#in the usa too but anyways i'm going off-topic here)

[mysticdreamcafe]

Get this ball rolling

I'll get this out of the way first thing. About 12 years ago I started having killer migraines daily. After a year I went to the Neurologist, I was studying IT networking at the time and didn't want to stop, and he said I needed tests. I can hear the gasps from the readers. A Dr that actually orders tests! OMG! Be more unlikely to find one that didn't order a test every other visit.

I followed Dr's orders had an EEG, EKG, MRI,MRA, and a slug of blood work. MRI showed white matter lesions (you know the part people with MS have trouble with because the nerve insulation is torn or eaten off) and this triggered..."You have MS Ma'am". I replied, "don't have symptom's" but we did a lumbar puncture anyway. I had 3 of these done in 2 years. MRI's kept saying my brain was eating the white insulation off of my nerves so I had more and more lesions and the existing ones were worse as years went by. I even had BLACK HOLES! These are spots that will never recover. The other area's can but since it's been 12 years of constant tests and no meds work I'm not sure they will and Dr's have given up.

I was a waitress at a 4* hotel, remember before they added the 5th one? It's like size zero...what's the point?, while being a single mother with one hell of a support team around me I'm privileged to say. This included my daughters father. He was a great dad and great guy compared to the alcoholic, cheater, drug doing or dealing assholes before him. I've worked since I was 14 in the bar and restaurant industries but, I started an office job when my daughter started school. I made more money at night waitressing but she was more important so the switch was made and the budget was cut which made things a bit tight. Almost every "normal" single parent will understand this. Abnormal, those outside the normal society has decided upon, are the rich who probably either don't work or can afford nannies and the like.

I've had a great life. Not as good as some but way better than others. I lived it on my terms. I partied, did some drugs, smoked cigarettes, and traveled the USA before having my child...BTW I was told I had a 2% chance of getting pregnant and the love of my life had a low sperm count. Found out I was pregnant 2 weeks after we buried my 31 yr old sister almost 29yrs ago.

Take allergies seriously. They KILL in seconds if bad enough. My sister left 4 children, youngest aged 15mo old, and a husband.

Back to the topic...Health and stupid Drs. Every Dr I saw gave up on me and started, no lying here, to yell at me because I was allergic to Botox and a string of other meds. I changed Dr's, one last time around a year ago, to a 5ft cute little lady that scares the hell out of me. She studied in the Philippines and participated in a research group focusing on nutrition.

I'm not happy saying this but I'm going too. I'm a bit heavy. Not super huge but bigger than I'd like. 12 years of migraines meant that light, sound, movement, heat, cold, physical activity, dealing with people, EVERYTHING made things hurt. It felt like blood wasn't going to just come out of my nose but my ears and eyes. So I didn't move much to keep things under control. This also meant driving and cooking were difficult so i ate what I could trying to be nutrient aware.

So now 12 years have passed, I've become tolerant of my headaches to a point, but the lesions are causing problems with my nervous system, joints, digestive system, eyes, cognitive and motor skills, seizures, etc. and everyone had given up.

"Well, why should I try if no one else gives a shit and nothing works?"

I asked myself that and saw what it was 3 years after my daughter lost her father and I my soul mate (we weren't married just friends that weren't sure how to get back together and still loved each other. You know...do anything, even give your life for that person kind of love). She was a wreck and my 82 yr old mother, at the time, wasn't any better.

During those 3 years I pretty much gave up. This had repercussions that I'd not foreseen. I'd forget how to spell my first name that I've loved and had for over 50 years, Nichole. I'd forget my last name and give my maiden name to EMTs during seizures. I couldn't talk but only mumble or sounds something like I was speaking an unknown language. Pain was it's worst in years, I couldn't cook because I cut and burned myself often. Let's not forget the dropping of hot pans, cups of coffee, shocked from plugs, this list goes on. Though I am proud I only burnt about half my food and on good days I'd make freezer meals for my mom and take to her apartment.

