#im too damn old for this shit

[samarecharm]

it happens alot

OG link (ha) and image under the cut

lol

#persona 5 #akira kurusu #ren amamiya #listen. look at me. I draw the roughest women and sweatiest bears. its my favorite pasttime. I know damn well he does not look fucking butc #I was tempted to change it to lesbian instead of butch but like #thats not whats in the IMAGE .....head in hands #IN REALITY he is just a very pretty lesbian that is also sometimes butch if u get to talk to him #like oops haha its just that *gestures to all six feet of him* #padding out the 'hes nb but also its cause he doesnt care at all' hc #also. man i need to draw him more; he comes out looking so baby everytime #too used to drawing gay old bears and furries so when my brain says hey ur drawing a Young Man im like GOT IT......baby time #ah well #at least he looks more like Him in my wip #Oh u know what? i was going to add more tags about him but i have a BLOG w a POST button. love that shit <3

[toxooz]

omg i literally love wheelbitten as a comic and ur art is amazing

random question but how long have u been drawing as an artist and do u have advice.............

thank uuuu and I've been drawin my ass off since I could hold a pencil and I'm 24 (25 next month) now so this shit wasn't overnight by any means lmfao idk the way i did it was have A Thing that you like drawing and just draw the fuck outa it and eventually you'll get better for sure whether it be the desire to get better at drawing said thing makes you do research and study something to become better at it or just literal muscle memory from drawing said thing so much. I had lil spouts of taking time to get better at specific things like anatomy, shading, ect. by studying it but overall i just subconsciously got better by mentally picking up new things everytime i draw and analyzing the world around me. Even recently i got to see that with drawing tactical gear (that ive never really drawn before and never wanted to draw in my life) soley bc i just REALLY fukkin love Ghost and Konig

i went from being terrified and intimidated of drawing tactical gear (even trying to put a gun in front of it as if that was any better lmfao) it used to be vague as hell and my brain would shut down just trying to look at the references(i remember having a ''shit man am i even gunna be able to draw these characters???'' moment of dread the first time i was drawing Konig pffft) to absolutely loving drawing tactical gear and seeing how much more detailed i can make it with every new drawing, so a complete 180 but that's bc im just totally obsessed with the characters and drawing is how i express that sO thats mainly what i mean by just have a thing that you love and want to draw and the rest should follow with time, patience, and practice. I think it's about training your brain and motivation to pick up on details or a certain way something looks in lighting (or lack thereof) bc my brain is probably wired a certain way after art being like a centerpiece of my development to the point to where drawing is just What I Do and at this point if i dont draw for even a few days i start getting vaguely antsy and fidgety it's crazy lmfao SO idk if this is worded like i need it to but yeah art and the act of drawing can be frustrating as hell but it should be enjoyable and rewarding above all else at the end of the day!

#i drew bc the piece of shit im unfortunately biologically related to drew a lot when we were kids so id just copy her #then i drew winged wolves and dragons and the occasional horse for like 7 years then The Axel obsession started #where i drew axel from kindom hearts literally all the time and had 870000 aus for him where i would draw for all of them #when i tell you the obsession for him was catastrophic u best believe but it kept me drawing like a motherfucker until i made my monster oc #which was around the age of 15 is when i started consistently drawing humanoids #OH YEAH i had a whole lion king phase too in 2011 where i would strictly draw lions all the time and my first record of drawing online was #on the lion king fanart archive (which i still visit to look back its like visiting an old janky friend:') ) #but yeah then my heart was stolen by my ocs and all the potential designs i could make them #and thats where i am now aside from the festering COD masked men obsession boiling over in the corner AHA #so basically latch onto an obsession and pick up that damn pencil #even as a kid if i liked anything the immediate connection was trying to draw it #didnt matter how weird to draw or undrawable it was my ass would be in that notebook bc its the only way i know how to express myself lmfao #this is long as fuck but NOW im out peace skskksk

[chekhovs-nailgun]

antis who stalk proship blogs especially to repost what they find are really wild.

either u actually adhere to what you preach (that interacting with fiction will make you reenact it if there’s not a big red sign saying “BAD” overtop of it) and you’re willingly taking the content out from behind the warnings and putting it in an unregulated place where minors/people more likely to actually do that will see it.

or you don’t actually think that’s happening, and you just want to be a bully. which is it? can’t have it both ways and you know it lmfao

