#if im being honest i really liked the song

[user2772636]

So American

Oh God, it's just not fair of him

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When your french boyfriend loves to tease you about how "american" you are, you just think you should write a song about it.

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Actor!Joseph Descamps x Singer!Reader

Warnings: none but flufffff

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Joseph Descamps wasn't fond of the fact that "the americans" drove on the right side of the road or that the wheel was on the left side of the car. But you grew up here, and he trusts you.

It helped him relax, knowing what you were wearing. His famous brown leather jacket with an "I ♡ Paris" shirt on the inside. You looked like a tourist in his country, but he guesses you look "trendy" here.

He places his hand on your thigh, and it's warm enough to make you shiver in relaxation.

To you, Joseph Descamps was the dream boyfriend. He's pretty, tall, smart, funny, fashionable, and even more. What you liked most was his accent and the way he speaks his mother tongue. He's almost too perfect, like a man you'd only find in poems.

Every time you cracked a joke, he'd laugh uncontrollably. He understood every one of them, clinging on the words like a ladder.

When he saw an american flag in the back of your car that you hadn't taken out since the fourth of july, he teased you about being so american. You could only roll your eyes, planning on kissing those teasing lips later.

Every time you kissed, it felt like so many emotions filled you up, but you absorbed it in every type of way. It felt so nice, it felt so good. He made you feel like this and only him.

Being honest to yourself, you'd marry the man. Sure, you're young, and sure you've only been together for a year, but you love him, and he loves you.

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You get a call from your producer and long-time best friend, asking if you were free over the week, having come up with an idea for a single.

"Well, I think I do. You know how I've been with Joseph these past few months since my break? Well, he's just so perfect. I mean his fluffy hair, his pretty eyes, his pretty pink lips, and his accent, God, his accent. He's so well read and so well dressed and he-"

"Hun, you're rambling again." Fuck. This is the 5th time.

"Sorry."

Plus, every time you lie on your bed, planning on taking a nap, it's so hard to do when he's literally right beside you, available for kissing and cuddling and loving. You're so in love with the boy you sacrificed your beauty sleep. Imagine that.

Okay, so this might be a bit much a bit too soon. But if love ever came up, he'd be the first in my mind. I haven't said I love you yet, and he hasn't either, but I know deep inside me I do. I really fucking do.

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"Joseph?" He tilts his head up from his paperback, raising his brows.

"Yes, mon ange?" He scoots a bit closer, bringing his arm around my shoulder.

I smile to myself, thinking of a game. "Think of a number."

He smiles back, this game all too familiar for him. "Okay." He pauses. "1, 2, 3..."

"6."

"I love you." I whisper, looking into his eyes from below.

He only stares, lips slowly turning up into a smile.

"I love you, too." He pauses again.

"Je t'aime, mon ange. Je ne peux pas respirer sans toi. Chaque fois que nous sommes séparés, tu es toujours dans mon esprit. Je t'aime, je t'aime, je t'aime." He kisses my lips after every I love you, and my breath stumbles at his confession.

"I don't understand what you're saying!" I laugh, kissing him back on occasion.

"Good." Another kiss. "It's too much for now. Just know I love you." The next kiss lasted longer. It was gentle, it was hungry, it was love.

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When "So American" came out, it hit the charts. Everyone loved it, and everyone supported it.

That's when they started to get the idea you, famous pop singer Y/N L/N, was dating famous french actor, Joseph Descamps.

Well, we'll see how long we can keep it from them.

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2 in a row?!?!??! So crazy rn. Its literally 2 am here and im sweating balls over the summer heat. This is hella short sorry but i wanted this so bad.

#joseph descamps #joseph descamps x reader #mixte1963 #fame au #singer #actor #secret relationship #so american #olivia rodrigo #french men #fluff

[cmdonovann]

LAST DAY OF SHIPS WEEK so i am posting this to SHAME MY HUSBAND INTO FINISHING THE BETH/PAUL FIC HE IS WRITING. jk i love you and you can finish your fanfiction Whenever @chemicalcain but i am too impatient to NOT post this.

anyway. 2006 teen beth flirting with post-fracture paul serene to try to get information out of him is possibly the best excuse to ship them i have ever heard of and i am. obsessed. thank you all for your time

#quantum break #quantum break appreciation month 2024 #paul serene #beth wilder #listen this entire concept may or may not have been my idea in the first place #because ive recently gotten REALLY into age gap power dynamic weirdness in ships #(hence raz and luvo. tbh. if im being completely honest.) #and also because i just really fucking love the song 'dont stand so close to me' lmao #its a vibe! its a mood! that song understands the appeal of teacher/student ships. for real. #also im considering offering amnesty for anyone who wants to submit posts for the week themes like. later in the month. #probably the last few days... #like the 28th and the 29th... #i'll post about that later probably.

