#if it’s a show set in Canada and I like it then it’s good lmao

[thatonesquintern13]

📺 | the way home - season one

live blogging a season one rewatch so i can remember everything for season two 🫡

episode one - mothers and daughters:

• i hope this show goes on forever bc they clearly have a full story planned for this witch hunt

• honestly forgot about this private school situation

• dad’s suck!

• do we learn about the “one hit” orrr

• chyler leigh in glasses. that’s it that’s the thought.

• “fReEs yOu Up fOr sOmE hOmEsChoOliNg” hey why don’t you hush.

• nah bc these two are like… not even divorced yet and his gf already moved in with him? i’d set the fire alarm off too

• oh the one hit was last year’s showcase

• hallmark letting a “damned” into the script. big slay

• i do really appreciate that young dell is just andie macdowell in a dark wig.

• sorry but it’s kinda a dream to have a farm in ‘nowhere canada’ to escape to, alice.

• i love generational mommy issues 😌

• one thing about andie macdowell, that accent’s gon’ be thicc

• wet dog foreshadowing 👀

• moving in the middle of the school year is wild

• omg and a “what the hell” !!

• mystery letter 😈 (i only vaguely remember how it got sent so excited to relearn that)

• the glow-in-the-dark ceiling stars 🥺

• LMAO OKAY dell was wrong for sending her out in her pjs but it was funny hehe 🤭

• ELLIOT!!!!

• “you got a lot in common… what with your divorces.” dell that’s so southern of you

• “and me?” OOF

• dell landry: bee keeping age 😗

• fair that kat wants to talk about her brother and dad but didn’t she also…. like. leave?? 🥴

• “if you ever need to talk i’m here. any place. any… time.” very subtle elliot thank you

• ohp. guess that’s why i don’t remember the bracelet. so rose from titanic of her

• wait that’s literally how she gets in the pond ?? okay that’s on me then.

• baby kat!! (A+ casting btw 🤌🏽)

• i could not imagine sitting on TIME TRAVEL for over 14 years. good on elliot

• elliot and kat better get back together in like the first 2 minutes of s2 🤧

• baby elliot!

• as someone who lost their grandpa when i was really young, alice meeting her grandpa and their whole relationship just hits different 🥺

• no bc the 90s ARE totally back in style.

• “alice will be fine.” “jacob wasn’t.” he was 6, girl 😭

• the white witch 😟 (me: wait why am i gasping i already knew that.)

• the blurry picture is actually very clever!

• elliot just standing over the pond ominously 🧍🏻‍♂️

• idk why but i love that kat called him to yell at him.

• kat, he just knows, okay!!

fin.

#the way home #hallmark #liveblog

[seancamerons]

I did! Angela Anacdona was good. I remember Strange Days at Blake Holey High! It's Canadian and American according to Wiki. It did yeah, Robert Clark, who was also in The Zack Files (a Canadian show). I had no idea Fergie was in a band before BEP. Cool *thumbs up*. Ohh cool, nice. Casper Meets Wendy was awesome. Cool. I remember a show called Guenivere Jones, I don't know if you've heard of it. Im getting nostalgic too. Definitely good times! Np! You're definitely not alone <3 :)

sorry I took a while to respond to this. got a little busy-ish.😊

I'm sure if I knew more I could kind of remember Gwenivere Jones bc it sounds vaguely familiar i probably did see it I just don't think my brain remembers it lmao

As for the other shows I do remember most of these, there is a lot of overlap with these channels having international shows I distinctly remember that 2/47 was set at a private co-ed-like a boarding school in Europe I assume because of the accents that aired on the-n.

I know Are you Afraid of the Dark? on Nickelodeon, even the thing about. Radio Free Roscoe which aired around the same time as Degrassi on former block/channel the-n now Teenick owned by Viacom and family channels from Canada and the United States including Nickelodeon and others like YTV, also had featured a lot of Canadian actors/young American actors/some that have roots with acting in Canada and not necc. Hollywood or whatever. if I'm being honest, a lot of Nickelodeon shows if I remember correctly lots of shows were filmed there, even Instant Star but that show is a sister to Degrassi just like The La Complex I think there were some similarities, and also starred Cassie Steele who was on Degrassi mostly but guested on that show, and I think another one and I know then-Aubrey Drake also guest starred for an arc on there. All in all, there are some significant overlaps and similarities such as some of the locations being the same, the mall, the weird house that had the beaded door decals, the fact that the characters were seen playing karaoke in a season 6 episode or something, and like it was a jude harrison song called 'anyone but you' from the 1st or 2nd season of Instant Star, and some of the stars, guests and such were on Degrassi and other shows.

As someone who watched some of these shows in the 2000s, it's fascinating when I'd see a familiar face i would get such a kick out of that, but I know that merges with networks and deals make that stuff possible, not necessarily that cut/dry simple. I live in the US, and have for all of my life, but I know that a lot of shows use sets there I heard it's bc its cost-effective and they can still film in 'summer' or when it's not as cold outside, so that means early to what we on the east coast would call early summer to mid-summer, and by August it's apparently chillier. For the longest time, I thought they filmed Degrassi in a school that they had to rent, but that was only the set they used as the middle school, not the HS i think that was long closed before they used that as the set/backdrop for degrassi high.

#asks #stardustviolet #💌 tysm for the ask!

[onmytape]

Talk Hockey To Me

Tagged by @iamidentical ! thank you i love these things!!

1. The thing that got you hooked on hockey

I've always watched because my siblings play but I watched the Mighty Ducks in middle school and it's been a problem since.

2. Your first ever fandom friend

I don't even remember, it's been a while.

3. The jersey you would most like to own

Maybe a Team Canada WJC jersey? Maybe a Canucks y2k jersey? (lmao tell me why searching "canucks jersey eras" just shows "how the canucks jersey represents an identity crisis" articles as results) anyway. i like the green/blue orca design.

4. YOUR player (you only get ONE so choose wisely)

If we're talking NHL then Quinn Hughes probably. Out of all of hockey, I really like Riley Heidt (drafted by MIN) in the WHL.

5. A pairing that deserves more fic

I read more f1 fic than hrpf but I would love to read more of my former junior guys in the future. Zellweger or Korchinski etc

6. Your favourite on-ice moment

Any hug is a good hug. A team group hug is the best.

THEN

link someone else's art/fic/etc that you love & think everyone should check out

i loooove this artist and this marner/matthews cowboy art has a special place in my heart.

link something you made & are proud of & want people to see

my favourite set of gifs i made is when fraser met nick (now that i'm thinking about it, i wouldn't mind a fic about these two either...) but i also like korchinski and milic, this cute bedard moment at the combine, this kevin, and the prospects at the stanley cup finals.

Tagging @darkforestroads @divorcecourtdad @readyfreddy if you guys want to do it too

#surprise to no one i love talking about myself

[darthnell]

11, 19, 28, 30, 42

Hi anon ! Ty for the ask ! :D

11. Link your three favorite fics right now.

Oh god three of mine or three in general..??? Um. A..? I guess I’ll do both !!

Three of mine: True Vengeance, THE REPARATION CLAUSE, The Bridges We Burn

Three of others: The Illusion of Life, A Great Leap in the Dark, Mors Vincit Omnia

19. What is the most-used tag on your ao3?

Oh I bet for sure it’s gonna be “graphic depictions of violence” LMAO. Aside from like. The thg fandom tags. Also “original characters” and “alternate universe”. The “canon-typical violence” tag is also my best friend and i love when I surpass that one. Canon atypical violence. I think ive used that one before but only once so it doesn’t count here, but it is funny. OH- the “careers have issues” tag. Also my best friend<3 really fucking excellent tag

28. On average, how much writing do you get done in a day?

Pshhhhh uhhhh…. I’m actually just coming off of an event where i wrote like 35k in the span of 5 weeks which is. Not typical ! This past week-ish I have written exactly Zero words (: …at like. Normal times, I probably can do a solid 1k or in that ballpark. I have been known to bang out like 3k in a day if I’m rly in the zone (i was Unwell last july LMFAO) but also I rly don’t typically write every day. Would like to! Need to build a new schedule though. Hard for me to write on the days when I work but I only work part time atm. I am also. Kind of a slow writer usually. I’ve only written as much as I have bc I write frequently ! ((Or I try to))

30. Do you share rough drafts or do you wait until it’s all polished?

Good god I think I’d perish if I shared rough drafts. Like, on ao3… is that a thing..? So like. My shit isn’t perfect. There’s definitely typos I’ve missed and all that jazz, but I usually heavily edit my chapters before posting. The event I did recently was also like my first time having a beta which was neat but. This is rly silly, bear with me - so I had two separate docs for that, one I wrote the fic in and another that I shared w the betas, because the idea of someone having access to all my rough outlines and watching me on the doc as I write makes me Viscerally uncomfortable, I can’t rly explain it better than that. Anyways, the funny part is, said beta would point out a grammar mistake or typo, and I’d go “nice” and fix it, but forget to fix it on the other doc. So when I. When I posted the fic from the original doc… you can see where this is going maybe. Actual clown idiot moment LMFAO. Tl;dr - I attempt to polish. Doesn’t always turn out shiny jdjddjdk

42. What’s the last fic you read? Do you recommend it?

Ooh ! Last one I read was In The Clear by District11-Olive on FFN. So this one is technically thg but very au; it’s set in modern day Canada where a show called The Cut forced teenaged criminals to fight to the death in order to regain their freedom or get a “second chance”. It’s Really well written and also an excellent commentary on what it means to be a criminal and prison systems in general. This one’s actually the third and final installment of the series, wooh! It’s not complete yet; the story just reached the start of the death match part and its so 👁️👄👁️ It’s also a SYOC fic (Submit Your Own Character). Not open for submissions now, but u might see some of my characters if you check it out c:

Gotta also rec The Furthest Star by geologyisms on FFN since I’m in the middle of (re) reading it.. again 🥺 This is the fic I received from the exchange I took part in recently ! So the main pov char Solan Gardener (D9 tribute in the male slot but uses they/them) was created by me but the story was written by erik/geologyisms ! Ve did such a lovely job with my kiddo u should definitely check it out!! 10/10 new comfort fic fr ;—;

Ty again anon for the question, I had fun !!! <3

#nell clownery here #hunger games #hunger games fanfiction #fanfiction asks #anon ask #ask meme #fanfiction #fanfiction writer #hunger games fanfic #the hunger games

[purplesurveys]

1559

What would you call your body type? Slim.

Are you a morning person? Ugh, not at all. I’m impossible to wake up and am generally just super low-energy in the morning; it takes me a while to come around, even with coffee. Early calltimes are also one of my biggest, if not my biggest, pet peeves.

Have you ever been to Target? Never, we don’t even have that here...

Do you like iced tea? No. We used to have iced tea all the time at home so at some point I got sick of it. I’d turn it down even if it were served for free at like a friend’s house.

When is the next time you'll be at work? Monday morning. I’m not sure when we’ll have our next office day though.

Do you have a savings account? Yep.

Has anyone ever hacked your accounts before? Not the creepy/sketchy sort of hacking, no. I’ve had friends use my phone and tweet whatever on my accounts, but I know that doesn’t even count haha.

What color bedsheets are currently on your bed? Pink and white.

Have you ever been to Disney World? I have not.

If so, how many times have you been? Haven’t been.

Does grammar and capitalization mean anything to you? If it’s supposed to matter, like in work documents and stuff, then yeah. On social media I couldn’t care any less. It depends on the context.

Are you good at wrapping gifts for others? I don’t even know how to wrap gifts, lol. I’ve tried!!! so many times but paper activities and me are just not compatible and never will be. I either pay my sister to wrap my presents, or I just get paper bags altogether.

Do you have a dirty clothes hamper in your room? Not in my room. The hamper is in the main bathroom.

What would you say is your favorite television show? Breaking Bad. That show has a grip on me like you wouldn’t believe.

Do you enjoy big holiday dinners? Sure! I don’t always get to have dinners with my entire family, so when we do it’s always a lot of fun. There’s a certain warmth and comfort in being complete.

Is your vision good? Hasn’t been since I was like, 9. It gets worse every year too; I actually need to get my lens readjusted soon because they barely do anything for my nearsightedness anymore.

Is there any piece of jewelry you're constantly wearing? Nope.

What is one thing you desire as of now? It’d be nice to have sushi.

What kind of phone do you have? iPhone 13 Pro.

If you could move anywhere, where would you choose? Maybe somewhere like Canada or New Zealand.

Do you have any obsessions? I’ve got 7 of them.

Do you blog a lot, if at all? I mean this is it, if you want to count surveys as blogging. I don’t take them nearly as much as I used to, though.

Is your present hair color, natural? A big chunk of it isn’t.

What makes you the most angry when it comes to people? Being all talk and no walk.

Describe your current outfit? It’s just a really comfy white duster meant as sleepwear, nothing special.

What was the last thing you ordered online? The Astronaut! :) Wouldn’t miss it for the world; I got both versions.

Have you ever felt as though you were drifting apart from a best friend? Sure, but I’ve been very fortunate as all my close friends are really low maintenance. I could feel as though we were growing apart, then all of a sudden they’d send me a meme or invite me out that would assure me nothing’s wrong.

What color are your eyes? Dark brown.

Have you ever worn color contacts? Nah and you’d never catch me wearing contacts. I can’t even use eye drops without people having to hold me down lmao. What's the best thing about a hug? When they’re genuine, they feel like home regardless of who it’s from.

Biggest fear? Fire.

If you have a significant other, how long have you been together? Don’t have one.

Do you know any genuinely friendly people? Yes. I know a couple of people who are just naturally good at social settings while also being genuinely nice people 110% of the time – I wish I could have their energy but eh, some people exhaust me more than others and I’m not always able to hide that exhaustion hahaha.

Do you buy your friends gifts? From time to time. My love language is food, so sometimes I’ll surprise them with a random food delivery for no reason.

What was the last thing you plugged in? My phone.

How old are you? 24.

What color headphones do you own? I’ve got white earbuds.

Have you ever shopped on Urban Outfitters? I don’t think so, no. I don’t think we even have that here?

Where do you buy the majority of your clothing? Just small businesses either at the mall or online. I don’t have a usual.

Would you rather wear necklaces or earrings? Earrings. I wear clip-ons though because I can’t wear actual earrings, not after the incident where I permanently ruined the piercing on my left ear.

Do you consider yourself fortunate? Yeah. My life is inconvenient in many ways BUT considering where I live, I’m definitely way more fortunate than others.

Do you enjoy watching fights? I mean only when we’re talking wrestling or UFC, yeah. Any other context than that, I don’t see the point in physical fights or why people would enjoy watching those.

Have you ever been in a physical fight? Nope.

Do you tend to talk badly about people? If they deserve to be talked badly about, yup; I’m not gonna pretend like I’m a saint hahaha.

Where are your parents as of now? My dad is somewhere in the...US? I think? Maybe in Europe? I have no clue anymore. My mom is in the next room.

Does your computer cooperate most of the time? Yes. This laptop is my forever baby.

Does your family have any cheesy traditions? We may have some, but since I’m used to them I wouldn’t know if they’d be considered cheesy by others.

When did you last go to a book store? Around two months ago.

What's the closest book store where you live? National Bookstore...but that place barely counts as a bookstore these days. Let’s go with Fully Booked.

How much money do you have on you right now? None. I rarely carry cash these days.

Favorite personal feature? My smile.

Are you wearing make up at the moment? Nopes.

Favorite television channel? I don’t watch regular TV anymore, haven’t in years. You’ll find my ass on YouTube most days.

Describe any piercings or tattoos you might have? I have piercings on each of my earlobes, but I accidentally stretched out my left ear piercing a few years ago so I can’t put earrings on it anymore – otherwise it would hang quite awkwardly. 

I don’t have tattoos, but my urge to get a ‘7’ tattooed got a lot stronger after the Jin announcement...I would put it at the back of my ear if ever.

Have you ever been fired from a job? Nopes.

Are you currently losing a best friend? Naw, we’re good.

Describe the worst day of your life: September 15th, 2020. I was at near-insanity dealing with a fresh breakup and it also happened to be Angela’s birthday, so I felt 100x worse having to break the news to her. Every year since then we laugh it off as we celebrate her birthday.