#damn i thought the 23 year old stalking me would’ve gotten the message #but they’re still showing huge amounts of minors kink shit! #real ‘don’t worry. i’m a safe adult. now let me show you kids some sex art’ vibes. coming from a victim you’re creepy as fuck dawg #creeps gonna creep i guess #i’ve said it before i’ll say it again: fuck off you nonce. you’re violating the dni #anyone who’s followed me for a while knows who it is lmao #since i know this is gonna be screenshotted and posted too: #yall are not ‘spreading awareness’ about shit. i’m open abt who i am and nobody needs some guy to tell them im proship #keep on placating yourselves with that tho if you can’t handle to think about it any deeper #chekhov’s cathedral #antis dni

[astronomicalunit32]

In my motivic analysis phase. When did we decide to stop listening to the hamilton soundtrack.

#this is so fucking good #it came out when i was a wee one and i listened to it all the time #but now im old enough to actually appreciate the intricacies #like how the maria reynolds in say no to this tries to mimic some of elizas melodies in helpless but it isnt quite right #like a beat is off or its too low #and the satisfied piano intro plays during take a break and is also the intro to burn #which is like. damn that song really is just foreshadowing and highlighting hamiltons relationship with angelica as like. lost love. #also in take a break when hamilton quotes macbeth (more specifically the actual character macbeth) #in his letters to angelica #when she visits she tells him screw your courage to the sticking place #which is like shakespeare fanception but also thats a lady macbeth line #like. his fuckint wife who actually was the reason he could do all the dumb shit he does. #screaming crying throwing up #au rants #i forgot to tag that in my ranting haste. like the most important tag for people who dont care about my analysis of random shit

[vampire6bux]

haveing a very risky shipment get sent to my house w my nosy ass family but Ykw fuck it we ball

#im too old for them to keep lookin thru my shit brah #’ooo Sowwy I thought it was 4 me’ Ho no U did not it’s got my damn naaaame on it #U just nosy‼️

[claratwelve]

any companion who witnessed a regeneration is the strongest soldier on earth

#that shit is traumatic especially if ur clara and the new doctor is a grumpy old man that's still figuring out how to be nice n considerate #but also yaz who witnessed the doctor turning into the master #and then the beginnings of the actual regeneration too like damn that girl went through hell #im always like oh she got out prettl mildly but when you think about it... #she just witnessed the woman she loves turn into her evil ex best friend turned arch enemy #and then said goodbye to her before thirteen regenerated for good bc like #she knew she'd be a whole different person. that's almost as bad as witnessing a loved one dying #wow im dramatic today

[thetimelordbatgirl]

Kinda funny how still in 2023, people call Mabel the worst character of Gravity Falls simply because she acts like a 12 year old child, but they silent as hell when it comes to Dipper.

#the vibes off 'girls must be perfect while boys will be boys' are strong here #like people get mad at mabel for being a 12 year old basically #while dippers allowed to be that in comparison by them #like mabels done shit that gets people mad at her but when dipper does similar shit its okay to them #(looking at how the two treat romance but how the two get treated by the fandom here #plus looking at how people treat dipper and mabel when it comes to doing shit with bill) #like i dont drag dipper cause again hes 12 #its like mabel: they acting their age in show #but mabel haters really do have standards for how girls can act and how boys can act #and honestly the fact that mabel gets hate for shit bill did...oh i have too many thoughts #and dont get me started on that video that blamed mabel for gideosn actions #like this got made cause someone posted four worst characters on twitter #and honestly its definitely bait vibes cause they included agent p from paf #like yeah bait vibes strong #but like damn if their replies didnt make it clear they did mean what they said about mabel and the two other girls #aka katara and sakura from naruto #i dont know much about sakura but like blame the writing for her issues #anime has issues with writing women #thats been known for a long time #and katara...girl the audacity is all im saying #just...too many thoughts there

[arolesbianism]

Thinks oh so hard abt the spiraling upwards clan founders, especially the birchclan founders. Silly lil kitties who's pasts are drenched in blood with the primary regret of not drawing it sooner

