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#if you read this congrats you made it through some very rambly ramblings
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been getting back into mother 3 after All That and every time i see the sunflower field im like. whoa. that's so neat. i am Not overthinking it !
#i am just making this post to ramble about the sunflower thing again kjfhdg#it's almost been a whole year. i was in the middle of replaying mother 3 last june#i was at the sunflower field scene and decided to stop playing for the night#and that is the same night ''so long nerds'' was uploaded#not to be dramatic or cliche or whatever but. feels very ''on purpose'' ya know#destiny or whatever#the game was a huuuuuuge turning point for me in coping with life and death which i was. Very Bad at before!#and im sure you can tell i still am *(@&*(&*%(&^*#i havent been able to touch the game since but im getting better at it. been watching some videos n stuff about it#i still havent picked it back up tho. idk if i can sit through that cutscene again#i already kinda associated techno with sunflowers bc of the whole rising sun stuff. the staff being a sunflower#but the fact that i was in the middle of that part of mother 3 made that association so much worse#now they're just like. the death object for me. remembrance flowers. idk actual flower meanings but that's what they are to me now#idk if anyone remembers this post but like a week or two after his death my aunt tried growing a sunflower#it was unrelated to me and that whole thing. just another coincidence#she passed this week. so the sunflowers are really back on my mind rn#that's why i turned off the inbox was bc i really didnt know what to do after that#her whole side of the family died this past year#i hate to vent or whatever but i feel like if i dont mention it i'll explode so i've buried this under many other tags#congrats if you read this far i just wanted to have that out there i guess bc i've talked about her a lot#the cats are fine if you remember them. orangey has a home and my uncle is watching thomas#grief#grief cw#i dont remember what ppl tag that as#chat#i'll probably delete this later but im also gonna reblog all the cats n stuff again bc i just want ppl to see them
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galactica7071 · 4 months
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let's diagnose the Irish guy from punch-out
disclaimer: I am but a lass with ADD, so while I do know a lot from both my own experiences and research, you should still take my ramblings with a few grains of salt. I encourage anyone reading to form their own headcanons, and would love to hear them!
So, the Punch-Out wiki (in its current state) implies that Aran Ryan has some sort of mental disorder, so I projected onto dissected him like a deep sea specimen, and may have found out what's going on in his very empty and screwed up head
🎉congrats! it's attention deficit hyperactivity disorder! (probably)🎉
ADHD has a bunch of characteristics that go with it, but I'll only be going over the ones that apply to Aran and are displayed in canon. Of course, I'll insert some speculation here and there to further support and reason through some of my points. For more reading, I suggest checking out organizations like Mayo Clinic and the National Institute of Mental Health, as well as any self-reports and blogs by people with ADHD (the latter tends to be more personal and far less clinical-sounding, but are just as helpful). Wikipedia is also a good place to go for anything, and you might even find yourself down a few rabbit holes!
Hyperactivity and restlessness
Aran exhibits this in PO Wii heavily. He has a high-stamina fighting style with lots of shuffling around, always bouncing around Little Mac. He can only be stunned through counter-punches and being faster than him (During round breaks, Doc Louis literally says "beat Aran Ryan to the punch"). It is extremely difficult to KO or TKO Aran without intercepting him due to this mechanic. During round breaks, regardless of how beaten and bruised he is, Aran will bounce his leg constantly in Contender and harass the audience in Title Defense.
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Impulsivity and recklessness
This one's consistent between his two appearances, surprisingly. In Wii, Aran is portrayed as a dirty cheater who would "do anything to win", according to supplementary comics. He has the most rule infractions in the Punch-Out series, at 32 combined. He stuffs his gloves with horseshoes before his Contender fight and brings a homemade flail made from a broken boxing glove to his bout with Little Mac in Title Defense. During matches, he makes use of headbutts and elbows quite frequently. These are both illegal and very stupid moves, due to the potential of self-inflicted trauma. His flail in Title Defense could be a sign of creativity by thinking outside the box, which is often seen in people with ADHD. In supplementary material for Super Punch-Out!!, it's implied that a fight usually broke out whenever Aran was made fun of in school, showing that he was reckless during his childhood as well.
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Emotional dysregulation
In Super Punch-Out!!, Aran Ryan is rather grumpy, and is one of two characters in the entire game to never smile in any of his sprites (the other being Nick Bruiser). Compared to his Wii portrayal, Aran is as clean as it gets in this game, even complimenting the player during the credits. Supplementary material attributes his lower mood to the teasing he endured during his childhood, and that he got into boxing to channel some of his pent-up anger. Depending on how you view it, him being so angry over his peers making fun of his name could be an overblown reaction. This hot-headedness is retained in PO Wii (which could be a sign of impulsivity), but he's essentially the inverse of how he was in Super. He's boisterous, reckless, dishonest, and smiles even while he's stunned. Many of Aran's reactions to being hit are him laughing, which might imply masochism on some level, but is nonetheless seen as an inappropriate response to being hit. He displays some antisocial traits, even, as seen when he throws aside the referee in Title Defense. This is likely caused by a low tolerance of authority, but is still an extreme reaction to the referee just trying to maintain order in the ring (good luck with that, ref...).
Difficulty starting tasks
This is a sign of executive dysfunction, which is closely linked to inattention in people with ADHD. It's exhibited in his Contender intro, where he spends the first three frames of the cutscene messing around. For this one, I'm going to compare Aran's behavior in his Contender intro to all the other boxers that spend their entire intro cutscene in a gym/dojo/training environment, spend the majority of their cutscene explicitly training, or are in several training environments. Here's a neat little chart, where the numbers represent how many slides they spent being "off-task":
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can you tell that graphic design is my passion
I've counted any activity that builds strength and endurance (like eating, running, lifting, or practicing magic in Tiger's case), or requires a large amount of work put in to do (like chopping trees or playing hockey, for Bear Hugger). Some of you might be wondering why I didn't include certain characters, but that's because they're either in a combat setting, switch from training to non-training settings, or are doing unrelated things in what could be a training setting.
If Aran has 3 instances of being off-task, he ties with TD Kaiser, Don, and Macho in terms of how long they're off-task for. If "gearing up" is being counted as being on-task, he only ties with TD Kaiser and himself. Of course, context matters heavily. TD Kaiser, Don, and Macho aren't off-task purely for the sake of slacking off, but show developments of their story throughout Career Mode. TD Aran is off-task for storytelling as well, but it's not motivated by a grudge towards Mac like the other three and falls under the normal definition of "slacking off". Speaking of cutscenes,
Inattention and distractibility
Aran shows this several times in Title Defense. In his intro, he notices a rope in the trash can and gets the idea of making his flail, seemingly forgetting all about training for his match with Little Mac. During round intermissions, he's distracted by the audience throwing objects at him, and threatens them instead of spending the break resting or strategizing.
Anxiety
ADHD is highly comorbid with anxiety, due to executive dysfunction (mainly sensory processing), and the risk of overthinking. I admit that this one is a bit of a stretch, since general restlessness and anxiety are linked in many mood disorders, but it's shared between both of his appearances. Super's version of Aran being caught up in his own past can be a sign of social anxiety as well as falling victim to overthinking. In PO Wii, the leg bouncing can be a sign of anxiety for various reasons, whether it be physiological (ex. outside stimuli being unpleasant) or psychological (ex. overthinking the match). His stance in Exhibition's menu for his Contender match is also a little shaky, which is common in fight-or-flight reactions, though it could also be plain hyperactivity.
Pressured speech
In PO Wii. Aran usually talks very quickly, which can be caused by the classic ADHD experience of "having a lot to say, and feeling like there's no time to say it". It's very likely that it's just be a characteristic of his accent, though.
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There's plenty more symptoms you could make arguments for, but these were some of his more prominent traits. ADHD shares symptoms with a lot of other disorders, though, so let's see some other possibilities...
