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just-some-random-blogger · 5 years

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Wheel Of Fortune

EXO Park Chanyeol x Reader + others Characters: EXO Summary: Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose. Chanyeol was head over heels for you but he was 100% in denial that you liked Kyungsoo. Word Count: 1k+ Warnings: CRACK FOOL. RUN IF YOURE NOT HERE FOR THAT, jealousy, bottled emotions, fluff ending, etc.

A/N: this was TOO FLUFFY tbh. i wanted to hurt myself but it turned into fluff but oh well

let’s start at the beginning

your parents were introduced by mutual friends and started talking on the phone

okay kidding that’s too far

right

so you worked at SM

and is the maknae of a seven member coed group that debut a year after BigBang and a year before SHINee

(so 2007)

which considering the fact you were younger than Sehun by a couple of months meant you debuted at 10

just roll with it cos ITZ MY VERY SPECIFIC PLOT DMMIT

wheLP

the members were all exactly one year apart and the members from eldest to youngest,, the sequence was a guy (@ 30 yrs old), a girl (29), a guy (28), a girl (27), a guy (26), a guy (25), then you (24).

I KNOW I DONT NEED THIS BUT THIS IS HOW I IMAGINED THIS PLOT IT DMMIT

since you were basically a sunbae at SM even tho u were a smol child you wanted to show your support to your hoobaes

So a day before their debut as a whole group, you, along with the eldest member of your group, who was the leader, visited EXO in the dance studio and gave moral support

You were A BIG FAN and it showed

not that you were hiding it in the first place

your leader was HIGH KEY embarrassed by you, but low key thought it was kinda cute how excited you were for this song

so dUH EXO dances growl for you

anD YOU NEARLY SPONTANEOUSLY COMBUST BECAUSE OF HOW PERFECT EVERYTHING WAS

Luhan’s voice

Baekhyun’s attitude

Sehun’s resting bitch face

eeeerrrrrthing

YOU WERE ON THE FLOOR SCREAMING

literally

and Junmyeon thought you were adOrAbLE

“I think she malfunctioned,” your leader gave a face and pushed you on the shoulder to see if you were still breathing as you let out a silent scream

“CAN YOU GUYS DO IT ONE MORE TIME”

?????

Jongin was too out of breath to fight you

but lol u know what

they did dance again for you

BECAUSE YALL HAD THE CUTEST LIL FACE AND YOU WERE LIKE 16 SO

after that your band and exo were pretty much in one group

like hella tight

you were bsicly conjoined twinss

You could be at an award show and your table would be abandoned because you decided to sit with exo or vice versa

HYPING EACH OTHER WAS NOT EVEN HYPE ANYMORE BECAUSE IT WAS LIKE YOU GUYS WERE RABID OR SOMETHING WTF

!!!!CALM!!!!!DOWN!!!!

like you + your group to them:

“thtAS MY CHILd!”

“DID YOU SEE YIXING AND HIS HIPS FUCK YOU BITCH!”

“HE WAS RUDE. THAT WAS RUDE. THAT’S NOT ALLOWED”

“GET OFF THE STAGE SLUT”

“WWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP BITCH!”

“~~~that was sooooooo sOFYT”

“CHEN STFU! YOU NEED TO STOP USING THAT DAMN VOICE OF YOURS JONGDAE. THATS ILLEEEEEGAL!”

“myY HERT!”

“OPPA *cries in korean* PLESS!”

“WHAT IS THIS FUCKERY!!!!!?“

‘iN fRonT oF MY sALaD”

“PA$$ THE H01Y W4T3R”

“NO KAI. BAD KAI. STTOOOOPPPP.”

you @ baekyun

baekyun @ you

thIS IS A CHANYEOL HEADCANON BUT I LOOK AT THIS FUCKIN MORON WHO I HATE SO MUCH SOMEONE SAVE HIM FROM HIS IDIOCY

them to you + your group:

“first of all fuck, second FUCK”

“wh-- whT WHAS THAT HIP MOVEMENT. U ARE 4 YRS OLD”

“HE did t h a t.”

