#imagine you have money tho

[cashmoneyyysstuff]

you’re watching the maury show on your computer when katsuki marches into your room without a word and flops down next to you on your bed.

“ hello to you, too.” you snort. his words are muffled by your sheets but you’re about 90% sure he told you to shut up, you ignore it.

he lays face down on your bed for a while not saying anything and you know he’s had a long day and wants to be close to you without actually talking. you don’t mind, you’ll give him his space until he reaches out himself.

and he does after a little bit, turning his head around to face you as he looks from you to your computer screen, eyes focusing on the woman screaming that the man she cheated on her husband with was 100% not the father of her baby, mixed with the cheers of the audience.

he looks at you and raises a brow “ what’s happenin ?”

“ lady cheated on her husband with his brother.” you respond.

“ his brother ?” he repeats. his eyebrows furrow and you know he’s hooked. if there’s one thing katsuki loves but will never admit he does, it’s trash tv.

you nod, grinning somewhat evilly “his brother. now they’re trying to find out which one’s the father.”

he hums, scooting himself closer to you so he can see the screen too. he flips himself around so his neck isn’t craned at that awkward angle anymore and settles himself down right next to you. hook, line and sinker.

he wraps his arm around your shoulder and shoves his head in your neck, breathing you in. you both don’t say anything. “do you want me to play it from the beginning for you ?” he shakes his head in your neck. you reach your hand up to scratch at his scalp and you smile when he sighs. he holds you a little tighter, pressing feather light kisses into your neck.

katsuki’s never been good at expressing himself with any other emotion that isn’t anger. it makes him feel stupid and weak and soft. he’s had a long fucking day and he doesn’t wanna talk about it, simply wanting to indulge in you but he can’t tell you that, can’t find the words to, so he tries to find other ways to tell you and he hopes you understand and you do.

katsuki’s thankful for you because sometimes he wants to talk, wants to open up about what’s bothering him but sometimes he doesn’t. he doesn’t and you don’t pry when you know he doesn’t and he’s so thankful for you. he presses kisses on your skin and soft bites at your flesh to convey just how thankful he is, how grateful he is for having you. he hopes every warm press of his lips against your skin can convey how much he loves you loving him. and it does, because you turn your head and kiss the side of his head so sweetly and he knows you’re it for him.

he’ll tell you all of this one day, he promises. he’ll tell you all the thoughts swimming around in his head one day, but he hopes this’ll do for now. and unknowingly to him, it absolutely does.

he pulls his head out of your neck and kisses you hard on the cheek one, two, three times and you giggle. you feel him smile into your cheek when he kisses you a fourth time.

“fuck’re they screamin’ about ?” he says and you turn to look back at the screen. the woman is yelling at her husband’s brother vehemently denying the possibility of him being her baby’s father. you feel a little bad for laughing. “ she says he’s not the dad” you answer.

he clicks his tongue “ why the fuck is she on the show then.” he says, turning his attention back to your computer but his grip on you stays secure. you press yourself a little closer to him.

you’re still smiling lightly when you look back at your screen, simply shrugging. “ she said something about her having more sex with her husband than with him.” you answer and he snorts.

“ ten bucks neither one of them’s the father.”

#based off me falling back into the maury rabbit hole LMFAOO #i lowkey love this dumbass show #not as much as a luv my boyfriend tho #have i told yall how much i love him btw did i forget to mention that orr #I kinda like this #lil blurb #wtf typa word even is blurb lmfao #I love fluff #sorry to all the sad bitches #but leave me alone w that lemme be happy #bakugou imagine #bakugou katsuki x reader #bakugo fluff #katsuki bakugou x reader #katsuki x reader #bakugou x reader #katsuki bakugo x reader #convinced katsuki goes like ‘ten bucks that___’ but then gets mad when you offer him money when hes right LMFAOOO #(am i projecting ? you’ll never know) #(yes i am)

[mishkakagehishka]

I'm not arguing with "i hate feminism🙄" pickmes anymore, from now on all i'm saying is "shut up, your role as a woman is to be silent and pretty, barefoot and pregnant, stop posting your face on social media for all who aren't your husband to see, never mind sharing your OPINION which you have no right to"

#''ooo i hate working >:('' you'd hate not having your own money and depending on a man who would then have all the freedom #to beat and rape you more i can promise you that #i forgot which author it was i'm so sorry feminism but the HOOPS a victorian woman writer had to jump thru to get her own salary #bc even tho she was separated from her husband all her royalties still went to him. now go ahead and imagine living such a life.