[astranauticus]

"Yeh Yung-chih (葉永鋕) [...] attended Gaoshu Junior High School in Pingtung County, Taiwan, and was often bullied by his classmates due to his gender non-conformity. In April 2000, Yeh Yung-chih was found lying in a pool of blood with serious injuries and died after being taken to the hospital. The incident led to extensive discussions about gender equality education in Taiwan."

Translation under cut:

玫瑰少年 - 蔡依林

Womxnly - Jolin Tsai

谁把谁的灵魂 装进谁的身体

Who put which souls into which bodies

谁把谁的身体 变成囹圄囚禁自己

Who turned their bodies into prisons for the self

乱世总是最 不缺耳语

Troubled times are never short of whisperings

哪种美丽会 换来妒忌

What kind of beauty is rewarded with jealousy?

你并没有罪 有罪的是这世界

You did nothing wrong, the wrongs are with this world

生而为人无罪 你不需要抱歉

Nobody is born with sin, you have nothing to apologise for

One day I will be you, baby boy and you gon'be me

喧哗如果不停 让我陪你安静

If the noise won't stop, let me accompany you in silence

I wish I could hug you, till you're really really being free

哪朵玫瑰没有荆棘

What rose is not accompanied by thorns?

最好的 报复是 美丽

Your best revenge is beauty

最美的 盛开是 反击

Your greatest blooms are your retaliation

别让谁去 改变了你

Don't let anyone change who you are

你是你 或是妳 都行

You can be man or woman, it doesn't matter

会有人 全心的 爱你

There will be people who will truly love you

试着想像 you switched to his body

Try to imagine, you switched to his body

Sexuality 当心什么会伤你

Sexuality, be careful of what will hurt you

多少次的重伤 多少次的冷语

How many severe wounds, how many cold words

Drowning 谁会拉你

Who will pull you up when you're drowning?

Dreaming 谁会陪你

Who will be with you when you're dreaming?

Same shit happens every day

你离开后 世界可改变

Has the world changed after you are gone?

多少无知罪愆 事过不境迁

How many ignorant faults are forgotten as the world moves on?

永志不忘纪念 往事不如烟

Never forget Yung-chih, don't let the past fade away

生而为人无罪 你不需要抱歉

Nobody is born with sin, you have nothing to apologise for

One day I will be you, baby boy and you gon'be me

喧哗如果不停 让我陪你安静

If the noise won't stop, let me accompany you in silence

I wish I could hug you, till you're really really being free

哪朵玫瑰没有荆棘

What rose is not accompanied by thorns?

最好的 报复是 美丽

Your best revenge is beauty

最美的 盛开是 反击

Your greatest blooms are your retaliation

别让谁去 改变了你

Don't let anyone change who you are

你是你 或是妳 都行

You can be man or woman, it doesn't matter

会有人 全心的 爱你

There will be people who will truly love you

玫瑰少年 在我心里

The rose youth lives on in my heart

绽放著 鲜艳的 传奇

Blooming into a beautiful legends

我们都 从来没 忘记

That we have never forgotten

你的控诉 没有声音

Your accusations are silent

却倾诉 更多的 真理

Yet they convey greater truths

却唤醒 无数的 真心

Yet they have awoken countless hearts

哪朵玫瑰没有荆棘

What rose is not accompanied by thorns?

