#im not having a very good time rn

[dammjamboy]

BETTER CALL SAUL!

#this was mostly a test run on procreate dream! #its pretty good but it has a LOT of room for improvement #which i know the developers have been working on since the app is still technically in beta! #but hey i did this in like 3 weeks while working a full time job and also working on other art so #its pretty damn powerful software #good shit if you use procreate already!! #literally the biggest flaws rn are a lack of selection tool an undo/redo button and #and the app itself has a tendency to crash or slow down if theres “too much” going on #like i had to delete all but one of the preloaded animations just so the app would run smoother while i worked #so its still very clearly in its early phase but its good and im excited to see what the developers will do with it #ok review over #better call saul #saul goodman #bcs #jimmy mcgill #breaking bad #animation #brba #video #procreate dreams

[sandinmybed]

can i be fr for a minute?? sending abuse to people online for holding different views than you is not activism and in fact actively hurts your cause. most people are not extreme in their viewpoints, you can give them a new perspective if you're willing to spend some time explaining shit. if someone is saying something you disagree with and you rush in there to condescend to them and call them disgusting and subhuman and dont even TRY to explain calmly why their views are harmful, they're going to shut you out instantly and double down on their views.

most people are simply genuinely ignorant to the issues they're talking about - they just pick their views up from the news and the world around them and express opinions because that's what every person does. if you run in there and tell them they're scum for it, what then? if someone does that to you, are you going to think "maybe i should do some research" or are you going to think "this person is an asshole, im blocking them." a lot of you think you're activists and then refuse to do any kind of actual WORK to support your cause.

#this is not about the isr*el thing even tho thats obviously a huge issue rn #its just a pattern ive observed online #im not saying you have to be kind to people who oppress you dont twist my words #but if youre trying to support any cause and you think calling people names is going to help #youre a fucking idiot lol #people call themelves activists and pro-X cause because they called their opposition dirty c*nts online #how the hell is that meant to help anyone? theyre just going to retreat into their propaganda chambers because you proved what the leaders #of those spaces have been telling them #you can obvs block people if you dont want to deal w them but thats a neutral action. sending abuse harms ur cause. #text #like educating ignorant people is hard work! yeah! its also the entire fucking point of activisim #and if you think its too much effort then just stop pretending you give a shit tbh #like my parents managed to change our neighbour's very xenophobic stance on migrants with a calm conversation #some people will listen and some wont and shes not exactly going out to protests for migrants rights but shes not hostile anymore #and a lot of yall think that isnt good enough but let me tell you it IS good because these things take time! #unlearning things is MUCH harder than learning them in the first place and a lot of people grew up in environments that taught them #very discriminatory and conservative views and its actually not their fault. and its hard to educate yourself differently on something you #have no idea is not true. where do you start w that?

[u3pxx]

every now and then i get like spite-motivated to consider a career as an art teacher in the uni i currently go to just bc i think i can do a better job than my profs who are constantly raising my blood pressure orz

#im jsute a little hater i cannot help it ASKSKSK #and this is just from my very limited perception as the student who they are teaching #but based from my experience last sem: THIS IS NOT IT CHIEF!!!!!!!!! #i also understand how i can be more empathetic bv maybe smth's goin on overworking busyness stress so many other factors #but rn i just want to be a hater i just want to be frustrated ASJHDFGH #as someone who is Not having a good time #dies. anyways. #sunnysiderambles

[milkbreadtoast]

random but i resolved to post abt it every time i find a webtoon that I enjoy... and lately I've been having fun reading this one...

*rubs nose* heh... I do dabble in het from time to time... no but seriously it's a p straightforward lighthearted enemies to lovers romcom, not groundbreaking or anything yet im over here kicking my feet and giggling the main couple is SO cute to me... i luv them... I actually couldnt wait to find out what happens next so ive been slowly reading ahead in the kor whenever i have time and they're sooo cute😭😭 I also like the art style and costume design a lot!! it gives me like. a nostalgic 90s shoujo anime vibe tbh... w the puffy hair and babyfaces...