[b1nks]

I can just imagine Nico walking into a grocery store on one of his travels (after he and will started dating bc he needs to eat healthier now) and getting the check out lane then hearing how much the price is and just freezing with a absolute dumbfounded expression cause he grew up in the 30s and inflation is honestly crazy food especially is now super overpriced

#nico di angelo #percy series #inflation is a bitch #he would buy out the store with hades money (hades gives him so much money as a way to make up for him being shit) #he would then give all the food to nearby homeless shelters cause fuck capitalisms bullshit #this might have already be done before somewhere #I have a shit memory so this could be something I’ve seen and forgotten #anyway this wouldn’t leave my brain #could you imagine tho the price difference he would be shook

[yeonban]

Being in Tobias' mind is such an intriguing experience bc you'd typically expect him to only care about getting richer and richer for riches' sake like most other "villains" do, but all he wants is excitement, fun and the feeling of being alive. He couldn't care less if his life were to be put at stake, nor if his entire wealth were to vanish overnight. Sure, he's confident he could get it all back if it ever happened, but it also shows what money is to him. A means to an end, rather than the goal to strive for

#muse: tobias. #At the end of the day he's using that money to have FUN rather than for power or influence or what have you that maddens people #and it Shows bc I've glanced over some of his former threads and he fr just. offered to buy an entire clothing line for a blond woman #NOT because he wanted her favor; but simply bc he wanted to see what her REACTION to it would be. for funsies and whimsies #Does he do what will bring him most money? Sure. Does he do it FOR the money? Naww #If he had to do smth he disliked or didn't felt like doing; he would Not do it even if money was on the line. Exceptions: indebting people #If anything he'd think putting that money on a hook and dangling it in front of bosses (re: leaking that there's a chance to gain it) #while simultaneously getting in their way would be a x100 funnier experience. And usually it'd still end up bringing him $$$ #I'm trying to remember what he's used his money for thus far and tbh it's been the usual (drinks-drugs-cigars-luxury) AND pampering others #except I??? realized a while back that he's Never gotten drunk. NEVER. so all that money goes moreso into subtly manipulating people #He's even willing to forgive their debts at his owned bars & clubs as long as he imagines that way's going to end up more exciting #I feel like he's one of those bosses people would prefer to have over the alternatives bc it feels Easier to deal w him than live in fear #which is fascinating bc it's true that Tobias isn't bloodthirsty and /can/ be counted on; but imo it's scarier to not know what tf he wants #Bro jumped out of a window and waited for Gevanni to catch him just to give that man an experience resembling a heart attack LIKE. 😭😭😭 #It's good if you can manage to /befriend/ Tobias bc it means you're safe from him... but if you get in /other/ trouble then it's a 50/50 #if he'll help you or find it more amusing to watch til the last second. Altho ig AT LEAST he'll intervene before things get Too bad for you #If you're not friends w him/he doesn't find you entertaining & it's too much effort to help you tho... sayonara.

[horsesource]

Why do you say that subjectivity is becoming increasingly autistic? Also, have you ever read Homo Ludens?

Because people are increasingly socially exhausted. Since capitalism began to ravage communication, creative energy, etc, psychosis is no longer a limit to economic production and instead is itself a force of production (we are no longer compelled to repression, as we were during industrialization, but to hyperexpression)

If psychosis has been appropriated by economic processes, autism presents a new limit to capitalism (also, historically speaking, autism emerged out of psychosis)

This is because autism is neither repression nor hyperexpressivity, autistic subjectivity involves a turning away from the symbolic, or else a use of the symbolic for non-economic/non-communicative means. I have not read the book you mentioned but thanks for mentioning it.

