#im on mobile so if this looks bad dont @ me

[chaotic-on-main]

cw/tw: angst, death

Imagine Levi slowly making his way to your room in the barracks, the sounds of his steps lingering down the hallways as he does. It's been a couple weeks since the last time he has been to visit but he just couldn't get himself to go. Why he decided to go today, he doesn't know.

Your door comes into view at the end of the hallway. He remembers you complaining so many months ago about a supervisor who said that if you did their paperwork for a couple weeks, you'd be able to have that room. You wiggled your eyebrows when Levi asked why, you simply stated back, "It has the best view of the sunset." And it did.

He stops in front of the hard wooden door, noting the piercing silence that comes from behind it. It's foreign to him, as usually he's greeted with your sweet voice singing old lullabies or laughing at something with your friends you had invited over. With a gentle push, it slowly opens inward. Levi half expects you to be at your desk, staring out the window facing the horizon. Then turning to face him with a wide smile and those wide eyes he loved.

"Levi, you're home." You'd say, and you'd mean it every time even though you both knew he couldn't stay here all night.

But you weren't there, not this time. You wouldn't be, ever again. The room once filled with life from your own personal touches, now devoid of any meaning. Any scents that once belonged to you, now gone just like your things.

This expedition took more than he could take. With a sigh, he makes his way over to your old chair and lowers himself into it then stares out the window. The sun is just starting to set.

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#im. so sorry #i dont know where this came from #the idea literally popped in my head after looking at a picture of fish #what is the correlation here #do fish just make me sad #i dont even know #anyways i just typed this up on mobile so if there are any mistakes or if it's just really bad #i am so sorry #levi ackerman #levi ackerman x reader #levi x reader #attack on titan #aot #shingeki no kyojin #snk #angst #canonverse

[majimassqueaktoy]

So, Jess I know you’re not an artist like your bestie in the entire world snap… but what does your art look like I remember you doodled this little pic for me of Tien with Choatzu’s make up lol but have you’ve drawn anything else?

Ya

#i draw a lot i just dont post it all the time bc well... sometimes i dont like em sometimes i forget sometimes its just a personal lil thing #i havent painted for months bc i lost my paints but Snap actually bought me some replacements for my birthday the other day so 🫶 #maybe i'll try and paint daigo or somethin and post it sometime soonish #in his honour #or maybe Tsutumi bc i like his face it might be fun to do................ #or another baba since i sure like daito #or maybe i will just continue doin the boys from my REDACTED group lioe i have been the past few months #i have done haruka and majima but i couldnt find the posts in my tag and im dying of a flu or maybe covid (real not clickbait) #so i dont feel like gettin up n goin on my computer. i mostly had to screenshot these from insta lol #but yeah. i do also do stuff :) #ask #also yeah we made exactly 5 days into the year before my body decided to fuck me over so uhhhhhhh bodes well #genuinely feel like ive been hit by a truck and i have such a bad headache still havent played gaiden 😭 #also why does answering on tumblr mobile app lately be so weird ??? #like freezes the app keeps reloading cant look at notifs til i close it and reopen ? anyone else have that issue

[dirt-str1der]

Seeing art of kiryu and ichiban always makes my heart break one thousand times over and over again and i cant even say why

#Yakuza loveblog #like its not even that they have the same voice actor its like. ... like especially art where kiryu is taking care of ichiban or like acting #like kiryu is nine years older than ichiban thats not very much and ichi is also an old man #but like its ... like you know ... can you adopt a grown ass man #like i think kiryu has gone a little bit crazy and needs to help or protect someone like he needs someone to keep him tethered and interact #with him every day like how nishikiyama used to #did they change the way tags look on mobile again im killing (remembers that suicide jokes are bad for my psyche) you #like i just love seeing him hanging out with ichiban because thats as close to a fresh start as he can get #like he cant get close to daigo or majima and sure as hell not haruka and the rest of the kids at morning glory but like. hes hanging out #with ichi now hes part of his little friendgroup in y8 too and hes with ichi in hawaii its just so cute ... #and i see that people ship them and thats crazy to me like i usually have some sort of opinion on a ship so i think its amazing that seeing #kiryu and ichiban make out and have sex literally has no effect on me #like i dont personally ship it but seeing them together is cute ... #kiryu saw him naked on that beach <3 but so did everyone else #always thinking about how lonely kiryu is and how much of that is his fault #like at some point i think he will never change and thats fine thats the man i fell in love with and he sucks also