#webtoon recommendation #the crown princess scandal #후궁 스캔들 #im like trying to downplay it bc yea its not like #anything super new or groundbreaking or deep like it is what it is!! a fun and cute lighthearted romance!! but its done well i think... #like to give it credit... it must be doing a decent job bc #if writing a romance is so easy why are so many of them annoying and frustrating to read!! #genuinely love their dynamic sm #they complement each other so well lmfaooo #like the past few days ive been like ok time to check on my hets :) like theyre my hamsters or smth #i feel like the opposite of a straight fujoshi rn... gay person giggling over everything these hets do #(/J) #style reminds me a little of ranma/inuyasha (i havent seen either tho) #genuinely wish it could be an anime tbh!!! #anyway im not very far bc i have to read p slowly in kr #im only up to ep 36... but far enough that im invested in these idiots. theyre so dumb but in a way thats not too frustrating #i actually do have to give them credit bc like ive read sooo many het webtoons that piss me off😭😭 so like!! they must be doing smth right!! #unrelated but does anyone have good bl or gl recommends #i actually havent read that many

[cathalbravecog]

first thing i drew on my new tablet to test it out is the tv beast themselves

#gonna take a while to get used to... tfw u get an intuos for the buttons but realize u have #way too much muscle memory for ur old keyboard shortcuts (im talking YEARS. of the same/similar shortcuts. like. when did i get my first #tablet???? 2015??? YEAH.) (not my latest one btw i went thru a few tablets but yknow) #oh well!! ill see #took a bit to get used to but eventually i got into the swing of it since the work space on this is a bit smaller than my old one #i LOVEEEEE how the pen feels tho like the brush strokes its more consistent and i think ill be able to do good if ... my hand isnt hurty #and once i get less shaky with it!!!!! its sooo good. then again my old tablets pen had...its nib for 2+ish years #YEAH IT WAS BAD BAD....kept asking for replacement nibs but wouldnt get em #oops... oh well! anyways we ar the SMOOOOFFF zone HEE HEE #anyways i misse ddrawing cathal............. the skrunkle . the him. care him much very much a lot #trying out different ways to draw him too #and not try to be as on model as i was before... just have fun yknow??? get stylized and funky with it!§§§§!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HEEHEHEHEHEEE #soarry my brain wants to amsh buttons randomly rrly hard rn so its evil laugh time #ok normal tags time GO #toontown #toontown corporate clash #multislacker #cathalposting #guz art

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

when the art block hitteth

#it hitteth HARD #its worse when its the type of art block where #not only do you Not Have Ideas but Nothing You Attempt Looks Right #and scribbling feels Awkward and Unpleasant #i have exactly Two posts left in the queue #its been an honor drawing for yall🫡 #if youll excuse me im going to go Scream At The Sky #I KNEW I HAD IT TOO GOOD FOR TOO LONG. IT WAS ONLY A MATTER OF TIME #wait but perhaps... perhaps this means ill be able to write now #am i experiencing another trade-off #i would Like to write #but then again i like scribbling more. id rather draw #looks like i dont have a mcfuckin choice tho!!! ahaha this is fine!!! #absolutely unprompted #i felt it creeping up last night but i refused to acknowledge it #well Now Its Here and its Very Unpleasant #howling wailing baying at the moon etc etc #im so mad rn. all i want is to doodle #maybe... maybe ill write something Original for once. #or write for my flight rising dragons. who knows #gonna go watch spiderverse and we'll see if that knocks anything loose in my brain

[wazzappp]

ALRIGHT please ignore the half assed skeleton anatomy I have IDEAS.

Ok so a connection gem is what allows a familiar to channel magic to their person. From there theres sort of a secondary circulatory system that spreads across the whole body, except instead of pumping blood its pumping magic (extra fun idea I'm considering is that the gems pulse slightly like a heartbeat. it gets faster when they're using a lot of magic and exerting themselves just like a normal heart.)

