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#im gonna chop off my hair again and i might see if i can dye it before she knows
emybain · 3 years
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my mom watching me open the package with a sweater in it i thought didn’t get delivered but it was hiding on my porch: does it show the stomach?
me holding it up: it was on clearance!
my mom: aaaand it shows the stomach
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hella1975 · 3 years
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Me: I really miss my long hair when can I have long hair again Me, looking in the mirror seeing my hair is at/slightly past my shoulders: I NEED TO CUT IT IMMEDIATELY ITS NOT THE SAME LENGTH AS SOKKAS THIS IS TERRIBLE Also Me: what if I just cut off all my hair so it never touches my neck ever Also Also me: why isn’t my hair long Im Suffering tonight, thought you should know
i used to have really lovely long hair that was all the way down to my hips and i never dyed it or anything. then it hit the summer hols after gcses and i went ‘you know what would be funny? if i just went completely feral’ so i dyed it purple then chopped it to my chin then dyed it red (then TRIED to dye it green) then chopped a fringe with kitchen scissors that was so wonky my friend (mum friend getting another mention) had to come to my house to fix it and then i bleached the two front strands like the tiktok whore i am and i died them SEVERAL colours and now it’s black. i’m gonna try grow it out though. im pretty sure i got it all out of me when i went batshit with my hair so maybe, just maybe, we might be returning to ‘natural hair colours’. we’ll see
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kamino-ink · 6 years
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Finifugal | Park Chanyeol [02]
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✧ finifugal - hating endings; of someone who tries to avoid or prolong the final moment of a story, relationship, or some other journey.
✧ 01 | 02 | ???
✧ Genre: Bodyguard!au, angst, fluff, romance, probably smut at some point lets be honest
✧ Summary: After an ambush that leaves your left shoulder in stitches, your head bodyguard decides to scour the country in search for a new recruit to help up your safety - when Park Chanyeol shows up and his first request is to dye his hair, you can’t help but wonder who in the world Junmyeon just so happened to recruit.
✧ Word Count: 2k [ I swear I am trying to make these longer but my brain just refuses im v sorry friends :( ]
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 “I’m... I’m sorry?” Is the first thing that manages to escape your parted lips as you blink in confusion at the man - who called himself Park Chanyeol - and his rather unusual request.
 “I asked if I could dye my hair pink, boss lady,” Chanyeol snorts at your questioning stare, gesturing a bit crudely to Junmyeon, who is standing beside him and glaring at the new recruit with a stingy glare, “the other boss guy here said I can’t because its like, unprofessional or whatever.”
 You glance over at a fuming Junmyeon, who is vehemently glaring daggers at Chanyeol. Clearly this giant of a man had to be a phenomenal sort of bodyguard if his personality was shining so much that one of your calmest, most patient men was having a difficult time keeping his cool. “Honestly, I could care less. Just try to keep me breathing and you can turn your hair into a fucking rainbow for all I care.” You admit with a soft shrug, purposefully keeping your gaze locked on Chanyeol instead of your head guard who’s sharp glare was burning glares onto your skin.
 “Fuck yeah - okay so far, you are my favorite person here boss lady-”
 “Okay not to sound like a bitch, but I have a name, which is not boss lady,” you cut him off, “its Y/N. Please, no more boss lady.” It comes out as an exasperated plea, and you narrow your eyes at the tall man when he snickers and steps closer to you, now having to tilt his head down to properly look at you.
 “What, not kinky enough for you?”
 Your eyes turn into saucers. “Excuse me-?”
 “You are excused, boss,” Chanyeol takes a turn to interrupt you now, his tongue suddenly darting out to slick his slightly chapped lips, “I’m gonna go and, you know, dye my hair so if you need me, you know where I’ll be.” He finishes with a deep chuckle, running his fingers through his mess of brunette hair before he turns around once, twice, and finally a third time.
 “Hey boss, where can a guy find a bathroom around here?”
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 You really didn’t know how you ended up in one of the master bathrooms with Park Chanyeol. One minute you were being baffled by his bluntness and crude humor, then the next minute you were begrudgingly leading him into your bathroom upstairs and helping him dye his hair a pretty pink.
 Considering you had never dyed someone’s hair before, you had at first tried to convince the man to go to an actual salon where a professional could make sure his hair (which was incredibly soft and naturally curly) wasn’t completely destroyed by an amateur. Yet he had shrugged a bit too carelessly and dragged the stool from your vanity towards the sink, plopping down onto it with a grunt.
