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[rhydium]

Info dumbo about the StarFinite story?

aright u asked for it anon GET READY [cracks knuckles] this is gonna be long so obligatory cut in 3, 2........

...1!

so the uh, the au! the story!! w/e yall wanna call it! full disclaimer, i only began working on this whole thing a while ago, but it's totally taken over my fukn brain. like, we're talking big hyperfixation hrs. am i cringe for being this invested in my own content? yes? cool i do not Care >:3€

i should also throw it out there real quick that i am kin w/ infinite, n this is actually one of my two canons (both of which are my own aus lmfao wow). i didn't go into it expecting it to be but sfsfsgdfs here we are ig!! for that reason it's got extra importance to me n this definitely contributes to the euphoria i get from it!! it's a lil odd writing ur own canon,,? but i kinda just go w/ the flow!

the au n, the story that i will start Eventually, revolves around infinite n starline (obvi) n it's honestly just ... the tl;dr is big healing momence n, what's this? uh oh sisters !!! they are falling in love 😳😳😳

uhhhh so infinite is an android, made by eggman. that's like, the most notable canon divergence here! super important context to have. i've got a whole big theory on the possibility of sega originally intending infinite to be an artificial being (which i explored in the works for my Other canon too), stemming from not only the scene in forces wherein infinite comments on sonic's "data", but a line of dialogue from tails in one of the last stages of the game where he Literally Says "so this is where eggman built infinite". that ... i mean. that contrasts w/ episode shadow pretty hard don't it?? would explain why that dlc was so rushed, n the comic too. ANYWAY adsfsfs um that's a seperate ramblepost. yeah!!!

they are also agender n use they/them (primarily) as well as he/him!! so i'll be refering to them w/ those pronouns!

after the war, infinite is taken in by the resistance n, instead of being dismantled, they're basically given a chance to rehabilitate themselves. it's agreed that they won't be reprogrammed, as despite the potential risks, it feels wrong to do so; like a violation of their free will, individuality n thinking. if infinite is to be a good person, it's not gonna be bc other ppl recreated their entire personality, it's gonna be bc it's what they themselves truly want. robot ethics idk man!! u can't tell me that sonic n co wouldn't offer this to infinite if they offered it to metal in IDW,,,, i am Standing By This!!!

it's, yknow, a bit rocky, at first. infinite has to really fight the urge to return to eggman (something they already tried once, before the resistance found them; they were cast out). it's a struggle against what they were built to do, against giving into unhealthy familiarity over facing a, while healthier, unfamiliarity. new faces, a new life, turning their back on their mission n creator, it's like, a lot.

they work for/with the sonic crew, rebuilding the world they tore down as deemed fitting justice, being closely monitored for a bit as a natural precaution. as it becomes apparent infinite truly no longer has any ambition to harm others (they don't have much ambition for anything, really), they're then granted more freedom, n start taking on more important missions!! it at least gives them something to do, keeps them occupied. they have issues with dissociation, unreality, whether they're truly a real person bc, well, android. feeling purposeless, n a lack of worth, especially. a need to prove themselves. heavy stuff. i'll kinda go into that a bit more in a sec. their work grounds them, if only temporarily.

n soooooo... IDW comic stuff happens. metal virus time. starline gets kicked out of the empire.

now, as the comics are ongoing, n as this is already an au, there's gonna be divergence, n i must admit i haven't planned out all that yet. there's a lot i have to consider!! infinite being w the resistance/restoration is a big game changer ... tho i Do believe that they were absent, likely on a far out mission during most of the chaos. eggman doesn't know abt them, nor does starline or anyone else other than the sonic crew; n some civilians that recognise them.

i'm not 100% sure of Exactly when it happens, but i think it's just after bad guys, that infinite is sent to locate n bring in starline. it doesn't prove too difficult. there's a whole, starline realising "oh fuck it's you???", some bickering n, the two don't hit it off right away. they're both kinda like. not mentally stable ddgddgdds,,,

so uh. starline ends up essentially going thru the same sorta shit as infinite. careful watch, rebuilding, all that jazz, making sure he can be trusted. he's like... very very lost, quite like infinite is. the world has kinda calmed down, in the meanwhile.