Counter-Diagnosis #1: Bipolar II Disorder
Bipolar II, according to the National Institute of Mental Health, is characterized by a a pattern of depressive states and hypomanic states (notice the hypo- prefix). We can attribute Aran's demeanor in Super to a depressive state, and his demeanor in Wii to a hypomanic state. I've chosen bipolar II instead of I due to the specifications of a "manic state" not fitting his Wii portrayal as closely.
Hypomania (literally meaning "less than mania") shares many characteristics with full-blown mania, but is more toned-down. People who have experienced genuine hypomanic states usually describe it as helpful towards their productivity, while manic states are notoriously more harmful and often directly affect productivity. Symptoms of mania include restlessness, racing thoughts, pressured speech, overconfidence, increased agitation, impulsiveness, a disconnect from one's surroundings, extreme anxiousness, and many others. Already, we can observe many of these symptoms in Aran's Wii portrayal that are shared with the ADHD diagnosis. However, hypomania tends to lack the "reality disconnect", and we can see that Aran is very aware of his surroundings. Him being in the World Circuit in both Super and Wii can be interpreted as a sign of the hypomanic states being more helpful than detrimental (maybe less so in Super because of the existence of the Special Circuit, but I digress).
I think this take has a lot of ground, maybe more than the ADHD hypothesis. A lot of my earlier points in favor of him having ADHD can also apply to him being bipolar (specifically hyperactivity, recklessness, and especially emotional dysregulation) as well, which blurs the line in some places, but it's still a very strong argument.
Counter-Diagnosis #2: Oppositional Defiant Disorder
According to Mayo Clinic, ODD is "a frequent and ongoing pattern of anger, irritability, arguing and defiance towards parents and other authority figures". The characteristics of ODD can be observed in both SPO's and Wii's Aran.
I think this one's weaker, for a few reasons. First, ODD is considered clinically relevant only during childhood; from then, it can "evolve" into a number of other conditions, including but not limited to borderline personality disorder and the aforementioned bipolar disorder. Obviously, Aran isn't a child, but he could have had this disorder in the past and "grew out of it" from a clinical standpoint.
You could make an argument for the anger issues due to a few of his behaviors, as well as his voice lines in Wii having a sort of "growl" to them, but his irritability is infrequent and mild enough to where it can be attributed back to emotional dysregulation, and the "growl" could just be how the character or his voice actor naturally sounds (I haven't found any clips of Stephen Webster speaking out-of-character, but if anyone has any, I'd love to hear them).
Counter-Diagnosis #3: Antisocial Personality Disorder
The DSM-5 defines APD as consistent displays of deceitfulness, issues with authority, impulsivity, irritability, recklessness, and a diminished capacity for remorse after hurting someone. Again, a few of these symptoms are shared with ADHD, so there's a significant grey area here. Yet, I believe it's stronger than the ODD argument, since his cheating can be a sign of deceitfulness and his apparent antisocial traits in Wii. However, boxing as a combat sport doesn't leave much room for feeling remorse, since doing so can result in throwing or forfeiting a match. I'm not going to count the lack of remorse due to the nature of the sport, but you as a reader can interpret it how you like.
Counter-Diagnosis #4: Autism Spectrum Disorder
Because of how broad the autism spectrum is, you could easily go crazy in-depth with this. I'll do a miniature version of the ADHD symptom setup, which includes traits observed in canon. I won't be including every shared trait, but do keep in mind that ADHD is comorbid with a bunch of different spectrum disorders, and misdiagnoses, especially in women, are fairly common in the real world because of it. I know I'm going to fail to list certain symptoms due to just how many ASD traits there are, so if anyone reading has any more connections to make, be my guest! This "counter-diagnosis" section is for provoking further discussion, after all, and I'm happy to learn from you all.
Hyposensitivity
In PO Wii. To wind up for his right uppercut, Aran hits himself in the side of the head, and after round breaks in Contender, he hits himself repeatedly. Considering his gloves are confirmed to be loaded in his Contender fight, his relative indifference might be a sign of this. People with autism have reported tuning out various stimuli if they become overwhelmed by a bunch of them (sometimes related to meltdown or shutdown), and it's possible that that's what Aran is doing here. The bright lights of the venue combined with the crowd noise and the feeling of being sweaty could be overstimulating, and the supposed hyposensitivity towards being hit is caused by this "tuning out" to avoid a shutdown mid-bout.
Stimming (repetitive movements)
In PO Wii. The leg bounce in his Contender round break can be interpreted as a stim, as well as the wind-ups for his right uppercut (bopping himself in the head) and headbutt (choosing to wind up on the ropes). His bouncing around Mac could also be stimming.
Pathological demand avoidance
This phenomenon can also be comorbid with anxiety, which happens to be a risk factor for ADHD, so we're looping back around with this one. PDA is characterized by a person exhibiting an intense aversion to something that is asked of them, even if they wanted to do it beforehand. It can be associated with feelings of unfairness and like they don't have any control, so someone with PDA may "break the rules" to feel as though they have some control over what happens to them. Aran's high infraction count in Wii could be a sign of a more obsessive form of this. Avoiding the process of carrying out the demand can be conflated with executive dysfunction as well.
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TL;DR get this man into a psychiatrist's office ASAP
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sweetpeapod · 2 years
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Hi love! CONGRATS ON 100 FOLOWERS 🎉🎊🥳 You are amazing and I’m so glad you’re getting all the love.
I would love to see what you do with prompt 18 with Eddie “I’m sorry could you repeat that because I think I’m hallucinating” I could see so many different ways of this line in my own brain but I’m curious what YOU see 😉
You're too sweet 🥺 thank you so much! And thank you for this request 🥰 hope you enjoy what I did!!
Warnings: Pure fluff?
Word Count: 805
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Sunday mornings were reserved for lounging in the trailer, watching whatever shitty TV movie was on and just being close with your boyfriend. 
This morning was no different. Wayne had left early to do an extra shift, stating that he could do with the overtime; but you knew that he was just trying to give you and Eddie some space. Your parents didn’t approve of you dating the older metalhead, the satanic freak of Hawkins High. Which meant your house was frustratingly off limits.
The older Munson joined your Sunday ritual on occasion, making you all breakfast and chatting away with you. He would ask you about school, or take an interest in the latest book you were reading. Those Sundays were some of your favourites. Wayne had easily welcomed you into his home, treating you like family from the very first time you had met him. He had seen the way his nephew looked at you, long before you were dating, and he knew you were here for the long haul. 
Eddie's head sat on top of your thighs, his face turned towards the TV as he lay across the sofa. The dramatic over the top romance that played was mere background noise as you softly ran your fingers through his curly locks. You had a content smile on your face as you watched your boyfriend’s eyes close. Gently you scratched your fingernails along the base of his skull, pulling the quietest of moans from him. 
He stretched his legs out, turning and nuzzling his face into your stomach. Placing your hand on his cheek, you slowly begin tracing his cheekbone, down to the edge of his lips.
“I really love you.” Eddie muttered so quietly you would have missed it if your fingertips weren’t sitting on the corner of his mouth, feeling his mouth move as those words came out.
“I’m sorry, could you repeat that, because I think I’m hallucinating.” You stop your ministrations, your hand frozen just millimetres away from where they were before. Did you hear him right? You’ve been dating for a few months now, but neither of you have said those words yet. You’d felt them, but didn’t want to push Eddie, deciding to wait until he was ready to say them by himself. And apparently that time had come. 
“Shit, did I-I didn’t mean to say that.” His eyes shot open as he threw himself up and off the sofa, suddenly pacing the length of the room. He looked everywhere but at you. 
“You didn’t mean it?” Hurt seeped into your voice, as well as confusion. He had clearly said it, you hadn’t imagined it, you were sure of that. 
The pain in your voice brought him back to you, still pacing but keeping close, locking his eyes with yours. His hands moved animatedly as he continued to speak.
“No, I mean yes. Yes I meant it, but I didn’t mean to say it, at least not out loud. Not yet. It’s too soon right?” He paused his motions, staring imploringly at you, waiting for you to speak. But no words came out of your mouth, your brain working sluggishly as you tried to absorb Eddie’s fast paced rambling. “I’ve freaked you out. Shit I’ve freaked you out. We can forget it, I said nothing. Love? Who said love? Not me.” The forced laughter that came out of his mouth made you cringe, reaching a hand out to him.