 “It’ll be just fine boss, promise. Make me pretty already for fuck’s sake.”
 And so you did - or so your pride said with a smug look once the dye had settled in, the pale but beautiful color coming through even more once you had blow-dried his hair, revealing the curls he had spoken of, curled into soft ringlets now painted pink. “Not bad, not bad.” He hums in content, staring at his reflection in the wide mirror hung onto the wall.
 You huffed in disbelief from where you stood by the tiny trashcan next to the sink, slipping off the blue latex gloves and letting them fall into trash along with the box the dye had come in. “Not bad? I think it looks great, coming from someone who has never dyed hair before.”
 Chanyeol stifles a laugh at your statement, going to rest his chin on the palm of his hand as he turns his attention to your offended gaze. “Ah, so you think I look hot, then? I knew the pink hair was going to be a hit with the ladies.”
 It is in that exact moment in time that you realize this guy is really, really going to get long with Byun Baekhyun.
 Gingerly you walk over to his slumped over posture, abandoning your façade of gentleness the second you smack his bare arm. “Fuck off, Chanyeol, you know what I meant.”
 “Uh huh, I know what you meant.” He hums with a sly, wolfish wink and grin. Before you can protest any further, he’s slid off from the stool and slung the spotted towel you had lent him onto the tiled floor. He lets out a loud groan and bends his back, a resounding ‘pop!’ erupting from his spine. Of course, you couldn’t exactly blame him, especially since you had really taken your time in dying his hair - paranoid that you were going to damage his hair beyond repair. That in itself would have been a loss to all naturally curly haired men in the world.
 Maybe two hours was a bit much. Maybe.
 But he hadn’t complained - not once, oddly enough. That also surprised you, especially since he had muttered complete and utter nonsense about the “fucking enormous” mansion and its “stupid ass three floors and shitty amount of staircases, like, boss, no one needs this much.”
 And you thought you had a potty mouth.
 “Thanks for the assistance boss,” he says casually, straightening out his back and running his fingers through his newly dyed pink hair for just about the hundredth time, “now if you’ll excuse me, I am going to go explore for a bit. See you.” Chanyeol does a mock salute that you just nearly laugh at, watching as he retreats from your bathroom and goes about his business elsewhere in the mansion.
 You turn back to the mess that had been made in your bathroom, a disgruntled sigh passing through your lips.
 “Fuck, I really need to hire a maid.” Is the first thing you utter when he leaves, now left to your own devices in the muggy bathroom. The sink had water droplets splashed onto the counter it was dug into, with vivid pink splotches still on the gray steel of the sink itself (and a bit on the marble countertops as well.) Not wanting to leave your own bathroom too messy, you decide to get to work, first picking up a washcloth hung onto the neck of the sink so you could wet it and begin to wash away the leftover dye and excess water.
 For the next few minutes you simply wash away at the sink and counter, humming an old tune under your breath to entertain yourself. In your head, you wonder why you don’t just ask FRIDAY, the intelligence system constructed throughout the mansion, to page one of the boys and ask them to clean up. It wasn’t like they could necessarily refuse - but then again it would be a dick move to have your bodyguards clean up such a small mess.
 Its because you need to take your mind off of things - off of everything.
 You remind yourself of this almost unwillingly, your bottom lip jutting out into a silent grunt of reminiscent pain when you scrub away at a particularly jarring speck of god-knows-what on the marble counter, the damaged nerves in your left shoulder sending prickles up to your head. You are thankful that you didn't change into a tank top after Chanyeol had left, like you normally would have before cleaning, because then you would be able to see the nasty stitches embedded deeply into your still healing skin.
 Whenever you even caught a glimpse of them out of your peripheral vision you were struck with flashbacks. Flashbacks that gnawed at your conscious mind, screaming and pleading with you to just forget everything that had happened that night.
 You shake your head in a desperate attempt to rid yourself of those horrifying memories and go back to scrubbing at the dirty countertops, the throbbing of your shoulder starting to become all too familiar.
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 Once the sun has set over the horizon, you can see the distant dots of the city lights glowing and flickering in the background, a long ways away from the window you had been gazing through. If you were to bother yourself with concentrating hard enough, you might even be able to picture yourself back in the heart of Busan; exploring the bustling nightlife with your friends, tipping a talented group of buskers as you pause to watch how their limbs glide through the air almost flawlessly while they dance to the music.
 You miss Busan, no matter how much it doesn’t miss you.
