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stoopsbookstore · 5 years

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Study Me (One-Shot Smut)

Synopsis - Yuta always tried his best to fluster and tease Y/N for years, that's what two close friends do, right? He seizes his opportunity to test the waters with how far he can go with the teasing when Johnny has to call out of a study session.

Warnings - Sexual Content, Fingering, Public teasing, Clothed sex, Unprotected sex, fucking on a desk, Porn with some plot

Yuta threw a piece of candy at his friend, Y/N, sitting at the table next to him and his other friends, attempting to get her nose out of the book she found more interesting.

"Hey, Y/N. Come over here and talk to me for a bit," Yuta bit his lip as the girl spared him a single glance, "all you do is study, study, study all day long."

"Because some of us are actually here to study and not to fuck around with friends."

"We can do both," Yuta flashed his signature smile as Johnny, Jaemin and Taeil snickered at his failure at flirting."

"I'm not interested right now. Maybe someday," Y/N shurged as she begun to pack up her computer.

Yuta's eyebrows lifted when she said right now, but his facial expression dropped when he heard the next sentence.

"Johnny, you're still up for the study session tomorrow, right?"

"Actually, I meant to tell you, I have to work on my engine and I made an appointment to talk to my consouler about my class-"

"I can do it," Yuta's gummy smille was back, seeing the chance to get Y/N alone as she gathered her materials, "I am the smartest one after Johnny. What subject is it?"

Y/N sighed, realizing that her grade is more important than her distaste for flirting and she can handle it for a few hours, "World History 221. I'll be in study room 602 upstairs at 3, please don't be late."

As Y/N left, Yuta put his arms up in triumph.

"You act as if you're getting laid," Jaemin threw a ball of paper at Yuta, swatting it away from his face.

"For all you know, I could," Yuta flipped off the younger male as he slammed his book shut, smiling at the study "date" he has.

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"Columbus sailed the ocean blue in year 1492. Okay?" Yuta highlighted Y/N's notes, "little things like that can help you."

"Yeah, Johnny taught me that," Y/N placed her arm on the desk, laying as she yawned, throwing her pen at the wall of the small room, "he also slaughtered a bunch of people, brought over a bunch of diseases and called native Americans 'Indians.' He wasn't even the first one to discovered America."

Yuta chuckled as he tried to resist the urge to stare at Y/N's chest, the school tie being the perfect accessory, falling right behind her breasts. Yuta licked his lip as he shook his head, going back to the lesson.

"So, if Johnny taught you that, what has he taught you so I don't go over it again?"

"He stopped there, we don't really study, we just goof off and fool around," Y/N flipped through the pages of her textbook, "he only tutors me for the money."

"What do you mean by fool around," Yuta was highlighting important information for Y/N to study later, hiding the curious jealously in his face well.

"Not fool around as in 'fool around,' we just don't study. My parents offered him 50 dollars every tutor session. He's trying to save up for a new engine in his shitmobile."

"Oohhh," Yuta leaned forward, pretending to be more interested in the textbook, putting his arm around Y/N as he pointed to a paragraph, "you were right. He called the native Americans 'Indians' because he felt that he landed in India."

"He really was a dumbass," Y/N noticed the arm around her, leaning more into him as she begun to sense a flirty tone in his actions.

"Let's do a little quiz," Yuta used his free hand, locking the door to the small area as the hand that was on Y/N's shoulder moved to her thighs, "you get it wrong, I move my hand further away."

Y/N scoffed, the tension in the tint study room getting higher and higher as she handed her note cards over, "okay."

"Who helped John Smith navigate throughout his journey in America?"

"Pocahontas, and it wasn't the cutesy love story Disney made it out to be."

Yuta's hands moved closer to Y/N's center, "Good. Who lost at the battle of Waterloo?"

"Napoleon?"

"Perfect," An inch further up, Yuta's hand was now under Y/N's skirt, "What is France's Independence Day called?"

"July fourteenth," Y/N subtly moaned out, mentally hitting herself as she repeated the question to Yuta.

Yuta withdrew his hand a bit, "I asked what it is called, not when it is."

Y/N touched his wrist, lightly dragging her fingers up his arms as he saw her start to get frustrated. Yuta wanted to see how long it would take her to snap, but it didn't take much longer.

"One more question, what is the name o-"

Y/N leaned into Yuta's ear, moaning "please finger me. Knowing there's a chance we might get caught is making me so wet."

Yuta had the green light, he moved Y/N's underwear aside, inserting two fingers. A tight fit, but a very welcomed one based on Y/N's reaction. Y/N begun to move herself against his fingers as he moved his hand over his pants, a poor attempt at some relief. Yuta leaned over to kiss Y/N, the small space not allowing for much movement. Yuta inserted another finger, Y/N leaning down to put her face in his neck, covering her moans as she begun to feel her high coming.

