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Early MCYTblr Interviews: warpedfungusonastick

today's interviewee is warpedfungusonastick, who's been in MCYTblr since the summer of 2020 and is a member of dreamlying! below is a transcript of their account of early MCYTblr.

Digging back into what I have of my online history, I started the tumblr blog warpedfungusonastick in late July 2020. Beforehand I had a very small <20 follower dttwt account and saw that the Tumblr community was more my vibe. I was 18 when I got into being a dteam ~fan and my personal views on fandom and stan culture and parasocial relationships were, while still evolving, kind of against a lot of the culture that was growing up around especially the twitter fan community.

(This being said, this was the depths of COVID lockdown and I rarely left my house because I was a senior in high school in the U.S. and living with someone who absolutely could not get sick. So I was terminally online and can definitely say in retrospect deeply invested in the fan culture and even the creators/their online personas while being semi-ironically self aware of this relationship.)

I first saw a dteam video in later 2019. Funny enough (and not funny at all, because I think about these Patterns quite a lot), I had then just left the Cryaotic fandom. If you don't know, he was an old friend of pewdiepie who split with him around the time of or before the multiple pewdiepie scandals and pewdiepie whistling off several alt-right dog whistles and that whole thing. But back to the point, like a month after i became a regular Cryaotic Twitch viewer, a long expose came out about him being abusive to his ex-girlfriend and a groomer of underaged fans. Cryaotic was a faceless streamer whose iconography was this little blob thing and I will not abandon the theory that the origins of Dreamwastaken fanart are the direct successor to humanized fanart of this Cryaotic persona.

Through the whole Cryaotic thing I first found out about kiwifarms/lolcow. What stuck to me, beyond the abhorrent stuff said on those sites, was that they had a pretty clear system of archiving things using sites such as archive.is and were completely unafraid to post "doxxed" materials anonymously.

Commentary on DL interviews: - I fully second what georgesoot said about "No it's not odd, I at least partially strove for infamy. Any attention gratifies the ego after all, not just positive attention. Then there was the absurdity of it all". I tried to be a lot less controversial than some other DL members, but I did run with them and did say some things that weren't within the typical conventions of more mainstream and popular blogs of the time. It was a dopamine hit for people to interact with my blog--like any social media--but I/we did it in a kind of absurdist way at a point with the things we said and the ways we kind of transgressed whatever the normal way of being a fan blog was. - Re: Wormweeb--I was also kind of mentally ill and depressed and really only interacted with both friends online (even if they were friends from school). And as a result I took it all a bit more seriously than it was at the time. This is is less related but I used to get these--visceral? reactions to when Drama would happen because I was personally invested more so because I didn't want my online friend group who (although seen as a united front on the outside sometimes, I think) each had our Faves in the mcyt space and had had petty infighting over the morals of that (both seriously and unseriously, but everything starts to bleed, in my opinion).

More about my previous exposure to Minecraft fandom: I used to follow mianite back in the day and watched a lot of captiansparklez & aureylian. Since I joined the dteam fandom before any blog presence I was there for their very first streams (which got like…5k views 10k?) and the birth of the dsmp as essentially a server for friends (which led to minor discourse later when the line between roleplay and people on a MC server blurred.)

So my points of reference for these types of fandoms were a fandom that was very much for younger children (Mianite) and therefore the creators were treated with more distance and the recently up-in-flames Cryaotic fandom.

Back to doxxing/archiving/odd relation between: I used to joke about the tension between the right to privacy and to be forgotten on the internet and the right for nosy teenagers with too much time on their hands (and literally obsession brainworms) to dig up your past. Two things I think that were interesting about the most (in my opinion) morally dubious element of mcytblr and most people formed their negative opinions of critblr on was the having/knowing "forbidden" information. Most of this we were either told by randos or knew through other people online. A lot of it also ended up on Dream's kiwifarms, but that was a bit of a two-way street.

And the second part of this whole thing is the way that this information would come up among The Discourse. Because knowing some of the things we/I knew, you could call out creator's lies/misrepresentations of their histories/online pasts in ways that people who didn't know couldn't. Which was kind of where some of the in-jokes came from. I also took the habit of archiving things (old accounts, posts, whatever) to archive.is and such at the time because I fell on the 'I don't want this digital history to be erased if only for my own sanity.'

I think this has been rehashed before, but at every corner, the mcyt/dteam fandom was a fandom like any other, complicated by the fact that it was a real person fandom. And especially on tumblr where the Culture was a little different because no creators (few creators) were on Tumblr, people kind of just said and did whatever. I struggle to think of any of this as important in the grand scheme of anything, but there was a massive outpour of content because of the sheer size of the fandom across all platforms. There was 24/7 content, big fomo, and so I think blogs acted like pundits--like a forum on the newist in DSMP or Love or Host or MCC or whatever. My memory of that time has atrophied a lot but I think that DL and co. cropped up as the pundit subclass (however some of us had actual talent like wormweeb and made fanworks) and the fandom overall was sustained by a sprawling form of Conversation on the Latest Content.

Q: right-- and while other blogs caught people up on streams, dream lying was more interested in meta on the creators themselves?

I think that was a part of it. We were all united in this semi-ironic cynicism about fandom culture as a whole while being fans ourselves, and we socially shared this Vision of a number of variably worded critiques about - stan culture - cancel culture - the dangers/pitfalls/intricacies of these.

I think a lot of it was just shits and giggles, but at least I at one point had this idea that I was a tiny little measured response to the excess of fandom culture. I looked down on uncritical fandom and thought that especially because some of these creators cultivated deeply parasocial relationships with their young fans (I was not much older, but all 18 year olds are Like That) it was some sort of imperative to talk about that at least a little bit.

As I read through my old posts--these was a lot of self important a lot of rambling a lot of nonsense. And I don't really think that these fandom culture can be changed by one little microblogger with a couple hundred followers, but I stand by a lot of my initial criticisms of the ecosystem as a whole and mainly the creators themselves and their (heh) lying, their harm, their overall misconduct and above all the systems that created and enable their whacky ass bullshit to this day. .

But the doubled edged sword of (I return to the forbidden info thruline) I never really shared info that was private because I wanted to be somewhat ethical, so it always felt a bit like we/I was going crazy with things I knew to be true but obviously wouldn't share because that's nor super moral.