Do you play any video games? No, I’m terrible at them. I enjoy watching video game walkthroughs – I’ve just never been skilled at them myself.

Would you say you hate anyone? No. Takes up too much unnecessary energy.

Do you think freckles are cute? I think they’re beautiful.

Last time you went to the mall? Last Friday to pick up a mad bunch of alcohol, chips, and other party stuff like paper cups for the Busan concert.

Name something that's your favorite color: My blanket.

Have you been to Red Lobster before? Nope.

Do you follow a certain religion? No and never again.

Who is your role model, if you had to choose? President Kim Namjoon. 

Would you rather have nice hair or lips? Hair.

What are you most self conscious about? ...My hair. It’s the frizziest, thickest nest in the world.

Do you have any family members who live out of town? I have family who live across the country and across the world. Filipino families are spread out like that lol.

Do you consider yourself short? Yeah. I’m the smallest in the family, and it’s pretty much the same trend with everyone else I know haha.

What room are you in? My bedroom.

Hoodies or jackets? Hoodies.

Are you outside a lot? I wouldn’t say a lot; I’m outdoors at least once a week.

Have you ever been dumped via text message? If I remember correctly, she texted first before we got into that call, so yep. To be fair it happened at the very peak of the pandemic, so we didn’t have much of a choice in the first place. 

Favorite crayon color? That Macaroni and Cheese crayon under the Crayola lineup. It’s been my favorite ever since encountering it in preschool just cos it’s so silly haha.

What is your favorite letter of the alphabet? Don’t have one.

Do you think autocorrect is a blessing or curse? It gets incredibly annoying especially when I type in Filipino. 

Do you believe in any particular curses? Nopes.

Ever play a Ouija board? Nah but I’ve always wanted to fuck around with one.

What movie scares you the most? 2001: A Space Odyssey.

What was your bedtime as a child? We didn’t have a strict bedtime. I remember being able to stay up til around 10 or 11 some evenings.

Reason why your favorite holiday is your favorite: I’m counting my birthday here - it’s my favorite because I didn’t get to celebrate it much when I was younger, and my family didn’t really hold celebrations for me either; in fact, I don’t even remember any of my birthdays til, like, my 18th. Since then I’ve made it a point to go big every year and give back to my loved ones.

Do you work with any close friends? I used to work with Kata, but she’s left now...but no, I don’t work with any of my friends.

Do you consider yourself spoiled? Yeah, especially by my dad. My mom’s a lot better at managing or restraining us, but my dad usually easily gives in.

Do you listen to any country music? Nope.

Have you ever taken a keyboarding class? I have not.

Favorite high school teacher: My music teacher.

Do you ever get drunk? Sure. In fact I hardly remember what happened during the Busan concert last week lol. My memory started feeling funny around the time the boys were doing the whole Dope-Fire-Idol set lolololol, sorry boys.

Have you ever had highlights before? No, never had them. They don’t really appeal to me either.

Favorite number: 7.

Do you still sleep with any stuffed animals? Just my Tata plushie.

What is your biggest regret in life? Being a huge introvert in college.

Do you enjoy social situations? Yesssss.

Would you say you think you have a mental disorder of some kind? Yeah.

Are you normally an independent person? Definitely. Especially at work – I find that I accomplish things much faster when working on my own. I try not to make it a habit since teamwork is super crucial in my field, but at the end of the day there really are some things I prefer to start and finish by myself.

Do you like to be organized? Of course, it’s always better to be.

Have you ever failed a class before? I’ve never failed an entire class to the point of having to repeat it, but I did get failing marks on exams in the past – mainly chemistry, calculus, and philosophy which I all hate to oblivion lol.

Ever been judged because of your weight? I guess. I’ve been told to eat more. Never bothered me though because I know I eat a fuck ton haha; my body’s just built the way it’s buit.

What is your favorite breakfast cereal? I don’t like cereals. 

Ever had a wish come true? Sure.

Do you regret meeting any of your exes? Somewhat.

Do you own any coloring books? Yes, I have a couple.

What's the meanest thing someone's called you? I don’t feel like backtracking on those.

Have you ever bullied someone? No.

Do you ever watch Lifetime? I have no idea what that is.

Ever tried to intentionally sabotage someone's grade? Wtf no.

Do you own any brown clothing? I think I may have a couple pieces, yes.

What color are your walls painted? They’re just white.

Last thing you drank: Coffee.

Have you ever seen a tornado in person? Nope.

Do you have an in-ground pool at your house? We do not.

What is the first digit of your phone number? Nope. What's the prettiest town you've been to? Has to be a tie between Vigan and Sagada.

Do you tend to sleep a lot? Not really. I average around 5-6 hours a night.

Silver or gold jewelry? Silver.

Do you sometimes celebrate holidays early? I mean, that’s Filipino Christmas for you haha. We get into the holiday mood once the clock strikes towards September 1st, and we celebrate until the middle of January.

Have you ever been in love? Yes.

What's the best gift you've ever received? The cruise trip my dad got me for my 18th birthday/high school graduation.

When was the last time you showered? A few hours ago.

Would you consider yourself attractive? Sure.

Has anyone made you mad today? Nope.

Favorite smell: Things being baked is one of them.

Are you afraid of insects? Yes.

Do you have any children? Nope. This survey is so long, fuck.

If so, what are their names? No kids.

Would ever consider having children in the future? I’d love to have kids; I don’t know if I’ll ever have that chance.

Have you ever lived on a farm? Never have.

Ever played any sports? Yeah, I play table tennis.

Do both of your parents have jobs? Yeah, they do.

Where is the best place you've been on vacation to? That little spot in Zambales where we stayed a few months ago. I could live there if only the mobile signal wasn’t so terrible. Also Jeju in South Korea.

Are you, for the most part, an honest person? Yeah, I hate lying.

Did you make prank phone calls as a child? Nopes.

Do you like to make donations? Yes. There’s an animal rescue NGO I follow that I donate to at least once a month.

Favorite movie at the time being: Two for the Road; I don’t think this will ever change.

What is your current ringtone? Continued from last Friday. For the most part, just the ones that already come with my phone. I do have my main alarms set to Yoongi’s Over the Horizon.

Meet anyone from your past lately? You know what, I actually have! I met up with Jo, Laurice, and Jum yesterday for dinner and a couple of drinks – they were the last people I saw before the pandemic broke out, and we’ve only gotten to get together now, 2 years and 7 months later. Funnily enough we happened to be seated right across the table where my high school batchmates Clarisa and Tria were also having dinner. Last night was a funny little night that carried a whole lot of throwbacks.

Have you ever called a teen suicide line? I haven’t. I don’t think we have any that work, anyway.

Have you ever caught something on fire? No. I’m terrified of fire so I hardly do anything with it in the first place.

Ever been obsessed with a show? This was me with Friends for a very long time. What type of perfume or cologne do you use? Don’t really use perfume all that much anymore.

What's the last book you read? I’m not sure. I don’t read much.

Dream career: Still doing what I’m doing - communications and PR - but for a company I admire and genuinely follow. Like Hybe, if I get to magically become fluent in Korean.

Have you ever climbed a mountain before? Yeah, the not-too-tall ones at least haha.

At what age do you plan to get married? I had dreams of getting married by 27, but those plans have fizzled out now. I’ve long accepted the fact that I never want to try being in a relationship again.

Ever been in a car accident? Extremely minor ones.

[baekhvuns]

Yeah I was caught can't even defend myself, sighhh. Take me to jail 🥴

I know it's lethal that's why I shared it with the rest of the class <3 omg really but why didn't anyone write it for Hwa (at least to my knowledge) when all the material is THERE, like the belly chain... come on 💀 gonna write it in my head I guess

Seonghwa wouldn't have to wake me up during storm cause I would be awake anyways jhshussyhesusg he would receive no comfort from me I'm afraid

Jaydusuahdhsha I had an earwig come to my room last night fucking helllll they're out of control?! Also why do they have to big bugs almost all the time, why not smaller ones?! Please I wanna become the Queen of insects but idk how to achieve that status

Good luck on your San era hehe, you including Hwa in your San fic though 🤡 Shinestar clown behaviour. I'm not opposed of course. I don't know that San fic I only read a few stories for him but that sounds hilarious as fuck 😭 demon San getting rejected

I saw Hello82's tweet about "studying Europe" guess they read all the outraged tweets lmaoooo the way artists see North America and look away from Canada, rip 💔

Package things nicely ahahaha- 🙃🙃🙃 bestie I'm gonna recruit my friends to help me cause that shit is annoying and exhausting. Yeah 10 video calls in the span of 2 weeks is so weird, doesn't stop some idiots though I just know I'll be seeing the same problematic bitches post their vids and people will spread them 🔫 I need to snatch some of their calls then. Overthrowing the environment noooooo 😭

I will gladly donate to your cause in exchange for more Seonghwa fics 🥰 you deliver Seonghwa I deliver some legs

I wrote my dream down, kinda... for some reason I can't upload screenshots, but I don't wanna spam too much, so I will try later, it wasn't very exciting lmao at least from what I remember. But his behaviour 🙂🙃

Uhmm why is San handcuffed, helllo first Wooyoung in chains in Wonderland now this 👀 I'm sorry though I'm entering my Mingi era again, Choi San you're still my bias, but I'm looking at Mingi... also GIVE THEM THE EYELINER THE SMOKEY EYES I'M BEGGING THIS IS THE RIGHT CONCEPT FOR IT. Also it's funny how they droppef Matz's pics at a totally different time than the rest, they did it for me I think they wanted me to witness Hwa in real time ❤💔

Hope you and your arms get better ❤😭

Also Ateez on Sunmi's Showterview idk how I feel about her hosting but SEONGHWA DANCE GASHINA WITH SUNMI PLS PLS I'M BEGGING. But apparently the show is supposed to be more serious? Hmm such a whiplash after Jessi's hahahah

AND YUNHWA JIGGLE JIGGLE TIK TOK?!?!?! Seonghwa is weird he's a weeeeirdoooo 🥰 and them mesmerising hipssss

P.S. I binged Spy x Family (anime) and it kinda reminds me of Mr and Mrs Park, my main personality trait aka consuming media and putting Seonghwa in it continues, the show is so funny and wholesome I didn't expect it 🤧 I even ordered the whole manga set already - DV 💖

hi hello!

Yeah I was caught can't even defend myself, sighhh. Take me to jail 🥴

LMFAOOOO rare dv anon moment, will absolutely never forget jVDNWBDNW TAKE TO JAIL?? TAKE TO HALL OF FAME

I know it's lethal that's why I shared it with the rest of the class <3 omg really but why didn't anyone write it for Hwa (at least to my knowledge) when all the material is THERE, like the belly chain... come on 💀 gonna write it in my head I guess

ARRESTED 🔫 ON SPOT 🔫 no FR THO THE MATERIAL IS THERE tho some ppl have written the nsfw stuff with the chain idk if anyones rly expanded on it 😭😭😭

Seonghwa wouldn't have to wake me up during storm cause I would be awake anyways jhshussyhesusg he would receive no comfort from me I'm afraid

LMFAOOOO 😭😭😭😭 imagine just the two of u being scared shitless while trying to give each other comfort and act all mighty but with every thunder u guys just flinch 😭😭🤚🏼

Jaydusuahdhsha I had an earwig come to my room last night fucking helllll they're out of control?! Also why do they have to big bugs almost all the time, why not smaller ones?! Please I wanna become the Queen of insects but idk how to achieve that status

A FUCKING WHAT 😭😭😭???????? GIRLIE BRKQHDKW U GOT SOME PARTY GOING ON OR SOMETHING 😭😭😭🤚🏼 OR OPENED A B&B FOR BUGS 😭😭🤚🏼 LMFAOOOO FHWKFHKWHFKW NEXT TIME THEY COME THRU THE WINDOW ITS JUST U SITTING ON THE BED WITH SOME TIARA 😭😭😭

Good luck on your San era hehe, you including Hwa in your San fic though 🤡 Shinestar clown behaviour. I'm not opposed of course. I don't know that San fic I only read a few stories for him but that sounds hilarious as fuck 😭 demon San getting rejected

LMFAOOOO SEONGHWAS NEVER LEAVING HIS SERIES COMES AFTER TWO ONE SHOTS ANYWAYS FBWNFHEJ 😭😭😭 it was rly funny he tried twice but the girlie kept rejecting his ass 🤚🏼🤚🏼😭 “can we do this tomorrow?” “you said that yesterday”

I saw Hello82's tweet about "studying Europe" guess they read all the outraged tweets lmaoooo the way artists see North America and look away from Canada, rip 💔

JDJDJDJDJD NO WAY 😭😭🤚🏼 manifesting ateez concert for u ✨✨🤌🏼 or fansigns and all the hwa pc’s FBMABDKS NO BC ITS SO SAD LIKE ITS LITERALLY 30 MINS AWAY FROM THE U.S 😭😭🤚🏼

Package things nicely ahahaha- 🙃🙃🙃 bestie I'm gonna recruit my friends to help me cause that shit is annoying and exhausting. Yeah 10 video calls in the span of 2 weeks is so weird, doesn't stop some idiots though I just know I'll be seeing the same problematic bitches post their vids and people will spread them 🔫 I need to snatch some of their calls then. Overthrowing the environment noooooo 😭

JDJDJD do u guys also have those business cards 😭😭🤚🏼 NO HEY THAT SOUNDS SO MUCH OK ID BE FIRST IN LINE TO HELP 🔫 omg….totally forgot about problematic ppl sTOP there’s gonna be toe showers and stuff too pls NAURURURURUR snATCH THEIR CALLS JVDKJVDKSV

I will gladly donate to your cause in exchange for more Seonghwa fics 🥰 you deliver Seonghwa I deliver some legs

i accept this deal absolutely absolutely 🤲🏼 LMFAOOOO U GOT IT WILL BE WAITING FOR THE SHIPMENT FBFB

I wrote my dream down, kinda... for some reason I can't upload screenshots, but I don't wanna spam too much, so I will try later, it wasn't very exciting lmao at least from what I remember. But his behaviour 🙂🙃

oh 👁👄👁 pls do share absolutely i am all free bc guess who got miss rona <3 bc of a parent <3 fbwmfhkw HIS BEHAVIOUR WHAT DID HE SAY WHAT DID HE SAY HELLO HELLO FJWNFSHDKDHKW WILL THIS PICTURE TRIGGER U

Uhmm why is San handcuffed, helllo first Wooyoung in chains in Wonderland now this 👀 I'm sorry though I'm entering my Mingi era again, Choi San you're still my bias, but I'm looking at Mingi... also GIVE THEM THE EYELINER THE SMOKEY EYES I'M BEGGING THIS IS THE RIGHT CONCEPT FOR IT. Also it's funny how they droppef Matz's pics at a totally different time than the rest, they did it for me I think they wanted me to witness Hwa in real time ❤💔

OH????? MINGI ERA???? DO I HAVE TO PULL OUT MY MINGI WIPS????? AYO???? 👁👁👁👁👁 PLS SOMEONE EDITED WOOYOUNG WITH SMOKEY EYES ON THE TEASER BUT UNFORT I CANT FIND IT JGBENF no bc is there a reason for it 🔫🔫 i just be thinking they saw our reactions to it and said “lol sorry” and them posted at right time BUT TODAY WE GET ANOTHER CONCEPT PHOTOS??? CANNOT WAIT BC SEONGHWA 😭😭😭

Hope you and your arms get better ❤😭

LMFAOOOO 😭😭😭 miss rona came <3

Also Ateez on Sunmi's Showterview idk how I feel about her hosting but SEONGHWA DANCE GASHINA WITH SUNMI PLS PLS I'M BEGGING. But apparently the show is supposed to be more serious? Hmm such a whiplash after Jessi's hahahah

idk how to feel abt hers either bc jessi RAN that show with all her might,,, she made it POPULAR FBWKDHKW STOP U ALREADY KNOW HES GONNA START DOING IT FIRST THING 😭😭😭 o man is it??? hopefully its mot the awkward type of serious 😭😭🤚🏼

AND YUNHWA JIGGLE JIGGLE TIK TOK?!?!?! Seonghwa is weird he's a weeeeirdoooo 🥰 and them mesmerising hipssss

LMFAOOOO SEONGHWA WAS VIBRATING JFBWKDBWKFB petition for hwa’s stage name to be changed to shakira bc his hips do not lie 🔫

P.S. I binged Spy x Family (anime) and it kinda reminds me of Mr and Mrs Park, my main personality trait aka consuming media and putting Seonghwa in it continues, the show is so funny and wholesome I didn't expect it 🤧 I even ordered the whole manga set already - DV 💖

AYO???? i..ayo i kinda see it BFKWHD NO BC SAME I WILL INDULGE SEONGHWA IN ANY MOVIE IM WATCHING AND THE WAY ID HAVE TO LOOK AWAY AT CERTAIN TIMES no bc imagining seonghwa in 10 things i hate abt u as heath was my 13th reason 😭😭 IT IS SO FUNNY FBFBFB TRULY ABSOLUTELY omg do u rmr maid sama 😳🤚🏼

he.

also choi san

#✉️ : ask #dv 💖 anon

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The Art of Benefits

➜ Words: 9.8k

➜ Genres: 50% Fluff, 50% Smut, FWB!AU

➜ Summary: There's only one aspect of your life that's missing: sex. But you know yourself. You catch feelings as quickly as you catch colds. But when your friend arranges a meeting with a certain Park Jimin, you'll become inclined to learn the craft of detachment, aka. the art of benefits.

