#ig had to look at my followed artists and liked songs to make this

[gloombeauty]

This is what Halsey posted the other day in her instagram stories. I posted it on my page, sharing my opinion how I didn't think Columbia Records would be happy to see this kind of anti-semitic messaging coming from one of their own artists. The entire Halsey fan community on this platform attacked and bullied me. I had to stop following them and block them. People who I thought were my friends. Horrible backstabbing anti-semitic monsters. All I stated were facts. The CEO and COO are Jewish. The A&R person at Columbia is Jewish. Clive Davis is the founder and is also Jewish. Halsey's manager is Jewish. But according to Halsey fans on here, that makes me a racist because I stated the fact these people working on Halsey's career are Jewish. It got so bad I had to change my name. Maybe you have better luck posting the facts.

First of all, you should never delete your opinion on your blog. If people don't like what you have to say, they can easily skim past your page or you can make them fuck off by blocking them.

I have no problem telling Halsey fans to go choke on a baklava before I click on that block button. The fact that Halsey fans in general lack their own personality and decided to be one of those "they/them" and "bi" this or that or whatever - just because their idiotic hero is all those things, is very telling. These people aren't even teenagers anymore. They are in their mid 20's - early 30's. They grew up with Halsey. The hilarious part of all this is that Halsey isn't any of those things. She's not bi and she sure as hell isn't a "they" but you know how annoying Millennials and Gen Z are. They find a problem and drama for everything. Halsey's whole brand has always been the annoying loudmouth obnoxious social justice warrior. You would think that having a kid would stop all that foolishness but no - she's chooses to be a one of those "they" people. Even after popping a baby out of her actual vagina.

In my opinion, Halsey is plummeting fast when it comes to her music career. She's lucky her makeup line is doing very well because as far as her music? That is a dead on arrival effort. I don't think Columbia will be able to pull a Capitol Records - taking an almost two year old song (Without Me) and throwing it into a new album (Manic) and stealing the hit single's successful streaming numbers and sales. That's how Manic didn't flop. But does anyone (outside of her psychotic fan base) truly gives a crap about Manic? Hell no. The reviews for that album were mostly negative. Pitchfork even said what an awful album it was and she went on Twitter wishing the basement where Pitchfork is located would crumble. What she didn't know is that Pitchfork is located at the Freedom Tower in New York City. That's the same location the Twin Towers use to be. The same Towers that were destroyed on September 11, 2001. How stupid did she look saying something like that? Very. She hasn't used Twitter/X as much as she use to after that. She was too busy exploiting Evan Peters on her IG at the time.

She had the gift of Trent Reznor and Atticus Finch producing her album and it bombed. Usually, everything Trent touches turns to gold, but what he produced for Halsey flopped. It flopped hard. A first in Trent Reznor's career. That means a lot of people just don't like Halsey. Imagine had it been Amy Lee instead of Halsey? It would have made a big difference.

Now, as much as Halsey's fans like to ignore this fact (or stay stupid - your pick) the people running her music career now are all mostly Jewish. Ron Perry, the present CEO for Columbia Records is Jewish. Halsey's manager, Jason Aron is Jewish. When Jason was posting about supporting Israel, donations, his family in Israel, etc. - Halsey's psychotic fans came into his IG page and started threatening this poor man's life. They were calling him an evil Zionist and other disgusting choice words.

Halsey's fans are demonic and yes, they are all antisemitic. Except maybe for a very small percentage like 0000.1% of the fanbase. The only Halsey fan that I seen on Tumblr that is normal, sane and not antisemitic is you. I'm sure out there, on other social media platforms there's more nice fans like you. The thing is, they aren't obnoxious or demonically loud as the antisemitic ones who scream "Free Palestine!!!" on every Halsey post.

That's why I feel Halsey posted this disgusting Gaza/Palestine propaganda garbage on her IG. To appease her disgusting fan base, who are 99% antisemitic. She's going to need them to buy/stream her new music. If she doesn't do well, Columbia will drop her in a heartbeat. The same way Capitol chose not to renew her contract. Capitol are dicks for what they have done to Katy Perry and Sky Ferreira, but look at all the money they spent on If I Can't Have Love, I want Power. Close to 25 million dollars - and it flopped! The next single she released So Good flopped. That's why they refused to renew her contract. I don't blame them at all.

So now, more then ever, she will need all her little antisemitic fans to support her new music.

Also, knowing that her manager is Jewish, why would she ever post something so disgusting against his people? I'm sure Ron Perry didn't celebrate that IG story either. He's probably sitting somewhere regretting that he signed her.

Do yourself a favor and block every single Halsey account on Tumblr. Trust none of them to be "your friend" because they aren't anyone's friend. Get a real friend in the real world. Finding friends on Tumblr isn't it.

#halsey #evan peters #i stand with israel #i support israel #trent reznor #anti woke

[sutang-hoon]

Ummmm...... so it's my first time asking you so I'm kinda embarrassed and shy to do this but I need more works from you because your works are so fucking perfect as you!!!!!!

Is it ok if you can make some sort of idol!jake (I was also gonna request this to the rest of the Hyung line but you gotta need some break also so no) x idol!reader story (both male of course) and let's say remember "The Game Caterers" they both knew each other there and stuff. AND both them of had like sexual moments which makes all people in the place ship the both of them and also fans edit them noticing as cute and flirting but not sexual (I hope you know what i mean). At some point, they saw the edits (let's make both idols buffed and bulking since they be working out) and they became horny for each other and started hanging out and it's up to you on starting and ending the smut part so yeah.

I really hope you understand what I wrote and I really really hope it's not much of a burden and stress to you for how long this is. I'm sorry and I love you!!!!!!!

game caterers — sim jaeyun x male!reader (m. with a mix of f.)

PAIRING: sim jaeyun x male!reader (he/him)

SUMMARY: you were invited to film a fun little variety show along with your labelmates on one breezy summer day. and by labelmates, you were definitely going to see him. sim jaeyun.

WARNINGS: fluffy smut/smutty fluff halfway through, protected sex, soft and slow sex, making out, blowjob (reader receiving), rimming, mentions of other kpop groups

AUTHOR'S NOTE: barely watched game caterers but here we go ig! and i'm so sorry this took so long i had zero motivation to finish this!

you close your eyes as you feel the cool breeze flow through the air. it was a sunny but windy afternoon. a group of cameras were pointed at you - you waved. as you walked towards the venue, you saw multiple tents, six, specifically. a member of the filming crew directed you to your tent as you thank them and bow.

you watch as multiple groups and idols walk into the place. you make out most of them.

le sserafim, fromis_9, seventeen, txt, and you were unsure but nue'st, and lastly,

enhypen.

sim jaeyun, one of the oldest members of enhypen.

sim jaeyun was an interesting guy. he's seen as a goofy, happy-go-lucky guy. most fans fall for him not only because of his cute little personality, but also his looks and talents as well.

your eyes follow him, watching him walk towards his group's designated tent. everyone else settles down and you all listen to the producer, who announces that every group/artist to do a small opening and a mini performance of their latest song.

a few minutes later, it was your turn. you stand up and did what the producer asked - the other groups clapped as you return to your seat. you feel a pair of eyes on you, but you brush it off.

the producer introduces the first game, which was the classic red light, green light. boo seungkwan was chosen as the "doll". a variety of snacks and drinks were present.

you step into the game area along with the other groups and artists. the game starts, and you do your best to move as close as possible towards the end whilst trying not to get caught.

"hey. care to help?"

sim jaeyun again. he asks you as his eyes flick between you and the large number of snacks he's currently carrying - there were so many snacks that he uses both of his arms to hold them.

"green light!" you take a bunch of snacks from him and scurry towards the finish line. a few artists were caught, and the number of people slowly dwindles down.

you managed to win the game and jake smiles. he gives you a pat on the back, and the other groups walk back to their respective tents, happy and excited to chow down on the provided snacks.

jake surprisingly invites you to eat the snacks along with the other members - you greet all of them before taking a seat next to the guy. the two of you give out proper introductions to each other. and just like that, the two of you were happily chatting and laughing away. you talk about stuff like idol life and jake even shares some gossip, to which you curiously listened. at some point in time, you kinda forgot that there were cameras filming.

the overall atmosphere was light, breezy, and fun. you've played multiple games already - time passed by pretty quickly although you enjoyed your time and stay here. you grew closer to jake and you start developing small feelings here and there. he was cute, his puppy-like looks and personality when he saw a stray cat walk in front of him proves just that.

the final game was announced, which was a random kpop dance. it was simple. come forward and dance when you know the song - and mentioned song's choreography. the game starts off smooth but gets progressively harder as it goes on. choi yeonjun was impressive though, he got most songs and is still going strong.

the both of you were certainly enjoying, occasional looks at each other and exchanging laughs, you tried your best to make it until the end. unfortunately, an unfamiliar song comes on - you look at jake, "i actually don't know this one." jake starts laughing and you join him, and you got eliminated eventually.

you sit on the side with jake, watching the remaining artists dance to the final set of songs.

"i had a lot of fun." jake turns to you and flashes a smile. you return the smile. the game eventually ends, with the producer announcing the winners, who'd receive a coffee truck, as said earlier.

"uh, can i ask you something?" jake turns to you, scratching the back of his head. he shows you his phone - the keyboard was already pulled up.

you raise an eyebrow. it was obvious what he was implying. "my number? you just like me don't you?" jake playfully slaps your shoulder, he had a huge smile plastered on his face.

"look what we have here." jake shows you a video on his phone.

it was a video of the both of you, you could tell that this was made by a fan. a fan edit. another one. the video was edited in a way that... was shipping the two of you? the song choice was pretty romantic.

you've been seeing these types of edits ever since that day, you weren't complaining though, and jake seems to be enjoying these edits, even going as far as to send you the latest ones he has seen. since then, jake has been inviting you to hang out. your relationship with him grew closer over time.

jake places his phone on the table, stretching his arms back. he takes a bite out of his food - the room was quiet, but in a good way. "do you think hybe would do anything about these rumors and edits?"

it was a good question, considering how strict the industry is. "probably, but if hybe doesn't do anything about it, we might get shipped left and right." jake seems unfazed and he gives you a shrug. you will admit, that was kind of attractive.

you roll your eyes at him playfully. "so it's fine if people think we're dating?"

"yeah."

"but our careers will be at risk!" you playfully banter with jake for the next few minutes. jake would ignore you on purpose, only for you to slap him again. the "argument" goes on for a little while.

jake suddenly stops to look at you dead in the eye, to which you stop and give him a trivial look. jake bites, his lip, his eyes locking downwards.

"you wanna kiss me so bad."

oh god. you were taken aback by what he said, your ability to think was thrown out of the window - you just sat there, gawking at him. when you finally regain your composure, you reply back. "oh yeah? make me." you put on a little smirk and squint your eyes a little. jake laughs, closing the space in between you two.

"are you trying to challenge me, babe?" jake switches to english, and fuck, that was incredibly hot. you stare at his lips as you move closer to him - you know damn well how fast your heart is beating right now.

jake pulls you toward him, pressing his lips on yours. jake's lips were so soft, like a pillow, which makes you kiss him deeper. jake groans in your mouth, low and needy. you closed your eyes as you deliciously explore his mouth.

he pulls back, a playful and boyish grin on his face. god, he looks so good right now, you feel your knees go numb. he stands up, grabbing your hand, leading you towards his room.

jake closes the door and locks it behind him before pushing you down onto his bed - he peppers a bunch of kisses on your neck, you emit a low whimper, his lips tickling your neck. he lets his tongue out from time to time, dragging it across your neck.

you feel your shorts getting tighter as jake gives you another kiss. the guy helps remove your shirt before removing his own too.

"man, you didn't tell me how buff you were?" jake was toned, especially around his chest. he's flattered, a giggle leaving his lips. "you aren't too bad yourself." he runs his fingers along your toned body, the slight pain mixed with the tickling sensation made you shiver a little.

jake presses his lips on your neck once more, taking the skin in between his teeth. he smiles when he hears you moan - jake's huge hands snake down to your shorts.

"j-jake." you watch as his hands palm you through your shorts, and you vocalize yet another moan, jake smiles and giggles against your neck. the giggle he let out was so low, that you roll your eyes back.

jake gives one last peck on your neck before extracting his hand, he reaches into the nightstand and pulls out a packaged condom. "can't forget the protection." you watch jake pull his shorts down, he was pretty huge. jake notices this, and winks at you. "i'll be slow, i promise."

he removes your own shorts, your hard on finally out. jake licks his lips and wraps his hand around your length, to which you grit your teeth. jake starts pumping you and you close your eyes and squirm.

jake suddenly gives you a kitten lick and you jolt. he smirks - "is my pretty prince sensitive?" you nod fervently. jake's response was to give yet another kitten lick, you feel your eyes swell up, you were so fucking sensitive. jake shows no mercy as his thick lips litter a bunch of kisses on your cock.