“NOOOOOONNNNNNNNNAAAAA ch0k3 me”

“I CANT HEAR YOU OVER U BEING SUCH A HOE”

“i cant beLIEVE THIS STADIUM IS SO QUIET” *ears are actually bleeding*

“NOt TODaY S4T4N”

“I DIDNT ASK FOR THIS”

“how does this have 300M views????? ONLY 300M I--”

“GAAAAAHHHHH WHAT WAS THAT MOVE WHT WAS IT”

“my soul has been touched”

“this is TOOOOOOOO much ma lord”

“DID YOU JUST RIP YOUR SHIRT OFF?“

“TAKE YOUR SHIRT OFF!”

“ASDFRTYUJM ive been shot”

ya dig

it’s not verbal abuse if they can’t hear you cause of the bass and the fact your on stage performing

but like

you guys did everything together

practiced

ate

shopped

toured

pranked

T O G E T H E R

like who else in SM mattered

SHINee who?

JK YOUWERE A SHAWOL THROUGH AND THROUGH

you reassure Minho everytime unless you wanted to die that day

YOu EVEN FANGIRLED OVER TAEMIN’s MOVE WITH MINSEOK

BUT YOU OBVI you had MORE THAN ENOUGH ROOM TO BE AN EXO-L and an elf and a cassie and a so-won and DONT FOrget a vip and a---

you get the point

ANYWAY

as you were close with everyone you had a special bond with every individual

YALL STILL TEXT WITH YA BOY KRIS

yOU WENT ON A SHOW IN CHINA WITH LUHAN

TAO LEAVES PUKE COMMENTS ON YOUR INSTA POSTS

my ot12

and as much as you say you are equally close with everyone

errbody knows that be bull the size of russia

yall caNNOT dENy that you and chanyeol have the same crack powder on your philtrums

LIKE KYUNGSOO CANNOT LIVE WHEN YOU TWO ARE TOGETHER

LET HIM LIVEEEEEE

this moment must never die

ya boy be mindin his own business then

BAM BITCH

you and chanyeol be makin D.O. cray af

rest assured he HAS thought of how he’d kill both of you

ANd that’s why chanyeol loves you

like he decided he liked you the moment you lost your breath laughing when he threw a rubber duck at Kyunggsoo’s head, making it squeak in the most demented way no one thought possible

but he knew he loved you when you helped him lighten up on one of his dark days

you had that kind of effect on people

i mean all you did was sit down with him, both of your backs leaned up against each other’s, head occasionally leaning against the other’s head or shoulder, and played some nothings on the guitar and ukulele

but that was more than enough

you were there with him

and that’s what mattered

But literally the moment he accepted his feelings for you

he began to notice something he felt 100000% dumb for not seeing before

the way you laugh when Kyungsoo says a lame-ass joke

the way you always hug him from behind

you did that with literally everyone you were close with sure,

but Chanyeol noticed you did it with him more

and he 3

there was also the way you were just always winding up next to Soo when he was around, like he had some sort of magnet on him

and how you just liked poking his cheeks, begging him to show his dimples

which were really faint like gurl--

chANYEOL HAD DIMPLES TOO

CHANYEOL HAS DIMPLES

why daheq did you like his close to nonexistent ones?????????