#capitalism is trying so hard to capture autism tho #this is why you have ppl like Elon musk getting on snl and making an autism confession #and why there are all those books like ‘Actually Autism Can Make you Even More Money’ #but good luck doing any of that with individuals whose psychic economy doesn’t include abstract value at all! #I don’t care how socially awkward you are if all you care about is making money you’re the most psychically normal person imaginable #bc everything social is being decoded while the axiom to generate profit strengthens #so there’s a kind of autistic subjectivity I personally would call neurotypical lmfao

[thebuttsmcgee]

THE SAME PLUSH CREATOR FOR THE LUMITY PLUSHES HAS PLANS FOR A WILLOW AND HUNTER PLUSH SET LETS GOOOOO

#butts talks nonsense #well technically its also owl house related but I dont wanna main tag that #tho it might end up there anyways? ehhhh #aaanyways. apparently they said so nearly a month ago lmao I guess I missed it tho ldjqhbdw #really cool tho!!!!!!!!! Dude I have seen like NO Willow plushes at all and only 1 Hunter plush. Ive seen a custom made Gus one as well but #only by 1 person tho it was still p cool #Im p excited tho!!!!! Their Luz and Ams plushes have always been really well made as well as their SPoP ones so woot! #Granted I jUST got the Luz one a little ago but to be fair Im. hm. picky? when it comes to detail and Ive always seen her hoodie as purbl #so thats why I ordered right away when they started manufacturing Luz in purbl instead of the blue. I also just never got the hexside #uniformed ones cuz. uh. money? Ig. lmao I dont really remember since its actually been a while. Kinda regret it but who knows! #Maybe theyll restock it or someone could sell their own one day. I did just see a S1 Ams plush go for sale. so. ehhuh. #hg. times like these I wish they made a Gus and Matty plush set ghhehgvvvv. IMAGINE A GUS PLUSH IF YOU WOULD!!!! #Granted I dont think we've seen Matty in an actual casual fit so he'd either hafta be in Hexside uniform or the fit he wore in TTLGR. #Which. Mighta? been his casual? outfit? uh. hm. In my mind I kept thinking that was his previous Glandus uni but Im not sure now LMAO #anyways w for huntlow. even if ya dont like it then hey an actually well made (and actually made) Willow and Hunter plush! #THO. HEADS UP. LMAO ITLL BE 120 FOR THE SET FHSBABSBW #yea I paid about 67 for my Luz plush and the Lumity set was like. 120 without shipping fees dfjwbsb #all cool tho. after all it is commission work! #dude I just love plushies. My sonic one is on the way argh argh argh. #I need to hold myself back from stimming cause more cool stuff like plushes for toh gets me really happy and excited djahb #but yea!!!!! hell yea!!!!!!! HELL YES DUDE!!!! FINALLY WILLOW MERCH!!!! also merch for gringito 👌 #OH LMAO I bet Mr. Zeno Robinson is gunna somehow get 1. He deserves it #uh oh. lookin at these tags. I may have. whats the word. uh. infodumped? I dunno but I rambled a lot about this cuz Im actually excited #for this. BUT THEYRE SUCH A GREAT PLUSH maker ofc I would!!!! I wonder what designs they'd use tho. okay I should stop. bef. brgore I #before I ramble again too much rjaqnnqwn

[tweedstoat]

after years of buying both expensive and drugstore conditioner to try and fix my frizzy hair and literally NOTHING working on me ive finally discovered a good conditioner for me

coconut milk. Literally just a 95 cent can of coconut milk you would use in cooking. I pour about half a handful on my hair and i look like a fucking shampoo commercial

#THE MONEY IVE LITERALLY POURED DOWN THE DRAIN BUYING CONDITIONERS #WHEN I COULDVE RAIDED MY MOTHERS PANTRY #anyways coconut milk guys it will give you glossy soft hair beyond your wildest imaginings #i guess it balances out tho cause i have to use fancy 40$ japanese shampoo for my terrible dandruff

[todayisafridaynight]