"god, you're so pretty like this, what if i leave you like this?" jake's movements slow down, his hand covered in your pre-cum. "no, please." you cringed at how pathetic and needy you sounded. it takes a while until jake gives yet your sensitive dick another lick. another minute later, he takes you whole in your mouth.

he starts bobbing his head, his tongue rubbing on the underside of your dick. you, on the other hand, start squirming and thrashing around. stuttered moans and "yes" es leave your mouth. jake looks up at you and holy shit, you swore you almost came, his eyes were sparkling and so innocent-looking, although his actions right now were far from innocent.

you grab a fistful of jake's hair - he moans a little due to the sting, and the vibrations just enhance the pleasure. you start thrusting into his mouth. jake tries not to gag, his eyes filling with tears and drool sliding down his chin. "mh- jake, shit!" you snap your hips forward, desperate for release.

the pleasure starts seeping into your veins - evident by your moans and heavy breaths, increasing in pitch. what heightens the experience was jake moaning around your length, the vibrations were just the cherry on top.

"oh, god, jake! fuck!" you feel your climax approaching and your grip on jake's scalp tightens. your thrusts increase in speed due to how desperate you were for release.

you almost screamed as you milk every drop of yourself in jake's mouth. you jerk and twitch here and there, and jake tries his best not to hold everything in. without warning, jake swallows everything and releases you from his mouth. panting, you try to recover from your climax.

"you swallowed it all?" you ask jake in disbelief. jake wipes his lips, smiling. "i've done this before." he lies down next to you and opens the condom. right. you forgot you weren't finished yet. jake shuffles down the bed - he places himself in front of your dick and hole.

"oh god, just wait, i'm still recover-"

jake swoops in and gives your hole a lick. "j-jake... stop," he doesn't listen, swirling his tongue around your hole, which clenches around nothing. jake closes his eyes, his nose rubbing against your perineum. you try to push jake's head away with the remaining energy you had, which failed.

"s-stop, jake, please!" you almost cried out, and jake pulls back, who grins at you. that motherfucker. jake takes the condom and slides it down his length, he moans a little, he hasn't touched himself ever since you started. jake leans over and takes the bottle of lube, squirting some of it on his fingers.

"alright, i'm gonna start prepping you, ready?" jake looks at you for approval and consent and you give him a nod. the lube was cold as he rubs it on your entrance. jake slowly pushes in with a finger - you suck in a breath between your gritted teeth, breaths unstable.

"you're fucking tight." jake groans and moves his fingers to loosen you up for him. jake then adds a second finger, watching his fingers disappear inside you and you shake in pleasure. he curls his fingers - he gets taken aback when you arch your back. jake realizes what that means - he found your sweet spot.

"mh, look at you, back arched and used dumb just because of my fingers. you think you can handle my dick inside you when you're like this already?" he curls his fingers and continues abusing your sweet spot. you're drowning in too much pleasure and bliss to reply at this point.

jake plays with you a little bit more before pulling his fingers out. they were covered in both lube and slick, and you whine at the empty feeling. he then lazily drags his length along your hole, and you groan in response. "fuck me already, please."

"my pretty boy is so needy, huh?" jake slowly pushes in as you both let out distant groans and moans. you wrap your legs around jake's waist - that little action turns jake on, and he fills you the the hilt.

the two of you just lay there. jake waits until you're ready, but you stare at him for a while, hand coming up to touch his cheek. you stare at him lovingly.

"you're so fucking pretty." you tell jake, who laughs. he looks stunning, his forehead is glossy with sweat, his pretty hair all messy, his toned body on display and his smile, his goddamn smile. you two stare into each other's eyes. jake bites his lower lip.

jake slowly moves his hips, still maintaining the oh-so intense eye contact. jake places his arms underneath you, and you hold onto them.

the moment was insanely hot and romantic and you'd for sure remember this moment.

jake groans and buries his head in your shoulder, hips moving slow but deep. cute. he was just like a puppy.

"you're so fucking tight." jake whispers into your ear, who emphasizes it with a surprisingly hard thrust that catches you off guard. jake pulls away and starts snapping his hips. your grip on his arms tighten, and you held on for dear life.

jake knows he won't last long - it's been a literal hour ever since you two started. he feels the coil in his abdomen get tighter and tighter, and it's about to snap.

"s-shit. i think about to cum."

"m-me too." you two hold each other, lips parted and heavy breaths slipping out. both of you were sweaty, but neither seemed to care.

just like that, jake empties into you, burying his head in your shoulder once again. he hiccups due to how sensitive he is, body twitching. you cum too and you silently cry out, holding jake closer to you. the two of you just stay there before jake grabs a bunch of tissues to clean up.

once he pulls out and discards the condom and the tissues, he lies down again but now he's next to you, panting and staring at the ceiling. jake turns to face you, a smile on his face. "so... we're together now, right?"

"probably. you haven't kissed me yet."

"did you not remember the thousands of kisses i gave you?" jake is confused, but you didn't accept that.

"give me another kiss."

jake finally gives you a peck on the lips, and you're satisfied. the two of you were satisfied and happy without a care in the world.

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[dojae-huh]

so lucas got his first solo!!!!!!

u knw what twtr i is exploding.... Haha.... Some are being neutrals while some acting like the scandal is happened with them.... Like they have seen it through their eyes!!! I mean as a new one to this fandome I only can read the news.... Yes there was a scandal, a bad one actually.... But I don't knw how much of it is true.... So if u hate him ignore him nd don't listen to his songs.... Nd u like him just support him rather picking up a fight with those hate him..... That's all i can say.... But am really curious abt smthng...

I mean, even if u r doing a great job the company won't always invested in u much...most of the cases are like that....nd when u got into a scandal, there goes ur career into a bhooom....like u knw these entertainment companies won't just support someone....even if they are introducing a new face they work hard to make them famous coz they can't risk the amount they spent on that person..they want profit....but here in lucas case, what made them so confident abt get him into the field again... I mean he had such a big scanadal nd got really hate, ofcrs i knw he still has a good fanbase but u knw, it won't be an easy task... There is risk... There is a chance of it won't make it big... But still SM daringly made him a solo artist really makes me curious.... Does he have some connections or what.... Or is he really innocent that company wants to give him a chance..... Nd I don't think that pink company is that much generous.... Coz they even made shotaro nd sengchan into another group just becoz they are already famous, so puting them into another group would make more benifit to reach out to the fans.... That compnay only think abt profit rather than their artists feeling, so what in the world they got the confident lucas would bring back lot profit through this solo?! Normal idols not getting things while scandalous one got it..... I'm totally confused huh nim.....im soryy if my words made u offended, if I'm wrong correct me nd share ur thoughts on this.... Thankuu ☺

Lucas was accused of things of various degree of villainy. Most fans never cared to look into the things more deeply, read the disproof by fans who investigated the case, just jumped on the hate train. And now those people think they continue to stand on the side of "good people" who condemn cheaters, sexual harrassers, rapists, etc. And, of course, there are just plain antis.

Taeyong was cleared from accusations of being a bully and others in 2020. It is now known he had one of the worst childhoods among 127 neos, was even sent for a month to his granparents, away from school he didn't want to go to. And even today fans spread misinformation about him being a "nasty person".

Many Lucas' fans stayed and demonstrated they were waiting for him through trending of tags, comments on IG, etc. SM could see the continued interest and rely on that core fanbase. Lucas is going on a fanmeet tour around Asia, which demonstrates SM being sure it will be sold. The upside of working for the global market is that being cancelled in one country (here: China) doesn't nesessary mean that other countries will follow suit. When SK starts to hate a celebrety, that celebrety "dissapears" to Japan or China for a couple of years (works there non-stop), and makes a comeback back home, once people forget.

I suspect Lucas is Chris Lee's personal project. He uploaded a photo together with him a year or so ago, and appeared in the documentary. Either Chris was empathic, knowing Lucas personally and how the things actually were behind the scenes, or he wants to try to return a banished idol back and make a case for the future. Idols are cancelled all the time, and recently it has become a big problem. Just look how many idols were kicked out from their groups, and big ones. This issue will become even worse in the future, with deep fakes and AI voice generators.

LSM also gave chances to some of his artists after they caused problems.

SM signed Kim Woojin, who was ousted from Stray Kids. He managed to clear his name with the help of lawyers, proved the accusations were false, but it was too late.

Lucas wasn't a super big star, not like BigBang members, for example, or BTS. He has star quality, a potential to be very big, however, SM has new groups and current ones that bringmoney. It's not like he is last resort, worthy of risking everything. As such, SM returning him means whatever mess ha was involved with, it wasn't criminal. Not something that can comeback like a boomerang again if media really tries to dig something up (and not antis proliferate rumours).

Shotaro and Sungchan's opinon was taken into consideration. The transfer was agreed on with them. Yes, Riize gets a lot of problems with scandals, but the degree of it wasn't possible to predict in the past. The two boys fit Riize better than NCT Wish, and they don't need to work from scratch again and build thegroup's popularity slowly. Just look at choreos. Shotaro would be bored. Meanwhile Sungchan is too tall for teens like Ryo or Sakuya. He is pushed as the next SM visual, while Wish' concept is cute boys.

#ask me again #lucas is cas uri cas

[cyuutie]

i’m like a drive downtown whilst listenin to slow n reverb songs in the middle of the night. i’m like a breeze of nostalgia ppl have. whenever anyone meets me, all they’re reminded of is moments of joy from their past. i make ppl feel deja vu, jus smt they can’t explain. even attempting to explain would confuse them. ppl can’t figure out what exactly they’re feeling rn, but it’s def joy. i am a real life angel, blessing ppl wherev i go. ppl would trace all my movements wherev i go thinkin “damn she’s hella fine”, i have a hypnotising aura. i may not talk to ppl but looking at my eyes alone can make ppl catch feelings, even those who don’t believe in love at first sight would b in awe at what i did to them. no one can touch the hearts of ppl like i do. i’m like- this special being. no one’s evr met sm1 like me b4, i’m jus too rare. gotta catch me when u can loll. ig my energy is described at “outta dis world” but frrrr it is. i have this enthralling, fascinating presence, no one can grab hold of it. once i enter ppl’s lives, it’s like heaven 4evr for them. they’d describe it as “she’s the best i’ve ever had, non can make me feel the way she did”. i have this way of words that jus makes me too irresistible, like, it’s so heavenly. even if i’m jus runnin for errands, i look hella good. i’d jus walk down the street n all dem fine ass guys would instantly turn round to see me “shiiiii she’s comin this way brooo”. ppl try so hardddd jus to get my attention alone. i’d nvr sit for anythin that’s not good for me bc i always know my worth n i’ll always hold myself high. i’m so gorgeous like bro i’d date me if i can. everytime i look at myself in the mirror, it jus makes me so happy, a feeling of euphoria.

and ofc, everytime i look at the mirror, i only evr get prettier. it’s jus nvr ending beauty enhancement. my makeup always looks good, it’s as if the best artists did it for me. i can do my makeup professionally n always look good regardless of whether i’m wearin it or not. i can play round n make myself look like dem girls on insta. i can find the best makeup for a decent price. my skin is perfectly clear as if i was takin care of it for yearsssssss n i own the best of perfumes. like damn i have a whole shelf full of them, n i always smell good regardless of wearing it or not. i have this feminine scent that jus draws ppl on. my parents allow me to always wear whatev i want however i want it out. i always am attracting my typa clothing, my own distinct style. ppl try to copy my style but bro, u ain’t even doin it rightttttt. my whole closet is jus filled w the most perf of clothing. i own sm clothes from vetements, true religion, vivienne westwood, off white, rick owens, ralph lauren. i own sm skims, subversive basics, cargo pants, oversized graphic tees, sneakers, scarves, everything. i have the perfect type of jewellery, i own sm necklaces, chains, bracelets, nose rings, earrings. i own the best accessories. i finna b startin the trends w the way i style. i have sm layering accessories. i take the cutest of pics n vids. i always look good in pics n vids in any type of lighting. i’m too photogenic, u can take pics of me off guard n i’d still look hella good in it. mugshots nvr have a thing on me. i have sm followers on social media,, these girls would b makin me their pfp bruh. i’m too fucking beautiful duh? obv. ppl would b remindin me of how hot i am literally ALL THE TIMEEEEEE but ngl it’s nice. my features r all jus perf. anyyyyy vid i take i look pretty, like bro the inverted cam does no shi to me coz i’m hella pretty. ppl would b askin how i became so pretty bc i look like a completely diff person. i always look good when i go out n my parents allow me to dress howev i wanttttt. my makeup looks too fucking pretty to b real tbh, like them filters on insta, but dis irl instead. girlies keep getting jealous at how i look tho.. but it’s ok. i’m too popular on social media, these ppl would rep to my stories complimenting me all the time “u look like dem girls partynextdoor cries ab”. my days always go smoothly n i’m always happy. i love meeeeee, tbh i’d date me if i can.

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[antioliviarodrigo]

On Sabrina: Olivia is obsessed and insecure of girls prettier than her that men might pick over her. Its strange how people don't see her lyrics as creepy (the songs about Sabrina or any girl she is jealous of- Gracie/Madison). Olivia gives single white female. During drivers licenses era, her dad was liking shady tweets about Sabrina song skin (who was guilty of writing a response song- I guess Sabrina can't have her own truth ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ). Her friend Cameron was shading Sabrina on his twitter and making fun of ”Skin”.