Another note about The Rumors and DreamLying--in my memory we kind of thought were Something. And I guess we've been nudged along in that perception but I think the most vocal and controversial of us just said wild shit that stuck in people's brains and for the longest time I didn't associate myself with dream lying at all on Warpedfungus because I wanted to be Somewhat Normal, if measuredly critical and just…vibing. But I think at circles back to a lot of this being wank amongst a handful of terminally online people who at the time didn't get out enough and, like, fixated on this Thing because it was community (or a facsimile of) and at the end of the way we're all just archives or archived pages or gone forever.

(Which reminds me that for the longest time I had you and Roxytonic blocked because I thought archiving was corny but I now think it's kind of cool. It's a nostalgia trip, if anything else. I'm now in another fandom that would've really benefited from some hardcore archiving because so much of the old internet (and fan spaces amongst them--ie ff.net, livejournal, even more underground spaces) are completely lost to the sands of time and the deletion of those hosting sites, etc)

Q: i am very interested in your thoughts on, as you mentioned before in reference to cryaotic, the way that creators cultivate and manipulate fanbases, and the effects you think it had on how the mcytblr fandom

Dream, along with "learning/studying the algorithm" and getting insanely lucky, did many specific things to cultivate a fandom of immensely parasocial fans. And regardless of my cynical vision of what his motives were, his actions of wanting to be seen as a 'friend', sharing many personal details, being accessible to fans, DMing young stan accounts, following fan accounts, OKaying a lot of fanworks about him/his personal and the whole…gaybaiting (you know what i"m referring to) thing had the result of a very large very dedicated fanbase.

As far as cryaotic, it's my theory that dream knew the effect on having a very…intimate…relationship with his conventionally not ugly young white man friend, and used that. And as far as the other element that I associate between dteam/cryaotic--these were men who had very boring lives and probably saw themselves as undesirable to women Until they had this massive following and this kind of situation happens time and time again where people get Influence that didn't used to have and do messed up things with it. And I don't know what's to be done, but it's quite bad and completely goes against the "wholesome" image they try to cultivate. If not some of the stuff being actually crimes.

I think the common perception is sometimes that these cases are "bad apples" when there are so many bad apples And not even in the man aint shit way, but unlike more conventional routes to Fame, mcyts have no oversight unless they join and esports org and still then…the org may just side iwth them if it's worth it. And that's not to say that this stuff doesn't happen with conventional celebrity and even on college campuses and in everyday life and whatnot but I think people in such a public eye should be held to standards of conduct that may prevent some of this.

#early mcytblr interviews #Volume 14 #warpedfungusonastick

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POST ABOUT THE GODS AU I CANT CARRY THIS BURDEN ALONE

you would be the one to ask 💀 I've been tormenting you for YEARS with this au

okay so since this is going to be a massive word vomit post ill put it under a cut after I give a quick summary of the basic premise

so there is a family of gods who are known to be cruel. who have a hatred for all mortals and will use them for their own entertainment as some sort of sick punishment for the wrongs of the past

philza, the God of death, and his sons techno, wilbur, grian (you can ask about this LATER), and tommy. who are the gods of blood, madness, tragedy, and chaos respectively

now to give a brief summary up to right before purgatory (I will be skipping over the grian stuff but if you want to know more about that I will explain) meaning I'm not going into full detail, because if I did this post would be a novel

*disclaimer!!!!!! I HATE dream but unfortunately he is a big villain in this au so he is gonna get mentioned just be aware that he will always be the most vile person in any au I make

DSMP

SO it all starts when wilbur gets bored of his challenges (the 100 player challenges) and decides he wants to do something new. he takes tommy and they disguse themselves as mortals and go to the land of dsmp to spread their madness and chaos there

tommy pretended to befriend tubbo because he found him interesting and then the three of them created l'manburg. tubbo doing it for a place to be free and the two gods doing it to see how other residents would react

the revolution was exactly what they wanted, beautifully chaotic and allowed wilbur to let his madness infect everyone who opposed l'manburg

erets betrayal wasn't planned but it was wonderfully entertaining for the gods watching the revolutionaries get beaten over and over just to keep getting back up

in the end tommy makes the deal to trade his disc's for independence because he and wilbur had already planned an election

and the elections go exactly as planned with the betrayal of schlatt being planned since the beginning. you see schlatt was someone wilbur had previously turned mad and he knew exactly what would happen if he brought him in

in Pogtopia is where things start to go off track, because tommy starts to realize that maybe his friendship with tubbo isn't just pretend and he starts trying to convince wilbur that blowing up l'manburg won't be as entertaining and leaving it be (it doesn't work)

techno just makes things more complicated because he wants blood to spill, and to help his brothers with their little game

the red festival and tubbos execution creates a conflict between techno and tommy, and wilbur just thinks it's because tommy wanted to mess with tubbo more. to settle this argument they fight in the pit

November 16th is when everything goes ary. at first everything is according to plan, techno "betrays" them, wilbur blows up the country, phil is waiting in the wings to collect all the souls. but then something unexpected happens, tommy doesn't go through with his part of the plan and refuses to kill tubbo

the others have to improvise, because even though they could kill everyone there, tommy doesn't want to and they aren't going to go against family, they couldn't care less about the mortals but tommy is another story and if he wants to play nice they'll let him play nice (for now). wilbur and phil stay back to keep an eye on him while also playing the parts of father haunted by his dead son just for the fun of it

and tommy does well for a bit, keeping his chaos in check at least, and not seeing tubbo as just another mortal (he couldn't care less about the others), he does find the newcomer interesting though and doesn't immediately dismiss them

when his chaos reaches a point where he needs to let some out he takes the new guy (ranboo) and goes to rob the mushroom house, things get a bit outta hand and the house ends up burning

tommy takes the fall

he gets exiled by the same person he went against his family for

he is hurt

brought to logstedshire, he plays along with whatever, letting his chaos and wilburs madness infect dream, taking joy in watching it consume the man. when he finally gets bored he leaves and joins his brother at his cabin

not even a week later the butcher army come to try and execute techno, which doesn't end well at all. tommy stayed behind while techno humored the mortals letting them attempt their little execution than easily breaking free and killing quackity in the process. phil goes with him

doomsday is planned by the gods to get back at the mortals who hurt their youngest. tommy blows up the community house so he give the warning for what's to come

during actual doomsday they finally reveal what/who they are, so the residents of New l'manburg can see just how badly they fucked up