➜ Warning: sex, sexual discussions, toys, sucking dick, period sex, etc.

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[2nd Year Fall Semester]   Life as a sophomore wasn’t shabby.   Assignments, papers and midterms came and went with decent grades that you eventually forgot about. Lectures, club meetings, and studying took most of your time too. But Christmas was arriving and that meant it was sweater weather. It also meant that snow was dusting from the sky and you were watching couples cozying up and keeping each other warm from across the dining center.   It was unfair really. You were cold too. In fact, most of the time you happen to be cold. And while relationships were too much of a time commitment for you to take on, you deserved a cuddle buddy just as much as the next person. Or a fuck buddy. Either works really.   You’ve never been opposed to a friends with benefits relationship.    The only problem is, it would never work for you.   But if you somehow learnt to detach your emotions, it could be the most efficient thing yet. After all, good sex with another warm body was the only aspect in your life that you were missing.   “I mean it’s possible. A lot of people start friends with benefits relationships on campus,” Wendy says as she stuffs her face with her sub sandwich and muses mid-chew, “There’s actually a lot of candidates to choose from.”   You’re exasperated at her nonchalance. As if it’s as easy as going to the supermarket and picking someone up. “Who?!”    You need someone who would be on the same page as you, with the same priorities, a good sex partner who wouldn’t catch feelings either. But frankly, you don’t know that many people.    “Well, what about that guy from your class that you were crushing on? Didn’t you say he was super smart? Might help you on your assignments too.”   “Namjoon?” You shake your head. “He’s got a girlfriend.”   “Okay. What about that older guy in your board games club?”   “No. Seokjin’s graduating next semester.”   Wendy hums, eyes flickering around the dining hall center as she contemplates. “How about Yoongi? From what you’ve told me, he seems pretty cool.”   You loll your head to one side and stab your sweet and sour chicken. “I’m not going to sleep with someone from work. That sounds like a disaster waiting.”   “Jungkook?”   “That’s weird. We went to the same elementary school together.” You can still remember his bowl cut hair as clear as day, and not to mention, the two of you share a group of friends. If things go downhill, it would be a complete mess. The epitome of inefficiency. Which is counterproductive to your goal.   “Taehyung?” At this point, Wendy’s just listing out random people that you know, but you play along just for amusement.   “Nah. Yena has a crush on him.”   She takes another clean bite of her sandwich. “What about that guy that works at that McDonalds that you find cute. What’s his name? Hugo? Howard?”   “Hoseok,” you correct with a feigned glare that makes her smile. “And that’s a big fat no. He doesn’t even know I exist. What am I supposed to do? Waltz up to him and ask to be fuck buddies?”   She grins. “Well, I mean—”   “It wouldn’t work,” you deadpan before she laughs and in turn, makes you giggle too.   The chatter of the room settles in your ears as background noise. You gaze out the window to the sparkling snow piles that reflect the lampposts soft, white light. The sun has long fallen even though it’s only six p.m. The low lights peeking through the somber clouds covering the horizon does little. You dread the thought of having to venture out into the cold and catch the bus home.   You don’t notice how Wendy’s looking at you while she sips on her water. Not until she hums. “You know what? I know someone I could hook you up with.”   Your brow cocks and the corner of your mouth twitches. “Is he a fuckboy?”   Your long time friend shrugs with a glint in her eyes that makes you unsure if she’s serious or not. Wendy once joked that she had a boyfriend from Northern Canada and convinced you hard enough that you legitimately believed her for a good month. So you can never be quite certain when it comes to her. For all you know, she could just be making it up to entertain you.   “Sort of, but he’s a nice one.” Wendy stays vague. “He was my lab partner.”   You stare at her and when her expression remains blank, you scoff. “Sure, sure,” you draw out the syllables with a small laugh and bat the air with your hand just to end the conversation.   And when it’s never discussed again, Wendy moving on to tell you a story about something she suddenly remembers, you’d one day come to realize that was a terrible, terrible mistake.   //   That one day is now.   3:50pm. Wendy: hey i set up a meeting what that guy 3:50pm. Wendy: third floor library  3:50pm. Wendy: he’s in a red hat btw   The text comes right when you’re leaving your last lecture of the day.   3:51pm. Y/N: what guy   3:53pm. Wendy: your future fwb   3:53pm. Y/N: ?????????????????????????????????/ 3:53pm. Y/N: ???????????????? 3:54pm. Y/N: wtf i wasn’t SERIOUS   3:54pm. Wendy: wat   3:54pm. Y/N: I THOUGHT YOU WERE JOKING   3:56pm. Wendy: lmao too late 3:56pm. Wendy: at least meet him he’s waiting sis   3:54pm. Y/N: can’t you cancel?????????   3:57pm. Wendy: n a h   You nearly burst an artery in your temple at the emojis and memes she spams to you.   3:59pm. Wendy: I already told him the gist btw 4:00pm. Wendy: don’t chicken out   With no other choice, you make a u-turn and head towards the library with too many thoughts swirling inside your brain. Chances are this stranger is going to see you, think you’re ugly as shit and try to back out of it. It’s going to be awkward as all hell and you’re not sure you’re ready to have this traumatizing memory for the rest of your life.   Then again, you wonder how Wendy even convinced this dude to meet up. If he’s really that easy going. If this is a typical thing people do now. Or maybe Wendy showed a picture of you on your insta and he agreed afterwards — it wouldn’t be the first time she did that, much to your embarrassment. But you hope it’s the latter case. At least that eliminates the possibility of him trying to backpedal his way out of it after seeing your face.   You also wonder how the hell you’re going to find him. The library is full of students, the rowdy ones and the studious ones being disturbed by them. You wonder what he looks like, what he’ll be like. Third floor. Male. Red hat.   You arrive at the appropriate floor and begin scanning the premise, walking around as your eyes sweep the area. Almost immediately you catch a brunette hunched over and on his phone by the table. He’s wearing a red cap on backwards, purple tee shirt. He has a frat boy aesthetic.   Not really the type you go for.   Looking over him, you round the computers, bookshelves and tables. But finding no one else with a red hat on the third floor, you sharply inhale and approach the boy with his fluffy cheek rested in his hand, arm propped up on the table lazily. Scrolling through his phone.   “Excuse me.”    Your voice is light and hesitant as if you were asking help from someone at the front desk and not seeing if this was a potential fuck buddy. It’s mortifying to say the least.   His head lifts, brown eyes catching the lights.   You clear your throat. “Wendy…”   “Oh. You’re her, right?” He smiles and thankfully, doesn’t seem to be disappointed. “Wendy’s friend?”   “Yeah. I’m Y/N.”   “Jimin.”   Now that you get a closer look, he’s kind of cute. But you don’t dwell. Or look him in the eye.   It feels like a job interview. But worse. “You were Wendy’s lab partner?”   “That’s me.” He pockets his phone. “I’m a kines major. You?”   “I’m in the arts faculty. Political science.”   “Cool, cool.” Jimin nods and then gets to business without any shame, “So Wendy already told me about it. You’re looking to have a friends with benefits relationship?”   “Yeah….about that….”   “I’m down if you are.” His hand opens up, gesturing to you. You’re not sure how you feel about how laid-back he is, but he remains upfront which you suppose is the right thing to do. “I have a dorm room in the Sierra building by the engineering faculty building if you know where that is.”   “I’ve walked past it before.”   “Cool. Anyway, my last f.w.b. ended two months ago and I kind of miss it,” he quickly clarifies, “The sex, I mean.”   You’re speechless and contemplating if you really want to do this. You know if it works out, it’ll be fairly efficient. You’ve always gotten off by yourself and while it works, it’s not something you’d call completely satisfying. Having someone’s help— good help — is a change you’ve been considering. But a friends with benefits situation has always been one of those ‘what if’ scenarios. You've just never had an opportunity like this to make it actually happen.   Jimin senses your hesitance and leans forward. He lowers his volume. “Are you a virgin? Cause I’m cool with—”   You scoff. “No. I’m not. I just...haven’t done something like this before.”   “Friends with benefits?” His question is answered by your body language. “It’s not bad. Safer than one night stands and more consistent too. You don’t have to go out and find someone every time you want to have sex. And it’s a low level commitment.”   The corner of your mouth pulls and you agree. “It’s efficient. But...I need time to think about it.”   “Sure. Tell me when you make up your mind. I’ll give you my number.” He opens his hand again and you pass him your phone. He quickly types it in. “Take your time.”   //   And you do.   You weigh the pros and cons against each other, considering every possibility and all the consequences. Part of you wants to just go for it. The same part that once decided in high school at midnight that bangs would be a hot look on you. (It wasn’t). The part of you that dyed your hair blue that one summer on a whim. The part that doesn’t want to think and wants to jump head first into things. Jimin made a lot of good pointers too and you’re certain this would be a good outlet. An experience. It helps that he’s quite attractive too and seems to be trustworthy and rational.   Yet, part of you wonders if it would be a bad decision.   There’s a chance that you might catch feelings. For you, it wouldn’t be unheard of either. You have a tendency to catch feelings as fast as you catch colds. And you already know that’s the demise of these kinds of relationships. Once a party gets involved too deep, it’s game over. There’s nothing but heartbreak.   The only way it would work is if you minimize your interactions with him.   The less attached you are, the less likely you are to develop feelings for him since the only way you would like anyone is if you knew them. So the less you know, the better the outcome.    It’s an equation.    It’s the art of the benefits.   And if that works, if you master the art, it would solve every potential issue.   The dorms for sophomores are bigger than the ones for first year freshmen. Instead of a single room with two beds on either side by the walls, there are private bedrooms with just a shared bathroom, a main living space and kitchen.    “Bathrooms are over here,” Jimin gestures. There’s one room at the end of the hall and another one beside his. “Both my roommates are out, so you don’t have to worry. They’re pretty nice.”   You feel awkward lingering at the entryway with your backpack on.   You clear your throat. “Can I get a drink?”   “Oh yeah. There’s new water bottles by the sink, I think, and there’s orange juice in the fridge if you’d like.”   “No, I mean, do you have anything alcoholic?” you correct and he blinks at you owlishly before smiling. You drop your bag and find it in the fridge, a whole vodka bottle. You fill a shot up with a glass on the drying rack. The clear liquid burns as it travels to the back of your throat. The bitter taste nearly makes you gag, but you feel your face warm and you ease even more, knowing it works.   In the meanwhile, Jimin studies you, standing from across the kitchen island. His hands are casually dug into the pockets of his gray sweats. “We won’t have to follow through with this, you know. I’m fine either way.”   “No,” you quickly refute, irrationally afraid he’s changed his mind. And the words spill out of you as you cringe, “I’m horny as shit, I’mjustnervous.”   The guy smiles, eyes slightly crinkled when he does so. “Of what?”   “A lot of things.” You don’t pour a second shot even though you kind of want to. But you have things to do tomorrow, so you can’t nurse a hangover and you most certainly don’t want to be drunk while doing this. “If you didn’t notice, I don’t do this often.”   While you’re at it, you tell him, “I don’t know how to suck dick.”   He leans against the counter, grinning. “Okay. I don’t mind.”   “Also, if you haven’t noticed either, my ass is kind of deflated.”   Jimin shrugs. “I’m more of a boob man anyway.”    You narrow your eyes, not sure if he’s lying or trying to make you feel better.   But there’s no time to dwell when he seriously asks— “Do you still want to do this?”   It takes a second for you to muster your courage. And once you do, you know you won’t back down. “All right. Let’s do this!” You walk into his room like you’re about to go fight off a monster.   Behind you, Jimin grins and it takes a good moment for him to calm you down.   “Are you okay with kissing?” he asks, door shut and distance closed. He’s intimately close and you nod.   Finally, your brain stops overthinking and you let yourself feel. Jimin’s lips are full and plush, and they’re good against yours. The soft smacking fills his room. The two of you kiss until your lips part and he begins to lick into your mouth, tongue entering without much hesitation.   You fall back onto the mattress, noticing that the bed’s been made sloppily, but better than your own. The pair of you keep kissing and he hovers over you, capturing you against the sheets. Pathetically enough, you already begin to feel your center throbbing and it’s a relief when you both get rid of your clothes.   He doesn’t talk much — doesn’t give much commentary or even dirty talk. But you don’t mind. All you’re offering after all is soft sighs and quiet moans.   Jimin squeezes your breasts and fingers you for a good minute. He’s surprised to see how wet you are, even letting out an ‘oh shit’, but you make no efforts to come up with an excuse. The stretch feels good from his thick fingers, but you bet it’ll feel good around his girthy cock too.   He goes to grab a condom from his drawer, but pauses.   “Do...you want me to eat you out?”   “I’m good,” you politely decline, afraid it might be too intimate. You’re not sure where the lines are drawn, but it’s something you’ll have to gauge while you go. “Do you want me to suck your dick? You might have to teach me though.”   The corner of his mouth tugs. “I’m good too.”   As Jimin rips open the condom package, you turn yourself around and get onto all fours. He doesn’t protest and when he enters you, it feels good enough for you to fall forward into the pillows. His cock is of average size, but he’s girthy and your cunt stretches to accommodate him.   He groans in his throat when you clench — and the sound gets you off, making you squeeze again. Jimin pounds into you, his pelvis hitting the meat of your ass, cock drawing in and out against your tight, warm walls. You do your best to meet his thrusts halfway, jerking your hips back and you stifle your moans with your teeth sunk into your bottom lip. The sloppy sounds of slapping and the creaking of his bed makes you glad his roommates are gone. And while the sex is not mind-blowing per se, it’s still good. Enough that you climax once he rubs your clit several times and he unloads into the condom too.   It’s easier than you thought it would be. Not a big deal whatsoever. It took ten minutes in total and it felt good.   It’s just sex — and that’s exactly it. Just sex. The very lesson of the art of benefits.   You pick up your clothes off the floor, slipping them back on. “I gotta get going.”   There’s no snuggling, no cuddling, no pillow talks. And it doesn’t seem like he minds whatsoever.   “‘Kay.” Jimin picks up his phone off his bedside table to check his texts and waves goodbye without even looking at you.   You leave, walking yourself out and humming as you stride down the hall.    You’re glad you went through with it.