[girlwiththegreenhat]

you ever hate on something you've never played/watched/read for what are still moderately good reasons given the circumstances, and then decide to go and play/watch/read the thing just to be fair. just to give it a chance

and then you were not only Right but its Worse Somehow and you're actually just more pissed off now

#liz blogs #vocaloid #this post is about project se\\kai. what a garbage ass replacement of project diva oh my god #i dont care about any of these random ass teenagers why does my vocaloid game have all these other guys in it #why are there 238928934 currencies why does it take so long to unlock new songs its just all too much and so convoluted #i wanted a rhythm game not a rhythm game that takes a backseat to visual novel and gacha game and watch 3298 ads #GET THIS OTHER BULLSHIT OUTTA HERE #i thought rhythm game on a touchscreen was a bad enough idea but i wanted to be FAIR because project diva doesnt get updated anymore #even though that was THE vocaloid game for a fucking decade and they replaced it with hot flaming dogshit oh my god #its just every other fucking mobile game im gonna start biting people #im in my Hater Year but i'm actually fucking right about everything aaaAAAAAAAAA #and look. i didn't play it for too long because it was just too fucking annoying and overwhelming. but it seems like you can only #play x amount of songs in a day before you run out of energy. which you need to Buy #you get more when you level up! it recharges! but it seems that it takes longer and longer to do that #thts the only Complaint i have that i cant actually verify because i would need to play longer and i am Not doing that #but if im right. thats the biggest load of shit of all #just go back to making project diva games. let me pay for the game so i can play interrupted without all this other BS in my face #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #the like... two little visual novel bits i saw that Just had vocaloids in them were cute. i will be real with u. but who are these like #six teams of random ass teenagers i dont know and dont care about. why did u put non vocaloids in da vocaloid game. are you nuts #maybe i just need to figure out how to mod project diva cuz at this point lord knows theyre not doing anything else with it #if you wanted to have other characters sega do u know how many Other vocaloids there are. you didnt have to invent random boring teenagers #pullin a fuckin transformers and backseating your Title Characters to a bunch of random ass humans im not here for #except you charlie watson from bumblebee i love you mwah

[atomichaoscrisis]

An Introduction, if I must

Hello! I am here for the express purpose of being as messy as I possibly can, and I shall invite you to join me, and ask what you wish, even if it is art requests! I'll respond to what I can :D I might make one of those famed "carrd" things to link to other sites I am on, but for now I shall figure out how tumblr works. I hope I can help invite more chaotic energy to this already chaotic site. And introduce you to gorbo, gorbo's cool. Since I have an unoriginal name in the vast world of the internet, find my art through the #acrart tag, and anything else from me through the #acrest tag, which im suprised dont have anything on them already. You may call me whatever, and I am fine being adressed any way, without further ado, enjoy the content!

#acrest #introductory post #open requests #i still dont know how this site works #if this looks bad on mobile im so sorry #to me mostly

[kingmaximusboltagon]

most appealing part of the inhumans is that theyre all middle aged with back pain

#the comfort of a group of characters ostracized for their differences but still finding happiness and love and companionship and home #gorgon having chronic pain maximus having neglected mental illness bb and triton struggling to socialize after being raised outside society #medusa taking on so much responsibility that even her loved ones start to slowly neglect her needs assuming she can handle it all #i was looking at some uncanny inhumans art and now im in a mood over 50yo blackagar . #this probably applies more to me than People In General but like. the royal family as a whole r extremely comforting to me #bc they r characters that like. i can see parts of myself in that i havent ever found in other media before #like i have a bad back! and bad joints and mobility issues sometimes! and it hurts all the time! #and i know a chronically ill character isnt like. IMPOSSIBLE to find but it still means a lot to me that they bring gorgon's pain up #and how maximus' completely ignored and silenced mental health struggles really fucked him up for like his entire life #and how bb and triton being raised almost completely removed from society and only interacting with family members until they were adults #affected their socialization skills a LOT #like these are all things i can find and like. actually see myself there. its nice to not feel completely detached from everyone else #bc growing up these r things i did not see. ever. there r so many parts of me that i thought everyone experienced and. they dont! #i have no idea where im going with this its just. these inhumans r people. and i see them. and it means something to me. #inhumans