"Such a good girl, but so naughty as to let me finger her. What if a teacher came in and saw me licking my fingers clean, your skirt messed up and your fucked out expression? Jaemin and Taeil would flip, cream their pants on the spot if they saw you like this. They talk and stare at you so much," The dirty talk in Y/N's ear ringing out from Yuta encouraging her orgasm more, "so gorgeous, so hot, I'll take you on an actual date soon."

Y/N placed her hand on top of Yuta's, pushing it gently as he begun to use his thumb to rub her clit. Y/N still leaning on Yuta's shoulder humped his hand as she started to shiver from her high, her eyes focused on her messy skirt as Yuta's fingers worked his magic. Y/N placed her free hand on Yuta's thigh, gripping it with her nails as she finished, his fingers soaked and her breathing attempting to go back to normal.

"Good girl," Yuta bought his fingers up to his mouth, sucking them clean as Y/N fixed her skirt, slipping her underwear off and sliding them into his pocket, "For me?"

"If Jaemin and Taeil were looking at me the way you said they were, might as well give them a show," Y/N fixed her hair as the boy chuckled, "but they can only look, not touch."

Yuta got into a comfortable position, placing his hand on the back of Y/N's head as he brought her closer for a hungry kiss.

"What about you?" Y/N rubbed Yuta's thigh.

"I'll be fine. A bit in pain, but I'll be fine," the boy winked as he rubbed his crotch, "I plan on taking a shower when I get home anyway. Let's finish this lesson, shall we?"

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As he was walking through the library, Yuta saw Y/N talking to Johnny in the library, hidden between two bookcases, running to put his hand around her waist. Her expression when he did so was a look of subtle terror as she moved his arm off, Johnny sensing the awkwardness between the two.

"Uh, Should I ask?" Johnny raised an eyebrow in confusion.

"No, but I should," Yuta looked at Y/N as she stared at the floor.

"Uhmm, I'll see you two later, thanks for the money, Y/N."

After Johnny escaped the awkward field of tension, Yuta spun Y/N around to face him and question why she is acting like he had the plague.

"What was that about?"

"Nothi-"

"That wasn't nothing."

"I just figured we're not actually together and maybe yestersay was a mista-"

"What the fuck do you mean by a mistake?"

"I didn't mean a mistake like th-"

"How the hell else do you mean what we did was a mistake?" Yuta tried to keep his voice hushed, they don't need any attention drawn to them.

"I meant like we've known each other for years and I'm fine with being friends and the whole teasing each other and honestly, yes I want to fuck you senseless, but maybe not in a 4 by 4 study room with barely enough space for me to suck your dick."

Yuta was stunned at the confession that blurted out of the prim and proper Y/N as she pulled him in by his tie for a kiss. Yuta pushed her a little bit forcibly against a bookcase as he reached under her skirt, cupping her ass.

"That's a study room that no one uses because the wifi is shit, let's go," Y/N pulled away from the kiss, fixing her skirt and yanking Yuta as inconspicuously as she could out of the library.

They ran down the stairs to the basement study room. Yuta stopped Y/N to push her against the wall, grabbing her breasts as she rolled her head back, reaching for his bulge. Yuta dropped to his knees and kissed Y/N's clothed center over her skirt, trying to pull it down. Y/N placed her hands in his hair, pulling it up softly as she guided him up for a gentle kiss.

"It's one more flight of stairs, you can wait, right?"

Yuta groaned as he rubbed his crotch to relieve some of the pain, "I think I can."

They flew down the stairs and up the hallway as they saw the lonely study room, it's well kept, but the wifi issue makes class nearly impossible.

As soon as the two barged into the room, Yuta slammed the door, locking it behind him, as Y/N took her lace blue boy shorts from under her skirt, throwing them in Yuta's direction. Yuta lunged towards the girl, biting her neck as he started to unbutton his shirt.

"Seeing you in that plaid skirt with that white shirt, watching Taeil and Jaemin stare at you the way they were. Give me your tie," Yuta led Y/N to a desk, the girl sitting on top of it as she undid her school tie, handing it to Yuta, "you deserve the best, but right now, I'm going to give you the worst."

Y/N unbuttoned her shirt, sliding it down her arms, but before she could take it off, Yuta repositioned it back on her shoulders and tying her hands together.

"Oh no, if I'm fucking you, I'm fucking you in that outfit. So everyday you wear it, you think of me and only me."

Yuta leaned down, pushing Y/N's skirt up, ravaging her as he gathered her essence with his tongue. His hands reached for her breasts as she placed her tied hands in his hair, yanking at the dirty blonde strands.

"Not right now. Please fuck me!" Y/N almost shouted as she tugged on his hair even more, signaling Yuta to come up and bring her in for a messy kiss.

