#im feeling a LOT right now

[sevenrs]

#srs #mine.png #im feeling a lot right now #do i even matter here in this community? if i stopped posting does it really matter? #im in a bit of a spot #i would like reassurance #i want to be friends. im struggling to stay normal #if this post is uncomfortable ill delete it

[verved]

ok i beat all three endings for ac6 and i just. im gonna cry. iguazu.

#im feeling a lot right now #this game is gonna be part of my brain chemistry for life #lineko.txt #he always envied you. you had it all. #crying.

[bxdtime-ceai]

the trees are spirits speaking with tranquility even to those who cannot hear them even to us the trees are nourished by the spirits of the deceased where one passes, a tree will grow you've tried to take them all away you've tried to cut them down and steal their babies just like you do with your own and yet the trees grow maybe displaced maybe rightly placed nourished by loss the loss that was necessary to build your empire the loss you were willing to risk and did risk and caused because it wasn't you but the trees have ears and the trees have eyes they see and hear and understand you and all your wicked ways and they remember and soon you too will understand what it means to be sacrificed only this time it won't be for empire it will be for life

#mine #poem #my poem #my poetry #nature #nature poetry #trees #tree poetry #colonization #capitalism #empire #the human condition #im feeling a lot right now #yes i wrote this on google keep

[wyvernwinds]

well i finished nona

#in a single sitting #im feeling a Lot right now #ill get back to yall with thoughts tomororw #its 1am i need to . process what just happened to me #nona the ninth #ntn #the locked tomb #tlt

[pregnantsecondo]

NO WAY DID I JUST GET THAT ASK IN MY INBOX WHAT

#its so good omg #im feeling a lot right now #oh god ohhhh god

[silverchainbee]

Dated a boy for 4 years.

Lived together for 3.

Moved in with his parents 2 months ago.

Discussed our future, wedding possibilities, children's names, first dance songs.

Went on holiday with his friends, house sat for his family (tested "where we might live one day").

Everything was great, not perfect but nothing ever is.

He broke up with me a week ago. "I haven't felt feelings for you for a while". Blindsided.

Packed a bag. Moved in with my parents. Haven't heard from him since.

Upset. Frustrated. Hurt. But not angry. Not hating him. Even worried about him.

But now I know while my life exploded you were continuing your days, avoiding your problems. Packed up my things for me. I had to initiate the conversation. I had to facilitate everything. It's like I never mattered. 4 years of love and support and life, gone.

And now I hate you. Because you wrecked me. And I don't think I can love again.

#txt post #txt #emotions #feelings #pain #ouch #dark #im sorry #im feeling a lot right now #depression #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #relationships #break up #breaking up #i only love fictional boys now #someone find me a tewkesbury #or a ken #help #theatre boy maybe #but not for a very very very long time #good thing im leaving the country

[hearmyvoiceoftreason]

i think listening to Class of 2013 (Audiotree Version) right after watching Everything Everywhere All at Once for the first time while my mother sleeps beside me wasn't my best idea

#something something art imitates life #something something cinematoc parallels #im feeling a Lot right now #bee blabbers

[haunted-xander]

For what do you live?

#meant to post this a lot earlier but it just didnt... feel right? #and now im like fuck it. woe sciosn be upone ye #i was originally gonna have banana(wol) here too but then the amount of panels would be uneven >:( #so i removed her (im srry bby i love u i prommy </3) #anyway. i love them and seeing them fight for their right to exist in ew despite several of then having had #issues and doubts and all that in regards to their own lives and well-being hit me hard #i mean several of them are implied to not mind dying/not caring about surviving and at least one of them is/was explicitly suicidal! #and yet!!!!!! #OUGH #thancred waters #y'shtola rhul #urianger augurelt #alphinaud leveilleur #alisaie leveilleur #g'raha tia #tataru taru #krile mayer baldesion #estinien varlineau #estinien wyrmblood #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #art #my art #xanders art #digital art #fan art

[keplercryptids]

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A poem by Kai Cheng Thom, as it appears in Queer Little Nightmares: An Anthology of Monstrous Fiction and Poetry, that reads:

ON THE ORIGIN OF TRANS FEMMES

for Meredith Russo

we are the daughters of witches that they could and did burn we are the daughters of witches that they are still burning & you know in my dreams, a woman keeps whispering: keep going maybe in the next lifetime we’ll make it to the water

#kai cheng thom #lgbtq #feeling a lot of queer grief right now and this poem is part of how im processing it tbh

[sciderman]

How did your meeting go with the surgeons?

it was memorable

#sci speaks #the sci files #im glad i've done all the research. i feel okay. i feel safe and confident. and the doctors have all been really kind and helpful. #lots of good vibes. and they're moving me through the system so quickly. i'm glad it'll be dealt with so soon. #feels so crazy that this has been going on. right under my skin. and it's all explained now and i feel so much more in control. #i know whats going on!! with my funky body!! no more unanswered questions!! #i feel really good these days. optimistic. i feel like i understand myself a lot more and it means i'm better to myself. #but you'll all have to be patient with me. please be patient with me like i've learnt to be patient with myself.