“Eddie, stop.” You tilt your head down, hiding the chuckle that left your lips as he froze in front of you, eyes wide and hair wild where he had run his hands roughly through it. “You’re the one freaking out, not me.” Giving him a soft smile you gently take his hand in yours. 
“You're not?” He sounded younger, vulnerable as he speaks.
“No.” You shook your head, never breaking eye contact.
“So it’s not too soon?” You gave his hand a small tug, pulling him down to his knees in front of you. Perched between your legs, looking up at you with his big chestnut eyes. His face was close, close enough that you could feel his warm breath on your jaw. 
“No, Eddie. I love you too. So much it kind of scares me.” Heat rose in your cheeks as you let the truth escape you.
“I scare you?” Worry painted his features. He brought your hand to his face and pressed his lips gently into the palm, giving you a reassuring kiss.
“No silly. I just, I’ve never felt this strongly towards anyone before. That’s scary.” He gave you the softest smile, leaning forwards to rest his forehead against your own.
“I’m not going anywhere.” Your boyfriend whispered, placing a chaste kiss on the corner of your mouth. 
“I’ll hold you to that Eddie Munson.”
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blucifer08 · 9 months
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I think Naru is behind enough now that she won't really be catching up in her poll in the @woltourney so I wanna use my last little 'propaganda post' to just say thank you so much to everyone who voted for her and and this was just really fun all around.
It was a blast learning about others OC's and getting to know them, I feel like I made some really cool new friends through this process and I've enjoyed getting to toss asks at them. So I'm gonna toss a few mentions ...
@boileddogchicken I really loved getting to know br'sh during this tournament and not only is br'sh super cute and cool, brsh's mun is super sweet and incredibly funny and a delight to have on the timeline
@lookbluesoup im so glad I found your blog, I believe I wasn't following you prior to the tournament and the past few weeks I've enjoyed learning about your OCs and getting to send u asks !! You're a real delight to see on the timeline
@trans-estinien we've been moots a while but it was really great seeing you post eluetherios art for this tourney and I wanted to mention that!!!! I loved seeing it
There are so many more friends and people to mention, but I will resist from tagging so many people (mostly BC I get nervous of bothering ppl)
There are so many people who posted so many amazing things about their OCs and I was just really glad to get to see people's passion for their characters come out, see people sharing about their characters !!!!!!! So thank u woltourney for this nice little place where people came together to ramble and scream happily about their OCs!!!
I got to post a lot about Naru and it made me very happy and reminded me about how much I love sharing about her on tumblr especially, so this tourney has helped me feel comfortable just.. lore dumping sometimes lol
And to @isayoldbean here's an early congrats!!! Beef seems so cool and I've really enjoyed reading about her. I believe you posted about a possible beef/minfilia fic and I really hope I manage to catch that and read it!
Thanks for the tourney and let's keep being insane about our wols!!!!
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jjkeverlast · 6 months
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Hello, I'm new here 👉👈 Congrats on your milestone 💜
I hope it's okay to request seokjin x metalhead reader. Reader drags his ass to a metal concert (a scary metal band like Rammestein, Slipknot, Cannibal Corpse etc) and jin screams louder than the actual band vocalist on stage. They also get playfully teased by bts and army for being polar-opposites of each other. Mostly crack and fluff. Thank you 💜
scream! | ksj
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>> pairing idol!seokjin x metalhead!reader
>> genre/au's crack | fluff | concert!au | idol!au | est. relationship
>> summary you drag your boyfriend to a slipknot concert, not expecting for him to scream louder than the lead singer.
>> word count 934 (an actual drabble let us cheer!!!)
>> warnings a reaaally bad joke by jin | they're very cute | ft. jungkook | they drink one beer during the concert | some kisses and morning cuddles :')
>> author's note heyyyyoooo welcome on here!! sorry for the late response to your request. i hope this lil drabble meets your expectations. thank you for requesting!! <33
It was a birthday gift to you when Seokjin had agreed to let you drag him to a Slipknot concert. He could see how excited you were for him to see what metal was all about, because it’s one of the many things you love. 
And Seokjin loves you, meaning he wants to understand every aspect of your interests. 
It had been an advantage with concert tickets and seats with Seokjin being a part of BTS. 
The seats were on the balcony, having a perfect view down to the stage and catching onto the huge bold letters in red. Everything was set ready and after managing to get to your seats, you and Seokjin shared a beer that you passed between you two. 
“Thank you for this.” 
Seokjin giggles, wrapping an arm around you and giving you a peck to your temple. 
“Whatever my baby wants. Also can we talk about their name? Slipknot? That’s so cool, but… I can’t help but think about knotting.” Seokjin rambles on, and your eyes pop open by the indication of him reading omega verse fics. 
“Did Jimin share those with you?” 
“Actually… Namjoon stumbled upon one on Twitter and after drinking, we couldn’t resist and read the whole thread.” He admits, his cheeks growing a faded pink.
“I cannot believe you.” You begin to laugh, finding it ridiculous that Slipknot made Seokjin admit to reading knotting in fics. 
Although it doesn’t really surprise you. There are some… interesting things out there in the fandom and curiosity can always get the worst out of someone. 
“Stop laughing!” He scolds you jokingly, handing you to beer. 
“You’re cute.” You peck his lips before taking a sip. 
The show finally starts, lights dimming down and the Slipknot members walking out to their positions. 
Seokjin’s eyes bulge out by the costumes they’re decorated in, yet super amazed by the creativity and the world of metal coming into view. 
You clutch onto him, joining the crowds screaming as the first song starts playing. 
“How the fuck are they able to scream this way?!” He shouts in your ear, arm around your waist to keep you close. 
“Bet you can’t with your pretty vocals.” You tease, screaming along with the lyrics. 
It’s fun, Seokjin jumping with you, following your rhythm. 
But, he takes you by surprise by screaming beside you, his voice ringing through louder than the lead singer who’s head raises in your direction. 
“Holy shit.” The lead singer pauses to say, everyone laughing as they watch Seokjin. You’re shocked yourself and Seokjin bowes comically for everyone, the lead singer sending a thumbs up your way before returning to the song ‘Custer.’ 
The night is eventful, freeing and wild. 
“I cannot believe you did that!” You shout when you walk out of the arena, hand in hand. 
“I’m full of surprises.” 
“Why do I have a feeling the night isn’t over yet?” 
“Because it’s not.” He kisses you softly, a bit longer than your usual small pecks and you clutch tightly onto his broad shoulders. 
“S’ cute.” Seokjin mumbles against your lips and you nibble his bottom lip before pulling away. 
“Stop.” 
— 
It’s the next morning when Seokjin hugs you from behind, nuzzling his head in your nape as he mumbles a groggy greeting. 
“Morning.” You trace your fingers on his smooth skin, grabbing your phone while he slowly wakes up. 
Twitter is the first app you check and your feed is spiraling out of control. Seokjin is trending with Slipknot and you let out a grin. 
“Jinnie! Look.” You shove the video of him that an army shared, captioning it ‘Seokjin vs. Slipknot’. 
It’s the exact moment where Seokjin screams so loud the arena turns to look up, catching the view of a flustered yet excited Seokjin that bows at the attention. 
“Holy shit.” He laughs against your skin, the tingles running further down your spine. 
The comments are filled with positivity, many screaming how lovely it is to see Seokjin open minded to the genre of mental and how cozy you both looked despite being polar opposites in the blink of an eye. 
It looks funny, your fully black clothes, shredded and chains hanging wherever the possibilities stand and Seokjin in a clean black blazer with a white t-shirt under. 
“Fuck. Hold on.” Seokjin pushes himself away, reaching for his phone that keeps ringing. 
“What now, Jungkook?” He groans, irritated that the golden maknae is interrupting his morning cuddling session with his partner. 
