tradwife. like. thats sort of the equivalent

[fella-lovin-fella]

being outside slap when you're high as fuck dude. this fresh air's got me feeling like a philosopher

#i <3 weed #ugh #anyway #processing a lot #but in an ok way #god weed is so good #it lets me introspect without the crushing fear of it all #not mlm #dantes talking again

[non-un-topo]

Biggest fear is that the long-awaited old guard 2 is going to be really disappointing because we've built up years of fandom and headcanons and whatnot, and that a week or so after it's released the fandom just dies

#if i speak the fears out loud they won't happen lol #but i fear it because this happened to me with umbrella academy. season 2 was good but not the same as the first #and season 3 was just off the rails lol #so i kind of have 0 expectations for tog2 except that i expect there to be no andy/quynh. i fear that. but i expect it. #because i feel like having two canon gay relationships is just too much for netflix lol. but why do i care? idk it would be nice to have? #only other expectation is that they're going to try to cram in so much action - #- that there's not going to be a lot of time for reflective moments or character development #or those soft quiet introspective moments that made the first movie so different from any other action movie. #okay fine i have one more fear. that whatever happens in the sequel -- however quynh is represented -- #-- will be totally different from the quynh in my head and i will no longer want to write all the stories i have planned. #we could also always just say screw you to canon material. there's that option. but i like the canon !!