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vanillaberrychills · 1 month
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can u write how Simon would react to his girl sleeping naked?? my ex was so shocked when I told him and I feel like Simon would be the same😭😭
HAHA I can totally see that, a little shorter scenario since im writing while at a fast food place 😵‍💫
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— Simon who had just gotten off a long day of work, grouchy and annoyed at just everything in general. The drive home sucked, his windshield wipers broke, his car needed gas, and his stomach needed a burrito. So taking a stop at the gas station he considered telling you that he was heading home. Until he looked at the time, which read a painful 02:36 AM. A time wayy too late for you to even be alive at the moment.
He chuckled at the thought of you wearing the fluffy pajamas he got you while working yesterday, some hello kitty shit he knew you'd love. Fluffy and soft, and it would look great on you considering he bought it. Simon's mood cheered up a little when he finished his gas station burrito and continued his way home.
When he was finally home he lazily shuffled around, balancing on one foot as he ripped off his booths with a groan. He shed his clothes on the floor often, a trail to the shower that would make you laugh. You usually left clothes for him in the bathrom for that very reason. You. The mere thought of being minutes away from a bed with you made him groan and speed up his shower, his aching body screaming for that fluffy ass bed he paid top dollar for.
When he finished up he put on the shirt and boxers you left in there for him, not bothering with the sweats because..because? No reason needed, keep going sexy.
A sleepy stumble to bed he lifted the blankets and slithered in, his ehad pressing to the back of your neck with a groan. You stirred with a giggle and squirmed in his grip, His hands moving to place over your chest and crotch only to find you bare. He choked a bit and sat up quickly, exposing you to the cold air like a monster :((
You whined and hissed, crawling back under a blanket, but he quickly snatched you up by your waist, "Nuh uh lovie, you have some explaining to do."
What initially was surprise turned into amusement as he pet your sleeping body, slightly sticky from lotion still drying on your skin. So soft, just for him <3
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lowkeyremi · 6 months
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That's my man atsumu x fem!reader
notes: I needed to write smthing for my baby's birthday. fwb tsumu does smthing to a me (it'll end up with getting together bc im silly like that), the samu ver is here
Content: slight language, slightly suggestive, fluff
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He smiled at her with those sex eyes of his. Yes, he's giving them to her and not you. Atsumu makes everything so hot and cold, it's hard to tell with him.
She giggles and he laughs too, entertaining her for some pussy. The 'why' is something you will never understand, not when you've had that man down on his knees, eating you out like he was on death row and you were his last meal.
Your hope is that both of their stupid asses feel your heated glare towards them. They don't notice it though, mainly because you're best friend pulls you out of your thoughts.
"The sooner you get over him the sooner my life becomes easier." Your best friend jokes. Their attempts at lightening your mood are ineffective. How could you be in a better mood when the man of your dreams only wants sex from you? You want him, badly, but he doesn't want you.
This was something you were aware of before sleeping with him. Yet, you took it lightly, and now here you are, pouting over him being with another girl.
"I know, it's just-"
They cut you off, "'it's different between us, he treats me better than his other fucks.' I've already heard the whole shebang." Your friend rolls their eyes with a quick smirk.
"He's a college frat boy, there's no way he was serious if he said something in bed. It was probably to set the mood." You know they're right, you're just being delusional. You want your relationship to be something it's not.
The rest of your day was pretty foul. Just as you thought it couldn't get worse it did. You had to present your presentation, because your partner who was supposed to do it has covid, and your other partner is so bad with public speaking that she freezes up.
Your favorite coffee is the only thing that brings you some joy to your day. You're seated in your favorite booth at your favorite cafe. You take small sips and check your social media feed. It's then when you hear your name being called out.
You don't bother to turn to look because you know who it is. He sits at your booth, unaware of the anger you feel currently.
"Don't you have someone's pussy to be buried into?" You ask with venom.
Atsumu gives you that cute little chuckle, you hate it so much right now. It feels like a tear to your pride.
"Only if it's yers." He suggests with a smirk.
"I'm really not in the mood right now Atsumu, why don't you go entertain that girl from bio." Shit, know he'll know and tease you. He'll probably cut things off with you and-
"Oh her? I was just tryin' to get her to do my presentation, but she turned me down." He says casually. This is probably the only time you'll be thankful for Atsumu's obliviousness.
"I could have helped you with it." He knows you're smart, and he would have asked you...
"There was no way I woulda asked ya. You always make me do the work, and only give me commentary on my work." He says sighing. You watch as he places those big rough hands of his under his chin.
He's so pretty, volleyball has not failed him once. Even though some of your friends hate his hair; you think it's cute.
Those eyes, so pretty and brown draw you in to him. Also his muscles are just right, he's not too buff but he's also not thin to the point you can't see anything.
"Yeah, it's called improving. I really hope you didn't think you'd get through college with a pretty face and money. College isn't just one big party. At least not for me." You lecture and Atsumu listens, he always listens.
"For starters I do my work now, I ain't slept with a teacher since freshman year which was almost two years ago. Thank you very much." He replies to the shade you send his way.
"Anyway, what is it that you wanted?" You ask with a sigh.
"I wanted to check up on ya s'all. My cupcake seemed a lil' outta it today." Fuck his perceptiveness.
"Just tired is all." Atsumu's eyes narrow at your response. Why'd you think you could lie to one of the biggest liars you know?
"The way ya were acting today wasn't as much 'oh gee im tired' but more like 'my sweetie pie tsumu-bear hasn't been paying me any attention.'"
"If you knew, then why where you trying to force it out of me?" You roll your eyes and look back to your phone as to avoid his gaze and your embarrassment.
"I just wanted to hear ya say it because yer so cute." Atsumu is going to be the death of you. He annoys you to no end.
"Just so ya know, I ain't been sleepin' with anyone besides you, sweetheart."
"How do I know you aren't a big fat liar?" The way he smiles when you hiss at him has your heart melting. Why? Why you?
"I'd be an idiot to sleep with someone else when I got the most beautiful girl in my bed all the time." It's so sweet and sincere, his voice is honest you can tell. It feels like a weight has been lifted off your chest, and that Atsumu shaped hole in your heart is slowly being filled.
"Yeah? What're you trying to say, Tsumu?" You peek up from your phone screen to look at his dark eyes. It catches you off guard slightly, the way he looks at you, like you put the stars in the damn sky.
"I knew ya were kinda clueless but this is something else. I want ya to be my girl."He clarifies and you stop breathing for a second. When you'd fantasize about this you'd never thought his confession would be calm. Atsumu is loud and obnoxious, so this quiet, calmness has caught you off guard.
"Is that a question or a demand?" You ask.
"Not a question, m'already confident in ya wanting me." He's prideful and sometimes it sucks but right now.. it's so hot.
"Okay then, I'm yours." You whisper quietly trying to grasp what you've just said.
"Good, best decision you'll ever make, cupcake." Cockiness is laced in his tone and you roll your eyes.
"I said to stop calling me that," You finally drop your gaze back to your phone, but you aren't even paying attention to the dimly-lit screen. Your brain is exploding right now.
"You're my man now." It finally registers.
"Sure am."
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seung-mong · 8 months
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shoot to kill - bangchan
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includes: ex (?) bf! chan x fem reader, ANGST idk im in the mood to break hearts ig, fluff at the end, soft smut, mostly chan reassuring and praising reader
"alright fuck, then maybe we should just take a break."
the words leave chan before he can really think about it, hanging in the air like a knife that's been thrown and stops midair, your gaze ice cold and freezing it in it's track.
"really. thats your solution? a fucking break?" you scoff, your (chan's) shirt that usually hangs loosely suddenly suffocating you, wrapping you in a snake-like grip and making your head feel like you're going to explode.
"yea, i just dont think us being together is good for us anymore."
chan has a bad habit. he says shit he doesnt mean, blames the anger that builds in his chest and spits out words he knows will hurt. because thats what he wants to do. he knows its wrong, fucked even. the way he wants you to hurt the way he hurts.
"christopher."
its a plea. take it back, please. you stand there in front of him, defenseless. the way his full name falls off your tongue sounds wrong. it's devoid of all the emotions you'd usually call him with. where's the gentleness, the softness you usually regard him with?
"maybe we just.. need to stay away from each other right now." chan's voice is steady, betraying the way his insides seem to shake, he's not sure if he's shivering from the cold, or the way your eyes seem to look at him as if you're seeing him for the first time.
"you can't be serious." it hurts to speak, your words squeezing out of you as you struggle to breathe, tears freely flowing.
he should turn this around. surrender. no, he isn't serious. he's so stupid and he loves you and he's just so hurt by what you said a while ago and he's tired and- "i'll sleep at changbin's tonight."
your chest hurts, physically feels like its being ripped apart as you stare at your lover with empty eyes. "thats your solution? to run away? over such a stupid-"
"stupid?" chan laughs hollowly, running a hand through his hair, feeling all the anger rise in him again. "it isn't stupid, y/n. you're the one who keeps running away. you're the one who keeps pushing away this conversation every single time i bring it up." he's raising his voice now, can see how tense his body is from the reflection on the glass window.
"you're asking me to pick up my whole life and move to seoul with you. this isn't some silly request like asking me to pick where to eat for dinner, it's my whole fucking life, chris!" you raise yours in response, taking a step closer to him.
"that's what i did for you! i dont understand it, y/n. i moved to chicago. for you. picked up my whole fucking life and moved because i loved you. so why can't you fucking do that for me? this is my work, y/n." he takes a step, towering over you.
"no, don't twist it like that. we made plans, chan. we talked about it for months. it wasn't some spontaneous decision. we both wanted this-"
"well maybe i dont want this anymore."
oh.