最好的 报复是 美丽

Your best revenge is beauty

最美的 盛开是 反击

Your greatest blooms are your retaliation

别让谁去 改变了你

Don't let anyone change who you are

你是你 或是妳 都行

You can be man or woman, it doesn't matter

会有人 全心的 爱你

There will be people who will truly love you

玫瑰少年 在我心里

The rose youth lives on in my heart

玫瑰少年 在我心里

The rose youth lives on in my heart

#womxnly #jolin tsai #mayday #ugly beauty #cpop #cpop translation #chinese langblr #mandarin langblr #translations i made #first time im doing a somewhat bilingual song i hope the formatting makes sense #i was gonna put the spotify links to the jolin tsai and mayday versions of this song but then i found this performance and #idk i was just kinda caught off guard by how. unapologetically queer the background visuals are to be honest #if youre wondering the text in the back at the very end says born as a human without fear #its (i think?) a play on the lyric 生而为人无罪/nobody is born with sin (/born as a human without sin) #anyway inside me there are two wolves and one is desperately holding the other back by the scruff lest i go on another massive rant #about the ways people (presumably cishets) try to make this song like some. generic empowering anti bullying song idk #speaking as an east/southeast asian closeted trans guy like #do you have any idea how much power 'till you're really really being free' has for me #do you have any idea how much power this song has for me in general tbh #like no wonder the straights keep trying to steal this song it hits *so hard* #the entire 'dont you fucking DARE forget' tone of the second verse. like kinda darkly funny in context but god that shits powerful #side note yes i am aware of how clunky the you can be man or woman line sounds #ITS CUZ ENGLISH DOESNT HAVE GENDERED SECOND PERSON PRONOUNS #i mean in fairness nobody actually uses 妳 (female you) on the day to day but here it works SO WELL and im MAD that i couldnt make it work #Youtube

[hella1975]

this isn't meant to like. make you give your opinion on Discourse™️ or anything I just wanted to ask, but I keep seeing people upset about taylor dating mr. 1975 and I can't figure out if it's bc he's a terrible person or just a greasy alcoholic 😭😭😭 do you know what's up with that guy??? like on one hand I like not knowing things about celebs and I should keep it that way. but also

i, unfortunately, do know what's up with that guy and it's that he's said something problematic about every faction of society at least once. for me i have some weird, reluctant fondness for him because he is just a train wreck and he's such a twat all the time that at least it's nondiscriminating, and i also like that when he sings about mental illness it's bc he's actually BEEN THERE and been publicly a mess bc of it and been addicted to drugs and acted like a dick, and he ACKNOWLEDGES THAT, but also at no point am i gonna jump on the 'he's an amazing person' parade bc generally he is just a sleazy idiot. it is weird watching people suddenly dragging up every single thing he's ever said to be like 'look! this is why he's bad for our tay tay!' when the running joke with matty healy is that he's just a prick. like u dont need to expose his moral fibre. u can just say he's a prick. and also as funny as the jokes are she's still a grown woman who's been around the block a few times when it comes to dating. i think she will be okay maybe

#idk that's just what i think though. like he's been cancelled more times than he has songs and yet a lot of us are still here #and he acknowledges it like there's a running gag at his live shows where he goes to say a very explosive sentence and then he gets cut off #by the band with a random song it's so funny. like he'll go 'i just think that immigrants- *LOUD GUITAR*' & i think that's a part of it too #is that a lot of people don't get that sometimes he's being ironic? he takes it too far and these days he's annoying #but idk ive seen certain instances where im like. that went over so many people's heads #idk i just dont think he's Evil and Malicious i think he's just a prick. like people can just be pricks even if they're super famous. wild #he's so fucking pretentious but he got famous for being REAL and his music has helped a lot of people because of how real it was #like i made a post a while ago about his song 'give yourself a try' and how the concept of it is literally #'life is a little bit shit to be quite honest with you and you WILL get fucked over by it and fuck yourself over but you're here anyway #so you might as well give it a go' like???? so many mental health ballads are like 'the world is So Beautiful and So Are You' #but matty healy ALWAYS has gone actually it isnt and you arent. whatever though #and i just really like that #ask #also big disclaimer that i dont have an encyclopedic knowledge of all the dumb shit matty healy has said ive just been listening #to the band for a while and have picked shit up along the way. if it turns out he's done some actually reprehensible shit that ive missed #then that's literally bc i do not actively run in 1975 circles and do not intend to ever start <3 so dont yell at me LMAO

[borderlinegerard]

i hope i die, you broke my heart

#personal #my posts #so fucking tired oh my god #just yelled at my sister so loud that my throat is sore over a piece of fuciing plastic #sometimes ecerytbinf feels so bad and its like. what do i even do #like ok i relapse and i need a break from someone and they loose their fucking shit on me #taljing about how you always deal with my shit and youre tired of how i see you as the worst in the group #as if i didnt literally repeat to you over and over again that i love you and that i always will even when you kept denying it #all of the times youve left all the servers and the gc and all that and i was there to comfort you #theres a reason im always the person you go to #byt yeah . im neverrrr there for you #like is it just that im not there for you in the Same Way that youre there forme ?? #does it need to be completely equal to be fair #and idk. i know hes struggling too but its so fucking stupid because ive been struggling for months and i dont treat u like tjat #im tired of feeling like i have to do two times more than everyone else ro be worthy of their love #like sorry man but im fucking sick and tired #i know ill be fine without you but like youre so sick right now that i dont know what youll do without all of us #idk im just like. you used to be so kind but now youre writing your name in mu blood #and sometimes i feel bad because i didnt mean evedytbinf i said to you but lets be honest #you didnt mean everyrbinf you said either #and i dont know if you were ever the right person because a lot of the time i think we are just two chemicals that werent meant to mix #but ill always remember you when i hear that one song and im making it sound like this is some kind if goodbye but it Really isnt #but like there was a time when i would tear myself apart for you. mot even because i liked you that much #i guess i just wanted someone that liked me as much as you did??? #and when j say that it isnt even about one soecific oerson. its an amalgamation of ecery person tgat has ever loved me #a little more than they were supposed to #i think i hate ahen people love me Too Much because i dont want to be adored like that it scares me #iknow what thats like and i dont want to be someone fp Its so scary #okay if im being honest i dont know whbat the fuck im saying right mow #byt like. idk. im tired and i think im done. tbh

