#im still fucking anxious about Everything and was rlly on the fence about going. but fuck i needed all of that.

[razors2rosaries]

having an emotional one tonight lads. made my first two (in person) friends in this state. got to yell and scream in public. met craig owens again. first time i met him was late 2019/early 2020.

#im still fucking anxious about Everything and was rlly on the fence about going. but fuck i needed all of that. #ik things arent normal but thats the closest ive been to myself in a while. its felt like ive been living someone elses life this whole time #it was very weird tho like. i think ~100 tickets sold for a 1k capacity venue. #none of it felt real yet. like i had resigned myself to thinking no shows were Actually going to happen even tho i was getting tickets. #and now this huge part of my life is slowly coming back. and im still hesitant about a lot of it.