[321sluggie]

mentions of weight loss in tags

#sorry I don’t know how to do a read more on mobile but this might be a lil distressing to read idk #I haven’t bought a scale nor have I looked at one in months. but a friend had one and I used it #and I’ve lost more a those lbs #I just. look fucjing frail now #I’d suspected maybe I’d lost a bit. but not nearly as much as I have #every time I eat now I get horrible cramps. I thought I was managing it but I guess I’ve been avoiding more than I thought #I keep telling my doctors and they keep saying that unless I feel bad I’m fine #and like. I do feel bad. lol #and so they just tell me to wait until my follow up in October #I’m glad it’s not too far now but I just feel like none of these people care #I dont know why but no medical professional I’ve spoken with has been concerned about my weight loss but like. #I’m 6’ and 120lbs. this isn’t right #I think it’s just fatphobia. like these people will tell a healthy fat person to lose weight no matter what #and losing weight is always ‘good’ #the surgeon who did my top surgery just sent me a survey about body image and I don’t know if I should fill it out #I’m so glad I did top surgery. but the rest of me is just. skeleton featuring débilitating pain #I DONT FEEL VERY SEXY DOCTOR IM SORRY

[elibeeline]

After limping so much at work it hurt my hip, im looking at forearm crutches again

#i did look at canes yes but those are more successful when the issue is balance #im not at risk of falling because of my disability. im at risk of hurting myself more with uneven weight distribution #so: forearm crutches #i just... dont know how to get one #or if i can use it at work #so if id actually have to call in sick on my bad pain days idk what i'd do #seeing how my other disabled coworkers are treated after being given seated jobs (often jealousy and offhand comments) i dont want that #me when my disability disables me :// dont do it #dbzbxh dont do disabilities kids (like you get a choice) #update: they're not as expensive as i thought (£20-£30 from amazon) and they cant deny me a mobility aid at work #id just have to. do my work with one hand. #which would suck I think #i could maybe do the tills? drinks aisle? drinks bundling? headset? idk #but thats no more drive thru or delivery or food #and the crutch would get in the way very quickly #idk #if it comes to the point where I cant do my job and cope with the pain at the same time I'll talk to the managers #itd be like a glimpse at that situation of choosing to cut off a hand or a foot #like i wouldn't be able to have both available at work? idk man this sucks

[meatheadmutt]

being "invisibly" disabled is so fucking shit. oooohh a young adult that you dont think looks disabled enough? laser blast to your eyes and genitals

#barks #dont think i will ever forget the old woman who looked at me like i personally victimized her by sitting in the disabled seating on the bus #which prevented her and her husband from sitting together #who then refused to move when i needed to get off #as i LIMPED around her and off the bus because i could barely walk that day but had to go to work #shouldve kicked her in the shin #whoops babe sorry about that how about you just shift outwards next time and maybe you wouldnt get kicked #not only do i HAVE to wear a knee brace but i feel obligated to now otherwise some shithead will get self righteous #i was so happy seeing the scene 20 something at the show yesterday in a wheelchair but then dancing when the cameras went to them #like. yes. we are disabled but not necessarily incapable BUT we are still disabled whether you like it or not you dont get to determine wha #we can and cannot do #im gonna lose my shit on the next person to act like im not disabled i will bite and tear and rip and destroy #if you cant tell im having a bad mobility day ToT #my knees feel like theyre going to explode

[nomaishuttle]

also my stupid downloads r being annoying AND its cold. in this house

#and i need a fucking job Skull #also i feel guilty my mom asked if id be ok with giving up some of my old toys bc somebody she knows was asking if anybody had any of that #doll line . and i said no but now i feel really really bad abt it.. but also theyre baby dolls that i rly rly loved like a ton and like. #theyre in rly bad condition as well... my mom said its ok and that theyre mine and i said ill pick them up when i go down and visit #but erm. i dont actually know how ill transport all of them bc th tickets we were looking at only have 1 personal item #whichll be like #clothes. lolz. so idk.. scared #but i would like to have them :[ the only reason i didnt bring most of my stuffed animals is bc theyre part of a likee. group #of shared stuffed animals w me and my siblings #and like. some of the group r specifically Mine but id feel rly rly bad seperating them from the others ykwim... #but the ones that my mom was asking abt were all mine like entirely. nobody else played with them only me and they were specifically for #me.. so i dont feel bad taking them If that makes sense. but also sigh.... its not like im gonna play with them anymore so itd be nicer to #let my mom give them away. AGHHHHH.... but i still rly care abt them and have good memories :[ kms loudly #the new tags field is so annoying tumblr kys. glad i havent updated my mobile app

