#im talking about white ppl saying the n word

[thewickerking]

OK SO. EPIC WIN! SOUND HAS CEASED!! its on and off and idk if ill hear it again tonight (please i hope not) but it is GONE i am COMFY in BED. my phone DIED but thats ok shes at 3$ now and plugged in so shes going up :)

#updates on my last posts tags: i dont like actually see spiders i just see movement out of the corner of my eye that isnt there and then my #brain always categorizes it as spiders and its nearly never spiders but it makes me rlly on edge and scared 4 no reason #itll just like be a little black blur out of focus (when theres genuinely nothing there other than like. my white sink or bathtub) and my #brain is like 'ah oh no spider' and my pulse quickens and i get scared and think its gonna kill me cause im sooo normal btw #i joke abt being scared of spiders n stuff but theres genuinely terrifying to me and have given me super bad panic attacls : #anyways. #erm abt the last thing abt Bad Sounds ik its probably a symptom of something but i havent heard of anything that sounds right except maybe #overstimulation but very rarely feel overstimulated im usually very understimulated and its not that theres too many sounds its just theres #one really bad one that sets me off like weird random things like snoring and certain dripping faucets and breathing and like. certain ways #people brush their hands together when they have something on them but they do it for too long and the sound is horrible but subtle #and also certain times people are tapping against fabric like. stuff that ppl overlook and u can barely hear but it drives me off the walls #like idk what common thread they have other than NORMAL EXISTING HUMAN SOUNDS but like. idk if pain is the right word to describe it but #its genuinely something physically pain adjacent like. tension. like when u pull a rubber band super far apart and it cant fucking #stay like that like cmon it hurts it needs to snap please let it out. but letting it out is like. erm. not good and if the sound doesnt end #after u let it out like it didnt do anything it just goes back. ough idk idk idk. i used to not tell anyone this stuff cause i mostly did l #it at night and i think ppl will say im exaggerating and faking cause they dont witness it and my mother doesnt do it i think so its not an #acceptable form of mental illness /s but like genuinely i dont feel like im allowed to mention it but whatever!!! #anyways this is rlly long if u read it. hi. i love u. i hope u have a good day/ #night also hmu if u know what whatever this is called i wanna talk about it in therapy and i think my words dont feel professional enough #ik u shouldnt have to act professional in therapy bur erm. i feel like i need to in some ways its complicated #.ares

[thestamp3d3]

dude who radicalized my dad why are we agreeing on politics rn

#bro the other day #me and him were talking about the republican nominee debates right #and basically i was trash talking all of them #and SO WAS HE???? which was surprising #then we started talking about how expensive everything is (bc i wanna move out) and how politicians dont care about the ppl n shit #and then at one point he was like 'i believe everyone should be able to afford to live regardles but people call u a socialist for that" #and then now i showed him this article about how trans women were banned at this chess tournament and i was like 'look how stupid this is' #then HE WENT ON a whole rant about how trans ppl are being attacked for no reason and how its stupid sports are gendered #AND THAT WAS ALL HIM....I DID NOT SAY ONE WORD TO INFLUENCE THAT ROUTE OF CONVERSATION #dude where did he get these opinions bc he was always pretty conservative my whole life...IM NOT COMPLAINING BTW im just shocked #its shocking for a white guy in his 50s to hold those opinions im just saying

[leggo-my-aego]

MY REACTIONS TO THE **HEARTSTEEL BOYS** PLAYLISTS FROM SOMEONE WHO HAS BARELY CONSUMED LoL CONTENT (PART 2/2)

note: again, sorry if im wrong w anything, but i rlly tried my best 💜

note2: ALSO THEY SHOWED UP IN THE WORLD FINALS AND I FUCKING MISSED IT IM SOBBING 😭😭😭😭

note3: im doubting riots gonna show more of the Heartsteel content for a LONG time so this is my way of coping with that </3

this post ft. Kayn, Sett and Yone so if yll wanna see my first post w/ Aphelios, Ezreal & K'Sante, heres a link!! :

ANYWAYS BACK TO OUR IRREGULAR SCHEDULED PROGRAM

KAYN 💜

>he reminds me of an overactive dog that barks at anything that moves and the description just emphasizes that

>SOO dudebro. like mans spawned from a frat and is now making music

>born to rave and def has aux in house parties where cops come to arrest ppl cuz noise complaint

>seems like the type of people who walk around in public with a speaker and blasts music while ppl stare at him

>opposite of k'sante, would NOT trust him w my drink <//3

>would trust him to start barking randomly tho and be a getaway driver (would we survive ? prolly not, but we're fast 😈)

>also used soundcloud a lot for opposite vibes of Aphelios. this mans was definitely a soundcloud rapper since high school and was voted as that superlative

>i think the fact my song reccs are from my road rage playlist is also another thing about his character

> Personal Song Reccs based off this playlist💜:

• GASLIGHT! - Maggie Lindemann, Siiickbrain

• Oh Shit!!! - Injury Reserve

• FEEL. - Kendrick Lamar

SETT 🧡

>i can only think of that discord bit of him and k'sante talking ab their protein powder and k'sante just raw dogging the powder like a psycho

>similar vibes to Kayn but this man would actually be apologetic if someone told him to turn down the music

>obsessed with Rocky and Bruce Lee films since he was a kid for sure and makes references that none of the boys get

>definitely has a guilty pleasure for catchy and annoying pop music. definitely knows the words to call me maybe by carly rae jepsen and was caught singing it by aphelios

>i wanna think he growls before a fight even in this universe

>i think ab that recent art of him tearing his shirt after the World Final performance

> Personal Song Reccs based off this playlist🧡:

• Cobra (Rock Remix) [ft. Spiritbox] - Megan Thee Stallion

• DEATHCAMP (ft. Cole Alexander) - Tyler the Creator

• God's Menu - Stray Kids

YONE 💖

>im SO serious when i say i thought all this man listened to was white noise music before i listened to this playlist