“Hyung! I cannot believe you did that.” Jungkook is laughing, high pitched enough for you to hear it. 
“Put me on speaker.” He demands and Seokjin rolls his eyes but does it regardless. 
“Hey, Y/N?” Jungkook asks for you and you hum, giving a sign you’re able to hear him. 
“Do you think Jin-hyung would be able to scream King for a Day?” 
“Is that a challenge, Jungkook?” Seokjin is frowning but he hasn’t even heard the song. 
“Back me up!” It’s directed towards you and you chuckle.
“Jinnie, I don’t think you can. Vic knows how to scream.” You make him aware but Seokjin is having none of it. 
“Well Vic is going to lose his job after I beat him.” 
“Yeah you do that, hyung.” Jungkook says through the phone and you both giggle when Seokjin is still confident. 
“It’s not metal though babe. But he’s a screamer.” 
“Put it on. Jungkook, I’m hanging up.” 
Let’s just say, Seokjin learns how to tune down the confidence after hearing King for a Day and not speaking more of it for the rest of the day. 
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amazinglyegg · 7 months
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Give us the headcanons plsssss
Ask and you shall receive! I wasn't actually expecting anyone to be interested in this so I'm hyped!!
Transfem! Danse Headcanons
I personally think that queerness in general is very normalized in the wasteland
Like, it's 2277. The Brotherhood doesn't give a shit what your gender is. Scribe Haylen would probably do your top surgery on the ground in the police station if you asked politely
What I'm trying to say is if Danse's egg cracks while he's in the Brotherhood "Not wanting to transition to prevent transphobia/sexism/general issues in the workplace" wouldn't be a reason to stay in the closet
It's more of the fact that Danse has created this little niche for himself, that he has so little identity outside of the Brotherhood that he feels the need to hold onto every scrap he has, even if that scrap is, well, "male".
My original idea for the drawing I made was Danse losing a bet/game/etc during his more ~wild~ Knight days and Cutler (plus some other knights) made him wear a skirt/dress/etc as "punishment"
And Danse is embarrassed and whatever, he's being laughed at, and then he goes back to his quarters to change and for the first time actually gets a glance at himself in the mirror and woah
It's more than a bit awkward - the clothes are ratted and don't fit properly, he's probably wearing his flight suit underneath, but there's a flutter in his chest that's more than just the lingering embarrassment of the lost bet
Egg successfully cracked. Now to just push down and hide those feelings about as much as he hid that dress in the back of his closet
I also wouldn't be surprised if he went through an "aw fuck I have a crossdressing kink" phase before he truly realizes he's trans
Partially because A. He's a bit repressed, both sexually and in general, and probably connects dresses and bras and general prettiness to "sexuality" rather than "womanhood", and B. It's common for your sex drive to increase once you start feeling gender euphoria
And he's completely oblivious about it all, too. He talks to trans people and watches his teammates transition and he goes "hmm good for them. I can't ever imagine what that'd be like!" And then prompty locks himself in his room, puts on a dress he "borrowed" from the lost and found, jacks off, and cries for 45 minutes.
It probably doesn't click for him until someone looks him in the eyes and says "hey man, you know you can just... be a girl, right? Like, 24/7 for the rest of your life?" And Danse is like oh my fucking god. Holy shit.
And let's be honest, with how Danse doesn't open up very much, that person would probably be Sole, and it'd probably be post-bb
Dealing with a gender identity crisis ON TOP of a synth identity crisis might be a bit much for him though so... let him take it slow
I would love to see Danse mess with his pronouns a bit - maybe she/they or she/he?
I can imagine him still having a strong attachment to his manhood, due to it being one of the only aspects of himself that really exists and isn't either ripped away from him (like the Brotherhood and Cutler) or a fake memory
So he'll go for demigender or bigender or SOMETHING not binary trans that includes both his current womanhood and his past manhood that he still connects to
The TRANS part of "transfem" is super important to him
Totally not me projecting with my own experiences as transmasc
ALSO I like to imagine he gets gender envy from the WEIRDEST things
Like Sole sneaks this shirt into his laundry:
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And he is. Entranced.
Stares at himself in the mirror for the next like ten minutes straight
Haylen knocks on the door like "Hey Danse? buddy? You good in there...?"
And Danse is softly weeping like "I want them to be real... 🥺"
OKAY I'M DONE FOR NOW. I hope you enjoyed transfem Danse rambles. If you read this far congrats here's some pride edits for your commitment:
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night-market-if · 1 year
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Dear sweet author, poet-est of words, curator of comfort and IF deity of angst...I am not ok. WE are not ok. I'm going preface this "ask" that actually isn't one at all (my very first ever, mind you) with an apology for how rambly and unhinged and it may end up being. I've been wrestling back and forth with my Anxiety about sending this (people-ing makes me nervous) but after finishing Book 1 I cannot get your story out of my head, and you deserve all the love and gushing.
The plot, the characters, the prose are all just so amazing! You're so very talented and deserve all the recognition for this work of art. I've been with your story since before the first Chapter was released and it has gone from something I have enjoyed immensely to one of my favorite IF's ever and oh boy have I read a lot! The lore and environment are rich, and each character has a distinct voice that is their own. There are so many wonderful things I could say but I don't think I'm eloquent enough with words to do it justice.
*SPOLIERS AHEAD*
Reading through the last few chapters, specifically 11 and 12, for obvious reasons I believe I can confidently say I have gone through the 5 stages of grief and more. lol I knew what was coming and it still completely subverted all of my expectations. Played through first as my Milomancer and the literal gut punch I felt in some of that ending dialogue, specifically on whether he cares or not wrecked me. I haven't had a visceral response to a story like this in so long it completely took me by surprise. Oh, and can we just praise you for that buildup of suspense leading to the talk with Milo. I was legitimately holding my breath so convinced we were going to find him at Mals and it was just the invitation. *Screeches*
Anyway, reading this has made me an absolutely feral, sobbing, punching the air howling into the abyss of a mess and I just can't stop thinking of all the possibilities of things to come. When I finished, I immediately went back, read through all the routes with all the variations because I just couldn't get enough. It's crazy to see all the hints, correlation within everything and put it all together. Just genius. There are so many other things I want to touch upon, but this has gotten so out of hand, I apologize. (I hope this doesn't come off as too overly familiar) But now that I've finally sent my first ask I think I'll be comfortable sending more in the future.
So, congrats on technically finishing book 1!! I'm looking forward to reading the beefed-up version and in the future the next book (which ofcourse is a long way off). I'm sure you're chomping at the bit to get everything completed but I do hope you take time for yourself to just relax and be proud of all you have accomplished. Remember to stay hydrated and take care of yourself!
Much love from an old broad who is just a big fan <3
Unhinged asks are my favorite!!!!!
Thank you so much for being here from the get go. I look back on almost a year ago now and kind of feel like I was looking at someone who had no idea what she was doing but was going to barrel through it all anyway. Which, to be fair, is how I treat most things in life.
I'm so glad that you went back and read it again after chapter twelve! I have been peppering in little hints from the get go. So much so that I thought nearly every chapter, someone was going to call me out. LOL! And some people did but most did not which leaves me just in awe.
I've taken next to no time for me, if we're going to be honest. LOL! But I'm hoping to son. Mainly, personal life has been hectic so I am looking forward to sitting and diving into my work again.
I really hope you send more asks in the future! I'm not scary and would love to hear from you. Thank you again so much for reading!