On Gracie: I have a bit of tea on Gracie and Olivia ”friendship”. When Gracie broke up with her boyfriend Blake, Olivia was hanging out with him and getting cozy (nothing happened). This was during sour era, and Gracie became cautious around her and stopped messing with her. They stopped hanging out until the Grammys so I guess they are cool now but not as close before.

Unrelated but Olivias new concert videos are so cringe and the faces she makes...she is trying so hard to be seen as sexy and it just falls flat. I also don't trust women that date men that look like Zach Bia. That goes for both Olivia and Madison. No I won't be explaining.

Random but Olivias teeth used to be yellow af and her ex Ethan was yellower. Tells me one thing: they sleep without brushing their teeths and thats nasty af. My teeth are white naturally cause I take care of my hygiene. I am only pointing this out cause in Jealousy Jealousy, she says ”cause all I see are girls too good to be true / With paper-white teeth and perfect bodies”. But by this time, her teeth had been bleached white professionally, so she was lying. Like girl ur teeth would be white if you brushed them?????

Unrelated but Sabrina old music was way better than Olivia. Sabrina's lyricism is incredible. She needed a better team that's all, and she should have never signed with Hollywood records cause it killed her career. Sabrina voice is better too, more soulful, raspy and sexy.

Olivia, Sabrina, Madison, Billie, etc. All these other pop girlies would never speak up about Palestine. Olivia posting on abortion was laughable when Israel is killing Palestinians. Sabrina still friends with Joey King who supports israel. They choose money and fame over morals. Same with Billie wearing a ceasefire pin when she NEVER spoke on Palestine or even linked something to her millions of IG followers. She knows people are being praised but she doesn't want to put in vocal work so she thinks a measly pin would do something. Bitch fuck you and your pin. These people know who runs Hollywood and they don't want to lose Grammys, Oscars and all these stupid bought elite awards. Rant over byeeeeeeeeeeee ✌️✌️✌️✌️✌️✌️

Oh wow. That's a lot. I definitely didn't know any of that. I think a lot of the younger artists like Olivia and Billie don't have a backbone when it comes to speaking up and using their platform. It's still laughable that livies think Olivia is empowering women because of "Fund 4 Good". It is so obvious that her feminism is fake and it's just a show.

#anti olivia rodrigo #anti livies #anon ask #answered

[mrjlogic]

Name a better 4 album run… I’ll WAIT! Each album shifted the momentum of hip hop culture in its own way. All 4 are certified CLASSICS! 3 Feet High: woke up all the kids like myself that enjoyed blerd culture + were artists deep down and loved that they combined timeless music mixed with comedy and smart lyrics and a unique STYLE! De La is Dead: from jump let us know you’re entering an alternative universe so hang on tight (because we wanna swat the people who only liked “me myself and I” and misunderstood what “Da.I.s.Y Age” really meant off the train! The story book with the artwork and proving you could be different and still make hits. Buhloone: (my fave De La album) put folks on notice that they are the best Emcee’s and they lowkey influenced how me and mine dressed + carried ourselves it had us dive even deeper into our artistic selves. The song ‘I Am I Be’ is FLAWLESS imo and I think De La’s most important (if not best) song. Stakes: This album to me changed my whole thought process (again) + let me know that they can buck the current trends but at the same time better those trends (those J DILLA beats PROVED this!) and it gave more guidance that substance and art are STILL important and you can still follow those yet let the gun toters know that “we will still bust your a**es with these mic’s” without having to be fake “tough guys”. Each album aged profoundly and we watched them grow not only as artists but as men and they as a group raised the best generation. If you doubt me then go look at the kids of true De La Soul fans. They’ll most likely be the most well rounded + kindest kids in the friend group. To me De La has NEVER had a bad album or showed any signs of slipping even in todays musical mindset. They are one of the few timeless artists of my lifetime. They are MY Beatles and ATCQ are My Rolling Stones (or is it vice-versa?) Meaning they’ve never lost their staying power and have continued to have a great impact to millions of music fans. IG limits the text so I can’t go DEEP but @danteross put the idea in my head asking “best 4 album run?” De La Soul hands down! Thank you Dave, Pos & Maseo! #delasoul #thankyoudave (at Rock and Roll Hall of Fame) https://www.instagram.com/p/CqHL_aPp-Xb/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#delasoul #thankyoudave

[skywitchmaja]

my dear beloved treasured mutual eva @bisexualdecay via herbal tea raven teentitans icon sent me an ask game that was something like “choose 5 songs you actually listen to and send this to 10 of your favorite followers ⭐️” except whoops! that was a whole week ago and whoops! i lost the ask BUT i’m still gonna talk <3 i am NOT going to send this to people bc i do not have the original to send i am so sorry i was so looking forward to it :-( BUT all my followers who see this please do talk about 5 songs u like and tag me :-) or don’t bc i have broken the formalized ask game aspect of it so no pressure. it is definitely not necessary to spend a whole paragraph talking about each song but alas i have super adhd so. here!

stay soft by mitski

because i recently got my “open up your heart like the gates of hell” sweatshirt and it’s SOO cute and comfy i wish it weren’t a hundred fucking degrees outside <3 AND because the afformentioned lyric reminds me of “there’s some kind of burning inside me / it’s kept me from falling apart / and i know that you’ve seen what it’s done to my heart / but it’s kept me from falling apart” from goodbye my danish sweetheart which is possibly my favorite verse in any song ever <3333 so that’s kind of a two for one!

fetch the bolt cutters by fiona apple

these! shoes! that were! not! made! for running! up! that! hill! i’ve been listening to a lot of fiona lately and this album is like. so cinematic to me ig bc i associate it with talking long walks around my old neighborhood in austin at the beginning of the pandemic and this is a worthy title track

thank you for the venom by my chemical romance

sissssster i’m noooooot much AHH! poet! but! a! criminal! and you never had a chance! like everyone, i have a renewed appreciation for mychem, much inspired by beloved mutuals such as urself @bisexualdecay & @milfygerard (and i’m sure there are others im missing xoxo) and this song is sooooooooo <3 the guitars the fast bits the sing-y bits it’s like. dynamic? idk if that makes sense idk how to talk about music but i like this one :-)

seven by taylor swift

from the moment i heard the first piano notes, driving home from college, i was enchanted. one of my fav taylor swift songs definitely top 5. for some reason this one makes me think of this girl i was friends with for exactly one week at girl scout camp, i don’t even remember her name. and this song is a really pretty shade of green!

après moi by regina spektor

this one messes me up because i always want to look for it on the blue album or one of the red and black and white albums but it’s NOT it’s on the yellow album!! anyway regina spektor is one of the first artists that wasn’t what my dad was listening to or what my friends were listening to and she really shaped my taste in music and i love this song i love when she sings in russian <333333

#hi eva ty for sending this it was fun even though i did it wrong!

[nightswithkookmin]

Jimin is getting hate again just because of a humoured Taekook subunit 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 how to protect our precious Angel

Sadly we don't have the numbers. We never had. That's the reality their solo IGs have exposed. We been knew though. The OT7 agenda has never been about stanning each member equally. In fact, it's been worn as a badge of violence, a badge of oppression, a font and camouflage to disquise the inherent baises, preferences and favoritisms of some members at the expense of others.

It's sad and unfortunate they bullied anyone who so much as pointed it out or questioned the authenticity of that agenda and labeled them solos or antis and propagandists.

The OT7 slogan has been used as the go to excuse and justification and license to be dismissive of the troubling and disconcerting schisms and unequal stanning prevalent within the fandom. To that I say, shame on Army. Shame on all of you. Y'all exposed your butts.

They prove this time and time again when they never stood up for the members equally when they recieved hate, remained silent while it happened and pretend they are each loved and hated on equally, refused to admit that that's never been the case- OT7 is a delusion. Anyone who preaches that or worse acts like that's the case is just plain delusional.

Perhaps now they would be forced to confront these biases within themselves and within the fandom, fight and stand up for the members who aren't necessarily in the majority here and learn to call out the bs when others come shitting.

The why they are hating on him is irrelevant to me because they is no justification for hate. There's no justification for abusing others, traumatizing them or terrorizing them. Hate is not the answer.

Just be a good human and I promise none of this would happen.

Apart from the clout and wanting attention, why does the existence of one person bother people so much??

The more they hate him the more I feel compelled to love him, pray for him, root for him and protect him.

If we had the numbers things would have been easier. They use divide and conquer tactics. They stick together but will draw a wedge between us by constantly pitting our differences against us and each other.

Tuktukkers are 'hard to cancel' but jikookers are so easily deactivated and bullied out of the fandom because jikook centers Jimin not JK. Worse, jikookers will be the once to terrorize their own out of the fandom because they has pleasing streaks. Pick mes. Always looking for praise from other shippers. 'I am a joker but I'm different.' You know I'm not like the rest- A. B. C .D EF. U

I dedicate this song to all Jimin haters and anyone out there claiming i hate Jimin. You all can FUCK OFF.

Hybe can FUCK OFF TOO for allowing this to happen for this long and not say a single word against the so called 0T7 solos in disguise.

While you are here, if you are not following ALL the boys on IG FUCK YOU.

IF YOU ARE OUT HERE AND YOU DON'T LIKE JIMIN BURN IN HELL

IF THE OT7 PARROTS CANNOT CALL THIS HATERATION AND VIOLENCE AGAINST JIMIN OUT AND CALL FOR HYBE TO PROTECT JIMIN BY SUING OR THROWING OUT THESE SLIMY CREATURES OUT OF CONCERTS LIKE THEY DID FANSITES FUCK THEM.

FUCK HYBE

FUCK ANYONE WHO THINKS I HATE HYBE.

IF HYBE IS WONDERING IF I HATE EM THO

You protect Jimin by not spreading the negativity. By not giving those attention seekers the engagement and retweets they are so desperate for.

You protect him by loving him.

Unfollow any 'big account' silent on this. They are enablers and JM antis in disguise.

Help clear searches.

Boycott hybe. Yea I said it. They are enablers too and because of money are too afraid to go after toxic army. Until they put out a statement to warn ARMY they will protect their artists even against THEIR OWN 'FANS' they do not have my respect.

Stream his music.

Post links of his songs under the comments of his hate tweets lets give him free exposure and make him money from these ass warts.

Lastly, report these hate comments for targeted harrassment and hate speech.

I hope he doesn't let them get to him.

LOVE JIMIN TOO. OT7.

Goldy

[camrensrealbish]

Lauren's Zach Sang interview Dec 2021

*Please watch the interview before you read this. I don't want you to be biased. This is an important one and worth your time*

Before we start, let me tell you what we know about Zach Sang, his other interviews, and Dan. He interviewed 5H in 2016, 2017, then Camila in 2018 for her self-titled promo and Lauren in 2018 for Expectations.

During Camila's interview he got a lot out of her. Dan was really digging in and trying to connect the dots about who the songs were about. He asked: "How do you keep all this so private because you haven't had any big public relationships other than Austin Mahone when you were twelve?". And asked who Consequences, Something's Gotta Give and All These Years are about. Notice how they always use they/them pronouns. Interviewers who aren't in the known never do that. Zach also said he had seen her at a party and she ended the subject really quick.

Zach has definitely seen and heard about stuff behind the scenes. He's also friends with Ariana Grande.

Ok let's get into it.

7:50 How do you define a pop star?

There is a machine behind it. In the way it operates behind the scenes and in the way the art reaches people.

She made sure to point out (a few times) that there are a lot of pop stars who are artists. You have to be connected to your art.

Pop starts are told they have to be things. Being a pop star takes a tremendous amount of work. [..] Money is what makes things move. You would expect them to invest in organic things and they do when they want to. They tell you that you're amazing, but really what they think is amazing is what they can make you, not who you are.

We've seen exactly that with Camila and we've all of them in the group.

12:40 Why she went independent

If they don't want to invest in me, I'll invest in me. I'll put my own money behind it because I believe in me.

(Funny coincidence, there is a moment of Camila's roundtable talking about the same thing).

Hopefully, it works out, because if not, shit...

I hope so too. Look how hard it is to be independent. The industry tries to do everything to have control over you. Even for someone like Lauren, with a fanbase and a platform and resources, it's a risky move.

14:10 New beginning

The pandemic was a reset on a lot for me. 2020 in general was a reset on a lot for me. It made me confront what success meant to me. A lot of things were swiped away from me and I was just confronted with a new moment in my life, an independent moment in my life.

16:00 What was success for you in Fifth Harmony?

Change of priorities. I hate how they're always talking about the same shit around the same time. Camila recently posted on ig how success isn't constantly working on the next accomplishment but being grateful for what you have at the moment.

Btw since when do we call Fifth Harmony "Fifth", Lauren. Lol.

25:50 Journals and 5H journals.

Same, Dan. Same. Imagine how much information is there if it's from 2014.

28:10 Don't Wanna Say

I was, like, damn. This is so sexy, man, I gotta speak Spanish. And then I said something dirty in Spanish, that my mom helped me proofread. I'll wait on you. Open your mouth, say something. Don't be scared, baby. Come closer, I dare you. ("I'm daring him to dare himself... or herself. Them") I already know that you know exactly what to do With this body, that you look at. You're thirsty

Notice how she translated with he/him pronouns first.