>honestly, i wasnt too far off. my song reccs are straight from my Brain Static playlist

>gives club music. but like those really lowkey ones if u know what im talking ab

>if this wasnt a playlist from a game company i would think this mans would have classical music in this playlist too

>he DEFINITELY is a Pandora user rather than spotify user for obvious reasons old ass

>hes so old im crying 😭

>i wanna think him n aphelios both listen to game soundtracks n bond over it. those two have my heart n i think is an underrated duo given they do the bts stuff

> Personal Song Reccs based off this playlist💖:

• coalescence 1212 - アトラスサウンドチーム (from Shin Megami Tensei IV : Apocalypse OST)

• EARTHBOUND - black balloons

• dream about some mistakes i made - nilöwh.

#heartsteel #league of legends #heartsteel playlist #playlist #song reccs #heartsteel kayn #shieda kayn #kayn #heartsteel sett #sett league of legends #sett #heartsteel yone #yone #yone league of legends

[mebbrrr]

WAS IT THE BLACKFACE TIKTOK??? YOU WENT TO THAT SCHOOL??

YES. I GRADUATED A WHILE AGO BUT I KNOW HOW THAT SCHOOL FUNCTION. LITERALLY COVERS UP ANY INSTANCES OF BIGOTRY.

the first gsa club meeting was meet with gun threats. ppl saying they would wait for us at the doors. we had to leave in groups through a different door. school didnt do SHIT.

an acquaintance of mine who i graduated with had her knee broken AT HOMECOMING by a white kid who decided mexicans fucking sucked. school didnt do SHIT.

the middle school has white kids calling black kids their slaves and throwing cotton at them. school didnt do SHIT.

had a kid kill himself after being outed. school said he just passed away in his sleep. didnt do SHIT abt the ppl outing him or anything abt the ppl calling him slurs after the fact.

kid bought an app that made a whip sound effect when you shook your phone. acted like he was whipping the only black kid in class. school didnt. do. SHIT.

black special ed kid got put in in-school-detention after fighting back against a kid who called him the n slur. school literally didnt do anything abt the racist motherfucker. only punished the black kid.

casual bigotry is everywhere too. white cishet kids calling everyone around them slurs.

my friend who still attends HS was tapped on their shoulder, only to turn around and get called a fag by the kid asking for their attention.

back in the middle school, i was confronted in an ASSEMBLY by a random motherfucker sitting in front of me. i was jokingly trying to convince my friend to give me the chocolate that she had won, and he looked back at me and said “do you ever shut up???” then leaned to his friend and started whispering. turns out they had some Shit to say bc then they turned back and said “are you a boy or a girl??? which one??”

also had a blonde girl in my theatre class gush about kpop idols, saying how she loved asian guys. then asked if i was asian. i said no, that i was mexican on my dad��s side. she frowned and went “i dont like mexicans.”

ive personally gotten harassed IN THAT SCHOOL SPECIFICALLY in the library by these footballers. kept leaning over, asking if i was gay, asking Very personally inappropriate questions. calling me derogatory names. couldnt do SHIT abt it.

not to mention the treatment afab people get. ive been touched inappropriately SEVERAL times, ive gotten called a whore in middle school, someone told my friend he should rape me. thats only my experience. i know girls who have gotten their nudes airdropped in the cafeteria during lunch time, and the guys responsible had the most barebones punishment of all fucking time.

the teachers are complicit, if not contributing to the bullshit. i had a teacher in the middle school deliberately tell us to just use the right bathrooms after we watched a news segment about the fight for trans people to use the bathrooms that they need to. ive had teachers basically ban the word “gay” from their classrooms. ive heard teachers call poc “the colored folks”

but a white kid gets called a cracker and then the kid who called them that gets suspended or some shit. literally fuck that school system. im glad its getting called out.

FUCK that school system. FUCK coffee county. go follow this person. this is their new account. they got banned from bringing this shit to the light. support them in whatever way you can. i dont go to that school anymore, but the damage is already done for me. if theres anything we can do to help the folks still attending, then its worth talking about.

#racism cw #f slur cw #homophobia cw #transphobia cw #rape mention #gun violence cw #suicide mention #asks

[janersm]

Every hashtag that an ableist, aphobic, biphobic TERF has made about me (so far) because she didn’t like that I said relationships involving bisexual people are inherently queer & told her not to call me bihet.

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#get a life you fucking loser #you're harassing me in my inbox like an insecure pathetic baby and self-victimizing yourself #and lying #who actually experiences oppression and vitriol is homosexuals #wah being told im privileged is oppression and hate #you're calling all gays hateful and evil saying they oppress you for being in het relationships Imao #you think sexuality is based on gender and not biological sex bc ur homophobic #once again by this logic straight men are gay if they date bi women and lesbians are het if they date bi women #stfu #stop erasing ppl bc you wanna be oppressed so bad #white woman cringe #gays have it easier because when they get hate crimed at least they know their entire sexual orientation #we're so lucky #for being validated before getting killed and beaten <3 #you can tell which bis have been w women be at least some of them will acknowledge the privilege they have when with men but still very few #and ive seen other bis dogpile them and accuse them of having internalized biphobia for saying they have privilege when dating and marrying #men #the white ppl of sexuality tbh

