#im lonely and i need siblings

[tinyfantasminha]

Beauty and the Beast got me feeling caca again so I NEED to share this theory/HC I have on Jack

Here we have Jack and Vil's hometown, as shown in Vil's flashback; there are lots of resemblances to Bella's hometown in BATB as we can see,

So let's consider for the time being that their hometown is indeed based on the village from BATB. If that's the case, then we could think that the Beauty and the Beast tale is passed down on the town as a tradition (similar to how the HoND story is passed down on the City of Flowers, which is supposed to be twst-ver of Paris.) So we could have instaces like this; (example:)

That's the library of the town - A myth from 300 years ago says that during that time only one girl in town would ever come here. Her story is passed down to everyone who comes to work in this library, and it has become a famous turistic attraction in town.''

Now, returning to Jack; Jack said that he never had too many friends when growing up (Vil could have been his only childhood friend, for all we know) but why is that? Is it truly because he had a lone wolf personality ever since a kid or maybe... the other kids would avoid him? (screenshots and tls from Shel_BB on YT)

If the BATB tale is well known to everyone in town, then surely one of the most jarring parts of the tale would be ''when the lone girl went to the woods to look for her father, she was brutally attacked by wolves.''

So because of that, wolves are seen as a bad omen in town, and depictions of wolves are seen as inheritently evil/dangerous. While the tale is obviously a myth and that statement does not apply irl, Jack is notheless faced with social exclusion for being associated with the wolves from the story. Vil said so himself ''those kids can't separate fiction from reality, so they had a problem with me. How stupid can they be?'' which again could be seen as a nod and parallel to the narrow-minded and overall ignorant mentality of the villagers from BATB.

It makes me think that Vil was not the only one who suffered bullying as kid, but Jack did as well; even if he was still independent as a kid, that could also very much be one of the factors that strengthened his current mentality of ''I didn't came here to make friends'' and self-betterment. Since he had almost no people to actually trust in because they were too scared of him, he embraced his ''scary big bad wolf'' persona as an exterior mask to the people around him. Only people who earn his respect and trust eventually can see just how Jack truly is; big-hearted, sensitive and loyal. (just like the Beast?)

tl;dr: jack could be twst from the wolves that attacked belle and also he deserves the entire world thanks for coming to my ted talk

#twisted wonderland #twst headcanons #jack howl #vil schoenheit #i could also say that that since the tale is in its ''twisted'' version; gaston is seen as the hero and beast as the villain obviously #it would prob be ''and then the famous hunter of the village saved the lone girl from the hideous beast! the end'' #but that would go a bit off topic kdkskjdf #jack beauty n the beast motiffs makes me go caca im so emo #HE NEEDS A HOMETOWN EVENT WHAT IF IT GETS A HOMETOWN EVENT ((I WANT TO SEE HIS LIL SIBLINGS

[ghostinghome]

Byakuya reboot spoilers !!!!

rei :3333 the silly :3333 what. do you mean shes not canon.

#they can be siblings in my head #THEY ARE … btw.. #changed her design a bit to mimic byakuya n senkus hair :33 #first dr stone post and its of a character who DOESNT EVEN MATTER (sobs) #expect more i did not. expect to get into dr stone so badly.. #THIS SIDE STORY MADE ME SO. SO SO SAD #something about lonely robots man…. ouuu #pleas…. i need more content of her… im begging… #dr stone #dr stone rei #rei ishigami #I DONT CARE SHE DOESNT HAVE AN ACTUAL SURNAME #THEY R. FAMILY. (< delusional) #senku #hes here too i forgot

[lilaccatholic]

how do i do it though. how do i let go of the bitterness and the hardness when they kept me "okay" for so long? does it come when i finally leave? can it ever?