30:44 Queer icon

First of all, we know what still is the most popular in the queer world when it comes to Lauren.

Second of all, she said she wrote it [Don't Wanna Say] for a couple people. And although it might not be true and can be a tactic not to answer a question (as we've seen with Camila e.g.), I have a feeling she's honest here. Lauren is a bad liar and gets awkward. Here she answered without thinking too long, she was consistent with pronouns. Then followed with the specific number of people.

31:45 Do you listen to your music when you have sex

She said no. Wasn't thinking too much about that. I think, if she had sex listening to her partner's music, she would hesitate a little bit.

32:05 Has anyone played their music for you while getting intimate with them?

Played their music for me? Is that a weird way of asking me if I've been with an artist? You've met some of my exes? No, I'm just kidding

I can't believe she slipped like this. How do you forget about a two years long relationship? A relationship that was talked about on the exact same podcast? Her mind was completely somewhere else, so when he reminded her about Ty, her first reaction was to call tyren bs. She didn't catch herself. Can't believe she debunked tyren like this lol. The truth always comes out.

When she realized, she had to clarify very fast, not to get in trouble. "Yes I was and yes sometimes we did." Just a short sentence to end the subject. Bullshit.

And the way she added "just kidding" when she didn't even say anything. Camila always does that when she says something gay or something she shouldn't about Shawn.

What artist, that Zach met was she thinking about, if not Ty, you ask?

The same one she thinks about in the next question.

32:34 Who were you apologizing to in Sorry?

The way she looks at Zach and then tells him he's a sneaky motherfucker. Because Zach knows some things and she knows he knows.

She takes her time, not to slip up this time. She already did in the previous question.

What do you think based off of that reaction. No, yeah. No, though.... Yeah... yeah. That relationship meant a lot to me. ... So a lot of the songs... it moved me to write music.

Omfg. I'm gonna scream, cry and throw up. There is only one person she stutters this much when talking about. The tactic here is talking as little as possible. Not leaving clues. Maybe because it's dangerous, or maybe it's too emotional. And look at her face. She only has this expression three times in this interview. Here and 39:57 when talking about Fifth Harmony again.

Then she talks about On Guard.

Take a look under my heart Run your hands over my scars Maybe too much So I gotta see who you are Before you inspire the art

Can you see Dan connecting the dots? Same, Dan. Same.

This song clearly relates to No Way "everybody comes with scares, but you can love them away" and In The Dark. Or is it just me

35:00 Do you write about the positive emotions as well?

Is that another dig?

Now she's alert. If he knows who she's talking about in the two previous questions, now he wants to know the outcome of that relationship. And she stops him right there.

35:40 What do you learn about yourself after releasing Prelude?

She gets sad. Sighs. Rubs her neck. But decides to talk about the positive sides and the craft. Moves on from the emotional questions.

38:50 That story is crazy, the Fifth Harmony story.

Oh yeah. Top to bottom

Has everyone moved on to the point, where nobody even wants to tell that story anymore? Because the story hasn't even been told, ever.

I think you've gotta wait a few more years for that one. When we're in our 50s, 60s. When people can't tour anymore and make money.

Lol Lauren

No, but I love those women very much. And I'm so grateful to see everybody doing their shit. That's all that matters. We got to where we wanted to be.

Is that a sisterhood that lasts forever, or is that a coworkership?

No. We went through too much life shit together for it to just be a coworkership. I think that... [it's this facial expression again!], in a sisterhood there is just this constant love, no matter what. We all took our time to heal, that's the path that we're on right now. 'Cause a lot of what happened wasn't even us. It was all of the pieces around us. And we were all really young. We were literally adolescence. We had to 15-year-olds, two 16-year-olds and an 19-year-old. [...] There is a lot of factors into it. There is a lot of different realities at play. [...] Like I said, we were young, adolescence. Thrown into spotlight. Because remember, X factor is a reality show. You're on TV in front of millions off the bat. And we all just had our own way of processing that, that affected obviously one another. And that affected the group in general and that affected us personally. And now we're at the point in our lives where we're healing from it and we're each doing what we were truly meant to do for ourselves.

And a very important sentence.

I can't blame people for who they are when they're hurt. [...] So many adults taking advantage of this naivety. It's abusive. And I can't blame anybody for how they had to process going through that.

45:30

Oof that's that for the heavy stuff. That was a lot. I like the last part of the interview. She got so comfortable with them, showed a little bit of her normal self. What we learned is that Lauren is horny. Just imagine how much sex they had to have if they are both like this.

Ok but... Let's come back to the important things we found out.

When watching this interview, I changed my opinion on a few things, because we got a lot of clues here and some clarification.

1. There were some real conflicts in 5H and tension, but now they understand that the circumstances and people got in between them.

2. Not all of Lauren's songs are about Camila, although "a lot of songs [are about this relationship]". I'm sure she talks about her at 32.34 when talking about Sorry.

And then came a huge revelation for me.

They are not together anymore.

I've been hesitant for a while, but always said I want to wait for some clue, suggesting that they either are together or not. And I got it here.

I believe her when she says "that relationship meant a lot to me". She got so sad, but at the same time, you can see there is no regret. She says a lot of songs are about this relationship. I'm sure it's gonna be a majority of her album. That explains, why she still writes about her when they are not together anymore.

Listen to Sorry again. It's both about 2014 and now/2020.

I don't think Don't Wanna Say is about Camila. I think it is about someone she's been with since they broke up. Maybe a polyamorous relationship, maybe an open relationship, maybe two separate ones, since she talks about two people.

We had clear proofs in 2018 and 2019. You can't deny they got back together (I think at the beginning of 2018). AMAs, then Latin grammys then Romance with every song about Lauren. But the clues stopped in the middle of 2020. The only thing was Lauren's connection to Shawn on social media. They are still connected in the business/public aspect and they're always going to be. But that isn't enough of a proof to me that they're in a relationship.

They still care about each other very much and I really believe that was the most important relationship in their lives for both of them. I can't claim they're together anymore though. Because of the explanation for Sorry and the one for Don't Wanna Say.

That's it. I'm gonna go cry now.

#2021 #Youtube

[aphrodite1288]

Ks has been receiving love calls since he was still in the army. He had already said that if he was asked to participate in a variety show, he would accept. He doesn't want his private life exposed is one thing, doesn't mean he doesn't want to be promoted. You are making excuses for the neglect, mistreatment and sabotage the career him

#Disclaimer: 1st of all that's going to be a long ass Post to reply to any asks like that, so I hope people would read everything and not just read half of it and go bark somewhere about something I said that I have explained later but y'all didn't reach it to read it! So read everything before making comments or sending me asks. I don't want to repeat what I said here. So read before coming at me and bombard me with asks about stuff I already discussed here in this answer!

Sis you barely even know anything of him now. He already started filming his movie in June and finished filming his MV in late May or early June and you knew nothing about it 💁🏻‍♀️ coz if he really wanted to share that with y'all he would have mentioned it in his bubble or at least we would have seen him outside in the set. BUT HE DIDN'T WANT TO 🤷🏻‍♀️ HE doesn't want y'all to know, and don't tell me "coz SM is locking him up in the basement" that's why he can't breath and write you in bubble?? Heck! He even comes sometimes just to tell us about the weather or to drop a song and never mentioned about anything else about his life or his schedule. Normally all the members update about them going into their schedules but without revealing the content of the schedule coz that's the rules, but at least we get a pic or two of them heading to their schedules! To know that they're jobless! Heck Sehun is jobless now but we see him more than we see Ksoo who's extremely busy with a drama a movie and a debut and album preparations and promotion preparation! But Ksoo doesn't want that! He doesn't want y'all to know things about his life or what he does, or where he goes 🤷🏻‍♀️ That's why his fans and Fansites are so secretive and don't share anything, UPON HIS REQUEST. And to respect his extreme private character.

If he wanted he would have accepted Variety shows darling. He is busy filming a drama and a movie and making a debut and an album and preparing for promotions. Do you think he is free to be on Variety now? Even if he was asked , he can't now. Maybe later after or during his debut to promote for his album yeah, But definitely not now. Yes he had opportunities and he refused them coz he's busy. And maybe we would see him in the future but he is not into reality shows that much. Now he is focusing on his acting career and singing career relatively. As he is still not built as a solo artist yet to start a new journey for building a variety character and image for himself now. But maybe after his debut. Hopefully 🙇🏻‍♀️🕯️🕎

Sis he is busy, booked and he doesn't like being in the lights. He said it himself he had trauma in the past that left scars on him and affected his behavior with his own fans that's why he said he is distant from them.

Stop making me look like I hate Kyungsoo. This account is MAINLY and ONLY about HIM and Ji 💁🏻‍♀️ do you think I'd bother make an acc about him and talking about him 25/8 if I hated him 🤦🏻‍♀️

Fans don't want to admit their idol don't like interacting much with them 🤷🏻‍♀️

That's the truth. He likes his job but not the fans and sasaengs and aeygo part of it. He said it himself, he even thought of quitting Many times, as he found that he isn't FITTING into this idol world.

There's something u need to know, SM only wants to renew with Ksoo and Chan and Ji and Baek and mainly KSOO and Baek. So he is not sabotaged he is favored in the company. It's just that he doesn't like working with sM anymore! and he is enjoying his acting career and idol life while being locked up in the studio and movie sets without fans mobbing him and following him everywhere. If it wasn't for Hongki we would never know that Ksoo started filming and making his album and blah blah. Yes Ksoo doesn't like talking much to the fans and he isn't the type of idols to share everything about his life and everything he does.. with his fans. As he does his job as a real job and he enjoys it. I sometimes doubt that ksoo is the one writing in bubble 💭 except for the song recommandations maybe. 🤔

If he wanted he would have sent y'all pics of himself in Bubble like how all the members do but HE DOESN'T WANT TO 💁🏻‍♀️ Now go blame SM on that too.

I was always told that Ksoo said he wished he was a professional actor and singer but to not be famous! He said he wishes to be known for his talents and to do his job that he loves so much but to not famous at the same time 😂 which is impossible btw. He said he hates fame. He wishes he could do the job he loves so much but without the whole interacting and fame and spotlights part of it. I was told that. Since very long ago and I was sad at first to hear that. But after seeing Kyungsoo enjoying his privacy and not being mobbed and respected by his fans, I was extremely happy. Heck you can rarely hear anything about him or see any pics of him from his fans coz they keep everything to themselves coz I was told that that's what Kyungsoo wants and they keep his life private and never share anything about him- I was so happy to see him do what he likes the way he likes it in complete privacy.

We rarely hear he was out with someone for a meal but when we do, it's years after it happened 😂 or with no pics at all. Like how he met Zico and they were both at the studio maybe collaborating. But we didn't get any pics from his solo stans and Fansites not even Exol. Cuz they know he doesn't like it when things about him get exposed .

Like we rarely saw any pics of him outside not before military nor after. And this been happening for years now since debut (I mean the issue of rarely getting updates and pics about him in the streets or restaurants or hanging out with friends) wdym SM is putting him in the dungeon for once debut?? No! Sorry he was the most promoted member and the first one to start a solo career as an actor ONLY 2 years after his debut when he was still a rookie, he has always been the most promoted among all the members even before Jongdae and Baekhyun ! 🤷🏻‍♀️

To put it up in another way: Ksoo doesn't like working with sM anymore and all the members too as they're all now going to leave and not renew so they mostly accept few of the projects suggested to them to make profit from them and stay active in the lights in the mean time before they decide what to do later. So they will not risk taking big opportunities with big companies or shows and sign big-long term-contracts for a long period with big acting or variety companies coz they can't do much projects now in the name of SM since the contract is nearing its expiration, so as long as they r still labeled as SM ARTISTs and still under SM contract so SM would still take their fair share of the profits, So since their contract is nearing its end..they can't do big projects that require long period of time such as accepting deals for long term positions in a show such as "Official MCs" or "Fixed cast member in a show that would last for years" or to "sign with an acting company coz most of them have the bare minimum for a contract is 3 years i guess (idk i don't remember) or to sign with any company that obliges a long-term contract " etc.. coz SM would still take their profit even after they leave as the contract was signed with those companies when Exo's contract with sm was still on. And that's the last thing they want.. is after leaving your shitty company, they would still take profits from you.

Also most companies don't suggest you big and long term projects when your contract with your company is nearing its end! That's why most if the members now are jobless only getting few short-termed projects, Coz these companies are not only working with the idol BUT they're working with their company as well. As it's the one who decides most of the the idols opportunies and decisions and does everything for them.

So if you don't like the truth and don't like to hear things that don't go along with your fantasies about your Oppa then that's not my problem 🤷🏻‍♀️ Go Fix it .

And I hope you won't drop Ksoo after discovering something about him that you didn't like to admit he has 💁🏻‍♀️ he doesn't like yall to know things about him and he doesn't like interacting with his fans that much through social media. He has a private IG and if he wanted to talk to y'all he would have made a public one but he doesn't 🤷🏻‍♀️ just like Jongdae! And they are free and we should respect their decision! Jongdae Chose his private life over fans and trust me he is so happy with his wife and daughter and i saw them with my own eyes. He is enjoying his privacy and he is caring less about what haters are saying or if fans are disappointed.