...
"you don't mean that."
...
"channie? please. you don't mean that." your voice is breaks, shaky as you step away from him, clutching at your chest.
he can feel guilt eat at his stomach as he watches you, whole body shaking as sobs rack through your frame. he needs to apologize, he knows it. but you've hurt him too.
"i just... i need a break, y/n."
you sink into the couch behind you, shaking your head when chan hesitantly approaches you, kneeling on the floor in front of you. he places a hand on your knee, and his chest tightens when you flinch away from him.
"love-"
"don't." you spit the word out, refusing to even look at him.
"love, please-"
"a break's what you want? you fucking have it. tell changbin to expect you." you push his arm away when he makes a move to reach for you. you unfurl yourself from the couch, stepping aside from the man who holds your heart, ignoring his calls of your name as you walk into your shared bedroom, slamming the door shut behind you.
sleep comes quickly when you cry yourself to sleep, curled into a ball in your bed, heart empty as the overwhelming scent of chan sticks to his pillows. you faintly hear the soft click of the front door, and then complete silence.
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it's hard to remember how you fell asleep, almost as if there was a smooth transition from sobbing heavily into your pillow and breathing into a deep sleep. your head is pounding when your eyes open, puffy and sore from your tears. your throat is dry, stomach aching, and heart heavy.
there's a chance chan will never sleep beside you again.
you push aside the bitter feeling, letting out a painful groan when you stretch your limbs, swinging your feet off your bed. the floor is cold, and you have to tiptoe to the bathroom to freshen up.
you look as horrible as you feel. you try not to spend too much time looking at yourself.
the thought of spending your whole day alone in your big apartment makes you uneasy, part of you wishing you could stay cooped up in your room forever. but you know deep down that's not what's truly bothering you, not when the uncertainty eats at you from the inside.
how is he?
is he thinking about you?
why hasn't he messaged you?
...... is it really the end?
you walk to the door, taking a deep breath as tears brim just below your waterline, promising to be productive today, and not to wallow in self pity all day. your scream leaves you before you can register what exactly is sitting by front of your door, large frame leaning against the door toppling over in his sleep.
"what the hell!" you scream, heart suddenly beating too fast at your liking as you finally take the scene in.
"baby?" chan's voice is croaky, as if his throat had been scratched raw. he's still wearing the clothes from last night, shoulder leaning against the doorframe before you swung the door open, causing him to lose balance.
"what the fuck are you doing here?" you sigh, guilt tugging at your heart when chan stands up, groaning and rubbing at his back.
"i- i didn't...."
you stare at him in silence, unable to control the way your brows furrow in anger. he stares back at you, lips suddenly going dry when he sees the way that you look at him, as if he was a bother.
"i thought you went to bin's." you push past him, heading straight to the kitchen as if you had no worry in the world, pretending to busy yourself with dishes despite there not being a single dish in the sink.
"i..... i couldn't leave you." his voice cracks as he takes another step toward you. you turn your back to him, denying him of your attention as you pretend to busy yourself with breakfast, pulling open drawers and taking out pots.
"wow. that's rich." your voice is laced with pure venom when you bite back, sinking deep into chan's heart as he shuffles awkwardly to stand by the kitchen counter.
"you locked the door."
you only hum in response.
"i.... i tried to go in, thought i'd apologize to you but.... it was locked."
"yea. you don't really expect anyone to go in your room when you're on a break."
the silence is heavy on your shoulders, but you know if you say any more the tears will start pouring. you're too mad at chan to break down in front of him, pride and ego wrestling as you maintain your unbothered facade, working your way around him as if his presence meant nothing to you.
"i turned down the job offer last night."
you drop the spatula you were holding in your hand, letting it clank against the metal pot.
"you what?" you finally turn to face him, disbelief etched onto your face.
you finally soften when you see chris mere feet away from you, eyes red and puffy a sign that he had been crying too. his hair is a mess, and his clothes from last night look rumpled, as if he had been restless all night.
"i- you have to know, my love. i will always choose you, nothing else. i was stupid and-"
"christopher, i never said no." you feel irritation rise in you again, but you take another step closer to your lover. "i never said i didnt want to go. i needed time to think, chris. time. to process. and now you've turned down your dream job and i-"
"i know, i know." chris reaches out to you, letting out what you think is a breath of relief when you dont push him away as he wraps his fingers around your wrists. "but i.... this job, it's going to be demanding and i'm constantly going to have to move and.... look, chicago is your home." he raises a hand to cup your face, wiping away the stray tear that had slipped down your cheek.
"and seoul is yours." you argue back.
"no, you are."
you let out a sob at that, allowing yourself to fully melt into chan's warm embrace. he immediately scoops you into his arms, pressing your face into his chest as he kisses the top of your head repeatedly, patting your hair down.
"it doesnt matter what im doing or where i am, as long as you're there." chan starts to choke up, pulling your face away to properly look you in the eyes. "i dont know what the future holds for me, love. all i know is that i want you by my side. in ten, twenty, thirty years." he plants soft kisses all over your face as you sniffle.
"but i- i feel so bad. i dont want to stop you from doing what you want." you groan, but chan simply giggles lovingly at you.
"i dont want you to think that, i dont even think that. its just a job, y/n. its not even a job i really want. it pays well yea, but it's not something id drop everything for. especially not you." he wipes away the tears that are still falling, cooing at you when you hiccup.
"i love you, chan. i'm so sorry." you sob, pushing your face into his shirt.
"don't apologize. i should be the one saying sorry. i was such a dick last night, i-" he sighs, wrapping his arms around your shoulders. "you know i dont mean what i say, right?"
god he hopes you say yes, he prays to any god, even those he doesnt believe in that you know he never means those things. he doesnt think theres anything worse than the possibility that you could actually think he doesnt want you or a life with you.
"i- i know. but... still hurts when you say it." you sniif, wiping away your tears with the back of your hand.
chan pulls away to look down at you. "i know, my love. im sorry. i'll work on that, i promise. can't stand it when you're sad. i hate knowing im the one who hurts you." he leans down to kiss you, the salty taste of your tears making his chest hurt.
"let me love on you, yea? let me take care of you baby, please."
you nod, jumping up when chan taps at your thighs. he catches you, wrapping his hands around your thighs as he carries you to your bedroom. "need to feel you," you sigh when chan gently places you on the bed.
he stands in between your spread legs, quickly throwing off his hoodie and letting it fall to the floor, leaving him half naked. he leans down to hover over you, lips instantly finding yours in a messy, heated kiss. his hands find their way under your shirt, tips of his fingers grazing your underboob.
"wanna fuck you in my shirt." chan hums against your cheek, squeezing your sides when you squirm against him.
"wanna feel your skin on mine though, please baby?" you beg, holding onto chan's shoulders as he kisses down your chest. he hums in agreement, rolling his shirt off so it sits on top of your breast.
"i'll give you whatever you want, baby. just ask me. promise i'll give it to you, i'll take care of you." he presses soft kisses across your stomach and chest all the while, only pulling away to lift the fabric off you. chan eyes you hungrily, only dressed in your underwear.
"you're the most beautiful girl ive ever seen, my love. so perfect for me." he sighs, fingers tangling in your hair as he kisses you deeply.
"want your pants off, need to feel all of you." you whine, fingers already flying to undo his pants.
"such a good girl, using your voice. you know id do anything you asked." he hums, kicking everything off until he lays bare against you, cock already hard as it rubs against your thigh.
"enough with the teasing, channie. need you in me."
"there's no rush, baby." chan hums, fingers dipping down to see how wet you are, surprised to find you already soaking.
"huh. guess she was crying for me too, hmm?"
you lightly slap at his shoulder, fighting the scolding smile that threatens to paint your face. "just put it in already, please."
"hmm. since you asked so nicely." he kisses your cheek, lips still against your skin as he pushes in you, holding your legs as par apart as he can. your breath catches in your throat at the feeling of him stretching you, fingers digging onto his broad back as he settles deep within you.
"feel good?" he asks, pillowy lips trailing across your face.
"so deep- love you, channie." you babble, and chan can't help but giggle. he presses his bare chest against yours, feeling satisfied when every inch of his skin is met with your own. his hands find yours, interlocking them before he dips down to kiss you on the lips.
"lets go slow, kay baby? need to feel all of you. every inch." he coos, hips slowly pulling back before he sinks back in, keeping the same torturously slow pace.
you whin when it starts to get too much and yet not enough at the same time, heels digging into his lower back to push him in quicker everytime he pulls out. "please, channie. need it faster."
"greedy," chan tuts, rubbing his nose against your jawline. "but, what my love wants, she gets."
his pace starts to pick up, lewd sounds of skin against skin filling up the room aside from the occassional moan you let out. chan grunts against your ear, letting out deep sighs and high pitched whimpers everytime you clench around him or reach up to kiss at his neck.
"m close," you whine, throwing yoru arm around your lover's neck to pull him closer. he easily complies, keeping the same rhythm as you press yourself against him.
"wanna feel you cum, baby. wanna feel that pretty pussy clench around me." he groans, fingers finding your clit and rubbing tight circles on the bud.
you let out a silent scream when you cum, legs shaking against chan's waist as he fucks you through your high, letting out a breathy whimper when he feels how tight you've become.
"fuck! love you so much, channie." you sob.
that's what pushes him over the edge, shooting his load deep inside you as his hips stutter, groaning lowly with every thrust. he buries his face into the crook of your neck as you hold him, back sweaty from all the movement.
your breathing seems to sync as you both calm down, chan's hands rubbing up and down your sides as yours curl into his hair, holding him snuggly against you.