Because in their magic forms they don't really have insides (she said casually [see below]), I was thinking that if an area gets hit or damaged enough while they're not transformed the area will infuse itself with more magic as a defense and to allow for faster healing. Like a magical scar! Below Robbies diagram is Frank. He's been at this for a WHILE and has had his fair share of injuries, so his body has adapted accordingly.

Plus theres the upside of being more familiar with constantly channeling that magic, which can allow them more experience and control for spellcasting later. ALSO. This adds some extra layer of urgency for Robbie because if he wants to get out of his deal and get this magic shit out of him then he had better do it before he becomes mostly composed of it. I mean. Theoretically. If a person got out of their deal with their familiar and the magic thats been composing them for a while just disappears... well. Id imagine it's a painful deterioration where they decay from the inside out. You don't get to leave.

So in their magic forms they don't really have INSIDES or BONES or ORGANS or BLOOD its JUST MAGIC and slightly more solid magic that acts like scaffolding. It's not skin or cloths or even metal really on the outside, its all just a glorified container for massive amounts of magic stored on the inside.

(ngl I mostly did this because OH? YOU WANT TO TAKE OFF YOUR STUPID HEELED BOOTS?? SORRY BRO THATS LIKE TRYING TO TEAR OFF YOUR OWN SKIN THERE AINT NO GETTING RID OF THAT)

#ITS WIZARD TIME MOTHERFUCKERS FIREBALLLLLLLL #okok this was a nice little buffer #familiar post coming soon #im still obsessed with this au I promise I just also have something else cooking rn #benefits of being sick: cool boss needed to cut hours this week. stay home. draw. very good. #downsides of being sick: my fuckging sinuses #ghost rider magical girl au #robbie reyes #frank castle #ghost rider #my art #sketch

[b4kuch1n]

still thinkin bout it

#pokemon #swsh #champion leon #assistant sonia #gym leader raihan #three parts of a whole idiot #hi. Im figurin out how to lay stuff down Really quickly #again! I used to know how to do it. in another software using another hardware in another lifetime #it does feel like 70% of my arting time is rediscovering old skills again and again. which is? fine? I think #the goal is the same. but the result is always somehow very different #and that's great. that's the joy of it #it does come to it tho that this way of doing things usually doesnt leave room for grayscaling in one go... I wanna figure out how to #keep grayscaling stuff. I dont like leaving stuff just like this #more work for later! we'll figure it out #I genuinely love drawing these guys as kids they're so prime for that #early disney channel layering kinda fashion... I enjoy drawing that #mmm. Im busy with a thing tonite. but I wanna get that done as a whole unit soon #just feelin things out rn! road's long. #have a good night guys. wear colors!

[hella1975]

i need to read more books and annotate in the margins i need to write more i need to buy jeans that fit me i need to eat more fruit i need to buy good quality headphones i need to get a skincare routine i need to talk to my friends more i need to wash my hair i need to stop treating this inhabitation as a curse. i am tired of punishing the body that has fought me for survival every day for years. i deserve little treats as regularly as possible !!

#more money would also be good but! we are working on it <3 this is a team effort im bored of being in a perpetual bar fight with myself #like sorry i havent answered my texts in months or barely sustain personal hygeine but that bitch (points at mirror) chucked a drink at me #it's okay tho we are in our enemies to lovers arc #just had a really vivid sudden 'i am in this body' moment and let me TELL you when you spend 90% of the time feeling a very #set seperation between your emotional self and physical self that is INCREDIBLY fucking jarring lmao. like oh this is me #the freckles on my fingers are just as much me as my years long loyalty to specifically prawn cocktail pringles. okay #that's cool. cool cool cool that's so cool so everything that's happened to me physically is still me okay cool #coooool cool cool. super cool btw. very angry for myself rn which never happens i normally just get angry at myself #LIKE THIS IS MY BODY! WHY DO I HAVE TO DRINK IT INTO BED AND HURT IT FOR NO REASON! WHY DO I LET PEOPLE GET AWAY WITH SO MUCH! #'i'll take care of you it's rotten work especially to me especially if it's you i'll do it but christ alive' except it's me and my body #like yeah im not happy about it bossman but we're stuck together. let's get you some nice clothes