[paper-mario-wiki]

ive exclusively been playing it by ear with the makeup (no tutorials or anything) and i somehow always end up looking like a secretary kind of so ive been practicing looking exasperated while wearing makeup cuz i figure i gotta work with what im given ya know

#image #thank you for all the kind words #i typically tend to stay away from full sincerity online because i think having a few layers between what you see and what i am is like #a reasonable safety measure for someone with a massive following to take #but i will say that im very lucky to have already accumulated a following of people so in support of *this* already #because it makes it much easier #theres still a lot of parts of it that dont feel real and probably wont for a while but right now #but while im just putting on makeup to feel pretty and posting pics for fun #before im ready to take a deep breath and fully commit to a shift of name and pronouns #just for right now #i appreciate it

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

saw @chez-cinnamon's absolutely BANGER butterfly!Howdy design and couldn't resist! two fluffy flutterbyes <3 solidarity

#still unsure of Why this was the only pose that came to mind but! who am i to deny the brain what it wants #i also have no idea what it is about butterflies and mullets + extra fluff #it just feels Right. #oh also if you haven't checked out chez-cinnamon's Real World au uhhhh Go Do That!!! #its fun! its funky! its fresh! its got a lot of great art! its got a Comic! #emphasis on a Lot Of Great Art! #i will admit im emotionally invested in the plot. its reeled me in. im Fascinated by it #also(x2) i Cannot get over how swagtastic that butterfly howdy design is #like!!! look at it!!! the colors the patterns the WINGS agh the wings <3<3<3 #truly a unique and creative design that im totally not jealous of ahaha what- #kidding im Kidding. or am i... i am i am #scribble garnish #yassified howdy <3 #welcome home #alrighty its officially 2 am i needed to be asleep uhhhhh three hours ago #gonna queue this up and conk out. while lovingly thinking of chez-cinnamon's butterfly howdy my fucking GOD #cant get over how Gorgeous he is #the facial patterns.... the colors.... immaculate #top tier design i am Taking Notes #ok ok sleeping now. Sleeping. snz snork mimi and all that. etc

[mishidefresa]

Sketches I did as samples for commissions :>

#hey #it's been a long time #i know #sorry im not as active here on tumblr anymore #i feel bad bc i really like this site #it's just that im to lazy to post here besides Instagram and tiktok #since i been doing a lot of traditional art lately #right know im working in commissions so #and last week was long tired and wild #hopefully #it's over now #but we only have to wait and see for now #rymin #infinity train #infinity train fanart #infinity train book 4 #ryan akagi #min gi park #rymin fanart #my art

[pinkeoni]

S1 and s2 (but especially s1) feel so intimate and grounded and personal. I am watching these character’s lives.

But s3 and s4 (ESPECIALLY s3) feels fake and removed. I’m watching a tv show.

#and yeah yeah i know i know it IS a tv show and maybe im giving the earlier seasons too much credit #but man :/ you can really feel the switch and its rough to watch sometimes #i think it comes down to colors + cinematography + production design a lot of things #also i think ive stated this before and sorry to repeat myself #but my blog is just a stream of consciousness tbh i just say whatever im feeling atm #and right now its relevant! #robin rambles #stranger things

[starrysharks]

"it happens all the time, it happens all the time", a tautology of self-delusion - a one-way love affair that turned me into a weak rabbit

#zeno's art #ocs #velvet kuragari #this is mad awkward because the story changed so much that the “magical girl ward” title is out of date...... #so i'll have to think of a new name and use that o.o #but anyway this is the new and improved velvet!!!! #part time magical girl full time sufferer #imagine the song bad girl online by wonderful opportunity #(if you havent listened to it you should esp the oktavia english cover is peak) #well listen 2 that song and add a suicide pact and magical girls in the mix and you kind of have an idea of what the story for this thing is #other than that the stuff about nurses and viruses is mostly the same #feel free to ask Bout this because i have a lot of stuff abojt it right now #ok im so tired tags time #suicide #suicidal ideation #mass suicide #oh there are 5 other girls btw #i only have 4 designs finalised including velvey.....

[forbiddennhoney]

"fat ppl are so hot and bangable. fat people are sexy. i want to fuck fatties" okok heard but do you actually like us as people? do you know anything abt the fat creators u follow who share things abt their lives? how do you treat fat ppl who are undesirable to you? do you listen to us when we are screaming about the ways that fatphobia is everywhere? no not mindlessly reblog, but listen and internalize. do you take the time to unpack your biases against fat ppl? or even the fatphobia you absolutely were taught growing up? do you hold your thin/not fat friends accountable when they compare themselves to us because they dont like the way they look? do you advocate for us when people make us the butt of jokes? do you actually date fat people? do you befriend fat people? are you kind to fat strangers you don't find attractive? do you feel the need to qualify your love for fat people? do you love any fat people who arent related to you? do you respect fat ppl of all sizes? what do you consider "fat"? is it just someone with bigger than average boobs/butt? do you like fat people with small boobs/butts? does "we love bellies here" include large bellies covered in stretch marks? does it include bellies with multiple rolls and skin discoloration because of those rolls? does it include those things together? when you say fat do you mean actual fat people? do you mean fat people who arent white? who are disabled? who reject the expectations of hyper femininity/hyper masculinity? when the trend of wanting to fuck certain fat ppl wears off yet again will you continue to desire us? to love us? to cherish us? do you see us as people even when we do not give you sexual access to our bodies?

#personal #this is kind of a vent #i see so many ppl rb those “i love bellies” posts or talk abt features of fatness #but decontexualized #i see so many ppl pretend to like us and like its just exhausting #and yes i know im talking about fatness a lot right now #im having big feelings and im gonna blog abt them cause i can #if u dont like it unfollow me #fatphobia #fetishization