????????

okay you liked poking Lay’s dimples more

look at my boy, who i love with burning passion ANDWILL DESTROY SM FOR BECAUSE HE JUST WANTS TO BE WITH HIS BAND SM SM SM!!!!! CHINA KOREA POLITICS FK ALL YALL

and suho

and chen

anD FINE--

yeah you did poke his too

literally anyone who remotely has dimples tbh

BT WHY KYUNGSOO

ads;ajsd;lasjdkas #jelly

so chanyeol decides to ask someone about it

so he obviously goes to his wisest hyung

but the day he wants to talk to Suho, YOU WERE ON A DATE WITH HIM

like a date but not a date date he could tell

BUT A DATE NONETHELESS AND HE WAS KINDA JELLY

so he goes to Baekhyun for some fucking reason

and he’s like “omg u like her i couLDnt FUCKING TELL FROM ALL THE HEARTS IN TH AIR”

instant regret

but like Baek did give him some advice

like 5% was advice

the other 99% was him screaming to just be a man and tell her

so chanyeol is like, “STFU.... also she likes kyungsoo so fml”

and for a hot second Baekhyun has nothing to say

BAEKHYUN HAS NOTHING TO SAY

“idek dude. this is why i flirted with her openly”

Chanyeol punched him for saying that

but he decides he’s going to tell you after like 231109 years

cos Jongdae said you don’t like Kyungsoo and that he’s sure of it

Chanyeol asked how he was sure and he was just all like

“she had a crush on Sungmin hyung before and DID NOT act like that at all.”

That made Chanyeol a lot more hopeful

So he just went for it

and asked if you wanted to get lunch

and then after eating, you guys walked back

and he just sort of blurted it out

“Joahaeyo.”

you just looked at him and chuckled, “Thank you. I like you too, Yeolie.”

bitch are you for real rn

before Chanyeol could clarify, your walking slowed, “I’ve known for a while now.”

wait

w h a t

“Minseok oppa told me.”

?????????? uhm HOW DID HE KNOW

Chanyeol’s hands were waterfalls atm, “Why did he tell you?”

Your face starts burning red and chanyeol cant help but think of it as a bad sign

“I told him I liked him...”

“... and he said he can’t reciprocate because he knows you like me, and that he can’t do that to his dongsaeng.”

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

cool story bro

you liked someone in EXO that was NOT him

cool cool cool

I GUESS CHEN WAS RIGHT

THANKS

wait did that mean chanyeol was this obvious

wait did that mean chanyeol ruined your chances with his hyung

wait was this why you cried that one time

WaiT WAS THIS WHY YOU HUNG AROUND KYUNGSOO

BECAUSE WHENEVER MINSEOK WAS IN THE ROOM, YOU WOULD GET KINDA STIFF AT A POINT AND KYUNGSOO MAKE A JOKE TO MAKE YOU LAUGH

WASTHIS WHY YOU TWO HUNG OUT MORE

WHY HADN’T HE NOTICED

AND IF EVERYONE ELSE DID

WHY DIDNT THEY TELL HIM

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Chanyeol frowned and called out your name, proceeding to apologize

“Wae? why are you sorry? did you tell minseok to say that to me?“

he couldn’t feel mushy and weird at what you said

“YA dont tell me youre going to be weird around me too. It’s bad enough Minseok oppa distanced himself a bit.”

Chanyeol couldn’t help but be angry, sad, protective, and annoyed all at once at what you just admitted to him

“I’ll tell him to stop.”

You pouted, “you don’t have to tell anyone anything, chanyeol.”

“yes but you don’t deserve to feel awkward around anyone.”

“yes but that was minseok oppa’s choice.”

“yes but he was only doing that because he’s my hyung and he’s dumb.”

“yes but--

OU KNOW WHAT WHY DONT WE ALL JUST BE AWKWARD AROUND EACH OTHER”

and so you walked forward fast and tried to ignore chanyeol

Chanyeol, with his freakishly long legs caught up with you though

he caught your arm

“What tf are you doing?“

“Ew dont talk to me its awkward. im awkward. your awkward.”

Chanyeol laughed. “yaaaaa, why do i like you?