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strawberrycircuits · 8 months
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AAAUGHHH SO. major spoilers but you said you don't mind YIPPEE!! alvis is. complicated. they were an 'administrative computer for a phase shift transition event' or smth but basically a fancy computer for a cool science space station thing. so he's a ridiculously advanced AI, accidentally got yeeted through an interdimensional Thing called the Conduit and made a whole new universe for his scientist buddies (klaus and galea. they show up for a whole 20 minutes in the game and i'm obsessed.) everyone else died 👍(as far as they know)
they're tortured because like. his original purpose was to just Learn about stuff + take care of a whole space station and all the people on it (there was some war happening yadda yadda) and like ! it's a Thing that he wants to help people + not have people die!!! (he's a side character who tells the protag 'hey you can change the future so bad things don't happen :-)')
and then you learn that due to him being a computer he can't truly make his own decisions and relies on administrator commands (and he utilises every loophole he can) and thus has been stuck for thousands of years as a tool to destroy and remake the world every now and again because his administrator was a selfish jerk who wanted people to like him (everyone forgot about him)
AND xenoblade 2 lore tells us that he was just one computer of three (called the trinity processor) and i have FEELINGS those were his SIBLINGS and he has no way of knowing what happened to them
idk much abt xenoblade 3 but alvis comes back as a character called a and they're canonically nonbinary so that's also cool 👍
ANYWAY. long ramble over. i love alvis a normal amount. congrats on the blorbo-in-law
(2/4) OH ACTUALLY. re: the administrative commands etc it's just !!!!!!! we get to see just how much power alvis can use (he created their whole universe! he has destroyed and remade it a number of times! he's the source of the power that the old scientists used to become gods!) but he can't access it on his own because of the limitations of being a computer !!!!!!! aughhhhh it kills me. he can see almost every possible future but he can't do anything on his own to change things!!!!! [laying on the ground sobbing] i know they mean little to you right now i just need to be unwell for a moment. (but also this is why shulk&alvis mean so much to me. because shulk looks and sounds exactly like the evil guy who has been using alvis as a tool for millennia but alvis makes the choice to trust him anyway!! even though shulk's entire purpose was to be a puppet for the evil god and was nearly consumed by zanza (the evil god) 's lust for power and violence!!!!!!) (they chose to trust each other and change the world, and make it better!!!!! they made the choice to make a world were they couldn't see the future anymore, and everyone was free to make their own decision) I DIDN'T MEAN. TO XENOBLADE DUMP AT YOU. BUT STILL. HI (3/4) actually i'm back (now i'm sorry) the funniest thing is we don't learn any of that abt alvis until the literal very end of the game. for most of it he's just a weird little dude who makes the :3 face at the protag all the time. his introduction is him showing up in the middle of the woods and showing off by using the sword Literally No One Except Shulk Can Use (spoilers: alvis is also the sword) (also re: no one can use the sword: one of your party members (hi dunban) used it briefly but now can no longer use his right arm (disabled rights!) and the sword has literally killed people) to fight a monster that can read your mind and then he Never Fights Again (despite travelling with your party through different parts of the game) he just ! shows up out of nowhere ! and then gives you cryptic advice the rest of the time while going :3 alvis is one of the most characters of all time (4/4) i was gonna apologise for leaving a monster in your inbox but then. oops. oh well. rejoice alvis lore be upon ye
ALVIS MOODBOARD
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ambrossart · 1 year
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Hi lovely. I read that you’re still unsatisfied with the intimate scenes in the second part of the epilogue, but I want you to know that it’s some of the best I’ve ever read. The awkwardness is so realistic, and the emotion really shines through. (WHEN HE SAYS HE MISSED HER BEFORE KISSING HER. OH MY GOD.) And the newness of the experience for both of the characters is so endearing, and it’s perfectly balanced with the sudden spikes of boldness from both of them, too. (Speaking of, when Eddie made her say “Please.” I actually dropped my fucking phone.)
Not to ramble, but the conversations throughout the intimate moments were also incredible and really grounded the whole scene.
I know I sound like a broken record, but this series has seriously given me so much comfort (even though it made my heart beat so fast that I had to pace around my room, which I also loved). Thank you so so so much for this story. It’s made a little home in my head that serves as a respite throughout my days.
I can’t wait to read The Morning After and any other works you put out. And belated congrats on your recent move!! 💓💓💓
You know... I dunno, maybe I'm just being overly critical of myself. Those scenes are just so emotionally charged. This is such an important moment for both of them. Even without the physical part, just having her in his house is a huge deal. That’s why I love how, while he’s initially kissing her on his bed, she’s trying to look around his room and take everything in (I swear, just being in his room is probably enough to get her going 😂). It’s a very special moment and I’m not sure if I captured it well enough, but I did the best I could.
Of course, that’s not to say I’m unsatisfied with all of it. There are parts that I really like, like when she feels insecure about Eddie’s past sexual experiences and he pokes fun at himself to make her feel better. He’s just so precious. 🥺
And speaking of that “I really missed you” line, that sequence is one of my favorite parts of the entire epilogue. It was such a struggle for them to overcome their emotional hurdles. These idiots put themselves through hell and they finally made it through to the other side, and now they get to just relax and enjoy being together.
Some of the earlier high school fics are going to highlight just how bad it was before. There wasn’t a bunch of cute, flirty banter or bickering. No obvious sexual tension. It was just… a wall of ice, broken up by rare glimpses of how things used to be (not enough to give him hope, but just enough to torture him). And there are periods early on where Eddie tries to get through to her, and it just blows up in his face, and he eventually stops trying. Now he has to accept the loss of not just a potential love interest but also a really good friend.
So, yes, this poor boy really means it when he says he missed her. 😭
Anyway, thank you so much for reading! Your comments always make my day ❤️
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finniestoncrane · 1 year
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Hi hi Finnie!! Congrats on reaching 1k! I've been going back n forth if i should request this because,,, nervessss, but can I pleasse request no.9 ever fallen in love with someone?
I'm 5'3, have blonde buzzed hair and a curvy, chubby body. I'm afab genderfluid & bi so i joke my gender and sexuality is just everything/everything XD
I LOOOVE making really bad jokes, like dad jokes, puns, dirty jokes, and some of my favourite jokes dont have spoken punchlines so i stare at people with a goofy face until they get it :D I love listening to other people rant about their passions and learning new things, even if i dont fully get it, and enjoy being able to do the same back.
I'm very creative so most of my hobbies are with my hands, from drawing, to sewing, resin and woodwork, i like to try a bit of everything. I really enjoy seeing a finished product that i made on my own! I also like reading and playing dnd so I'm really good at crafting strategies or creative ways around problems in the game (and describing how i get to defeat my enemies, because im squeamish with real blood, but i love some good ol fictional gore.)
I'm very outgoing and bubbly, and i dislike being formal with people. I'd much rather be my casual and crude self, and skip any awkwardness. I am naturally very loud so i can have some issues around quieter people but i try my best to adjust so I'm not cutting them off. I also have a very dirty mind and am a very physically affectionate person, I'm always flirting with, hugging someone, linking arms, or holding hands, whether were platonic or romantic!
Asfghgjfla thank you for letting me ramble and for doing all of these for us!!
🎀 No.9: Ever Fallen In Love With Someone 🎀
tell me a little bit about yourself and i'll give you a rogue pairing a/n: ok i am bestowing upon you what i consider to be the greatest gift because truly you just suit him so well 💚 1k milestone info! 🔞minors dni🔞 • kofi • tag: finnie1k
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ok this is my own headcanon but it's practically legit canon in my mind by this point, but thick bodies are his favourite type of body so checkmark there
also, exceptional gender and sexuality choice. i feel like yeah he's a cis bisexual boy, but also i don't think he cares enough to put any sort of label on it, and he has more important things to be concerned about, so he'll identify as whatever the fuck makes you leave him alone and stop questioning him quickest
look i'm not pulling out my files on his dialogue in the games, but trust me when i say that this is the dorkiest dweeb in the universe and his ability to make the dumbest jokes and be so satisfied with himself knows no bounds
good about the listening thing, because you won't be allowed to get a word in edgeways. and besides, he's the best, so he deserves everyone's attention at all times while he talks about whatever the hell he pleases (but he might also let you tell him about something you love if he's too tired to talk)
yeah, stinky boy is down there in his little workshop using his little raccoon paws to get up to all sorts of nonsense so he'd be super pleased to have someone with some capabilities in that kind of area to help him with some projects
and being able to be strategic and creative with problem solving? sounds like someone just got promoted to riddler apprentice and chief "evil plan" coordinator
outgoing and bubbly are probably going to grate on him but god knows he needs someone to be the face of his operation, and it'd be good for him to have a brightness in his life
also it's fine to be loud because you need to be able to cut through either the sound of his welding or yelling or ranting
and truly very much so he needs physical attention and affection, which i'm sure he'd warm to eventually if you just keep at it. relentlessly, even if he's pretending to hate it and it's making him grumpy
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lutawolf · 1 year
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Hi Luta!