[imjustli]

The digitalisation of society is awful for many reasons, but I think it's really insane (in the worst way possible) how much my friend's bf can control her life by locking her out of her phone

#look. do i know its him? no. she doesn't think its him for some reason #but like. hes done some crazy shit to her before. and hes definitely not taking this situation seriously #and then theres the elephant in the room: who else would it be? the cats? they cant accidentally change a phone password #i don't really know how to help her. like im lending her my bus card tomorrow. but thats like 1/5 of the things she need it fir #our school has mandatory 2fa. which has to be on your phone. meaning she cant access her email or schedule etc #she has no physical card and only uses apple pay #every place in existance requires mobile bank-id to log in. or at least offers it as an option; less passwords but youre more vulnerable #its possible i only find out the bad parts of this relationship. and i have no idea how she treats him. but holy shit that guy is awful #i couldnt tell her today how bad i think he is because i think she had me on speaker so i could hear him not giving a fuck in the background #i dont want to label this relationship as abusive because i truly don't know the details. but it sure as hell isnt good #but i think its an example of why we need to talk more about how the digitalisation of society is making life easier for abusers #because all they need to do to control their partner is make them without phone

[piplupod]

of course the day i find a large yellow crate beside a dumpster that I decide to grab and bring home is the day the bus is full of ppl and i have to sit beside another person with my crate that comes up to my knees while on its short end fjdkdl

#i felt bad for the person sitting next to me but i was very good at squishing myself as small as possible fjdldl #also ppl in this town have TERRIBLE bus etiquette omfg #ppl refuse to move seats for ppl who need priority seating #and they never move their bags that they have on the seats next to them when theres no other seats available #so actually i dont feel all that bad for my seatmate bc they should've moved their bag without me asking them to fjfkdl #like. sorry but u are sitting at the front of the bus !! thats the easiest spot to sit down when u have another object to hold !! #whenever other ppl get on the bus that are carrying things or using a mobility aid I'll move seats #towards the back of the bus so they can have priority seating #and if someones getting on and theres no double seats available then i will move my bag onto my lap!!! #i feel like that's basic courtesy but fnfjsl idk maybe thats not a well known thing. or maybe ppl here are just rude as hell DBHDSKL #anyways i have obtained a large yellow crate and im amazed that nobody gave me a hard time for it #i got some weird looks as i walked thru the hospital w it but fjdkdl that was it #and im surprised the bus driver didnt say anything fjdksl i wasnt sure if it would be allowed on #and now i have a crate to store yarn in :] #and also a dumpster find which is ALWAYS a very good day bc it happens so rarely #i almost took a few bouquets home that were strewn across the sidewalk beside the dumpster but i thought that might be too weird #and also i was worried they'd be gross or dirty somehow so i had to leave those ;-; #but the crate at least can be cleaned and used !! #one hand is broken but that's okay bc i wont be using it for carrying! just prop it up sideways for stacking yarn inside! #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[im2tired4usernames]

I want their fuckin freedom they have no chores no responsibility they can go out with their friends when ever they want for however long they want they can sleep in there bed all day they eat drink drive vehicles use the phone have a home with no bills no expenses they can spend their money on stupid things that bring them joy with no worry of the gas they burned in someone else's vehicle or if there's dinner at home they have no worries about laundry no worries about dishes no worries about the messes they make because they know I'll clean it up always I want to be viewed by my family and by my friends as someone who is an actual person with limits and boundaries and who has goals and dreams they'd like to accomplish in the day besides laundry for 16 people and not a tireless cleaning machine. I want to be able to rest and have hobbies I want to be able to do things with my partner and my friends again I want to be able to fuckin daydream and make up stories again for Christ sake I want to feel like a person and not a corpse forced into playing "tradwife" I want the freedom they all have while I'm in the background doin they're dishes.