You should get used from now on to the feeling that your bias doesn't want your nose always in his life and doesn't always want you to know everything about him and doesn't want to show himself up in programs and projects he doesn't want to do just COZ YOU WANT TO SEE HIM THERE. Also Make it in your heads that your bias private life and his close people are 1000 better than being with you all the time and satisfying your requests and fantasies💁🏻‍♀️

Respect and understand that your idol doesn't always want you to know everything about them and if your Oppa likes to be introvert and private you should respect that ! instead of complaining 25/8 on Bubble and twitter and IG about wanting to see him.

Be like Korean Exol they see Ksoo they meet him all the time they photograph him yet they never share anything or if they do it's after a long time, just coz they respect him and they know how private he is and how he hates his info and pics of him enjoying his day being exposed all over the internet. That's why we rarely get updates about Ksoo from OPs. And even if you beg them to buy his pics and updates they won't give u anything. That's why sasaengs always say they can't get anything about ksoo coz it's very hard as he is a very private person and his info are the hardest and most expensive to get.

Remember in the first half of 2019? When he disappeared for 6 months straight and never updated one word about himself and we were so worried and though he was leaving? He didn't even come out to deny the departure rumors it was SM who did, instead when we were all scares he was leaving and we haven't heard anything of him and were dying of concern, he was enjoying his cooking courses and applying for military and preparing for his position as a chef in military and going on vacation with his friends and squads and lover and chanyeol and you didn't know anything about him, you didn't hear one word from him! (Except for the pics with chanyeol at the airport and just coz chan was there if he wants tI doubt we would have got pics of ksoo at the airport leaving to japan) And he went straight to military after that with no update nor a goodbye Party nor anything! Just a plain letter in which he said he will enlist and after that he disappeared for 3 years (6 months before military and 1 year and a half of military and 7 months after discharge💁🏻‍♀️) Heck He even went and told the member that he will enlist without hesitation coz he is like that and members said they were shocked when he came and said he is enlisting all of a sudden like he just told them he was going to play football or something 🤷🏻‍♀️ He didn't want to make a goodbye party for his enlistment like how XIUMIN did, and why again? for the same goddam reason 🤷🏻‍♀️ don't you ask yourself why we rarely get any news about him 🤔 it's COZ HE DOESN'T WANT YOU TO KNOW. 😂

After his discharge we heard he went along with Park shinhye and his Hyung actors squad to play golf together right after his discharge (in January 25th) , in February but we got no pics 💁🏻‍♀️ Why? Same reason🤷🏻‍♀️ everyone in korea knows Ksoo doesn't like coming out of the closet and expose himself to the public and interact with FANS and haters and obsessed fans and sasaengs.

KSOO WAS TRAUMATIZED BY FANS and SASAENGS AND IF YOU KNOW WHAT THEY DID TO HIM AND WHAT HE SUFFERED YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND HIS LACK OF INTERACTION WITH FANS and you WOULD GIVE HIM EXCUSE. HE CAN'T HELP IT! He tried so hard to get over this issue but couldn't. HE LOVES HIS FANS BUT HE CAN'T INTERACT WITH THEM PROPERLY AND HE APOLOGIZED ABOUT THAT A LOT! So please understand him.

Sometimes it's not always the company sometimes it's the idol himself who wants some SPACE. Maybe A LOT of space 😂 in Ksoo's case.

I'm not making excuses for the sabotage and Mistreatment, I'm showing you the Kyungsoo that you probably don't know.

We can't judge SM mistreatment to him now as he is not active now, but once his album is dropped that's when we would see and we could judge if they treat him well or not. And i hope his album would get all the promotions his talents deserve.

[vminsarchive]

Why is V TK pushing lately? WOOSHIK only following JK & V on IG, which seems sus. V blindsiding JM he's working on music with JK & specifically mentions Christmas, now Vs new song mentions Christmas. V clearing his throat saying JK is happy, clearly implying cause of him. V posting him & JK on his IG. TK car sharing, wearing matching clothes. V wanting JK in his vlive, but has refused to do one with JM for over 5 years. JM literally crashed it only to be blindsided by V and JM looked very hurt.

ok first wooshik is an individual, he can follow whoever he want and i don't think there's something sus. if we are going to overthink about then first of all why ashley (halsey) still didn't follow their accounts? is not she their best friends in western artists? didn't she posted a photo with them and wrote 'uncle gang'? or why did jung hoyeon follow taehyung and didn't follow the rest of the members? or let's discuss about wooga squad. why don't taehyung follow his hyungs but all of wooga members are following taehyung's acc? or why did taehyung follow jennie and then unfollowed? was that an accident or was he trying to show us something? maybe he was trying to get her attention? or why didn't taehyung, namjoon and hoseok write 'bts' to their bio/name? are bts going to disband? aren't these things suspicious too when we look from your perspective? i don't understand why are so many fans puzzle their brains about idols' ig accs. thinking on boys' accounts, followers etc. is not my cup of tea. i just feel so happy because they're going to be active and they can post lots of stories in their vacation days 🥺 yup, it's the only thing i care about between all of the chaotic things.

anyways let's move on. i love to catch little details about my otp (it's clearly vmin) but i think sometimes it's better not to think too much about their actions.

they have a life behind the cameras and even if we think we know so much things about them, we are really not. they have their personal space as they should. we have to stay away from this and don't get into it so much, as we should. so there are too many things that we do not witness.

i don't know them at all. im neither their close friends nor flesh and blood someone in the group. im just a simple fan who stans bts like 5 years, maybe more. but even if i had a lot of time with boys, i can't do a detailed character analyse or something like that. the only thing that i can talk about this question is... the question. yeah

you can think too much about this issues, i have no problem with it but please stop saying bad things about taehyung, please stop talking like there's a love triangle between maknae line, please stop depict jimin as a hopeless lover. i beg you, please do not do it. im really trying not to pissed off right now. you can wonder my thoughts and i would like to talk you guys about vmin, bts. i really love this. you can also ask questions about vminkook but you can get nowhere with calling taehyung to 'not caring about jimin' 'blindsiding jimin' 'ignored jimin too many times' etc. taehyung is one of jimin's best friends, taehyung is jimin's soulmate and i bet if jimin read this question, definitely it would make him sadder than taehyung and jungkook's matching clothes.

bts have been together for more than 8 years. of course they have matching clothes. of course a member can be a reason of the other one's smile. don't them make a group hug when a member crying in concerts or don't them try to cheer him up again? remember when taehyung really cried hard in a concert and jimin gave him a back hug to make him feel a little bit comfortable. remember when yoongi's family came to their concert and at first sight yoongi saw them, he started crying on the floor. other members, especially jimin, helped him to stop crying. remember when jungkook deteriorated in a concert, behind the scene (it was on burn the stage but i don't remember the episode rn) boys were really worried about him. after that yoongi confessed he went and cried in the restroom when he saw jungkook like that. i can give you lots of examples if you need more and if this helps you with stop thinking like 'the only one taehyung care about is jungkook'

go and please take a look at jungkook's instagram collection named scenery. you can clearly see taehyung is taking jimin's photos in the end. yeah taehyung is the one who took photos in jimin's last twitter update. also if we are going to analyse ig posts then why don't we talk about taehyung's first post? he posted a skeleton of a dinosaur, wrote "dooly the little dinosaur" then jimin replied with a comment "it must be bigger than me, right?" then taehyung replied jimin's comment with "isn't it you?" see? maybe taehyung really wanted to refer jimin and jimin got it. can't taehyung thought about jimin while he taking a photo of that little dinosaur? if vmin having bad days why are they messing around ig comments, writing to each other's posts?

this will be my second and last reply to questions like this one. i can't stand for the words you used about taehyung. i love him so much and he has literally a golden heart. he does not deserved to be mentioned as 'blindsiding jimin'. these words are just horrible. i won't let you guys to manipulate their acts. im not here to hear your obsessed thoughts about how taehyung is blindsiding his soulmate, how jimin is crashing in every moment that taehyung's spent with jungkook etc. you really see whatever you want to see and you acting like a blind for other things. i mean jungkook shared vmin, taehyung referred to jimin in his first post but you are still thinking about taehyung's other posts, wooshik's followings? sorry but i think you are conveniently misunderstanding. taehyung is a human, jungkook is a human, jimin is a human. let them feel comfortable at least in a simple thing like instagram. let them be them, as namjoon said. im so sorry if im being rude but check yourself before you wreck yourself, im begging. i know you love vmin but it's really a wrong way, wrong words to express yourself. sharing a car or spending time together doesn't mean you blindsiding your soulmate, your best friend. no one is guilty or no one is innocent here. being close with a member of your group -actually family- is not a fault. please leave my boys, vminkook, alone if you won't change the way you think. thanks for asking. i might be rude, i dont know but it's the second one and im done so hope you can bear with it. i apologize if my words hurt you. thanks for asking, have a good day/night 💜

[because-its-eurovision]

You have probably seen this UMK ig post https://www.instagram.com/p/CWLe9D0tsVb/

What are your thoughts, who are the contestants?

And if Cyan Kicks really is one of them that's interesting.

Ah, cryptic UMK clues my beloved. Year after year exaggerating and/or making no sense at all 😄 This is gonna be a long one, so hold on (for hopeless).

First of all: Robin is NOT one of the UMK contestants. He has a cruise gig booked on the same day. Sorry, everyone ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I think the rumour about Cyan Kicks was started on Jodel when someone noticed that they were following UMK and Aija Puurtinen (UMK's singing coach) on IG? This is a band I've actually heard before and really wouldn't mind seeing them competing. To my knowledge they released their second album this year and don't seem to have any gigs booked between February and May 2022. If I recall correctly, someone had asked them about participating in UMK and they'd answered something like "interesting idea", which doesn't mean anything. (Niko and Joonas also follow them on IG, but again that doesn't prove anything since the Finnish music industry is tiny and especially among rock bands everybody knows everybody else.) It is more than likely that we'll get a least one rock band in the contest, but remains to be seen if it's indeed CK.

However, around a week ago UMK IG started following these seven artists: Lxandra Tomi Saario (Aleksi also follows him) Ressu Redford Ursusfactory Saint Aurora (I think I saw someone on tumblr speculating about them as well?) Kaija Koo Shiraz Lane (!!!)

If you ask me, this absolutely does look like a credible line-up. A couple of up-and-coming pop/hipster solo artists, a couple of well-known names to attract the casual viewers and three rock bands because that's what the people want and has now been proven to work in ESC - three times, no less 😄 UMK's media team is also notoriously bad at keeping secrets, as far as I remember there hasn't been a year when the contestant's names, songs or music videos didn't get leaked at some point or another.

Last thing I want to add is that I also saw speculation about an artist called BESS, again based on the fact that she followed UMK and Aija on IG. This is all hearsay, so she could or could not be in.

Edit. I couldn’t be bothered to check if any of the artists on that list have upcoming gigs between February and May, but if someone does it will be much appreciated 🙏

#I love to ramble about UMK #so thank you anon! #asks #eurovision #umk #uuden musiikin kilpailu

[nebulanebula]

SHINee:

Their youngest member is one of the most versatile artist in kpop, doesn't care about gender roles both in outfits and make up as in choreo, has the most original ideas and creates masterpiece after masterpiece everytime he releases sth new as a soloist, also the best dancer in kpop. Debuted for the first time when he was just 15 (!) and then debuted with other projects in every next generation.

Their "worst" dancer easily keeps up with the best and follows every choreo with no difficulties... basically, their "worst" dancer is best than 80% of kpop idols. Their lead vocal performed opera during their concerts as his solo song, iconic tbh, no other idol would ever be brave enough to do so.

Another one of them is considered the best looking idol (we stan visuals ok) but the more important thing is that behind that gorgeous face and body we find a man who is the most caring person ever, with the softest heart filled with honest, genuine love for all the people around him.

Another one is the most fashionable person in kpop (no one will convince me otherwise), doesn't care about the "proper idol etiquette", is not afraid to say what he thinks no matter what (which is so rare in kpop industry). He's still the same, original "self" as when he first debuted and I'm so proud of him that he never tried to change himself to fit into the "kpop idol" stereotype.

Another one was creating the best, most sensual songs, with very brave (for kpop) and very personal lyrics talking about intimacy, mental health struggles, relationships. Even when fighting depression on his own, he still managed to give words of wisdom and support to fans who were sad or suffering. Even though he was suffering himself, he still managed to smile and laugh and bring us joy and lots of positivity. A huuuuge supporter of lgbtq+ community, was not afraid to be vocal about it even after getting hate for his actions...

Every single one of them has had solo projects, either singing (all of them) or acting, talented af. They've been inspiration to so many new idols, like.. Ask any rookie, they're gonna tell it's shinee who got them into kpop. They've been on top for over 12 years already and they're not stopping. Even during their 2years long break, they'd still place somewhere in top 10 most popular bands every month. They gained their fame in times where there was no tiktok or ig or any other sm that's so popular these days (even YouTube was just like.. 2 or 3 years old when shinee debuted). They genuinely love each other and think of themselves as family. One of them members arrived at TV studio right after being released from military, still in his uniform, just to see another member perform his newest song. They are together again for the first time in two years and they're still the same. The jokes, the banter, the skin ship, the love between them.. It's like nothing has changed, like those long months of separation only made them stronger.