 Luckily though, the boys have all seemed to welcome Chanyeol with open arms; albeit Junmyeon, Minseok, and Sehun were still cautious around him - which was expected of the trio, as they usually took time to warm up to just about anyone who wasn't you. While you probably would have pushed for the three men to not be so cold and rigid to the generally warm, bubbly newcomer, you knew now it was best to leave them be and hopefully develop a bond with him themselves. You were far past making the mistake of putting your full-hearted trust into someone so soon.
 Yes, Park Chanyeol was relatively kind and incredibly outgoing, a trait that became obvious when he willingly started to drag the ever stoic and quiet Kyungsoo into a debate about whether snakes had feelings or not with Baekhyun and Jongin. Even now you jumped a little whenever you could hear the four of them throwing themselves into a fit of loud, booming laughter - a pleasant sound you had come to miss for some time now. You were tempted by their laughter and joy, wishing to join in their carefree fun, but you were distracted by something else.
 “Is FRIDAY still down?” The man merely a few feet away questions you, to which you turn your longing gaze away from the shadows of Busan and to him, watching as he swiftly chops another onion without shedding a single tear. “Ah, so she is.” He concludes after not hearing an instant reply, noting the hesitation in your silent answer.
 “I don’t understand why she suddenly shut down, Dae. I’m the only one who can deactivate her system besides Yixing, and he’s still in Europe with Taeyong and Doyoung.” You express your growing concern over the intelligence system, pinching the bridge of your nose. It wasn’t normal for your systems to just, crash - in fact it had never happened before, not including the time Yixing shut her down so you would get out of bed and stop telling her to ‘bug off.’ Junmyeon and Minseok were the only other two of the boys who knew FRIDAY was currently out of commission, since you knew it might start a panic if the others figured out the biggest chunk of the security system was down.
 A panic was the last thing you needed on your plate, that much was for sure.
 Jongdae, who had moved the chopped pile of onions into a glass bowl to the side and was getting started on chopping a few peppers, opened his mouth to speak once more when the house shook a bit, causing him to pause abruptly.
 Your eyebrows furrowed in confusion as you looked outside the window once again, the lack of rain or even murky clouds merely fueling your wariness. In the background you could still hear the four boys laughing and chatting to their heart’s content, Baekhyun letting out a high pitched squeal in the midst of their fun.
 “Dae, it isn’t supposed to storm tonight, is it?” You ask him, still gazing outside the window.
 He makes a noise of confusion. “No, it’s supposed to be a dry week until Thursday. Why do you ask?”
 “Because there is no way that could’ve been thunder-”
 And suddenly you were being thrown backwards, your body going limp as the back of your head smacks the wooden floor with a sickening thud.
 There is no alarm, only the surprised shouting of the others and the sounds of shoes scuffling against the floor in a rush.
 And then, there is nothing.
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violet-ultra · 5 years
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me very sad :(
haha im crying. i'm getting mood swings? honestly i think it might be my period but it can also be how i feel like my bf doesn't care as much as before and he isn't afraid to loose me because he may or may not be tired of my shit and what a FUCKING surprise that he is. haha i feel dumb dumb. also feeling like a princess to him feels wrong because i feel like he's forcing it and i'm disgusting and don't deserve it. i was doing so good i swear. i was so happy and expressing it just yesterday i said i didn't hate myself now i'm back to wishing to rip my fucking body apart. my mind is a mess and i want to die. i don't understand my brain and i want it to float away and die on it's own. i think crying just helps with showing emotion? i don't even understand crying anymore. omg i might have hit a new point of depression i wonder what this is called or how it will affect me. its been a while since i've thought about killing myself but this time i'm not gonna cry for doing it. i'd cry for not doing it because i'm so tired of crying, like i've never said that before. anyways i feel so sad and i want to curl up and die and i've been sick for the past week? i believe? i thought i got my period, false alarm. i'm waiting for that rush of blood that feels like a bathtub being plugged and the water going down to the drain sensation to occure but with my vagina. i've honestly been wanting to get like in an accident and just have an EXCUSE to me sad and crying to save the embarassment of saying i'm crying because of my thoughts because people believe physical more than mental or emptional... wowww maybe i just need to chop off my hair again or dye it or release a sex tape or do meth. i'm really trynna die huh haha. like i said me very sad = me hope death. i find it strange how i normalize death but in the sense of i want it right now and for myself, like how fucked up do i have to be to write about my emotions and feelings in a blog @ 2:55 am where no one can read or see it, huh. would you look at that. well i'm tired and still sad. i'll write more and talk less bye.
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