[2nd Year Winter Semester]   You run there with your sandwich stuffed in your cheek.   By the time Jimin opens the door, you’re still chewing while panting. It’s a comical sight by the way he smiles at you. You’re already winded before anything’s started. “I hadn’t eaten yet and I needed to get my blood sugar up.”   Jimin’s lips are quirked. “We can always eat beforehand, you know. There’s food in the fridge.”   “Nah, I’m good.” Having meals with your friends with benefits is the last thing on your mind.   He shrugs. “Suit yourself.”   You use his bathroom, releasing your bladder and rinsing your mouth thoroughly. You know yourself and you’re not a novice on how these relationships work. The less interaction and knowledge you have about him, the more you can keep your distance.   “G-God,” he exhales shakingly, hand fisted in your hair. “You’re getting b-better at this….”   Jimin watches through heavy lids as you’re slobbering over his cock. He tries his best to watch, but when you run your tongue over the weeping slit at the bulborous head, his eyes shut and his head naturally knocks back. You’ve gotten better at a lot of things in the few months that have passed, namely sucking dick, but your jaw aches and you wonder when he’s going to cum.   It’s worth it though. You might be the one kneeling in front of him, but you feel powerful. It’s too easy to make him crumble. To make him moan like that. It makes you wet to hear him and knowing you could bite off his dick or make him lose a load, the sheer power eggs you on.   Like you were taught, you inhale, ease your muscles and take Jimin as far as you can.   He chokes as his cock hits the back of your throat. Your gag reflexes threaten your endeavour but you keep them at bay and Jimin’s hand in your hair tightens. Especially when you swallow.   “Fuck. I-I’m going to cum.”   Thank god. Finally!   Usually, you let off so he can cum elsewhere (god forbid in your hair) or if he accidentally does it in your mouth, you spit it out on tissue. But this time, you made a commitment to yourself. You came here with a goal. So you inhale again and deep throat him, sucking as much as you can.   With his curly pubic hair grazing your nose, Jimin cums. His groans staccato. His cock twitches.   And you swallow the bitter, white fluid that comes out in ribbons.   After a few seconds, you finally withdraw. Jimin opens his eyes, staring at you in wonderment. There are strands of saliva from between his softened cock to your lips and you wipe your mouth with the back of your hand.   “Not gonna lie.” You clear your throat and swallow down the remaining taste. “That’s really nasty.”   Jimin bursts out laughing.   “Thanks.”    “It’s the least I can do.” You stand up, shaking your left leg awake. It feels like pins and needles when you step around. “I’ve sat on your face like twice already.”   You toss Jimin his pants off the ground and you get your cardigan back on.   “You wanna come over on Friday?”   “Uh…” You grab your phone from your jacket that’s also been discarded and check your calendar. “Sorry. Can’t. I’m busy on that day.”   His brows raise, but he doesn’t question it.   “How about Saturday?” you offer.   “No. I have a kines exam scheduled.”   Your face twists in disgust. “On a Saturday?”   “Yep. I know. It sucks.”   You sympathize, but you’re also surprised. “I didn’t know you were a kines major.”   “What? I thought I told you.”   “Guess I forgot.” You put yourself back together and a thought strikes you. Your eyes light up and you turn to your friend with glittering eyes. “Does that mean you can crack bones? I’ve always wanted to go to a chiropractor since my lower back always hurts. You should crack it for me.”   Jimin grins. “Sorry, I don’t know how to do that. They don’t really teach you that kind of stuff.”   “Oh.” Your eyes dim and you don’t try to hide your disappointment. You almost thought you could get a little more out of him, but you suppose decent sex is enough.    As you grab your bag, you notice that his phone lights up. “You got a text from Victoria.”   “Thanks.” He reaches over, but the curious expression on your face must be visible, since he says, “Don’t worry. She’s not my girlfriend or anything. She’s just someone I’m kind of into.”   “Nice!”   The corner of Jimin’s mouth quirks at your genuinely excited response even though he never looks away from the screen. You’re psyched though. If he has an interest in someone else, there’s less chance for anyone to catch feelings. Fewer connections. More distance.   “If you ever want to end this, just let me know.” You throw your backpack on that’s heavy with your laptop and textbooks inside.   “Yeah.”   “I’m going now.”   “Bye.” Jimin’s fingers fly across the screen to text the other girl back and neither of you spare each other a glance. The door shuts moments later and the noise echoes through the walls.

[3rd Year Fall Semester]   In spite of being a junior now, things have relatively remained the same.   According to course outlines, lectures are more in-depth in their content, but there’s still assignments, papers, and midterms. The grading schemes haven’t changed and you know there’s a shit ton of work waiting for you in the coming months. But you find pleasure wherever you can.   The door opens, but it’s not Jimin on the other side.   “Hey, Y/N.” Taemin, his roommate, is eating chips. “He’s in his room.”   “Thanks.”   You shuffle inside and after briefly greeting Jongin, the other roommate, who’s busy playing Animal Crossing on the living room couch, you beeline to his room. You find Jimin hunched over his messy desk, rounded spectacles on the bridge of his nose as he’s tapping furiously across his laptop keyboard.   He glances at you. “Sorry. I need a second.”   “Take your time.”    You set down your bag and shed your coat, tossing it aside. You’re not sure what he’s doing, but you don’t ask. Instead, you pull out your phone and run through your usual apps. With no messages to answer or anything to scroll through, you check your email and find the words ‘emergency’ in one of the subject lines.   After a minute, Jimin saves his document and closes the lid of his laptop. He stretches above his head with a groan and turns around, only to find you now hunched over your own device.   “Sorry,” you mutter once you feel his gaze on you. “My manager needs me to fill out my timesheet and send it to her.”   “I didn’t know you worked.”   “Just part-time at the admissions office here on campus.” You go quiet as you skim over your email again to ensure it makes sense. “It’s a pretty easy gig.”   He hums and you finish, shutting your laptop and sticking it back into your bag. That’s when you finally get a good look at the boy across the room — dark hair, blue shirt and gray sweats — and you notice how tan he’s gotten. It’s a good look.    Your mouth tugs. “Did you travel over the summer?”   “I went to the Caribbean with my family for like two weeks.”   “Fancy.”   “It was alright.” He gets up and re-stacks the textbooks on his desk into a single pile. Jimin notices the stack of flyers he was supposed to distribute. “Oh yeah. Do you want to join the crayon club?”   Your brow lifts. “The crayon club?”   “Yeah, you can come colour every Wednesday night and just hang out with people.” Jimin grins boyishly. “My friend wanted to make a club and he made me the communications executive. I’m supposed to get people to join. You don’t have to, but the first meet and greet is this Friday, and the more people the better. There’s gonna be free food by the way, if that helps.”   You’re not sure that's a good idea.   The two of you have never really met up outside of his dormitory, aside from the first time you met at the library.   “Let me check my calendar.” You grab your phone again and thoughtlessly mumble, “Sometimes I’m busy on Friday. I’m part of the board games club and we meet up every other week…..don’t judge.”   “I’m not.”    Still, Jimin's smile widens and you feign a pout.    You’re free this week.   “I’ll come if you make me an executive too,” you quip carelessly while tossing your phone aside. “It’ll look good on my law application.”   Jimin quirks his head. He didn’t know you were aiming for law school. “Okay.”   “Wait.” You’re taken off guard, eyes as wide as saucers. “Seriously?!”   He with a small laugh. Jimin gets up and closes the distance, making you lean against the headboard until he’s completely hovering over you, mere inches away. “We actually need a position filled anyway, so you just saved me some trouble.”   “You better keep your promise, Park.”   You end up showing with Wendy and Tiffany in tow — the former who wants to raid whatever food there is and the latter genuinely interested in colouring as a means of relaxation. It’s a bit awkward to meet so many new people at once and Jimin’s friends at that, but you can tell they’re nice at heart. Albeit, a bit rambunctious and too friendly. And you’re a bit horrified when one of them tries to eat a crayon to further advertise the club.   “So, what’s up with you and Jimin?” Tiffany asks, peering up at you as she colours in the lines carefully. She’s unaware of your arrangement with the boy. It’s not something you’ve told many.   You feign ignorance, not wanting to get into the details with strangers around. “What do you mean?”   “Are you dating him?”   You scoff. “I wish.”   Immediately, Wendy’s brows raise to her hairline and the words that fumbled out of you thoughtlessly finally sink in. “I mean, no, we’re not. Not I wish.”   Luckily, Tiffany spares you and doesn’t pry. But you’re mortified and you glance at Jimin from across the room laughing noisily with his friend. You turn away from him, trying to create more distance.

[3rd Year Winter Semester]   With exam season here, you and Jimin hadn’t seen each other in a while.   Luckily, Spring break was approaching, so you at least had something to look forward to. The idea of being able to lay in bed and sleep in automatically puts you in a good mood. Jimin, however, seems less than stoked.   You watch from the bed as he runs a hand through his hair, messing it up before you’ve gotten a chance to. He was frowning when he opened the door, greeted you with one word and in general, has been quieter than usual.   “Is….everything alright?” You wonder if you did something to piss him off, but then he says—   “I flunked my final.”   Oh. That explains his bad mood.   “The one you took this morning?” you ask.   “Yeah.” Jimin deflates with an extended sigh. “I didn’t get the first twenty questions and then I fucking ran out of time….”   There’s a pause that lingers.   “Well, you’re not sure if you actually failed, right?” You lean closer to him, quirking your head to the side. “The marks haven’t been released and who knows, the prof might curve it.”   “Maybe. I don’t know.” Jimin scrubs a hand over his face, uncertain and stressed. “This ruins everything. I’m trying to get an internship at a clinical rehabilitation facility and I want to apply for a masters and now...fuck.” You’re surprised. You didn’t know he had so many goals. “I’m screwed.”   Jimin flops back onto his mattress, staring at the ceiling. You loom over him, blocking his view.   “Does the internship look at your GPA?”   “They want a three point o average or more.”   “What do you have now?”   “Three point five.”   The corner of your mouth pulls and a rush of air leaves your nose in a snort. “Then you’ll make it! Even if you failed one exam, it wouldn’t tank past a three. It can’t be too bad, right?”   “Yeah, I guess.” Jimin sighs and absentmindedly tugs on your strand of hair that’s fallen in front of your face and is grazing against his cheek. “I just don’t know anymore.”   “It’s going to be fine,” you reassure, slapping your hand on his shoulder. “You’re just overthinking it.”   “Maybe,” he hums.   A sudden thought comes across your mind and your small smile turns devious. “Let me make you feel better.”   You shift to straddle his hips and instantly, his hands lift to your waist. Jimin starts to grin as you pull at his shirt, trying to get him to strip. And you do your best to pleasure him.   It doesn’t take much effort considering Jimin’s hand is already tightening in your hair the minute you run your tongue along his shaft. But he doesn’t let you suck him for too long, eager to feel you inside instead and pleasure you just the same.   It’s eager and messy sex. You’re on top until your thighs begin to burn and you lose your pace. Then he re-repositions the both of you, so you’re flat on your back and he’s doing most of the work. You end up cumming twice. Once around his covered cock and the other time after he coaxes you around his stiff tongue and eggs you on, even when you’re sobbing from the overstimulation.   It feels good. Better than good.   Over time, the pair of you have gotten to know each other’s bodies better, what works and what doesn’t.    Your relationship with Jimin is an investment that feels worth it.   “Hey…” You’re both facing away from each other as you put your clothes back on. Jimin turns his head and you cast him a glance. “I was thinking of maybe starting birth control…”   He blinks.   “If you go get yourself checked out and make sure you’re clean, we can do it without condoms.”   You pull down your sweater over your head and you both stare at each other. He looks surprised and responds in a delayed manner, “Okay. Cool. I’m down. I’ll get myself checked out this weekend. I haven’t really slept with anyone else since this started though.”   It’s your turn to be caught off guard. “Really? What...about that girl you were into? Vicky?”   “You mean Victoria?” He jumps as he puts on his sweatpants, getting both legs through at once. “Nah. It didn’t end up working out.”   “Oh.” He’s entirely nonchalant about it, so you merely nod.   Jimin walks you to the door and you notice that he’s in a better mood than earlier. You hide your smile to yourself, glad that it was mutually beneficial.   Two weeks later, he gets an email before the two of you get down and dirty, and you’re the first one in his life to know that he got the summer internship. His excitement is infectious and you genuinely feel happy for him.

[4th Year Fall Semester]   It’s so close, you can taste it.   A whole new semester and cart of overpriced textbooks later meant you were a senior now. It also meant that there was just this year left and you were out of here. Finished at least one degree. A step closer to making the big bucks and being a whole ass adult.   The idea is both exhilarating and frightening.   2:20pm. Jimin: Wanna come over?   The text mocks you, but the temptation is tangible. Like a carrot tied at the end of a stick that’s attached to a hungry rabbit. You’ve been sexually frustrated since last night, feeling it in your loins since morning, and fidgeting and rubbing your thighs underneath tables and desks. The thought of getting that sweet relief properly is enough for you to want to ditch class altogether, but you can’t. Not for the next few days.   2:22pm. Y/N: can’t. 2:22pm. Y/N: I’m on my period :((   2:23pm. Jimin: I don’t mind   2:23pm. Y/N: really???? 2:24pm. Y/N: are you sure   2:25pm. Jimin: lmao 2:25pm. Jimin: yes   You brace through the rest of the lecture, paying more attention as the anticipation swells. And when it’s all over, you race across campus to the dormitory building you’ve become familiar with.   Jimin opens the door before you need to knock and he plants a chaste kiss against your lips in greeting. You’re taken off guard, but don’t pay too much attention to it. “How was class?”   “Good. You?”   “Same,” he hums.   You drop your bag in his room and gesture below your waist. “I’m going to need to wash up. The nether regions are a bit…”   He smiles. “Sure. I got spare towels I can set down too.”   You self-consciously linger for a moment as he goes to his closet to the upper shelf. The towels are luckily green and not white. “I’m surprised you’re okay with it. Having period sex, I mean.”   “Why wouldn’t I be?” Jimin pushes his blanket aside and puts a towel down. “As long as you’re fine with it, then I am too.”   “I don’t know. Doesn’t blood gross you out?”   “Not really? Most of the time I’m the one making the mess, so it’s actually nice to have someone else make the mess for once. Plus sex is sex. What’s there to complain about?” His brow lifts and he looks at you. You scoff and it makes Jimin grin.   You wash yourself up and he fucks you in missionary position on top of the towels. The pair of you have only done so a few times before. Typically, you’re face down, bent over, on all fours or looking away from each other. But the change is welcome. Jimin hovers over you and you can kiss him when you want to.   “F-Fuck.” A pitched moan unintentionally spills from you when he hits a spot at your walls that has your toes curling. “Ji...min.”   It’s more lubricated than usual, making the strokes easier. He goes softer too. Deeper. Jimin presses your thighs to your chest and makes you feel him all the way to your throat.   The boy smiles tenderly at your reaction in spite of panting himself. “Feel good, baby?”   “Y-Yeah.” You nod, eyes shut tight. You grip his forearms when he bottoms out again. “Always does.”   Your warm walls pulse around his thick cock and you end up cumming soon after. He groans into your neck at how you tighten around him like a vice grip and he thrusts into you one more time before his cum fills you.   The pair of you jump in the shower together to get cleaned up and then you’re picking up your clothes while he tosses the towels in the laundry.   “What were you working on, on Thursday?”   You blink, realizing that you texted him vaguely about being swamped and unable to come over, and that’s enough for you to unload and go on a tangent. “God, don’t remind me. It was my fucking thesis. I barely managed to finish it but I don’t even know if it makes sense and now I have to edit like fifty pages by myself before giving it to my supervisor, so that’s fun.”   It feels good to let it off your chest.   Jimin smiles subtly at your venting. “I could always edit it for you.”   “What? Seriously?”   “Sure.” He shrugs. “I’m not in poly sci, but that might make me a bit more unbiased. I’m not doing much these days either.”   “Oh my god.” There’s an overpowering urge to bow at his feet or suck his dick until you’re gagging or do both. “You’re a life-saver!”   Jimin laughs and it’s the sound of angels singing. “Just send it over. I can get it done by tomorrow. You have my email, right?”   “Of course I do. Duh!” Your grin is big enough that your cheeks hurt and he has one that matches it as well.   //   A few weeks fly by and things calm down enough that you can finally breathe. But that’s when you receive a little text from a certain someone that has you skeptical if you can rest easy.   6:48pm. Jimin: I have a surprise for you 6:48pm. Jimin: I forgot about it   You’re not sure what it is, but asking would be like pulling teeth with him. Jimin hates spoilers and he likes surprises all too much.   Lately, you’ve both been getting into some freaky shit. Buying toys, blindfolds, handcuffs. As adventurous as college kids with a limited budget can get. It was rather fun for the pair of you, and expectedly, some experiments work out better than others. It sends goosebumps all over your skin every time he talks dirty. You like it when Jimin spanks you too. Although, you’re still unsure about the whole candle wax on your body idea.   But there’s one thing for sure — Jimin can most definitely not role play for his life.    The whole school girl fantasy lasted a good five minutes before he started bursting into giggles and breaking character every other second. Playing doctor only made you realize how ticklish he was too. And the tickle fight that followed was definitely not something one would call ‘sexy’. Even if it did lead to the deed being done.   “Hey.” Jimin greets you with a grin and a chaste peck against your lips. “How was studying?”   “Fine.” You brush off the question quickly, too curious of what he has in store. “Jimin, I’m not going to use that twelve inch dildo unless you want to drive me to the ER.”   He bursts out laughing. “That’s not it. Good try though.”   Instead of going to his room like you usually do, Jimin leads you past the kitchen area to the table. It’s been cleared off and you give an inquisitive expression. He grins and then gestures to it.    “Lay down.”   “What?”   “Just lay down.” He takes your hand, guiding you on it and you obey wordlessly. It doesn’t seem like any of his roommates are home and you hope they don’t come back any time soon lest they find you lying face down on their dinner table.   You feel Jimin round the table and pull your ankles together. You tilt yourself up to peek at him, but then he barks— “Down.”   With a pout, you return to your position, arms folded underneath your head. You hope he isn’t about to rub spices on you and roast you in his oven like it feels like he’s doing.   You feel the gentle pressure of Jimin’s hands against your spine, his thumbs pressing into your skin and he hums, “Relax. Okay. Breathe in for me.”   An inhale is taken and his hands suddenly press into the middle of your back. You hear your bones crack loudly. It catches you off guard and you turn yourself with wide eyes. “You know how to do it?!”   He boyishly grins. “I might’ve learnt a thing or two during my internship.”   “Keep going, keep going.” You flip yourself over again, gesturing to your back and he laughs, going down your body and cracking your bones. You become butter in his fingertips, lower back feeling better already.   “Lift your leg for me.”   You follow his instructions to a t. “Are you sure you know what you’re doing?” you ask sleepily, lulled by his care. If he massaged you too, you might just cream your pants.   “I got this, I got this,” he reassures with a bit of arrogance. “I’m not a professional, but I know what I’m doing. You trust me, right?”   A noise is made at the back of your throat.   “If you break a bone on accident, I’ll sue you,” you mumble as he turns you over. “God, feels good.”   After a while, Jimin gets you to sit up and continues. He looks nice when he’s concentrating. Expression blank. Lips plump and in a line. Brows only slightly furrowed. “Considering you don’t have any ailments, you don’t need to get your bones cracked often. You should stretch and do some exercise instead.”   You scoff. “Having sex with you is enough exercise.”   To prove your point, you latch onto his arm and tug him towards you. Jimin smiles and the two of you break a sweat against each other on the table before either of his roommates come home.