#rat rambles #oc posting #warriors posting #spiraling upwards #long story short they had a shitty awful terrible leader who sucked absolutely ass and they tore him to shreds #I mean that literally they pinned him onto the mountain side and slashed and mauled the shit out of him so hard that his lives evaporated #and several of the cats involved in that scene are sill alive and major parts of the story and I love them #oh also the cat that pinned him through a stab through the throat was his own daughter btw everyone hated his ass so much #and for good reason get his ass #alas in the main story I dont rly get to go too deep into how he harmed everyone involved mostly just three main ones #aka bristlestar because shes murtlepaw's ghost mom dawncrackle because hes also haunting murtle and gullspot because shes bristle's kit #so basically all the flashbacks we get involve those three in some form or another #honeystar was also there and involved but Im not currently planning on having her rly talk abt that #most of her more modern angst is the fact that she was forced into leadership against her will #and shes been alive long enough that shes been leading birchclan far longer than she ever lived in her old clan #but she did go through a lot of shit before birchclan was founded and it definitely shaped her a lot #she used to be a very determined and high spirited lil kitty cat who tried to be optimistic #but her family began to slowly be picked off one by one by both the old leader and the one whod later get evicerated #some of the older cats around her hoped it make her back down from her revelutionary ideas but she noticed that and it backfired on them #instead of being worn down to submission she became absolutely Furious and began to lash out more and become more demanding #it got to the point that she really only had two friends in the entire clan and one of them was her aunt whod later also die after coming #out abt having witnessed the leader killing his own kits #that was the final fucking straw for her and she was fully on board when bristle and dawn started looking for cats to join their rebellion #she did get rly frustrated with them as they waited patiently for the right moment but her remaining bestie kept her from going apeshit #so once the big fight finally broke out she was more than eager to join the hoard of cats chasing the bastard upwards #now unlike some of the other cats involved this legitimately actually made her feel a lot better for a while #for the first time in ages she finally felt like she could be optimistic abt smth again and was excited abt the idea of leaving this place #she had lost so much in this damn place since she was an apprentice and just wanted to finally be able to rest easy #but once they got to their new territory and set up camp things went south real fast as a flood fucked everything up #and after losing the only cat she had left in her life and losing her tail and being made deputy on top of that she deteriorated quickly

[apollo-zero-one]

Man I can't believe I had the chance to go to a performing arts school up through middle school and I fuckin quit after 6 months just because I got bullied. BRO YOUR HOMEWORK WAS POETRY!! YOU HAD TO PRACTICE DANCING TO COTTON EYE JOE AS YOUR BIG UNIT TEST. GYM CLASS HAD A CIRCUS UNIT!! YOU HAD A WHOLE DAILY CLASS ON IMPROV!!! YOU FOOL!! YOU ABSOLUTE IMBICILE!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN A YOUTUBER!!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN ONE OF THOSE TWEENAGERS GETTING LOADED BY MAKING SHITTY YOUTUBE SHORTS IN 2008-14!! But noooOoooOOOoo little miss Noellie (who WANTED TO GO!! who worked SO HARD and sent in an application essay and did an INTERVIEW to get in!!) couldn't handle disruptive classmates or little scuffles and petty grudges and general Attitude of the other students and cried to mommy to put her back in public school. I am EATING MY HAIR over what Could Have Been. I COULD BE SOMEONE'S ANNOYING YOUTUBER!! I could be a DISGRACED DISNEY CHANNEL STAR!! I could be an America's Got Talent winner! A mild to moderately successful comedian! I could be making short films!! But no no no precious thin skinned baby me heard a few new cus words and watched a teacher get heckled and begged to give up The Dream in favor of?? Quiet math tests?? I am such a fucking quitter I quit everything the second it gets too hard I always take the out as soon as it's offered what's my fucking damage.....