tommy is supposed to kill tubbo, before he can however tubbo asks him if it was all fake, and tommy is honest. tells him that in the beginning it was but at some point that changed, and he started caring and now he'd be lying to himself if he said he didn't. he can't even bring himself to kill tubbo

something shifts in tommy and he is no longer chaos, and instead becomes loyalty

phil, techno, and wilbur are blinded by rage towards the people who made tommy hurt and attempts to kill tubbo but something unexpected happens

for his accomplishment of doing the impossible, making a cruel God kind, tubbo is turned into a God. the God of forgiveness

the three leave once tommy runs up and hugs him, realizing Tommy's domain has shifted and that like it or not a pair of gods have just been born

ranboo ends up being taken to the cabin along with tubbo because he has no where else to go. it helps that the gods have all taken a liking to him

over the next few months tubbo along with ranboo start working with the gods to try and get them to see mortals as more than just tools for their entertainment (the two also get married and adopt micheal at this point)

everyone else on the smp believe beeduo got kidnapped by them and keep trying to "save them" and failing miserably every time

ranboo happily playing cards and winning with them, cut to quackity spying on them and thinking this must be some advanced torture technique

all is well until tommy and tubbo get attacked by dream using a god killing axe (he was angrey that tubbo took his only chance to become a god and now wants to kill him). while protecting tubbo and fighting back (killing dream twice) sam and the others arrive and think it's tommy who snapped and attacked first (they still think he is chaos)

he gets captured and put into the prison that was built to keep the gods imprisoned. tubbo runs back to the cabin and tells the others what happened, and while he is breaking down tubbos domain shifts from forgiveness to destruction and becomes cruel

Niki joins them at this point and the syndicate is formed

over the next few months while tommy is trapped in the prison, tubbo pretends to be glad he is free and roams the server letting off radiation and slowly weakening and killing anyone he comes across. just biding his time until the syndicate is ready to break tommy out

when they are ready they strike at night, tubbo gets in by pretending he wants to settle things with tommy and "get peace", once he is on the moving bridge he reveals his true colours letting his radiation kill the warden

he finds tommy weak and in chains, tommy who even after months in prison, has not gone cack to chaos. wasting no time tubbo destroys the chains and breaks down the "impenetrable" walls with his destruction. meeting up with the rest of the syndicate who were waiting on the outside

ranboo and Niki were told to stay behind at the cabin incase tubbo couldn't control his power, unfortunately that's what dream was expecting. so while the gods aren't there to protect them, dream attacks, they hold him back long enough for the others to get back but right as they get there ranboo is struck with the same axe dream used against tommy

niki takes tom so tubbo and wilbur can go to ran, while techno and phil fight off dream. wilbur plays a song to keep ranboo calm, while tubbo tries to stop the bleeding. in this moment they are not the cruel gods they are known as, and like tommy months earlier, their domains shift

madness becomes music, blood becomes protection, and death becomes family

dream is killed for good this time, ranboo is healed by phil who refuses to let his death take him, and they leave for good with the few people they care about. they can learn to be kind later for now they need to heal

between dsmp and qsmp

there is about a 1000 year gap between the two. and the first 400 of those years is spent happily traveling together and leaning to be kind with ranboo and micheal, who have been made functionally immortal by phil (he asked beforehand of course)

wilbur is the first to split off wanting to play his music for the world and distance himself from his past madness. then tommy leaves because he wants to explore the world, techno goes with his for protection

leaving phil to look after the _Beloved family who have made a little home for themselves. tubbo has to leave occasionally go preform whatever duties he has as a god, but he always comes back. and micheal goes on his own adventures for years, even decades at a time, he too always comes back

after 200 years of this little routine ranboo asks phil the question he's been dreading for 600 years. he waits until tubbo is out of the house and asks if he could take back the immortality. says that he's been thinking about it for a long time and now that he's lived such a long life he's ready. when phil asks if tubbo knows, ranboo can only say his expression would make him change his mind

after explaining that ranboo would still have to live out the rest of his natural lifespan and that ranboo has to promise to tell everyone sooner rather than later, it is done, and ranboo is mortal once again

the first ones told are micheal and tubbo, who comes home a year later, the tears are expected and there are a LOT of tears, it's almost like ranboo would drop dead any minute and not live nearly another 100 years. tommy, techno, and wilbur find out not long after and their reactions are similar, with lots of tears and hugs

they all promise to make as many memories in the next 100 years as possible

and once those 100 years are up, phil personally escorts ranboo to the afterlife to be taken care of by his wife, the goddess of death

ranboo would be joined by micheal not much later

NOW FOR QSMP

qsmp is set long after the gods have learned to be kind (thanks to the efforts of ranboo and micheal) now the family is off doing their own things and trying to atone for their pasts. their old domains will always be a part of them and they still have power over them, but they don't abuse that power

wilbur and phil just so happened to end up on the same train to quesadilla island together. little did they know the descendants of people they once knew (and tormented) would also be on the island, along with foolish and slime who are the same people from the smp

they both end up finding foolish and slime and apologizing for what happened in he past. slime doesn't really care cause the gods never messed with him much, if anything he was one of they few people they were kind to, and foolish had no problems since what they did never really effected him 💀

of course neither of them reveal what they are to any of the other residents (that don't already know) and just go on with their lives on the island, well wilbur goes off island for a while so he can go off and spread his music and phil stays behind giving small blessings to the islanders

when the kids come it becomes increasingly clear why phil was drawn to this place, he is the God of family after all. and to his surprise all of the kids have been blessed by various gods given to the residents to be raised as new champions, and of course the one phil ends up with just so happens to be blessed by one of phils own sons, techno

when wilbur comes back he can feel the presence of the young champions, but there is a stronger presence that he couldn't explain, at least not until he meets tallulah

because unlike the other egg children, tallulah isn't blessed by a god, and she wasn't born from the dragon like the others (I WILL BE MAKING A SEPARATE POST ABOUT THIS BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT IT GETTING LOST IN THE MASSIVE SUMMARY POST)

while the other eggs are simply blessed by gods, tallulah is one, and she's not just any god, she's a god born from music itself, from wilbur

he's not sure about being her father at first, he's too scared his lingering madness will infect and ruin her, but when he helps her paint her first sunrise he knows he will never be able to let her go

when he has to leave again he promises to send her the prettiest birdsongs every morning so she knows he will always be there for her. phil promises to protect her with his life while wilbur is away

the nightmare that happens isn't actually a nightmare, it really happened, and it's the first time phil uses his influence over death in centuries. he refuses to let his kids die like that, but if something like this were to happen again he wouldn't be able to bring them back. not without the other islanders finding him out

and everything goes back to normal, or as normal as things could be, until Bobby's death. and there's nothing phil can do, his domain may be death but even he has rule he must follow and he's already broken them once, he cannot do it again. the most he can do is bring Bobby's soul to the living world and allow his parents one final goodbye

and no one does find out, at least not for a while, when the Brazilians came a few of them seemed to know something was up but couldn't quite place what it was.