#can u imagine if you told a straight man he is feminine and in a feminine relationship or some shit for dating a woman #thats how crazy you sound #closest kinda of analogy i can think of at 4am #jfc #stop oppressing me for having a bf my relationship is gay so treat me like a gay person if you don't it's discrimination and erasure #but also according to her #heterosexual relationships are gay #braindead comment #i face the most homophobia bc i have a bf it's true #sorry gayz #???? #liberal brainrot #just switch words around and call it oppression #why are liberals all so narcisstic and toxic #they're so obsessed with telling minorities they are privileged and finding a way to say they aren't privileged be they think oppression is #fun and being privileged is boring #white as hell but acting like they're the biggest anti racists or anti oppression while they perpetuate it and deny their privileges and #intersections of their privileges #she's gonna say she's authority on racism now bc i can't say trans ideology and community is racist and white #w their own white supremacists

#and according to her the nasty gays (dirty perveted genital fetishists) and the monosexuals (straights) are harming the most oppressed and #neglected 'minorities' asexuals and bisexuals #imagine equating bisexual struggles to asexuals Imaooo #yikes #a self drag #don't erase yourself then complain :)) #stop saying hetero relationships are gay :)) #everytime a bi person says they're gay you're committing homophobia and erasure of two groups of people :)) #one of whom who faces real oppression for their sexuality #hint it's not the woman w the bf #she thinks she's authority on lesphobia/ homophobia then calls all gays biphobic privileged oppressors #even poc understand we have different struggles and privileges #it's so funny #how pathetic they are #so offended by having privilege #if you're gonna call yourself gay and your straight relationship gay #complaining about bihet is so hypocrital #i didn't even just say she's het Imao #i was gonna write up a post about this but it feels like a good place to discuss this #bi women just keep slapping us in the face acting like this and saying shit like this

#homegirl also said i ruined her sleep and made her take more meds #i didn't force you to stalk n harass me #i had this post so long i had to cut down so much of what i said #god she's annoying af #such a manipulative sad pathetic person obsessed with being a liberal victim #while she's literally mutals with TYGRESS #why can't they ever talk about how homophobic and misogynistic they are #i feel like for one thing #truly if bis stopped acting like women are just for fucking or not real partners / people for not being men then things would be different #i have a butch lesbian friend in kentucky #it's more unsafe to be a poc #anyway #bisexuals stop gasligting gay people challenge #she said she was going to bed and now she's watching her phone and refreshing my blog every second #YOU'RE CREEPY #looks like white men are rubbing off on you too much #your disability doesn't make you homophobic or a creepy stalker #that's 100% you #you're so creepy tbh #i dont think you know how blocking works #you literally brought it up as an abusive tactic to control a minority Imao when it isn't relevant

#to deflect from accountability and silence them #white behaviour #next you'll say being gay is an excuse to be racist #stfu #you're so obsessed with what ithink #it's really funny #you think lesbians can have dicks or like dick #you're pro conversion therapy #stay away from women but you probably will anyway thankfully #the fact you care so much what i think while speaking over me #if i acted like you a decade from now #at your age #yikesss #you're straight up stalking me and harassing me at this point Imao #<3 #you wanna play the liberal oppression card when you're a homophobic moron #i'm also a brown woman #so stfu #YOU STILL HAVE ME BLOCKED AND YOU'RE ENGAGING #HOW PATHETIC ARE YOU? #liberal cringe #gaslighting queen <3 #no patience #ur 95 percent and higher in het relationships exclusively #shut the fuck up #you don't know what vitrol or hate or oppression is #thats why you talk like this and act like #being hatecrimed makes you privileged <3 #i mean the gays practically do by denying my relationship isn't gay #so funny….they use the world queer

#by funny i mean sick #A SLUR AIMED AT HOMOSEXUALS FOR BEING GAY #WHO DIED OFTEN AFTER HEARING THAT WORD OR GETTING BEATEN TO NEAR DEATH #haha my relationship is queer <3 ur not even GAY ur bi and never date women or seriously #then you complain erasure #racist/homophobic/ misogynistic content my bi heart <3 #says people some get treated worse but then denies privilege #bc funny who is it they argue who always have privilege? FEMALES AND HOMOSEXUALS #NOT BISEXUALS AND MALES #B & T community are evil #males and osa are the most oppressed and females/ homosexuals are the most privileged <3 #what is gay privilege #you can't name one #bc it doesn't exist #if you deemed content biphobic you'd lose ur shit and never watch it tho #but heterophobic content doesn't exist :)) #and i'm every single terf when i'm not even a radfem #i think this drama is really funny tbh #you might as well be bc ur all cliche and homophobic #cry #if you cared about being productive you wouldn't be here

#it's so funny how your media consumption is literally all about misogynistic/ homophobic/racist white men #it's funny how cliche you are #you're so mad that i have a brain and you don't #keep crying <3 #talking about homophobic people and calling them out is doing something also tbh #you're such a hypocrite #you think you're fighting heterophobia #but you're just homophobic #spreading bs #you're really narcissistic and manipulative <3 #i'm glad you don't have a gf #you're homophobic and are obsessed with victimizing yourself #there is no such thing as discrimination for opposite sex attraction #it's a privilege #how aren't het women more offended that bi women act like they're suffering so much bc of het woman while y'all live the same lifestyles #for the rest of your lives... #oh right it's that homophobic pact. #they seem to have #remember when a bisexual woman married to a man said she was JEALOUS of gay men at pride #your pride is there everyday every second of your life and rewarded and centred #privileged #ifcc

#you're erasing gay people and being a hypocrite #and you're erasing straight people #so funny you're so pissed off youre called out on how stupid you are you're stalking my blog #if you were so confident you wouldn't take me seriously #you're in a privileged relationship #you have osa privilege #your relationship is straight even if you aren't #you're gonna call gays and straights bis #then don't whine when you feel erased #calling ur relationship het isn't even erasure #biphobia isn't real #you just think heterophobia is real and that gays oppress you #run to your boyfriend and cry how some actual gay person thinks you aren't oppressed #this is the straightest bio i've ever read #you can tell which bis have been w women bc at least some of them will acknowledge the privilege they have when with men but still very few #and ive seen other bis dogpile them and accuse them of having internalized biphobia for saying they have privilege when dating and marrying #men #the white ppl of sexuality tbh #can u imagine if you told a straight man he is feminine and in a feminine relationship or some shit for dating a woman

#thats how crazy you sound #closest kinda of analogy i can think of at 4am #jfc #stop oppressing me for having a bf my relationship is gay so treat me like a gay person if you don't it's discrimination and erasure #why are bihets like this... #holy shit #my straight relationship is gay/queer and if you don't agree you're heterophobic]

She has her friends monitoring my blog and encourages people in posts to bother me, but accuses me of stalking and harassing her when I haven’t said a damn thing to her in weeks. The only reason I even go to her blog is to make sure I have blocked every single person who she’s talking shit about me with & encouraging to come after me.