[4th Year Winter Semester]   It was an invitation that you would’ve called yourself crazy for offering a year ago. But if it wasn’t for him editing your thesis and taking a load off your mind, you would’ve had a harder time.    You had him to thank for that.   “So?” Jimin’s seated across from you at the restaurant booth. It wasn’t surprisingly difficult to ask him to grab a bite with you. For some reason, you thought he would reject. “What’s the big news?”   Instead of answering, you reach into your bag and slide the envelope across the table.   He’s curious and takes it, pulling out the letter to read. You sip on your water, watching his expression intently. He mutters the words and it takes him through the first paragraph before he realizes. Then, at once, Jimin’s eyes widen. His mouth drops and he looks at you proudly.   “You got into law school?”   “Three of them,” you tell with a cheesy grin.    “T-That’s….fucking amazing. Holy fuck.” He reaches over and hugs you. It’s awkward considering there’s a whole table in the way, but you appreciate the sentiment. You’re giddy and giggling at how excited he is. It makes you feel like the first time you opened the letter yourself.   Jimin presses a kiss against your hair before withdrawing. “When did you find out?”   “Two days ago. I really thought I wasn’t going to get in since I got rejection letters last week from the other schools, but then three of them came in rapid succession.”   He shakes his head, still in awe. “Congratulations. Seriously. You deserve it, Y/N. God knows how hard you worked.”   “Thanks.” You smile to yourself, fiddling with the hem of your blouse. “I was thinking of maybe leaving the city to a different uni, but….I’m going to stay with my parents for as long as I can to save up on loans.”   “Yeah, sounds good.” He nods. “Moving out can be expensive.”   “What about you? Have you applied to your masters program yet?”   Jimin laughs. “Actually, I was planning on telling you that today too. I didn’t bring any fancy letter with me though.”   You lean closer, sitting on the edge of your seat. “You got in?”   “I did. Yesterday.” His enormous smile causes your own to expand. “I’m gonna do it part-time while working at the same facility I did my internship at.”   You’re happy for him and you can tell by his expression that he’s genuinely excited for you too. The pair of you were taking steps forward for your future and while it was a little scary, for now, you enjoy the victory and pig out at the restaurant with little restraints.   At the end of the night, you’re both wine drunk when you stumble back to his dorm room and soon, you’re trying to muffle your whimpers with your teeth sunk into your bottom lip. It doesn’t help when he presses the humming vibrator to your clit harder.   “J-Jimin,” you sob, fingers twisting into his sheets. You’re slumped against the headboard as he surrounds you.   “Louder,” he commands, watching you through heavy lidded eyes. The cold air of his bedroom made your nipples hardened, yet you feel hot all over, under his gaze and ruthlessness.    Your hand curls around his wrist. “Your roommates are sleep—” You cry and keen against his chest when he plunges the toy into your swollen cunt that’s leaking down your ass and thighs.   “It’s okay,” he murmurs in a low voice against your ear, “Let it go.”   You feel the toy nudge against your cervix, the vibrations trembling through your body and you orgasm hard with your forehead pressed against Jimin’s shoulder. Even then, he continues to draw it in and out of you, studying how you’ve creamed around the vibrator, how your slick is dripping to his sheets that are already stained with the scent of your shampoo.   “J-Jimin,” you whine loudly, not knowing if you’re trying to lean away from his touch or closer. “T-...too m-much!”   “You can take it,” Jimin softly coaxes and you nod.    You cum again after a minute and he immediately kisses you with a big smile before peppering pecks down to your neck. It makes you feel ticklish and winded.   “Hey...Jimin…”   “Hmm?”   “Are we still gonna do this after we graduate?” you ask in a quiet voice, laying back in the ruined sheets. “I’m gonna be busy and you are too.”   “We’ll figure it out.” He flops beside you and you both face each other. Jimin’s arm is draped over your waist and you stare at one another for a moment before he closes the distance.   Jimin nudges you for a languid kiss, your noses brushing as his soft, plush lips press against yours. It’s unhurried. Slow. He urges your mouth to part for him and his tongue slips in as you whimper, giving you a chance to properly taste him.   Sloppy, wet noises fill the room while heat rises to your cheeks. But you’re unbothered while swapping spit with Park Jimin. It’s lazy, yet it feels good. So much so that you’ve relaxed entirely.   In the back of your mind, you know you should get up and put some clothes on. Any cuddling or post-sex touching has largely been unprecedented before this and it’s not good to make habits you’ll have to eventually break. You should get your sweater off the floor, or at least slip on his purple t-shirt….   But you give into the temptation and shut your eyes for one second. One mere second.    That’s enough for you to doze off.   When Jimin realizes you’ve accidentally fallen asleep, he smiles to himself and tugs the blankets up to your shoulders, securing you in warmly.   //   You stifle another yawn with your hand.    It’s 9:30 in the goddamn morning and way too early for you. There’s a reason you pick afternoon classes, go to work afterwards and then go see Jimin to end your day off. There’s no situation good enough that warrants your alarm blaring before eight — but you suppose a graduation ceremony could be an exception.   “There’s so many people,” your dad gasps in wonderment, looking around the vast hall. “Do you know them all?”   “No.” You hold in your sigh. “I don’t.”   For the past twenty minutes, you’ve been running around looking for your parents after they’ve wandered off and gotten lost. If they weren’t spamming their cameras on their phone and telling you to smile in front of the odd statue or the meaningless bulletin board that wasn’t even part of your faculty, it was calling your name as loud as they could to find you in the crowds.   You’re happy over their enthusiasm but also burdened. It’s a lot of mixed feelings.   “Y/N?”   Dark hair and brown eyes — a certain someone who you weren’t expecting to run into is staring right at you with a boyish smile. “Jimin?” He looks good, a suit underneath and a black graduation gown over it that falls to his calf. His gown has a golden hood and tassel while yours is white — the colours symbolizing your different faculties and areas of study.    “Hey.” His gaze is warm. “You look nice.”   “Thanks. You too.”   You don’t linger on him for long, not when his parents are right by his side. You divert your vision and greet them politely. Jimin surprisingly looks a lot like his dad and his mom has a kind face. They seem like sweet people and you’re suddenly breaking into a sweat. “Nice to meet you.”   Your own parents make themselves known and you feel like your worlds are colliding as they shake hands and exchange names, congratulating each other on their child’s graduation.   You’re about to get them moving along when your mom nudges you. “Is this your boyfriend?”   Her voice is way too loud and you feel yourself burn in embarrassment.    “No. He’s just a friend,” you whisper it sharply but much your dismay, they look unconvinced.   You miss the way Jimin smiles to himself.   “We should get a picture!” his dad declares and your own dad looks even more elated at the idea of spamming more pictures. You already had to delete a hundred blurry ones, but your mom ignores your groan and pushes you both towards some weird artwork on the wall.   “Stand over here! Over here! Smile!”   Your parents end up sitting next to each other on the rows and you have no words, forced to sit at the bottom with the rest of your graduating class. It’s a wonder that the Arts Faculty was scheduled right before the Faculty of Kines. Fate or coincidence, you’re not sure yet.   But it’s still nice to see Jimin walk the stage and be able to cheer for him.   “Congratulations, Mr. Park.”   He grins. “Congratulations to you too, Miss L/N.”   It’s certain that the numerous celebrations with family, friends and relatives will be chaotic, so you take advantage of the opportunity while you still can. You steal just a little moment for your selfish desires by standing outside before you’re both bombarded by your circle of people.   “You know, I couldn’t have done it without you.”   “Oh, stop it with the sappiness.” You can’t feign a roll of your eyes when your smile is so big.   He swings an arm around your shoulder, pulling you close and laughing. “Why? Don’t like it?” And the little shit slyly leans in to whisper, “You like it when I call you my baby though.”   “Jimin!”   He laughs and you sigh with a smile.   You’re glad you ran into him.

[Post-Graduation]   You open the door, welcoming yourself in.   “Hey.”   Jimin’s on the couch and glances at you, unfazed at how you’ve waltzed right into his apartment with little warning. You’ve always knocked out of courtesy for his roommates, but ever since he moved out of the dormitories, you find little need to make him walk all the way to the door.   He’s watching a thriller and you flop down on his couch, leaning over to plant a quick peck against his mouth as a greeting. “How was work?”   “It was okay. A bit busy. I met this nice old lady and we chatted for a bit. She called me handsome, so there’s that.” He grins and you scoff lightly, leaning your cheek on his shoulder as you watch the main character venture into an abandoned house on screen. Jimin loves his praises, so you’re not wholly surprised he’s kept a mental note of it.    You’re not sure why it’s important though. Anyone with eyes would agree he’s good-looking.   “How was class?”   “Awful,” you mumble, feeling tired against him. You came over to get rid of some sexual frustration, but you’re not even sure you have the energy to do anything anymore. “Commuting was brutal this morning. Traffic was backed up on the highway and I was late, and yesterday I had to drive back at night. My parents are driving me nuts too. I can’t study properly.”   Jimin hums a soothing note and slings an arm at the back of the couch where you’re sitting, letting you lean into him. It goes quiet as the two of you watch the suspenseful scene and then he absentmindedly pipes up after a minute, “You could always move in with me.”   He continues, “It’s closer to the university and it’s quiet during the day, so you can study. We could always study together too.”   It’s a good idea, but— “I can’t afford that.”   “I don’t mind paying rent for a while. It’s the same either way.”   It takes a second for the words sink in and then you’re peeling yourself off of him.   Your gaze is met with Jimin’s, eyes locking into one another and the movie is left in the background. “As roommates?”   He shrugs. “There’s only one bedroom, but sure.”   A studio apartment. One bed shared. Two people.   Watching movies. Having sex. Eating together.   It doesn’t sound bad to you whatsoever, but you contemplate it. It swirls around inside your head and you murmur, “Isn’t that breaking the rules of being friends with benefits?”   And you don't know why but Wendy’s words from the other day are echoing inside the caverns of your brain at the worst moment. “You know, your relationship with Jimin isn’t exactly normal.” You weren’t sure what she meant and you still don’t know. Not when she had advertised and encouraged this kind of arrangement all those years ago. When she had told you many people got involved in each other like this.   But you’re starting to wonder if something is off.   Did you do something wrong? Did your relationship with Jimin spiral out of control? But everything feels normal.   After three years, you’d think you would’ve mastered the art of benefits by now.   You sigh, getting a headache. Yet, Jimin merely shrugs.    As if the definitions and boundaries don’t bother him whatsoever.    “Is it?”   “Kind of. I mean, living together, being mutually exclusive. It almost sounds like….”   “Like what?” His brows lift. “Like we’re dating?”   You feel hot in your face, skin toasted like a furnace. Maybe you’re being delusional or silly. Maybe he’s going to laugh at you. “This is what couples who are going to get engaged do.”   “Maybe we should date then…?” The pitch of Jimin’s voice raises at the end, not necessarily a question but neither a statement. It’s questionable like he’s unsure how you feel. Like he’s playing a guessing game. And then he smiles at your shocked expression.   Jimin turns to face you fully. His gaze is heavy, earnest. “Maybe we should date.”   This time, it’s repeated as an assertion.   Confident. Unwavering. Sincere.   Jimin leans in to kiss you as if he can’t resist anymore. It’s tender, taking you off guard and you lean into him, finally allowing yourself to become surrounded by him. Mind. Body. And soul.   When the two of you pull away, he smiles while catching his breath. “I-I’m down if you are. This apartment can be yours and you can study here and sleep here and whatever. We can eat together and I’ll buy you take out or cook. It’s fine if you don’t want to. I’m cool with anything. We can keep being friends with benefits, if that’s what you want….so…......what do you want?”   You exhale lightly, feeling warm. “This...is a lot.”   “Is it?” Instantly, Jimin appears panicked and you hold back a laugh. “We’ve technically been together for three years and...what we’ve been doing recently is basically dating. In my opinion.”   “Did Wendy put you up to this?”   “No.” He shakes his head. “Frankly, the person I talk to most these days is you. And I like it that way.”   God, you hate him.    You pull Jimin in for another kiss, an aggressive and eager one. Enough that you can feel the heat off of his own face. You move to straddle his thighs and when you break apart, you muster a glare at him. “You know, I’ve been trying so hard not to catch feelings. You’re ruining all my efforts, you know that, Park?”   He grins. “Is this a yes?”   “It is.” This time, he’s the one to kiss you, sealing your lips together as he smiles against your mouth and squeezes giggles out of you. Even if he doesn’t say it, even if he’s saving it for another day, you know from his tender touches that he loves you. And it’s mutual.   No longer do you need to worry — leave right after the deed is done or be panicked when you’ve accidentally fallen asleep in his bed. You’re unashamed when he kisses you harder as a greeting, when he holds your hand, when you go out together. You can have pillow talks without needing to guard yourself, cuddle him, call him yours.   And when Christmas arrives, meaning sweater weather and snow dusting from the sky, you have someone to keep you warm. Someone who you can come back to and call your home.