They continuously create their own style, have an image that stands out in a crowd of all the other bands that have ever been active in SK for the past decade. They've had no major scandals, ever. They continue to shine, inspire, create, bring joy to their fans no matter the circumstances. They went through the worst imaginable thing as a band and yet they didn't let harsh comments and insensitive people break them and still managed to comeback with one of the most iconic performances ever.

They don't have the biggest number of prizes, they're not the most popular band in history, they're not on top of all the charts and for gp they are not "the only band ever..." or "the first band to..." these days but jfc they are for me. And for so many other people who get so much joy and entertainment from SHINee. Those fans who have been with them for ages, those who've only joined them recently. Those who've seen all their performances from the beginning and those who only saw the last ones. SHINee are not just another kpop bband. And I know it sounds very stupid and childish for those who are not familiar with them but.. They truly changed my life for the better and I'm going to be forever grateful for that.

Thank you, SHINee, for being the brightest stars, keep shining for ever!!!

#Shinee #Can you see I'm a bit emotional these days..? No? #I am!!!!! The fuck!!!!! #Almost 11 years with them boys and I never ever get tired of stanning them!!!! #The me who saw those tiny Korean boys in a grainy video on yt on that summer march afternoon of 2010 and decided to press play? Thanks!!! #That has been one of my best decisions ever!!!! #Wow my heart pounds harder everytime I see/hear the word #'Shinee' such a lovely name for a band made of the loveliest people #Long post

[lovesanmotion]

yandere!ateez fanboy series: hongjoong

Saturday night and Hongjoong scrolled aimlessly on youtube. Every video on his recommendations, he’d seen all of them. Except, this one video. 

‘ Falling - Y/N ‘ 

That music video had been on his “Recommendations For You” for weeks. Before, he reminded himself how he would check it out. But he never did. With 850M views in just 3 weeks, he brought his cursor to your latest music video. 

“Falling, falling, falling

She’s falling, falling, falling “ 

Hongjoong sat up straight upon hearing the beat. The song had an 80s and city concept while the beat of the song was a mix of city pop and lo-fi. ‘What a great combination.’ he thought to himself. 

As the song ended, Hongjoong felt hooked with the song and singer. Typing in Naver and searching your name. Hundreds of articles shown about how you released your recent comeback song and new album. He learned that your name was Y/N and your new album was titled ‘The Void’ that had met success both in South Korea and in the West. And that you are signed under VS Media for four years. 

He then went to youtube and watched old clips of you in various variety shows. Along the way, he would pick up a lot of information about you. Like your ideal type, how you handle stressful situations and your little habit of eating. He especially liked it when you had your hair down and colored it black. 

The following day he woke up around noon and instead of getting up and washing himself, he picked up his phone and scrolled for anything new under your name. Nothing much came up, just the real time rankings of your songs. Setting his phone down, he finally got up and washed. 

Was it supposed to be like this? Hongjoong’s bugged him how he didn’t know what you could be doing. You could be whipping up another masterpiece and he wouldn’t know. He was bothered by that idea. Further scrolling through your searches in various social medias, he finally stumbled upon posts that caught his attention. 

“ Y/N real personality - $6 “ 

“ Y/N home address - $7 “ 

“ Y/N phone number and email - $20 “ 

“ Y/N IG email and password - $50 “ 

“ Y/N KKT - $5 “ 

“ Y/N Line - $5 “ 

This is it! A wide smile appeared on Hongjoong’s lips as he stumbled upon these posts. Finally ending his pain of waiting for something when finally he found these goodies and are now in his hands. He quickly searched for his credit card before contacting these people to make a purchase. That night, you were irritated how an unknown caller kept begging you while you tried to sleep. At the same time, there was an anonymous contact that kept messaging you in different apps. You sighed, leaving no choice but to remove the battery of your phone and finally getting some good night sleep. 

To say he was bored was understatement. He picked up his guitar and learned the strings to play Falling. In a matter of an hour, he had his equipment set up and started to record himself singing in an acoustic version. After a while, he polished his records and edited a few in his three minute video before uploading it on the same day. Hongjoong played another song from your recent album tilted ‘ Main Character ‘ this time, the song had a beat drop in the chorus, your honey vocals soothing the song. It was a song that's perfect for clubbing. He was truly blown away. ‘What a versatile artist’ he thought to himself. Switching his guitar for his piano, he recorded himself once more. 

500,000 views. Overnight, Hongjoong’s cover of Falling gathered that amount and his video was the talk under your search name. He felt giddy and excited, he was happy that a few fan accounts were talking about him. He conversed with them for a little while, trying to make his name a popular name among your fandom community. 

Much to his surprise, you had an Instagram live happening right now! Quickly clicking on your account. His heartbeat beating quickly at how sexy you looked. Hair sprawled all over, your bare but pretty face with a white shirt on. ‘ So fuckable, could shove my tongue down her throat and - ‘ his thoughts were halted when you played his cover in your background. 

“I like this cover so much! This...Hongjoong? Did I pronounced it correctly? Is a genius!” You smiled, your eyesmile showing. He began jumping around his room and throwing his pillows everywhere. Finally you noticed him! He didn’t needed to use his other phone to bug you while you were having a live chat. 

#ateez #Ateez hongjoong #ateez yandere #kpop yandere

[1vintage]

Ocean Vuong on Metaphor

below is a transcript of an Instagram story from Ocean Vuong, available here in his story highlights under Metaphor.

Q: How do you make sure your metaphors have real depth?

metaphors should have two things: (1) sensory (visual, texture, sound, etc) connector between origin image and the transforming image as well as (2) a clear logical connector between both images. 

if you have only one of either, best to forgo the metaphor, otherwise it will seem forced or read like “writing” if that makes sense.

~

a lot of ya’ll asked for examples re:metaphor. I can explain better if I had 15 minutes of class time (apply to UMASS!). But essentially, metaphors that go awry can signal a hurried desire to be “literary” or “poetic” (ie “writing”), which can lose traction/trust with a reader. in other words, a metaphor is a detour—but that detour better lead to discoveries that alter/amplify the meaning of what is already there, so that a reader sees you as a servant of possibility rather than someone trying to prove that they are a “writer.” One is performative, the other exploratory. In this way, the metaphor acts as a virtual medium, ejecting the text’s optical realism into an “elsewhere”. But this elsewhere should inform the original upon our return. otherwise the journey would feel like an ejection from a crash rather than a curated journey toward more complex meaning.

example:

“The road curves like a cat’s tail.”

This is a weak metaphor because the transforming image (tail) does not amplify/alter the original. The transfer of meaning flattens and dies. Logic is weak or moot: A cat’s tail does not really change the nature of the road. You can certainly add to this with a few more expository sentences which might rescue the logic—but by then you’re just doing cpr on your metaphor.

Sensory, too, is weak: a cat’s tail has little optical resemblance to a road other than being curved (roads are not furry, for one.)

So this is 0 for 2 and should be scrapped. (Just my opinion though! Not a rule!)

okay so what about:

“The road runs between two groves of pine, like the first stroke of a buzzcut.”

this is better. the optical sensory of the transforming image (a clipper thru a head of hair) matches well with the original.

but the logic feels arbitrary. again it doesn’t substantially alter the original.

in the end this is just an “interesting image” but not strong enough to keep I’d say.

Now here’s one from Sharon Olds:

“The hair on my father’s arms like blades of molasses.”

Sensory connector: check. A man’s dark hair indeed can look like blades (also suggestive of grass) of molasses.

Logical connector: check. the father is both sharp and sweet. Something once soft and sticky about him (connotations of youth) sweets, has now hardened the confection no longer fresh etc.

It’s an ambitious metaphor that is packed with resonance. In other words, it does worlds of work and actually deepens the more you dit with it. A metaphor that actually invites you to put the book down, think on it, absorb it, before returning. a good metaphor uses detours to add power to the text. poor metaphors distract you from the text and leave you bereft, laid to the side.

lastly, the prior examples are technically “similes” but I believe similes reside under the umbrella of metaphor. although a simile is a demarcation, ie: this is “like” that. but this is “not”, ontologically, that.

however, I think something happens in the act of reading wherein we collapse the “bridge” and the mind automatically forges synergy between the two images, so that all similes, once read, “act” like metaphors in the mind.

but again this is all subjective. you might have a better way of going about it.

Another very ambitious metaphor is this one from Eduardo C. Corral:

“Moss intensifies up the tree, like applause.”

This is a masterful metaphor, risky and requires a lot of faith, restraint, and experience to pull it off.

Difficult mainly because we now see a surrealist “distortion” of the sensory realm: origin IMAGE (moss) is paired with transforming SOUND (applause).

There is now a leap in comparable elements. But the adherence to our two vital factors are still present.

Sensory: moss, though silent, grows slowly (the word “intensifies” does major work here becuz it foreshadows the transforming element). Applause, too, grows gradually, before dying down.

Logic: the growth of the moss suggests spring, lushness, life, resilience, and connotes anticipatory hope, much like applause. In turn, applause modifies the nature of moss and imbues, at least this moss, with a sense of accomplishment, closure, it’s refreshment a cause for celebration.

God I love words.

~

I’ve gotten so many responses from folks the past few days asking for a deeper dive into my personal theory on metaphor.

So I'm taking a moment here to do a more in-depth mini essay since my answer to the Q/A the other day was off the cuff (I was typing while walking to my haircut appointment).

What I’m proposing, of course, is merely a THEORY, not a gospel, so please take whatever is useful to you and ignore what isn’t.

This essay will be in 25 slides. I will save this in my IG highlights after 24 hrs.

Before I begin I want to encourage everyone to forge your own theories and praxi for your work, especially if you’re a BIPOC artist.

Often, we are perceived by established powers as merely “performers,” suitable for a (brief) stint on stage—but not thinkers and creators with our own autonomy, intelligence, and capacity to question the framework in our fields.

It is not lost on me, as a yellow body in America, with the false connotations therein, where I’m often seen as diminutive, quiet, accommodating, agreeable, submissive, that I am not expected to think against the grain, to have my own theories on how I practice my art and my life.

I became a writer knowing I am entering a field (fine arts) where there are few faces like my own (and with many missing), a field where we are expected to succeed only when we pick up a violin or a cello in order to serve Euro-Centric “masterpieces.”

For so long, to be an Asian American “prodigy” in art was to be a fine-tuned instrument for Mozart, Bach, and Beethoven.

It is no surprise, then, that if you, as a BIPOC artist, dare to come up with your own ideas, to say “no” to what they shove/have been shoving down your throat for so long, you will be infantilized, seen as foolish, moronic, stupid, disobedient, uneducated, and untamed.

Because it means the instrument that was once in the service of their “work” has now begun to speak, has decided, despite being inconceivable to them, to sing its own songs.

I want you, I need you, to sing with me. I want to hear what you sound like when it’s just us, and you sound so much like yourself that I recognize you even in the darkest rooms, even when I recognize nothing else. And I know your name is “little brother” or “big sister,” or “light bean,” or “my-echo-returned-to-me-intact.” And I smile.

In the dark I smile.

Art has no rules—yes—but it does have methods, which vary for each individual. The following are some of my own methods and how I came to them.

I’m very happy ya’ll are so into figurative language! It’s my favorite literary device because it reveals a second IDEA behind an object or abstraction via comparison.

When done well, it creates what I call the “DNA of seeing.” That is, a strong metaphor “Greek for “to carry over”) can enact the autobiography of sight. For example, what does it say about a person who sees the stars in the night sky—as exit wounds?

What does it say about their history, their worldview, their relationship to beauty and violence? All this can be garnered in the metaphor itself—without context—when the comparative elements have strong multifaceted bonds.

How we see the world reveals who we are. And metaphors explicate that sight.

My personal feeling is that the strongest metaphors do not require context for clarity. However, this does not mean that weaker metaphors that DO require context are useless or wrong.

Weak metaphors use context to achieve CLARITY.

Strong metaphors use context to SUPPORT what’s already clear.

BOTH are viable in ANY literary text.

But for the sake of this deeper exploration into metaphors and their gradients, I will attempt to identify the latter.

I feel it is important for a writer to understand the STRENGTHS of the devices they use, even when WEAKER versions of said devices can achieve the same goal via different means.

Sometimes we want a life raft, sometimes we want a steam boat—but we should know which is which (for us).

My focus then, will be specifically the ornamental or overt metaphor. That is, metaphors that occur inside the line—as opposed to conceptual, thematic, extended metaphors, or Homeric simile (which is a whole different animal).

My thinking here begins with the (debated) theory that similes reside under metaphors. That is, (non-Homeric) similes, behave cognitively, like metaphors.

This DOES NOT mean that similes do not matter (far from it), as we’ll see later on, but that the compared elements, once read, begin to merge in the mind, resulting in a metaphoric OCCURRENCE via a simileac vehicle.