GORGEOUS case bro I've never seen one with a continuous design like that and the embossment itself is so tasteful... always happy to see Mr. Dunkulous too <3

ALSO AYO YOU WATCHED MONDAY? How was it? Either way you're almost done with the Sabu Tsutsumi catalogue then... that's epic... I'm glad you liked Destiny too, it really is such a cute movie

Also I'm pretty sure PS4 preloads are open too BUT I'm still salty Xbox gets it a day early </3

Its one of the first designs i ran into while looking up wallet cases LMAO lucky me me thinks…. Its very pretty <3 mr dunkulous here to stay and keep me company lest i totally lose my mind <3<3

AND I DID i mentioned so durin stream yesterday ! i REALLY loved it, sabu keeps putting ttm in terrible situations and it makes me giddy seeing him panic 🥰 AND DESTINY WAS ADORABLE it was so cute….. really wholesome and what my soul needed….

OH PS4 PRELOADS OPEN ? Ill check it out when i get home later……. Why does xbox get it a day early thats rude me thinks…..

#snap chats #cancelling a post i was gonna make to bitch in the tags of this one <3 #anyway on this day this monday we remember the words of our king ryuji goda #A Real Man Oughta Be A Little Stupid DO YALL WANNA KNOW HOW MAD I AM. #HOW I JUST SPENT A FRACTION OF MY FOOD MONEY ON A STUPID CARD #WHEN MY FUCKING ID WAS UNDEE MY TABLET. CAN YOU IMAGINE MY RAGE. MY ANGER. #I TORE UP MY ROOM ALL WEEKEND BUT NEVER THOUGHT TO CHECK UNDER MY FUCKIN TABLET #its a lilfunny….. im tryna make the most of it ok GODAMMIT IM SO MAD THO I CANT #$20 is like $5 in todays society everything is twenty fuckin dollars i cant live like this #at least my deadnames not on my id anymore… and it doesnt look like its falling apart ig… #STILL HAVE THIS TERRIBLE PHOTO AND ID RATHER BE DEADNAMES AND HAVE $20 THAN NOT HAVE $20 #NO ONE TALK TO ME ANYWAY kinda funny. hang on. #at least i dont have to get a new sticker… i just scalpe the old one from my oher card.. lol… knife came in handy… #was leaving to Waste Twenty Dollars when i ran into one of my roommate’s boyfriend for the ninth time this semester #and we both clamber into the elevator and he like ‘ive seen you a lot lol so uhh whats your name :)’ #and the struggle i had… do i say Aforementioned Dead Name do i say my Thinking Of Changing First Name do i say Last Name…. #the safe answer is always last name so thats what i did but god i floundered..i stared at him for a second longer than i shouldve #today sucks. at least i dont have a night class today… #i’d stream y0 but streams dont go well when i stream them at 5 #plus i have to work on a comm… ouugg lemme cap it here before i rant for thirty tags straight LMAO #anyway. love my new case. destiny was cute. angry jealous frog ttms funny and sad at the same time. monday made me giggle 🥴 #this was a good post to make while making sure my cars battery didnt die LMAO ok bye <3

[greenforestflowers]

I’ll admit I haven’t personally done research into this, but I came across a study recently for a thesis about visual perception in autism, and for a neurodivergent Holmes it honestly fits perfectly and could be such a cool interpretation

Obviously his deduction abilities are also very much about practice and skill, but the idea that he might look first at different places in a room, focus on different details compared to those around him? Just processing things slightly differently? It feels like such a natural extension of who he is as written by Doyle imo

Here’s the link to the video I saw if anyones interested :)

#an autistic Holmes #would be a refreshing take on his story #have it be period accurate as well #imagine tho #in the industrial revolution too where there has never been so many people in a space with so much noise etc. #how does he navigate all that? #as the city gets busier and louder and more industrial it would be nice to see him develop coping mechanisms potentially? #especially if you follow Jeremy Brett’s headcanon that he came from the country #and #environments and the culture changed so so dramatically in the Victorian period #would love an exploration of that too #fascinating stuff #anyway as I was saying #id love to see a neurodivergent Holmes #someone sponsor me #bbc if you gave Moffat all that money you can spare me some #holmes #Watson #Granada Holmes #Sherlock Holmes #John Watson #canon Holmes #acd holmes

