#im so mentallt exhausted

[psykoz]

i hate working i hate capitalism i hate having a job i want to surround myself with community and celebrate holidays fully and dance and eat and study. not interface w old white ppl

#IM SICK OF FULL TIME WORK!!!!!!!!! #I WANT TO BAKE! I WANT TO READ! I WANT TO BE A HUMAN BEING!! NOT A WORKER BEE #ice never been able to handle full time jobs i lose like. seriously a 2/3s of myself and im exhausted physically mentallt emotionally. #and i canNOT better myself or improve or be at my best when im this worn down #im a bad person when im wasting most of my time #and i AM wasting most of my time btw #half of my job is VERY intense and hard and demanding #the other half? im doing Literally nothing and being pissed bc im not allowed to bring ANY of my hobbies to work #other than reading tbf but i can only read for an hour or so at a time before it gives me a migraine from the small font in most books #and i have to put it down and look at smth else for a while #but im not allowed to sew or make clay pieces or paint. i cant join zoom study or meetings. cant even smoke weed?!?!?! #last one IS a joke i know why i cant do that at my job but just let me be mad

[cinnamon-grump]

Did i miss some memo where suddenly the small upward head-jerk nod of acknowledgement now means something else...? Because when ever i do this with people now i get the weirdest fucking reactions (ignoring me or seeming outright annoyed/pissed)

Like, last i knew, it was just a “sup” gesture.

I genuinely can’t tell what people are perceiving it as if not that, or if they just... really dislike me in general.

#shut up ash #idk maybe things have changed since like.. 2015 #which would be the last time i was consistently around other people every day #like.. idk i can see it seeming flirtatious..? #and i definitely don’t want ppl at work to think im trying to flirt when im just trying to be friendly #but???? im seriously so lost with this #and every time this happens i start to feel a little shittier/crazy #i hate how aware i am of my lack of social understanding... #like damn.. i sometimes wish i didn’t have to constantly percieve everyone’s discomfort/dislike of me #for just.. like... a single moment.... I’d like to feel like i at least COULD be socially accepted by literally anyone irl #im so fucking awkward though.. even (or especially?) other neurodivergent people don’t seem to like me at all #i can’t tell how much of this shit is all in my head though.. #im so mentallt exhausted #istg i think i have OCD and im ??? frustrated..

[eatprayjop]

I love coming home to new or even old exo content just seeing some nice or funny photos and videos of my favorite guys at the end of a long and ex’hausting day really lifts my spirits up... kings of supporting my mental health and contributing to my happiness and well being I love my family exo we are one !! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🖤💖💝 9 hearts for the 9 loves and lights of my life !!!

#EXO MAKES ME HAPPY #LIKE IM SO MENTALLT AND EMOTIONALLY AND PHYSICALLY EXHAUSTED ALL THE TIME BUT ESP LATELT #IM REALLT CRASHING AT AN ALARMING RATE BUT EXO BRINGS ME BACK I LOVE THEM SO MUCH MY BOYS !!! 💕💕💕

[whaleofatjme1920]

Hola! Forgot to set my alarm so im late for school , which sucks but hey im not that late! Was rewatching some squid game ( its genuinely addicting) and then i proceeded to watch pokemon for 3 hours, how are ya?

Honestly squid game mentallt exhausts me so I can’t watch it again rn but still I will sing its praises <33

About to take a shower and then make something?? I forgot to eat dinner so that’s fun. I’m also working on an activity for school too bc today I’ve been mad procrastinating by playing 2048 💀💀

I’m sorry you were late for school though, you okay now though??

#just chatting #lynx time #lord cow of the shitposts