"i love you more than anything, y/n." chan suddenly breathes against your neck. he pulls away to look at you, and your breath catches in your throat when you see his eyes are brimming with tears.
"channie?" you pout, gently carressing his cheeks with your thumb. he leans into your touch, quickly kissing the palm of your hand before he nuzzles into it.
"don't wanna lose you. hurts so fucking much just thinking about it."
you're caught off guard by his sudden vulnerability, but you coo at him all the same. "you won't lose me, baby. we'll get through everything." you promise, heart squeezing when his tears start to fall.
"almost did. hate myself so much for hurting you." he sniffs, quickly wiping away his tears.
"baby, listen to me, okay?" you sigh. you try to sit up to look at him better, but chan whines, resting his head in between your chest and tightening his hold around your body. you giggle at him, hands quickly finding its way to his hair as you play with it. "you won't lose me. we just gotta... talk through everything, okay?"
"but i hurt you.... i dont think when i get mad. say things i dont mean."
"and you said you'd work on it. i trust you." he lifts his head up so he looks up at you, chin resting on your stomach.
"i love you. i hope you believe me when i say that. honestly, i dont think those three words can even begin to describe how i feel for you." he sighs, pinching at your side.
you giggle at him, thinking back to how he called you his home.
you push away the curls that cover his eyes, smiling down sweetly at him. "i know what you feel for me channie." you reassure him, pulling him up by the shoulders so he hovers directly above you.
"'s exactly what i feel for you, my beautiful boy." you coo, pulling him down for a kiss.
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Hi! This is super angsty so I 100% understand if you don't wanna do it!!
I was wondering how Tangerine would act if reader and him got into an argument and she cried hcs? I live and thrive on angst 🤍
hii!!! no no don’t worry, I love stuff like this, especially with tan😩 ofc ofc!! hope you like it💌
CRYING DURING ARGUEMENT HC’s
tan has a crazy scale for anger I just know it. the dude has anger problems and could blow up over practically nothing - goes from 0 to 10 in no time. so I think that living with him you have to be quite patient and understanding, but not to the point where you get walked over!! 
tan has a grasp on his anger around you, so don't worry!! he'd never take it out on you as you're his happy place, and safe haven kinda thing - but sometimes he finds it hard to control his anger and would accidentally lash out at you
maybe you get into a small argument about something (maybe bc of something he said or the way he said it) you bring it up and tans already having a bad day (maybe stressed having to plan a mission or just returned from one)
you bring it up in a calm, reasonable way, and he thinks that you're trying to start something or just being petty. maybe he's like, "can't do this now, not in the mood for that shit," and you're like, "im not trying to start something. I just want to talk about (...)" and he's all like "did you not hear me the first time, can't fucking do this right now," maybe you start a sentence to counteract what he said and he interrupts saying, "you always do this, always hounding me. just give me a fucking minute."
you're kinda stunned, standing there and your face drops, lips turn down and brows pull together (all of your features showing obvious signs of sadness and hurt) eyes soft with pulled back ears, all that kinda thing. and bc his back is to you, he can't see your face. he's continuing to go off on one then notices how quiet you are. he turns around and sees you standing there with your head in your hands (hands covering your ears) tears, wobbly bottom lip, the lot 
IMMEDIATE regret from tan!! his heart and face drops. features FULL of concern and shame!! he rushes over to you, trying to pry away your hands. maybe you flinch and back away then open your eyes and see how guilty he looks. he's all like "love? love, im so sorry— it's okay," maybe you're in a state of shock?? he's trying to calm you down and bring you back, whispering reassurances. "I didn't mean that."
maybe he's trying to analyse you, seeing what you need. he assesses your body language and moves forward, hesitantly opening his arms as if to offer a hug. you don't pull back, you just stand there crying. he goes slow and eventually wraps you in a tight hug. he'd rub over your back, holding your head into the crook of his neck with the other, soothing and calming you. whispers lots of apologies!! he feels awful
you'd stay like that for a bit and then hug him back - squeezing him and crying into his shoulder
he'd never lose his temper like that again, seeing you so upset by something he had done almost killed him. he'd never want to make you feel like that again💔💔
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honeeslust · 2 months
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Toji Fushiguro | The box
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🖤 I'll be honest. I drew inspiration for this after watching Dexter. But initially,  there was that comment from a reader on wattpad asking for a fic where homeless Toji fucks us in a box.
… Also, @biscuitsngravie @blkkizzat @littlemochabunni @ryomens-vixen have me stuck on Toji who calls you mama/mamas. Like are you kidding me?? I'm folding immediately!
Anyway….
Challenge accepted!
🖤I suck at TW’s but maybe this Toji is manipulative and posessive. Its not crazy but just know its implied.
🖤 WC 3K+ (it’s a bit jumpy cause i really didn’t proof read. My bad. Im tired 😩)
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Wait!!
is that..?
No that can't be.
I'm trippin'.
In all of .5 seconds, that's what races through your thoughts when you caught sight of him. No way that Adonis-looking creep who just winked at you was your toxic AF ex.
The one who got your car towed last year, maxed out your discover card and put your boss in a cast for 6 weeks. All that after you had bailed him out for. Although…your boss might've had that coming to him.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
He just had to be at this bar of all places?
Eyeing... NO!  Eye fucking you, as you moved your body to the music. How long had he been watching you?
Toji stood back, confident that he had stolen your attention away from your date. He hated the way he was touching you, but wouldn't cause a scene. Not unless he had to.
He preferred this anyway. He knew what he was doing. Getting under your skin a little before dragging you back into the 3ring circus that was his life. How could you blame him? You'd left him so suddenly and he couldn't handle that. No! He refused to handle that.
He just wanted you to know how bad he wished he could take back all the dumb shit he put you through before. It wasn't his fault. The only reason he maxed out your card gambling was to get the cash he needed to buy back that Cadillac Deville he stole from your uncle. He didn't know it was a prize winning collectors item. too bad you never gave him a chance to say that.
Meanwhile, there you are on the dancefloor. Acting as if you didn't care.
Nope! There was no familiar pang of excitement rippling through you. There wasn't a need to feel those hands on you instead of the ones that were touching you now. You were easily ignoring that tight black tee he wore. Your eyes were not drawn to that faint line running down the center, barely concealing that line between his abs that you loved to carve out with your tongue.
Pathetic. You're fucking pathetic y/n. Thats what you thought as you ground your hips against the guy you were dancing with, wishing you had any substantial amount of will power in you to just disappear out the back door.
Shiiit! Suddenly the hands on your waist brought your attention back to them. Ugghh. you weren't in the mood to dump him. You were more inclined to hurry this along to let your ex scratch that itch that only he could.
Maybe......
After all, he didn't know where you lived now. Just one night wouldn't hurt. Yeah. Fuck it!
Uhh, my friends here, sorry I gotta go. you hollar  into your dates ear.
As what would likely be the dumbest decision you could ever make had your feet moving in his direction. You could almost see the 4th wall breaking and a little blurred out blip of yourself screaming over your shoulder, look at this big bobble headed ass dummy!! Bitch! What the fuck are you doing?
You ignored the blaring red flags and ear ringing sirens going off in your head and proceeded to exit the sea of swaying bodies.
You make your way to the bar where he sits, a conceited grin on his face, that scar on his lip pulling to the side damn near making you forget just how much he was all kinds of wrong.
He stares you down, not a hint of shame in his eye as his enamoured gaze swept from your lips to your chest and down to your hips.
He pulls you into a soul pleasing hug,  chrushing your body against his, nuzzling his nose into your neck and telling you how good you looked. You shuddered, feeling a tattooed hand possessively gripping your ass and squeezeing too tight.
Cmere. Missed you mamas.
He smells all cedery and sweet, probably some expensive shit he stole from someone elses gym bag. Ether way, the scent clouded your judgement with the memories of the damage he could do with just that hand alone.
He'd once clocked a guy so hard he swallowed his own teeth. You remember the way he just couldn't stand it when someone thought they could have what was his. It was brutal. But damn, that look in his eye was everything... fuck.
He apologized for that didn't he?
If memory served, and it did now that he was standing in front of you looking all kinds of tall tan and handsome.
Yeah, he did. With his tongue until you thought your heart would actually stop if he didn't.
Now you were thinking, Was what he did really that bad? It was just uncle Earl. Who didn't even come to your 3rd grade dance recital cause he had the flu.
Your morals had died about two shots ago and what ever self preservation you had left had fucked right off into oblivion.
Now, instead of that nervous ache in your gut telling you he'd hurt you all over again, there was a fire burning. The flames stoked by the thrill of not knowing how this would end up. But you simply didn’t care. As long as tonight, you ended up on underneath him.
Hmm. If that dress was any tighter I might have to actually get a fancy job to buy you more.
Maybe you should just buy a shirt that ain't so fucking tight it's screamin I don't fit you!
Ouch he mocks you, laughing at your terrible dis. You're agitated already. Just what he hoped for.
Hmm. He nods drawing his lower lip under his teeth.
That's too bad.
What's that? You asked leaning to hear him over the music.
It's a shame. He ain't fuckin' you right. I can tell.
'Fuck. Why did he have to say that? Here we fuckin go!'
Excuse me. The fuck is that supposed to mean?
Half yelling, your world tilts a little and suddenly you're aware of the light buzz that seaking up on you.
You need some dick just ask.
Your eyes rolled skyward. His smart ass mouth getting to you more than you expected it too. You were getting ready to tell him exactly how far he could fuck off. But you froze, feeling Tojis eyes still on you like all he was waiting for was even the slightest indication that you were ready.
You don't know shit Toji.
You gonna leave your boyfriend hangin like that? He teases.