Also, who even is tygress? And how does she know who I’m mutuals with? My following list is private.

#desisapphic #the terfs are not alright #ableism #mental health stigma #biphobia #homophobia #aphobia #acephobia #queer #queer pride #lgbtq #bisexuality #bisexual #bi erasure #stigma

[neotrances]

Some1 just accused u of letting ur nonblack mutuals say Antiblack stuff?

Feel free to ignore this. I dont think u would do that but. Where did that come from?

my mutual they’re talking about is mixed and white passing (black father white mother) he says the n word occasionally and i don’t care, bc if i know someone is black and not “my grandma was 1% black on my great great great uncles side” idgaf, other black ppl can take issue with them thats fine but a few nonblacks have been playing a game of telephone that lead to u seeing ppl say that, also if a mutual does something ‘bad’ donot assume i immediately endorse it, im a black person if one of my mutuals went nazi or something randomly one day i wouldn’t be ok with that

#✉️

[sweetbunanarchy]

LET THERE BE ANARCHYYYY

I can’t make like video essays and continuously make threads on twitter and bc of that I am deciding to ramble about my fav things if I’m not posting art bc ay no word limit so FUCK IT WE RAMBLING ABT ANARCHY BAYBEE

The one game that never leaves my mind and the one that inspired my latest username so lets just talk abt real quick :D

When I was in middle school I would get into a good chunk of things like anime, other games. Bc I didn’t have certain systems like most ppl I would just watch gameplays and cutscenes for them in get into them that way. I stumble across a game called MadWorld and immediately become OBSESSED, the style of black & white with the only color splattered everywhere is RED MWAH BEAUTIFUL MY LITTLE BRAIN WAS EXPLODING and not too long after that I learned that there was a continuation of sorts for it...Anarchy Reigns. You know how you take like your ocs and put them in like a whole ‘nother universe, kinda like an au situation yeah that’s what Anarchy Reigns is GBSJDNJF It’s post post-apocalyptic, chaotic and just hell of a lot fun to just look at. But the main charm of it is the characters themselves and how fun and unique they are just in design alone

While the game isn’t story heavy it still has a plot to follow that works imo! Now you’re probably asking (probably not but) “BUN! This looks cool, but why after so many years as a grown ass man are you still so obsessed with a game you didn’t even get to play?” And to that I say....it’s bc of him-

YES ITS BC IM GAY FOR THIS MAN N HE’S THE BLUEPRINT FOR MY ATTRACTION TWORDS FICTIONAL MEN

Visually his design and how big he is (7′2 LOR D HAVE MERCY), his overall design, how expressive he is, hIS CHAINSAW ARM GOD ITS ALL SO DAMN GOOD!!!!!! In MadWorld he’s passed off as this cold-blooded killer bad ass which is sexy as fuck but in AR they give him more depth by giving him a daughter, Stella, and we see a softer, more kind side to him only to see him lose his daughter and through the campaign he runs on grief and rage wanting to get revenge on the bastards that took the one thing that he cared for. THE CAN’T EVEN SMOKE ANYMORE BC STELLA DIDN’T LIKE HIM SMOKING N ITS AAAAAAAAAUGH It’s something that comes off as simple but still just sweet and sad at the same time. 

And again the other characters are really good as well but just none of them hit me as hard as Jack did bc of this development he got and if we ever got more content for this game I woulda loved to see it for other characters BUT it’s long gone AGHBDJD. As much as I want platinum to bring it back I know they won’t bUT I CAN STILL DREAM DAMNIT...just hoping they don’t mess it up as Bayo3 bc lord that is a whole nother can of worms for another day. BUT ANYWAY Anarchy Reigns overall has a near and dear place in my heart and I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t one of the many things that inspires me as an artist, I miss this shit so damn much and still crossing my fingers for something, if not the AR or MW then...just something of Jack PLATINUM PLEASE-

#bun rambles #I MISS IT....I MISS IT SO MUCH MAN

[userblaney]