#I had SO MUCH POTENTIAL and I SQUANDERED IT!! weak ass third grade PUSSY! Your life could have been SO SICK!! #or you could at least be addicted to cocain or something interesting like that!! Boring ass goody two shoes always just staying home doing #NOTHING bitch make a REAL FRIEND go to a God Damn PARTY live a little instead of just hiding in the closet eating saltine crackers for years #waiting for it to be quiet outside before you ever even toed the line #mentally ill self-isolating motherfucker #you could have shrugged it off you could have GROWN A PAIR and FOUGHT BACK but you just ran and cried for mommy #victim complex little bitch baby always whining and exaggerating and making shit up fucking LIAR I am you and I KNOW what you did and I know #you knew it wasn't the truth and you regretted it the moment it came out of uour mouth but once you'd said it you just swallowed it back and #doubled down incriminating or discrediting others with your lies. For why? Because you didn't like them? You could have ruined someone's #life you wouldn't have hesitated mayhe you did and don't even remember because you cant keep your mouth shut with your pants ablaze #manipulative little shit and to WHAT END? Pity? Sympathy? Attention? Entertainment?? What was even going on in your stupid ugly head? #This is a callout post for my third grade self that possessed demon ass evil nine year old. That kid drowned anthills in olive oil and #poisoned a wild animal once. That kid cut plants just to see if they oozed. That kid modified her whole ass personality on a dime for a boy #she had a crush on. INSTANTLY dropped a LIFELONG CULTURAL ALLEGIANCE (thats what football teams were like back then in our town) because he #said he had the opposite allegiance??? What the fuck? girl had NO integrity none zip zilch. #No empthy either that kid looked at everyone else on earth like they were friggin space aliens and she was the only one with Real feelings. #bitch literally thought like 'I have Feelings they just have Reactions' bitch what the fuckkkkk #that nine year old was fucked the hell up!!! #and for literally NO REASON!! No cause!! Just born fucking evil and weird. jesus fuck. #Evil ass bitch caused her autistic brother months of nightmares and then laughed about it and wrote poetry about how evil he was because he? #was a kid??? Normal sibling rivalry taken way way way too far defamatory ass statements #and this girl had NO CONSEQUENCES because she could lie and manipulate her way out of ANYTHING she had the baby eyes and the helpless charm #and played dumb soooo well . read people like some calculative evil AI scanning their faces for microexpressions and overanalyzing each word #choice like holy shit. its not That Deep. pretentious shit trying to play 5D chess on a checkers board. #Manipulating shit just to see what happens?? zero awareness?? no asking just skipping straight to testing for yourself?? #'What happens if I step on this' it fucking breaks 'what does that taste like?' it's not fucking yours to mess with 'if I hit this person #how will they respond?' they'll be upset use your goddamn judgement you are NINE not TWO do you even care a little about any other person?? #Are you just living in some other reality??? #callout post for the fucking demon child inside of me #im so goddamn problematic I'm so so so deeply mentally disturbed and broken for no reason

[abluehappyface]

Am I even worth anything?

#ive never had a job #cant drive #only taken two college classes #one of which I failed #and the other i got a late C #i only plan on taking one more #if i can even do that #cant multi task worth shit #im too old to be this damn useless #y'know there are some days where i wish I wasn't autistic though #but being allistic seems boring #so im stuck here #not doing anything worthwhile and being scrutinized lightly because i can't change it one minute #just for everything to go back to normal the next minute #and now im alone in the house #wondering if ill ever do something with my life #bluey's vents #tw vent #cw vent #abluehappyface #sometimes i want to just give up

[thaliasthunder]

do u think disney will include Will in the Last Olympian? im asking bc being honest i dont really think they'll film hoo neither toa for the age-time thing so i just wonder if they'll really get into the topic of nico being gay since rick did not start suggesting it and eventually making it official until hoo........so

#*scratches head* #i mean in pjo will is just a minor character and literally appears like 2 minutes #and having in mind they probably wont do hoo because it'll be too difficult to manage the characters ages #(bc uknow hoo's supposed to be set all in like less of a year and every movie takes like 2 years to complete so the actors will be too old) #and u dont get to acknowledge pecks of nico's of gay yearning 4 percy till House of Hades #and still he doesnt interact w Will till BoO #........so thats what im wondering if they'll even include will in the series #or even at least do hints of nico being gay or in love w percy..... #i know we have like 6 years ahead for this yet but STILL #gods what will d*sney do to my son #idk but i feel like rick will fight disney to do at least A HINT of nico being in love w percy/or being gay #but still i dont trust old white men so im READY TO FIGHT FOR MY EMO GAY SON IF D*SNEY FUCKS THIS SHIT UP #nico di angelo #wait but what if they include will BEFORE TLO so his narrative about being gay has opportunity to show up without #to be in love w percy? what if they make Nico&Will meet in The Battle of the Labyrinth season or something... #so they wouldnt need to do hoo and nico being gay would still happen but in pjo #damn im such a genius #will solace #percy jackson #pjo #hoo #toa #solangelo #rick riordan #disney+ #walker scobell

[bojackhorsemanobviously]