“THAT’S WHAT IM THINKING HO”

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amc-thoughts · 3 years

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12 March 2021

wow...... its weird that i read my past journals and i remember the emotions i felt during those times. im honestly glad i wrote these journals as a way to remind me of such hard times. tbh im crying rn bc it was so sad...... summer 2019 abigail... u were just one sad bitch let me tell u 😂😂😂 its funny i can laugh at myself now bc now way did i ever think i would get to this point in my life... 2021 abigail vs 2019 abigail are two different people experiencing different points in their lives... isnt it just funny the way life works??? i find it quite amusing but i supposed thats how life is.... life has a funny way of teaching us things and im glad everything happened to me. break ups, break ups with ur friends LMAO, traveling to a foreign country, corona virus (who would have known huh anyways fuck rona).

tbh idek what im writing.... im kinda just typing whatever comes into my head.... umm currently ur in ur dorms crying in the dark bc u remember how worthless ur past self was feeling... what a crazy time.. i have not cried like this in a while.. which is fine. i am human lol. i guess a part of me just feels lonely... i think i just get sad time to time bc i wish i had a bf HAHA to put things plainly... i miss feeling excited/get butterflies for a stupid boy ... with covid and everything life is just hard to meet ppl... being at hufs and having my classes be online suckssssss. i wish i could meet my classmates and make more friends. but gradually i am getting there ☺️ i met celia today so woohoooo she was fun.

i guess i think in the back of my head how nice it would be to have a bf but rlly having a bf isnt everythinggggg like yes i could die single than to be with a toxic ass boy

***********

me: lol gurl u kno ur type is toxic

also me: gurl u right 🤪

HAHAHAHAHA

***********

i say i want a bf but opening up to a boy is so scary!!!!!!! wtf!!!!! how would i even know a boy here??? i cant go on tinder bc im too shy!!!!! scared!!!! i dont wanna go on a date and he kills me!!! ok i know that was being dramatic but hehe.... i know things usually happen when u least expect it so imma just chilllll.. vibe u kno... haha thats how i have been lately. u just a cool bitch and im PROUD OF YOU!!! me 2 me im proud of u bitch!!! u were so sad and pathetic but now u glow’d up!! look at u makin moves here in koreaaaa!! who else is traveling during a pandemic???? like u badass gorl hype ya self up!!! dont feel sad for urself anymore!!!! (thank u <3 ㅋㅋㅋ)

talking to myself like this makes me feel better. i get to just sit here and self reflect and its nice. i constantly push my worries to the side but u gotta talk about it sometimes

~ in ur letter to shitty ex bf u thanked him but in this letter i want u to thank YOU bitch! thank urself for getting this far in life and doing things you always wanted to do. you’re in a different country for COLLEGE!! thats so excitimg!!! go u!!!! ur so hard working and loving!!! keep being urself bc ppl will only love you for your personality and you will attact what you put out!!!

you’re a different person now....

2021 abigail 🤝 2019 abigail

time to be excited for what is yet to come ☺️ we never know what tomorrow will bring us but we should not let fear consume us and hinders what awaits us ✨✨

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savageday6 · 6 years

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i was tagged by @93sngjn woowowowaowo THANK U LOV!!!!!!!

rules: once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you. at the end choose 25 people to be tagged !

last:

drink: water phone call: my mum LOL fjsfjak she wanted to talk about how much she got ripped off for my shirt alteration text message: me gushing about bp’s jisoo to my male friend song you listened to: i loved you by baesix time you cried: i think a month ago???? i dont rly rmb :((

have u ever:

dated someone twice: I’VE NEVER DATED B4 been cheated on: naw kissed someone and regretted it: *looks at extensive list of all 0 kisses ive had* nope lost someone special: yea :( been depressed: no been drunk and thrown up: NOPE

in the past year have u:

made a new friend: yessssssss!!!! a couple fallen out of love: no!! laughed until you cried: YES good god...... what an amazing feeling i cant rmb it that well but i think my friend was talking about her abundant love for pandas and the conversation evolved to smth rly rly weird and... we started cackling and she suddenly got rly quiet with her back facing me so i thought she’d stopped and collected herself...but then she slowly turned around to face me again and there were two long streaks of tears down her cheeks and she looked sooooOoOo STUPID i cried laughing at her face met someone who changed you: i changed a lot when i was 17-18 but i dont think it was bcus of one specific person! rather it was a large group of friends!! found out who your true friends are: YES. oh my god i literally cut off a toxic friend a few months ago :( found out someone was talking about you: no but if there were i wna know tbvh