racism rant part 23456786543245

the double standards are through the fucking ROOF. it actually makes me want to fucking strangle someone. if i get called 'racist, and anti white' for saying that white ppl cannot experience racism and get held back when i have another lesson????? then a pasty ass dude call me, the n word (im fucking brown anyway) IN FRONT OF A TEACHER?? AND NOT FACE ANY CONSEQUENCES??? and if i report them?? i'm 'mistaken' and hes 'just uneducated'??? number one. educate them?? number 2. thats unfair???? these incidents happened when i was 14 btw. but do u know what is even more painful?? when ppl 100% know what they are doing, what theyre saing and the meanings of theyre actions and consequences. im talking about higher ups, teachers, slt members, shopkeepers, all that. it makes me so fuckING MADDDD. im in a class with one of my friends. she has a pretty noticeable indian accent bc she yk. moved here from india less than 2 yrs ago?? but her english is perfectly understandable. yet this bitch (ofc middle aged cishet white man) decides to pretend he has no clue what shes saying. anD PROCEEDS TO MOCK HER??? the audacity he has. hes also called me the saddest and most awkward person ever for waiting for him to fimish his converstaion. which ok yeah i am, however if alex (white kid) waits for him to finish his convo before asking something. hes polite and well behaved and praised like crazy. its not much but its very worthy of a fucking boot in the face. and if i report him?? im disrespectful. ofc i am. its jus banta inni. cant u take a joke? NOT IF ITS FUCKING RACIST I CANRT. oh yeah dont even count the number of times ive been called paki. another huge thing, im sure poc would relate to (specifically 1st gen immigrants) is being underestimated like fucking CRAZYYY dont even lieeee. when i was in primary, i was rlly good at readinf so like everytime i had a sub or wtvr yeah theyd always b like omg ur english is so good!! no shit i was born here. ur accent is rlly welsh omg i thought itd be different!! no shit i was born here. do you understand what that means?? yeah dw. my personal fave is one where ur doin sumt wrong or zoned out like ill give u an example. the local co op makes a queue for the skl kids since its right by our skl and i was waitin once bc i had to get milk n eggs on my way home innit then. i had a major migraine so i was zonin out all day and i happened to zone out while second in the q. then i was allowed in then for abt 30 secs i dint realize, then atp someone nugded be from behind so. i went in. then the security guard asked me if spoke english??? even tho id spoken to him on previous days bc im a rlly regular visitor???? anyway long story short, id been called a 'fuckin immigrant' but yeah. i'm just mad bc how can ppl who we are supposed to trust treat us like that and thing thats ok????? yeah its nutn new k bye

#sorry my friend told me a teacher was mocking her accent again 😀😀 #tw racism #its also been mb 4 months since my last racism rant #personal #also. dont try to understand this. very poorly written

[menalez]

Yeah sis that's the whole point that is literally the point you got the ace. We need to be strongly worded and take a stand, you can be endlessly nice and all that will do is make you a foot stool. You know who you support but you're afraid to speak and stand with other lesbians because you're afraid of the bisexual hate mob, this is exactly why their little pity tantrums work. They corner us into being nice and being afraid of them. Say enough is enough. Everyone knows all these points when talking about other oppressors but if you apply simple principles to bisexuals everyone shits the bed in fear. It may be hard to accept and it might get you piled on but it's not complicated.

idk i genuinely do think its more nuanced than what both extremes often say and ig to most im already more aligned w the lesbian side of the extremes rather than the bi side of extremes (despite me being imo quite neutral but obviously more vocal about lesbophobia for my own selfish reasons, being a lesbian n all).

like do i think lesbians have privilege over bi ppl? absoluely not. do i think biphobia exists as a form of systemic oppression? absolutely not. do i think biphobia is a commonly held form of prejudice on an interpersonal level? yeah. do i think gay ppl have power over bi ppl? no. do i think bi people often have power & privilege over gay ppl? in many cases, yes. do i think gay ppl can be hateful to bi ppl? yeah. do i think its on the same level as what hets direct @ bi ppl? no. do i agree that biphobia as a term is often directed at gay ppl who are being hateful (or not even hateful necessarily!) to bi ppl? yeah. im sure that both sides will disagree strongly with several of my stated opinions there! but after hearing both sides a lot i just... dont find the arguments convincing enough to change those opinions.

but ultimately, regarding your specific statements, i also don't think bi people are our primary oppressors, i dont think they have the same power as hets to oppress us and i think often when they do, a price they pay is rejecting an aspect of themselves & their sexuality. not that that minimizes the harm they cause us when they do take advantage of their privilege over us. i also dont think bisexuals are like supremely powerful that we can openly shit on hets but cant talk about bi people. i just think the dynamic and the approach is different bc bi people are still a minority group and an oppressed group, so ppl are more sensitive to criticism there than they are with criticsm towards hets. bc with hets is rly more black & white and straight forward whereas w bi people its unclear. many bi people are closer aligned to gay ppl than hets for example, and many live a life that doesn't afford them the privileges that bi people who primarly/exclusively date the opposite sex gain. even the ones who are more closely aligned w hets pay a price that hets dont have to, which is shown in the higher rates of DV and mental illness, alongside issues like poverty. this is why im not particularly & personally keen on such extreme statements anyways, bc i do genuinely believe its more complex than that. at the same time i dont take kindly to the implication that gay people have it better than bi people, or that gay people have it the same level of bad as bi people, or many more statements from the other extreme. i will admit that yes im also very hesitant to partake in this convo because regardless i will be dogpiled and regardless i gain nothing out of it and regardless no one's opinion will change, the actual things i say will not actually be heard, and ultimately ill be left to defend myself alone. all for a convo im not particularly passionate about either. i just dont see the point in it. i appreciate you admitting that youre intentionally provocative and all, but.. im just not fond of the response im bound to get from both sides. either way my sexuality is weaponised against me or dismissed, im dogpiled, and nothing changes. its a lose-lose lol and over what? its mostly an argument of semantics and doesnt rly do anything for either group.

[irul]

Your take on straight trans people is problematic because it perpetuates the same ideas of transgenderism as homosexuality and not just transgenderism. it especially affects black trans women because being trans is seen as them being gay and not just trans. there needs to be a very deliberate attempt to separate the two. furthermore, there's trans women who are only attracted to men hence making them straight. so in your cognitive dissonance you're saying a cis male who is into a trans woman is gay and not just cishet male (or bi or whatever i think you get my point). I'm trying to say this with the most love because I've followed you for years and I hope my point is getting across.

like, historically, white male anthropologists traveled in many regions in Africa and seen "men who dress and live their lives as women". like, the women they saw would live their life like any other woman and be married to men. sure they were confused but what to expect from white males studying this way before pride.

but that seeming gay to you is showing not your transphobia but I bit of transmisognoir. I'm sure you know what these terms means since you've been on tumblr for awhile but if not...not to be slick but like...google is free.

im seriously not sure what you’re trying to say here im talking about transness and not abt it in relation to cisness. idc abt how cis ppl identify or feel pls stop putting words in my mouth. and again im not saying straight trans ppl dont exist. ppl just move towards what feels right for them. nothing is so rigid or as black n white.