You follow his gaze to the guy across the way who was likely realizing your "friend" was stealing you away. Damnit! You didn't mean for that to happen like that.
Sorry, you mouth out with a shrug before turning your attention back to the dark haired man damn near breathing down your neck.
Everything happening was so irrational. You were imagining the taste the cheap beer on his breath. Normally the prickly ale scent would turn your stomach, but now you were about 30 seconds from letting him drag you off into one of these restrooms. Just to get a taste of it off his lips.
What's the matter? Can't decide on which it's not you it's me speeches to give him?
Fuck You! you blurted out fighting the smile coming to you lips.  You think you know every fucking thing, thats your fuckin problem.
His laugh rumbles in his chest. That smile too beautiful to accept coming from such an asshole.
He leans in, placing his hand under your bar stool and pulling it closer. A sly hand slips over your thigh, touching just under the hem of your dress. Please do. He teases, brushing his finger back and forth until your pulse staggered behind your ribs. Tell me how I'm wrong then, mamas.
First of all I ain't fuckin him. You breathed out when you fully intended on yelling it. You assumed wrong. That's not my man.
Yeah? He says with a darker look about his eye, causing a moment of prolonged eye contact. Ok. Guess I stand corrected then.
Guess you do! You agreed, the look you gave telling him everything your body already did.
You ready to go?
You scoff, playing off your immediate will to jump up and down screaming yes.
God you're such a fuckin creep. Does this usually work for you?
I think we're both about to find out.
I can't stand you. Is what you said but you were making your way toward the door with him.
Once you're out of the building his impatient lips descend upon you. Hungrily and breathlessly.
Why don't you get us an uber so we can go to your place. He says lining your collar bone with kisses.
You almost pulled your phone out. But for once you listened to that voice. Stick to the plan. He doesn't know where you live so keep it that way.
You push against his shoulders, you get the uber. And we're going to your place.
I'm banned from Uber he says moving his hips against yours causing you to wrap your legs around him.
God Toji you accidentally moan when he clutches your nipple between his teeth and follows the searing pain with his tongue. He carries you along, kissing and marking your neck and chest as you clung to him.
Fine. Your choice. We're not far anyway.
What does that mean?
His mouth is so good to you, and your overly sensitive body to really question anything. He kisses and nips, leaving you to barely notice the awkward empty hallway he sneaks you into.
Hold it. Let me get the key. He says setting you on your feet. Imagine your surprise when he goes for the padlock in the door.
The fuck is that. You say gasping for air as your eyes struggle to focus. The hell are we??
Toji, are we in a fucking storage unit??
You ask eyes still searching the place.
He cups your face, kissing your lips once again. Shut up. Once I'm fucking you it'll feel like the ritz baby.
He raises the sliding door and the loud ricochet makes you jump as you plucked your lips away from his.
Wait. There's no fucking way Im about to do this. Am I? That's what you said grinding against his palm the moment he shoved his hand between your legs, expertly nudging that answer towards a yes.
Every moment you stood there questioning how low you were setting your standards was a second too long for him. You got away from him and now he needed to show you exactly why you found your self ready to be slutted out in a fucking box.
As soon as your foot crossed into that tin square, he shut the gate behind you. He had a point to make. That much was evident in the way he shoved your skirt up over your ass and dragged your pussy into his face where he inhaled the scent of your arousal.
His nose tickles, making you giggle out loud.
Do that again. -shit makes me want to fuck you till you can't stand pretty slut.
his words registered as a million little tingles in your core. All of which needed to be sought after, one by one until everything wrong about this felt right.
He tears  the lacy thong from you waist. Slipping his fingers through the wetness, he drags a slick path between your folds. Making your soft moans rattle from your chest no matter how hard you tried to quiet them.
Mmmmhmm. I knew you missed me. He groans shoving his digits inside you.
Fuck y/n you're tight. When's the last time you fucked.
Your cheeks burned as you looked away, not wanting to give him the satisfaction of knowing you hadn't been with anyone since him.
You'd be able to take me by now if you hadn't left me. He rasped out as if he wasn't damn near busting out of his pants at the chance to eat you six ways to Sunday.
He brings his tongue down gently against your clit at first. Giving soft intenttional flicks meant to test how sensitive you were. You writhed and twisted, shivering away from his tongue, making him force your trembling cunt back to his lips. Sssss-stop fucking runnin' in y/n, I need you dripping if I'm gonna fit Mamas.
You did more than just drip. You came down in torrents. You were elated, manipulated by satisfaction blooming in those those impossibly emerld eyes. His fingers working madly against the tight wet womb seizing up around them.
Tears pricked the corners of your eyes. It was so much robbing you of your sanity, so many sensations overwhelming you. The slurp. The smacks.  His middle and index fingers pulsing in and out. His tongue tending to that aching clit. A pleasurable heat swelling and releasing, over and over again.
Every climax up until now has sent so much satisfaction through you that every muscle in your body is wrought with exhaustion. But he doesn't care that you can't move.
He lays you on the cot in the corner. Making you side eye him a moment before. Damn. This was the the most outlandish shit you'd ever done. But shit. Toji looked so fucking good it hurt. His shirt comes over his head and those jeans come off.
He gives himself a few preparory strokes before smacking that heavy cock head against your clit, laughing as you jolted again and again and cried out for him to finally fuck you.
He arches, guiding himself inside, your swollen cunt pulsing and pulling him in. The slow descent into your gummy wet entrance warrants him the chance to really get to see the way he spreads you.
When he finally bottoms out, youre lustful mewls are echoing out through the hollow metal walls, putting a certain emphasis on the sound of his name erupting from your lips.
Sssss fuck mamas. He stills, tucked deep inside you, his dick jumping at the sound of your voice.
You can't keep this pussy away from me baby. His hips rock steady, fucking you into the sorry excuse for a mattress, loving the way he can fuck you plain stupid. Fuck, I could break you right now y/n.
You were always the prettiest little slut when you took this dick. Baby. Look at you. Why would you ever take this pussy from me Y/n?
The harsh slaps to your tits drags you back into your body. He ruts into you, teasing your clit back and forth, breaking you all over again until you were dripping once more, this time around his cock as he slowed the rock of his hips.
cmere he says flipping you onto your stomach and dragging your hips back. He pushes your shoulders to the bed, and slips his finger around and around the messy display before him.
Sssssss You'll take me back won't you?
Shit. You're ready to say it. But you bite bike your moans. No no no. Do NOT take him back.
Answer me mamas. He grunts out, prodding your puffy wet clit with kisses from his dick.
Let me hear you say it. He taunts, pushing in, pulling out. Pushing in, pulling out.
Fuck you growled fighting tooth and nail not to give in. But fuck, everytime he pushed in, you gushed, every time he pulled out you cried, desperately clenching around nothing.
Fuck Toji. Fuck me please.
His hand burns at the back of your neck. A second later your braids/wig/locks/curls are tangled up with his fingers when he palms the back of your head like a Spalding and snatches your body back against him, leaving nothing between you. Nothing to stop him from making you his all over again.
Tell me I can come back. I can make it all up to you. Baby?
He kisses around your ear, his hand cutting off your air supply just enough to make your head spin outta control from the mind numbing climax creeping up on you. You heard me mamas? I'll do it right now. He brags, hitting your spot.
You hated that it felt different, like your pussy was trying to get used to him all over again. Like you were ready to fall for him and all his bullshit. Consequences be damned. It hurt so good that you cried down your thigh, shaking and whining in perfect pain and pleasure.
Fuck Toji. I swear- nngh I hate your ass so bad.
Na nah nah darling. You don't get it do that. Not when this pussy is gripping my dick the way it is.
His fingers clench handfuls of your flesh and he drags his hips back and forth, every pump shallow but intense. Nudging and nudging and nudging until you were on edge again. 
Fuck he was right. You loved it. You wanted this. You needed this.
You'll always be my pretty lil slut? won't you? I've ruined you, and you like it. Let me hear dat shit mama, say it!!
I- I'm ruined. I'm no fucking good. I'm just your slut Toji, please. Ugh.
I can move all my shit back in?
Yes!
Toji was feral. Using his strength to prop you up and keep fucking you. He could still taste you on his tongue and you were coming so hard he couldn't pull out if he tried.
Shit! You must want me to come in you, don't you mamas?
Yesss. I want your cum. Cum in me please. You cry out as he pinches and tugs at your nipples, his tongue ghosting your ear.
He bucks faster. That's what the fuck I thought.
Your skin claps against his, ensuring anyone in the building most definitely could hear him beating down your slutty walls.
Tell that curly headed JT looking fuck I'll kill him if he calls you again.
Mhhmm. Yes Toji, yess. He could ask you anything right now and the answer would always be yes.
Whoahh! He sputters spurting his release against your swollen cervix. Satisfied, he pulls out leaving you empty and aching. Just a dumb fucked out bimbo with her ass out as he gleamed at the lewd display.
He slips his thumb over your clit, catching the bit that leakes out of you. Ah ah, don't waste any, he says shoving it back inside. Let's go. You gotta eat at least 3 plan bs for how much you just sucked outta me.
Ok you manage to whimper, lying flat, wincing as your walls contracted and the pain set in.
You lie there spent, officially dicked stupid.
Hey mamas, lemme ask you something.
What Toji?
Can I hook my ps5 up to the big tv?
Listen. I know he didn't fuck us in a box per a literal sense but hey. This was fun. What do you think?
