#im just sick of it all

[oars]

#i feel like tge fact im apprehensive about posting this is kinda proving my point #the way everyone talks about both weight gain and weight loss is just horrendous #like idek if i could fit all i wanna say in here especially while im at work but #i so badly wish people could be normal about weight gain and talking about it #its like if youre not in some constant state of wanting to lose weight people want to kill you #god forbid you want to put on weight to feel more comfortable in your body outside of muscles and a butt #fatphobia is a given thats a whole other few paragraphs #im grateful i have mutuals and friends who are normal but ill have or hear these convos and go #ok i feel sick. why do i feel this way why do you feel that way. #anyways i think fatphobia is one of the worst things to ever happen

[inkskinned]

probably time for this story i guess but when i was a kid there was a summer that my brother was really into making smoothies and milkshakes. part of this was that we didn't have AC and couldn't afford to run fans all day so it was kind of important to get good at making Cool Down Concoctions.

we also had a patch of mint, and he had two impressionable little sisters who had the attitude of "fuck it, might as well."

at one point, for fun, this 16 year old boy with a dream in his eye and scientific fervor in heart just wanted to see how far one could push the idea of "vanilla mint smoothie". how much vanilla extract and how much mint can go into a blender before it truly is inedible.

the answer is 3 cups of vanilla extract, 1/2 cup milk alternative, and about 50 sprigs (not leaves, whole spring) of mint. add ice and the courage of a child. idk, it was summer and we were bored.

the word i would use to describe the feeling of drinking it would maybe be "violent" or perhaps, like. "triangular." my nose felt pristine. inhaling following the first sip was like trying to sculpt a new face. i was ensconced in a mesh of horror. it was something beyond taste. for years after, i assumed those commercials that said "this is how it feels to chew five gum" were referencing the exact experience of this singular viscous smoothie.

what's worse is that we knew our mother would hate that we wasted so much vanilla extract. so we had to make it worth it. we had to actually finish the drink. it wasn't "wasting" it if we actually drank it, right? we huddled around outside in the blistering sun, gagging and passing around a single green potion, shivering with disgust. each sip was transcendent, but in a sort of non-euclidean way. i think this is where i lost my binary gender. it eroded certain parts of me in an acidic gut ecology collapse.

here's the thing about love and trust: the next day my brother made a different shake, and i drank it without complaint. it's been like 15 years. he's now a genuinely skilled cook. sometimes one of the three of us will fuck up in the kitchen or find something horrible or make a terrible smoothie mistake and then we pass it to each other, single potion bottle, and we say try it it's delicious. it always smells disgusting. and then, cerimonious, we drink it together. because that's what family does.

#this is true #writeblr #warm up #relatedly for some reason one of our Favorite Jokes #amongst the Siblings #is like - ''this is so good u will love it'' #while we are reacting to something we OBVIOUSLY find viscerally disgusting #like we will be actively retching and be like ''nooooo it's so good'' #to the point that i sometimes get nervous if someone outside my family is like oh u should try it its good #(obvi we never force each other to eat anything. we are all just curious birds and #like. we're GONNA try the new thing.) #edit to answer why we had so much vanilla: #my mom is a very good cook and we LOVE to bake. so she just had a lot of staples in the house. #it's one of those things that's like. have u ever continuously thought ''ah i should get butter im probably out'' #even tho u are not out of butter. so u end up with like 5 years of butter. #my mom would do that in a costco but like with vanilla extract #to be fair we WERE always using WAY TOO MUCH bc we were kids #so like she was right to stock up #ps. yes we were VERY sick after this lol i just didn't want to include it in the post in case ppl had an ick about that #u can tell it's real bc we knew "oh no we fucked up that's too much vanilla to waste'' but our reaction was to just. keep drinking it #> sibling understanding that vanilla extract isn't free > knowledge mother doesnt mind if we use it for milkshakes #> sibling choice to maybe get in a loophole of ''not wasting it'' if we drink it bc that's the same as using it (not throwing it out) #listen bud i was like 13 and my sister was like 9 #when my mom discovered this we. got in. A LOT. of trouble. a lot of it. a LOT of it. #3rd edit bc i guess it isn't clear - i am 1 of my brother's 2 little sisters #i am the middle child #out of all the ways i have had to explain a post before being like ''did u forget a middle child can happen'' is my favorite