Yuta removed his belt as Y/N threw her tied hands over his head and around his neck. Yuta pulled his pants, rolling his clothed erection into Y/N as she threw her head back.

"Probably should've asked this before we got all hot and bothered," Yuta pulled out his cock, placing it near Y/N's entrance, "but do you have any pr-"

Y/N placed her legs on Yuta's hips, encouraging him to ravish her, "I have the arm implant, I'm fine. Just please give me your cock."

Yuta pushed into Y/N as she wrapped her legs around his body. His thrusts were sharp, not really following any rhythm, the desk under the couple was moving in time with the boy's thrust. Y/N's moans and the sound of skin slapping together was the only sound echoing in the room. Yuta used one of his hands to move Y/N's bra off her chest, revealing her harden nipples as Yuta cupped one of her breasts, marking up the other one with his love bites.

The pleasure started to erupt in Y/N, her moans getting more high-pitched. Yuta kept his head in Y/N's breasts, motorboating them as he used his free hand to reach between the two, stimulating Y/N's clit.

"Jump down, turn around," Yuta pulled out as Y/N bent over the desk, "all mine. So perfect."

Before Yuta continued his thrusts, he leaned down, flipping up Y/N skirt and biting her asscheek, a yelp emerging from her lips. His cock invaded her as he begun his thrusts again. Y/N leaned up on her elbows as Yuta reached for her breasts, tugging on her nipples as she started to shudder. Yuta's thrust started to become more messy as he started to cum. Freeing one of his hands, Yuta reached for Y/N's clit as she continued to fuck herself on his cock.

Her orgasm came, her body shaking from the pleasure as Yuta held her close to her, his chest coming in contact with her back. He pulled out, reaching into her bag for a wipe, only finding some makeup remover.

"It's a makeup wipe, but it's better than nothing," Yuta gently wiped away the cum that dripped on Y/N's thighs, throwing it away in the closest trash can.

Yuta sat down on the seat as Y/N turned around, sitting on his lap, legs hanging off the side, as he lingered his fingers on her arm. Y/N and Yuta sat together in silence, enjoying each other's company.

"What are we now? Still friends?" Yuta asked Y/N, who was about to fall asleep in his arms.

"I wouldn't be mad if we were toget-"

"Do you think they're in here?" A voice that sounded like Taeil could be heard through the door.

Yuta smirked at Y/N as she calmed down in his arms, her hands resting on his waist, "Yes, now go fuck off!"

The only thing they heard was 3 pairs of feet running down the hallway.

"So," Yuta continued to stroke Y/N's arm as her eyes were fluttering close, her head on his chest.

"How about that date?"

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motherfucker-somewhat-limited · 5 years

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1: Name

Sarah

2: Age

3: Fears

Everything, I have anxiety

4: 3 things I love

Dogs, weird movies, sunsets over water

5: 4 turns on

Long hair, facial piercings, good sense of humor, back muscles

6: 4 turns off

Poor hygiene, rude to service workers, adults who are still obsessed with Disney to the point where they make it a personality trait, Trump supporters (or the equivalent in other countries)

7: My best friend

@wanderingwondererofthings

8: Sexual orientation

Bi? I think? IDK not straight tho

9: My best first date

I’ve only ever been on one date in my life and the dude ghosted me afterward which turned out to be a blessing bc it was not a good time in my life to try to start a relationship

10: How tall am I

5′2″

11: What do I miss

Mental stability

12: What time were I born

3:45 am or thereabouts

13: Favourite color

black

14: Do I have a crush

celebrity crushes but I don’t really count those

15: Favourite quote

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

16: Favourite place

bundled up under a heap of blankets by myself in a dark room with good snacks and a good book/movie

17: Favourite food

chocolate

18: Do I use sarcasm

do i

19: What am I listening to right now

my housemate doing laundry

20: First thing I notice in new person

what they’re wearing

21: Shoe size

womens 7

22: Eye color

brown

23: Hair color

brown

24: Favourite style of clothing

love that goth shit

25: Ever done a prank call?

not that i can remember

26: Meaning behind my URL

adam darski’s true form

27: Favourite movie

Ink (2009) dir. jamin winans

28: Favourite song

UHHHHHHHHHHH

29: Favourite band

Eluveitie

30: How I feel right now

like shit lol

31: Someone I love

My friends

32: My current relationship status

single

33: My relationship with my parents

it’s good and i’m very grateful

34: Favourite holiday

the day after halloween when all the candy goes on sale

35: Tattoos and piercing I have

none

36: Tattoos and piercings I want

seriously considering getting my eyebrow pierced soon. if I ever cut my hair short i’ll pierce my ears

37: The reason I joined Tumblr

to follow an art blog that made amazing JTHM fan art

38: Do I and my last ex hate each other?

what ex

39: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?

yeah from my mom

40: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?

yeah it was my mom

41: When did I last hold hands?

yesterday with my grandma

42: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

takes me well over an hour to actually get up but then like 3o minutes tops

43: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?