general:

how many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: NONE i cannot let anyone i know see this tbvh. if u ever see this blog suddenly go up in flames you know why do you have any pets?: pet fish wheeee do you want to change your name?: nope it’s catchy and convenient and meaningful!!! what time did you wake up this morning: 8.30am :”) what were you doing last night: preparing for my interview.......reasoning with lowkey obtuse people on the sexualisation of minors :( name something you cannot wait for: to get an internship offer from any company i desire!!!! or a job offer!!! employment basically!! have you ever talked to a person named tom?: yes what’s getting on your nerves right now: myself blood type: A+ i think nickname: trash, bitchmate, recluse, joi joi (lmao the last one’s by my younger cousins and they’re so cute :(((( ) relationship status: HAPPILY SINGLE!!!! zodiac sign: capricorn (but i dont fit its description at all .. ..... ) pronouns: she/her favorite show: 1n2d college: yes!! hair color: brown! do you have a crush on someone: nope!! what do you like about yourself: thought long and hard and i cant thnk of anyth lmao i almost said funny but im not even that funny im just stupid so idek

firsts:

first surgery: wisdom teeth removal! all four of them first piercing: ive never had any! first sport you joined: i didnt join any im a ball of laziness someone slap me and my fat rolls first vacation: to vietnam i think first pair of sneakers: converse when i was 12 oh my god i still hv them now and they look like a clown’s shoes why did i buy such horrifyingly long ones .... i for the love of god can never understand why i did that

right now:

eating: mars choc drinking: water i’m about to: finish up interview prep and study :(((((((((((((((( listening to: construction....jdjskaskdjf my ears r bleeding want kids: idk :( get married: no career: im still trying to figure this out :(

which is better:

lips or eyes: eyes hugs or kisses: hugs shorter or taller: TALLER!!!! older or younger: older romantic or spontaneous: romantic sensitive or loud: sensitive hookup or relationship: both sound bad 2 mi ... relationship i think troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker lmao

have u ever:

kissed a stranger: no and never drank hard liquor: NOPE lost contacts/glasses: nope i take good care of them... they r my lifeline.. . .my eyesight’s TERRIBLE and the thought of losing them is makin g me SWEAT sex on first date: no and never will i EVER broken someone’s heart: yes i think once if that even counts :-/ been arrested: nope but ive been screened before bc somehow looking at a litter of cats in silence is suspicious behaviour lmao FJAKSJF i probably looked like a crazed cat lady to them idk.................. turned someone down: yes fallen for a friend: nope!!!!! :””)

do u believe:

in yourself: no :( miracles: yes and i hope one happens love at first sight: not at all...!!

im tagging: @day6pilielove @code--kunst @whonpil @jaechicken @day6makesmesmile @llafierofeb @thedork6 @daypjh @moonwonpil @parqsungjin @wompeii @pjhyugn and everyone who’s reading this and wants to do it!!! my brain’s dry i cant think of anyone else to tag jdajjksfj

#u dont hv to tho!!!!#thank u sara!!!! for tagging !!! it was FUN!!#:")#tag game #now i shal go back to doing work :(((((#i may have left out people / mutuals i wnated to tag :( sorry !!!!!