[fleapit]

can we pleasee please please stop fucking fearmongering and blaming trans men for the predstrogen situation. please god. posts about "trans men teaming up with terfs to get trans women banned!" with zero sources all over my dash. blaming "transandrophobia truthers" for all the transmisogyny. have you all lost your fucking minds?? what the fuck happened to t4t??? what the fuck happened to trans solidarity??? why is "transfem separatism" even a subject worth entertaining????

anyone who says other trans people are the enemy is a fucking fed. jesus christ

#my blood is fucking boiling right now and my heart is breaking #i keep seeing people go off the deep end with 'trans men arent oppressed! trans men face no discrimination because they have male privilege #its the fucking 2010 “trans men are betraying their female gender!” shit all over again! #transandrophobia #fleapit's patented rants #sorry im just. so sick of it. #saw it from a fucking FORCE-MASC BLOG like are you serious???

[petitelappin]

I want her to scoop him up so much. I think they would both enjoy it. Sweep the man off his feet, as they say!

#my art #digital art #bg3 #wyllach #wyll ravengard #karlach cliffgate #baldurs gate 3 #fan art #i still havent reached the point in the game where they can touch yet but once they can its over for everyone #the amount of times in camp im just like. we gotta go to karlach and remind her i/wyll want to kiss her #im sure the other companions must be sick of it #is this caption worded weirdly? its 4:30 and i havent slept bc theres been weird things happening loudly outside all night

[lwiann]

fall from grace

#durgetash #bg3 #gortash #wiann art #baldur's gate 3 #durge #my durge is just constantly losing hair bc of his father honestly #at first gortash was very manipulative about it #to ensure that bane does not share his dominion #but then he falls in love lmao sucker #he still very much respects their relationship as god/chosen #but hes like spiteful of it as father and son #hateful wretch!!! #he'll never come between a chosen and a god afterall theyre all servants to their lord but OUGUHHGG him being selfish and doing this #im sick

[gothtransgorl]

Okay so this turned into a bit of a vent post, so I guess I'll put a read-more thing to spare yall 😅

I know it's a big mistake, but since I went on Facebook for the first time in ages, I've been periodically checking it out over and over. Seeing all of these people who I used to know at a much different time going out there and living their lives, growing up, being adults with their own lives and doing things... idk, i think something about it just fucks me up a little .-.

Like, that's the normal thing that you're supposed to do in your 20's. They're not still living at home anymore. They're all making their own families. They're out there, actually living life. They're not stuck in the same shitty home they grew up in, they're not letting their own trauma dictate their life, they're not constantly reminiscing and grieving their own lost youth... Yet here I am. utterly lost and alone. This should be the time of my life where I do something. Anything. Instead, I just stay where I am, rotting in this same "home" that I've been in for far too long...

I can't help but think that this is not how things should've been. I should've kept going to school. I should've moved the fuck out of here by now. I should be out there, actually living life. Instead, I just sit here, stuck in the past, stuck at a dead-end job, not able to see a clear future for myself...

Idk where the fuck I went wrong. Didn't I used to have things to aspire to:??? Didn't I used to have dreams and plans for the future??? I honestly can't even remember. I shouldn't be here... I feel like I wasn't meant to live for this long, that I should've just ended it when I had the chance... maybe then I wouldn't feel this fucking guilt and disgust with myself..... It's all just so much. I don't even know how to live without just barely surviving all of this bullshit....

#personal #drunk ramblings #I don't know what to do anymore #remembering the past hurts #thinking of the hopeless future hurts #The pain of constantly living this way fucking hurts......... #im just sick of it all #everywhere i look seems to be nothing but this same pain ive felt since i was young... #idk how much longer i can keep on feeling this way #ive already felt it for way too long #i just want it all to stop...............

[lucabyte]

Taking pride in One's own appearance.