[batdorable]

i honestly dont mind queen haterism they kind of deserve it but like, i have not been able to get over this person in an article i read calling bohemian rhapsody a '5:55 monstrosity' as if five minutes and fifty-five seconds is some comical length for a song

#if im being honest i dont understand why people dont like long songs #its not a problem if they dont i just dont really get it

[benevolentslut]

(bit of a dark meta post here but)

if i had to pick a single song to represent ruby rose as a character, it would be My R (specifically the version by annapantsu)

like... it's a song about a girl, who goes up to a rooftop with the intent of jumping off. When she's up there, she finds another girl preparing to do the same, and after hearing her out, actually manages to talk her out of it, while internally wondering why this girl could possibly think her reasons are better for this than her own. they both come down from the roof.

she goes up again another day, and the same scenario happens, and she feels the same about it again. but they both come down together.

this happens again and again, time after time, with so many people, and every single time she talks them out of it, coming down with them, then returning another day to find someone else. and every time there's a nagging feeling of, "would anyone do this for me if I got here first?"

until one day... there is no one else up there. she's up there, on her own, with nothing to stop her, and she immediately starts wrestling with her feelings, wondering if she actually wants to go through with it, and then deciding, Yes, she wants to.

now the ending of the song can be interpreted multiple ways, some less hopeful than others, but I think the one that applies best to ruby is that the girl suddenly sees herself in all of the people she's stopped before, suddenly essentially thinks "there doesn't need to be anyone to do this for me, I can do it myself, for myself" and.. turns around at the last second, leaving her plans to jump behind, and moving forward.

and on top of all of that, the song is extremely upbeat, and sounds very cheerful if you don't listen to the lyrics. Much like ruby, hiding her own fears behind a wall of optimism and hope that she shows to others, that makes her into such a beacon of light to everyone around her. To everyone but herself.

In the beginning of the series, she's a limitless source of hope and determination, fuelling herself and everyone around her onwards and upwards. Until volume 4. She desperately tried to never let on to anyone else, but the fall of beacon deeply affected her. When penny died, so did so much of ruby's trust in herself to be the hero. She still had her hope, and she still had her attitude of "let's do the best we can", but that very slowly started to be for everyone else's benefit, and that difference became more and more apparent as the show went on.

Volume 8 was the tipping point for her, and all of her hope and trust in herself was hinging on - A, protecting the relics. B, saving atlas. C, saving penny. and D, warning remnant enough to prepare them.

And then... they fell. And in the ever after, she had no way of knowing what was going on in their own world anymore, except what RWBYJ collectively knew already. And what did the group know as a whole? They had no idea whether B or D had succeeded, but they knew for a fact that A and C had failed. And so, with penny dying Again, so too did the rest of ruby's hope.

Volume 9 is her, up on the rooftop, with no one to stop her.

#suicide tw #rwby #rwby meta #ruby rose #i'll be honest. listening to the song i find it hard to interpret the ending that way. idk if that's just my brain but /shrug #it does feel very v9 c8/9/10 though #get ruby rose a therapist and a hug please #also if i'm 100% honest. #the ending of v9 did feel a little *too* optimistic for her. like i'm so glad she's okay!! #and the blacksmith undoubtedly helped her to realise she'd been holding herself to an impossible standard #and helped restore so much of her faith in herself! #im entirely happy with her returning the way she did and the way she went back to remnant ready to face the world again #but just. i really hope the show doesn't act like THAT MUCH guilt and fear and self-doubt and loathing #can just completely disappear after one therapy session. even if that session is being run by god herself #like it's not like i want her to get held down by it again. and definitely not to the same degree. that would just be like v9 never happene #she's grown from her time in the ever after and i fully believe she'll be able to make it through #but just. it has to still be there. it has to be acknowledged #crwby please don't act like ascension completely fixed ruby. #it helped her and it definitely helped enough that she won't fall back into the exact same feelings as throughout v9 #but it has to be acknowledged.