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#there's all this talk in the show about the power he had over people but none about the women who had power over him #note im not saying that it excuses his shit either im just saying the eshow never really holds the women accountable #as a woman that annoys me #esp as one with a mom who has often made me feel worthless #i also found the writers to get way too insecure in s5 about how people viewed their main character that they felt the need to double down #give mc a sympathic backstory and will feel bad for him what were they expecting? #heck i felt kinda bad for beatrice and i dont hate her but her dad sucked you cant help but pity her esp as an old lady #angela diaz #scary women #she was so damn convincing #for a show about accountabiity its justall on one mans shoulder and it just doesnt feel like it was that fair shrugs #dont believe me? #ana his publist sexually assaults BJ #this is ignored and brushed off as if it never happened #beatrice his biggest abuser next to his father is given the sad old lady treatment that he acutally ends up being kind too #diane fucks pb who is with pickles and is mostly absolved of any wrong doing on her end #pc agrees to work with vance gets bj to a doc that gives him the opiums and does nothing to stop him from hurting gina #angela is gay the whole time and still fires herb then berates and offers a man who is mentally unstable more alchhol #it also felt tacked on in ep 10 of s5 to me like it came of super insecure #oh he def did shitty sshit that is unforgiveable but it felt like they were just throwing a bunc of random x//a/s to double down

[elegyofthemoon]

ah the intimacy of knowing each other's stories and trusting each other deeply that you know what would make the other happy

#there was supposed to be a long 'old man' ramble about me and my best friend from high school (nick) but kfjdjdjd #idk. was getting dumb and sentimental about it #I SHOULD TEXT HIM THAT #ill do that in a sec #but just.... :) #me who has 0 perception of myself and who im supposed to be #vs my best friend of 11 ish years who knows my tells a little too well its scary LMAO #like for some reason when we went to the amusement park together over the summer he somehow predicted my exact reaction and the way id say #something in a situation and i just orz damn ok iffhddjdjsj #i cant define myself for shit but my friends who love me for some reason can and i trust them 👍🏻👍🏻 #anyways just thinking a bit on the dreams stuff. and still thinking of our last call together and kinda got 🥺 about it. #friends tag #snow speaks #nick is too perceptive sometimes lmao #fb tag

[r1ghtwhereyouleftme]

Me: I hate [insert thing here] discourse

Also me: *gets so annoyed when people are blatantly stupid and do things thay make zero sense therefore making me go along with discourse bc I can only handle so much stupidity*

#yes this is about queer discourse bc oh my god its painful #yes let people be themselves but also stop being stupid #sometimes things contradict each other and you can be both and that's fucking ok #its like the shit where ive seen people literally just too afraid of one label for whatever reason so they make up a middle label #god i sound shitty out of context #i mean like bi lesbian- you cant be bi and a lesbian that doesnt work #its ok to be bi its ok to be lesbian fuck its ok to be straight i just wish people would stop skirting around labels for dumb reasons #and this is all coming from someone who struggles like hell with labels #i also hate slur discourse bc its very simple who can and cant say what #like if youre cishet ofc you cant say a slur #and nonbinary people are trans so we can say a slur dont fuckign diminish our transness you transmed ass freaks #god damn i hate getting riled up about stupid probably 14 year olds on the internet #people are dumb and im tired of them #long story fucking short do what you want just dont be stupid or an asshole #this was a lot of tags

[maretriarch]

going through old art to try and find something without wanting to kill yourself challenge difficulty: IMPOSSIBLE

#id like to say thank u and im sorry to the people whove been following me for years cus that shit was gross #ugh i know im gonna think the same abt this stuff now in a few years too ugh why do i keep posting #at least now I feel like my stuff isnt objectively terrible like how it was for a long time #i had like. a delevepmental delay re my art fucking Stunted for a long time too damn old to be drawing like that

[kiras-monkey-bum-face]

being a TA helping the class gain confidence, learn from their mistakes, build bonds and help educational progress:

being a TA that has no choice in having to do whatever the fuck an off timetable child wants to do, who's guardian said "good luck" as soon as they drop them off in a violent mood

#i have too much shit to do i need to start charging babysitting rates #i know im being so damn harsh but my god PLEASE i hate going into work knowing i have to just let them do what they want #i have mental issues. i dont get free passes to do what i want. #'oh but youre an adult' trust me weve had enough training about windows of tolerance and its reiterated people under 25 can be pushed #the same way was a 10 year old. i have worked with this kid for over a year and no matter what we do fuck all works #even the therapists my work has say the child manipulates everything in their favour #there are other sen kids in my class that desperately need support but i cannot be there because you wants to play chess and bake cookies #anyway if you cant tell im reconsidering my job #stop talking helena