I was depressed, I've suffered depression, anxiety, and panic attacks for years and they were worse at this time, and I couldn't dig myself out. When it came to a head I packed my car and headed north. BTW I live in SE Michigan...think thumb of the mitten. I went two the west side, close to my home town, and spent a long weekend at a hotel talking myself out taking my life or simply leaving with no money, barely any closes, and near maxed credit cards. I'd leave and wander my way around the North Americas.

Went I got home I tried to make the changes and fight again, but still halve my Dr's had given up and giving me pills that didn't do shit.

So the end of 2023 rolls around and I decide that the toll I'm putting my family through can't continue. Plus I want to live AND I want a better quality of life

2024 is my year and this blog is my accountability (If I remember to post) and give it my all. Meds, Nutrition, exercise the best I can, meditation, less screen time, writing letters long hand (yes in cursive), writing a book longhand, leaving no room for excuses.

I still have good days and I definitely have bad or horrible days but beginning of Feb. 2024 something happened and I got my fighting spirit back after the world seemed to knock me down in everything I tried to stand up.

But that is a story for another time. I send good vibes to all that read this in hopes your lives are filled with health, happiness, and comfort.

MV

#health #fighting #not giving up #illness #determination #Hope #Johhny Depp next post

[the-firebird69]

There's a few more things to announce

-when is we're seeing precursors to A few Good Men and other movies in the walking by and we think that they're asking for the movies to happen it's freaky but okay

-several people have mentioned the keys and it is a popular topic and they are going out there shortly to Utah and I'll point out what movies well might as well well he can look them up in a minute

-have a few other things happening there's a lot of people in tune to what's going on but they simply are not doing anything forget it that's a reminder it's terrible

-and there's more happening the alarm is sounded the military is coming off this bases the max they're seaking McDonald's and warlock and clones and it is a huge operation there's tons and tons of vehicles coming out of there radius outside of the bases all around it pretty much covers a large area within an area and people are running and really there's no way to stay anyways

-few more things going on there are about 700 million people evacuating Florida and yes that is true Thor and Freya said

-the head of the other things are happening we have a constant critic but there's a problem with what's going on here but let me tell you it happens everyday so I'm sending it in there's more to the story The basis in the USA were taken from McDonald's this morning the bases overseas were taken last night and it's not true but they are evacuating because there's going to be a fight and people getting the message that it's going to happen here in the USA possibly tonight and we're going to post now even though the bunkers are kind of destroyed it's not true

Hera

Zues

We heard it on the radio as well and others are talking about the women tried to get Intel they couldn't and ask her until from others and it's starting to get it and some Max guys got it will and Bill and Ken and they have information that says it's true and we of course do a huge for us tons of hardware and everything is being scanned and separated labeled and relocated service destroyed some of it's going for repair and enjoy it now tons of equipment you would not believe how much and Dr Mack knows

Hera

Zues

so anyways, there's probably about 500 million tanks total but those are battle tanks and they're 150 ft long and they're in the USA alone in the bases on the perimeter which is a lot more than they need I think it's for below too they're about 300 million 300 ft tanks there's 200 million 700 ft tanks and 100 million thousand foot tanks that's ridiculous and these are all huge storage areas and that's ridiculous he says and yeah that's globally but there's about trillion m1 Abrams and that's a lot he says you really don't need that many I mean put 50 million tanks in the state you would be able to drive anywhere even up in the woods that's true one state the size of Texas with 25 million tanks the entire state would be 100% paralyzed devices or whatever you couldn't get anywhere and that's what the tanks do we know according to the whole place off here using tanks and they're talking about millions of tanks for an area like New England and there's also about 20,000 tanks that are Mile and that is a huge Army of them and my grand nephew says you could go across the United States 20 times back and forth and a half mile wide so it's only going to be 10 miles wide or or so but yeah 20 times back and forth it's way too many and they have about 700 million a full combat Jets space ready and they're about 800 ft and those are giant and yeah that's bigger than the lancer which was about 400 ft and the lancer could destroy a town the size of westboro with one payload back then with conventional only the whole place will be incinerated in minutes or less and a friend here helped make it but that's fine looks like the Concord. There's a lot more the important stuff for missiles there's enough short range and long range missiles to destroy the State of Florida about 7,000 times it's way too much firepower and I guess they're getting ready for fight with the clones that's one thing and then when it's written society