[totentnz]

sometimes i think to myself "v does too many things you need to shave some off" but then i remember that (obviously) you start of as a somewhat new merc (even though streetkid v can tell kerry thats what they have been doing their entire life) and with them being 27 years old there is plenty of time to pick up many hobbies and have many different jobs and just have experience with a lot of things so im good

#sammy says shit #listen my v is the epitome of jack of all trades master of none #like yeah she was in a band and knows some instruments (not enough to say they play it but she can play her fave songs on the drums) #she had many different jobs (waiting tables tech repairs etc etc) #she knows how to dance (she REALLY likes that one) #she can sew (not like make clothes from scratch but repair clothing and stuff + being punk also gives you proficency with it LMAO) #she dyes and cuts her own hair #has the audacity to think that owning a tattoo gun means she can tattoo #maybe did some of her piercings (punk again) #etc etc #i know it sounds like a lot but honestly? at the age of 27 not that crazy #unless im delusional feel free to give me some honest feedback here

[qeyond]

Youtube | Spotify

CW abuse/trauma/ptsd. It's a pretty raw song (both in lyrics and the way Black Dresses preforms their songs) so listen at your own discretion.

This song really speaks so honestly to the deeply self-destructive spiralling for B, in my opinion. Speaking politeness through your gritted teeth with a lying softness, boiling over, letting it out, feeling it on your bared, snarling teeth, breathing out smoke, "is it me? am I the problem? am I the evil monster?", "its always been me", spitting up blood, biting the hand that feeds and ripping them the fuck to shreds to be left alone.

Lyrics under the cut.

Why thank you for your opinion What you think is so important So let's talk this out i love it You're so funny i hope you're doing well Thank god for the tongue in your mouth I'm so happy i'm so lucky I get to do whatever i can be myself But you know what? I have zero tolerance for Bad little shitheads Who only seem to fuck around

Same shit different day You need to fuck off you need to go away I don't wanna talk about it That's all that I came to say Get out of my space You worthless fucking fuckface

Who the fuck do you think you are? Who the fuck do you think you are? Who the fuck do you think you are? Who the fuck do you think you are?

Hey bitch, what the fuck's going on? Is this how you wanna spend the Last few years of your life? Of your life? The last few years your legacy Your legacy your legacy your

You can hide out in your tiny little lair You can be the fucking evil monster terror Scared you can be the evil monster It was always you it was always you It was always you it was always you It was always you

It was always something I couldn't be That was just outside reality It was always something I couldn't know That I didn't know that I shouldn't show Because everything around me Felt just like a bad dream It was all or nothing Be the kind of person you hate or be

Hated for the things that you Thought were common sense Just a little further One day it will make sense Hold yourself a little tighter Your innocence

Preyed upon and vilified by Your blood and friends

Who am I if I can't assign a Name and place to what this is? Everything that's mine feels rotten from The touch of it everything all the time is a Message that I shouldn't be Who the fuck are you? Stay the fuck away from me

I want to love myself but Memories are killing me I want to live but all the years That came before won't let me be I want to love myself but Memories are killing me I want to live but all the years That came before won't let me be I want to love myself but Memories are killing me I want to live but all the years That came before won't let me be I want to love myself but Memories are killing me Memories are killing me Memories are killing me it hurts

#q music #trigger warning #abuse #ptsd #trauma #assault #im not really sure what to tag this cuz it can be a genuinely very triggering piece. so please genuinely just tread lightly #anyway ive actually had this in my drafts for 2 months and been sitting on it but listened to this song again and just fucking christ- #i just love it so much im so upset black dresses probably wont be making music anymore because of harassment cuz their work is SO HONEST!!! #anyway uhm this song is so deeply B-core #your 'legacy' your 'legacy' YOUR 'LEGACY' YOUR- #i genuinely ALWAYS feel so nervous to share such obviously deeply emotional and trauma-based songs or art and being like 'hehe my blorbo' #because I KNOW how that looks and I know how deeply that feels like im making light of it or making it an Aesthetic. cuz yall dont know me #and thats okay. thats just how it is i dont expect ppl to know me or my intentions through and through #but I really really hope people understand that my doing posts like this is very much coming from a place where its For Me too #like i deeply connected to this song so wrapping it up and giving that to B makes me feel not so bad <3 #B is my lil guy that I dump my problems on and we hug each other as the storm passes over us both and then we're okay again #B kinnies and fictives and lovers we're all holding hands from knowing and I love you deeply #i have a MILLION thoughts on this for B. like i could write you a whole novel about this song but also iykyk. and thats just for Us. #so anyway im over explaining myself as always ah. I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS SONG AS DEEPLY AS I DO <3 #if i was going to make a new amv for B I would use this song. but im retired and the idea of trying to find a cracked sony vegas hurts me #LOL #also this is ok to reblog and/or interact with if youd like <3