#the binary is colonial violence so why frame and understand things through that vile framework? #i absolutely dont think there shud be a deliberate attempt to separate gender n sexuality bc it’s all interwoven and #poetry we make for ourselves in the words of leslie feinberg #ask #re: first tag or not just understand but act and live inside of i guess #also nothing inherently makes someone straight or gay like. why do u decide someone’s sexuality/gender

[555swag]

i have the urge to give my opinion about white ppl saying the n word (as a white person myself)

i think men are more likely to say it (i’ve also heard more men say it than woman) because many men say things easier than women, maybe?

so in my school white boys say the n word sometimes and that one black girl doesn’t seem to mind? i asked her, she said they’re making fun and it’s not offensive. like idk what to think?

than i also experienced an older racist generation saying it, some of them in an offensive way, some of them bc they listen to black music and adapted it.

it’s like weird to me, bc if one person says it on Twitter, the person is immediately cancelled, what is quite fair, yet ofc u wouldn’t “cancel” somebody irl for that and i understand that u maybe expect an apology but ig not every white person that said the n word is racist, although i still think you should avoid it.

then also there are mixed ppl who are more or less in the middle of white and balck but there are also latinos or arabic ppl who are not white, then it’s racist again bc of history? But can you judge those ppl the same way, i mean, as far as i know, white ppl were the ones holding slaves yk?

not sure what im talking, i just woke up. im just not sure if i approve of how every person who once said the n word is being treated like the worst person ever, bc it’s different to beinh racist. Also there are many white ppl who are fans of black music and not racist in any way and just sing along and man like chill.

(still being racist is bad)

[33bookreviews]

mating, norman rush (0-35%)

summary-genre, style, impressions

mating is a 1992 longish romance novel. i saw it mentioned online a few times and then nyt plugged it as a trending work w younger ppl looking for a more encouraging take on love. so far its been more about a relationship than outspoken/internal love. more gestures and recollected conversations than like unspeakable feelings.

the main characterrs are white expats in botswana, presumably in the 90s. botswana is apparently entirely an alpine desert. water politics obviously play a big part in everyday life. the female narrator--unnamed im pretty sure eek--is recounting her life in africa leading up to her relationship with nelson denoon, who lives on a v isolated desert commune. snippets of conversation (childhood stories, agreements and disagreements, big theories) from their time together breaks up the linear narrative (abandoned phd>a few lovers>meeting denoon>pursuing>winning his company (its rly like that)). the book seems to be a retrosprctibe on the relationship so it seems likely that it does end.

both characters are rly smart and critical. narrator is a doctoral student, denoon was an esteemed prof at her uni at some point long ago. they are described by their opinions both of which are v thorough and educational to read. if i were to note everything i want to rmr it would be p stifling. similarly the vocabulary is more varied than most books ive read. new words almost every page.

summary-plot

narrator starts by dropping out of her thesis. her research was misguided bc of language or microcultures or something. also there are so many phd theses by white grad students that it kinda feels irrelevant. she decides to take her time returning to usa, embarks on her first aimless time of life. the expat scene caters to that. white ppl living in luxury abound in the city. her position as white attractive native language speaking persona gets her into a lot of good parties and leads to several overpaid jobs.

she has a few flings. her first is explicitly to get to victoria falls it seems? or ends up being that way. a photographer, kinda petty, reduces scenes to their photographic potential. narrator knows too much ab the culture to rly take him seriously.

second male relationship is with a spy. she massages his back a lot. he tries to give her nice stuff but shes less about that. she does try to get info from him which creates difficulties for awhile but eventually he does give out things (of various novelty), eventually leading to him describing denoon. narrator wants to meet him so they go to a party where hes slated to attend. she meets his wife first who is drunk n distraught but also drags narrator to meet her husband. their marriage has run its course. narrator is impressed w him and also makes effort to impress him. she finds out where hess staying and visits some time later w intent to learn ab his project. by this time shes also rly interested in him. his politics are correct aka he is vested in improving the community and tries not to position himsself as an outsider. he thinks outside influence often leads to ressentiment in the community. kinda forget the details on that. as well as most of the other social theory expounded bt them. they are experts. nonetheless he says no we dont accept anyone else on the commune and she leaves his home and he leaves for back to the commune.

narrator runs into ex wife in town. she runs to greet narrator and walks her along to get more drink (already v drunk) and they talk. ex wife eventually reveals location of commune. when they depart she goes back to her current partner, shady white african (boer?) businessman, w intention of leaving africa soon.

nar preps to crash the commune. sells her stuff, reduced down to a couple big bags. the trip through the desert is hard and ends w 4-5 days of walking w 2 donkeys (1 runss off w her water and supplies; its hard n she arrives in v low health). she is nursed back to health by several women. the compound has a lot of permacultural features. she hasnt met denoon yet. ofc we know him relatively well already bc of the broken narrative structure.

questions

is this a relatable story

well i guess im an 'early' 30s lost for purpose culturally sensitive individual. but narrator does not think like me; more purposeful and analytic. denoon also doesnt really have much of me in him. i like agreeing with them and following their exchanges.

what are you retaining

idk much at all ab africa so theres a lot of context to gather.

is it that radical

the cultural analysis addresses problems of whites abroad well. the relationship is portrayed through their stories so far. she has fun with him and he values play. at the same time theyre both smart enough to rly play deeply. then again its a novel ab two characters, how could they not be interesting and well fleshed out after 150p. if its actually a romance novel then ive read a lot of those bc it feels p familiar.

what ab their relationship is special besides their dynamic convos lol

seems hard to answer at this point.

predict:

if it is indeed a retrospective then the relationship ends somewhat smoothly. mb she just decides to go home. its called mating and shes already described her real romantic impulses as somewhat based on procreation. tbf she also questions this bc who rly knows. if they do conceive then that would prrobably be the thing that pushes her back to usa.