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a-libra-writes · 11 months
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AAAA REQUESTS ARE OPENED ILYSM!!11!1!1If it's not too much id like to request for my bbgs Jamie, Brienne and maybe Arya when they haven't seen s/o all day so they're getting pretty angsty but when they're finished with training or whatever for the day they find beloved asleep in one of the spots they usually meet at while waiting for them. (Sorry if I made it too specific) sending much loveლ⁠(⁠´⁠ ⁠❥⁠ ⁠`⁠ლ⁠)
Im gonna do Jaime and Brienne (and some others bc i cannot control myself) but sans Arya! lets goooo
Jaime - First of all, he's in a foul mood when he finally gets back, muttering and grumbling to himself. When he spots you in the usual spot you wait in - oh. Shit, that's actually ... very endearing. He wants to be smug about it, but there's just a lot of sentiment that sits with him as he tries to remember someone wanting to see him that badly, that they'd fall asleep waiting. He watches you for a little while, considering this, before finally waking you up. Now he's all smug and teasing you about being so clingy. Naturally he'll escort you back to your chambers, not really caring about the hour or that he's a Kingsguard and shouldn't be seen doing such things. He'll figure out a lie an explanation later.
Jon - He's ready to kick in the door of the Lord Commander's chambers, if only his sore and freezing body would cooperate. Jon's exhausted and figured a while ago you would've gone to bed. You both have to be careful, after all - but then he spots you dozed off in an old wooden chair by a dying hearth. Were you waiting up this whole time? He feels guilty at once, and tries to be quiet as he gets the fire going again. Once it's up, Jon gently wakes you up by brushing some of your hair aside and kissing your brow. He really can't help himself, though his hands are like ice! You two cuddle and warm up before heading to your separate chambers.
Brienne - It was a brutal day of riding and routing bandits, and while she can normally take it, this went on longer than usual. Brienne's strong, but she has her physical limit. She's staggering back, being the last to retire to bed. When she finds that you waited for her, she feels so bad! Brienne hadn't realized you'd do such a thing - it fills up her heart with affection, so she gently wakes you and asks if she can carry you back to your room. You actually accept, and she feels the fatigue wash away as she gladly carries you back. She loves being a knight for you, and it turns out you're very snuggly when you're tired.
Arthur Dayne - He leaves his post late in the evening, much later than the usual meeting time. You probably aren't there, but - it's worth a look, isn't it? And there you are, asleep in the garden you and Arthur like to steal away to. He wakes you up very gently, cautioning you between kisses about falling asleep in such a vulnerable state. He doesn't have the heart to really scold you about it, at least not until the morning. He escorts you halfway to your chambers before has to retreat to the White Sword Tower.
Victarion - He already thinks about you when he doesn't want to, or when it's not a good time. It happens more often when he's tired, which is troublesome. The late hour doesn't occur to him when he's back; you're always waiting, no matter what, and - oh. You're asleep. ... You really shouldn't be asleep where anyone could find you and do something, even in Castle Pyke. Victarion scoops you right up, not realizing how badly that would startle you. He just grumbles that you ought to be more careful, and any touches or kisses distract him immediately.
Asha - First, why are you so damn cute? How'd you end up in a place like the Iron Islands, anyway? For once in her life, someone is waiting for her at home like a puppy... even when she gets back late, like now. Asha wills her tired body over and wakes you up with a big kiss and her soft laugh. Aww, what, you really like her that much? She messes with your hair and pulls you up, urging you to her chambers as you stumble and grumble behind her.
Jorah - Well he's always thinking of you, but especially so if he had to depart before the sun is up and he's finally returning hours after its set. By then, Jorah's exhausted and just wants to get home to you. Once he finds you asleep on the settee you like best - oh no, he might die from the sweetness. You waited up for him? Jorah sits right next to you, giving you a big, sleepy hug and apologizing about being back so late. You both end up falling asleep cuddled up on the couch because he's too tired to move and now you're comfortable and warm, so you aren't going anywhere.
Brynden - Coming back from a long day of training and keeping up with his men, Brynden doesn't notice the time until he spots you sleeping on a large windowsill. He feels bad for making you wait so long, and finds it endearing you even wanted to wait up for an old knight. He picks you up very carefully, so it's his voice that wakes you. "Making these old bones carry you back to bed, hm?" He's not bothered that anyone would spot you two - he knows which halls are empty at this hour.
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moonbcrry · 2 years
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Jim jopper as the readers boyfriend, give us your hopper bf head canons. Sfw and nsfw is fine, this would be soo cute thanks!! X
my first time writing headcanons so this is kinda shitty but i hope you like it <3
cw: fem!reader, age gap, below the cut mentions of; d/s relationship, praise kink, oral sex (fem!receiving), overstimulation, unprotected sex, degradation kink, name-calling(slut), lmk if i missed anything!
he definitely wouldn't make the first move cus this man has struggled a lot and yknow all those "im the curse" moods he's been in.
you'd be bringing coffee to his office in the mornings, excusing the department was on your way, or taking eggos for el cus jim is so busy with keeping the town safe and you want to help them with the least you could do <3
Jim would deny his feelings for you for as long as he could do and try to avoid you but it's not that possible when you keep popping at his door at the unexpected moments.
though when you finally start your relationship, with your endless efforts of course, he's all over you.
always keeping an arm around your waist, on your shoulders or just casually twirling his hand between your hair.
and we can't deny that he'd be a little possessive about you. like even for the smallest things. like you didn't wear your raincoat on a rainy day? congratulations, you won a grumbling, pouty hopper about how you could get sick at this weather while he puts his jacket over your shoulders.
would he be jealous when others stare at you two? yes, but he also would like that a lot. tightening his grip on your waist as you walked, placing a kiss on your shoulder, hiding his smirk behind that.
but if someone bothers you at a bar for example? that person is dead.
his favourite thing to do with you in the evenings is snuggling on his couch and watching some cheap-ass movies you rented.
his other favourite things are under the cut and NSFW, so no minors.
there's not a single time you could see the end of the movie, either you or hopper gets bored of the movie and you end up making out on the couch.
he lifts you by the waist and you're straddling his hips, hands clawing on his shirt covered broad chest as his tongue lap at your mouth. and you're already panting from arousal, hips jerking against his.
he'd chuckle against your mouth, noticing your growing neediness for him and you're hiding your face on his neck.
he flips you over so you're under him, continuing his attacks on your neck as he pampers you with praises.
when you're in his bedroom this man worships you.
he has you laid back in his bed, spreading your legs with his tight grip on the fats of your thighs as he eats you out like a starved man. when he's done with you, you'll probably have beard burn insides of your thighs
but he's a gentleman, he wouldn't fuck you before preparing you properly. you have to be ready to take him and enjoy every second with him.
have i said praise kink? yeah he fucking loves coddling you with praises as his cock buried deep inside you and your face flushing with his every word as if you weren't doing all the nasty shit with him.
though when he's frustrated or angry he'd be very degrading too. like - ughhh
he has your head flushed against the pillows, ass in the air, cock buried deep inside your pussy as you cry in overstimulation (again im saying this man loves overstimulation) and his calloused fingers digs at the flesh of your ass, "like that, huh? you like when treat you like the whore you are - nuh uh uh, don't shake your head darling. i can feel you squeezing me like vice, creaming on my cock. my little slut."
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jkloserdazai · 8 months
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♠︎bill kaulitz(any era) x male reader(sfw)
♠︎genre: fluff/comfort
♠︎warning(s): reader is based off of me(like im not lying bro), bill is an observant(ish) mf, reader is stressed asl or just feels bad
♠︎a/n: i have been waiting to write this all day😀 LEAVE ME LONE
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"what are you doing?" your fingers stopped the motion they were doing on your arm as you looked over at bill who had been a little confused as to what you were doing of course. "hm?" he raised his eye brow a small bit before asking again,
"this," he imitated the motion you were doing with your finger, which was lightly tracing random patterns on your skin with just the tip of your finger. bill had noticed you tend to do it a lot,
especially when it seemed you weren't feeling so nice in the first place, so why not ask about it. "you do it a lot, even right now." you made a small 'oh' sound as you shrugged your shoulders, shifting where you sat.
"it's just something i do you know? force of habit." bill nods, going back to what he was doing though keeping that little fact about you in mind. it might come in handy later on who knows.
and hell it kind of did, the next day even.
you weren't feeling so well, your nose was stuffy and breathing through only one nostril didn't help at all, simply didn't feel right. and your head, fuck your head was fucking pounding and stress from other shit wasn't helping either.
you had to wear shorts and a random shirt you found on the floor, it wasn't even yours but it was long sleeved. when you'd wear pants it would feel to hot, and if you wore short sleeved it would feel too cold so you just went with shorts and a random long sleeve.
it looked like you were attached to that couch, watching some show on TV. a hot shower wasn't working for your nose much and merging far into the couch wasn't helping that headache too.
the couch moved a little as bill flopped down next to you, his head resting on the couch as well. "what are you watching?" you made a groan of some sort signalling you didn't know, your mood was easily soured anyway you didn't feel like talking.
"bad day?" you nodded your eyes staying glued to the TV as you listened to bills words. just because you were upset didn't necessarily mean you had to rub it off on others so you'd respond in some type of way.
it was silent for a bit before you felt something tickle against your thigh. you looked down seeing it was bills finger, lightly tracing patterns on your leg as a way to make you feel the least bit better.
it did make you feel a little better too, comforted even your mood was a little better too as you didn't say much about it only really happy he actually remembered though you told him yesterday.
you smiled a little to yourself, still keeping your eyes on that TV show.
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the way i would have smacked my thigh thinking it was a bug but this is a fanfic and its three in the morning😒 @gaybitchfx @reallyromealone / @rome-alone @secretivemessenger @bloodyfennec @esthxio @vyloy @kitsune-yuhhh @lostsomewhereinthegarden
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searxws · 2 years
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ETERNAL FLAME
song: eternal flame by the bangles
―request from @gpiggy98 ( i really hope this met your expectations! as i said i had to make a few adjustments, thanks for being so understanding! <3 )
―pairing: jason carver x fem!reader
―warnings: slight angst, lowercase intended, swearing, jason (as usual) is understanding in this, im gonna have chrissy not exist in this just so theres a reason for jason to be out and not highly distressed.