[pilotstreets]

sometimes i remember that i've been a fan of twenty one pilots since i was 11 and just get so emotional over it

#i've literally grown up with twenty one pilots it's insane #like i can't articulate all my thoughtd about it but the fact i went from being 11 and listening to a song #my brother liked that always annoyed me to being me now and just being consumed by this music #when i say twenty one pilots literally changed the trajectory of my life im not even kidding #i would be soso different without them and tbh i dont really want to know myself without twenty one pilots #i need to go to bed but this is just floating in my brain and if i think about it anymore i WILL cry #basically it's 1 am and im emotional over the pilots again #honest to god i think i've heard tylers voice more than i've heard almost anyone in my lifes voice #other than my mom. and maybe my dad #ok. that's enough rambling in the tags. goodnight every1 i love u #;malls;

[sideblogdotjpeg]

im so glad youre getting into naddpod i love it so fucking much. i love seeing ur d20 artwork and posts in general so seeing u get into naddpod is very !!! :D

!!! THANK YOU!! and YEAH i am soo slowly and steadily making my way through the bahumia campaign and i am IN LOVE. band of boobs my beloved

#ON EPISODE FORTY RN #anyway nadpodd is gonna convert me into a long-campaign enjoyer #and IM SO IN LOVE WITH ALL THE PLAYERS #beverly is soo funny. he is like. half split between being the best most cutest good boy anf being pelors mpst holy terror of a child #(ALWAYS thibking about his meow moment being in the same episode he humps a corpse. he spent this entire episode trying to jump into a #giant's ear and pretending to be his conscience. LOVE) #seeing the evolution of hardwon is SO COOL. like he literally starts of as suuuch a jon snow but then like really quickly gets into #the dnd sillies vibe. rlly amazing watching the transprmation of coolguy hardwon surefoot and knowing his destination (divorceguy henry) #(also also ill luck henry song of ALL time. whatever not this campaign) #anyway. i think its really cool to see where hes at right now. like its a very good mix of loser and cool. where all dnd characyers shld be #but yeah. frostwind arc is soo good. like jake is literally roleplaying his heart out and its rlly cool to see him take like #the emotional focus of the arc i think #^_^ and MOONSHINE. <<<3333333333333 #idk man. wmily is just like. shes so good. at making pcs. like its just awe inspiring #i cant even talk aboit it. like thats just my real life friend moonshine cybin #i rlly get it when people say emily inhabits her character. shes sooo good at it. like. she just IS moonshine #O_O also . man just being honest. literally there is no character better than like. swamp hick with a massive rack #its just. its rlly good #also murph is so cool. he intimidates me #like im starting dming and hearing murpj do it in just like O_O wow um... hes so cool.... hes... hes so cool.... #murph baddest bitch ever. also when he does paw paws little rar rarrrr rarr. sick #wait sorry. ive been talking about naddpod to much #i could go on for a whole nother fofty tags #anyway. umm i like naddpod #i hope i get to post some art soon #asks

[red-dyed-sarumane]

okay so i need u to remember that text from marshall maximizer thats something like if u cant prove ur acting if ur own volition and doing things for urself then u cant prove ur a person. okay. important detail there.

unplanned apoptosis, fittingly named but ill get to that in a second, this girls been pushed one step too far & shes handling it so awfully.

we know something in particular happened thats shes acting like this & im willing to bet it's about the angel from oumen mokushiroku & the sacrifice thats mentioned several times but thats another theory. its not just the whole repeating end of the world its something else in particular that really sets her off. though i think she wasnt the best person before this song anyway. this one thing really affects her & she just doesnt want to do this anymore. but she also knows about the "person" vs "thing" concept & she knows if she just dies normally she'll have to keep going anyway. and she knows she has to pass that point of being "herself" & no longer be a "person" if she doesnt want to continue anymore. hence the title that seems contradictory. its not. she didnt plan for this to happen but now that it did she's going to destroy herself in anyway she can so she doesnt have to live with it anymore.