#bts fanfic #bts smut #jimin smut #bts scenario #jimin fanfic #jimin scenario #lol I can finally use the smut tag #I know this ain't sfw y'all but I really wasn't kidding when I said I was experimenting a bit more with smut #with that being said I actually really like this fic #IT'S FLUFF AND SOFT AF #I LOVE ME SOME CUTE CHIM DON'T FIGHT ME

[foolgobi65]

i really wish the writers of lucifer hadn't turned chloe and maze's friendship into such an afterthought! like ok:

- when they start in season 2, both of them are in pretty isolated places socially. chloe, already a pretty introverted workaholic, is just newly divorced and has exactly one (1) friend: lucifer. maze has finally split off from lucifer and has two (2) friends: linda and trixie, but for the purposes of this comparison linda really is maze's one friend. maze has just accepted that she's not actually going back to hell, that this time on earth isn't really just a lunch break before they go back to the real world (hell) and so she now has to figure out how to build a real life in LA.

- basically, both maze and chloe are kind of in similar positions in terms of being isolated and really only having a singular overwhelming relationship with someone as opposed to having a network they can rely on so that all their eggs aren't in one basket. you can see where this backfires on both of them throughout the series when linda spends the week not talking to maze after seeing lucifer's face, and when lucifer runs off to vegas and suddenly chloe is stuck with all these feelings she can't express (and crucially can't talk about to him, her best friend.) ofc lucifer and maze's relationship transcends friendship just based on their immense history and is its own weird thing that i also kind of wish they had given more thought to, but w/e.

- enter: maze and chloe's friendship! i think for both maze and chloe, the other person is as "far" as you could get from themselves, but is fascinatingly still someone they can like, respect, love, and be loyal to. for a good while (and this is something i REALLY wish they had maintained) chloe, maze, and dan are basically raising trixie together which takes so much respect and trust that the other person is someone you want having a hand in influencing a kid you love! i think what's interesting is that, unlike lucifer who is trying to answer existential questions about his place/purpose in the universe, maze is really just focused on the people she cares about and having a good time (which is rooted in her doing meaningful work as a bounty hunter.) chloe is someone who pursues duty to the point of self-sacrifice, and obviously her friendship with lucifer helps her loosen up, but the pedestal he places her on/reverence he sometimes feels for her prevents him from really popping that bubble in the same way maze does. also chloe and lucifer's relationship gets SO much more complicated around the time maze enter's chloe's life so the role that lucifer once had to shock chloe out of her comfort zone kind of goes to maze once chloe has to draw some personal boundaries with lucifer.

- i think the key to maze and chloe's friendship is that they're both people who desperately need someone who embodies the other person's best trait. while this tendency isn't always healthy, maze is fundamentally someone very loyal to those she believes deserves it. obviously she's also betrayed people a billion times but at her core she's deeply committed to those she cares about which is something that i can see chloe find really appealing. at this point chloe has spent so much of her life in this weirdly precarious position where, since her dad's death she hasn't been able to fully trust anyone or open up to them. obviously she loves dan, but its clear that even when they're still "good" he doesn't trust her instincts or potential like he should, and when he spent those months gaslighting her the issue for her even beyond the fact that he shot malcom would have been that he didnt support or trust his wife. the appeal of lucifer is that from the beginning he identifies that she's smart and moral with good instincts. he trusts her, and strangely over the season she begins to trust him too! and then he runs off to vegas, etc etc lol. maze's primary loyalty probably isn't to chloe, but we see that to the best of her capacity she wants chloe to be happy -- she gets the prison warden killed, she "tries" and then really does listen to chloe venting about lucifer, attends the parent night chloe was stressed about, sets aside her grudge with lucifer to find chloe.

- in turn, chloe's best trait is her ability to accept people as they are and see their potential. of course she doesnt really have that many friends, but the people she is attracted to are all works in progress (dan is obvious, as are lucifer and maze lmao, but there's also ella who confesses something very personal and scary to chloe and gets a hug in return, and even charlotte who chloe's had clashes with both as charlotte and Mom for years but still gets the benefit of the doubt.) maze does have to change when she comes to live with chloe and trixie, but we see trixie grow up heavily influenced by maze in ways that makes it clear that chloe must genuinely like maze, or those influences like the handshake and the passion for gore and the knife training wouldnt have been allowed. we know that the reason maze is so loyal to lucifer is that he was the first person to ever accept her for who she was unconditionally, without shame or judgment. we see that for lucifer chloe is that person, especially because she sees his potential for growth just as she sees maze's. because she doesnt have preconcieved notions of what they're supposed to be she only sees them as people going through a difficult period of growth and supports them as best she can: reminding maze that they're friends, worrying about her in canada, trusting her with trixie who is the most important person in chloe's life.

- of course, chloe and maze have lucifer and linda but narratively lucifer and linda become so much MORE for chloe and maze. the show sunk linda/maze lmao but linda's clearly the adult maze cares most about just as lucifer is chloe's. and for both in s3 this person they each place so much of themselves into suddenly hurts them and they both spiral. i think there was real potential for chloe and maze to become each other's support and develop into a really steady, enduring friendship in contrast to the chaos of their individual romances (you will NEVER convince me that triangle was about amenadiel rather than linda lmao.) even post s3, they don't really address that maze really hurt chloe by pushing her towards pierce, and that chloe hurt maze by lying to her. i really think there could have been a lot of growth from maze going back to living with chloe and trixie after making full ammends and chloe realizing that actually, yes she can deal with this and it isn't that scary and then the tragedy of her maybe missing her shot with lucifer becomes more stark. we see chloe and maze teaming up in the first episode of 5A but then they blow that up too! i get that chloe needs space and its clear they're both using the other as placeholders for the people they really want, but there's no reason that they couldnt have come back together later and re-established their friendship on screen. obv they wouldnt work together after lucifer comes back, but to me this is where i believe they should go back to living together. without that, maze's connection to trixie in terms of what they can show on screen becomes tenuous and chloe's home life just becomes less interesting/worthwhile to see bc it'd just be her or maybe her with trixie. without that, it feels like we just see a lot of chloe either at work or in relation to lucifer (bc thats the best bang for your buck in terms of interaction!) we do get to see maze with linda, which is nice, but idk just feels like a step back from early s3 when maze felt more embedded in a community of people who liked, accepted, and cared about her wellbeing.

- i think one of the issues is that chloe and maze's friendship might have seemed like a knock off of their "main" relationships with lucifer and linda bc they have similar dynamics with them, but idk! there's a sense of fun that we get from their friendship that we dont really see from the main pairings because those are so serious and passionate and the main mechanisms by which the 4 grow so there isn't as much room for the lighter stuff. i know i said that chloe sees the potential for growth but she's not really pushing maze to talk about her feelings. she's doing the dishes maze won't, smiling at maze and trixie's handshake, shrugging off the fact that maze is throwing knives at their rented walls. maze and chloe create space for each other to be seen as themselves, good or bad, in ways that linda and lucifer can't for whatever reason. they don't really push each other, just let the other person be. it wouldnt be the ideal dynamic if they were the only person in each other's lives, but i think its vital to have someone in your life who can, in chloe's case, gently push you outside of your comfort zone and in maze's case offer acceptance, friendship, and trust.

idk this is just going in circles as i repeat the same points over and over and over but i really wish they had put more thought into sustaining the maze and chloe friendship throughout s4 and s5 because it would have brought out notes in both of them narratively that i think are lost otherwise. also its just sad for trixie that someone who was basically part of her family who she was living with is just...not there anymore and that's never addressed. : (

#lucifer #maze #chloe decker #lol im just writing this here to avoid doing school work rip #back to pretending to do a reading!!!

[lordeasriel]

The Sun never sets on the Magisterium

The reach of the Holy Church in Lyra’s world is the first and most prominent worldbuilding aspect we learn from Northern Lights. It is the most important introduction one has to this world, so vastly different than ours yet so similar still, and it is the one trait that remains constant throughout both trilogies and novellas included.

This is an analysis of the Church in Lyra’s world, so spoilers for all the books and novellas, most likely. I’ll try and make a single post about this but I’m gonna reserve the right of maybe doing two separate parts because it’s a big subject. Under the cut because you know the drill, it’s long lol

The Magisterium was founded after John Calvin’s death, who had been Pope, and had the seat of the Church moved to Geneva. Although it is never clear, the Magisterium’s religious aspects come mostly from the Roman Catholic Church, and Pullman himself said in an interview, that some of its dogma is based on the original puritans. In this world, Calvin didn’t seem to have moved forward with his reform, not needing to break ties with the Catholic Church since he had become the Catholic Church.

Despite becoming a vast collective of “courts, colleges, and councils,” the Magisterium remains rather similar to most Christian branches from our world, at least in the medieval times. They had ties with kingdoms, they had influence over colonization, as well as economic and political influence, not to mention military too.

In Lyra’s world, the Magisterium seems intimately tied to Geneva’s politics, at the very least; it gives the impression that the city is somehow independent from the rest of Switzerland, not unlike the Vatican is independent from Italy. It is however, mentioned that the Swiss War was an armed conflict between England and the Magisterium, which means that they must have a full fledged control over the entire country and not just Geneva, although like most things in these books, this is not a sure claim.

With the Swiss War happening some time around 1933 and 1935, it gives this wild and quite odd picture, of a Church actively trying to invade a country. Although not that foreign a concept, since the Catholic Church was highly involved with the colonization process of our world, they never quite invaded the countries themselves (at least during the 1500s colonizations, as the Crusades were sort of Catholics invading countries lmao), instead joining later as the Monarchs of Europe established outposts and colonies and had already subdued natives in the area.

We do not have an exact date for the Magisterium’s creation, the implication being that it was set somewhere 600 years prior to Marcel Delamare’s acceptance of Leader of the High Council in TSC, it is fair to assume that colonization was already happening in Lyra’s world’s 15th century-ish and that the Magisterium was involved with that much in the same way it was in our world: by converting people, be it by force or by persuasion.

However, in Lyra’s world, the Magisterium stopped being a fully religious entity at some point, and became a full fledge state-like organization, spread all across the globe in different shapes and names, all answering to the bigger and more powerful groups, usually stationed in Geneva: the College of Bishops during its initial centuries, then eventually the Consistorial Court of Discipline, who by NL had become an immensely powerful group, in a power conflict with the less threatening Society of the Work of the Holy Spirit. The CCD being the harshest and most powerful group in the Magisterium, at least during the events of HDM, seemed to have had a lot of power in Geneva and in nearby areas, such as France (as we learn in LBS, the alethiometrists of Paris were sympathetic to the Church, not a surprise given France’s very Catholic Background) and Germany.

With information known from LBS and HDM, the Magisterium seems to hold under its power both the Swiss Army (implied, at least, given the Swiss War being a conflict created by the Magisterium itself) and the Imperial Guard of Muscovy, which seemed to have been under the control of the CCD in particular. It is not explained exactly why the Muscovite Army serves the Church and personally, my knowledge of anything Eastern Europe is very slim, so I’m not gonna attempt to assume much, but given that in TSK it is said they were “sworn to uphold the power of the Magisterium”, it’s possible — and very likely — that the Muscovite government had some sort of deep rooted connection with the Church. Again, not a surprise for Europe, as most countries had monarchies connected to the Church very intimately.

I’m not diving deep into every single one of the Magisterium groups, especially because we know very little about most of them. During the Magisterium congress in TSC, it is mentioned that 53 delegates attended, each representing a group at least (we know both Pierre Binaud AND the President of the CCD attended and they both are part of the same group), so that alone should prove why I couldn’t possibly talk about every single one of them lmao Some of those aren’t even mentioned by name. So, before I tackle on the most important groups and what they represent, I wanted to discuss how the Magisterium’s influence in the world seems to work in a geographical way.

We know for a fact that Geneva — and Switzerland, at least implied so — is absolutely under the control of the Church. Whether they share power with a political group or they are the political branch themselves, I could not say, but at any rate, we know the Magisterium waged war on England under the Swiss banner at one point in time and it’s fairly unlikely that it changed much in less than a century; that alone proves that State and Church don’t seem separate here.

So, how I perceive the Church in Lyra’s world — not just based on preference, but also on what we see of the world, however little it is — is that the further the country and cities are from Geneva, the looser the Magisterium’s grasp is and the more different its approach to power becomes. I use the word ‘looser’ here very lightly, as I don’t think the Americas weren’t oppressed, but I think the Magisterium had a much different type of hold and influence there, and I do think the huge oceans separating Europe from Oceania and the Americas helped change the pull of the Church.

That is different from how it happened in our world, but there is also the difference in how the Magisterium operates; each of its groups work under different philosophies and dogmas and politics. They embody the same religion - Christianism - but they do not act the same way, a good example being how the faithful in Constantinople act towards the Patriarch, while England has very little respect for the CCD, instead just fearing it. In our world, the Church operated sort as an unified front, but in Lyra’s world these many groups are always and constantly fighting each other for power and influence, creating alliances and making enemies between themselves. In England alone, we see that many groups have “outposts” there, the CCD and the Oblation Board, as well as all the Priories and chapels and all that.

There is also the fact that Lyra’s world still seems to have a very independent Africa, as we see the presence of King Ogunwe, meaning that some of the areas in Africa still had independent Kingdoms. This doesn’t mean that the African colonies that did exist weren’t converted or oppressed, but it does mean that these independent Kingdoms resisted the Church’s influence and depending on what group was harassing them, they could succeed in breaking the Church’s ever growing presence. This seems a similar situation for the Americas, given how odd the borders are in Lyra’s world  — South America having way less countries than it does in our worlds and the US never being formed, instead separated into at least two regions, three depending if New France means Canada or yet another part of a possible US.

This is a very ugly map I coloured to show my point lmao The Red Areas cover most of Western Europe and some of Eastern Europe, as well as a part of Russia. All these areas are connected by roads or trains, meaning that the Magisterium’s pull could have started long before airplanes were even created; these means the influence and presence would have existed for a long period of time in most of Europe, meaning More Magisterium Strength. It also covers areas I assumed would be heavily populated areas in the colonies, most of the coastal areas in Brasil, most of the United States because they have two different countries in them  — Texas and New Denmark  — and most of Coastal Australia, although by HDM it’s fair to assume all these regions are no longer colonies, but independent states.

I didn’t go into full detail, there are countries I didn colour with red but that should be red. The Green Areas are contested Areas, places where the Magisterium would have a presence but that would create conflicts for different reasons, being other religions, an uncooperative governement or simply because the group in charge of the area is not competent or too violent to properly establish a presence. This would be the areas in the continents, especially in Africa, where in our world they were heavily colonised but in Lyra’s world they are still independent kingdoms, with military forces and political freedom. Some parts of Russia are green because in Lyra’s world there is the implication Russia is divided into at least three different territories  — Muscovy, Tartary and Siberia  —  and the tartars are considered heretics by the Church; is the territory I painted in green correspondent to actual Tartar regions? I have no idea, but I’m hoping you can forgive my geographic inaccuracy in favour of all this mega meta thing I just spurred. LMAO

And finally the Purple Areas are mostly in places where the weather would be too harsh or where population would be too small to attract the eye of the Magisterium. Ultimately, the Church in Lyra’s world does not only seek to convert everyone and rid the world of heretics, but they also want political influence, economical and military as well, and a small village in Greenland offers absolutely none of that. Some of these areas would also be found in Asia, I believe, especially the very distant and small villages where Islam would have been able to survive. I’ve written a bit about other religions in Lyra’s world if you want to read before going on.

With all that in mind  — and out of the way!  — let’s take a closer look at the Magisterium most notable groups. Starting of course, with the CCD, it’s important to keep in mind that the CCD was the first group created in the Magisterium. It wasn’t always, however, the most powerful one; in Northern Lights, it’s said they only gained notoriety in “recent years”, and we see in La Belle Sauvage that they were already active, including in England, so my assumption is that not only Pullman did a slight retcon here, but also that recent years can mean somewhere in the range of 70 to 100 years. This doesn’t change the fact the CCD became powerful and feared in the Magisterium, nor that their power in England grew considerably between LBS and TAS and then TSC. They are mostly an enforcer type of group  (this is how I refer to them, not canon: enforcer or militia for groups that can arrest, or do any type of Police/militia/army related type of work; dogmatic is how I refer to the groups that usually deal with conversion, reeducation, philosophical works - this isn’t relevant, I’m just. Trying to Make Sense lmao) and as an enforcer, the CCD is violent and ruthless and often lawless in its work outside Geneva.