[butchviking]

besides the nazis I do also have a MUCH LESSER beef with the Norse-larping/identifying white people who really do give me the “thinks they suffer the same way indigenous people suffer from the Christian white hegemony” and “thinks this opts them out of being realllly settler colonists… if you think about it…. They have an indigenous white(tm) set of beliefs” that are super true and extra spiritual and in harmony and then they pretend they can even know that. When I’m sorry — I truly am sorry — some ancient people in Europe did experience conquest by (also pagan, then Christian, Rome) and shit and they can empathize with that… but it doesn’t mean that “really” “if we think about it” any rando modern white nonindigenous (eg not Samí) person anywhere has comparable heritage or trauma or persecution around it. You can just feel they want to claim that. Sometimes they do word for word.

And i swear it’s niche. It’s not even the main motive most people have. but it’s around. I classify it as more of a whites irritating me shit than a big issue but that doesn’t mean I don’t see it for what it is.

man people have forgotten what the acronym LARP means. norse larpers are very cool & fun in my experience ✌️ i love larp i love silly little outfits i love people being so passionate abt smthn they immerse themselves in a whole world of it i love that they always have smthn cool to teach. everyone stop misusing larp its gotten weird and confusing

this is so wild tho i think ive like. never come across this type of person. i guess it must be niche cause i don't even know if u mean like. europeans or americans or scandinavians or the english or what. i mean i guess ive come across plenty of pagans (& non-pagans tbh) of all sorts who bang on about how christians 'stole' this holiday or that holiday from 'the pagans' which comes from some basis of truth and the christians did fucked up shit to a lot of different cultures.. but i kind of roll my eyes at it bc it doesnt usually come from much actual knowledge or persecution & more just, like u say, wanting to claim an experience. so im with u as far as that. but u gotta be crazy to think being of viking descent would somehow mean u have no history of invading or settling places that didn't want u like... our word for them literally comes from the word specifically for those who would travel overseas to raid & settle there. like im from the uk so i can't imagine how that would work bc anyone here of viking descent (i Will be that guy nd say its technically in my past somewhere too lol ✌️ according to my grandmother & also according the the family surname. but thats really common where im from we got decent viking history) is obviously not indigenous (we dont like. have indigenous ppl here anymore really except perhaps the cornish) nd any white americans have settler/coloniser history much more recently anyway. ive never known any scandinavians who try n make out like their history is one of particular repression (i have not known very many scandinavians) but tbh like. yeah they were severely fucked over by the christians that did happen. as far as im aware most scandinavians are indigenous as i understand the word (their ancestors didnt move in any time recently & have pretty much always lived there) but aren't like. oppressed for that. & the christians did genuinely oppress ppl in their act of christianisation but that was... a long time ago so most ppl don't exactly have any claim to 'trauma' from it. but then, there probably are a lot of modern ásatrúar who are probably still somewhat religiously repressed in their home country which is definitely a bad thing & is clearly a hang-over from that time & from that christian mindset that everyone must be like them & worship the same god as them. but its very very different to struggles of ppl like the sámi.

sry for just kind of thinking aloud here but as i say i don't think ive come across the ppl ur talking abt, so much so that i dont know. who u are talking about. other than the generic annoying 'pagan' types but i havent rly known any actual heathens who do that. other than the nazis.

#ask #anonymous #like i feel like what ur saying makes sense but. maybe i just need more info

[gibbingtonwibbington]

NUber and CVS suck.

I totally did not have the energy for that.

I’m shivvering under a blanket all over again.

I knew it. I knew it as soon as I was forced to sit on the steps waiting 20 plus minutes for a “3-4-3-4” min away NUberfkndriver to show up.

Like what’s he doing? Jerking one cuz he had a young, nubile, Valentine’s day couple to drop off, eh? Fucker in his orange fucking jeep renegade.

Canceled dat BITCH FO SHO BAYBAY.

Then got into a dope ass suv who decided to show off by driving crazy along w two other’s in cvs parking lot.

That guy totally was an ass, truck bitch was at fault 100%. I even wrote a thing to Uber just to make sure they have my say in it. My dude drove forward before the guy backed up ( I didn’t tell them that though lol) I didn’t tell them because we totally would have made it past him if he didn’t back up sideways like a fkn tard on the WORST road to do that on. We needed a second for him to wait and it would’ve been fine. He didn’t cut the wheel at all either. I said “why the fuck did he back up?” then I said “do u just want me to go inside? “ n he was like YA! Walked out n looked at his crushed side mirror n wasliwtf

Hhhhh

it was glorious. He stepped WAY THE FUCK back after this dumb back and forth..

Isaid, that means nothing.”

For the third time to this huge fuckin 6ft whatever tall bald Especially didn’t want to run into my new “best friend” …this one DIPSHIT cop that I made a complete fool put of. Oh god I loved it. I got off later on about it. He was so RED in the face with embarrassment and a flu apparently. He legit blew air in my face. It had to be him. I should call back just to give it back to him. I knew the other cop. He knew me, he knew I wasn’t lying. The last faces i said i wanted to see were theirs and apologized.