i think thats why this song uses jibun rather than jiga like laboratory does. both being a sense of self. but the laboratory character doesnt want to die. apoptosis does. but she can only do that if she kills herself in every sense. acting out, excessive lying, causing problems, anything that goes against who she is as a person, destroying who she is entirely so she doesnt have to suffer anymore.

but it'll never work. everyone else who lost their "self" has the context of mostly working so hard towards their goal they forgot who they were in the process. maybe forgot isnt the right word but its that type of concept. laboratory, ignoring certain data or whatever, trying to reach that end shes so hoping for or the exchange in maximizer about the person doing their job, but being able to do that job even if it helps doesnt mean anything about the humanity of said person. theyre just working towards whatever goal whatever means possible & thats what costs them everything. but THIS GIRL is actively going against all of it. shes making the decision to step out of line, to mostly if not entirely give up on her job & trying to save anyone, all to give herself some relief. and the thing about that is thats her own will. by doing that she's keeping the last threads shes trying to get rid of. going like this she might never get the end she wants.

and THAT. the having to live with whatever loss set her off in the first place, being forced to continue because she's still a person, even after she's destroying herself and character to break free, THATS why it ends with such distress the whole "how the hell cant you all see it? today ended as usual" after EVERYTHING all shes lost & ruined. it all means nothing. it changes nothing. & that just really get me

#aru sekai series #that and the several times it mentions different words for like crying out #ough. girl come here ur getting a hug #i dont think she'd accept a hug but she needs one and im going to give her one #AWFUL person but i love her for it #u also have to remember her songs from her perspective & shes not very honest at times #so to quote that one tumblr post dont fall for the front she puts up #also i think i THINK shes part of the reason tenshi got sacrificed but she didnt really know it would be /her/ sacrificed #i think theres some level of guilt going on there even though its obviously not directly stated #like from the level of panic and other things like the little admissions of being a liar and selfish #i think those are proof that on some level she really does care but she'll die before she ever shows that #u know.... #i have no idea if this makes any sense but god. i wamt to help her so bad she doesnt deserve all this

[apathyfairy]

the 1975 is dropping a new album in october and then arctic monkeys are dropping a new album one week later it’s like september 2013 all over again 

#im shaking im so excited like all i need is for lorde to drop a GOOD album a week after am and then september 2013 pt 2 is complete #on the topic of lorde.. well lots of things but 1 the video of her shushing everyone singing at the show.....i died #2. very controversial but.......i dont like solar power and if im being so honest pls dont cancel me i didnt really like melodrama either.. #like as an album obviously there are some good songs but also some i dont like tbh. pure heroine my beloved and all but like idk ive said #this before but i think pure heroine just came out in the right time in my life for me to be like that's it. that's her best album nothing #will ever top it bc i know most people feel that way about melodrama like absolutely NO disrespect to the melodrama girlies it just wasnt #for me i think. like in general i think i was just in a weird place at the time i came out that i was like eh. but idk. anyway #the 1975 and am 1 week apart again is MORE than i could ever ask for guess i'll just go insane in october then

[love-fireflysong]

Got back from my super fun concert last night where I got to see not one, not two, but FOUR bands live! Which also means that I came home with a fun amount of merch! ....For me at least, got one item from each band whereas I was watching other people leave with like i stg the entire shirt/sweater collection from their favourite bands fhdjdlsbd

Anyways, the bands that I got to see were:

Escape the Fate

Hollywood Undead

Falling in Reverse

and Papa Roach

God the night was so fun and my throat hurt from screaming for like 5 straight hours. Totally worth it and I'm so glad that I decided to go 🤘

#Not pictured are two cds i also bought #But those were just the newest albums for both papa roach and hollywood undead #And at $20 each thats a pretty normal price for a new album here so those dont even count as merch imo #As everyone can probably tell though i def went for cool designs on shirts over actual tour ones #Which means that the hollywood undead one is actually my least fav of the bunch lol #Both for saving the simplist design and the cheapest basic ass tshirt fabric they could have gotten #Like that shit is the basic ass gildan brand and i would know #Still gonna wear it though causd its not an umcomfortable shirt by any means its just doesnt feel as nice or soft #But god last night only got me more excited for may when i actually get to see disturbed! #Like for these four bands i only knew a handful of songs really well #And while i knew two of them fairly well #I was only tangentially familiar with the other two #But i know disturbed's entire discography by heart #But if im being honest this really just convinced me to go ahead and buy those tickets for metallica in august when i get paid next #Which im not even gonna buy for metalloca hilariously enough #Im gonna get them solely cause i *really* want to see their openers over them #Which for those curious are ice nine kills and five finger death punch #This does mean that my concerts for this year are up a full 300% than usual #Cause ignoring a small one i went to go and see just after easter last year #My last concerts where shania twain and keith urban like ten years ago when i still lived in saskatchewan fhdkdlxhdjd