This thinking is not entirely my own, but one informed by my interest in Phenomenology. Founded by Edmund Husserl in the early 20th century and later expanded by Heidegger, Phenomenology is, in short, interested in how objects or phenomena are perceived in the mind, which renewed interest in subjectivity across Europe, as opposed to the Enlightenment’s quest for ultimate, finite truths.

By the time Husserl “discovered” this, however, Tibetan Buddhists scholars have already been practicing Phenomenology as something called Lojong, or “mind training,” for over half a millennia.

Whereas Husserl believes, in part, that a finite truth does exist but that the myopic nature of human perception hinders us from seeing all of it, Tibetan Lojong purports that no finite “truth” exists at all.

In Lojong, the world and its objects are pure perception. That is, a fly looks at a tree and sees, due to its compound eyes, hundreds of trees, while we see only one. For Buddhists, neither fly nor human is “correct” because a fixed truth is not present. Reality is only real according to one’s bodily medium.

I’m keenly interested in Lojong’s approach because it inheritably advocates for an anti-colonial gaze of the world. If objects in the real are not tenable, there is no reason they should be captured, conquered or pillaged.

In other words, we are in a “simulation” and because there is no true gain in acquiring something that is only an illusion, it is better to observe and learn from phenomena as guests passing through this world with respect to things—rather than to possess them.

The reason I bring this up is because Buddhist philosophy is the main influence of 8th century Chinese and 15th-17th century Japanese poetics, which fundamentally inform my understanding of metaphor.

While I appreciate Aristotle’s take on metaphor and rhetoric in his Poetics, particularly his thesis that strong metaphors move from species to genus, it is not a robust influence on my thinking.

After all, like sex and water, metaphors have been enjoyed by humans across the world long before Aristotle-- and evidently long after. In fact, Buddhist teachings, which widely employ metaphor and analogy, predates Aristotle by roughly 150 years.

Now, to better see how Buddhist Phenomenology informs the transformation of images into metaphor, let’s look at this poem by Moritake.

“The fallen blossom flies back to its branch. No, a butterfly.”

When considering (western-dominated) discourse surrounding analogues using “like” or “is”, is this image a metaphor or a simile?

It is technically neither. The construction of this poem does not employ metaphor or simile.

And yet, to my eye, a metaphor, although not present, does indeed HAPPEN.

What’s more, the poem, which is essentially a single metaphor, is complete.

No further context is needed for its clarity. If context is needed for a metaphor, then the metaphor is (IMO) weak—but that doesn’t mean the writing, as a whole, is bad. Weak metaphors and good context bring us home safe and sound.

Okay, so what is happening here?

By the time I read “butterfly,” my mind corrects the blossom so that the latter image retroactively changes/informs the former. We see the blossom float up, then re-see it as a butterfly. The metaphoric figuration is complete with or without “like” or “is.”

Buddhism explains this by saying that, although a text IS thought, it does not THINK. We, the readers, must think upon it. The text, then, only curates thinking.

Words, in this way, begin on the page but LIVE in the mind which, due to limited and subjective scope of human perception, shift seemingly fixed elements into something entirely new.

The key here is proximity. Similes provide buffers to mediate impact between two elements, but they do not rule over how images coincide upon reading. One the page, text is fossil; in the mind, text is life.

Nearly 5000 years after Maritake, Ezra Pound, via Fenolosa, reads Maritake’s poem and writes what becomes the seminal poem on Imagism in 1912, which was subsequently highly influential to early Modernists:

“The apparition of these faces in the crowd: Petals on a wet, black bough.”

Like Maritake, Pound’s poem technically has no metaphor or simile. However, he adds the vital colon after “crowd,” which arguably works as an “equal sign”, thereby implying metaphor. But the reason why he did not use “are” or “is” is telling.

Pound understood, like Maritake, that the metaphor would occur in the mind, regardless of connecting verbiage due to the images’ close proximity. We would come to know this as “association.”

Even if the colon was replaced by the word “like,” the transformation, though a bit slower, would still occur.

In fact, when I first studied Pound years ago, I had trouble recalling whether this poem was fashioned as a simile or not—mainly because the faces change to fully into blossoms each time I try to recall the poem.

Now, let’s look at a simile that, to me, metaphorizes in the same way as the examples above, in the line we saw before from Eduardo C. Corral:

“Jade moss on the tree intensifies, like applause.”

The origin/tenor image (moss) is connected to the transforming element (applause). This metaphor suggests, not an optical relationship, but a BEHAVIORAL one.

Both moss and applause are MASSES that accumulate via singularities: grains of moss and pairs of hands clapping to form a larger whole.

By comparing these two, Corral successfully suggests that moss grows at the RATE of applause, creating a masterful time lapse effect. Applause speeds up the moss growth, connoting rejuvenation, joy and refreshment. That something as mundane as moss deserves, even earns, jubilance, also offers a potent statement of alterity, that the smallest flourishing deserves celebration, which in turn suggests a subtle yet powerful political critique of hegemony.

The poet, through the metaphor, has recalibrated the traditional modes of value placed on the object (moss).

And no other context is needed for that.

You might disagree, but when I read Corral’s line, I don’t SEE an audience clapping BESIDE the moss. I see moss growing quickly to the sound of clapping. Although the simile is employed, the fusion of both elements completes the action in my mind’s eye.

Like Maritake and Pound, metaphor has OCCURRED here—but without “metaphor”.

HOWEVER, the simile is still VITAL. Why?

Because the transforming element is abstract (applause) and looks nothing like moss. We don’t want moss to BE applause, we want the nature of applause to inform, imbue, moss.

The line, I feel, would be quite poor if it was formed sans simile:

“Jade moss is applause on the tree.”

The “is” forces transposition, which is here akin to slamming two things together without mediation. We also lose the comparison of behavior, and are asked to see that moss BECOME applause, which doesn’t have the same meaning as the original.

So, although the simile fuses into metaphor (via association) in the mind, such a metaphor would NOT have been possible without the simile.

Similes matter greatly—as tools towards metaphor. Why?

Because (thank god) our minds are free to roam.

To summarize, one of the central strategies (and, to an extent, purposes) of the Japanese Haiku is to juxtapose two elements to test their synergy. This impulse is grounded in Shinto and Buddhist concepts of impermanence and structural malleability. That is, all things, even ideas and images, are subject to constant change—and such change is the most pervasive nature of perception.

The Haiku then becomes the perfect medium to test such changes. This principle is of central importance to me because it is rooted in non-dualistic (or non-binary) thinking.

The poem becomes the theatre in which fixed elements can be transformed, their borders subject to being dissolved, shifting towards something entirely new—to “create”, which is the Greek root to the word “poet.” The metaphor, then, is more like a chemical, whose elements (like hydrogen and oxygen), placed side by side, becomes water.

In this way, Buddhism’s influence on my work and, specifically, my use and understanding of metaphor, is a foundational QUEER praxis for alterity.

The reason why I emphasize the malleability of simile’s impact is that, although syntax and diction can aide a metaphor towards its more luminous embodiment, the ultimate key to its success is you, the observer.

YOU have look deeply and find lasting relationships between things in a disparate world.

In this sense, the practice of metaphor is also, I believe, the practice of compassion. How do I study a thing so that I might add to its life by introducing it to something else?

At its best, the metaphor is what we, as a species, have always done, at OUR best: which is to point at something or someone so different from us, so far from our own origins and say, “Yes, there IS a bond between us. And if I work long enough, hard enough, I can prove it to you—with this thing called language, this thing that weighs nothing but means everything to me.”

In the end, it is less about how you set up your metaphors (you will eventually find a way that suits it and you) but more about how you recognize your world. THAT is not easy to teach—it comes with patient practice, with a committed wonder for a world that at times might be too painful to look at. But you must and you should.

Good metaphors, in the end, come from writers who are committed to looking beyond what is already there, towards another possibility.

This calls that you see your life and your work as inexhaustible sites of discovery, and that you tend to them with care.

That’s it. That’s the true secret to a strong metaphor: care.

Lastly, I want to recommend the work of BIPOC poet and theorist, Thylias Moss, who discovered the Limited Fork Theory, a theory which suggests that the mind engages with the world, and especially with ideas, including text and art, the way the tines of a fork engage with a plate of food.

That is, only so much can be held on the work/mind with each attempt to consume, and that no “work” can be possessed in its entirety, which I find happily congruent with Lojong.

What a wonderful anti-imperialist and forgiving way to engage with our planet and its phenomena. Thank you, Mrs. Moss!

And thank YOU for sticking around through my little seminar.

I hope this has been helpful. Again, this is just my 2(5) cents! Now I’m going to sleep for four days.

In the meantime, me-ta-phors be with you.

—O

#ocean vuong #on writing #long post #metaphor #u

[fbfh]

“forever” paxton hall-yoshida x reader

genre: fluffy romance + mutual pining (not too slowburn tho lol)

word count: 3.4k

au: none?? jock x theatre nerd ig

pairing: Paxton x broadway baby!reader 

requested: yes !! i hope u like it uwu

warnings: one hell one motherfucking and i think that’s it for swearing?? um brief self deprecating/talking bad abt urself from paxton (bby boy needs a self love boost), reader and paxton are home alone together for a little while but nothing bad happens, uh,,, i think that’s it

summary: when Eleanor can’t run lines with you, she sends over a very attractive, mutually pining substitute.

reccomended songs: “Seventeen” - Tuck everlasting OBC, “The Kiss” -The Princess Diaries score

a/n: i’m p sure i kept the reader p gender neutral but there’s implied slightly long hair, and you play the lead (a girl named winnie) in ur schools production of tuck everlasting but like it’s theatre so anyone can play anyone lol,, this took so got dam long bc i’m fucking s o f t for jock x artist and it just sorta happened lol aLsO,, not super thoroughly edited so there might be a typo or two?? im tired lol

requests r open <3

You had only ever seen two athletes present during rehearsals. Once when Madeline (who at the time was playing Penny in your production of Hairspray) was dating a guy from the soccer team. The other was when the star of the basketball team had come in to give your choreographer pointers for the basketball scenes during High School Musical. 

Until now.

You had run onstage part of the way through “Live Like This”, which wasn’t out of the ordinary since so much progress had been made on the costumes. You were still tying the ribbon on your pinafore as you jumped into the song, but when your eyes met a face in the usually empty auditorium, you faltered. You almost sang the wrong verse, but recovered quickly, continuing with the blocking. What felt like a moment later, the number was almost done and you were nearing the end of your counterpoint with Mae Tuck - played by Eleanor, of course. Who could be better for the part? You held out the last note, trying to stay in character despite all the distractions in the back of your mind. You had to talk to Eleanor when the director called for 10; she’d started telling you how Devi was being weird recently. Also, what the Hadestown was Paxton Hall-Yoshida doing chilling in the auditorium? You shoved all that away, focusing on staying in character until the director called for a break. 

‘I want to go to the fair. I want to go so badly! I just need a change, need to get out of this house for a little while. I never do anything, so this can’t be asking for too much, right?’ 

You projected all that into your everything - face, voice, mannerisms, energy.

“Hold!” 

Everyone froze.

The director wrote a few things on his paper, sighed, and underlined something several times. 

“Okay, good job! I need to revise some of the blocking, then we’ll do notes, so take ten.” Your sudden nerves had definitely made you pitchy, you knew that would be one of your notes for sure. 

A chorus of “Thank you ten”s erupted, and you immediately ran to Eleanor, telling the others good job as you passed. 

You leaned in and started speaking to her, quietly.

“Okay you need to finish telling me about Devi, and that other news you’re being so cryptic about! Also, what’s up with Fierro over there?” you nodded towards Paxton hoping he wouldn’t see, and you noticed Fab is sitting near him. You realized they’re probably waiting for Eleanor and/or Devi. That must be it, he’s been hanging out with them lately, right? Eleanor gasped.

“You’re right! Paxton is such a Fierro!”

You cringed inwardly a little bit as her voice carried through the auditorium, mixing with the others. Your eyes darted over to him for a fraction of a second. Oh god. He was looking at you. Or in your general direction at least. Lena, the costumer, walked around the set gingerly, following you around and getting you out of your dress incredibly carefully as you and Eleanor walked off stage. 

“No! Well, yes- but no. What’s he doing here? Jocks never come here during rehearsals. I saw Fab too, are you guys and Devi getting dinner or something?” You said, entering the auditorium, and stepping out of the dress. You grabbed sweatpants and a silky, floral kimono jacket from your bag to throw over your leotard and tights. She waved back at Fab before sitting down in the front. You both grabbed your fans and dramatically flicked them open in sync. Your wrists fluttered, cooling both of you off.  A knowing, and slightly mischievous, look came on her face. 

“Devi and Fab and I are. Paxton must be here for something… else.” she shrugged, nodding towards Paxton. You looked over again. He was staring at you. You did a double take and tried to hold back your smile. 

“Wh- I do not know to what you are referring.” 

“To what I am referring is the blush on his cheeks.”

You barely held back a nervous, bubbling laugh.

“He is not blushing! Why would he be blushing!”

“I don’t know,” She shrugged, “Just like how I don’t know that he’s been loitering in the halls outside the music room during your last three solo music rehearsals.”

You struggled for an answer. Before you could form one, you were interrupted.