[hemipteran]

#mlk jr statue #æ #googled it it’s supposed to represent love everyone #‘embrace’ #9.5 million for that shit #literally a desecration of his name and legacy #y’all should be fucking ashamed #it’s not even good abstract art it’s just the worst #do u know how many good policy proposals mlk jr would have approved of could’ve been funded with that money #you know I’m fucking right #can’t even laugh @ it makes me sad good job #it is kind of funny tho #but only when u cognitively dissonance urself enough from the reality that allows things like this to exist #for 9.5 mother fuckin million #i can’t #💀 #imagine being mlk jr’s ghost seeing that shit #I’d have a fucking fit #how could u not

[bobzora]

if i was even a little bit weaker and even a little less broke id be buying p5r AGAIN for pc for screenshotting purposes

#bobtalk #can you imagine how gross and gay an official bobzora letsplay would be :/ #id start giggling and shit #ive already played vanilla x1 and royal x2 im glad im broke and have a bit of willpower left bc come on.play your backlog instead #not the same game Again #(not including all the ng+s ive done thatve only made it up to like 2nd palace for trophy hunting purposes lol) #still mad that i bought strikers (i dont like it at all) with my own money the month before it was the free monthly playstationgame... -_- #maybe if strikers was better finishing that could be nice. unfortunately i find it utterly miserable </3 partially a skill issue but ohwell #also yeah my backlog is pretty crazy rn. i still have to finish 2ep and theoretically the answer. i dont want to play the answer tho. #(its not fun lol) #and then theres all these other games i want to play/already have started... #but also...5... #im ill. steam keeps recommending it to me like 'you might like this game' and im like ough...you have no idea...

[sunhalf-a]

@daisyscape : ✍️ + okay listen... najma viper     /     accepting.

“Did you get to see Jamil today?” Ruhee asks, and Najma laughs, nodding, scooping the tiny girl into her arms.

“There you are.  I’ve been looking for you.”  Ruhee gives a sheepish smile; she always seems to disappear around bedtime.  “And I did!  It was nice.”  Her smile goes a little mischievous as she considers how she’d tormented him; that’s her job as little sister, though.  “It’s been a while since I’ve seen him in person.”

“Luckyyyyy,” Ruhee replies, almost pouting.  “We haven’t seen Kalim in aaaages.”

Najma shifts her against her hip.  “It’s not that long ‘til his next break.  Maybe your big brother come home this time.”  She hopes so — she’d sooner die than let Jamil find out, but it had been hard, last break, to be without her brother when she’d expected him home.  She can’t imagine it’s easier on Kalim’s brothers and sisters.  “How about I text Kalim tomorrow and we try to arrange a video call, so you guys can all see him sometime this week?”

“Yaaay!  That’d be so fun!  You’re the best, Najma!”

“In exchange, you have to go to bed really quiet tonight, and not give anybody any trouble, okay?”

“Booooo,” Rugee whines back, and Najma laughs.  “But okay!  I’ll tell everyone, and we’ll be soooo good tonight.”  Najma laughs again.  They’re all good kids — the Al - Asim family is, in a lot of ways, made up of especially good people.  They’re kind.  Kalim is kind; she knows that.  She grew up with her brother, serving the family like her family’s always done, and even if she wasn’t as close to Kalim as Jamil was, she’d never been all that far from him, either.  Jamil had protected her from becoming anyone’s personal servant, and kept her as far from Kalim as possible, but they grew up together; there had been times, between the distance and her own quiet resentment, when Kalim felt as much like her older brother as Jamil did.

Those moments never lasted all that long, though.  It only ever took a word from either of her parents — fearful in a way that she was too young to understand — or a thoughtless word from Kalim himself to remind her of what they were.  She — her brother — all of them...at the end of the day, they weren’t family.  They were servants, born into an impossible task, a role that none got to choose.  Najma cares for the Al - Asims, she does, but as she tucks Ruhee into the large bed piled with other children (  not because there isn’t madol and space enough for each to have their own room, their own wing, but because the siblings simply love one another in a way that’s all - tactile  ) she thinks of what she is.  She is their servant.  She is not their equal.  She’s not their sister.  At the end of the day, she’s not, really, even, allowed to be their friend.