I've been following your blog since KinnPorsche and very quickly fell in love with your reviews hehe and as I read through them, a lot of what you wrote really just clicked for me so you know how you said you seem to attract brats? Congrats you got another baby brat following you 😂 (I actually took the bdsm test you used for the KinnPorsche posts and scored 91% for brat lol ngl that surprised me but also thinking about it......yeah it fits 😂). Learning more about the bdsm community is definitely something I want to do in the future, I just don't have the means rn. But I've always had a very active imagination and the theater major/creative writing minor in me loves to analyze stories and characters, so trying to see a story from several or all of the characters pov is something I really enjoy. And that combined with what I've learned from your blog, I've been able to start figuring out what I do and don't like (theoretically ofc since I have no practical experience and when I experience it irl things will most definitely change), for instance I liked the gentle corrections you pointed out in KinnPorsche or how in Love in the Air, Phayu never denies Rain comfort when he needs it even when he's being firm and just overall how these couples found ways to bring the D/s element into everyday life that works for them.
Anyways I just recently figured out something that I probably don't like skdjks I've been watching Not Me (and reading your posts about it after each ep) and I got to ep 8. Bondage is def something I want to try in the future but I got so mad at Sean for leaving "Black" tied up alone AND I'M NOT EVEN THE ONE WHO'S TIED TO BED 💀 I actually had to pause the ep so I could calm down a bit skdskfkd to help myself calm down I aggressively stabbed some cinnamoroll cloud slime with my fingers (while wrapped in a fuzzy blanket which def must've made for a funny image lol). Once I felt better, I hit play again but kept playing with the slime while watching. And then "Black" came to meet Sean at that abandoned building at the episode and I had to pause again cause I was still mad skfjsjfk my slime really went through this evening 💀 And knowing my petty ass I will most definitely still be mad at Sean for awhile lol (the logical part of me knows it's just a show but the petty side is winning rn) so yeah needless to say, if that had been me.........good luck getting my trust back Sean skzkfhjdkd
Anyways I just felt like sharing this, I know it's a pretty long ramble of an ask but I felt like I could share it with you 💕
Hope you have good day!
Hey baby brat!!!
Thank you for following me so long!!! You've gone through some craziness, lol. 💜💜💜
Yeah, my pet peeve is leaving someone tied up. I tend to be lenient with movie and show magic. However, so many people just don't realize how dangerous it is to keep someone tied up. For a multitude of reasons. Depending on the type of restraint, you only have a few hours to even minutes before you can start causing damage. Cuffs and handcuffs are safer than some other restraints, but even then, you should play by the rules of mobility.
Also, there should always be escape access nearby. A way in which a submissive can remove the bondage if necessary, should there be an emergency. I've known submissive who've had to cut their ropes to save their Doms. It happens.
So yeah, I agree with you completely here. Hope you have an amazing day!!! 💜💜💜
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myownlittlehell · 11 months
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⋆。˚☽🌌☽˚。⋆ ℍ𝕚 my name is Chai! I made this blog because I wanted to make something online that represented me. Not just my art, but my interests, my spirituality, everything that's me. Because when I think about it, I don't really know myself too well. But with this, I hope things will change. You know the meme I am cringe but I am free, that's me, that's this blog! I feel like if there's a cringe bingo I could fill that bitch up. 𝕀 also just wanted a social media platform that didn't feel like I had to constantly shill for interactions. At this point, I'm going in with the mindset of, if someone sees it, neat, if not, also neat! ⋆。˚☽🌌☽˚。⋆
⋆。˚☽☁️☽˚。⋆ 𝕊ome things about me are: ⋆。˚☽☁️☽˚。⋆
⋆。˚☽🌈☽˚。⋆ 𝕀 make art (albeit very slowly) ⋆。˚☽🌈☽˚。⋆
⋆。˚☽🌌☽˚。⋆ 𝕀 love video games, mostly Nintendo ones (Pokemon and Mario especially) but I'm working on getting a gaming PC together so I can branch out. ⋆。˚☽🌌☽˚。⋆
⋆。˚☽☁️☽˚。⋆ 𝕀 was HEAVILY into Witchblr and whatnot back in the day, and still practice some spirit work and whatnot despite stepping away from the community. Mostly Pop Culture Paganism and PC spirit work in specific (Oh yeah I told you I'm gonna be cringe on main woah boy). Spiritual stuff really fascinates me, it always has. ⋆。˚☽☁️☽˚。⋆
⋆。˚☽🌈☽˚。⋆ 𝕀'𝕞 a stoner, mostly an edible user, but I truly believe that marijuana can be beneficial for certain people like it was for me. ⋆。˚☽🌈☽˚。⋆
⋆。˚☽🌌☽˚。⋆ 𝕀'𝕞 a kinnie, yup. ⋆。˚☽🌌☽˚。⋆
⋆。˚☽☁️☽˚。⋆ 𝕀'𝕞 in college as an art student, but because I'm unable to drive and a bit broke (disability payments go brrr) my associates is taking…a bit longer than I'd like. ⋆。˚☽☁️☽˚。⋆
⋆。˚☽🌈☽˚。⋆ 𝕀 know DNI's are kind of a meme, but beyond the obvious DNI criteria of being a semi-decent person on the internet, I do believe that others have a right to criticize what I post, it's a public blog on the internet after all. I truly believe that it is important to not shut out anyone with a different opinion, even if it's not put in the nicest way possible. ⋆。˚☽🌈☽˚。⋆
⋆。˚☽🌌☽˚。⋆ 𝕋𝕙𝕒𝕥 being said, depending on how I'm feeling I may not be willing to do a typical online debate or whatever. Basically what I'm trying to limit my sperg rambling to is that I'm open to criticism, but I may not always engage with it. I do believe that the meaning of harassment has been watered down a lot and I want to keep an open mind, honesty with one's self was the main reason I wanted to make this blog in the first place, so who am I to try and censor someone else right? Just keep it decent, that's all. ⋆。˚☽🌌☽˚。⋆
⋆。˚☽☁️☽˚。⋆ 𝕀 guess other things about me is that I'm a fucked up little dude. I've been diagnosed with a lot of shit and it does effect my day to day life. Things like, ASD, BPD, OCD, (a lot of D's) ADHD, Cerebral Palsy, and of course because it's Currrent Year, Depression and Anxiety (especially the social kind). ⋆。˚☽☁️☽˚。⋆
⋆。˚☽🌈☽˚。⋆ 𝕀𝕗 you made it through my ramblings…congrats! I'm genuinely grateful someone read this, hopefully I don't come off too wierd, but if so oh well, such as life. ⋆。˚☽🌈☽˚。⋆
⋆。˚☽🌌☽˚。⋆ 𝕎𝕖 live in Hell after all, why not be honest about it? ⋆。˚☽🌌☽˚。⋆
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pertinax--loculos · 11 months
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So, I’ve been gone for a while again, because uni and work and life sucks, but this is always my happy place, so I figured I’d check in anyway. ^_^
This got long, so to start with -- let me know what you’re up to! Tag me, reblog this, whatever you do, all my notifications for the next 24-36 hours I will respond! What’s your most recent favourite bit of writing? What goal is in your grasp? What’s pissing you off in your life that you wanna bitch about? I am genuinely interested and can’t wait to hear! ^_^
Under the cut: brief musings on my current projects (including TE-YAL, which is rapidly becoming my favourite for reasons that will become obvious if you read), and slightly longer musings on ChatGPT (oooooooooh, controversial!!!!!):
With assignments and whatnot I haven’t done a whole lot of writing recently, which kills me. (What also kills me: the week we had on ‘legal writing’, where I spent the entire time I was watching content going ‘oh no. Oh no. No.’ Basically take the way I write and demolish it, and you’ll get what my examiners want. They said not to use the words heretofore, abovementioned, or whereas -- I use the two former casually at the slightest provocation in text communication, and I use ‘whereas’ more than occasionally in actual conversation, so that’s fucking fun. -.-) There’s also a semi-issue with The Monstrosity where I decided I probably need to delete a character -- and therefore change the POV from the original to something completely different, including all of their relationships with the other characters. It’s kinda unconsciously blocked me (? or maybe that’s just uni and other shit); regardless, I thoroughly imagined the next scene, but haven’t actually got it down into words. Lots of rejigging and whatnot which annoys me, because plotting is not my forte, which brings me to my next point:
I revisited TE-YAL just over the last couple of days for... reasons (that I genuinely cannot recall, but anyway). And I know I’m gonna be fucking lynched for this on here, but I’m gonna say it anyway -- due to a series of circumstances I’ll detail below, I used ChatGPT to get me through the block, and I think it’s fucking worked.