#babes i actually relate to the frigid angry woman more than im comfortable with but this time there's no prince coming to save her and idk #i was never beautiful but i was and am angry and capable and that's served me well but being angry is exhausting #it's a birthright i can't give to a younger sibling. it doesn't transfer. #i dont inspire devotion. there's no version of this that ends with me waltzing with a true love. #im not the type you launch a thousand ships for. #so what's left? #who am i when i have no one? when ive spent my life making *me* less to make others more? when im nothing but a useful piece of furniture. #i know God loves me! i love Him! but it's not the same. i want *people* to love me. i want to be someone that theyd fight for. #im feeling that 'women have minds and hearts but im so lonely' scene from little women 2019 so much right now. #except im not jo. my family loves me but theyd never do for me what jo's would do for her. theyre also all focused on surviving. #i feel like a military ration. there to be consumed but cast aside the moment something more palatable comes around. #how do i become consumed with joy? how do i let go of the cynicism? its all thats kept me safe! but its choking me too. #its like tony stark in iron man 2. the thing thats kept me alive this far is killing me. i need to find an alternative but its looking like #ill have to synthesize a new element to make it happen and that freaks me out. #ive always been derivative. never an individual. how do i become a trailblazer when my job was always to hold the hand of the one blazing #the trail? how do i become myself happy and free? #because i WANT to be more #i WANT to be more than anger and coldness and a useful idiot. i WANT to be me and be so so happy #but i dont know how to get there #and if someone suggests therapy im shooting you. i dont want to listen to one more person pretend to care about me and tell me #all the things i need to change and spend even longer not learning how to think for myself #i want to be more than this. but i also cant stand the thought of taking up any more space than i do #anyway. #anyone who's read all this thank you and i promise im fine im just in my feelings today lol #im going to work out and get some happy brain chemicals flowing and then ill take a shower and itll all be good. #please dont worry about me! im just having A Moment TM #lilac rambles

[my-beloved-lakes]

I see a lot of people I knew from school posting pictures on their social medias with all their friends doing various fun things together. Meanwhile, I'm sitting at home wishing I could take a group photo with all my Tumblr mutuals to post so I can brag about having the best friends.

#too much of my social life is based on Tumblr but i really don't get out much since I don't have a job and i made like 1 friend in school #so i don't really know anyone to hangout with other than my siblings and my one friend #and i don't go out much exept for occasionally to the library or the store so i don't get the chance to meet new people #i used to have all 5 of my sisters at home and that was all the company i needed #but now they've all moved out except for my younger sister and im realizing that im very deeply lonely #i need to get a social life! but how! #Also i think this is part of the reason I jumped into things too quickly with my ex gf now my best friend #like I was so excited that i had found someone who was just as interested in being friends with me as i was with her #that i misstook my feelings for her as romantic ones cuz i was so lonely and she was such a good friend #and i was so scared to tell her cuz I didn't want to ruin our relationship. it didn't. we're still besties. #but i think im so lonely idk if I'll be able to know the difference between platonic and romantic feelings #and part of that definitely comes from being ace as well #anyways there's my tangent for the night about why I need a better social life and maybe a bit of therapy too #haha that got super personal oops 😬 #might delete these tags later

[widevibratobitch]

aaaaaaand it's starting. mom's bestie just texted me asking to come over this weekend cause it's Bad and it's probably the last chance to talk and maybe say goodbye to my mom's husband and i need to take care of her. god. i wont get through this weekend unless im high or drunk istg.