it's at this point i'm gonna go ahead n drop a bit of a ramble i subjected my friends to a while ago, to articulate the way i see the two, n their dynamic together!! i was considering making this it's own post a while ago!

analysing their characters a bit... let's look at starline. Like. so we have this, in bad guys, which SENT ME tbfh;

i feel like it's the moment that triggers starline onto the path he is rn canonically,,, he's clearly like. rly mad n bitter. the core of this?? he wants his work n his efforts to be acknowledged.

he's big angry. still kind of in denial at this stage. he has himself obsessed w/ the idea of making eggman see him as Worthy, that if he just tries hard enough, that'll happen. he's dependent on eggman's validation, n i mean, it's no surprise; he's followed him a Long Time by the sounds of it.

then in the recent issue, hold the fuck up, bc we got, This;

god. my god it's all comin together now homies. this???? this right here??? it is the CLASSIC "i have to do this to prove i'm strong n powerful n smart n worthy n should be respected please Give Me Acknowledgement" ..... n who else is Like That? can u see where im going w/ this?

i think most ppl are aware of infinite's character being extremely indicative of self worth/esteem issues n the need to prove themself, right?? the extreme adversity, repulsion, perhaps even fear toward the idea of being weak. the compulsion to prove otherwise, to show their strength, to become powerful, to conquer to make a point. their theme exudes this same energy as their behaviour in-game; an aggressive attitude, trying to assert themself, while if u rly listen...? the lyrics are actually really sad in places. it reeks of cover up, although composition wise, a v interesting thing to note is a lot of the more telling lyrics are prominent while some of the affirming ones are in the background. indicative of a desire to have their true feelings be heard but caught in a vicious loop?

okay okay that's yet Another different analysis. AHEM.

not to get deep on main (oh who the hell am i kidding that's the point of this entire thing) but i think starline has issues w/ his worth in a similar way to infinite. they both seem to have this need to Prove something, whether it's to others or themselves, n get caught in a toxic spiral of doing worse n worse things for Some kind of validation or acknowledgement. they'll go to really big lengths chasing that, n both of them ultimately sought validation in the wrong place n wrong way.

this is a big part of my starfinite dynamic,, n so, what happens, as they get closer n open up??? we have them BOTH realising together that they don't have to do fuck all to prove anything to anyone. they don't need to do all this to show they're strong n smart n worth something, not to anyone else OR themselves. they're enough as they are. they bond over that shared feeling that they have to do xyz, to prove themselves, n that desire to just finally be acknowledged n appreciated n help each other thru it. to help each other understand that other ppls approval, or lack thereof, doesn't define them, their strength, intelligence, and worthiness.

i feel like they have an interesting parallel between them in like... the above could be taken as a general analysis, but to go more in depth on this au specifically?? ...

starline followed eggman for presumably a long time n it no doubt left him feeling a heavy and deep regret for all that time wasted n spent on an unhealthy path. infinite kinda teaches him that what matters is what he's doing Now n also reminds him that if none of it happened, starline wouldn't have learnt a lot of the serious skills he has. n while starline still feels bad, he also realises himself that, he likely never would have crossed infinite's path if none of it happened. for that reason, he wouldn't take it back.

infinite has only been recently made, on the other hand. they haven't really existed long, yet, but so far their experiences haven't been very positive n it can be .... discouraging. starline sorta, shows infinite their limited experiences w/ the world are a very tiny fraction of what's out there, n things can absolutely change, yes, including for the better; that's the essence of life, a neverending, constant flow of change.