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ujuro · 7 years

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A LOT about Tumblr has been bugging me lately so instead of makin a ranting discourse post like I considered doing I think I'm just gonna...stay away from the site for a little bit. watch all those kpop reality shows I never finished or maybe just rewatch shinees hello baby instead idk It's not like anything huge or massive is getting to me it's more like a lot of prevailing attitudes seem to only have negative influences on users and like there's nothing I as one unknown person can do to alter entire circles of thoughts so it's all kinda frustrating I'm actually gonna hold myself to this. a lot has been going on mentally this entire school yeah and since I've graduated high school I've found that there's a lot of changes I've had to comprehend. my mom recommended I stay off social media and originally I laughed her off cause I never checked on irl people anyway but now I realize that she's right. I have more human connections on Tumblr than on any other social media site, and even if the people i follow aren't "real", the content I see affects me the same as the content I could see from the people at my high school on any other app, so disconnecting from it all seems like a good idea my general advice to everyone is to start ACTUALLY minding your own business and picking your battles more carefully, generally chill, and let people live without waiting for them to fail to justify any annoyance you feel at them. I learned those lessons through losing friends in the real world, but of course it works on a hell site too lol ...why did I post this literally no one fuckin cares and nothing I do makes sense BYE IM GONNA WATCH HELLO BABY NOW SEE YOU TOMORROW WHEN I FUCKIN FAIL MY HELL SITE DETOX

#words of mine #anything I reblog comes from my likes #assuming I don't fail...which is a lot to ask of me #I think I used the wrong affects #or maybe not idc #future English major right here

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godshattered · 7 years

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a lotta people know me by a lotta different names

if u asked someone in my elementary school what my name was they would tell u it was either simon or justin

in early middle school some friends would say my name was strider (DONT LAUGH AT ME) and then in late middle school they would definitively tell u my name was george

and EVERYONE knew me by george; esp the ymca after school counselors i had to stay with while me mom worked (and i have a good positive story about that but ill tell it later)

in high school it was tobi, and tobi stuck for YEARS. a lot of people still know me as tobi, and thats ok

sometime in between graduating high school and goin to college i fell in with a good group of pals i mostly dont talk to anymore (sadly) who referred to me as veser

(and ples i kno u still do; if u readin this i want u to know how much i love ya)

and now its duke i am duke bc i liked the fucking duke of detroit from motorcity so damned much i made that my league name and all my league friends just started calling me duke

and i liked that i lot i really like being called duke a lot

nothing against my given name; i dont really care for it but i dont hate it either and i like the way its spelt but i dont really like bein called me name by my friendlies i would much prefer to be known as duke primarily

but anyway the point of this post i think im trying to make is that i like bein ambiguous/androgynous

all throughout me life people have been confused bout me gender; esp in high school

i have this distinctly bad memory of me waitin to go to class, chillin by meself waiting by the library when this girl i was aquanited with comes up to me and says,

‘that group of preps over there cant tell what gender you are so they decided theyre just going to call you an it’

BOY THAT HURT coulda gone the rest of me life not havin heard that let me tell ya

even as a kid just gettin along it was hard for some people to tell, which used to bother me A LOT but now i kind of like

(except when i use public bathrooms im always kinda secretly afraid of gettin yelled at even tho im in the right bathroom lol)

and it was not easy gettin to this point where i like being ambiguous but there was a point in middle school (HERES THE STORY) where i was nominated for some special YMCA club thing

young leaders? somethin?

and anyway we had to go to an initiation night with parents and stuff and i was late so while my moms parking i go into the room and one of the adult ymca counselors turns round when i come in and just

JUST BELLOWS,

he shouts GEORGE!!! YOU MADE IT!! and runs over with a smile and picks me up in front of all these

super christian parents

and boy i was so happy he did that man it makin me get happy tears rememberin him doin that for me

how simple it was

just callin me george

werent afraid to call me how i liked in front of people who might not dig that sort of thing

ive just been really wanting to make htis post for a while

just a lil tidbit about me i guess

i do not like being addressed as a certain gender do the neutral pronoun thing with me and whatever name i introduce myself to you as is the name u can call me by

simon justin strider george tobi veser duke das me

#long post #i mean REALLY long post #a kind of 'get to know me better' kind of post

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