Despite the fact they are known as a Church Authority, they cannot murder freely and without consequence. In England they act in the shadows during LBS, disguising Robert Luckhurt’s murder as a drowning, and not much is known about their work during HDM, but in TSC they start to openly arrest people for heresy, no doubt a change from the government after Marcel’s rise to power. The CCD seems to act all across Europe and even Central Asia, as we see some of its forces in Constantinople, although it isn’t clear if they were there simply because the Patriarch died or if they are also stationed in the city; the Sublime Porte had its own guards as well, given its status as a government base.

Not much is known of the Society of the Work of the Holy Spirit, except that they seemed less harsh than the CCD and during their quest to find Lyra, they were far more interested in not killing her. Lord Asriel mentions in TAS about his surprise in learning that Lord Roke managed to infiltrate the group, as they were considered impregnable; given Lady Salmakia’s method, and the whole attitude of the group towards the prophecy — it was assumed they weren’t going to do anything about it  — I’d safely assume they were more inclined towards being dogmatic.

Perhaps even older than the CCD, the College of Bishops was perhaps inherited from the Catholic Church before the Magisterium was born. It was known to be the most remarkable and powerful of the groups for centuries after the creation of the Magisterium. Not much is said about them, but given their counterpart in our world, I’d assume they were more inclined towards dogma than enforcer. They are, in our world, a collection of bishops who work closely with the Pope; in Lyra’s world, by the time the Magisterium existed, the Pope no longer existed, so the assumption is that the College replaced the Pope figure altogether, being led by all the bishops in the collection, probably working like a council.

Everything we know about La Maison Juste is confusing and unclear, as most things worldbuilding-wise are in these books. Their official name is League for the Instauration of the Holy Purpose, which coincides with Olivier Bonneville’s description of their work, about “accomodating the life of the world to the life of the spirit”. In other words, it means making sure that daily life can be fitted into the dogma of the Church; it’s vital for the Magisterium to adapt as progress comes. Unlike the CCD, that suppress anything that borders heresy, La Maison Juste seems more inclined towards adapting the dogma so the world can still be within the Magisterium’s expectations.

However, there is mention of La Maison Juste being a place meant to study and examine heresy; there is also a mention in TSC, by Olivier, about how the group changed under Marcel’s leadership, “being a force for good” in the ranks of the Magisterium. What that means exactly, I can’t say; it could be Marcel changed the heresy examination to something more productive and less harsh, or it could just mean he became more strict towards heresy, but that would conflict with Olivier’s description about the accomodation thing. At any rate, I do classify them as dogmatic, and we see Marcel using the CCD to go after Olivier when he flees Geneva; it’s curious because there seems to be implied the CCD outranks his group, but he still uses their forces to do anything remotely violent. There is however, a passage where Lyra lies to a guard from the Office of Right Duty about being part of La Maison Juste, and the guard gets spooked. This is curious because La Maison Juste barely seems remarkable up until the congress happens, but the mention scares the man off.

Two groups  — that we know of  — were responsibility of Mrs. Coulter. The League of St. Alexander seemed to have been created around the same time LBS happens (roughly 1986 if the timeline makes any sense, which probably doesn’t). Hannah Relf learns at some point that Marisa was behind it, but it’s never clear what was her role in it exactly. It doesn’t look like the League was a private initiative, but actually tied to the Church and it was as good a Scam as any. Marisa being behind it didn’t necessarily mean she was the active leader of the group, as they mention a man under the codename Bishop seemed to be in charge, but then again, I cannot say with certainty. They were definitely a dogmatic group, with brainwashing added to the mix, but they seemed to have mutated over time and it isn’t clear whether they only existed in England or not.

The General Oblation Board was Mrs. Coulter’s actual, proper group. It was a private initiative, under the CCD’s rule, but the nature of their work seemed to threaten the CCD’s leadership in the Magisterium. MacPhail made an extra effort to try and dismantle them, especially because he believed that Dust should be destroyed and not examined. I don’t think the fate of the group was ever disclosed, despite their losses, but by TAS MacPhail mentions them as if they are still functioning. Whether they survived up to TSC is not clear, but it’s also hard to imagine what could they have become without Marisa. It’s also interesting to think what would have happened to the Magisterium, had Marisa succeeded in taking the place of the CCD; a private initiative group as the most powerful group in the Magisterium would have caused drastic changes, and probably opened the doors to the big corporations much sooner than Marcel’s work in TSC. The GOB could be classified as dogmatic, given their interest in Dust, but they were far more into scientific research than La Maison Juste seems to be, for example. They also had their own private guards, so no need for the CCD’s enforcers.

I think these groups showcase well how the Magisterium operates. The further we see Lyra go into the East, we realise how the grip of the Church seems lighter and far more military inclined. Is the Magisterium everywhere? Frankly, I don’t think so. I think they have a substantial presence in every country with any amount of political influence or power; any country that might offer opposition. We know they tried to conquer England through an actual war, which is quite odd for a religion, but this is where the Theocracy takes it place in Lyra’s world: they become a single unified front with their country  — Switzerland, in this case  — and the countries where they have more power, they can also control. The places they can’t take by force, they take with dogma and faith, and slowly overthrow these governments by turning their people against themselves.

They are so vastly fragmented that even places with small groups are affected by their presence, no matter small and odd that can be. It’s both curious and terrifying to see a world so deeply overwhelmed by a single opponent, but then again, it’s not that far off our reality. The Magisterium doesn’t represent just faith and religion, but also the big oligarchies, and how governments bend to the will of big companies, and how these aligned forces can become oppressive over time. The Church’s hold across Europe, Africa and Asia was not fast and unpredictable; it was obvious and slow. It started with small conversions and with time, the Church become a force of sustainability for different regions; they become an important part of the enviroment, of the economy, of the security of the country. They become something to be relied on and thus removing them become difficult over time as well, as the micro societies  — the neighborhoods, the small villages  — they become reliant on the Church’s helpful groups to survive, meaning that their fear of the enforcers are overwhelmed by the help of the Chapels, and the priories.

It’s the creation of a co-dependent ecosystem that is very difficult to dissolve without harming innocent people.

#hdm meta: worldbuilding #hdm meta: the magisterium #hdm meta: religion #hdm meta: politics #hdm meta #lmao it's a lot of meta this blog is very organised #the magisterium #his dark materials #the book of dust #meta by effie

[penaltbox]

hi j! hope you had a good christmas if you celebrate.

hehe im glad she seems to like me 🙈 bc i was so scared of T’s family not liking me. youre right. its a scary thought! but T facetimed me on christmas day and his family interrupted him bc they wanted to say hi and merry christmas to me and see how i was doing 🥺 it was so sweet. OKAY I KNOW 😭 i didnt think that was gonna happen and that id cross that off the list like ever. but it did and omg ok that anon that asked about it im laughing. um well basically we stopped at this secluded spot and it started off with kisses so nothing crazy. but T bit my lip and i moaned and that set him off lmao. i will be honest and say idk if its a never doing it again thing bc who knows. but it wasnt like some super romantic thing bc well youre in a car and there isnt much space. and T’s a large dude so fitting him in the backseat is already a struggle lol. but was it worth it? yes 🙈🙈 esp bc we laughed about it after and were like omg were ridiculous. no regrets though. i already miss canada and being freezing cold by the water but at least it was pretty 🥺

Hiii sorry I’m on vacation in Florida so I’ve hardly touched my phone 🙈 I did have a good Christmas, I hope you did too!! Aww that’s so cute that he called you and they stole the show! You’ll have to make a summer trip next and see the differences between the seasons! So the bucket list of places begins huh 😂😂 I mean at least it wasn’t the most awkward place lol. I’ve heard horror stories about car trips like that going wrong 😅 is he gone until the new year?? Either way I hope you have a happy new year!!

[petersthree]

I was looking through my blog and came across a follower celebration that I was supposed to do and definitely never did for some reason and uh. That’s definitely not happening now but I did want to just do something, so I thought - I follow a lot of great content creators, so why not highlight them?

A lot of people do multiple things even if I only put them in one category so check out their tags and their work. <3  

Glorious Gifmakers:

@olisgifs makes such fantastic gifs (and she did this lovely header)! Her gifs are so thoughtful of the characters and who they are as people, and you can tell that she really loves all the characters. || Favorite set || Favorite series ||

@anya-chalotra has some of the most amazing gifs I’ve seen on this site. She experiments with such a cool style and every gifset I’ve seen of hers has absolutely taken my breath away, they’re amazing! || Favorite set ||

@tuafives honestly the fact that she believes in Hufflepuff Five already makes them a fantastic blog, but her gifs in general are just fantastic! The coloring is always so pretty and I’m obsessed with them. || Favorite set ||

@charmingqueenie I’m always hit with a blast from the past from her gifs in the best possible way. Some of the best Charmed gifs I’ve seen honestly, and her LNC series has my whole ass heart. || Favorite set || Favorite series ||

@inappropriateexplosions Experiments with such different styles and I love it! [meme voice] She has the range, dahling! I love seeing what different style she’s going to do next and it’s always absolutely lovely. || Favorite series ||

@challengerblue Her gifsets need more love and it is a crime, because LOOK at her edit tag!!! These are all such beautiful gifsets and I am obsessed with each and every one! The coloring! The scenes chosen! The talent! || Favorite set ||

@captain-flint Every time I see one of their sets: “Oh the talent jumped out huh?” Has so many lovely Buddie sets and Eddie sets in general and I love them all!!! || Favorite set || Another Favorite ||

@joel-miller honestly I’m getting repetitive here but I can’t help that every single gif-maker is just so so talented. Has fantastic sets and probably my only mutual who also gifs TLOU which??? I love!!! || Favorite set ||

@chloedoeslucifer has such lovely sets!! I’m a particular fan of her parallel sets because she picks up on SO many parallels that I didn’t even notice and it’s amazing. || Favorite set ||

@i-am-irondad Libby’s sets make me so emotional??? Such great Iron Dad/Iron Fam content in particular and it feeds my soul, I just love these sets and the found families that she gifs. <3 || Favorite series || Favorite set ||

@stevenrogered I think the one good thing about the “since you’ve been gone”/”in your orbit” feature is that I got to see their awesome gifs for SO many fandoms that I’m in (and also made me think I was following them for a very long time and I was so sad when I realized I wasn’t lmao). Just fantastic gifs all around! || Favorite set || 

@diegohargreves I love love love the coloring used in these gifsets! The yellow in particular is always fantastic and I rarely see it used in gifsets, so I appreciate seeing it - they’re always so vibrant and lovely sets! || Favorite set ||

@felicityollies has gifsets that I admire from afar now that I don’t watch Arrow anymore lmaooo but there’s always going to be a part of me that still ships Olicity and that part of me dies with how good her gifs are! Genuinely just *chef’s kiss* || Favorite set ||

@vaughnsgreenwood I also look at Dannii’s sets from afar because we don’t share many fandoms but her skills are just FANTASTIC. Also, even though I’m not going to watch the new Charmed her gifsets make me ship Harry and Macy so thanks for that lol. || Favorite set || 

@marcomardon graciously lets me call her Canada since I had very little reading comprehension when I read her blog, and also makes great sets! I love her stuff, especially when it comes to the rogues!! || Favorite set || 

Amazing Artists(/Graphic Makers):

@undead--hotmess has such lovely art! I’m so in awe of the talent, their paintings I’ve seen I’d say would look like real photographs like...it’s amazing || Favorite piece ||

@superbandnerd99 Okay real talk idk if she has more works on tumblr but I just need to share this one because it’s beautiful and everyone should see it and I’m 1000% updating it when she has the final piece out!!

@the-maidofmischief like some of THE best icons I’ve seen??? I love them all so much??? They’re so vibrant and colorful and absolutely beautiful and I’ve made it a mission to have basically all of her icons on my different social media accounts lmao || Favorite piece ||

@fengshuismirke her art is just. SO good. I was so blown away by a Martin piece that I’m tagging in here but I’m just in awe of her work!!! Check out her “my stuff” tag because she also writes! || Favorite piece || 

Wonderful Writers:

@ginnxtonic Ho boy. Ginny’s fics.....her writing is so good that I am now invested in the lives of AU children of Theon/Sansa in Game of Thrones. That’s how invested her fics will get you. They’re so wonderfully in character and she puts real heart and work into her fics and it shows. || Favorite work || Favorite series ||

@aprilthegayqueen has such wonderful fics! The ones I’ve read have been slice-of-life and character studies and I absolutely love them. They’re also in fandoms I haven’t been in for a while and they make me want to immediately rewatch. :’) || Favorite work ||

@zaritomaz hnnnng Mina has written some of my FAVORITE works of all time. She has such a talent for writing and it’s always just so beautiful, poetic, and lovely. || Favorite work ||

@nightskywriter has such lovely fics!! I personally have read through all her TUA fics and they’re *chef’s kiss* fantastic. She has a very fun style of writing and it really shines through! || Favorite work ||

@incendiaglacies Has such a long and varied history of writing and it’s awesome! I sadly don’t share many fandoms with her anymore but I’ve seen her Dream Movie challenge and I’m reading through her book and she’s just such a talented author with such cool ideas! || Favorite work || Check this out! ||

@hedgiwithapen the ANGST hedgi writes oh my goodness. I’m pretty sure a common tag on multiple people’s blogs for Hedgi’s fics is “dammit hedgi” lmao! Amazing stuff (even if they fill me with pain). || Favorite work ||

@deadtedkord Meg’s writing....it is just......so so good. They’re pieces upon pieces of just fantastic writing and literally any compliment I give here would not measure up to how awesome her fics are. || Favorite work ||

I’m sorry if I missed anyone, know that even if you’re not on here it’s bc I have no brain cells and that your work is awesome (and please send me your stuff, I love to see it)! Be sure to give these folks some love, tags, and comments. Thanks to all the content creators out there, you guys are awesome. <3

#janie's 6k celebration #so fun fact #this is like 2 years late bc i realized i'm close to 7k now and i was like 'hm what did i do in previous celebrations' and realized #'oh. did not do this celebration at all' but y'know #even better bc i get to highlight even more folks!!!!

[jordm]

Heartland 14x10 - Staying the Course review

So lets pretend I’m not a week late to watch the ep but rather... I just waited to watch in its normal time slot... a week later... okay?

Anyways, the finale - here we go!

How cute was the opening, with Amy riding up as Katie and Lyndy skate on the rink? If any of you have a rink like this in your backyard, I am very envious. Emmy and Ruby really love skating and it shows.

Amy rides to the area where Ty initially set up the jumping course, y’know before they could afford proper jumping gear and we’re treated with another flashback. I wonder how long these flashbacks will last if S15 is a go.

Blonde guy, Cooper? stops by and asks if she wants to work with him at the centre. Amy stops by to look at a horse called Challenge (I swear, I’m paying attention lmao), and her and Cooper seems to have a good rapport. Does this mean I want her jumping into another relationship? No, however, it is good nice to see Amy talk to other people besides her family/Caleb.

Cooper ends up losing his funding before he even begins, and Amy wants to help (with Parker!). So at Georgie’s competition, Parker starts to fundraise and Amy accidentally calls out the donor who backs out. However, this results in the donor reinvesting, so good on them. My question is, does this mean that Cooper and Amy will be in each others circles a lot more next season? I’m all for them being friends, but i’m not entirely sure I want Amy jumping back into another relationship so soon. More friends and exploring more opportunities would be nice though. 

It’s nice to see Amy (6 months later) jumping the course with Shadow because I think this shows real growth and acceptance/moving on from Amy over Ty’s death. Something, that has been a season and change and probably something that may still come up over the years but nevertheless still nice to see she’s slowly healing.

Lou and Mitch is continuing to plan their wedding and everyone they invited said yes... except Peter said no. Now now, Lou, what did you expect? For your ex to be happy to come see you get married to another guy? I know you guys have a good co-parenting relationship but still, wouldn’t that be a lil awks? How does she slip and call Peter her husband? Something tells me this won’t bode well for Lou & Mitch. Aidan has a point.. why does she care Peter can’t attend?