when tallulah gots attacked by the code phil got carried away and death slipped from his grasp causing tallulahs death

he can't help but feel guilty for not being able to do more for the grieving parents of the island

when the codes disguse themselves as Phil's kids he is pissed, and he can't help it when death surrounds him. if he uses an excessive amount of power while fighting them, the only one to notice is etoiles who had only seen philza use this kind of power once before

finding tubbo had been a surprise, and phil hadn't expected the warm hug he got. not after he left 300 years ago, after the loss of his family. but as it turns out he missed phil greatly and was excited to see him again

introducing him to tallulah and chayanne was easy, and they took to him quickly. phil was quick to make him their godparent (pun intended)

one day after putting the kids to bed with him, phil could tell there was something on tubbos mind. he didn't have a chance to ask what was wrong before tubbo spoke, saying he hadn't put a child to bed like this since... he couldn't even finish his sentence. sometimes he would see micheal in the egg children and it was just too much for him

and once again things seem to be going back to normal until the eggs are taken away. phil knows they aren't dead, he would have known if the were, but still their absence drives him mad. he has half the mind to think wilbur is behind his madness but he knows his son would never

the birdhouse is much like the prison tommy was once put in, and with the stress of losing the eggs, phil starts seeing things. and he really starts to wonder if some of wilburs old madness was re-emerging

tubbo is a mess with them gone, he doesn't want to lose another family

wilbur comes back to the island as soon as he stops seeing tallulahs paintings in the sky, and when he finds out she's missing... that madness he's been running from sneaks back up on him. he leaves before it can infect anyone else, and when phil finds him later he doesn't mention it

when he finds the recording of his song with tallulahs turtles, all of the madness disappears. perhaps it's his music that will reach her

and that's all the notable lore bits up till purgatory (I am begging someone to send an ask about purgatory cause I have many thoughts)

^this is a lie, there is so much I left out, like the entire backstory of why they were cruel in the first place, or how any of the dsmp backstories play into this, and also Kristin's whole role in this, and I completely left out ALL of the Hermitcraft and life series stuff that has to do with grian

I just put the bare minimum and this is still monstrously long 😭😭😭😭

genuinely anyone who makes it to the bottom of this post good job, it took me days to write because it was all off memory 💀

anyways please send me more asks about it because writing it all down has made me brainrot over this au again

#monstrously long post #this ones for you fern #if i make posts about any of my other 3 year old aus they will be just as if not LONGER #dsmp #qsmp #sbi au #asks or something #gods au

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dappersautismcreature · 5 months

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hey sorry this is super outta nowhere but i was scrolling thru the mcytconfessions blog n saw you saying youre a wilbur hater and im genuinely curious as to why?

this isnt me waiting to like. white knight him and bite your face off btw. i like wilbur but this *is* genuine curiosity pls dont be afraid lmfaoksdsdfkhf

ah yeah, sorry nonnie, and no worries. sorry for the rant ahead i just wanna lay it all out.

listen, its pure vibes, i dont really have an explanation for it. i liked him just generally for a while, but i watched a video where he talked about american gun control and it just came off super uck to me. like, a lot of british lefties have this weird thing where they will assume americans are all stupid just for kicks when we've actually been indoctrinated to think the way we do. i guess i just dont like seeing brits have political takes that are just pure "america needs to get its shit together" cause yeah bro we know, focus on whatever the fuck is up with ur government please. I feel like if i talked politics with wilbur soot he would be condescending as shit and basically explain to me what socialism is or whatever when its like, dude,, please. british lefties think they know more than the average young american, which is most of the time not true, or not something to insult someone over. (this is also because he reminds me of a shitty ex friend who was in the states for AMERICAN STUDIES but would just talk on and on and on about how dumb americans were -___-)

and its more than that, i never get idolization of people, like, online people. the closest ive come to it was technoblade maybe? gtws is pretty awesome too, bbh is low level idolization maybe. so it weirds me out when people are just in awe over him, makes my instincts go wild. im really not accusing him of anything, i know this is just the silly brain reacting silly. it just weirds me out. his fans do not know him, nobody's fans know the person, and yet they act like they do, and like he's gods gift to leftism and queerness when he is,, a cishet maybe-aro upperclass man from britain. nothing against him really.

oh, and his fans tick me off because theyre ALWAYS inserting him into things and just. listen, i dont like having to scroll through tons of wilbur fics in the qsmp tag when im just trying to get to some badboyhalo or etoiles centric fics. the man has been on the qsmp for like less than a week of playtime and he's the fourth most tagged character on the qsmp ao3 tag.

not to mention he gets dragged into other plots like "what if this actually happened to wilbur!" or "yeah but what if wilbur was there!" or my most hated "cant wait till this character meets wilbur because i cannot enjoy this media (which is about finding and enjoying a bunch of ccs) if it doesnt have my guy in it!" like i get it, you have a hyperfix or a special interest, ive been there, but maybe then go watch stuff he's actually in, instead of forcing him into a plot he really isnt that big a part of anymore.

people also praised his dsmp writing when it was,, average at best. honestly i think bbh's and the eggpire's writing did way more for the dsmp because they actually tried to include other people in the plot as much as possible, instead of just writing for you and a few of your friends. imo, c!wilbur was an ok character, like, nothing bad, but nothing extraordinary for me. utah is death, ok buddy got it, wow, insane. yeah yeah we've all been to the soul sucking pit of utah, haha i get it. << this is just pure salt ignore that lmao

oh and lovejoy didnt fuckin invent political indie rock, people need to get over themselves on that one.

so yeah, its just a thing of, i cant really bring myself to like him. the brain goes wonky when he's around. kinda wish i didnt like, get angry when he's on screen but idk i cant really stop myself. nothing againstt you if you like him, ill usually tag anyy wilbur neg with #wilbur crit so if you wanna mute that tag. i dont post it too often tho.