44: Where am I right now?

in my room

45: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

i’ve never been that drunk because i hate hangovers

46: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

reasonable level unless i’m at a concert

47: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?

not anymore

48: Am I excited for anything?

sexy eggman is coming to san francisco

49: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

50: How often do I wear a fake smile?

basically whenever i have to talk to strangers

51: When was the last time I hugged someone?

yesterday

52: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

my mom is allowed to kiss other people it’s okay

53: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

i don’t think so?

54: What is something I disliked about today?

i’m tired of being tired

55: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

my soulmate

56: What do I think about most?

spirals of existential dread

57: What’s my strangest talent?

I have no talents lol

58: Do I have any strange phobias?

going down stairs. i’m fine going up them but going down them freaks me out

59: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

depends on my mood and whether or not i’m ugly that day

60: What was the last lie I told?

“I’m okay”

61: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

In person or don’t fucking talk to me

62: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

yes and yes

63: Do I believe in magic?

idk. i believe there’s things that happen that we can’t explain yet so maybe that’s magic

64: Do I believe in luck?

i believe in good chances

65: What’s the weather like right now?

dark

66: What was the last book I’ve read?

The Habitation of the Blessed by Catherynne Valente

67: Do I like the smell of gasoline?

yes as long as i don’t have a headache or stomachache

68: Do I have any nicknames?

just dumb shit my mom calls me

69: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?

worst acute injury was the time i tripped onto an outdoor heater in kindergarten and burned the shit out of my hand. i also have a stress fracture in my spine that will never heal from gymnastics but that happened over a matter of years

70: Do I spend money or save it?

i try to save but i spend a little too much

71: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?

with a tongue? yes. with my tongue? no

72: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?

my fluffy pillow

73: Favourite animal?

take a wild fucking guess

74: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

trying unsuccessfully to sleep

75: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

Columbus

76: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

That Time of the Month by Harley Poe

77: How can you win my heart?

be a dog

78: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

ceci n’est pas un corps

79: What is my favorite word?

sussuration or cathedral

80: My top 5 blogs on tumblr

this is the internet equivalent of the judgment of paris

81: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

eat the rich

82: Do I have any relatives in jail?

not currently

83: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

shapeshifting bitch

84: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

i’ll say anything on the internet i don’t give a shit

85: What is my current desktop picture?

86: Had sex?

87: Bought condoms?

88: Gotten pregnant?

89: Failed a class?

yeah, fuck ochem

90: Kissed a boy?

91: Kissed a girl?

92: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?

93: Had job?

i’ve got one right now

94: Left the house without my wallet?

yeah lol

95: Bullied someone on the internet?

96: Had sex in public?

97: Played on a sports team?

i ran track for a couple years as a kid

98: Smoked weed?

yup

99: Did drugs?

100: Smoked cigarettes?

ew no

101: Drank alcohol?

yuppers

102: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

103: Been overweight?

104: Been underweight?

yes

105: Been to a wedding?

yes

106: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

only 5?

107: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?

only 5??

108: Been outside my home country?

yes

109: Gotten my heart broken?

yes but not romantically

110: Been to a professional sports game?

many

111: Broken a bone?

nope

112: Cut myself?

not on purpose

113: Been to prom?

yeah and it sucked and i wish i hadn’t gone

114: Been in airplane?

yes

115: Fly by helicopter?

no but I want to

116: What concerts have I been to?

a multitude

117: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?

yeah lol

118: Learned another language?

can I give this one a half a yes?

119: Wore make up?

yup

120: Lost my virginity before I was 18?

121: Had oral sex?

122: Dyed my hair?

yes

123: Voted in a presidential election?

yes

124: Rode in an ambulance?

125: Had a surgery?

do wisdom teeth count?

126: Met someone famous?

yup, holla atcha doug jones

127: Stalked someone on a social network?

no, i don’t care that much

128: Peed outside?

who hasn’t?

129: Been fishing?

130: Helped with charity?

i’ve donated some money

131: Been rejected by a crush?

yeah but a) I never actually asked him out, b) we were 12, and c) turns out he’s gay so like i’m not made about it

132: Broken a mirror?

133: What do I want for birthday?

a new laptop

134: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?

why would i want kids

135: Was I named after anyone?

my great uncle and great grandmother

136: Do I like my handwriting?

i have no opinion on it

137: What was my favourite toy as a child?

legos or something similar you can build with

138: Favourite Tv Show?

UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

139: Where do I want to live when older?

somewhere near the ocean

140: Play any musical instrument?

i wish

141: One of my scars, how did I get it?

i only have acne scars and those are pretty self-explanatory

142: Favourite pizza toping?

sausage, bell pepper, and onion

143: Am I afraid of the dark?

144: Am I afraid of heights?

sometimes

145: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?

no, i’m a good girl

146: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end

yeah, FUCK OCHEM

147: What I’m really bad at

being a functioning human adult person

148: What my greatest achievments are

not killing myself in college

149: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me

idk man i get upset by everything even when it’s not mean

150: What I’d do if I won in a lottery

pay off my friends’ and family’s debts, set aside a big chunk of money for grad school, maybe get my own place depending on how much is left

151: What do I like about myself

i have nice hair

152: My closest Tumblr friend

idk

153: Something I fantasise about

what don’t i fantasize about

154: Any thoughts on the paranormal?

hey demons come and get y’all juice

#asks

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theycalledmecrazy · 4 years

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It's strange to say, but I'm one of the last people to shop in the wee hours of the morning at a Walmart. I finished my shopping and approached the cash register right around midnight. The cashier had just clocked in and had just been told that was her last night working the late shift as a cashier. Starting tomorrow, all the Walmarts across the nation will close at 11 PM. Third shifters like my cashier will be in charge of cleaning and sanitizing a store and assisting in restocking for the next day.

It's a strange thing to think about. Our lives are so convenience based. Anytime day or night, if you need something, there was probably a store within a reasonable driving distance that you could go to and find what you need, barring any specialty necessities.

I wonder to myself if this move won't be slightly counterproductive to containing the virus. As it stands now, shoppers are spread out in the major big box stores over a 24-hour period. Now, with many stores taking 8 or so hours off in the middle of the night, shoppers will only be able to access the store within a 16 to 17 hour timeframe, naturally leading to a higher concentration of people during those times.

It's been a week of interesting firsts. Just the other day, Mike Dewine, governor of Ohio made the announcement that Ohio schools would be closed for 3 weeks. For the first time in history, every Disney park on Earth is closed at the same time. And for the first time in my knowledge, my job has authorized people who don't normally work from home to do so.

I digress from my point. First, I suppose some backstory will be due. This is being written on the Ides of March in the year 2020. I am in Columbus, Ohio, United States. I am 37 years old. The country, state, and city have all declared states of emergency in the wake of the spread of the Covid-19 virus pandemic. As I dictate this to my phone, I'm driving home from Sidney Ohio, having just completed a route delivering medicine to nursing homes. I work two jobs.

I began researching this disease and the spread of it well before it hit American shores. I've been watching the John Hopkins 'heat map' since the second week of January, a time when the only mention of coronavirus you heard was your coworker telling a joke involving it going best with lyme disease. I've learned about its capability of spread in an urban populace, and I watched the drone footage of the "ghost city" of Wuhan several weeks ago, long before it went viral (ha!) via Facebook. A booming urban metropolis reduced to how London looked in 28 Days Later. I learned about the term 'Community Spread' before it was ever uttered on American live feeds. My productivity at work, my attention to friends, my normal functioning bottomed out as I became hyperfocused on the menace that I begged the universe in vain to keep overseas. I should have known, and should have been preparing. But, as humans are prone to be, I was a product of my environment. That culture of convenience and procrastination. But now there's no more convenience and no more procrastination.

I now know that things are going to get worse. These kind of rushes on product like we've been seeing is just the beginning. We are going to face days of true scarcity. I fear that even with my recent stockpiling, that my "preparedness" has come too late. I remember my father teaching me how to stockpile and prep for days when there would be scarcity, and I've failed to do so effectively. Over the last week or so, I've done my best with the small amount of resources I have. As things stand now, my shelves are stocked. I know how to ration in emergency situations, and although it will suck, I know that I can ration much smaller amounts because I have a lot of fat on my body that my body will live off of for extended periods of time. I always joked that being overweight was just a surplus Y2K survival kit. Turns out, that's truer than I'd like it to be. I thought keto was my path to losing weight. Turns out the coming days will be much more effective.

The scenarios that we had always gone over in are prepping drills involved an attack on the United States or some uprising within. All that boogaloo horseshit you hear, or heard. Ways to make sure that your food was secure from people that might be looking for it. Making sure that you had weapons to defend yourself and those in your care. Safeguards against basic things like frostbite or heat exhaustion. Basic first aid. Foraging. Boy Scout shit. The drills never included anything like Covid-19. At first we were told that the illness was little worse than a common cold, just a little easier to spread the people. Now, we are getting reports that it creates a fibrosis in the lungs, and even if you recover from your bout of the illness, you can be left with up to 20% reduced lung capacity. People in Hong Kong are now reporting that healthy adults that have recovered from the disease now get winded by a brisk walk. In Japan, a recovered patient has tested positive for the disease again, making the medical community wonder about the antibodies that the bodies of recovered SHOULD be producing. Dad and I never prepared for anything like that. I think the best hope in the situation that we prepared for would be that any human we come in contact with will have also been similarly reduced in capacity, since this disease looks to be one that will spread to a majority of the populace. I'm glad that part of preparedness is adaptability, but I'm still sitting here rambling.