―summary: after spending the night at the wheelers house, y/n decides she needs to clear her mind with a walk, but who does she run into, and can he help her before it's too late.
―authors words: kinda felt goofy writing abt nancy bc i watched yes god yes for the third time while making this. very good movie tho i def recommend it! also i feel like i write too many of these "man comes and saves y/n from vecna with a song" fics, i need to branch out. so if you request one of this type i probably wont write it right away.
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a breeze tugged through her hair as she made her way down the street. she had become stressed moments prior, eventually deciding to step out of the heated conversation. she was sure it was probably still taking place. her friends had been arguing about what was best to do to protect herself and max. it was blatantly stressing her out.
she sauntered down the street, thinking of the vision she'd had the day prior. she really should've had her headphones on, but the sound of nature was helping her to calm down. however, moments later she bumped into something, or someone.
"hey- watch where you're going!" the figure said. y/n instantly recognized his voice. jason.
"jeez. sorry." she said, she wasn't looking for a bicker at the moment.
"oh, y/n. wait whats up with you? usually you'd yell back at me.." wow okay, straight to the point, y/n thought.
"i'm not in the mood, jay." y/n responded. jason could tell something was up with her, as much as he teased her and bickered with her, he cared for her deeply.
"what happened? are you doing alright?" the boy asked genuinely.
"theres just, a lot going on." she mumbled back. she knew the group of steve, robin, nancy, and the kids was probably looking for her by now. that didn't mean she cared. she wished she cold just get away from the stress of hawkins, but she knew she had to stay, and fight.
"well what is it? you know you can talk to me, giggles." jason said. the nickname made y/n smile slightly, but her euphoria quickly faded when she remembered why she'd been sad.
"i really can't say, i'm sorry." she said.
"wha- why not?" jason asked, obviously confused. hadn't he just told her she could tell him anything?
"it's just.. uhm i.." she stuttered, trying to find an excuse why she couldn't tell him.
"y/n?!?" she heard her name being called several times. before she could think about what was happening, there was a sudden declining shift in the temperature around her.
<third person real world pov>
"y/n!" said steve as he finally reached her, the rest of the group trailing behind him. if you asked anyone in the group, they would've said they were puzzled to say the least, when they saw jason, worried and disoriented in front of her.
"jason?" asked nancy.
"uhm hi. do any of you have a clue why her eyes just went white?" jason asked. he'd earlier become confused when y/n's arms dropped to her sides. along with that came a pale complexion and completely white eyes.
"shit- what?" said robin, now moving to see the from of the girls body. as expected, she was pale. the sight made robins eyes go wide, that caused the rest of the group to move in front of the girl, which THEN caused jason to be pushed to the back of the small crowd.
"uhhh, hey guys..? whats going on? you're scaring me.." jason asked, almost timidly.
"steve! run back to my place and get her walkman! the tape should be in it!" nancy demanded. with that, steve ran as fast as he could down maple street. hopefully fast enough to save the life of his best friend.
<third person vision pov>
y/n could feel herself being dragged across rocks and dirt. the air around her was blood red. the vines wrapped around her ankles were laced with thorns, which she knew would probably leave a scar.
finally, she was pinned against a tall rock. her eyes met vecna's dark ones. growling and screeching could be heard around the dimension.
"y/n... it's time. you know what's coming.." said vecna. the deep town of his voice made her want to curl up and cry. her only response was a slight shake of the head. small weeps escape the aperture of her lips.
a sharp nailed hand was raised to her face. she was very aware of what that caused her conscious body to do. she did her best to break out of the vines grasping her hands, but she was very low on hope.
<third person real world pov>
"whats going on?" jason asked frantically as y/n's body was lifted off the ground. steve had soon returned and was now jumping to try and reach y/n's head.
"vecna's curse, same thing that happened to fred." nancy said abruptly. jason was beyond scared. had they been telling the truth the whole time? was there really demons under hawkins? he couldn't risk it, not with his best friends life on the line.
"stop! let me." he said, realizing he was taller than steve and could complete the task. he jumped slightly, placing the headphones over her ears. he pressed play on the walkman and tucked the player into the waistband of her baggy jeans. silently, the entire group prayed she would make it down safely.
<third person vision pov>
just as she felt the life fading from her, she heard a sudden voice. it was feminine, and it drew vecna's attention away from her. his grip faltered slightly and she was able to slip her arms through the vines. she grabbed a rock and reached up to slit vecna's neck. when he grunted and let her go, she realized what she was hearing.
"am i only dreaming? or is this burning an eternal flame?"
yes! she thought in victory. the group had gotten to her in time, she could still get out. with that knowledge, she made a break and started to sprint towards the rip in time, through which she could see her companions.
"say my name, sun shines through the rain, a whole life so lonely,"
she jumped through puddles and ran around rocks.
"and then come and ease the pain, i don't want to lose this feeling, oh."
she dodged every obstacle that vecna threw at her, falling several times. she wouldn't give up determination.
the previous verse repeated itself as she reached the rip. right as she reached it, everything went black.
<third person real world pov>
"be ready to catch!" said steve. jason promptly positioned himself, ready to catch her, or at the very least be there to hold her when she fell
as if on cue, her body descended from space. jason wasn't there to catch her, but you better guess he was first there to hold her and stroke her hair as she sobbed into him.
all anyone could do was hold her or rub a limb while she sobbed. jason pressed a chaste kiss do her head, showing his affection for her the best she could. it was as if a telepathic connection told each of them what the look in the others eyes meant. jason stared at her with fear, but adoration. y/n stared at him with gratitude and love. they knew what the other was thinking, but dismissed it for another time.
y/n only needed to be held by jason, if not for eternity, then just for a moment.
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eee. i hope you guys enjoyed!! <3
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writethesleepaway · 2 years
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Let It All Out Sweetheart
Summary: Eddie comforts you after a bad day!
Pairing: Eddie Munson x reader
WC: 1126
Warnings: pure fluff! eddie needs a warning for himself because god damn that man could kill me just with a look
A/N: my tiktok fyp is full of Eddie coming back as Kas theories and a part of me is really excited but another part of me is like 98.3% sure the duffer brothers wouldn't do that so im sad.
(divider by @delishlydelightfuldividers)
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The trailer shook as the front door slammed, causing Eddie to jump in his seat. He groaned as he looked down to see his pencil had dragged across the page, effectively ruining the summer homework he had been trying to solve. So much for actually trying, he thought to himself, after you had prompted him to put more effort into graduating. You swung the door open, surprising Eddie once again, this time causing him to jump hard enough and make his knees hit the table.
"Oh my god, I'm so sorry Eddie, I didn't mean to scare you!" you whispered as you dropped to his side to make sure he was okay.
"It's fine princess, you didn't scare me that much, although I thought you were Wayne for a second. Are you okay?" he asked as he swatted your hands away, opting to hold them in his own instead. You just looked up at him, trying to force a smile and a slight nod.
"Baby, please, you come in here, opening and closing doors with the force of an army, you don't seem okay." Eddie muttered as he stood up from his chair and pulled you along with him to the mattress. His face dropped when he saw a tear drop from your eyes, immediately grabbing your legs and moving you to sit on his lap.
"Talk to me, what's wrong? Did somebody hurt you?" Eddie asked as he ran his thumbs over your cheeks, trying to catch stray tears as they rolled down your face.
"N-no, I'm fine, nobody hurt me. I'm okay." you managed to push out as you tried to calm yourself down.
"Okay, calm on, cry it out, let it all out sweetheart." he whispered as he pulled you into a hug, running his callused fingers over your back. Letting go, tears now streamed down your face and into his hair and shoulder as you clung onto your boyfriend's torso. Eddie continued to comfort you and run his fingers through your hair and rub your back, encouraging you to cry as much as you needed to.
"Shh, you're okay, I've got you princess. Just focus on my breathing, come back to me" he'd mutter as he placed your hand on his chest. Eventually you calmed down and the tears had stopped, cheeks and eyes now puffy from having sobbed for a good 10 minutes.
"Is it bad to say that you look extra pretty right after having cried?" Eddie teased, trying to lighten the mood. You tried to hold in your laughter, but you couldn't help but giggle at his comment. He always had something to say about you being pretty.
"Now, wanna tell me what happened?"
"I just, god, I had such a bad day. I woke up to my parents fighting, and it was bad because I didn't get very good sleep last night. We ran out of milk so I couldn't have my cereal, I just had toast, and plain toast, because of fucking course my parents forgot to buy groceries last night. Then I got to work and these teenagers were giving me shit for not having something in the library, how is it my fault for not having a book, does it look like I own the library? And then on my way here I got cat called by some gross old perverts, they looked old, like ancient. To top it all off I stepped in mud trying to get here so my socks got wet. I don't think I've ever had such a tiring dady."
"Why didn't you come over last night? I could have helped you sleep, I know you sleep better when you're in my arms."
"I didn't want to disturb you, Eds. I know how hard you've been working trying to catch up on summer work, I knew you'd be tired."
"Baby, you are never disturbing me. I will always want to spend time with you, even if it's you waking me up at 3 am to cuddle and sleep. Don't feel bad, next time just come okay?"
"Okay..."
"And if your parents still haven't gone grocery shopping, let's go together, yeah? I'll gladly take you. As for the teenagers, do you know who they are? I wouldn't mind roughing them up a bit. Oh, and the old men, I'm sure I could just play one riff on my guitar and they'd have a heart attack and die." Eddie joked.