#asks #wilbur crit

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call-me-apple · 7 months

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15, 20, 25?

15. What's your favourite c!Dream AU?

I am more a fan of canon-compliant character explorations or putting guys into Situations to see how they act, but when it comes to AUs, I guess Syndicate AU is the one I have always found the most fascinating. Just because there is a very obvious point to make canon branch out in that direction, and I love thinking about how c!Dream would fair if he was thrown into an environment where people actually give a fuck about him, and even more-so, an environment where he gets to attempt to achieve his goals in less destructive ways. I may be a lorehead and an enjoyer of messy characters and messy relationships but my heart also bleeds for sweet redemption stories, okay. I contain multitudes!!

20. What are some of your favourite pieces of c!Dream analysis?

Literally anything by @overthinkingfandom, especially the strategist c!Dream manifesto; I am not sure how well it holds up these days, but it's still a fascinating read. This post by Bubbles is more of a ramble than an analysis and is also old as fuck but I love it nonetheless. Can't really think up anything else off the top of my head. There is plenty of meta out there that introduced amazing ideas into discussion, but few that is quite this overarching.

25. If c!Dream had to join an existing/former DSMP country or faction, which one would you choose for him?

In connection with my answer to question #15 - the Syndicate. I think it would allow him to enact the kind of meaningful change he seeks without, y'know, all the crazy unethical experimentation and mental illness his preferred methods entail.

#apple answers #elmhat

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jefferythejelly · 1 year

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wtf is going on between dream and quackity??? I looked it up but I'm seeing so many different opinions from people 😓 what's going on and will I have to pick sides? I'm just so confused by this whole thing 😭

oh anon what rock have you been living under (and can you take me there)

this got kind of long bc a lot has happened and it's been kind of slowly building up over a month, and i kind of used this as an excuse to do something i've been wanting to do and make a rough timeline of events, so hope you don't mind the incredibly long post. it has certainly been An April (/neg) around here.

march 10th- quackity announces the big project he’s been teasing, the qsmp, a minecraft server with both spanish and english creators. dream puts out a priv tweet the same day saying he’s been working on something similar to collaborate with worldwide creators and he’s mentioning it bc he doesn’t want people to be worried about copying once it’s announced (this is foreshadowing)

april 2nd- dream announces the united smp and its accompanying live translation mod with a video and a tweet. small note here that the video was originally supposed to be an april fools video at first, which is why the international creators are skinned as the different manhunt members, but was delayed by a day bc editing took longer than expected. discourse starts near immediately as drantis are quick to accuse dream of copying q's idea of a multi language server

april 3rd- quackity announces that a new live translation mod is being implemented in the qsmp. copying accusations are now coming from both sides. note that it has been 1 day since the usmp announcement, so the chance that q actually developed a mod in that time is basically zero. also note that dream said he’d been working on the usmp prior to knowledge of qsmp’s mod being public. this is confirmed by snapchats dream posted later this month of camera roll screenshots of photos of a whiteboard with brainstorming for the usmp with the date march 8th visible, which is prior to the qsmp announcement. the point i’m trying to make here is that the most likely explanation is that it's a big damn coincidence

on this day there was also a brief copypasta started by george and sapnap joking about the similarities between the two servers (the first multilingual smp with live translation). george goes live with the smp from his copypasta tweet (slutsmp) and several ccs join throughout (during the stream its implied he basically @/everyone-ed the entire dsmp discord). he makes several shady comments but at this point its unclear if hes memeing quackity, the fans making drama out of the situation, or both

kind of skipping over a few weeks here bc its a lot of the same Nothingness but basically: discourse continues to spiral, egged on by the fact that dream has continued interacting with/mentioning quackity but is met with radio silence from the other side. there are a few clarifications from dream on twitter during this period that the qsmp and usmp are separate concepts and that he does not hold any ill will towards q

april 24th- while already somewhat assumed after quackity announced the qsmp's translation mod, quackity officially announces that the qsmp will be adding worldwide creators

april 27th- dream drops this thread which i highly recommend reading for yourself bc it gives a lot of context. tldr: quackity hasn't responded to dream despite multiple attempts to reach out, from both dream and other mutual friends. dream doesn't know what's going on with him but doesn't want any more hate to build between their two fanbases. he is explaining this because he feels he should explain his motives/give context as hate has built up to the point of irl threats to himself and his family's safety. he says that he is changing the concept of usmp slightly so there is less competition between the 2 servers and reiterates that he doesn't want any hate sent to quackity and that he's proud of all he's done

radio silence from quackity for this whole day, and then:

april 28th- quackity goes live on twitch. he says nothing about it and announces the new brazilian creators for the qsmp

and that's... kind of where we're at? q has continued being active on qsmp and social media and has said nothing, mutual friends are continuing to interact with quackity, and we've kind of reached a weird stalemate.

there's also some small bits of context that are more on the fandom side of things as to why a lot of ppl aren't supporting quackity anymore, so i'll (semi-briefly) try to explain those here:

during all this a mod on the qsmp was (rightfully) called out for including a mob that portrayed incredibly racist stereotypes of indigenous people. q did eventually remove the mod after public pressure but his apology/explanation of the situation was incredibly lackluster, and he didn't address any of the server members who made racist comments about the mob or after the mod's removal. this soured a lot of people's opinion of quackity/the qsmp in general.

second thing is just general vitriol between the two fandoms. qsmp fans/quackity solos were already being nasty at the start of the month, and that only built as the month continued. i saw at least one instance of a fan supposedly being doxxed and having someone show up to their house over the drama, and heard of ppl having gore/photos of self harm sent to their dms (so y'know. classic toxic twitter fandom bullshit). i will say that the toxicity has recently somewhat risen on the dteam side of things as well, with people being a lot quicker to hate on ccs still interacting with quackity and generally being super neg abt q (tho i can't act like some of that anger isn't slightly warranted. hell, i've been super angry over this and i used to be a super big fan of quackity). a lot of people are disappointed in q's silence over this whole issue and believe that it is quackity's responsibility to at least publicly denounce the doxxing/threats being made by fans in defense of him, especially as it's something that dream has already done, both prior to this situation and during.