And, every one of them, too sweet and too ignorant to see it.

She closes the door, she smiles, she stretches her arms above her head.  She misses her brother.  She misses Kalim, in between moments of splicing resentment she’s never been able to shake (  omah, omah, why can’t jamil play with me?  /  he has to entertain kalim, dear, you know that —  ) but above all, she misses her brother.  And she hopes he’s happy, with his friends.  He’d seemed happy when they met, in his own way.  He was away from Kalim, who Jamil ——

Who Jamil always said he loved.  Who, Najma noticed, even if no one else does, Jamil resents.

She wonders how things are at school.  She wonders if Kalim has figured it out yet, that no one can be his friend when they were born to serve him.  She wonders how long until she’s all grown up, when she can leave this place, when she can be more girl than servant.  She wonders that her parents never did, and wonders if it would be a betrayal to leave them.

Then, her head shakes.  There’s no use dwelling on things like that, things that ache.  Not when there’s still work to be done before it’s time for her, too, to go to sleep.

#daisyscape #✦ * — answered. #you mind if i ( goes nuts ) #anyway i have a lot of thoughts here both abt najmas relationship w jamil #and also the al-asims broadly #at a base level i think theres a certain level of like...jamils anger seems very personal #its not the system hes mad at ( tho he certainly doesnt like ) but kalim; hes not necessarily like... #well hes mad at the system but thats not pointed at dismantling it thats pointed at kalim #( which like; fair. kalim is fucked up here! ) #but i think that while najma shares a level of discomfort with the role she was born into and wants out its less personalized #like she doesnt resent the al-asims in any personal way its just the whole fucking system is fucked #and its fucked that just because kalims family has a lot of money her family is expected 2 just serve his forever #its fucked up that she was born to serve someone else. its fucked up that she was born into servitude #and she like wants out but due 2 the way her parents are (thinking abt how they talk 2 jamil in the flashbacks) doesnt rly have an out #not that i think their parents are Bad just like. set in The Way Things Are #like if jamil ultimately wants kalim gone and wants 2 stop having 2 associate w him or the family at all #nadja wants to stay close to them but actually Have the chance 2 be close #because rn even if none of kalims family realizes it theres no way 2 actually have a relationship w another person #when they other person is quite literally serving u and the stakes if they fail are so high #SPEAKING TO JAMIL SPECIFICALLY i like 2 imagine hes done all he can to protect her from ending up #the type of servant he is #and she lives a comparatively normal life but is still like #taking care of kalims siblings and etc and still Works for the al-asims #shes just not assigned a Person the way jamil was #and shes cognizant of the fact that he protected her from that #and wouldnt dream of spitting on that sacrifice by feeling guilty or pitying him #but like...she knows that jamil resents kalim a bit and she gets it. and she wishes she could help him in some tangible way #but shes just a kid.... #ask to tag / #ANYWAY

[vaguelyhauntedcornfield]

twitter’s really just letting people spread misinformation and fear monger about the covid vaccines.

saw someone say “pfizer started testing their mrna vaccine in 2017, 2 years before covid! they’re responsible for the pandemic!”

that was probably when they started testing the safety of general mrna vaccines, which is also the reason they were able to forego the regular extended clinical trial process and get rush authorization...bc there was already data proving safety and efficacy...they weren’t just out there with the covid virus...

im tired.