"Oh my god Eddie, you are not killing any old men or scaring teenage boys for me, but thank you, I appreciate it."
"I'd do anything for you, my love, and I mean it. I don't like seeing you so upset."
"I know, and I'm sorry for barging in the way that I did, I just needed to see you."
"Ooo, how embarassing, sounds like you have a crush on me!"
"Eddie you literally said you'd do anything for me, like, 10 seconds ago."
"Hey! I never said I didn't have a crush, just you!"
The two of you laughed as you held each other, taking in the feeling that you brought. Comfort, warmth, and love. Just one look at Eddie and you knew your worries would fly away like paper in a storm. His smile was bright enough to cure all your sadness and pain, you just needed an extra pick me up today.
"Well, now that you're here, I have a good idea!"
"What is it?"
"I'll put on some of your favourite music, and we can cuddle and take a nap, and regain some of that energy you lost while you practically drenched my shirt."
"Eddie, you hate ABBA, and I'm sorry for the shirt..."
"I don't hate ABBA, not if it makes you happy, I'd do anything for that. And don't apologize, it gives me a reason to take it off." he exclaimed as he winked at you, causing you to chuckle in response. You moved further up his mattress until you were laid on your back. Eddie tossed you a different shirt to change into, and joined you once you were done.
"I meant every word, Y/N, I'd do anything for you. I'm sorry you had such a shitty day, but I hope I've made you feel a bit better." he murmured as he ran his finger over your nose bridge.
"I felt better the second I saw you, Eds." you responded. He pulled you into his grasp and wrapped his arms around your stomach, nuzzling his head into the crook of your neck. Even though you felt miserable less than 30 minutes ago, you had completely forgotten about all your worries, now that you were in Eddie's arms, safe, and where you always wanted to be.
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Hii its me again! Im in a goofy silly mood and id like some platonic hcs for our boi chuuya adopting a kid reader out of an orphanage? Like ab 5-6. Been rewatching spy x family lately and i feel ✨️inspired✨️ ty so muchh!!!
oh absolutely
Chuuya w/ Oprhan! Reader HCs
oh my god he is,, chuuya was not prepared for this. at all
you had followed one of the port mafia's agents all the way to its doors, being too stubborn to "go home" and leave the premises
and due to the person who found you being kōyō, well...
she just couldn't leave you out there! being so young!
chuuya was taking a rest in-between missions, not doing much but attempting to nap with his hat covering his vision.
he didn't think much of the creaking doors that opened mere feet away from him
why would it be anything unusual...? WRONG
you let out a little gasp, immediately making chuuya JUMP out of his skin
chuuya locked eyes with yours, enticing a "NO NO NO!" coming from chuuya's mouth as you RUN FULL SPEED at him
he was fine with kids sure, but a RANDOM CHILD in the PORT MAFIA ?? it scared the shit out of him. especially since he was clueless.
you clung to his legs, grasping at them with your tiny lil hands
obviously he wasn't going to fling you off, so he just... stood there. confused. shocked. but mostly confused
"where... are your parents?" he asked hesitantly, attempting to pull you away from him
"i don't have any!" your cheerful response filled him with regret and a little bit of guilt
even feeling a bit of guilty and sympathy toward you, you were still a random child in a very dangerous place
and about him attempting to pry you off of him? yeah no, didn't work
eventually you stuck around, mostly due to kōyō's reasonings
even then, you'd always gravitate toward chuuya
you earned a soft spot in the ginger's heart, a smile never failing to be shown on his face when you come around
of course you did have your moments, obnoxiously stealing his hat and tugging on his hair
but could he really blame you? you were the cutest kid and he obviously wasn't going to do anything about it other than coo at you !!
chuuya quickly became the person to go to if you needed anything or someone needed to complain about you, given your mischievous tendencies
didn't really like the idea of being called a dad, and tries to get you to call him chuuya, but it doesn't really click with you
"cheeto!" ... "that's good enough,,"
uncle dazai ofc ofc
though you rarely see him. chuuya will never let you be with dazai unsupervised
the horrors you would unleash if dazai taught you his ways would be irreversible
you two just,, have a very inseparable bond. tries to keep you safe to the best of his ability and always looks after you when he can. hires the best babysitter if nobody's around and absolutely spoils you. chuuya perfect dad 9/10
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fandomfluffandfuck · 9 months
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so you've posted a lot about måneskin and other bands of the like but im just wondering - do you have any playlists you'd like to share? like, ones with songs you like or maybe a playlist you listen to while you write. i think it would be interesting seeing what you like to listen to with somewhat of a face to connect your music taste to?? (you're really pretty, by the way) 🫶
I think you'll like this ask
I fucking love love love music so I do post quite a bit about it, lol. Plus, I have thought about doing something like what @ixalit did with sharing all his playlists (that are *chef's kiss,* by the way. I have discovered many songs through those playlists 👀) but my Spotify, that I've had for years, is connected to my actual name that I'm not willing to share on Tumblr with this type of fandom account, lol.
I know I could make another account and transfer my playlists to a fandom specific account, but... that's a lot of work. I don't know if I'll do that, lol. If enough people were interested... maybe?
Besides, I don't really have a single playlist I write to. I just throw on whatever and write. Sometimes, I seek out specifically explicit music when I'm writing smut but usually not. Usually, it's whatever that I was playing the last time I had the app open or whatever I'm feeling that day.
And my music taste is a mess haha, I'm all over the fucking place with music. I think if I had to pin it down, my musical soft spot has always been for heavier sounds. Aggressive, heavy shit like all types of metal, rock, and punk have always appealed to me; they're the sounds I always fall back on. That said, though, I also love all types of other sounds, too. Hip hop, indie, jazz, industrial pop, electronic, etc.
Bands, though, yeah. Goddamn, I love bands! I also follow a ton of individual artists, but there's something about bands.
For my own enjoyment, and hopefully yours as well, some good bands (in no particular order):
Måneskin ("TIMEZONE" gives me major evanstan vibes btw 👀 / "SUPERMODEL" is kind of always stuck in my stuck in my head / "MAMMAMIA" is just 🤌🏻Damiano's moans🤌🏻 so you know it's good)
Fall Out Boy (I'm not even being funny when I say I can't narrow it down to a few songs to recommend. I know their entire discography by heart and have been obsessed since I discovered them. They hold a VERY special place in my heart. If I don't know what I want to listen to, I throw them on. If I need comfort, if I need to wallow in feelings, if I need to celebrate--anything.)
Sleep Token (This band FUCKS and turns on my writers brain in the best way (re: "Take Me Back To Eden") / be careful listening to "Blood Sport" because it's devastating / the music video for "Alkaline" will change you 😮‍💨 / and "Sugar" is way too good)
Royal Blood (I think "Lights Out" was the first song I heard from them, and it still holds up / "Blood Hands" is super good too / also "Honey Brains")
The Damned Things ("Keep Crawling" shouldn't be spicy, but it kinda is to me 😮‍💨 / "Something Good")
Halestorm (oh my god, all of their stuff! Lzzy's voice is unreal! "The Steeple" / "Black Vultuers")
Mother Mother (Again, a band that I know their entire discography by heart. A friend bought me one of their CDs before I knew them, and I've been obsessed since listening through the CD the first time. "Life" is comfort food for your ears, as is "It's Alright." Those songs make me cry or scream, depending on my mood, going into the listen)
Nine Inch Nails (NIN f u c k s . "Head Like A Hole" / "The Hand That Feeds")
Waterparks (I've been listening since Double Dare, their first album, and its been wild to watch them grow. I've gotten too many friends hooked on them too, lmao. "Turbulent" / "Dizzy" / "SELF-SABOTAGE")
YONAKA ("Guilty" makes me want to weep / "Punch Bag" is so good)
Muse ("We Are Fucking Fucked" has been my anthem since it dropped lol / "Won't Stand Down" puts me in my Bucky feelings as does "Psycho," "(Drill Sargeant)," and "Dead Inside")
(Thank you <3)
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yanyanderederechan · 2 years
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Cutting ties
Summary- in which Liam is no longer under control, and you take it upon yourself to shut his boss down.
Warnings- death threats and being shot/grazed with a bullet
The look on her face didn't feel right; blue eyes wide, mouth slightly agape. It looked right, so what was wrong? She wouldn't set him free until the money was in her account. It was a weird experience when she finally let him go; her expression shifted from shock, allowing her eyes to soften and a small smile to grace her face, and for that moment, she didn't seem as scary.
"Liam, pack your shit," was the last thing she ever told him as she turned away from him and began talking to someone on the phone.
Liam almost cried; he said thank you, voice breaking in several places, and even though he pretended like it never happened, when you hugged him, you could feel liquid trail down your back as he choked on his sobs. And as you gaze at him now, the content and gentle smile that rested on his face as he slept made your heart warm, but soon your mind began to wonder about the stories Liam told you, the things she made him do while he was under her thumb.
Rage flooded your mind, and the rest was a blur, so now here you stood in front of her door, and any courage you had to confront her with seemed to have evaporated the moment you were at her doorstep, but before you could turn away the door swung open, and for a moment you'd thought she'd moved.
"Kai, you have a guest," he called out; his voice seemed to rattle you, his skin had a golden tan, hair bleached blonde black roots showing, his face bruised, nose broken. He stepped aside to let you through, and when you walked in, she swiveled around in her chair to look at you.
"Ah, (y/n), it's been a while; how have you been?" she looked excited to see you as she walked over to hug you.
"Thin crust, right?" the man asked.
"Yeah, and buy a two litter," she told him, pulling away from you to sit in her desk chair.