Lou “dreaming” about her life with Peter and Lou via flashbacks, is also not a good sign. Speaking of which, if this wedding doesn’t happen, I will be sad that we missed the chance to see Caleb and Cass at date night. Here’s to more C/C next season (and in particular Cass in person please!)

Peter (with a moustache) facetimes Lou IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT and says he can’t attend because he can’t just sit there and watch her go off into a new life.... which fair??!? I would not be able to attend my ex-husbands wedding - but then he says he still has feelings for her, something none of us saw coming /s.

So my question is, if we were going to end up with this breakup, why even have them get back together? It could have been explained that they just didn’t work out vs put us through this, but hey, to each their own. I guess they were finally honest about what he wanted. Too bad he didn’t realize it before they had already started wedding planning. It was the right thing to break up if Lou still harbours feelings towards Peter and Mitch wants a family (which Lou can’t provide nor wants) so it only makes sense that they... um, took a break? So they didn’t really break up they just took a break? Is this Rachel and Ross all over again?

Meanwhile, Georgie is practicing for the upcoming competition, when Quinn informs her that a scout for Equestrian Canada will be there. Anyways, not much to say about this but Georgie ends up getting the business card from Equestrian Canada - the road to the Olympics continues!

A side story is Quinn having trouble sleeping after Tim became his roommate and you know what? I can relate. Snoring is hard to sleep with. This leads to Tim crashing back at the dude ranch and meeting Jessica and them having a heart to heart. Jessica was scared that meeting Tim ruined her life changed and Tim just wanted Jessica around. 

The solution? Tim tagging along on Jessica on her photography adventures, and what a great compromise that is. If I am Tim, it sounds amazing. I really like Jessica and Tim together so I am really glad they worked it out and hope it ends better than his other relationships.

A few end notes:

* I’m surprised that Aidan hasn’t had a bigger role in this season, besides being Lou’s sidekick in the mayoral office... maybe next season we’ll see more of him?

* I know Georgie (Alisha) was not in every episode but I didn’t miss her when she wasn’t in like I missed Ty. I think this is because her explanation for being away was a lot more sound, realistic and practical. To me, in my head, her being away to focus on jumping (especially since school is online) just made sense, vs for example Ty being away in MONGOLIA.  Do I wish we got to see Georgie grieve more over Ty and get her perspective between the tiny one we got when she first came back after Florida? Absolutely, but maybe we will see more of that next season. It has, of course been a year and change so its possible we missed it all or only getting muted reactions.

* Lou is still using an older iPhone model. Think it’s time for an upgrade?

* The flashbacks made me realize how much the cast has grown up. Rewatching older Heartland episodes and seeing the glow up is amazing.

#heartland #finale

[ariclz]

hey  y’all  !  my  name’s  tay  &  i  have  brought  to  you  my  child  ,  ariel  that’s  a  lot  a  bit  of  a  mess.  i  am  obsessed  with  true  crime  &  makeup.  anyways  ,  i  wrote  some  points  below  about  her.  it got  a  little  long  ,  so  forgive  that  lmao.  if  you  would  like  to  plot  ,  please  click  that  little  heart  lol.  if  you  prefer  discord  ,  pls  let  me  know  &  we  can  slide  that  way.  anyways  ,  her  intro  is  below  &  i  cannot  wait  to  rp  with  y’all.

✎ 「 have you seen ARIEL JUNG yet this school year ?? maybe in POWER SQUAD, DEBATE & FASHION CLUB ?? i heard some wild rumors about the SEVENTEEN year old last semester, but now that they’re a JUNIOR it might be a different story. according to their friends they’re pretty ORGANIZED, but sometimes SHE can be MALICIOUS. who knows, this might just be HER year ! 」[ JENNIE KIM ]

𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒕𝒔  !

NAME   :    ariel  jung. GENDER   :   cisfemale. PRONOUNS   :   she  &  her. AGE   :   seventeen  (   17    ). BIRTHDAY   :   27th  november. ZODIAC   :   sagittarrius.   ETHNICITY   :   korean. ORIENTATION   :   bisexual.

𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌𝒈𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅  !

FAMILY   :   born   in  the  affluent  city  of  newport  beach  ,  california  to  the  jung  family.  her  father  is  the  creative director  of  a  soju  company  while  her  mother  is  the  ceo  of  a  popular  korean  cosmetics  company.  so  ,  she  was  groomed  from  birth  to  be  somebody  in  life.  they  moved  to  canada  right  before  ariel  started  grade  school  on  a whim  as  an  effort  to expand  their business ventures.

image  was  everything  to  the  jung  family  ,  so  they  made  sure  that  ariel  lived  up  to  their  name.  from  the  schools  she  went  to  ,  the  grades  she  got  (   bc  they  def’  made  generous  donations  to  the  schools  she  went  to  in  order  to  keep  her  at  the  top  of  her  class  in  middle  school   )  ,  the  friends  she  kept  &  the  way  she  presented  herself  to  the  public.  everything  had  to  be perfect  &  if  it  wasn’t  ,  faking  it  like  it  was  was  always  the  first  option.  her  life  was  set  up  for  her  to  succeed  &  ariel  &  her  parents  were  willing  to  do  anything  to  make  that  happen.

on  the  outside  their  family  was  all  put  together  ,  but  on  the  inside  ariel was  literally  battling  with  her  mother.  her  mother  is  extremely controlling  ,  and  ariel  feels  like  she  is  being  suffocated.  everything  she  does  isn’t good  enough  in  her  mother’s  eyes-- especially  when  it  comes  to  the  pageant  world.  ngl  ,  her  mother  is  kinda  verbally  abusive  &  enjoys  putting  her  down  bc  she  believes  it  will  toughen  her  up.  so  ,  ariel  kinda  always  has  an  awful  attitude  because  of  it.  she’s truly a fucking c*nt at times.

also  ,  at  a  young  age  ,  ariel  was  put  into  multiple  different  activities  to  find  her niche.  the  one  thing  she ultimately  gravitated  towards  was  beauty  pageants.  her  mom  thought  it  would  be  a  good  idea  to  capitalize  on  her  beauty  at  a  young  age  &  ariel  loved  it.  she  loved  the  spotlight  &  everything  that  came  with  it.

because  of  the  way  her  mother  treats  her  &  her dad  barely  being  around  to  back  her  up  ,  ariel  resents  her  parents  to  the  fullest.

SCHOOL   :   ariel  is  a  pretty  good  student  bc  things  come  naturally  to  her.  she  as  kind  of  conditioned  at  a  young  age  to  always  be  the  best  at  whatever  she  decides  to  do.  so  ,  although  she  doesn’t  alays  show  it  ,  she  takes  her  school  work  very  serious.  especially  since  she  has  to  go  to  college  to  become  a  doctor.  even  though  she secretly  wants  to  go  to  nyc  for  fashion  school.

𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚  !

QUICK-TEMPERED   :   although  she  has  tried  to  work  on  her  temper  ,  it  has  been  a  very  rocky  journey.  a  lot  of  things  irritate  her  &  she  reacts  without  thinking  things  all  the  way  through.  any  little  thing  can  set  her  off  &  she  usually  starts  with  words  to  hurt  people  because  she  knows  they  can  cut  deep.

HONEST   :   ariel  just  does  not  know  how  to  not  be  honest.  if  you  ask  her  for  her opinion  on  something  ,  she  will  say  exactly  what’s  on  her  mind.  she  sugar  coats  nothing  &  spares  no  feelings  in  the  process.

FEISTY   :   ariel  has   a  very  sharp  tongue.  she  is  aware  that  some  things  she  says  can  come  off  out  of  pocket  ,  but  doesn’t  really  care.

PRETENTIOUS   :   because  of  her  mother  ,  ariel  has  this  air  around  her  that  she  is  better  than  most  people.  she  will  let  it  be  known  that  she  feels  that  way  too.  she  def’  uses  her  looks  ,  money  &  status  to fuel  this belief.

MALICIOUS  :  she  spares  no  feelings  &  will  do  things on  purpose  out  of  spite.

COMPETITIVE  :   she  is  extremely  competitive  in  all  aspects  of  her  life  &  will  always  do whatever  she  needs  to  get  her  way.  she  doesn’t  care  about  who  she  has  to  step  on  to  do  so.

in  general  ,  i  would  say  that  ariel  is  just  blunt  ,  outspoken  ,  can  come  off  very  rude  ,  but  can  also  be  a  good  friend  when  she  wants.  in  most  cases  she  is  looking  out  for  herself.  if  she  feels  as  though  she  will  not  benefit  from  a relationship  /  friendship  /  situationship  she  will  either  lose interest  or  not  even  waste  her  time.  if  people  can  deal  with  her  personality  she  is  def’  your  ride  or  die.  if  not  ,  she’s  like  a  fucking  bat  out  of  hell  tbh.

𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒏𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 !

RIVALS   :   can  be  in  different  aspects  tbh.  power  squad  ,  school  ,  outside  of  school.  whatever  !

TRIO    :   just  two  other  people  to  make  a  trio  of  bad  bitches  tbh.  they  would  def  be  the  people  that  ariel  trusts  with  her  life  &  would never  betray.  think  the  powerpuff  girls lmao  or  azula  ,  mai  ,  and  ty  lee.

EXES    :   we  can  plot  the  nature  of  their  relationship  in  depth  ofc.

FWB   :   self  explanatory.

literally  down  for  any  kind  of  plot  ngl.  

#hqdintro #this is horrid but have it omg

[ancienttragedies]

So basically Carmilla but not produced in canada

Lmao But like if it had high production value/ was shot like a normal show rather than the webcam thing. If it wasn't so internet pop-culture centric and had more of a gothic/ dark academia vibe like the actual novel its based off. But still set at Silas university rather than Laura's house. Also just rewrite the entire character of Laura so she isn't cringe af and is more accurate to the novel. I get its made for younger teenagers but that concept with a vibe similar to The Haunting of Bly Manor would be so good.

#Carmilla

[questionthebox]

Question

How many of

You

Cracker

Conservatives out there

Secretly watch

BLACKED

Which is ranked either number 1 or 2

On

Pornhub

With millions of subscribers,

Cmon

Be

Honest,

How many of you

Honkeys

Are wanking it to

Some

BBC,

Let’s be honest

You’re really getting off of

That

Black Man

The Original Man,

That you stole

And

Kept as your labor

Clearing out the brush in states like

Mississippi

Because my paternal ancestors

The Spanish Europeans

Killed all those natives

Like

They were drunk

&

Oblivious to life,

You know it’s funny

To compare the two

Especially when I look at my father

Who’s

Latin,

He married my mother

A light skinned black woman,

And

I’ve never had any

Racial internal animus

But

As I’ve grown into my manhood,

Coming to see

All that one sees

I see how

Primitive & Barbaric

All hierarchy is,

Then a motherfucker went to college

Took

Some sociology classes

Dated

An Italian girl from Lakewood

Who’s

An anthropologist

With a skeleton in her bedroom,

I think of her curves

In her graduation dress,

You know

I cut my hand,

To show a point

That were all the same,

But we’re not all the same,

The only thing we have in common

Is

What we choose,

&

The good people

Try

To

Give

White Americans some slack

But have you ever been to Canada

Where

The white people are nice

Not racist

And even their conservatives

Believe in

Universal healthcare

&

Gay Rights,

Why can’t we just

Call a cracker

A cracker,

Here in the States,

Ain’t no

American White Person

Good,

Not a damn one,

Each & every single one

Is trying to get over on you

Financially

Because they set up this country

As

A scheme to enrich themselves

Yeah

There’s been a democracy

But only

For those

WASP’S

At the Top,

Who run shit,

Everyone else

Is labor,

The Crackers even call

Other whites

“Ethnic Whites”

And with those ethnic whites

The Crackers

Made them police officers

Fire fighters

And

Teachers,

Well my best teachers

We’re all

Jewish,

Shit, and they pushed me to Marxism

Like

A secret,

You see,

And I’m better for it,

I think back though

About

Racism

I think about being a kid

Going

To

Hurricane Harbor

Because my dads company

Would bring all the families

Together there for fun

&

We all would gather at this private section

With

Lunch tables

A basketball court

And a volleyball court

And

I think

When I was fucking 11 years old

Did

Those white folks I played

Volleyball with

Ever think in their heads

Something racist about me ?

Because it’s scary to think

That

I at 11 years old

In

2003

Would have to deal with some bullshit

Like

Racism,

I mean god damn

Can’t

A curly haired

Spic

Play volleyball with some white folks

&

Not have to think about

If

They’re calling me a Nigger inside their heads

Or

A spic

Lmao 🤣



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[surprisegents]

tagged by @teatraysandtypewriters​. thank you!! this was pretty fun ngl

1. Name: nervous laughter

2: Gender: guy.. person. yeah

3. Star sign: virgo

4. Height: 5′10"

5. Time: 7:48 pm

6. Birthday: september

7. Favorite band(s): this changes All The Time b/c i tend to like individual songs more than bands but uh. lord huron, walk the moon, of monsters and men, aeseaes, florence + the machine

8. Favorite solo artist(s): you all know who this is. it's hozier. but also mika and charlene kaye and like. so many others

9. Song stuck in my head: never give up on me by misterwives and meet me in the woods by lord huron

10. Last Movie: prospect - which was a weird film but i ended up enjoying it by the end? cool worldbuilding and i really came to love cee and ezra, though i did have to mute and fast forward through the arm scene euughghhghhhh

11. Last show: the clone wars. FINALLY starting it and i get the clone love now

12. When did you make this account: oh it was right before m*gicians was popping off. i've been here on and off since probably, damn, 2011 though?

13. What do I post: the long-lasting hyperfixations lmao. the short ones get sideblogs. right now it's a lot of star wars, art/photography, stuff that makes me laugh, and cr when i get nostalgic

14. What is the last thing you googled: bookoutlet - a canadian clearance book shop

15. Other blogs: a rarely updated star trek one @tenbackward​. a good vibes one that i'd rather keep private because right now it's containing my embarrassing blogging about p*dro p*scal's filmography. and of course, most of you know me from my m*gicians blog @eliotsvests​ rip

16. Do I get asks: rarely. mostly the occasional ask meme or lost, kindly anon

17. Why did I choose this url: i had it saved on my old cr account. had to take a break b/c of a rough situation with a mutual, and when i remade i wanted to keep something from the old blog. plus i think it works whether or not you know the cr reference

18. Following: 513. i gotta clear some out

19. Followers: 157 here. 704 including the sideblogs

20. Average hours of sleep: 😬

21. Lucky number: my answer to this was always 15 & 21 but they were just old jersey numbers

22. Instruments: piano for a few years as a kid, flute for 6 years through school, and i used to dabble in learning guitar before constant hand sanitizer use at work Destroyed my hands

23. What am I wearing: grey overwatch hoodie and maroon joggers

24. Dream job: damn idk. travel writer? someone give me money to go pretty places, learn other languages, and wax poetic about it

25. Dream trip: literally anywhere that isn't the us. maybe ireland or japan? i'd like to see more of canada too, like british columbia or the east coast. though i'd honestly kill to just sit in a library or coffee shop right now

26. Favorite food: man i love good sushi

27. Nationality: canadian

28. Favorite song: changes CONSTANTLY. almost (sweet music) by hozier has been a fave since it came out though

29. Last book I read: still working on it but the thread that binds by cedar mccloud. it's indie, has magical nonbinary librarians, and is set in a nb society where most people use ey/em pronouns if that floats anyone's boat

30. Top three fictional universes I would like to live in: star wars (preferably not during the height of space fascism), harry potter i guess, and.... i honestly can't think of any other universe i wouldn't immediately die in so. west wing. aka the alternate timeline where bartlet & santos were the 00s american presidents

(if you want to no pressure) i’m gonna tag @maliro-t @delunesnumberonefan​ @impossibletruths​ @crossroadsghost​ @allthethingamabobs​ @regina-cordium and @girlturnedgamer​. if anyone else wants to please just go ahead and say i tagged you!

#thanks audrey! #this made me wanna break out my old piano and flute books tbh #a talks #ask meme #also. by rough situation with a mutual i mean 'ended up flooding me with 100+ messages a day' jfc #so now the 3 of you who remember my old blog know the sordid tale