#time to slightly overdose my depression meds again ig lol #anyway. it is a little better with me these last two weeks. turns out the meds do work when you actually take em regularly #but first my best friend's break up that she's blowing up to unimaginable size #acting as if she just got divorced with the love of her life after 20 years #and not ended a few months long relationship with a guy who's been the source of most of her troubles since the moment they started dating #(ofc she's valid and id never tell her that because like. i get it. some people feel stuff more deeply. but its hard to be supportive #when you genuinely feel like this is the best possible outcome for her and that the relationship was only dragging her down all this time) #and now this. and this is gonna be infinitely worse. and then it's gonna get a million times worse when he actually does die. #and i feel like the worst most selfish person ever which like. probably am. but i did tell my cousin who actually knows my mom really well #and she said she understands and that my fears ARE valid because SHE'S terrified of how she's gonna handle my mom #and she wouldn't wanna be me in that situation cause it's gonna be so much worse for me lmao #like i feel like people who know my mother casually really dont understand just how unhinged emotionally she is #anyway. i feel so overwhelmed. i cant handle this jesus. #but im also emotionally unavailable and refuse to actually confide in another person because i dont want to be a bother <3333 #god i love tumblr. i can literally type anything in those tags lol it's the perfect form of venting since you can just scroll by #but i will still have let it out of myself anyway uwu i literally dont need that therapy fr #anyway. i feel so unbelievably fucking lonely and on one hand it's my own fault for withdrawing and refusing to ask for help. #but on the other hand. i AM alone. like there's no one who can help me in this particular situation. #i have no siblings. obviously my dad isnt gonna help. it all falls down to me. good god. i wanna throw up.

[pixellangel]

mutuals. do any of u have vrchat and want to be friends :3

#pixell.txt #i need more vrchat buddies #all i have is my younger sibling and one of their friends #its tragic honestly #vrchat #for my mutuals #(SOMEONE PLZ SAY YES IM SO LONELY IN VR LAND /hj) #might delete later

[perenlop]

maybe this is just me but to me grumpy dickhead characters that are intended to be endearing only really land if they have one character that actually grounds them whether that be through them being very nice to balance it out with cute banter or them also being snarky so they can have fun banter. if a grumpy character is just an asshole to characters we dont know as well, are literally children or people who otherwise cant fight back, then like. they dont vibe with me

#thinking abt the os anime again and like yeah it had moments i didnt like where it went too far #basically any scene where misty got physical with ash #but overall the original trios bond was fun bc they could all clearly take the banter and still cared abt each other #and had plenty of genuine moments as well #and then you have jayfeather who like. tbf did have some characters to bounce off of well like his siblings and briarlight #and thats fine #but then he lost most of them and now hes a dick towards literal children all the time #and thatd be fine except we're still meant to see him as endearing bc of this bc in the same arc a child nearly dies bc of this #the protag is like ''awwwwwwww jay is like so sweet and nice tho i love him hes grumpy but i am so fond of him hes so cool'' #im trying to keep all this in mind w my own grumpy characters too tho #or assholes in general like i gotta show it more but marlow is fine when it comes to sakura bc he also banters with him #and it doesnt really get under his skin except for when they mock him for never leaving town #which is part of his arc more than just ''ha ha sakura is mean isnt that funny and quirky'' #and like. yeah im kinda just like ''ha ha sakura is mean isnt that funny and quirky'' but like he is vaguely antagonistic so #im kinda trying to go for a harley or raquelle vibe with him where hes not a villain per say but hes petty #and will play an antagonistic role to serve the plot if needed to the other characters #but then hes also not like that to everyone bc he does have a bit more depth than that. typical ''putting up walls'' but not really #bc he genuinely thinks hes all that theyre just also REALLY lonely and cant communicate with people #and is kinda traumatized and stressed from his brother being taken as a baby and being sick while grieving #and is also still sick actually! just gotten really good at hiding it and denies it which. just puts more stress on him #echoed voice

[blue-rick24]

gosh dargn I just don't know what to do anymore 😖💔

#NOTE: long vent in the tags #I'm so lonely #It's almost as if nothing I do can really fully even quench it #And even if other people are possibly be the answer to helping me feel better; #;I also feel so bad about becoming any sort of a burden to any of them. Im so sorry #vent #I don't want to come across as needy but I DO always keep somehow depriving myself of one or more of my needs >m<;; #ooc #txt #The whole emotional process that has been occurring for me upon talking to friends- behind the scenes in my brain- also seems as if it; #;is also draining me #making me tired and less likely to find ways of how to not be lonely anymore #I want to apologize to my family and closest friends #I'm so sorry to everyone but it just hurts #Emotions hurt #Maybe the emotions that drain me are because I just feel so... bad. Over nearly everything.. #I want to be a good friend to others or a great friend even. if i can help it #A good child. adult. and sibling to my family. all at once. ....Dependable. fun to be around #do I really need medicine? <;' ( #Sometimes I just feel unhelpable.. i know I'm making progress but it can just be so hard to see the big picture sometimes. Whilst Im sinkin