#i don't mind helping with chores but it's the fact I'm the only one qnd i can get my four youngest to help me with bribes of sweets #but there's several adults living here who don't care that they make. more mess then a four year old #and could definitely start doin their own laundry #or take the trash out if it's full instead of cramming more into it so that the bag splits and is to heavy for me to lift #and I'm actually kinda strong like I've def lost a lot of energy n strength this year tbh but this bitch can lift pretty heavy boxes at work #and i split logs pretty regularly so im not the strongest gal by no means like of lord i had to carry my mother around everywhere #because she was a stubborn asshole who refused to use any mobility aids and then wanted to go shopping or go out and i had to just carry her #like i can carry an adult women but fuck if it didn't hurt me bad doin it and i had to stop several times to catch my breath #like I'm not super Strong but I'm not weak the trashbag cant weigh more then an adult #it takesn nothing to rinse a bowl out so your food don't turn into cement #or throw away the wrappers of your bandaids instead of tossing them on the floor #or wipe your shoes before you come in and track big chunks of dried mud and grass all over the home #my parents wanted 12 kids wnd our house to look like a magazine and they beat that mentality of the house must be clean as a whistle #because what if Jesus was to stop by we must have our home look so clean that we would be unashamed if jesus stopped #so clean we encourage him to look in cupboards and under the bed clean #i dont think that's a Bible verse but there was a biblical book that was all about having a home that was so clean constantly #just so you wouldn't be ashamed when Christ cand because cleanliness is closer to godliness #i really hate my mother like so much I'm glad i can finally say it I'm glad i don't have to work to earn her love or buy it #you shouldn't have to have to earn love especially from your parents I'm glad she can't constantly condemn me #i have nightmares about my mom condemning me or being smug n proud and ruining my life in the name of her cult #like throwing away all of my belongings and only having a bed a Bible some christan fiction four floor length Jean dresses baggy tshirts #also her giving my sister she favored a bunch of my organs since I'm broken anyhow and slowly dieing because i don't have a liver anymore #or her ruining my relationship and friendships because she didn't think they were godly enough so i have no one in my life except church #she tried to have an arranged marriage for me not a dream that happened #i know she loved me i hate that i think so low of her but her love felt like hate most of the time #i know she loved me though andni love her to I'm just glad i don't have to constantly hve to perform for her #i have so much garbage in my brain

[heart-bones]

hmmm. I may have made a mistake staying in today.

#feeling extra Void-y from the absolute zero contact w other humans #well i guess i mean more like humans i can call friends #i hate how it randomly gut punches me like. how alone i am out here? #still after this much time? #this was my fourth birthday here and I've been pretty alone for all of them .___. #also just in general thinking about like. I've let myself get this out of shape like okay some of it really was post-covid #but some of it i feel like is also me not taking care of myself #appetite Gone unless its for very specific things but then i feel guilty when i eat them because they're bad for me #even though I KNOW how harmful it is to precribe morality to f oo d #but its also like. my dad telling me how i am too young to be having 'mobility problems' like what does that even mean #and then its like i laugh so i dont cry because im just like him and i look like him and im so heavy and i hate myself so much #for like letting myself become like him ???? #what does that MEAN.

[stringywormies420]

Just got diagnosed as autistic coded by a teenager on uquiz. I feel like this is telling me something but im not entirely sure what it is

#ive always wanted to get diagnosed by a proffesional but my family doesnt really belive in that stuff #dont read the tags if you dont want to hear abput my mental health problems. im hiding it un tags for a reason #if you feel ok and up to it i guess you can continue #i love telling randos on the internet problems i never bring up eith my parents #i mean like my mom didnt belive me when i said i felt like dying and needed help #kinda just tucked my bad feelings away for 5 years before i started breaking down in high school #and like i got help. but i had to tel the fucmin school councler and my mom got mad that i told someone not in the family #cuz she ended up geting investigated by the cps and like ur not in damger of losing me in that way but i needed help man!!!! #turns out she was looking for therapists for me but didnt tell me?!!? so i thought that she didnt belive me so like what do you want me todo #wait im getting off track #i got a therapist but like stuff happened and i couldnt afford it anymore so i stopped all extra cariccullar activited and therapy #ugh i dont think i need one anymore but it would be fucking nice to have one #well thats why tumblr tags exist. for me to talk to nobody instead #what was i saying? i cnat tell cuz im on mobile and yhe tags just go … #whatever its fine i dont think anybody is reading anyways #pgra2am

[m0e-ru]

i havent checked my follower count in 1.5 years apparently im a handful away from 200 maybe i'll host a little something if i have the energy

#kommento #// WHOO trying not to be pessimistic anyway like i said from my anni hii gamers whove been with me from the start for whatever reason #// i have desktop extensions to hide a bunch of statistics and mobile does a good job of not rubbing it in your face #// also im just Bad at Noticing in general and im not one for numbers so i dont care to look for the most part #// 'if you say that why do this' idk give people an excuse to get something out of me and i get out of my slump in return