[why-the-heck-not]

the pure embarrassment of sending a ”oops I fucked up & will send this assignment a couple days too late sorry abt that”-email :’) noooooo

#I guess it’s better than to just send it late with no warning #I hope I gave myself enough time bc istg if I’m gonna have to send ANOTHER one of these I’m just going to change my name & move I think #this is a personal reminder to myself that sometime procrastination has consequences even tho im good at getting away with it usually #istg my thesis advisor hates me at this point I’ve returned basically everything a bit late #idk what has happened to my time management skills like why do they suck so bad rn #very much in a ’’just gotta get through this week’’ mindet and it’s only monday #march 2024 #2024

[orcelito]

help me i literally cannot get enough of Elendira and Wolfwood interacting

i could literally read an entire manga on these two's interactions kdfjsfdlksjdf i love it so much

also. less of an interaction & more just a panel appreciation but

they make me feel very bisexual <3

#speculation nation #fanny reads trigun #trigun #trigun spoilers/ #wolfwood #elendira #& livio but he's not a focus lol #yes i cut chapel out of the last panel. fuck that dude. #anyways. focus is very bad so im not working on a coherent analysis post rn. Take This Instead. #legit aside from Vash i think Wolfwood & Elendira r my top favs of trigun. like wolfwood obviously but Elendira is just soooooooooo #canon trans woman nihilist who's not even that antagonistic she just hates humanity & wants everyone dead <3 #she's not that into fighting she's just here to have a good time. not her fault everyone wants to fight her! #i love how she needles at Wolfwood klsdjflskdjf god. i wish we saw more of them interacting...................... a guy can dream........

[quinn-pop]

sorry for the metadede flood lately um. anyway i think dedede officiates waddle weddings. if they even have them lol. it’d be funny and cute

#reason for the flood: thinking abt one idea means i get 50 more #one of these were drawn with the old pen! and my god it shows #one is also two sketches fused together (which ive had to do a lot lately) and…okay actually it’s still easy to tell but not bc of that #i am mad with power #meta knight #king dedede #kirbyposting #my art or something #i think my art ideas are probably very weird lol #but you know me i love a good shenanigan #if it’s any condolence i swear ive been working on less self indulgent stuff too lol #not…NOT self indulgent because it’s me and i like having fun #it’s my blog i do what i want or something #im juggling like 7-9 projects right now (and most of the time) so my progress on each is very random #i thrive off of goofiness #but yes that is why i do this stuff. and then the Big Serious Projects never get finished #half kidding. i have a lot of stuff at abt 80% rn #metadede #because i forgot if i need to tag when it’s already in the post lol #id probably save this for a few weeks out but i dont have anything else done and yeah im procrastinating on sleeping #wow i really do write an essay in every tag

[blue-unifox]

Zulf maybe needs to be slapped on his arm but also a hug and kiss on a cheek maybe

#bastion #bastion game #zulf #zia #the kid #supergiant games #my art #you can see this as either friendly or romantic if you want :) #its like a sticker thingie idk i just wanted to finish it #this is like half-assed but i dont care #theyre all my children and i love them very much #also im not having a very good time rn but hopefully itll be ok soon enough

[deathbypufferfish]

The stress is making me physically ill 💗

#puffer talks #if i seem inactive for a while its because on Tuesday my sweet big baby puppy eko was diagnosed with osteosarcoma #so bone cancer #it is terminal so the choices we have to make are hard because its not about curing it but about how comfortable he is #it's in his front right leg and hes s really big dog so amputation is a hard decision #it is all very hard and terrible and i love him so much #it is so anti his nature #he is a big ball of silly and love #anyways im nauseous all the time and my pots is flaring up bad #i got my first good night of sleep last night #hes doing better on his meds rn but yeah

[enhanced-operatives-division]