“Okay, okay what is the best Lin Manuel Miranda musical? Because Kathryn thinks it’s Hamilton-” 

“Duh!”

“-But I think it’s In the Heights! It’s an underrated jewel!” Jonah interjected, still wearing his Jesse Tuck hat. 

You considered for a moment.

“I mean, they’re too different to compare. In the Heights has the same energy as Rent - showcasing what goes on in ordinary people’s lives, and how love ties us all together,” he nodded in agreement, “But Hamilton is on a way larger scale, almost Les Mis meets Fun Home vibes. But in terms of personal preference…” Eleanor scoffed at your answer, and Jonah went back to debate further with Kathryn.

“Anyway,” you turned back to Eleanor to ask her what the hell she meant by Paxton Hall-Yoshida was blushing. But before you could-

“Eleanor, we need you to try on your blue dress again,” Lena was already pulling her away, “I had the empire waist in the right place but half the pins fell out, and it’s just...” And she was whisked away before you could finish the thought. You just had time to help Holly get out her wig pins and drink some lemon water before notes. Eleanor still wasn’t back, so you made sure to write down hers for her. It was pretty standard; be quiet backstage, go over your lines, don’t touch props that aren’t yours, don’t eat in costume, and a couple blocking changes you made note of. After your end of rehearsal warm downs and huddle, everyone left relatively quickly. You ducked into the bathroom to freshen up a little. Sometimes it was hard coming down from such intense energy after rehearsal. You mentally ran through your to do list. You needed to get some more tea, write that essay when you got home, go over your notes- You gasped, cutting off your own train of thought. You ran out of the bathroom to look for Eleanor, still clutching her notes in hand. 

~

Your voice still echoed in Paxton’s ears. He wished he had a whole album of you singing. Your voice made him want to ruin his spotify algorithm by listening to nothing else. You had looked at him a couple times, and his heart had almost stopped. He didn’t know eye contact could be so intense. It’s probably just cause you’re like, the only person in the audience. Where else is she supposed to look? He deflated a little. He heard his name and looked over to you and Eleanor talking together. Hopefully it was about him. Hopefully it was good. He checked his phone, trying to look busy. When he glanced up to see if you were looking, you were gone. He started to look around for you when he saw Eleanor waving at Fab, and sure enough, you were next to her. What he didn’t expect was you dropping your dress to the ground. Time slowed down (and his heart sped up) as you stretched a little, and pulled out sweatpants from your bag.

Wow.

 You had on what looked like a bathing suit on underneath, and a few other people had done the same, but he knew that image would be in his memory, probably forever. His heart was beating in his ears and he knew he must be blushing.

“You okay, Paxton?” Fab asked, a seat or two away. Oh god, he didn’t want people asking why he blushed every time he looked at you! He muttered something about needing to make a call and headed for the doors. Don’t look back at her, don’t look back at her… His eyes involuntarily darted in your direction right before he left. You had on a flowy translucent jacket, your hair thrown back supermodel style as you fanned yourself to cool down. He needed to cool down too. Maybe a cold shower, a really cold shower.

~

You managed to find Eleanor just before she left. Two girls were with her, you had seen Fab once, and you’d heard a lot about Devi, but had never been introduced. 

You gave Eleanor her notes, and she hugged you.

“You’re a lifesaver!” 

“Of course, I-”

“Uh, who’s this?” you looked over, and the shorter girl - Devi, based on what you’d heard about her -  was giving you a weird look. You introduced yourself. 

“Nice to meet you. How do you know Eleanor?” said the taller girl - definitely Fab.

“Oh,” you smiled, “she’s my almost mother in law. And my arch rival,” you counted on your fingers, “my sister, my niece, my lover, my husband, and…” you trailed off, trying to think of the other dynamics your characters had had in past shows.

“Your co-conspirator.” 

“Right,” you laughed. Devi and Fab looked at you two.

“We’re in the musical together.” you clarified. You were about to part ways when you called to Eleanor, “Hey, we’re still on for running lines tomorrow night?” 

“Uh… Sounds good!” she walked away quickly, speaking to Devi and Fab in hushed tones. Something was definitely up. That was typical Eleanor Scheming behavior. 

~

That night, you almost couldn’t sleep. This wasn’t the normal post rehearsal can’t sleep. In fact, Tuck Everlasting was the last thing on your mind as you readjusted your pillows and snuggled into your duvet. You stared at the neon blue stars projected and swirling on your ceiling. You sighed. Again. Your brain was a 24/7 livestream of Paxton Hall-Yoshida to relax/study to. You saw him again, his face in the dimly lit auditorium, Adonis in a sea of faded seats. If you hadn’t been sure before, you knew now that red was definitely his color. You rolled onto your side. Your heart picked up speed as a thought crossed your mind. You could almost see Paxton now, kneeling next to you, his fingertips brushing your cheek. The piano underscore to “Seventeen” ran through your mind. You could imagine him saying “Wait with me, we could share the world…” so vividly it almost hurt. He leaned in, and… 

You let out a loud sigh and rolled over again. Your heart was fully saturated. That’s more than enough pining for tonight. 

~

“Paxton!” 

He was a little surprised when Eleanor just walked up to him at lunch the next day. Most people were too intimidated to approach him out of the blue. 

“I have a plan.”

“Uh, I don’t know what you-”

“Cut the crap, I know you like her.” 

His face blanched. Well, yeah of course he did. Who wouldn’t? He was going to ask Eleanor if there was something he could do to win you over, just not here, not now. Not where everyone could watch and jeer and rib him for it. Just like they were doing now. 

“Woah, dude, who is it?” Trent asked. He fumbled for words. He couldn’t believe this was happening. He hadn’t kept his crush a secret because he was embarrased of you, he’d kept it a secret because his dumbass friends wouldn’t get you. Hell, he barely got you. You were so deep, and emotive, and artistic... 

“Bro, if you like her as much as it seems like you do,” Trent continued, “you gotta win her over.” He was a little shocked at the agreement murmuring through his group of friends. He didn’t know how to respond. Trent turned to Eleanor.

“What’s the plan, drama mama?”

“First of all,” she said, an almost humorously dangerous look on her face, “never call me that again. Second,” she shoved some papers into Paxton’s hands, “meet me in the music room immediately after school.” She started back for her table. Trent looked back over to Paxton. 

“You gotta do it, dude. We’ll cover for you at swim.” 

The rest of his friends agreed. He was pleasantly surprised at how supportive they were being. 

“Yeah, I guess... we’ve got a plan.”

~

The next day went by pretty smoothly. No rehearsal was scheduled since they were finishing construction for some of the sets, but everyone was instructed to do a couple read throughs of the script, focusing on scenes they’re still forgetting, to make sure everyone’s off book. You stopped by 7 Eleven to get a blue slurpee (for homework) and a couple coconut waters (for run throughs). You texted Eleanor on your way to the slurpee machine. 

okay so do you like the mango coconut water or the pineapple one?? It’s the mango one right?? i always forget lmao

sent at 4:16 pm

btw I don’t have that much homework so you can probs come by around 5:30 if you’re ready by then

sent at 4:16 pm

Bae Tuck

OMFG!! I totally forgot about running lines tonight, I can’t make it! :( but I’ll send someone over to help you out. :)

sent at 4:17 pm

You squinted at your screen. That was weird. Eleanor never used colon parentheses smilies. Like, ever. She always used emojis, and usually way more than two per text. 

yeah np, are u good? ♡

sent at 4:17 pm

Bae Tuck

Yes :)

sent at 4:18 pm

Bae Tuck

Also get the passionfruit one 🥥🍠 👀

sent at 4:18

that’s,,, el that’s a sweet potato,,

sent at 4:19 pm

Bae Tuck

Close enough 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

sent at 4:19pm

...Okay? That was definitely weird. You shook it off and headed for the counter to pay. You stopped half way there, and turned back to swap the mango for passionfruit. 

Not long after you had finished your homework and tidied up your room a little, the doorbell rang. You exited the kitchen, drinks in hand, and opened the door. Your heart caught in your throat. Paxton Hall-Yoshida was standing outside. And you were pretty sure he looked nervous. You both just stood there for a second. No one breathed, no one spoke. 

“Uh, hi, do you want to…” you backed up, motioning for him to come inside. 

“Yeah, thanks,” he said, entering the doorway. Paxton motherfucking Hall-Yoshida was in your living room. You held out a hand to him.

“Coconut water?” he took the box, looked at the label, and smiled. 

“Yeah, thanks,” he said again, this time a faint, yet unmistakable note of joy in his voice. He took a sip. He smiled.

“Passionfruit’s my favorite.” You silently thanked Eleanor, who you knew must have planned all this. Most of the evening was a blur, and you thanked god your family wasn’t home right now. You went upstairs, texted Eleanor asking what the actual fuck, made some surprisingly comfortable small talk, then filled him in on how to run lines. 

“Do you think playing the soundtrack would help you… get into character?” he asked. 

“I would probably just end up singing the whole thing,” You laughed and tried to ignore the butterflies in your chest. The main scene you struggled with was before “Seventeen”. It was harder to get into Winnie’s head because you had no romantic feelings for Jonah, and you always just made each other laugh. You had started with a few easier scenes of Winnie and Jesse, like the fair, and the dialogue before “Top of the World”. 

“That was really good,” he said, and you felt the sincerity of his words. 

“Thanks…” you smiled and took a sip of coconut water, hoping you weren’t blushing too hard. 

“So what next?” he asked. 

“Probably the scene before ‘Seventeen’,” you said, giving him the page and scene number, “it’s one of the hardest ones for me. I guess I just can’t connect to Jonah the way Winnie does.” 

“Huh,” he said, skimming the page. When you looked up at him, he had something between a smile and a smirk playing at his lips. You made yourself look away before you got too distracted. You refused to think about the fact that you were sitting across from Paxton Hall-Yoshida on your bed, in your room, like you were… close with each other. His eyes skimmed the script, finding the dialogue. He glanced up at you and nodded, indicating he found his place. You began.

“I was so afraid you wouldn’t get away,” you said, jumping into character.

“I may be 102, but I can still outrun anyone,” a smile played at his lips. You smiled, then let your face fall.

“I’m so sorry, I-I tried to warn you-”

“No, no,” he interjected almost seamlessly, “It’s okay, it’s… refreshing having someone look after me who isn’t my mom.” His eyes flickered between your face and the page. You smiled with him for a second, then let distress cloud your face.

“Jesse… that man came by my house today. He heard the music box, he knows about you-”

“I know he knows…” 

You continued on with the scene and he trailed off when he came to the sheet music for the song Seventeen. You took in a breath to start the dialogue in the middle of the song, but before you could…

“Six years from now you will turn seventeen,

Turn seventeen,

The same age as me,

Six years from now,

Go to the spring,

Go to the spring and drink…”

He was singing to you. He was looking at you and singing to you. His eyes only flickered down to the page to confirm the lyrics. He was nervous, you could tell. But through his hesitance, the emotion in his voice was sincere. Your heart was beating faster. You didn’t even notice your pulse was ringing in your ears, you were too focused on Paxton. 

“I'll wait for you till you turn seventeen,

Turn seventeen,

The same age as me,

Six years from now,

Go to the spring,

Go to the spring and drink…” Your hand rose to cover your mouth. He hesitated, and you remembered your dialogue.

“Uh, wh-what if I… forget where the spring is?” He reached out and took your free hand in his. Your pulse was off the charts. “I’ll go get you some water. Just… remember to keep it somewhere safe. Somewhere no one will find it.” You got the feeling he wasn’t just talking about the water. You knew he had never really been in a serious relationship before, and it clicked suddenly - if he learned an entire song to duet with you, just how much he must like you. You exhaled a breathy laugh, unsure how to process the sudden euphoria you felt. 

“You make the world sound so… exciting. I just want to drink the water right now!”

“Uh, no. You have to wait.” you both smiled, anticipating the upcoming joke.

“Why?” you ask, “What’s the difference?” You held your breath as he tried not to laugh through the delivery of the punchline. 

“Believe me,” he rubbed his thumb over your hand, “there’s a difference.” You both chuckled, and he continued singing. You were so focused on him, so… touched that he would do all this for you. 

“Winnie, wait with me,

And we could be married,

Winnie, wait with me,

And we'll share the world,

Winnie, you can stop time,

And live like this,

Forever…”

“I could live like this forever,” you echoed.

“Live like this...” you sang in tandem.

“What do you say, Winnie? Do you want to…” he broke character suddenly, and asked, his eyes boring into yours, “Do you want to go out some time?” 

He could see the adorable smile blooming on your face, even from behind your hand. You nodded.

“Yes, I-I would love that,” and you began to sing the last line in the song, “Forever-” 

But before you finished holding out the note, his lips were on yours. His mouth moved slowly, intentionally, against yours. You followed his lead, flustered. He leaned further forward, his palm caressing your cheek. It was everything you imagined it would be, and you had quite the imagination. Your head was angled up and your hands rested themselves on his back, one tracing little shapes. Your shoulders were pressed against each other and neither of you could think. He was so warm. He tasted like coconut and passion fruit, and a distant part of your mind silently thanked Eleanor again. 

You really could live like this forever.

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