I've tried to focus on purpose in the last several days. I keep telling myself that it's important to stay positive and to still do the things that I love doing. Indeed, I still play cards with my roommate and my gaming group of friends, all aware that we may wind up having to quarantine once 'things get bad'. I watch people that I love still doing the things that they love, seemingly unaware of the world that's collapsing around us. What I like to go see a movie? Would I like to go to the mall? Would I like to go see a show in a theater? Absolutely. But while many do not notice, we don't live in that world anymore. Well, some still do. They'll live in that world until the very last moment they can - which is why I had to live in this new one so soon. Even now, when it's becoming apparent that the world as we knew it is over, social media is alight with blissful ignorance and vapid resistance to the world we find ourselves in.

When the first cases were reported in the state, it was on a day I found myself financially unstable. I couldn't have prepared for anything that day if I'd wanted to - I had victoriously paid off two large pieces of debt and was done with an 'only has money' week until next payday, and even the next paycheck had obligations. Instead of writing a plan, I wrote letters to my loved ones with advice for the upcoming hard times, and an apology for leaving them(before you all sound the alarm, that's not what this is, and that feeling has long since passed). Reading the letters to myself, I realized the cowardice behind the words, and despised myself for a few days after deleting them. Though, admittedly, even now as I watch the heat map and watch the numbers rolling in, I somewhat long for cowardice, but steel myself and square my shoulders for the task ahead.

Now this.

Some friends have asked me to promise to get their loved ones to them if I'm closer to them than they are, or even to keep them with me and keep them safe. For all my misanthropy, I guess people still see me as some kind of fringe guardian in many respects. I suppose it's because they know I'd die before letting someone I care about die. I wonder if it makes me exploitable, or if maybe that's just my purpose. It makes a lot of things make a lot of sense. Sometimes in the horror movie of life, you're the one that distracts the monster so the others can get away. I have no illusions of being the hero, but I won't turn down the opportunity if it happens. Ugh, this paragraph was self serving as hell, but I'm not deleting anything at this point. Watch me ramble. Maybe there's something valuable in it.

That time is a bit off, but I know that I'm going to see loved ones die in this, and I know that my friends in my time that read this will think I'm being overdramatic(I'm sure some of them haven't even made it this far and have either called me or forwarded this to authorities - both unnecessary, I assure you). I know that I may not survive what's coming. So I think the best thing I can do is do what I've always done. Write. I will write and hope that my words will create a culture among those that read my words in a distant future. My goal is to make you, the reader, not make the same mistakes we made, the mistakes I made, the mistakes anyone made. I won't have an editor, most likely, so forgive my rambled mess of a memoir. Maybe someone in the future will edit and make sense of it all.

I hope that this is all just me ranting and raving about something absurd and in the future this will embarrass me and we'll all laugh about it. If you're in the future and reading this, however, that means that scenario isn't what happened. I hope things are better for you. I hope that I'm talked about with good words. I hope some of my loved ones are the ones who saved these words and shared them with the world. It would be really great if it was me, but I'd probably edit out this whole paragraph, so probably not. That's ok. Either way, it's now 2:30am and I must unload groceries and get them shelved. Tomorrow is another day, and I'm going to play some video games while I can like the old millennial I am to escape for a couple hours before my nerves finally let me sleep. See? Rambling run-on sentences. You'd never guess I was an English major. Ms. Somers would be so disappointed (lol). I told my friends in February that we'd be ordered to stay at home soon. They called me crazy.

I didn't realize until just this moment that if anyone ever reads this aside from those I send it to in order to preserve it, I'll essentially have been writing my own eulogy. That's fine. I'll take that.

I decided to create this Tumblr on March 30, 2020. In the two weeks since writing this prologue, things have progressively gotten worse. I will write more tomorrow.

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5000 Questions Part 1

I found this cool 5000 question survey. I’ll be posting 100 answers every few days or so, whenever I feel like it, until I get through all of them. Don’t worry, they’ll be hidden behind a “keep reading”. You should also participate! The questions are over at https://5000questionsur.livejournal.com.

1. Who are you? Alice 2. What are the 3 most important things everyone should know about you? My real identity will never be revealed on this blog, most of these posts are word vomit, meditation significantly improved my well-being.

3. When you aren't filling out 5,000 question surveys like this one what are you doing? Probably watching Netflix or wishing I was asleep.