[scattered-winter]

as lonely as being aro can be I honestly wouldn't have it any other way because as a kid I felt like my life would be over in my 20s once I married and started having kids but the first time I realized I didn't have to do that shit was akin to a bird getting released from its cage

#like idk. i remember watching my mom growing up. no time to read or paint or sing or do anything she wanted to do #because she was always doing chores and housework and taking care of the kids #and she said she chose that life and was happy with it but it felt like a cage to me every time i thought about it #and in the ''religion'' i grew up in anyone with ovaries was supposed to get married and have lots of babies as soon as they could #so yk. 20s. #and as a kid growing up in that environment i Literally thought i would only get to live for 20/25 years #and then i'd be miserable and locked inside the house for the rest of my life #and all my friends growing up Wanted that !! they wanted marriage and a million kids and all the things we were told we needed to have #and im sure a lot of this was just the culture we grew up in. even now after leaving years ago im still struggling to unlearn things #and as kids ?? we didnt know Anything. #but idk. i remember watching brave and connecting with merida so much because i didnt want to get married either !!! #but i thought i had to !!! literally that movie made me cry so many times fr #but finding out what aromanticism was was literally so insane it was like. i dont have to do any of this bullshit actually. #it was literally the most radical thought i'd ever encountered at the time #it felt like i was defying everything i've been taught and it took me a long time to separate myself from the mindsets i grew up with #and then longer still to eventually separate myself from that environment completely #but idk. im a little lonely sometimes and my siblings and friends are all getting married and paired off #but i dont have to. my life isnt over and i can live it however i want. #idkkkkkkkk im feeling kinda emotional rn. being aro is incredible fr #winter speaks #queer #personal

[transgaysex]

man its so fucked that im not being called a pretty boy every single day of my life bc i am cute !!!!!

#wind howls #i think i have a pretty nose. and pretty eyes #the more i reread this post the more its fading but i went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and i felt cute. #i also think i may just. be going a little stir crazy. im going out about the city tomorrow with my sibling just to try n get some air #i was gonna go on my own but i think itd probably make me feel a little miserable. i dont like being on my own. #i dont need any more reasons to feel more lonely than i already do. the company will be something at least #or so i hope. things get rocky sometime but my sibling is fine when theyre in a good mood #and hey maybe ill find places that are hiring nearby. places where i can sit and still work yknow. i hope so at least..

[m-jay-gee]

one thing about my house (i live with just my mother atm) is that when i do something she expects me to apologise for but i don't understand what i did, rather than tell me what i did wrong she'll just ignore me!

and there is no point in me just apologising to her to get past the silent treatment because idk what im apologising for and there's no way in hell im grovelling at her feet for a feigned forgiveness when as far as im aware i did nothing wrong!

our max record is like 5 days no talking let's see if we can beat it B)

#it's wild because this time im pretty sure she's mad bc i didnt want any physical touch and she persisted and i think i hurt her #but i dont feel bad about hurting her bc #a. she didnt make it clear until she had waited for an apology already that i had even done anything wrong #which leads me to believe she was playing it up #and b. i very firmly did not want her to be giving me a hug at that moment and verbally expressed that #this household can be so lovely at times and just so so toxic at others #she isn't entitled to my affection (i can be extremely affectionate when i feel like it but i was very overwhelmed in this moment) #its so annoying and stupid #we're both so stubborn fr #this is why i was the only sibling to actually get to her. my sisters say they used to be worried about me lol #im the youngest & i actually challenge her authority bc apologising 'because i said so' has never agreed with my brain im sorry its stupid #personal #toxic family #tw family #and she will just get more mad bc she's feeling lonely. i can self regulate very easily but she needs human interaction more than me #tw mother mention