[hella1975]

got the train today and this lad sitting opposite me had never taken a train in the uk before so he asked me a couple questions and i showed him how to get the app up to track the route better and we wound up just kind of chatting the entire ride because it turned out he's a student in the same city as me and it was a bit awkward not just because we were complete strangers but because we were both struggling with each other's accents (he only moved from india a few months ago and his english wasn't completely fluent yet and i have an accent that is notoriously bad for foreign-speakers because it's v slang heavy and words/letters blend together and NOTHING gets enunciated so we were both going back and forth with it a bit) but we both just repeated/reworded things when necessary and we chatted for the entire hour and then afterwards he offered me his umbrella and to walk me home and i said no both bc i'd just met him and i didn't want him to get the wrong idea but still we both waved and laughed at each other bc of the rain when we went our seperate ways and yeah. it was just v nice

#he lived on a farm back in india and he was showing me pictures of the baby cows it was amazing #and i showed him pictures of the lambs we used to take care of #and yeah it was kind of awkward just bc of how often we were having to repeat ourselves/ask the other to repeat #but it was just nice that we were both like. trying? idk it was just a very honest human interaction #where yeah there were barriers to communication but we still wound up showing each other pics of baby animals lmao #and he was a first year at uni too and he said at one point that he's struggling with it bc it's hard to make friends #and generally it's quite lonely #and i was like OH I KNOW THIS SONG like that was my LIFE in first year #bc regrettably loneliness seems to be the universal first year emotion without added struggles like being alone in a foreign country #so i was just giving him advice and trying to reassure him and shit it was just very sweet #and he gave me a can of coke? LMAO slay #im glad it happened which is saying something bc i LOVE my train journeys i love listening to my music and zoning the fuck out #so when he started talking to me i was initially like can we NOT but the moment i stopped being a hardass and gave up on my music #it was actually really chill #hella goes to uni

[iwasntplanningonlikingkpop]

My Top 10 K-Pop Songs of 2022

If you're curious about my top 10 non-k-pop songs of 2022 check them out here!!!

RUN2U By Stayc

Forever 1 By Girl's Generation

After Like By Ive

Heart Burn By Sunmi

Chiquita By Rocket Punch

Antifragile By Le Sserafim

Attention By NewJeans

Copycat By Apink Chobom

Eye To Eye By Limelight

Higher By Fifty Fifty

English Release Honorable Mention: Pom Pom By Rocking Doll

I'm tagging: @shyirefly @backtodaydreams @beomieotter @thatadorkablegirl @hinataek @prettywordsyouleft @aigoo-exo @arzehh @orbityyxy also anyone else who sees this im also tagging you! and of course none of you have to do this but it would be nice if you did!!!

#the honorable mention i didnt know if i should just put it on the other list #since it is in english but its by a kpop group #but thinking about it being fully honest i dont think it could compete with the songs on that list imo #but i still really liked the song and wanted to mention it #i hesitate to put really new songs on this list like i thought about adding Limbo by Nature but didnt for that reason #but Higher by Fifty Fifty also came out around the same time #but i have high expectations for this group and i feel like its a song ill like for a long time #oh i didnt explain but thats why i hesitate to put new songs on here #like some songs have all year to go from faves to songs i dont listen too #so i like to remember ones that i loved through a good part of the year #but with songs that are new i have less time with it to see where it ends up #but again i have high hopes that i will like this song for a long time #and plus to be a new song im so obsessed with i feel compelled to put it on here is pretty good on its own #but it is still in the last spot #Eye to Eye is also pretty new but same as Higher im just really into the songs and think ill like it long term #the top song was so easy to pick tho #its been one of my favorites all year and it came out way at the start so pretty impressive but i wouldnt expect less from stayc #i just realized their isnt a single boy group lmao trust me its not on poupous #but i think got7 was the only boy group (and male soloist) i even considered for this list they just didnt make the cut #tho if im honest im struggling to think of any other boy groups ive really listened to this year (like new songs) #also not to be a fake fan but im sorry their is no loona song ill blame it on the current loona boycott #but in reality i think i just liked all these songs more then anything loona released this year #like for sure if i got to 20 songs of the year theyd make it but not with just ten #my post