it's a big tale of moving on n letting go, honestly; made easier as they're doing it together. n as they heal n grow, well... these bitches gay. sfshshdgds like, ig that's putting it p bluntly but!! they start to trust each other, understand each other more. as they get to truly know who the other is, they both start developing The Feelings. they're both pretty oblivious n the reveal is totally unknown so far!! yeah, i know, bummer. i suck. boo. adafsfsds however i can say there will be lots of content in the making!! if that soothes the soul! i've got of ideas i hope to bring to life.

ofc there's still a lot of more specific things i haven't covered here so! if y'all want more juice hmu w/ more focused questions but !! this is the overview n i hope it was a decent read now that gave some uhhh! Cool Insight! yea!!! ✌

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[lavenderlattaes]

happy crush. | han jisung

⇒ summary: han jisung just needs to understand the real context of a happy crush.

⇒ [college! au]

⇒ pairing: han jisung x reader

⇒ word count: 1.4k words

⇒ genre: fluff

⇒ warnings: none

⇒ note:  guys guys guys there’s a filipino term for my feelings for Jisung and it’s kilig sksks bc yes i love him and ugh im smitten af. u kno,,,requests are open sskks ignore mistakes bc im a bit of a blind bat and enjoy!  ＼ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ／

“He comes out of his class in like, five minutes,” you gush excitedly, gripping your best friend’s hand in anticipation.

“Why five, though? Doesn’t his class end a minute from now?” She asks in return and you giggle.

“He stays behind to talk to his teacher; apparently Mr. Kim is his really smart friend who graduated early and now has a master’s degree.” You smile at the information you know, and the black haired boy beside you raises an eyebrow.

The door to the lecture hall opens, and students start filing out, chattering amongst themselves as they leave the room. 

You and your best friend look at each other and giggle, quickly positioning yourself somewhere close to where you know he’ll pass by and pretend to talk as if you’ve been talking for hours and haven’t only been there for fifteen minutes to see him walk out.

Two minutes later, Felix Lee leaves the hall and when he passes by, he nods at the both of you and your best friend. He smiles, particularly at your best friend, who blushes and smiles back.

“Hey, Y/F/N. I’ll see you later?” He asks coolly in his deep voice and your best friend’s already wide eyes widen even more.

“Uh, yes! Okay,” she replies somewhat awkwardly and Felix just smiles and waves at you both before walking away. 

You squeal and shake your best friend somewhat violently, as she tries to process in the fact that her happy crush just noticed her and asked her to hang out with him.

“Goodness, maybe this happy crush will bloom into something more! Y/F/N, I have to plan the wedding now,” you tease her and she just laughs, blushing.

And sure enough, exactly five minutes later, a charming guy with round eyeglasses, and a cute smile with his hair pushed back to his forehead walks out, a gentle “thanks, I’ll see you later!” leaving his lips.

Your heart starts to race and you grip Y/F/N’s hand, as you pretend to look around. As you’re “looking around” your eyes meet his just as he passes by you. The smile on his face widens and he waves brightly.

“Hey, Y/N! Love the jacket,” he compliments you and you blush and smile back.

“Thanks, Seungmin!” You reply and he gives you a nod. He waves to Y/F/N and looks ahead shouting a “Yo, Lix! Wait up!”, running after Y/F/N’s happy crush.

You and Y/F/N follow them with your eyes until they’re out of sight and stand up. You and your best friend do your elaborate handshake, the very one you’ve had since middle school as you start talking excitedly.

“I’ll just hit you up later, okay? Tell me all the details about your “date” with Felix,” you wink and she just laughs.

“I will, you guys take care, okay?” She tells you and you wish her the same, giving her a hug as you part ways. She goes in the same direction as Seungmin and Felix and you smile at her retreating figure.

You turn around and see a frown etched onto your boyfriend’s beautiful features, his lips upturned in a pout. You smile lovingly at him, and step closer, standing on your toes.

Not one for public displays of affection, you take the risk to see a smile on his face. You cup his jaw and press a kiss to his nose.