as far as "picking sides" goes... a lot of ppl here on dtblr have been doomposting for a while, and at this point quackity is basically in no one's good books. at the same time, most of the rational people i follow have been acknowledging the nuance of the situation, and that a lot of mutual friends may be caught in the middle right now (shit dude, you're talking to a foolish main and that dude's still on quackity's damn server). there's also the matter of dream basically asking people to stop fighting, which at this point i am very inclined to agree with due to the levels of discourse and toxicity that we've already gone through, plus i think it's a better alternative than the community self-cannibalizing any time someone mentions quackity

ultimately it's up to you to decide what you want to do with this info and how much you want to remove yourself/unstan ccs, but know you aren't alone if you're sad/disappointed about how this whole thing has panned out 🫂 it has certainly been quite the Month around here

#sorry this took so long to get to. i had class for 5 hrs and then when i got back i was tired & didnt wanna think abt discourse for a bit #i could go back and add links to tweets and such if anyone wants but i think this is mostly accurate #feel free to add on if there's anything you think i missed or could be helpful #and anon i hope ur doing well. also sorry for making u read all that <3 #asks #anon #discourse #long post #its under a readmore but still. fair warning. long post #ALSO this is all shit we already know if this starts up arguing again im gonna explode into a million pieces no one start shit #i dont think anyone will but i just get nervous whenever i discourse post bc im v nonconfrontational and dont wanna start more arguments #everyone b niceys okay....

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tfemdwt · 5 months

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shipping ask game, KWT and knf please :3

ship ask game

KWT - SHIP IT !! it's my favorite!

1. What made you ship it?

It just came to mind one day I'm gonna be honest. 😭 I don't actively seek out ships as much as I go "huh this would be interesting. Let's see if anyone else likes it." But like two days after I started brainrotting about it my favorite writer and now best friend (shoutout @selvish) posted a fic for it and I decided it must be destiny.

2. What are your favorite things about the ship?

The cuddles, Karl's silliness paired with Dream's puppy dog energy, the Twitchcon pictures.....

3. Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

Less of an opinion and more something I like to do I guess is if I'm writing KWT with angst Dream is usually the one starting shit. (Not on purpose he's just mentally ill and I'm projecting.)

KNF - ALSO SHIP IT!!

1. What made you ship it?

Same as above, I've been shipping it for like. Two years now? It just came to mind after I was thinking about KWT and I was like. Wait. What if....Karl and George. And then like a few weeks later what would eventually become the most important fic series in the world to me dropped (shoutout to Tender again) and it became one of my favorites

2. What are your favorite things about the ship?

I like the way they bounce off eachother, I think they make a really funny pair :] I've loved their dynamic since earlier DSMP days when we'd get 5/5 content (RIP). I think they work well with eachother and they're silly!!! I love silly.

3. Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

This one is hard. I don't think so ? Again it's more of a thing I do in my writing than an opinion but generally I like to write George as being more in control but Karl always being the stable one. My dynamic for them has always been George is a lot more outwardly aggressive while Karl is more passive aggressive.

#audience participation

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dr3amofagame · 2 years

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both jmah!dream and sam (double time traveler now lmao) get punted into very early dsmp. like before anyone other than the original 8 joins. how badly does this go? how similar is it to if this happened to canon!dream and sam?

Funny enough, I touch on this just a little in this post, if you wanna check it out - though that was a scenario where jmah!Dream travels back alone. If they both travel back in the same manner as jmah!Sam, as in they get their memories in their old bodies, then it'll - really depend, honestly.

If they're together with the og 8 around while it happens, both of them would probably be really really disoriented at the beginning - enough for the other people in the room to at least get a sense that something's wrong. This scenario probably ends with everyone dropping everything to try and figure out what's happening Because Concern - if they, intentionally or not, end up spilling some information about the last timeline, then everyone else would probably react w/ the general thought process of like, both Dream and Sam have been through some Really Fucked Up Magical Shenanigans and Really Need Help as a result. Even if more of the specific details of their dynamic come to light, the emotions from the other members of the og 8 wouldn't be nearly as charged enough for them to react super violently outside of a general sense of Getting Their Friends Help.

In this scenario, both j!Dream and j!Sam would kind of be a whole Process - and the situation would be messy - but given the support of their other friends, they could probably begin making steps in the right direction towards, y'know, not crashing and burning and taking half the server down with them.

Other possibilities include that of if they were just With Each Other when the memories came in, or if they were each completely alone. If it's just them two, then Sam would probably try to physically restrain Dream and end up failing - but not before both of them get pretty substantially injured. There's a good chance, here, where Sam loses a life. In a situation where he does actually manage to get Dream restrained - either because Dream was lacking in gear for some reason at that point, or low in health, or because Sam managed to get an order off that has devastating consequences for Dream given his lackluster gear compared to what he's used to - he'd probably take Dream and ditch the server. Any attempt at Prison 2.0 would be sloppy and ill-managed, given j!Sam's lack of any proper gear and resources and j!Dream being much less deteriorated from being tortured for a year, but it would probably end similarly violently.

After this, both of them would probably go into a manner of reclusion - j!Dream is terrified of interacting with anyone, in a lot of ways, and searching for insurance to keep the world from going to shit again. j!Sam is obsessive over trying to find j!Dream and keep him from wreaking havoc. The rest of the og 8 are trying to track down their friends + family members, who literally disappeared one day - and any actual interactions with them will probably leave them with the impressions that both of them are really really not okay and Need Help. Fun times all around!

#in a fun timeloops concept we were throwing around in the dreblrcord #there was a REALLY devastating timeline that actually hinged back to being thrown into community house era #but that's a different AU entirely #well. mostly.#time traveler sam AU #just me and him au #my asks !!

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commaclear · 1 year

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Important notice for my readers:

(cw for illness/medical problems)

So funny story sans the tmi medical details:

I have a brain cyst.

Yep, you read that right, a brain cyst. It’s about 1.6cm and it’s a real pain in the neck (or should I say head haha). It’s not life-threatening or anything, so don’t worry too much. But it’s still causing me a lot of problems, including but not limited to how long I can stare at a brightly lit screen, my ability to sleep, and also my entire lifestyle. It’s such a headache. Literally as I’m writing this, I have a massive headache.

So why am I writing this notice and posting it for strangers on the internet to see?