"Of?" she picked at the polish on her nails.
"whatever you want, im not in the mood for anything in particular," he then shut the door and left, as she quickly turned her attention back to you, "come to check out the new puppet?" she said with a giggle and a smirk.
"Stop acting like we're friends," the expression on her face seemed to melt away, replaced with a chilled look and a blank stare as she crossed her arms over her chest.
"Okay, business means business, so why are you here? Wanna buy Jackie off my hands like Laim?" her tone was cold, laced with annoyance.
"I want you to stop," you managed to sound more confident than you looked as she shot you a puzzled look.
"Stop wh-"
"I'm pretty sure you have more victims, and with theirs and the police's help, I will take you down. I'm giving you a choice to stop this now without all that," she looked at you like you were crazy as she tried to stifle a laugh.
"The police won't do shit, nor will these so-called victims. They knew what they were getting into when the forms were signed. It's just that some people are so desperate for money that they dont care to read them. I could take it up with the courts; it's nice of me to give them away to pay them off," she walked past you and into the kitchen; you heard her open the fridge, and glass hit glass.
"That's bull, and you know it; what you are doing-" you were pushed forcefully to your knees, a cylinder pressed to your head.
"your new to this game, so let me give you a tutorial." a click sounded through the room, and your heart began to pound in your ears. "You sign the contract, get the money, you then pay off the money, you are no longer in doubt, and then you dont talk about it." panic swelled in your body, voice like a chilled blade creeping up your spine. "Liam did something he wasn't supposed to do; that gives me every reason to kill him; maybe, I'll throw you in as a bonus. I won't hesitate; I've only done it once, and I hate to say it, but your not them, so here's your final warning,"
Your body went into shock as searing pain spread across your shoulder. Shakily you brought your hand up to touch your shoulder, it stung at first, but when your fingers touched the liquid, tears began to well up in your eyes. You didn't even know she had left the room till she tossed down a gauze bandage and some rubbing alcohol in front of you.
"What's all this-"
"fix yourself up and get out of my house," she cut you off with a glare. The rest of the night was a complete blur; nothing even registered till you realized you were home as you collapsed onto the couch. Liam peered over at you, leaning on crossed arms as he gave you a pitiful smile.
"Hey you, I thought you were asleep," you smiled up at him as best you could.
"Don't be stupid. I wasn't supposed to tell you what I told you, but I just needed someone to talk to. Just leave kaya alone," Liam's eyes glossed over as tears began to well as he reached down to clasp your hand in his, "I dont want her to come after us. This is the happiest I've been in my entire life, and I love you too much to let go of you now, so please, just leave her be," He began to sob and wail as his grip tightened on it; with your other hand, you placed it on top of his head as you pulled him into you and let him cry.
"I'll leave her alone," you muttered into his hair, placing a kiss on the top of his head, "Let's go back to bed,"
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protagonistheavy · 2 years
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I'm glad "trauma dumping" has become an identified concept now because for the longest time it just didn't really have a word for when it happens, and I dont think people quite understood what it was about without seeing it for themselves. For a few years it felt particularly rampant... You'd go to twitch streams or discords, and there'd be someone there just completely derailing everything so that they can talk about themselves -- usually extremely sensitive, personal information that left people bummed out. And no one could ever call them out for doing this; how do you tell someone who's clearly going through shit that they need to shut up and take that business somewhere more appropriate? It's like seeing someone coughing and telling them to stfu.
But it really IS damaging to people around you when inappropriate trauma dumping happens. Beyond just wrecking the mood of the server/stream/whatever, you're also very likely drudging up negative thoughts and experiences from unsuspecting people. I mean my god some people will just drop into a totally normal chat with "hey guys im not doing so well today. my dog died and here are all the details of how it happened and a summary of the unhealthy breakdown I had." How many times has this happened, and the response was day-long awkward silence as no one has the nerve to say something?
It's exploitative, honestly. It's exploiting the attention of other people by taking over their space. It's the equivalent of going up to someone's table at a restaurant and just dropping the dead dog conversation on their laps. And I guess I get it, it must feel great to be able to speak openly about these things, get them off your chest... but you REALLY have to consider how it's gonna effect other people. You have to consider the environment and other peoples' feelings, especially considering that most of these people are strangers -- people you probably shouldnt even trust with this info! People that could easily get a kick out of turning your trauma against you as a joke.
It's definitely cool that people have opened up about talking about their issues, especially with regards to mental health or abusive situations... but it's also got to be understood that there's a time and place for just chatting about these topics lol. And it's so rude to takeover someone else's space by making it all about you, fully aware that no one is gonna be the asshole and tell you that you're in the wrong. And I'm not sure if vent channels on discords help or hurt this situation, since often enough it grows into "the trauma channel" instead where it almost feels like people are trying to out-trauma the other -- god some weird shit happens in vent channels, I feel like you have to engage inside a hazmat suit. But at least then there's a specific, designated place for containing it.
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delicateruinsexpert · 2 years
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So R woke me up and that put me in a foul git mood. 1) he's clearly ignoring why I said I would figure out another way to get the car because I don't have the time or energy to drive him to his place just to hang for the ride 2) I desperately needed sleep and he woke me up way too early - I'm on my period, my stomach is sick af, and P. was a complete dick to me last night.
Then I try to talk to my dad and he can't be bothered. JUST. LIKE. P., he can't own any fault here and I'm left just furious & frustrated....they only wanna be ' nice ' when they want something or want to control you. Fuck that!
Then P. hits me up like we had plans. I got him his fucking car back and offered to pay for an Uuber for him to get to it & enjoy it...figured that was enough... but no. APPARENTLY, he doesn't realize I'm still working on the quitting process and the last kind of person I want to be around right now, is someone who is disparaging about it. I'm gonna be pissy as it is and he's just gonna drive me to want to chain smoke. He's not one bit sorry for how he ended the night so why would I want to hang with him today?
I'm not even up to answer I. That's how bad things are right now. All I wanna do is make my money, drug myself to sleep, wear my pain, repeat. I don't want to be around men. I can't handle them right now. God knows with P., you can't maturely explain why and think he'll take how he made you feel into account & want to fix it....and I'm still royally pissed that he talked about living with me after making it clear I was the only one working on getting a place: AS IN ONLY FOR ME! HE was the one who kept saying I was doomed to repeat cycles and he couldn't be a real husband for that reason....so why bring up an issue you'd having living with me if I wasn't smoke free in the snap of a finger while I have to accept him drinking himself to death like my brother without a word?! It'd be one thing if he was doing A SINGLE THING to help US get a place....and if he placed the same attitude on the people he lives with now; but let's be real here!
Im so sick of selfish people expecting me to never need to be selfish myself once in a great, great while...I'm talking people who are 24/7 selfish!
I can't wait til he goes to Philly the second week of June, still doesn't make himself legal, and I am free to do whatever the hell I want, without question, because technically, I'll be behaving exactly as he taught me he wanted me to behave.
Seems to me that just because I love hard, I'm expected to sacrifice myself all the fucking time...that my dreams, my goals, my progress doesn't matter to these fuckheads. I've got news for them - that shit matters to me and I'll be dammed if you think otherwise. You can continue to judge me from afar, and I'll play your game right back on you.
Think I'll just get my own place and not say two words about it. He's not piggybacking on me. How many times did he promise to help with my goals? My lasik? Anything? Just because he has no real bills, a child to take care of, it's OK STILL - YES STILL - TO BLOW HIS MONEY ON BIKES, BIKE TRIPS, CELL PHONES, & then let me sacrifice anything for myself just so he can then move in, be a judgmental prick, and not want to help out financially? No thank you! I rather just make my shit happen myself and let him live by HIS OWN WORDS. He doesn't want to chip in - good - don't talk about living with me then. You don't even chip in for the gas when I come to see you. You're not going to try to help me with a single dream financially, just like before...and then you want to piggyback my hard work, while you continue to fuck my finances, & bemoan that I felt too sick to fuck sometimes or that you were never good at putting me in the mood...and talk about how hot other women are, but it's all good because you don't ask for their number or seek to fuck them...and I'm supposed to beg for you to come live with me for free, and watch me struggle, and then bitch about how I'm not taking it so happily and there to serve your fucking dick, by mind reading, and be willing to throw up, all so you can get off, watch porn, envision fucking the women at bars, and I'm supposed to swoon?! God fucking dam. What is wrong with these dudes? Why is it that I'm expected to look from their point of view 24/7, be super accepting, but fuck doing that for me, right?
I need some major space. Too much bullshit has been said. Too much anger is boiling inside of me...and I'm so pissed about how unsupportive this dickwad has been, as I bend over backwards for forgiveness for something that would never have happened if he were emotionally understanding and supportive in the first place! I'm done apologizing for having trauma...for being isolated in it...for making a mistake that I have already paid dearly for...and while none of his hurt seems to even exist in his mind! I'm tired of it! I'm tired of all these dudes not hearing a goddam thing! I fucking exist! I'm a force of nature! If you underestimate me, don't expect me to kiss your ass. If you fuck with me & teach me that I can't properly react around you, don't get upset when I figure out how to play your game back. I'm over this shit! I want so much more than this and I DESERVE SO MUCH MORE THAN THIS! - SO DON'T GIVE ME SHIT FOR NOT WANTING TO AROUND YOUR BULLSHIT BECAUSE GOD KNOWS YOU WOULDNT WANT TO BE AROUND IT IF IT WERE BEING DONE TO YOU! GO FUCK YOURSELF SOME MORE!
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hereisyourlove · 3 years
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Should I trigger warn for this? Lmao but like blood and weed...
Pussy, broke and weed
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