Mac

[idiosyncraticrednebula]

This might come off as super biased because I live in a predominantly spanish-speaking country, but this version >>>>>> the original version

#isela sotelo #80s #1989 #parte de el #80s music #soundtrack #audio #jodi's version is obviously iconic and deserves all the recognition in the world #but this version imo is much more prettier and sounds more mermaid-like? idk how to explain it #it's too bad she didn't voice ariel's singing voice in latin spanish after the little mermaid 2 :/ #i love this song so much it's so pretty #actually one of my friends chose this version of the song as part of her audition for a middle school play #she sang it live she didn't lip sync unlike me lmao (it was obligatory to audition. art and drama classes differ from the american style of #drama classes in many ways so yeah it's not as important as it's in the usa and it's more of a 'do it or you'll get zero' lol although #in the usa too but anyways i'm going off-topic here)

[whaleofatjme1920]

I saw you were doing matchups,, may I get a tf2 one?

I am a 4"11 female who goes by any and all pronouns, I have pale skin due to not going outside alot. I'm a bit reserved to myself, and don't really talk unless it's someone I'm close with- or if it's a topic I'm really indulged and interested in. I have short, brown hair that I'm thinking on dying it rainbow, and I have a few freckles on my face, and alot on my arms. I mostly wear baggy and comfortable clothing, and I always have a hoodie on in public.

I draw alot and I'm an Aquarius, I enjoy traditional and digital drawing, and I love animals, mostly cats but I also love pigeons! Favorite snack is chocolate and I love to drink cola, I probably drink too much soda lmao. I also enjoy watching subreddit readings videos like Emkay and OzMedia.

I main Sniper and Pyro in tf2, but other games I enjoy are the sims 4, A Hat In Time, and deltarune. I also used to really love fnaf, but I got out of it. I still have alot of the plushies though.

So uh yeah, feel free to match me up if you want shdbdb

Your matchup is... Engineer!

[Disclaimer, if you're coming from the tags, this is part of a special event I am holding from November 17th to the 21st where I am accepting matchups from all fandoms I currently write for. Feel free to check out my 1K celebration masterlist here for rules during the window this event is open! If it's past the 21st midnight USA central time, do NOT send me a matchup. I will have to politely turn you down. Sorry </3]

In General

I almost put you with Pyro but I felt that too easy.

Things He Likes About You

Physically speaking Dell really likes that you're shorter than him. He also really likes your freckles and thinks rainbow would be absolutely gorgeous on you!! You also give off really wholesome vibes which attracts the hell out of Dell tbh. Loves your art, no questions asked. Also, you're an animal lover?? So is he!! He has such a soft spot for cats. Doesn't get birds as much but he thinks they're pretty. He likes chocolate as well, not so much pop, but like, hey. He likes sweet tea the most. Also, he's a fan of story games. Undertale and Deltrarune being some of his favorites.

You Two as a Couple

SO, I think the two of you are a wholesome couple. he would get you plushies from any fandom, or cute things he thinks you'd like. He has a like, this really big baggy blue hoodie he'd let you wear because it smells like him and when it's returned, smells like you! I think Dell is extremely easy to open up to, and you're no exception to that. He finds out what you're interested in pretty fast and the two of you go off on absolute tangents. Dell is an artist himself, like, he's really good at it - absolutely will draw you at one point or another. Loves your art more though, honestly thinks you're better than him in like, everything. He might mother hen you from time to time, telling you to have some water, or whatever but that's just because he cares. You absolutely get him into subreddit videos!! I think he likes Emkay's Lexi the most tbh (yes I'm biased because she's my favorite narrator too). Dell will get you sweet things too, chocolates with a cheesy little note like how sweet he thinks you are. He gets weirdly into the Sims--. I feel you're both emotionally sensitive people, which Dell appreciates because he's a soft guy. Wholesome couple right here.

Closing Thoughts/Other Things

Hi love bug, here's your matchup! I like Emkay and OzMedia as well. You know who I miss though?? SorrowTv. Smh. Anyways, I hope you enjoyed <3

#tf2 #tf2 engineer headcanon #tf2 headcanons #tf2 matchup #tf2 engineer x reader