I’m gonna say straight up, please don’t think I’m using it to write anything. The fact is that TE-YAL stands for Traumatised Ex-Young Adult Leads, and the idea of the WIP is that it’s a group of people who experienced something that could have been a YA novel, coming back together to confront the people that made them, and discovering that everything they thought they knew about their origin wasn’t actually true -- but that last bit (confronting the people, etc) I didn’t have an idea on until tonight.
So this is rambly, but if you’ve made it this far, congrats, you get the full, still not-entirely-coherent explanation:
The initial idea was very ephemeral, and used an idea I’ve played with in a lot of WIPs, unsure which suited it best. It’s basically a superpower that’s medically possible. And I played with that for (*checks*) around 13k, and then I was like, ‘well, if I’m gonna make a thing of this, I need other medically plausible superpowers for the others’.
And I could research that, but you go to a wiki page on nanotechnology or gene manipulation and come back to me four hours later still not sure if that would work.
So I went to ChatGPT. And asked the question, ‘what superpowers would be medically plausible?’
And it gave me a list. And I asked, ‘okay, that’s cool, but how on earth would #3 on your list actually be medically plausible?’
And it gave me an answer. And it fitted with what I was working with.
So I asked about a couple of other numbers. And some didn’t work, but some did. And suddenly I have 90% of the worldbuilding that I hate -- having to do medical research to ensure that what I’m proposing is at least plausible.
(And, I know, some people would probably say, ‘well, why does it need to be plausible?’ But this is a genuine block I have, and a reason to not write.)
And the fact is -- when I started jotting down notes about who had what ‘superpower’, I started to go, ‘okay, why would this company be researching this in this way? What do they have to gain?’ And an hour later, I have an entire backstory, and -- without meaning to blow my own horn -- it’s fucking amazing. Like this WIP has fucking legs. There’s so much commentary there, and I already knew there would be commentary, cuz there’s a problem with one of the main relationships and there’s also problems with what the fuck happens after these traumatised YA leads save the world? And there’s bigger questions I’m looking at and wanting to explore. And honestly I’m really excited because I think it could be really cool.
And I’m not using ChatGPT to fucking write anything. God knows it couldn’t, and if it could, I don’t see how it would be much different than AI art -- a poor imitation of human imagination. But to collate information in a way that negates my tendency to procrastinate because I need specific answers and can’t be bothered learning basic gene theory in order to do so? Fucking amazing.
And honestly, because I’m so bad at plots, I’m not entirely opposed to asking its opinion on what an arc should be for someone with X background, or Y scenarios that might lead to Z. They might all suck and I’ll roll my eyes. Or it might give me a jumping off point -- just enough to jog my own imagination, and make me go, omigod, y’know what, that could WORK...
I think it’s a tool -- and it’s a tool that’s gonna be misused (people use hammers to kill people, after all). And I don’t think it can write. I don’t believe AI can write a novel that many people would read. Some people would, but some people read the drivel that’s self-published on Amazon, and have we ever viewed that as competition?
There’s gonna be developments of course, and don’t get me wrong -- I ABSOLUTELY condemn the training of these fucking AIs on writing, painting, digital art, or ANY OTHER ART where the author or artist has not given permission. Perhaps that’s where people would also condemn my usage of it. But I genuinely believe this usage makes it a content narrower, an assistant who can go back and google the bullshit I don’t wanna and spend the time simplifying the resulting information into a way that I can use for my stories without me spending hours researching if it’s medically plausible for a person to shoot lasers from their eyes. (It’s not, according to the 500 word response from ChatGPT.)
I guess this post is to say -- hi, I hate worldbuilding! And any tool that makes that easier is going to be embraced by me. (Also, the profession I want to go into is already saturated by this type of AI, and I am going to need to keep up with the times if I want a job when I graduate in a million five years.)
If you’ve made it this far, congrats! Please tell me your opinions on what I’ve said. It may take me fucking weeks to respond because of everything else, but I’m highly interested in this issue and highly invested in the tiny little experiments I’ve done tonight. Also, if you wanna know more about TE-YAL, lemme know, because I’d love to talk about it. ^_^
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kirathehyrulian · 1 year
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Congrats all round 9 spn masquerade creators! The fill period is over with. We made it!!! 🙌🙌🙌 Now everybody can sit back and enjoy all the fills.
I believe creators can now post their works elsewhere now if they choose to. I’ll be posting all my fills to ao3 sooner or later. (I got to make five this round. 💪)
But in the meantime, I definitely encourage everyone reading this to go to the masquerade’s pinboard and enjoy and make a comment about your enjoyment, anon or not, on the fills that speak to you. There’s a lot of great works this round.
There’s also previous round works to look at. Unfortunately you can’t comment on previous rounds because each round only allows a limited window to get feedback (and not all creators post their work elsewhere, so you might never get a chance to tell them how you feel about a piece if you miss that window)  There’s a variety of really great kinky creations that came out of the masquerade. It’s worth your time if you haven’t already checked it out (remember to kink and let kink and no judgement if you’re going in):
https://pinboard.in/u:spn_masquerade
•Personal masquerade ramblings below the cut•
I believe my best so far for the masquerade was seven fills for a round, but tbf that round was extended due to covid iirc. That spring, round 6, (my first round) was a record setter for art fills in the masquerade. It was somewhere in the twenties? Yeah, 21 fills that round. The previous record for art was seventeen fills in a round. I was super determine to contribute towards the masquerade passing over that number that spring. I’m very proud of that number all the artists were able to achieve that round. I could have helped towards round 7 possibly breaking the record again, but I didn’t join in that year for some reason? I think I was busy, iirc? And I didn’t even entertain joining in round 8.
Round 1- 13    Round 4- 17     Round 7- 14 Round 2- 17    Round 5- 17     Round 8- 5 Round 3- 5      Round 6- 21     Round 9- 9
I was debating on whether to join round 9. I wanted to, but I was hesitating. Luckily, Mystifiedgal sent me an ask about it. After that I decided to make a commitment and pour myself into it this time. I had to push myself, cut corners, swallow my pride, and let the awkward parts in the art go to finish anything. If I arted under the normal steps I undergo to complete works, I probably would have not have completed 1, let alone 5.
I decided I wasn’t going too be hard on myself. My main priority was to try and fill as many prompts that interested me that I could do easily in the time allotted and to make the prompt ideas into a reality through the skills and resources I had. I chose not to be too precious about my process to make that happen.
I wanted to try to fill more, but some of the ideas I had were too complicated to figure out in a short time frame. Or alternatively, I wasn’t knowledgeable/skilled enough to full realize them with the constraints I had. I’m in this odd space of wishing I could do more and the event was still going on, to feeling like “There’s no way I could draw another thing for a while. Thank god, it ended.”