One of the big things (probably not the most important long-term, but hey, it’s important to me) that this gumball-sized problem-causer is impacting is my writing. It’s been getting harder to write and even harder to write well. I generally hold myself to a really high standard, and honestly the quality lately has just not been there. I’ve also got less energy, screens hurt my brain, and thinking also hurts my brain.

So basically, as much as I’m loathe to admit, until I can get this horrid thing fixed, my writing is either going to become very sporadic or stop altogether.

I believe in transparency, and also I don’t want y’all to think I’ve died or forgotten you, so here’s your notice that I’m probably gonna be away for a while.

Love y’all,

Comma

tl;dr I’m not dead or dying or kidnapped and locked in tower with no internet, I’m just having some medical drama that means I have to put my writing on hold for a bit

Anyway! Since this is also my pinned post, I should probably introduce myself...

Hi! I’m Comma! I’m primarily a dsmp fic writer here on tungle dot hell, and this blog is for my endless torment at the hands of my lovely anons (as well as memes only I find funny, political hot takes, and brainrot rabbitholes)

I’m not really one for self promos, but I guess I’ll link my Ao3 if you want to check out my nonsense

Other links you may have been looking for:

Breakup Algebra announcement/explanation

join my Discord to meet like-minded goblins!

The post-mortem for Close to the Bone

#ask to tag

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r0ck1n-0ut-just-f0r-th3-d34d · 2 years

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hey! i’m sol!! for my first post i guess i’ll just tell a little bit about myself.

-my name is sol.

-my pronouns are he/they.

-i’m a minor, so don’t be creepy or anything!!

-i’m a theater kid!!

-i’m trans (ftm) and queer (i don’t label myself explicitly, i just prefer the term queer when referring to my sexuality).

-my current hyperfixation is the marvin trilogy.

-i love love love my chemical romance!!

-i make moodboard thingies for characters. you’re welcome to request some, and if i know the fandom well enough i’ll make it for you!!

-i either talk in all lowercase or all caps and there is no in between.

-i don’t use tone indicators very often, but i will if people want me to.

-i have anxiety and ocd and i talk a lot (especially about my hyperfixations) so if that annoys you simply click off this blog.

-if you don’t have something nice to say, DON’T SAY IT. i’m a hypersensitive person and i struggle with self-love a lot already so just don’t be mean.

-i don’t really reblog stuff unless it’s super duper important. i have other social media accounts that are more activism type stuff but i wanted to keep my tumblr account just for talking about things i like, if that’s okay.

-dni: racist, homophobic, transphobic, ace/arophobic etc., ableist, terf, sexist, antisemitist, islamophobic, mysoginistic, support problematic people (this does not apply to supporting their creations, as long as those are not problematic as well. google death of the artist) dsmp fan, misuse aave, proshipper, MAP, pedophile, support pedophilia or incest, fetishize minorities (or anyone, for that matter), pro-life, trump supporter, biden supporter (do your research), republican, conservative, and probably other stuff, but that’s all i can think of right now.

-things i like:

be more chill (book, musical, and graphic novel)

mean girls (just the musical, i haven’t seen the movie)

heathers (movie and musical)

dear evan hansen (i understand deh is problematic and i do not support its bad interpretation of mental illness and romanticization of suicide and social anxiety and the way they paint evan as the protagonist. i like the soundtrack out of the context of the plot. i also am thinking about rewriting the show to become less problematic, with connor as the main character and evan as the villain, but i can’t write music at all so if anyone is interested in this project dm me.)

hamilton

the marvin trilogy (in trousers, march of the falsettos, falsettoland, falsettos)

beetlejuice (movie and musical)

stranger things (i do not support their antisemitist choice of filming at a nazi prison)

the umbrella academy (comics and show)

the true lives of the fabulous killjoys (concept album and comics)

heartstopper (comics and tv show)

there’s plenty of other stuff but these are the big ones

-bands/artists:

my chemical romance

fall out boy

blink-182 (i do not support their sexist comments)

nirvana

green day

set it off

the killers

yungblud

ajr

gerard way

all of frank iero’s other bands

and a bunch more, i’ll link my spotify in the next post

sorry this was so long. maybe follow or like?

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fandomandsparkles · 2 years

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so one dsmp fan to another. yall ok rn?

errrmm ill answer this qiestion sure

i’m not super good at dealing with serious stuff and when i found out i was around a lot of people who were happy and we were all hanging out and i had stuff afterwards so i just tucked it away and tried not to think about it??

and i still don’t kind of want to think about it. i’m sad and i’m shocked and i’m not good at talking about it sooo

i’ll reblog posts about techno if i see them and i’ll tag it as ‘tw death’ or ‘tw cancer’ for those who need it but other than that i don’t want to get into it personally

also i’ll still talk about the other smps i’m into (double life, hermitcraft etc) but i’ll maybe take a step back from dsmp?? we’ll see how it goes. i cant see myself stopping from being into mcyt but it’ll be a little muted for a few days i think. and less tumblr most likely.

rest in peace techno

#this is just tentatively what i think so if you see me being a hypocrite.. yeah.#but yeah thanks anon for checking in!#tw death #technoblade #asks #answered #anon asks

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littleturtlefish · 8 months

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it is week #2 of my school year and if my brain isnt permanently fried from the 3 AP classes im taking (I literally failed my first one bUT IN MY DEFENSE, THERE WERE EXTERNAL FACTORS TO TAKE INTO CONSIDERATION—), ill make sure it is because

confession time: i may or may not, slightly, possibly, hypothetically, theoretically get into homestuck

LISTEN. When YouTube recommends you a 2021 Davekat Scrawny lyricstuck and you only know a single word from that phrase (I like the song), you'd be curious, too! And, see, I am a moth to a flame when it comes to art (confession time x2: it's why I know more about DSMP lore than I should,,,those SAD-IST animations really do be fire tho) and that lyricstuck HAD SOME REALLY GOOD ART I LIKE THE ART STYLE THE SHADING IS SO CLEAN THE COLOR PALETTE IS COOL PLEASE WATCH IT. And, of course, my curiosity was focused on who these 2 lil funky guys were and their relationship because I'm a sucker for character relationships of all kinds and the comments mentioned AO3 fanfics and I just was SO curious and now im on the 50th page of the dave/karkat tag.

It was really fun figuring out wtf quadrants were through context clues. Also this ship made me less intimidated by 100k/200k/300k/etc. word counts because wow these two specific characters talk a lot and are really into their metaphors. Trying to understand a media's canon through fanfics is so genuinely entertaining i am surprised by literally everything OBAMA??????