#you people are becoming my guinea pigs for my finally learning how to communicate information via comics. a thing ive needed to practice at #also BLEGH. YUCK. andrew hussie was right candy makes you sick. this is a little too saccharine for me. yeesh. let me get back to the meat. #isat #isat spoilers #in stars and time #in stars and time spoilers #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #sifloop #doodlebyte #'let me get back to the meat' i say eyeing something similarly sickly in my sketches. at least it's mildly tormented as a counterbalance... #you people have no idea how much im having to stay my own hand. oh i can draw miserable nudity but the most basic of fluff? visceral #anyway i dont know the logistics of picking up a glass eye or where loop got money (besides pilfering from siffrin) & ive previously drawn #sif with a vague blank middle-grey eye as either being scarred over or a blank occular prosthesis put in quickly at the nearest town #i dont know that they'd have a glass eye during the game but considering prosthesis are reccomended to keep the skull etc from deforming #id imagine it would probably come up postgame as something to do now theyre not on a time limit trying to save the country #plus i assume that having it gouged at by a sadness wasnt exactly a clean wound by any measure #all this to say. idk i just wanted to get some information across in comic form to Test my Abilities #and we're far enough down now to say my absolute most wretchingly sweet fluff headcanon that actually inspired this #which is that i think siffrin gets into the habit of not wearing the eyepatch around loop so they kinda match. #and as a signifier to the other that they're letting their guard down around them. vulnerability etc. #just kinda wearing it around their neck so they don't lose it

[dad-dumpster]

harry keeps stealing victim’s boots

#harry starts collecting trophies from all the murders he solves and theyr all designer footwear #its retail therapy #this is just an excuse to draw his fat juicy ass #i need some one to develope a harry du bois dress up game im sick and tired of drawing him in multiple outfits #disco elysium #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi #my art

[mo49ko]

(fengqing 🏹⚔️)

the way that mq HAS to be weird about everything is one of his cute charms...xl is bestie so he's used to it....fx still gets tricked by it every time bc he has one (1) braincell and hes using it to love and cherish mq

bonus under the cut ✨↓

sqx_sqx: why do we hate nan yang suddenly whats goign on 😭😭 mingguang01: hoho have fun with ju yang [report comment?]

fx placed his phone on the side so he can record that moment but mq already noticed it so he didnt get caught off guard 🙄🙄💁‍♀️

#fengqing #tgcf #moko art #i actually submitted all my fq event things in time and also finished this #BUT im sick again !!! #anyways have a nice fengqing weekend my friends ! ! !!!!! #i dont rmemeber what prompted me to draw this actually #i think twitter is pooping so my tumblr besties can see this first #man i should rly just type in the text my handwriting is so ugly

[ink-the-artist]

blood animals

#ask to tag #blood #blood painting #creatures #i get a lot of nosebleeds i thought id give blood painting a try #it was weird i never feel sick or weird at all from the sight of blood #and i didnt really while painting this but i felt kinda like i was going to feel sick? #if that makes sense #so im prob not gonna do this again unfortunately #idk if it was the smell or the texture of it as it clotted #ive gotten sick at the sight of blood exactly once before when id accidentally squeezed a bunch of blood out of a blister #got super nauseous and p much expirienced all the symptoms of a panic attack minus any actual feeling of anxiety or panic #just the physical stuff #weird

[chrisbangs]

BANG CHAN — Special MC KCON LA DAY 3 (230821)

#chan #bang chan #stray kids #skz #createskz #cb97net #bystay #*gifs #*m #flashing tw #this set had 15 gifs originally but i just cannot deal with the colouring rn ... #i dont even hate it or smth its just??? diff across all of them and its making me MAD #but god i had to I HAD TO GIF HIM :(((( #look at our super star... look at our sweet boy... #my shining star fr... #god im so proud of him :(((((( #im going to be sick i adore him so much im so sa d #last gif i wanna eat him alive also but thats another thought huahwoefawoeia #also this post is brought to you by 'your scratch disks are full' and fuck photoshop

[toxooz]

finished a page early so im allowed to finish one (1) Ollie wip as a treat

#ollie #sweaty ollie just sitting there knee up in different angles save me #but thats iT i only did this bc im sick and miserable and it made me significantly less LMFAO #also yes im gradually giving him more hair after drawing so many hairy ass men ollies starting to look like a naked mole rat #PUT SUM HAIR ON THAT BEAST OF A MAN #also the next update sould be 10 or 11 pages so yeehawwww #and im on 2 goin on page 3 now #the best part abt being so sick i wont leave my apartment is i have an excuse to draw all day teehee 💀 #my art #oc #original character #monster boy #monster #monster oc #orc #half orc #tiefling oc #tiefling #demon #half demon #monster boyfriend #terato #exophilia #muscle #muscular #skater #skaterboard