Some of the works I did are probably a little too spicy for tumblr, so I might not share any here. Or if I do, only the Gen ones way later on when I feel like it. Tumblr is weird in how it sometimes hides posts from everybody, even followers and mutuals, regardless of it being sfw or not. Sometimes it’ll hide responses from people that I haven’t blocked or haven’t blocked me. And I’m not in the mood right now to entertain and second guess why a post isn’t getting or getting spotty interaction on this hellsite. At least if it doesn’t get much of a response on ao3 I’ll know it’s just because what I’ve made is more of a niche interest rather than the platform working against me.
Anyways, I haven’t made the post yet but it’ll be up sometime soon. I have the same name on ao3 as here but if you need a link here: https://archiveofourown.org/users/kirathehyrulian
Anyways I think that’s it for now. I’ll go more in the actual art notes on the individual pieces on the ao3 art notes.
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Congrats on your 900 followers friend! You deserve it 💓 I requested a match up before with game of thrones, I was wondering if i could get a romantic grishaverse match up please ? 😺
My pronouns are she/they, I'm a lesbian and my mbti is INFP 9w1. My zodiac sign is capricorn and my house is hufflepuff (if this is necessary, if i were a grisha i would be an alkemi)
I'm a very quiet person, timid, kinda grumpy and a bit shy but with close ones I'm a bit more talkative. I'm the type to be logical but also feel bad if it affects people's feelings, a bit of a people pleaser not gonna lie. I try my best to stay out of trouble but sometimes can't help but help people in need even if it causes me trouble (blame myself for it after sometimes). I'm actually pretty nice, kind and friendly. Like I would split my food and hand you the bigger one. I'm a good listener and gets embarrassed after i ramble about something i like. I get nervous and overwhelmed easily, I'm also anxious and paranoid like I check if i have the things i need like five times haha. I'm very loyal to my friends and hate to see them upset.
I'm 5'4 with dark brown long hair. I have a very basic style of dressing but i'd like to wear darker clothing or gothic style and i also like to wear knitted sweaters hehe.
Likes: Quiet places, music, relaxing solitude, matcha tea, cold drinks, cold weather, reading (dark-ish novels, I promise Im not a weirdo), taking breaks and hanging out with people i like.
Dislikes: insensitive or immoral people, germs, untidiness, loud noises/people, not being able to sleep.
Hobbies: Drawing, Reading, Organizing and Sleeping
Habit(s): I have a habit of dozing off when Im stuck in my mind and I pull my sleeves really hard when I'm nervous.
My Love Language: Quality Time and Acts of Service
Thanks! Hope you have a great time, keep up the good work! Sorry if i made any mistakes, english isn't my first langauge ♡
hi!
thank you for participating :)
i ship you with zoya!
it seems like you’re quite a different person than she is, but i think that’s a good thing. you’d be able to balance each other out well. she’s pretty independent, in a similar way you are. she’s not interested in small talk or carrying on conversations that have no purpose. if she can make it through the day talking to as little people as possible, she considers it a success. she gets quite moody as well, but for some reason, she finds herself wanting to talk to you more and more. as you got closer, she’d find herself really enjoying your company, which surprised her.
unlike you, she doesn’t really consider that her words may hurt peoples feelings. but with you, she’d actively police herself, not wanting to say anything that would upset you or make you mad at her. she’d love how kind you are, and how you actively carry yourself with other people in mind. it would remind her of herself when she was younger, and less hardened by life. you’d be a breath of fresh air that she so desperately needed. she’d find your anxiety and nervous habits endearing, enjoying listening to you ramble. she wouldn’t care what it was about or how long you were talking, she just likes watching your face when you talk about something you’re excited about. with other people, she might find the idea annoying. but with you, she really enjoys it. watching you get all flustered would bring a smile to her face.
zoya also doesn’t like insensitive people, crowds, and loud places. she much prefers keeping a clear head, and she would feel like she could do that around you. when you’d have moments just the two of you, away from everyone else and her day to day responsibilities, it would be the best part of her day by far. despite being a solitary person, she would really enjoy quality time with you. it didn’t matter what you were doing, just as long as she was with you.
she’d find you alone one day, nearly falling asleep at your desk. her day was dragging on, and it wasn’t even over yet. but she’d see you, and feel her troubles melt away.
she’d grin to herself, laying a hand on your shoulder.
“come along, darling. i fancy a nap.”
you’d rub your eyes, squinting. “a nap? don’t you have things to do today?”
“i do,” she’d say, taking your hand in hers. “but it can wait, can’t it? i’m sure the country won’t fall apart without me there for an afternoon.”
“it’ll be boring, zoya,” you’d say, fiddling with your sleeves. “wouldn’t you rather have some time to yourself? surely there’s something more entertaining for you to do.”
she’d take your other hand in hers, giving it a squeeze as she tugged you along with her. “nonsense, love. you’re more than entertaining, id much rather spend my afternoon with you. give yourself some credit. so, what do you say? nap?”
you’d smile, nodding. “nap.”
hi again! i hope you enjoyed this, thank you again for participating :)
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Howdy 🤠 Pacrim anon back again from the rabbit hole I’ve gladly jumped down LMAO
Apparently it’s Newt’s birthday today! And he’s apparently a Capricorn which makes me fucking die because my birthday was two days ago so we are that 🤏🏻 close. Also the amount of myself I’m beginning to see in Newt is terrifying. I did not intend to be blorbo’d here, but it’s like I’m looking into a foggy mirror shaped like Charlie Day
I’m watching Uprising right now and…it’s certainly a movie. It was filmed. It exists. But. BUT! Every scene with Newt so far has made me want to bite through my own femur. Like I’ve read all the spoilers. I’ve read all the fics. But seeing it happen, and knowing what’s really going on with the precursors, it makes the viewing experience so much better. I can get through the slog of the rest of the movie just for that.
Also, I hate how quick the jager’s in this movie movie??? Like bruh you’re several tons of metal, please act like it.
I’ve already been scouring AO3 for all the fics I can find, but if you have any that scratch your brain just right let me know. I will never turn down more Pacrim!
I hope you’re having a good day/night! ✌🏻
Hello!!!! welcome back!!!! i'm gonna be honest with you, reading this message put a grin on my face very early this morning when i first read it, which absolutely isn't an easy thing to do that early in the day. So, thank you for this ask and for making my day brighter right off the bat :]
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!! I want you to know how enamored i am with the phrase "its like im looking into a foggy mirror shaped like charlie day" because i absolutely adore it. and, i ABSOLUTELY understand that, even if its not the exact same degree! i definitely see some of myself in newt, but probably relate to hermann a lot more (mostly with the weird vernacular, eccentric propensity for math, tendency to talk in an "all at once" manner, etc etc). i have a friend who jokingly calls me a combination of the two, which i think sums it up pretty well (i'm also a weird, rambly, punk [aspiring] biologist so it evens out). though, i'm really glad you could find a character to see yourself in like that— imo it's always really neat when that happens. congrats on your blorboning ^_^
As for uprising... YEAH. YEAH. it truly is 'a movie.' i honestly haven't been able to stomach watching it in its entirely, so all my information comes from friends, my girlfriend, analysis on tumblr, clips, and summaries (and criticism through fic-it fics, of course, though i recognize that thats far from a reliable source for canon fgdfklg)
AND THE JAEGERS. YEAH THAT SOUNDS RIDICULOUS. i keep hearing about how weird and off the jaegers are in pr:u, its bizarre </3
I WOULD BE DELIGHTED TO SHARE SOME OF THE FICS SCRATCHING MY BRAIN!!!! i don't wanna leave this ask to rot in my inbox by accident so im answering this first BUT i will reblog a bit later in the day with a comprehensible list of my favorite pacrim fics so far (read: newmann fics. i think they're literally all newmann centered, mostly at least) or make a separate post and link it here! THANK YOU FOR YOUR INTEREST IN MY RECCOMENDATIONS!! it seriously means a lot and truly delights me :3
i hope you're having a nice day/night as well!!! may the future be kinder to you than it was to the "pacific rim sequel" ヾ(•ω•`)o
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