My YouTube recommendations really are to blame for this because they also introduced me to some Homestuck flashes and I really like the music. Then, I came to the sudden realization: I would've been OBSESSED with Homestuck when I was younger. Lots of characters? A caste system + a whole bunch of roles (idk the name for it) that will spawn a bunch of Quotev quizzes? Art being a major focus of the media? Lots of text to read through? Younger me would've LOVED that, oh my god. Warrior Cats got to me first (the fandom makes up for the lack of art in the books haha) but you have no idea how insane I would've been if I knew I could've been reading something longer than the Bible FOR FREE. Then again, the comic was still ongoing at that time and I wasn't a fan of things having no ending ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

If in 2025 you see homestuck fanart from me, just know that this was an inevitable doom. This post is simply a forewarning.

#littleturtle? more like littlethoughts #I am a bit concerned since I heard there's minigames and such in the webcomic #and i do everything on my phone #the flashes aren't gonna bother me since im sure i can just look all them up on youtube or something #i heard theres a whole voice-acted version of the comic though so maybe ill just switch to that for the unfriendly mobile parts #i need something to distract my brain as i get through this school year #thirty-third post

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firep0wder · 1 year

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I posted 22,240 times in 2022

That's 22,240 more posts than 2021!

394 posts created (2%)

21,846 posts reblogged (98%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@theminecraftbee

@die-bi-iiis <3

@mcpe

@girlgerard

@timedeo

I tagged 8,663 of my posts in 2022

#fp.txt - 347 posts

#technoblade z''l - 192 posts

#my show - 107 posts

#fav - 105 posts

#illness tag - 45 posts

#dsmp - 44 posts

#asks - 43 posts

#dream live blogging - 42 posts

#mcr - 39 posts

#literally - 33 posts

Longest Tag: 132 characters (this is not representative I had many tags at character limit sorry)

#foolish snail enjoyer <3333333 💙💓❤️💕🤍💘💛💝💕💕❤️‍🩹💖❤️💗❤️‍🔥🧡🤍❤️‍🔥💜💝💛💕💕💛🤍💓🧡💕❤️💕🤍💟🤍🖤🖤💘💛💗💟🖤☮️🖤💘💝🤍💘

My Top Posts in 2022:

Both the openers have been like. You guys excited to see mcr? Yeah us too us too!! Hell yeah we're all here to see my chemical romance!!!!

40 notes - Posted October 5, 2022

I want to see less about bdubs cheating on impulse and more about impulse knowing and consenting to bdubs seeking polyamory.

79 notes - Posted June 28, 2022

It's mangobaII day btw in case anyone didn't know happy mangobaII day wooooooo mangobaII

209 notes - Posted November 28, 2022

Hang on guys I gotta spawn-proof this sticky note real quick let me just-

213 notes - Posted August 10, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

YOU DONT UNDERSTAND. MCR SHAPED MY WHOLE LIFE AS A PERSON AWARE OF BEING ALIVE. THIS IS EVERYTHING TO ME

954 notes - Posted May 12, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review

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sammygull · 2 years

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i havent posted on this shit in a long time i probably will more if i get more into it when im not as stressed el oh el. ignore all the ugly ass art below ill make something new eventually just as a headsup i won't be drawing dsmp as often at all and right now im into toh, mysims, advt, and mp100. im more active and comfortable on my twitter atm! i will always draw whatever i want but im less anxious on twt so i post there more.

#my twitter is sammygull_#txt

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isitoctober212015yet · 2 years

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techno

I'm only really today able to go back and look at a lot of things. It's been 20 days and im honestly still a wreck about it.

In 2020 my friend arcanist was posting about this minecraft guy in the foopets server. I thought that his little pig skin was funny, and it was a few ~30 second clips. sure ill watch these to be polite. But they were all very funny, most of them were potato war clips so I started there.

and i watched more, and i just was like "wow i like this guy but that's it" and then he joined the dream smp so i caught up on all the lore that had happened up to that point (a much easier task than it is for any newcomers today LMAO). and all those minecraft youtubers were cool too. huh. and as I got further invested in this fandom i discovered more and more people i would stick with, wilbur, phil, and tommy (i was a sucker for sleepy bois as soon as i found out about them. i love them) and ranboo, and tubbo, and ponk and eret and quackity and karl and niki and jack and puffy and all of a sudden i have a gaggle of like 40+ comfort streamers. but techno was always my most favorite. I'm a Techno main to my core.

I would drop anything i was doing to watch every stream of his live. I truly do love him, his humor, his content, his character (in the human sense not dsmp though i will defend c!techno to the death). He was a light. He was good. He cared so much. He was always funny. Even when he announced something so devastating he made sure to drop a plushie ad in the middle, and remind you to buy channel memberships and subscribe. He made channel posts to let u know he was still alive, and look at this cool bird. He made jokes every step of the way. talking about how everyone was weaker than him because they didnt have the same number of bones.

I just felt better knowing somewhere, he was out there. I was never under any illusion we would meet or be friends. I didn't want to be. I'm just a number and thats good. That's all I need. But now I genuinely don't know how to navigate a world that he's not in anymore. The smallest things can still set me off. I was peeling potatoes for dinner and remembered he's dead and started crying. I'm crying writing this. and finally looking at the art and tributes and recollections from his friends. I still panic when i get a youtube notification because I can't ever have any notification hiding his last video. and then i remember thats his last video and im set off even further. The first few days i remember seeing everyone else move on with their lives, talk about the new stranger things, their fourth of july plans. and i was so fucking ANGRY even though I know logically. They weren't aware of him. Of course they were moving on, their whole world hadn't ground to a halt the way mine had.

I loved him, I love him. He meant so much to me, more than I can really express and I'm so glad he was a part of my existence for the time I had with him. Even before he died I had accidentally absorbed some of his speech patterns into my own. I'll always have that with me. They say nobody is truly dead until there's no one left to remember them, and the legacy techno left is so vast and deep. Nobody ever could. And that gives me some peace at least. It hurts less some days than others. And I still cry a fair bit. But I have to try, for him. He'd call me cringe if I gave up now.

Fly high technoblade. I'll miss you. But at least with fellow fans I'm in good company.

#that kate bush song wasnt lyin

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