[be-good-to-bugs]

i need to go to bed but i dont wannnaaaaa

#the bin #i work at 7am and its 1:23 am i have GOT to go to bad but ugh. if i go to bed then that means ill have to go to work as sokn as im conscious #so the longer i stay up the more time i have. but km gonna be so tired at work. hhhhh. #i dont know why but ive felt so horrible today. super anxious. miserable and really sad #im trying to just deal with it. soon enough things are gonna change. its only 34 days till my planned moving date. i will only bave like 20 #more shifts at this job. maybe less depending on what i get given. including tomorrows shift. and tomorrows shift is only 5 hours long #and the day after its only 4 hours and then i have 2 more days off. itll be ok. but i still feel so anxious and depressed and awful #i just wanna stay home and be high all the time. i feel so lonely always. literally the only thing that helps me not feel completely crushed #and paralyzed by how lonely i am is getting high. i know its not healthy to rely on getting high to feel better about stuff but idk what #else to do so who cares. when i dont do anything about it i i stead end up relapsing or worse so i think its an ok option #i hope i can meet nice people this year. year after year it doesnt happen but so much has changed! #it makes sense i havent met people since i moved out. and everything is so different from wwhen i last lived with them #all my siblings are in school. they have people over at the hair a fair bit afaik. my dad wont be there to me make feel awful. my sister #also wont be there to me me feel awful. i can figure something out. itll be ok. it has to be. #i just want to squeeze someone. i just want like. a hug. a good cuddle. and i need to talk to someone. its been so long since u had an actul #fun time hanging out with another person. i need to watch a movie with someone and joke around and. ugh. #how did my life reach this point? what happened that resulted in me spending ages 10-19 all alone. im not even 19 yet but i will be soon #and theres not a chance ill meet someone before then esp bc im moving. when i was little i didnt have mych friends but i had some #i had such high hopes for the future. i also thought the future would be terrible but i imagined id still have friends and peopwl to talk to #all ive wanted sincei was 10 is just to have people to talk to and hangout with. but i dont have a single friend. i can hardky name anyone #besides my family and coworkers. and like aa couple of my sisters friends. there isnt even like people i know who i dont really consider #friends but we talk sometimes. if i dont go to work. call my mom. or tex a sibling. i dont see or talk to anyone period #i guess unless i go to the store. that doenst really count tho. #i want to have a friends group. i want to have A friends. just like. a person. to interact with. what happened that made mw spend the past #8 years just not interacting with anyone? whats wrong with me. #its fine tho. becausebit will change. i acan heal from this and i can meet people. even if half my conscious life has been spent all alone #it will get better. it has to.

[kk0n]

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#being the youngest sibling with a large age gap gotta be a curse #i love my sisters i really do but we grew up in different stages of life so now we're close and we're friends #but a part of me is still so bitter and hurt because i had to grow up so lonely like i know a 20 yrs old wont have all the time in the world #for her 8 yrs old sister #and now we're close and now i can listen to them and be a shoulder to cry on because im older and i understand #but where were you when i was 15 16 17 and younger #i needed you #i had to go thru it all alone #idk #i love them and im always gonna be there but i hate when they think they have me all figured out dont assume you barely know me #and I'll never truly open up #lol

[musical-0wl]

/ (if you know me in person, read at your own risk)