4. List your classes in school from the ones you like the most to the ones you like the least (or if you are out of school, think of the classes you did like and didn't like at the time). I really liked my cognitive psychology class and some of my other psychology classes. Math and history were always my least favorite.

5. What is your biggest goal for this year? Feel more confident about dating and my future. 6. Where do you want to be in 5 years? Working at a theatre company full time. Have a cat (or two). 7. What stage of life are you in right now? Post-grad 8. Are you more child-like or childish? Lmao what? Child-like I guess. 9. What is the last thing you said out loud? It wasn’t words, it was like a “ughhhhhhrhrrrrrrr” from stress. 10. What song comes closest to how you feel about your life right now? I don’t have one. I honestly don’t pay super close attention to lyrics in songs. 11. Have you ever taken martial arts classes? Yeah once when I was little. 12. Does your life tend to get better or worse or does it just stay the same? That’s a hard question to answer. This past year, it’s stayed mostly the same. 13. Does time really heal all wounds? Maybe not heal, but scab over. 14. How do you handle a rainy day? Put on my anorak and grab an umbrella. 15. Which is worse...losing your luggage or having to sort out tangled holiday lights? Losing your luggage. Are these two even comparable? 16. How is your relationship with your parents? Eh it could be better. Will you miss them when they are gone? Yes and I don’t appreciate them enough now. 17. Do you tend to be aware of what is going on around you? Sometimes. It really depends on what I’m doing. At work I’m pretty good of being aware of things, but tbh I zone out a lot when I’m driving. 18. What is the truest thing that you know? My boobs are two different sizes. 19. What did you want to be when you grew up? An actress. 20. Have you ever been given a second chance? No but I haven’t really needed or wanted one. 21. Are you more of a giver or a taker? Hate to say it, but taker. 22. Do you make your decisions with an open heart/mind? Lmao no I usually make decisions on impusle. 23. What is the most physically painful thing that has ever happened to you? When I was like, 11, we were on my aunt’s and uncle’s farm and we were feeding the goats and one of them RAMMED INTO MY KNEE. It even made a hole through my pants. 24. What is the most emotionally painful thing that has ever happened to you? This is a really long story. I might actually make a post about it sometime if people were interested. But TL;DR I told my best guy friend I liked him, he took advantage of me, and then stopped talking to me. 25. Who have you hugged today? Myself and my blanket. 26. Who has done something today to show they care about you? The guy I’m going on a date with tonight texted me this morning saying he was excited to meet me :) 27. Do you have a lot to learn? Fuck yes. 28. If you could learn how to do three things just by wishing and not by working what would they be? A Act B Sing C Dance 29. Which do you remember the longest: what other people say, what other people do or how other people make you feel? What they say and how they make me feel 30. What are the key ingredients to having a good relationship? Trust and support? Lmao idk not like I’ve ever had a relationship. 31. What 3 things do you want to do before you die? A Become friends with a tiger. B See the northern lights. C Adopt a cat. 32. What three things would you want to die to avoid doing? A Anal B Having a boring dead-end job C Having to kill someone 33. Is there a cause you believe in more than any other cause? Evolution over creationism. 34. What does each decade make you think of: The 19.. 20's: Flappers 30's: Flappers??? 40's: Victory rolls 50's: More victory rolls 60's: Hey mama welcome to the 60′s 70's: HAIR HAIR HAIR HAIR HAIR HAIRR HAIRRR HAIRRR flow it show it long as I can grow it my HAIR 80's: women’s business suits with insane shoulder pads 90's: grunge 2000 (so far): Brittney Spears 2010's: depression 35. Which decade do you feel the most special connection to and why? Probably the 2010′s because it’s the one I have the clearest memories of.

36. What is your favorite oldie/classic rock song? Time in a Bottle by Jim Croce.

37. What country do you live in and who is the leader of that country? USA, D****d T***p If you could say any sentence to the current leader of your country what would it be? You have tiny hands. 38. What's your favorite TV channel to watch in the middle of the night? Adult Swim 39. What Disney villain are you the most like and why? God I don’t know, I don’t pay attention to these things. 40. Have you ever been a girl scout/boy scout? Nope. 41. If you were traveling to another continent would you rather fly or take a boat? Boat! 42. Why is the sky blue during the day and black at night? Something about light particles and water, right? 43. What does your name mean? Whatever I want it to. 44. Would you rather explore the deeps of the ocean or outer space? The ocean! So much cool shit down there. 45. Word association What is the first word that comes to mind when you see the word: Air: Bender Meat: Sandwich Different: Good Pink: My blog Deserve: More White: Wine Elvis: Presley Magic: My friend Heart: Love sucks Clash: of Clans Pulp: Fiction 46. If you could meet any person in the world who is dead who would you want it to be? Mr. Rogers 47. What if you could meet anyone who is alive? Obama 48. Is there a movie that you love so much you could watch it everyday? What We Do In The Shadows!!! 49. You are going to be stuck alone in an elevator for a week. What do you bring to do? Computer with internet connection 50. Have you ever saved someone's life or had your life saved? Nope