“Are you okay, babe?” You ask him as you stand back on your heels. He doesn’t react to your action, making you frown slightly. He just pouts and puts his hands up to your face, cupping your cheeks as he straightens your knitted eyebrows. You lean into his gentle touch, pouting as you hold his wrists to keep him in place.

“Will you tell me what’s wrong?” You whisper gently and he shakes his head. You purse your lips and shift so you can kiss the palm of his hand.

“Why not?” You ask and his hands leave your face as he takes your hand in his, intertwining your small fingers with his larger ones. He leads you and you walk, swinging your hands.

“Jisuuuuuuung. Tell me what’s bothering you. Why are you ignoring me?” You look at him but he looks up straight ahead. He says nothing and you sigh.

“Well, I’ll give you space for now but if you’re ready to tell me just—“

“You should go date Seungmin instead,” he cuts you off and you stop walking. He stops too, and turns back to look at you, a sad look on his face. Your heart bursts at his expression and you smile at him softly.

“Why would I date Seungmin? I love you, not him.” You tell him and he just pouts. 

“Heeeey,” you grin and step closer to hug him tightly. He’s stiff but the moment your arms wrap around his middle, he relaxes and wraps his arms around your shoulders. He rests his chin atop your head and you smile.

“Babe, Seungmin is just my happy crush, you know? I just find him cute and funny and smart.” You reply and Jisung huffs making you laugh.

“You gave three adjectives, Y/N.” He says gruffly and you squeeze him tightly as you step back from his embrace reluctantly.

You look up at your boyfriend, the pout still evident on his gorgeous features and you smile. You hold both of his hands as you sigh.

“Han Jisung, listen to me. Kim Seungmin is just my happy crush. Now, what is a happy crush? A happy crush is crushing on someone without any deep feelings involved. It’s crushing on them just because you admire one thing about them. In my case, I admire Seungmin for being smart. It’s admiring someone without worrying about getting hurt that they don’t feel the same because you don’t expect anything to come out of it. Regardless of whether Seungmin is dating someone or not doesn’t matter to me because I just have a crush on him. I just merely admire his personality because he’s so nice to everyone and because he’s smart in a subject I suck at. Now on the other hand, you, Han Jisung, are my boyfriend, my soulmate, the love of my life, my sunshine, my happy pill, my other half, and the only guy I will ever love romantically,” you begin, smiling. 

Jisung just looks at you and you know he’s starting to crack when you feel his hands squeeze yours gently. You bring your hands up to cup his cheeks, caressing the soft skin gently with your thumbs.

“Seungmin is just cute, funny, and smart. But you? You’re gorgeous, hot, beautiful, handsome, funny, awkward, shy, annoying, irresistible, loud and just about every adjective that I could use to describe you. You’re so passionate and talented. You’re a legend, Ji. You write music that can make me cry, music that makes me proud to go around and say, “You know what? My boyfriend, Han Jisung wrote this song.” You’re so hardworking, did you know that? I honestly don’t know what you can’t do. You make me smile, you make me cry— though not all the time and both for good and bad reasons, you make me mad, you make me happy, but above all, you make me fall in love with you more each day. You’re my endgame, Han Jisung and I am not replacing you for Kim Seungmin or for any other guy, okay? Ever. I love you, not him. I’m in love with you and I have been for three years now. One tiny happy crush can’t change that.” You finish, your eyes never leaving his. Your smile grows bigger when he smiles brightly at you, his eyes so close to disappearing. 

Jisung pulls you in closer so your toes are touching. He closes his eyes and presses a kiss to your forehead, his lips staying there for a while. When he pulls away, you look up at him and he looks down at you, crouching slightly as he rests his forehead against yours. 

He leans down and kisses you softly. You wrap your arms around his neck as he wraps his around your waist, pulling you in so close that you’re standing on your tiptoes. When you pull away, Jisung whispers, “I’m so in love with you, thank you for everything, sweetheart.”

You smile, rubbing your nose against his. “Anytime, Ji.”

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