#im just #oh so tired #over the past few years ive come more into myself #but as part of that. this house im living in is no longer mine #and now one of my most dysphoric activities is on display for the whole house #everytime i sleep at my most comfortable (naked) i am at risk of being exposed to my youngest sibling because my door will randomly get #opened to let the dog in #and im developing new dysphorias (yay) after the only informed consent GP has closed their books due to massive influx #and im still not sure if i want to look into that as an option but its struggljng to get out and i cant let it in this place that is notmine #i live in the room of someone who is not me #and part of that is i have not unpacked since moving house months ago #ready for the next one? im so tired of feeling temporary in peoples lives. and thats on me. but i feel if i just walk away and start again #one or two people might look for me. but also they might just assume i need space. ive had space. 18 years of it. #i sometimes feel like im just around to help others heal. im so lonely and isolated. #if i dont maintain the converstation 24/7 they will never message me first #if i take a break everyone will drift away. no one checks on me rabdomly. no one will show up at my door randomly. or invite me specifically #the last week ive been listening to self love off the spiderverse soundtrack on repeat. i feel like a drifter #a permanent hermit #(also with the transition stuff im caught in a bunch of unknowns. there are some things about my body i love. but more and more that keep #popping up that never were a problem before) #im just so #caught in the middle of everything #hiding parts of me away #i want to learn how to write music but now is never the right time in my life yknow?

[foxcassius]

posts on here criticizing only children and making having siblings the supreme are very funny to me because i actually have a bunch of siblings and i never speak to them and dont care about them and think i will only have one child actually. im glad so many people have love in their hearts for their siblings but legitimately all my siblings ever did was torture my autistic ass through childhood and cause me inconvenience and distress in my adulthood. at this point im like theyre fine. its really kind that they want to travel across the world for my wedding i guess. but i do not think having them made me a Better person than someone who didn't have siblings, like for example, jiwon

#jiwon and i have talked a lot about the difference between me growing up as third of four and him being an only child #and his only complaint about his life as a kid was that he was lonely and overworked in his studies #which are one and the same. he was lonely because his parents discouraged him from making friends and simultaneously didnt want #to connect with him and be a friend to him. i asked him if he and his parents did stuff together when he was a kid and he said no. #theres a way to raise an only child well but it involves actually wanting the kid and actually enjoying being around children #and when i think about having more than one kid yeah i worry about not being able to do it all. not being able to give them #adequate care and affection and not meeting all of their needs. yeah maybe thats because my parents didnt meet my needs when i was #a kid and let my siblings do awful things to me because they wanted their own time and didnt want to get someone else to watch us #and yeah maybe once i have the first i'll change my mind and want a second. but this website is so weird about only children for real #im not even an only child and the way you guys talk about only children makes me feel defensive like damn. maybe u dont know that #person actually. shut the fuck up. #t

[rowan-ashtree]

it's been a while since a vent

#rowan vents #listen. listen. my best friend has a boyfriend and idk how to deal with it. ive always been so scared of ppl leaving me in favor of their #romantic partner bc that's how our society is set up. and it's just so strange to me i literally don't know how to accept that she has a #boyfriend. i think abt it and i get this weird lump of almost-anxiety in my stomach. like it's not quite anxiety but it's extremely uncomfy #and idk what to do. my fear that im gonna be replaced is my thing that i need to work through but also. its not unfounded. but i cant #be like NO I'M UR FIRST PRIORITY bc that's fucked up and i dont wanna do that to people. but also i wanna be her first priority. i wanna be #someone's first priority but not romantically. im so lonely and im so scared ill be lonely forever #i know i wont be bc there are good things and good times ahead but it's so uncertain and i feel too small to try to deal with all this #i fucking hate amatonormativity. i fucking hate it. we're not meant to pair up it's so fucking stupid #uuuufhfhgfbxbbxbdhfjejieifhbfbfnzkkakrifhfuhrbvfbfnxmnxmzkskeoirutturufbfbcnfjjrndjfjeiriwodbcnfkdjsjdhfjrurieowjsjxnfbhfbfbfhfjcnfjtifjduf #i miss my siblings 😭😭😭 #if you read this far im giving u a forehead kiss or cheek kiss or blowing u a kiss. whichever works best for u <3