51. Make up a definition for the following silly words... Fruitgoogle: When you put your eye really close to fruit to try to get a closer look Ambytime: A special unit of time that ambidextrous people use Asscactus: A specialty buttplug with thick spikes 52. What was the last thing you made with your own hands? A sandwich 53. What was your favorite toy as a child? Bunny blanky 54. How many TV’s are in your house? 2 55. What is your favorite thing to do outside? Watch the clouds go by 56. How do you feel when you see a rainbow? Like I want to find the end of it. 57. Have you ever dreamt a dream that came true? Maybe??? 58. Have you ever been to a psychic/tarot reader? No 59. What is your idea of paradise? Wherever I’m happiest 60. Do you believe in god and if so what is he/she/it like? Not one bit. 61. Do you believe in Hell? No. 62. What one thing have you done that most people haven't? Lived in another country for a few months. 63. What is the kindest thing you have ever done? Idk but the other day I gave a homeless person the trail mix I had in my bag 64. Are you a patient person? Lol FUCK no. 65. What holiday should exist but doesn't? National Voting Day. Everyone should be excused from work and school so they can vote. 66. What holiday shouldn't exist but does? Columbus Day. It’s not even historically accurate. 67. What's the best joke you ever heard? http://longestjokeintheworld.com/ 68. Where is the most fun place you have EVER been? The Pink Palace in Corfu, Greece 69. Is your hair natural or dyed? Natural

70. Do you have any deep dark secrets or are you pretty much up front? I have one that I will never tell anybody and I don’t even like thinking about it. 71. What is under your bed right now? A thong. 72. If you were in the Land of Oz would you want to live there or go home? Probably go home. 73. If you drive do you frequently speed? Yeah but I just do it to go with the flow of traffic... and a little faster than that. 74. What is the world's best song to dance to? The Way We Touch by WE ARE TWIN 75. What song was on the last time you danced with someone? Absolutely no idea. 76. Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers? Either one is fine. 77. What is the first animal you would run to see if you went to the zoo? TIGER!!!! 78. Would you consider yourself to be romantic? Not particularly. 79. If the earth stopped rotating would we all fly off? No??? Lmao what kind of question is this? We have gravity. 80. What is the one thing that you love to do so much that you would make sacrifices to be able to do it? Well, acting. But I’m already doing that. Although I guess “having a miserable life” isn’t really a sacrifice compared to secure finances, in my opinion. 81. If you (and everyone) had to lose one right or freedom, but you could pick which one everyone had to lose, what would you pick? I have no idea so I’m just going to say guns. 82. If you had to choose would you live on the equator or at the North Pole? Equator! So much cool wildlife there. 83. Would you rather give up listening to music or watching television? Omgggg I’m gonna go with listening to music. Watching Netflix and tv accounts for way too much of my time. 84. What do you think makes someone a hero? Being selfless in the face of hardship. 85. What cartoon would you like to be a character in? Avatar the Last Airbender/Legend of Korra 86. Name one thing that turns your stomach: Bodily fluids 87. What was the last thing you paid for? Taco Bell 88. Are you a coupon clipper? No 89. Get anything good in the mail recently? No but my Grandma is mailing me something this week and I have no idea what it is. 90. Which would you rather take as a gym class...dancing, sailing, karate, or bowling? Dancing or sailing 91. In Star Trek people 'beam' back and forth between different places. What this means is they stand in a little tube and their molecules are deconstructed and sent to another tube somewhere else where they are reassembled. Only problem is when the molecules are deconstructed the person is dead. When they are put back together it is only a clone that has all the dead person's memories. So... Is the person who gets beamed the same person on both ends? WHAT 92. What insects are you afraid of? All of them 93. If you could print any phrase on a T-shirt, what would it say? leave me alone 94. What's the most eccentric thing you have ever worn? For one part I had, I had to wear a really short tight leather skirt and thigh high stockings. 95. If you could pick one food that you could eat all you wanted but it would have no effect on how much you weigh, what food would it be? CHOCOLAAAAATE 96. What are your parents interested in? Retiring 97. Have you ever caught an insect and kept it as a pet? No but I did that with snails when I was little. Have you ever caught and tamed a wild animal? Caught a feral kitten and brought her to the humane society but I didn’t tame her myself. 98. What is more helpful to you, wishes or plans? Plans. 99. When do you feel your life energy the strongest? Night time. 100. You are spending the night alone in the woods and may bring only 3 items with you. What do you bring? A knife, a fire starting kit, and plenty of clean water.

#5000 question survey #survey #answers #5000 questions

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