Uhh did that flu ridden mofo even search our names? Of course naht! I’m TOO old (for this obnoxious ((mid 20’s but looks older than me) neighbor having no life and being obsessed even though a lesbian joke happened) shit. I’m older than one of the cops by 3 yrs and grumpymcflufuck was at least 41. and I don’t even have a single speeding fucking ticket. flu riddenmofofo

My uber driver would’ve been way more embarrassed if I was standing with that group of middle aged 50-60 yr old men group. Fuck that. I went inside and then snuck over to the 24 store across the street to pee lol. N he said yea. Cuz they had to call the cops n these three dudes were sucking any surrounding witnesses into standing outside with them waiting for the cops. The truck guy was like did u see that can u wait here to some rasta dude in some white eRly 80’s car no shit. I am thinking bro why do u want more witnesses to you fucking up? It’s an accident. That dude wasn’t even a part of it. We had a line of traffic! I can only assume he’s not from around here. There’s a lot of construction shit going on here

So there was this kinda crazy bitch back in my middlechool yrs calles Cristina. I jeard she became a chunky lesbian stripper in Miami. I just searched, I was curious, haven’t heard a word bout this gal in ages, from anyone. Not even the one dude who was obsessed. She makes these pop art super easy canvas things, which an elephant has made look better and it doesn’t have fingers. A trunk is pretty flexible but anyway…lol…she makes these cliché ’ pop-art (insanely simplified) hand-netted basketball nets. Not sure if she’s the only one but it totally seems niche-like. Her art isn’t terrible but it’s NoT something that would make me say wow wtf?

Fkn weaksauce.

So she’s bragging on this fake ass interview thing she posted herself haha and mentions she’s sold to some high rollers like Rlck ross n a bunch of other low mil net worth ppl

n im just like… yea, you’re not applying yourself whole-heartedly, Christina.

HahaHAHA.

Cmon man…

#1 Leave Miami.

Lol

#2 Talk to OTHER people, make friends.., reach outwards.

[rudystree]

ok before i start. yes i am stalking your blog. i like your blog! i’m bored and i’m stalking it. because once again i like it here! let’s get that out of the way in case this conversation goes sideways and i get a bunch of comments about how i’m a waste of space with no life stalking you.

i understand that people who hate on elaine take it too far 99% of the time. she’s literally just a girl, dating a guy and doing her best. she takes great photos and who cares if she’s in a room labelled cast only. i’m sure if she was unwanted, she wouldn’t be in there. i’m sure if the cast didn’t like her, she wouldn’t be photographed with them all the time.

https://rudystree.tumblr.com/post/679094452904673280/she-didnt-just-say-some-bad-words-she-said-many

but i came across this post and i just had to say something. because yes, elaine used those words a long time ago and it looks like she’s educated herself to be better. but the way you answered that ask (not mine by the way) is so condescending, rude and insensitive. i’m trying to be respectful but i’m not going to sugarcoat my words because the things elaine has said are not just words. and although u did acknowledge that they’re inappropriate i can’t help but feel like you’re diminishing how harmful they are. do you know that the n word can be traced back to slavery? that even after slaves were emancipated it was used to vilify black people and turn them into an uncivilized and animalistic race? that it’s been ringing in the ears of black people during lynchings and civil rights riots and the “war on drugs”? it is not just a word. but it is a word used by the kkk. and it’s a word that a lot of people who were storming the white house that day were yelling. i’m sure elaine has changed. i’m sure she would never use that word now. but if i’m giving her the benefit of the doubt i have to give that anon the benefit of the doubt as well. and by that i mean that i’m assuming that they’re not one of those people who send elaine death threats or talk badly about her physical appearance. because A LOT of people who dislike elaine are not those people. they’re people who are just hurt that so much love and attention is going towards someone who’s said those awful things and that people go to such extents to defend her when we can’t even get the same reactions from those people when we’re shot on the street by cops. im not saying elaine deserves all the hate. but you can’t say that every single person who dislikes her and brings up what’s she done is a jealous fan girl. and it’s not your place to say that we should be doing something that actually helps. we’re doing more than anyone else is and putting more into this cause than anyone else because we’re living it.

Wow okay well first of all thank you for liking my blog! 🫶 & I love it when ppl stalk my blog hehe

I also appreciate you sending a very respectful message. But that’s the problem when you’re looking back at older posts, because the context in which I answered them was that I did NOT receive respectful asks about Elaine. These were people in my inbox telling me over and over again that she is a monster and deserves to die. For jokingly using inappropriate words as a teenager. I stand 100% behind saying that this is absolutely vile and disproportional.

Of course I am aware of black history, but again, her allegedly having used the n-word around a friend in high school doesn’t mean she actually hate-crimed anyone ffs💀

I hate to break it to you, but most people have said dumb shit when they were younger. Chase, Carlacia, Madison, Drew, etc., they’ve ALL said problematic shit. To assume that someone is undeserving of love, attention or happiness in life for things they cannot change is cruel. Obviously they don’t deserve endless praise for correcting their behaviour now. But you have to acknowledge it if you’re gonna keep bringing up the old shit.

If you keep looking down my blog, I’ve answered a billion times that I don’t condone her past actions and that anyone is free to dislike her. But constantly fucking obsessing over her every move after all these years of her proving that she is nothing like that anymore is absolutely absurd. It is 100% my place to tell ppl who incessantly bully her to shut the fuck up. They are welcome to bitch about her anywhere else, but not on my blog and not in her comments.

#idk how old you are #but ten years ago the world was not exactly pc #so many cool kids just throw around the nword for funsies #fucked up yes but there’s no actual malice #ask #elaine chats

[theprideful]

some people will really be like "this slur doesn't hurt me so it can't possibly hurt you"

#im talking about white ppl saying the n word #or nts saying the r slur #or straight ppl saying the f slur #or non queer women saying the d slur #or non romani saying the g slur #or men saying c*nt or b*tch or wh*re #the list goes on #text post #*and when i say non queer women i mean anyone who is not a queer woman #this includes straight cis women and men in general #some afab trans ppl may choose to reclaim it though and thats up to them #and whether they still identify with that word