Improvement :3

#turns out practice does work....who would have thought .. apparently not me... #im very proud I've stayed with it #me??? actually liking ny art??? and seeing myself improve more than i have in a year within a couple months?????????? #what a good hyperfixation/special interest does to you/silly #alas i need to keep branching out to the other ieytd characters because i wanna work on my fabby design #i have a hard time with costume and um she is literally THE fashion girlie so. i gotta work on that #because she DESERVES IT DAMNIT #also still working on a mental image for zor...sigh #im really into the vitti as zor theory and that 'zor' is a role/title that's kinna passed on....idk...i have thoughts..... #but yeah zor is so painfully human to me but also is trying to not be drives me up the WALL #THAT'S ANOTHER POSTS RANT how did i get here #alas #ieytd #[agent moose's art] #THAT'S IT not individually tagging these doodles? drawings? are not good enough for that #i don't have. the urge to draw in full colour rn <- so so so so busy <- leaves secondary education in less than 2 months #alas. I'm surviving. and very excited about next steps. just gotta get through. via ieytd. it's becoming my mantra #i keep saying i should make designs for solaris and redo my fabby so i can have triple threat explaining science to me on my flashcards #im. coping in my own special way

[suffarustuffaru]

What If Julius and Subaru both met when Julius was a commoner and Subaru got transported Sooner

fun stuff im sure !! but haah okay given julius was a kid when he was a commoner - yeah theyre both kids here!! not sure how old but definitely somewhere before the age of ten. and i think theyd be up to some shenanigans together im sure!! theyre both very mischevious kids (or from what little we know of little kid julius, given iirc tappei hasnt specified just How Much of a "delinquent" little kid julius is okay. but hes definitely the type to sneak out past curfew or something. stay up late reading too, probably. that sort of thing). and also subarus a kid and no way he ISNT missing home poor guy T^TT getting ripped away from home like that is bad enough at seventeen, getting ripped away from home when you are like. no more than eight or something is Bad. but luckily!! im assuming subaru gets found by the juukuliuses (julius's parents probably?) and thats how julius and subaru form their friendship / long-term yearning for each other (if you so desire that) (okay but no way subaru ISNT gonna form long-term yearning for julius flajsdlf). but yes i think julius and subaru would be silly happy kids together and julius's parents would be like oh no this other kid is so lost where is he from :(( but hes so loved by julius already too... well we got another kid under our roof now.

except. julius's parents die in a flood. so i mean. Hypothetically.... either julisuba survive this one first try or subaru dies for the first time. which. ohh god. oh god. oh g -

#IM. IM JUST GONNA LEAVE ON THAT OMINOUS NOTE #yeah so i think this would turn into childhood friends to Possibly Mutual Pining but actually it might not be mutual if you wanna interpret #reinjuli a certain way. but then but THEN later it can become mutual if u so want #like when u know a person for such a long period of time u change over time. u know?? both you and the relationship u have with this person #has its alterations over time!! thats just how it b but if youre meant to be together youll stick it out <3 #julisuba in every universe they befriend each other for good is #Bound to be together for the rest of their lives. To Me. they are soulmates to Me okay their relationship is important #regardless of what form it takes!!! they could grow to think of each other like brothers in an au like this if u so desire too!! which i #think would be really touching <3 #yeah so. julisuba childhood friends au. shit goes haywire sometimes. its really awful bc subarus a kid so u can imagine the kind of fucked #stuff hes learning rn hahaha. or you can go the happier route and subaru doesnt learn about rbd until later </3 #either way. julisuba real. subarus an eldritch horror. these are both crucial facts for every timeline #i think julius would probs be a bit better having a companion by his side from the very beginning throughout all of this for sure!! #and someone who Gets the jealousy / do i want to be with him or Be him ;-; #i have a fondness for reinjulisuba (THE MESSIEST LOVE TRIANGLE YOUVE EVER SEEN) #and ok if subarus an eldritch horror since childhood then he and reinhard are gonna have Even More in common #hooray for childhood joys and traumas!!!!! #also julisuba visit julius's parents graves :(( leave nice flowers there im sure #subaru-joshua hostility begins also. that sort of thing #rezero #re:zero #ask #natsuki subaru #julius juukulius