[rassebers]

Pull yourself TOGETHER man

#panel one that's ritsu and serizawa assisting mob. just btw #who is mob marrying? well... who knows ... #for real though expanding on post canon is so real to ME #because of mob psychos central idea of growing up and getting older and life moving on #like it makes my heart warm to know these kids will GROW UP and GET JOBS and MEET PEOPLE IMPORTANT TO TJEM #and maybe even get married !... #i do think Reigen doesnt often think abt how far they've all come until some sort of big milestone #like a wedding or someone buys a house or graduates from school and etc #and then he's like damn.... ive really known him since he was a lil kid. and here we are now #excuse my rambling im just so sick and crazy and it makes my heart warm #mp100 #my rart #shigeo kageyama #reigen arataka #mob psycho 100 #ritsu kageyama #serizawa katsuya #their network of psychics and friends all chip in to help at the wedding

[suntails]

fallen

#KICKS OPEN THE DOOR. HIIIIIII IM BAAAAAACK. TWIRLS MY HAIR AND STARES UNBLINKINGLY AT U #okay so long story short i need to speedrun if i wanna draw ANY lore art this time #bc i go to NY w no computer for 2 weeks on thurs and i wont have nrainrot anymore after. so i need to draw FAST things #so yea. she um. she. died. sniffles. ngl i thought she was already dead from the prev update so this STUNG #the fuckign GRIEF the way lilia collapses down in mourning her loss. she falls to the humans. i am SICK it HURTS #silver was so devastated in 7.5 without even seeing the death firsthand and being like 'how could i ever be loved' #lilia looking at malleus. the future of the kingdom. the treasure of his two closest friends (loves?) #and is like 'how can i ever love him enough' and proceeds to spend A FIFTH OF HIS LIFE SEARCHING FOR A SOLUTION #dealing w prejudice from humans. kicked out of the army Disgraced. all while mourning. he keeps going out of LOVE #twst #twisted wonderland #lilia vanrouge #malleus draconia #hes an egg he counts #ch 7 spoilers #so yea blah blah blah im not as eloquent as u geniuses i will just draw a silly little dramatic art to capture my misery and move forward #suntails

[climbdraws]

im so so sick of the infantalizing takes of "this children's media is soooo dark its not for kids!!!" and it's just a millennial recounting scene for scene what happens like this

#FAIRYTALES ARE STORIES MEANT TO TEACH CHILDREN HOW TO DEFEAT THE BOOGEYMAN #NOT PRETENDING THE BOOGEYMAN DOESNT EXIST AT ALL #screaming crying thrashing #im so so sick of it like its the most brainrot take #thinking that children cant understand or be exposed to “darker adult themes” when those themes are just Life #theres an entire genre of youtubers who do nothing but recap scene for scene and go woah?? like thats so dark?? woahhh broooooo #im begging and pleading to bring back 80s dark fantasy

[plulp]

IM NOT A DOCTOR BUT I THINK I MIGHT BE ABLE TO HELP

#my art #dol #harper the doctor #HIIIIIIIIIIII HI EVERYONE 👋👋👋👋👋👋👋👋👋 #its a little bit off so that makes me kinda upset :( but ill figure something out. it might be the colors :( #or maybe the spacing? i left a lot in the top left :( but its fine #and im going to use every lyric of that song for every harper piece i make so that i dont have to think about making captions okay? #but HERE. a HARPER PIECE YOU CAN REBLOG #i give them the stupid messy sidebun because its cute. to me. #im so sorry about the radio silence but i DID warn you all i get artblock often #but!!!!!! i was also accepted into a zine despite my lack of internet presence :) so ive also been busy with that and other stuff too #accidentally made this while practicing for the piece because i couldnt get the style right :( but hopefully ill get a better hold on it #anyways. harper is not a doctor and i love them so much it makes me sick #harper my EVERYTHING. hes my PRINCESS. #MY ANGEL. #i want you all to remember this isnt just an art blog. its a harper fanblog #ohhh but i do have a few few few announcements to make in my next post okay? so dont ignore it alright? kiss kiss love you #IM GONNA BE FUCKING SICK HES HOLDING THE SYRINGE WRONG. AND I CANT FIX IT NOW BECAUSE ITS BEEN RBED