#like goddamn the fear mongering is effective #it gives me anxiety and i know it's bs #i can't even imagine what it does to someone who doesn't realize it's all lies #lol the one that makes me laugh tho is the theory that bill gates is trying to kill everyone #bro he sells tech i think he needs the masses for that #people online also need to take a stats class #look i did chem and physics not bio so im gonna trust the bio people on this #you probably should too #ugh i also saw someone say myocarditis and heart attacks are the same thing #bro heart attacks are called myocardial infarctions #different conditions #pls you have google use it im begging you #now yeah ur right these companies are money hungry #but that's the real reason they're releasing so little data #not bc they want you do die getting a FREE vaccine #bc they want their formulas and methods to remain proprietary so they can charge a premium exporting to other places #and strike exclusive deals #exactly how much sense does it make for people who make a living off of people's health #to be intentionally reducing their client base? hm? #you're all concerned about the companies being added to the childhood vaccine schedule bc of some immunity thing #class action lawsuits can still happen and the US gov would 100% stop patroning these companies entirely #if they were found eventually to be causing mass harm #the mrna vaccine has so many other potential and lucrative applications #you really think they'd botch this up when the non-covid possibilities could make them insane amounts of money? #idk man pharma companies suck but their malice is focused in profit #like keeping things exclusive to their companies so they can drive up cost #that's why you can get tretinoin outside of the US for like $30 #but here it's more than $100 #exclusivity #same with insulin and epipens and tamiflu and vasculera

[sudokuplayer]

#one of my mom's friends is getting her husband (who is a psychiatrist) to get me a certificate so i dont have to go to vote #cause it's mandatory and i'm agoraphobic but haven't been to the doc since march 🥴👍🏼 #but like it's very obvious why 🤨 it terrifies me❗❗❗❗❗❗❗ #anyway if i dont vote i have to pay and it's not like an insane amount of money but i'm jobless and a loser so my plan was killing myself🫣 #and i know my mom and siblings would pay but it's so humiliatinggggg #it's also so humiliating that she told that friend about me i feel sick cause she was my brother's teacher #and my brother is so nice and brilliant and talented and well liked by everyone. and my sister is pretty and makes a lot of money #like i wanna die when i imagine my mom telling her friend about me the middle child who is the world's loserest girl 🫠 #like obviously she talks about me and my mess with her friends 🙄 even tho i always tell her to act like im dead #but now im CERTAIN she does talk about me 🤮 #... the other day she was on the phone with another friend and i heard the friend asked about my siblings and then about me and she asked #''does she eat with you or in her room?'' #🥴 it made me so sickk i dont know why #btw she asked that because my mom was telling her about dinner like what she was cooking and stuff #ok anyway i hope that thing works cause ive been so miserable since i found out the vote thing was mandatory 🤮 #and i'm sure it's illegal what the friendcs husband will do 🫣 so i'm scared #but like i have been diagnosed by two different docs 😭 and ive been on meds and i stop taking them all the time cause im paranoid but yea #the only lie is the fact that he hasn't been involved in my flop treatment.. #and that vote thingy is not like elections. it's another thing and it is important and all but 🫣 i just couldn't care less right now ❗

[dontcallmecedge]

When twilight sparkle said: “I don’t know how to travel to a future that I can’t see”

I felt that

#mlp #I speak #I’m so tired #and I have no money #so you can imagine the kind of stress i am under #tho tbh that whole song still makes me cry to this day #it’s so good

[ocdhuacheng]

one of the job listings i was looking at was posted 11 days ago but its been taken down already literally like right after i see it, and the other one which was interesting / i met the qualifications for was posted march 21st like that was like  5 months ago... what does that mean..... like is it actually still available or did they just forget to take it down

#....... i reeeaally wanted one of these #like even if they were still available id probably not get in but still -_- #i wanna work with accelerators and vacuum chambers -_- #the listing still up specifies astrophysics concentration as one of the preferred ones too -_- #.txt #whatever i guess ill just apply to the ice cream shop that was hiring nearby for now #which like IM FINE WITH but it would be nice to have some actual astrophysics work to do so i can put it on my grad school applications..... #(paid work. i mean im still volunteering w the research group. but i would like an actual job and actual money. #you know so i can like afford basic necessities once i move out of my parents house #) #and i havent seen my dad all day where is he hes the one that can help most with the accelerator application #but like just imagine if that ones taken down too that would be saaaauuuuurrr funnyyyyyyyy #why arent they asking me for references tho #and what the fuck is a cover letter